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Richard:
A month ago, you were in med
school being taught by doctors.

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Today you are the doctors.

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The seven years you spend here
as a surgical resident

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will be the best
and worst of your life.

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♪ Da, da, dum, da, dum ♪

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♪ Da, da, dum, da, dum ♪

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Meredith: There's an old joke
doctors like to tell.

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"Hey, Doc, it hurts
when I go like this."

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♪ Da, da, dum, da, dum ♪

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♪ Da, da, dum, da, dum ♪

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And the doctor says,
"Well, don't go like this."

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♪ Meet me in the crowd ♪

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It's a lame joke,
but it's nonetheless true.

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♪ People, people ♪

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Okay, folks.
Meeting time.

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Please take your seats.
♪ Throw your love around ♪

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As human beings,
we can't help

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but want to follow
our instincts...

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♪ Love me, love me ♪

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Hey!
♪ Take it into town ♪

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I, uh,
went back to the loft

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and got you another bag
of your stuff.

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Oh.
Couldn't find those
ugly, fuzzy socks you like.

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♪ Happy, happy ♪

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...to follow our guts...

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That face
is over socks?
♪ Put it in the ground ♪

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...our primal urges...

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Uh, some bills, some junk,
and, uh, top letter.

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♪ Everyone around ♪

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♪ Love them, love them ♪

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...no matter how much
it may hurt.

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♪ Put it in your hands ♪

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♪ Take it, take it ♪

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♪ There's no time to cry ♪

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♪ Happy, happy ♪

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♪ Put it in your heart ♪

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♪ Where tomorrow shines ♪

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♪ Shiny,
happy people laughing ♪

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I'll sit with you.
We can read it together.

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I got it.

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I got it.

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♪ Da, da, dum, da, dum ♪

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♪ Da, da, dum, da, dum ♪
You know
where to find me.

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♪ Da, da, dum, da, dum ♪

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♪ Da, da, dum, da, dum ♪

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♪ Shiny, happy people
holding hands ♪

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♪ Shiny, happy people
laughing ♪

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Alex: Dear Jo...

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Mer, this is not
the way I wanted to do this.

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Dear Dr. Bailey, I regret to
inform you, blah, blah, blah,

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that I will not be
returning to Grey-Sloan.

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The last thing on Earth
I want to do is hurt you,

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but I'm leaving.

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I already left, actually.

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I'm gone.

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This is not the way I wanted to
do this, but you know me.

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Any chance
to take the easy way out.

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Or maybe that used to be true.
I don't know.

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God, I hate nurses.

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I'm Alex.
I'm with Jeremy.

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You're, uh -- You're with
the Nazi, right?

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She may not have pneumonia,
you know?

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She could be splinting,
or have a P.E.

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Like I said,
I hate nurses.

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What did you just say?

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Did you just
call me a nurse?

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Well,
if the white cap fits.

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Alex: What I do know is
I owe you the truth,

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and I don't know how else
to tell you.

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But you know as well as I do
if I showed up on your doorstep,

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you'd yell
or give me guilt or crap

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or whatever you do that
seems to always set me straight.

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We're grown-ups.

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We can't run.

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We have to face up to
the stupid things we do.

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-Alex!
-Get off!

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Supposedly, if you
face up to them,

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something good comes out of it.
I don't know what.

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You were always the one
to set me straight...

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God, I smell good!

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You know what it is?

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It's the smell
of open-heart surgery.

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It's awesome.
It is awesome.

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You gotta smell me.
-I don't want to smell you.

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Alex: ...to point out
when I was being an ass.
Oh, yes, you do.

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You have got
to be kidding me!

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Okay, I have more important
things to deal with than you.

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I have roommates and boy
problems and family problems.

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You wanna act like a little
frat-boy bitch? That's fine.

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You wanna take credit for
your saves and everybody else's?

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That's fine, too.
Just stay outta my face.

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And for the record,

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you smell like crap!

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Alex:
And when that didn't work,

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you'd flop in my bed
and say the one perfect thing

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that would make sense.

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But the thing is,
I can't come back.

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I can't face you.

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You can go.

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What are you gonna do
if I leave?

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It's just us now.

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There were five of us,
and now it's just you and I.

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And it can't be just me.

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It seems like
five seconds ago,

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we were the interns
hiding in the tunnels.

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Alex!
Get off.

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Look, I'm not gonna stay
in Seattle

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just because you don't want
to be alone.

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I deserve the guilt
and to be called an ass,

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but I don't want to be
set straight.

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I don't want you
to say the right thing

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because the one perfect thing
isn't in Seattle.

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Not anymore.

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Yang left me
her shares and her board seat

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and...she left me you,
too.

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It's just us now.

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I don't know -- if you need
somebody to bitch to

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or just be...

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My person.

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I don't know
what you mean.

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But you do.

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Alex: Apparently,
I'm your emergency contact.

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I want waffle Sundays.

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Like a family,
all of us --

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everybody, all together.

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Okay.

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I want to do that
as long as we can.

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It's important to me.
-God, get off! Stop it!

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Oh, my God.
Ohh.

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But I swear, it's not
about work or you or Jo.

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It's about me.

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I left.

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And I'm with Izzie.

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Alex:
This is probably the part where
you're gonna get on your phone

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and call a million times

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and leave hateful messages
on my machine

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till I call you back.

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But I can't, Mer.

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I can't lie to you,
and I can't promise

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I'm gonna come home
because it's not home anymore.

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-Go make her happy.
-Yeah.

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When you were in danger
of losing your license,

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when I called everyone
to write letters

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and show up on your behalf,

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I called Izzie, too.

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I want to say
I hoped she wouldn't answer,

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but the truth is
I hoped she would.

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I want to say,
"I had to call her for you,"

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but that would be a lie.

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The truth is
your trial gave me

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an excuse good enough
to call her.

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'Cause I wanted to know
where she landed.

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Alex: Today is the day
my life begins.

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All my life,
I've been just me --

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just a smart-mouth kid.

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♪ Beyond a story book ♪
Today I become a man.

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Today I become a husband.

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Today I become accountable
to someone other than myself.

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♪ And learn our souls
are all we own ♪

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Today I become accountable
to you,

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to our future,

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to all the possibilities
that our marriage has to offer.

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Together,
no matter what happens,

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I'll be ready...

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I wanted to know
if she was alive and well.

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Richard: Screw the DNR.

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Hand me those paddles.

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-Clear.
-I wanted to hear her voice.

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I'm a bride.

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Iz, come on. I'm getting her
a real one.

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and that makes it
a real one.

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Alex: When she picked up,
I blurted out the whole thing

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about you picking up trash
off the street

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and needing a letter that proved
you're better than that.

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And she laughed and said,

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"Of course she'd be
trash-picking,

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trying to save the world."

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Today, Izzie Stevens,
our life together begins.

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And I, for one,
can't wait.

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And then these voices
were in the background

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and a girl was singing
this song about

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"greasy, grimy gopher guts"
that I learned in first grade

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and I started laughing and I
asked if she had kids and...

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Izzie got quiet.

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For so long, she was quiet,

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and finally, she said,
"Yeah, I have kids."

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"Twins."
♪ I know that I am
nothing new ♪

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And it turns out
they're my kids, Mer.

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♪ There's so much more
than me and you ♪
Izzie's and my kids.

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She had our kids.

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♪ But, brother,
how we must atone ♪

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♪ Before we turn to stone ♪

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I love Jo.

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Deeply. Still.

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I think I always will.

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And if it was just about
two women I love,

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I'd choose my wife.

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You know I would.

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Hey.
But it's not just her.

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Izzie made our kids.

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I snooched into a cup
for you today.

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Um...thank you?

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She was single
and wanted children

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and couldn't have 'em because
the cancer nuked her eggs.

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But she had our embryos.

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Back then
I was too freaked out

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to care about what she did with
them if we never used them.

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You think a Dixie cup
full of my swimmers

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will make everything okay?

