1 00:00:06,107 --> 00:00:08,542 ( melancholy music playing ) 2 00:01:08,969 --> 00:01:11,139 ( door opens ) 3 00:02:48,902 --> 00:02:50,804 ( door opens ) 4 00:02:51,939 --> 00:02:54,208 HELLO, MIA. 5 00:02:54,308 --> 00:02:56,977 PAUL, ARE YOU ALL RIGHT? 6 00:02:57,077 --> 00:02:59,613 YEAH, I'M-- I'M FINE. 7 00:03:00,981 --> 00:03:04,585 I'M SO SORRY ABOUT YOUR FATHER. 8 00:03:07,821 --> 00:03:09,923 UH, THANK YOU. 9 00:03:13,160 --> 00:03:15,463 ( theme music playing ) 10 00:03:33,213 --> 00:03:36,284 I FOUND OUT FROM ELLIS AT WORK. 11 00:03:38,151 --> 00:03:41,489 - HOW ARE YOU? - I'M-- I'M FINE. 12 00:03:43,090 --> 00:03:45,326 YOU CAN'T REALLY BE FINE. 13 00:03:47,194 --> 00:03:49,797 I KNOW THAT I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO TALK TO YOUR LAWYER, 14 00:03:49,897 --> 00:03:53,233 BUT YOU NEVER CANCELED ON ME BEFORE. 15 00:03:54,835 --> 00:03:57,204 WELL, SOME THINGS ARE BIGGER THAN PROTOCOL, AREN'T THEY? 16 00:03:57,305 --> 00:03:59,740 I MEAN, LIFE AND DEATH, 17 00:03:59,840 --> 00:04:01,942 AND LOSING A FATHER. 18 00:04:07,247 --> 00:04:09,350 PAUL? 19 00:04:11,118 --> 00:04:12,586 SORRY. 20 00:04:12,686 --> 00:04:15,222 IT'S IRONIC THAT WE WERE TALKING 21 00:04:15,323 --> 00:04:17,458 ABOUT YOUR FATHER LAST SESSION. 22 00:04:17,558 --> 00:04:19,059 YEAH. 23 00:04:19,159 --> 00:04:21,094 I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT THAT. 24 00:04:21,194 --> 00:04:25,566 YOU KNOW, THE STRANGE THING IS I HAVEN'T SPOKEN TO HIM SINCE THEN. 25 00:04:25,666 --> 00:04:29,102 BUT I CAN'T IMAGINE WHAT I WOULD DO IF... 26 00:04:29,202 --> 00:04:31,439 MM-HMM. I'M SORRY. 27 00:04:31,539 --> 00:04:34,508 THIS-- THIS IS NOT ABOUT ME TODAY. 28 00:04:35,476 --> 00:04:37,210 DID YOU GET MY CARD? 29 00:04:37,311 --> 00:04:41,048 I STOOD IN THAT STORE FOREVER 30 00:04:41,148 --> 00:04:42,450 TRYING TO PICK IT OUT, YOU KNOW? 31 00:04:42,550 --> 00:04:45,353 WHAT KIND OF PICTURE? WHAT KIND OF MESSAGE? 32 00:04:45,453 --> 00:04:49,289 - WHAT DID YOU THINK? - I HAVEN'T READ IT YET. 33 00:04:49,390 --> 00:04:52,460 - BECAUSE I SENT IT? - NO NO NO NO NO. 34 00:04:55,363 --> 00:04:57,365 YOU WERE AWAY ALL LAST WEEK 35 00:04:57,465 --> 00:04:59,367 AND YOU HAVEN'T OPENED YOUR MAIL? 36 00:04:59,467 --> 00:05:01,234 - THAT'S NOT A GOOD SIGN. - ( chuckles ) 37 00:05:01,335 --> 00:05:04,505 SOUNDS LIKE YOU'RE WORRIED ABOUT ME. 38 00:05:04,605 --> 00:05:07,107 WELL, YOU DO LOOK TIRED 39 00:05:07,207 --> 00:05:09,810 AND YOU'RE NOT WEARING A JACKET. 40 00:05:09,910 --> 00:05:11,745 OH. YEAH. 41 00:05:12,946 --> 00:05:15,749 ARE YOU SLEEPING? 42 00:05:15,849 --> 00:05:18,519 - ARE YOU EATING? - NO, I'M FINE. 43 00:05:18,619 --> 00:05:20,921 YEAH, YOU SAID THAT BEFORE. 44 00:05:21,021 --> 00:05:23,657 I KNOW THAT YOU HAVE TO BE THE NEUTRAL SHRINK, 45 00:05:23,757 --> 00:05:25,893 BUT, YOU KNOW, THIS IS A RELATIONSHIP 46 00:05:25,993 --> 00:05:27,895 OF A SORT, ISN'T IT? 47 00:05:27,995 --> 00:05:30,097 YES, IT IS. 48 00:05:32,500 --> 00:05:35,202 AND I APPRECIATE YOUR SYMPATHY. 49 00:05:35,302 --> 00:05:40,574 GRANTED, I AM NOT THE FIRST PERSON YOU WOULD REACH OUT TO. 50 00:05:40,674 --> 00:05:43,310 OUR LAST COUPLE OF SESSIONS, I HAVE BEEN... 51 00:05:43,411 --> 00:05:46,013 A CHALLENGE TO PUT IT MILDLY. 52 00:05:46,113 --> 00:05:48,382 BUT I WAS CONCERNED. 