1 00:00:06,984 --> 00:00:08,551 Bailey: My mom used to tell me 2 00:00:08,594 --> 00:00:10,727 never to judge people until you know their story. 3 00:00:10,770 --> 00:00:11,945 Yeah. I can do that. 4 00:00:11,989 --> 00:00:15,166 ♪ Just talk to me now 5 00:00:15,210 --> 00:00:19,214 ♪ I'll help with those demons you carry ♪ 6 00:00:19,257 --> 00:00:21,781 You might think you understand, 7 00:00:21,825 --> 00:00:23,087 but you don't. 8 00:00:23,131 --> 00:00:25,959 ♪ I don't know if they go 9 00:00:26,003 --> 00:00:28,440 That's why, as a patient, 10 00:00:28,484 --> 00:00:31,226 it's important to have an advocate. 11 00:00:31,269 --> 00:00:33,271 ♪ But we'll be happy someday, too ♪ 12 00:00:33,315 --> 00:00:35,752 [ Cellphone rings ] 13 00:00:35,795 --> 00:00:37,232 Perfect timing. 14 00:00:37,275 --> 00:00:39,408 I just finished my last tele-health patient. 15 00:00:39,451 --> 00:00:41,192 Oh, I just woke up. 16 00:00:41,236 --> 00:00:43,368 Aw. How'd you sleep? 17 00:00:43,412 --> 00:00:45,109 Would have slept better if you were laying next to me. 18 00:00:45,153 --> 00:00:47,459 Someone to tell your story, to be your voice... 19 00:00:47,503 --> 00:00:49,635 [ Speaks indistinctly ] 20 00:00:49,679 --> 00:00:51,985 ...to say your name. 21 00:00:52,029 --> 00:00:55,511 Especially when you don't have the voice yourself. 22 00:00:55,554 --> 00:00:57,687 ♪ The great divide 23 00:00:57,730 --> 00:01:00,081 Her oxygen requirements have come down this much? 24 00:01:00,124 --> 00:01:02,344 Ah. Cytokine storm's leveling off, too. 25 00:01:02,387 --> 00:01:05,129 I mean, look at her CRP, ferritin. 26 00:01:05,173 --> 00:01:06,696 That is great. 27 00:01:06,739 --> 00:01:08,350 Oh, I ordered a repeat chest X-ray 28 00:01:08,393 --> 00:01:10,047 to see if the infiltrates are decreasing, too. 29 00:01:10,091 --> 00:01:11,962 You talk to her? She feel any better? 30 00:01:12,005 --> 00:01:13,485 Just long enough to tell her that we got her into 31 00:01:13,529 --> 00:01:15,792 the drug trial. But she's pretty exhausted. 32 00:01:15,835 --> 00:01:17,576 Well, it's probably the side effects. 33 00:01:17,620 --> 00:01:20,318 And she can sleep all day if these numbers keep improving. 34 00:01:20,362 --> 00:01:21,580 Keep me posted. 35 00:01:21,624 --> 00:01:23,495 ♪ That you are not alone 36 00:01:23,539 --> 00:01:25,628 Jo? Good morning. 37 00:01:25,671 --> 00:01:27,717 It's time to get up. 38 00:01:27,760 --> 00:01:28,979 ♪ Afloat 39 00:01:29,022 --> 00:01:31,503 ♪ It's a brand-new day 40 00:01:31,547 --> 00:01:33,157 ♪ The sun is out to play 41 00:01:33,201 --> 00:01:35,116 God, will you shut up? I'm awake. 42 00:01:35,159 --> 00:01:37,248 Oh, okay. Are you going to work? 43 00:01:37,292 --> 00:01:38,945 Yes. 44 00:01:38,989 --> 00:01:40,991 At the regular time or...? 45 00:01:41,034 --> 00:01:43,080 [ Sighs ] 46 00:01:43,124 --> 00:01:45,256 Everything okay? 47 00:01:45,300 --> 00:01:47,780 Oh, yeah, everything's great. 