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It's crap. This is crap.

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You just can't go messing
with people's heads like that.

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Even if she freezes
the embryos,

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you think -- you think
we'll get a chance to use them?

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You think
she'll still be here?

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You think she'll survive
all this?

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Do you think...

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She t-told me--

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she told me she was seeing
a ghost, okay?

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And I'm so used to all
the crazy chicks in my life

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that I didn't even...

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I'm a doctor.

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A doctor!

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And I didn't even think
to...

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And now she's...

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This is...

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This is wrong.

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This isn't
how it's supposed to happen.

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I know.

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It's crap.
I know.

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I hate this.

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I know.

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This isn't...

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This isn't how we...
How we were supp--

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this isn't how I wanted
to do this.

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This isn't how Izzie and I
were supposed to make a baby.

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So I signed papers
saying she could do

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whatever she wanted
with them.

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And so she used them.

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And she had twins.

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Eli and Alexis.

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I should have told Jo
or told you, but I didn't.

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I got through the trial
and then I came here

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and I met the kids.

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Met my kids, Mer.

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They're five.

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And hilarious and stubborn
as hell, just like Izzie.

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Like this little team
that gangs up on me

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with stubbornness
and sticky hands.

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Hi, horsey!

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And the second I walked
in the door,

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they wanted to show me
their rooms

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and the look on their faces
when they were showing me

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all their toys and books
and...

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asked if they could
call me...

255
00:12:14,880 --> 00:12:17,420
Dad.

256
00:12:17,420 --> 00:12:19,120
They both want to be doctors,

257
00:12:19,120 --> 00:12:21,540
and Izzie teaches them
to bake just like her.

258
00:12:21,540 --> 00:12:23,790
And they scribble
pictures of stethoscopes

259
00:12:23,790 --> 00:12:26,000
all over the walls in chalk.

260
00:12:26,000 --> 00:12:28,000
And Alexis...

261
00:12:28,000 --> 00:12:29,380
...oh,
she's got Izzie's eyes.

262
00:12:29,380 --> 00:12:33,420
And Eli smiles crooked
just like I do.

263
00:12:33,420 --> 00:12:36,920
And now I live on a freaking
farm in Nowhere, Kansas.

264
00:12:40,210 --> 00:12:41,580
And the kids play
with the chickens

265
00:12:41,580 --> 00:12:44,750
and Izzie goes to work
as a surgical oncologist.

266
00:12:46,540 --> 00:12:48,960
Oh, and she's amazing, Mer.

267
00:12:48,960 --> 00:12:50,710
The progress she's made.

268
00:12:50,710 --> 00:12:52,500
She's alive.

269
00:12:52,500 --> 00:12:54,580
And she's a miracle
and keeping other people alive.

270
00:12:54,580 --> 00:12:56,880
And I'm applying
to the hospital nearby.

271
00:12:59,330 --> 00:13:01,670
And I wanted to be mad at Izzie
for keeping them from me,

272
00:13:01,670 --> 00:13:05,880
but I can't because all I am
is grateful she made them.

273
00:13:05,880 --> 00:13:08,620
Oh, they're so damn smart,
smarter than I was at their age.

274
00:13:08,620 --> 00:13:11,170
Hell, sometimes at my age.

275
00:13:11,170 --> 00:13:12,500
And they get to
have everything --

276
00:13:12,500 --> 00:13:15,040
a home where they feel safe
and loved,

277
00:13:15,040 --> 00:13:16,790
and they play "sleepover,"

278
00:13:16,790 --> 00:13:19,080
where they just keep
swapping beds non-stop,

279
00:13:19,080 --> 00:13:21,460
all night until
they land in ours at 4:00 a.m.

280
00:13:22,710 --> 00:13:24,750
And they wake up
with two parents,

281
00:13:24,750 --> 00:13:27,290
when I rarely
ever even had one.

282
00:13:27,290 --> 00:13:28,670
Oh, I love them, Mer,

283
00:13:28,670 --> 00:13:30,620
with every inch of me
and every cell,

284
00:13:30,620 --> 00:13:33,380
and I get to be their dad.

285
00:13:33,380 --> 00:13:36,040
I'm the guy who lied
and said I only had one ball

286
00:13:36,040 --> 00:13:37,920
to get into Seattle Grace.

287
00:13:37,920 --> 00:13:39,670
And it worked.

288
00:13:39,670 --> 00:13:42,580
I got a job and a career I love
based on a lie

289
00:13:42,580 --> 00:13:45,620
that no one really cared about,
and I made it work.

290
00:13:47,290 --> 00:13:49,250
And when I look at my kids

291
00:13:49,250 --> 00:13:52,080
and doubt if I know
how to do right by them,

292
00:13:52,080 --> 00:13:56,290
I just think of you and Zola
and Bailey and Ellis.

293
00:13:56,290 --> 00:13:58,920
You're so brave.
And you've grown
into this incredible mother,

294
00:13:58,920 --> 00:14:01,000
this incredible surgeon.

295
00:14:02,040 --> 00:14:05,000
You did that.

296
00:14:05,000 --> 00:14:07,500
You always said Cristina
was your person.

297
00:14:07,500 --> 00:14:09,500
Then I was your person.

298
00:14:09,500 --> 00:14:12,120
But you've always been
your own damn person,

299
00:14:12,120 --> 00:14:15,500
a force of freaking nature.

300
00:14:15,500 --> 00:14:19,210
You've never needed
anyone but you.

301
00:14:19,210 --> 00:14:20,420
And you can come here,
you know?

302
00:14:20,420 --> 00:14:22,500
You -- You --
You could show up at my door

303
00:14:22,500 --> 00:14:24,580
and -- and get me
to walk away from all this

304
00:14:24,580 --> 00:14:26,880
and just go back to you
and Jo and the hospital

305
00:14:26,880 --> 00:14:29,250
and everyone
who helped me get here.
All: ...two...one!

306
00:14:29,250 --> 00:14:31,500
Alex:
But I hope you don't.

307
00:14:31,500 --> 00:14:33,380
Mer,
you are my best friend,

308
00:14:33,380 --> 00:14:34,960
and I will miss the hell
out of you,

309
00:14:34,960 --> 00:14:40,920
but  I'm finally
exactly where I should be.

310
00:14:40,920 --> 00:14:43,920
I never had that before.

311
00:14:43,920 --> 00:14:47,620
So, I hope you do come here
one day,

312
00:14:47,620 --> 00:14:50,620
but not to ask me to leave.

313
00:14:50,620 --> 00:14:53,080
I hope you come
to meet my kids

314
00:14:53,080 --> 00:14:55,420
and they get to call you
"Auntie Mer."

315
00:14:55,420 --> 00:14:59,210
Because you'll love them,
and they'll love you.

316
00:14:59,210 --> 00:15:02,420
And until you're ready
to do that,

317
00:15:02,420 --> 00:15:04,500
try not to hate me too much.

318
00:15:04,500 --> 00:15:07,170
Please?

319
00:15:07,170 --> 00:15:10,420
Alex.

320
00:15:25,830 --> 00:15:27,540
Alex: I'm sorry.

321
00:15:29,420 --> 00:15:31,710
You deserve
more than a letter.

322
00:15:31,710 --> 00:15:33,210
I'm your intern
for the day.

323
00:15:33,210 --> 00:15:35,040
Oh. Well, hello, intern.
You have a name?

324
00:15:35,040 --> 00:15:36,460
Jo Wilson.

325
00:15:36,460 --> 00:15:38,540
Oh, nice. I like chicks
with boys names.

326
00:15:38,540 --> 00:15:40,880
And this right here,

327
00:15:40,880 --> 00:15:44,790
this cowardice, this letter?

328
00:15:44,790 --> 00:15:47,330
It's officially
the worst thing I've ever done.

329
00:15:48,670 --> 00:15:50,920
But it's about me, Jo.

330
00:15:50,920 --> 00:15:52,540
It's not about you.

