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Do my eyes deceive? Is this a ghost?
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No, it's the gora who finds all he needs
in the slum.
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Hey!
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Hail the returning hero.
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Hey!
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Drinks! We need drinks.
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Hi, Lin. How are you?
-How you going?
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Sit down.
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Hey.
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Hey yourself.
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What did you think?
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The quality was good.
We can do more business, I think.
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Can you handle more weight?
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Hey, we can handle whatever you want.
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I knew I could trust you, Lisa.
My Bombay good luck charm.
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Hey, gora whores are not allowed up here.
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She doesn't do that anymore.
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And don't call her a whore.
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You owe her an apology.
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My mistake, madam.
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Don't worry about that.
It's okay. It's okay, it's okay.
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Thank you.
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Salute.
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You know the Borsalino test?
-I don't.
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Well, the Borsalino is a garment of
the finest quality, believed by many to be
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the most outstanding
gentleman's head covering ever made.
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You know--
-So, it's just a hat?
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Now, the test of a real Borsalino hat
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is to roll it into a very tight tube
and pass it through a wedding ring.
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If it comes out of this ordeal
without creases
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and springs back into its original shape,
it is a genuine--
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Borsalino.
-Borsalino.
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Now, Bombay and your slum,
they have rolled you into a tube,
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and now they're dragging you
into the wedding ring...
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Uh-huh, uh-huh.
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...to see if you are the real deal or not.
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Are you the real deal?
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What do you think?
-I think Didier's drunk.
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Okay.
-Hey, Lin.
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Lisa, holy shit. You look great.
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Thanks.
-Are you--
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I'm doing good.
-Yeah?
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Better than good.
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I just wanted to say hi
and thank you for that first day
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and for getting me out of the Palace.
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I don't know what I would have done
without you.
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Anyway, it meant the world to me,
and I won't ever forget it, so I just...
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Okay.
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Truly a hero of the people.
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A Borsalino if I ever saw one.
-Take it easy.
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I gotta go.
-What? Come on. Sit with us.
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Okay.
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So you're still here, huh?
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Apparently.
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Did you find someone else to blame
for your problems?
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Or did you take pity on him after all?
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Not sure that's any of your business.
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Hey, Lin has found a new life
in the Sagar Wada slum.
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I heard about that.
-You--
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That explains the smell.
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I guess when you want to feel
like a big man,
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the best way is to live among midgets, no?
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I don't think you need to guess.
I think you know.
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'Cause every day you wake up
and you look in the mirror,
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and you're scared shitless
there's someone tiny staring back.
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Someone that nobody needs.
And you'd be right, mate.
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Compared to you, the people I live with
are King-fucking-Kong.
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You should have gone
when you had the chance.
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What a fucking prick.
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Yeah, watch your back.
He won't forget what you just did.
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I hope not.
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Drinks!
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Can't give everything up at once.
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We need to get a record player in here.
Then we could dance.
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Did you listen to records with Lin,
after he came to rescue you?
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What else did you do?
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What is this? Are you jealous?
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Of who? Me and Lin?
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I'm jealous of you and everyone.
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Lin's only got eyes for Karla. Trust me.
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I liked it when you defended me tonight.
"She doesn't do that anymore."
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You know, when you said it,
it's the first time I realized it's true.
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Take me to bed.
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I mean, look, you can't blame them.
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The whole system acts
like they don't exist.
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You know, even the doctors
at the public hospitals want baksheesh.
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It's fucking bullshit.
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These poor people,
they just come home and die,
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unless I do something about it.
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I got a hookup
for black market medical supplies.
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Now my hut looks like a bloody pharmacy.
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I'm not joking.
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Give me one more week,
I'm gonna have my own ambulance.
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Sagar Wada Ambulance Company.
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Lin, your face is a picture
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of idealistic outrage so perfect
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I want to commit it to memory.
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Such a thing is so rare here,
it should be preserved.
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Arre, we thought you had gone
straight to Varanasi to smoke charas.
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But you are here only, saving lives
and shitting into the bay.
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It's just what I do.
-It's an incredible story.
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Have you ever heard anything like this?
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Can't say I have.
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It's a pretty amazing thing
you're doing, Lin.
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Nah, I was just there, you know?
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Drunk on whiskey
and visions of my own redemption,
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I'd forgotten what I really was.
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A fugitive who needed to stay invisible.
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Linbaba!
-Linbaba!
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Dr. Lin!
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Good morning!
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Come out, Linbaba!
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Good morning!
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Come out, Linbaba!
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Come out, Linbaba!
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Okay! Okay, I'm coming.
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Linbaba, you are awake, finally.
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Very good, very good.
Today is ration day. Take.
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Linbaba, take, take.
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Oh, man--
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As citizens, Mr. Lin, us bastiwale,
we still have some rights.
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The right to vote, the right to rations,
and, of course, the right to pay taxes.
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But, Linbaba, you are true not-person,
so you are not getting any of this, huh?
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But we do not want any charity.
You're one of us now.
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And then when we collect our rations,
so will the doctor, huh?
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Thank you, thank you.
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Arre, give more.
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Oh, no. No.
-You can take, na?
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You can take anything else you want.
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Thank you.
-Potatoes, rice.
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We'll send a cup of tea for you.
