1 00:00:05,773 --> 00:00:08,309 Male voice: PREVIOUSLY, ON "IN TREATMENT"... 2 00:00:08,409 --> 00:00:10,711 YOU SAID THAT ENDING THE THERAPY 3 00:00:10,811 --> 00:00:12,146 WAS THE BEST GOOD SOLUTION. 4 00:00:12,246 --> 00:00:15,015 I SAID IT MIGHT BE NECESSARY FOR HER SAKE. 5 00:00:15,116 --> 00:00:16,484 WHEN YOU SAY "GOOD SOLUTION," 6 00:00:16,584 --> 00:00:19,187 I THINK YOU MEAN A SOLUTION TO YOUR PROBLEMS. 7 00:00:19,287 --> 00:00:21,922 ALEX, THE FIGHTER PILOT, MET LAURA. 8 00:00:22,022 --> 00:00:25,226 SO HE COMES BACK THE NEXT AFTERNOON, TELLS ME THAT THEY MET 9 00:00:25,326 --> 00:00:28,762 AND NOW-- AND NOW THEY'RE DATING. 10 00:00:30,764 --> 00:00:33,234 YOU WANT ME TO TALK ABOUT LAURA? WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO SAY? 11 00:00:33,334 --> 00:00:36,870 THAT I SIT OPPOSITE HER AND SAY, "WHAT IF?" 12 00:00:36,970 --> 00:00:38,672 WELL, I DO. 13 00:00:40,508 --> 00:00:42,443 ( knocking ) 14 00:00:50,184 --> 00:00:51,985 - HI. - HI. 15 00:00:52,086 --> 00:00:55,123 SORRY I'M LATE. I WAS AT THE MARKET. 16 00:00:55,223 --> 00:00:58,859 LISTEN, WOULD YOU MIND PUTTING THESE IN THE FRIDGE FOR ME, PLEASE? 17 00:00:58,959 --> 00:01:01,395 - SURE, SURE. - FISH HEADS. 18 00:01:01,495 --> 00:01:04,465 - THEY'RE FISH HEADS? - MMM. 19 00:01:04,565 --> 00:01:06,200 YEAH, I'M MAKING SOME CHOWDER. 20 00:01:06,300 --> 00:01:10,070 OH. FISH HEADS FOR-- YEAH. 21 00:01:10,171 --> 00:01:11,772 THANKS. 22 00:01:11,872 --> 00:01:14,108 ( theme music playing ) 23 00:01:32,126 --> 00:01:34,295 OKAY. 24 00:01:34,395 --> 00:01:36,730 I REALLY LIKE YOUR DRESS. 25 00:01:38,031 --> 00:01:40,468 - THANK YOU. - MMM. 26 00:01:40,568 --> 00:01:45,105 AND YOUR HAIR LOOKS DIFFERENT. 27 00:01:45,206 --> 00:01:46,407 - YOU LOOK GREAT, GINA. - ( water pouring ) 28 00:01:46,507 --> 00:01:48,209 THAT'S GOOD OF YOU TO SAY THAT. 29 00:01:48,309 --> 00:01:50,144 MAKES YOU LOOK, 30 00:01:50,244 --> 00:01:53,013 I DON'T KNOW, SOFTER SOMEHOW. 31 00:01:53,113 --> 00:01:54,448 SPECIAL OCCASION? 32 00:01:54,548 --> 00:01:57,851 SOFTER? THAT'S INTERESTING. 33 00:01:57,951 --> 00:01:59,420 I'M GOING OUT WITH FRIENDS. 34 00:01:59,520 --> 00:02:02,990 LET ME GUESS, BUNCH OF SHRINKS? 35 00:02:03,090 --> 00:02:05,293 ( laughs ) YES AND I'M GONNA TELL THEM 36 00:02:05,393 --> 00:02:07,461 THAT YOU BROUGHT ME TWO BAGS OF FISH HEADS. 37 00:02:07,561 --> 00:02:11,199 - ( laughs ) - YES, MOST OF THEM ARE SHRINKS. 38 00:02:11,299 --> 00:02:13,767 AND THE NON-SHRINKS WILL THINK 39 00:02:13,867 --> 00:02:15,936 YOU'RE ANALYZING THEM, WHICH, OF COURSE, YOU WILL BE. 40 00:02:16,036 --> 00:02:19,072 MMM. 41 00:02:19,173 --> 00:02:22,843 DO YOU KNOW WHO'S BEEN ON MY MIND LATELY? 42 00:02:24,178 --> 00:02:27,415 - DORIS. - FROM THE INSTITUTE? 43 00:02:27,515 --> 00:02:29,483 - ARE YOU IN TOUCH? - WELL, SORT OF. 44 00:02:29,583 --> 00:02:32,786 SHE'S JUST GOTTEN DIVORCED AGAIN. 45 00:02:32,886 --> 00:02:36,590 SHE LEFT THIS DENTIST WHO WAS A CHRONIC CHEAT 46 00:02:36,690 --> 00:02:40,160 AND NOW SHE'S WITH THIS WHINY, SOURPUSS DOCTOR. 47 00:02:40,261 --> 00:02:42,630 SUCH AN OBVIOUS REACTION. YOU'D THINK AS A SHRINK, 48 00:02:42,730 --> 00:02:44,632 YOU KNOW, YOU'D BE ABLE TO AVOID THAT KIND OF THING. 49 00:02:44,732 --> 00:02:47,568 EASIER TO SEE PATTERNS WHEN THEY'RE NOT OURS. 50 00:02:47,668 --> 00:02:49,937 OR WE SEE THEM BUT WE CAN'T AVOID THEM. 51 00:02:50,037 --> 00:02:51,705 THAT'S WORSE. 52 00:02:54,174 --> 00:02:57,745 YOU KNOW, DORIS HAD A-- 53 00:02:57,845 --> 00:03:00,848 SHE HAD A BIT OF A THING FOR ME BACK IN THE DAY. 54 00:03:00,948 --> 00:03:02,616 - DID SHE? - YEAH. 55 00:03:02,716 --> 00:03:05,886 SHE USED TO SAY SHE WAS CRAZY ABOUT ME. 56 00:03:05,986 --> 00:03:08,422 BUT I NEVER SLEPT WITH HER. I ALWAYS HAD THIS FEELING THAT IF I DID, 57 00:03:08,522 --> 00:03:11,825 SHE'D SOMEHOW, I DON'T KNOW, 58 00:03:11,925 --> 00:03:13,561 USE IT AGAINST ME 59 00:03:13,661 --> 00:03:15,996 OR SAY I WAS USING HER OR SOMETHING. 60 00:03:16,096 --> 00:03:17,965 SHE WAS LIKE THAT. EXTREMES. 61 00:03:18,065 --> 00:03:19,300 BUT HOT. 62 00:03:19,400 --> 00:03:23,203 NOT SUCH USEFUL QUALITIES FOR A THERAPIST. 63 00:03:23,304 --> 00:03:25,306 YOU DON'T THINK ANYBODY'S A GOOD THERAPIST. 