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( theme music playing )

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YOU LOOK TIRED.

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I'M SORRY.
I HATE THAT.

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DON'T EVER TELL ME
WHEN I LOOK LIKE SHIT
OR TIRED...

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OR OLD.

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- WHAT'S THAT?
- HERE, OPEN IT.

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IT'S A PROMPTER--
AN EARPIECE FOR
AGING ACTORS

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WHO CAN'T REMEMBER
THEIR LINES.

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TOO BAD THEY DON'T
HAVE SOMETHING SIMILAR
FOR YOUNGER ACTORS

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WHO REFUSE
TO LEARN THEIRS.

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THE DIRECTOR WANTS ME
TO WEAR IT DURING
PERFORMANCES

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IN CASE I LOSE A LINE.

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SO HOW DID IT
GO THIS WEEK?

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AS TO BE EXPECTED.

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( sighs )
EVERYTHING'S FINE,

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SAILING ALONG,
AND THEN--

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POOF.

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BUT I'M NOT WEARING
THIS FUCKING THING.

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DID YOU TELL THAT
TO THE DIRECTOR?

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I TOLD THE DIRECTOR
THAT I AM SEEING
THE BEST PSYCHOANALYST

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IN NEW YORK AND THAT
I'M SURE I'D BE FINE.

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SO NOW BOTH OUR REPUTATIONS
ARE ON THE LINE.

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SO YOU'D LIKE US
TO BE IN THIS TOGETHER.

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AREN'T WE?

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( chuckles )

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THE STAGE MANAGER KEEPS
SHANGHAIING ME BACKSTAGE

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TO TALK ABOUT HER
OWN MEMORY PROBLEMS,

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HORMONE TREATMENTS,
HOT FLASHES.

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SHE EVEN GAVE ME A BOOK--
"THE WISDOM OF MENOPAUSE."

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THANK YOU.

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OH GOD. I SOUND
LIKE A SPOILED BRAT.

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- YOU MUST THINK
I'M RIDICULOUS.
- WHY DO YOU SAY THAT?

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THERE'S ALL THIS FRIVOLOUS
STUFF I'M TALKING ABOUT--

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LINES AND THE STAGE
MANAGER. I CAN'T--

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FRIVOLOUS COMPARED
TO WHAT?

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LAST WEEK
WHEN YOU WERE HERE

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YOU WERE WORRIED
ABOUT SEEMING FRIVOLOUS

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COMPARED TO YOUR SISTER.

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TRICIA DOESN'T COMPLAIN
ABOUT ANYTHING.

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SHE FACES IT ALL
SO BRAVELY.

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YOU MUST
THINK I'M AWFUL.

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I MUST THINK YOU'RE
AWFUL OR RIDICULOUS

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OR WHATEVER.

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LAST WEEK YOU
WERE DEFENDING

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YOUR DECISION
TO TAKE A JOB

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- INSTEAD OF STAYING AT HOME.
- YES.

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AND YOU SAID,
"DOES THAT MAKE ME
A COLDHEARTED EGOMANIAC?"

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GOOD MEMORY.

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MAYBE YOU SHOULD
PLAY THIS PART.

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WHY DO YOU USE
LANGUAGE LIKE THAT
TO DESCRIBE YOURSELF?

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IS THERE SOME
SPECIFIC RESPONSE

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THAT YOU'RE
LOOKING FOR IN ME?

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I'M SORRY I EVEN
BROUGHT ANY OF THIS UP.

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I CERTAINLY DIDN'T COME
HERE TO TALK ABOUT DIANE
THE STAGE MANAGER.

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SO WHAT ARE YOU HERE
TO TALK ABOUT?

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LAST WEEK, DO YOU REMEMBER
WHEN JUST BEFORE YOU LEFT,

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I ASKED YOU TO KEEP
AN EYE ON WHAT HAPPENS

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DURING REHEARSAL
WHEN YOU GO UP

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ON YOUR LINES?
HOW DID THAT GO?

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NO RHYME OR REASON
THAT I COULD SEE.

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ONE MOMENT
I'D BE THERE,

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I'D BE MAXINE.
AND THE NEXT MOMENT
I'D BE FRANCES

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AND I'D BE THINKING
OF SOMETHING ELSE ENTIRELY.

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I CAN'T TELL YOU
WHERE I GO WHEN
I JUMP LIKE THAT.

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- I DON'T REMEMBER.
- I WANT YOU TO TRY.

