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Man:
PREVIOUSLY ON
"IN TREATMENT"...

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- I DON'T THINK
I CAN DO THIS.
- DO WHAT?

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THIS THERAPY.
I--

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I JUST DON'T THINK
IT'S LEADING ANYWHERE,
THAT'S ALL.

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WHERE DO YOU
WANT IT TO LEAD, ALEX?

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SOMEPLACE WHERE I FEEL
LESS SHITTY ABOUT MYSELF.

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I GOT A CALL FROM
MY WING COMMANDER,

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AND HE'S TRYING TO FIGURE OUT
IF I'M READY FOR ACTIVE DUTY.

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- WHAT DO YOU THINK?
- NO, I DON'T THINK
YOU'RE READY.

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OH, WELL, I FEEL LIKE
I SHOULD SALUTE YOU.

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AT EASE, DOC.

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THIS IS GONNA BE
MY LAST TIME,

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FOR A WHILE ANYWAY.

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I'M HERE TO SETTLE UP.

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AND I NEED SOMETHING
FROM YOU.

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MMM.

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WOULD YOU LIKE
SOME COFFEE?

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SURE.

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( theme music playing )

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I KNOW I'M NOT
GIVING YOU ANY NOTICE.

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YOU WANT ME TO PAY
FOR THE NEXT SESSION TOO?

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NO NO, THAT'S FINE.

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SORRY THE GRAVY TRAIN
IS ENDING HERE, DOC.

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THAT'S OKAY.
SO WHY ARE YOU LEAVING?

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I GOT YOU CURIOUS, HUH?

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REMEMBER I TOLD YOU
MY SQUADRON COMMANDER
CALLED ME?

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MM-HMM.

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WELL, LAST WEEK
THEY FINALLY
BROUGHT ME IN.

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NOW I THOUGHT THEY
WANTED TO EASE ME
BACK IN, BUT NO.

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THEY NEED ME TO TRAIN
THE NEXT WAVE OF PILOTS
FOR THEIR DEPLOYMENT,

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GET THEM READY
TO FLY ASAP.

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ALWAYS PLAYING CATCH-UP
IN THIS WAR.

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SO WHAT DID YOU SAY TO THEM?

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I SAID, "FUCK YOU!
I'M 39 YEARS OLD,
IN THE PRIME OF MY LIFE

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AND ONE OF THE MOST DECORATED
FIGHTER PILOTS IN THE NAVY.

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NO NO, YOU'RE NOT
GONNA PUT ME OUT TO PASTURE,
NOT IN THE MIDDLE OF A WAR.

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GET YOURSELF ANOTHER BOY."

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THAT'S WHAT YOU
SAID TO THEM?

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WELL, NOT REALLY,
BUT I THOUGHT IT.

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ACTUALLY WHAT I SAID WAS,

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"YES, SIR. HOWEVER I CAN BE
OF SERVICE TO YOU, SIR."

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AND I REPORTED FOR DUTY
THE NEXT DAY.

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YOU THINK I'M CRAZY?

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I CAN ONLY GET AWAY
WITH THAT BULLSHIT WITH YOU.

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WELL, AT LEAST WE KNOW
WHY YOU COME HERE.

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SO WHAT'S IT LIKE
BEING BACK AT BASE?

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IT'S BEEN A REAL TRIP.

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MOST OF THESE GUYS ARE
RIGHT OUT OF TOPGUN,
COCKY AS HELL.

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WHEN THEY LOOK IN MY EYES,
THEY KNOW I'VE BEEN PLACES

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THEY COULDN'T CONJURE UP
IN THEIR WORST NIGHTMARES.

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MAKES THEM THINK TWICE
BEFORE FUCKING WITH ME.

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MMM.

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SO, TRAINING YOUNG PILOTS--

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IS THAT SOMETHING YOU CAN
SEE YOURSELF DOING?

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I DON'T KNOW,
MAYBE IN ANOTHER CONTEXT.

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BUT THIS IS SET UP TO FAIL.

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THERE'S NO WAY THESE KIDS
ARE GONNA BE READY FOR COMBAT
MISSIONS IN A MONTH.

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I MEAN, IT'S CRAZY.

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I'M TAKING THEM THROUGH
TACTICAL SITUATIONS.

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SOME OF THEM ARE DOING
BETTER THAN OTHERS,

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BUT WHEN YOU'RE UP IN THE AIR,
IT'S READ AND REACT.

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READ, REACT-- LIKE A MACHINE.
NO THINKING.

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IT'S LIKE SPLIT-SECOND
DECISIONS

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THAT CAN COST
THOUSANDS OF LIVES,
INCLUDING THEIR OWN.

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MOST OF THESE KIDS, THEY
LOOK AT ME ON THE SIMULATORS
AND THEY'RE LIKE, "WHOA!"

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WELL, THEY'RE BLOWN AWAY.

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THAT MUST FEEL REALLY GREAT.

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EH. I OVERHEARD A COUPLE
OF THESE KIDS TALKING SHIT
ABOUT ME,

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SAYING THAT I MIGHT BE GOOD
ON THE SIMULATORS

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BUT THEY'D KICK MY ASS
ON THE OBSTACLE COURSE.

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CALLED ME OLD MAN,
ALL THAT BULLSHIT.

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WELL, HEY,
I CALLED THEIR BLUFF.

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CHECK THIS OUT:
NOW THE DRILL IS CALLED
THE GAUNTLET.

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IT'S A FIVE-MILE RUN THROUGH
DENSE WOODS AND SAND TRAPS

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AND ROPE-AND-BARRIER HURDLES,
BALANCE BEAMS

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AND A MAZE.
NOW AFTER ALL THAT,

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HA HA,
THERE'S THE HELO-DUNKER.

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NOW THE HELO-DUNKER
IS LIKE THIS GIANT--

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IT LOOKS LIKE A BEER CAN.

