1 00:00:07,841 --> 00:00:10,244 ( distant cars honking ) 2 00:00:41,675 --> 00:00:43,944 SHE CAME, 3 00:00:44,044 --> 00:00:45,779 JUST LIKE YOU WANTED. 4 00:00:49,550 --> 00:00:51,619 MRS. D'AMATO. 5 00:00:51,719 --> 00:00:54,655 HELLO, DR. WESTON. 6 00:00:59,993 --> 00:01:02,763 JESSE, WHY DON'T YOU COME IN FIRST? 7 00:01:02,863 --> 00:01:04,498 - WHY? - SO THAT WE CAN TALK 8 00:01:04,598 --> 00:01:07,668 ABOUT HOW TO PROCEED WITH THE SESSION. 9 00:01:08,702 --> 00:01:10,971 IT'S COOL, PAUL. 10 00:01:11,071 --> 00:01:13,073 I KNOW YOU WANTED HER TO COME. 11 00:01:16,043 --> 00:01:17,645 I'M FINE WITH THAT. 12 00:01:20,047 --> 00:01:22,082 PLEASE. 13 00:01:31,058 --> 00:01:35,563 ( theme music playing ) 14 00:02:03,324 --> 00:02:06,260 SO, JESSE, WHAT-- WHAT HAPPENED WITH THE--? 15 00:02:07,828 --> 00:02:10,264 HE GOT BEAT UP AT SCHOOL. 16 00:02:12,833 --> 00:02:14,235 JESSE? 17 00:02:14,335 --> 00:02:17,305 SOMEBODY BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF ME. 18 00:02:17,405 --> 00:02:20,274 SO WOULD YOU LIKE TO TELL ME ABOUT IT? 19 00:02:20,374 --> 00:02:22,543 NOT PARTICULARLY. 20 00:02:22,643 --> 00:02:24,412 HE WAS JUMPED 21 00:02:24,512 --> 00:02:26,414 IN THE MEN'S BATHROOM OF THE WHITNEY MUSEUM 22 00:02:26,514 --> 00:02:28,349 WHILE THEY WERE ON A CLASS TRIP 23 00:02:28,449 --> 00:02:30,651 BY SOME RICH KID WHO DOESN'T EVEN GO TO THEIR SCHOOL. 24 00:02:30,751 --> 00:02:32,620 MARISA. 25 00:02:35,956 --> 00:02:38,592 PAUL HAS SOMETHING TO TELL YOU. 26 00:02:47,568 --> 00:02:50,538 THE SCHOOL SUSPENDED JESSE 27 00:02:50,638 --> 00:02:52,540 FOR DEFENDING HIMSELF FROM ATTACK. 28 00:02:52,640 --> 00:02:54,842 IS THAT NOT JUST THE MOST ABSURD THING YOU'VE EVER HEARD, DOCTOR? 29 00:02:54,942 --> 00:02:57,144 - IT WASN'T EXACTLY AN ATTACK. - DON'T MUMBLE, JESSE. 30 00:02:57,245 --> 00:02:59,146 I SAID IT WASN'T EXACTLY AN ATTACK. 31 00:02:59,247 --> 00:03:01,181 I'M SORRY, BUT WHEN A STRANGER 32 00:03:01,282 --> 00:03:02,783 STARTS HITTING YOU IN A PUBLIC BATHROOM 33 00:03:02,883 --> 00:03:04,885 FOR ABSOLUTELY NO REASON, THAT IS AN ATTACK. 34 00:03:04,985 --> 00:03:07,621 - THAT CERTAINLY QUALIFIES AS AN ATTACK. - I KNEW HIM. 35 00:03:07,721 --> 00:03:09,790 FOR GOODNESS SAKE, WE CAN'T HEAR A WORD YOU'RE SAYING. 36 00:03:09,890 --> 00:03:11,959 I SAID I KNEW HIM. 37 00:03:12,059 --> 00:03:14,262 HE WASN'T A STRANGER, OKAY? 38 00:03:14,362 --> 00:03:16,497 ARE YOU GETTING THIS, HELEN KELLER? 39 00:03:18,299 --> 00:03:20,501 YOU KNEW HIM? 40 00:03:23,136 --> 00:03:25,506 YOU DIDN'T TELL ME THAT. 41 00:03:28,842 --> 00:03:30,811 WELL, WHO IS HE? 42 00:03:30,911 --> 00:03:33,647 NOBODY YOU KNOW. 43 00:03:35,883 --> 00:03:37,585 WAS IT NATE? 44 00:03:43,324 --> 00:03:45,793 MY ART CLASS TOOK A TRIP TO THE WHITNEY. 45 00:03:45,893 --> 00:03:49,263 AND NATE LIVES, LIKE, RIGHT ACROSS THE STREET, 46 00:03:49,363 --> 00:03:50,964 RIGHT ON 75th. 47 00:03:51,064 --> 00:03:52,966 SO I JUST THOUGHT I'D CALL HIM 48 00:03:53,066 --> 00:03:55,202 AND LEAVE HIM A MESSAGE, YOU KNOW, BECAUSE HE'S BEEN 49 00:03:55,303 --> 00:03:58,005 LEAVING ME SO MANY LATELY AND, I DON'T KNOW... 50 00:03:58,105 --> 00:04:00,474 HE PICKED UP. 51 00:04:00,574 --> 00:04:02,510 THE FUCKER DIDN'T HAVE SCHOOL THAT DAY. 52 00:04:02,610 --> 00:04:04,412 AND HE WAS LIKE, "WHERE ARE YOU?" 53 00:04:04,512 --> 00:04:06,547 AND I WAS LIKE, "AT THE WHITNEY." 