1 00:00:05,739 --> 00:00:08,576 Man: PREVIOUSLY, ON "IN TREATMENT"... 2 00:00:08,676 --> 00:00:11,912 YOU'VE BEEN FIGHTING ME FOR TWO MONTHS, 3 00:00:12,012 --> 00:00:13,914 SAYING, "LAURA, LAURA LAURA..." 4 00:00:14,014 --> 00:00:17,085 AND YOU'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS IMAGINARY "GINA" OF YOURS 5 00:00:17,185 --> 00:00:18,986 TO GIVE YOU HER BLESSING. 6 00:00:19,087 --> 00:00:20,321 PAUL, 7 00:00:20,421 --> 00:00:23,257 I'M NOT WHAT'S STOPPING YOU. 8 00:00:23,357 --> 00:00:25,426 YOU'RE FIGHTING YOURSELF. 9 00:00:25,526 --> 00:00:28,696 MAYBE YOU CAN ONLY BE THE PAUL YOU WANT TO BE 10 00:00:28,796 --> 00:00:29,930 WITH HER. 11 00:00:30,030 --> 00:00:32,966 SO GO TO HER. 12 00:00:33,067 --> 00:00:34,568 FIND OUT. 13 00:00:50,284 --> 00:00:52,886 ( line rings ) 14 00:00:52,986 --> 00:00:56,824 Laura on machine: Hey, it's Laura. I'm not in right now-- 15 00:01:06,567 --> 00:01:09,370 ( line ringing ) 16 00:01:09,470 --> 00:01:11,472 Laura on machine: Hey, it's Laura. I'm not in right now, 17 00:01:11,572 --> 00:01:14,442 but if you leave your name and number i'll call you back. 18 00:01:14,542 --> 00:01:17,245 - ( answering machine beeps ) - LAURA, IT'S-- 19 00:01:17,345 --> 00:01:19,813 IT'S PAUL. ARE YOU THERE? 20 00:01:22,183 --> 00:01:23,851 I GUESS YOU'RE NOT. 21 00:01:25,186 --> 00:01:27,521 I-- I'D REALLY LIKE TO TALK TO YOU. 22 00:01:27,621 --> 00:01:30,624 I-- I know that you're upset, 23 00:01:30,724 --> 00:01:32,460 and... 24 00:01:32,560 --> 00:01:34,228 I understand that I've hurt you. 25 00:01:34,328 --> 00:01:37,298 And believe me when I say 26 00:01:37,398 --> 00:01:39,433 that was the last thing I wanted to do. 27 00:01:39,533 --> 00:01:42,903 And I suppose I should hear what you're saying to me 28 00:01:43,003 --> 00:01:44,872 with your silence... 29 00:01:47,308 --> 00:01:48,942 - HELLO. - Oh. 30 00:01:49,042 --> 00:01:50,811 YOU'RE THERE. 31 00:01:50,911 --> 00:01:52,580 Yes, I'm here. 32 00:01:53,714 --> 00:01:55,249 ARE YOU OKAY? 33 00:01:56,384 --> 00:01:58,018 - YES, I'M OKAY. - Okay. 34 00:01:58,118 --> 00:02:00,654 I-- I've been leaving messages and-- 35 00:02:00,754 --> 00:02:02,423 YEAH, I KNOW YOU HAVE. 36 00:02:04,958 --> 00:02:07,127 I'D REALLY LIKE TO SEE YOU. 37 00:02:09,830 --> 00:02:11,799 I THINK WE SHOULD TALK. 38 00:02:14,702 --> 00:02:17,505 OKAY. 39 00:02:17,605 --> 00:02:20,674 - WHERE DO YOU WANNA MEET? - Come to my house. 40 00:02:20,774 --> 00:02:22,543 You have the address? 41 00:02:23,211 --> 00:02:25,179 YES, I DO. 42 00:02:36,590 --> 00:02:39,560 ( classical music playing ) 43 00:03:00,548 --> 00:03:03,417 WHAT ARE YOU DOING? YOU'RE WATCHING ME SLEEP. 