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IT'S BASICALLY
A CRASH SIMULATOR.

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WE HIT THE WATER HARD,
UPSIDE DOWN, STRAPPED IN TIGHT.

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AND WE HAVE TO GET OUT
WITH ALMOST NO OXYGEN.

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WE'RE IN FULL GEAR--
HELMET, SPACESUIT,

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G-SUIT, GLOVES,
THE WHOLE NINE YARDS.

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NOW THERE ARE
FOUR IMMERSIONS.

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THE LAST TWO,
THE WATER'S DARK.

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IT'S LIKE A NIGHT LANDING.

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AND A LOT OF THESE KIDS,
THEY GET DISORIENTED AND START
FLIPPING THE FUCK OUT.

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SO WE HAVE TO RESCUE THEM.

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IT'S TOUGH.

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IT SEPARATES
THE MEN FROM THE BOYS,
LET ME TELL YOU.

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SO, DOC, HOW DO
YOU THINK I DID?

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( chuckles )

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DO I REALLY
HAVE TO GUESS, ALEX?

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( laughs )
TOUCHE.

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I NEVER PANIC.

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I'M AT HOME DOWN THERE
IN THE DARK,

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SWIMMING FOR MY LIFE.

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AND NOT ONLY DID I BEAT
ALL THEIR ASSES,

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I CAME WITHIN TWO SECONDS
OF A BASE RECORD.

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NOT BAD FOR A BROKEN-DOWN
OLD PILOT, HUH?

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HUH?
COME ON, PAUL.

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OKAY, SO MY SQUADRON
COMMANDER CALLS ME BACK UP
TO HIS OFFICE.

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THIS TIME ALL THE BRASS
WERE THERE

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AND THEY WANT TO KNOW
IF I'M INTERESTED IN
GOING BACK TO ACTIVE DUTY.

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IF I AM,
I HAVE TO GO THROUGH

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A MODIFIED BASIC TRAINING
AT PENSACOLA,

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A BATTERY OF TESTS--
PHYSICAL, PSYCHOLOGICAL--

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JUST TO MAKE SURE
I'VE RECOVERED.

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SO I SAID,
"BRING IT ON, BABY!

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I'M READY FOR ANYTHING!"

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ARE YOU SURPRISED?

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WELL, A LITTLE, I GUESS.

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I SHOULDN'T BE,

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BUT I SUPPOSE IT WAS
ALWAYS A POSSIBILITY.

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BUT YOU THINK IT'S
TOO FAST, RIGHT?

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DO YOU THINK IT'S
TOO FAST?

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DOC, YOU HAVE NO IDEA

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HOW GOOD IT FEELS
TO BE USEFUL AGAIN?

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TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH,
I THINK THAT'S BEEN
THE REAL PROBLEM.

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I'VE BEEN SITTING AROUND
FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF.

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I'M A DOER, NOT A TALKER,

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SO ALL OF THIS-- THAT'S OVER.
THOSE DAYS ARE OVER.

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SO HERE'S WHAT
I NEED FROM YOU:

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YOU'RE GONNA GET A CALL
FROM ONE OF YOUR COMPATRIOTS.

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HE'S A NAVY DOCTOR
NAMED CONNELL.

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HE'S GONNA BE
CHECKING UP ON ME.

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YOU TOLD THE NAVY
YOU WERE SEEING ME?

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I THOUGHT THAT WAS
PROFESSIONAL SUICIDE.

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YEAH, THEY CAUGHT WIND
THAT I HAD LEFT THE HOUSE

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AND THEY WANTED TO KNOW
IF IT HAD ANYTHING TO DO

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WITH THE BOMBING
AND THE AFTERMATH.

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SO I TOLD THEM
I'D BEEN DOING SOME
COUNSELING WITH YOU--

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YOU KNOW, MY MARRIAGE--
AND THAT I WAS FIT AS A FIDDLE.

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DO YOU FEEL
FIT AS A FIDDLE?

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PAUL, DON'T FUCK
WITH ME ON THIS.

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YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT
MY CAREER NOW.

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JUST TELL HIM
ALL GOOD THINGS.

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PLUS, THE NAVY NEEDS ME.

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YOU THINK THEY CAN AFFORD
TO HAVE SOMEONE LIKE ME
JUST PISSING AROUND?

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JUST TELL HIM I'M READY.

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WELL, LET'S JUST TALK ABOUT
WHETHER YOU ARE READY OR NOT.

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HEY, CUT THE CRAP!
I NEED THIS.

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YOU'RE PUTTING ME IN A VERY
DIFFICULT POSITION, ALEX.

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WE TALKED ABOUT A LOT MORE
THAN MICHAELA.

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YOU DON'T EXPECT ME
TO LIE, DO YOU?

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OKAY, PHYSICALLY I'M FINE.

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I HAD THE HEART ATTACK
ALMOST FOUR MONTHS AGO.

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ALL THE CARDIOLOGISTS
SAY THAT--

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THEY'RE AMAZED BY MY RECOVERY.
I CAN HANDLE IT.

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BUT WHAT ABOUT
EMOTIONALLY, ALEX?

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CAN YOU IMAGINE YOURSELF
BACK IN AN AIRPLANE

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FLYING A MISSION
AFTER WHAT HAPPENED?

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WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT,
THE MADRASA THING?

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LOOK, THE MADRASA THING IS
THE CRISIS THAT BROUGHT YOU
HERE IN THE FIRST PLACE.

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ARE YOU SURE
THAT YOU'RE READY

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TO PUT YOURSELF IN THAT KIND
OF SITUATION AGAIN?

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NO NO NO, LISTEN.
TERRORISTS HIDE AMONG CIVILIANS.

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IT'S A COMMON TACTIC.

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IT'S THEIR FAULT
IF THERE'S COLLATERAL DAMAGE,
NOT OURS.