53 00:05:48,482 --> 00:05:50,283 I WONDERED WHO DO YOU HAVE? 54 00:05:50,384 --> 00:05:51,952 I DON'T KNOW IF YOU'RE CLOSE TO YOUR EX. 55 00:05:52,052 --> 00:05:54,488 I ASSUME YOUR KIDS ARE WITH HER. YOU HAVEN'T BEEN 56 00:05:54,588 --> 00:05:56,690 IN NEW YORK THAT LONG AND IT'S HARD TO FIND FRIENDS. 57 00:05:56,790 --> 00:05:59,593 WELL, ARE YOU WORRIED I'M LONELY? ( chuckles ) 58 00:05:59,693 --> 00:06:02,463 NO OFFENSE, BUT I CAN SEE IT IN YOUR FACE. 59 00:06:05,999 --> 00:06:07,935 ( inhales deeply ) 60 00:06:10,704 --> 00:06:14,207 IS IT POSSIBLE THAT YOU'RE AFRAID I'M NOT READY 61 00:06:14,307 --> 00:06:16,944 TO GIVE YOU MY FULL ATTENTION TODAY? 62 00:06:17,044 --> 00:06:19,279 NO. NO, THAT'S NOT IT. 63 00:06:19,379 --> 00:06:22,416 I MEAN, THIS IS ME BEING CARING. IS THAT OKAY? 64 00:06:22,516 --> 00:06:26,086 YEAH, OF COURSE IT IS. IT'S JUST IT'S NOT WHAT YOU... 65 00:06:27,655 --> 00:06:29,890 LOOK, YOU DON'T HAVE TO WORRY 66 00:06:29,990 --> 00:06:33,661 - ABOUT MY FEELINGS. - DOES ANYBODY? 67 00:06:33,761 --> 00:06:35,763 WOULD YOU RATHER I YELL AT YOU FOR CANCELING? 68 00:06:35,863 --> 00:06:39,366 - ARE YOU SAYING YOU FELT LIKE YELLING WHEN I CANCELED? - ( scoffs ) 69 00:06:39,467 --> 00:06:41,702 - IT WAS FINE. - NO OTHER REACTION? 70 00:06:41,802 --> 00:06:45,338 - I GOT OVER IT. - BEFORE OR AFTER YOU HAD SEEN ELLIS? 71 00:06:45,439 --> 00:06:49,176 OKAY, TRUE, I WENT TO ELLIS. 72 00:06:49,276 --> 00:06:51,078 ALSO TRUE I WAS A LITTLE UPSET-- 73 00:06:51,178 --> 00:06:53,213 MORE THAN A LITTLE. 74 00:06:53,313 --> 00:06:55,315 AND THEN I FELT LIKE A JERK 75 00:06:55,415 --> 00:06:57,551 WHEN I FOUND OUT WHY YOU HAD CANCELED. 76 00:07:01,421 --> 00:07:04,257 BUT THAT WAS LAST WEEK, 77 00:07:04,357 --> 00:07:06,960 AND NOW EVERYTHING'S CHANGED. 78 00:07:07,060 --> 00:07:10,631 OH? WHY IS THAT? 79 00:07:12,733 --> 00:07:15,135 BECAUSE I'M PREGNANT. 80 00:07:25,513 --> 00:07:27,781 - OH, THAT'S-- - ( giggles ) 81 00:07:27,881 --> 00:07:30,350 --THAT'S REALLY 82 00:07:30,450 --> 00:07:33,286 BIG NEWS. 83 00:07:33,386 --> 00:07:35,523 NO KIDDING. 84 00:07:37,190 --> 00:07:40,661 - ARE YOU SURPRISED? - YES. 85 00:07:41,995 --> 00:07:43,330 YEAH, ME TOO, 86 00:07:43,430 --> 00:07:48,301 ESPECIALLY WITH MY F.S.H. LEVELS. 87 00:07:48,401 --> 00:07:52,573 IT'S STRANGE TIMING WITH US-- 88 00:07:52,673 --> 00:07:55,509 LIFE AND DEATH. 89 00:08:10,223 --> 00:08:12,626 DO YOU WANNA HAVE THE SESSION OUT IN THE SNOW? 90 00:08:12,726 --> 00:08:15,596 - I MEAN-- - OH, UH... 91 00:08:15,696 --> 00:08:17,831 SORRY. YOU WERE TELLING ME 92 00:08:17,931 --> 00:08:20,968 ABOUT YOUR F.S.H. LEVELS. 93 00:08:21,068 --> 00:08:22,469 NO, WE WERE PAST THAT. 94 00:08:22,570 --> 00:08:25,505 I WAS TALKING ABOUT OUR TIMING. 95 00:08:27,841 --> 00:08:29,910 20 YEARS AGO YOU WERE HAVING 96 00:08:30,010 --> 00:08:31,979 YOUR FIRST CHILD AND I WAS LOSING MINE. 97 00:08:32,079 --> 00:08:35,683 YEAH. SO HAVE YOU BEEN THINKING ABOUT THAT TIME? 98 00:08:35,783 --> 00:08:37,685 IT'S DIFFERENT. IT'S DIFFERENT THIS TIME. 99 00:08:37,785 --> 00:08:40,554 I KNOW EVERYBODY SAYS YOU GET PREGNANT AND EVERYTHING CHANGES, 100 00:08:40,654 --> 00:08:41,822 BUT IT'S REALLY TRUE. 101 00:08:41,922 --> 00:08:44,191 I MEAN, MY BODY FEELS TOTALLY DIFFERENT. 