44 00:03:06,186 --> 00:03:07,955 YEAH. 45 00:03:08,055 --> 00:03:09,723 ARE YOU GOING OUT? 46 00:03:11,058 --> 00:03:12,760 YEAH, I'M... 47 00:03:12,860 --> 00:03:14,762 I'M GONNA SEE LAURA. 48 00:03:39,353 --> 00:03:41,955 ( theme music playing ) 49 00:04:19,960 --> 00:04:21,295 ( doorbell rings ) 50 00:04:33,641 --> 00:04:34,808 HI. 51 00:04:34,908 --> 00:04:36,344 HI. 52 00:04:37,878 --> 00:04:39,713 IT'S WEIRD TO BE OPENING A DOOR FOR YOU. 53 00:04:39,813 --> 00:04:41,615 I'M USED TO THE OTHER WAY AROUND. 54 00:04:44,718 --> 00:04:47,120 - YOU SOUND SICK. - IT'S JUST A COLD. 55 00:04:47,220 --> 00:04:49,957 I'M OVER THE WORST OF IT. 56 00:04:50,057 --> 00:04:53,427 - PROBABLY LOOK LIKE SHIT. - YOU LOOK GREAT. 57 00:04:54,562 --> 00:04:56,930 YOU'RE SUCH A LIAR. COME IN. 58 00:05:07,875 --> 00:05:09,777 CAN I TAKE YOUR COAT? 59 00:05:09,877 --> 00:05:11,078 THANK YOU. 60 00:05:13,180 --> 00:05:16,417 - Laura: YOU CUT YOUR HAIR? - NO. 61 00:05:16,517 --> 00:05:19,052 I GUESS I REMEMBER IT LONGER. 62 00:05:20,253 --> 00:05:21,722 WELL, THIS IS-- 63 00:05:21,822 --> 00:05:24,091 - IT'S QUITE A PLACE YOU HAVE HERE. - THANK YOU. 64 00:05:24,191 --> 00:05:25,593 ANDREW DID THE DECORATING. 65 00:05:25,693 --> 00:05:27,828 IT WAS A MESS WHEN WE MET AND THEN IT BECAME THIS. 66 00:05:27,928 --> 00:05:30,464 - BECAUSE OF YOUR INFLUENCE. - OH YEAH, RIGHT. 67 00:05:30,564 --> 00:05:32,500 HE WAS ALWAYS CLEANING UP AFTER ME. 68 00:05:37,070 --> 00:05:38,839 WELL, IT'S 69 00:05:38,939 --> 00:05:42,009 - QUITE A PLACE. - DON'T LOOK IN ANY OF THE CLOSETS. 70 00:05:44,978 --> 00:05:48,281 OH, THOSE ARE THE CHAIRS THAT ANDREW REUPHOLSTERED, REMEMBER? 71 00:05:48,382 --> 00:05:50,283 - I THINK I TOLD YOU ABOUT THOSE. - OH. 72 00:05:50,384 --> 00:05:52,119 MM-HMM. 73 00:05:54,388 --> 00:05:55,823 WEIRD BEING IN A PATIENT'S HOUSE? 74 00:05:55,923 --> 00:05:57,758 YOU'RE NOT A PATIENT. 75 00:06:01,662 --> 00:06:03,063 IS THIS HOW YOU IMAGINED IT? 76 00:06:05,032 --> 00:06:07,435 I DON'T KNOW WHAT I IMAGINED, REALLY. I-- 77 00:06:07,535 --> 00:06:09,970 SMALLER, PERHAPS. 78 00:06:10,070 --> 00:06:12,139 MORE BRIGHT COLORS. 79 00:06:14,475 --> 00:06:16,577 DID YOU SEE THIS EXHIBITION? 80 00:06:16,677 --> 00:06:19,713 NO, I TRIED BUT THE LINES WERE INSANE, 81 00:06:19,813 --> 00:06:21,281 SO I-- I JUST BOUGHT THE POSTER. 82 00:06:21,381 --> 00:06:23,083 DID YOU SEE IT? 83 00:06:23,183 --> 00:06:25,486 YEAH. IT WAS AMAZING. 84 00:06:25,586 --> 00:06:26,787 IT WAS A BIT OF A ZOO. 85 00:06:26,887 --> 00:06:30,057 NOT THE OPTIMAL WAY TO LOOK AT ART. 86 00:06:30,157 --> 00:06:32,460 ANYWAY, WE-- 87 00:06:32,560 --> 00:06:36,797 WE TACKLED OUR WAY THROUGH IT. 88 00:06:40,601 --> 00:06:42,135 DO YOU WANT SOMETHING TO DRINK? 89 00:06:42,235 --> 00:06:45,506 UH, WATER WOULD BE GREAT. THANKS. 