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( sniffling )

2
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( sobbing )

3
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( theme music playing )

4
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I TOLD YOU.

5
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TOLD ME WHAT?

6
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THAT YOU'D BE SORRY
YOU EVER ENCOURAGED ME
TO CRY HERE.

7
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I'M NOT SORRY AT ALL.

8
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YOU DIDN'T EXPECT IT
TO BE LIKE THIS, I BET.

9
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LIKE WHAT?

10
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( sighs )
YOU KNOW WHAT?

11
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IT'S DISAPPOINTING.

12
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I THOUGHT I'D FEEL
BETTER, RELIEVED.

13
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I THOUGHT IT'D BE
A LOT MORE FUN.

14
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AND IT ISN'T?

15
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NO, IT'S HORRIBLE.

16
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I DON'T KNOW
IF I'M ABLE TO TALK
TODAY, PAUL.

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I SHOULDN'T HAVE COME.
I SHOULD HAVE JUST--

18
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I SHOULD HAVE
JUST CALLED IT OFF.
I'M SORRY.

19
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- ARE YOU ALL RIGHT?
- ( sighs )

20
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- YEAH.
- SIT DOWN. SIT.

21
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YOU KNOW, I'VE BEEN
SITTING OUT IN THE PARK
FOR ABOUT FOUR HOURS.

22
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- OUT HERE?
- YEAH.

23
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I WANTED TO CALL IT OFF,
THE SESSION,

24
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BUT...
( sniffs )

25
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I WASN'T SURE
I'D BE ABLE TO MAKE IT
HOME ALONE.

26
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I TOOK A CAB HERE.
MY CAR'S AT HOME.

27
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OH GOD, AT LEAST
I THINK IT IS.

28
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YEAH YEAH,
MY CAR'S AT HOME.

29
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( sighs )
MY GOD, IT'S FREEZING.

30
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I CAME THIS CLOSE
TO KNOCKING ON YOUR DOOR

31
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AND ASKING
FOR A SWEATER.

32
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- WHEN WAS THAT?
- I DON'T KNOW.

33
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MAYBE 5:00 OR 6:00,
I CAN'T REMEMBER.

34
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IT WAS STILL DARK.

35
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I WAITED FOR THE SUN
TO COME UP.

36
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I'VE NEVER WAITED THIS LONG
FOR A SUNRISE,

37
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EXCEPT MAYBE ON A CAMPING
TRIP IN FIFTH GRADE.

38
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THANK YOU.

39
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( sniffs )

40
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( sighs )

41
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- YOU KNOW WHAT I DID?
- WHAT?

42
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I HELD MY CELL PHONE

43
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AND I WATCHED
THE MINUTES GO BY.

44
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IT FELT LIKE FOREVER
FOR ONE MINUTE TO TURN
INTO THE NEXT.

45
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I THOUGHT TO MYSELF,
"HOW STUPID IS THIS,

46
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DYING ON THE STREET
LIKE ROADKILL

47
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OUTSIDE YOUR
THERAPIST'S OFFICE?"

48
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( sniffs )

49
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I'M SORRY, PAUL.
I--

50
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I SHOULD HAVE CALLED IT OFF.
I SHOULDN'T HAVE COME.

51
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YOU SHOULD HAVE COME HERE.

52
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WHAT HAPPENED
LAST NIGHT?

53
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WELL, WHAT
DIDN'T HAPPEN?

54
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THE LONG VERSION
OR THE BOTTOM LINE?

55
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BECAUSE THE BOTTOM LINE
IS VERY SIMPLE--

56
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MY LIFE IS OVER.

57
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THEN YOU'D BETTER TELL ME
THE LONG VERSION.

58
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I LEFT ANDREW.

59
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WE HAD A BIG BLOWOUT--

60
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SCREAMING, CRYING--
THE WORKS.

61
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AND AT SOME POINT I, UH--
I CALLED ALONA

62
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AND WE WENT OUT
FOR A DRINK.

63
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WE HAD A FEW DRINKS.

64
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LISTEN, I'M NOT HERE.
I'M--

65
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I'M SO TOTALLY
NOT HERE.

66
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YOU ARE VERY MUCH HERE,
LAURA.

67
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NO, IT'S NOT ME
THAT'S HERE.

68
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BELIEVE ME,
YOU'D BE SHOCKED

69
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TO KNOW THE PERSON
THAT'S SITTING HERE.

70
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I DID SOME--

71
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I DID SOME
TERRIBLE THINGS
LAST NIGHT.

72
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( sighs )

73
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OH...

74
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( chuckles )

75
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I FEEL SICK.

76
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BUT I DON'T WANNA
THROW UP.

77
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IT DOESN'T MATTER,
IT'S NO BIG DEAL.

78
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WHAT DO YOU MEAN?
IT'S VOMIT.

79
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I'M NOT GONNA VOMIT
ALL OVER YOUR RUG.

80
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IT'S A CHEAP RUG, LAURA.

81
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LET'S TALK ABOUT WHAT'S
REALLY GOING ON HERE.

82
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HMM?

83
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- ( sighs )
- ( phone ringing )

84
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IT'S ANDREW.

85
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HE KNOWS
I'M HERE AT THIS TIME.

86
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- WHY IS HE
CALLING ME HERE?
- MAYBE HE'S WORRIED.