54 00:04:06,647 --> 00:04:09,517 AND HE WAS LIKE, "MEET ME IN THE MEN'S ROOM ON THE THIRD FLOOR." 55 00:04:09,617 --> 00:04:11,419 AND I WAS LIKE, "FINE," BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT 56 00:04:11,519 --> 00:04:13,354 TO GO BACK TO CLASS AND SPEND THE MORNING 57 00:04:13,454 --> 00:04:17,691 STARING AT THOSE GEORGIA O'KEEFE FLOWER VAGINAS. 58 00:04:17,791 --> 00:04:20,294 THOSE THINGS GIVE ME THE CREEPS. 59 00:04:21,929 --> 00:04:25,566 SHE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW WHO GEORGIA O'KEEFE IS. 60 00:04:25,666 --> 00:04:28,702 SO ANYWAY, WE, LIKE, GO INTO ONE OF THE STALLS 61 00:04:28,802 --> 00:04:30,938 AND WE'RE KISSING. 62 00:04:31,038 --> 00:04:34,241 AND HE'S LIKE, "YOU LOOK HOT." 63 00:04:34,342 --> 00:04:36,777 AND I'M LIKE, "THEN SUCK MY DICK." 64 00:04:36,877 --> 00:04:40,314 WHAT? 65 00:04:40,414 --> 00:04:43,183 SO HE GETS DOWN ON HIS KNEES, 66 00:04:43,283 --> 00:04:45,252 WHICH, I HAVE TO ADMIT, WAS LIKE 67 00:04:45,353 --> 00:04:47,154 THE HOTTEST THING THAT'S EVER HAPPENED TO ME. 68 00:04:47,254 --> 00:04:49,590 AND I'M, LIKE, ROCK HARD. 69 00:04:49,690 --> 00:04:51,692 AND ALL OF A SUDDEN HE STARTS TALKING-- 70 00:04:51,792 --> 00:04:53,727 "I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT YOU. 71 00:04:53,827 --> 00:04:56,129 I'VE MISSED YOU. I'VE BEEN TRYING TO CALL YOUR HOUSE." 72 00:04:56,229 --> 00:04:58,766 AND I'M, LIKE, NOT ABOUT TO HAVE THIS CONVERSATION. 73 00:04:58,866 --> 00:05:02,069 SO I'M JUST LIKE, "YEAH WELL, I DIDN'T GET THOSE MESSAGES 74 00:05:02,169 --> 00:05:05,506 BECAUSE WE'RE LIVING IN A SHELTER FOR THE TIME BEING." 75 00:05:05,606 --> 00:05:08,241 AND HE LOOKS AT ME LIKE HE DOESN'T BELIEVE ME. 76 00:05:08,342 --> 00:05:10,310 AND I'M LIKE, "WHAT?" AND HE'S LIKE, "NOTHING." 77 00:05:10,411 --> 00:05:12,179 AND THEN HE TRIES TO SUCK MY DICK BUT HE CAN'T, 78 00:05:12,279 --> 00:05:15,115 BECAUSE I'VE LOST MY FUCKING BONER. 79 00:05:15,215 --> 00:05:17,651 SO I, LIKE, START TO PULL UP MY PANTS 80 00:05:17,751 --> 00:05:19,620 AND HE'S LIKE, "WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED?" 81 00:05:19,720 --> 00:05:22,289 AND I'M LIKE, "YOU CAN'T SUCK DICK FOR SHIT." 82 00:05:22,390 --> 00:05:24,725 AND THAT'S WHEN HE HIT ME. 83 00:05:24,825 --> 00:05:27,060 HE, LIKE, 84 00:05:27,160 --> 00:05:29,430 JUST KEPT HITTING ME AND HITTING ME 85 00:05:29,530 --> 00:05:34,034 UNTIL THE GUARDS CAME IN AND TOOK HIM OFF ME. 86 00:05:34,134 --> 00:05:36,570 IT FELT KIND OF GOOD ACTUALLY. 87 00:05:36,670 --> 00:05:39,973 - YOU'LL ONLY MAKE-- - DON'T TOUCH ME. 88 00:05:49,082 --> 00:05:51,485 IF I MAY, DOCTOR... 89 00:05:51,585 --> 00:05:53,587 I'M WORRIED THE SCHOOL OVERREACTED 90 00:05:53,687 --> 00:05:58,025 BECAUSE JESSE IS, WELL... 91 00:05:59,059 --> 00:06:01,261 - GAY? - YES. 92 00:06:01,361 --> 00:06:03,130 WHY CAN'T YOU SAY THE WORD? 93 00:06:03,230 --> 00:06:04,665 I JUST WONDER, IF HE WAS STRAIGHT 94 00:06:04,765 --> 00:06:06,600 AND GOT CAUGHT FIGHTING WITH ANOTHER BOY-- 95 00:06:06,700 --> 00:06:08,436 DO YOU SEE WHAT I'M GETTING AT? 96 00:06:08,536 --> 00:06:10,671 YES, I DO. I THINK IT'S A VALID POINT. 97 00:06:10,771 --> 00:06:12,673 NO, IT'S NOT. IT'S A RIDICULOUS POINT. 98 00:06:12,773 --> 00:06:14,742 I WAS FIGHTING. FIGHTING IS ILLEGAL. 99 00:06:14,842 --> 00:06:16,710 YOU GET SUSPENDED FOR FIGHTING. 