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I WANT YOU
TO REALLY TRY

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TO REMEMBER.

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OKAY, TWO DAYS AGO I WAS
IN THE MIDDLE OF A SCENE

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AND I FOUND MYSELF THINKING
I NEEDED TO CALL IZZY.

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SO I TRIED TO FORCE MYSELF
BACK INTO THE SCENE,

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BUT I COULDN'T REMEMBER
ANYTHING, DIDN'T KNOW WAS
HAPPENING, TOTAL BLANK.

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WHY DO YOU THINK
YOU FELT THIS NEED
TO TALK TO IZZY?

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I DON'T KNOW.
I WANTED TO TALK
TO HER.

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I CALLED RUSSELL LATER
LOOKING FOR HER.

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AND HE TOLD ME THAT IZZY'S
BEEN SPENDING ALL OF HER
TIME AT PATRICIA'S.

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TAKING CARE OF HER,
I SUPPOSE.

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AND DID YOU CALL HER THERE?

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I DIDN'T WANT TO INTRUDE.
IZZY'S ALWAYS PREFERRED TRICIA

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AND HER FATHER OVER ME,
WHICH IS IRONIC.

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- HOW SO?
- I MET RUSSELL
THROUGH TRICIA.

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SHE INTRODUCED US.

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SHE WAS A GRADUATE
STUDENT AT COLUMBIA

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AND HE WAS THIS
SORT OF BRILLIANT

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YOUNGISH PROFESSOR,

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KIND OF A STAR IN
THE HISTORY DEPARTMENT.

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I WAS 30,
SICK OF DATING ACTORS,

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AND SHE SET US UP.

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AND WHAT DID SHE THINK
YOU WERE GOING TO
LIKE ABOUT HIM?

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WELL, HE WASN'T
THE BEST-LOOKING MAN
I'D EVER KNOWN,

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BUT HE WAS THE SMARTEST
AND FUNNY.

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I LIKED HIS TAKE
ON THINGS.

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IT WAS A TURN-ON.

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SO HE EXCITED A PART
OF YOU THAT HADN'T
BEEN EXCITED BEFORE.

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I GUESS THAT'S RIGHT.

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AND HE HAD--

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WHAT?

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REALLY GOOD HANDS.

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PHYSICALLY?

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SEXUALLY?

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WHEN RUSSELL AND I
FIRST HAD SEX,

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IT WAS COMPLETELY
OVERWHELMING FOR ME.

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I HARDLY KNEW HIM
AND WE'D ONLY BEEN
OUT ON A FEW DATES,

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BUT I DON'T KNOW.
I FELL SO HARD IN
LOVE WITH HIM.

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AND IT JUST ALL
WENT REALLY QUICKLY.

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I DIDN'T CARE ABOUT
GETTING MARRIED

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BUT HE DID,
SO WE GOT MARRIED.

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YOU MEAN THAT YOU GOT
MARRIED TO PLEASE HIM?

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NO NO, I WAS JUST SURPRISED
BY HOW MUCH HE WANTED TO.

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LATER ON, I DID A LOT
OF THINGS TO PLEASE RUSSELL.

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LIKE WHAT?

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GETTING PREGNANT.

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OF COURSE, I WANTED
TO BE A MOTHER.

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JUST HAPPENED VERY FAST.
IT HAD TO.

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I WAS 35,
HE WAS 42-43.

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SO THE CLOCK WAS TICKING.

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SO DID YOU FEEL THAT YOU
WANTED MORE TIME TO BE
ALONE WITH HIM?

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JUST THE TWO OF YOU?
A LOT OF PEOPLE FEEL
AMBIVALENT

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WHEN THEY BRING A CHILD
INTO A MARRIAGE.

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THEY'RE AFRAID THAT
IT'S GONNA CHANGE

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THE DYNAMIC
OF THE RELATIONSHIP.

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- THEY'RE RIGHT.
- MM-HMM.

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WHEN I GOT PREGNANT
WITH IZZY,

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I WAS REALLY AFRAID THAT
HE WOULDN'T WANT ME ANYMORE.

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I'D BE FAT
AND I'D GET SICK.

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AND DID HE STILL...

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- WANT YOU?
- YEAH, HE STILL WANTED ME.

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HE LIKED MY
NEW PREGNANT BODY.

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SO DID I.

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THEN WHEN IZZY WAS BORN

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I THOUGHT, WELL,
NOW IT'LL BE RUINED.