64 00:03:26,307 --> 00:03:29,076 I'M NO GOOD EITHER, REMEMBER? 65 00:03:29,176 --> 00:03:32,380 ISN'T THAT HOW WE LEFT OFF? 66 00:03:32,480 --> 00:03:34,815 SHOULD WE TALK ABOUT OUR LAST SESSION? 67 00:03:34,915 --> 00:03:36,850 SHOULD WE? I DON'T KNOW. 68 00:03:36,950 --> 00:03:39,353 I WILL SAY THAT IT'S NOT THE FIRST TIME I'VE LEFT HERE 69 00:03:39,453 --> 00:03:40,988 DISAPPOINTED OR ANGRY. 70 00:03:41,088 --> 00:03:42,790 IF I WAS YOU, I'D LOOK INTO THAT. 71 00:03:45,393 --> 00:03:47,628 OF COURSE, I'M ANGRY AT EVERYTHING THESE DAYS. 72 00:03:47,728 --> 00:03:51,432 MORE OR LESS ALL THE TIME. THIS WEEK WAS PARTICULARLY... 73 00:03:53,200 --> 00:03:55,936 - WHAT? - THE GIRL GYMNAST... 74 00:03:57,305 --> 00:03:58,472 TOOK A BUNCH OF PILLS 75 00:03:58,572 --> 00:04:01,542 AND COLLAPSED IN MY OFFICE. 76 00:04:01,642 --> 00:04:04,512 - PILLS TO GET HIGH? - NO, SLEEPING PILLS. 77 00:04:04,612 --> 00:04:07,381 TRIED TO DO HERSELF IN. ATTEMPTED SUICIDE. 78 00:04:07,481 --> 00:04:10,784 - OH GOD, PAUL. - WELL, SORT OF. 79 00:04:10,884 --> 00:04:12,786 CHOOSING MY OFFICE... 80 00:04:12,886 --> 00:04:16,223 THERE ARE MORE EFFICIENT PLACES TO KILL YOURSELF, I MUST SAY. 81 00:04:16,324 --> 00:04:18,859 BUT SHE WAS ACTING OUT AND... 82 00:04:18,959 --> 00:04:21,228 GOT TO SAY IT RATTLED ME. 83 00:04:21,329 --> 00:04:23,130 SHE TOOK THE PILLS BEFORE THE SESSION? 84 00:04:23,230 --> 00:04:25,766 I HAD THEM, REALLY STUPIDLY-- 85 00:04:25,866 --> 00:04:28,101 I NEVER HAVE PILLS IN MY BATHROOM. 86 00:04:28,201 --> 00:04:31,672 BUT I'M SLEEPING ON THE COUCH SO I'D BROUGHT SOME STUFF DOWN. 87 00:04:32,906 --> 00:04:35,576 SHE MANAGED TO GET DOWN MOST OF THE BOTTLE. 88 00:04:35,676 --> 00:04:37,778 IS SHE OKAY? 89 00:04:37,878 --> 00:04:39,347 SHE IS. 90 00:04:39,447 --> 00:04:42,616 I CALLED THE PSYCHIATRIST WHO'S A FRIEND OF MINE 91 00:04:42,716 --> 00:04:46,487 AND I ASKED HIM NOT TO HAVE HER COMMITTED. 92 00:04:48,155 --> 00:04:50,090 DO YOU FEEL PRETTY SURE SHE'S SAFE? 93 00:04:50,190 --> 00:04:51,959 MM-HMM. 94 00:04:52,059 --> 00:04:53,461 I THINK SHE WOULD'VE BEEN CRUSHED 95 00:04:53,561 --> 00:04:55,729 IF SHE THOUGHT THAT I'D ABANDONED HER-- 96 00:04:55,829 --> 00:04:59,367 YOU KNOW, THE PARENTAL FIGURE PASSING HER ON TO SOMEBODY ELSE. 97 00:04:59,467 --> 00:05:01,635 I HAVE A FEELING THAT'S WHY SHE TOOK THE PILLS 98 00:05:01,735 --> 00:05:03,937 IN THE FIRST PLACE, TO KIND OF TEST 99 00:05:04,037 --> 00:05:07,675 MY COMMITMENT TO HER. 100 00:05:08,542 --> 00:05:10,143 ARE YOU FEELING GUILTY? 101 00:05:10,243 --> 00:05:14,715 NO, BUT I DO REGRET THOSE PILLS. 102 00:05:14,815 --> 00:05:16,717 WELL, THERE'S ALWAYS A WAY TO KILL YOURSELF. 103 00:05:16,817 --> 00:05:20,554 TRUE. NO, I DON'T FEEL RESPONSIBLE. 104 00:05:20,654 --> 00:05:22,690 THE STRANGE THING IS WE HAD BEEN 105 00:05:22,790 --> 00:05:24,658 MAKING A LOT OF PROGRESS LATELY. 106 00:05:24,758 --> 00:05:27,595 SHE TOLD ME THAT SHE'D HAD SEX WITH THIS BOY 107 00:05:27,695 --> 00:05:31,098 AND HE TOLD HER THAT SHE FUCKED LIKE SOMEBODY 108 00:05:31,198 --> 00:05:32,366 WHO'D BEEN ABUSED. 109 00:05:32,466 --> 00:05:35,302 AMAZINGLY INSENSITIVE DUMB KID 110 00:05:35,403 --> 00:05:36,804 TRYING TO COVER HIS OWN INSECURITY, 111 00:05:36,904 --> 00:05:40,240 BUT, CHRIST, IT MADE ME SO ANGRY. 112 00:05:40,340 --> 00:05:42,710 NORMALLY, I NEVER SAY ANYTHING. 113 00:05:42,810 --> 00:05:45,746 - BUT YOU DID? - I DID. I CALLED HIM AN IDIOT. 114 00:05:45,846 --> 00:05:46,947 HOW DID SHE REACT? 115 00:05:47,047 --> 00:05:49,817 IF SHE HEARD, SHE DIDN'T ACKNOWLEDGE IT. 116 00:05:52,586 --> 00:05:54,422 BUT A MOMENT LATER SHE HAD THIS... 117 00:05:54,522 --> 00:05:56,624 MAJOR BREAKTHROUGH. 118 00:05:56,724 --> 00:05:59,727 SHE STARTED TO REMEMBER DETAILS OF THE ACCIDENT. 119 00:05:59,827 --> 00:06:02,730 I MEAN, IT WAS A CRUCIAL THERAPEUTIC BREAKTHROUGH. 120 00:06:02,830 --> 00:06:05,566 I FELT WE WERE REALLY GETTING SOMEWHERE. 121 00:06:05,666 --> 00:06:09,770 THEN SHE JUST UPPED AND WENT TO THE BATHROOM. 122 00:06:14,274 --> 00:06:17,177 YOU THINK YOU'RE MORE EFFECTIVE WHEN YOU'RE INVOLVED? 123 00:06:17,277 --> 00:06:19,079 WHEN YOU SHOW A PATIENT YOUR FEELINGS? 