100 00:06:16,810 --> 00:06:19,246 BUT YOU WEREN'T FIGHTING SO MUCH, DARLING, AS BEING ABUSED 101 00:06:19,346 --> 00:06:21,682 - BY THIS OLDER, BIGGER-- - DID YOU LISTEN TO A WORD I JUST SAID? 102 00:06:21,782 --> 00:06:23,617 - I DON'T CARE-- - I SAID I TOLD HIM TO SUCK MY DICK. 103 00:06:23,717 --> 00:06:26,253 I DON'T CARE IF YOU TOLD HIM TO GO PADDLE A DUCK. 104 00:06:26,353 --> 00:06:27,721 WORDS ARE ONE THING. 105 00:06:27,821 --> 00:06:30,090 PHYSICAL VIOLENCE IS SOMETHING VERY DIFFERENT. 106 00:06:30,190 --> 00:06:31,725 - PADDLE A DUCK? - COME ON, JESSE. 107 00:06:31,825 --> 00:06:33,326 NO, THAT'S GOOD. I'LL HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT ONE. 108 00:06:33,427 --> 00:06:35,295 GOD, YOU ARE SICK, MARISA. 109 00:06:35,395 --> 00:06:37,965 I'M SICK? YOU'RE THE ONE WHO... 110 00:06:41,101 --> 00:06:42,636 LIKES COCK? 111 00:06:42,736 --> 00:06:45,506 IT'S NOT A FUCKING DISEASE, MARISA, 112 00:06:45,606 --> 00:06:47,441 NO MATTER WHAT THEY TEACH YOU IN BIBLE STUDY. 113 00:06:47,541 --> 00:06:48,976 THAT IS NOT WHAT I WAS GOING TO SAY. 114 00:06:49,076 --> 00:06:51,745 - OH, WHAT WERE YOU GOING TO SAY THEN? - I-- 115 00:06:51,845 --> 00:06:53,614 YOU-- 116 00:06:53,714 --> 00:06:55,583 - NEVER MIND. - SAY IT. 117 00:06:55,683 --> 00:06:57,217 I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WAS GOING TO SAY. 118 00:06:57,317 --> 00:06:58,886 YOU ARE SUCH A FUCKING LIAR! 119 00:06:58,986 --> 00:07:00,988 - JESSE. - WHAT? 120 00:07:01,088 --> 00:07:03,023 IF YOU HAVE TO TALK TO YOUR MOTHER LIKE THAT, 121 00:07:03,123 --> 00:07:05,926 YOU DO IT OUTSIDE MY OFFICE. 122 00:07:15,803 --> 00:07:17,705 THANK YOU. 123 00:07:17,805 --> 00:07:20,474 WE'LL DISCUSS WHAT HAPPENED WITH NATE IN A MINUTE, 124 00:07:20,574 --> 00:07:22,175 BUT CAN I ASK YOU, MRS. D'AMATO, 125 00:07:22,275 --> 00:07:24,377 WHY YOU CAME HERE WITH JESSE TODAY? 126 00:07:24,478 --> 00:07:26,514 HE SAID YOU ASKED ME TO. 127 00:07:29,750 --> 00:07:31,819 WELL, AS LONG AS YOU'RE HERE, 128 00:07:31,919 --> 00:07:36,023 IS THERE ANYTHING THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SAY TO YOUR SON? 129 00:07:36,123 --> 00:07:37,424 WHAT DO YOU MEAN? 130 00:07:37,525 --> 00:07:40,360 WELL, THIS ROOM IS A SAFE PLACE, 131 00:07:40,460 --> 00:07:42,530 SO IF THERE WAS ANY CONVERSATION 132 00:07:42,630 --> 00:07:45,432 THAT YOU WANTED TO HAVE THAT MIGHT BE DIFFICULT-- 133 00:07:45,533 --> 00:07:47,400 WAIT, ISN'T THERE SOMETHING 134 00:07:47,501 --> 00:07:49,670 THAT YOU WANT TO TELL ME? 135 00:07:53,941 --> 00:07:55,142 JESSE? 136 00:08:03,316 --> 00:08:05,719 HOW LONG IS THE SUSPENSION? 137 00:08:05,819 --> 00:08:08,522 - OH. - IT'S JUST A WEEK. 138 00:08:08,622 --> 00:08:11,091 - SO YOU'LL BE AT HOME FOR A WEEK? - YEAH. 139 00:08:11,191 --> 00:08:13,794 HMM. 140 00:08:13,894 --> 00:08:15,328 WHY? 141 00:08:15,428 --> 00:08:17,565 'CAUSE IT MIGHT BE AN OPPORTUNITY 142 00:08:17,665 --> 00:08:20,500 TO DISCUSS CERTAIN THINGS WITH YOUR PARENTS. 143 00:08:20,601 --> 00:08:23,604 WHAT ARE WE GONNA TELL YOUR FATHER? 144 00:08:23,704 --> 00:08:26,073 - YOU HAVEN'T TOLD HIM? - NO, NOT YET. 145 00:08:26,173 --> 00:08:28,375 WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU--? 146 00:08:28,475 --> 00:08:31,078 I MEAN, WHY THE HELL--? 147 00:08:34,181 --> 00:08:35,448 WHY NOT? 148 00:08:35,549 --> 00:08:38,218 HE'S BEEN GONE, JESSE. 149 00:08:38,318 --> 00:08:41,354 - WHERE IS HE? - HE'S ON SOME JOB IN TRENTON. 