331
00:15:52,540 --> 00:15:55,960
I don't live
in my car anymore, jerk.
It's not what you deserve.

332
00:15:55,960 --> 00:15:58,830
You deserve and have earned
so much better than this.
I got you a couch.

333
00:15:58,830 --> 00:16:00,330
Hey,
powdered sugar's your favorite.

334
00:16:00,330 --> 00:16:02,420
Yeah, no.
Uh, this is great.

335
00:16:02,420 --> 00:16:04,170
You wanted to hear me
say the words.

336
00:16:04,170 --> 00:16:06,460
So I'm...
saying them right now.

337
00:16:09,040 --> 00:16:11,710
I love you, Jo.

338
00:16:11,710 --> 00:16:13,750
I love that you are
brilliant and brave,

339
00:16:13,750 --> 00:16:15,170
and no matter
what you go through...

340
00:16:15,170 --> 00:16:16,620
Hey, Brooke.

341
00:16:16,620 --> 00:16:18,500
Oh, wait. It's --
It's "Jo" now, right?

342
00:16:20,330 --> 00:16:22,120
...you never
let it hold you back.

343
00:16:22,120 --> 00:16:24,670
Do I look like him?
You have
my father's eyes...

344
00:16:24,670 --> 00:16:26,380
You have an out.

345
00:16:29,670 --> 00:16:32,000
It makes you stronger,
kinder.

346
00:16:32,000 --> 00:16:33,580
You made me kinder.

347
00:16:33,580 --> 00:16:35,040
That works?
The compliments thing?

348
00:16:35,040 --> 00:16:36,250
Mm-hmm.

349
00:16:36,250 --> 00:16:37,750
God, you're sexy.

350
00:16:37,750 --> 00:16:39,290
Doesn't work on me.

351
00:16:39,290 --> 00:16:41,080
Ohh!

352
00:16:41,080 --> 00:16:43,250
Oh. A little warning
when people are over

353
00:16:43,250 --> 00:16:44,580
would be nice.

354
00:16:44,580 --> 00:16:47,250
You loved me for exactly
who I was, and I loved you.

355
00:16:47,250 --> 00:16:49,500
I'm gonna marry
that girl.

356
00:16:49,500 --> 00:16:51,620
Ohh! Yes!

357
00:16:51,620 --> 00:16:53,210
I love you.

358
00:16:53,210 --> 00:16:56,040
Maybe it's not fair to say that,
but it's true.

359
00:16:56,040 --> 00:16:57,710
What's also true is...

360
00:17:00,000 --> 00:17:01,500
...I'm in love with Izzie.

361
00:17:07,830 --> 00:17:09,080
When I asked you

362
00:17:09,080 --> 00:17:10,670
if you wanted
to move in with me,

363
00:17:10,670 --> 00:17:12,290
you said that you did

364
00:17:12,290 --> 00:17:13,620
and that you could
picture a life with me,

365
00:17:13,620 --> 00:17:15,830
but you never said anything
about babies.

366
00:17:15,830 --> 00:17:19,120
You said,
"Maybe we could get a dog."

367
00:17:19,120 --> 00:17:21,620
Do you want a dog?
No, I want to know
what we're doing here.

368
00:17:21,620 --> 00:17:23,620
I love you,
and you love me.

369
00:17:23,620 --> 00:17:25,040
I know,
but when I look ahead --

370
00:17:25,040 --> 00:17:26,540
Why are we
looking ahead?

371
00:17:26,540 --> 00:17:28,710
If you had or maybe
you do have, for all I know,

372
00:17:28,710 --> 00:17:31,170
a bunch of Izzie babies walking
around with your face on them --

373
00:17:31,170 --> 00:17:32,420
And why
are we doing it now?

374
00:17:32,420 --> 00:17:34,540
And -- And I'm just
the "Let's get a dog" girl?

375
00:17:34,540 --> 00:17:36,710
You always ask about Izzie,
what she was like.

376
00:17:36,710 --> 00:17:38,420
Well, that --
that girl right there.

377
00:17:38,420 --> 00:17:40,120
That -- That's what Izzie
was like.

378
00:17:40,120 --> 00:17:43,210
I imagined this whole life
for her where she was baking

379
00:17:43,210 --> 00:17:45,250
and happy
and had a bunch of kids.

380
00:17:45,250 --> 00:17:47,000
Jo: Alex, if you want
to know how she is,

381
00:17:47,000 --> 00:17:48,420
you should just call her.

382
00:17:48,420 --> 00:17:50,000
And I never imagined me
in that picture.

383
00:17:50,000 --> 00:17:51,170
You should call Izzie.

384
00:17:51,170 --> 00:17:53,210
But suddenly, I am.

385
00:17:53,210 --> 00:17:56,290
Not suddenly.
That's a lie there.

386
00:17:56,290 --> 00:17:58,170
There was a part of me
that always wondered,

387
00:17:58,170 --> 00:18:00,000
always
wanted to know,

388
00:18:00,000 --> 00:18:04,380
always felt
like we left things unresolved,

389
00:18:04,380 --> 00:18:06,960
unfinished.

390
00:18:06,960 --> 00:18:11,460
So, when Mer needed all those
letters, I reached out to her.

391
00:18:11,460 --> 00:18:13,920
I reached out to Izzie
and we started talking

392
00:18:13,920 --> 00:18:15,420
and it scared the crap
out of me

393
00:18:15,420 --> 00:18:18,960
because it felt like
no time had passed,

394
00:18:18,960 --> 00:18:22,420
like Izzie and I were
kind of frozen together in time,

395
00:18:22,420 --> 00:18:24,790
and now -- now we're not.

396
00:18:24,790 --> 00:18:25,880
She's not.

397
00:18:25,880 --> 00:18:27,880
She's here in Kansas,

398
00:18:27,880 --> 00:18:30,880
on a farm in this incredible
place in the middle of nowhere.

399
00:18:30,880 --> 00:18:32,790
And I never,
in a million years,

400
00:18:32,790 --> 00:18:35,960
would think I belong here,
but I do.

401
00:18:35,960 --> 00:18:38,000
And I can't lie to you...

402
00:18:38,000 --> 00:18:39,670
...and pretend the truth
isn't the truth --

403
00:18:39,670 --> 00:18:43,000
that I love you
and I love Izzie.

404
00:18:43,000 --> 00:18:46,880
But if it was just me missing
her or nostalgia or whatever...

405
00:18:46,880 --> 00:18:48,210
Will you stay with me?

406
00:18:48,210 --> 00:18:49,960
...I would have been able to
walk away

407
00:18:49,960 --> 00:18:51,210
and come back to you.

408
00:18:53,210 --> 00:18:55,880
But Izzie had my kids.

409
00:18:55,880 --> 00:18:58,880
And I know you get
what that really means.

410
00:18:58,880 --> 00:19:00,750
I know you of all people

411
00:19:00,750 --> 00:19:03,120
understand why
I can't just leave now...

412
00:19:03,120 --> 00:19:07,330
...why I can't miss another
second of my kids' lives.

413
00:19:07,330 --> 00:19:10,210
I have a chance
to make this family whole,

414
00:19:10,210 --> 00:19:13,420
and I just hope you love me back
enough to let me take it.

415
00:19:14,880 --> 00:19:17,790
I need to give these kids
the family you and I never had,

416
00:19:17,790 --> 00:19:21,080
with barbecuing out on
the back porch and soccer games

417
00:19:21,080 --> 00:19:23,500
and movie nights
and book reports.

418
00:19:23,500 --> 00:19:24,920
Both: Mom.

419
00:19:31,580 --> 00:19:33,290
Alex: I didn't know
she would have my kids,

420
00:19:33,290 --> 00:19:35,830
and now that she does,

421
00:19:35,830 --> 00:19:38,580
I don't know how to look anyone
in the eye if I don't stay

422
00:19:38,580 --> 00:19:41,880
and do everything I can
to make this work --

423
00:19:41,880 --> 00:19:46,330
make this a life,
make this a family.

