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Male voice:
PREVIOUSLY ON
"IN TREATMENT"...

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I HEAR YOU, PAUL.
YOU WANT TO KICK ME
OUT OF THERAPY. I GET IT.

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NO, I DON'T WANT TO KICK
YOU OUT, ABSOLUTELY NOT.

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I THINK THAT YOU TOSSED
ME OUT A LONG TIME AGO.

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YOU DON'T WANT ME TO
TREAT YOU AS A PSYCHOLOGIST.

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YOU WANT ME TO TREAT YOU
AS SOMEBODY

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WHO'S IN LOVE WITH YOU.

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LET'S FACE IT-- I HAVE NOT
BEEN YOUR THERAPIST

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FOR A VERY LONG TIME, LAURA.

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MAYBE YOU CAN'T
TREAT ME BECAUSE YOU'RE
IN LOVE WITH ME TOO?

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WHERE YOU HEADED?

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YOU NEED A RIDE?

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LAURA.

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LET'S DO IT.

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PAUL?

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PAUL?

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( theme music playing )

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SORRY. UM, YOU SAID
THAT IT--

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THAT IT HAPPENED
IN THE KITCHEN?

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NO, IT STARTED
IN THE KITCHEN.

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ARE YOU
LISTENING TO ME?

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YES, YES, I AM.

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I SAID I WANTED
TO DO IT RIGHT THERE
ON THE COUNTER.

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SO WHEN HE PICKED ME UP,
I THOUGHT, "OKAY,"

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BUT NO, HE TOOK ME
INTO THE BEDROOM
AND HE...

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PUT ME DOWN EVER SO GENTLY
LIKE I WAS, I DON'T KNOW,

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A PORCELAIN VASE
OR SOMETHING.

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EVERYTHING WAS VERY
CAUTIOUS, HESITANT--

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LIKE HE DIDN'T
KNOW WHAT TO DO.

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MAYBE HE DIDN'T KNOW
WHAT TO DO WITH SOMEONE
WHO WASN'T HIS WIFE.

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YEAH, HE KEPT
TELLING ME

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HE HASN'T DONE IT
WITH ANYONE BUT HIS
WIFE FOR 10 YEARS,

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AND HARDLY THEN.

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IT WAS VERY SWEET,
ACTUALLY.

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HE IMITATED ME.

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HE DID EVERYTHING I DID.
I TOOK OFF HIS SHIRT,

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HE TOOK OFF MY SHIRT.

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I TOLD HIM HE HAS
A FANTASTIC BODY,

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BECAUSE HE DOES, AND
HE GOES, "SO DO YOU."

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AT ONE POINT,
HE STROKES MY HAIR

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AND HE ASKS ME WHAT KIND
OF SHAMPOO I USE.

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( laughs )
CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS?

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WE'RE LYING THERE,
FACE TO FACE,

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PETTING EACH OTHER
LIKE HIGH SCHOOL KIDS.

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ANYWAY, I GET
SICK OF IT,

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SO I SAY TO MYSELF,
"MAYBE HE'S WAITING
FOR A SIGNAL."

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YOU KNOW, MAYBE HE
WANTS ME TO LEAD.

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MAYBE IF I START
DOING SOMETHING, YOU KNOW,

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THINGS WILL FINALLY
GET MOVING.

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SO I WENT DOWN ON HIM.

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EVERYTHING
WAS SO PROPER.

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I DIDN'T WANT PROPER.
I JUST WANTED HIM TO FUCK,

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WITHOUT ALL THE BULLSHIT
ABOUT MY SHAMPOO AND
MY BEAUTIFUL BREASTS

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AND MY EXCELLENT TASTE
IN CURTAINS.

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SO DID THAT
MOVE THINGS ALONG?

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WHAT? THE BLOWJOB?

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MM-HMM..

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OF COURSE.

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BUT YOU KNOW WHAT?
HE DOESN'T LIKE SEX.

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YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
HE DOESN'T REALLY LIKE IT.

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IT'S LIKE HE'S CARRYING
OUT AN ASSIGNMENT,

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A MISSION,
LIKE A PILOT.

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WHAT DO YOU MEAN,
LIKE A-- LIKE A PILOT?

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YOU KNOW THOSE
AIR FORCE GUYS THAT
MARK TALLY POINTS

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ON THE WINGS
OF THEIR FIGHTER JET

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TO KEEP TRACK
OF HOW MANY PLANES
THEY'VE SHOT DOWN?

