1 00:00:05,706 --> 00:00:08,709 Man: PREVIOUSLY ON "IN TREATMENT"... 2 00:00:08,809 --> 00:00:10,744 I GOT A CHOICE. 3 00:00:10,844 --> 00:00:12,380 EITHER I ACCEPT YOUR SUPERIORITY, 4 00:00:12,480 --> 00:00:14,348 AS IF YOU'RE SOME KIND OF GOD, 5 00:00:14,448 --> 00:00:16,717 OR I USE MY INTELLIGENCE 6 00:00:16,817 --> 00:00:18,886 AND DO A LITTLE INVESTIGATING. 7 00:00:18,986 --> 00:00:21,922 YEAH, YOU'D BE REAL SURPRISED 8 00:00:22,022 --> 00:00:25,093 THE KIND OF INFORMATION YOU FIND OUT FROM A FEW PHONE CALLS. 9 00:00:25,193 --> 00:00:28,762 I FOUND A HELL OF A GOD, 10 00:00:28,862 --> 00:00:31,699 A GOD WHOSE WIFE IS SLEEPING AROUND 11 00:00:31,799 --> 00:00:33,234 BEHIND HIS BACK, 12 00:00:33,334 --> 00:00:36,070 WHOSE DAUGHTER IS FUCKING JUNKIES. 13 00:00:36,170 --> 00:00:38,072 AND THEN LAURA COMES ALONG 14 00:00:38,172 --> 00:00:41,275 AND YOU-- YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH THAT CRAZY SLUT. 15 00:00:41,375 --> 00:00:44,645 DON'T YOU FUCKING TALK ABOUT MY PATIENTS, YOU FUCK! 16 00:01:01,929 --> 00:01:04,232 - OH, HI. - HI. 17 00:01:04,332 --> 00:01:07,135 GOSH, YOU NEVER GET THE MAIL. 18 00:01:07,235 --> 00:01:10,003 YET TODAY, 30 SECONDS AFTER IT ARRIVES, 19 00:01:10,104 --> 00:01:11,905 YOU'RE SPRINTING DOWN TO THE CURB. 20 00:01:12,005 --> 00:01:14,041 WHAT ON EARTH COULD YOU BE EXPECTING? 21 00:01:14,142 --> 00:01:16,310 A LOVE LETTER MAYBE? 22 00:01:18,812 --> 00:01:22,250 - I SAW HER, PAUL. - WHO? 23 00:01:22,350 --> 00:01:24,084 WHO? 24 00:01:24,185 --> 00:01:26,220 LAURA. I SAW HER. 25 00:01:26,320 --> 00:01:28,389 WHAT DO YOU MEAN "YOU SAW HER"? 26 00:01:28,489 --> 00:01:32,393 I WAS TAKING OUT THE TRASH AND I SAW HER LEAVING. 27 00:01:34,528 --> 00:01:36,630 I THOUGHT YOU SAID SHE QUIT THERAPY. 28 00:01:36,730 --> 00:01:39,367 - SHE DID QUIT. - THEN WHAT THE HELL WAS SHE DOING HERE? 29 00:01:39,467 --> 00:01:41,435 HER FATHER'S IN THE HOSPITAL 30 00:01:41,535 --> 00:01:44,238 AND SHE CALLED ME AND ASKED ME IF SHE COULD COME IN. 31 00:01:44,338 --> 00:01:46,374 WHAT SHOULD I HAVE SAID, KATE? 32 00:01:46,474 --> 00:01:48,676 "I'M SORRY ABOUT THIS CRISIS WITH YOUR FATHER, 33 00:01:48,776 --> 00:01:50,711 BUT I'VE TOLD MY WIFE THAT YOU'VE QUIT THERAPY." 34 00:01:50,811 --> 00:01:53,247 NO, YOU SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME THAT SHE CAME BACK. 35 00:01:53,347 --> 00:01:55,683 IT WASN'T A SOCIAL CALL. 36 00:01:55,783 --> 00:01:57,485 AND IF YOU WANTED TO FIND OUT WHAT WAS GOING ON, 37 00:01:57,585 --> 00:01:59,587 ALL YOU HAD TO DO WAS ASK ME, KATE. 38 00:01:59,687 --> 00:02:02,190 DON'T YOU DARE TURN THIS AROUND ON ME. 39 00:02:02,290 --> 00:02:05,359 WHAT, YOU THINK YOU DESERVE HER, YOU'VE EARNED HER, 40 00:02:05,459 --> 00:02:07,228 BECAUSE OF WHAT I DID TO YOU? 41 00:02:07,328 --> 00:02:09,597 FOR CHRIST'S SAKE. 42 00:02:10,698 --> 00:02:12,466 ( chuckles ) 43 00:02:12,566 --> 00:02:16,404 WELL, LUCKY YOU. SAVED BY THE BELL YET AGAIN. 44 00:02:23,777 --> 00:02:27,147 ( theme music playing ) 45 00:02:47,301 --> 00:02:49,437 I'M GLAD YOU CAME BACK. 46 00:02:49,537 --> 00:02:52,240 I WENT AGAINST ALL MY INSTINCTS. 47 00:02:55,142 --> 00:02:56,644 COME ON IN. 48 00:03:06,920 --> 00:03:08,222 SO WHAT WERE YOUR INSTINCTS? 49 00:03:08,322 --> 00:03:09,923 YOU WANT THE TRUTH? 50 00:03:10,023 --> 00:03:13,894 THE FIRST WAS TO COME BACK HERE AND BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF YOU. 51 00:03:13,994 --> 00:03:15,563 AND THE SECOND ONE? 52 00:03:15,663 --> 00:03:17,998 WELL, THE SECOND ONE WAS AN INSTINCT 53 00:03:18,098 --> 00:03:21,302 THAT I LEARNED IN THE NAVY. 54 00:03:21,402 --> 00:03:23,837 IT'S A SURVIVAL TACTIC WE TEACH: 55 00:03:23,937 --> 00:03:25,573 TO THINK LIKE THE ENEMY. 