48 00:01:47,824 --> 00:01:49,739 I barely get to operate anymore, 49 00:01:49,782 --> 00:01:53,003 and when I do, they don't even recover enough to go home. 50 00:01:53,046 --> 00:01:54,265 Oh, and how could I forget 51 00:01:54,309 --> 00:01:58,051 the refrigerator truck full of dead bodies 52 00:01:58,095 --> 00:02:00,053 that I get to pass on the way from the parking lot 53 00:02:00,097 --> 00:02:02,534 to the hospital? 54 00:02:02,578 --> 00:02:04,145 The only reason I'm still in bed 55 00:02:04,188 --> 00:02:07,104 is that I am paralyzed with excitement. 56 00:02:07,148 --> 00:02:09,280 ♪♪ 57 00:02:09,324 --> 00:02:11,456 So you're going?Why do you care? 58 00:02:11,500 --> 00:02:14,764 My bike has a flat tire, and you're my ride. 59 00:02:14,807 --> 00:02:16,505 [ Sighs ] 60 00:02:16,548 --> 00:02:19,203 William: She said the salad I made was too small. 61 00:02:19,247 --> 00:02:21,423 So I go back and make her a bigger one. 62 00:02:21,466 --> 00:02:23,425 She says I must hate her because it's too big. 63 00:02:23,468 --> 00:02:24,817 Bailey: Mm.I just can't win. 64 00:02:24,861 --> 00:02:26,689 No, she appreciates you, Dad. 65 00:02:26,732 --> 00:02:28,691 It's not her. It's the dementia. 66 00:02:28,734 --> 00:02:31,172 Knowing that doesn't make it hurt any less. 67 00:02:31,215 --> 00:02:32,521 We're gonna get through this. 68 00:02:32,564 --> 00:02:35,001 We? I only see you on the phone. 69 00:02:35,045 --> 00:02:37,439 And you can't even bother to hold the thing still. 70 00:02:37,482 --> 00:02:39,049 I have a hospital to run. 71 00:02:39,092 --> 00:02:40,703 And I didn't know there'd be a pandemic. 72 00:02:40,746 --> 00:02:42,313 Ben's sister gets to stay with you. 73 00:02:42,357 --> 00:02:44,446 To -- With the boys. 74 00:02:44,489 --> 00:02:46,274 Who I don't see either. 75 00:02:46,317 --> 00:02:48,624 Ben's staying at the station, 76 00:02:48,667 --> 00:02:52,105 and half the time, I'm too tired to make it to my hotel. 77 00:02:52,149 --> 00:02:55,935 I promise Silver Villas is more comfortable than my office. 78 00:02:55,979 --> 00:02:58,764 I just hate this. I hate all of it. 79 00:02:58,808 --> 00:03:00,113 It's not fair. 80 00:03:00,157 --> 00:03:02,203 Well, COVID's not big on fair. 81 00:03:02,246 --> 00:03:03,508 Listen, I have to go. 82 00:03:03,552 --> 00:03:06,685 I love you. 83 00:03:06,729 --> 00:03:08,905 Don't go outside, Dad, okay? It's not safe. 84 00:03:08,948 --> 00:03:11,864 Tell your mom that. She's the one always trying to leave. 85 00:03:11,908 --> 00:03:13,605 [ Sighs ][ Smooches ] I love you, too. 86 00:03:13,649 --> 00:03:15,564 [ Smooches ] 87 00:03:15,607 --> 00:03:17,174 Woman: [ Over P.A. ] Dr. Wakeman to Neurology. 88 00:03:17,218 --> 00:03:19,220 Dr. Wakeman to Neurology. 89 00:03:19,263 --> 00:03:20,090 [ Sighs ] 90 00:03:21,526 --> 00:03:22,919 Richard: Ah. Good morning, Avery. 91 00:03:22,962 --> 00:03:24,312 Jackson: Not really. 92 00:03:24,355 --> 00:03:25,878 You know how many trachs I've had to do this week 93 00:03:25,922 --> 00:03:27,880 on long-term vent patients 'cause of COVID? 