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IT WAS LIKE THAT,
LIKE HE WAS KEEPING SCORE.

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I MEAN, HE DIDN'T
EVEN TOUCH ME

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WHILE HE
WAS GOING AT IT.

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HE WAS JUST, YOU KNOW,
LEANING ON HIS ELBOWS

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AS IF HE DIDN'T WANT
ANY CONNECTION BETWEEN US...

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EXCEPT WHERE NECESSARY.

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AND I KEPT TRYING TO BRING
MY FACE CLOSER TO HIS

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TO KISS HIM
AND HE JUST...

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KEPT PULLING
HIS FACE AWAY...

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AS IF HE COULDN'T
STAND ME.

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AND THAT WAS IT.
IT WAS VERY FAST.

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TWO MINUTES, MORE OR LESS,
AND THEN HE CAME.

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AND THEN HE WENT STRAIGHT
TO THE BATHROOM AND I JUST
LAID THERE IN SHOCK.

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I MEAN, HE DIDN'T EVEN
ASK ME HOW IT WAS,

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IF I WAS OKAY OR NOT--
NOTHING.

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ANYWAY, I MADE
MYSELF COME.

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WHILE HE WAS
IN THE BATHROOM?

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NO, WHEN HE GOT BACK.

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I HAD TO.

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I MEAN, I HATE TO
BE LEFT HIGH AND DRY.

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HE WAS JUST LYING ON
HIS BACK, CONDUCTING
DIALOGUE WITH THE CEILING

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OR MAYBE WITH HIS WIFE,
OR MAYBE WITH YOU,

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AND HE LOOKED
SO FUCKING SEXY.

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SO I-- I CLIMBED
ON TOP OF HIS LEG.

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I THOUGHT HE'D GET
THE HINT AND HE'D
START SOMETHING--

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BUT NOTHING.

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SO I JUST
KEPT GOING...

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RIDING HIS THIGH.
IT FELT GOOD.

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AND THEN I WAS
OVERWHELMED WITH THIS
SADNESS FOR HIM.

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HE BROKE MY HEART,
THIS GUY.

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HE'S FRAGILE, REALLY.
THAT'S WHAT HE IS.

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I DON'T THINK HE COULD
TELL WHAT I WAS THINKING.

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I WAS COMPLETELY IN
MY OWN HEAD, AND I WAS
THINKING TO MYSELF,

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"SHIT, THIS IS
GONNA BE THE SADDEST
ORGASM OF MY LIFE."

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HERE I AM RIDING THIS
HOT, SAD GUY'S THIGH.

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I WAS EXPECTING
SOMETHING PITIFUL
AND MEASLY, RIGHT?

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BUT NO. A VOLCANO IS
A CLICHE, BUT THAT'S
WHAT IT WAS.

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IT WAS LIKE 10 ORGASMS
EXPLODING AT ONCE.

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IT'S HARD TO DESCRIBE.

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BUT I SCREAMED--
I DID, I SCREAMED AND
I THINK I SCARED HIM.

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YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN
REALLY PROUD OF ME.

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WHY WOULD I HAVE
BEEN PROUD?

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I MEAN,
AS MY THERAPIST.

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YOU KNOW,
THAT I FINALLY...

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CONNECTED
WITH MYSELF.

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DOESN'T HAPPEN
VERY OFTEN.

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I'M SORRY.

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THAT WAS A BIT
REVEALING.

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BUT YOU MUST
BE USED TO IT.

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YOU KNOW, HEARING
CONFESSIONS LIKE THAT,

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IT PROBABLY DOESN'T
IMPRESS YOU ANYMORE.

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ACTUALLY, IT MAKES
A VERY BIG IMPRESSION.

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REALLY?
WHAT SORT OF IMPRESSION?

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WELL...

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YOU CAN LOOK AT IT
IN ALL KINDS OF WAYS,

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BUT ONE THING SEEMS
PERFECTLY PLAIN TO ME:

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YOU SLEPT
WITH MY PATIENT.

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EXCUSE ME?

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HE ISN'T YOUR ONLY PATIENT.
HE DOESN'T BELONG TO YOU.

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HE'S A GREAT GUY, OKAY?
A LITTLE FUCKED UP,

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A LITTLE INSECURE
IN BED, MAYBE,

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BUT HE'S GOT POTENTIAL.