56 00:03:25,673 --> 00:03:28,842 I'M TRYING TO UNDERSTAND WHY YOU'RE ALL SO AFRAID OF ME. 57 00:03:28,942 --> 00:03:32,112 HMM. WHEN YOU SAY "ALL," 58 00:03:32,212 --> 00:03:34,448 WHO WOULD YOU BE REFERRING TO? 59 00:03:34,548 --> 00:03:36,917 YOU AND THE REST OF THE WORLD. 60 00:03:37,017 --> 00:03:40,120 LISTEN. I REALIZE I THREATEN YOU... 61 00:03:40,220 --> 00:03:42,122 AND THAT'S WHERE YOUR AGGRESSION COMES FROM. 62 00:03:42,222 --> 00:03:44,425 SO IN WHAT WAY 63 00:03:44,525 --> 00:03:46,527 DO YOU THREATEN US, YOU THINK? 64 00:03:46,627 --> 00:03:49,162 YOU CONSIDER ME A MURDERER. 65 00:03:49,263 --> 00:03:51,265 THE LAST COUPLE OF WEEKS 66 00:03:51,365 --> 00:03:53,301 I'VE BEEN TRYING TO FIGURE OUT-- 67 00:03:53,401 --> 00:03:55,736 WHEN PEOPLE LOOK IN MY EYES, 68 00:03:55,836 --> 00:03:58,105 LOOK AT MY HANDS, 69 00:03:58,205 --> 00:04:00,274 CAN THEY TELL 70 00:04:00,374 --> 00:04:02,410 THAT I'VE KILLED 42 PEOPLE 71 00:04:02,510 --> 00:04:04,312 IN THE PAST 20 YEARS? 72 00:04:04,412 --> 00:04:07,448 THAT'S 42 HUMAN BEINGS. 73 00:04:07,548 --> 00:04:09,583 I MEAN, YOU CAN'T HIDE SOMETHING LIKE THAT, RIGHT? 74 00:04:09,683 --> 00:04:12,152 THERE'S SOMETHING ABOUT ME-- THEY'VE GOTTA SEE THAT. 75 00:04:12,252 --> 00:04:13,887 AND IT SCARES THEM. 76 00:04:13,987 --> 00:04:16,557 SO DO YOU THINK THAT THERE IS SOMETHING ABOUT YOU, 77 00:04:16,657 --> 00:04:19,126 SOMETHING OBVIOUS THAT PEOPLE SEE? 78 00:04:19,226 --> 00:04:22,563 YOU PROBABLY WANTED TO STRANGLE ME 79 00:04:22,663 --> 00:04:24,365 THE FIRST TIME I WALKED THROUGH THAT DOOR. 80 00:04:24,465 --> 00:04:26,434 IN THE LAST SESSION, YOU FINALLY GOT A CHANCE 81 00:04:26,534 --> 00:04:28,869 TO SHOW YOUR HATRED FOR PEOPLE LIKE ME. 82 00:04:28,969 --> 00:04:32,873 I THINK MAYBE THAT'S HOW YOU SEE YOURSELF, ALEX. 83 00:04:32,973 --> 00:04:35,376 MAYBE THAT'S WHY YOU PUSHED ME 84 00:04:35,476 --> 00:04:37,345 TO SUCH A VIOLENT PLACE. 85 00:04:37,445 --> 00:04:39,613 SO THAT I'D TREAT YOU THE WAY THAT 86 00:04:39,713 --> 00:04:41,415 YOU THINK YOU SHOULD BE TREATED. 87 00:04:41,515 --> 00:04:43,817 LET ME REMIND YOU, YOU ATTACKED ME. 88 00:04:44,918 --> 00:04:46,219 MMM. 89 00:04:46,320 --> 00:04:48,288 SO WHAT DID YOU FEEL 90 00:04:48,389 --> 00:04:51,359 WHEN I ATTACKED YOU? 91 00:04:51,459 --> 00:04:52,960 WHAT DID I FEEL? 92 00:04:53,060 --> 00:04:56,497 A SLIGHT TREMOR IN THE WING. 93 00:04:56,597 --> 00:05:00,668 - THAT'S IT. - SO NO BIG DEAL. 94 00:05:00,768 --> 00:05:02,570 NO BIG DEAL. 95 00:05:02,670 --> 00:05:04,938 BUT, ALEX, I PUSHED YOU AGAINST THE BOOKCASE. 96 00:05:05,038 --> 00:05:07,908 I THREW COFFEE IN YOUR FACE. 97 00:05:08,008 --> 00:05:11,645 I'M JUST CURIOUS. WHAT HAPPENED IN YOUR BODY? 98 00:05:11,745 --> 00:05:13,146 WHAT WAS GOING THROUGH YOUR HEAD? 99 00:05:13,246 --> 00:05:15,282 HOLD ON A SECOND. I JUST REALIZED SOMETHING. 100 00:05:15,383 --> 00:05:17,250 YOU HAVEN'T APOLOGIZED YET. 101 00:05:17,351 --> 00:05:18,919 OKAY, BEFORE ANYTHING ELSE, YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO SAY 102 00:05:19,019 --> 00:05:21,822 "I APOLOGIZE. I'M SORRY. IT'LL NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN." 103 00:05:21,922 --> 00:05:24,758 I'VE BEEN HERE FIVE MINUTES, AND I GOT NOTHING FROM YOU. 104 00:05:24,858 --> 00:05:26,326 YOU'RE RIGHT. 105 00:05:26,427 --> 00:05:29,630 YOU'RE ABSOLUTELY RIGHT. 106 00:05:29,730 --> 00:05:31,331 I APOLOGIZE. 107 00:05:33,434 --> 00:05:35,736 IT SHOULD NOT HAVE HAPPENED. 108 00:05:38,372 --> 00:05:41,475 BUT... I FELT 109 00:05:41,575 --> 00:05:45,212 VERY OFFENDED BY WHAT YOU SAID. 110 00:05:45,312 --> 00:05:46,647 OFFENDED? 111 00:05:46,747 --> 00:05:49,450 NO NO NO. THAT'S NOT PART OF THE DEAL. 112 00:05:49,550 --> 00:05:52,252 NO, I CAN SAY WHATEVER THE HELL I WANT IN HERE. 113 00:05:52,352 --> 00:05:54,187 THAT'S THE POINT OF GOING TO A SHRINK. 