102 00:08:44,291 --> 00:08:47,094 I'VE STOPPED SMOKING, YOU KNOW? 103 00:08:47,194 --> 00:08:49,730 THERE'S-- THERE'S THIS PRESCHOOL ON MY BLOCK 104 00:08:49,830 --> 00:08:51,431 THAT I ALWAYS AVOID 105 00:08:51,531 --> 00:08:53,200 BECAUSE IT'S MOMS 106 00:08:53,300 --> 00:08:55,435 WITH THEIR HUMVEE STROLLERS 107 00:08:55,535 --> 00:08:56,937 BLOCKING EVERYONE, 108 00:08:57,037 --> 00:08:59,439 LIKE THEY'RE PRIVILEGED BECAUSE THEY PROCREATED. 109 00:08:59,539 --> 00:09:03,143 NOW I JUST WALK THROUGH SMILING. 110 00:09:03,243 --> 00:09:06,279 SO YOU WENT FROM JEALOUSY 111 00:09:06,379 --> 00:09:09,983 TO FEELING LIKE PART OF THE CLUB. 112 00:09:10,083 --> 00:09:12,853 AT WORK, BENNETT-- 113 00:09:12,953 --> 00:09:15,122 WHO'S LEAVING FRIDAY, FINALLY-- 114 00:09:15,222 --> 00:09:17,524 HE HAD ASKED ME TO TAKE OVER THIS BIG CASE, 115 00:09:17,625 --> 00:09:20,828 YOU KNOW, ASSUMING THAT I WOULD JUST CRUSH THE OTHER SIDE AS USUAL. 116 00:09:20,928 --> 00:09:22,863 BUT I TOOK ONE LOOK AT THE POOR FAMILY 117 00:09:22,963 --> 00:09:25,065 AND I CUT A DEAL. HE WAS PISSED. 118 00:09:25,165 --> 00:09:28,902 MMM. YOU'RE SURE YOU'RE NOT TRYING 119 00:09:29,002 --> 00:09:32,205 - TO PUNISH BENNETT? - HE'S MARRYING STEFANIE. 120 00:09:32,305 --> 00:09:34,341 THAT'LL BE PUNISHMENT ENOUGH. 121 00:09:34,441 --> 00:09:35,976 I FEEL BAD FOR THEIR KID, YOU KNOW? 122 00:09:36,076 --> 00:09:38,311 I MEAN, HE'S A DOUBLE ADULTERER AND SHE'S A BIMBO. 123 00:09:41,148 --> 00:09:44,785 - WHY ARE WE TALKING ABOUT BENNETT? - WELL, YOU BROUGHT HIM UP. 124 00:09:44,885 --> 00:09:48,021 AND HE IS SOMEBODY THAT YOU DID WANT TO HAVE A CHILD WITH. 125 00:09:48,121 --> 00:09:49,690 IT'S-- IT'S NOT HIS. 126 00:09:49,790 --> 00:09:51,792 I DID THE MATH. 127 00:09:51,892 --> 00:09:53,894 STILL, IT'S INTERESTING THAT YOU FOUND OUT 128 00:09:53,994 --> 00:09:55,829 THAT BENNETT WAS HAVING A BABY 129 00:09:55,929 --> 00:09:58,932 AND A COUPLE OF WEEKS LATER YOU'RE PREGNANT. 130 00:09:59,032 --> 00:10:01,368 ARE YOU SAYING THAT I'M COMPETING WITH BENNETT? 131 00:10:01,468 --> 00:10:04,471 THAT'S WHAT YOU THINK I THINK? 132 00:10:04,571 --> 00:10:06,106 "THAT'S WHAT YOU THINK I THINK"? 133 00:10:06,206 --> 00:10:08,441 PAUL, I'M HAVING A BABY 134 00:10:08,541 --> 00:10:09,943 BECAUSE I WENT ON A SEX SPREE 135 00:10:10,043 --> 00:10:12,279 THAT WEEKEND WITHOUT USING PROTECTION. 136 00:10:12,379 --> 00:10:15,448 MAYBE THAT WASN'T THE SMARTEST THING BUT MAYBE IT WAS. 137 00:10:15,548 --> 00:10:18,151 SO MAYBE YOU WEREN'T JUST BEING RECKLESS. 138 00:10:18,251 --> 00:10:22,355 MAYBE YOU MIGHT HAVE BEEN TRYING TO GET PREGNANT. 139 00:10:22,455 --> 00:10:26,326 I FIGURE IT WAS GUITAR BOY AND NOT THE MIDDLE-AGED COP, 140 00:10:26,426 --> 00:10:28,261 WHICH IS GOOD, 141 00:10:28,361 --> 00:10:31,498 BECAUSE THERE WON'T BE ANY PATERNITY ISSUES IF I DECIDE NOT TO TELL. 142 00:10:31,598 --> 00:10:35,302 GUITAR BOY DOESN'T EVEN HAVE MY NUMBER OR MY LAST NAME. 143 00:10:35,402 --> 00:10:36,804 SO YOU DON'T WANT HIM INVOLVED? 144 00:10:36,904 --> 00:10:38,638 I KNOW THE BABY NEEDS A FATHER, 145 00:10:38,739 --> 00:10:41,041 BUT NOT ONE LIKE THAT. 146 00:10:46,613 --> 00:10:50,650 DOES THIS SILENCE MEAN YOU'RE APPALLED? 147 00:10:52,853 --> 00:10:54,988 HEY, I'M PREGNANT. 148 00:10:56,589 --> 00:10:58,491 I THOUGHT THAT 149 00:10:58,591 --> 00:11:00,627 YOU WOULD BE HAPPY, 150 00:11:00,728 --> 00:11:02,730 THAT WE'D CELEBRATE. 