90 00:06:48,075 --> 00:06:50,644 YOU-- DO YOU NEED ME TO GIVE YOU A HAND? 91 00:06:50,744 --> 00:06:54,848 FOR A GLASS OF WATER? I THINK I CAN MANAGE. 92 00:07:15,503 --> 00:07:17,971 ( cell phone vibrates ) 93 00:07:24,411 --> 00:07:25,913 ARE YOU SURE JUST WATER? 94 00:07:26,013 --> 00:07:27,748 A FRIEND OF MINE CAME BY AND STOCKED MY FRIDGE. 95 00:07:27,848 --> 00:07:29,650 I GOT JUICE, MINERAL WATER, 96 00:07:29,750 --> 00:07:31,719 SOME AMAZING CHICKEN SOUP. 97 00:07:31,819 --> 00:07:35,422 NO THANKS. IT'S-- IT'S OKAY. 98 00:07:35,523 --> 00:07:37,558 RACK OF LAMB, MAYBE? 99 00:07:42,429 --> 00:07:44,865 SO-- SO HAVE YOU SEEN ANDREW? 100 00:07:46,166 --> 00:07:48,969 ARE YOU ON SPEAKING TERMS? 101 00:07:49,069 --> 00:07:52,172 YEAH. ACTUALLY HE'S THE ONE WHO CAME BY WITH THE SOUP. 102 00:07:52,272 --> 00:07:54,074 WELL, YOU KNOW HOW THINGS ARE, 103 00:07:54,174 --> 00:07:56,844 ONE THING LED TO ANOTHER AND THE NEXT THING YOU KNOW WE WERE... 104 00:08:01,248 --> 00:08:05,318 MY FRIEND JEREMY CAME OVER AND BROUGHT THE FOOD. 105 00:08:05,418 --> 00:08:07,487 ORTHOPEDIC SURGEON. 106 00:08:08,288 --> 00:08:09,857 HE'S GAY. 107 00:08:15,896 --> 00:08:19,399 NO, HE SEEMS FINE. RESIGNED... 108 00:08:19,499 --> 00:08:22,836 OR IS IT RELIEVED? 109 00:08:22,936 --> 00:08:25,539 I WAS KIDDING BEFORE ABOUT ANDREW. I'M SORRY. 110 00:08:25,639 --> 00:08:27,240 I KNOW THAT. 111 00:08:27,340 --> 00:08:29,142 HAVE YOU BEEN UPSET WITH ME? 112 00:08:29,242 --> 00:08:31,545 NOT UPSET-- 113 00:08:33,881 --> 00:08:35,515 FRUSTRATED. 114 00:08:40,554 --> 00:08:42,355 I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT I AM TO YOU, PAUL. 115 00:08:42,455 --> 00:08:44,792 I-- 116 00:08:44,892 --> 00:08:46,760 I MEAN, I'M NOT YOUR LOVER. 117 00:08:47,861 --> 00:08:49,663 I'M NOT YOUR GIRLFRIEND. 118 00:08:49,763 --> 00:08:52,199 I'M NOT YOUR PATIENT. I MEAN, 119 00:08:52,299 --> 00:08:55,068 THE TRUTH IS THAT I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHO WE ARE TO EACH OTHER. 120 00:08:59,573 --> 00:09:02,610 LET'S DECIDE, 121 00:09:02,710 --> 00:09:04,878 ONCE AND FOR ALL. 122 00:09:08,582 --> 00:09:10,884 I KNOW WHAT I WANT. 123 00:09:12,653 --> 00:09:15,222 IS THIS A TEST, PAUL? 124 00:09:15,322 --> 00:09:17,891 LIKE THE LAST ONE? BECAUSE I DON'T THINK I CAN SURVIVE 125 00:09:17,991 --> 00:09:20,060 TWO OF THOSE IN ONE LIFETIME. 126 00:09:21,394 --> 00:09:23,697 I LOVE YOU, LAURA. 127 00:09:26,366 --> 00:09:29,703 YOU WERE RIGHT ABOUT WANTING TO TALK IN PERSON. 128 00:09:32,039 --> 00:09:35,876 IT'S NOT SOMETHING YOU LEAVE ON AN ANSWERING MACHINE. 129 00:09:35,976 --> 00:09:38,746 OF COURSE, I'VE DONE THAT. I ACTUALLY BROKE INTO A GUY'S APARTMENT 130 00:09:38,846 --> 00:09:42,382 - AND TRIED TO ERASE IT-- - I'M NOT GOING TO TAKE IT BACK. 131 00:09:42,482 --> 00:09:44,051 WELL, YOU CAN'T REALLY KNOW THAT, CAN YOU? 132 00:09:44,151 --> 00:09:46,153 YOU DON'T BELIEVE ME. 133 00:09:48,021 --> 00:09:49,522 I'M SORRY. 