1 00:00:02,043 --> 00:00:04,883 This programme contains very strong language from the start 2 00:00:04,923 --> 00:00:08,003 More young people are in the care system than ever before. 3 00:00:10,203 --> 00:00:12,683 But they're rarely seen and rarely heard. 4 00:00:14,363 --> 00:00:16,483 This series wants to change that. 5 00:00:17,563 --> 00:00:21,003 # Ah, never let a clock tell you what you got time for 6 00:00:21,043 --> 00:00:23,163 # It only goes around, goes around, goes around 7 00:00:23,203 --> 00:00:25,603 # Take your family name for your own great sins 8 00:00:25,643 --> 00:00:27,923 # Cos each day is where it all begins 9 00:00:27,963 --> 00:00:30,003 # And don't give up too quick 10 00:00:30,043 --> 00:00:32,763 # You only get one line, you better make it stick 11 00:00:32,803 --> 00:00:35,003 # If we give ourselves to every breath 12 00:00:35,043 --> 00:00:37,763 # Then we're all in the running for a hero's death. # 13 00:00:52,403 --> 00:00:54,523 # I walk down the road 14 00:00:56,723 --> 00:01:01,203 # Let my body wake up by the way...# 15 00:01:02,843 --> 00:01:06,283 So today, we're going to meet a new case that we've had. 16 00:01:07,443 --> 00:01:13,403 He is 17 and wanting to go back home to Mum. 17 00:01:13,443 --> 00:01:16,323 Kayleigh is working with a teenager removed from his family 18 00:01:16,363 --> 00:01:18,523 four years ago. 19 00:01:20,443 --> 00:01:22,723 He and his brother are due to return. 20 00:01:22,763 --> 00:01:25,163 But first, Kayleigh is meeting their mum. 21 00:01:27,763 --> 00:01:28,763 DOG BARKS 22 00:01:28,803 --> 00:01:30,203 WOMAN SHOUTS 23 00:01:30,243 --> 00:01:31,723 Hi. Hiya! 24 00:01:33,043 --> 00:01:34,963 Come on in, whoever you are. My name's Kayleigh. 25 00:01:35,003 --> 00:01:36,843 Nice to meet you. Hiya. Kayleigh? Yes. 26 00:01:36,883 --> 00:01:38,963 All right? Pleased to meet you. 27 00:01:48,203 --> 00:01:50,003 I am from the Edge of Care team... Right. 28 00:01:50,043 --> 00:01:53,963 ..which are sitting in the reunification to get children home. 29 00:01:54,003 --> 00:01:56,963 Kelly's youngest, Taffa, is home on a visit. 30 00:01:57,003 --> 00:01:59,043 GUNFIRE COMPUTER GAME Where the fuck are you?! 31 00:01:59,083 --> 00:02:01,323 Where the fuck, like... Oh, oh, oh! 32 00:02:02,603 --> 00:02:06,203 Xorin will be moving back permanently and Kaleigh's job 33 00:02:06,243 --> 00:02:10,003 is to support Kelly and Xorin as they try to live together again. 34 00:02:10,043 --> 00:02:13,403 It might be two or three times a week that I'll come out. Right. 35 00:02:13,443 --> 00:02:15,883 I might see you separately, I might see Xorin separately, 36 00:02:15,923 --> 00:02:17,443 I will definitely see you together. 37 00:02:17,483 --> 00:02:21,203 So if you think of your relationship with Xorin out of one to ten, 38 00:02:21,243 --> 00:02:23,563 with ten being the best and one being it's not very good, 39 00:02:23,603 --> 00:02:26,603 what would you say it was? Ten. Yeah? It always has been a ten. 40 00:02:26,643 --> 00:02:29,043 And what about routines and boundaries at home? 41 00:02:29,083 --> 00:02:31,963 Pff... A nine. Yeah. 42 00:02:32,003 --> 00:02:34,963 What about him being safe at home? 43 00:02:35,003 --> 00:02:37,043 Ten. Yeah. 44 00:02:37,083 --> 00:02:39,163 What about your parenting approach? 45 00:02:39,203 --> 00:02:42,363 Oh, I tell you what, say ten and a half. 46 00:02:43,483 --> 00:02:47,203 Um, OK. What we're going to do is work with you quite intensively. 47 00:02:47,243 --> 00:02:50,003 Does that kind of sound something that like yous are happy to do 48 00:02:50,043 --> 00:02:51,843 and go along with or...? Yeah, man. Yeah? 49 00:02:51,883 --> 00:02:54,163 We have no choice, do we? We have to play the game. 50 00:02:56,883 --> 00:02:58,763 WASHING MACHINE WHIRS 51 00:02:58,803 --> 00:03:00,723 What do you make of Kayleigh? 52 00:03:00,763 --> 00:03:02,443 She seems all right. 53 00:03:02,483 --> 00:03:04,043 Mm... 54 00:03:04,083 --> 00:03:06,083 I don't know her yet. 55 00:03:06,123 --> 00:03:08,963 I guess over the years, you've just see so many people come in and out. 56 00:03:09,003 --> 00:03:11,283 Yeah. What does that do to you? It just fucks your head up, 57 00:03:11,323 --> 00:03:12,923 cos you don't trust anyone. 58 00:03:12,963 --> 00:03:15,683 And I need...I need to see her say what she's going to do 59 00:03:15,723 --> 00:03:18,323 before I'll trust her and before I even will probably like her 60 00:03:18,363 --> 00:03:20,723 cos that's what - you know, I need to see people's words 61 00:03:20,763 --> 00:03:23,443 meet their actions, rather than just come in and give me a whole load 62 00:03:23,483 --> 00:03:25,043 of fucking spin and go again. 63 00:03:25,083 --> 00:03:27,043 Checklist, what do you think of the checklist? 64 00:03:27,083 --> 00:03:29,203 SHOUTING FROM OTHER ROOM Checklist... 65 00:03:29,243 --> 00:03:31,323 Is he all right? He's playing a game. 66 00:03:31,363 --> 00:03:33,283 What's up with him? That's him playing... 67 00:03:33,323 --> 00:03:36,923 That's him on bloody Call of Duty or whatever he's playing. 68 00:03:36,963 --> 00:03:38,803 So what did you say? Anyway, yeah, checklist, 69 00:03:38,843 --> 00:03:40,243 what did you make of the checklist? 70 00:03:40,283 --> 00:03:42,163 Checklist, it's a bit kind of bullshit, innit? 71 00:03:42,203 --> 00:03:44,323 I suppose they need to because there's a lot of people 72 00:03:44,363 --> 00:03:46,923 dysfunctional, but I suppose she wasn't expecting kind of high 73 00:03:46,963 --> 00:03:49,243 fucking levels like that cos they don't really have much 74 00:03:49,283 --> 00:03:50,723 to work with me - me and my kids. 75 00:03:50,763 --> 00:03:52,603 Yeah, you were coming back with nines and ten. 76 00:03:52,643 --> 00:03:55,403 Do you know what I mean? They were expecting, what, threes and fours? 77 00:03:55,443 --> 00:03:57,483 You know, that's how we are. 78 00:04:02,083 --> 00:04:05,563 She was giving you some very high scores. She was at the start, yeah. 79 00:04:05,603 --> 00:04:08,283 I mean, we don't...we don't usually get that, to be honest. 80 00:04:08,323 --> 00:04:10,603 Don't you? What would you normally get? 81 00:04:10,643 --> 00:04:12,923 Erm... Usually... 82 00:04:12,963 --> 00:04:16,963 Not nines and tens? No. Threes and fours? 83 00:04:17,003 --> 00:04:20,483 I mean, it differs, to be honest, but, um, yeah, 84 00:04:20,523 --> 00:04:23,643 usually between kind of threes and... Threes and eights. 85 00:04:26,923 --> 00:04:29,883 Kelly and Xorin will be visited twice a week for the next 86 00:04:29,923 --> 00:04:33,083 three months, but the decision to allow him back 87 00:04:33,123 --> 00:04:35,203 doesn't come without risks. 88 00:04:35,243 --> 00:04:37,683 So previously, we had concerns around Mum's mental health. 89 00:04:37,723 --> 00:04:41,003 Yeah, and I know there were concerns around that kind of physical abuse, 90 00:04:41,043 --> 00:04:44,963 so we've had to weigh that up with the risks of him returning. 91 00:04:45,003 --> 00:04:48,163 But with all the work that's been done with the family, this is, 92 00:04:48,203 --> 00:04:51,043 I think, the best route for them. 93 00:04:51,083 --> 00:04:54,883 In terms of the exploitation worries that we had previously, 94 00:04:54,923 --> 00:04:57,243 where...where is he at? 95 00:04:57,283 --> 00:05:00,843 We needed to get him out of the area to keep him safe. 96 00:05:02,203 --> 00:05:04,923 So that's when he ended up moving to Wales. 97 00:05:04,963 --> 00:05:08,003 It was actually a crisis intervention placement at the time. 98 00:05:11,203 --> 00:05:12,723 KNOCK AT DOOR 99 00:05:14,083 --> 00:05:16,283 Hello? Wha gwan, fam? 100 00:05:16,323 --> 00:05:17,923 Come in, g. 101 00:05:17,963 --> 00:05:20,603 Kelly's son Xorin is now 17, 102 00:05:20,643 --> 00:05:23,083 and living in a residential children's home 103 00:05:23,123 --> 00:05:25,923 more than 100 miles from Coventry. 