424
00:19:46,330 --> 00:19:48,250
You were wrong.

425
00:19:48,250 --> 00:19:51,000
You're not
the "Let's get a dog" girl.

426
00:19:51,000 --> 00:19:52,210
And I was never holding
a candle

427
00:19:52,210 --> 00:19:53,670
or those pieces of paper

428
00:19:53,670 --> 00:19:57,170
thinking anything
would ever change.

429
00:19:57,170 --> 00:19:59,380
When I asked you to marry me,
I meant it.

430
00:20:01,750 --> 00:20:03,620
Alex: And we'll be together
forever, right? You and me.

431
00:20:03,620 --> 00:20:05,210
And if we have kids,
we'll be great.

432
00:20:05,210 --> 00:20:07,620
I'll be a great dad,
and you'll be great,

433
00:20:07,620 --> 00:20:09,040
and it'll be just us.

434
00:20:09,040 --> 00:20:10,830
We won't need anybody else,
okay?

435
00:20:10,830 --> 00:20:14,250
When I told you I love you,
I meant it.

436
00:20:14,250 --> 00:20:17,670
But Izzie has our kids, Jo.

437
00:20:17,670 --> 00:20:19,330
Our kids.

438
00:20:19,330 --> 00:20:22,420
And the way you and I grew up,
I...

439
00:20:22,420 --> 00:20:25,080
I-I came to meet them,
to start to know them.

440
00:20:25,080 --> 00:20:27,500
I missed five years
of their lives.

441
00:20:27,500 --> 00:20:29,290
And not because I was a junkie
like my dad

442
00:20:29,290 --> 00:20:31,920
or off my meds like my mom.

443
00:20:31,920 --> 00:20:35,540
I didn't exist to them until
I walked through the front door.

444
00:20:35,540 --> 00:20:39,790
And once I did, I had this
family I never knew I had

445
00:20:39,790 --> 00:20:43,460
on this insane farm,
and I wish I'd  --

446
00:20:43,460 --> 00:20:46,460
I wish getting everything
I always wanted

447
00:20:46,460 --> 00:20:48,750
didn't have to hurt you
in the process.

448
00:20:59,960 --> 00:21:02,380
But I can't lie to you.

449
00:21:02,380 --> 00:21:03,920
And I can't come home.

450
00:21:03,920 --> 00:21:05,880
Alex: Are you asking me
to a dance?

451
00:21:05,880 --> 00:21:09,580
No, I'm -- I'm asking you
to come back home.

452
00:21:11,420 --> 00:21:13,210
I'm not coming home, Jo.

453
00:21:13,210 --> 00:21:14,210
I can't face you.

454
00:21:14,210 --> 00:21:15,790
I can't look you in the eye

455
00:21:15,790 --> 00:21:18,120
because I wouldn't be able to
walk away.

456
00:21:18,120 --> 00:21:20,500
Maybe "I love you"
is wrong to say,

457
00:21:20,500 --> 00:21:24,460
but thank you
for making me better

458
00:21:24,460 --> 00:21:26,710
and taking care of me
when I needed it,

459
00:21:26,710 --> 00:21:30,710
for taking care of yourself
when you needed it, too.

460
00:21:30,710 --> 00:21:32,080
I went to a lawyer.

461
00:21:32,080 --> 00:21:33,920
I signed divorce papers.

462
00:21:33,920 --> 00:21:36,670
I left everything to you.
It's yours.

463
00:21:36,670 --> 00:21:40,170
You worked for every cent
you ever owned and then some.

464
00:21:40,170 --> 00:21:42,790
I also left you my shares
in Grey-Sloan.

465
00:21:42,790 --> 00:21:45,620
Whatever you choose to do with
them, I know it will be amazing.

466
00:21:45,620 --> 00:21:47,580
Just like you.

467
00:21:49,250 --> 00:21:50,790
You know, I, uh...

468
00:21:50,790 --> 00:21:53,710
I barely saw you
this week,

469
00:21:53,710 --> 00:21:57,210
and it sucked.

470
00:21:57,210 --> 00:22:00,080
I'll find another job.
Whatever.

471
00:22:00,080 --> 00:22:03,670
I, uh, but I don't want
to never see you again.

472
00:22:03,670 --> 00:22:08,500
Oh, you deserve everything good
in this life, Jo.

473
00:22:08,500 --> 00:22:11,380
I hope you find
so much better than me.

474
00:22:11,380 --> 00:22:12,620
Thank you.

475
00:22:12,620 --> 00:22:16,000
I'm -- I'm sorry.

476
00:22:16,000 --> 00:22:18,670
I don't know how to end this.

477
00:22:18,670 --> 00:22:20,460
I don't want to.

478
00:22:22,540 --> 00:22:24,790
Goodbye.

479
00:22:34,960 --> 00:22:37,210
Alex: I'm guessing
you're not surprised by this,

480
00:22:37,210 --> 00:22:40,170
and definitely not happy
about it.

481
00:22:40,170 --> 00:22:42,120
They called me Evil Spawn
most of the time

482
00:22:42,120 --> 00:22:44,210
growing up in your hospital.

483
00:22:44,210 --> 00:22:45,670
Nice panties, Yang.

484
00:22:46,880 --> 00:22:49,000
In your dreams,
Evil Spawn.

485
00:22:49,000 --> 00:22:50,500
It's probably
one of the better nicknames

486
00:22:50,500 --> 00:22:52,880
I had most of my life,
to be honest.

487
00:22:52,880 --> 00:22:54,920
I earned the name.

488
00:22:54,920 --> 00:22:56,750
I know it, you know it.

489
00:22:56,750 --> 00:23:02,080
Morning, people.
Hell, you probably know that
better than anyone.

490
00:23:02,080 --> 00:23:04,670
Truth is, you didn't like me
very much in the beginning.

491
00:23:06,880 --> 00:23:09,250
I didn't really like you much,
either.

492
00:23:09,250 --> 00:23:11,120
Sloppy, sloppy, sloppy.

493
00:23:11,120 --> 00:23:13,710
Redo these and return them to me
before lunch, understood?

494
00:23:13,710 --> 00:23:15,620
-Understood.
-Karev, don't tempt me.

495
00:23:15,620 --> 00:23:17,290
And, Karev, see the chief
by the end of the day.

496
00:23:17,290 --> 00:23:18,500
What for?

497
00:23:18,500 --> 00:23:20,170
Do I look psychic to you?
He's the chief.

498
00:23:20,170 --> 00:23:21,210
He asked, you go.

499
00:23:21,210 --> 00:23:22,960
Karev,
go stand in the hall.

500
00:23:22,960 --> 00:23:24,960
Karev, cover the pit.
Pit!

501
00:23:24,960 --> 00:23:26,620
Hate being an intern.

502
00:23:26,620 --> 00:23:30,920
You were mean and impatient...
and knew everything,

503
00:23:30,920 --> 00:23:32,290
and you liked everyone else
but me,

504
00:23:32,290 --> 00:23:34,210
even when you pretended
you didn't.

505
00:23:34,210 --> 00:23:35,460
Are you sure
they're balloons?

506
00:23:35,460 --> 00:23:38,210
You have reason to believe
they're not balloons?

507
00:23:38,210 --> 00:23:40,170
This one here's
got a face.

508
00:23:40,170 --> 00:23:42,120
They all do.

509
00:23:42,120 --> 00:23:43,710
I'll be damned.

510
00:23:43,710 --> 00:23:46,500
They're Judys.
Judys?

511
00:23:46,500 --> 00:23:51,460
He swallowed
the heads of ten Judy dolls.

512
00:23:51,460 --> 00:23:54,330
Alex: Or you were convinced
I had "it" --

513
00:23:54,330 --> 00:23:58,000
that something that would make
them great someday.

514
00:23:58,000 --> 00:24:00,670
Hell, you named your kid
after O'Malley.

515
00:24:00,670 --> 00:24:03,500
And Mer named her kid after you,
and you...