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I THINK I'M GONNA HAVE
A TERRIFIC AFFAIR WITH HIM.

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NEVERTHELESS, IT'S NO
COINCIDENCE THAT YOU
WENT TO BED WITH HIM

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AND I DON'T THINK IT'S
ANY COINCIDENCE THAT YOU
BEGAN YOUR AFFAIR WITH HIM

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SHORTLY AFTER WE TALKED
ABOUT YOUR QUITTING THERAPY.

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ARE YOU SAYING THAT I
DID THIS TO GET BACK AT YOU?

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REMEMBER THE GUY
YOU TOLD ME ABOUT--

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THE GUY THAT YOU MET AT
THE BAR, THAT YOU WENT TO
THE RESTROOM WITH?

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YOU SAID THAT YOU FELT
YOU WERE WITH ME.

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IT'S NOT
THE SAME THING, PAUL.

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ARE YOU SURE
IT ISN'T?

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IT WAS DURING
THAT SESSION, LAURA,
THAT YOU DECIDED

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TO TELL ME
THAT YOU WERE
IN LOVE WITH ME.

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AND THAT'S HOW
YOU CHOSE TO TELL ME
HOW YOU FELT ABOUT ME--

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BY HAVING SEX
WITH ANOTHER MAN.

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PAUL, IF THERE'S ONE THING
THAT I PUT RIGHT OUT THERE,

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WITHOUT HINTING
OR MANIPULATION,

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IS THAT
I'VE WANTED YOU.

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SO I DON'T NEED TO FUCK
ANOTHER MAN

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JUST TO GET
MY MESSAGE ACROSS.

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WHAT MADE YOU SO...

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SAD ABOUT ALEX?

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HIS LONELINESS.
HE'S A SAD GUY.

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DID YOU FEEL SAD?

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NO, I FELT HORNY.

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SO SADNESS FOR HIM BUT
NO SADNESS FOR YOURSELF.

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WHAT ARE YOU TRYING
TO GET AT HERE?

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MAYBE YOU DID
FEEL SADNESS...

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BECAUSE YOU WERE WITH
A MAN YOU DIDN'T REALLY
WANT TO BE WITH.

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ARE YOU SAYING THAT WHEN
I WAS FUCKING ALEX,

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- I WAS ACTUALLY FUCKING YOU?
- WERE YOU?

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- DON'T FLATTER YOURSELF.
- WELL, IT'S NOT REALLY
A COMPLIMENT, LAURA.

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I THINK IT SEEMS MORE LIKE,
"LOOK WHAT YOU MISSED
OUT ON, PAUL.

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YOU COWARD, YOU IDIOT."

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MMM.

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I'M TIRED.

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I'M REALLY SO TIRED.

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( sighs )

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SO, AFTER ALEX LEFT,

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I COULDN'T FALL ASLEEP.

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I SUDDENLY HAD
THIS INCREDIBLE CRAVING
FOR CHEESECAKE.

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( softly )
CHEESECAKE.

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YOU KNOW THOSE AMAZINGLY
FLUFFY CHEESECAKES

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WITH THAT
AMAZING SMELL?

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WELL, MY MOTHER
USED TO BAKE THOSE.

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EVERY FRIDAY AFTERNOON,
AFTER I FINISHED PLAYING
WITH MY FRIENDS,

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I USED TO COME HOME

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AND THAT SMELL--
IT WAS INTOXICATING.

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IT WAS LIKE A TRAIL
OF SCENT PAVING MY WAY HOME,

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LIKE A CARTOON CHARACTER.

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THEN MY MOTHER
GOT SICK.

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THE CANCER WAS ONLY
STAGE ONE AT THAT POINT

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WHEN THEY FOUND IT.

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BUT WHEN SHE STARTED CHEMO,
SHE STOPPED BAKING.

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YOU KNOW,
SHE WAS TIRED.

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SHE-- SHE HAD
NO ENERGY.

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AND THAT WAS
THE FIRST SIGN--

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THE FIRST SIGN THAT
SOMETHING REALLY BIG
WAS ABOUT TO HAPPEN.

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AND WHEN SHE WAS
REALLY SICK,

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I USED TO FIND MYSELF
ROAMING THE HALLS OF THE
APARTMENT BUILDING,

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CLIMBING UP AND DOWN
THE STAIRS,

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SEARCHING FOR THAT SMELL
OF CHEESECAKE.