104 00:05:25,963 --> 00:05:27,643 It's a nice spot, isn't it? 105 00:05:27,683 --> 00:05:29,363 How many people live here? 106 00:05:29,403 --> 00:05:31,043 Four of us live here. 107 00:05:31,083 --> 00:05:34,923 But, like, the rotation wise on the staff, there's about 30 of us. 108 00:05:34,963 --> 00:05:37,483 Got 30 staff to four... 109 00:05:37,523 --> 00:05:40,963 Yo! We know we ain't a good crowd to look after, man. 110 00:05:44,723 --> 00:05:48,483 Yeah, it is. It's like a long term vacation, innit? 111 00:05:48,523 --> 00:05:50,883 I like it, man, I likes my peace, bro, do you know what I mean? 112 00:05:50,923 --> 00:05:53,003 Can you hear the wind? It's beautiful. 113 00:05:53,043 --> 00:05:55,123 It's what we've got to like around here, man. 114 00:05:59,843 --> 00:06:01,963 Because... 115 00:06:02,003 --> 00:06:05,683 If I didn't leave, I don't know... I don't know where I'd be now. 116 00:06:05,723 --> 00:06:08,203 Probably in jail or something. 117 00:06:08,243 --> 00:06:10,523 Jail or even dead, I don't know. 118 00:06:12,443 --> 00:06:17,683 Whilst in care in Coventry, Xorin was groomed by a local gang. 119 00:06:17,723 --> 00:06:20,443 Fearing for his life, Children's Services moved him 120 00:06:20,483 --> 00:06:22,323 out of the city completely. 121 00:06:25,043 --> 00:06:28,523 So what were you doing when you were involved with the gang? 122 00:06:28,563 --> 00:06:32,763 I was basically selling fucking crack and heroin, innit? 123 00:06:32,803 --> 00:06:35,723 Long story short, version one. 124 00:06:35,763 --> 00:06:39,243 If you'd talked to social workers or your mum, or, like, 125 00:06:39,283 --> 00:06:41,643 they would say you were exploited by a gang. 126 00:06:41,683 --> 00:06:43,963 Do you see it like that? 127 00:06:44,003 --> 00:06:47,123 No, cos it's ain't... It ain't exploitation. 128 00:06:47,163 --> 00:06:49,323 It literally...it literally ain't exploitation. 129 00:06:49,363 --> 00:06:52,443 Even if you're 14 and you're selling drugs, like, what, 14-year-old... 130 00:06:52,483 --> 00:06:54,643 If you say, if you say yes to selling drugs... 131 00:06:54,683 --> 00:06:57,563 The only way, the only way it's like forced and all that shit 132 00:06:57,603 --> 00:07:00,003 is if they go, yeah, you're selling it out without an option. 133 00:07:00,043 --> 00:07:02,203 Do you get me? But if you say yeah to it, 134 00:07:02,243 --> 00:07:04,883 it's not really grooming because they've asked you 135 00:07:04,923 --> 00:07:07,163 and you've gone "Yeah." 136 00:07:07,203 --> 00:07:09,203 What would happen to you, though, if you lost some 137 00:07:09,243 --> 00:07:10,443 of those drugs or whatever? 138 00:07:10,483 --> 00:07:12,643 How would they treat you in that situation, like... 139 00:07:12,683 --> 00:07:14,243 Well, obviously you pay off your debt, 140 00:07:14,283 --> 00:07:15,523 if you don't pay off your debt, 141 00:07:15,563 --> 00:07:17,763 you get your head smashed in, simple as that. 142 00:07:22,003 --> 00:07:24,563 What was going on when you were taken into care, then? 143 00:07:25,963 --> 00:07:28,283 Jeez... Um... 144 00:07:28,323 --> 00:07:30,683 It was just literally always kicking off. 145 00:07:30,723 --> 00:07:32,523 Always kick off, always this, always that, 146 00:07:32,563 --> 00:07:35,923 always just something going on, do you know what I mean? 147 00:07:35,963 --> 00:07:38,923 There was a few occasions, obviously, it did get physical. 148 00:07:45,203 --> 00:07:46,963 SHE EXHALES 149 00:07:47,003 --> 00:07:49,083 So my mental health is really, really bad. 150 00:07:50,763 --> 00:07:52,123 I was working full time. 151 00:07:52,163 --> 00:07:54,043 I wasn't getting... I wasn't getting any help. 152 00:07:54,083 --> 00:07:55,963 Nobody would look after my kids. 153 00:07:56,003 --> 00:07:58,843 So I was basically really, really struggling. 154 00:07:58,883 --> 00:08:00,683 Really struggling. 155 00:08:00,723 --> 00:08:03,843 The night that it all kicked off, I just walked out the house 156 00:08:03,883 --> 00:08:06,163 and was wandering around the streets crying. 157 00:08:08,123 --> 00:08:10,123 I didn't want to be here. 158 00:08:12,883 --> 00:08:15,523 The next morning, I'd got up and I've come downstairs 159 00:08:15,563 --> 00:08:17,843 and we're arguing and he's turned around and looked at me 160 00:08:17,883 --> 00:08:20,043 and he's gone, "Oh, shut up, you fat bitch." 161 00:08:20,083 --> 00:08:21,363 And what happened then? 162 00:08:21,403 --> 00:08:23,523 So I slapped him, 163 00:08:23,563 --> 00:08:25,403 and I made sure I went and told everybody 164 00:08:25,443 --> 00:08:27,003 cos I knew what would happen. 165 00:08:27,043 --> 00:08:29,003 But I thought that'd help me with respite. 166 00:08:29,043 --> 00:08:31,683 They then took me to court and took my kids off me 167 00:08:31,723 --> 00:08:34,043 for emotional abuse. 168 00:08:38,043 --> 00:08:40,443 We were struggling. 169 00:08:40,483 --> 00:08:42,643 We still loved each other. 170 00:08:42,683 --> 00:08:45,043 We still were there for each other. 171 00:08:45,083 --> 00:08:47,483 But I was struggling. Yeah. 172 00:08:54,363 --> 00:08:56,923 That's where it just got too much. 173 00:08:56,963 --> 00:08:58,763 So obviously I got moved out. 174 00:09:00,003 --> 00:09:02,443 Oh, yeah, you're getting moved to this place. 175 00:09:02,483 --> 00:09:05,483 Never, had never seen who they looked like or nothing like that. 176 00:09:05,523 --> 00:09:07,203 Never met them before. 177 00:09:07,243 --> 00:09:09,723 Literally just got my shit, took me out. 178 00:09:21,083 --> 00:09:22,203 Right. 179 00:09:23,283 --> 00:09:25,603 In shit hole of doom! 180 00:09:25,643 --> 00:09:27,803 Oh, where do I start? 181 00:09:27,843 --> 00:09:29,083 What's happening? 182 00:09:29,123 --> 00:09:32,003 I've got to clear room so he can bring all his stuff 183 00:09:32,043 --> 00:09:33,923 from his care home. 184 00:09:35,163 --> 00:09:37,603 What does it mean to you, him coming back? 185 00:09:37,643 --> 00:09:39,523 It means everything. 186 00:09:39,563 --> 00:09:41,203 It means... 187 00:09:45,403 --> 00:09:48,563 It means I wasn't the person that I was when they took my 188 00:09:48,603 --> 00:09:50,443 kids off me. 189 00:09:50,483 --> 00:09:52,883 The last four years and eight months have been an absolute 190 00:09:52,923 --> 00:09:54,683 fucking nightmare. 191 00:09:54,723 --> 00:09:58,443 So for him to be home and wake up every morning with me 192 00:09:58,483 --> 00:10:01,323 and be happy and not be a fucking kid in care any more, 193 00:10:01,363 --> 00:10:04,643 which he should never have been in the first place, is massive. 194 00:10:12,043 --> 00:10:14,083 Is that everything now, geez? 195 00:10:14,123 --> 00:10:16,163 Yeah. Bring it in now. 196 00:10:16,203 --> 00:10:18,603 All right, all right! Uh! 197 00:10:18,643 --> 00:10:20,163 All right. 198 00:10:20,203 --> 00:10:21,643 I don't want to shit me organs out. 199 00:10:21,683 --> 00:10:23,843 Oh, don't be a stranger. 200 00:10:26,083 --> 00:10:28,523 Why do you think it's OK to bring him home? 201 00:10:28,563 --> 00:10:30,323 Isn't it a bit risky? 202 00:10:30,363 --> 00:10:31,683 It is risky. 203 00:10:31,723 --> 00:10:35,323 We can't ever really get rid of risk completely for these young people. 204 00:10:35,363 --> 00:10:37,483 But it's about managing it, it's about assessing it. 205 00:10:37,523 --> 00:10:39,203 It's about knowing what it is. 206 00:10:39,243 --> 00:10:40,923 Safe, my g! 207 00:10:40,963 --> 00:10:43,923 THEY LAUGH Take care, love.Love you. 208 00:10:43,963 --> 00:10:45,643 Say hi to your mum! 209 00:10:45,683 --> 00:10:47,563 # It's not you, so I guess it's me (feel away) 210 00:10:47,603 --> 00:10:50,003 # It's not you, so I guess it's me (feel away) 211 00:10:50,043 --> 00:10:53,003 # Suddenly not half the man I used to be (feel away) 212 00:10:53,043 --> 00:10:55,843 # But truthfully, ain't half the bitch you could've been...# 213 00:10:55,883 --> 00:10:59,003 There's the obvious risk that the exploitation starts again. 214 00:11:00,883 --> 00:11:03,643 But then there's the sort of more subtle one about the relationship 215 00:11:03,683 --> 00:11:06,443 between him and his mum and actually how that plays out. 216 00:11:08,403 --> 00:11:10,803 How are we going to support the family so that they're able 217 00:11:10,843 --> 00:11:13,763 to manage the conflict that they might have? 218 00:11:13,803 --> 00:11:15,283 Party time. 219 00:11:16,323 --> 00:11:18,123 Cheer, babe. You take care, too. 220 00:11:18,163 --> 00:11:20,123 HE MUTTERS INDISTINCLY 221 00:11:30,883 --> 00:11:32,843 PULSATING BEAT 222 00:11:32,883 --> 00:11:34,683 It's just like a dog barking. 