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Lin's an outsider. Saving lives.
I think it could be a really good story.
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I think you should pitch it
to your editor.
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So what's the headline?
"Gora tourist arrives with Band-Aids"?
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Headline is,
"Shut up, Nishant, and get serious,
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or I'll take this story somewhere else."
-Touchy. Okay, sorry.
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He works for free
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and gets absolutely no support
from the medical community.
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He's shaming a system
that deserves shaming.
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You're pitching this gora slum doctor
as a feature?
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Yes. Something that gets attention
and causes some change.
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I'm sick of smiling and flirting
for puff-piece profiles on movie stars.
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They're good business, yaar.
-They're not journalism, yaar.
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Not what I want to do.
-So ambitious.
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Is that a problem?
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Am I getting ideas
above my station, Nishant?
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Should I be busy having babies
instead maybe?
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Yes.
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What? I should be having b--
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Yes, it could appeal to my editor.
I'll talk to him.
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But it will be strictly a freelance.
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So to be clear,
I'm not offering you a job at the paper.
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I would not be your boss.
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And by your rules,
we still could have dinner.
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And what if I say no?
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I'll still bring him the story,
but let the record show
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that I think having something in common,
like a profession,
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should be a prima facie incentive
for dating, not a deterrent.
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Fine. Dinner.
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Evening of my convenience.
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Is tomorrow night convenient?
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Would you like a drink?
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Excuse me.
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Minister Pandey.
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My congratulations.
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Thank you, madam.
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I wanted to introduce myself.
Abdel Khader Khan.
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A pleasure. Of course.
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Minister Pandey, your predecessor
was a great loss to me. A great loss.
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A tragedy.
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I had been a patron
of his political career for many years
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because I was certain
of his desire to do the right thing
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by the people of Colaba.
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To act in the best interests of the many,
not the few.
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Of course.
We serve at the pleasure of the people.
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And the pleasure of the people
can change on a whim.
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The perils of being a politician.
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You only wield as much power
as the people give you.
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And what they give you,
they can take away.
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Yes, put your faith in the slum.
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Thank you for coming.
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I was keen to meet you face-to-face.
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Until next time.
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He is bought and sold.
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I expected Miss Karla
to have delivered that message.
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She did. But I wanted to deliver
the minister a different message.
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And so you threaten him with what?
The votes of Sagar Wada?
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You think you can win the will
of the people with your pet doctor?
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I expected more from you, Khaderbhai.
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This is India, where dharma is king.
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And you and I both know
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the people of Sagar Wada will be given
a say in their own fate.
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Delivering votes means nothing
if I own the office that counts them.
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A friend is asking for you.
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No one knows why.
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I don't like it.
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That's right, brother.
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Direct from the factory.
None of this hand-me-down shit.
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What are you talking about?
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She's for you.
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He bought it for Dr. Lin!
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He's Khader's man.
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Mate, I can't take this.
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A goonda.
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Are we not brothers?
Have we not saved each other's lives?
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Can you not ride?
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I can ride.
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I'm beginning to think
it's because you're scared.
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Even the kid can tell.
Hey, what do you think, boy? Is he scared?
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Yes.
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You must take this bike, Lin.
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I have better things to do with my time
than be your medicine delivery boy.
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You see? Accepting is your gift to me.
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What do you think, Ravi?
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Test drive?
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You wanna come, Ravi?
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You haven't said a word since we left.
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Why do you want Walid to think
Lin Ford is part of your plan?
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Well, when you pick a man's pocket,
it's important to have a distraction.
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Was that your plan for him all along?
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Who am I that I could manipulate
fate and consequence so thoroughly? God?
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No. Lin is in Sagar Wada
for his own reasons.
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Our agreement
is purely the business of medicine.
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Lin would not be there if not for us,
what I made him do.
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Zhou sent a killer into Sagar Wada
after him, and they started the fire.
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Someone died. Lin blames himself for that.
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He shared all this with you?
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Not a casual conversation
with a man you care nothing for.
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What else did you speak about?
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Nothing important.
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You went to Lin to see if he would
tell you more about his time with me
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than I did.
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Did he?
-No.
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Do you want for us to tell him the truth
about how we are all connected?
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It's already too late for that.
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I just don't want
anybody else getting hurt.
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I am happy to agree
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that neither of us will interfere
with Lin's path any further, if you are.
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If he chooses to stay in Sagar Wada,
so what?
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Otherwise, we both stay away.
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I don't think that fellow over there
likes you very much.
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Or he likes you too much.
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Yeah, he's a prick.
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And this boy, Ravi,
I'm very sure he also doesn't like you.
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Is that why you do all this doctoring
in the slum? So people will like you?
246
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A little goes a long way
to making people happy there.
247
00:17:00,834 --> 00:17:02,336
What will make you happy, Lin?
248
00:17:04,253 --> 00:17:05,422
That's a long list.
249
00:17:07,299 --> 00:17:10,176
If I could actually work out Karla,
that would be something.
250
00:17:10,260 --> 00:17:11,178
Karla?
251
00:17:11,178 --> 00:17:13,930
The woman who came up to us
at the club the other night.
252
00:17:14,765 --> 00:17:15,973
What's your story with her?
253
00:17:17,392 --> 00:17:18,684
You tell me, mate.