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SHIT,
HOW CORNY IS THAT?

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AND ONCE I REMEMBER
A WOMAN COMING OUT
OF HER APARTMENT

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AND SHE-- THANK YOU.

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AND SHE SAW ME
STANDING OUT THERE--
SHE DIDN'T KNOW WHO I WAS.

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SHE MUST HAVE BEEN
NEW TO THE BUILDING.

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AND SHE WAS
YELLING AT ME,

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"GO AWAY, GO ON,
GO HOME.

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WHAT ARE YOU DOING,
STANDING OUT HERE, JUST..."

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WHY DO YOU THINK
YOU HAD THAT...

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PARTICULAR MEMORY
THE OTHER NIGHT?

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I DON'T KNOW.

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I SEARCHED THROUGH
MY WHOLE APARTMENT

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LOOKING FOR
A RECIPE BUT--

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NOT THAT THAT WOULD HAVE
DONE ANY GOOD.

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I MEAN, MY FRIDGE
IS COMPLETELY EMPTY.

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I MEAN, I THOUGHT
ABOUT GOING OUT
TO GET A PIECE,

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BUT IT WAS 3:00 A.M.,
SO I JUST GAVE UP
AND WENT TO SLEEP.

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ONLY THEN THE PHONE RANG
AND IT WAS ALEX,

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AND HE CALLED TO THANK ME

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AND TELL ME THAT HE HAD
AN AMAZING TIME WITH ME

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AND THAT HE
WANTS TO SEE ME AGAIN.

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GO FIGURE, HUH?

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HE'S SUPPOSED TO PICK ME
UP FROM HERE PRETTY SOON.

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FROM HERE?

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YEAH, THAT'S WHAT
HE SAID.

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AREN'T YOU AFRAID THAT
ANDREW WILL FIND OUT ABOUT THIS?

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OR, MAYBE YOU
WANT TO GET CAUGHT.

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ANDREW AND I SPLIT UP.

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- WHAT?
- FOR GOOD.

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AND IT IS FOR GOOD.
HE'S A NICE GUY.

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00:13:00,680 --> 00:13:04,017
HE'LL MAKE A NICE HUSBAND
FOR SOMEONE WHO DESERVES HIM.

221
00:13:04,117 --> 00:13:05,919
BUT OBVIOUSLY
NOT FOR YOU?

222
00:13:06,019 --> 00:13:08,455
WELL, I NEARLY FUCK GUYS
IN BATHROOM STALLS,

223
00:13:08,555 --> 00:13:10,390
AS YOU VERY KINDLY
REMINDED ME.

224
00:13:10,490 --> 00:13:13,526
AND I JUST COULDN'T
STAND UP THERE IN FRONT
OF EVERYONE

225
00:13:13,626 --> 00:13:14,895
AND PROMISE TO--

226
00:13:14,995 --> 00:13:18,665
WELL, I JUST SHOULDN'T
EVER MAKE PROMISES.

227
00:13:18,765 --> 00:13:22,936
HEY, I PROMISE NOT
TO MAKE ANY MORE PROMISES.
HOW'S THAT?

228
00:13:25,672 --> 00:13:29,042
SO I TOLD HIM
THAT-- "I'M SORRY, BUT
I CAN'T MARRY YOU.

229
00:13:30,277 --> 00:13:32,645
I AM INCAPABLE OF BEING
THE WOMAN YOU WANT,

230
00:13:32,745 --> 00:13:34,381
THE KIND OF WOMAN
YOU DESERVE."

231
00:13:34,481 --> 00:13:39,052
I PUT IT ALL ON ME.
WELL, 'CAUSE IT IS ALL ME.

232
00:13:39,152 --> 00:13:43,490
AND HE LOOKED AT ME AND
HE SAID, "THANK YOU, LAURA.

233
00:13:43,590 --> 00:13:45,525
THANK YOU.

234
00:13:45,625 --> 00:13:48,661
THANK YOU, THANK YOU,
THANK YOU.

235
00:13:48,761 --> 00:13:52,765
GOD EXISTS.
IT'S A FACT.

236
00:13:52,866 --> 00:13:55,468
HE'S MADE ME REALIZE
WHO AND WHAT YOU ARE,

237
00:13:55,568 --> 00:13:59,106
AND HE'S SAVED ME FROM A LONG,
ENDLESS DEATH WITH YOU."

238
00:14:00,373 --> 00:14:01,841
FLATTERING, NO?