223 00:11:34,723 --> 00:11:36,843 It sounds lovely. It sounds really good. 224 00:11:36,883 --> 00:11:38,363 THEY LAUGH 225 00:11:38,403 --> 00:11:40,243 ULTRASOUND PULSES 226 00:11:40,283 --> 00:11:42,683 There we are, just use that tissue just to get the gel off you, 227 00:11:42,723 --> 00:11:44,763 all right? You're all finished. Thank you so much. 228 00:11:44,803 --> 00:11:46,243 You're welcome. 229 00:11:47,323 --> 00:11:50,203 Annabelle has just turned 18. 230 00:11:50,243 --> 00:11:52,523 Along with her brother, she was removed from her parents 231 00:11:52,563 --> 00:11:54,403 when she was just five, 232 00:11:54,443 --> 00:11:56,763 and has lived with foster families ever since. 233 00:11:58,763 --> 00:12:00,723 I'd say it's a boy. 234 00:12:00,763 --> 00:12:03,003 Boys have fat heads, 235 00:12:03,043 --> 00:12:04,843 and you can't disagree with me. 236 00:12:04,883 --> 00:12:07,723 THEY LAUGH He's got a fat head! 237 00:12:08,843 --> 00:12:12,123 What kind of life do you want the baby to have? 238 00:12:12,163 --> 00:12:14,683 The life I didn't have, that's for definite. 239 00:12:16,723 --> 00:12:19,283 This is myself and my younger brother. 240 00:12:21,643 --> 00:12:23,443 And when you see yourself in that picture, 241 00:12:23,483 --> 00:12:25,683 what's it make you think? 242 00:12:25,723 --> 00:12:29,443 You just want to go and give the kid a hug, basically, 243 00:12:29,483 --> 00:12:32,483 because of everything that's happened and then 244 00:12:32,523 --> 00:12:34,683 everything you were told. 245 00:12:34,723 --> 00:12:36,723 What kind of mum do you want to be? 246 00:12:38,443 --> 00:12:40,443 I don't know. Just... 247 00:12:41,963 --> 00:12:44,883 ..a mum. A better mum than mine. 248 00:12:44,923 --> 00:12:46,643 That's all I want. 249 00:12:46,683 --> 00:12:48,883 Someone who's actually going to care. 250 00:12:54,843 --> 00:12:57,243 # I don't need the moon 251 00:12:58,523 --> 00:13:01,043 # On a silver spoon 252 00:13:03,603 --> 00:13:05,483 # I just need to be loved...# 253 00:13:05,523 --> 00:13:07,003 Where are we, then? 254 00:13:07,043 --> 00:13:12,203 So we're in Willenhall and we are on the way to my parents' house. 255 00:13:12,243 --> 00:13:16,123 Although Annabel was removed from her parents 14 years ago, 256 00:13:16,163 --> 00:13:19,203 like so many care leavers in their late teens, 257 00:13:19,243 --> 00:13:21,723 she wanted to return to her birth family 258 00:13:21,763 --> 00:13:23,923 and has moved back to live near them. 259 00:13:25,283 --> 00:13:29,683 I'd always seemed to be more responsible, 260 00:13:29,723 --> 00:13:33,283 more of the adult in situations. 261 00:13:34,363 --> 00:13:36,963 Can you introduce us? So, Paddy, 262 00:13:37,003 --> 00:13:38,403 this is my dad, Stephen. 263 00:13:38,443 --> 00:13:40,603 Hello, Stephen. Hi, how you doing? 264 00:13:40,643 --> 00:13:43,123 And... Mum, come here. Hello! This is my mother, Tammy. 265 00:13:43,163 --> 00:13:44,803 Hello. Hello. 266 00:13:44,843 --> 00:13:46,243 Nice to meet you, Tammy. 267 00:13:46,283 --> 00:13:48,643 What did you think when she first told you she was pregnant? 268 00:13:48,683 --> 00:13:51,203 I barricaded myself in the bedroom. 269 00:13:51,243 --> 00:13:55,203 Why? Because it was a shock to Tammy than what it was to me. 270 00:13:55,243 --> 00:13:58,363 Nearly knocked me out first, yeah? Let's get that one first. 271 00:13:58,403 --> 00:14:00,523 Oh, yeah. Nearly knocked me out... Yeah. 272 00:14:00,563 --> 00:14:02,923 Then stormed off in huff, then I told you to grow up. 273 00:14:02,963 --> 00:14:05,363 Then you barricaded yourself in the bedroom like a toddler. 274 00:14:05,403 --> 00:14:07,723 Yeah? Yeah. Right, OK, glad we settled that. 275 00:14:07,763 --> 00:14:09,643 And why...why... Were you upset? 276 00:14:09,683 --> 00:14:11,083 Yes. Why? 277 00:14:11,123 --> 00:14:13,283 Cos I thought she had her head screwed on 278 00:14:13,323 --> 00:14:15,283 and she knew what she wanted in life. 279 00:14:15,323 --> 00:14:17,363 I can show you... What was she like as a little girl? 280 00:14:17,403 --> 00:14:19,163 Oh, that's debatable. 281 00:14:19,203 --> 00:14:21,003 There is... 282 00:14:21,043 --> 00:14:24,003 I don't know if you'll be able to see that one. 283 00:14:24,043 --> 00:14:26,483 A picture of Annabelle. Aw! 284 00:14:28,043 --> 00:14:30,723 And then there's that one up there with her brother. 285 00:14:32,643 --> 00:14:35,483 What was it like the day that she was removed, like? 286 00:14:35,523 --> 00:14:37,283 It was horrible. It was horrible. Yeah. 287 00:14:37,323 --> 00:14:39,603 It was... Seriously, it hurt. Yeah. 288 00:14:39,643 --> 00:14:43,243 It was if somebody had literally ripped my heart out. 289 00:14:43,283 --> 00:14:47,123 Yeah. I try not to remember that day. 290 00:14:47,163 --> 00:14:49,443 I just remember all the good memories that we had 291 00:14:49,483 --> 00:14:51,643 while we had them at home. 292 00:14:51,683 --> 00:14:54,803 It's still there, but I just don't think about it. Mm. 293 00:14:55,963 --> 00:14:57,683 So, yeah. 294 00:14:57,723 --> 00:15:00,203 I tried and talk to you about it and see how you felt 295 00:15:00,243 --> 00:15:02,963 when it happened. Mm. 296 00:15:03,003 --> 00:15:05,443 But you said you can't really remember anything. 297 00:15:06,523 --> 00:15:08,803 I can. When they came and got you. 298 00:15:08,843 --> 00:15:11,643 Oh, Mum, I remember it like it was yesterday. 299 00:15:11,683 --> 00:15:13,563 Mm. Everything. 300 00:15:15,963 --> 00:15:18,483 We were sitting there back to watch this film and then we heard 301 00:15:18,523 --> 00:15:20,323 knocking on the door. 302 00:15:20,363 --> 00:15:23,243 And then 30 seconds later, 303 00:15:23,283 --> 00:15:25,763 there's about four or five police officers charging 304 00:15:25,803 --> 00:15:27,723 through the living room door. 305 00:15:27,763 --> 00:15:31,283 I remember picking up my brother and holding him 306 00:15:31,323 --> 00:15:36,003 and the police officers had my mum and dad in handcuffs. 307 00:15:37,803 --> 00:15:41,003 My dad didn't say much, he just got on with it. 308 00:15:41,043 --> 00:15:44,043 But my mum was screaming hysterically, 309 00:15:44,083 --> 00:15:45,763 telling them to get off her. 310 00:15:45,803 --> 00:15:48,123 "Let me say goodbye to my kids." 311 00:15:48,163 --> 00:15:50,683 What was going through your mind? Were you...were you crying? 312 00:15:50,723 --> 00:15:52,683 I just... I didn't understand what was going on. 313 00:15:52,723 --> 00:15:56,323 Yeah, I was crying because I always got told that police 314 00:15:56,363 --> 00:15:58,563 only went for bad people, 315 00:15:58,603 --> 00:16:02,123 like thieves or people who hurt people. 316 00:16:02,163 --> 00:16:06,323 And then seeing the only people that you've known in your life, 317 00:16:06,363 --> 00:16:09,723 basically, to just all of a sudden disappear... 318 00:16:11,923 --> 00:16:14,283 And then you're left with your brother, 319 00:16:14,323 --> 00:16:16,363 not knowing what's going to happen next. 320 00:16:23,923 --> 00:16:26,003 She's got a lot on her plate, hasn't she? 321 00:16:26,043 --> 00:16:27,563 Yeah, she has. 322 00:16:27,603 --> 00:16:29,443 She's pregnant. 323 00:16:29,483 --> 00:16:31,563 She's just moved into her own tenancy. 324 00:16:31,603 --> 00:16:33,323 She's in a new relationship. 325 00:16:33,363 --> 00:16:37,843 It's all very big things to have happened since she turned 18. 326 00:16:40,883 --> 00:16:44,323 Ffion works for Coventry Children's Services and has been supporting 327 00:16:44,363 --> 00:16:46,763 Annabelle for the past 18 months. 328 00:16:46,803 --> 00:16:49,803 Oh, dear. Need to get the landlord on that one. 329 00:16:49,843 --> 00:16:52,643 She's helping Annabelle through her pregnancy... 330 00:16:52,683 --> 00:16:54,243 Crikey! 