254
00:17:18,769 --> 00:17:22,064
That woman is a mystery tied in a riddle,
wrapped in an enigma.
255
00:17:23,357 --> 00:17:26,360
She pushes me away, then pulls me close.
256
00:17:26,360 --> 00:17:29,363
Ignores me, then tells me,
"Don't be a stranger."
257
00:17:30,364 --> 00:17:32,157
What am I supposed to do with that?
258
00:17:32,908 --> 00:17:34,660
I would say don't be a stranger.
259
00:17:35,661 --> 00:17:37,788
Simple? Just that simple?
-Just like that.
260
00:17:38,705 --> 00:17:39,998
Nice.
261
00:17:40,999 --> 00:17:42,960
Maurizio, mate,
how did it go at the VD clinic?
262
00:17:42,960 --> 00:17:44,670
Did you get everything cleared up?
263
00:17:45,545 --> 00:17:47,381
Antibiotics are a wonderful thing.
264
00:17:53,637 --> 00:17:56,139
Strange to me
why anyone could dislike you.
265
00:18:03,438 --> 00:18:04,523
Relax.
266
00:18:04,523 --> 00:18:08,193
They can't do anything in here.
That's why they're being so brave.
267
00:18:18,578 --> 00:18:19,871
It's Rafiq, right?
268
00:18:21,206 --> 00:18:23,000
Listen, about the other day,
269
00:18:23,000 --> 00:18:25,377
I can see why you might be
pissed off about that,
270
00:18:25,377 --> 00:18:28,505
how you might want
a little bit of payback or whatever.
271
00:18:28,505 --> 00:18:30,549
But, look, I'm Switzerland.
272
00:18:32,050 --> 00:18:34,720
I'm just a fella that couldn't let
two other fellas kill each other
273
00:18:34,720 --> 00:18:35,804
in broad daylight.
274
00:18:35,804 --> 00:18:38,432
That's all. No hard feelings, yeah?
275
00:18:49,484 --> 00:18:52,821
I saved your life.
If I wasn't there, you wouldn't be here.
276
00:18:52,821 --> 00:18:55,073
No, he wouldn't.
277
00:18:58,327 --> 00:19:00,954
You should leave Bombay
before something bad happens.
278
00:19:02,080 --> 00:19:03,707
Yeah, so people keep telling me.
279
00:19:04,333 --> 00:19:07,377
Listen, I'm serious.
I don't want any trouble with you.
280
00:19:08,462 --> 00:19:12,215
Too late. You chose a side, doctor man.
281
00:19:14,051 --> 00:19:15,093
The wrong one.
282
00:19:20,474 --> 00:19:21,475
All right.
283
00:19:23,226 --> 00:19:24,436
We're leaving.
284
00:19:24,436 --> 00:19:25,937
But I don't want to go.
285
00:19:26,021 --> 00:19:27,981
Unless you wanna walk home, move.
286
00:19:33,362 --> 00:19:34,446
Are you staying?
287
00:19:36,907 --> 00:19:39,701
You know me. I want seconds.
288
00:19:40,327 --> 00:19:41,328
Be careful.
289
00:20:18,073 --> 00:20:20,325
Hey, how you going, Jitendra, Ratna?
290
00:20:20,867 --> 00:20:21,868
Ravi?
291
00:20:23,287 --> 00:20:25,455
Did you finish your chores?
-What chores?
292
00:20:26,415 --> 00:20:28,166
Ravi, now.
293
00:20:28,250 --> 00:20:30,961
Yes, sir. I'm going.
294
00:20:34,715 --> 00:20:35,882
Can we speak?
295
00:20:35,966 --> 00:20:38,176
Sure. Sure, come in.
296
00:20:43,724 --> 00:20:44,850
You wanna sit down?
297
00:20:44,850 --> 00:20:48,687
Oh, no. I just took up this collection.
298
00:20:49,896 --> 00:20:53,275
What for? You already gave me too much.
299
00:20:53,275 --> 00:20:56,862
No, Mr. Lin. That is our payment
for the work you do.
300
00:20:57,654 --> 00:21:02,784
This money,
this is for the supplies you must buy.
301
00:21:04,620 --> 00:21:05,621
Okay.
302
00:21:07,581 --> 00:21:08,790
Look, Mr. Lin,
303
00:21:09,583 --> 00:21:13,295
where you get your medicine from
is your business.
304
00:21:13,295 --> 00:21:16,214
But the people here,
we need to pay our own way.
305
00:21:18,133 --> 00:21:19,760
I see you talking to Khader's man.
306
00:21:20,510 --> 00:21:22,346
I hear him call you "brother."
307
00:21:23,972 --> 00:21:25,891
That is not the kind of brother you need.
308
00:21:26,642 --> 00:21:29,811
Brotherhood is right here,
in the jhopadpatti.
309
00:21:32,147 --> 00:21:34,608
And there will be conflict
in having two brothers.
310
00:21:42,699 --> 00:21:44,201
We do not have much here,
311
00:21:44,952 --> 00:21:46,620
but we also owe nothing.
312
00:21:47,204 --> 00:21:48,705
And that is our strength.