516
00:24:05,170 --> 00:24:08,170
...you just seemed like all
my other teachers before you

517
00:24:08,170 --> 00:24:11,210
who took one look at me,
decided I was garbage,

518
00:24:11,210 --> 00:24:13,880
and that was
all I'd ever be.

519
00:24:13,880 --> 00:24:15,920
But here's the thing.

520
00:24:15,920 --> 00:24:19,790
Unlike everyone else,
you let me grow the hell up.

521
00:24:19,790 --> 00:24:22,670
He saved
a baby's life.
You gave me crap
when I deserved it.

522
00:24:22,670 --> 00:24:25,040
You pushed my buttons
and my limits when I needed it.

523
00:24:25,040 --> 00:24:27,500
What the hell? You are not some
hotshot surgeon right now.

524
00:24:27,500 --> 00:24:29,580
Yeah, it's a teaching hospital
and all that,

525
00:24:29,580 --> 00:24:32,960
but you did more than that,
and you know it.

526
00:24:32,960 --> 00:24:34,750
Why is there a trailer
in my parking spot?

527
00:24:34,750 --> 00:24:38,170
Is one of these yours?
My bad.

528
00:24:38,170 --> 00:24:39,250
And, sure,
it'd be pretty great

529
00:24:39,250 --> 00:24:41,380
if I just
stayed there forever

530
00:24:41,380 --> 00:24:43,540
and repaid you
for everything you did for me.

531
00:24:43,540 --> 00:24:46,670
But you and I both know
I can't.

532
00:24:48,460 --> 00:24:50,330
Never could.

533
00:24:50,330 --> 00:24:52,420
You helped me
grow the hell up,

534
00:24:52,420 --> 00:24:54,420
and you took a bullet
out of my stomach.

535
00:24:54,420 --> 00:24:55,580
You paged me?

536
00:24:55,580 --> 00:24:58,210
I did. I have a surgery.

537
00:24:58,210 --> 00:25:01,080
You're actually gonna let me
near a patient?
You are the patient.

538
00:25:01,080 --> 00:25:03,170
Get in there
and get on that table.
Oh--

539
00:25:04,330 --> 00:25:06,380
I don't need a reminder
of this thing.

540
00:25:06,380 --> 00:25:08,330
I'm gonna carry
that day around with me

541
00:25:08,330 --> 00:25:09,830
every day
for the rest of my life.

542
00:25:09,830 --> 00:25:12,000
I don't need a reminder
every time I look at you.

543
00:25:12,000 --> 00:25:15,000
And I'm tired
of bullying you,

544
00:25:15,000 --> 00:25:17,080
so I am asking you,

545
00:25:17,080 --> 00:25:20,670
please, get in there
and get your shirt off.

546
00:25:23,290 --> 00:25:25,040
You protected Jo
from herself,

547
00:25:25,040 --> 00:25:26,620
and if I started
the whole list

548
00:25:26,620 --> 00:25:28,040
of everything
I learned from you,

549
00:25:28,040 --> 00:25:29,920
I would never stop writing.

550
00:25:29,920 --> 00:25:31,880
And right now my hand hurts.

551
00:25:31,880 --> 00:25:34,830
So just know this.

552
00:25:34,830 --> 00:25:37,500
It took me
a long time to say it,

553
00:25:37,500 --> 00:25:39,830
but I'm a good peds surgeon.

554
00:25:41,000 --> 00:25:42,790
I'm an okay guy.

555
00:25:42,790 --> 00:25:44,920
I'm still trying.

556
00:25:44,920 --> 00:25:49,120
But I'm a really
damn good surgeon.

557
00:25:49,120 --> 00:25:50,460
We got movement!
And I don't mind saying it now

558
00:25:50,460 --> 00:25:52,790
because I didn't
figure it out myself.

559
00:25:52,790 --> 00:25:56,920
You kicked my ass
and asked more of me than anyone

560
00:25:56,920 --> 00:25:58,670
and hired other teachers
who kicked my ass

561
00:25:58,670 --> 00:25:59,960
and asked more of me.

562
00:25:59,960 --> 00:26:02,420
Karev, I hear that
you're the future of peds.

563
00:26:02,420 --> 00:26:05,210
Excuse me?
Yeah, a little birdie named
Bailey whispered it in my ear.

564
00:26:05,210 --> 00:26:08,120
I want you to work with me today
so I can see if she's right.
What did she say?

565
00:26:08,120 --> 00:26:09,880
That you're the best babysitter
in the hospital.

566
00:26:09,880 --> 00:26:11,330
-Shut up.

567
00:26:11,330 --> 00:26:13,120
Alex:
And I know who I am.

568
00:26:13,120 --> 00:26:16,460
I'm not that guy with a million
Catherine Fox Awards on a shelf.

569
00:26:16,460 --> 00:26:17,540
Goodbye, Mom.

570
00:26:17,540 --> 00:26:20,210
Bye.

571
00:26:20,210 --> 00:26:23,170
Bailey: A junkie dad,
a crackpot mom,

572
00:26:23,170 --> 00:26:26,500
and somehow Karev
still became a doctor.

573
00:26:26,500 --> 00:26:29,250
I'm not easily impressed,
but I'm impressed.

574
00:26:29,250 --> 00:26:31,330
Alex: I became the guy you
trusted to run the hospital

575
00:26:31,330 --> 00:26:32,250
and keep your secrets.

576
00:26:32,250 --> 00:26:34,290
And now...
It's okay.

577
00:26:34,290 --> 00:26:36,960
...and now I'm a surgeon,
a friend,

578
00:26:36,960 --> 00:26:40,170
a father of two incredible kids
with Izzie Stevens,

579
00:26:40,170 --> 00:26:43,710
which I'm sure is breaking
your brain.

580
00:26:43,710 --> 00:26:45,830
But it's true.
Nothing!

581
00:26:45,830 --> 00:26:47,670
I'm all these things.

582
00:26:47,670 --> 00:26:49,170
She been out there
all day?

583
00:26:49,170 --> 00:26:51,460
And by the way,
I have a shot

584
00:26:51,460 --> 00:26:53,670
at being Chief of Peds
at Shawnee County here,

585
00:26:53,670 --> 00:26:56,540
but I'm guessing
you're the last person

586
00:26:56,540 --> 00:27:00,580
I should put down as a rec
right now.

587
00:27:00,580 --> 00:27:04,210
Okay, look, the -- the kids
keep asking for pizza sushi,

588
00:27:04,210 --> 00:27:06,620
and I have to go tell them
that's not a thing.

589
00:27:06,620 --> 00:27:09,580
And if I say any more
in this letter,

590
00:27:09,580 --> 00:27:12,290
there are going to be feelings
all over the place.

591
00:27:12,290 --> 00:27:14,540
Yours, not mine.

592
00:27:14,540 --> 00:27:17,460
And, really,
I'm just writing to say goodbye.

593
00:27:17,460 --> 00:27:19,500
And thanks.

594
00:27:19,500 --> 00:27:21,080
And that sounds lame and small

595
00:27:21,080 --> 00:27:22,330
compared to everything
you've done,

596
00:27:22,330 --> 00:27:26,880
but  there it is.

597
00:27:26,880 --> 00:27:29,120
Goodbye, and thanks.

598
00:27:31,210 --> 00:27:33,170
I love you, Dr. Bailey.

599
00:27:35,120 --> 00:27:36,750
Dr. Alex Karev.

600
00:27:48,750 --> 00:27:53,210
-Richard, alcoholic.
-Hi, Richard.

601
00:27:55,620 --> 00:27:58,000
See one,

602
00:27:58,000 --> 00:27:59,920
do one,

603
00:27:59,920 --> 00:28:02,750
teach one.

604
00:28:02,750 --> 00:28:06,000
That's been the motto
of every hospital I run,

605
00:28:06,000 --> 00:28:08,830
every teacher I've loved.

