1 00:00:05,673 --> 00:00:08,342 Man: PREVIOUSLY ON "IN TREATMENT"... 2 00:00:08,442 --> 00:00:12,313 I'M TRYING TO MAKE THIS WORK. I WANT TO MAKE THIS WORK. 3 00:00:12,413 --> 00:00:15,049 YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING. YOU DON'T KNOW ME AT ALL. 4 00:00:15,149 --> 00:00:16,584 I'VE DONE TERRIBLE TERRIBLE THINGS. 5 00:00:16,684 --> 00:00:18,552 - IT WAS AN ACCIDENT. - NO, REALLY TERRIBLE THINGS. 6 00:00:18,652 --> 00:00:20,421 I HAD SEX WITH BEN. 7 00:00:24,592 --> 00:00:26,894 MY WORST NIGHTMARE, IT'S HAPPENED 8 00:00:26,994 --> 00:00:28,329 AND I FEEL LIKE THIS HUGE WEIGHT 9 00:00:28,429 --> 00:00:30,198 HAS BEEN LIFTED OFF MY SHOULDERS. 10 00:00:30,298 --> 00:00:31,699 YOU SAID THAT AFTER YOUR FATHER DIED, 11 00:00:31,799 --> 00:00:33,401 YOUR MOTHER NEVER FORGAVE YOU. 12 00:00:33,501 --> 00:00:35,736 MAYBE YOU'VE NEVER FORGIVEN YOURSELF, AMY. 13 00:00:35,836 --> 00:00:39,207 MAYBE YOU FEEL THAT IF YOU DEGRADE YOURSELF ENOUGH, 14 00:00:39,307 --> 00:00:42,576 SOME DAY SOMEBODY WILL FORGIVE YOU. 15 00:00:44,044 --> 00:00:45,846 WHAT DO YOU SEE IN ME? 16 00:00:45,946 --> 00:00:49,049 HOW COULD YOU POSSIBLY BE WITH ME? 17 00:00:49,817 --> 00:00:51,285 I LOVED YOU. 18 00:00:52,820 --> 00:00:55,089 "LOVED"? 19 00:00:58,659 --> 00:01:02,163 Paul: HEY. HEY, MAX, DON'T DUMP THAT STUFF ON THE STAIRCASE. 20 00:01:02,263 --> 00:01:03,931 AND CALL DEVINN 21 00:01:04,031 --> 00:01:06,600 AND GET THAT READING ASSIGNMENT, OKAY? 22 00:01:08,068 --> 00:01:10,238 ( sighs ) 23 00:01:12,039 --> 00:01:13,441 HEY, HOW'D HE DO? 24 00:01:13,541 --> 00:01:16,610 GOOD. THEY'RE A PRETTY GOOD TEAM. 25 00:01:16,710 --> 00:01:19,012 I'M GLAD YOU WENT. 26 00:01:19,113 --> 00:01:21,115 IT WAS FUN. 27 00:01:21,215 --> 00:01:23,451 PAUL, COULD YOU DO ME A FAVOR? CAN YOU CLOSE THE DOOR? 28 00:01:23,551 --> 00:01:25,719 I WANT TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT SOMETHING FOR A MINUTE. 29 00:01:38,266 --> 00:01:40,801 UH, I LEFT GINA A MESSAGE TODAY, 30 00:01:40,901 --> 00:01:44,004 AND I TOLD HER THAT... 31 00:01:44,104 --> 00:01:47,275 I WON'T BE GOING BACK TO THERAPY ANYMORE. 32 00:01:48,742 --> 00:01:51,279 YOU AND I, WE CAN GO BACK AND FORTH FOREVER 33 00:01:51,379 --> 00:01:53,814 ABOUT WHERE OUR PROBLEM STARTED... 34 00:01:55,616 --> 00:01:58,852 WHO DID WHAT TO WHOM, WHO'S MORE TO BLAME. 35 00:01:58,952 --> 00:02:02,190 I CAN'T DO THAT ANYMORE. 36 00:02:02,290 --> 00:02:06,260 I NEED TO FIGURE THIS OUT, 37 00:02:06,360 --> 00:02:09,297 AND I THINK I NEED TO DO THAT ON MY OWN. 38 00:02:16,103 --> 00:02:17,805 OKAY. 39 00:02:26,714 --> 00:02:29,683 I'M REALLY HAPPY THAT YOU'RE SEEING GINA. 40 00:02:31,752 --> 00:02:34,488 AND I REALLY HOPE IT CAN HELP YOU. 41 00:02:47,468 --> 00:02:52,240 ( door opens, closes ) 42 00:02:53,407 --> 00:02:55,909 ( theme music playing ) 43 00:03:13,093 --> 00:03:15,062 IS AMY JOINING US TODAY? 44 00:03:15,162 --> 00:03:16,697 I DON'T THINK SO. 45 00:03:19,867 --> 00:03:21,435 OKAY. 46 00:03:21,535 --> 00:03:24,071 SO WHAT'S BEEN UP WITH YOU, JAKE? 47 00:03:24,171 --> 00:03:26,540 WELL, IT'S BEEN A PRETTY WEIRD WEEK 48 00:03:26,640 --> 00:03:28,208 SINCE WE SAW YOU LAST, PAUL. 49 00:03:28,309 --> 00:03:31,178 VERY QUIET AROUND THE HOUSE. 50 00:03:31,279 --> 00:03:32,813 AWKWARD. 51 00:03:32,913 --> 00:03:35,449 WE BARELY SPEAK TO EACH OTHER EXCEPT WHEN LENNY'S AROUND, 52 00:03:35,549 --> 00:03:40,254 WHO SOMEHOW SEEMS REALLY RELAXED AND AT EASE. 53 00:03:40,354 --> 00:03:42,923 HE'S SUCH A FUNNY KID. MAN, I WISH YOU COULD MEET HIM. 54 00:03:44,658 --> 00:03:46,494 HE WAS TELLING US THIS JOKE THE OTHER DAY 55 00:03:46,594 --> 00:03:49,630 ABOUT THESE TWO CANNIBALS 56 00:03:49,730 --> 00:03:51,399 THAT EAT A CLOWN. 