124 00:06:19,179 --> 00:06:20,981 MAYBE, I DON'T KNOW. 125 00:06:21,081 --> 00:06:23,817 BUT THAT'S NOT WHAT I'M REALLY SAYING HERE, GINA. 126 00:06:23,917 --> 00:06:25,753 NO? 127 00:06:25,853 --> 00:06:28,088 WOULD YOU STOP DRAWING CONCLUSIONS, GINA? 128 00:06:28,188 --> 00:06:30,023 I'M JUST TELLING YOU ABOUT MY WEEK. 129 00:06:32,426 --> 00:06:35,529 LET'S SEE, UM, IN OTHER NEWS, UH... 130 00:06:35,629 --> 00:06:39,767 KATE TOOK HER AFFAIR TO ROME THIS WEEK. 131 00:06:42,503 --> 00:06:44,572 WHEN SOPHIE COLLAPSED IN MY OFFICE 132 00:06:44,672 --> 00:06:46,574 I YELLED OUT FOR KATE, 133 00:06:46,674 --> 00:06:50,110 THEN REALIZED I WAS ALONE IN THE HOUSE. 134 00:06:50,210 --> 00:06:52,079 I WAS THE ONLY ONE THERE. 135 00:06:53,346 --> 00:06:56,383 DID YOU AND KATE DISCUSS ANYTHING? 136 00:06:56,484 --> 00:06:58,452 SHE DIDN'T TRY TO GET ME TO STOP HER. 137 00:07:01,288 --> 00:07:02,490 SHE JUST MADE A CALL TO WORK 138 00:07:02,590 --> 00:07:06,059 AND PACKED HER BAG AND OFF SHE WENT. 139 00:07:06,159 --> 00:07:07,461 YOU WEREN'T SURPRISED? 140 00:07:07,561 --> 00:07:09,463 NOT REALLY. 141 00:07:09,563 --> 00:07:12,700 THAT'S THE WAY KATE HAS ALWAYS BEEN. 142 00:07:12,800 --> 00:07:15,368 I MEAN THAT WAS ONE OF THE THINGS I FELL IN LOVE WITH-- 143 00:07:15,469 --> 00:07:18,071 THE FACT THAT SHE JUST MADE UP HER MIND 144 00:07:18,171 --> 00:07:21,141 AND JUST DID WHATEVER 145 00:07:21,241 --> 00:07:23,811 SHE WAS DETERMINED TO DO. 146 00:07:25,412 --> 00:07:28,649 SO UNLIKE MY MOTHER, YOU KNOW? 147 00:07:28,749 --> 00:07:30,651 I THINK ONE OF THE REASONS I MARRIED KATE 148 00:07:30,751 --> 00:07:32,352 WAS TO GET BACK AT MY MOTHER, 149 00:07:32,452 --> 00:07:33,754 BECAUSE IT WAS SOME KIND OF STRIKE 150 00:07:33,854 --> 00:07:36,056 AGAINST THAT WHOLE NOTION OF... 151 00:07:36,156 --> 00:07:38,692 I DON'T KNOW, VICTIMHOOD. 152 00:07:39,727 --> 00:07:40,894 ONE THING YOU CAN SAY ABOUT KATE 153 00:07:40,994 --> 00:07:43,564 IS SHE NEVER PLAYED THE VICTIM. 154 00:07:43,664 --> 00:07:45,599 SHE MAKES UP HER MIND TO GO TO ROME, 155 00:07:45,699 --> 00:07:47,568 SHE GOES TO ROME. 156 00:07:52,339 --> 00:07:55,208 IT'S BEEN 18 YEARS SINCE I'VE BEEN ALONE IN THAT HOUSE. 157 00:07:55,308 --> 00:07:57,410 ROSIE'S AWAY FOR THE WEEKEND 158 00:07:57,511 --> 00:08:01,214 AND MAX IS WITH KATE'S MOM. 159 00:08:03,517 --> 00:08:06,153 I'VE GOT THE WHOLE HOUSE TO MYSELF. 160 00:08:06,253 --> 00:08:08,421 HOW IS THAT? 161 00:08:08,522 --> 00:08:12,159 WEIRD. 162 00:08:12,259 --> 00:08:15,162 ANYWAY, I'M HOPING WITH, UH-- 163 00:08:15,262 --> 00:08:18,465 WITH MY FISH CHOWDER AND A BOTTLE OF GOOD WINE, I'LL GET LUCKY. 164 00:08:18,566 --> 00:08:20,701 RIGHT. 165 00:08:20,801 --> 00:08:22,035 YOU THINK I'M JOKING 166 00:08:22,135 --> 00:08:24,404 BUT I DO MAKE A MEAN CHOWDER, I HAVE TO SAY. 167 00:08:24,504 --> 00:08:26,540 - ( laughs ) - I START WITH THE BROTH 168 00:08:26,640 --> 00:08:28,642 THEN THE VEGETABLES AND THE FILLETS. 169 00:08:28,742 --> 00:08:30,644 I STEAM THE LEEKS AND THE CARROTS, 170 00:08:30,744 --> 00:08:32,713 A FEW OTHER THINGS. 171 00:08:32,813 --> 00:08:35,415 MIX THEM ALL TOGETHER, LEAVE IT FOR ABOUT 20 MINUTES-- 172 00:08:35,515 --> 00:08:38,385 DELICIOUS. 173 00:08:38,485 --> 00:08:41,755 THE SMELL ALWAYS MADE KATE SICK. 174 00:08:41,855 --> 00:08:44,257 SHE COULD NEVER STAND IT. 175 00:08:44,357 --> 00:08:46,293 I HAVE TO SAY I LOVE IT. 176 00:08:46,393 --> 00:08:47,961 DO YOU LIKE CHOWDER? 177 00:08:48,061 --> 00:08:49,429 I DO. 178 00:08:49,529 --> 00:08:51,398 WELL, MAYBE I'LL HAVE A LITTLE PARTY, 179 00:08:51,498 --> 00:08:53,567 INVITE A COUPLE OF PEOPLE OVER. 180 00:08:53,667 --> 00:08:56,904 I COULD INVITE, UH-- I COULD INVITE DORIS. 181 00:08:58,005 --> 00:09:01,074 HOW LONG IS IT SINCE YOU'VE SEEN HER? 182 00:09:01,174 --> 00:09:02,976 OH, UH... 183 00:09:04,177 --> 00:09:06,113 THE CAREFREE DAYS OF THE INSTITUTE. 184 00:09:06,213 --> 00:09:07,380 THE GOOD OLD DAYS. 185 00:09:07,480 --> 00:09:09,950 WOULD YOU INVITE HER HUSBAND? 186 00:09:10,050 --> 00:09:11,184 ARE YOU KIDDING? 187 00:09:11,284 --> 00:09:13,253 IT'LL SAY IN THE INVITE, 188 00:09:13,353 --> 00:09:15,288 "NO SOURPUSSES, PLEASE." 