606
00:28:08,830 --> 00:28:14,380
I loved being a surgeon,
saving lives,

607
00:28:14,380 --> 00:28:18,170
giving people back
their families,

608
00:28:18,170 --> 00:28:21,960
their loved ones,
and their friends.

609
00:28:21,960 --> 00:28:27,420
Giving them back to them
when all seemed lost.

610
00:28:27,420 --> 00:28:30,330
And I loved my students,
not because of ego...

611
00:28:33,580 --> 00:28:35,500
I'm done.
I'm done! I'm done!

612
00:28:35,500 --> 00:28:40,040
...but because it gave me that
same rush, that same feeling...

613
00:28:40,040 --> 00:28:43,500
That's why I'm the chief.

614
00:28:43,500 --> 00:28:47,120
It's like you're helping
to keep people alive,

615
00:28:47,120 --> 00:28:50,750
keep families alive.

616
00:28:50,750 --> 00:28:53,250
And then this morning,
I wake up to a letter

617
00:28:53,250 --> 00:28:57,000
from a student of mine,
who, well,

618
00:28:57,000 --> 00:29:01,080
let's just say he's not the one
I would have put money down on.

619
00:29:01,080 --> 00:29:03,380
What happens, uh,
if I -- if I take the exam

620
00:29:03,380 --> 00:29:05,670
for a second time
and I don't pass?

621
00:29:05,670 --> 00:29:08,080
You will no longer be a surgical
resident at Seattle Grace.

622
00:29:08,080 --> 00:29:10,210
Failing again
is not an option.

623
00:29:10,210 --> 00:29:12,120
Alex:
What's the big deal?
Richard: Well, the big deal
is you're --

624
00:29:12,120 --> 00:29:15,880
you're sweaty and you
and you smell.

625
00:29:15,880 --> 00:29:18,000
And you're not going
into my OR.

626
00:29:18,000 --> 00:29:19,120
What the hell's the matter
with you today?

627
00:29:19,120 --> 00:29:20,710
This is a teaching hospital,
okay?

628
00:29:20,710 --> 00:29:22,620
You were the chief
for 20 years.

629
00:29:22,620 --> 00:29:24,830
You're supposed to be
teaching your residents.

630
00:29:24,830 --> 00:29:27,250
Oh, I think I taught you
something today.

631
00:29:27,250 --> 00:29:30,380
You don't give up a
once-in-a-lifetime surgery,

632
00:29:30,380 --> 00:29:33,960
not for any reason,
not for anyone, not ever.

633
00:29:33,960 --> 00:29:36,170
But he -- he did the work.

634
00:29:36,170 --> 00:29:39,330
Yeah.
He -- He showed up.

635
00:29:39,330 --> 00:29:42,790
He -- He stepped up.

636
00:29:42,790 --> 00:29:45,580
Became an excellent student,

637
00:29:45,580 --> 00:29:48,580
a stellar surgeon.
-10 blade.

638
00:29:48,580 --> 00:29:50,250
Richard: You're an underdog,
aren't you, Karev?

639
00:29:50,250 --> 00:29:51,710
It's not that you don't
have the skills.

640
00:29:51,710 --> 00:29:53,080
You have the skills.

641
00:29:53,080 --> 00:29:56,250
But you're scrappy.
You're a fighter.

642
00:29:56,250 --> 00:29:58,210
I like that.

643
00:29:58,210 --> 00:29:59,750
I always root
for the underdog.

644
00:29:59,750 --> 00:30:02,920
A fine teacher.

645
00:30:02,920 --> 00:30:06,880
He was working
with the best of the best.

646
00:30:06,880 --> 00:30:10,920
But instead,

647
00:30:10,920 --> 00:30:13,460
he chose to abandon it all

648
00:30:13,460 --> 00:30:17,710
for who he says
is the woman he loves.

649
00:30:17,710 --> 00:30:22,580
And for the two children
they now have.

650
00:30:22,580 --> 00:30:26,250
You know, I wanted to
look him straight in the eye

651
00:30:26,250 --> 00:30:29,580
and yell at him and --
and tell him

652
00:30:29,580 --> 00:30:31,330
that he's made a mistake,

653
00:30:31,330 --> 00:30:33,880
that it feels like a mistake.

654
00:30:35,500 --> 00:30:37,830
I've been there before,
yeah.

655
00:30:37,830 --> 00:30:41,620
I've fallen in love with two
people at the same time,

656
00:30:41,620 --> 00:30:42,750
and...

657
00:30:44,750 --> 00:30:47,540
And I know all you can do
is go with what your --

658
00:30:47,540 --> 00:30:50,580
your bones and your guts
and your heart tell you to.

659
00:30:50,580 --> 00:30:53,750
I wanted to grab him
and shake him and tell him,

660
00:30:53,750 --> 00:30:56,290
"Don't give it all away.

661
00:30:56,290 --> 00:30:58,330
Not now.
Not for -- for this."

662
00:31:00,960 --> 00:31:06,710
But I missed my chance to watch
my own child grow into an adult.

663
00:31:06,710 --> 00:31:10,710
And I would give anything to
have those years with Maggie.

664
00:31:10,710 --> 00:31:12,330
I'd do anything.

665
00:31:13,920 --> 00:31:17,210
I guess, um...

666
00:31:17,210 --> 00:31:20,540
I just wanted
to say goodbye.

667
00:31:20,540 --> 00:31:22,790
I just wanted
to say goodbye.

668
00:31:22,790 --> 00:31:24,750
Hey, Dr. Webber.

669
00:31:24,750 --> 00:31:26,380
I-I didn't want to work here,
either.

670
00:31:26,380 --> 00:31:29,500
You know, at Grey-Sloan,
I inherited a-a legacy.

671
00:31:29,500 --> 00:31:31,210
Bailey's legacy,
your legacy.

672
00:31:31,210 --> 00:31:32,620
You know, I mean,
every choice I made,

673
00:31:32,620 --> 00:31:35,460
I heard your voice in my head --
"Don't settle. Do better."

674
00:31:35,460 --> 00:31:37,580
At Grey-Sloan,
failing was our last option.

675
00:31:37,580 --> 00:31:39,080
But here,
failure's the culture.

676
00:31:39,080 --> 00:31:40,620
But we can change that.

677
00:31:40,620 --> 00:31:42,290
Help me turn
this place around.

678
00:31:42,290 --> 00:31:44,290
Help me do the impossible.

679
00:31:44,290 --> 00:31:47,420
I wanted to say thank you
for helping me

680
00:31:47,420 --> 00:31:52,790
to be a better doctor,
better teacher.

681
00:31:52,790 --> 00:31:54,120
I mean, anything.

682
00:31:56,290 --> 00:31:57,500
But he up and left...

683
00:31:57,500 --> 00:31:59,620
Karev! Do better!

684
00:31:59,620 --> 00:32:04,040
...with only a note
and an apology, and that's it,

685
00:32:04,040 --> 00:32:07,750
not considering that I might
want to say goodbye

686
00:32:07,750 --> 00:32:09,170
as a teacher...

687
00:32:09,170 --> 00:32:10,710
Watch your back,
Karev.

688
00:32:10,710 --> 00:32:12,830
I may decide to teach you
something tomorrow.

689
00:32:13,580 --> 00:32:15,460
Time of...

690
00:32:15,460 --> 00:32:16,670
...as a colleague...

691
00:32:16,670 --> 00:32:18,380
Time of death -- 15:42.

692
00:32:18,380 --> 00:32:20,880
...as a friend.

693
00:32:20,880 --> 00:32:22,080
See one.

694
00:32:22,080 --> 00:32:24,500
Do one.

695
00:32:24,500 --> 00:32:27,120
Teach one.

696
00:32:27,120 --> 00:32:32,540
I've
seen people leave.

697
00:32:32,540 --> 00:32:35,460
I've done the leaving.

698
00:32:35,460 --> 00:32:39,580
Woman: Richard! Richard!
Richard!