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THEY'RE THE ONES PUTTING THEIR
WOMEN AND CHILDREN AT RISK.

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LET'S PUT ASIDE THE QUESTION
OF WHO'S AT FAULT

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OR WHO ISN'T.

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COULD YOU LIVE WITH YOURSELF
IF YOU WERE RESPONSIBLE

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FOR MORE
CIVILIAN CASUALTIES?

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THAT'S BULLSHIT.

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ALEX, YOU GAVE
YOURSELF A HEART ATTACK
A FEW MONTHS AGO.

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CAN YOU HONESTLY TELL ME
THAT YOU'RE NOT WORRIED,

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THAT YOU'RE NOT SCARED
THAT YOUR GUILT
WILL LEAD TO--

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GUILT IS NOT AN ISSUE
FOR A PILOT IN A TIME OF WAR.

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WE'RE NOT TRAINED
TO THINK THAT WAY.

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I'M NOT ASKING
WHAT YOU THINK.

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I'M ASKING YOU TO
TELL ME WHAT YOU FEEL.

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AND I'M TELLING YOU
IT DOESN'T MATTER.

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( cell phone buzzes )

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LET ME JUST SEE WHO THIS IS.
SORRY.

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HEY.

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IT WENT FINE.

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YEAH YEAH,
THEY DID ASK ME.

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NO.

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NO, I CAN'T TALK
ABOUT THAT RIGHT NOW.
CAN I CALL YOU BACK?

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MICHAELA, LET ME GO, ALL RIGHT?
I'M WITH SOMEBODY RIGHT NOW.

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YEAH, I WILL.

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YEAH, BYE.

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SORRY.

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SHE WANTED TO KNOW
HOW THE MEETING WITH
THE BRASS WENT.

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YOU KNOW, SHE'S TOTALLY
OBSESSED WITH ME FLYING AGAIN.
YOU KNOW THAT.

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WHY DO YOU THINK SHE'S SO
ANXIOUS FOR YOU TO FLY AGAIN?

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WELL, MY LITTLE SABBATICAL
UPSET HER SENSE OF ORDER.

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IF IT WAS A COUPLE OF WEEKS,
IT WOULD BE ALL RIGHT.

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I WAS TAKING A BREAK,
WHATEVER.

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I TOLD YOU WE WERE
HAVING DINNER TO DISCUSS
ME COMING BACK HOME.

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YEAH, WELL, THE HEAT IS ON.

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I DON'T THINK I CAN
FIGHT IT ANY LONGER.

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- PLUS IT'S WHAT
EVERYBODY WANTS.
- EVERYONE?

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EVERYBODY--
MY FATHER INCLUDED.

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WELL, YOU KNOW, HE AND MICHAELA,
THEY'RE UNITED IN EVERYTHING.

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WHY IS YOU FATHER SO ANXIOUS
FOR YOU TO FLY AGAIN?

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WELL, THERE'S NOTHING
DEEP BEHIND IT, PAUL.

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HE THINKS I NEED
TO GET BACK TO MY JOB.
IT'S WHAT A MAN DOES.

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AND HE'S RIGHT.

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CAN YOU TELL ME
HOW YOU GOT TO THAT
CONCLUSION?

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ARE YOU SURE YOU
HAVE TIME FOR THAT?

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- 'CAUSE I JUST CAME BY--
- WE'VE GOT PLENTY OF TIME.

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I THINK THIS IS SOMETHING
IMPORTANT THAT WE NEED
TO TALK ABOUT,

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ESPECIALLY IF YOU'RE TRYING
TO PUSH ME FOR AN ASSESSMENT.

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IT'S HOT AS HELL IN HERE.

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UM...

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WE HAD A PARTY
FOR MY SON,

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A BIRTHDAY PARTY...

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AND EVERYTHING
BECAME CLEAR.

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I TOLD YOU MY SON ROY
IS A SPECIAL KID.

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- HAVE I TOLD YOU THAT?
- MM-HMM.

214
00:09:51,591 --> 00:09:53,093
HE DOESN'T SEEM
TO NEED FRIENDS.

215
00:09:53,193 --> 00:09:55,428
SO WHEN WE ASKED HIM
WHAT KIND OF PARTY
HE WANTED,

216
00:09:55,528 --> 00:09:57,765
HE SAID ONLY FAMILY.
I SUPPORTED THAT.

217
00:09:57,865 --> 00:10:00,634
I DIDN'T WANT TO FORCE
HIM TO BE ANYTHING HE ISN'T.

218
00:10:00,734 --> 00:10:02,970
SO ALL THE UNCLES AND AUNTS
CAME AND THE COUSINS,

219
00:10:03,070 --> 00:10:04,838
AND EVERYBODY WAS
IN A GOOD MOOD.

220
00:10:04,938 --> 00:10:06,539
MY DAD,
HE GOT THERE EARLY.

221
00:10:06,640 --> 00:10:08,575
HE'S ESTABLISHING
AND SETTING UP EVERYTHING

222
00:10:08,676 --> 00:10:10,477
AND ACTING LIKE
HE OWNS THE PLACE,

223
00:10:10,577 --> 00:10:12,312
ORDERING MY WIFE AROUND.

224
00:10:12,412 --> 00:10:15,582
I COULD TELL HE HAD BEEN
THERE A LOT SINCE I LEFT.

225
00:10:15,683 --> 00:10:17,718
AND THE BITCH HE MARRIED,
SHE WAS THERE TOO,

226
00:10:17,818 --> 00:10:20,553
IN THE KITCHEN COOKING
AS IF MY MOTHER
NEVER EXISTED.

227
00:10:20,654 --> 00:10:23,390
IT MADE ME FEEL LIKE SHIT,

228
00:10:23,490 --> 00:10:26,894
LIKE A STRANGER
IN MY OWN HOME.