151 00:11:03,897 --> 00:11:06,333 THIS IS REALLY BAD TIMING. I KNOW. 152 00:11:09,970 --> 00:11:12,339 WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE ME TO SAY, MIA? 153 00:11:14,141 --> 00:11:17,711 "WOW, MIA! THAT'S AMAZING! 154 00:11:17,811 --> 00:11:20,180 YOU CAME IN HERE SAYING YOU WANTED A FAMILY, A CHILD, 155 00:11:20,280 --> 00:11:22,349 AND THEN YOU GOT IT. CONGRATULATIONS." 156 00:11:22,449 --> 00:11:24,885 IN OTHER WORDS, YOU HAD A PROBLEM AND NOW YOU HAVE A SOLUTION? 157 00:11:24,985 --> 00:11:26,820 WELL, CAN'T THAT HAPPEN EVER? 158 00:11:26,920 --> 00:11:28,188 OF COURSE. IT SOUNDS IDEAL. 159 00:11:28,288 --> 00:11:30,257 WHAT ELSE WOULD YOU LIKE TO HEAR FROM ME? 160 00:11:30,357 --> 00:11:31,959 THIS GAME AGAIN? OKAY. 161 00:11:32,059 --> 00:11:33,927 HOW ABOUT "DON'T WORRY. 162 00:11:34,027 --> 00:11:36,997 YOU'RE GOING TO BE A GOOD MOM AND I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU." 163 00:11:37,097 --> 00:11:38,698 COULD YOU TELL ME WHAT THAT MEANS, 164 00:11:38,799 --> 00:11:40,333 "I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU"? 165 00:11:40,433 --> 00:11:42,069 I HAVE MAJOR DECISIONS TO MAKE. 166 00:11:42,169 --> 00:11:45,072 - LIKE WHAT? - LIKE DO I NEED A DOULA? 167 00:11:45,172 --> 00:11:47,007 SHOULD I HAVE GENETIC TESTING? 168 00:11:47,107 --> 00:11:48,976 WILL MY APARTMENT BE BIG ENOUGH? 169 00:11:49,076 --> 00:11:51,178 AND YOU WANT ME TO HELP YOU WITH THOSE DECISIONS? 170 00:11:51,278 --> 00:11:52,746 HOW MUCH TIME SHOULD I TAKE OFF? 171 00:11:52,846 --> 00:11:54,948 OR SHOULD I JUST QUIT AND MOVE TO THE COUNTRY? 172 00:11:55,048 --> 00:11:57,284 THESE ARE ALL BIG QUESTIONS. 173 00:11:57,384 --> 00:12:00,087 YOUR SISTERS HAVE CHILDREN. HAVE YOU SPOKEN TO THEM? 174 00:12:00,187 --> 00:12:02,622 THEY'RE BUSY WITH THEIR OWN KIDS. 175 00:12:02,722 --> 00:12:04,825 AND MY MOTHER? FORGET IT. 176 00:12:06,326 --> 00:12:08,896 AND MY DAD, HE LOVES HIS GRANDCHILDREN, 177 00:12:08,996 --> 00:12:12,966 BUT HE DOESN'T DO ANYTHING. 178 00:12:13,066 --> 00:12:15,202 HE JUST LETS THEM ADMIRE HIM. 179 00:12:15,302 --> 00:12:18,371 YOU SOUND SURE THAT YOUR MOTHER WOULDN'T WANT TO HELP YOU, 180 00:12:18,471 --> 00:12:20,473 BUT SHE DID WITH YOUR SISTERS. 181 00:12:20,573 --> 00:12:23,476 THAT'S DIFFERENT-- THEY'RE YOUNGER, THEY'RE MARRIED... 182 00:12:25,412 --> 00:12:27,247 AND SHE ACTUALLY LIKES THEM. 183 00:12:27,347 --> 00:12:30,483 - AND SHE DOESN'T LIKE YOU? - FOR ME SHE WAS LESS OF A MOM 184 00:12:30,583 --> 00:12:32,585 AND MORE OF A VASE-- 185 00:12:32,685 --> 00:12:34,955 BEAUTIFUL, BUT HARD TO THE TOUCH. 186 00:12:35,055 --> 00:12:36,890 THAT'S A VERY POWERFUL IMAGE. 187 00:12:36,990 --> 00:12:39,960 SHE WAS BEAUTIFUL UNTIL I RUINED HER FIGURE. 188 00:12:40,060 --> 00:12:42,629 OH YES, HER MANTRA. 189 00:12:42,729 --> 00:12:45,098 HAS THAT BEEN ON YOUR MIND THIS WEEK? 190 00:12:45,198 --> 00:12:47,067 I'VE ALWAYS KEPT IN SHAPE. 191 00:12:47,167 --> 00:12:49,402 I THINK MEN LIKE THAT-- AND NOW THAT'LL ALL GO. 192 00:12:49,502 --> 00:12:52,672 I HEAR YOUR FEET GET BIGGER. I HATE BIG FEET. 193 00:12:52,772 --> 00:12:56,776 NOT TO MENTION WHAT BIRTH DOES TO SEX. 194 00:12:58,078 --> 00:12:59,847 I MEAN, YOU'VE BEEN THERE. 195 00:12:59,947 --> 00:13:03,016 IT STRETCHES, RIGHT? 196 00:13:04,684 --> 00:13:06,586 THE SIZE OF A BABY'S HEAD 197 00:13:06,686 --> 00:13:08,288 COMPARED TO THE SIZE OF A PENIS? 