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THE SEX I MEAN.

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WHAT EXACTLY WERE
YOU WORRIED ABOUT?

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WELL, THAT I WOULD BE
DESTROYED BY CHILDBIRTH

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AND THAT HE
WOULD BE HORRIFIED
BY WHAT HE SAW.

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WERE YOU IN THE ROOM WHEN
YOUR CHILDREN WERE BORN?

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SO YOU KNOW.
I MEAN, WOMEN TEAR
THEMSELVES APART

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TO PUSH A BABY OUT.

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I JUST TURNED INTO
THIS SCREAMING, BLEEDING,

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SWEATING ANIMAL.

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I THOUGHT
I'D NEVER RECOVER,

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I WOULD BE PERMANENTLY
DAMAGED.

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- BUT YOU DID.
YOU DID RECOVER.
- OF COURSE.

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THE FEMALE
BODY IS REMARKABLE,
DON'T YOU THINK?

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AND DID HE LOSE INTEREST?

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NO, HE STILL WANTED ME.

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HE USED TO COME IN
AND TAKE PICTURES OF
ME WHEN I WAS NURSING.

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HE THOUGHT
I LOOKED BEAUTIFUL.

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AND DID YOU FEEL
BEAUTIFUL?

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NO, I FELT FAT,
NOT BEAUTIFUL.

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BUT THEN LATER

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I REALLY GOT TO LOVE IT.

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THAT FEELING OF
MY BREASTS FILLING UP

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AND THAT WAS
WHAT SHE NEEDED.

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I MEAN, THAT LITTLE
BEAUTIFUL WARM HEAD

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IN THE CROOK
OF MY ARM,

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WHAT COULD BE SWEETER?

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SO YOU FELT IMPORTANT

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WHEN YOU WERE NURSING.

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NO, I FELT LIKE
I HAD A PURPOSE.

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THEN SHE GREW UP.

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WELL, THEY TEND
TO DO THAT.

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( laughs )
YEAH.

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BUT NOW IT SEEMS THAT

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YOU FEEL IZZY DOESN'T
NEED YOU ANYMORE.

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SHE HASN'T NEEDED ME
FOR A LONG TIME.

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WELL, SHE'S A TEENAGER.
IT'S FAIRLY ORDINARY.

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NO, BUT SHE PUSHED AWAY
FROM ME A LONG TIME AGO.

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SHE HASN'T NEEDED ME
SINCE SHE WAS 6 OR 7.

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YOU SAID THAT YOU
FELT THAT SHE'D ALWAYS

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PREFERRED YOUR
HUSBAND TO YOU.

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YEAH,
DADDY'S LITTLE GIRL.

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AND NOW YOU FEEL LIKE
THEY'RE COMING TOGETHER,

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UNITED AGAINST YOU.

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TEAM WISKOWITZ.

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LOOK...

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I LOST IZZY
A LONG TIME AGO.

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BUT RUSSELL, THAT--

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THAT WAS A BIT OF A SHOCK.

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WHEN DID YOU SEPARATE?

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TWO YEARS AGO.
HE HAD AN AFFAIR.

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YES, YOU SAID, WITH ONE
OF HIS STUDENTS.

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OH GOD,
WHAT A CLICHГ©, HUH?

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I WAS FAITHFUL.

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I HAD A LOT OF JOBS
OUT OF TOWN.

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MANY OPPORTUNITIES,
BUT I RESISTED.

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HE HAD TO GO AND PISS
ALL OVER EVERYTHING.

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CAN I TELL YOU SOMETHING
THAT I HAVEN'T TOLD ANYONE?

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SURE.

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( exhales )

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I HAVEN'T HAD SEX SINCE
RUSSELL AND I BROKE UP.

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- YOU MUST THINK
I'M PATHETIC.
- THERE YOU GO AGAIN.

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- WHAT?
- WHAT I THINK ABOUT YOU.

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THAT I MUST THINK THIS
OR I MUST THINK THAT.

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ARE YOU HOPING THAT MAYBE
I'LL AGREE WITH YOU?

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WOULD YOU LIKE TO TELL
ME ABOUT THIS PERIOD

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OF ABSTINENCE?

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WELL, EVERYONE
KNOWS THAT A VIRGIN HAS
THE BEST COMPLEXION.

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SO IT'S
AN AESTHETIC CHOICE.

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NO. I JUST FIGURE,

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REALLY, WHAT'S THE POINT?