134 00:09:49,623 --> 00:09:51,659 IS IT BECAUSE I HAVEN'T LEFT HOME? 135 00:09:52,660 --> 00:09:54,294 HOME. WELL... 136 00:09:54,394 --> 00:09:58,131 THAT'S NOT REALLY SOMETHING YOU SHOULD DO ON MY ACCOUNT. 137 00:10:02,035 --> 00:10:03,370 LOOK, I-- 138 00:10:03,470 --> 00:10:05,673 I UNDERSTAND THAT YOU 139 00:10:05,773 --> 00:10:08,275 WOULD BE VIEWING THIS WITH-- 140 00:10:08,375 --> 00:10:10,978 - WITH CAUTION. - DON'T EXPLAIN TO ME WHAT I'M DOING. 141 00:10:12,646 --> 00:10:14,214 OKAY. 142 00:10:14,314 --> 00:10:17,084 OKAY. 143 00:10:19,653 --> 00:10:22,155 SO WHAT CHANGED? 144 00:10:25,726 --> 00:10:28,696 I GUESS I JUST REALIZED WHAT-- 145 00:10:32,199 --> 00:10:33,867 WHAT I WAS GONNA LOSE. 146 00:10:36,569 --> 00:10:38,071 I HAVEN'T SPOKEN TO YOU FOR TWO WEEKS-- 147 00:10:38,171 --> 00:10:40,473 I HAVEN'T SPOKEN TO YOU OR SEEN YOU, 148 00:10:40,573 --> 00:10:41,842 - HEARD FROM YOU. - NO, THAT'LL PASS. 149 00:10:41,942 --> 00:10:43,777 - NO, IT WON'T. - WITH TIME-- YES IT WILL. 150 00:10:43,877 --> 00:10:45,946 YOU'LL GET OVER ME, PAUL. TRUST ME. 151 00:10:46,046 --> 00:10:47,815 YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND, LAURA. 152 00:10:47,915 --> 00:10:51,919 I DON'T WANT TO GET OVER YOU. 153 00:11:02,029 --> 00:11:05,632 I KNOW THAT YOU-- I KNOW THAT YOU TOOK MY INDECISION-- 154 00:11:05,733 --> 00:11:06,633 I'M-- I'M-- 155 00:11:06,734 --> 00:11:08,535 I'M DONE WITH THERAPY. 156 00:11:08,635 --> 00:11:10,137 I'M DONE. 157 00:11:10,237 --> 00:11:12,039 YOU DON'T GET TO TELL ME WHERE MY HEAD IS AT, 158 00:11:12,139 --> 00:11:15,408 OR CLAIM THAT EVERYTHING YOU'RE SAYING TO ME IS FOR MY PROTECTION. 159 00:11:18,611 --> 00:11:20,147 AND WHAT HAPPENED ABOUT THAT ANYWAY? 160 00:11:20,247 --> 00:11:24,151 YOU WERE SO WORRIED THAT I WAS REPEATING OLD PATTERNS WITH YOU, 161 00:11:24,251 --> 00:11:27,487 THAT I WAS-- I WAS-- USING SEX TO BAIL OUT OF MY RELATIONSHIPS. 162 00:11:27,587 --> 00:11:30,390 - I MEAN, YOU'RE NOT WORRIED ABOUT THAT ANYMORE? - NO. 163 00:11:32,559 --> 00:11:34,962 YOU HAVEN'T BEEN CALLING ME BACK. 164 00:11:35,062 --> 00:11:37,330 YOU'RE SETTING LIMITS FOR THE FIRST TIME. 165 00:11:37,430 --> 00:11:38,966 YOU'RE TAKING A STAND. 166 00:11:39,066 --> 00:11:41,468 YOU'RE THINKING THINGS THROUGH. 