1 00:00:05,739 --> 00:00:08,209 Man: PREVIOUSLY, ON "IN TREATMENT"... 2 00:00:08,309 --> 00:00:10,644 Paul: WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME YOUR FATHER WAS IN MIAMI? 3 00:00:10,744 --> 00:00:11,845 WHY WAS IT A SECRET? 4 00:00:11,945 --> 00:00:13,547 IT'S NOT A FUCKING SECRET. 5 00:00:13,647 --> 00:00:15,583 SO HE STILL DOESN'T KNOW ABOUT YOUR ATTEMPTED SUICIDE? 6 00:00:15,683 --> 00:00:17,985 IT'S NOT HIS FAULT THAT I TOOK THOSE PILLS. 7 00:00:18,086 --> 00:00:19,620 ARE YOU ANGRY AT HIM FOR SOMETHING? 8 00:00:19,720 --> 00:00:21,589 SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT HIM! 9 00:00:24,958 --> 00:00:27,195 I WANT YOU TO REMEMBER SOMETHING, SOPHIE. 10 00:00:27,295 --> 00:00:29,263 THERE ARE OTHER PLACES WHERE YOU CAN FEEL SAFE, 11 00:00:29,363 --> 00:00:31,165 AND HERE IN THIS ROOM 12 00:00:31,265 --> 00:00:33,734 IS ONE OF THOSE PLACES. 13 00:00:41,475 --> 00:00:42,376 OH. 14 00:00:42,476 --> 00:00:44,812 HOLD UP, PAUL. I JUST GOTTA FINISH THIS. 15 00:00:48,549 --> 00:00:50,284 TAKE YOUR TIME. 16 00:00:50,384 --> 00:00:52,686 I'LL JUST GOOGLE MYSELF. 17 00:00:52,786 --> 00:00:54,688 ( chuckles ) 18 00:00:54,788 --> 00:00:56,357 IT'S MY DAD. HE'S IN BOSTON. 19 00:00:56,457 --> 00:00:58,259 I MIGHT GO VISIT HIM NEXT WEEK. 20 00:00:58,359 --> 00:00:59,527 MMM. 21 00:00:59,627 --> 00:01:02,363 OH MY GOD, THE MOST AMAZING THING HAPPENED LAST NIGHT. 22 00:01:02,463 --> 00:01:04,198 I KNOW YOU WOULDN'T BELIEVE ME, BUT... 23 00:01:04,298 --> 00:01:06,667 - I DON'T CARE. - WELL, WHY WOULDN'T I BELIEVE YOU? 24 00:01:06,767 --> 00:01:08,202 BECAUSE... 25 00:01:08,302 --> 00:01:10,504 YOU THINK THAT MY DAD AND ME BEING CONNECTED IS BULLSHIT. 26 00:01:10,604 --> 00:01:12,406 I NEVER SAID IT WAS BULLSHIT. I SAID I-- 27 00:01:12,506 --> 00:01:14,275 I MIGHT BE SURPRISED, BUT-- 28 00:01:14,375 --> 00:01:16,544 FREE YOUR MIND, PAUL. THE REST WILL FOLLOW. 29 00:01:16,644 --> 00:01:18,746 MMM. 30 00:01:18,846 --> 00:01:19,880 HMM. 31 00:01:19,980 --> 00:01:22,316 ( theme music playing ) 32 00:01:40,501 --> 00:01:42,703 OH MY GOD, IT WAS INCREDIBLE. 33 00:01:42,803 --> 00:01:44,338 I HAD THIS DREAM 34 00:01:44,438 --> 00:01:46,374 THAT MY FATHER WAS IN DANGER. 35 00:01:46,474 --> 00:01:48,642 I WOKE UP FEELING A LITTLE FREAKED, YOU KNOW? 36 00:01:48,742 --> 00:01:50,411 SO I CALLED HIM. 37 00:01:50,511 --> 00:01:53,147 HE'S STAYING IN A HOTEL WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND. 38 00:01:53,981 --> 00:01:55,649 TURNS OUT, LAST NIGHT, 39 00:01:55,749 --> 00:01:59,353 SOMEBODY BROKE INTO HIS ROOM AND STOLE HIS FAVORITE CAMERA. 40 00:02:00,754 --> 00:02:02,523 HMM. 41 00:02:04,057 --> 00:02:08,329 SO GUESS YOU MUST BE FEELING PRETTY SILLY NOW, HUH? 42 00:02:12,166 --> 00:02:13,901 YEAH, BECAUSE YOU HAVE ALL THESE DOUBTS 43 00:02:14,001 --> 00:02:15,803 ABOUT MY FATHER AND OUR TELEPATHY. 44 00:02:15,903 --> 00:02:17,638 YOU BASICALLY HATE THE MAN. 45 00:02:17,738 --> 00:02:19,039 I HATE YOUR FATHER? 46 00:02:19,139 --> 00:02:21,642 LAST WEEK YOU WERE INSINUATING-- 47 00:02:21,742 --> 00:02:23,977 FORGET IT. THE POINT IS, WE'RE CONNECTED. 48 00:02:24,077 --> 00:02:27,515 IT'S BEEN PROVEN ONCE AND FOR ALL. YOU CAN'T TAKE THAT AWAY. 49 00:02:32,286 --> 00:02:35,289 YOU SAID THAT-- THAT YOU MIGHT GO TO BOSTON. 50 00:02:35,389 --> 00:02:37,825 DON'T YOU HAVE THE OLYMPIC TRIALS COMING UP? 51 00:02:37,925 --> 00:02:40,428 THOSE ARE AFTER I GET BACK. 52 00:02:40,528 --> 00:02:44,298 SO IT'S OKAY TO MISS TRAINING THIS CLOSE TO A COMPETITION, IS IT? 53 00:02:44,398 --> 00:02:47,835 OH, I'M SORRY, CY. I WAS LOOKING FOR MY SHRINK. 