87
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- YOU WERE OUT OF
THE HOUSE ALL NIGHT.
- YEAH, RIGHT.

88
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IF HE REALLY CARED,
HE WOULDN'T HAVE STARTED
WITH HIS SHIT.

89
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START WHAT?

90
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AT THE CLUB,
THIS GUY--

91
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OH MY GOD--

92
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HE HAD
CORDUROY PANTS ON,

93
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PREPPY SWEATER--

94
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A REPUBLICAN, PROBABLY.

95
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( phone beeps )

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YOU KNOW WHAT?
CAN I JUST STEP OUT
FOR A SECOND

97
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AND LET HIM
KNOW I'M HERE?
I MEAN,

98
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I CAN'T CONCENTRATE
WITH THIS SHIT.

99
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JUST A SEC.

100
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LAURA,
THE CALL CAN WAIT.

101
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( sighs )

102
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ANDREW GAVE ME
AN ULTIMATUM:

103
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EITHER WE GET MARRIED
OR WE SPLIT.

104
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HE SAID HE WANTS
AN ANSWER IN A DAY
OR TWO AT THE MOST

105
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OR ELSE HE'S OUT.

106
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HE SAID HE CAN'T
TAKE IT ANYMORE;

107
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THAT HE LOVES ME,
THAT HE DOESN'T BELIEVE
I LOVE HIM--

108
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NOT FOR REAL;

109
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THAT IT'S BEEN TWO YEARS
ALREADY ON AND OFF--

110
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BLAH BLAH BLAH.

111
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I DON'T KNOW WHY,
ALL OF A SUDDEN

112
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HE JUST STARTED
RANTING AND RAVING.

113
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WE'VE TALKED ABOUT
THIS STUFF BEFORE.

114
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BUT IT WAS ALL IN THEORY,
IF WE STAYED TOGETHER--

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IF.

116
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AND SUDDENLY,
OUT OF THE BLUE, I--

117
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I CAN'T EVEN REMEMBER
WHAT WE WERE DOING.

118
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WE WERE WATCHING TV.

119
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ALL OF A SUDDEN
HE JUST GETS OFF THE COUCH

120
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AND GRABS THE REMOTE
AND TURNS OFF THE TV

121
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AND HE TURNS TO ME
AND HE HAS TEARS
IN HIS EYES

122
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AND HE SAYS: "THAT'S IT.
I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE."

123
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WOW!
SO OUT OF LINE.

124
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PROMISED HE'D LAY OFF
THE SUBJECT FOR AWHILE

125
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AND ALL OF A SUDDEN
HE'S ON THIS CRYING BULLSHIT.

126
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HE ACTUALLY BURST OUT
CRYING.

127
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I'VE NEVER SEEN HIM
LIKE THAT BEFORE.

128
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AND TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH,
IT REALLY SCARED ME.

129
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- NO, IT MADE ME ANGRY.
- WHY?

130
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BECAUSE HE'S TRYING
TO MANIPULATE ME WITH THESE--
THESE CHEAP CHICK TRICKS.

131
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MAYBE HE THOUGHT

132
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HE WOULD BREAK MY HEART
OR SOMETHING,

133
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APPEAL TO MY--

134
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SHIT,
YOU KNOW, FORGET IT.
I DON'T KNOW.

135
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I THREW A TANTRUM

136
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LIKE A THREE-YEAR-OLD.

137
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SCREAMED, CRIED,

138
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TOLD HIM TO FUCK OFF.

139
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I TOLD HIM HE WAS
A LITTLE PIECE OF SHIT

140
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FOR DOING THIS TO ME
WHEN HE KNOWS

141
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THAT I'M WORKING DOUBLE SHIFTS
AT THE HOSPITAL THIS WEEK.

142
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I SLAMMED THE DOOR,

143
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SMASHED HIS LAPTOP
ON THE FLOOR.
I KILLED IT.

144
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I RAN OUT
AND I CALLED ALONA.

145
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SHE DRESSED ME
IN THIS OUTFIT.

146
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IT'S-- IT'S NOT MINE.

147
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WE WENT OUT
FOR A DRINK

148
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AT A CLUB
THAT SHE LIKES
ON CHESTER ST.

149
00:09:08,181 --> 00:09:12,052
OH, SHE TRIED
TO CALM ME DOWN,
PUT THINGS INTO PERSPECTIVE.

150
00:09:13,153 --> 00:09:16,256
AND SHE SAID--

151
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SHE SAID I WAS LUCKY;

152
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THAT SHE WISHED SOMEBODY
LOVED HER ENOUGH TO GIVE HER
AN ULTIMATUM.

153
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AND THEN WE DRANK.

154
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WELL, I DRANK.

155
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AND, UH, THERE WAS
THIS GUY AT THE BAR

156
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AND AT SOME POINT ALONA
SAID THAT SHE WAS TIRED

157
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AND THAT SHE NEEDED
TO GO HOME.

158
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AND THEN THAT GUY...

159
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MOVED NEXT TO ME AND, UM,
YOU KNOW WHAT HE SAID?

160
00:09:50,357 --> 00:09:52,626
HE SAID,

161
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"YOU LOOK SO SAD."

162
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AND I SAID, "REALLY?"