94 00:03:27,924 --> 00:03:29,621 No, but I have a feeling you're gonna tell me. 95 00:03:29,665 --> 00:03:31,188 11, Richard. 96 00:03:31,232 --> 00:03:32,711 Gonna be 12 in about an hour, 97 00:03:32,755 --> 00:03:34,365 and this number's gonna keep on going up, 98 00:03:34,409 --> 00:03:36,889 which is why I need you to help me with this. 99 00:03:36,933 --> 00:03:38,717 Oh, when did your mother go to San Francisco? 100 00:03:38,761 --> 00:03:41,546 What? No, no. That's a -- That's a fake video background 101 00:03:41,590 --> 00:03:43,200 for when she talks to Harriet. That's not the point. Look. 102 00:03:43,244 --> 00:03:44,854 You want her to change the background? 103 00:03:44,897 --> 00:03:47,291 I want you to get your wife to wear a damn mask, okay? 104 00:03:47,335 --> 00:03:49,859 She's in a germ-collecting car with her driver with no mask. 105 00:03:49,902 --> 00:03:51,208 She wears masks. 106 00:03:51,252 --> 00:03:52,731 On her chin, okay, 107 00:03:52,775 --> 00:03:55,517 or dangling from her ear like a weird piece of jewelry. 108 00:03:55,560 --> 00:03:58,259 She is living with cancer. She is immunocompromised. 109 00:03:58,302 --> 00:03:59,825 I got to get to surgery. 110 00:03:59,869 --> 00:04:01,827 Just get her to wear the stupid mask correctly, please. 111 00:04:01,871 --> 00:04:03,307 Well, you know what it's like 112 00:04:03,351 --> 00:04:04,787 to get your mother to do something! 113 00:04:04,830 --> 00:04:07,355 Yeah, that's why I'm calling for reinforcements. 114 00:04:10,619 --> 00:04:13,056 Reza: Val Ashton, status post right hepatectomy 115 00:04:13,099 --> 00:04:14,536 with segments 5 through 8 116 00:04:14,579 --> 00:04:16,538 due to bleeding from hepatic pregnancy. 117 00:04:16,581 --> 00:04:17,756 Her drains were pulled two days ago, 118 00:04:17,800 --> 00:04:19,410 but this morning she's tachy to 120, 119 00:04:19,454 --> 00:04:20,890 her BP has decreased, 120 00:04:20,933 --> 00:04:23,240 and transaminases and bili are both trending upwards. 121 00:04:23,284 --> 00:04:25,111 Val: She's kind, giving, successful, 122 00:04:25,155 --> 00:04:27,418 enjoys a raunchy romance novel. 123 00:04:27,462 --> 00:04:29,202 Without shame. [ Chuckles ] 124 00:04:29,246 --> 00:04:31,466 I need compliments, too, guys. 125 00:04:31,509 --> 00:04:33,294 Jo: I'm glad that you're in good spirits, Val, 126 00:04:33,337 --> 00:04:36,819 but, um, your labs are concerning. 127 00:04:36,862 --> 00:04:38,255 I'm ordering a CT. 128 00:04:38,299 --> 00:04:40,997 I carried a baby in my liver. 129 00:04:41,040 --> 00:04:45,001 Can't you make an exception for moms and babies who defy odds? 130 00:04:45,044 --> 00:04:47,438 I-I'm sick of video chats. 131 00:04:47,482 --> 00:04:50,746 Luna's gonna think her mom's a pixelated blob. 132 00:04:50,789 --> 00:04:53,226 Levi: Technically, that's what you'd look like even in person. 133 00:04:53,270 --> 00:04:54,706 Babies can only see about six inches in front -- 134 00:04:54,750 --> 00:04:57,622 Jo: Schmitt! Not the point. 