54 00:02:47,935 --> 00:02:49,470 ( chuckles ) 55 00:02:51,038 --> 00:02:53,574 - HMM. - LOOK, IT'S NOT A BIG DEAL. 56 00:02:53,674 --> 00:02:56,577 IT'S JUST MORE IMPORTANT FOR ME TO SPEND QUALITY TIME WITH HIM. 57 00:02:56,677 --> 00:02:59,112 - IT'S BEEN TOO LONG. - WELL, MAYBE HE COULD COME HERE? 58 00:02:59,213 --> 00:03:02,550 THAT WAY YOU COULD SEE HIM AND YOU COULD STILL CONTINUE TO TRAIN. 59 00:03:02,650 --> 00:03:04,685 WHAT DO YOU CARE? 60 00:03:04,785 --> 00:03:07,221 DID YOU, LIKE, BET ON ME TO WIN A MEDAL OR SOMETHING? 61 00:03:07,321 --> 00:03:09,557 ( chuckles ) 62 00:03:09,657 --> 00:03:12,159 WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR FATHER? 63 00:03:12,260 --> 00:03:15,095 ABOUT... SIX MONTHS AGO. 64 00:03:15,195 --> 00:03:16,497 HE WAS IN TOWN FOR A WEEKEND. 65 00:03:16,597 --> 00:03:18,332 AND HOW WAS THAT? WAS IT FUN? 66 00:03:20,734 --> 00:03:22,169 IT WAS FINE. 67 00:03:22,270 --> 00:03:24,472 WE WENT TO THIS FANCY RESTAURANT. 68 00:03:24,572 --> 00:03:25,939 HIS GIRLFRIEND CAME WITH US. 69 00:03:26,039 --> 00:03:28,876 AND MY DAD STARTED FLIRTING WITH THE WAITRESS. 70 00:03:28,976 --> 00:03:32,613 HIS GIRLFRIEND STARTED TO CRY. 71 00:03:32,713 --> 00:03:35,148 SO WE HAD TO LEAVE, WHICH KIND OF SUCKED, BUT... 72 00:03:35,249 --> 00:03:38,018 DOESN'T MATTER. IT WAS FINE. 73 00:03:38,118 --> 00:03:40,220 WAS IT THE SAME GIRL FROM BOSTON? 74 00:03:41,255 --> 00:03:42,189 I THINK SO. 75 00:03:42,290 --> 00:03:43,991 WHO CAN KEEP UP? 76 00:03:47,928 --> 00:03:50,130 HOW DID YOU GET ON WITH HER? 77 00:03:50,230 --> 00:03:51,565 FINE. 78 00:03:51,665 --> 00:03:53,367 SHE'S PEACHY. 79 00:03:53,467 --> 00:03:55,336 MMM. WHAT'S HER NAME AGAIN? 80 00:03:55,436 --> 00:04:00,073 DARREN, TARYN, KAREN-- SOMETHING LIKE THAT. 81 00:04:00,173 --> 00:04:01,909 CLEO. 82 00:04:02,009 --> 00:04:04,345 I THINK IT'S STILL CLEO. 83 00:04:04,445 --> 00:04:06,647 I'M LIKE THE LITTLE SISTER SHE NEVER HAD. 84 00:04:06,747 --> 00:04:08,248 ( chuckles ) 85 00:04:11,319 --> 00:04:13,621 I WISH HE'D LEAVE HER IN BOSTON. 86 00:04:15,556 --> 00:04:18,626 WE HAVEN'T TAKEN A TRIP TOGETHER-- JUST MY DAD AND ME-- 87 00:04:18,726 --> 00:04:21,895 - SINCE MY 13TH BIRTHDAY. - WHERE DID YOU GO THEN? 88 00:04:21,995 --> 00:04:24,064 WE WENT TO PARIS. 89 00:04:24,164 --> 00:04:25,733 HE TOOK ME TO EVERYTHING 90 00:04:25,833 --> 00:04:29,470 FROM THE EIFFEL TOWER TO MONET'S GARDEN-- THE WORKS. 91 00:04:29,570 --> 00:04:32,072 AT THIS SIDEWALK CAFE I HAD THIS CUP OF CHOCOLATE. 92 00:04:32,172 --> 00:04:33,974 YOU HAD TO EAT IT WITH A SPOON. 93 00:04:34,074 --> 00:04:36,877 TWO WORDS-- AWE-SOME. 94 00:04:36,977 --> 00:04:39,012 ( chuckles ) 95 00:04:39,112 --> 00:04:41,214 WE STAYED IN THIS HUGE APARTMENT. 96 00:04:41,315 --> 00:04:42,750 IT WAS LIKE A LOFT. 97 00:04:42,850 --> 00:04:46,219 BELONGED TO SOME WOMAN-- I MET HER FOR, LIKE, FIVE SECONDS 98 00:04:46,320 --> 00:04:48,489 JUST AS I WAS LEAVING TO FLY BACK HOME. 99 00:04:48,589 --> 00:04:52,360 SHE WAS GOING INTO THE APARTMENT AS I WAS GOING OUT. 100 00:04:52,460 --> 00:04:55,028 THE ELEVATOR REEKED OF HER PERFUME. 101 00:04:55,128 --> 00:04:56,864 MADE ME WANT TO THROW UP. 102 00:04:58,298 --> 00:05:00,200 I DID, LITERALLY. 103 00:05:00,300 --> 00:05:03,804 RIGHT ON THE STREET IN FRONT OF THE CAB. 104 00:05:03,904 --> 00:05:06,139 NOBODY SAW IT. 105 00:05:06,239 --> 00:05:08,175 THAT'S NOT TRUE, THE CABBIE SAW, 106 00:05:08,275 --> 00:05:11,812 BUT MY DAD DIDN'T. HE STAYED UPSTAIRS. 107 00:05:11,912 --> 00:05:14,348 SO YOU TOOK A CAB TO THE AIRPORT BY YOURSELF? 108 00:05:14,448 --> 00:05:17,518 UH, YEAH, I WAS 13, PAUL. 109 00:05:19,052 --> 00:05:20,454 HMM. 110 00:05:22,022 --> 00:05:25,025 SO YOU WANT TO TELL ME MORE ABOUT THAT DREAM THAT YOU HAD? 111 00:05:29,096 --> 00:05:31,365 NOT REALLY. IT DOESN'T MATTER. 112 00:05:31,465 --> 00:05:33,834 IT'S JUST A STUPID DREAM. 