313
00:21:50,666 --> 00:21:53,502
The cost of your medicines
should be our burden, Mr. Lin,
314
00:21:54,336 --> 00:21:59,257
so it doesn't become our debt
to you or anyone else.
315
00:22:02,886 --> 00:22:03,887
Okay.
316
00:22:04,388 --> 00:22:05,597
Salaam alaikum.
317
00:22:05,681 --> 00:22:06,890
Alaikumu assalam.
318
00:22:09,017 --> 00:22:10,560
I knew he was right
319
00:22:11,144 --> 00:22:13,271
and that if I wanted to stay
in this place,
320
00:22:13,772 --> 00:22:15,315
it had to be by their rules.
321
00:22:20,195 --> 00:22:22,114
I fund this school.
322
00:22:24,783 --> 00:22:27,286
None of the children here have parents.
323
00:22:33,333 --> 00:22:35,419
I cannot deny how I make my money,
324
00:22:35,419 --> 00:22:37,838
but does that matter
as much as what I do with it?
325
00:22:38,922 --> 00:22:40,924
The courts and the police would say yeah.
326
00:22:41,008 --> 00:22:44,845
Now, that is because our laws concentrate
on how much crime is in the sin.
327
00:22:44,845 --> 00:22:47,639
For me, the important thing is
how much sin is in the crime.
328
00:22:48,223 --> 00:22:50,642
I do not make money
from prostitution, drugs.
329
00:22:50,726 --> 00:22:52,561
I do not traffic children, women.
330
00:22:53,145 --> 00:22:56,857
All the other councils, they do,
and that puts me at a disadvantage.
331
00:22:56,857 --> 00:23:01,486
So instead of investing in sin,
I must invest in people,
332
00:23:01,987 --> 00:23:05,574
help them grow and maybe, at some point,
I will reap the benefits.
333
00:23:05,574 --> 00:23:07,743
So I'm one of these seeds you planted.
334
00:23:08,994 --> 00:23:11,038
Are you getting the benefit you hoped for?
335
00:23:13,498 --> 00:23:17,669
It makes me sad
that this is where we are, you and I.
336
00:23:18,462 --> 00:23:22,549
You are very different.
I think you know this.
337
00:23:23,717 --> 00:23:27,095
I have no children, but in this world,
you are a daughter to me,
338
00:23:27,179 --> 00:23:28,430
if you choose to be,
339
00:23:28,430 --> 00:23:31,600
although I will never pretend to be
the kind of father a daughter needs.
340
00:23:32,351 --> 00:23:34,519
You've given me
more than my own father did.
341
00:23:37,606 --> 00:23:38,857
I'm so sorry.
342
00:23:40,609 --> 00:23:44,446
When I first met Rujul,
he wanted to make Bombay a better place.
343
00:23:44,947 --> 00:23:46,573
But power and money changed him.
344
00:23:46,657 --> 00:23:49,451
I didn't see it
until you brought it to me.
345
00:23:50,702 --> 00:23:53,372
But now I worry
that you regret doing that.
346
00:23:54,081 --> 00:23:56,124
I feel like I'm in over my head.
347
00:23:56,208 --> 00:23:58,877
I have no control. I don't like it.
348
00:23:58,961 --> 00:24:00,712
That's why you must always ask yourself
349
00:24:00,796 --> 00:24:04,466
how much sin is in the crime for you,
no one else.
350
00:24:05,300 --> 00:24:07,511
And if it becomes too much
for your soul to bear,
351
00:24:07,511 --> 00:24:09,262
then you must walk away.
352
00:24:09,763 --> 00:24:12,641
You, me, Abdullah, even Lin Ford,
are driven by
353
00:24:12,641 --> 00:24:14,643
a death we would change if we could.
354
00:24:15,268 --> 00:24:17,729
And that starting point
is burned into our hearts
355
00:24:17,813 --> 00:24:19,523
and cannot be reasoned away.
356
00:24:19,523 --> 00:24:22,401
Then our paths are set.
We can't change it--
357
00:24:22,401 --> 00:24:24,027
No, no, no. We can. We must.
358
00:24:24,987 --> 00:24:27,990
I love you, Karla,
whether it is my right or not.
359
00:24:27,990 --> 00:24:29,866
So I will say it again.
360
00:24:31,201 --> 00:24:33,245
If you want to choose a different path,
361
00:24:34,329 --> 00:24:36,331
it will not affect our relationship.
362
00:24:52,347 --> 00:24:53,515
Help me with this.
363
00:25:08,864 --> 00:25:11,199
I will cover the parts you have looked at.
364
00:25:16,622 --> 00:25:19,958
She'll have to stay here tonight
until this IV is finished.
365
00:25:20,042 --> 00:25:23,337
She would not want this.
Not alone with you.
366
00:25:24,838 --> 00:25:25,881
I know.
367
00:25:26,381 --> 00:25:28,508
That's why
you're gonna have to stay with her.
368
00:25:29,551 --> 00:25:30,761
I'll go to Prabhu.
369
00:25:34,806 --> 00:25:36,266
You're good at this, Parvati.
370
00:25:39,853 --> 00:25:43,440
I think I would like to do this
as a real job.
371
00:25:45,651 --> 00:25:48,820
Yeah, they always need good people.
You should pursue it.
372
00:25:48,904 --> 00:25:51,740
Not easy for a girl from here.