57 00:03:51,499 --> 00:03:54,702 AND ONE CANNIBAL TURNS TO THE OTHER AND SAYS... 58 00:03:56,404 --> 00:03:58,572 "DOES THIS TASTE FUNNY TO YOU?" 59 00:04:00,741 --> 00:04:05,045 ANYWAY, AMY AND I ARE LAUGHING DESPITE OURSELVES. 60 00:04:05,145 --> 00:04:07,348 IT WAS VERY SURREAL. 61 00:04:09,483 --> 00:04:11,852 YOU KNOW, KIDS TEND TO DO THAT WHEN THEY SENSE TENSION. 62 00:04:11,952 --> 00:04:13,921 THEY TRY TO GET THE PARENTS TO COME TOGETHER. 63 00:04:14,021 --> 00:04:16,757 YOU'RE PROBABLY RIGHT, BUT HE SHOULDN'T HAVE TO DO IT. IT'S NOT FAIR. 64 00:04:18,559 --> 00:04:20,761 YOU'RE RIGHT. IT'S NOT FAIR. 65 00:04:24,231 --> 00:04:27,301 ( sighs ) 66 00:04:27,401 --> 00:04:30,671 AMY'S BEEN TRYING TO REACH OUT TO ME THIS WEEK... 67 00:04:32,473 --> 00:04:34,241 YOU KNOW, MAKE IT ALL OKAY, 68 00:04:34,342 --> 00:04:37,177 THE WHOLE BEN THING, BUT HOW CAN YOU MAKE UP FOR SOMETHING LIKE THAT? 69 00:04:37,277 --> 00:04:40,113 TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH, IT'S PRETTY SAD 70 00:04:40,213 --> 00:04:41,682 WATCHING HER TRY. 71 00:04:41,782 --> 00:04:43,651 WHEN LENNY FELL ASLEEP THE OTHER NIGHT, 72 00:04:43,751 --> 00:04:46,186 SHE RAN AROUND THE HOUSE, PAUL, 73 00:04:46,286 --> 00:04:47,688 PRETENDING TO BE BUSY WITH HOUSE SHIT-- 74 00:04:47,788 --> 00:04:49,623 WHICH SHE NEVER DOES-- NOT SAYING ANYTHING, 75 00:04:49,723 --> 00:04:51,191 JUST TRYING TO RUN INTO ME. 76 00:04:51,291 --> 00:04:52,560 AND AT ONE POINT WE WERE 77 00:04:52,660 --> 00:04:54,395 PRETTY CLOSE TOGETHER IN THE KITCHEN, 78 00:04:54,495 --> 00:04:56,964 SHE TRIED TO KISS ME... 79 00:05:00,468 --> 00:05:01,969 AND I JUST... 80 00:05:02,703 --> 00:05:05,205 WHAT? 81 00:05:05,305 --> 00:05:08,041 JUST COULDN'T DO IT. I WASN'T INTO IT. 82 00:05:08,141 --> 00:05:11,545 - MY HEART WASN'T THERE. - MMM. 83 00:05:13,614 --> 00:05:16,817 YEAH, IT CAN BE HARD TO RELATE TO SOMEBODY... 84 00:05:19,219 --> 00:05:20,921 AFTER SOMETHING LIKE AN AFFAIR. 85 00:05:21,021 --> 00:05:22,556 YEAH, YOU'RE TELLING ME. 86 00:05:22,656 --> 00:05:24,392 BIZARRE. 87 00:05:26,093 --> 00:05:28,562 LATE THAT NIGHT, SHE HAD... 88 00:05:28,662 --> 00:05:31,765 FALLEN ASLEEP WATCHING TV AND I JUST-- 89 00:05:33,401 --> 00:05:35,335 I JUST STOOD THERE LOOKING AT HER. 90 00:05:37,438 --> 00:05:39,006 HOW DID YOU FEEL? 91 00:05:40,808 --> 00:05:42,976 WELL, SHE SLEEPS WITH HER BOTH HANDS 92 00:05:43,076 --> 00:05:46,680 TUCKED UNDER HER CHEEK LIKE IN THOSE KID BOOKS. 93 00:05:46,780 --> 00:05:50,951 YOU KNOW, THE WAY THEY DRAW THE ANGELS SLEEPING. 94 00:05:51,051 --> 00:05:54,655 SHE DIDN'T LOOK LIKE A WOMAN WHO HAD JUST FUCKED SOME OTHER GUY. 95 00:05:57,858 --> 00:06:00,528 SHE LOOKED REALLY BEAUTIFUL. 96 00:06:00,628 --> 00:06:02,996 AND I WAS THINKING HOW EASY IT WOULD BE TO JUST... 97 00:06:03,096 --> 00:06:06,099 GO LAY DOWN NEXT TO HER AND PUT MY ARMS AROUND HER. 98 00:06:07,635 --> 00:06:12,239 - BUT YOU DIDN'T. - NO, I COULDN'T. 99 00:06:12,339 --> 00:06:15,409 I JUST REMEMBERED HOW EASILY SHE COULD CHIP AWAY AT ME 100 00:06:15,509 --> 00:06:17,110 AND LURE ME BACK IN. 101 00:06:17,210 --> 00:06:20,481 SO I JUMPED IN MY CAR AND I GOT THE FUCK OUT OF THERE. 102 00:06:20,581 --> 00:06:22,883 - IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT? - YEAH, THAT'S RIGHT. 103 00:06:25,018 --> 00:06:27,187 - WHERE'D YOU GO? - WELL, I THOUGHT OF GOING TO ELLIOT'S, 104 00:06:27,287 --> 00:06:28,789 BUT THEN I REMEMBERED HE HAD A DATE. 105 00:06:28,889 --> 00:06:30,691 I DIDN'T WANT TO WALK IN ON ANYTHING. 106 00:06:30,791 --> 00:06:34,227 IT'S BEEN ABOUT SIX YEARS SINCE THE GUY GOT LAID, 107 00:06:34,327 --> 00:06:35,496 SO I JUST KEPT DRIVING 108 00:06:35,596 --> 00:06:37,931 AND I ENDED UP AT MY PARENTS' HOUSE. 