113 00:05:33,934 --> 00:05:37,805 BUT I FELT THAT HE WAS IN DANGER-- THAT'S THE IMPORTANT PART. 114 00:05:39,106 --> 00:05:40,408 I CAN FEEL HIM. 115 00:05:40,508 --> 00:05:42,042 WE'RE LINKED. 116 00:05:42,142 --> 00:05:43,877 "RADAR LOVE." 117 00:05:50,951 --> 00:05:53,421 IT WAS A TERRIBLE DREAM. 118 00:05:53,521 --> 00:05:55,322 MORE LIKE A NIGHTMARE. 119 00:05:55,423 --> 00:05:57,290 DO YOU GET THOSE? 120 00:05:57,391 --> 00:05:59,026 SOMETIMES. 121 00:06:01,462 --> 00:06:03,497 WHAT HAPPENS IN YOURS? 122 00:06:05,699 --> 00:06:07,701 WELL... 123 00:06:07,801 --> 00:06:11,204 THERE'S ONE I'VE-- I'VE HAD... 124 00:06:11,304 --> 00:06:15,743 CONSISTENTLY SINCE I WAS A KID. 125 00:06:15,843 --> 00:06:19,447 I'M SITTING IN THIS ROCKING CHAIR AND I'M ROCKING BACK AND FORWARD, 126 00:06:19,547 --> 00:06:21,715 AND EVERY TIME I GO TO GET OFF, I CAN'T GET OFF, 127 00:06:21,815 --> 00:06:24,317 AND THE CHAIR KEEPS ROCKING BACK AND FORWARD. 128 00:06:24,418 --> 00:06:27,220 AND MY-- MY MOTHER IS CALLING ME 129 00:06:27,320 --> 00:06:28,756 FROM UPSTAIRS, 130 00:06:28,856 --> 00:06:31,291 AND I-- I'M TRYING TO GET OUT OF THE CHAIR, 131 00:06:31,391 --> 00:06:35,128 BUT I-- I JUST CAN'T LET GO. 132 00:06:35,228 --> 00:06:37,164 ( sighs ) 133 00:06:39,800 --> 00:06:42,269 WHAT DO YOU THINK IT MEANS? 134 00:06:42,369 --> 00:06:44,738 I THINK IT MEANS THAT... 135 00:06:44,838 --> 00:06:48,709 UH, MAYBE THAT I AM SCARED THAT I'M GONNA DISAPPOINT MY MOTHER, 136 00:06:48,809 --> 00:06:51,078 THAT I'M NOT GONNA BE THERE FOR HER. 137 00:06:52,079 --> 00:06:53,981 DID YOU DISAPPOINT HER... 138 00:06:54,081 --> 00:06:56,149 IN REAL LIFE? 139 00:06:56,249 --> 00:06:58,786 NO, I... 140 00:06:59,920 --> 00:07:01,555 I DON'T THINK SO. 141 00:07:05,726 --> 00:07:07,495 ANYWAY, BACK TO YOUR DREAM. 142 00:07:12,466 --> 00:07:14,167 OKAY, SO... 143 00:07:14,267 --> 00:07:17,638 I WAS WAITING FOR MY FATHER IN A HOTEL ROOM... 144 00:07:17,738 --> 00:07:20,373 WHEN A MAN KNOCKED ON THE DOOR. 145 00:07:20,474 --> 00:07:22,576 I LET HIM IN. 146 00:07:22,676 --> 00:07:24,578 HE ASKED ME WHERE MY FATHER WAS, 147 00:07:24,678 --> 00:07:27,815 AND I TOLD HIM HE WAS ON HIS WAY. 148 00:07:27,915 --> 00:07:29,850 JUST AS I SAID IT-- I WAS SO STUPID-- 149 00:07:29,950 --> 00:07:32,886 I REALIZED THAT THIS GUY WAS A SERIAL KILLER. 150 00:07:33,754 --> 00:07:36,957 SO HE SAT DOWN TO WAIT WITH ME, 151 00:07:37,057 --> 00:07:40,594 AND I KNEW THAT THE MOMENT MY FATHER WALKED INTO THAT ROOM, 152 00:07:40,694 --> 00:07:43,030 THIS GUY WAS GOING TO KILL HIM. 153 00:07:43,130 --> 00:07:46,099 AND I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO STOP IT. IT WAS AWFUL. 154 00:07:47,434 --> 00:07:49,537 WHAT DID THE MAN LOOK LIKE? 155 00:07:51,004 --> 00:07:52,506 I DON'T REMEMBER. 156 00:07:52,606 --> 00:07:55,509 HAD YOU BEEN IN THIS HOTEL ROOM BEFORE? 157 00:07:58,946 --> 00:08:00,080 NO. 158 00:08:01,448 --> 00:08:03,917 WHAT WAS IT LIKE? CAN YOU DESCRIBE IT? 159 00:08:05,586 --> 00:08:07,454 IT WAS DARK-- 160 00:08:07,555 --> 00:08:11,559 DARK WOOD, DARK FURNITURE. 161 00:08:11,659 --> 00:08:13,894 SORT OF LIKE A CAVE OR A TUNNEL. 162 00:08:13,994 --> 00:08:17,464 YEAH, LIKE A TUNNEL, BUT IT WASN'T SCARY. 163 00:08:17,565 --> 00:08:19,833 YOU COULD SEE LIGHT AT BOTH ENDS, 164 00:08:19,933 --> 00:08:24,371 LIKE WHERE THE TUNNEL STARTED AND WHERE IT ENDED. 165 00:08:24,471 --> 00:08:26,473 I REMEMBER LOOKING BACK AND FORTH, 166 00:08:26,574 --> 00:08:30,177 TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHICH WAY WAS THE ENTRANCE AND WHICH WAS THE EXIT. 167 00:08:31,979 --> 00:08:34,514 ANYTHING ELSE YOU REMEMBER ABOUT IT? 168 00:08:39,653 --> 00:08:43,824 THE MAN WAS WEARING SHOES LIKE YOURS. 