229
00:10:26,994 --> 00:10:30,698
MY FATHER SEES ME
AND HE GIVES ME ONE
OF THOSE COLD SMILES.

230
00:10:30,798 --> 00:10:34,301
"ALEX, NICE OF YOU
TO MAKE IT. "

231
00:10:37,404 --> 00:10:40,774
I COULD TELL HE HAD
A WILD HAIR UP HIS ASS
ABOUT SOMETHING.

232
00:10:40,874 --> 00:10:42,242
BUT YOU KNOW WHAT?
I DIDN'T ASK.

233
00:10:42,342 --> 00:10:44,177
'CAUSE WHEN HE WANTS
TO SHARE, HE SHARES.

234
00:10:44,277 --> 00:10:45,813
AND THEN HE'S ALL OVER ME,

235
00:10:45,913 --> 00:10:48,215
AND I'M IN NO RUSH
TO GET THERE.

236
00:10:48,315 --> 00:10:52,352
BUT HE IS GREAT
WITH ROY, THOUGH.
THEY CONNECT.

237
00:10:52,452 --> 00:10:55,655
SOMEHOW IT'S EASY FOR THEM.

238
00:10:55,756 --> 00:10:58,158
DID YOU FEEL LIKE YOU WEREN'T
CONNECTING WITH ROY?

239
00:11:01,695 --> 00:11:03,496
YOU KNOW, THERE WERE
A LOT OF PEOPLE THERE.

240
00:11:03,596 --> 00:11:05,999
WE DIDN'T HAVE
MUCH TIME ALONE.

241
00:11:06,099 --> 00:11:08,668
HAVE YOU SEEN A LOT OF HIM
SINCE YOU LEFT HOME?

242
00:11:08,769 --> 00:11:12,840
ONCE, TWICE. I DON'T KNOW
WHAT YOU CONSIDER A LOT.

243
00:11:12,940 --> 00:11:16,009
DID HE EVER ASK WHY
YOU WEREN'T LIVING
AT HOME ANYMORE?

244
00:11:16,109 --> 00:11:19,412
YEAH.
I TOLD HIM HIS DAD

245
00:11:19,512 --> 00:11:20,981
WAS ON A SPECIAL MISSION.

246
00:11:21,081 --> 00:11:23,316
I MEAN, I'M GONE
HALF THE TIME.
HE'S USED TO IT.

247
00:11:23,416 --> 00:11:26,686
TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH,
I THINK IT'S BEEN
A RELIEF FOR HIM.

248
00:11:26,787 --> 00:11:29,389
WHY WOULD IT BE A RELIEF
FOR HIS DAD TO BE AWAY?

249
00:11:29,489 --> 00:11:31,058
WELL...

250
00:11:32,960 --> 00:11:35,528
HE WAS LOOSE AS HELL
AT THE PARTY.

251
00:11:35,628 --> 00:11:38,331
I MEAN, HE'S RUNNING AROUND,
HE'S PLAYING WITH HIS COUSINS,

252
00:11:38,431 --> 00:11:39,900
HE'S TALKING
TO EVERYBODY.

253
00:11:40,000 --> 00:11:41,568
YOU SHOULD HAVE SEEN HIM.
HE WAS A DIFFERENT PERSON.

254
00:11:41,668 --> 00:11:43,703
HE WAS OPEN,
HE WAS OUTGOING.

255
00:11:43,804 --> 00:11:46,073
IT'S LIKE HE BLOOMED
IN MY ABSENCE.

256
00:11:46,173 --> 00:11:49,142
WELL, NOT BLOOMED.
JEEZ, HE'S NOT A FUCKING FLOWER.

257
00:11:49,242 --> 00:11:50,778
IT'S LIKE
HE SPREAD HIS WINGS.

258
00:11:50,878 --> 00:11:52,846
YEAH, THAT'S WHAT
IT WAS LIKE.

259
00:11:52,946 --> 00:11:56,249
MAYBE HE WAS HAPPY
BECAUSE YOU WERE THERE,

260
00:11:56,349 --> 00:12:00,220
MAYBE BECAUSE HE WAS
JUST GLAD TO SEE YOU.

261
00:12:00,320 --> 00:12:02,756
YOU KNOW, IT'S INTERESTING
WHEN YOU TALK ABOUT
FLYING, ALEX,

262
00:12:02,856 --> 00:12:04,958
BECAUSE YOU MAKE NO BONES
WHATSOEVER ABOUT THE FACT

263
00:12:05,058 --> 00:12:07,027
THAT THE NAVY
REALLY NEEDS YOU,

264
00:12:07,127 --> 00:12:09,830
THAT THEY CAN'T DO IT
WITHOUT YOU.

265
00:12:09,930 --> 00:12:11,865
YET WHEN IT COMES TO
TALKING ABOUT YOUR SON--

266
00:12:11,965 --> 00:12:14,234
PAUL, PAUL,
SLOW THE FUCK DOWN.

267
00:12:14,334 --> 00:12:18,471
THE BOY WAS HAVING
A GREAT DAY BEFORE
I EVER GOT THERE.

268
00:12:18,571 --> 00:12:20,340
IS IT POSSIBLE
THAT YOU'RE PROJECTING

269
00:12:20,440 --> 00:12:23,476
YOUR OWN FEELINGS ABOUT
YOUR FATHER ONTO YOUR SON?

270
00:12:23,576 --> 00:12:25,278
HOW DO YOU MEAN?

271
00:12:25,378 --> 00:12:27,247
WELL, THAT YOU MIGHT BE
DOING BETTER YOURSELF--

272
00:12:27,347 --> 00:12:30,017
SPREADING YOUR WINGS TOO
IF HE WASN'T THERE,

273
00:12:30,117 --> 00:12:32,786
IF HE WASN'T IN YOUR WAY,
SO TO SPEAK.