150 00:08:41,454 --> 00:08:43,023 - AND WHEN WILL HE BE BACK? - TOMORROW. 151 00:08:43,123 --> 00:08:44,658 MAYBE YOU SHOULD CALL HIM TONIGHT. 152 00:08:44,758 --> 00:08:46,660 - YEAH, NOT A FUCKING CHANCE. - WHY NOT? 153 00:08:46,760 --> 00:08:48,762 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT HIM TO RIP OUT MY BALLSACK. 154 00:08:48,862 --> 00:08:50,530 JESSE! 155 00:08:50,631 --> 00:08:52,532 IS THAT WHAT YOU'RE TELLING HIM? 156 00:08:52,633 --> 00:08:53,967 IS THAT WHAT HE'S TELLING YOU? 157 00:08:54,067 --> 00:08:56,336 JESUS, MARISA, TAKE A FUCKING JOKE. 158 00:08:56,436 --> 00:08:59,573 ROBERTO WILL BE UPSET, OF COURSE, 159 00:08:59,673 --> 00:09:03,510 BUT HE'S NOT VIOLENT. 160 00:09:03,611 --> 00:09:06,346 HE'S JUST WORRIED 161 00:09:06,446 --> 00:09:09,349 ABOUT JESSE GETTING INTO COLLEGE. 162 00:09:09,449 --> 00:09:11,885 WE BOTH ARE. 163 00:09:11,985 --> 00:09:14,554 AND NOW THAT HE'S SUSPENDED... 164 00:09:15,723 --> 00:09:17,925 I THOUGHT THIS MIGHT BE THE ONE PLACE 165 00:09:18,025 --> 00:09:20,994 HE WOULDN'T FEEL LIKE HE HAD TO LIE. 166 00:09:21,094 --> 00:09:23,096 THEY SAID MAYBE IF HE CAME HERE, 167 00:09:23,196 --> 00:09:24,965 IF HE TALKED TO A PROFESSIONAL PERSON-- 168 00:09:25,065 --> 00:09:26,734 WELL, DON'T SWEAT IT, OKAY? 169 00:09:26,834 --> 00:09:28,736 I'LL BE OUT OF YOUR HAIR LONG BEFORE ALL THAT. 170 00:09:28,836 --> 00:09:30,771 - OH REALLY? - YEAH, REALLY. 171 00:09:30,871 --> 00:09:32,840 - WHERE IS YOUR ROYAL HIGHNESS GOING? - TO WESTCHESTER. 172 00:09:32,940 --> 00:09:34,474 WESTCHESTER? WHY NOT PARIS? 173 00:09:34,574 --> 00:09:37,044 BECAUSE KAREN DOESN'T LIVE IN PARIS. SHE LIVES IN WESTCHESTER. 174 00:09:37,144 --> 00:09:39,647 - WHO IS KAREN? - MY BIRTH MOTHER. 175 00:09:41,682 --> 00:09:45,018 SHE CALLED ME. AND SHE WANTS ME BACK. 176 00:10:02,402 --> 00:10:04,972 THIS IS WHY YOU WANTED ME TO COME HERE TODAY-- 177 00:10:05,072 --> 00:10:08,541 TO TELL ME THIS? 178 00:10:08,642 --> 00:10:10,443 YOU COULDN'T HAVE JUST CALLED ME ON THE PHONE? 179 00:10:10,543 --> 00:10:13,413 I THINK THAT JESSE WANTED YOU TO COME 180 00:10:13,513 --> 00:10:15,315 BECAUSE THIS WOULD BE A SAFE PLACE-- 181 00:10:15,415 --> 00:10:17,084 A SAFE PLACE? SAFE FOR WHO? 182 00:10:17,184 --> 00:10:19,219 WHEN DID SHE CALL? 183 00:10:22,189 --> 00:10:24,191 NO. 184 00:10:24,291 --> 00:10:25,959 YOU KNOW WHAT? 185 00:10:26,059 --> 00:10:28,595 I DON'T WANT TO KNOW. I DON'T WANT TO. 186 00:10:28,696 --> 00:10:29,997 - MRS. D'AMATO. - NO. 187 00:10:30,097 --> 00:10:32,265 YOU TWO CLEARLY HAVE MUCH TO DISCUSS. 188 00:10:32,365 --> 00:10:36,003 THIS IS A MAJOR PSYCHOLOGICAL EVENT FOR JESSE. 189 00:10:36,103 --> 00:10:38,672 I'M SURE YOU'LL BE VERY HELPFUL, DR. WESTON. 190 00:10:38,772 --> 00:10:40,440 - I'D JUST BE IN THE WAY. - MRS. D'AMATO, 191 00:10:40,540 --> 00:10:42,042 I'D REALLY APPRECIATE IT IF YOU STAYED. 192 00:10:42,142 --> 00:10:44,678 I'M SURE JESSE WOULD AS WELL. 193 00:10:52,652 --> 00:10:54,788 THANK YOU. 194 00:11:13,540 --> 00:11:15,008 SEE? 195 00:11:15,108 --> 00:11:16,543 SEE WHAT? 196 00:11:16,643 --> 00:11:20,080 I TOLD YOU SHE DOESN'T GIVE TWO SHITS ABOUT ME. 197 00:11:20,180 --> 00:11:22,082 THAT'S WHAT YOU JUST SAW HAPPENING? 198 00:11:22,182 --> 00:11:23,951 YEAH, SHE COULDN'T WAIT TO GET OUT OF HERE. 199 00:11:24,051 --> 00:11:26,619 IS THAT THE WAY YOU AND YOUR MOTHER NORMALLY INTERACT? 