114 00:05:54,287 --> 00:05:55,489 YOU WANT ME TO CENSOR EVERY SENTENCE 115 00:05:55,589 --> 00:05:57,591 OR KEEP WONDERING IF WHAT I SAY MIGHT HURT YOU? 116 00:05:57,691 --> 00:06:00,828 WELL, IT'S STILL LIKE A RELATIONSHIP, ALEX. 117 00:06:00,928 --> 00:06:03,363 THERE ARE BOUNDARIES. 118 00:06:03,464 --> 00:06:07,100 I FELT THAT YOU WERE OUT TO HURT ME. 119 00:06:07,200 --> 00:06:10,671 AND I... WAS 120 00:06:10,771 --> 00:06:12,806 VERY HURT. 121 00:06:15,175 --> 00:06:17,077 WHAT OFFENDED YOU SO MUCH? 122 00:06:17,177 --> 00:06:19,212 I MEAN, IT WAS ALL TRUE, WASN'T IT? 123 00:06:19,312 --> 00:06:22,182 WELL, YOU INVADED MY PRIVACY. 124 00:06:22,282 --> 00:06:24,184 YOU TALKED ABOUT THE PEOPLE I LOVE, 125 00:06:24,284 --> 00:06:26,319 AND YOU SPOKE ABOUT THEM WITH CONTEMPT 126 00:06:26,420 --> 00:06:29,056 AND WITH WHAT I FELT WAS 127 00:06:29,156 --> 00:06:31,492 DELIBERATE CRUELTY. 128 00:06:34,662 --> 00:06:35,963 HUH. 129 00:06:37,431 --> 00:06:39,099 OKAY. 130 00:06:41,368 --> 00:06:44,738 SO I GUESS MY THERAPY IS OVER... 131 00:06:44,838 --> 00:06:48,542 - NOW, RIGHT? - THAT'S NOT WHAT I SAID, ALEX. 132 00:06:48,642 --> 00:06:50,778 NO, BUT IT'S WHAT YOU THINK. 133 00:06:50,878 --> 00:06:53,614 YOU'RE TIRED OF TAKING THE SHIT I GIVE YOU ALL THE TIME 134 00:06:53,714 --> 00:06:55,348 AND, ACTUALLY, I DON'T BLAME YOU. 135 00:06:55,449 --> 00:06:57,718 IF I WERE YOU, I'D HAVE GOTTEN RID OF ME A LONG TIME AGO. 136 00:06:57,818 --> 00:06:59,687 SO IS THAT WHY YOU SAY THOSE THINGS? 137 00:06:59,787 --> 00:07:03,223 IN THE HOPES THAT I WOULD-- WHAT? --RUN AWAY, KICK YOU OUT? 138 00:07:03,323 --> 00:07:05,593 IT'S NOT GONNA HAPPEN, ALEX. 139 00:07:07,360 --> 00:07:10,498 YOU GUYS REALLY DO LIVE IN A BUBBLE. YOU LIVE IN THIS WORLD, YOU DON'T-- 140 00:07:10,598 --> 00:07:13,200 IT'S ALL THEORIES. YOU DON'T ENGAGE. 141 00:07:16,470 --> 00:07:18,105 WHAT? 142 00:07:23,110 --> 00:07:27,214 FINISH THAT THOUGHT. WHAT WERE YOU GOING TO SAY? 143 00:07:27,314 --> 00:07:31,619 NO, I JUST REMEMBERED THIS DREAM I HAD. 144 00:07:31,719 --> 00:07:34,421 I WAS ON THE GROUND, AND I WAS DRIVING THIS LITTLE CAR 145 00:07:34,522 --> 00:07:37,858 ON THE IRAQI INTERNATIONAL AIRPORT HIGHWAY. 146 00:07:37,958 --> 00:07:40,994 THEY CALL IT "THE HIGHWAY TO HELL." 147 00:07:41,094 --> 00:07:44,998 AND ALL OF A SUDDEN I'M IN BAGHDAD IN THIS TRAFFIC JAM. 148 00:07:45,098 --> 00:07:48,168 ABOVE MY HEAD I SEE THIS ENEMY PLANE. IT'S A CZECH MiG. 149 00:07:48,268 --> 00:07:49,670 I'M NOT SURE WHAT IT IS EXACTLY, 150 00:07:49,770 --> 00:07:52,205 BUT THIS MiG IS BEING FOLLOWED 151 00:07:52,305 --> 00:07:55,175 BY ONE OF OUR JETS, AN F-16. 152 00:07:55,275 --> 00:07:57,077 EVERYONE'S LOOKING UP, WATCHING. 153 00:07:57,177 --> 00:07:59,647 AND I SAY TO MYSELF, 154 00:07:59,747 --> 00:08:01,615 "WHY ISN'T HE SHOOTING? 155 00:08:01,715 --> 00:08:04,852 WHY DOESN'T HE BLOW HIM OUT OF THE SKY?" 156 00:08:04,952 --> 00:08:07,721 NOW MAYBE HE'S AFRAID THAT ALL THE DEBRIS WILL FALL ON THE PEOPLE BELOW, 157 00:08:07,821 --> 00:08:11,224 BUT I KNOW IN THE DREAM THE ORDERS ARE TO TAKE THAT FUCKER DOWN. 158 00:08:11,324 --> 00:08:14,127 SO THEY'RE FLYING REAL CLOSE LIKE THIS AND MANEUVERING, 159 00:08:14,227 --> 00:08:16,897 AND OUR GUY DOESN'T LAUNCH. 160 00:08:16,997 --> 00:08:19,132 AND THE ENEMY PLANE IS GETTING AWAY 161 00:08:19,232 --> 00:08:20,634 AND IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY. 162 00:08:20,734 --> 00:08:22,636 I MEAN, SHIT, HE'S ON HIS WAY TO OUR BASE CAMP. 163 00:08:22,736 --> 00:08:24,437 ALL THE PEOPLE ON THE GROUND BELOW, 164 00:08:24,538 --> 00:08:28,075 THEY'RE WAITING FOR HIM TO TAKE THE MiG DOWN, AND THEY'RE BLOODTHIRSTY. 165 00:08:28,175 --> 00:08:30,377 AND IT DOESN'T HAPPEN. 166 00:08:30,477 --> 00:08:33,146 THEY JUST FLY AWAY. 167 00:08:36,550 --> 00:08:38,018 AND THAT'S IT. 168 00:08:39,486 --> 00:08:41,755 HMM. SO DO YOU THINK YOU WOULD HAVE DONE BETTER 169 00:08:41,855 --> 00:08:44,758 - IF YOU HAD BEEN UP THERE? - SHIT. 170 00:08:44,858 --> 00:08:46,493 ANY PILOT WORTH HIS SALT WOULD HAVE BLOWN 171 00:08:46,594 --> 00:08:49,129 THAT ASSHOLE TO KINGDOM COME. 172 00:08:49,229 --> 00:08:51,431 AND WHO IS THE PILOT? 