198 00:13:08,388 --> 00:13:09,957 THAT CAN'T BE GOOD. 199 00:13:10,057 --> 00:13:12,559 AND THE MAN THING IS OVER, ISN'T IT? 200 00:13:12,659 --> 00:13:15,295 GUYS MY AGE, THEY HAVE GROWN KIDS. 201 00:13:15,395 --> 00:13:17,364 THEY DON'T WANT TO CHANGE DIAPERS AGAIN. 202 00:13:17,464 --> 00:13:21,268 - I MEAN, WOULD YOU? - WHAT-- WHAT ARE YOU ASKING ME? 203 00:13:21,368 --> 00:13:24,037 COME ON, PAUL, JUST ANSWER MY QUESTION. 204 00:13:24,137 --> 00:13:27,875 IF SOMEONE LIKE ME WOULD BE ATTRACTED TO A WOMAN LIKE YOU? 205 00:13:27,975 --> 00:13:30,543 WE'VE ALREADY DONE THAT. I GET IT-- WE'RE NOT A COUPLE. 206 00:13:30,643 --> 00:13:33,914 I'M SAYING HYPOTHETICALLY 207 00:13:34,014 --> 00:13:37,284 IF I GOT FAT, EMOTIONAL-- 208 00:13:37,384 --> 00:13:39,619 MORE EMOTIONAL-- 209 00:13:39,719 --> 00:13:42,055 IF I HAD TO CATER TO AN INFANT-- 210 00:13:42,155 --> 00:13:44,124 I DON'T THINK THAT RULES OUT ALL MEN. 211 00:13:44,224 --> 00:13:46,994 SO I COULD STILL GET THE DROOLING GUY ON THE BACK OF THE 6 TRAIN? 212 00:13:47,094 --> 00:13:49,629 I MEAN, LOOK, HAVING A CHILD 213 00:13:49,729 --> 00:13:52,132 CAN RUIN EVEN A GOOD RELATIONSHIP. 214 00:13:54,067 --> 00:13:55,969 IS THAT WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU? 215 00:13:56,069 --> 00:13:58,638 YOUR WIFE DID ALL THE CHILD-REARING 216 00:13:58,738 --> 00:14:01,341 WHILE YOU SAT IN THAT CHAIR LISTENING TO PEOPLE'S PROBLEMS? 217 00:14:01,441 --> 00:14:03,376 SHE ACTUALLY DEALT WITH PEOPLE'S PROBLEMS? 218 00:14:03,476 --> 00:14:05,112 IT MUST'VE PISSED HER OFF. 219 00:14:05,212 --> 00:14:09,282 OBVIOUSLY, SOMETHING DID. 220 00:14:12,685 --> 00:14:15,822 BUT I'D RATHER TALK ABOUT YOUR ANGER THAN MY EX-WIFE'S. 221 00:14:15,923 --> 00:14:18,225 FAIR ENOUGH. 222 00:14:22,896 --> 00:14:24,831 WHO-- WHOSE ARE THOSE? 223 00:14:24,932 --> 00:14:28,201 YOURS OR YOUR KIDS? 224 00:14:31,171 --> 00:14:33,540 AND WHY ARE THEY IN HERE? 225 00:14:40,948 --> 00:14:43,250 ARE YOU THIS RESPONSIVE WITH YOUR KIDS 226 00:14:43,350 --> 00:14:45,919 OR ARE YOU DIFFERENT AS A DAD? 227 00:14:46,019 --> 00:14:48,221 OH. OKAY, GREAT. YOU'RE BORED? 228 00:14:48,321 --> 00:14:50,991 YOU'RE ANNOYED? YOU CAN'T WAIT TILL I GET OUT OF HERE? 229 00:14:51,091 --> 00:14:52,926 AND WE'RE BACK TO YOUR DEFAULT-- 230 00:14:53,026 --> 00:14:54,594 THAT I WANT TO KICK YOU OUT. 231 00:14:54,694 --> 00:14:57,297 YOU DID JUST LOOK AT YOUR WATCH. YOU HAVE NEVER DONE THAT. 232 00:14:57,397 --> 00:14:59,967 - I'VE NEVER WORN A WATCH BEFORE. - THAT IS NOT THE POINT. 233 00:15:00,067 --> 00:15:02,535 I AM RIGHT. YOU SHOULD NOT BE WORKING THIS WEEK. 234 00:15:02,635 --> 00:15:05,605 - I'M FINE, MIA. - IF I SAID "I'M FINE" FOUR TIMES, 235 00:15:05,705 --> 00:15:07,207 YOU WOULD BE ALL OVER ME. 236 00:15:07,307 --> 00:15:09,242 YOU'RE NOT EVEN IN THE ROOM, EMOTIONALLY. 237 00:15:09,342 --> 00:15:11,678 ADMIT IT. WHY DID YOU LOOK AT YOUR WATCH? 238 00:15:11,778 --> 00:15:14,481 IT'S MY FATHER'S WATCH. 239 00:15:16,683 --> 00:15:19,086 I'M SORRY. I MUST HAVE GLANCED WITHOUT MEANING TO 240 00:15:19,186 --> 00:15:23,223 WHEN YOU MENTIONED THE WORD "DAD." 241 00:15:23,323 --> 00:15:25,258 OH. 242 00:15:27,027 --> 00:15:28,795 IT'S NOT EVEN TICKING. 