699
00:32:39,580 --> 00:32:41,250
Richard: I was gonna ask you
to be by my side

700
00:32:41,250 --> 00:32:42,290
for the rest of our lives.

701
00:32:42,290 --> 00:32:44,170
I'm not sorry
about a damn thing.

702
00:32:47,670 --> 00:32:50,880
And lately, it seems like
all the people I love just...

703
00:32:52,330 --> 00:32:54,670
...they just disappear.

704
00:32:54,670 --> 00:32:58,290
And...

705
00:32:58,290 --> 00:33:00,460
I can't...

706
00:33:00,460 --> 00:33:03,710
find a way to make it stop.

707
00:33:15,290 --> 00:33:17,290
Alex, if you want to
know how she is,

708
00:33:17,290 --> 00:33:19,670
you should just call her.

709
00:33:19,670 --> 00:33:20,670
You should call Izzie.

710
00:33:20,670 --> 00:33:21,620
No.

711
00:33:21,620 --> 00:33:23,420
No, it's okay.

712
00:33:23,420 --> 00:33:25,040
No.

713
00:33:25,040 --> 00:33:27,710
I mean,
I-I-I don't need to call her.

714
00:33:27,710 --> 00:33:30,210
I know how she is.

715
00:33:30,210 --> 00:33:32,380
I mean, she's, uh --

716
00:33:32,380 --> 00:33:35,080
she's married
with three kids,

717
00:33:35,080 --> 00:33:40,710
and she lives somewhere,
I think, uh, kind of woodsy?

718
00:33:42,540 --> 00:33:44,920
And she's a surgeon
and she goes to work every day,

719
00:33:44,920 --> 00:33:50,460
so she refuses to hire help,
so her house is always a mess.

720
00:33:50,460 --> 00:33:53,670
And it has Christmas decorations
all over it

721
00:33:53,670 --> 00:33:59,040
because she won't let
her husband take them down.

722
00:33:59,040 --> 00:34:00,710
It smells like muffins,

723
00:34:00,710 --> 00:34:02,710
and she's --

724
00:34:02,710 --> 00:34:04,120
she's smiling.

725
00:34:06,920 --> 00:34:10,040
When I picture her,
she's always smiling.

726
00:34:10,040 --> 00:34:15,170
I don't need to call her because
I want it to stay that way.

727
00:34:15,170 --> 00:34:19,330
I picture her
as happy as I am with you.

728
00:34:20,750 --> 00:34:22,580
You imagined
a whole life for her?

729
00:34:22,580 --> 00:34:25,380
Oh, yeah.
It's way better than wondering.

730
00:34:28,420 --> 00:34:29,670
♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh ♪

731
00:34:29,670 --> 00:34:31,540
Hi, Izzie Stevens.
Washington.

732
00:34:31,540 --> 00:34:34,540
Hi, Alex Karev. Iowa.

733
00:34:34,540 --> 00:34:35,830
What program are you in?

734
00:34:35,830 --> 00:34:37,830
Surgery.
♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh ♪

735
00:34:37,830 --> 00:34:38,620
Seriously?

736
00:34:38,620 --> 00:34:39,750
Seriously.

737
00:34:39,750 --> 00:34:41,290
Morning, Dr. Model.

738
00:34:41,290 --> 00:34:43,040
Dr. Evil Spawn.

739
00:34:43,040 --> 00:34:45,540
Ooh. Nice tat.
♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh ♪

740
00:34:45,540 --> 00:34:47,080
Do you ever wake up
in the morning and realize

741
00:34:47,080 --> 00:34:50,460
nobody likes you
and, I don't know, care?

742
00:34:50,460 --> 00:34:52,250
Oh.

743
00:34:52,250 --> 00:34:53,380
I think
somebody likes me.

744
00:34:53,380 --> 00:34:55,380
-What is she doing?

745
00:34:55,380 --> 00:34:58,120
She's hanging out
with Alex.

746
00:35:00,420 --> 00:35:03,120
♪ Let's go to sleep
with clearer heads ♪
What?

747
00:35:03,120 --> 00:35:04,880
There's a discussion
we could have

748
00:35:04,880 --> 00:35:07,080
if you wanted to have
one.

749
00:35:07,080 --> 00:35:09,250
I kissed you
with tongue...

750
00:35:09,250 --> 00:35:11,920
♪ And hearts too big
to fit our beds ♪
...and I plan to do it
again and again.

751
00:35:11,920 --> 00:35:13,420
Get used to it.

752
00:35:13,420 --> 00:35:15,170
Ow!

753
00:35:15,170 --> 00:35:16,500
Izzie:
I care about you.

754
00:35:16,500 --> 00:35:17,670
♪ And maybe
we won't feel so alone ♪

755
00:35:17,670 --> 00:35:19,540
And I'm not gonna stop
caring about you,

756
00:35:19,540 --> 00:35:21,170
no matter how hard
you push me away.

757
00:35:21,170 --> 00:35:22,460
Shut up
and get out of my room.

758
00:35:22,460 --> 00:35:24,120
No.

759
00:35:24,120 --> 00:35:26,670
I care about you.
♪ Before we turn to stone ♪

760
00:35:26,670 --> 00:35:28,170
And I know
you care about me, too.

761
00:35:28,170 --> 00:35:29,880
It is not too late
for us.

762
00:35:29,880 --> 00:35:31,040
Admit that
you care about me, too.

763
00:35:31,040 --> 00:35:33,330
I know you do.
I care about you.

764
00:35:33,330 --> 00:35:35,460
♪ And if you wait for
someone else's hand ♪
I care about you.

765
00:35:35,460 --> 00:35:37,830
I care about you.
I care about you.

766
00:35:37,830 --> 00:35:40,620
I--

767
00:35:40,620 --> 00:35:43,290
♪ Then you will
surely fall down ♪
I think with you,
you make me better.

768
00:35:43,290 --> 00:35:46,080
Oh!
You make me
want to be better.

769
00:35:46,080 --> 00:35:47,880
You make me
want to be good.

770
00:35:47,880 --> 00:35:49,790
And I think I can.

771
00:35:49,790 --> 00:35:51,460
♪ And if you wait for
someone else's hand ♪
With you, I think I can.

772
00:35:51,460 --> 00:35:52,960
And if you want to be scared,
that's okay.

773
00:35:52,960 --> 00:35:54,330
Just be scared with me.

774
00:35:54,330 --> 00:35:55,790
I don't want to be
the future of this hospital

775
00:35:55,790 --> 00:35:59,880
if you're
not there with me.
♪ You'll fall ♪

776
00:35:59,880 --> 00:36:05,250
♪ You'll fall ♪

777
00:36:08,080 --> 00:36:09,710
I didn't know you still
felt that way about me.

778
00:36:09,710 --> 00:36:10,960
Me neither.

779
00:36:12,830 --> 00:36:15,580
♪ I know
that I am nothing new ♪
I love you.

780
00:36:15,580 --> 00:36:17,420
What?

781
00:36:17,420 --> 00:36:19,170
I love you.

782
00:36:19,170 --> 00:36:20,540
I freaking love you.

783
00:36:20,540 --> 00:36:22,290
I can totally see you
in ten years...

784
00:36:22,290 --> 00:36:24,210
♪ There's so much more ♪
...a little salt and pepper
in your hair,

785
00:36:24,210 --> 00:36:27,540
big-shot attending.
♪ Than me and you ♪

786
00:36:27,540 --> 00:36:28,830
You're gonna be
a rock star, Alex.

787
00:36:28,830 --> 00:36:30,380
Shut up.

788
00:36:30,380 --> 00:36:35,670
♪ But, brother,
how we must atone ♪

789
00:36:35,670 --> 00:36:37,540
I love you.

790
00:36:37,540 --> 00:36:43,710
♪ Before we turn to stone ♪

791
00:36:46,080 --> 00:36:50,920
♪ Before we turn to stone ♪

792
00:37:00,540 --> 00:37:02,620
You taking my spot
on the couch tonight?