274
00:12:32,886 --> 00:12:35,155
NO, DOC,
MY BEING THERE

275
00:12:35,255 --> 00:12:37,657
DIDN'T MAKE THE KID
HAPPY THAT DAY.

276
00:12:37,757 --> 00:12:39,827
JUST THE OPPOSITE IN FACT.

277
00:12:39,927 --> 00:12:43,463
HOW? WHAT HAPPENED?

278
00:12:43,563 --> 00:12:46,533
I TOLD YOU ROY WAS
OBSESSED WITH CHESS, RIGHT?

279
00:12:46,633 --> 00:12:49,136
I GOT HIM THIS
MAGNIFICENT SET.

280
00:12:49,236 --> 00:12:51,704
IT WAS ALL IVORY,
IMPORTED FROM NAIROBI,

281
00:12:51,805 --> 00:12:53,706
JUST A REAL WORK OF ART.

282
00:12:53,807 --> 00:12:56,643
AND HE JUST LOOKED
AT THE PIECES, MESMERIZED.

283
00:12:56,743 --> 00:12:58,578
BUT THE BOARD, THAT WAS
ONLY HALF OF THE GIFT.

284
00:12:58,678 --> 00:13:01,648
THE OTHER HALF WAS THAT
I HAD BEEN WORKING ON
MY OWN CHESS GAME

285
00:13:01,748 --> 00:13:05,018
AND I WAS GONNA
PLAY MY BOY.

286
00:13:05,118 --> 00:13:07,855
SO WE SAT DOWN
AT THE CHESSBOARD.
EVERYBODY'S WATCHING.

287
00:13:07,955 --> 00:13:11,624
I THOUGHT I'D OPEN
WITH SOMETHING SIMPLE--

288
00:13:11,724 --> 00:13:13,961
THE KING'S INDIAN,
WHICH IS WHERE YOU
ESTABLISH YOUR PAWNS

289
00:13:14,061 --> 00:13:15,996
IN THE CENTER
OF THE BOARD.

290
00:13:16,096 --> 00:13:18,165
THEN HE MOVED,
AND I COUNTERED.

291
00:13:18,265 --> 00:13:20,033
AND HE MOVED AGAIN.
I COUNTERED AGAIN.

292
00:13:20,133 --> 00:13:22,002
AND WE'RE MOVING ALONG
AT THIS REAL NICE CLIP

293
00:13:22,102 --> 00:13:24,504
AND I THINK
I'M HOLDING MY OWN.

294
00:13:24,604 --> 00:13:28,275
AND THEN--

295
00:13:28,375 --> 00:13:31,244
I'LL NEVER FORGET IT.
HE LOOKED UP SUDDENLY

296
00:13:32,479 --> 00:13:35,849
AND IT WAS LIKE A SHADOW
FELL OVER HIS FACE.

297
00:13:35,949 --> 00:13:39,786
AND HE STOOD UP FROM
THE TABLE AND HE SAID,

298
00:13:39,887 --> 00:13:42,455
"I'M NOT FEELING WELL.
I DON'T WANT TO PLAY."

299
00:13:45,225 --> 00:13:46,994
HE GOES UP TO HIS BEDROOM.

300
00:13:47,094 --> 00:13:49,329
I FOLLOW HIM UP THE STAIRS.
I KNOCK ON THE DOOR.

301
00:13:49,429 --> 00:13:52,465
HE DOESN'T ANSWER.
I CRACK THE DOOR OPEN
AND I SEE HIM.

302
00:13:52,565 --> 00:13:55,135
HE'S SITTING AT HIS DESK.
HE'S GOT HIS BACK TO ME.

303
00:13:55,235 --> 00:13:57,104
I DON'T KNOW
IF HE HEARD ME.

304
00:13:57,204 --> 00:13:59,739
I WAS ABOUT TO SAY
SOMETHING, BUT I DIDN'T.

305
00:13:59,839 --> 00:14:04,577
I JUST STOOD THERE
AND I STARED AT THE BACK
OF HIS HEAD.

306
00:14:04,677 --> 00:14:07,847
SOMETHING ABOUT HIM--
I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT WAS--

307
00:14:11,551 --> 00:14:13,286
IT BROKE MY HEART.

308
00:14:15,822 --> 00:14:18,658
AND THEN I HEARD THESE
FOOTSTEPS COMING UP BEHIND ME

309
00:14:18,758 --> 00:14:20,227
AND I TURN AROUND
AND IT'S MY FATHER.

310
00:14:20,327 --> 00:14:22,395
AND HE SAYS,
"YOU KNOW WHY HE QUIT,
DON'T YOU?"

311
00:14:22,495 --> 00:14:24,264
I SHOOK MY HEAD.

312
00:14:24,364 --> 00:14:28,101
AND HE GIVES ME THAT LOOK,
THAT LOOK THAT SEES RIGHT
THROUGH YOU.

313
00:14:28,201 --> 00:14:31,738
HE SAYS, "HE KNEW IN THREE
MOVES, ALEX,

314
00:14:31,838 --> 00:14:33,506
YOU WERE GONNA LOSE.

315
00:14:33,606 --> 00:14:37,410
HE DIDN'T WANT TO BEAT
HIS FATHER IN FRONT OF
THE WHOLE FAMILY.

316
00:14:37,510 --> 00:14:38,912
HE FELT SORRY FOR YOU."

317
00:14:39,012 --> 00:14:41,414
DO YOU THINK HE WAS RIGHT?

318
00:14:41,514 --> 00:14:43,450
YEAH, I KNOW HE WAS RIGHT.

319
00:14:43,550 --> 00:14:46,186
THAT'S MY SON TO A TEE.

320
00:14:46,286 --> 00:14:48,455
AND THEN MY FATHER,
HE PULLS ME INTO A ROOM

321
00:14:48,555 --> 00:14:50,057
AND HE JUST
RIPPED INTO ME.