239
00:14:01,942 --> 00:14:04,144
HE MUST HAVE
BEEN DEVASTATED.
MAYBE HE FEELS--

240
00:14:04,244 --> 00:14:06,046
I DON'T CARE
HOW HE FEELS.

241
00:14:06,146 --> 00:14:08,048
YOU DON'T CARE
HOW HE FEELS?

242
00:14:08,148 --> 00:14:09,382
NO, NOT RIGHT NOW,
AND I REALLY DON'T FEEL

243
00:14:09,482 --> 00:14:11,118
LIKE TALKING ABOUT
ANDREW'S SIDE OF THE STORY.

244
00:14:11,218 --> 00:14:12,485
WHY DOES THAT MAKE YOU
SO UPSET?

245
00:14:12,585 --> 00:14:15,155
BECAUSE I'M THE ONE
IN THERAPY HERE, PAUL.

246
00:14:15,255 --> 00:14:18,191
ANDREW HAS HIS OWN THERAPIST.
SHE'LL TAKE CARE OF HIM.

247
00:14:18,291 --> 00:14:20,127
DON'T WORRY ABOUT HIM,
WORRY ABOUT ME.

248
00:14:20,227 --> 00:14:21,962
I AM TAKING CARE
OF YOU, LAURA.

249
00:14:22,062 --> 00:14:23,730
NO, YOU'RE NOT.
YOU'RE KICKING ME
OUT OF THERAPY.

250
00:14:23,830 --> 00:14:25,432
I AM NOT KICKING YOU
OUT OF THERAPY.

251
00:14:25,532 --> 00:14:27,334
- I BROUGHT IT UP
AS AN OPTION.
- DON'T SUGARCOAT IT.

252
00:14:27,434 --> 00:14:29,469
YOU EVEN TRIED
TO BLAME IT ON ME.

253
00:14:29,569 --> 00:14:32,339
YOU MADE UP THE MOST
RIDICULOUS CASE AS TO
WHY I WAS LATE.

254
00:14:32,439 --> 00:14:34,574
IT WAS NASTY,
A BULLSHIT EXCUSE.

255
00:14:34,674 --> 00:14:36,977
INSTEAD OF LEVELING WITH ME
AND SAYING, "LISTEN, LAURA,

256
00:14:37,077 --> 00:14:40,113
I HAVE FEELINGS FOR
YOU TOO AND IT'S HARD
FOR ME TO DEAL WITH THAT."

257
00:14:40,213 --> 00:14:42,749
INSTEAD OF
FIGURING IT OUT SO WE
COULD CONTINUE THERAPY,

258
00:14:42,849 --> 00:14:44,384
- SO WE COULD--
- WHAT?

259
00:14:44,484 --> 00:14:46,219
SO THAT WE
COULD BE TOGETHER,
IS THAT WHAT YOU MEAN?

260
00:14:46,319 --> 00:14:48,855
WE'VE BEEN TOGETHER
FOR A YEAR, PAUL.

261
00:14:48,956 --> 00:14:51,191
A YEAR.

262
00:14:52,159 --> 00:14:54,061
THERE IS MORE INTIMACY
BETWEEN US

263
00:14:54,161 --> 00:14:57,530
THAN MOST COUPLES
IN THE WORLD.
ISN'T THAT RIGHT?

264
00:14:57,630 --> 00:14:59,632
LAURA, I DON'T DENY THAT
THERE'S A CERTAIN INTIMACY

265
00:14:59,732 --> 00:15:01,701
- THAT CAN DEVELOP BETWEEN--
- "A CERTAIN INTIMACY--

266
00:15:01,801 --> 00:15:04,637
INTIMACY-LIKE..."
CUT THE CRAP, PAUL.

267
00:15:04,737 --> 00:15:08,208
IS THERE INTIMACY HERE
OR NOT?

268
00:15:15,082 --> 00:15:18,518
YES.
THERE IS.

269
00:15:23,656 --> 00:15:27,560
AND NOW YOU'RE WILLING
TO THROW THAT ALL AWAY.

270
00:15:27,660 --> 00:15:29,796
AND WHY?
BECAUSE YOU'RE SCARED?