373
00:26:09,758 --> 00:26:12,427
Kavita, what are you doing here?
374
00:26:12,511 --> 00:26:15,305
Everything you were talking about
the other night got me thinking
375
00:26:15,389 --> 00:26:16,682
about how I could help.
376
00:26:16,682 --> 00:26:17,766
Help with what?
377
00:26:17,766 --> 00:26:20,894
Your medical work here,
the fight you're taking on.
378
00:26:20,978 --> 00:26:23,188
What you're doing
will get a lot of attention.
379
00:26:23,188 --> 00:26:26,400
The fact you have to do it
because no one else wants to.
380
00:26:26,400 --> 00:26:29,528
Lin, I think what you're doing is amazing,
381
00:26:29,528 --> 00:26:32,781
but real change needs political will.
382
00:26:32,781 --> 00:26:37,119
The easiest way to get that
is by putting you on the front page.
383
00:26:37,786 --> 00:26:39,204
No. No way.
384
00:26:40,122 --> 00:26:41,373
Fuck that.
385
00:26:42,124 --> 00:26:44,543
I can't, Kavita. I'm sorry.
386
00:26:44,543 --> 00:26:47,212
How about I talk
to some of the patients, you know?
387
00:26:47,296 --> 00:26:48,964
Get some pictures of you at work.
388
00:26:50,299 --> 00:26:52,884
Hey!
-There is no story, all right?
389
00:26:52,968 --> 00:26:54,344
You're gonna ruin everything.
390
00:26:54,928 --> 00:26:56,263
What the fuck, man?
391
00:26:59,558 --> 00:27:00,642
Am I clear?
392
00:27:01,310 --> 00:27:03,103
Be clearer if you told me why.
393
00:27:07,274 --> 00:27:09,067
Why don't you want this story told?
394
00:27:13,614 --> 00:27:15,574
It's nothing. Really. I'm--
395
00:27:17,409 --> 00:27:19,286
I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that.
396
00:27:19,870 --> 00:27:22,414
If there's any damage, I'll pay--
397
00:27:22,998 --> 00:27:25,000
Don't worry about it.
-No, Kavita.
398
00:27:26,376 --> 00:27:27,419
Kavita.
399
00:27:30,255 --> 00:27:34,301
My heart was pounding
as I realized how fragile my freedom was.
400
00:27:34,301 --> 00:27:38,096
Just one photograph out in the world
could send me straight back to prison.
401
00:27:46,855 --> 00:27:47,898
Parvati.
402
00:27:53,070 --> 00:27:54,613
Pa...
403
00:27:58,367 --> 00:28:01,453
Parvati, oh, Parvati,
404
00:28:01,453 --> 00:28:06,583
oh, meri Parvati.
405
00:28:06,667 --> 00:28:07,668
Hey.
406
00:28:10,837 --> 00:28:13,715
Please do not ruin my happy thoughts, huh?
407
00:28:14,716 --> 00:28:16,259
Your face is very...
408
00:28:17,636 --> 00:28:19,846
Children will cry
if they look at this face.
409
00:28:21,682 --> 00:28:23,600
It's been a bit of a day, Prabhu, mate.
410
00:28:25,394 --> 00:28:27,938
Seems I can't get things right
for getting them wrong.
411
00:28:38,407 --> 00:28:40,450
I love her too much, Linbaba.
412
00:28:41,702 --> 00:28:43,203
You're making me jealous.
413
00:28:44,288 --> 00:28:48,917
Yeah, well, I am jealous of that big, fat
envelope of money Qasimbhai is giving you.
414
00:28:49,543 --> 00:28:50,627
I'm sick about it.
415
00:28:53,380 --> 00:28:56,800
Okay. Then, to feel better about it,
416
00:28:56,800 --> 00:29:01,054
why don't you, you know, roll around
on your big bed of money, Linbaba?
417
00:29:01,763 --> 00:29:04,016
Prabhu, the whole jhopadpatti
has been chipping in
418
00:29:04,016 --> 00:29:06,893
'cause they think I'm spending my money
on the medicine.
419
00:29:06,977 --> 00:29:08,103
If not you, then who?
420
00:29:09,980 --> 00:29:11,231
Khaderbhai's been paying.
421
00:29:15,569 --> 00:29:18,030
Okay, very bad. Very bad, very--
422
00:29:18,030 --> 00:29:21,033
Lin, you must never tell anyone,
423
00:29:21,617 --> 00:29:23,619
or Qasimbhai will tell you
to leave Sagar Wada.
424
00:29:23,619 --> 00:29:25,829
Look, that money should go
back to the people.
425
00:29:25,829 --> 00:29:27,706
No.
426
00:29:28,498 --> 00:29:30,375
That will only get you in more trouble.
427
00:29:30,459 --> 00:29:34,087
The people love you, they need you,
they want you to have it. Please, Linbaba.
428
00:29:35,005 --> 00:29:39,676
Just keep your head down
and money in your pocket, boss.
429
00:29:42,554 --> 00:29:45,432
It's a lie.
-Not a lie. Just a...
430
00:29:46,391 --> 00:29:48,185
Not telling.
-Not telling.
431
00:29:48,810 --> 00:29:50,729
With consequences you must deal with.