163
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AND HE SAID, "YEAH, YOU DO.
IT LOOKS GOOD ON YOU."

164
00:10:04,237 --> 00:10:06,306
"LOOKS GOOD ON YOU."

165
00:10:06,406 --> 00:10:08,709
I MEAN, WHATEVER HAPPENED
TO "DO YOU HAVE THE TIME?"

166
00:10:08,809 --> 00:10:11,578
OR "HAVEN'T WE MET
BEFORE?" OR--

167
00:10:11,679 --> 00:10:13,947
I MUST BE TOTALLY
OUT OF TOUCH, PAUL.

168
00:10:15,115 --> 00:10:17,217
WHAT DO YOU THINK?
I MEAN, DO I LOOK GOOD

169
00:10:17,317 --> 00:10:20,020
WHEN I'M SAD?

170
00:10:20,120 --> 00:10:21,822
I--

171
00:10:21,922 --> 00:10:24,825
I DON'T THINK
ANYBODY LOOKS GOOD
WHEN THEY'RE SAD.

172
00:10:32,265 --> 00:10:34,567
AND THEN, UH--

173
00:10:34,668 --> 00:10:36,704
I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH
I HAD TO DRINK

174
00:10:36,804 --> 00:10:38,571
'CAUSE HE WAS
ORDERING FOR ME,
OF COURSE.

175
00:10:38,672 --> 00:10:40,373
AND THEN HE, UH,
PAID THE BILL

176
00:10:40,473 --> 00:10:42,976
AND HE ASKED ME,
"WOULD YOU LIKE TO GO
SOMEWHERE ELSE?"

177
00:10:43,076 --> 00:10:46,113
AND I SAID,
"YES, I'D LIKE TO GO
TO THE BATHROOM."

178
00:10:46,213 --> 00:10:49,216
SO I STOOD UP
AND I WENT TO
THE BATHROOM.

179
00:10:49,316 --> 00:10:51,251
HE FOLLOWS ME.

180
00:10:51,351 --> 00:10:55,255
AND YOU WOULDN'T
BELIEVE IT, BUT THESE
WERE UNISEX BATHROOMS.

181
00:10:55,355 --> 00:10:57,524
AM I UNLUCKY OR WHAT?

182
00:10:57,624 --> 00:10:59,259
HOW DO YOU MEAN, UNLUCKY?

183
00:10:59,359 --> 00:11:01,995
WELL, I'M--
I'M RUNNING AWAY
FROM A GUY AND I'M--

184
00:11:02,095 --> 00:11:04,732
OH, YEAH, YOU WERE TRYING
TO GET AWAY FROM THE GUY.

185
00:11:04,832 --> 00:11:07,500
RIGHT. I MEAN,
I NEEDED TO PEE,
YOU KNOW, BY MYSELF.

186
00:11:07,600 --> 00:11:09,770
I'VE BEEN DOING THAT
SINCE I WAS THREE.

187
00:11:13,040 --> 00:11:16,476
SO I REALIZED
I NEEDED TO MAKE
A DECISION.

188
00:11:16,576 --> 00:11:18,045
BY FOLLOWING ME
TO THE BATHROOM

189
00:11:18,145 --> 00:11:21,114
THIS GUY WAS ALSO
GIVING ME AN ULTIMATUM.

190
00:11:21,214 --> 00:11:23,951
I THOUGHT,
"FUCK, OUT OF THE PAN
AND INTO THE FIRE."

191
00:11:24,051 --> 00:11:25,986
I RAN AWAY
FROM ONE ULTIMATUM

192
00:11:26,086 --> 00:11:29,222
AND THERE WAS
THIS GUY WITH A HARD-ON
GIVING ME ANOTHER.

193
00:11:32,760 --> 00:11:35,996
SUDDENLY I FELT
LIKE DOING IT.

194
00:11:38,665 --> 00:11:41,835
I NEVER HAD SEX
IN A BATHROOM BEFORE.

195
00:11:43,603 --> 00:11:47,174
I MEAN, WHAT?
I SHOULD GO AND MARRY ANDREW
WITHOUT EVER KNOWING

196
00:11:47,274 --> 00:11:50,744
WHAT A GOOD BATHROOM
FUCK'S ALL ABOUT?

197
00:11:50,844 --> 00:11:53,413
IT'S PART OF A YOUNG LADY'S
EDUCATION, ISN'T IT?

198
00:11:53,513 --> 00:11:58,285
SO YOU WANTED TO DO IT
BUT NOT TO GET BACK
AT ANDREW?

199
00:11:58,385 --> 00:12:00,120
JUST FOR YOURSELF?

200
00:12:00,220 --> 00:12:03,757
THAT'S RIGHT.

201
00:12:03,857 --> 00:12:07,327
A GIRL BEING FORCED
INTO MARRIAGE--

202
00:12:07,427 --> 00:12:09,997
WHAT'S SHE SUPPOSED TO DO,
DIE IGNORANT?

203
00:12:12,099 --> 00:12:16,403
SO THIS GUY FOLLOWS ME
INTO THE STALL

204
00:12:16,503 --> 00:12:19,372
AND SUDDENLY

205
00:12:19,472 --> 00:12:21,842
I WAS HORNY.

206
00:12:23,844 --> 00:12:25,813
IS HEARING ABOUT THIS
DISGUSTING TO YOU?