243 00:15:28,895 --> 00:15:31,064 TIME STOPS WHEN I'M HERE. 244 00:15:32,765 --> 00:15:36,603 IF I WASN'T PREGNANT, WE COULD CALL IT A DAY AND GO TO A BAR. 245 00:15:36,703 --> 00:15:39,472 - THAT WOULD BE BETTER FOR BOTH OF US. - IS THIS THE BAR IN SOHO 246 00:15:39,572 --> 00:15:41,874 WHERE YOU HOPED WE'D RUN INTO EACH OTHER? 247 00:15:41,975 --> 00:15:45,212 YEAH, ALTHOUGH THIS TIME WE COULD ACT LIKE WE'D JUST MET. 248 00:15:45,312 --> 00:15:47,647 AS IN "HELLO, IS THIS SEAT TAKEN?" 249 00:15:47,747 --> 00:15:51,218 - ( both chuckle ) - RIGHT. AND I'D SAY, "NO. HI. 250 00:15:51,318 --> 00:15:52,885 I JUST FOUND OUT I'M PREGNANT 251 00:15:52,986 --> 00:15:54,587 AFTER A BINGE WEEKEND OF ANONYMOUS SEX." 252 00:15:54,687 --> 00:15:57,624 AND YOU WOULD SAY "MY FATHER JUST DIED." 253 00:15:57,724 --> 00:16:00,760 THEN WE'D GET PLASTERED AND FLY TO VEGAS AND GET MARRIED. 254 00:16:00,860 --> 00:16:04,297 - AND THEN WHAT? - OH, YOU KNOW ME, I'D FUCK IT UP. 255 00:16:04,397 --> 00:16:06,466 - BUT IT WAS FUN, WASN'T IT? - I CAN SEE HOW 256 00:16:06,566 --> 00:16:08,868 WE BOTH COULD THINK IT WOULD SOLVE OUR PROBLEMS. 257 00:16:08,968 --> 00:16:10,603 DON'T GO OVERBOARD. 258 00:16:12,172 --> 00:16:14,941 MIA, I THINK THERE'S TWO ISSUES HERE: 259 00:16:15,042 --> 00:16:18,411 ONE, YOUR FEELINGS ABOUT THE PREGNANCY; 260 00:16:18,511 --> 00:16:21,048 TWO, YOUR FEELINGS ABOUT NOT HAVING A PARTNER. 261 00:16:21,148 --> 00:16:24,484 AND IT COULD BE THAT THEY'RE... 262 00:16:24,584 --> 00:16:26,453 INTERTWINED. 263 00:16:26,553 --> 00:16:28,321 I MEAN, YOU'VE SAID A FEW TIMES 264 00:16:28,421 --> 00:16:31,491 THAT IT FEELS LIKE I'M NOT IN THE ROOM TODAY. 265 00:16:31,591 --> 00:16:33,926 YOU MENTIONED YOU'RE WORRIED THAT HAVING A BABY IS GONNA 266 00:16:34,027 --> 00:16:36,829 MAKE YOU FEEL LESS PHYSICALLY ATTRACTIVE. 267 00:16:36,929 --> 00:16:40,967 IS IT THAT YOU'RE AFRAID THAT NO ONE WILL BE THERE FOR YOU 268 00:16:41,068 --> 00:16:43,370 IF YOU HAVE A CHILD? 269 00:16:43,470 --> 00:16:45,538 WELL, I WILL BE A SINGLE MOM. 270 00:16:45,638 --> 00:16:48,041 - THAT'S HARDER. - YES. 271 00:16:48,141 --> 00:16:49,542 IT CAN BE. 272 00:16:49,642 --> 00:16:51,911 AND OKAY, I ADMIT IT ISN'T MY FIRST CHOICE 273 00:16:52,011 --> 00:16:54,481 BUT I CAN'T HAVE MY FIRST CHOICE. 274 00:16:54,581 --> 00:16:57,384 THIS IS WHAT I HAVE. IT'S NOT PICTURE PERFECT. 275 00:16:57,484 --> 00:16:59,586 AND WHAT'S PICTURE PERFECT? 276 00:17:02,122 --> 00:17:05,225 ME, A BABY AND A MAN. 277 00:17:05,325 --> 00:17:08,495 AND WHAT KIND OF MAN? 278 00:17:08,595 --> 00:17:10,663 - WHAT? I DON'T KNOW. - NO IDEA? 279 00:17:10,763 --> 00:17:13,933 THAT'S NOT THE POINT. WHY AREN'T YOU ENCOURAGING ME? 280 00:17:14,033 --> 00:17:15,435 YOU'RE IN THE MOOD TO CELEBRATE 281 00:17:15,535 --> 00:17:17,404 AND YOU FEEL THAT I'M NOT JOINING IN THAT. 282 00:17:17,504 --> 00:17:20,073 NO, I THINK THAT YOU THINK 283 00:17:20,173 --> 00:17:22,075 THAT I'M TOO FUCKED UP, 284 00:17:22,175 --> 00:17:23,743 THAT I'LL BE MISERABLE 285 00:17:23,843 --> 00:17:26,779 - AND A DISASTER. - YOU KNOW THAT'S NOT WHAT I SAID. 286 00:17:26,879 --> 00:17:30,450 NEVER MIND. I WILL CALL GUITAR BOY. I'M SURE HE'LL TAKE FULL RESPONSIBILITY. 287 00:17:30,550 --> 00:17:33,253 OR-- OR I'LL JUST DO IT ALL ON MY OWN. 288 00:17:33,353 --> 00:17:35,255 I'LL QUIT MY JOB, I'LL GAIN 100 LBS 289 00:17:35,355 --> 00:17:37,524 AND I'M SURE I'LL STILL BE AS GOOD A MOM AS MY MOM WAS 290 00:17:37,624 --> 00:17:39,692 EXCEPT THAT THIS BABY WON'T HAVE A DAD. 291 00:17:39,792 --> 00:17:42,562 - WHY DON'T YOU JUST TAKE A BREATH? - GOD, I NEED TO SMOKE. 