135 00:04:57,666 --> 00:04:59,711 Val, I know that it's not what you wanted to hear, 136 00:04:59,755 --> 00:05:03,585 but Luna's on a vent, and moving her is very precarious. 137 00:05:03,628 --> 00:05:05,326 Plus, we -- we need to make sure that you're taken care of 138 00:05:05,369 --> 00:05:06,849 before you meet her. 139 00:05:06,892 --> 00:05:09,155 For Luna's sake and for yours. 140 00:05:09,199 --> 00:05:10,505 Okay? 141 00:05:10,548 --> 00:05:12,028 ♪♪ 142 00:05:12,071 --> 00:05:14,639 [ Siren wailing ] 143 00:05:14,683 --> 00:05:15,858 Do we know if he's okay? 144 00:05:15,901 --> 00:05:18,208 Not sure. This is him. 145 00:05:18,251 --> 00:05:19,601 Koracick: You're not listening -- 146 00:05:19,644 --> 00:05:21,124 I have to be at home. I don't want to miss it -- 147 00:05:21,167 --> 00:05:22,560 Oh, my God. 148 00:05:22,604 --> 00:05:23,779 Paramedic: Okay, we have a COVID-positive male, 149 00:05:23,822 --> 00:05:26,129 heart rate 123, BP 90 over 60. 150 00:05:26,172 --> 00:05:28,305 Pulse ox of 92 on 100%, high flow. 151 00:05:28,349 --> 00:05:30,438 He's incoherent and disoriented. 152 00:05:30,481 --> 00:05:32,265 Taryn: I just saw him two days ago. He was fine. 153 00:05:32,309 --> 00:05:33,528 Is this a stroke? 154 00:05:33,571 --> 00:05:35,573 Could be. Or encephalitis brought on by COVID. 155 00:05:35,617 --> 00:05:36,748 Koracick: I have tickets to Opening Day, 156 00:05:36,792 --> 00:05:38,271 and David's dying to catch a fly ball. 157 00:05:38,315 --> 00:05:39,751 Taryn: Who's David?His son. 158 00:05:39,795 --> 00:05:41,884 Let's get him to a COVID room now. 159 00:05:41,927 --> 00:05:44,669 Hang on. He's seizing. 160 00:05:44,713 --> 00:05:45,888 Let's get him on his side. 161 00:05:45,931 --> 00:05:47,716 Ready? 1, 2, 3.[ Koracick gasping ] 162 00:05:47,759 --> 00:05:50,719 Captioning provided by ABC Studios and ABC, Inc. 163 00:05:50,762 --> 00:05:53,548 and brought to you by: Ford, Built Ford Proud 164 00:05:59,205 --> 00:06:01,773 Teddy: No signs of head trauma,but, Helm, call up to CT, 165 00:06:01,817 --> 00:06:02,731 let them know we'll be upas soon as possible. 166 00:06:02,774 --> 00:06:03,862 Owen: We'll do it. Helm, out. 167 00:06:03,906 --> 00:06:05,298 Taryn: But I've already had COVID -- 168 00:06:05,342 --> 00:06:06,561 Doesn't matter. You're a resident, 169 00:06:06,604 --> 00:06:08,606 and he's positive. Out. Now. 170 00:06:08,650 --> 00:06:09,955 Get off me. Stay back. 171 00:06:09,999 --> 00:06:12,610 Tom. Tom, it's me. It's Teddy. Try to stay calm. 172 00:06:12,654 --> 00:06:14,264 I -- Don't -- Don't touch me. 173 00:06:14,307 --> 00:06:15,744 Tom?Take it easy. We're just trying to take care of you. 174 00:06:15,787 --> 00:06:17,310 Push two of Ativan.No, I don't -- I don't know you. 175 00:06:17,354 --> 00:06:19,356 I don't know you!He's post-ictal. 