207
00:12:25,913 --> 00:12:29,082
NO, IT'S NOT DISGUSTING.

208
00:12:29,182 --> 00:12:31,018
GO ON.

209
00:12:34,221 --> 00:12:36,423
HE UNZIPPED,

210
00:12:36,523 --> 00:12:38,658
PULLED DOWN HIS PANTS

211
00:12:38,758 --> 00:12:43,763
AND HE STOOD THERE
WITH HIS HUGE--

212
00:12:46,666 --> 00:12:49,837
OH GOD, I FELT
LIKE I WAS 16...

213
00:12:52,940 --> 00:12:55,242
TOUCHING IT FOR
THE VERY FIRST TIME.

214
00:12:56,243 --> 00:13:00,147
I WAS REALLY SURPRISED
AT HOW...

215
00:13:00,247 --> 00:13:02,615
WARM IT FELT.

216
00:13:02,715 --> 00:13:06,453
I MEAN, DON'T I KNOW
THAT ALREADY?

217
00:13:06,553 --> 00:13:09,289
AND THEN
HE TURNED ME AROUND

218
00:13:09,389 --> 00:13:11,358
TO FACE THE DOOR...

219
00:13:12,625 --> 00:13:15,428
AND HE PULLED DOWN
MY STOCKINGS.

220
00:13:16,997 --> 00:13:19,900
HE LIFTED UP MY SKIRT,

221
00:13:20,000 --> 00:13:22,769
PUT HIS HAND
INTO HIS BACK POCKET
AND PULLED OUT A CONDOM.

222
00:13:22,870 --> 00:13:26,439
I REALIZE THIS GUY'S
VERY GOOD AT THIS.

223
00:13:26,539 --> 00:13:29,877
HE DOES THIS A LOT.
HE'S A-- HE'S A REAL PRO.

224
00:13:30,610 --> 00:13:33,914
AND THEN THIS GUY

225
00:13:34,014 --> 00:13:37,784
ENTERED THE STALL NEXT TO US
AND STARTED PEEING--

226
00:13:37,885 --> 00:13:41,054
IN GUSHES, FULL VOLUME
LIKE A RACEHORSE.

227
00:13:45,525 --> 00:13:50,130
I THOUGHT OF ANDREW,

228
00:13:50,230 --> 00:13:52,565
HOW-- HOW HE PEES
IN THE MORNING,

229
00:13:52,665 --> 00:13:55,235
MAKING THE SAME SOUND.

230
00:13:56,469 --> 00:13:58,872
MY HEART ACHED.
I JUST--

231
00:14:01,541 --> 00:14:04,344
IT WAS SO STUPID, YOU KNOW?
I JUST FELT

232
00:14:04,444 --> 00:14:06,513
SO SAD ALL OF A SUDDEN.

233
00:14:06,613 --> 00:14:08,949
AND HE'S BEHIND ME
AND HE'S RUBBING UP
AGAINST ME

234
00:14:09,049 --> 00:14:12,252
AND HE'S FEELING ME UP

235
00:14:12,352 --> 00:14:14,721
AND I THOUGHT
TO MYSELF, "IT'S GONNA
HAPPEN ANY MOMENT NOW."

236
00:14:14,821 --> 00:14:17,090
AND I JUST--

237
00:14:17,190 --> 00:14:19,893
I JUST COULDN'T DO IT.

238
00:14:19,993 --> 00:14:22,295
I SIMPLY CLOSED
MY LEGS SHUT. I--

239
00:14:22,395 --> 00:14:24,631
I COULDN'T DO IT.
I COULDN'T DO IT
TO ANDREW.

240
00:14:24,731 --> 00:14:27,434
I JUST-- I JUST
COULDN'T DO IT.

241
00:14:30,337 --> 00:14:33,773
WELL, SEEMS LIKE
QUITE A NIGHT OUT.

242
00:14:33,873 --> 00:14:35,909
YEAH, WELL THAT'S NOT
THE END OF IT

243
00:14:36,009 --> 00:14:39,412
BECAUSE THIS IDIOT--
I TOLD HIM,

244
00:14:39,512 --> 00:14:42,749
"I'M REALLY SORRY
BUT I HAVE A BOYFRIEND.
I CAN'T DO THIS."

245
00:14:42,849 --> 00:14:44,651
AND HE LAUGHS IN MY FACE
AND SAYS "BOOHOO."

246
00:14:44,751 --> 00:14:47,387
AND HE GRABS
MY HANDS AND HE SAYS,
"LISTEN, CUPCAKE,

247
00:14:47,487 --> 00:14:51,191
YOU THINK YOU CAN LEAVE ME
HIGH AND DRY LIKE THIS?"
POINTING AT HIS DICK.

248
00:14:51,291 --> 00:14:53,860
"THE LEAST YOU CAN DO
IS MAKE IT UP TO ME."

249
00:14:53,961 --> 00:14:55,929
I SAID TO HIM,
"WHAT DO YOU WANT?

250
00:14:56,029 --> 00:14:57,830
YOU WANT--
YOU WANT SOME MONEY?"

251
00:14:57,931 --> 00:15:00,800
HE SAID,
"GIVE ME A HAND JOB

252
00:15:00,900 --> 00:15:03,103
AND THERE'LL BE NO HARD
FEELINGS."