167 00:11:41,568 --> 00:11:44,071 THIS IS ALL YOU. 168 00:11:44,171 --> 00:11:47,574 OH, SO BY WALKING AWAY FROM YOU IS PROOF THAT I'M READY TO BE WITH YOU? 169 00:11:47,674 --> 00:11:48,876 I MEAN, HOW SHOULD I PROVE THAT I'M OVER YOU, 170 00:11:48,976 --> 00:11:52,412 GIVE YOU THE KEY TO MY HOUSE? ( sighs ) 171 00:11:58,051 --> 00:11:59,252 ARE YOU? 172 00:12:00,821 --> 00:12:02,489 ARE YOU OVER ME? 173 00:12:07,895 --> 00:12:09,162 NO, I'M NOT. 174 00:12:14,734 --> 00:12:18,371 BUT I DON'T WANNA BE HAPPY IN THE MOMENT ANYMORE, PAUL. I WANT IT TO LAST. 175 00:12:21,842 --> 00:12:23,844 I DON'T WANNA BE THE FANTASY THAT-- 176 00:12:23,944 --> 00:12:26,213 THE CURE TO A MARRIAGE THAT RAN OUT OF STEAM, 177 00:12:26,313 --> 00:12:28,949 OR A JOB THAT BECAME ROUTINE. IT'S-- 178 00:12:29,049 --> 00:12:30,383 IT'S JUST TOO MUCH PRESSURE. 179 00:12:30,483 --> 00:12:34,221 - MAYBE YOU'RE AFRAID THAT-- - I-- LOOK, PAUL, 180 00:12:34,321 --> 00:12:35,889 I KNOW THIS IS WHAT YOU THRIVE ON, 181 00:12:35,989 --> 00:12:37,557 ALL THIS BACK-AND-FORTH STUFF, 182 00:12:37,657 --> 00:12:40,193 BUT... 183 00:12:40,293 --> 00:12:42,495 LET'S NOT TALK. 184 00:12:44,064 --> 00:12:45,165 HMM? 185 00:12:45,265 --> 00:12:48,335 WHAT HAPPENS IF YOU JUST DON'T TALK? 186 00:12:55,542 --> 00:12:57,310 OKAY. 187 00:13:04,784 --> 00:13:06,987 YOU DON'T REALLY WANT THIS, PAUL. 188 00:13:10,690 --> 00:13:12,192 DO YOU? 189 00:13:15,395 --> 00:13:17,064 I DO. 190 00:14:45,953 --> 00:14:48,055 ( knocking on door ) 191 00:15:00,467 --> 00:15:02,369 PAUL. 192 00:15:03,670 --> 00:15:05,105 ( sighs ) HI, GINA. 193 00:15:05,205 --> 00:15:07,074 - WHAT'S THE MATTER? - SORRY FOR-- 194 00:15:07,174 --> 00:15:08,976 LOOK, I'M SORRY FOR BARGING IN LIKE THIS-- 195 00:15:09,076 --> 00:15:10,777 NO NO. COME IN. 196 00:15:10,877 --> 00:15:13,513 - ARE YOU SURE? - OH, SURE. COME IN. 197 00:15:13,613 --> 00:15:15,582 WHAT HAPPENED? 198 00:15:15,682 --> 00:15:17,017 OH-- 199 00:15:18,851 --> 00:15:20,453 IT'S-- 200 00:15:25,458 --> 00:15:27,127 I SAW LAURA TODAY. 201 00:15:27,227 --> 00:15:30,097 I'VE BEEN TRYING TO REACH HER SINCE ALEX'S FUNERAL. 202 00:15:30,197 --> 00:15:31,464 SHE HASN'T BEEN RETURNING MY CALLS. 203 00:15:31,564 --> 00:15:34,767 - DO YOU MIND IF I SIT DOWN? - NO. PLEASE. 204 00:15:34,867 --> 00:15:37,337 YOU SAW EACH OTHER AT ALEX'S FUNERAL? 205 00:15:37,437 --> 00:15:40,173 YEAH. SO I'VE BEEN CALLING HER 206 00:15:40,273 --> 00:15:42,475 AND FINALLY SHE PICKED UP 207 00:15:42,575 --> 00:15:44,611 AND SHE SAID... 208 00:15:44,711 --> 00:15:46,946 "WHY DON'T YOU-- 209 00:15:47,047 --> 00:15:49,216 WHY DON'T YOU COME OVER? 210 00:15:49,316 --> 00:15:51,951 SO I WENT OVER THERE TO TELL HER 211 00:15:52,052 --> 00:15:54,821 THAT I WAS THROUGH 212 00:15:54,921 --> 00:15:58,591 WITH DRIVING US BOTH CRAZY. 213 00:15:58,691 --> 00:16:01,061 AND THAT-- 214 00:16:01,161 --> 00:16:03,997 AND THAT I LOVED HER AND THAT... 215 00:16:04,097 --> 00:16:06,299 I WAS READY 216 00:16:06,399 --> 00:16:10,237 TO BE-- TO BE WITH HER. 217 00:16:12,072 --> 00:16:14,741 YOUR WORST FEAR REALIZED, GINA. 218 00:16:14,841 --> 00:16:17,410 THIS ISN'T ABOUT ME, PAUL. 219 00:16:18,478 --> 00:16:20,547 WHAT HAPPENED? 