331 00:16:54,283 --> 00:16:56,923 ..and will be monitoring her progress after the birth. 332 00:16:58,763 --> 00:17:01,483 I think a big fear for her is that her child 333 00:17:01,523 --> 00:17:03,963 would have social care involved. 334 00:17:04,003 --> 00:17:06,763 And will there be? What will be the process there? 335 00:17:06,803 --> 00:17:09,243 I'm involved, so obviously I'll keep an eye on how 336 00:17:09,283 --> 00:17:11,563 Annabelle manages things. 337 00:17:11,603 --> 00:17:15,323 And if there were any big worries about how she was coping, 338 00:17:15,363 --> 00:17:18,603 then I'd need to make a referral. 339 00:17:18,643 --> 00:17:20,363 How are you feeling? 340 00:17:20,403 --> 00:17:23,363 The worst. Oh, Annabelle! 341 00:17:23,403 --> 00:17:25,603 What, pregnancy symptoms? Yeah. 342 00:17:27,083 --> 00:17:31,003 Had your subject access request back for your files. 343 00:17:32,643 --> 00:17:34,203 What do you mean "files"? 344 00:17:34,243 --> 00:17:37,843 So this is everything about Annabelle's history 345 00:17:37,883 --> 00:17:39,523 with social care. 346 00:17:39,563 --> 00:17:43,563 So the information about why she came into care, 347 00:17:43,603 --> 00:17:46,683 like the previous concerns, any assessments that have been done, 348 00:17:46,723 --> 00:17:49,243 court files. 349 00:17:49,283 --> 00:17:52,683 Why are you eager to do that? 350 00:17:52,723 --> 00:17:54,723 Well, I want to know what the truth is, 351 00:17:54,763 --> 00:17:57,363 instead of being told all the lies that I've been told... 352 00:17:57,403 --> 00:17:58,603 The truth about what? 353 00:17:58,643 --> 00:18:01,323 What happened, why I went into foster care. 354 00:18:01,363 --> 00:18:03,563 And how will that help you, do you think? 355 00:18:03,603 --> 00:18:05,683 Knowing what happened to you, 356 00:18:05,723 --> 00:18:08,443 you're definitely not going to make sure it happens to your kid. 357 00:18:08,483 --> 00:18:11,043 You're going to give them the best that you can. 358 00:18:11,083 --> 00:18:13,443 So... Something that's really important to you, isn't it? 359 00:18:13,483 --> 00:18:16,283 Yeah. Yeah. Obviously, like, when I phoned you up and I asked 360 00:18:16,323 --> 00:18:18,883 if the baby was going to get took off me, it's one of those things 361 00:18:18,923 --> 00:18:22,483 that are like constantly, like, going around in my head 362 00:18:22,523 --> 00:18:25,443 because of what happened when I was a kid. 363 00:18:25,483 --> 00:18:28,123 At least then I can be like, right, 364 00:18:28,163 --> 00:18:31,243 I know that, I can move on to the next part of my life now. 365 00:18:32,443 --> 00:18:34,243 All right. All right. See you soon. 366 00:18:34,283 --> 00:18:36,563 See you soon, Annabelle. See you later, Ffion. 367 00:18:38,803 --> 00:18:41,203 MELANCHOLIC MUSIC 368 00:19:00,843 --> 00:19:04,923 Turning 18 and being able to get hold of the files 369 00:19:04,963 --> 00:19:09,803 and then reading through some of the things was... 370 00:19:09,843 --> 00:19:13,003 No way that a kid should have ever lived. 371 00:19:13,043 --> 00:19:17,123 The state of the house, the amount of animals, 372 00:19:17,163 --> 00:19:19,763 the way that we were just left to do what we wanted. 373 00:19:19,803 --> 00:19:22,323 That now sums up everything, 374 00:19:22,363 --> 00:19:25,563 and the reason why we got took away. 375 00:19:25,603 --> 00:19:27,803 You were removed because of neglect? 376 00:19:27,843 --> 00:19:33,123 Yeah. Ill treatment of children under the age of 16. 377 00:19:33,163 --> 00:19:35,283 That's what my parents got done for. 378 00:19:36,723 --> 00:19:40,883 And I've only read one, maybe two and a half documents, 379 00:19:40,923 --> 00:19:43,523 and I don't want to read any more. 380 00:19:43,563 --> 00:19:45,643 Don't you? No. 381 00:19:45,683 --> 00:19:49,123 I'm about to pop, 382 00:19:49,163 --> 00:19:53,163 so I'm more focused on what's happening 383 00:19:53,203 --> 00:19:56,443 at this present time, instead of going back and looking 384 00:19:56,483 --> 00:19:59,003 at the past and then having to cope with that. 385 00:20:08,883 --> 00:20:10,843 Look at the shit tip. 386 00:20:10,883 --> 00:20:12,883 This is it. 387 00:20:12,923 --> 00:20:14,963 The new pad. 388 00:20:15,003 --> 00:20:17,603 You've come back with a Welsh accent. 389 00:20:17,643 --> 00:20:19,243 No. 390 00:20:19,283 --> 00:20:23,603 Xorin and Kelly are three days into the 12 week reunification programme, 391 00:20:23,643 --> 00:20:26,163 and so far, things seem peaceful. 392 00:20:26,203 --> 00:20:29,803 Me and Xorin are as close as fuck, mate. As close as fuck. 393 00:20:29,843 --> 00:20:33,003 This is how I say it - before, if Xorin had killed someone, 394 00:20:33,043 --> 00:20:35,043 I'd have said, "Right, I'm going to grass you up." 395 00:20:35,083 --> 00:20:37,123 Now it's like, "Mate, I'll help you bury the body." 396 00:20:37,163 --> 00:20:39,083 That's how close we've become. 397 00:20:41,643 --> 00:20:44,883 What have we got here? Right, this is my wall of fame. 398 00:20:44,923 --> 00:20:47,923 Like, Xorin when he was at junior school, with Taff. 399 00:20:47,963 --> 00:20:49,763 He's always had that gorgeous smile. 400 00:20:49,803 --> 00:20:51,683 This is an amazing picture. Look at that. 401 00:20:51,723 --> 00:20:54,243 Yeah, that's my favourite, because this is when he was playing 402 00:20:54,283 --> 00:20:56,003 for Bedworth United. Good footballer? 403 00:20:56,043 --> 00:20:59,363 He's an absolutely fucking amazing footballer. 404 00:20:59,403 --> 00:21:01,523 And that was probably the last team that he played for 405 00:21:01,563 --> 00:21:03,323 before he went into care. 406 00:21:05,163 --> 00:21:08,403 The family are due to be visited by Children's Services in the next 407 00:21:08,443 --> 00:21:11,763 couple of days, the first since Xorin moved back. 408 00:21:13,163 --> 00:21:14,843 These are for Xee, right? 409 00:21:14,883 --> 00:21:17,923 Yeah. These are all his new bedroom furniture. 410 00:21:17,963 --> 00:21:20,963 Who's building it, then? Fucking, my mother. 411 00:21:21,003 --> 00:21:22,923 Xorin, I need the hammer, babe. 412 00:21:24,283 --> 00:21:26,123 Give me a sec. 413 00:21:26,163 --> 00:21:28,563 I'm just mopping up these little wide yards. 414 00:21:31,603 --> 00:21:34,163 How's it going finding the hammer? 415 00:21:34,203 --> 00:21:35,923 At the end of the day, bro... 416 00:21:35,963 --> 00:21:37,643 Oh, it's up there, Mum. 417 00:21:37,683 --> 00:21:39,123 It's on the top of the wardrobe. 418 00:21:39,163 --> 00:21:40,603 That's where it is. 419 00:21:40,643 --> 00:21:42,243 Pass it me, then, please. 420 00:21:46,643 --> 00:21:49,363 I literally don't give a shit at this moment in time. 421 00:21:49,403 --> 00:21:52,363 I'll die if I don't... You see now why I'm doing this. 422 00:21:52,403 --> 00:21:56,763 Because, like, sometimes gaming's just more fucking important. 423 00:21:56,803 --> 00:21:58,843 It fucking too right is. 424 00:21:58,883 --> 00:21:59,883 DRILLING 425 00:22:03,763 --> 00:22:07,323 What do you think you missed out on when he was away from you? 426 00:22:07,363 --> 00:22:10,323 I missed out on his teenage years, my babies growing up. 427 00:22:10,363 --> 00:22:13,123 They went from teenagers to men. 428 00:22:14,683 --> 00:22:17,443 So what did you do to get them back? 429 00:22:17,483 --> 00:22:21,563 I went for six months of intense therapy. 430 00:22:21,603 --> 00:22:24,963 I sorted all my finances out, all my money. 431 00:22:25,003 --> 00:22:28,683 I was putting it on my rent, and then I would sit without food 432 00:22:28,723 --> 00:22:31,843 and I'd sit without gas, because I couldn't afford it. 433 00:22:31,883 --> 00:22:35,283 But I couldn't lose the house, because if I lost the house, 434 00:22:35,323 --> 00:22:37,083 it meant I would never get my kids back. 435 00:22:38,443 --> 00:22:41,123 I will never, ever be able to get back 436 00:22:41,163 --> 00:22:43,603 them four years of my babies' life, 437 00:22:43,643 --> 00:22:46,243 when they needed me, I'll never be able to get that back, 438 00:22:46,283 --> 00:22:48,123 but I will make up for it. 439 00:22:59,843 --> 00:23:02,803 Right, I'm just off to go and meet Xorin, then. 440 00:23:02,843 --> 00:23:05,163 Hope it goes OK. All right. See you in a bit. 441 00:23:08,003 --> 00:23:12,043 The first meeting with a young person is really important for me. 442 00:23:12,083 --> 00:23:15,083 I don't expect them to really engage with me so much, 443 00:23:15,123 --> 00:23:19,043 but I can assess the relationship with the parent and the child, 444 00:23:19,083 --> 00:23:24,203 just that there is a connection there that they want to build upon. 445 00:23:29,643 --> 00:23:30,763 Xorin! 