109 00:06:38,031 --> 00:06:39,967 ( laughs ) 110 00:06:40,067 --> 00:06:43,804 THE KICKER IS THEY LIVE ABOUT FOUR HOURS AWAY IN VIRGINIA. 111 00:06:43,904 --> 00:06:46,173 AND IT WAS TOO EARLY WHEN I GOT THERE TO RING THE DOORBELL, 112 00:06:46,273 --> 00:06:50,678 SO I JUST SAT OUT FRONT IN MY CAR AND FELL ASLEEP. 113 00:06:50,778 --> 00:06:53,447 HOW OFTEN DO YOU SEE THEM, YOUR PARENTS? 114 00:06:53,547 --> 00:06:54,848 WELL, MOM COMES INTO TOWN TO SEE LENNY 115 00:06:54,948 --> 00:06:56,917 PRETTY FREQUENTLY-- EVERY COUPLE OF MONTHS. 116 00:06:57,017 --> 00:06:58,852 MAYBE WE GO OUT THERE FOR THE HOLIDAYS 117 00:06:58,952 --> 00:07:00,654 A COUPLE OF TIMES A YEAR, NOT MUCH MORE. 118 00:07:00,754 --> 00:07:02,690 AND IS YOUR FATHER CLOSE TO LENNY? 119 00:07:02,790 --> 00:07:05,025 IS MY FATHER CLOSE TO LENNY? 120 00:07:05,125 --> 00:07:07,728 THAT'S A GOOD QUESTION. I MEAN, I THINK SO. 121 00:07:07,828 --> 00:07:09,563 THEY SPEND TIME TOGETHER, LENNY LIKES HIM. 122 00:07:09,663 --> 00:07:11,364 BUT IT ALWAYS FEELS FINITE, YOU KNOW? 123 00:07:11,465 --> 00:07:14,802 I CAN'T HELP BUT GET THE FEELING THAT HE LEAVES HIM HANGING, 124 00:07:14,902 --> 00:07:16,637 LIKE HE'S JUST SPENT A FEW MINUTES 125 00:07:16,737 --> 00:07:18,105 WITH THE NEIGHBOR'S GRANDCHILD OR SOMETHING 126 00:07:18,205 --> 00:07:19,907 AND NOW IT'S TIME TO MOVE ON. 127 00:07:20,007 --> 00:07:22,009 OF COURSE, MY DAD, BEING THE NARCISSIST THAT HE IS, 128 00:07:22,109 --> 00:07:23,343 IS OBLIVIOUS TO IT. 129 00:07:23,443 --> 00:07:25,445 HAS LENNY SAID ANYTHING TO YOU ABOUT IT? 130 00:07:25,546 --> 00:07:27,815 NO. HE SEEMS FINE WITH IT, 131 00:07:27,915 --> 00:07:30,584 SO WHO KNOWS? MAYBE I'M JUST SEEING THINGS. 132 00:07:35,889 --> 00:07:39,560 I WAS ASLEEP IN THE CAR OUTSIDE THEIR HOUSE 133 00:07:39,660 --> 00:07:41,562 AND ALL OF A SUDDEN THERE'S THIS KNOCK ON THE WINDOW 134 00:07:41,662 --> 00:07:43,497 AND IT WAKES ME UP. 135 00:07:43,597 --> 00:07:46,867 AND IT'S A COP. AND WHO IS THE COP? 136 00:07:48,235 --> 00:07:50,070 MIKE GARNETT. 137 00:07:50,170 --> 00:07:51,438 WENT TO SCHOOL WITH ME, 138 00:07:51,539 --> 00:07:53,306 WANTED TO BE A COP SINCE THE FIRST GRADE 139 00:07:53,406 --> 00:07:55,976 AND NOW THAT'S WHAT HE IS. ( chuckles ) 140 00:07:56,076 --> 00:07:58,512 IT'S REALLY FUNNY. HE FULFILLED HIS CHILDHOOD DREAM. 141 00:07:58,612 --> 00:08:00,581 I DON'T THINK I KNOW ANYONE WHO BECAME 142 00:08:00,681 --> 00:08:02,616 WHAT THEY WANTED TO BE WHEN THEY WERE A KID. 143 00:08:03,817 --> 00:08:05,586 WHEN I WAS GROWING UP, IN THE WINTERTIME 144 00:08:05,686 --> 00:08:07,721 THERE WAS THIS GUY 145 00:08:07,821 --> 00:08:09,757 AND HE WOULD COME OVER WITH HIS CHAINSAW 146 00:08:09,857 --> 00:08:11,959 AND HE WOULD SWING FROM TREE TO TREE 147 00:08:12,059 --> 00:08:14,528 CUTTING BRANCHES BEFORE THEY FROZE AND FELL OFF 148 00:08:14,628 --> 00:08:17,264 LIKE A FUCKING MONKEY. IT WAS UNBELIEVABLE. 149 00:08:17,364 --> 00:08:19,700 AND HE WAS THE ONLY GUY I KNEW 150 00:08:19,800 --> 00:08:23,403 WHO MY FATHER DIDN'T TELL HOW TO DO HIS JOB. 151 00:08:23,503 --> 00:08:25,573 THAT'S WHO I WANTED TO BE. 152 00:08:26,339 --> 00:08:27,575 HMM. 153 00:08:34,447 --> 00:08:36,784 THE OLD MAN, HE'S SUCH A KNOW-IT-ALL. 154 00:08:36,884 --> 00:08:42,055 THE FUNNY PART IS THOUGH, HE DOES KNOW IT ALL. 155 00:08:42,155 --> 00:08:45,058 HE CAN TELL YOU THE EXCHANGE RATE FOR A GUYANESE DOLLAR, 156 00:08:45,158 --> 00:08:48,361 HOW TO COOK A FRESHWATER SALMON IN A CLAY OVEN 157 00:08:48,461 --> 00:08:49,997 OR THE HISTORY OF THE SILK WORM. 158 00:08:50,097 --> 00:08:52,132 - WHAT, DOES HE WRITE ENCYCLOPEDIAS? - ( chuckles ) 159 00:08:52,232 --> 00:08:55,168 YOU'D THINK, RIGHT? NO, HE'S A COLLEGE PROFESSOR. 