189 00:09:15,388 --> 00:09:17,257 JUST DORIS MESSLER AND YOU. 190 00:09:17,357 --> 00:09:18,859 AND YOU. 191 00:09:18,959 --> 00:09:21,061 - I'M INVITED? - MM-HMM. 192 00:09:21,161 --> 00:09:22,562 YOU CAN WEAR THAT DRESS IF YOU WANT. 193 00:09:22,663 --> 00:09:24,497 OH, WELL, THANK YOU, 194 00:09:24,598 --> 00:09:25,966 BUT I THINK I'D JUST BE IN THE WAY. 195 00:09:26,066 --> 00:09:28,235 NO, YOU WOULDN'T. YOU'RE MY COVER. 196 00:09:28,335 --> 00:09:31,404 THAT'S THE WHOLE POINT. I'LL TELL HER YOU'RE COMING, 197 00:09:31,504 --> 00:09:33,006 HOW GREAT IT WOULD BE IF SHE CAME TOO. 198 00:09:33,106 --> 00:09:36,143 IT WOULD BE LIKE AN INSTITUTE REUNION. 199 00:09:36,243 --> 00:09:37,678 ( laughs ) 200 00:09:37,778 --> 00:09:40,580 AND THEN I LEAVE AND YOU'RE ALONE WITH HER. 201 00:09:40,681 --> 00:09:43,116 PERFECT. IT'S A PERFECT PLAN. CAN'T FAIL. 202 00:09:44,484 --> 00:09:46,787 YOU'RE IN A CHIPPER MOOD, CONSIDERING. 203 00:09:48,188 --> 00:09:49,990 GUESS I AM. 204 00:09:50,090 --> 00:09:52,425 - IT'S NICE FOR A CHANGE. - MMM. 205 00:09:52,525 --> 00:09:54,161 I MISS THIS SIDE OF YOU. 206 00:09:54,261 --> 00:09:57,831 I GUESS IT'S 'CAUSE THIS SHITTY WEEK IS FINALLY OVER. 207 00:09:57,931 --> 00:10:00,200 YOU'RE ALSO SHOWING ME SOMETHING. 208 00:10:00,300 --> 00:10:02,302 WHAT AM I SHOWING YOU? 209 00:10:03,536 --> 00:10:06,840 HOW IT FEELS TO BE WITH LAURA. 210 00:10:08,175 --> 00:10:09,442 HOW A THERAPIST FEELS 211 00:10:09,542 --> 00:10:12,780 WHEN A PATIENT IS FLIRTING. 212 00:10:14,514 --> 00:10:16,283 YOU THINK I'M FLIRTING WITH YOU? 213 00:10:16,383 --> 00:10:17,751 WELL, NO. 214 00:10:17,851 --> 00:10:19,753 THAT'S THE WRONG WORD. 215 00:10:19,853 --> 00:10:21,789 IT'S NOT FLIRTING, IT'S-- 216 00:10:21,889 --> 00:10:24,892 I'M YOUR COVER BUT-- 217 00:10:24,992 --> 00:10:28,495 YOU'RE INVITING ME TO A PARTY 218 00:10:28,595 --> 00:10:30,530 AND YOU'RE TELLING ME WHICH DRESS TO WEAR 219 00:10:30,630 --> 00:10:32,499 AND YOU'RE INVITING ME INTO YOUR LIFE. 220 00:10:32,599 --> 00:10:35,235 AND IT MAYBE IS A TASTE OF... 221 00:10:35,335 --> 00:10:37,771 OF WHAT IT'S LIKE WITH LAURA. 222 00:10:37,871 --> 00:10:40,373 YOU KNOW, SHE DRAWS YOU IN. 223 00:10:42,575 --> 00:10:44,745 IT MUST BE FLATTERING. 224 00:10:46,179 --> 00:10:49,616 YEAH, YEAH IT IS. 225 00:10:49,717 --> 00:10:52,853 I GOTTA TELL YOU, SHE'S ONE HELL OF A STORYTELLER. 226 00:10:53,887 --> 00:10:55,422 MAN, CAN SHE WEAVE A TALE. 227 00:10:55,522 --> 00:10:57,657 ( laughs ) 228 00:10:59,626 --> 00:11:02,996 SHE GOES INTO EXPLICIT, VIVID DETAIL. 229 00:11:04,631 --> 00:11:07,667 SHE SPENT ABOUT A HALF AN HOUR TELLING ME ABOUT THE, UM-- 230 00:11:09,669 --> 00:11:12,005 ABOUT THE SEX THAT SHE HAD WITH ALEX-- 231 00:11:12,105 --> 00:11:15,042 WHAT SHE LIKED, WHAT SHE DIDN'T LIKE, 232 00:11:15,142 --> 00:11:18,178 WHAT HE LIKED, WHAT SHE DID, 233 00:11:18,278 --> 00:11:21,381 WHAT HE DID, ET CETERA, ET CETERA. 234 00:11:22,315 --> 00:11:24,684 PRETTY VIVID. 235 00:11:24,785 --> 00:11:27,120 A MAN WOULD HAVE TO BE MADE OF ROCK 236 00:11:27,220 --> 00:11:30,223 NOT TO REACT, 237 00:11:30,323 --> 00:11:32,459 NOT TO FEEL A LITTLE... 238 00:11:32,559 --> 00:11:33,927 A LITTLE WHAT? 239 00:11:34,027 --> 00:11:36,529 JEALOUS. 240 00:11:36,629 --> 00:11:39,166 YEAH. 241 00:11:39,266 --> 00:11:40,700 OF COURSE, THAT'S WHAT SHE WANTED. 242 00:11:40,801 --> 00:11:43,236 WAS IT? 243 00:11:45,038 --> 00:11:46,573 I KNOW YOU THINK IT'S A PROBLEM 244 00:11:46,673 --> 00:11:48,708 THAT I HAVE THIS JEALOUSY 245 00:11:48,809 --> 00:11:50,277 OVER LAURA'S AFFAIR WITH ALEX. 246 00:11:50,377 --> 00:11:52,379 NO, NOT NECESSARILY. 247 00:11:52,479 --> 00:11:53,981 JEALOUSY IS NOT ON YOUR LIST 248 00:11:54,081 --> 00:11:56,216 OF REACTIONS A THERAPIST SHOULD HAVE. 249 00:11:56,316 --> 00:11:58,551 OR IS IT A LIST OF NO-NO FEELINGS? 250 00:11:58,651 --> 00:12:00,821 IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT FROM ME, A LIST? 251 00:12:00,921 --> 00:12:02,189 WOULD THAT MAKE IT EASIER? 252 00:12:02,289 --> 00:12:04,191 I DOUBT IT. 253 00:12:04,291 --> 00:12:06,126 YOU KEEP PUTTING WORDS IN MY MOUTH. 254 00:12:06,226 --> 00:12:07,961 MAYBE YOU WANT ME TO BE UNREASONABLE 255 00:12:08,061 --> 00:12:10,798 SO YOU HAVE SOMETHING TO PUSH AGAINST. 