446 00:23:30,803 --> 00:23:32,923 What? Get the door! 447 00:23:32,963 --> 00:23:34,803 One minute, I'm rolling a fag. 448 00:23:36,003 --> 00:23:37,123 Oh, shut up. 449 00:23:38,323 --> 00:23:40,203 Yo, cous. What you saying, G? 450 00:23:40,243 --> 00:23:42,523 I'm Kayleigh. All right to come and chat to you, yeah? 451 00:23:42,563 --> 00:23:45,963 So, basically, I came to see you when you were there, 452 00:23:46,003 --> 00:23:49,683 and what we're looking at doing is just giving you a bit of help 453 00:23:49,723 --> 00:23:51,323 with the 12 weeks. 454 00:23:51,363 --> 00:23:52,443 So it's just... 455 00:23:52,483 --> 00:23:53,803 What, we're doing a quiz, are we? 456 00:23:53,843 --> 00:23:55,603 It could be a bit of a quiz, actually. 457 00:23:55,643 --> 00:24:00,443 So it's just, like, we'll talk about some bits in your life 458 00:24:00,483 --> 00:24:02,323 and you score them out of ten. 459 00:24:02,363 --> 00:24:03,923 Oh, go on, then. 460 00:24:03,963 --> 00:24:06,203 So, your relationship with your mum. 461 00:24:06,243 --> 00:24:07,963 Erm... 462 00:24:08,003 --> 00:24:09,523 I'm gonna go three. 463 00:24:09,563 --> 00:24:11,043 LAUGHTER 464 00:24:12,203 --> 00:24:13,483 Come on, now. 465 00:24:13,523 --> 00:24:14,843 Nah, say six. 466 00:24:14,883 --> 00:24:16,683 All right, then. 467 00:24:16,723 --> 00:24:19,243 What about your view on Mum's parenting? 468 00:24:19,283 --> 00:24:20,323 Yo, Mum! 469 00:24:20,363 --> 00:24:22,123 What? A view on your parenting. 470 00:24:22,163 --> 00:24:23,283 What do you think? 471 00:24:23,323 --> 00:24:24,643 Shit. 472 00:24:24,683 --> 00:24:26,163 Two. 473 00:24:27,563 --> 00:24:29,363 SHE LAUGHS 474 00:24:29,403 --> 00:24:31,403 Are you gonna go for two? Yeah. Put two down. 475 00:24:31,443 --> 00:24:33,403 Are you actually? Yeah, put two down. 476 00:24:35,123 --> 00:24:36,643 All right, then. 477 00:24:36,683 --> 00:24:38,763 So, can you talk to me a bit about your mental health? 478 00:24:38,803 --> 00:24:40,603 What is it that you struggle? 479 00:24:42,323 --> 00:24:44,923 Bruh, I don't know, man. 480 00:24:44,963 --> 00:24:47,083 You ask me too many questions, bro. OK. 481 00:24:47,123 --> 00:24:49,443 Oh, I just wanna go back to sleep. 482 00:24:49,483 --> 00:24:52,003 Shall I leave you to go back to sleep then? 483 00:24:52,043 --> 00:24:53,483 Yeah, go on, G. 484 00:24:53,523 --> 00:24:54,683 All right, then. 485 00:24:54,723 --> 00:24:57,563 You need to catch me when I'm a bit more wide awake. 486 00:24:57,603 --> 00:24:59,563 I'll pop in next week and see you then. 487 00:24:59,603 --> 00:25:01,043 Fine, sound, yeah? 488 00:25:04,043 --> 00:25:07,603 Fucking tax the rich bastards! 489 00:25:07,643 --> 00:25:09,243 How about that one? 490 00:25:10,403 --> 00:25:14,283 Fucking fat white privileged cunt! 491 00:25:15,803 --> 00:25:17,203 Oh, God. 492 00:25:18,243 --> 00:25:20,163 Don't fucking stop, does it? 493 00:25:20,203 --> 00:25:22,003 What's happened? The electric's gone. 494 00:25:22,043 --> 00:25:25,763 How do you pay for the electric, then? Meters. 495 00:25:25,803 --> 00:25:28,083 Bullshit meters. Right, I've just put it on now. 496 00:25:28,123 --> 00:25:29,643 That's £6. 497 00:25:29,683 --> 00:25:32,243 That's gonna last, I don't know, now. 498 00:25:32,283 --> 00:25:34,883 A couple of weeks on from Kayleigh's visit, 499 00:25:34,923 --> 00:25:37,443 and Kelly is struggling with the reality 500 00:25:37,483 --> 00:25:39,603 of having her children back home. 501 00:25:39,643 --> 00:25:42,203 Just give me a sense of the financial challenges you face, 502 00:25:42,243 --> 00:25:44,403 like with two extra mouths to feed in the house. 503 00:25:44,443 --> 00:25:45,763 How tough is it? 504 00:25:45,803 --> 00:25:47,563 It's really fucking tough. 505 00:25:47,603 --> 00:25:50,083 So there was not a lot before the came home. 506 00:25:50,123 --> 00:25:53,043 So, now their home, and because they're big, growing lads, 507 00:25:53,083 --> 00:25:55,123 it's an absolute fucking nightmare. 508 00:25:55,163 --> 00:25:56,883 This is my cupboard at the moment. 509 00:25:57,963 --> 00:26:00,563 This is the things I've been getting out the food bank before 510 00:26:00,603 --> 00:26:02,083 that I've not used up in time - 511 00:26:02,123 --> 00:26:06,563 gravy, and a few tins that I can't use, and a bit of pasta. 512 00:26:06,603 --> 00:26:07,963 That's it. 513 00:26:08,003 --> 00:26:10,203 So there are days where you just don't have anything in? 514 00:26:10,243 --> 00:26:12,683 There's days that I don't eat fucking anything. 515 00:26:13,763 --> 00:26:16,363 While Kelly struggles to feed the family, 516 00:26:16,403 --> 00:26:19,443 Xorin's barely left the house. 517 00:26:19,483 --> 00:26:21,723 Commonly what we see with children and young people 518 00:26:21,763 --> 00:26:22,963 that have been exploited, 519 00:26:23,003 --> 00:26:25,803 as they get older, they start to understand more 520 00:26:25,843 --> 00:26:28,043 that they were exploited at the time. 521 00:26:29,563 --> 00:26:33,203 Subconsciously what he's realising is that these people, 522 00:26:33,243 --> 00:26:36,803 the interest that they showed in him wasn't genuine. 523 00:26:36,843 --> 00:26:40,643 And I think he's angry with them because he knows what they've done. 524 00:26:45,683 --> 00:26:46,683 DOOR SLAMS 525 00:26:46,723 --> 00:26:48,403 Oh, no. There's something wrong with him. 526 00:26:48,443 --> 00:26:49,803 Why is he unhappy? I don't know. 527 00:26:50,923 --> 00:26:52,843 I've got no idea. 528 00:26:52,883 --> 00:26:55,723 He's really, really starting to close down. 529 00:26:55,763 --> 00:26:57,123 Are you worried about him? 530 00:26:57,163 --> 00:26:59,523 I'm really fucking worried about him, 531 00:26:59,563 --> 00:27:02,123 because he gets so angry. That's my concern. 532 00:27:02,163 --> 00:27:06,043 He's so fucking angry within that he doesn't know how to function 533 00:27:06,083 --> 00:27:08,603 as a normal child back on the streets 534 00:27:08,643 --> 00:27:11,163 because of his experience that he's been through. 535 00:27:11,203 --> 00:27:13,883 Cos that kid's been through hell. 536 00:27:14,883 --> 00:27:17,523 And he doesn't know how to handle it. 537 00:27:24,763 --> 00:27:27,083 MUSIC: Let Love Go By by Baby Washington 538 00:27:39,243 --> 00:27:41,603 Annabelle has been making preparations 539 00:27:41,643 --> 00:27:43,163 for the birth of her baby, 540 00:27:43,203 --> 00:27:46,723 but she's just had some unexpected news from her parents. 541 00:27:55,323 --> 00:27:57,443 What's been going on, then, Annabelle? 542 00:27:57,483 --> 00:27:58,923 Um... With your mum. 543 00:27:58,963 --> 00:28:01,603 She's found out that she is pregnant. 544 00:28:03,803 --> 00:28:05,803 And what does that make you think? 545 00:28:05,843 --> 00:28:08,643 What happens if they end up keeping the baby? 546 00:28:08,683 --> 00:28:11,883 What happens if the baby gets adopted? 547 00:28:11,923 --> 00:28:16,803 What's going to happen if it gets put in as a looked-after child? 548 00:28:21,283 --> 00:28:24,123 How many kids have they had taken off them in the...? Like, what...? 549 00:28:24,163 --> 00:28:29,123 So my mum has had myself and my brother took off her. 550 00:28:29,163 --> 00:28:36,363 My dad, I believe he... Well, obviously there's myself, my brother 551 00:28:36,403 --> 00:28:41,283 and his older daughter who was adopted when she was two. 552 00:28:41,323 --> 00:28:44,283 Er, he... Why do you think they still want to have kids, then, 553 00:28:44,323 --> 00:28:46,563 given that that's the history? What's the...? 554 00:28:46,603 --> 00:28:48,723 I don't think they get it. 555 00:28:48,763 --> 00:28:50,923 I think that they kind of see it 556 00:28:50,963 --> 00:28:54,203 as, "Well, that happened and it was a mistake, 557 00:28:54,243 --> 00:28:57,403 "so we're going to try again, but we're going to do better," 558 00:28:57,443 --> 00:28:59,923 but their "do better" isn't any better. 