169 00:08:43,924 --> 00:08:47,294 NOT THOSE SHOES. THE BLACK ONES THAT YOU USUALLY WEAR. 170 00:08:47,394 --> 00:08:49,262 LIKE MY OTHER ONES? 171 00:08:49,362 --> 00:08:53,233 NOT LIKE YOUR OTHER SHOES, THEY WERE YOUR SHOES. 172 00:08:53,333 --> 00:08:57,204 SO THIS SERIAL KILLER WAS WEARING MY-- MY SHOES? 173 00:08:59,039 --> 00:09:01,474 IT WAS YOU... 174 00:09:01,575 --> 00:09:03,476 IN THE HOTEL ROOM. 175 00:09:03,577 --> 00:09:06,246 YOU WERE WAITING TO KILL MY FATHER. 176 00:09:09,817 --> 00:09:12,452 DID I TELL YOU WHY I WAS GONNA KILL HIM? 177 00:09:12,552 --> 00:09:15,022 DID YOUR FATHER EVER SHOW UP? 178 00:09:15,122 --> 00:09:16,924 NO. 179 00:09:18,759 --> 00:09:21,128 WE JUST SAT THERE. 180 00:09:21,228 --> 00:09:24,231 WE MADE SMALL TALK. 181 00:09:24,331 --> 00:09:27,601 AND THE WHOLE TIME I WAS TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO GET OUT OF THERE... 182 00:09:27,701 --> 00:09:29,870 TO CALL SOMEBODY OR SOMETHING. 183 00:09:31,772 --> 00:09:34,574 DO YOU REMEMBER WHAT THIS SMALL TALK WAS ABOUT? 184 00:09:34,675 --> 00:09:36,376 I DON'T-- 185 00:09:36,476 --> 00:09:39,747 I'M NOT SURE. SOMETHING ABOUT... 186 00:09:41,048 --> 00:09:43,583 IT MAKES PERFECT SENSE, DOESN'T IT? 187 00:09:44,718 --> 00:09:47,420 YOU'RE ALWAYS INSINUATING SHIT ABOUT HIM-- 188 00:09:47,520 --> 00:09:50,157 THAT HE'S THE MYSTERY MAN, 189 00:09:50,257 --> 00:09:51,959 THAT THERE'S SOME BIG SECRET, 190 00:09:52,059 --> 00:09:54,762 THAT HE'S THE PERSON WHO REALLY FUCKED ME UP. 191 00:09:54,862 --> 00:09:56,964 BUT THE JOKE'S ON YOU, BECAUSE THERE'S NOTHING THERE. 192 00:09:57,064 --> 00:10:00,801 MY FATHER DIDN'T CROSS THE LINE OR BREAK ANY RULES 193 00:10:00,901 --> 00:10:03,603 OR ANY OF THAT CRAP YOU LOVE TO THROW AROUND. 194 00:10:03,704 --> 00:10:05,973 YOU'RE SO WRONG IT'S RIDICULOUS. 195 00:10:09,176 --> 00:10:13,313 MY FATHER HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR ME. 196 00:10:13,413 --> 00:10:17,317 HIS WORK AND ME ARE THE ONLY IMPORTANT THINGS IN HIS LIFE. 197 00:10:23,991 --> 00:10:26,894 HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT HIS PHOTOGRAPHS? 198 00:10:28,328 --> 00:10:30,664 THEY'RE BEAUTIFUL... 199 00:10:30,764 --> 00:10:32,800 IF YOU LOOK AT THEM WITH AN OPEN MIND, 200 00:10:32,900 --> 00:10:34,534 WHICH OF COURSE YOU CAN'T. 201 00:10:34,634 --> 00:10:37,204 HE LOVES THE HUMAN FORM. 202 00:10:37,304 --> 00:10:40,407 HE BELIEVES THE BODY CAN BE THE PERFECT... 203 00:10:40,507 --> 00:10:42,575 EXPRESSION... 204 00:10:42,676 --> 00:10:45,713 OF EVERY HUMAN EMOTION AND EXPERIENCE. 205 00:10:47,781 --> 00:10:49,917 IS THAT HOW HE SPEAKS ABOUT HIS WORK? 206 00:10:50,017 --> 00:10:51,651 WHAT ARE YOU SAYING, PAUL? 207 00:10:51,752 --> 00:10:55,222 THAT I CAN'T FORM AN OPINION OF MY OWN FATHER'S WORK? 208 00:10:55,322 --> 00:10:58,025 YOU THINK I'M QUOTING HIM? 209 00:10:58,125 --> 00:11:02,395 YOU KNOW, HE SAYS A LOT OF SHRINKS ARE FAILED ARTISTS OR WRITERS. 210 00:11:04,331 --> 00:11:06,499 MAYBE YOU'RE JEALOUS OF HIM. 211 00:11:06,599 --> 00:11:08,535 HE TRAVELS AROUND THE WORLD, 212 00:11:08,635 --> 00:11:10,470 HE WORKS WITH MODELS. 213 00:11:10,570 --> 00:11:13,440 MEANWHILE, YOU'RE TRAPPED IN YOUR CELL WITH FUCK-UPS LIKE ME. 214 00:11:13,540 --> 00:11:18,812 OH, I'D TAKE A FUCK-UP LIKE YOU ANY DAY OVER ONE OF THOSE SUPERMODELS. 215 00:11:19,880 --> 00:11:21,448 NO, YOU WOULDN'T. SHUT UP. 216 00:11:21,548 --> 00:11:23,884 YES, I WOULD. IT'S TRUE. 217 00:11:25,185 --> 00:11:27,454 SO, HOW WAS THAT FOR YOU 218 00:11:27,554 --> 00:11:31,258 YOUR FATHER BEING CONSTANTLY SURROUNDED BY BEAUTIFUL WOMEN 219 00:11:31,358 --> 00:11:32,960 WHEN YOU WERE A KID? 220 00:11:33,060 --> 00:11:36,764 HE'S AN ARTIST. IT WAS HIS JOB. 221 00:11:36,864 --> 00:11:40,167 BESIDES, NUDITY WAS TOTALLY NORMAL IN MY HOUSE. 