256 00:12:10,898 --> 00:12:14,201 THIS TOPIC-- THIS TOPIC ALWAYS BRINGS US BACK 257 00:12:14,301 --> 00:12:16,937 - ONTO SHAKY GROUND, DOESN'T IT? - WHAT TOPIC? 258 00:12:17,037 --> 00:12:19,472 THE BOUNDARIES BETWEEN THERAPIST AND PATIENT. 259 00:12:19,572 --> 00:12:22,175 TEACHERS MARRY STUDENTS. THERE'S NO BIG DEAL ABOUT IT. 260 00:12:22,275 --> 00:12:24,945 WHAT'S THE-- I MEAN, IS IT REALLY WRONG? 261 00:12:25,045 --> 00:12:28,115 IT'S DIFFERENT, PAUL. 262 00:12:29,316 --> 00:12:31,785 I REMEMBER CHARLIE, 263 00:12:31,885 --> 00:12:34,687 YOUR PATIENT. 264 00:12:34,788 --> 00:12:36,523 HE USED TO CALL ME AFTER SESSIONS 265 00:12:36,623 --> 00:12:39,659 AND HE'D SAY, "THIS NO-SEX- WITH-THE-THERAPIST THING, 266 00:12:39,759 --> 00:12:41,194 IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY. 267 00:12:41,294 --> 00:12:43,831 IS IT FOR REAL? THERE'S GOT TO BE A LOOPHOLE. 268 00:12:43,931 --> 00:12:46,066 AM I NEVER GOING TO GET TO SLEEP WITH GINA?" 269 00:12:48,268 --> 00:12:50,537 OKAY, LET'S STAY I STOP LAURA'S THERAPY. 270 00:12:50,637 --> 00:12:52,272 LET'S SAY I SEND HER TO SOMEBODY ELSE 271 00:12:52,372 --> 00:12:53,841 AS YOU WANT ME TO DO. 272 00:12:53,941 --> 00:12:57,210 SURELY, IN SIX MONTHS TIME I CAN CALL HER UP AND SAY-- 273 00:12:57,310 --> 00:12:58,778 NO, NO YOU CAN'T. 274 00:12:58,879 --> 00:13:01,614 THEN A YEAR, 18 MONTHS, WHEN IT'S COOLED OFF. 275 00:13:01,714 --> 00:13:03,483 NO, PAUL, NO. THERE'S NO COOLING-OFF PERIOD. 276 00:13:03,583 --> 00:13:06,186 IT'S NOT ABOUT COOLING OFF. 277 00:13:06,286 --> 00:13:08,388 IT DOESN'T CHANGE THE DYNAMIC. 278 00:13:08,488 --> 00:13:12,025 IN SIX MONTHS OR 10 YEARS, SHE'LL STILL BE A PATIENT. 279 00:13:12,125 --> 00:13:15,462 BUT THAT'S JUST SOME BULLSHIT SOME LAWYER CAME UP WITH. 280 00:13:15,562 --> 00:13:17,130 NO, IT'S NOT A LAW. 281 00:13:17,230 --> 00:13:18,899 IT'S BEYOND A CODE OF ETHICS. 282 00:13:18,999 --> 00:13:20,667 IT'S ESSENTIAL. 283 00:13:20,767 --> 00:13:23,871 IT'S SOMETHING YOU CARRY INSIDE YOU. 284 00:13:23,971 --> 00:13:27,207 CAN'T YOU SEE THAT? 285 00:13:27,307 --> 00:13:30,110 SO WHAT YOU'RE SAYING IS THAT THERE IS NO CONCEIVABLE 286 00:13:30,210 --> 00:13:31,711 SET OF CIRCUMSTANCES IN WHICH-- 287 00:13:31,811 --> 00:13:33,246 NONE. 288 00:13:33,346 --> 00:13:35,182 CHRIST, YOU'RE SO FUCKING FUNDAMENTALIST. 289 00:13:35,282 --> 00:13:36,984 YOU KNOW, THERE'S A LOT OF PEOPLE 290 00:13:37,084 --> 00:13:38,551 WHO WOULD DISAGREE WITH THIS. 291 00:13:38,651 --> 00:13:40,587 THEN GO TO THEM. 292 00:13:48,461 --> 00:13:51,131 SHE'S 30 YEARS OLD. 293 00:13:51,231 --> 00:13:53,901 SHE'S SEDUCTIVE, DEPENDENT, HYSTERICAL. 294 00:13:54,001 --> 00:13:56,937 SHE IDOLIZES YOU. IT'S CLASSIC, RIGHT? 295 00:13:57,037 --> 00:13:58,972 IT'S TEXTBOOK. 296 00:13:59,072 --> 00:14:01,308 HERE'S A GIRL WITH DAMAGED SELF-ESTEEM-- 297 00:14:01,408 --> 00:14:04,244 EXCUSE ME, HOW DO YOU KNOW SHE'S DAMAGED? 298 00:14:04,344 --> 00:14:07,915 YOU'VE TOLD ME ABOUT HER AFFAIR WITH YOUR OTHER PATIENT, 299 00:14:08,015 --> 00:14:09,749 HER TRYING TO MAKE YOU JEALOUS, 300 00:14:09,849 --> 00:14:13,153 HER DESCRIBING THE SEX, 301 00:14:13,253 --> 00:14:15,923 HOW SHE'S TRIED TO ENTER YOUR HOUSE, 302 00:14:16,023 --> 00:14:19,459 HOW SHE'S PLAYED ALL OF THESE GAMES 303 00:14:19,559 --> 00:14:22,229 TO TRY TO GET AN OEDIPAL REACTION FROM YOU. 304 00:14:22,329 --> 00:14:24,531 IF YOU FALL FOR THESE ADVANCES, 305 00:14:24,631 --> 00:14:25,966 SHE WON'T BE GRATEFUL. 306 00:14:26,066 --> 00:14:28,368 SHE'LL BE SHOCKED, RIGHTLY SO. 307 00:14:30,637 --> 00:14:32,372 AND SHE'LL LEAVE YOU. 308 00:14:34,741 --> 00:14:36,509 ALL OF WHICH YOU KNOW, 309 00:14:36,609 --> 00:14:39,146 BUT YOU'RE IGNORING IT. 310 00:14:40,680 --> 00:14:42,482 YOU WANT TO BE DESIRED. 311 00:14:43,951 --> 00:14:45,552 WE ALL DO. 312 00:14:47,988 --> 00:14:50,958 BUT YOU NEED TO REMEMBER WHY LAURA CAME TO YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE. 313 00:14:51,058 --> 00:14:54,561 SO YOU'RE TELLING ME NOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH MY PATIENT? 