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YOU KNOW, AT MY AGE?

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HERE'S THE KICKER.

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GUESS WHO'S GETTING LAID,
OR IS ABOUT TO?

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- IZZY.
- SHE TELL YOU THAT?

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SHE DOESN'T TALK
TO ME ANYMORE.

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I'VE BEEN READING
HER EMAILS.

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I HACKED INTO HER ACCOUNT.

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WELL, NO, THAT SOUNDS
TOO SOPHISTICATED.

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I GUESSED HER PASSWORD.

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DO YOU REALLY THINK
THAT'S THE BEST WAY

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TO GET CLOSE
TO YOUR DAUGHTER?

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SHE WON'T TALK TO ME.

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HOW WOULD YOU LIKE IT
IF YOUR KIDS STOPPED
TALKING TO YOU?

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I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S
GOING ON IN HER LIFE.

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SHE SAYS SHE'S IN LOVE.

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YOU DON'T THINK
THAT'S POSSIBLE?

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SHE'S 15.
I MEAN, A CRUSH MAYBE,
BUT LOVE?

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AND THIS BOY,
THIS MILLER--

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THAT'S HIS FIRST NAME--
HE'S A JUNIOR.

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WHAT'S HE DOING, MESSING
AROUND WITH A FRESHMAN?

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HE'S WRITING HER
LOVE LETTERS, YOU KNOW,
QUOTING POETRY.

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00:11:50,878 --> 00:11:54,514
IT'S NOT BAD POETRY--
E.E. CUMMINGS,

223
00:11:54,614 --> 00:11:56,984
WILLIAM CARLOS WILLIAMS,
PABLO NERUDA.

224
00:11:57,084 --> 00:11:59,386
SOUNDS KIND OF ROMANTIC.

225
00:11:59,486 --> 00:12:01,321
INNOCENT, EVEN.

226
00:12:01,421 --> 00:12:04,024
"FLOWER OF FIRE...
SWOLLEN FRUIT RAISED"?

227
00:12:04,124 --> 00:12:06,960
( chuckles )
THAT'S NERUDA.

228
00:12:07,060 --> 00:12:09,763
YEAH, NOT SO INNOCENT, HUH?

229
00:12:09,863 --> 00:12:12,833
DO YOU FEEL THEN THAT
HE'S PRESSURING HER?

230
00:12:12,933 --> 00:12:15,335
JUST THE OPPOSITE.
HE SAYS HE'LL WAIT.

231
00:12:15,435 --> 00:12:18,671
THEY HAVE TIME.
HE LOVES HER, BLAH BLAH.

232
00:12:18,772 --> 00:12:20,774
THAT SOUNDS MATURE,
RESPONSIBLE.

233
00:12:20,874 --> 00:12:22,943
NO, IT SOUNDS DEVIOUS
AND MACHIAVELLIAN.

234
00:12:23,043 --> 00:12:26,113
HE WANTS TO GET IN HER PANTS.
YOU HAVE A DAUGHTER.

235
00:12:29,182 --> 00:12:31,985
PATRICIA REMEMBERS WHEN
YOUR DAUGHTER WAS BORN.

236
00:12:32,085 --> 00:12:34,687
YOU HAD A BIG BOUQUET OF PINK
ROSES OUT IN THE OFFICE.

237
00:12:34,788 --> 00:12:38,425
SHE SAID YOU COULD
HARDLY CONTAIN YOURSELF,
YOU WERE SO HAPPY.

238
00:12:38,525 --> 00:12:40,327
YEAH.

239
00:12:40,427 --> 00:12:42,629
WE CALLED HER ROSIE

240
00:12:42,729 --> 00:12:45,665
SO WE GOT A LOT
OF ROSES.

241
00:12:45,765 --> 00:12:47,534
YOU SHOULD'VE
CALLED HER RUBY.

242
00:12:47,634 --> 00:12:50,470
( chuckles )
WE SHOULD HAVE.

243
00:12:52,305 --> 00:12:55,242
SHE MUST BE 18 NOW.

244
00:12:57,177 --> 00:12:59,512
DON'T YOU WORRY ABOUT HER
GETTING PREGNANT?

245
00:12:59,612 --> 00:13:01,915
OR H.I.V.
OR GENITAL WARTS?

246
00:13:02,015 --> 00:13:04,251
DO YOU KNOW THAT 70%
OF SEXUALLY ACTIVE KIDS

247
00:13:04,351 --> 00:13:06,319
CARRY THIS VIRUS?
IT'S AN EPIDEMIC.