253
00:15:03,203 --> 00:15:06,940
AND I SAID TO HIM, "WHAT'S,
WHAT'S THE MATTER WITH YOU?
ARE YOU CRAZY?"

254
00:15:07,040 --> 00:15:10,277
AND HE JUST-- IT WAS JUST
GETTING REALLY STRANGE.
I MEAN, IT WAS TENSE.

255
00:15:10,377 --> 00:15:13,180
HIS TONE CHANGED.

256
00:15:16,183 --> 00:15:18,918
AND THEN-- AND THEN
I THOUGHT OF YOU...

257
00:15:21,254 --> 00:15:24,524
WHAT YOU'D SAY ABOUT IT.

258
00:15:24,624 --> 00:15:27,660
I THOUGHT ABOUT US GOING
THROUGH THIS IN THERAPY.

259
00:15:27,760 --> 00:15:32,465
AND WHAT DID YOU
IMAGINE US SAYING?

260
00:15:34,701 --> 00:15:39,039
I IMAGINED YOU NOT BEING
ABLE TO UNDERSTAND IT...

261
00:15:40,907 --> 00:15:43,043
THAT YOU'D BE DISGUSTED.

262
00:15:45,012 --> 00:15:46,446
IS THAT WHY YOU RAN
OVER HERE?

263
00:15:46,546 --> 00:15:51,518
TO FIND OUT IF I WOULD
BE DISGUSTED?

264
00:15:51,618 --> 00:15:55,022
I DIDN'T RUN.

265
00:15:56,223 --> 00:15:59,292
I GAVE HIM THE HAND JOB.

266
00:16:10,403 --> 00:16:13,506
EXCUSE ME.

267
00:16:20,080 --> 00:16:23,016
( coughing )

268
00:16:24,084 --> 00:16:27,154
( retches )

269
00:16:30,657 --> 00:16:34,261
( toilet flushes )

270
00:16:34,361 --> 00:16:36,263
Paul:
ARE YOU OKAY?

271
00:16:36,363 --> 00:16:39,099
YEAH.
YEAH, I'M FINE.

272
00:17:27,714 --> 00:17:31,584
( coffee pouring )

273
00:17:48,067 --> 00:17:50,002
YEAH.

274
00:17:50,103 --> 00:17:52,739
THANK YOU.

275
00:17:55,608 --> 00:17:57,610
WE, UM--

276
00:17:57,710 --> 00:18:00,713
WE TALKED
ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED
AT THE CLUB LAST NIGHT,

277
00:18:00,813 --> 00:18:03,516
BUT WE NEVER GOT BACK
TO ACTUALLY TALKING

278
00:18:03,616 --> 00:18:07,520
ABOUT ANDREW
AND THAT ARGUMENT
YESTERDAY.

279
00:18:07,620 --> 00:18:10,490
I DON'T WANNA BE PUT
IN THIS POSITION.

280
00:18:10,590 --> 00:18:13,025
I DON'T WANNA
HAVE THIS POWER
TO DECIDE OUR FUTURE

281
00:18:13,126 --> 00:18:14,861
FOR BOTH OF US.
I JUST DON'T.

282
00:18:14,961 --> 00:18:18,030
DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA
WHY ANDREW CHOSE THIS
PARTICULAR TIME?

283
00:18:18,131 --> 00:18:21,067
- WHAT DO YOU MEAN?
- DO YOU THINK THAT ANDREW

284
00:18:21,168 --> 00:18:25,372
JUST OUT OF THE BLUE,
AS YOU SAID YOURSELF,

285
00:18:25,472 --> 00:18:27,307
CAME UP WITH THIS IDEA
OF AN ULTIMATUM?

286
00:18:27,407 --> 00:18:30,243
DID YOU NOTICE ANYTHING
OVER THE LAST COUPLE
OF DAYS OR WEEKS

287
00:18:30,343 --> 00:18:33,813
THAT YOU THINK MIGHT HAVE
BROUGHT THIS ON?

288
00:18:33,913 --> 00:18:36,883
NOTHING. I DON'T KNOW.
HE JUST LOST IT.
( chuckles )

289
00:18:36,983 --> 00:18:39,552
I MEAN, SHIT,
DON'T YOU KNOW THAT MEN
ARE THE NEW WOMEN?

290
00:18:39,652 --> 00:18:41,521
OBSESSED WITH WEDDINGS
AND CHILDREN.

291
00:18:41,621 --> 00:18:43,523
AND LATELY HE'S LOST
TOUCH WITH REALITY.

292
00:18:43,623 --> 00:18:45,425
HE-- HE THINKS
I'M SEEING SOMEONE.

293
00:18:45,525 --> 00:18:48,127
THAT'S HOW THIS
WHOLE THING STARTED.
IT'S UNBELIEVABLE.

294
00:18:48,228 --> 00:18:51,231
BUT I THOUGHT YOU SAID
IT CAME OUT OF NOWHERE.

295
00:18:51,331 --> 00:18:52,999
YOU WERE WATCHING TV
AND THEN SUDDENLY--

296
00:18:53,099 --> 00:18:54,934
WELL, WE WERE WATCHING TV.
BUT BEFORE THAT

297
00:18:55,034 --> 00:18:57,470
WE WERE HAVING DINNER
AND HE HAD THIS LOOK
ON HIS FACE.