314 00:14:54,661 --> 00:14:57,530 ANOTHER DISSERTATION ON WHAT A LOUSY THERAPIST I AM? 315 00:14:57,630 --> 00:15:00,300 I HAVE NEVER, EVER SAID ANYTHING LIKE THAT. 316 00:15:00,400 --> 00:15:01,935 - EXCUSE ME, YOU HAVEN'T? - NEVER. 317 00:15:02,035 --> 00:15:03,836 WHAT ABOUT THAT FAMOUS LETTER YOU WROTE? 318 00:15:03,937 --> 00:15:05,505 OH, PAUL. 319 00:15:05,605 --> 00:15:09,709 I CARRIED THAT LETTER IN MY POCKET FOR MONTHS. 320 00:15:09,809 --> 00:15:12,212 BUT I DO HAVE TO SAY THAT EVERYTHING I'VE ACCOMPLISHED 321 00:15:12,312 --> 00:15:14,214 AS A THERAPIST, I OWE TO THAT LETTER. 322 00:15:14,314 --> 00:15:15,848 SO, THANK YOU. 323 00:15:15,949 --> 00:15:18,918 YOU KNOW, WE'RE GETTING AWAY FROM LAURA AGAIN. 324 00:15:19,019 --> 00:15:21,654 I CAN QUOTE IT. "THE PATIENTS WERE 325 00:15:21,754 --> 00:15:24,357 CONSISTENTLY POSITIVE 326 00:15:24,457 --> 00:15:27,594 ABOUT THEIR SESSIONS WITH PAUL. 327 00:15:27,694 --> 00:15:30,163 HOWEVER, IT BECAME CLEAR THAT PAUL WAS PLAYING 328 00:15:30,263 --> 00:15:31,864 TO THEIR EXPECTATIONS. 329 00:15:31,965 --> 00:15:33,766 HIS APPROACH TO THERAPY IS COMPROMISED--" 330 00:15:33,866 --> 00:15:37,570 NO, ACTUALLY WHAT YOU WROTE WAS "SERIOUSLY COMPROMISED 331 00:15:37,670 --> 00:15:40,340 BY HIS DESIRE TO PLEASE." 332 00:15:40,440 --> 00:15:44,544 THAT TRANSLATES TO ME AS, "HE'S A SHITTY THERAPIST." 333 00:15:44,644 --> 00:15:47,447 I ALSO SAID THAT YOU WERE ONE OF THE MOST BRILLIANT-- 334 00:15:47,547 --> 00:15:49,382 I KNOW WHAT YOU SAID. YOU SAID ALL KINDS OF THINGS. 335 00:15:49,482 --> 00:15:51,251 YOU SAID THAT I WAS YOUR FAVORITE, 336 00:15:51,351 --> 00:15:53,020 THAT I WAS THE HEIR APPARENT. 337 00:15:53,120 --> 00:15:54,721 WHY DIDN'T YOU JUST TELL ME THAT I WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH? 338 00:15:54,821 --> 00:15:58,058 BECAUSE THAT'S NOT THE WAY I FELT. WHY WOULD I SAY THAT? 339 00:15:58,158 --> 00:15:59,492 THEN I COULD'VE GOTTEN ON WITH MY WORK 340 00:15:59,592 --> 00:16:02,129 INSTEAD OF DRAGGING OUT EIGHT YEARS OF PROMISES, 341 00:16:02,229 --> 00:16:05,765 OF DRUMROLL LEADING TO THE WORST HUMILIATION OF MY LIFE. 342 00:16:05,865 --> 00:16:08,901 YOU KNOW WALKER, EVEN JEFFRIES, 343 00:16:09,002 --> 00:16:11,271 THEY SAID THAT I WAS GUARANTEED 344 00:16:11,371 --> 00:16:13,073 TO BE THE HEAD OF THE INSTITUTE. 345 00:16:13,173 --> 00:16:15,608 ACROSS THE BOARD EVERYBODY AGREED WITH IT. 346 00:16:15,708 --> 00:16:17,277 EXCEPT YOU. 347 00:16:17,377 --> 00:16:19,046 I DIDN'T BELIEVE YOU WERE READY. 348 00:16:19,146 --> 00:16:20,413 CLEARLY, YOU DIDN'T. 349 00:16:20,513 --> 00:16:23,483 THE WAY YOU TOOK CRITIQUE, IT MADE YOU FURIOUS. 350 00:16:23,583 --> 00:16:26,686 YOU KNOW, IT WAS ONE PROFESSIONAL ASSESSMENT. 351 00:16:26,786 --> 00:16:28,388 AND YOU TOOK IT PERSONALLY. 352 00:16:28,488 --> 00:16:30,523 SO PERSONALLY, I HAD TO WONDER 353 00:16:30,623 --> 00:16:33,260 IF IT WASN'T AN ECHO OF AN EARLIER REJECTION. 354 00:16:33,360 --> 00:16:35,962 OH, PLEASE, GINA. NOT THIS AGAIN. 355 00:16:36,063 --> 00:16:38,065 I KNOW EXACTLY WHERE YOU'RE GOING WITH THIS. 356 00:16:38,165 --> 00:16:40,367 A SON WHO FEELS HE'S DISAPPOINTED HIS FATHER; 357 00:16:40,467 --> 00:16:43,002 A SON WHO FEELS HE HASN'T LIVED UP 358 00:16:43,103 --> 00:16:44,604 TO HIS FATHER'S EXPECTATIONS. 359 00:16:44,704 --> 00:16:47,340 IT'S SOMETHING YOU WOULD WANT TO ADDRESS. 360 00:16:47,440 --> 00:16:49,476 PLEASE DON'T MINIMIZE WHAT YOU SAID TO ME, GINA. 361 00:16:49,576 --> 00:16:52,279 I WASN'T REACTING TO SOMETHING IN MY PAST 362 00:16:52,379 --> 00:16:53,913 IN RELATION TO MY FATHER. 363 00:16:54,013 --> 00:16:57,550 ONE REVIEW DROVE YOU OUT OF THE INSTITUTE. 364 00:16:57,650 --> 00:17:01,688 THAT LETTER PISSED ON EIGHT YEARS OF MY WORK. 365 00:17:05,725 --> 00:17:09,329 DESPITE IT, THOUGH, I BECAME AN EXCELLENT THERAPIST. 366 00:17:09,429 --> 00:17:12,232 AND SOME PEOPLE MIGHT SAY THAT... 367 00:17:12,332 --> 00:17:14,701 I BECAME A BETTER THERAPIST THAN YOU. 368 00:17:16,236 --> 00:17:17,537 MAYBE YOU FEEL THAT. 369 00:17:17,637 --> 00:17:20,407 MAYBE THAT'S WHAT THIS IS REALLY ABOUT, GINA. 370 00:17:23,143 --> 00:17:25,378 SO LET ME ASK YOU AGAIN: 371 00:17:25,478 --> 00:17:29,682 WHY DID YOU COME TO ME SPECIFICALLY? 