220 00:16:24,117 --> 00:16:25,585 SHE DIDN'T BELIEVE ME. 221 00:16:28,188 --> 00:16:31,624 ANYWAY, WE-- WE ENDED UP-- UH... 222 00:16:33,093 --> 00:16:35,162 IN THE BEDROOM. 223 00:16:35,262 --> 00:16:37,730 WAIT, SHE SAID SHE DIDN'T BELIEVE YOU 224 00:16:37,830 --> 00:16:40,733 - AND YOU ENDED UP IN THE BEDROOM? - ( snorts ) 225 00:16:40,833 --> 00:16:42,669 YEAH. 226 00:16:42,769 --> 00:16:45,072 ANYWAY, I-- 227 00:16:45,172 --> 00:16:46,606 I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING. 228 00:16:46,706 --> 00:16:48,508 I-- 229 00:16:50,143 --> 00:16:52,645 I COULDN'T. 230 00:16:52,745 --> 00:16:54,114 YOU COULDN'T? 231 00:16:54,214 --> 00:16:56,483 YOU MEAN, YOU COULDN'T RESPOND? 232 00:16:56,583 --> 00:16:59,752 I HAD A FUCKING ANXIETY ATTACK. 233 00:17:01,054 --> 00:17:02,089 LIKE A TEENAGE KID-- 234 00:17:02,189 --> 00:17:04,957 A FUCKING ANXIETY ATTACK. 235 00:17:05,058 --> 00:17:07,094 UNBELIEVABLE. 236 00:17:07,194 --> 00:17:08,495 WHAT WAS THAT LIKE? 237 00:17:08,595 --> 00:17:11,464 LIKE I WAS SUFFOCATING, HEART POUNDING, 238 00:17:11,564 --> 00:17:14,634 DRENCHED IN SWEAT. IT WAS THAT CLASSIC TEXTBOOK 239 00:17:14,734 --> 00:17:18,271 PANIC ATTACK. 240 00:17:18,371 --> 00:17:20,707 DID YOU TALK TO HER ABOUT IT? 241 00:17:20,807 --> 00:17:23,543 - DID YOU TELL HER WHAT WAS HAPPENING TO YOU? - IT WAS SEX, GINA. 242 00:17:23,643 --> 00:17:26,613 IT WASN'T LIKE IT WAS A SESSION OR ANYTHING. 243 00:17:26,713 --> 00:17:30,617 I GOT OUT OF THERE AS FAST AS I COULD. 244 00:17:30,717 --> 00:17:33,586 BUT IT WAS TOO LATE. BY THE TIME IT TOOK... 245 00:17:33,686 --> 00:17:37,724 FOR ME TO MAKE UP MY MIND ABOUT BOTH OF US, 246 00:17:37,824 --> 00:17:39,392 SHE'D CHANGED HERS. 247 00:17:39,492 --> 00:17:42,629 SHE CHANGED HER MIND BUT YOU'RE THE ONE THAT RAN OUT. 248 00:17:42,729 --> 00:17:46,466 NO, SHE SAID SHE DIDN'T WANT IT ANYMORE. 249 00:17:46,566 --> 00:17:50,270 I'M CONFUSED ABOUT-- JUST TAKE A BREATH 250 00:17:50,370 --> 00:17:52,405 AND START AT THE BEGINNING. 251 00:17:52,505 --> 00:17:55,308 YEAH. YOU KNOW WHAT? IT DOESN'T MATTER ANYWAY. 252 00:17:55,408 --> 00:17:57,910 I MEAN, IT'S NOT LIKE WE'RE GONNA BE TOGETHER. 253 00:17:58,010 --> 00:17:59,846 I COULDN'T-- 254 00:18:00,780 --> 00:18:02,415 I-- 255 00:18:02,515 --> 00:18:06,052 I COULDN'T EVEN BRING MYSELF TO-- 256 00:18:06,153 --> 00:18:08,755 TO TOUCH HER. 257 00:18:08,855 --> 00:18:11,824 SHE WAS THIS CLOSE TO ME. I COULD FEEL THE HEAT FROM HER BODY. 258 00:18:11,924 --> 00:18:14,927 YOU KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I THOUGHT ABOUT THAT, GINA? 259 