200 00:11:26,720 --> 00:11:29,022 - WHAT DO YOU MEAN? - I MEAN, THAT DYNAMIC, 201 00:11:29,122 --> 00:11:31,124 THE CONVERSATION THAT JUST TOOK PLACE. 202 00:11:31,224 --> 00:11:33,493 WOULD YOU SAY THAT THAT WAS NORMAL? 203 00:11:33,593 --> 00:11:36,930 I DON'T NORMALLY TELL HER ABOUT CALLS FROM MY BIRTH MOTHER. 204 00:11:37,030 --> 00:11:39,032 NO, I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT THE CONTENT. 205 00:11:39,132 --> 00:11:41,601 I'M MORE CURIOUS ABOUT THE TONE. 206 00:11:41,701 --> 00:11:44,437 - TONE? - YOU WERE ANGRY. YOU WERE ABUSIVE. 207 00:11:44,537 --> 00:11:46,706 NO, I WASN'T. 208 00:11:48,842 --> 00:11:51,544 I AM ANGRY. I MEAN, WHAT THE FUCK? 209 00:11:51,644 --> 00:11:53,213 SHE CAN'T HANDLE ANYTHING. 210 00:11:53,313 --> 00:11:55,548 IS THAT WHY YOU ASKED HER TO COME INTO THERAPY TODAY? 211 00:11:55,648 --> 00:11:59,052 WERE YOU HOPING THAT I'D HELP HER HANDLE THE NEWS ABOUT KAREN? 212 00:11:59,152 --> 00:12:01,021 DUDE, MS. U. MADE ME BRING HER. 213 00:12:01,121 --> 00:12:04,291 SHE SAID IT WAS A CONTINGENT TERM OF MY SUSPENSION. 214 00:12:04,391 --> 00:12:07,494 THEY WANTED TO EXPEL ME. 215 00:12:13,100 --> 00:12:15,202 WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS ON HER GODDAMN SIDE? 216 00:12:15,302 --> 00:12:17,170 YOU CLEARLY WANTED ME 217 00:12:17,270 --> 00:12:19,306 TO TELL MARISA ABOUT KAREN'S PHONE CALL. 218 00:12:19,406 --> 00:12:22,109 YEAH SURE, BUT NOT SO THAT YOU COULD BECOME BESTIES. 219 00:12:22,209 --> 00:12:25,678 OKAY, THEN WHY? 220 00:12:25,779 --> 00:12:27,547 LAST WEEK YOU WERE TELLING ME ABOUT SOME PICTURES 221 00:12:27,647 --> 00:12:29,616 THAT YOU TOOK WHEN YOU WERE YOUNGER 222 00:12:29,716 --> 00:12:31,751 AT A FAMILY REUNION. 223 00:12:31,852 --> 00:12:34,587 YOU SAID THAT YOU SHOWED THE PICTURES TO YOUR MOTHER 224 00:12:34,687 --> 00:12:37,825 AND SHE HATED THEM. 225 00:12:37,925 --> 00:12:40,427 WHAT WAS IN THOSE PICTURES? 226 00:12:40,527 --> 00:12:41,728 WHY? 227 00:12:41,829 --> 00:12:44,531 I'M JUST WONDERING IF THERE'S A PATTERN HERE 228 00:12:44,631 --> 00:12:47,835 IN THE WAY THAT YOUR MOTHER RESPONDS TO CERTAIN THINGS. 229 00:12:52,372 --> 00:12:54,908 WE HAD TO DO THIS FAMILY TREE AT SCHOOL. 230 00:12:55,008 --> 00:12:56,944 AND THE TEACHER SAID THAT I COULD DO MINE IN PICTURES 231 00:12:57,044 --> 00:12:58,946 BECAUSE I HAD THIS NEW CAMERA. 232 00:12:59,046 --> 00:13:01,815 WHERE DID YOU GET THE CAMERA? 233 00:13:04,284 --> 00:13:06,186 ROBERTO. 234 00:13:06,286 --> 00:13:08,822 FOR MY BIRTHDAY. 235 00:13:08,922 --> 00:13:10,924 SO YEAH, ANYWAY, 236 00:13:11,024 --> 00:13:13,226 I TOOK A BUNCH OF PICTURES OF, LIKE, MY COUSINS 237 00:13:13,326 --> 00:13:15,362 AND MY GRANDPARENTS AND SHIT. 238 00:13:15,462 --> 00:13:17,364 AND THEN WE WERE ALL HANGING OUT AT THE BEACH, 239 00:13:17,464 --> 00:13:20,100 SO I STARTED TAKING PICTURES OF OTHER PEOPLE. 240 00:13:20,200 --> 00:13:23,603 AND THERE WERE THESE TWO OLDER GUYS 241 00:13:23,703 --> 00:13:26,139 IN THE LIFEGUARD TOWER. 242 00:13:26,239 --> 00:13:27,875 ONE OF THEM WAS THE LIFEGUARD, 243 00:13:27,975 --> 00:13:30,243 BUT THE OTHER ONE WAS HIS FRIEND OR SOMETHING. 244 00:13:30,343 --> 00:13:33,046 AND I WATCHED THEM 245 00:13:33,146 --> 00:13:35,048 GO INTO THE WATER. AND I FOLLOWED THEM. 246 00:13:35,148 --> 00:13:38,151 I PRETENDED I WAS TAKING PICTURES OF THE WAVES. 