372 00:17:32,352 --> 00:17:36,055 I SUPPOSE BECAUSE I NEEDED TO, 373 00:17:36,156 --> 00:17:38,958 I DON'T KNOW, TEST MYSELF. 374 00:17:39,058 --> 00:17:40,627 I MEAN, I ALREADY KNEW BEFORE I CAME HERE 375 00:17:40,727 --> 00:17:43,630 WHAT YOU WERE GONNA SAY ABOUT ME AND LAURA AND KATE. 376 00:17:43,730 --> 00:17:45,064 BUT I THOUGHT TO MYSELF, 377 00:17:45,165 --> 00:17:47,800 YOU KNOW, IF I CAN WITHSTAND YOUR... 378 00:17:47,900 --> 00:17:49,269 CORROSIVE ATTACKS, 379 00:17:49,369 --> 00:17:52,805 YOUR PARTICULAR BRAND OF ANALYTICAL CASTRATION-- 380 00:17:52,905 --> 00:17:55,775 THAT SOUNDS HORRIBLE. WHY PUT YOURSELF THROUGH THAT? 381 00:17:57,710 --> 00:17:59,779 SO THAT I CAN... 382 00:18:03,116 --> 00:18:05,051 TRUST MYSELF, I SUPPOSE. 383 00:18:05,152 --> 00:18:07,420 TRUST YOURSELF? 384 00:18:07,520 --> 00:18:09,489 WITH WHAT? 385 00:18:13,826 --> 00:18:15,895 YOU KNOW... 386 00:18:15,995 --> 00:18:17,897 YOU SAID THAT YOU WERE WRITING A NOVEL. 387 00:18:17,997 --> 00:18:19,532 YOU KNOW... 388 00:18:19,632 --> 00:18:21,568 I FOUND THAT KIND OF AMUSING, TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH. 389 00:18:21,668 --> 00:18:25,305 BECAUSE A NOVEL IS ABOUT COMPLEXITY. 390 00:18:25,405 --> 00:18:29,008 IT'S ABOUT CONTRADICTIONS, FOIBLES, HUMAN FOLLY. 391 00:18:29,108 --> 00:18:30,610 NOT ABSOLUTES. 392 00:18:30,710 --> 00:18:33,380 FOR YOU, COMPLEXITY IS A PROBLEM, 393 00:18:33,480 --> 00:18:36,416 SOME KIND OF PATHOLOGY THAT NEEDS TO BE TREATED. 394 00:18:36,516 --> 00:18:38,251 AND YOU KNOW WHAT I FIND FUCKING OFFENSIVE, 395 00:18:38,351 --> 00:18:39,619 TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH, GINA? 396 00:18:39,719 --> 00:18:41,521 THAT YOU THINK I'M BLIND TO A SITUATION 397 00:18:41,621 --> 00:18:44,624 AS OBVIOUS AS EROTIC TRANSFERENCE. 398 00:18:49,796 --> 00:18:51,598 LET ME JUST TELL YOU THAT I TREAT LAURA 399 00:18:51,698 --> 00:18:54,667 WITH THE SAME INTEGRITY, THE SAME CONCERN, 400 00:18:54,767 --> 00:18:56,203 THE SAME RIGOR 401 00:18:56,303 --> 00:18:58,571 AS I TREAT ALL MY PATIENTS. 402 00:19:00,039 --> 00:19:02,475 I HAPPEN TO LIKE MY PATIENTS. 403 00:19:02,575 --> 00:19:04,444 THAT'S THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN YOU AND ME. 404 00:19:04,544 --> 00:19:07,547 I WORRY ABOUT THEM. I IDENTIFY WITH THEM. 405 00:19:07,647 --> 00:19:10,217 I PUT MYSELF OUT FOR THEM. YOU ANALYZE THEM. 406 00:19:12,419 --> 00:19:15,855 I ANALYZE TOO, BUT I EMPATHIZE. 407 00:19:19,326 --> 00:19:22,695 LET ME ASK YOU SOMETHING. I'M JUST CURIOUS ABOUT THIS. 408 00:19:25,998 --> 00:19:29,736 DO YOU MISS HAVING PATIENTS? 409 00:19:30,537 --> 00:19:32,205 WHY? 410 00:19:32,305 --> 00:19:34,641 I WAS NEVER REALLY 100% CONVINCED, 411 00:19:34,741 --> 00:19:37,877 TO BE HONEST, THAT YOU ACTUALLY LIKE THIS PROCESS, 412 00:19:37,977 --> 00:19:41,648 THE SITTING DOWN WITH A PATIENT. 413 00:19:42,949 --> 00:19:45,618 THAT'S BECAUSE IN YOUR OPINION I HAVE NO EMPATHY. 414 00:19:45,718 --> 00:19:48,588 AND SO HOW COULD I GET ANY SATISFACTION FROM IT? 415 00:19:48,688 --> 00:19:50,323 I'M NOT SAYING YOU DON'T GET SATISFACTION FROM IT 416 00:19:50,423 --> 00:19:53,226 IN THE SAME WAY THAT A SAIL-MAKER 417 00:19:53,326 --> 00:19:55,228 OR A CHEMIST GETS WHEN THEY 418 00:19:55,328 --> 00:19:57,564 PRACTICE THEIR CRAFT. 419 00:19:57,664 --> 00:19:59,299 BUT THAT THING THAT I'M TALKING ABOUT THAT EXISTS 420 00:19:59,399 --> 00:20:01,200 BETWEEN A DOCTOR AND A PATIENT-- 421 00:20:01,301 --> 00:20:03,936 THAT CONNECTION, THAT BUZZ... 422 00:20:06,606 --> 00:20:11,210 SEE, I CAN'T HELP BUT CONNECT WITH THE PERSON. 423 00:20:11,311 --> 00:20:14,314 THAT'S WHO I AM AS A THERAPIST. 424 00:20:14,414 --> 00:20:17,750 THAT'S MY-- THAT'S MY REWARD. 425 00:20:29,529 --> 00:20:32,031 A WHILE AGO, BEFORE-- 426 00:20:32,131 --> 00:20:34,667 I STARTED COMING HERE 427 00:20:34,767 --> 00:20:37,003 THERE WAS-- 428 00:20:37,103 --> 00:20:39,706 THERE WAS A SESSION THAT... 429 00:20:43,042 --> 00:20:45,378 LAURA CRIED. 430 00:20:46,713 --> 00:20:50,483 SHE'D NEVER ACTUALLY DONE THAT BEFORE. 431 00:20:52,352 --> 00:20:53,653 THAT'S A KIND OF A VICTORY, RIGHT? 