559 00:28:59,963 --> 00:29:01,723 It's exactly the same. 560 00:29:05,523 --> 00:29:07,563 So, I hear there's news. 561 00:29:09,003 --> 00:29:11,843 News? Yeah, Annabelle's expecting, Tammy's expecting. 562 00:29:11,883 --> 00:29:14,603 All in the space of weeks. 563 00:29:14,643 --> 00:29:17,123 So how do you feel about the pregnancy, then? 564 00:29:17,163 --> 00:29:18,683 Oh, I'm over the moon. 565 00:29:18,723 --> 00:29:20,563 What went through your mind, Tammy? 566 00:29:20,603 --> 00:29:22,083 "Oh, no, not another one." 567 00:29:22,123 --> 00:29:24,763 It'll probably turned out like Annabelle. Naughty. 568 00:29:26,003 --> 00:29:28,883 Why are you so keen to be parents again? 569 00:29:28,923 --> 00:29:30,323 Well, why not? 570 00:29:31,483 --> 00:29:35,043 I want... I want to bring up my own kids. 571 00:29:35,083 --> 00:29:37,283 I don't want somebody else bringing up my kids. 572 00:29:37,323 --> 00:29:38,843 It shouldn't be like that. 573 00:29:38,883 --> 00:29:42,523 I missed out on buying Annabelle's prom dress. 574 00:29:42,563 --> 00:29:46,643 I've missed out on a brother's... buying his suit for his prom. 575 00:29:48,483 --> 00:29:50,803 What sort of parents do you think you'll be? 576 00:29:50,843 --> 00:29:53,923 Well, I would like to try and be the best parent I can be. 577 00:29:53,963 --> 00:29:55,443 So, do you feel being pregnant 578 00:29:55,483 --> 00:29:57,763 is something you can celebrate at the moment? 579 00:29:57,803 --> 00:29:59,243 No. Why not? 580 00:30:01,323 --> 00:30:04,643 Because we're a bit... We're a bit unsure of what's going to happen. 581 00:30:04,683 --> 00:30:05,963 Yes. 582 00:30:09,123 --> 00:30:11,923 So we're not sure if we're going to be able to keep this one at home 583 00:30:11,963 --> 00:30:16,523 or...if this one's gonna be removed. 584 00:30:16,563 --> 00:30:18,683 And what will happen going forward, then? 585 00:30:18,723 --> 00:30:21,763 We're going to have social services involved in that again 586 00:30:21,803 --> 00:30:26,323 to do a pre-assessment and whatnot. And to check on the home conditions. 587 00:30:26,363 --> 00:30:29,123 Yeah. Why are they doing...? Why would they check on that? 588 00:30:29,163 --> 00:30:32,203 Because that's what we had... That's what they did last time. 589 00:30:33,403 --> 00:30:35,523 So what did they say about the home conditions? 590 00:30:35,563 --> 00:30:38,283 Er... It was a mess. Yeah. 591 00:30:38,323 --> 00:30:42,163 I'm not gonna lie. We did... We did everything we were told. 592 00:30:42,203 --> 00:30:46,363 Tidy it up... Tidy it up, put paint on the walls, without any arguments. 593 00:30:46,403 --> 00:30:49,683 We literally - every course, we'll do it. 594 00:30:49,723 --> 00:30:51,003 What were the courses? 595 00:30:51,043 --> 00:30:55,243 Parenting. Parenting courses. Cooking courses. Er... 596 00:30:55,283 --> 00:30:56,803 You did the anger management course. 597 00:30:56,843 --> 00:30:58,403 Yeah, I did an anger management course 598 00:30:58,443 --> 00:31:01,763 cos somebody had said that I've got an anger problem. Yeah. 599 00:31:01,803 --> 00:31:02,923 Did you? 600 00:31:02,963 --> 00:31:05,163 Yeah, I passed that with flying colours. 601 00:31:05,203 --> 00:31:06,403 Did you have an anger problem? 602 00:31:06,443 --> 00:31:08,363 No. No, I didn't have an anger problem. 603 00:31:11,403 --> 00:31:13,203 Mum's up the duff. 604 00:31:14,243 --> 00:31:15,683 She didn't even tell me. 605 00:31:15,723 --> 00:31:20,803 Dad had to because Mum just said she was scared to tell me. 606 00:31:20,843 --> 00:31:23,083 I asked her how far along she is. 607 00:31:23,123 --> 00:31:26,883 She says she's about seven, eight weeks, 608 00:31:26,923 --> 00:31:29,523 and I says, "Look, at the end of the day, 609 00:31:29,563 --> 00:31:32,763 "you do what you want to do, because you're not going to listen to me. 610 00:31:32,803 --> 00:31:35,683 "You're not going to listen to the professionals." 611 00:31:35,723 --> 00:31:38,483 I says, "If you want to think that you're keeping the baby, 612 00:31:38,523 --> 00:31:39,963 "then you think that," I says, 613 00:31:40,003 --> 00:31:43,843 "But when social services comes along and takes the baby off you 614 00:31:43,883 --> 00:31:46,483 "because you're not meant to be around kids, 615 00:31:46,523 --> 00:31:48,563 "you're back at square one," 616 00:31:48,603 --> 00:31:51,843 and then Dad goes, "But if worse comes to worse 617 00:31:51,883 --> 00:31:55,803 "and the baby has to be took off us, then why couldn't you have it?" 618 00:31:55,843 --> 00:31:59,123 And I says, "I'm not bringing up my sibling 619 00:31:59,163 --> 00:32:01,563 "as well as my own newborn baby." 620 00:32:01,603 --> 00:32:03,243 It's not your responsibility. 621 00:32:03,283 --> 00:32:07,603 I says, "I'd rather it go to a home where it's gonna be looked after." 622 00:32:07,643 --> 00:32:09,403 And that might not happen. 623 00:32:09,443 --> 00:32:11,963 They'll probably do an assessment with your mum and dad 624 00:32:12,003 --> 00:32:14,723 around parenting and all those sorts of things, 625 00:32:14,763 --> 00:32:17,443 and if it's safe for baby... Yeah. 626 00:32:17,483 --> 00:32:19,283 ..and depending on that outcome of that, 627 00:32:19,323 --> 00:32:20,923 there'll be a few different steps. 628 00:32:20,963 --> 00:32:25,403 Could be that they are on a child in need plan, child protection plan, 629 00:32:25,443 --> 00:32:28,963 or they might decide that the child will be looked after. 630 00:32:29,003 --> 00:32:31,443 Yeah. Or come into care when they're born. 631 00:32:31,483 --> 00:32:33,803 I don't know what the outcome of that will be, 632 00:32:33,843 --> 00:32:35,803 but that's the step that I'll need to take. 633 00:32:35,843 --> 00:32:38,323 Because obviously I know that Mum's pregnant. 634 00:32:38,363 --> 00:32:40,963 Yeah, no, no. That's why... There's worries from the past. 635 00:32:41,003 --> 00:32:44,283 Like, if the baby gets took off them, then... 636 00:32:44,323 --> 00:32:47,523 ..as bad as it sounds, I'll be happy. 637 00:32:47,563 --> 00:32:51,243 As long as that baby's with them, I'll... You'll be worried. Yeah. 638 00:32:51,283 --> 00:32:56,803 Yeah. I can understand. Because of what I've read on the file so far, 639 00:32:56,843 --> 00:32:59,403 it's not something that I want my little brother or sister 640 00:32:59,443 --> 00:33:00,603 to go through. 641 00:33:04,963 --> 00:33:08,763 The state has no powers to dictate who can and who can't have children. 642 00:33:10,123 --> 00:33:13,963 What our role would be in that would be to support that family, 643 00:33:14,003 --> 00:33:16,443 undertake an assessment to determine the safety 644 00:33:16,483 --> 00:33:18,563 and the needs of that newborn baby 645 00:33:18,603 --> 00:33:20,443 and to see what we could do to put in place 646 00:33:20,483 --> 00:33:24,083 to enable that that child to be brought up with their birth parents 647 00:33:24,123 --> 00:33:25,643 if it's safe to do so. 648 00:33:25,683 --> 00:33:27,923 But there are, of course, some circumstances 649 00:33:27,963 --> 00:33:30,323 where it's right and proper to remove children. 650 00:33:33,403 --> 00:33:37,123 I'm worried that they're going to see it as just a cycle 651 00:33:37,163 --> 00:33:40,083 that continuously repeats. 652 00:33:42,603 --> 00:33:45,043 I'm going to be the best mum that I can 653 00:33:45,083 --> 00:33:48,443 and make sure that my child has everything that it needs, 654 00:33:48,483 --> 00:33:54,963 but then I'm worried that they're going to be wanting to monitor me, 655 00:33:55,003 --> 00:33:59,883 that they're going to be watching you to see how you cope... 656 00:34:00,923 --> 00:34:02,923 ..and if you do one little thing wrong, 657 00:34:02,963 --> 00:34:06,483 then you've got a high chance that the child could be gone. 658 00:34:24,203 --> 00:34:25,443 Afternoon! 