160 00:08:55,268 --> 00:08:57,504 MY MOM TOO. INTELLECTUALS. 161 00:08:57,605 --> 00:08:59,306 BIG READERS, UNLIKE ME. I DON'T READ. 162 00:08:59,406 --> 00:09:01,842 I DON'T THINK I'VE READ A BOOK SINCE I LEFT HIGH SCHOOL. 163 00:09:03,811 --> 00:09:06,580 DOES THAT MEAN YOU DON'T OR YOU WON'T? 164 00:09:06,680 --> 00:09:09,983 - I HAVEN'T. - REALLY? 165 00:09:10,083 --> 00:09:13,053 I REMEMBER ONCE I MISQUOTED ROLAND BARTHES 166 00:09:13,153 --> 00:09:15,422 AND YOU CORRECTED ME. 167 00:09:15,522 --> 00:09:17,658 WHERE DID THAT COME FROM? 168 00:09:17,758 --> 00:09:20,961 I GREW UP IN A HOUSEHOLD WHERE EVERYONE WAS READING AT THE DINNER TABLE. 169 00:09:21,061 --> 00:09:22,663 THAT SHIT WAS EVERYWHERE. ANY PARROT COULD PICK IT UP 170 00:09:22,763 --> 00:09:24,865 AND SPIT IT BACK VERBATIM. 171 00:09:24,965 --> 00:09:27,034 THAT'S WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOUR DAD IS 172 00:09:27,134 --> 00:09:29,036 AN EMERITUS PROFESSOR OF RENAISSANCE STUDIES 173 00:09:29,136 --> 00:09:33,473 AND YOUR MOTHER TEACHES CLASSICS-- GREEK AND HEBREW. 174 00:09:33,573 --> 00:09:35,442 BUT I DON'T READ. 175 00:09:35,542 --> 00:09:37,510 I MEAN NOT LITERALLY. OBVIOUSLY I READ. 176 00:09:37,611 --> 00:09:40,648 I READ MUSIC, MANUALS, HEADLINES, 177 00:09:40,748 --> 00:09:42,515 BUT I JUST-- 178 00:09:42,616 --> 00:09:44,685 I DON'T KNOW. 179 00:09:44,785 --> 00:09:46,787 I'M NOT LIKE THEM. 180 00:09:51,659 --> 00:09:54,962 I DO KICK ASS AT CROSSWORD PUZZLES THOUGH. 181 00:09:55,062 --> 00:09:58,331 - YOU DO THOSE? - I'M NOT VERY GOOD. 182 00:09:58,431 --> 00:10:02,235 SUNDAY "NEW YORK TIMES" CROSSWORD DOES ME IN EVERY WEEK. 183 00:10:02,335 --> 00:10:04,204 YEAH, IT'S A TOUGH ONE. 184 00:10:05,739 --> 00:10:07,841 YOU KNOW, TO DO CROSSWORD PUZZLES 185 00:10:07,941 --> 00:10:12,112 YOU NEED TO HAVE AN EXTENSIVE VOCABULARY, NO? 186 00:10:12,212 --> 00:10:14,214 IT'S KIND OF HARD TO RECONCILE THE IDEA OF SOMEBODY WHO DOESN'T READ 187 00:10:14,314 --> 00:10:16,316 WITH SOMEBODY WHO'S REALLY GOOD AT CROSSWORD PUZZLES. 188 00:10:16,416 --> 00:10:18,618 WELL, THERE'S NOTHING TO RECONCILE. I'M GOOD AT IT 189 00:10:18,719 --> 00:10:21,254 AND READING MAKES ME RESTLESS AND BORED. 190 00:10:21,354 --> 00:10:24,992 SO DID YOU ACQUIRE YOUR LOVE OF CROSSWORD PUZZLES FROM YOUR PARENTS? 191 00:10:25,092 --> 00:10:27,294 NOT REALLY. MY MOM'S ALL RIGHT AT THEM. 192 00:10:29,296 --> 00:10:31,231 MY DAD SUCKS. 193 00:10:34,301 --> 00:10:36,870 SO WHAT DID YOU DO AS A KID 194 00:10:36,970 --> 00:10:40,307 WHEN EVERYBODY ELSE WAS DOING ALL THIS READING? 195 00:10:40,407 --> 00:10:41,875 I DON'T KNOW. PLAY GUITAR, 196 00:10:41,975 --> 00:10:45,412 COLLECT BASEBALL CARDS, SMOKE POT. 197 00:10:45,512 --> 00:10:46,947 DID THAT GET YOU INTO TROUBLE? 198 00:10:47,047 --> 00:10:48,982 NOT REALLY. NOBODY NOTICED. 199 00:10:49,082 --> 00:10:50,684 NOBODY NOTICED THAT YOU GOT HIGH? 200 00:10:50,784 --> 00:10:54,587 - NO. - SO WHO WERE YOU GETTING HIGH WITH? 201 00:10:54,688 --> 00:10:57,590 - MYSELF MOSTLY. - HMM. 202 00:10:57,691 --> 00:11:01,561 SO WOULD YOU SAY THAT YOU HAD A LONELY CHILDHOOD? 203 00:11:01,661 --> 00:11:03,797 NAH. WHY? 204 00:11:03,897 --> 00:11:07,000 IT WAS OKAY. I TALKED TO MYSELF A LOT. 205 00:11:10,270 --> 00:11:13,240 YOU KNOW WHAT ONE OF MY FAVORITE THINGS IN THE WORLD IS? 206 00:11:14,241 --> 00:11:15,408 TALKING TO LENNY. 207 00:11:15,508 --> 00:11:17,778 AND WE TALK ABOUT ANYTHING, 208 00:11:17,878 --> 00:11:20,180 BUT MAINLY WE TALK ABOUT SPORTS. 209 00:11:20,280 --> 00:11:23,016 AND HE CAN JUST GO OFF. 210 00:11:23,116 --> 00:11:25,185 ALUMINUM BATS VERSUS WOOD-- 211 00:11:25,285 --> 00:11:28,789 FUCK, ANYTHING. THAT KID HAS A BRAIN LIKE A COMPUTER. 