292 00:17:42,662 --> 00:17:44,664 OH. YOU WON'T LET ME. 293 00:17:44,764 --> 00:17:46,933 I THOUGHT YOU HAD QUIT BECAUSE YOU'RE PREGNANT. 294 00:17:47,033 --> 00:17:48,668 ONE CIGARETTE ISN'T GOING TO DO ANY HARM. 295 00:17:48,768 --> 00:17:52,172 - I'D RATHER YOU DIDN'T. - I'M IN WITHDRAWAL, OKAY? 296 00:17:52,272 --> 00:17:54,274 - I THINK YOU'RE AGITATED. - ( sighs ) 297 00:17:54,374 --> 00:17:56,709 WHY DO PEOPLE HAVE CHILDREN ANYHOW? 298 00:17:58,445 --> 00:18:01,181 THEY WANT LITTLE VERSIONS OF THEMSELVES 299 00:18:01,281 --> 00:18:05,418 TO GAZE UP AND SAY "I LOVE YOU"? 300 00:18:05,518 --> 00:18:07,420 THEY WANT TO RELIVE THEIR OWN CHILDHOODS? 301 00:18:07,520 --> 00:18:09,756 THAT-- THAT IS THE LAST THING I WANT TO DO. 302 00:18:11,224 --> 00:18:13,426 THE TRUTH IS I LIKE VISITING MY NIECES, 303 00:18:13,526 --> 00:18:15,462 BUT I CANNOT WAIT TO GET HOME. 304 00:18:15,562 --> 00:18:17,497 YOU DON'T GIVE ME THAT SENSE. 305 00:18:17,597 --> 00:18:20,133 WHAT WAS I THINKING, SLEEPING AROUND LIKE THAT? 306 00:18:20,233 --> 00:18:21,368 IF I HAD WANTED A CHILD, 307 00:18:21,468 --> 00:18:23,570 I WOULD'VE HAD ONE BY NOW. 308 00:18:23,670 --> 00:18:26,639 MAYBE I SHOULD GIVE IT UP FOR ADOPTION. 309 00:18:26,739 --> 00:18:28,107 SO... 310 00:18:28,208 --> 00:18:32,479 YOU DON'T WANT TO HAVE THE BABY? 311 00:18:34,113 --> 00:18:36,316 I'M JUST... 312 00:18:37,384 --> 00:18:39,319 GO ON, MIA. JUST TALK THROUGH IT. 313 00:18:39,419 --> 00:18:41,788 IT'S-- TELL ME WHAT YOU'RE FEELING. 314 00:18:41,888 --> 00:18:44,090 - IT'S OKAY. THESE FEELINGS-- - NO, SHUT UP. 315 00:18:44,191 --> 00:18:45,225 SHUT UP. IT'S NOT OKAY. 316 00:18:45,325 --> 00:18:47,160 THIS ISN'T JUST MY FEELINGS. 317 00:18:47,260 --> 00:18:49,262 THIS IS IT, RIGHT? 318 00:18:49,362 --> 00:18:52,299 THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE... 319 00:18:53,233 --> 00:18:56,469 AND I'M-- I'M TOO SCARED? 320 00:18:56,569 --> 00:19:00,440 THIS SOUNDS VERY SIMILAR TO WHAT YOU WERE SAYING 20 YEARS AGO. 321 00:19:03,109 --> 00:19:05,178 YOU'RE RIGHT. 322 00:19:07,547 --> 00:19:10,550 THIS IS JUST HOW IT FELT BACK THEN, ISN'T IT? 323 00:19:12,885 --> 00:19:15,855 I DIDN'T WANT TO HAVE A BABY. I WANTED TO HAVE AN ABORTION. 324 00:19:18,124 --> 00:19:21,928 AND IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT TO DO NOW? 325 00:19:24,631 --> 00:19:26,599 NO. I DON'T KNOW. 326 00:19:29,168 --> 00:19:30,603 I MEAN, COME ON, PAUL. 327 00:19:30,703 --> 00:19:32,639 WE BOTH KNOW I'M-- 328 00:19:32,739 --> 00:19:34,674 I SHOULDN'T GO THROUGH WITH THIS. 329 00:19:34,774 --> 00:19:37,310 MIA, LOOK, I UNDERSTAND THAT YOU MAY BE FEELING 330 00:19:37,410 --> 00:19:40,613 JUST OVERWHELMED RIGHT NOW... 331 00:19:40,713 --> 00:19:43,316 - YEAH, YOU THINK? - ...BUT YOU ARE IN A VERY DIFFERENT PLACE 332 00:19:43,416 --> 00:19:45,618 THAN YOU WERE BACK THEN. SOME OF YOUR CONCERNS ARE-- 333 00:19:45,718 --> 00:19:49,121 THEY'RE PRACTICAL. YOU CAN HANDLE THEM NOW. 334 00:19:49,222 --> 00:19:50,790 YOU KNOW HOW TO HIRE A NANNY, 335 00:19:50,890 --> 00:19:53,226 HOW TO BUY A BIGGER APARTMENT, HOW TO MAKE A LIVING. 