659 00:34:25,483 --> 00:34:27,363 Come on in. 660 00:34:27,403 --> 00:34:30,763 Kayleigh has now been working with Kelly and Xorin for two months - 661 00:34:30,803 --> 00:34:33,323 but things have deteriorated. 662 00:34:33,363 --> 00:34:34,523 Right, Kayleigh. 663 00:34:34,563 --> 00:34:36,323 A bit of a stressful time at the minute. 664 00:34:36,363 --> 00:34:37,603 I've had a shit morning. 665 00:34:37,643 --> 00:34:41,323 Xorin has been having arguments with people on social media, 666 00:34:41,363 --> 00:34:44,043 leading to threats that they'll come to the house. 667 00:34:44,083 --> 00:34:45,603 Anyone comes to my door Xorin, 668 00:34:45,643 --> 00:34:48,563 you're taking fucking responsibility for it, mate. 669 00:34:48,603 --> 00:34:51,443 You cannot - even though you're struggling yourself, 670 00:34:51,483 --> 00:34:53,163 you can't push people like that. 671 00:34:53,203 --> 00:34:54,843 I think that's the thing, isn't it? 672 00:34:54,883 --> 00:34:57,803 Like, he's nearly 18 now, so he needs to take responsibility. 673 00:35:06,643 --> 00:35:08,083 What have you got in your pocket? 674 00:35:10,483 --> 00:35:12,483 Because you've got two hammers up the stairs. 675 00:35:17,403 --> 00:35:18,403 Xorin... 676 00:35:18,443 --> 00:35:20,963 See, like, this is what I'm gonna get now. He's gonna kick off. 677 00:35:26,043 --> 00:35:28,643 Can't you deal with your anger in a different way, Xorin? 678 00:35:30,763 --> 00:35:32,563 See, "sadly" - that is a choice. 679 00:35:32,603 --> 00:35:34,683 That is a choice you are making. 680 00:35:34,723 --> 00:35:37,243 No, you are making that choice. 681 00:35:37,283 --> 00:35:38,403 No, no, no. Hold up a minute. 682 00:35:38,443 --> 00:35:39,683 You've got a gym pass. 683 00:35:39,723 --> 00:35:41,683 You could go for more runs. 684 00:35:41,723 --> 00:35:45,243 You could fucking... Like, whatever, go out more, find mates, 685 00:35:45,283 --> 00:35:47,323 do something about it. Find mates...? 686 00:35:47,363 --> 00:35:49,723 Being angry and taking it out on everyone... 687 00:35:49,763 --> 00:35:51,323 You just don't listen, bro. 688 00:35:51,363 --> 00:35:53,163 Find mates? All my mates have fucked me over, 689 00:35:53,203 --> 00:35:54,883 you're asking me to go out and find mates 690 00:35:54,923 --> 00:35:56,403 nah, it ain't as easy as that, bro. 691 00:35:56,443 --> 00:35:58,923 Straight up, now, that's why I'd rather be on my own, bro. 692 00:35:58,963 --> 00:36:00,923 Because no-one wants nothing to do with me. 693 00:36:00,963 --> 00:36:02,923 I'm happy with that. I'd rather be on my own. 694 00:36:02,963 --> 00:36:05,923 Rather than being... Well, why don't people want anything to do with you? 695 00:36:05,963 --> 00:36:08,043 I don't know, and I don't... 696 00:36:08,083 --> 00:36:10,483 But you'll find someone that will want to do summat with you. 697 00:36:10,523 --> 00:36:13,323 I don't care. I don't care whether they come in here, 698 00:36:13,363 --> 00:36:15,443 I don't want nothing to do with anyone, bro. 699 00:36:15,483 --> 00:36:18,483 I've had to say what I said, if I have suckered anyone, 700 00:36:18,523 --> 00:36:21,123 I am sorry, bro, but, yeah, sorry, that's all I can say. 701 00:36:22,203 --> 00:36:25,123 Is it all right if I go and have a chat with him? 702 00:36:25,163 --> 00:36:26,403 Fucking hell. 703 00:36:27,483 --> 00:36:29,163 I'm just coming to chat with you. 704 00:36:29,203 --> 00:36:30,483 Nah, man... 705 00:36:30,523 --> 00:36:32,603 Do your thing, bro, I can't be arsed, man. 706 00:36:33,883 --> 00:36:36,203 Well, I'm glad he's had his say. 707 00:36:39,443 --> 00:36:41,803 I don't want to lose Xorin! 708 00:36:41,843 --> 00:36:43,763 I don't want to fucking lose him. No. 709 00:36:43,803 --> 00:36:45,163 Yeah. Do you know what I mean? 710 00:36:45,203 --> 00:36:46,283 I'm sorry. 711 00:36:49,203 --> 00:36:51,043 I just love him so much. 712 00:36:51,083 --> 00:36:54,483 I just wish he would see how fucking amazing he is. 713 00:36:56,523 --> 00:36:58,763 He's just so fucking brilliant. 714 00:37:02,883 --> 00:37:05,123 And what's going on in your head? 715 00:37:05,163 --> 00:37:06,803 Difficult stuff. 716 00:37:06,843 --> 00:37:09,723 I literally can't even explain it, bro. 717 00:37:09,763 --> 00:37:12,043 Do you know how people says talking helps, yeah? 718 00:37:12,083 --> 00:37:15,043 In my... In my... In my case, and in my head, nah, it don't. 719 00:37:15,083 --> 00:37:17,403 But, look, I'm not doing nothing wrong. 720 00:37:17,443 --> 00:37:19,883 I'm literally minding my own business and doing my thing. 721 00:37:19,923 --> 00:37:21,243 You know what I'm trying to say? 722 00:37:21,283 --> 00:37:23,723 But that's not a life, just to stay indoors all the time... 723 00:37:23,763 --> 00:37:25,963 No, of course. ..and not go and mix with the world, is it? 724 00:37:26,003 --> 00:37:27,043 That's not a life. 725 00:37:27,083 --> 00:37:30,123 But, nah. It's... 726 00:37:30,163 --> 00:37:33,123 At this minute in time, bro, I'm at square one, yeah? 727 00:37:33,163 --> 00:37:34,723 In my head, I'm fucked, bro. 728 00:37:34,763 --> 00:37:38,043 Shit's happened and it fucks with my head, bro. 729 00:37:38,083 --> 00:37:39,763 # Here's another thing 730 00:37:39,803 --> 00:37:41,163 # That threw up in my mind 731 00:37:41,203 --> 00:37:43,523 # Locked in a closet of Deep Space Nine 732 00:37:43,563 --> 00:37:45,843 # Deposit for a wasted life 733 00:37:45,883 --> 00:37:47,443 # I lost it with a sweepstakes 734 00:37:47,483 --> 00:37:49,243 # Sigh in another fucking fight 735 00:37:49,283 --> 00:37:52,203 # A junkie in a queue for the lavatory line 736 00:37:52,243 --> 00:37:53,363 # That's another lost sight 737 00:37:53,403 --> 00:37:56,723 # Now popping like Blue Train lines 738 00:37:56,763 --> 00:37:59,323 # Still pumping on the bathroom floor 739 00:37:59,363 --> 00:38:01,283 # And not for the frost or what 740 00:38:01,323 --> 00:38:02,843 # The mirror thought it saw 741 00:38:02,883 --> 00:38:04,403 # He got a clearer thought and 742 00:38:04,443 --> 00:38:05,643 # Pulled her straight out 743 00:38:05,683 --> 00:38:08,203 # "You got me jumping from a real safe height... # 744 00:38:16,843 --> 00:38:19,203 Xorin is an emotional creature. 745 00:38:20,923 --> 00:38:24,443 So when he's angry and acting hard, like the big man, 746 00:38:24,483 --> 00:38:27,523 that's something that he's picked up from care, 747 00:38:27,563 --> 00:38:30,243 and there is nothing that he has to hide from me. 748 00:38:31,563 --> 00:38:33,523 Because I'm different, 749 00:38:33,563 --> 00:38:35,923 and I'm doing my shit. 750 00:38:35,963 --> 00:38:38,883 I've got to show them how you do it. 751 00:38:38,923 --> 00:38:40,283 Right. 752 00:38:40,323 --> 00:38:43,523 Today's been a really, really fucking shit day, yeah? 753 00:38:43,563 --> 00:38:46,083 There are going to be times where you get into that mode, 754 00:38:46,123 --> 00:38:48,883 but you know fucking well I've been through fucking things like this 755 00:38:48,923 --> 00:38:51,203 all my life, so I can talk to you about it. 756 00:38:51,243 --> 00:38:54,483 Don't be locking yourself away in your room and doing silly shit. 757 00:38:55,923 --> 00:38:59,523 I'd rather you come downstairs and said, "Mum, you're a fucking cunt." 758 00:39:00,603 --> 00:39:04,083 You and Taffa have been through too much shit for any kids to deal with. 759 00:39:05,563 --> 00:39:08,683 I fucking love you two like there's nothing else on Earth. 760 00:39:09,883 --> 00:39:13,643 And that's what you need, just a lot more love and fucking support. 761 00:39:14,843 --> 00:39:17,083 But you've got to participate, babe. 762 00:39:17,123 --> 00:39:18,563 You've got to push yourself. 763 00:39:24,163 --> 00:39:26,003 They've been through hell. 764 00:39:28,843 --> 00:39:31,683 And they'll never fucking go through it again, let me tell you. 765 00:39:31,723 --> 00:39:32,923 Never. 766 00:39:48,243 --> 00:39:51,203 What's happening? So, rung me up. 767 00:39:51,243 --> 00:39:52,843 Xorin's got a training session. 