247 00:13:38,251 --> 00:13:41,688 WHEN THEY CAME OUT OF THE WATER, 248 00:13:41,788 --> 00:13:44,958 I FOUND A RUSTY NAIL 249 00:13:45,058 --> 00:13:46,894 AND I STEPPED ON IT. 250 00:13:46,994 --> 00:13:51,198 YOU DELIBERATELY STEPPED ON IT? 251 00:13:51,298 --> 00:13:55,168 YEAH, IT WENT RIGHT THROUGH MY FOOT. 252 00:13:55,268 --> 00:13:57,437 AND THE LIFEGUARD, LIKE, FREAKED OUT. 253 00:13:57,537 --> 00:14:01,108 BUT THE OTHER GUY WAS COOL-- 254 00:14:01,208 --> 00:14:03,210 PETER. 255 00:14:03,310 --> 00:14:08,115 HE HAD ME STERILIZE MY FOOT IN THE SALT WATER 256 00:14:08,215 --> 00:14:11,351 AND HE REMOVED THE NAIL. HE SAID HE WAS PRE-MED. 257 00:14:11,451 --> 00:14:13,453 AND THEN WE WENT TO THE HOSPITAL TOGETHER-- 258 00:14:13,553 --> 00:14:16,389 PETER AND ME. 259 00:14:17,958 --> 00:14:20,560 WE SPENT THE WHOLE DAY TOGETHER... 260 00:14:24,197 --> 00:14:26,166 UNTIL ROBERTO FINALLY FOUND ME. 261 00:14:26,266 --> 00:14:28,801 WHAT DO YOU MEAN, HE FOUND YOU? 262 00:14:28,902 --> 00:14:31,171 YOU DIDN'T CALL HIM? 263 00:14:31,271 --> 00:14:34,341 I TOLD PETER I WAS AN ORPHAN. 264 00:14:34,441 --> 00:14:36,443 AN ORPHAN? 265 00:14:38,411 --> 00:14:42,249 WAS THAT THE FIRST TIME YOU'D MADE UP A STORY ABOUT YOUR PARENTS? 266 00:14:42,349 --> 00:14:46,586 YEAH, ACTUALLY. 267 00:14:46,686 --> 00:14:49,056 IT WAS. 268 00:14:51,091 --> 00:14:53,793 ANYWAY, WE HAD TO DO THIS, LIKE, 269 00:14:53,893 --> 00:14:55,728 SHOW-AND-TELL THING AT SCHOOL 270 00:14:55,828 --> 00:14:57,564 AND A BUNCH OF PARENTS CAME, 271 00:14:57,664 --> 00:14:59,732 AND I SHOWED MY PICTURES. 272 00:14:59,832 --> 00:15:03,203 AND MARISA 273 00:15:03,303 --> 00:15:05,438 ASKED THE TEACHER TO TAKE THEM DOWN. 274 00:15:05,538 --> 00:15:09,376 SHE SAID THOSE MEN WEREN'T A PART OF OUR FAMILY. 275 00:15:10,843 --> 00:15:12,812 BUT THAT WAS TRUE, WASN'T IT? 276 00:15:12,912 --> 00:15:15,748 I'M ADOPTED. PETER COULD HAVE BEEN MY FUCKING BROTHER. 277 00:15:15,848 --> 00:15:19,186 I MEAN, LOOK, THEY WEREN'T, LIKE, CROTCH SHOTS OR ANYTHING. 278 00:15:19,286 --> 00:15:21,888 THEY WERE REALLY FUCKING GOOD-- THOSE PICTURES. 279 00:15:21,989 --> 00:15:24,024 EVEN THE TEACHER SAID SO. 280 00:15:24,124 --> 00:15:25,558 - SHE DID? - YEAH. 281 00:15:25,658 --> 00:15:29,496 WHEN SHE HANDED THEM BACK SHE, LIKE, PULLED ME ASIDE 282 00:15:29,596 --> 00:15:32,532 AND SHE WAS LIKE, 283 00:15:32,632 --> 00:15:34,567 "STICK WITH THIS." 284 00:15:39,172 --> 00:15:41,474 DID YOUR FATHER EVER SEE THE PICTURES? 285 00:15:41,574 --> 00:15:43,143 NO. 286 00:15:43,243 --> 00:15:46,980 BUT I THINK MARISA TOLD HIM ABOUT THEM. 287 00:15:47,080 --> 00:15:49,282 WHY DO YOU THINK THAT? 288 00:15:51,985 --> 00:15:54,021 HE CHANGED. 289 00:15:54,121 --> 00:15:58,458 IN WHAT WAYS DID HE CHANGE? 290 00:15:59,826 --> 00:16:03,463 HE GOT REALLY BUSY ALL OF A SUDDEN. 291 00:16:03,563 --> 00:16:05,298 UM... 292 00:16:05,398 --> 00:16:09,036 HE USED TO, LIKE, TAKE ME TO CONEY ISLAND 293 00:16:09,136 --> 00:16:11,038 ALMOST EVERY OTHER WEEKEND, 294 00:16:11,138 --> 00:16:15,408 AND SUDDENLY IT WAS TOO FAR. 295 00:16:15,508 --> 00:16:19,546 HE USED TO DRIVE ME TO SCHOOL EVERY MORNING-- 296 00:16:21,314 --> 00:16:24,317 SUDDENLY I WAS OLD ENOUGH TO TAKE THE BUS. 297 00:16:31,858 --> 00:16:33,793 HE HASN'T REALLY SPOKEN TO ME 298 00:16:33,893 --> 00:16:36,029 IN FOUR YEARS. 