222 00:11:40,267 --> 00:11:41,969 I GOT USED TO IT. 223 00:11:42,069 --> 00:11:43,670 NUDITY? 224 00:11:43,771 --> 00:11:45,806 NUDE MODELS. 225 00:11:45,906 --> 00:11:47,975 THE FEMALE FORM. 226 00:11:48,075 --> 00:11:51,211 IT'S LIKE DRAWING CLASS 101, PAUL. 227 00:11:51,311 --> 00:11:55,248 AN ARTIST MUST WORK FROM THE PUREST INSPIRATION. 228 00:11:55,348 --> 00:11:56,716 HIS STUDIO WAS AT HOME 229 00:11:56,817 --> 00:12:00,487 SO THERE WERE A LOT OF MODELS WALKING AROUND NAKED. 230 00:12:00,587 --> 00:12:03,056 IT WASN'T A BIG DEAL. WE WERE COOL. 231 00:12:03,156 --> 00:12:05,225 SO THIS WAS NORMAL FOR YOU, 232 00:12:05,325 --> 00:12:09,462 TO BE EXPOSED TO ADULTS BEING NAKED, YEAH? 233 00:12:09,562 --> 00:12:11,031 "EXPOSED." 234 00:12:11,131 --> 00:12:13,400 "OOH, NUDITY. 235 00:12:13,500 --> 00:12:15,268 HOW SCARY. 236 00:12:15,368 --> 00:12:17,871 BREASTS-- TERRIFYING!" 237 00:12:21,174 --> 00:12:23,343 SO WERE YOU EVER NAKED AROUND THE HOUSE? 238 00:12:23,443 --> 00:12:25,312 OF COURSE NOT. 239 00:12:29,249 --> 00:12:30,717 LOOK AT YOUR FACE. 240 00:12:30,818 --> 00:12:32,986 YOU THINK THAT'S MY BIG SECRET? 241 00:12:33,086 --> 00:12:36,623 I SAW MY FATHER NAKED AND NOW I'M SCARRED FOR LIFE? 242 00:12:36,723 --> 00:12:39,026 ISN'T THAT KIND OF A CLICHE? 243 00:12:39,126 --> 00:12:42,963 SO YOUR FATHER WAS NAKED AND-- AND YOUR MOTHER AS WELL? 244 00:12:44,697 --> 00:12:46,066 WHY ARE YOU LAUGHING? 245 00:12:46,166 --> 00:12:48,435 MY MOTHER ALWAYS WORE HER CLOTHES, 246 00:12:48,535 --> 00:12:50,303 EVEN IN THE SHOWER. 247 00:12:50,403 --> 00:12:52,039 ( chuckles ) 248 00:12:52,139 --> 00:12:56,209 BUT SHE WAS PERFECTLY COMFORTABLE WITH THE-- THE MODELS? 249 00:12:56,309 --> 00:12:58,946 SHE WAS CLUELESS ABOUT THE WHOLE THING. 250 00:12:59,046 --> 00:13:01,214 SORRY, I'M HAVING A DIFFICULT TIME FOLLOWING THIS. 251 00:13:01,314 --> 00:13:04,417 I THOUGHT YOU SAID THAT PEOPLE WERE NAKED ALL THE TIME? 252 00:13:04,517 --> 00:13:08,221 OKAY, NOT ALL THE TIME-- 253 00:13:08,321 --> 00:13:10,090 A LOT OF THE TIME. 254 00:13:10,190 --> 00:13:13,493 DURING THE DAY, WHILE MY MOTHER WAS AT WORK. 255 00:13:16,396 --> 00:13:19,799 SO WOULD YOU SAY THAT YOUR FATHER WAS, UM... 256 00:13:19,900 --> 00:13:22,035 HIDING IT FROM HER? 257 00:13:22,135 --> 00:13:24,037 I'D SAY SHE WAS A FUCKING IDIOT 258 00:13:24,137 --> 00:13:27,040 WHO COULDN'T SEE WHAT WAS RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER. 259 00:13:28,909 --> 00:13:30,944 THEY WERE HAVING SEX. 260 00:13:31,044 --> 00:13:33,313 WHO-- WHO WAS HAVING SEX, SOPHIE? 261 00:13:35,148 --> 00:13:37,350 MY DAD... 262 00:13:37,450 --> 00:13:40,287 WITH THE MODEL DU JOUR. 263 00:13:40,387 --> 00:13:42,022 HOW DO YOU KNOW? 264 00:13:43,556 --> 00:13:45,292 I SAW THEM. 265 00:13:46,994 --> 00:13:49,429 I CAME HOME FROM SCHOOL EARLY ONE DAY. 266 00:13:49,529 --> 00:13:53,867 THE MOM WHO DROVE CARPOOL THAT DAY HAD TO PICK US UP EARLY. 267 00:13:53,967 --> 00:13:55,869 I WALKED INTO MY PARENTS' BEDROOM 268 00:13:55,969 --> 00:13:58,638 AND MY FATHER WAS THERE WITH A MODEL. 269 00:13:58,738 --> 00:14:00,573 DOES YOUR FATHER KNOW THAT YOU SAW? 270 00:14:00,673 --> 00:14:02,442 OH, YEAH. HE GOT UP. 271 00:14:02,542 --> 00:14:05,845 HE CAME OVER TO ME AND JUST LOOKED AT ME. 272 00:14:06,679 --> 00:14:08,581 I SAID SOMETHING LIKE, 273 00:14:08,681 --> 00:14:11,651 "I THOUGHT THE MODELS ONLY CAME AT FIXED TIMES." 274 00:14:11,751 --> 00:14:13,987 AND WHAT DID HE SAY? 275 00:14:15,822 --> 00:14:17,857 I DON'T REMEMBER. 276 00:14:17,958 --> 00:14:20,193 SOMETHING LIKE, "YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE AT SCHOOL." 