212 00:11:28,889 --> 00:11:30,791 HE'S NOT EVEN 10 AND HE CAN LIST OFF 213 00:11:30,891 --> 00:11:35,062 ALL OF BOOG POWELL'S STATS FROM THE 1970 WORLD SERIES. 214 00:11:35,162 --> 00:11:36,730 ( chuckles ) 215 00:11:36,830 --> 00:11:38,766 THAT'S JUST AMAZING TO ME. 216 00:11:38,866 --> 00:11:41,735 I NEVER GET TIRED OF HEARING THAT LITTLE FUCKER TALK. 217 00:11:43,737 --> 00:11:45,973 YOU GET LIKE THAT WITH YOUR KIDS? 218 00:11:46,073 --> 00:11:48,641 NOT SO MUCH ANYMORE BECAUSE THEY'RE OLDER, 219 00:11:48,742 --> 00:11:51,779 BUT WITH MY YOUNGEST, YEAH, I STILL DO. 220 00:11:51,879 --> 00:11:53,781 - AND HOW OLD IS HE? - HE'S NINE. 221 00:11:53,881 --> 00:11:55,582 JUST LIKE LENNY. 222 00:11:55,682 --> 00:11:57,450 DID YOU HAVE THAT KIND OF RELATIONSHIP 223 00:11:57,550 --> 00:11:59,052 WITH YOUR FATHER WHEN YOU WERE A KID? 224 00:11:59,152 --> 00:12:01,822 NO, I AVOIDED TALKING TO MY FATHER WHEN I WAS A KID. 225 00:12:01,922 --> 00:12:04,557 IT JUST WASN'T WORTH IT. 226 00:12:04,657 --> 00:12:05,893 HE WAS THE KIND OF GUY WHO WOULD WINCE 227 00:12:05,993 --> 00:12:08,661 IF YOU SAID SURE INSTEAD OF SURELY. 228 00:12:08,762 --> 00:12:11,431 DID YOU FIND IT EASIER TO TALK TO YOUR MOM? 229 00:12:11,531 --> 00:12:13,266 SHE WASN'T AS BAD, 230 00:12:13,366 --> 00:12:14,734 BUT WHAT WAS FRUSTRATING 231 00:12:14,835 --> 00:12:17,771 WAS SHE WOULD ALWAYS DEFER TO HIM ON EVERYTHING. 232 00:12:17,871 --> 00:12:20,407 IT'S LIKE SHE SAW HIM AS THIS HOTSHOT PROFESSOR 233 00:12:20,507 --> 00:12:22,075 AT ANOTHER LEVEL FROM EVERYONE. 234 00:12:22,175 --> 00:12:24,311 HE GOT TENURE AT 33 AND IT JUST WOULDN'T OCCUR TO HER 235 00:12:24,411 --> 00:12:27,347 THAT SHE COULD HAVE AN OPINION DIFFERENT FROM HIS-- THAN HIS. 236 00:12:27,447 --> 00:12:30,183 IF YOU WERE HIM, YOU WOULD HAVE JUST CORRECTED ME ON MY GRAMMAR. 237 00:12:30,283 --> 00:12:31,952 IF YOU WERE HE. 238 00:12:36,857 --> 00:12:39,860 HEY, THEY DIDN'T BEAT ME, RIGHT? 239 00:12:39,960 --> 00:12:41,561 IT COULD'VE BEEN A HELL OF A LOT WORSE. 240 00:12:41,661 --> 00:12:43,763 THAT'S TRUE. IT DOESN'T-- 241 00:12:43,864 --> 00:12:46,099 IT DOESN'T MEAN IT WASN'T DIFFICULT. 242 00:12:46,199 --> 00:12:48,735 SO WHEN DID YOU START TO WRITE? 243 00:12:48,836 --> 00:12:51,171 I DON'T WRITE. MY BROTHER NATHAN IS THE WRITER. 244 00:12:51,271 --> 00:12:52,940 HE'S A NOVELIST. HE WAS JUST SHORTLISTED 245 00:12:53,040 --> 00:12:55,976 FOR SOME PRIZE LAST YEAR, SOME BIG NATIONAL AWARD. 246 00:12:56,076 --> 00:12:58,645 I CAN'T EVEN REMEMBER THE NAME. I'M SURE MY PARENTS REMEMBER IT. 247 00:12:58,745 --> 00:13:00,213 BUT YOU'RE A WRITER TOO. 248 00:13:00,313 --> 00:13:03,416 OR DON'T YOU CONSIDER SONGWRITING TO BE WRITING? 249 00:13:03,516 --> 00:13:06,119 NO, SURE, I DO. 250 00:13:06,219 --> 00:13:08,822 SOME OF MY FAVORITE WRITERS ARE ACTUALLY SONGWRITERS, 251 00:13:08,922 --> 00:13:12,092 PEOPLE LIKE DYLAN, COHEN, JOHN LENNON. 252 00:13:12,192 --> 00:13:14,694 HEY, I AGREE WITH YOU, PAUL. I WOULD PUT DYLAN ON PAR 253 00:13:14,794 --> 00:13:16,363 WITH WALT WHITMAN, EZRA POUND, 254 00:13:16,463 --> 00:13:20,533 LANGSTON HUGHES. JUST TRY TELLING THAT TO MY FAMILY. 255 00:13:20,633 --> 00:13:23,570 YOU KNOW, FOR SOMEBODY WHO IS NOT A GREAT READER, 256 00:13:23,670 --> 00:13:26,406 YOU SEEM TO BE PRETTY FAMILIAR WITH GREAT POETS. 257 00:13:26,506 --> 00:13:29,742 NOBODY'S REALLY FAMILIAR WITH POUND. THEY JUST FAKE IT. 258 00:13:29,843 --> 00:13:33,280 ( both chuckling ) 259 00:13:33,380 --> 00:13:36,616 BUT I GET THE FEELING THAT YOU LIKE TO PLAY DOWN YOUR KNOWLEDGE, 260 00:13:36,716 --> 00:13:38,952 YOUR-- YOUR INTELLIGENCE. 261 00:13:39,052 --> 00:13:41,922 I DON'T KNOW. IT'S JUST MY FOLKS'S WORLD. 