299 00:16:41,568 --> 00:16:46,039 SO HE SHUT YOU OUT. 300 00:16:48,175 --> 00:16:49,642 WHY DO YOU THINK HE DID THAT? 301 00:16:49,742 --> 00:16:51,778 SERIOUSLY? 302 00:16:51,878 --> 00:16:53,780 DO YOU THINK IT HAD SOMETHING TO DO 303 00:16:53,880 --> 00:16:55,848 MAYBE WITH YOUR SEXUALITY? 304 00:16:55,948 --> 00:16:58,285 NO, I THINK HE GOT ABDUCTED BY ALIENS. 305 00:16:58,385 --> 00:17:00,587 LISTEN JESSE, I'VE NEVER MET YOUR FATHER, 306 00:17:00,687 --> 00:17:02,422 SO I'M JUST SPECULATING, 307 00:17:02,522 --> 00:17:06,293 BUT MAYBE YOU SUDDENLY SEEMED VERY DIFFERENT TO HIM. 308 00:17:06,393 --> 00:17:09,062 I MEAN DIFFERENT FROM HIM. 309 00:17:09,162 --> 00:17:10,963 YEAH, 'CAUSE I'M GAY. 310 00:17:11,064 --> 00:17:13,066 THAT COULD HAVE BEEN A PART OF IT, 311 00:17:13,166 --> 00:17:16,669 BUT ALSO YOU'RE CLEARLY A VERY CREATIVE PERSON. 312 00:17:16,769 --> 00:17:18,471 YOU'RE AN ARTIST. 313 00:17:18,571 --> 00:17:21,574 THE PICTURES FROM THE BEACH MADE THAT CLEAR. 314 00:17:27,180 --> 00:17:29,916 I KNOW-- I KNOW A LITTLE ABOUT THIS 315 00:17:30,016 --> 00:17:33,720 BECAUSE MY SON 316 00:17:33,820 --> 00:17:35,722 IS AN ARTIST ALSO. 317 00:17:35,822 --> 00:17:40,127 AND SOMETIMES I-- 318 00:17:40,227 --> 00:17:43,663 I DON'T UNDERSTAND HIM, YOU KNOW? 319 00:17:43,763 --> 00:17:46,966 I FEEL SO... 320 00:17:47,066 --> 00:17:50,603 DISTANT FROM HIM. 321 00:17:50,703 --> 00:17:53,540 AND SOMETIMES, HONESTLY, I FEEL A LITTLE INTIMIDATED BY HIM. 322 00:17:53,640 --> 00:17:57,377 WELL, ROBERTO IS NOT INTIMIDATED BY ME. 323 00:17:57,477 --> 00:18:00,180 WELL, LIKE I SAID, I DON'T KNOW YOUR FATHER. 324 00:18:00,280 --> 00:18:04,351 AND I'VE ONLY SPENT THESE 20 MINUTES WITH YOUR MOTHER. 325 00:18:04,451 --> 00:18:08,155 BUT FROM WHAT I OBSERVED, SHE-- 326 00:18:08,255 --> 00:18:09,956 SHE'S DEFENDING YOU, JESSE. 327 00:18:10,056 --> 00:18:11,524 SHE'S TRYING TO MAKE SURE 328 00:18:11,624 --> 00:18:14,361 YOU'RE NOT BEING DISCRIMINATED AGAINST BECAUSE YOU'RE GAY. 329 00:18:14,461 --> 00:18:16,596 - IT'S BULLSHIT. - YOU THINK SHE'S PRETENDING? 330 00:18:16,696 --> 00:18:19,799 OF COURSE SHE'S PRETENDING. SHE WANTS YOU TO THINK SHE'S A GOOD MOTHER. 331 00:18:19,899 --> 00:18:23,069 SO IT WAS A PERFORMANCE FOR MY SAKE? 332 00:18:23,170 --> 00:18:24,937 SHE'S CATHOLIC. 333 00:18:25,037 --> 00:18:28,074 I MEAN, AS FAR AS THEY'RE CONCERNED, I'M, LIKE, SATAN'S SPAWN. 334 00:18:28,175 --> 00:18:30,810 SHE HATES ME. HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THAT? 335 00:18:30,910 --> 00:18:33,846 I DIDN'T SEE A WOMAN WHO DOESN'T LOVE HER SON JUST NOW. 336 00:18:33,946 --> 00:18:35,948 BUT I DID SEE A WOMAN WHO DOESN'T KNOW 337 00:18:36,048 --> 00:18:38,551 HOW TO TALK TO HER SON. 338 00:18:40,553 --> 00:18:44,457 I THINK YOUR PARENTS LET YOU DOWN A LONG TIME AGO. 339 00:18:44,557 --> 00:18:46,659 YOU TRIED TO TELL THEM SOMETHING WHEN YOU WERE 12, 340 00:18:46,759 --> 00:18:48,961 WHEN YOU TRIED TO SHARE A PART OF YOURSELF 341 00:18:49,061 --> 00:18:50,963 THAT MADE YOU DIFFERENT FROM THEM, 342 00:18:51,063 --> 00:18:55,101 AND THEY-- THEY REACTED BADLY. 343 00:18:55,202 --> 00:19:00,273 YOU FELT THEY'D ABANDONED YOU. 344 00:19:00,373 --> 00:19:02,275 ARE NOW HERE YOU ARE AGAIN, 345 00:19:02,375 --> 00:19:04,277 WITH A CALL FROM YOUR BIRTH MOTHER-- 346 00:19:04,377 --> 00:19:06,746 ANOTHER PIECE OF EVIDENCE, YOU FEEL, 347 00:19:06,846 --> 00:19:10,683 THAT SEPARATES YOU FROM ROBERTO AND MARISA. 