322
00:14:50,157 --> 00:14:51,891
HE SAYS,
"YOU ARE PATHETIC.

323
00:14:51,992 --> 00:14:54,761
ONE THING GOES WRONG
IN YOUR LITTLE CUSHY LIFE

324
00:14:54,861 --> 00:14:56,930
AND YOU TURN
SOFT AS BUTTER."

325
00:14:57,030 --> 00:15:00,968
HE DIDN'T UNDERSTAND WHY
I WASN'T EAGER TO FLY AGAIN

326
00:15:01,068 --> 00:15:03,836
OR WHY I WAS AWAY FROM HOME
DOING GOD KNOWS WHAT

327
00:15:03,937 --> 00:15:05,672
WITH GOD KNOWS WHO
LIKE A FUCKING TEENAGER.

328
00:15:05,772 --> 00:15:08,208
HE SAYS, "YOU DISAPPOINT
ME, BOY.

329
00:15:08,308 --> 00:15:11,244
I RAISED YOU TO BE
STRONGER THAN THAT.
I RAISED YOU TO BE A MAN."

330
00:15:11,344 --> 00:15:14,681
AND HE WANTED TO KNOW WHO PUT
ALL THESE IDEAS IN MY HEAD.

331
00:15:14,781 --> 00:15:16,716
WHO TURNED ME INTO A--
WHAT DID HE--

332
00:15:16,816 --> 00:15:20,220
WHO TURNED ME INTO A SELFISH,
WHINING LITTLE BITCH.

333
00:15:20,320 --> 00:15:22,289
WAS IT THE FAGS
I WAS HANGING
AROUND WITH?

334
00:15:22,389 --> 00:15:24,457
OR WAS IT-- AND THIS ONE
HE REALLY SEIZED ON--

335
00:15:24,557 --> 00:15:26,459
WAS IT THE SHRINK?

336
00:15:26,559 --> 00:15:28,795
HOW WOULD HE KNOW
YOU WERE SEEING A SHRINK?

337
00:15:28,895 --> 00:15:31,298
- MICHAELA TOLD HIM.
- YOU TOLD HER?

338
00:15:31,398 --> 00:15:33,400
YEAH, I HAD TO.

339
00:15:33,500 --> 00:15:35,902
YOU KNOW I'VE BEEN
PAYING YOU CASH,

340
00:15:36,003 --> 00:15:37,770
'CAUSE I WAS TRYING
TO AVOID A PAPER TRAIL.

341
00:15:37,870 --> 00:15:41,208
BUT THAT MEANS I'VE BEEN
WITHDRAWING FROM ATMs
ALL THE TIME.

342
00:15:41,308 --> 00:15:43,243
MICHAELA LOOKS AT
THE BANK STATEMENTS

343
00:15:43,343 --> 00:15:45,245
AND SHE SAW THAT THERE
WASN'T MONEY THERE

344
00:15:45,345 --> 00:15:47,214
AND SHE WANTED TO KNOW
WHERE IT WAS GOING.

345
00:15:47,314 --> 00:15:49,749
ANYWAY, LOOK,
I TOLD HER I'VE BEEN
CONSULTING WITH SOMEONE

346
00:15:49,849 --> 00:15:52,819
ABOUT MY THOUGHTS--
AND THAT WAS THE WORD,
"THOUGHTS"--

347
00:15:52,919 --> 00:15:55,722
MY THOUGHTS
ABOUT ME AND HER.

348
00:15:55,822 --> 00:15:57,757
AND DID YOU GET INTO THAT,

349
00:15:57,857 --> 00:16:00,660
YOUR THOUGHTS ABOUT
THE TWO OF YOU?

350
00:16:00,760 --> 00:16:01,928
NO, SHE SHUT DOWN.

351
00:16:02,029 --> 00:16:04,131
SO ANYWAY, LISTEN.
MY FATHER--

352
00:16:04,231 --> 00:16:07,367
YEAH, MY FATHER-- HE GIVES ME
THIS WHOLE EARFUL.

353
00:16:07,467 --> 00:16:11,238
HE GOES DOWNSTAIRS,
AND, MAN...

354
00:16:12,672 --> 00:16:15,708
I FELT LIKE I HAD BEEN
HIT BY A FREIGHT TRAIN.

355
00:16:20,813 --> 00:16:24,817
I LOCKED MYSELF
IN THE BATHROOM
AND I SAT THERE

356
00:16:24,917 --> 00:16:28,088
SO I COULD JUST
CATCH MY BREATH.

357
00:16:32,559 --> 00:16:37,964
AND WHEN I FINALLY GOT
MY SHIT TOGETHER I WENT
BACK DOWNSTAIRS, AND--

358
00:16:38,065 --> 00:16:41,134
AND EVERYBODY WAS AROUND
THE CHESSBOARD AGAIN

359
00:16:41,234 --> 00:16:43,036
WATCHING ANOTHER MATCH,
INCLUDING MICHAELA.

360
00:16:43,136 --> 00:16:46,606
AND YOU KNOW
WHAT IT WAS?

361
00:16:46,706 --> 00:16:50,143
IT WAS MY FATHER
AND MY SON

362
00:16:50,243 --> 00:16:52,279
AND THEY ARE LOCKED
IN THIS EPIC BATTLE,

363
00:16:52,379 --> 00:16:53,946
MATCHING EACH OTHER
MOVE FOR MOVE.

364
00:16:54,047 --> 00:16:55,282
TOTALLY OUT OF MY LEAGUE.

365
00:16:55,382 --> 00:16:58,385
AND EVERYONE'S
OOHING AND AHHING

366
00:16:58,485 --> 00:17:02,555
AND THEY DIDN'T EVEN
NOTICE THAT I WAS THERE.

367
00:17:09,028 --> 00:17:10,963
WHAT WAS IT ABOUT ROY
THAT BROKE YOUR HEART

368
00:17:11,064 --> 00:17:13,633
WHEN YOU WERE WATCHING HIM
IN HIS ROOM?