00:18:15,027 --> 00:18:16,796 HOW MANY TIMES I'VE IMAGINED THAT? 260 00:18:16,896 --> 00:18:19,999 NEXT THING I KNOW I'M DOUBLED OVER THE HOOD OF MY CAR 261 00:18:20,099 --> 00:18:23,370 GASPING FOR AIR. I MEAN, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME, GINA? 262 00:18:23,470 --> 00:18:26,473 NOTHING'S WRONG WITH YOU. 263 00:18:26,573 --> 00:18:28,808 YOU SEE THIS AS A BETRAYAL 264 00:18:28,908 --> 00:18:32,044 AS THOUGH YOU SABOTAGED YOURSELF. I DON'T SEE IT THAT WAY. 265 00:18:32,145 --> 00:18:34,281 WELL, OF COURSE NOT. FOR YOU, IT'S GOOD NEWS. 266 00:18:34,381 --> 00:18:36,349 YOU'VE BEEN TELLING ME FOR THE LAST COUPLE OF MONTHS 267 00:18:36,449 --> 00:18:38,185 WHAT A HORRIBLE MISTAKE I'M MAKING-- 268 00:18:38,285 --> 00:18:40,553 RUINING MY LIFE. 269 00:18:40,653 --> 00:18:42,922 YOU SHOULD BE READY TO OPEN A BOTTLE OF CHAMPAGNE. 270 00:18:43,022 --> 00:18:46,693 PAUL, THE LAST TIME WE MET I SAID THIS HAD TO BE YOUR DECISION. 271 00:18:46,793 --> 00:18:49,796 YOU KNOW, WHEN IT CAME DOWN TO IT IN THE END, GINA, 272 00:18:49,896 --> 00:18:52,365 IT DIDN'T HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH MORAL QUESTIONS, 273 00:18:52,465 --> 00:18:56,603 OR INTEGRITY, OR MY MARRIAGE, OR YOU. 274 00:18:56,703 --> 00:18:58,004 WHAT WAS IT THEN? 275 00:18:58,104 --> 00:19:00,173 I HAD THIS FEELING THAT... 276 00:19:01,874 --> 00:19:03,843 I WAS GOING TO BE SWALLOWED-- 277 00:19:05,512 --> 00:19:08,348 SWALLOWED UP BY ALL OF IT. 278 00:19:08,448 --> 00:19:11,150 AND THAT I WAS GONNA LOSE... 279 00:19:13,686 --> 00:19:15,154 CONTROL. 280 00:19:18,858 --> 00:19:21,194 ANYWAYS, I RAN OUT THE DOOR. I THOUGHT OF YOU-- 281 00:19:21,294 --> 00:19:23,930 ALL THE TIMES THAT I SAID THAT YOU WERE A COWARD. 282 00:19:24,030 --> 00:19:26,366 WELL, WHO'S THE COWARD NOW? 283 00:19:32,539 --> 00:19:35,608 YOU KNOW, PAUL, THAT ANXIETY ATTACK WAS YOURS. 284 00:19:35,708 --> 00:19:39,612 IT WASN'T EXTERNAL. IT WAS YOU. 285 00:19:42,114 --> 00:19:43,416 WHAT RESTRAINED YOU 286 00:19:43,516 --> 00:19:47,320 WAS THE-- WAS THE VERY BEST OF YOU-- 287 00:19:47,420 --> 00:19:49,289 YOUR DEEPEST STANDARDS, 288 00:19:49,389 --> 00:19:52,191 PERSONAL AND PROFESSIONAL AND MORAL. 289 00:19:52,292 --> 00:19:54,327 NO, GINA. 290 00:19:54,427 --> 00:19:56,729 MORAL DECISIONS DON'T COME FROM THE UNCONSCIOUS. 291 00:19:56,829 --> 00:19:59,299 I'M NOT GONNA LET MYSELF OFF THE HOOK THAT EASILY. 292 00:19:59,399 --> 00:20:01,968 PAUL, YOU STEERED YOURSELF AWAY 293 00:20:02,068 --> 00:20:06,005 FROM DOING SOMETHING THAT YOU KNEW YOU WOULD REGRET. 294 00:20:06,105 --> 00:20:09,342 YOU SAVED YOURSELF FROM BEING HURT 295 00:20:09,442 --> 00:20:11,911 AND FROM HURTING A WOMAN THAT YOU CARED ABOUT. 