277 00:14:20,293 --> 00:14:22,462 AND THEN HE SHUT THE DOOR... 278 00:14:22,562 --> 00:14:24,031 AND LOCKED IT. 279 00:14:24,131 --> 00:14:26,666 I REMEMBER THE SOUND OF THE LATCH SLIDING. 280 00:14:26,766 --> 00:14:28,168 HOW OLD WERE YOU? 281 00:14:28,268 --> 00:14:30,904 I DON'T KNOW. SEVEN AND A HALF? 282 00:14:32,139 --> 00:14:33,974 WHY ARE YOU BEING SO DRAMATIC? 283 00:14:34,074 --> 00:14:35,742 IT WAS NO BIG DEAL. 284 00:14:35,842 --> 00:14:38,111 MY FATHER IS AN ARTIST. 285 00:14:38,211 --> 00:14:41,148 THEY DON'T LIVE LIKE OTHER PEOPLE DO. 286 00:14:41,248 --> 00:14:43,216 THEY HAVE TO BE IN TOUCH WITH-- 287 00:14:43,316 --> 00:14:46,653 THEY HAVE TO CRAP ON CONVENTIONAL THINGS IN ORDER TO CREATE. 288 00:14:46,753 --> 00:14:48,521 DID YOU TALK TO YOUR MOTHER ABOUT THIS? 289 00:14:48,621 --> 00:14:50,090 NO. 290 00:14:50,190 --> 00:14:53,360 DID YOUR FATHER TELL YOU NOT TO? 291 00:14:53,460 --> 00:14:55,862 NO. 292 00:14:55,963 --> 00:14:58,165 BUT YOU WALKED AWAY FROM THE DOOR KNOWING THAT... 293 00:14:58,265 --> 00:15:01,168 YOU WEREN'T SUPPOSED TO SAY ANYTHING, THAT YOU HAD A SECRET. 294 00:15:03,971 --> 00:15:07,707 MAYBE THAT'S WHEN THE IDEA OF TELEPATHY BETWEEN YOU AND YOUR DAD BEGAN? 295 00:15:07,807 --> 00:15:11,611 THIS IDEA THAT YOU CAN UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER WITHOUT WORDS. 296 00:15:14,714 --> 00:15:16,916 THAT'S YOUR BIG THEORY? 297 00:15:17,017 --> 00:15:20,820 AFTER ALL YOUR INSINUATIONS? PRETTY LAME. 298 00:15:20,920 --> 00:15:22,889 - YOU KEEP ACCUSING ME-- - YOU KEEP SUGGESTING 299 00:15:22,990 --> 00:15:25,325 THAT SOMEBODY CROSSED THE LINE WITH ME, 300 00:15:25,425 --> 00:15:27,727 THAT I DON'T HAVE THE ABILITY TO SAY "NO." 301 00:15:27,827 --> 00:15:30,097 YOU'RE SAYING THAT... 302 00:15:30,830 --> 00:15:32,299 WHAT? 303 00:15:32,399 --> 00:15:34,467 ...THAT I'VE BEEN SEXUALLY ABUSED. 304 00:15:34,567 --> 00:15:36,836 YOU THINK THAT'S THE SECRET I'M LOOKING FOR? 305 00:15:36,936 --> 00:15:38,338 WELL, AREN'T YOU? 306 00:15:38,438 --> 00:15:40,107 NO, I'M NOT. 307 00:15:41,808 --> 00:15:43,543 NO, RIGHT. 308 00:15:48,915 --> 00:15:50,984 DO YOU THINK SOMETHING HAPPENED TO YOU? 309 00:15:51,084 --> 00:15:52,619 ARE YOU LISTENING TO ME? 310 00:15:52,719 --> 00:15:54,988 I TOLD YOU NOTHING HAPPENED. 311 00:15:55,088 --> 00:15:56,990 YOU'RE THE ONE WHO KEEPS IMPLYING-- 312 00:15:57,090 --> 00:15:59,792 I DON'T THINK YOU WERE SEXUALLY ABUSED, SOPHIE. 313 00:15:59,892 --> 00:16:03,396 GOOD. THEN WE CAN FINALLY STOP TALKING ABOUT THAT. 314 00:16:05,732 --> 00:16:08,101 WHY DIDN'T YOU EVER TELL YOUR MOTHER WHAT YOU SAW? 315 00:16:08,201 --> 00:16:10,237 DON'T BE AN IDIOT. 316 00:16:10,337 --> 00:16:14,241 SO THIS SECRET HAS BEEN THERE BETWEEN YOU AND SHE ALL THESE YEARS? 317 00:16:14,341 --> 00:16:16,543 SO WHAT? I BARELY SPEAK TO THE WOMAN ANYWAY. 318 00:16:16,643 --> 00:16:19,412 AND YOU DON'T THINK THERE'S ANY CONNECTION BETWEEN THOSE TWO THINGS? 319 00:16:19,512 --> 00:16:21,914 I DON'T SPEAK TO HER BECAUSE SHE'S PATHETIC. 320 00:16:22,015 --> 00:16:23,616 SHE'S A MORON. 321 00:16:23,716 --> 00:16:26,653 SHE COULDN'T SEE WHAT WAS RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER FACE. 322 00:16:29,222 --> 00:16:32,259 SOMETIMES I THINK SHE'S STILL WAITING FOR HIM, 323 00:16:32,359 --> 00:16:34,927 LIKE SANTA CLAUS OR SOMETHING. 324 00:16:35,028 --> 00:16:37,964 SHE WOULD NEVER ADMIT IT, BUT IT'S SO OBVIOUS, IT'S PATHETIC. 325 00:16:38,065 --> 00:16:40,500 BUT IF YOU TOLD HER WHAT YOU SAW, SHE MIGHT NOT BE WAITING FOR HIM ANY LONGER. 326 00:16:40,600 --> 00:16:43,870 IT'S NOT MY JOB TO MAKE HER FACE REALITY! 