262 00:13:42,022 --> 00:13:44,491 I GUESS SOME OF IT'S RUBBED OFF ON ME. 263 00:13:44,591 --> 00:13:46,726 BUT IT'S JUST NOT ME. 264 00:13:46,826 --> 00:13:50,530 DID YOUR PARENTS EVER EXPRESS AN INTEREST IN WHAT YOU MIGHT DO FOR A LIVING? 265 00:13:50,630 --> 00:13:54,001 MY DAD PROBABLY WANTED ME TO BE SOME KIND OF ACADEMIC. 266 00:13:54,101 --> 00:13:55,602 IT'S THE FAMILY BUSINESS, AFTER ALL. 267 00:13:56,703 --> 00:13:58,405 BUT WHAT DID HE EXPECT? 268 00:13:58,505 --> 00:13:59,839 I DON'T KNOW. 269 00:13:59,940 --> 00:14:02,342 I THINK HE GAVE UP THE DREAM ON ME 270 00:14:02,442 --> 00:14:05,078 PRETTY EARLY AFTER I FLUNKED OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL. 271 00:14:05,178 --> 00:14:06,914 SO WHICH DO YOU THINK CAME FIRST, 272 00:14:07,014 --> 00:14:09,816 YOUR FATHER'S LOW EXPECTATIONS OR YOUR LOW GRADES? 273 00:14:09,917 --> 00:14:11,784 - WHAT DO YOU MEAN? - OFTEN WITH EXPECTATIONS, 274 00:14:11,885 --> 00:14:14,454 THERE'S A SELF-FULFILLING PROPHECY. 275 00:14:14,554 --> 00:14:16,489 MAYBE YOU DECIDED EARLIER ON 276 00:14:16,589 --> 00:14:18,791 THAT YOU COULDN'T MATCH UP TO HIS EXPECTATIONS 277 00:14:18,892 --> 00:14:21,261 - AND SO YOU GAVE UP TRYING. - MMM, COULD BE. 278 00:14:21,361 --> 00:14:23,997 MY MOM WAS ALWAYS TRYING TO GET ME INTERESTED. 279 00:14:24,097 --> 00:14:26,934 SHE'D HELP ME STUDY FOR TESTS ON THE SLY. 280 00:14:27,034 --> 00:14:29,970 - ON THE SLY? - YEAH, IT PISSED MY DAD OFF. 281 00:14:30,070 --> 00:14:32,940 HE THOUGHT SHE WAS SPOON-FEEDING ME THINGS 282 00:14:33,040 --> 00:14:35,408 I SHOULD'VE KNOWN OR FIGURED OUT BY MYSELF. 283 00:14:35,508 --> 00:14:38,211 AND SHE WAS TERRIFIED HE'D FIND OUT. 284 00:14:38,311 --> 00:14:39,612 WAS SHE... 285 00:14:39,712 --> 00:14:41,748 GENERALLY INTIMIDATED BY HIM? 286 00:14:41,848 --> 00:14:43,683 ( dryly ) "YOU'RE SO RIGHT, ABE. 287 00:14:43,783 --> 00:14:45,218 I NEVER LOOKED AT IT THAT WAY, ABE." 288 00:14:45,318 --> 00:14:48,688 YEAH, IT MADE ME WANT TO SCREAM. 289 00:14:48,788 --> 00:14:50,390 ONE THING YOU CAN SAY ABOUT ME, PAUL, 290 00:14:50,490 --> 00:14:52,625 IS I SURE AS HELL DIDN'T MARRY MY MOTHER. 291 00:14:55,228 --> 00:14:57,364 YOU MEAN YOU DIDN'T MARRY 292 00:14:57,464 --> 00:14:59,632 A WOMAN WHO WAS INTIMIDATED BY YOU. 293 00:15:06,473 --> 00:15:09,076 SO HOW DO YOUR PARENTS FEEL ABOUT AMY? 294 00:15:09,176 --> 00:15:11,278 SHE'S A SUCCESSFUL BUSINESSWOMAN, 295 00:15:11,378 --> 00:15:14,281 SHE'S GOT AN MBA, THEY FUCKING LOVE THAT SHE WENT TO GRAD SCHOOL. 296 00:15:14,381 --> 00:15:17,684 THEIR HIGH-SCHOOL DROPOUT OF A SON MARRIED 297 00:15:17,784 --> 00:15:20,320 A HOTSHOT BUSINESSWOMAN. 298 00:15:22,022 --> 00:15:23,790 IT'S INTERESTING YOU USE THE SAME WORD 299 00:15:23,890 --> 00:15:26,259 TO DESCRIBE YOUR FATHER ALSO-- HOTSHOT. 300 00:15:26,359 --> 00:15:30,363 DO YOU THINK THAT THEY'RE ALIKE IN OTHER WAYS? 301 00:15:30,463 --> 00:15:33,066 THEY'RE NOT. THEY'RE TOTAL OPPOSITES. 302 00:15:33,166 --> 00:15:36,469 HE'S ALL RUMPLED CORDUROY, STAINS ON HIS SHIRT, 303 00:15:36,569 --> 00:15:38,771 AND SHE'S, WELL-- 304 00:15:38,871 --> 00:15:41,441 HELL, YOU KNOW WHAT AMY IS-- METICULOUS, 305 00:15:41,541 --> 00:15:43,210 PUT TOGETHER, VERY MATERIALISTIC. 306 00:15:43,310 --> 00:15:45,778 SHE LOVES HER STUFF, HUH? 307 00:15:45,878 --> 00:15:48,281 YOU KNOW, WHEN WE MET, I WAS CRASHING 308 00:15:48,381 --> 00:15:51,051 IN THIS CRAPPY APARTMENT OVER A GARAGE. 309 00:15:51,151 --> 00:15:53,453 I THINK IT TURNED HER ON. 310 00:15:53,553 --> 00:15:55,088 AND THE WOMAN HAD NEVER FUCKED ON A BED 311 00:15:55,188 --> 00:15:59,026 WITHOUT A BOX SPRING, AND SHE LIKED IT. 312 00:15:59,126 --> 00:16:01,028 YOU KNOW, COMING DOWN FROM HER PEDESTAL, 313 00:16:01,128 --> 00:16:03,296 HANG WITH THE RIFFRAFF. 