348 00:19:14,954 --> 00:19:17,524 I THINK YOU'RE TERRIFIED, JESSE. 349 00:19:18,791 --> 00:19:20,327 OF WHAT? 350 00:19:20,427 --> 00:19:23,430 THAT THE SAME THING IS GONNA HAPPEN AGAIN 351 00:19:23,530 --> 00:19:28,501 AND THAT THEY'RE GOING TO PULL AWAY EVEN FURTHER. 352 00:19:31,170 --> 00:19:33,806 WHY ARE YOU ACTING LIKE THIS IS ALL IN MY HEAD? 353 00:19:33,906 --> 00:19:35,675 SHE LEFT. 354 00:19:35,775 --> 00:19:37,310 YOU SAW HER LEAVE. 355 00:19:37,410 --> 00:19:39,246 I THINK YOU'RE REALLY UPSET THAT SHE LEFT. 356 00:19:39,346 --> 00:19:41,214 WHERE DO YOU THINK-- WHERE DO YOU IMAGINE SHE WENT? 357 00:19:41,314 --> 00:19:44,451 HOW THE HELL SHOULD I KNOW? 358 00:19:48,821 --> 00:19:52,759 I SPOKE TO MRS. USICH THIS MORNING BEFORE YOUR SESSION. 359 00:19:52,859 --> 00:19:56,128 YOU SAID SHE WANTED YOUR MOTHER TO JOIN US IN THERAPY. 360 00:19:56,229 --> 00:19:58,531 BUT WHEN I SPOKE TO HER, SHE DIDN'T MENTION 361 00:19:58,631 --> 00:20:01,301 ANYTHING ABOUT THAT AT ALL. 362 00:20:01,401 --> 00:20:03,303 I JUST WANT YOU TO RECOGNIZE 363 00:20:03,403 --> 00:20:07,340 THAT YOU INVITED MARISA TO COME TO THERAPY WITH YOU. 364 00:20:07,440 --> 00:20:10,277 YOU WANTED HER HERE. 365 00:20:21,153 --> 00:20:23,189 JESSE, 366 00:20:23,290 --> 00:20:26,859 WHAT'S HAPPENING IN YOUR HEAD? 367 00:20:28,261 --> 00:20:30,463 STATIC. 368 00:20:43,276 --> 00:20:45,612 I BET SHE'S AT CHURCH. 369 00:20:46,813 --> 00:20:49,849 WHEN I WAS LITTLE, SHE LOVED CHURCH. 370 00:20:49,949 --> 00:20:52,485 SHE WENT EVERY SUNDAY. 371 00:20:52,585 --> 00:20:55,422 I WOULD GO WITH HER AND GET ALL DRESSED UP 372 00:20:55,522 --> 00:20:58,925 IN MY LITTLE JACKET AND CLIP-ON TIE. 373 00:21:01,528 --> 00:21:06,366 I REMEMBER FALLING ASLEEP AGAINST HER IN THE PEWS. 374 00:21:13,373 --> 00:21:16,443 SHE STOPPED GOING AFTER I CAME OUT. 375 00:21:17,777 --> 00:21:21,213 SHE WAS TOO ASHAMED TO GO BACK. 376 00:21:21,314 --> 00:21:23,783 IS IT NOT POSSIBLE THAT SHE NO LONGER WANTED 377 00:21:23,883 --> 00:21:25,652 TO SUPPORT AN INSTITUTION 378 00:21:25,752 --> 00:21:28,220 THAT DIDN'T HAVE ROOM FOR HER SON? 379 00:21:28,321 --> 00:21:30,357 - NO. - YOU DON'T THINK THAT'S POSSIBLE? 380 00:21:30,457 --> 00:21:32,425 SHE WAS HERE FOR 15 MINUTES. 381 00:21:32,525 --> 00:21:35,928 YOU THINK NOW YOU KNOW HER BETTER THAN I DO? 382 00:21:36,028 --> 00:21:38,230 NO, OF COURSE I DON'T. 383 00:21:38,331 --> 00:21:41,768 SHE LOOKS AT THAT CHURCH EVERY TIME WE PASS IT. 384 00:21:41,868 --> 00:21:43,670 IT'S, LIKE, RIGHT ON THE CORNER OF OUR BLOCK. 385 00:21:43,770 --> 00:21:46,706 AND WE HAVE TO WALK BY IT ANYTIME WE GO ANYWHERE. 386 00:21:46,806 --> 00:21:49,342 AND EVERY TIME-- 387 00:21:49,442 --> 00:21:53,546 EVERY TIME, SHE LOOKS AND SHE SIGHS. 388 00:21:59,819 --> 00:22:03,923 SHE SIGHS, OKAY? 389 00:22:05,558 --> 00:22:10,162 I MEAN, I BET SHE WENT STRAIGHT THERE. 390 00:22:10,262 --> 00:22:12,465 SHE'S, LIKE, BEGGING THE PRIEST 391 00:22:12,565 --> 00:22:15,502 TO TAKE HER BACK AS WE SPEAK. 392 00:22:28,881 --> 00:22:31,718 HAVE YOU HEARD ANYTHING MORE FROM KAREN? 393 00:22:34,587 --> 00:22:37,557 HAVE YOU GIVEN ANY THOUGHT TO CALLING HER BACK? 394 00:22:37,657 --> 00:22:41,027 UH, THAT'S ALL I EVER THINK ABOUT. 395 00:22:41,127 --> 00:22:43,796 WELL, THEN WE SHOULD TALK ABOUT YOUR OPTIONS NEXT WEEK. 396 00:22:43,896 --> 00:22:46,399 WHATEVER, PAUL. 397 00:22:58,044 --> 00:23:00,413 ( theme music playing )