432
00:29:50,729 --> 00:29:54,566
And the consequences are
everyone stays happy,
433
00:29:55,192 --> 00:29:59,529
and you must live with too much money.
434
00:30:13,669 --> 00:30:15,712
Why don't you take some of that food
to Parvati
435
00:30:17,422 --> 00:30:18,840
and say hello?
436
00:30:18,924 --> 00:30:23,053
Please, Lin. Her family do not need
any more reason to hate me.
437
00:30:23,053 --> 00:30:26,056
An unmarried woman
cannot be talking to a--
438
00:30:27,683 --> 00:30:33,647
handsome, unmarried fellow like me,
alone in the beautiful dark of the night.
439
00:30:36,984 --> 00:30:38,902
Same reason you are sleeping here tonight.
440
00:30:40,487 --> 00:30:41,947
So many rules.
441
00:30:43,156 --> 00:30:47,369
Can't be alone with another man's wife
or with a woman who's nobody's wife
442
00:30:47,869 --> 00:30:49,538
or with any woman, pretty much.
443
00:30:50,205 --> 00:30:51,957
I'm surprised
there are so many kids around here.
444
00:30:53,583 --> 00:30:56,670
I'm not saying spend the night.
Just go say hello.
445
00:31:00,507 --> 00:31:02,592
It is not possible, Linbaba.
446
00:31:07,973 --> 00:31:13,228
Parvati is alone, and I cannot be with her
even though I desire her very much.
447
00:31:15,897 --> 00:31:18,400
Instead, I'm sharing my tiny hut with you.
448
00:31:20,027 --> 00:31:24,239
But Karla Ma'am is alone,
and there are no rules stopping you.
449
00:31:24,823 --> 00:31:26,283
And you are jealous of me?
450
00:31:28,368 --> 00:31:31,079
I am the one
who cannot have sexy time tonight
451
00:31:31,163 --> 00:31:32,414
because of this situation.
452
00:31:36,501 --> 00:31:37,502
Now I'm confused.
453
00:31:37,586 --> 00:31:41,798
Are you telling me to go get laid
or do you wanna be alone to masturbate?
454
00:31:43,300 --> 00:31:47,429
All friends here, Linbaba.
I don't mind if I'm alone or not.
455
00:31:53,226 --> 00:31:55,520
Then I definitely have
somewhere else to be.
456
00:32:11,912 --> 00:32:13,455
Lin Ford at the gate, sir.
457
00:32:13,956 --> 00:32:15,123
You should leave.
458
00:32:16,166 --> 00:32:17,918
Don't let Lin see you.
459
00:32:20,629 --> 00:32:21,922
We'll finish this later.
460
00:32:40,565 --> 00:32:41,650
Khaderbhai.
461
00:32:42,818 --> 00:32:47,364
Do you play?
-No, I have no idea what that is.
462
00:32:47,864 --> 00:32:49,825
Pachisi. I will teach you.
463
00:32:49,825 --> 00:32:51,243
Some other time maybe.
464
00:32:53,704 --> 00:32:56,373
Look, everything you've done
has been appreciated, Khaderbhai,
465
00:32:56,373 --> 00:32:59,584
but I'm gonna have to insist on
paying you back.
466
00:33:00,836 --> 00:33:02,796
Paying my own way from now on.
467
00:33:04,881 --> 00:33:07,050
Did someone send you here to tell me this?
468
00:33:07,134 --> 00:33:09,303
No. No, they didn't need to.
469
00:33:09,928 --> 00:33:11,263
Sagar Wada has its own rules,
470
00:33:11,263 --> 00:33:13,932
and if I'm gonna live there,
they have to be my rules too.
471
00:33:14,016 --> 00:33:16,685
What rule do they have
except to grovel and wallow in shit?
472
00:33:17,269 --> 00:33:19,730
Their only rule is
that they're happy to suffer.
473
00:33:19,730 --> 00:33:21,857
There's more than one kind of suffering,
Abdullah.
474
00:33:21,857 --> 00:33:24,318
The one we feel
and the one we cause others to feel.
475
00:33:24,318 --> 00:33:26,862
You don't have to suffer anything
if you're strong enough to deny it.
476
00:33:26,862 --> 00:33:29,990
Well, maybe true strength is suffering
for others when you don't have to.
477
00:33:29,990 --> 00:33:33,118
Mr. Lin came here to make his life harder.
Do you think him weak?
478
00:33:33,702 --> 00:33:35,871
No. But though I count him as a brother,
479
00:33:35,871 --> 00:33:38,165
he's a crazy Westerner,
and the rules don't count for him.
480
00:33:38,165 --> 00:33:40,292
A suffering can be a kind of anger.
481
00:33:40,292 --> 00:33:43,211
We rage against injustice and unfairness,
482
00:33:43,295 --> 00:33:45,881
and some men feel compelled
to bear this suffering
483
00:33:45,881 --> 00:33:47,591
no matter the consequences.
484
00:33:48,133 --> 00:33:50,969
Such a man is only truly happy
when he is suffering for others.
485
00:33:51,053 --> 00:33:52,679
The hero's curse.
486
00:33:53,930 --> 00:33:56,725
You've done it now.
This discussion will last a long time.