248
00:13:06,419 --> 00:13:08,856
- I HADN'T HEARD
THAT STATISTIC.
- THAT'S MY POINT.

249
00:13:08,956 --> 00:13:11,424
WHO IS THIS BOY?
SHE WON'T TALK TO ME.

250
00:13:11,524 --> 00:13:14,261
SHE WON'T TELL ME
ANYTHING ABOUT HIM.
SHE JUST TALKS TO TRICIA.

251
00:13:14,361 --> 00:13:16,363
WELL, IT MAKES A LOT OF
SENSE, DON'T YOU THINK?

252
00:13:16,463 --> 00:13:19,232
DID YOU TALK
TO YOUR MOTHER ABOUT SEX?

253
00:13:20,901 --> 00:13:23,270
FINE.
I SEE YOUR POINT.

254
00:13:25,605 --> 00:13:26,974
TRISH AND IZZY--

255
00:13:27,074 --> 00:13:29,809
THEY EVEN LOOK ALIKE.

256
00:13:29,910 --> 00:13:32,045
THOSE BIG BROWN EYES
BLINKING AT YOU.

257
00:13:32,145 --> 00:13:35,582
YOU REMEMBER?
THEY'RE TWO PEAS IN A POD.

258
00:13:35,682 --> 00:13:37,817
AND AGAIN,
YOU'RE EXCLUDED.

259
00:13:37,918 --> 00:13:41,855
WHEN TRICIA HAD HER CHEMO
IZZY SHAVED HER HEAD
IN SOLIDARITY.

260
00:13:41,955 --> 00:13:43,356
NOW SHE KEEPS ON
SHAVING IT.

261
00:13:43,456 --> 00:13:46,693
SHE LOOKS LIKE
A BIG-EYED BALD ALIEN.

262
00:13:46,793 --> 00:13:48,128
YOU FIND HER ALIEN?

263
00:13:48,228 --> 00:13:50,730
DON'T READ
TOO MUCH INTO IT.

264
00:13:50,830 --> 00:13:54,601
OKAY. WELL, CAN I READ
A LITTLE INTO IT?

265
00:13:56,003 --> 00:13:59,072
IN WHAT WAYS IS
SHE ALIEN TO YOU?

266
00:13:59,172 --> 00:14:01,274
WHAT IS ABOUT HER
BESIDES HER BALD HEAD

267
00:14:01,374 --> 00:14:05,278
THAT MAKES HER SEEM
SO UNFAMILIAR?

268
00:14:05,378 --> 00:14:09,416
THE TRUTH IS,
THE WAY SHE LOOKS NOW,

269
00:14:09,516 --> 00:14:13,220
IT'S EXACTLY THE WAY
SHE LOOKED WHEN I WAS
NURSING HER.

270
00:14:17,290 --> 00:14:19,659
( sighs )
PATRICIA COULDN'T
HAVE KIDS OF HER OWN

271
00:14:19,759 --> 00:14:21,929
AND NOW SHE'S SICK.

272
00:14:22,029 --> 00:14:25,698
AND I'M JEALOUS ANYWAY.

273
00:14:25,798 --> 00:14:28,135
STILL.

274
00:14:28,235 --> 00:14:30,938
I BEGRUDGE HER
THE ONE PLEASURE SHE HAS,

275
00:14:31,038 --> 00:14:32,639
WHICH IS TIME
WITH MY DAUGHTER

276
00:14:32,739 --> 00:14:35,075
WHILE SHE'S SUFFERING.

277
00:14:39,879 --> 00:14:43,316
I HAD THE WORST
THOUGHT THE OTHER DAY.

278
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TELL ME.

279
00:14:45,285 --> 00:14:47,654
NO, IZZY'S SPENDING ALL
OF HER TIME WITH TRICIA.

280
00:14:47,754 --> 00:14:50,157
SHE HARDLY EVEN TAKES
MY CALLS AND WHEN SHE DOES,

281
00:14:50,257 --> 00:14:53,593
SHE JUST GUILT TRIPS ME
ABOUT NOT BEING THERE
FOR TRISH

282
00:14:53,693 --> 00:14:57,130
OR BEING IN THE PLAY.

283
00:14:57,230 --> 00:15:00,033
GO ON.

284
00:15:01,668 --> 00:15:03,470
I THOUGHT...