173 00:08:51,531 --> 00:08:53,634 MAYBE IT'S ME. I DON'T KNOW. 174 00:08:53,734 --> 00:08:56,369 YOU'RE THE ONE WHO CAN'T SHOOT? 175 00:08:56,469 --> 00:08:58,071 WHY NOT? 176 00:08:58,171 --> 00:09:00,708 I DON'T KNOW. 177 00:09:00,808 --> 00:09:04,044 MAYBE BECAUSE THE OTHER GUY, THE OTHER PILOT, 178 00:09:04,144 --> 00:09:06,513 IS NOT THAT DANGEROUS. I KNEW THAT. 179 00:09:06,614 --> 00:09:09,149 HE'S ONLY-- 180 00:09:09,249 --> 00:09:12,152 WHAT? HE'S ONLY WHAT? 181 00:09:12,252 --> 00:09:15,455 WHO'S SITTING IN THE PLANE? 182 00:09:15,555 --> 00:09:17,858 WHO'S SITTING IN THE ENEMY PLANE THAT YOU REFUSE TO SHOOT DOWN? 183 00:09:17,958 --> 00:09:20,027 I DON'T KNOW. I DON'T KNOW WHO'S THERE. I DON'T KNOW. 184 00:09:20,127 --> 00:09:22,630 - WHO IS THE ENEMY, ALEX? - HEY, STOP, MAN. 185 00:09:22,730 --> 00:09:25,799 JEEZ, WHEN YOU WANT TO PRESSURE, YOU PRESSURE. 186 00:09:31,772 --> 00:09:33,941 I DON'T KNOW. 187 00:09:36,610 --> 00:09:38,345 WHO'S MY ENEMY? YOU? 188 00:09:38,445 --> 00:09:41,581 - IS THAT HOW IT FEELS? - NO, IT'S NOT YOU. YOU'RE NOT THERE. 189 00:09:44,451 --> 00:09:46,353 NO. 190 00:09:46,453 --> 00:09:48,689 MAYBE IT'S MY FATHER. 191 00:09:51,625 --> 00:09:54,194 WHAT? WHAT? 192 00:09:54,294 --> 00:09:56,396 YOU KNOW THE ANSWER, BUT YOU DON'T WANNA-- 193 00:09:56,496 --> 00:09:58,065 YOU WANT ME TO COME UP WITH IT. 194 00:09:58,165 --> 00:09:59,900 NO, IT'S JUST A DREAM. 195 00:10:00,000 --> 00:10:03,036 I'M JUST HELPING YOU TO LOOK AT IT. 196 00:10:03,136 --> 00:10:06,273 - THAT'S ALL. - OKAY, WELL, THEN YOU MUST HAVE SOME CHART 197 00:10:06,373 --> 00:10:08,408 OR SOMETHING AROUND HERE TELLING YOU WHAT EVERY PART 198 00:10:08,508 --> 00:10:10,243 OF A DREAM REPRESENTS IN REALITY. 199 00:10:10,343 --> 00:10:12,445 NO NO, NOT REALLY. SOMETIMES A NUMBER OF IMAGES 200 00:10:12,545 --> 00:10:14,782 CAN REPRESENT THE SAME THING. 201 00:10:14,882 --> 00:10:17,985 SO IT'S ME? THAT'S WHAT YOU'RE SAYING, RIGHT? 202 00:10:18,085 --> 00:10:20,587 THAT I WAS THE ENEMY PILOT? 203 00:10:20,688 --> 00:10:24,024 I'M MY OWN ENEMY? 204 00:10:24,124 --> 00:10:26,126 LOOK, IT'S NOT CLEAR ACTUALLY THAT HE'S EVEN AN ENEMY. 205 00:10:26,226 --> 00:10:29,062 IT'S NOT THAT HE DOESN'T HAVE IDENTIFICATION MARKS ON THE PLANE. 206 00:10:29,162 --> 00:10:31,198 I'M JUST NOT FAMILIAR WITH IT. 207 00:10:31,298 --> 00:10:33,033 I DON'T KNOW FOR SURE. 208 00:10:34,501 --> 00:10:37,705 BUT HE IS TRYING TO GET AWAY FROM YOU. 209 00:10:38,939 --> 00:10:40,774 WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THIS GUY, 210 00:10:40,874 --> 00:10:44,011 THIS PILOT, THIS FLEEING PILOT? 211 00:10:44,111 --> 00:10:45,913 I THINK HE'S A FUCKING COWARD. 212 00:10:46,013 --> 00:10:49,182 - OH, YEAH. WHAT ELSE? - HE'S NOT A MAN. 213 00:10:49,282 --> 00:10:51,551 HE'S RUNNING AWAY LIKE A PUSSY INSTEAD OF TURNING AROUND, 214 00:10:51,651 --> 00:10:53,520 STANDING HIS GROUND AND FIGHTING. 215 00:10:53,620 --> 00:10:55,188 I'M DYING TO COME UP TO THAT PITIFUL FUCKER 216 00:10:55,288 --> 00:10:58,425 AND SHOVE AN AIR-TO-AIR MISSILE UP HIS REAR BURNER. 217 00:11:13,707 --> 00:11:15,108 WHAT'RE YOU THINKING? 218 00:11:18,746 --> 00:11:20,180 JUST SAY IT. 219 00:11:28,688 --> 00:11:30,057 YOU THINK I'M A FAGGOT? 220 00:11:34,427 --> 00:11:37,464 THAT WOULD GO RIGHT ALONG WITH ALL MY FATHER'S THEORIES. 221 00:11:37,564 --> 00:11:39,900 ONLY GIRLS AND FAGS SEE A SHRINK. 222 00:11:40,000 --> 00:11:42,135 SO WHAT IF I'M A FAG? 223 00:11:42,235 --> 00:11:45,238 YOU SAID IT VERY CLEARLY BEFORE. 224 00:11:45,338 --> 00:11:47,140 DID I? 225 00:11:47,240 --> 00:11:49,176 WELL, MAYBE YOU DIDN'T SAY IT, BUT YOU'VE BEEN LEADING ME THERE. 