487
00:33:56,725 --> 00:33:58,310
Better you take the money and go.
488
00:33:58,810 --> 00:34:00,187
I'm afraid I can't do that.
489
00:34:03,065 --> 00:34:05,108
And I respect your decision.
490
00:34:05,984 --> 00:34:08,946
My interest is only in being a help to you
in Sagar Wada.
491
00:34:08,946 --> 00:34:12,783
And if I can ever be a help to you again,
my door is always open.
492
00:34:13,367 --> 00:34:16,536
Thank you, Khaderbhai.
-I enjoy our conversations, Lin.
493
00:34:16,536 --> 00:34:19,039
I hope we can maintain
our friendship at least.
494
00:34:19,873 --> 00:34:21,291
Nothing I'd like more.
495
00:34:21,375 --> 00:34:22,376
Good.
496
00:34:41,936 --> 00:34:43,730
My saab will be coming soon.
497
00:35:16,221 --> 00:35:17,222
Lindsay.
498
00:35:47,878 --> 00:35:50,922
Did you know that
it's practically illegal in the Sagar Wada
499
00:35:51,006 --> 00:35:54,551
for a man to be alone with
an unmarried woman in the dead of night?
500
00:36:02,809 --> 00:36:04,102
What are you doing here?
501
00:36:07,940 --> 00:36:09,232
I missed you.
502
00:36:23,538 --> 00:36:24,873
Why did you let me in?
503
00:36:40,472 --> 00:36:42,182
Come inside.
504
00:36:43,850 --> 00:36:46,645
Let's go. I've come to take you home.
505
00:36:47,854 --> 00:36:50,107
I can't leave her tonight.
506
00:36:50,774 --> 00:36:56,363
This is not your job.
The shop is your business.
507
00:36:57,906 --> 00:37:01,326
There is only one road
out of our difficulties, Parvati!
508
00:37:02,911 --> 00:37:04,246
Parvati.
509
00:37:04,246 --> 00:37:06,832
Everything you're doing for the clinic...
510
00:37:06,832 --> 00:37:10,043
is at the expense
of your own flesh and blood.
511
00:37:10,127 --> 00:37:15,882
I don't do this for the clinic.
I do this for me.
512
00:37:29,396 --> 00:37:31,315
I'm getting the Lewis Carrolls.
513
00:37:31,315 --> 00:37:34,276
"Oh, you're mad. Bonkers.
514
00:37:34,276 --> 00:37:35,611
Completely off your head.
515
00:37:36,778 --> 00:37:41,241
But I'll tell you a secret.
All the best people are."
516
00:37:41,825 --> 00:37:45,120
Very good, Lin. Too smart by half.
517
00:37:48,874 --> 00:37:52,794
Is you being here going to make
one of those pretty slum girls jealous?
518
00:37:54,046 --> 00:37:55,213
What?
519
00:37:56,006 --> 00:37:57,215
No.
520
00:37:58,508 --> 00:38:00,969
I should stop listening to Didier.
521
00:38:01,053 --> 00:38:03,680
Thinks the only reason
you would stay in a slum is sex.
522
00:38:04,556 --> 00:38:07,017
What, not even love? Just sex?
523
00:38:08,477 --> 00:38:09,561
I hate love.
524
00:38:13,815 --> 00:38:15,943
You can't hate love, Karla.
525
00:38:15,943 --> 00:38:17,361
Why not?
526
00:38:17,361 --> 00:38:21,031
It's such an arrogance to love someone
and to expect it in return.
527
00:38:22,741 --> 00:38:26,703
I think heaven is a place
where everybody is happy
528
00:38:26,787 --> 00:38:29,790
because nobody has to love
anyone else ever again.
529
00:38:33,919 --> 00:38:35,462
So if love's no good...
530
00:38:37,714 --> 00:38:39,299
what is?
531
00:38:39,383 --> 00:38:43,220
Power. It's the opposite of love.
532
00:38:44,638 --> 00:38:46,098
You're a fucking savage.
533
00:38:55,691 --> 00:38:59,778
So, why are you here in Bombay
in the first place?
534
00:39:03,407 --> 00:39:04,783
The original sin.
535
00:39:11,581 --> 00:39:13,959
I'll show you mine if you show me yours.
536
00:39:14,668 --> 00:39:15,877
Then don't tell me.
537
00:39:16,837 --> 00:39:18,130
Maybe I wanna tell you.
538
00:39:21,341 --> 00:39:23,218
Maybe I wanna tell someone the truth.
539
00:39:24,886 --> 00:39:26,346
Someone I trust.
540
00:39:28,015 --> 00:39:30,058
Someone I think could be a friend.
541
00:39:33,687 --> 00:39:34,855
Are we friends?
542
00:39:36,356 --> 00:39:39,234
I let you in, against my better judgment.
543
00:40:12,142 --> 00:40:13,518
I was addicted to heroin.
544
00:40:17,481 --> 00:40:20,817
I needed money, so I robbed a bank.
545
00:40:22,945 --> 00:40:24,112
A cop got killed,
546
00:40:25,447 --> 00:40:28,283
not by me, but I played my part.
547
00:40:31,036 --> 00:40:32,371
And they put me away.
548
00:40:35,457 --> 00:40:37,042
And then I escaped...