285
00:15:05,338 --> 00:15:08,508
THAT MAYBE
WHEN TRICIA'S GONE...

286
00:15:10,510 --> 00:15:13,346
IZZY WILL LET ME BACK
INTO HER LIFE.

287
00:15:13,446 --> 00:15:16,249
YOU KNOW,
THAT SHE'LL BE MINE AGAIN.

288
00:15:16,349 --> 00:15:19,652
LIKE WHEN SHE WAS
A LITTLE GIRL.

289
00:15:19,752 --> 00:15:22,990
DO YOU FEEL
THAT PATRICIA HAS
USURPED YOUR ROLE

290
00:15:23,090 --> 00:15:24,992
AS IZZY'S MOTHER?

291
00:15:25,092 --> 00:15:28,061
IZZY PREFERS HER.

292
00:15:28,161 --> 00:15:30,063
TRICIA'S BETTER AT IT.

293
00:15:30,163 --> 00:15:32,032
YET BECAUSE YOUR
SISTER'S SICK,

294
00:15:32,132 --> 00:15:35,435
YOU PUNISH YOURSELF
FOR FEELING RESENTFUL.

295
00:15:41,541 --> 00:15:44,277
HAVE YOU SPOKEN TO PATRICIA
ABOUT ANY OF THIS?

296
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HAVE YOU SPOKEN
TO PATRICIA AT ALL?

297
00:15:50,117 --> 00:15:53,120
YEAH, ONCE
TO SAY HI.

298
00:15:55,155 --> 00:15:58,958
AND DID SHE TELL YOU
THAT SHE AND I SPOKE?

299
00:16:02,695 --> 00:16:04,097
WHEN?

300
00:16:04,197 --> 00:16:07,634
I CALLED HER
LAST WEDNESDAY.

301
00:16:07,734 --> 00:16:10,370
THE DAY AFTER
I CAME IN.

302
00:16:13,706 --> 00:16:15,308
MAY I ASK WHY?

303
00:16:15,408 --> 00:16:16,943
I JUST WANTED
TO SEE HOW SHE WAS DOING.

304
00:16:17,044 --> 00:16:19,246
I TOLD HER I HEARD
SHE'D BEEN ILL,

305
00:16:19,346 --> 00:16:22,615
BUT I DIDN'T SAY
HOW I'D HEARD.

306
00:16:23,716 --> 00:16:26,153
SHE TOLD ME
ABOUT THE CANCER.

307
00:16:26,253 --> 00:16:29,022
AND I ASKED HER
IF SHE HAD THE SUPPORT
SHE NEEDED

308
00:16:29,122 --> 00:16:31,158
AND IF SHE WAS
SEEING A THERAPIST.

309
00:16:31,258 --> 00:16:34,261
- WHAT DID SHE SAY?
- SHE IS.

310
00:16:34,361 --> 00:16:37,164
SEE?
EVERYTHING'S FINE.

311
00:16:37,264 --> 00:16:40,700
NO CONFLICT OF INTEREST.

312
00:16:42,835 --> 00:16:46,106
DID YOU TELL HER
THAT I CAME IN?

313
00:16:46,206 --> 00:16:49,442
I DIDN'T
MENTION YOU, NO.

314
00:16:49,542 --> 00:16:51,678
AND NEITHER DID SHE,
WHICH I THOUGHT WAS ODD.

315
00:16:51,778 --> 00:16:54,514
BECAUSE LAST WEEK
YOU SAID

316
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THAT PATRICIA HAD
RECOMMENDED ME TO YOU.

317
00:16:58,518 --> 00:17:01,721
YOU SAID YOU'D ASKED
HER PERMISSION TO SEE ME

318
00:17:01,821 --> 00:17:05,525
AND THAT SHE HAD
GIVEN IT TO YOU.

319
00:17:05,625 --> 00:17:07,627
- DIDN'T SAY THAT.
- YOU IMPLIED IT.

320
00:17:07,727 --> 00:17:09,062
YOU LED ME TO BELIEVE THAT.

321
00:17:09,162 --> 00:17:11,998
YOU CERTAINLY DID NOTHING
TO CORRECT MY MISCONCEPTION.

322
00:17:12,099 --> 00:17:14,067
- YOU'RE TRYING TO TRAP ME.
- TRAP YOU?

323
00:17:14,167 --> 00:17:16,035
THAT SOUNDS VERY CONNIVING.