336 00:19:53,326 --> 00:19:55,862 BUT MAYBE THE REAL QUESTION IS 337 00:19:57,530 --> 00:20:00,633 DO YOU WANT TO RAISE A CHILD 338 00:20:00,733 --> 00:20:04,537 IF YOU HAVE TO DO IT ON YOUR OWN? 339 00:20:09,876 --> 00:20:11,678 WILL YOU HELP ME? 340 00:20:14,381 --> 00:20:17,216 I-- I CAN HELP YOU AS YOUR THERAPIST. 341 00:20:17,317 --> 00:20:20,219 WELL, I KNOW, BUT I'VE NEVER BEEN A MOTHER 342 00:20:20,320 --> 00:20:22,955 - AND YOU'RE THE FATHER. - I'M THE FATHER? 343 00:20:23,055 --> 00:20:26,459 N-- NO, I MISSPOKE. 344 00:20:26,559 --> 00:20:29,662 YOU'RE NOT THE FATHER. YOU'RE A FATHER. 345 00:20:29,762 --> 00:20:32,799 NEVERTHELESS, YOU DID WANT US TO CELEBRATE, 346 00:20:32,899 --> 00:20:37,003 YOU ASKED IF I WOULD STICK WITH YOU IF YOU WERE PREGNANT 347 00:20:37,103 --> 00:20:39,839 AND THEN YOU IMAGINED HOW WE MIGHT RUN AWAY AND GET MARRIED. 348 00:20:39,939 --> 00:20:43,175 SO IF YOU'RE CREATING A NEW FAMILY, MIA, 349 00:20:43,276 --> 00:20:47,146 IT'S POSSIBLE THAT YOU'D LIKE ME TO BE THERE-- 350 00:20:47,246 --> 00:20:49,482 IN THE PICTURE OR IN THE ROOM. 351 00:20:52,184 --> 00:20:54,687 AND HERE WE ARE. 352 00:20:58,558 --> 00:21:00,960 AND NOW I JUST WANT YOU TO TELL ME THAT 353 00:21:01,060 --> 00:21:05,197 HAVING A BABY MEANS I WON'T BE ALONE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. 354 00:21:05,298 --> 00:21:07,467 ( chuckles ) ACTUALLY, I CAN TELL YOU 355 00:21:07,567 --> 00:21:10,370 THAT IN MY EXPERIENCE AT TIMES IT FEELS LIKE 356 00:21:10,470 --> 00:21:13,540 WHEN YOU HAVE A CHILD, YOU'LL NEVER BE ALONE AGAIN, 357 00:21:13,640 --> 00:21:15,775 OR EVEN HAVE A MOMENT TO YOURSELF. 358 00:21:21,080 --> 00:21:23,883 WHO-- WHO ELSE HAVE YOU TOLD ABOUT THE PREGNANCY? 359 00:21:24,951 --> 00:21:26,686 THIS TIME? 360 00:21:27,387 --> 00:21:29,188 NO ONE. 361 00:21:29,288 --> 00:21:32,525 EVEN AFTER YOU TOOK THE TEST? 362 00:21:36,429 --> 00:21:39,632 I THINK YOU'RE RIGHT, PAUL. I DO WANT TO PULL YOU IN. 363 00:21:44,236 --> 00:21:46,339 OF COURSE, YOU KNOW I-- 364 00:21:46,439 --> 00:21:50,309 I'M SCARED. I'M WORRIED ABOUT DOING IT ON MY OWN. 365 00:21:53,746 --> 00:21:55,314 BUT I HEARD WHAT YOU SAID. 366 00:21:55,415 --> 00:21:57,950 I'M NOT THE SAME PERSON I WAS 20 YEARS AGO. 367 00:22:04,757 --> 00:22:07,694 THERE'S JUST THIS NEW LIFE. 368 00:22:09,829 --> 00:22:11,664 I CAN FEEL IT. 369 00:22:13,600 --> 00:22:15,968 AND THIS TIME I WANT IT. 370 00:22:19,372 --> 00:22:21,841 YOU REALLY DO. 371 00:22:26,713 --> 00:22:29,616 AND I'LL TRY MY BEST TO BE A GOOD MOTHER... 372 00:22:30,650 --> 00:22:33,853 EVEN IF I'M AFRAID AND EVEN IF 373 00:22:33,953 --> 00:22:35,888 IT'S JUST ME. 374 00:22:43,029 --> 00:22:46,165 I THINK MAYBE THIS IS A GOOD PLACE TO STOP. 375 00:22:46,265 --> 00:22:49,101 OH. WOW, THAT WENT FAST. 376 00:22:49,201 --> 00:22:52,505 IT'S OKAY. I'D BETTER GET GOING. 377 00:22:52,605 --> 00:22:56,142 THE SUBWAYS ARE GOING TO BE ALL SCREWED UP. 378 00:22:56,242 --> 00:22:58,310 BUT YOU-- ( clears throat ) 379 00:22:58,411 --> 00:23:00,079 YOU SHOULD TAKE THE REST OF THE DAY OFF-- 380 00:23:00,179 --> 00:23:02,415 A SNOW DAY. 381 00:23:02,515 --> 00:23:06,018 GO FOR A WALK IN THE PARK. EAT SOMETHING. 382 00:23:06,118 --> 00:23:08,855 THANK YOU. 383 00:23:10,122 --> 00:23:11,724 AND, PAUL... 384 00:23:13,560 --> 00:23:15,795 PLEASE BE HAPPY FOR ME. 385 00:23:46,759 --> 00:23:49,428 ( theme music playing )