226 00:11:49,276 --> 00:11:51,078 I HAVE? 227 00:11:51,178 --> 00:11:54,114 YEAH, YOU'RE DYING TO SAY IT'S A HOMOSEXUAL DREAM. 228 00:11:54,214 --> 00:11:55,715 I'M TAILING HIM. 229 00:11:55,816 --> 00:11:58,285 I SEE FIRE COMING OUT OF HIS BACK BURNER. 230 00:11:58,385 --> 00:12:00,153 I'M WANNA SHOVE MY-- 231 00:12:07,394 --> 00:12:08,996 IT ALL FITS, DOESN'T IT? 232 00:12:18,939 --> 00:12:21,474 EVEN DANIEL NEVER SUSPECTED IT. 233 00:12:26,146 --> 00:12:28,315 WELL, THAT COULD EXPLAIN A LOT OF THINGS. 234 00:12:28,415 --> 00:12:30,217 WHAT THINGS? 235 00:12:30,317 --> 00:12:31,885 LAURA, FOR INSTANCE. 236 00:12:31,985 --> 00:12:35,622 THAT LOUSY FUCK WE HAD THE FIRST TIME. 237 00:12:35,722 --> 00:12:37,825 AND MICHAELA. 238 00:12:40,961 --> 00:12:43,797 THE FACT THAT I'M SUDDENLY NOT ATTRACTED TO HER ANYMORE. 239 00:12:45,598 --> 00:12:47,567 WE SAW EACH OTHER THIS WEEK AT A RESTAURANT, 240 00:12:47,667 --> 00:12:49,369 AND SHE WANTS ME TO COME BACK HOME AND THOUGHT IT'D BE BETTER 241 00:12:49,469 --> 00:12:52,840 IF WE TALKED TO EACH OTHER IN PERSON. 242 00:12:52,940 --> 00:12:56,076 SHE WAS DRIVING HARD, MAN, 243 00:12:56,176 --> 00:12:59,446 JUST ON A MISSION, JUST ON THE ATTACK. 244 00:12:59,546 --> 00:13:02,282 SHE WANTED US TO START OFF BY GETTING A ROOM ASAP. 245 00:13:02,382 --> 00:13:05,185 THERE'S THAT HOTEL ABOVE THE RESTAURANT. I SAID I COULDN'T. 246 00:13:05,285 --> 00:13:07,587 I COULDN'T. 247 00:13:07,687 --> 00:13:09,656 I TOLD HER I HAD SOMEWHERE TO BE, 248 00:13:09,756 --> 00:13:12,692 THAT WE WOULD DO IT ANOTHER TIME. 249 00:13:12,792 --> 00:13:15,762 YOU KNOW, I REALLY DID HAVE SOMETHING ELSE TO DO THAT NIGHT. 250 00:13:15,863 --> 00:13:19,166 I WAS SUPPOSED TO GO WITH DANIEL AND HIS-- 251 00:13:19,266 --> 00:13:21,434 HIS PARTNER SEAN TO A PARTY. 252 00:13:24,271 --> 00:13:25,805 YOU UNDERSTAND THIS AMAZING WOMAN WANTS 253 00:13:25,906 --> 00:13:28,141 TO FUCK THE SHIT OUT OF ME IN A FIVE-STAR HOTEL 254 00:13:28,241 --> 00:13:30,477 AND INSTEAD I'M GOING TO GEORGETOWN WITH THESE TWO FAGS. 255 00:13:30,577 --> 00:13:32,312 DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? 256 00:13:32,412 --> 00:13:34,781 AND WHY DO YOU THINK 257 00:13:34,882 --> 00:13:39,086 YOU'D RATHER SPEND TIME WITH THEM? 258 00:13:42,055 --> 00:13:45,358 EVERYTHING'S A JOKE WITH THEM. 259 00:13:45,458 --> 00:13:47,394 I DON'T KNOW IF YOU'RE FAMILIAR WITH THEIR WORLD, 260 00:13:47,494 --> 00:13:51,331 BUT THEIR HUMOR IS IN SEEING EVERYTHING FROM THE OUTSIDE, 261 00:13:51,431 --> 00:13:53,967 LIKE THEY'RE NOT A PART OF IT, LIKE-- LIKE-- 262 00:13:54,067 --> 00:13:55,903 LIKE THEY'RE ABOVE IT. 263 00:13:56,003 --> 00:13:57,905 AND BY "THEY," YOU MEAN HOMOSEXUALS? 264 00:13:58,005 --> 00:13:59,873 YEAH, ESPECIALLY SEAN'S CROWD. 265 00:13:59,973 --> 00:14:02,142 I MEAN, HE'S GENUINELY QUEER. 266 00:14:02,242 --> 00:14:05,145 YOU KNOW, HE'S NOT THE KIND THAT'S IN CONFLICT WITH HIMSELF. 267 00:14:05,245 --> 00:14:08,848 I MEAN, HE'S-- THIS-- SEAN IS IMMUNE TO TENSION, 268 00:14:08,949 --> 00:14:12,752 HE'S HAPPY. HE'S HAPPY ALL THE TIME. 269 00:14:12,852 --> 00:14:14,154 HE JUST HAS NO SUBCONSCIOUS. 270 00:14:14,254 --> 00:14:18,058 EVERYTHING IS RIGHT OUT IN THE OPEN. 271 00:14:21,794 --> 00:14:23,030 IS THAT SOMETHING THAT-- 272 00:14:23,130 --> 00:14:25,565 IS THAT SOMETHING THAT YOU ENVY? 273 00:14:28,101 --> 00:14:30,270 WELL, THEY DON'T PRESSURE ME. 274 00:14:32,005 --> 00:14:34,041 I MEAN, THEY GIVE YOU SHIT 275 00:14:34,141 --> 00:14:36,944 TO PROVOKE YOU, AND THEY LOVE THAT SHIT, BUT... 276 00:14:37,044 --> 00:14:39,646 YOU KNOW, SEAN ASKED ME 277 00:14:39,746 --> 00:14:43,250 "WHY DO YOU ALWAYS DESPERATELY 278 00:14:43,350 --> 00:14:45,885 TRY TO PLEASE EVERYBODY ALL THE TIME? 279 00:14:45,986 --> 00:14:49,089 GOD AND COUNTRY-- EVERYBODY?" 