432 00:20:53,753 --> 00:20:55,622 IT'S KIND OF A MILESTONE FOR A THERAPIST 433 00:20:55,722 --> 00:20:57,924 WHEN YOU GET THE PATIENT TO THAT POINT 434 00:20:58,024 --> 00:21:00,760 WHERE THEY CRY. 435 00:21:07,300 --> 00:21:09,602 IT WAS DIFFERENT WITH HER. THERE WAS SOMETHING SO-- 436 00:21:11,404 --> 00:21:13,306 SO MOVING ABOUT SEEING HER 437 00:21:13,406 --> 00:21:15,642 JUST BREAK DOWN LIKE THAT. 438 00:21:18,445 --> 00:21:21,348 IN THAT MOMENT, I SWEAR, 439 00:21:21,448 --> 00:21:24,283 I COULD'VE SAID, "FUCK IT ALL. 440 00:21:24,384 --> 00:21:27,019 I JUST WANT TO BE WITH HER." 441 00:21:27,119 --> 00:21:28,988 BUT I DIDN'T. 442 00:21:29,088 --> 00:21:30,323 I CAME TO YOU INSTEAD. 443 00:21:30,423 --> 00:21:32,258 I CAME SPECIALLY TO YOU. 444 00:21:32,359 --> 00:21:34,361 I CHOSE YOU 'CAUSE I THOUGHT TO MYSELF, 445 00:21:34,461 --> 00:21:38,197 "IF GINA CAN'T CONVINCE ME TO STAY AWAY, 446 00:21:38,297 --> 00:21:40,767 THEN HOW AM I GONNA CONVINCE MYSELF?" 447 00:21:46,906 --> 00:21:50,209 IT'S REALLY TOUGH WHEN I'M ALONE WITH HER, YOU KNOW? 448 00:21:50,309 --> 00:21:54,080 AND SHE'S ASKING ME, "PLEASE, JUST BE HONEST. 449 00:21:54,180 --> 00:21:57,817 PLEASE, TELL ME HOW YOU FEEL." 450 00:21:57,917 --> 00:22:01,187 AND I CAN'T. 451 00:22:01,287 --> 00:22:04,223 I GUESS THE REASON I'M HERE IS BECAUSE 452 00:22:04,323 --> 00:22:06,225 I REALLY WANT TO LOOK AT THIS. 453 00:22:06,325 --> 00:22:07,694 I WANT TO EXAMINE IT. 454 00:22:07,794 --> 00:22:10,663 I WANT TO BE ABSOLUTELY CLEAR ABOUT THIS. 455 00:22:11,998 --> 00:22:14,634 100% THAT IT'S NOT-- 456 00:22:18,237 --> 00:22:20,239 THAT I'M NOT-- 457 00:22:20,339 --> 00:22:23,776 THAT YOU'RE NOT WHAT? 458 00:22:28,347 --> 00:22:31,618 PAUL, YOU NEED TO SAY IT. 459 00:22:31,718 --> 00:22:33,920 YOU NEED TO FINISH THE THOUGHT. 460 00:22:35,287 --> 00:22:38,591 THAT WHAT I WANT... 461 00:22:38,691 --> 00:22:41,761 ISN'T, IN SOME WAY, IMMORAL... 462 00:22:43,496 --> 00:22:46,599 OR UNETHICAL. 463 00:22:48,200 --> 00:22:49,469 AND THAT IT'S NOT ABUSE, 464 00:22:49,569 --> 00:22:53,105 AN ABUSE OF MY POWER AS A DOCTOR 465 00:22:53,205 --> 00:22:54,674 WITH A PATIENT. 466 00:23:12,391 --> 00:23:15,628 I'M NOT PUSHING YOU OUT. 467 00:23:15,728 --> 00:23:18,865 I'M NOT RUNNING AWAY, NO MATTER WHAT YOU TELL ME. 468 00:23:18,965 --> 00:23:22,401 AT THE INSTITUTE, 469 00:23:22,502 --> 00:23:24,236 MAYBE THAT WAS HUBRIS ON MY PART. 470 00:23:24,336 --> 00:23:27,574 I DON'T KNOW, IT MIGHT HAVE BEEN. 471 00:23:27,674 --> 00:23:30,710 BUT I WON'T DO THAT NOW. I WON'T REJECT YOU. 472 00:23:30,810 --> 00:23:32,945 THAT DOESN'T MEAN I'M GONNA LET YOU DO SOMETHING 473 00:23:33,045 --> 00:23:35,347 THAT YOU'LL REGRET THE REST OF YOUR LIFE, 474 00:23:35,448 --> 00:23:38,284 NOT WITHOUT FIGHTING YOU EVERY STEP. 475 00:23:38,384 --> 00:23:40,352 IF IT'S SAFETY YOU NEED, 476 00:23:40,453 --> 00:23:42,689 THIS IS IT. 477 00:23:45,558 --> 00:23:48,327 WE'VE ALREADY CROSSED LINES OF CONDUCT IN THIS ROOM. 478 00:23:48,427 --> 00:23:50,262 I'M SAYING THAT BECAUSE I WANT YOU TO KNOW 479 00:23:50,362 --> 00:23:52,599 HOW FAR I'M WILLING TO GO. 480 00:23:52,699 --> 00:23:55,434 WHATEVER YOU TELL ME, 481 00:23:55,535 --> 00:23:59,038 I'M HERE FOR YOU. 482 00:23:59,138 --> 00:24:01,941 I WON'T ABANDON YOU. 483 00:24:02,041 --> 00:24:05,011 NO MATTER WHAT, 484 00:24:05,111 --> 00:24:06,779 I'M HERE. 485 00:24:12,184 --> 00:24:14,721 I LOVE HER. 486 00:24:18,324 --> 00:24:20,426 I LOVE LAURA. 487 00:24:20,527 --> 00:24:23,029 EVERY WORD OUT OF HER MOUTH, EVERY MOVE SHE MAKES, 488 00:24:23,129 --> 00:24:25,164 I JUST... 489 00:24:25,264 --> 00:24:27,099 I LOVE TALKING TO HER, YOU KNOW? 490 00:24:27,199 --> 00:24:28,668 JUST LISTENING TO HER. 491 00:24:32,371 --> 00:24:35,207 I KNOW IT'S A JOKE, CLICHE-- 492 00:24:35,307 --> 00:24:39,078 50-YEAR-OLD MARRIED MAN IN LOVE WITH A 30-YEAR-OLD. 493 00:24:39,178 --> 00:24:41,280 BUT I WANT TO BE WITH HER 494 00:24:41,380 --> 00:24:43,349 AND I DON'T CARE WHAT IT MEANS. 495 00:24:43,449 --> 00:24:46,085 AND I DON'T CARE WHAT IT COSTS. 496 00:24:46,185 --> 00:24:47,654 I DON'T CARE. 497 00:24:53,826 --> 00:24:56,095 ( sighs ) 498 00:24:59,098 --> 00:25:01,500 I LOVE HER. 499 00:25:18,751 --> 00:25:20,887 ( theme music playing )