298
00:18:57,570 --> 00:19:00,540
HE HAD THIS SAD LOOK
AND I COULD JUST TELL
SOMETHING WAS UP.

299
00:19:00,640 --> 00:19:02,509
I MEAN, YOU CAN
JUST TELL, RIGHT?

300
00:19:02,609 --> 00:19:04,511
AND I SAID TO HIM,
"WHAT'S GOING ON?"
AND HE SAID,

301
00:19:04,611 --> 00:19:07,180
"I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT.
I JUST KNOW I DON'T WANT

302
00:19:07,280 --> 00:19:09,849
THIS ON-AND-OFF THING."
SO I SAID TO HIM,

303
00:19:09,949 --> 00:19:13,085
"SURE, THEN LET'S JUST DECIDE:
EITHER WE GET MARRIED
OR WE SPLIT."

304
00:19:13,186 --> 00:19:14,787
SO YOU WERE THE ONE
WHO CAME UP WITH IT.

305
00:19:14,887 --> 00:19:16,689
- WITH WHAT?
- THE ULTIMATUM.

306
00:19:16,789 --> 00:19:19,726
NO, HE'S THE ONE.
HE-- HE HAD THE PROBLEM
WITH THE ON-AND-OFF THING.

307
00:19:19,826 --> 00:19:22,462
- NOT ME.
- YEAH, BUT ON-AND-OFF
CAN MEAN SEVERAL THINGS.

308
00:19:22,562 --> 00:19:25,198
YOU WERE THE ONE
WHO MADE IT SPECIFIC--

309
00:19:25,298 --> 00:19:27,867
"GET MARRIED OR TO SPLIT UP."
THAT WAS YOUR ULTIMATUM.

310
00:19:27,967 --> 00:19:31,070
NO NO NO, HE HAD THIS THING
WITH THE ON AND O--

311
00:19:31,170 --> 00:19:33,340
THE ULTIM--

312
00:19:37,244 --> 00:19:40,146
YEAH, OKAY,

313
00:19:40,247 --> 00:19:42,014
I WAS THE FIRST ONE
TO SAY IT, YOU'RE RIGHT.

314
00:19:42,114 --> 00:19:44,951
BUT HE JUMPED ALL OVER IT.
I SAID I DIDN'T KNOW
WHAT I WANT.

315
00:19:45,051 --> 00:19:48,588
AND HE SAID,
"YOU HAVE A DAY OR TWO MAX
TO DECIDE WHAT YOU WANT."

316
00:19:48,688 --> 00:19:50,923
AND I SAID "FINE."
AND THEN HE STARTED CRYING

317
00:19:51,023 --> 00:19:53,393
AND BLAH BLAH BLAH.

318
00:19:53,493 --> 00:19:55,362
THE WHOLE THING WAS
REALLY SCARY TO HIM,
I THINK.

319
00:19:55,462 --> 00:19:58,765
WHAT ABOUT YOU?
WEREN'T YOU SCARED?

320
00:19:58,865 --> 00:20:00,166
OF WHAT?

321
00:20:00,267 --> 00:20:01,968
OF SPLITTING UP.

322
00:20:02,068 --> 00:20:04,837
I WASN'T SUGGESTING
THAT WE SPLIT UP.
THAT'S NOT THE POINT.

323
00:20:04,937 --> 00:20:07,474
SO WHAT DO YOU
THINK WAS THE POINT
OF THIS ARGUMENT

324
00:20:07,574 --> 00:20:09,242
THAT YOU MAY HAVE
INITIATED?

325
00:20:09,342 --> 00:20:10,710
I DIDN'T INITIATE ANYTHING.

326
00:20:10,810 --> 00:20:13,813
YOU MAY
NOT HAVE MEANT TO,
BUT YOU DID.

327
00:20:13,913 --> 00:20:19,719
IT SOUNDS LIKE
YOU WANTED TO BRING THIS
RELATIONSHIP INTO CRISIS.

328
00:20:19,819 --> 00:20:22,689
I KNOW YOU SAY THAT ANDREW
HATES UNCERTAINTIES,

329
00:20:22,789 --> 00:20:27,660
BUT PERHAPS YOU'RE
THE ONE WHO CAN'T
LIVE WITH THEM.

330
00:20:28,995 --> 00:20:33,333
I MEAN, WHY DID YOU CHOOSE
THIS PARTICULAR TIME

331
00:20:33,433 --> 00:20:37,236
- TO BRING THINGS TO A HEAD?
- I DID NO SUCH THING.

332
00:20:40,707 --> 00:20:43,510
WHY NOW?

333
00:20:47,314 --> 00:20:50,016
BECAUSE HE'S RIGHT.

334
00:20:51,150 --> 00:20:53,353
ANDREW'S RIGHT.

335
00:20:54,321 --> 00:20:56,589
I AM BEING
UNFAITHFUL TO HIM.

336
00:20:56,689 --> 00:20:59,659
YOU MEAN WHAT
HAPPENED LAST NIGHT

337
00:20:59,759 --> 00:21:02,228
AT THE CLUB?

338
00:21:02,329 --> 00:21:04,864
NOT JUST LAST NIGHT.