176 00:06:19,400 --> 00:06:21,271 No, I don't -- I don't know you.Just wait a minute, and the meds will kick in. 177 00:06:21,314 --> 00:06:23,360 [ Grunting softly ] 178 00:06:23,404 --> 00:06:25,797 [ Sighs ] Teddy, I got this, okay? 179 00:06:25,841 --> 00:06:27,538 Please, call up to CT. 180 00:06:27,582 --> 00:06:31,237 ♪♪ 181 00:06:31,281 --> 00:06:33,718 Okay. 182 00:06:33,762 --> 00:06:35,764 Val: Hey, Angel. 183 00:06:35,807 --> 00:06:39,594 I'd be there with you, but the mean doctors say no. 184 00:06:39,637 --> 00:06:41,639 Can you say "mean"? 185 00:06:41,683 --> 00:06:45,426 Can you hold the phone closeenough for me to smell her head? 186 00:06:45,469 --> 00:06:47,340 Reza: How about I bring you one of her blankets? 187 00:06:47,384 --> 00:06:49,995 Ah! I will literally marry you. 188 00:06:50,039 --> 00:06:52,215 Jo: Val. 189 00:06:52,258 --> 00:06:54,870 Crap. That is your bad-news face. 190 00:06:54,913 --> 00:06:57,960 Your CT showed that you have an abscess 191 00:06:58,003 --> 00:07:00,571 that's eroding into an artery in your liver, 192 00:07:00,615 --> 00:07:03,226 causing what's called a pseudoaneurysm. 193 00:07:03,269 --> 00:07:04,401 Okay. 194 00:07:04,445 --> 00:07:05,663 Levi: It's a weakeningof the blood vessel, 195 00:07:05,707 --> 00:07:07,273 which is causing it to leak. 196 00:07:07,317 --> 00:07:09,450 We need to take you to surgery right away to repair it. 197 00:07:09,493 --> 00:07:12,975 I am so sorry that it's not better news. 198 00:07:13,018 --> 00:07:15,499 [ Cellphone clatters ] 199 00:07:15,543 --> 00:07:17,370 Leave. 200 00:07:17,414 --> 00:07:19,242 [ Monitor beeping ] 201 00:07:21,766 --> 00:07:25,074 Val: Eight years. 202 00:07:25,117 --> 00:07:29,470 I've wanted to be a mom for eight years. 203 00:07:29,513 --> 00:07:32,516 I've known my baby's name. 204 00:07:32,560 --> 00:07:35,214 I've known the color I would paint the nursery. 205 00:07:35,258 --> 00:07:39,305 I've known the made-up lullaby I would sing at night. 206 00:07:39,349 --> 00:07:42,221 And now that I finally have the chance... 207 00:07:42,265 --> 00:07:44,223 being a mom is just some weird TV show 208 00:07:44,267 --> 00:07:46,704 I'm watching on my phone, 209 00:07:46,748 --> 00:07:49,577 and I don't know if it will ever be real. 210 00:07:49,620 --> 00:07:51,622 [ Crying ] 211 00:07:51,666 --> 00:07:55,713 Please make it real. 212 00:07:55,757 --> 00:07:58,063 ♪♪ 213 00:07:58,107 --> 00:07:59,412 Maggie: Have you heard about Koracick? 214 00:07:59,456 --> 00:08:01,937 Bailey: Yes. He's gettingthe world's best care, 215 00:08:01,980 --> 00:08:03,504 and I'm tryingnot to think about it. 216 00:08:03,547 --> 00:08:06,724 So, can you wait that longfor the converted rooms? 217 00:08:06,768 --> 00:08:08,683 Is sooner an option? 218 00:08:08,726 --> 00:08:10,598 See, even with the lockdown, we are getting slammed. 219 00:08:10,641 --> 00:08:13,122 We got six cases today from assisted-living facilities, 220 00:08:13,165 --> 00:08:14,906 three from the same one.Woman: I'll go check. 221 00:08:14,950 --> 00:08:17,648 Oh, which one?Silver Villas in Ballard. 222 00:08:17,692 --> 00:08:19,911 COVID spreads through those places like wildfire. 