549
00:40:39,419 --> 00:40:42,589
and ran as fast
and as hard as I could to here.
550
00:40:46,969 --> 00:40:48,011
Why here?
551
00:40:49,763 --> 00:40:51,056
I always wanted to come.
552
00:40:52,265 --> 00:40:54,226
It's what the money
was supposed to be for.
553
00:40:56,603 --> 00:40:59,189
So I convinced myself I could come anyway.
554
00:41:01,275 --> 00:41:03,193
Leave all the rest behind.
555
00:41:09,992 --> 00:41:12,286
Take that information
to any cop in Bombay.
556
00:41:12,286 --> 00:41:13,870
There's probably a reward in it.
557
00:41:20,919 --> 00:41:22,546
So now we have to be friends.
558
00:41:24,715 --> 00:41:26,258
My life is in your hands.
559
00:41:36,143 --> 00:41:37,519
Don't. Don't.
560
00:41:41,898 --> 00:41:44,109
Is this St. Hilda's Hospital, Bombay?
561
00:41:44,109 --> 00:41:45,360
This is St. Hilda's.
562
00:41:45,444 --> 00:41:47,321
Is this Usha?
-Yes.
563
00:41:47,321 --> 00:41:50,115
It's Susan Reeves
from the passport office in Auckland.
564
00:41:50,115 --> 00:41:53,160
I ran the passport number.
You're sure you gave me the right one?
565
00:41:54,745 --> 00:41:59,166
R 22624-788. Lindsay Ford.
566
00:42:00,083 --> 00:42:03,128
He's still in a coma,
and it doesn't look good.
567
00:42:03,629 --> 00:42:07,257
The least we can do is find his family
and tell them he's not coming home.
568
00:42:07,341 --> 00:42:10,677
I'm sure they know, love.
Lindsay Ford's been dead for six years.
569
00:42:11,345 --> 00:42:14,806
If you don't mind holding a minute,
my supervisor would like a word.
570
00:42:14,890 --> 00:42:15,932
Of course.
571
00:42:21,605 --> 00:42:24,191
He's using a dead man's passport.
572
00:42:53,387 --> 00:42:57,599
When I was 12, my father shot himself.
573
00:42:59,309 --> 00:43:00,394
I found him.
574
00:43:02,145 --> 00:43:04,898
Brains all over
a pile of bankruptcy forms.
575
00:43:08,110 --> 00:43:11,530
I grew up rich, certain of two things.
576
00:43:13,115 --> 00:43:17,494
I wanted for nothing,
and my father loved me more than anything.
577
00:43:20,205 --> 00:43:23,292
Turned out I was wrong on both counts.
578
00:43:25,711 --> 00:43:29,089
And during everything that came after,
the thing I could never get past
579
00:43:30,632 --> 00:43:33,427
was why wasn't I enough
for him to live for?
580
00:43:38,890 --> 00:43:41,018
I was complacent in my love for him
581
00:43:42,352 --> 00:43:44,771
and in my assumption
that he loved me most.
582
00:43:46,398 --> 00:43:47,441
He didn't.
583
00:43:48,233 --> 00:43:51,737
He loved who and what he was
and what people thought of him.
584
00:43:54,615 --> 00:43:56,033
I used to cry myself to sleep
585
00:43:56,033 --> 00:43:59,328
at whatever relative's house
I'd been shunted to,
586
00:44:00,537 --> 00:44:02,789
and ask why he couldn't have
just stayed for me...
587
00:44:05,208 --> 00:44:07,461
he couldn't have just loved me
and that be enough?
588
00:44:12,716 --> 00:44:14,092
That wasn't your fault.
589
00:44:14,926 --> 00:44:18,597
I know that. Guilt's your thing, not mine.
590
00:44:21,475 --> 00:44:25,646
I blamed him for throwing my love away.
591
00:44:28,106 --> 00:44:29,733
And blame's harder than guilt.
592
00:44:32,235 --> 00:44:33,862
And also easier.
593
00:44:36,073 --> 00:44:39,034
If you assume the worst of everyone,
it's easy not to get close.
594
00:44:41,912 --> 00:44:44,081
You asked what I want.
595
00:44:44,081 --> 00:44:47,459
I never wanna be dependent
on anybody else again.
596
00:44:48,335 --> 00:44:49,836
That's it.
597
00:44:52,631 --> 00:44:53,715
Sounds lonely.
598
00:44:58,053 --> 00:45:03,350
"They fuck you up, your mom and dad.
They may not mean to, but they do."
599
00:45:04,643 --> 00:45:06,979
"They fill you with the faults they had."
600
00:45:06,979 --> 00:45:09,773
"And add some extra, just for you."
-"And add some extra, just for you."
601
00:45:16,571 --> 00:45:19,658
You know, last time
I was out after curfew with you...
602
00:45:21,743 --> 00:45:23,203
I got chased by the cops.
603
00:45:25,622 --> 00:45:28,834
Then I guess you better stay,
if you'd like.
604
00:45:59,698 --> 00:46:00,741
I can't.
605
00:46:02,367 --> 00:46:03,410
You could.
606
00:46:05,912 --> 00:46:07,331
It's not that simple.
607
00:46:19,426 --> 00:46:20,802
The couch is all yours.