793
00:37:06,000 --> 00:37:07,420
Miranda, is...?

794
00:37:07,420 --> 00:37:10,080
Alex Karev
isn't coming back.

795
00:37:10,080 --> 00:37:12,920
Left his wife,

796
00:37:12,920 --> 00:37:16,290
his friends, his job.

797
00:37:16,290 --> 00:37:21,580
Alex Karev is now a father
of two with Izzie Stevens.

798
00:37:25,330 --> 00:37:28,750
And, if they take my
recommendation seriously,

799
00:37:28,750 --> 00:37:32,790
he'll soon be Chief of Peds
at Shawnee Memorial.

800
00:37:36,170 --> 00:37:37,620
What's this got to do
with Joey?

801
00:37:39,750 --> 00:37:42,580
Now,
it is a matter of luck,

802
00:37:42,580 --> 00:37:47,460
of grace that Alex Karev
is who he is today.

803
00:37:47,460 --> 00:37:52,330
He could have just as easily
been lost to this world,

804
00:37:52,330 --> 00:37:54,880
aimless.

805
00:37:54,880 --> 00:37:58,500
But he survived his home,

806
00:37:58,500 --> 00:38:01,750
his family,
his foster homes

807
00:38:01,750 --> 00:38:03,750
and became a man,

808
00:38:03,750 --> 00:38:06,750
now a father,

809
00:38:06,750 --> 00:38:10,750
a fine surgeon by luck,

810
00:38:10,750 --> 00:38:13,380
by chance.

811
00:38:15,000 --> 00:38:18,750
Joey's future shouldn't
be a matter of chance.

812
00:38:18,750 --> 00:38:22,420
A child's future
can't be a matter of luck.

813
00:38:26,420 --> 00:38:29,120
Okay.

814
00:38:29,120 --> 00:38:30,960
"Okay"?

815
00:38:30,960 --> 00:38:34,290
Just like that? "Okay"?

816
00:38:34,290 --> 00:38:37,670
I just wanted to
talk about it.

817
00:38:37,670 --> 00:38:39,750
I mean, you and I,
look, we -- we both make

818
00:38:39,750 --> 00:38:43,460
these big, sweeping decisions
without each other.

819
00:38:43,460 --> 00:38:46,290
You -- You had a heart attack
and didn't tell me.

820
00:38:46,290 --> 00:38:48,750
You -- You had a miscarriage
and shut me out.

821
00:38:48,750 --> 00:38:51,460
You --
You change careers
like sweaters.

822
00:38:51,460 --> 00:38:55,120
Yeah.

823
00:38:55,120 --> 00:38:58,830
And I am down
for all of it. I...

824
00:38:58,830 --> 00:39:03,120
All the change and the easy
and the hard that comes with it.

825
00:39:03,120 --> 00:39:05,120
Of course Joey
should have you.

826
00:39:05,120 --> 00:39:06,830
Should have us.

827
00:39:06,830 --> 00:39:09,460
He should have a family.

828
00:39:09,460 --> 00:39:12,120
But...

829
00:39:12,120 --> 00:39:18,880
that family needs to learn to
talk to each other first, okay?

830
00:39:22,290 --> 00:39:24,710
I'm sorry.

831
00:39:24,710 --> 00:39:25,750
I know.

832
00:39:25,750 --> 00:39:27,250
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

833
00:39:31,120 --> 00:39:33,790
Congratulations,
Miranda.

834
00:39:33,790 --> 00:39:34,830
It's a boy.

835
00:39:34,830 --> 00:39:36,960
A teenage boy!

836
00:39:38,830 --> 00:39:41,380
It's another boy.

837
00:39:48,170 --> 00:39:49,830
♪ I don't know what,
I don't know what ♪

838
00:39:49,830 --> 00:39:51,790
♪ I don't know
what's happening ♪

839
00:39:51,790 --> 00:39:55,290
You can quit hovering.
I'm not hovering.

840
00:39:55,290 --> 00:39:57,920
♪ I swallow the pain,
drink in your poison ♪
I'm...deciding

841
00:39:57,920 --> 00:40:02,330
whether to come in
or give you space...
♪ Darling,
it hurts so sweet ♪

842
00:40:02,330 --> 00:40:04,920
♪ I try to run,
try to run ♪
...or take you
day drinking.

843
00:40:04,920 --> 00:40:07,040
♪ But I come back again ♪

844
00:40:07,040 --> 00:40:09,540
Okay, whiskey it is.

845
00:40:09,540 --> 00:40:11,290
♪ I look in your eyes,
don't have a choice, yeah ♪

846
00:40:12,960 --> 00:40:15,960
♪ You'll be
the death of me ♪

847
00:40:15,960 --> 00:40:18,170
Pierce is paging me
for a cecal bascule

848
00:40:18,170 --> 00:40:19,790
for one of
our cabbage patients.

849
00:40:22,250 --> 00:40:25,420
Okay.
♪ It'll cut you deep ♪

850
00:40:25,420 --> 00:40:27,290
Whiskey tonight.
♪ It'll watch you bleed ♪

851
00:40:27,290 --> 00:40:29,790
Today I am working.

852
00:40:29,790 --> 00:40:33,580
♪ Nothing hits as hard
as when we touch ♪

853
00:40:33,580 --> 00:40:38,250
♪ How beautiful and brutal
is your love? ♪
Link: You're my hero.

854
00:40:38,250 --> 00:40:39,290
Mine, too.

855
00:40:39,290 --> 00:40:42,000
We hold onto hope,

856
00:40:42,000 --> 00:40:44,380
thinking one small detail,

857
00:40:44,380 --> 00:40:46,500
one tiny piece of information

858
00:40:46,500 --> 00:40:48,620
will somehow
make things right,

859
00:40:48,620 --> 00:40:50,170
make it different,

860
00:40:50,170 --> 00:40:52,420
make it okay...

861
00:40:52,420 --> 00:40:55,120
stop the world
from spinning off its axis.

862
00:40:55,120 --> 00:40:58,500
Mom, Uncle Alex said when
I finish my science project,

863
00:40:58,500 --> 00:40:59,830
I'm supposed to show him.

864
00:40:59,830 --> 00:41:01,120
Can you show me?

865
00:41:01,120 --> 00:41:02,880
He helped me
come up with it.

866
00:41:02,880 --> 00:41:04,790
It's a dog feeder.
See?

867
00:41:04,790 --> 00:41:06,380
When the dog walks
on this lever,

868
00:41:06,380 --> 00:41:08,420
the pulley tips
the bucket over and...

869
00:41:08,420 --> 00:41:11,120
That is so smart!

870
00:41:11,120 --> 00:41:13,120
All we need is a dog.

871
00:41:14,920 --> 00:41:18,210
So, can I show him?

872
00:41:18,210 --> 00:41:22,120
Can we go and show Uncle Alex
right now, please?

873
00:41:22,120 --> 00:41:24,210
♪ Don't care how hard
I gotta suffer ♪
Um...

874
00:41:24,210 --> 00:41:26,080
Come sit here.

875
00:41:26,080 --> 00:41:29,170
♪ I'm waking up
in your covers ♪

876
00:41:29,170 --> 00:41:32,330
♪ Beautiful and brutal ♪
Your Uncle Alex
loves you so much.

877
00:41:32,330 --> 00:41:33,580
♪ Cuts you deep ♪

878
00:41:33,580 --> 00:41:35,380
And I just got a letter
from him.

879
00:41:35,380 --> 00:41:37,040
♪ It'll watch you bleed ♪
You did?
I did.

880
00:41:37,040 --> 00:41:38,540
When the truth is...

881
00:41:38,540 --> 00:41:40,380
♪ Nothing hits
as hard as when we touch ♪

882
00:41:40,380 --> 00:41:43,120
...there's really
no good way to say goodbye.

883
00:41:43,120 --> 00:41:47,290
♪ How beautiful
and brutal is your love? ♪