271
00:15:29,896 --> 00:15:32,132
- LAURA--
- I KNOW THAT AS A THERAPIST,

272
00:15:32,232 --> 00:15:35,902
YOU TELL YOURSELF THAT IT'S
PART OF THERAPY TO FIND OUT
WHY I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU

273
00:15:36,003 --> 00:15:38,038
AND HOW THAT'S LINKED
TO MY PAST AND ALL THAT.

274
00:15:38,138 --> 00:15:41,808
BUT ISN'T THAT ALWAYS
THE WAY IT WORKS, PAUL?

275
00:15:41,908 --> 00:15:45,712
DOESN'T OUR PAST
ALWAYS DETERMINE WHO
WE FALL IN LOVE WITH?

276
00:15:45,812 --> 00:15:48,515
SO WHAT IF YOU CAN TRACE IT
BACK TO THE WITHHOLDING MOTHER,

277
00:15:48,615 --> 00:15:51,418
THE NARCISSISTIC FATHER,
THE PARENT WHO'S
MISSING IN ACTION.

278
00:15:51,518 --> 00:15:53,886
DOES THAT MAKE OUR LOVE
ANY LESS REAL?

279
00:15:53,987 --> 00:15:56,256
BUT SOMETIMES
CIRCUMSTANCES ARE,
LET'S SAY,

280
00:15:56,356 --> 00:15:58,258
- LESS THAN IDEAL.
- I KNOW THAT.

281
00:15:58,358 --> 00:16:01,128
I KNOW YOU CAN DELUDE
YOURSELF INTO THINK--

282
00:16:01,228 --> 00:16:03,997
ONLY I AM NOT DELUDED.

283
00:16:04,097 --> 00:16:06,833
NOT ABOUT YOU, NOT ABOUT
HOW I FEEL ABOUT YOU,

284
00:16:06,933 --> 00:16:09,269
WHY I FEEL IT.
THERE'S ALWAYS GOT TO BE
AN EXPLANATION,

285
00:16:09,369 --> 00:16:12,705
BUT THAT I FEEL IT
IS IRREFUTABLE.

286
00:16:17,444 --> 00:16:21,648
I DON'T KNOW HOW TO
CONVINCE YOU ANYMORE, PAUL.

287
00:16:21,748 --> 00:16:24,351
I MEAN, YOU THINK THAT I'VE
IMAGINED THIS FAIRY TALE,

288
00:16:24,451 --> 00:16:29,056
THIS HAPPILY-EVER-AFTER.
THAT I'VE IDEALIZED YOU.

289
00:16:29,156 --> 00:16:31,391
YOU THINK THIS IS A CASE
OF A MISERABLE PATIENT

290
00:16:31,491 --> 00:16:33,393
SITTING IN FRONT OF
HER-- HER THERAPIST

291
00:16:33,493 --> 00:16:36,163
IMAGINING THAT
YOU'RE MY SUPERMAN--

292
00:16:36,263 --> 00:16:38,265
PERFECT SAVIOR, MENTOR.

293
00:16:38,365 --> 00:16:40,167
I DON'T SEE YOU
THAT WAY AT ALL.

294
00:16:40,267 --> 00:16:42,302
HOW DO YOU
REALLY SEE ME?

295
00:16:42,402 --> 00:16:44,771
I SEE YOU
THE WAY YOU ARE...

296
00:16:46,106 --> 00:16:49,008
YOUR IMPERFECTIONS.

297
00:16:51,044 --> 00:16:52,612
YOU'RE NOT AT EASE
WITH YOUR BODY,

298
00:16:52,712 --> 00:16:56,083
WITH YOUR PROFESSION,
WITH WHO YOU'VE BECOME.

299
00:16:57,884 --> 00:16:59,852
I DON'T KNOW MUCH
ABOUT YOUR LIFE,

300
00:16:59,952 --> 00:17:03,156
BUT I-- I IMAGINE
YOU'RE NOT HAPPY AT HOME.

301
00:17:03,256 --> 00:17:07,160
SOMETHING IN YOU IS--
IS RESTLESS, DAMAGED.

302
00:17:07,260 --> 00:17:11,731
THERE'S A YEARNING THERE,
AND I KNOW IT WHEN I SEE IT.

303
00:17:11,831 --> 00:17:14,567
AND I WANT YOU
JUST THE WAY YOU ARE--

304
00:17:14,667 --> 00:17:16,269
DAMAGED AND RESTLESS,

305
00:17:16,369 --> 00:17:19,806
YEARNING--
WARTS AND ALL.

306
00:17:19,906 --> 00:17:22,175
SO YOU CAN FIX ME?