339
00:21:06,666 --> 00:21:10,370
I'VE-- I'VE BEEN UNFAITHFUL
TO HIM FOR A LONG TIME.

340
00:21:11,938 --> 00:21:14,841
AHEM, SO WHY--
WHY HAVEN'T WE TALKED
ABOUT THIS BEFORE?

341
00:21:17,744 --> 00:21:19,812
I THINK WE HAVE.

342
00:21:22,482 --> 00:21:25,818
IT'S BEEN HERE ALL ALONG.

343
00:21:27,354 --> 00:21:29,956
YOU MEAN TO SAY
YOU'VE NEVER NOTICED IT?

344
00:21:33,326 --> 00:21:34,861
YOU'RE SURPRISED.

345
00:21:36,596 --> 00:21:38,431
( chuckles )
NO, I'M NOT SURPRISED.

346
00:21:38,531 --> 00:21:41,300
I-- I JUST--
I DON'T FOLLOW WHAT YOU MEAN.

347
00:21:41,401 --> 00:21:43,770
( scoffs )

348
00:21:50,710 --> 00:21:55,715
THIS ISN'T THE REACTION
I WAS HOPING FOR.

349
00:21:57,016 --> 00:21:58,485
NOT AT ALL.

350
00:21:58,585 --> 00:22:02,755
WHAT WAS
THE REACTION THAT YOU
WERE HOPING FOR?

351
00:22:04,090 --> 00:22:07,293
I-- I HAD...

352
00:22:07,394 --> 00:22:09,061
TWO SCENARIOS
IN MY HEAD.

353
00:22:09,161 --> 00:22:12,832
IN THE FIRST
ONE YOU STAND UP
AND YOU HUG ME...

354
00:22:14,300 --> 00:22:16,335
AND YOU SAY,
"I LOVE YOU.

355
00:22:16,436 --> 00:22:19,772
I LOVE YOU TOO, LAURA.

356
00:22:19,872 --> 00:22:21,808
I'VE BEEN FEELING THIS WAY
FOR A LONG TIME.

357
00:22:21,908 --> 00:22:24,744
I JUST WANTED YOU
TO BE THE FIRST ONE
TO SAY IT."

358
00:22:26,546 --> 00:22:29,015
AND THEN WE MAKE LOVE.

359
00:22:31,484 --> 00:22:34,787
AND THE, UM--

360
00:22:34,887 --> 00:22:37,056
THE SECOND SCENARIO?

361
00:22:37,156 --> 00:22:40,292
IT'S LIKE
THE FIRST ONE BUT--

362
00:22:40,393 --> 00:22:41,961
BUT WITHOUT THE SEX.

363
00:22:42,061 --> 00:22:44,764
WE JUST SIT HERE TOGETHER.

364
00:22:47,166 --> 00:22:49,902
( sighs )

365
00:22:50,002 --> 00:22:53,640
YOU KNOW, I'M-- I'M--
I'M EMBARRASSED TO EVEN
TALK ABOUT IT.

366
00:22:53,740 --> 00:22:56,042
I MEAN, YOU'RE SITTING THERE
LIKE A FUCKING BUDDHA

367
00:22:56,142 --> 00:22:59,812
ACTING LIKE YOU HAVE NO IDEA
WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT.
IT'S HUMILIATING.

368
00:23:02,615 --> 00:23:05,251
HOW LONG HAVE YOU
FELT LIKE THIS?

369
00:23:05,351 --> 00:23:07,720
A YEAR...

370
00:23:09,121 --> 00:23:11,458
FROM THE FIRST SESSION.
I THOUGHT IT WOULD GO AWAY.

371
00:23:11,558 --> 00:23:14,794
I THOUGHT IT'S
JUST AN INFATUATION,
THAT'S ALL.

372
00:23:16,328 --> 00:23:19,532
BUT IT'S GETTING WORSE.

373
00:23:19,632 --> 00:23:22,702
YOU'VE BECOME
THE CENTER OF MY LIFE.

374
00:23:26,873 --> 00:23:28,941
LAURA,

375
00:23:29,041 --> 00:23:31,911
I'M YOUR THERAPIST.

376
00:23:34,346 --> 00:23:37,750
THE PARAMETERS
AND THE LIMITATIONS...

377
00:23:39,318 --> 00:23:43,089
ARE ESTABLISHED
AND ETHICALLY DEFINED.

378
00:23:45,925 --> 00:23:47,894
I'M NOT AN OPTION.

379
00:23:51,130 --> 00:23:53,232
YOU MAY BE

380
00:23:53,332 --> 00:23:56,268
USING ME AS A--

381
00:23:56,368 --> 00:23:58,137
AS AN EXCUSE

382
00:23:58,237 --> 00:24:02,475
TO BAIL FROM YOUR
RELATIONSHIP WITH--
WITH ANDREW.

383
00:24:10,416 --> 00:24:12,652
YOU KNOW WHY I DIDN'T
FUCK THAT GUY?

384
00:24:14,253 --> 00:24:15,955
NOT BECAUSE OF ANDREW.

385
00:24:16,055 --> 00:24:18,090
NOT BECAUSE I DIDN'T
WANT TO CHEAT ON HIM.

386
00:24:18,190 --> 00:24:19,559
I DO WANT TO CHEAT
ON HIM--

387
00:24:19,659 --> 00:24:21,828
BUT WITH YOU.