327 00:16:43,970 --> 00:16:47,440 I'M THE CHILD. SHE'S SUPPOSED TO BE SMARTER THAN ME. 328 00:16:47,540 --> 00:16:49,809 YOU KNOW, SHE SITS THERE, DAY AFTER DAY, 329 00:16:49,909 --> 00:16:53,746 WAITING FOR HIM TO COME TO HIS SENSES. I WANT TO SCREAM AT HER, 330 00:16:53,846 --> 00:16:55,815 "HE DOESN'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOU! 331 00:16:55,915 --> 00:16:59,219 YOU'RE STUPID. YOU'RE USELESS. JUST GET THE FUCK UP 332 00:16:59,319 --> 00:17:01,421 OFF YOUR CLUELESS ASS AND GET A LIFE!" 333 00:17:01,521 --> 00:17:03,556 BUT WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL HER ABOUT HIS AFFAIRS? 334 00:17:03,656 --> 00:17:05,058 IT'S NOT MY FUCKING JOB! 335 00:17:05,158 --> 00:17:07,560 MAYBE YOU DIDN'T TELL HER BECAUSE YOU WERE AFRAID. 336 00:17:07,660 --> 00:17:10,563 MAYBE YOU WERE AFRAID THAT THEY'D SEPARATE AND IT WOULD BE YOUR FAULT, 337 00:17:10,663 --> 00:17:14,067 JUST LIKE YOU THOUGHT THAT YOU'D RUINED CY AND DARLENE'S MARRIAGE, 338 00:17:14,167 --> 00:17:15,702 REMEMBER THAT? 339 00:17:15,802 --> 00:17:20,307 WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL YOUR MOTHER AFTER THEY DIVORCED? 340 00:17:20,407 --> 00:17:23,176 WHAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO DO? RUB HER FACE IN IT? 341 00:17:23,276 --> 00:17:25,145 SO YOU'RE ANGRY BECAUSE SHE COULDN'T SEE THAT? 342 00:17:25,245 --> 00:17:28,148 YES! FUCK YES! 343 00:17:28,248 --> 00:17:30,383 SOPHIE, IN ALL THE WEEKS THAT WE'VE BEEN IN THERAPY, 344 00:17:30,483 --> 00:17:33,052 YOU'VE NEVER ONCE ALLOWED YOURSELF TO BE ANGRY AT YOUR FATHER. 345 00:17:33,153 --> 00:17:36,156 IT'S NEVER EVEN BEEN A POSSIBILITY FOR YOU. 346 00:17:36,256 --> 00:17:38,691 WHY DO YOU THINK THAT IS? 347 00:17:40,493 --> 00:17:43,263 SEE, I THINK THAT YOUR FATHER MADE YOU HIS ACCOMPLICE. 348 00:17:43,363 --> 00:17:46,032 HE BURDENED YOU WITH THIS SECRET 349 00:17:46,133 --> 00:17:48,601 WAY TOO HEAVY FOR ANY CHILD TO CARRY, 350 00:17:48,701 --> 00:17:52,239 AND HE DROVE THIS WEDGE BETWEEN YOU AND YOUR MOTHER WITH THIS SECRET. 351 00:17:52,339 --> 00:17:54,307 MAYBE YOU'RE AFRAID TO GET ANGRY AT HIM 352 00:17:54,407 --> 00:17:57,177 BECAUSE IF YOU DID, YOU'D LOSE HIM FOR GOOD. 353 00:17:57,277 --> 00:17:59,146 AND MAYBE YOU NEVER TOLD YOUR MOTHER 354 00:17:59,246 --> 00:18:01,047 BECAUSE PART OF YOU STILL HOPES 355 00:18:01,148 --> 00:18:03,850 THAT THEY'RE GONNA GET BACK TOGETHER AGAIN. 356 00:18:07,053 --> 00:18:09,556 I KNOW THAT'S NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN. 357 00:18:09,656 --> 00:18:10,890 I'M NOT AN IDIOT. 358 00:18:10,990 --> 00:18:13,460 YOU WOULDN'T HAVE TO BE AN IDIOT TO BELIEVE THAT. 359 00:18:13,560 --> 00:18:15,995 I KNOW PLENTY OF GROWNUPS 360 00:18:16,095 --> 00:18:17,997 WHOSE PARENTS HAVE SEPARATED 20, 30 YEARS, 361 00:18:18,097 --> 00:18:21,834 WHO HAVE EVEN DIED-- AND THEY STILL HOPE IN THEIR HEART OF HEARTS 362 00:18:21,934 --> 00:18:25,838 THAT THEIR MOTHER AND FATHER STILL SHARE A BED IN HEAVEN. 363 00:18:29,276 --> 00:18:31,411 HE WOULDN'T BE A GOOD HUSBAND IF HE CAME BACK. 364 00:18:31,511 --> 00:18:33,580 HE'D JUST LEAVE HER AGAIN. 365 00:18:34,013 --> 00:18:35,948 AND YOU. 366 00:18:36,048 --> 00:18:37,450 WHAT? 367 00:18:37,550 --> 00:18:40,553 HE LEFT YOU TOO, DIDN'T HE? 368 00:18:40,653 --> 00:18:42,121 NO. 369 00:18:42,222 --> 00:18:44,857 HE JUST MOVED OUT. HE'S STILL MY DAD. 370 00:18:44,957 --> 00:18:46,259 OF COURSE HE'S STILL YOUR DAD, 371 00:18:46,359 --> 00:18:49,095 BUT HE DID LITERALLY LEAVE YOU, DIDN'T HE? 372 00:18:49,196 --> 00:18:50,930 HE MOVED AWAY. HE'S NOT AROUND. 373 00:18:51,030 --> 00:18:53,200 HE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW WHETHER YOU'RE DEAD OR ALIVE. 374 00:18:54,066 --> 00:18:55,535 HE WAS WORKING. 375 00:18:55,635 --> 00:18:57,504 WHY CAN'T YOU LET YOURSELF BE ANGRY AT HIM, SOPHIE? 