307
00:17:22,275 --> 00:17:24,544
GOD, YOU CAN BE SUCH A FUCKING
PRICK WHEN YOU WANT TO BE.

308
00:17:24,644 --> 00:17:27,580
- YOU KNOW THAT?
- SO THAT I CAN FIX YOU THEN?

309
00:17:36,456 --> 00:17:40,193
YOU KNOW, NEXT MONTH
I'LL BE 30.

310
00:17:40,293 --> 00:17:43,163
AND I'VE BEEN THINKING
TO MYSELF,

311
00:17:43,263 --> 00:17:46,233
"I'VE HATED MYSELF
FOR 30 YEARS.

312
00:17:49,502 --> 00:17:52,472
IT'S ENOUGH.
I DON'T WANT TO ANYMORE."

313
00:17:53,273 --> 00:17:55,608
WHY DO YOU HATE YOURSELF?

314
00:17:55,708 --> 00:17:58,445
YOU'RE SURPRISED?

315
00:17:58,545 --> 00:18:00,580
I'VE NEVER HEARD YOU
SAY IT BEFORE.

316
00:18:00,680 --> 00:18:03,316
WELL, I GUESS YOU SAVE
THE BEST FOR LAST.

317
00:18:03,416 --> 00:18:05,318
THAT'S THE BEST, LAURA?

318
00:18:05,418 --> 00:18:07,620
THAT YOU HATE YOURSELF?

319
00:18:07,720 --> 00:18:10,357
I DON'T KNOW, PAUL.
I DON'T KNOW. YOU'RE SURPRISED?

320
00:18:10,457 --> 00:18:12,425
IT'S SOMETHING PEOPLE REALIZE
ABOUT ME AFTER AN HOUR.

321
00:18:12,525 --> 00:18:14,727
I DIDN'T KNOW IT
AFTER AN HOUR. I DIDN'T
KNOW IT AFTER A YEAR.

322
00:18:14,827 --> 00:18:17,497
IT'S NOT EASY FOR ME
TO HEAR YOU SAY THAT.

323
00:18:18,965 --> 00:18:22,435
MAYBE YOU SHOULD TRY AND FIND
OUT WHY IT'S SO HARD FOR YOU.

324
00:18:23,403 --> 00:18:25,071
MAYBE YOU SHOULD SEE SOMEONE.

325
00:18:25,172 --> 00:18:27,207
YEAH.

326
00:18:27,307 --> 00:18:29,776
I'VE BEEN THINKING
ABOUT THAT.

327
00:18:31,578 --> 00:18:34,747
SERIOUSLY, I THINK THE REASON
IT'S HARD FOR ME TO HEAR IT

328
00:18:34,847 --> 00:18:39,018
IS BECAUSE I-- I KNOW THAT
YOU HAVE SO MANY REASONS

329
00:18:39,118 --> 00:18:41,288
TO-- TO LOVE YOURSELF,

330
00:18:41,388 --> 00:18:44,324
SO MANY THINGS TO BE--
TO BE REALLY PROUD OF,

331
00:18:44,424 --> 00:18:46,859
YET YOU CHOOSE
TO IGNORE THEM.

332
00:18:46,959 --> 00:18:48,328
WHY?

333
00:18:48,428 --> 00:18:51,564
HAVEN'T YOU EVER
HATED YOURSELF?

334
00:18:56,035 --> 00:18:57,304
YEAH.

335
00:18:57,404 --> 00:19:01,007
I GUESS I DID...
ONCE.

336
00:19:01,107 --> 00:19:04,043
I WAS A KID.
YOU KNOW?

337
00:19:04,143 --> 00:19:06,713
MY MOTHER,

338
00:19:06,813 --> 00:19:08,815
SHE WAS IN
PRETTY BAD SHAPE

339
00:19:08,915 --> 00:19:12,018
AND I TOOK CARE OF HER,

340
00:19:12,118 --> 00:19:15,655
BUT...

341
00:19:15,755 --> 00:19:18,124
AHEM, I COULDN'T--

342
00:19:18,225 --> 00:19:19,992
I COULDN'T SAVE HER...

343
00:19:20,092 --> 00:19:22,595
FROM HERSELF, YOU KNOW?

344
00:19:22,695 --> 00:19:24,063
( sighs )

345
00:19:24,163 --> 00:19:27,033
I GUESS I HATED
MYSELF FOR THAT.