296 00:20:14,781 --> 00:20:18,585 WHAT, DO YOU THINK THAT MORAL DECISIONS 297 00:20:18,685 --> 00:20:21,621 ARE ALWAYS MADE IN THE ABSENCE OF TEMPTATION, 298 00:20:21,721 --> 00:20:25,358 THAT THEY'RE MADE EASILY, THAT THEY'RE MADE GRACEFULLY? 299 00:20:25,458 --> 00:20:27,660 GIVE YOURSELF SOME CREDIT. 300 00:20:27,760 --> 00:20:31,030 IF YOU WERE ABLE TO MAKE THIS DECISION EASILY, 301 00:20:31,130 --> 00:20:32,665 IT WOULD HAVE BEEN A SIGN 302 00:20:32,765 --> 00:20:35,602 THAT YOU DIDN'T WANT HER THAT BADLY. 303 00:20:35,702 --> 00:20:37,304 BUT YOU DID. 304 00:20:37,404 --> 00:20:40,640 YOU WANTED HER SO VERY BADLY-- 305 00:20:40,740 --> 00:20:44,544 SO BADLY THAT YOU HAD AN ANXIETY ATTACK 306 00:20:44,644 --> 00:20:47,013 IN ORDER TO STOP YOURSELF. 307 00:20:48,247 --> 00:20:50,116 SO IN THE END YOU WON. 308 00:20:50,216 --> 00:20:52,452 YOU PREVAILED. 309 00:20:55,888 --> 00:20:58,525 WELL, THANK YOU FOR TRYING TO CONSOLE ME, GINA. 310 00:20:58,625 --> 00:21:01,394 I'M NOT CONSOLING YOU. 311 00:21:01,494 --> 00:21:03,430 I JUST WANT YOU TO TAKE THE CREDIT 312 00:21:03,530 --> 00:21:05,732 AND THE RESPONSIBILITY 313 00:21:05,832 --> 00:21:07,734 FOR WHAT YOU DID. 314 00:21:15,041 --> 00:21:16,843 YOU KNOW WHAT SHE SAID? 315 00:21:16,943 --> 00:21:20,279 SHE SAID THAT SHE'S COME TO UNDERSTAND THAT WHAT SHE'S BEEN DOING, 316 00:21:20,380 --> 00:21:23,983 YOU KNOW, USING SEXUAL RELATIONSHIPS 317 00:21:24,083 --> 00:21:26,719 TO FREE HERSELF FROM EMOTIONAL... 318 00:21:26,819 --> 00:21:30,857 ENTANGLEMENTS, THAT SHE DOESN'T WANT TO DO THAT ANYMORE. 319 00:21:36,028 --> 00:21:38,465 IT'S IRONIC. 320 00:21:38,565 --> 00:21:41,501 HER THERAPY WITH YOU HAS BEEN A SUCCESS. 321 00:21:41,601 --> 00:21:43,603 HMM. 322 00:21:43,703 --> 00:21:47,474 SHE SAID THAT-- THAT WHAT I WAS DOING 323 00:21:47,574 --> 00:21:51,043 WAS THAT I WAS USING HER TO BAIL MYSELF OUT OF MY OWN LIFE-- 324 00:21:51,143 --> 00:21:52,879 THAT ACTUALLY I WAS HAVING 325 00:21:52,979 --> 00:21:55,948 A MIDLIFE CRISIS. 326 00:21:56,048 --> 00:21:59,318 HILARIOUS DESCRIPTION. 327 00:21:59,419 --> 00:22:01,554 THAT'S YOUR THEORY, ISN'T IT? 328 00:22:01,654 --> 00:22:04,023 NO, BUT THAT DOESN'T MATTER NOW. 329 00:22:04,123 --> 00:22:05,658 IT DOESN'T MATTER. 330 00:22:05,758 --> 00:22:08,294 YOU KNOW, WHAT MATTERS, PAUL, 331 00:22:08,395 --> 00:22:10,430 IS THAT YOU DID THE RIGHT THING FOR YOU 332 00:22:10,530 --> 00:22:12,465 AND FOR YOUR PATIENT. 333 00:22:15,101 --> 00:22:17,036 SHE COULD BE THE LAST... 334 00:22:17,136 --> 00:22:19,706 LOVE OF MY LIFE. 335 00:22:20,973 --> 00:22:23,342 AND I LET HER GO. 336 00:22:30,717 --> 00:22:33,786 WHAT'S LEFT FOR ME NOW, GINA? HM? 337 00:22:39,592 --> 00:22:42,094 WE'LL HAVE TO TALK ABOUT THAT. 338 00:22:57,009 --> 00:22:59,479 ( s playing )music