376 00:18:57,604 --> 00:18:59,572 WHY SHOULD I BE ANGRY AT HIM? 377 00:18:59,672 --> 00:19:02,141 SHE'S THE ONE WHO-- 378 00:19:02,242 --> 00:19:04,277 WHO PISSES ME OFF. 379 00:19:04,377 --> 00:19:08,248 - WHY? - BECAUSE SHE'S PATHETIC AND ANNOYING AND... 380 00:19:08,348 --> 00:19:10,450 AND SHE'S ALWAYS AROUND. 381 00:19:14,954 --> 00:19:18,291 I CAN UNDERSTAND WHY YOU MIGHT BE ANGRY AT HER TOO, THOUGH. 382 00:19:18,391 --> 00:19:22,529 'CAUSE YOU FEEL THAT MAYBE SHE DIDN'T PROTECT YOU FROM WHAT WAS GOING ON AT HOME. 383 00:19:24,130 --> 00:19:26,733 BUT SHE'S ALSO A ROCK. 384 00:19:26,833 --> 00:19:29,869 SHE'S INCREDIBLY PATIENT. SHE'S PERSISTENT. 385 00:19:30,937 --> 00:19:33,172 SHE'S NOT GOING ANYWHERE. 386 00:19:34,307 --> 00:19:36,809 SHE'S REALLY SOMETHING WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT IT. 387 00:19:38,110 --> 00:19:39,612 ISN'T SHE? 388 00:20:08,207 --> 00:20:10,076 THERE'S SOMETHING I HAVEN'T TOLD YOU. 389 00:20:10,176 --> 00:20:13,012 WHAT'S THAT? 390 00:20:13,112 --> 00:20:16,616 I'M NOT REALLY THAT INTERESTED IN GYMNASTICS ANYMORE. 391 00:20:16,716 --> 00:20:17,917 WHAT? 392 00:20:20,219 --> 00:20:23,956 - WHY NOT? - I DON'T KNOW. 393 00:20:24,056 --> 00:20:26,959 USED TO BE EVERYTHING TO ME, 394 00:20:27,059 --> 00:20:29,629 AND NOW IT'S NOT. 395 00:20:29,729 --> 00:20:31,964 AND WHY DO YOU THINK THAT IS, SOPHIE? 396 00:20:32,064 --> 00:20:34,334 NO, YOU TELL ME, PAUL. 397 00:20:38,237 --> 00:20:39,539 OKAY. 398 00:20:41,374 --> 00:20:43,276 I THINK THAT WHEN YOU WERE GROWING UP, 399 00:20:43,376 --> 00:20:46,513 THERE WEREN'T ENOUGH BOUNDARIES AT HOME. 400 00:20:46,613 --> 00:20:51,217 BOUNDARIES TO PROTECT A CHILD FROM-- WHAT WERE YOU, SIX, SEVEN? 401 00:20:51,318 --> 00:20:55,555 --FROM THINGS THAT COULD IMPACT YOUR... 402 00:20:56,923 --> 00:20:59,225 YOUR VIEW OF SEX, 403 00:20:59,326 --> 00:21:00,527 YOUR BODY, 404 00:21:00,627 --> 00:21:02,595 YOUR ATTITUDES TOWARD MEN. 405 00:21:02,695 --> 00:21:05,197 I THINK IT WAS ALSO AN ENVIRONMENT 406 00:21:05,298 --> 00:21:08,835 WHERE YOU WERE EXPECTED TO BE COMPLICIT IN THE LIES OF GROWNUPS. 407 00:21:08,935 --> 00:21:13,205 AND I THINK YOU WANTED TO ESCAPE, SO SPORTS BECAME THE PERFECT OUTLET FOR YOU. 408 00:21:13,306 --> 00:21:18,110 A PLACE WITH RULES AND ORDER, WHERE DISCIPLINE PROTECTED YOU 409 00:21:18,210 --> 00:21:20,780 AND-- AND GUIDED YOU. 410 00:21:23,850 --> 00:21:26,152 I THINK THAT GYMNASTICS WAS ALWAYS A PLACE 411 00:21:26,252 --> 00:21:28,220 THAT YOU WERE ABLE TO RUN AWAY TO, 412 00:21:28,321 --> 00:21:30,823 TO BE IN CONTROL. 413 00:21:33,826 --> 00:21:35,928 MAYBE-- 414 00:21:36,028 --> 00:21:41,067 MAYBE YOU DON'T NEED TO RUN AWAY TO THAT WORLD ANYMORE. 415 00:21:53,179 --> 00:21:54,146 SHIT. 416 00:21:54,246 --> 00:21:56,215 WHAT? 417 00:21:56,315 --> 00:21:58,918 I'LL NEVER MAKE THE OLYMPIC TEAM NOW, 418 00:21:59,018 --> 00:22:02,489 NOT WITH THAT ATTITUDE. 419 00:22:02,589 --> 00:22:06,859 WELL, I DON'T THINK THAT'S NECESSARILY TRUE. 420 00:22:09,429 --> 00:22:11,230 I'M GONNA SUCK AT IT. 421 00:22:11,330 --> 00:22:12,632 ( chuckles ) 422 00:22:12,732 --> 00:22:14,634 HAVE YOU EVER FAILED BEFORE? 423 00:22:14,734 --> 00:22:18,070 - NEVER, BUT... - WHAT? 424 00:22:21,240 --> 00:22:24,644 ...THE TIMES, THEY ARE A'CHANGIN'. 425 00:22:27,447 --> 00:22:29,916 IT'S FROM A BOB DYLAN SONG. 426 00:22:30,983 --> 00:22:32,919 MY GIFT TO YOU. 427 00:22:33,820 --> 00:22:34,987 THANK YOU. 428 00:22:36,389 --> 00:22:38,458 YOU'RE WELCOME. 429 00:22:38,558 --> 00:22:40,660 HE'S AN OLD GEEZER... LIKE YOU. 430 00:22:43,430 --> 00:22:44,864 MMM, THANKS. 431 00:22:58,845 --> 00:23:00,413 OUR TIME IS UP. 432 00:23:51,397 --> 00:23:54,601 SO I'LL SEE YOU NEXT WEEK THEN. 433 00:23:55,434 --> 00:23:56,803 OKAY? 434 00:24:11,951 --> 00:24:14,554 ( acoustic guitar music playing )