346
00:19:27,133 --> 00:19:29,669
WAS SHE SICK?

347
00:19:33,072 --> 00:19:35,675
SHE WAS IN A DIFFICULT
EMOTIONAL STATE.

348
00:19:35,775 --> 00:19:37,944
I THOUGHT THAT I COULD
PULL HER OUT OF IT.

349
00:19:38,044 --> 00:19:42,282
I-- I USED TO COOK HER
ALL THESE, YOU KNOW,
ELABORATE MEALS.

350
00:19:42,382 --> 00:19:44,617
BUT SHE WOULDN'T
EAT THEM.

351
00:19:44,717 --> 00:19:46,486
COULDN'T UNDERSTAND WHY.
LIKE EVERY KID,

352
00:19:46,586 --> 00:19:48,288
I THOUGHT IT WAS
MY FAULT.

353
00:19:48,388 --> 00:19:51,424
IT WAS SOMETHING THAT
I WASN'T DOING.

354
00:19:51,524 --> 00:19:53,826
MAYBE I COULD
DO SOMETHING ELSE.

355
00:19:53,926 --> 00:19:55,728
BUT YOU KNOW
THAT'S NOT TRUE.

356
00:19:55,828 --> 00:19:58,398
I KNOW THAT NOW, YES.

357
00:20:01,133 --> 00:20:03,536
HAVE YOU
FORGIVEN YOURSELF?

358
00:20:03,636 --> 00:20:04,904
I THINK SO.

359
00:20:05,004 --> 00:20:06,973
TOOK A LONG TIME.

360
00:20:10,310 --> 00:20:12,412
HOW DOES THAT FEEL?

361
00:20:15,382 --> 00:20:18,084
I MEAN REALLY.
I'M CURIOUS.

362
00:20:18,184 --> 00:20:19,852
IT FEELS LIKE
A RELIEF

363
00:20:19,952 --> 00:20:21,421
TO TELL YOU
THE TRUTH,

364
00:20:21,521 --> 00:20:24,156
TO KNOW THAT
THAT BURDEN IS GONE--

365
00:20:24,257 --> 00:20:26,559
THE BURDEN OF BLAME.

366
00:20:27,527 --> 00:20:29,696
AND TO KNOW DEEP DOWN

367
00:20:29,796 --> 00:20:34,467
THAT IT NEVER BELONGED THERE
IN THE FIRST PLACE.

368
00:20:38,037 --> 00:20:40,072
HMM.

369
00:20:40,172 --> 00:20:43,075
MAYBE THAT'S WHY
YOU BECAME A PSYCHOLOGIST--

370
00:20:43,175 --> 00:20:45,945
TO HELP OTHERS
WITH THEIR BURDENS.

371
00:20:48,981 --> 00:20:51,551
YEAH, MAYBE.

372
00:20:51,651 --> 00:20:55,455
SO YOU'RE A PRODUCT
OF YOUR PAST TOO.

373
00:21:03,363 --> 00:21:05,532
WILL THAT BE CASH
OR CHECK?

374
00:21:05,632 --> 00:21:08,701
- CAN I OWE YOU THAT?
- SURE.

375
00:21:08,801 --> 00:21:10,202
( chuckles )

376
00:21:10,303 --> 00:21:13,740
ANYWAY, I KNOW
WHERE YOU LIVE.

377
00:21:13,840 --> 00:21:16,609
YES, YOU DO.

378
00:21:29,121 --> 00:21:31,458
( sighs )

379
00:21:33,192 --> 00:21:34,461
I SHOULD GET GOING.

380
00:21:34,561 --> 00:21:36,763
ALEX IS WAITING FOR ME.

381
00:21:49,041 --> 00:21:50,843
OKAY.

382
00:21:50,943 --> 00:21:52,645
OKAY.

383
00:21:57,950 --> 00:21:59,919
( knocks )

384
00:22:01,754 --> 00:22:03,623
I FORGOT,
I HAVEN'T PAID YOU.

385
00:22:03,723 --> 00:22:05,625
OH, THAT'S OKAY.
IT'LL DO NEXT WEEK.

386
00:22:05,725 --> 00:22:08,027
- THANKS.
- YOU'RE WELCOME.

387
00:22:08,127 --> 00:22:09,829
- BYE.
- BYE.

388
00:22:56,643 --> 00:22:59,145
( theme music playing )