324
00:17:16,136 --> 00:17:19,606
- WHAT, DO YOU WANT
TO CATCH ME IN A LIE?
- DID I CATCH YOU IN A LIE?

325
00:17:20,807 --> 00:17:22,342
( sighs )

326
00:17:26,379 --> 00:17:28,381
I WAS AFRAID YOU
WOULDN'T TREAT ME.

327
00:17:34,587 --> 00:17:37,124
FOR YOUR THERAPY
TO BE EFFECTIVE,

328
00:17:37,224 --> 00:17:39,692
IT'S IMPORTANT
THAT WE BE AS HONEST

329
00:17:39,792 --> 00:17:41,928
AS WE CAN
WITH EACH OTHER.

330
00:17:42,028 --> 00:17:44,497
- DO YOU UNDERSTAND?
- ALL RIGHT.

331
00:17:48,835 --> 00:17:52,139
I'M SORRY.

332
00:17:54,073 --> 00:17:57,644
GOD, IT SOUNDS LIKE
WE'RE IN A RELATIONSHIP
OR SOMETHING.

333
00:17:57,744 --> 00:17:59,146
THERAPY IS A RELATIONSHIP.

334
00:17:59,246 --> 00:18:02,649
YOU'RE GETTING THE SHORT END
OF THE STICK ON THIS ONE.

335
00:18:02,749 --> 00:18:05,017
WHY?

336
00:18:05,118 --> 00:18:08,255
WELL, ALL THE CRAZY,
NONE OF THE SEX.

337
00:18:12,159 --> 00:18:14,561
I'LL TELL HER.

338
00:18:14,661 --> 00:18:16,596
BEFORE THE NEXT SESSION.

339
00:18:16,696 --> 00:18:18,765
OKAY, I PROMISE.

340
00:18:20,400 --> 00:18:21,834
OKAY.

341
00:18:25,138 --> 00:18:27,807
SO DO YOU KNOW THAT
IF YOU TEST POSITIVE

342
00:18:27,907 --> 00:18:30,677
FOR THE BRCA1 AND YOUR
MOTHER AND YOUR SISTER
HAD BREAST CANCER,

343
00:18:30,777 --> 00:18:33,813
YOU HAVE A 90% CHANCE
THAT YOU'LL GET SICK?

344
00:18:33,913 --> 00:18:36,048
THIS IS THE TEST PATRICIA'S
BEEN WANTING YOU TO TAKE.

345
00:18:36,149 --> 00:18:39,386
AND IT'S ONE OF THE REASONS
WHY YOU'VE BEEN AVOIDING
SEEING HER.

346
00:18:39,486 --> 00:18:41,188
I MADE THE APPOINTMENT,

347
00:18:41,288 --> 00:18:43,990
SO SHE CAN STOP
NAGGING ME NOW.

348
00:18:44,090 --> 00:18:46,593
YOU KNOW WHAT
THEY RECOMMEND

349
00:18:46,693 --> 00:18:49,662
IF YOU TEST POSITIVE
FOR THE GENE?

350
00:18:49,762 --> 00:18:51,531
PROPHYLACTIC MASTECTOMY.

351
00:18:51,631 --> 00:18:54,501
THAT'S REMOVING
BOTH YOUR BREASTS
BEFORE YOU'RE SICK.

352
00:18:54,601 --> 00:18:57,136
DOESN'T MATTER
WHAT THE RESULT IS.

353
00:18:57,237 --> 00:18:59,972
I'M NOT GONNA HAVE
THAT OPERATION.

354
00:19:00,072 --> 00:19:02,642
YOU WOULDN'T EVER
CONSIDER HAVING IT?

355
00:19:02,742 --> 00:19:05,378
MY SISTER HAD TO
HAVE MASTECTOMIES.
SHE HAD CANCER.

356
00:19:05,478 --> 00:19:07,614
THE DOCTOR SAID THAT
WAS HER BEST CHANCE.

357
00:19:07,714 --> 00:19:10,383
SHE NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT IT.
SHE HAD THEM REMOVED.

358
00:19:10,483 --> 00:19:12,252
SHE NEVER EVEN
HAD THE RECONSTRUCTION.

359
00:19:12,352 --> 00:19:14,587
SHE SAID IT MADE HER
FEEL POWERFUL,

360
00:19:14,687 --> 00:19:18,057
YOU KNOW, TO BE HERSELF,
SCARS AND ALL.