369
00:17:14,901 --> 00:17:18,938
UH, HE SEEMED SO...

370
00:17:19,038 --> 00:17:22,542
VULNERABLE, SOMEHOW.

371
00:17:22,642 --> 00:17:24,377
VULNERABLE TO WHAT?

372
00:17:25,878 --> 00:17:28,047
I DON'T KNOW, REALLY.

373
00:17:29,816 --> 00:17:31,318
EVERYTHING--

374
00:17:33,052 --> 00:17:35,622
FORCES, EXPECTATIONS,

375
00:17:35,722 --> 00:17:39,626
STUFF COMING AT HIM
THAT HE CAN'T CONTROL,

376
00:17:39,726 --> 00:17:41,428
I CAN'T CONTROL.

377
00:17:47,134 --> 00:17:49,769
SO I SLIPPED OUT
OF THE HOUSE

378
00:17:49,869 --> 00:17:51,804
WITHOUT ANYONE KNOWING.

379
00:17:51,904 --> 00:17:52,639
IT WAS FOR THE BETTER.

380
00:17:52,739 --> 00:17:54,741
FOR WHOM?

381
00:17:54,841 --> 00:17:56,476
FOR MY BOY.

382
00:17:57,944 --> 00:17:59,379
DO YOU REALLY THINK
THAT YOUR SON

383
00:17:59,479 --> 00:18:02,515
IS BETTER OFF WITHOUT
HIS FATHER ON HIS BIRTHDAY?

384
00:18:03,616 --> 00:18:05,385
YEAH, I DO.

385
00:18:07,387 --> 00:18:10,990
AFTER THAT I GOT
IN MY CAR AND I DROVE,

386
00:18:11,090 --> 00:18:13,460
AND DROVE AND DROVE,
FAST.

387
00:18:13,560 --> 00:18:17,197
AND WHEN I FINALLY
RAN OUT OF GAS IT WAS
AFTER DARK.

388
00:18:17,297 --> 00:18:19,499
I WOUND UP AT THIS BAR

389
00:18:19,599 --> 00:18:22,101
THAT SEAN AND DANIEL
HAD TAKEN ME TO.

390
00:18:22,202 --> 00:18:26,339
AND I STARTED
TO DRINK HARD,

391
00:18:26,439 --> 00:18:30,877
LOOKING AT
ALL THE FAGGOTS
PRANCING AROUND.

392
00:18:30,977 --> 00:18:34,247
I FELT LIKE KNOCKING
SOMEBODY'S TEETH DOWN
THEIR FUCKING THROAT.

393
00:18:37,484 --> 00:18:40,520
BUT NOBODY CAME NEAR ME.
THEY DIDN'T EVEN LOOK AT ME.

394
00:18:40,620 --> 00:18:42,189
IT WAS KIND OF LIKE
THEY KNEW,

395
00:18:42,289 --> 00:18:45,192
LIKE I HAD THIS INVISIBLE
FORCE FIELD AROUND ME.

396
00:18:47,660 --> 00:18:49,262
YOU SAID BEFORE

397
00:18:49,362 --> 00:18:51,864
WHEN YOU STARTED
TELLING ME ABOUT THE PARTY,

398
00:18:51,964 --> 00:18:53,266
THAT EVERYTHING
BECAME CLEAR THAT DAY.

399
00:18:53,366 --> 00:18:55,402
WHAT WAS IT
THAT BECAME CLEAR?

400
00:18:57,069 --> 00:18:59,306
THAT I NEEDED TO GO.

401
00:18:59,406 --> 00:19:00,973
I NEEDED TO GET
BACK TO THE NAVY--

402
00:19:01,073 --> 00:19:03,576
DISCIPLINE, ORDER,
"YES, SIR, NO, SIR."

403
00:19:03,676 --> 00:19:05,645
KNOWING WHEN
TO GO TO SLEEP,
WHEN TO WAKE UP,

404
00:19:05,745 --> 00:19:07,814
WHAT TO WEAR, WHAT TO EAT,
WHAT TO DO.

405
00:19:07,914 --> 00:19:09,849
TO GET OUT
OF MY OWN HEAD.

406
00:19:09,949 --> 00:19:12,452
THIS IS NOT
FOR EVERYONE, YOU KNOW,
THIS SELF-EXAMINATION.

407
00:19:12,552 --> 00:19:17,190
SOME OF US, WE JUST NEED
TO LIVE OUR LIVES, MAN.

408
00:19:21,728 --> 00:19:24,564
WHY DO YOU THINK YOU WENT
TO THAT PARTICULAR BAR?

409
00:19:26,933 --> 00:19:28,535
I DON'T KNOW.

410
00:19:32,071 --> 00:19:33,706
I WANTED ANYONE
TO SO MUCH AS BREATHE

411
00:19:33,806 --> 00:19:36,243
SO I COULD BEAT
THE LIVING HELL OUT
OF THEM, THAT'S WHY.

412
00:19:36,343 --> 00:19:38,778
HMM. BUT NOBODY DID.

413
00:19:38,878 --> 00:19:42,181
( chuckles )
NO.

414
00:19:45,652 --> 00:19:47,420
COULD IT BE, ALEX,
THAT YOU WERE THERE

415
00:19:47,520 --> 00:19:49,489
FOR EXACTLY
THE OPPOSITE REASON?

416
00:19:51,291 --> 00:19:52,892
'CAUSE NO ONE WOULD
QUESTION YOU

417
00:19:52,992 --> 00:19:56,663
OR ASK YOU TO BE ANYTHING
OTHER THAN YOURSELF?