280 00:14:49,189 --> 00:14:51,591 BUT IT'S BULLSHIT. WITH THEM, THEY DON'T CARE. 281 00:14:51,691 --> 00:14:54,394 THEY REALLY DON'T CARE. 282 00:14:54,494 --> 00:14:55,695 THEY DON'T DEMAND OF ME 283 00:14:55,795 --> 00:14:58,932 TO BE ANYTHING... EXTRA. 284 00:15:00,300 --> 00:15:03,203 THAT NIGHT WE GOT HOME ABOUT 4:00 A.M., 285 00:15:03,303 --> 00:15:04,871 AND DANIEL WENT TO THE BEDROOM, 286 00:15:04,972 --> 00:15:06,339 AND SEAN AND I STAYED OUT IN THE LIVING ROOM. 287 00:15:06,439 --> 00:15:09,176 HE GOT A DVD, SOME GAY PORN THING. 288 00:15:09,276 --> 00:15:12,946 LOOK, I DON'T KNOW IF HE WAS TRYING TO PROVOKE ME OR WHAT. 289 00:15:14,714 --> 00:15:17,317 HE EVEN SUGGESTED AFTERWARDS THAT I'D BE READY FOR BED. 290 00:15:17,417 --> 00:15:20,988 HE SAID IT JOKINGLY, BUT HE WASN'T PLAYING. 291 00:15:23,456 --> 00:15:24,657 HE TOLD ME ONCE, 292 00:15:24,757 --> 00:15:27,127 "I DIDN'T KNOW THE MEANING OF LIFE 293 00:15:27,227 --> 00:15:30,530 UNTIL I GOT FUCKED IN THE ASS." 294 00:15:36,836 --> 00:15:38,471 ( exhales deeply ) 295 00:16:10,037 --> 00:16:11,938 I ONCE READ THAT, PSYCHOLOGICALLY, 296 00:16:12,039 --> 00:16:14,607 WATER SYMBOLIZES EMOTIONS. 297 00:16:16,876 --> 00:16:19,979 I WONDER WHAT YOUR COLLECTION OF BOATS SAYS ABOUT YOU. 298 00:16:21,314 --> 00:16:24,417 I DON'T KNOW. MAYBE THAT I'M AN EMOTIONAL WRECK. 299 00:16:26,753 --> 00:16:29,522 MAYBE YOU WANT TO GO OUT TO SEA, 300 00:16:29,622 --> 00:16:31,758 BUT YOU DON'T. 301 00:16:33,560 --> 00:16:37,130 YOU MEAN THAT I WANT TO EXPRESS MY FEELINGS, BUT I CAN'T. 302 00:16:42,569 --> 00:16:45,972 MY FATHER'S A LIFETIME DEMOCRAT, 303 00:16:46,073 --> 00:16:47,874 A WAR PROTESTER. 304 00:16:47,974 --> 00:16:51,211 AND I KNEW THAT IF I JOINED THE NAVY, 305 00:16:51,311 --> 00:16:53,113 IT WOULD PISS HIM OFF. 306 00:16:53,213 --> 00:16:55,748 SO FUCK IT, I WENT R.O.T.C. IN HIGH SCHOOL, 307 00:16:55,848 --> 00:16:57,750 AND THEN I GOT MY WINGS. 308 00:16:57,850 --> 00:17:01,054 HE COULDN'T TELL ME SHIT. 309 00:17:01,154 --> 00:17:03,756 I REMEMBER THE FIRST TIME YOU WERE HERE. 310 00:17:03,856 --> 00:17:07,094 YOU SAID THAT YOU DIDN'T CHOOSE 311 00:17:07,194 --> 00:17:10,497 TO BE A PILOT, THAT LIFE CHOSE IT FOR YOU. 312 00:17:10,597 --> 00:17:13,166 - YEAH. - BUT I DON'T KNOW ABOUT THAT. 313 00:17:13,266 --> 00:17:15,968 I THINK MAYBE YOU DID CHOOSE THAT PATH, 314 00:17:16,069 --> 00:17:18,605 AND THAT YOU DID IT TO DEFY YOUR FATHER. 315 00:17:18,705 --> 00:17:20,607 HE WANTED ME TO BE HARD. 316 00:17:20,707 --> 00:17:23,176 THERE'S NOTHING HARDER THAN A TOPGUN GRAD. 317 00:17:23,276 --> 00:17:25,678 YEAH, BUT, THAT'S STILL A REACTION TO HIM. 318 00:17:25,778 --> 00:17:27,847 IT'S NOT YOUR DESIRE. 319 00:17:27,947 --> 00:17:30,983 I DON'T THINK YOU'RE IN TOUCH WITH WHAT YOU REALLY WANT. 320 00:17:31,084 --> 00:17:33,120 WHAT I REALLY WANT? WHAT ARE YOU SAYING? 321 00:17:33,220 --> 00:17:36,356 WHAT I REALLY WANTED WAS TO BE SOMETHING ELSE? 322 00:17:36,456 --> 00:17:38,925 GAY? 323 00:17:39,025 --> 00:17:41,294 HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ATTRACTED TO MEN, ALEX? 324 00:17:41,394 --> 00:17:45,465 - NO. - EVER HAD A SEXUAL FANTASY ABOUT A MAN? 325 00:17:45,565 --> 00:17:48,668 I HAVE NEVER, NO. 326 00:17:48,768 --> 00:17:50,337 NO. 327 00:17:50,437 --> 00:17:53,072 SO WHEN YOU SAY THE WORD GAY, WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THAT? 328 00:17:53,173 --> 00:17:55,442 I DON'T KNOW. DON'T TAKE ME THERE, MAN. 329 00:17:57,009 --> 00:18:00,447 THIS, SAYING WHAT YOU THINK ALL THE TIME-- THAT'S GAY. 330 00:18:00,547 --> 00:18:02,915 THOSE GUYS, THEY HAVE NO FILTERS. 