361
00:19:18,157 --> 00:19:20,560
OH, IT LOOKS--

362
00:19:21,528 --> 00:19:23,596
WHAT?

363
00:19:26,065 --> 00:19:29,336
IZZY AND I WENT TO SEE
HER WHEN SHE CAME HOME
FROM THE HOSPITAL.

364
00:19:29,436 --> 00:19:32,372
SHE REALLY WANTED
TO SHOW US HER CHEST.

365
00:19:32,472 --> 00:19:35,575
I WANTED TO SAY NO,
BUT I COULDN'T.

366
00:19:38,144 --> 00:19:40,913
SHE JUST LIFTED
UP HER SHIRT.

367
00:19:41,013 --> 00:19:43,283
THERE WAS HORIZONTAL
SLASHES.

368
00:19:43,383 --> 00:19:46,185
I MEAN, I ONLY LOOKED
FOR A SECOND.

369
00:19:46,286 --> 00:19:48,521
OF COURSE,
IZZY SCOLDED ME LATER.

370
00:19:48,621 --> 00:19:50,056
SHE SAID,
"MOM, IT'S JUST SKIN."

371
00:19:50,156 --> 00:19:53,059
BUT I COULDN'T BREATHE.

372
00:19:53,159 --> 00:19:56,596
SO I'D BETTER TEST NEGATIVE.

373
00:20:00,433 --> 00:20:03,403
IF MY LIFE HAD BEEN
DIFFERENT, RIGHT?

374
00:20:03,503 --> 00:20:07,674
YOU KNOW, IF RUSSELL
WOULD HAVE STAYED OR...

375
00:20:07,774 --> 00:20:10,877
COUPLES, I THINK, GET CLOSER
WHEN STUFF LIKE THIS HAPPENS.

376
00:20:10,977 --> 00:20:12,679
BUT ALONE?

377
00:20:12,779 --> 00:20:15,448
51.

378
00:20:18,017 --> 00:20:20,420
WHO WOULD EVER WANT ME?

379
00:20:20,520 --> 00:20:23,623
HOW COULD THEY
EVEN SEE ME?

380
00:20:25,525 --> 00:20:28,928
YOU KNOW, WOULD YOU?

381
00:20:34,801 --> 00:20:35,968
I'M SORRY.

382
00:20:36,068 --> 00:20:38,671
I KNOW I'M NOT SUPPOSED
TO ASK YOU THINGS LIKE THAT.

383
00:20:38,771 --> 00:20:41,274
I DIDN'T-- JUST--

384
00:20:45,244 --> 00:20:47,914
YOU'VE--

385
00:20:48,014 --> 00:20:51,651
YOU'VE HAD A GREAT
DEAL OF LOSS

386
00:20:51,751 --> 00:20:53,486
ALL AT ONCE.

387
00:20:53,586 --> 00:20:56,456
RUSSELL, IZZY,
NOW PATRICIA

388
00:20:56,556 --> 00:20:59,892
AND THE THREAT
OF LOSING YOUR BREASTS,

389
00:20:59,992 --> 00:21:03,262
A PART OF YOUR BODY
THAT'S EROTIC AND MATERNAL.

390
00:21:03,363 --> 00:21:05,732
AND THAT COMES AT A TIME
JUST AS IZZY HERSELF

391
00:21:05,832 --> 00:21:08,335
IS JUST STARTING
TO BECOME A WOMAN.

392
00:21:17,176 --> 00:21:21,414
DO YOU THINK I COULD JUST
SIT HERE A LITTLE BIT LONGER?

393
00:21:22,649 --> 00:21:25,618
THANKS.

394
00:21:26,719 --> 00:21:29,422
( sighs )

395
00:21:31,591 --> 00:21:34,627
HOW LONG DO I HAVE ABOUT?

396
00:21:39,298 --> 00:21:41,601
ALL RIGHT.

397
00:21:44,837 --> 00:21:48,341
COME ON.

398
00:21:50,076 --> 00:21:52,379
( chuckles )

399
00:21:55,314 --> 00:21:58,184
THANK YOU.

400
00:21:58,284 --> 00:22:01,454
YOU DON'T TELL
ANYBODY THAT I COME
TO SEE YOU, RIGHT?

401
00:22:01,554 --> 00:22:04,491
- OF COURSE NOT.
- GOOD. DON'T.

402
00:22:04,591 --> 00:22:06,926
- OUR SECRET.
- THANKS.

403
00:22:14,401 --> 00:22:17,704
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