314 00:16:05,765 --> 00:16:09,102 DID YOU FEEL LIKE YOUR FATHER WAS ALSO ON A PEDESTAL? 315 00:16:09,202 --> 00:16:11,138 COME ON, PAUL. LET'S GET OFF THIS, ALL RIGHT? 316 00:16:11,238 --> 00:16:13,440 THIS IS NOT WHY I'M HERE. 317 00:16:28,421 --> 00:16:31,358 I DON'T HAVE THAT MANY PEOPLE TO TALK TOO RIGHT NOW. 318 00:16:35,595 --> 00:16:37,730 AND I'M SCARED SHITLESS OF LOSING LENNY 319 00:16:37,830 --> 00:16:40,033 IN SOME CUSTODY BATTLE. 320 00:16:41,268 --> 00:16:43,903 AMY'S... UNSTABLE. 321 00:16:44,003 --> 00:16:47,174 THIS IS THE SECOND TIME SHE'S GETTING A DIVORCE AFTER HAVING AN AFFAIR, 322 00:16:47,274 --> 00:16:49,376 AND I THINK SHE'S GONNA FUCK HIM UP. 323 00:16:49,476 --> 00:16:51,311 YOU SAID YOURSELF SHE NEEDS LOSERS AROUND. 324 00:16:51,411 --> 00:16:53,680 I THINK SHE'S GONNA TEACH HIM TO BE A LOSER. 325 00:16:54,947 --> 00:16:57,117 SHE'S DAMAGED, PAUL. 326 00:16:57,217 --> 00:16:59,286 SHE'S FUCKED UP. 327 00:17:00,920 --> 00:17:03,756 I HAVEN'T GOTTEN MUCH RIGHT IN MY LIFE EXCEPT THAT KID, 328 00:17:03,856 --> 00:17:05,725 AND THAT KID IS... 329 00:17:07,160 --> 00:17:10,130 WHAT THE FUCK? 330 00:17:10,230 --> 00:17:12,332 DID YOU NOT PAY YOUR ELECTRIC BILL OR SOMETHING? 331 00:17:18,171 --> 00:17:20,140 HUH. LOOKS LIKE IT'S OUT 332 00:17:20,240 --> 00:17:22,375 ON THE ENTIRE STREET. 333 00:17:25,078 --> 00:17:28,615 - YOU WANT TO GO ON? - I CAN SEE YOU FINE. 334 00:17:28,715 --> 00:17:30,383 YOU'RE SURE? 335 00:18:01,047 --> 00:18:05,152 FOR THE FIRST TIME, PAUL... 336 00:18:05,252 --> 00:18:07,354 IT REALLY FEELS LIKE WE'RE SPLITTING UP. 337 00:18:08,555 --> 00:18:11,124 NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES WE'VE TALKED ABOUT IT 338 00:18:11,224 --> 00:18:13,760 OR BROUGHT IT UP, IT'S NEVER FELT SO... 339 00:18:16,028 --> 00:18:17,864 REAL. 340 00:18:20,533 --> 00:18:23,136 WHY DO YOU THINK IT FEELS DIFFERENT THIS TIME? 341 00:18:27,140 --> 00:18:28,908 THE LAST TIME YOU WERE HERE, 342 00:18:29,008 --> 00:18:33,546 YOU IMPLIED THAT YOU'D FALLEN OUT OF LOVE WITH AMY. 343 00:18:33,646 --> 00:18:35,415 WOULD YOU STILL SAY THAT'S TRUE? 344 00:18:35,515 --> 00:18:37,350 I DON'T KNOW. HOW WOULD I KNOW? 345 00:18:37,450 --> 00:18:39,452 WHAT DOES IT FEEL LIKE? 346 00:18:39,552 --> 00:18:41,788 I'VE ONLY BEEN IN LOVE WITH ONE GIRL-- HER. 347 00:18:41,888 --> 00:18:44,457 I'VE NEVER FALLEN OUT OF LOVE. TELL ME WHAT IT FEELS LIKE 348 00:18:44,557 --> 00:18:47,160 AND I'LL TELL YOU IF I'M FEELING IT. 349 00:18:47,260 --> 00:18:49,529 HAVE YOU EVER FELT IT? 350 00:18:53,900 --> 00:18:56,436 THERE'S A HUGE SADNESS THERE... 351 00:18:58,505 --> 00:19:01,541 'CAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT'S BEEN LOST. 352 00:19:01,641 --> 00:19:05,512 AND YOU BEGIN TO LOSE THE DESIRE TO... 353 00:19:07,647 --> 00:19:09,182 CONNECT. 354 00:19:11,784 --> 00:19:13,353 MAYBE YOU SHOULD ASK YOUR FATHER. 355 00:19:13,453 --> 00:19:15,788 HE'S THE GUY WHO KNOWS EVERYTHING, RIGHT? 356 00:19:18,225 --> 00:19:19,426 DID I TELL YOU WHAT HE SAID WHEN I SHOWED UP 357 00:19:19,526 --> 00:19:21,361 AND TOLD HIM MY MARRIAGE WAS OVER? 358 00:19:21,461 --> 00:19:24,331 "WELL, THIS ISN'T ENTIRELY UNEXPECTED, IS IT?" 359 00:19:26,933 --> 00:19:28,368 HE EXPECTS ME TO FAIL 360 00:19:28,468 --> 00:19:31,638 EVERY TIME AT EVERYTHING. 361 00:19:35,342 --> 00:19:37,076 WHY DID YOU GO HOME, JAKE? 362 00:19:37,176 --> 00:19:39,446 I DON'T KNOW. IT WAS AN ACCIDENT. 363 00:19:39,546 --> 00:19:42,181 I JUST STARTED DRIVING AND THAT'S WHERE I ENDED UP. 364 00:19:42,282 --> 00:19:44,317 MMM. THIS IS THERAPY. 