418
00:19:59,299 --> 00:20:02,402
YOU SEE, THESE
ISSUES WITH YOUR FATHER,
WITH YOUR OWN IDENTITY,

419
00:20:02,502 --> 00:20:06,072
WITH WHAT YOU REALLY WANT
FOR YOURSELF,

420
00:20:06,172 --> 00:20:10,109
THESE THINGS, THEY HAVE
TO BE LOOKED AT.

421
00:20:10,209 --> 00:20:13,680
DON'T YOU THINK IT WOULD BE
BETTER TO DEAL WITH THEM
HERE ON THE GROUND

422
00:20:13,780 --> 00:20:16,749
THAN HAVE THEM FOLLOW YOU
20,000 FEET INTO THE AIR?

423
00:20:16,849 --> 00:20:20,086
WAIT, ARE YOU ACTUALLY
EXPRESSING AN OPINION HERE?

424
00:20:20,186 --> 00:20:23,823
ARE YOU TELLING ME
NOT TO FLY?

425
00:20:23,923 --> 00:20:26,025
I CAN'T ANSWER THAT.

426
00:20:26,125 --> 00:20:28,828
IT MAKES ME FEEL
LIKE YOU'RE ASKING ME

427
00:20:28,928 --> 00:20:32,832
TO SHARE RESPONSIBILITY
FOR ANOTHER MAJOR DECISION
IN YOUR LIFE.

428
00:20:32,932 --> 00:20:35,935
YOU KNOW, GO BACK TO BAGHDAD,
LEAVE MICHAELA.

429
00:20:37,304 --> 00:20:40,307
I THINK WE'RE WAY PAST THAT.

430
00:20:40,407 --> 00:20:43,376
I'M NOT ASKING YOU
TO DECIDE, PAUL.
I CAN DECIDE.

431
00:20:43,476 --> 00:20:46,212
I HAVE DECIDED.

432
00:20:46,313 --> 00:20:49,516
NO, I'M ASKING YOU
MAN TO MAN...

433
00:20:51,351 --> 00:20:54,120
TELL ME,
WHAT WOULD YOU DO

434
00:20:54,220 --> 00:20:55,988
IF YOU WERE ME?

435
00:21:01,260 --> 00:21:03,430
( sighs )

436
00:21:05,698 --> 00:21:10,303
ALEX, IF I WAS YOU,
I WOULD STAY IN THERAPY.

437
00:21:10,403 --> 00:21:12,339
I WOULD CONTINUE
TO DEAL WITH THE COMPLEX,

438
00:21:12,439 --> 00:21:14,607
DIFFICULT ISSUES THAT
WE'VE BEEN TALKING ABOUT,

439
00:21:14,707 --> 00:21:16,208
NOT SWEEP THEM
UNDER THE CARPET

440
00:21:16,309 --> 00:21:18,845
LIKE YOU'VE BEEN DOING
IN YOUR LIFE.

441
00:21:18,945 --> 00:21:20,813
I CAN TELL YOU ONE THING:

442
00:21:22,114 --> 00:21:24,384
THEY WILL CREEP UP
ON YOU AGAIN.

443
00:21:26,553 --> 00:21:29,322
BUT YOU WON'T TELL ME
NOT TO FLY.

444
00:21:38,865 --> 00:21:40,667
YOU KNOW, YOU'RE WRONG.

445
00:21:41,334 --> 00:21:42,869
I DON'T MAKE MISTAKES.

446
00:21:42,969 --> 00:21:46,373
WHEN I'M UP IN THE SKY,
THAT'S WHEN I'M IN CONTROL.

447
00:21:50,977 --> 00:21:52,979
YOU DON'T GET IT YET.

448
00:21:53,079 --> 00:21:55,715
I AM THE BEST.

449
00:21:57,817 --> 00:22:01,721
NOW, PAUL, LISTEN TO ME.
PAUL.

450
00:22:01,821 --> 00:22:05,425
DON'T FUCK ME UP
WITH THIS NAVY SHRINK.
PLEASE.

451
00:22:05,525 --> 00:22:08,695
DON'T TAKE MY WORLD
AWAY FROM ME.

452
00:22:27,179 --> 00:22:28,548
WELL...

453
00:22:30,016 --> 00:22:31,718
I THINK WE'RE DONE.

454
00:22:42,429 --> 00:22:44,063
WHAT IS IT, DOC?

455
00:22:49,068 --> 00:22:52,304
HERE'S MY CELL PHONE.

456
00:22:52,405 --> 00:22:56,142
I WANT YOU TO CALL ME
ANY TIME, DAY OR NIGHT,

457
00:22:56,242 --> 00:22:58,845
IF YOU NEED TO TALK
ABOUT ANYTHING.

458
00:22:58,945 --> 00:23:00,513
OKAY?

459
00:23:11,390 --> 00:23:13,893
I JUST HAD A THOUGHT.

460
00:23:13,993 --> 00:23:15,928
SOON I'M GOING TO BE
FLYING OVER THE ARMPIT

461
00:23:16,028 --> 00:23:17,497
OF THE FUCKING WORLD

462
00:23:17,597 --> 00:23:19,398
AND I'LL BE THINKING
ABOUT YOU

463
00:23:19,499 --> 00:23:23,002
IN YOUR CHAIR.

464
00:23:25,872 --> 00:23:27,406
YOU KNOW, ALEX,

465
00:23:27,507 --> 00:23:30,577
I JUST WANTED
TO SAY THAT

466
00:23:30,677 --> 00:23:33,179
I THINK YOU'VE DONE
GREAT WORK HERE--

467
00:23:34,346 --> 00:23:35,848
BRAVE.

468
00:23:36,516 --> 00:23:38,485
REALLY.

469
00:23:40,252 --> 00:23:42,088
I WANT US TO CONTINUE THAT.

470
00:23:44,423 --> 00:23:45,992
OKAY?

471
00:23:47,727 --> 00:23:50,029
- BYE, DOC.
- TAKE CARE, ALEX.

472
00:24:07,480 --> 00:24:10,082
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