388
00:24:25,932 --> 00:24:29,135
WHEN I WAS SITTING THERE
AT THE BAR BY MYSELF,

389
00:24:29,235 --> 00:24:32,071
I WAS THINKING
WHAT WOULD HAPPEN
IF YOU WERE TO WALK IN?

390
00:24:32,171 --> 00:24:35,074
YOU'D WALK IN, YOU'D--
YOU'D SIT NEXT TO ME
AT THE BAR,

391
00:24:35,174 --> 00:24:36,743
YOU'D ORDER A DRINK.
I'D EVEN--

392
00:24:36,843 --> 00:24:39,579
I EVEN TRIED TO IMAGINE
WHAT YOU WOULD ORDER--

393
00:24:39,679 --> 00:24:42,014
A SHOT OF BOURBON MAYBE,
SOMETHING EXPENSIVE,

394
00:24:42,114 --> 00:24:45,484
SOMETHING FANCY.
THEN WE'D START TALKING--

395
00:24:45,585 --> 00:24:48,621
WHAT A COINCIDENCE
IT IS TO MEET LIKE THIS,

396
00:24:48,721 --> 00:24:51,691
HOW AWKWARD IT IS TO MEET
OUTSIDE THE OFFICE.

397
00:24:53,359 --> 00:24:55,795
AND THEN, WITHOUT WORDS,

398
00:24:55,895 --> 00:24:58,931
BECAUSE WE--
WE TALK ENOUGH
WHEN WE'RE HERE,

399
00:25:00,633 --> 00:25:03,803
YOU MOTION
FOR ME TO FOLLOW YOU
TO THE BATHROOM.

400
00:25:05,171 --> 00:25:07,874
AND I DO.

401
00:25:09,876 --> 00:25:13,780
WHEN I WENT
INTO THE STALL
WITH THAT GUY...

402
00:25:16,315 --> 00:25:18,585
I IMAGINED IT WAS YOU
BEHIND ME.

403
00:25:18,685 --> 00:25:21,020
THAT'S WHAT MADE IT
SO EXCITING.

404
00:25:21,988 --> 00:25:24,857
THEN THAT GUY
STARTED PEEING

405
00:25:24,957 --> 00:25:27,994
AND IT WOKE ME UP
AND I REALIZED THAT
IT'S IMPOSSIBLE.

406
00:25:28,928 --> 00:25:30,963
I KNOW IT,
I UNDERSTAND IT.

407
00:25:31,063 --> 00:25:33,265
I TELL MYSELF THAT
EVERY TIME I WALK
OUT OF HERE.

408
00:25:33,365 --> 00:25:36,969
I KNOW IT, I UNDERSTAND IT
BUT I'M NOT SURE THAT MY BODY
UNDERSTANDS IT.

409
00:25:39,706 --> 00:25:43,910
I KNOW IT CAN
NEVER HAPPEN.
I KNOW IT.

410
00:25:44,010 --> 00:25:46,312
SO DON'T WORRY.
I'M NOT GONNA START
SHOWING UP HERE.

411
00:25:46,412 --> 00:25:49,448
I'M NOT GONNA START
STALKING YOU

412
00:25:49,548 --> 00:25:52,084
LIKE GLENN CLOSE
IN THAT MOVIE.

413
00:25:53,185 --> 00:25:56,222
I'M NOT GONNA BOIL
YOUR KIDS' RABBIT.

414
00:25:56,322 --> 00:25:58,257
I'M NOT DANGEROUS...

415
00:26:01,160 --> 00:26:03,630
AT LEAST NOT TO YOU.

416
00:26:03,730 --> 00:26:06,365
GOD, HOW CAN I
GO BACK TO MY LIFE,

417
00:26:06,465 --> 00:26:08,167
TO THE HOSPITAL,
TO ANDREW?

418
00:26:08,267 --> 00:26:11,904
NOT TO ANDREW,
WHEN THE ONLY THING
THAT MATTERS TO ME IS YOU.

419
00:26:14,907 --> 00:26:17,576
( footsteps approaching )

420
00:26:26,285 --> 00:26:28,788
OUR TIME'S UP.

421
00:26:31,357 --> 00:26:34,060
YES, IT IS.

422
00:26:35,394 --> 00:26:37,830
( sighs )

423
00:26:39,866 --> 00:26:42,001
I FEEL LIKE I CAME HERE
IN THE DARK

424
00:26:42,101 --> 00:26:44,904
AND I'M LEAVING
INTO A BIGGER DARKNESS.

425
00:26:48,507 --> 00:26:50,877
WHAT AM I GONNA DO NOW?

426
00:26:52,812 --> 00:26:55,381
WE'LL TALK ABOUT IT
NEXT WEEK.

427
00:26:56,348 --> 00:26:58,851
OKAY?

428
00:27:03,189 --> 00:27:07,226
- ( piano music plays )
- I'LL CALL YOU A TAXI.

429
00:27:07,326 --> 00:27:09,829
NO, I'M FINE.

430
00:27:10,663 --> 00:27:13,065
ARE YOU SURE?

431
00:27:16,635 --> 00:27:18,871
HOW ARE YOU
GONNA GET HOME?

432
00:27:18,971 --> 00:27:22,141
( music continues )