331 00:18:03,015 --> 00:18:04,551 WHAT ELSE? 332 00:18:08,288 --> 00:18:10,623 TALKING ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS ALL THE TIME. 333 00:18:10,723 --> 00:18:13,293 SO WHAT YOU DO HERE, FOR EXAMPLE, THE WAY YOU INTERACT WITH ME, 334 00:18:13,393 --> 00:18:16,596 YOUR FATHER SAID-- HE SAID THAT ANYBODY WHO GOES TO A SHRINK 335 00:18:16,696 --> 00:18:19,566 IS A-- IS A FAG. 336 00:18:24,704 --> 00:18:27,707 HOW DID YOU GET ON WITH YOUR DAD WHEN YOU WERE A KID? 337 00:18:35,782 --> 00:18:37,517 I REMEMBER AS A KID 338 00:18:37,617 --> 00:18:39,519 MY FATHER TAKING ME TO A CHURCH. 339 00:18:39,619 --> 00:18:41,621 THIS WAS THE RIVERSIDE CHURCH UP IN HARLEM. 340 00:18:41,721 --> 00:18:44,991 AND BACK IN THOSE DAYS, I LIVED KIND OF A DOUBLE LIFE. 341 00:18:45,091 --> 00:18:47,494 DURING THE WEEK, I WENT TO THIS ALL- BOYS PRIVATE SCHOOL. 342 00:18:47,594 --> 00:18:50,897 IT WAS ELITE, THE FINEST TEACHERS. 343 00:18:50,997 --> 00:18:53,766 - IT WAS-- - THE BEST, RIGHT? 344 00:18:53,866 --> 00:18:55,735 RIGHT. 345 00:18:55,835 --> 00:18:58,037 IT WAS ALSO A TOTALLY SHELTERED ENVIRONMENT. 346 00:18:58,137 --> 00:18:59,472 SO ON THE WEEKEND, MY DAD WOULD TAKE ME 347 00:18:59,572 --> 00:19:02,942 TO ALL THESE REAL ROUGH GHETTO AREAS, 348 00:19:03,042 --> 00:19:05,545 TO PLACES WHERE HE VOLUNTEERED HIS TIME AND MONEY. 349 00:19:05,645 --> 00:19:08,448 HE WANTED TO MAKE SURE THAT I KNEW HOW LUCKY I WAS 350 00:19:08,548 --> 00:19:10,717 TO LIVE MY LITTLE SOFT, CUSHY LIFE. 351 00:19:10,817 --> 00:19:13,586 I DREADED THOSE FUCKING WEEKENDS, HATED THEM. 352 00:19:13,686 --> 00:19:15,488 IT'S LIKE HE WAS ALWAYS TRYING TO TEST ME. 353 00:19:15,588 --> 00:19:18,425 ANYWAY, THE RIVERSIDE CHURCH HAD THIS ATHLETIC PROGRAM 354 00:19:18,525 --> 00:19:20,227 THAT MY DAD SUPPORTED. 355 00:19:20,327 --> 00:19:22,262 HE NEEDED TO TALK TO THE GUY THAT RAN THE PLACE, 356 00:19:22,362 --> 00:19:23,963 SO THEY TOLD ME, 357 00:19:24,063 --> 00:19:27,400 "YOU WAIT OUTSIDE, SHOOT SOME BASKETS." 358 00:19:27,500 --> 00:19:30,136 SO IT'S EARLY AND THE COURTS ARE DESERTED. 359 00:19:30,237 --> 00:19:31,971 AND IT'S A BAD AREA, 360 00:19:32,071 --> 00:19:35,007 BUT LONG STORY SHORT, THIS KID COMES UP. HE'S ABOUT-- 361 00:19:35,107 --> 00:19:37,410 I DON'T KNOW-- HE'S 14. 362 00:19:37,510 --> 00:19:40,647 AND HE BEAT THE HELL OUT OF ME. 363 00:19:40,747 --> 00:19:44,484 HE KICKED ME IN THE HEAD A FEW TIMES. 364 00:19:48,721 --> 00:19:50,857 BUT HE WOUND UP TAKING SOME LITTLE BULLSHIT CHAIN I HAD 365 00:19:50,957 --> 00:19:53,626 AND MY SNEAKERS-- HE TOOK MY SNEAKERS, TOOK MY SOCKS, 366 00:19:53,726 --> 00:19:55,428 AND HE EVEN TOOK THIS LITTLE 367 00:19:55,528 --> 00:19:59,131 HALF-FULL PACK OF CHEWING GUM. 368 00:19:59,232 --> 00:20:03,035 AND I WENT UPSTAIRS 369 00:20:03,135 --> 00:20:07,039 AND MY DAD SEES ME, AND HE SEES I JUST GOT MY ASS KICKED, 370 00:20:07,139 --> 00:20:11,043 THAT I GOT NO SNEAKERS, NO SOCKS. 371 00:20:11,143 --> 00:20:13,613 AND I STARTED TO TELL HIM WHAT HAPPENED. 372 00:20:16,549 --> 00:20:19,286 AND I STARTED CRYING. 373 00:20:20,653 --> 00:20:22,455 SO MY DAD... 374 00:20:24,156 --> 00:20:26,359 SLAPPED THE SHIT OUT OF ME-- 375 00:20:28,995 --> 00:20:30,697 SOUNDED LIKE A WHIP CRACK. 376 00:20:32,465 --> 00:20:34,334 AND HE MADE ME WALK AROUND BAREFOOT 377 00:20:34,434 --> 00:20:36,403 FOR THE WHOLE REST OF THE DAY 378 00:20:36,503 --> 00:20:38,705 JUST TO TEACH ME A LESSON. 379 00:20:40,206 --> 00:20:41,908 WHAT AGE WERE YOU? 380 00:20:46,045 --> 00:20:48,381 11. 381 00:20:48,481 --> 00:20:51,584 THE NEXT WEEKEND, HE TOOK ME TO A GYM 382 00:20:51,684 --> 00:20:53,753 TO MEET UP WITH THIS GUY NAMED TOM. 383 00:20:53,853 --> 00:20:57,424 AND TOM SAID THAT THERE ARE TWO TYPES OF MARTIAL ARTS. 384 00:20:57,524 --> 00:21:01,027 "ONE IS THE KIND THAT'S A PHYSICAL AND SPIRITUAL DISCIPLINE, 385 00:21:01,127 --> 00:21:03,463 A WAY OF LIFE. THE SECOND TYPE 386 00:21:03,563 --> 00:21:06,132 IS WHERE YOU LEARN TO FIGHT, 387 00:21:06,232 --> 00:21:08,134 AND THIS HERE IS A FIGHTING GYM. 388 00:21:08,234 --> 00:21:10,903 YOU GOT A PROBLEM WITH THAT?" 389 00:21:11,003 --> 00:21:13,806 I DIDN'T HAVE A PROBLEM WITH IT, 'CAUSE I DIDN'T WANT ANYBODY 390 00:21:13,906 --> 00:21:17,610 TO EVER PUT THEIR HANDS ON ME LIKE THAT EVER AGAIN. 