768 00:39:52,883 --> 00:39:55,563 Dunno if he'll ever get on the team, but he's got a training session, 769 00:39:55,603 --> 00:39:57,163 which means we can get out of the house. 770 00:39:57,203 --> 00:39:59,043 He's actually asked me to go with him, 771 00:39:59,083 --> 00:40:01,523 so I feel fucking honoured. 772 00:40:01,563 --> 00:40:05,283 Kelly's heart-to-heart with Xorin appears to have paid off. 773 00:40:05,323 --> 00:40:07,683 He's since got in touch with a local football club. 774 00:40:07,723 --> 00:40:10,083 And today, they're giving him a trial. 775 00:40:10,123 --> 00:40:12,963 He hasn't really eaten much today, so we need to do his protein shake. 776 00:40:13,003 --> 00:40:15,163 So, you're feeling good? Mate, I'm feeling great. 777 00:40:15,203 --> 00:40:17,283 I've just done a little dance around this - 778 00:40:17,323 --> 00:40:19,323 got me 45p, half-price milk. 779 00:40:24,363 --> 00:40:27,323 Oh, I'm fucking seriously excited. Just don't scream or shout, 780 00:40:27,363 --> 00:40:29,403 cos these are not kids we're playing with. 781 00:40:29,443 --> 00:40:31,563 I'll just stay quiet, Xorin. 782 00:40:31,603 --> 00:40:33,003 I'm going to behave. 783 00:40:33,043 --> 00:40:36,083 I've got my picnic, I've got my biscuits, I've got my tea, 784 00:40:36,123 --> 00:40:37,323 and I got my faith. 785 00:40:41,883 --> 00:40:44,763 Is it going to be hard to, like, rein yourself in and not shout? 786 00:40:44,803 --> 00:40:46,683 No, I'm going to be good. I've been told now. 787 00:40:46,723 --> 00:40:49,123 What's he told you? He's told to shut the fuck up. 788 00:40:51,883 --> 00:40:54,163 Come on. Come on, babes. You're doing well. 789 00:40:59,683 --> 00:41:00,843 How's he doing? 790 00:41:00,883 --> 00:41:03,643 His fitness is absolutely bollocks. 791 00:41:04,963 --> 00:41:08,323 It'll take a long time to get him back up to the way he was. 792 00:41:08,363 --> 00:41:10,723 Yeah, he needs to get his fucking arse to the gym, 793 00:41:10,763 --> 00:41:12,123 and start being proactive. 794 00:41:14,243 --> 00:41:15,523 How's your fitness? 795 00:41:15,563 --> 00:41:17,523 My fitness is bollocks. 796 00:41:21,083 --> 00:41:22,203 I'm just glad he's out. 797 00:41:22,243 --> 00:41:24,843 I'm just glad he's out of his fucking bedroom. 798 00:41:24,883 --> 00:41:26,083 That's what I'm glad of. 799 00:41:38,683 --> 00:41:40,403 BABY CRIES 800 00:41:42,163 --> 00:41:45,043 Annabelle has been home for three weeks. 801 00:41:45,083 --> 00:41:47,243 She gave birth to a baby boy, 802 00:41:47,283 --> 00:41:50,443 weighing 8lbs and 3oz, 803 00:41:50,483 --> 00:41:53,083 and named him Cody. 804 00:41:53,123 --> 00:41:54,963 How does it feel to be a mum? 805 00:41:55,003 --> 00:41:56,603 I look at him and I think, 806 00:41:56,643 --> 00:42:00,683 how has such a beautiful thing 807 00:42:00,723 --> 00:42:03,083 appeared out of nowhere, really? 808 00:42:04,203 --> 00:42:05,483 How beautiful is he? 809 00:42:05,523 --> 00:42:07,483 Oh, just... 810 00:42:07,523 --> 00:42:11,163 I dunno. Indescribably. 811 00:42:18,243 --> 00:42:20,803 DOG BARKS 812 00:42:23,203 --> 00:42:25,283 Hello. Hiya, you all right? 813 00:42:25,323 --> 00:42:27,643 Yes. How are you? I'm good, thank you. 814 00:42:29,043 --> 00:42:30,763 He's gorgeous, Annabelle. 815 00:42:30,803 --> 00:42:32,563 How is he sleeping? 816 00:42:32,603 --> 00:42:34,123 Really good, actually. 817 00:42:34,163 --> 00:42:36,883 Like 7-8 hours. 818 00:42:36,923 --> 00:42:40,163 Oh, wow. So, I get my sleep. 819 00:42:40,203 --> 00:42:42,643 That's good. What about feeding and stuff? 820 00:42:42,683 --> 00:42:44,323 He's fine. Doing OK? Yeah. 821 00:42:44,363 --> 00:42:48,323 Good. So, how's Mum's pregnancy going? 822 00:42:48,363 --> 00:42:50,803 Erm, I think it's going all right. 823 00:42:50,843 --> 00:42:52,723 She doesn't really tell me much. 824 00:42:52,763 --> 00:42:55,523 I've told her at the end of the day, your pregnancy's your business. 825 00:42:55,563 --> 00:42:57,603 I don't want anything to do with it. 826 00:42:57,643 --> 00:42:59,643 I'm not involved in it. Yeah. 827 00:42:59,683 --> 00:43:03,723 At the end of the day, that's you. 828 00:43:03,763 --> 00:43:04,963 But... 829 00:43:05,003 --> 00:43:08,403 He started actual producing tears now. 830 00:43:08,443 --> 00:43:09,763 Ohh! 831 00:43:11,923 --> 00:43:14,003 Looks like you're getting on really well. 832 00:43:19,963 --> 00:43:21,843 How are you going to bring up your child? 833 00:43:21,883 --> 00:43:26,163 I'm going to make sure that they are always well-presented, 834 00:43:26,203 --> 00:43:28,883 their hygiene is up to standards. 835 00:43:28,923 --> 00:43:32,243 Make sure that they are going to be able to have a childhood, 836 00:43:32,283 --> 00:43:34,323 so that's not taken away from them. 837 00:43:34,363 --> 00:43:37,363 MUSIC: Let Go by Sharon Van Etten 838 00:43:40,603 --> 00:43:45,963 I don't want to have to go and see my child in contact centres, 839 00:43:46,003 --> 00:43:47,803 like I had to do. 840 00:43:47,843 --> 00:43:52,003 I don't want them to have to put up with different social workers 841 00:43:52,043 --> 00:43:54,363 every month, like I had to. 842 00:43:56,443 --> 00:43:59,523 To have respect, and to know right from wrong. 843 00:44:01,963 --> 00:44:05,163 # Brother's smile 844 00:44:05,203 --> 00:44:09,563 # Taking on its own 845 00:44:09,603 --> 00:44:11,843 # Identity 846 00:44:11,883 --> 00:44:16,043 # Only to then leave it behind 847 00:44:31,603 --> 00:44:35,283 # Held by what-be-nots... 848 00:44:35,323 --> 00:44:36,563 How's he been? 849 00:44:36,603 --> 00:44:38,963 Actually, he's doing really, really well at the minute. 850 00:44:39,003 --> 00:44:40,083 He's been at college. 851 00:44:40,123 --> 00:44:42,923 He's actually taking himself up, getting himself up in the morning. 852 00:44:42,963 --> 00:44:45,843 And he's actually been to the gym before college, as well. 853 00:44:45,883 --> 00:44:47,003 You're proud of him? 854 00:44:47,043 --> 00:44:48,523 Yeah, I am really proud of him. 855 00:44:51,043 --> 00:44:52,763 You fought for them. 856 00:44:52,803 --> 00:44:54,043 Yeah. 857 00:44:54,083 --> 00:44:56,123 They know that I love 'em. 858 00:44:56,163 --> 00:44:58,803 It doesn't matter what happens. They know I love 'em. 859 00:45:03,723 --> 00:45:05,923 Yeah, man. I'm very proud of him. 860 00:45:05,963 --> 00:45:10,203 # What's in a name? 861 00:45:13,243 --> 00:45:16,803 # What's in a name? 862 00:45:19,963 --> 00:45:22,963 Oh, no! No, no! 863 00:45:25,203 --> 00:45:27,083 Let's have a look. 864 00:45:27,123 --> 00:45:28,643 Oh, Jesus Christ. 865 00:45:28,683 --> 00:45:30,563 This is on Google. 866 00:45:30,603 --> 00:45:33,683 Because I was the most missing person in the whole 867 00:45:33,723 --> 00:45:35,363 of the West Midlands. 868 00:45:35,403 --> 00:45:37,643 When you look at that picture of yourself, like, 869 00:45:37,683 --> 00:45:39,923 how do you feel towards yourself? 870 00:45:39,963 --> 00:45:43,563 I don't know if anyone could see that, but it looks like 871 00:45:43,603 --> 00:45:45,083 he looks dead inside. 872 00:45:45,123 --> 00:45:49,883 You can see where he's not thought about how his future's panning out. 873 00:45:49,923 --> 00:45:52,363 But it looks more like he knows life's going downhill. 874 00:45:52,403 --> 00:45:54,563 but don't realise it's going to get better. 875 00:45:54,603 --> 00:46:00,563 # Identity only to then leave it behind... # 876 00:46:07,083 --> 00:46:08,443 Next time... 877 00:46:08,483 --> 00:46:10,923 The traumas from being younger just hit time to time. 878 00:46:10,963 --> 00:46:13,163 You obviously feel it gives you some answer. 879 00:46:13,203 --> 00:46:14,323 I feel it doesn't need. 880 00:46:14,363 --> 00:46:18,283 Do need to step back up to where I actually need to be. 881 00:46:18,323 --> 00:46:20,323 Basically saying, "There's nothing you can do. 882 00:46:20,363 --> 00:46:21,643 "I'm going to be independent." 883 00:46:21,683 --> 00:46:23,283 I've been in a lot of bad situations. 884 00:46:23,323 --> 00:46:26,443 I just worry that she'll do something she won't be able to undo. 885 00:46:27,523 --> 00:46:32,083 Subtitles by Red Bee Media