365 00:19:44,417 --> 00:19:47,654 WE DON'T BELIEVE IN ACCIDENTS HERE. 366 00:19:49,922 --> 00:19:53,025 ALL RIGHT, FINE. I MEAN, I'M ABOUT TO BE A SINGLE DAD, 367 00:19:53,125 --> 00:19:55,328 MAYBE I, UH... 368 00:19:59,832 --> 00:20:03,670 MAYBE I JUST FELT LIKE I WANTED TO TALK TO MY MOM. 369 00:20:03,770 --> 00:20:05,438 OR YOUR DAD? 370 00:20:05,538 --> 00:20:08,074 HAVE YOU BEEN LISTENING TO A WORD I'VE SAID? 371 00:20:08,174 --> 00:20:10,810 I CAN'T FUCKING STAND MY FATHER. 372 00:20:10,910 --> 00:20:12,445 IT'S INTERESTING THAT YOU USED THE SAME WORD 373 00:20:12,545 --> 00:20:16,649 TO DESCRIBE AMY AND YOUR FATHER-- HOTSHOT-- 374 00:20:16,749 --> 00:20:19,752 BUT YOU KEEP INSISTING THAT THEY'RE NOTHING LIKE EACH OTHER. 375 00:20:19,852 --> 00:20:22,021 WELL, THEY'RE NOT. WHERE ARE YOU GOING WITH THIS? 376 00:20:22,121 --> 00:20:26,225 LOOK, YOU MARRIED AN INTELLIGENT, OVERACHIEVING WOMAN 377 00:20:26,326 --> 00:20:28,027 WHO SEEMS ABSOLUTELY CERTAIN 378 00:20:28,127 --> 00:20:32,599 OF HER AUTHORITY IN THE WORLD. 379 00:20:32,699 --> 00:20:35,302 THE CRITICISM AND DISAPPOINTMENT THAT YOU GOT FROM YOUR FATHER-- 380 00:20:35,402 --> 00:20:39,472 DON'T YOU FEEL THAT THAT'S WHAT YOU GET FROM AMY? 381 00:20:45,712 --> 00:20:47,847 YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH AMY IS FALLING APART, 382 00:20:47,947 --> 00:20:50,283 SO YOU GET IN THE CAR, YOU DRIVE FOR FOUR HOURS TO VIRGINIA 383 00:20:50,383 --> 00:20:53,520 AND YOU FIND YOURSELF BY ACCIDENT 384 00:20:53,620 --> 00:20:56,889 OUTSIDE YOUR FATHER'S HOUSE? 385 00:21:13,706 --> 00:21:16,543 YOU THINK I WAS GOING BACK TO THE SOURCE. 386 00:21:18,144 --> 00:21:20,046 JESUS, THAT'S SICK. 387 00:21:20,146 --> 00:21:22,315 IT'S NOT SICK, JAKE. 388 00:21:22,415 --> 00:21:23,983 THE MORE WE OPEN OURSELVES 389 00:21:24,083 --> 00:21:27,286 TO THE THERAPEUTIC PROCESS, THE MORE WE CAN EXAMINE-- 390 00:21:27,387 --> 00:21:29,389 MORE THERAPY? WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? 391 00:21:29,489 --> 00:21:31,758 I NEED THAT LIKE I NEED A HOLE IN MY HEAD. 392 00:21:34,126 --> 00:21:36,596 DO YOU KNOW WHAT? 393 00:21:36,696 --> 00:21:38,665 WHO CARES WHY I WENT HOME THAT NIGHT? 394 00:21:38,765 --> 00:21:40,567 WHAT DOES IT MATTER HOW MY PARENTS TALK 395 00:21:40,667 --> 00:21:42,569 AT THE FUCKING DINNER TABLE, ALL RIGHT? 396 00:21:42,669 --> 00:21:44,170 I HAVE LEARNED FROM MY FATHER'S MISTAKES. 397 00:21:44,270 --> 00:21:46,373 I'M A MUCH BETTER FATHER THAN HE IS. 398 00:21:55,181 --> 00:21:57,049 I DON'T WANT TO FUCK IT UP, PAUL. 399 00:21:58,250 --> 00:21:59,952 I DON'T WANT TO FUCK MY KID UP. 400 00:22:05,825 --> 00:22:07,427 I NEED-- 401 00:22:09,562 --> 00:22:11,731 I NEED THEIR HELP. 402 00:22:12,965 --> 00:22:14,634 I NEED YOUR HELP. 403 00:22:15,935 --> 00:22:19,038 I NEED HELP, ALL THE HELP I CAN GET. 404 00:22:25,211 --> 00:22:27,414 WHAT'S THE ROAD MAP, YOU KNOW? 405 00:22:39,792 --> 00:22:41,661 I FEEL SCARED. 406 00:22:51,771 --> 00:22:55,374 YOU KNOW, I WISH I COULD SAY IT WAS THAT SIMPLE, JAKE. 407 00:22:55,475 --> 00:22:58,545 THAT I COULD JUST GIVE YOU A ROAD MAP, 408 00:22:58,645 --> 00:23:00,813 A BOOK OF INSTRUCTIONS... 409 00:23:00,913 --> 00:23:02,482 ( chuckles ) 410 00:23:02,582 --> 00:23:04,784 BUT, UNFORTUNATELY, LIFE ISN'T LIKE THAT. 411 00:23:06,953 --> 00:23:09,689 BUT YOU KNOW THAT OLD SAYING THAT 412 00:23:09,789 --> 00:23:13,660 A JOURNEY OF 1,000 MILES BEGINS WITH A SINGLE STEP? 413 00:23:15,495 --> 00:23:17,363 YEAH. OR IN MY CASE, 414 00:23:17,464 --> 00:23:20,467 TWO STEPS UP AND ONE STEP BACK. 415 00:23:20,567 --> 00:23:22,569 ( both chuckle ) 416 00:23:40,853 --> 00:23:43,790 YOU KNOW, IF THIS WAS A MOVIE... 417 00:23:43,890 --> 00:23:46,659 THE LIGHTS WOULD COME ON RIGHT NOW. 418 00:23:47,560 --> 00:23:49,762 IF THIS WERE A MOVIE. 419 00:23:51,631 --> 00:23:53,065 WERE A MOVIE. 420 00:24:11,183 --> 00:24:13,953 ( theme music playing )