391 00:21:17,710 --> 00:21:19,612 SO I CAME FOUR DAYS A WEEK AFTER SCHOOL, 392 00:21:19,712 --> 00:21:22,315 AND I LEARNED, AND I LEARNED FAST. 393 00:21:22,415 --> 00:21:24,351 AND THE NEXT TIME SOME KID PICKED ON ME, 394 00:21:24,451 --> 00:21:27,754 I BEAT HIS FACE TO A PULP. 395 00:21:30,657 --> 00:21:32,925 YOU COULDN'T EVEN RECOGNIZE HIM. 396 00:21:37,697 --> 00:21:40,166 'CAUSE, SEE, FEAR IS LIKE FIRE. 397 00:21:40,266 --> 00:21:43,069 IF YOU MASTER IT, THEN IT CAN HEAT YOUR HOUSE, COOK YOUR FOOD, 398 00:21:43,169 --> 00:21:47,707 BUT IF IT GETS THE BEST OF YOU, IT CAN BURN YOU. IT CAN DESTROY YOU. 399 00:21:47,807 --> 00:21:49,942 ( voice cracking ) YOU CONTROL YOUR FEAR... 400 00:21:52,579 --> 00:21:55,482 YOU CONTROL YOUR FEAR, YOU CONTROL YOUR LIFE. 401 00:21:56,883 --> 00:21:58,785 ( clears throat ) 402 00:22:18,037 --> 00:22:19,572 EXCUSE ME. 403 00:22:27,046 --> 00:22:29,416 ( sobbing ) 404 00:23:34,213 --> 00:23:35,882 ARE YOU ALL RIGHT? 405 00:23:37,450 --> 00:23:39,886 YEAH, I DON'T THINK I CAN DO THIS. 406 00:23:42,221 --> 00:23:44,156 DO WHAT? 407 00:23:44,256 --> 00:23:46,092 THIS THERAPY. I... 408 00:23:47,994 --> 00:23:50,029 IT'S TOO MUCH FOR ME. 409 00:23:50,129 --> 00:23:51,898 I THINK I NEED A BREAK-- 410 00:23:51,998 --> 00:23:53,833 A FEW WEEKS, A MONTH. 411 00:24:00,707 --> 00:24:03,275 I JUST DON'T THINK IT'S LEADING ANYWHERE. 412 00:24:03,375 --> 00:24:04,877 IT'S NOT LEADING ANYWHERE. 413 00:24:04,977 --> 00:24:07,947 WHERE DO YOU WANT IT TO LEAD, ALEX? 414 00:24:09,849 --> 00:24:12,885 SOMEPLACE WHERE I FEEL LESS SHITTY ABOUT MYSELF; 415 00:24:17,724 --> 00:24:20,660 SOMEPLACE WHERE I CAN FIND SOME BALANCE IN MY LIFE; 416 00:24:24,263 --> 00:24:26,799 SOMEPLACE SANER. I MISS FLYING. 417 00:24:31,704 --> 00:24:36,208 SOMEHOW EVERYTHING IS JUST MUCH SIMPLER UP THERE. 418 00:24:36,308 --> 00:24:39,879 I CAN FOCUS ON SOMETHING. THE ONLY THING YOU GOTTA THINK ABOUT IS THE MISSION. 419 00:24:43,550 --> 00:24:45,151 IT'S QUIET. 420 00:24:47,854 --> 00:24:51,524 IS IT POSSIBLE TO GET THAT FEELING ON THE GROUND? 421 00:24:51,624 --> 00:24:52,892 DO YOU THINK? 422 00:24:56,395 --> 00:24:57,730 I DON'T KNOW. 423 00:25:07,874 --> 00:25:09,642 YOU KNOW, I GOT A CALL FROM MY WING COMMANDER. 424 00:25:09,742 --> 00:25:12,912 HE'S INTERESTED IN KNOWING HOW I'M DOING. 425 00:25:13,012 --> 00:25:15,948 HE'S FISHING. HE'S TRYING TO FIGURE OUT IF I'M READY... 426 00:25:16,949 --> 00:25:18,718 FOR ACTIVE DUTY. 427 00:25:20,186 --> 00:25:24,857 IT'S ALL SORTS OF TESTS, THOUGH. IT'S A LONG PROCESS. 428 00:25:24,957 --> 00:25:27,259 DO YOU THINK YOU'RE READY FOR THAT, ALEX? 429 00:25:27,359 --> 00:25:29,929 WHAT DO YOU THINK? 430 00:25:30,029 --> 00:25:32,632 NO, I DON'T THINK YOU'RE READY. 431 00:25:37,937 --> 00:25:40,640 MAYBE I CAN DISCUSS IT WITH MICHAELA. 432 00:25:40,740 --> 00:25:43,075 I DON'T THINK SEAN AND DANIEL WOULD BE MUCH HELP. 433 00:25:43,175 --> 00:25:46,278 GAYS DON'T REALLY UNDERSTAND THE MILITARY, 434 00:25:46,378 --> 00:25:48,881 OR VICE VERSA. 435 00:25:48,981 --> 00:25:52,251 ALEX, THESE FEELINGS AND MEMORIES 436 00:25:52,351 --> 00:25:54,453 THAT YOU HAVE ABOUT YOUR FATHER, 437 00:25:54,553 --> 00:25:57,356 I THINK THIS IS REALLY SOMETHING 438 00:25:57,456 --> 00:26:01,560 WE SHOULD COME BACK TO. 439 00:26:05,164 --> 00:26:07,266 YEAH. 440 00:26:07,366 --> 00:26:10,970 I MIGHT ACTUALLY HAVE TO GO IN OVER THE NEXT FEW WEEKS 441 00:26:11,070 --> 00:26:12,872 SOME DAYS FOR SOME MEETINGS, 442 00:26:12,972 --> 00:26:16,776 SO I'LL KEEP YOU POSTED IF I CAN'T COME NEXT WEEK. 443 00:26:16,876 --> 00:26:18,577 SURE. 444 00:26:20,980 --> 00:26:22,715 THANKS. 445 00:26:48,574 --> 00:26:51,210 ( theme music playing )