223 00:08:19,955 --> 00:08:21,217 Where are you going?! 224 00:08:21,260 --> 00:08:22,697 Uh, that's where my parents are. 225 00:08:22,740 --> 00:08:24,133 Man: Next. 226 00:08:24,176 --> 00:08:25,743 A rescue mission? Bailey: Yes. 227 00:08:25,787 --> 00:08:27,963 Just stop what you're doing and get to Silver Villas. 228 00:08:28,006 --> 00:08:29,355 To grab your mom and dad? 229 00:08:29,399 --> 00:08:30,705 I've been trying to call the front office, 230 00:08:30,748 --> 00:08:31,923 but they're not answering. 231 00:08:31,967 --> 00:08:32,968 Well, where do you want me to take them? 232 00:08:33,011 --> 00:08:34,447 Uh, to my hotel. 233 00:08:34,491 --> 00:08:36,449 Y-- Uh, I don't care. Just get them out. 234 00:08:36,493 --> 00:08:38,756 Yeah, I'm on it. I love you. 235 00:08:38,800 --> 00:08:40,018 [ Click, siren wailing ] 236 00:08:40,062 --> 00:08:45,154 ♪♪ 237 00:08:45,197 --> 00:08:47,896 Jo: Okay, lap pads --Reza: Here you go. 238 00:08:47,939 --> 00:08:50,507 Levi: Khan was an attending in Pakistan. 239 00:08:50,551 --> 00:08:51,639 We could probably be assisting him. 240 00:08:51,682 --> 00:08:53,466 Not gonna happen. 241 00:08:53,510 --> 00:08:55,294 No, I know. I just -- making a point. 242 00:08:55,338 --> 00:08:56,426 Suction. 243 00:08:56,469 --> 00:08:57,993 You were a vascular surgeon, right? 244 00:08:58,036 --> 00:08:59,298 Reza: Yes, Dr. Schmitt, 245 00:08:59,342 --> 00:09:00,648 one of the first to be certified in my country. 246 00:09:00,691 --> 00:09:01,997 Why would you leave? 247 00:09:02,040 --> 00:09:03,259 Okay, Kelly clamp. 248 00:09:03,302 --> 00:09:05,304 Uh, it wasn't exactly a choice. 249 00:09:05,348 --> 00:09:07,393 I love my home, it shaped me. 250 00:09:07,437 --> 00:09:09,134 Still nice not to worry about religious persecution 251 00:09:09,178 --> 00:09:10,179 or bombings. 252 00:09:10,222 --> 00:09:12,311 So I just started over.Clamp. 253 00:09:12,355 --> 00:09:14,836 Just? It's a five-year residency. 254 00:09:14,879 --> 00:09:16,881 If I finished this and had to start over -- 255 00:09:16,925 --> 00:09:18,970 Ugh. Pass. Can you imagine? 256 00:09:19,014 --> 00:09:20,624 Can you imagine payingmore attention to the field 257 00:09:20,668 --> 00:09:22,234 so the patient doesn't die? 258 00:09:22,278 --> 00:09:24,367 Damn it. Her tissue's so friable 259 00:09:24,410 --> 00:09:26,369 it's just disintegrating into my hands. 260 00:09:26,412 --> 00:09:27,936 We got to get control of --I know what we need to do! 261 00:09:27,979 --> 00:09:30,460 Everyone shift. We're doing a modified pringle maneuver. 262 00:09:30,503 --> 00:09:31,679 Clamp. 263 00:09:31,722 --> 00:09:36,640 ♪♪ 264 00:09:36,684 --> 00:09:38,033 Maggie: Okay, thank you. 265 00:09:38,076 --> 00:09:40,557 Hey. Your phone has been ringinglike crazy. 266 00:09:40,601 --> 00:09:41,689 Oh. 267 00:09:44,517 --> 00:09:47,259 Oh, wow. Okay.[ Cellphone chiming ] 268 00:09:47,303 --> 00:09:48,652 Uh, okay. Let's just, uh... 269 00:09:48,696 --> 00:09:50,088 [ Line ringing ] 270 00:09:50,132 --> 00:09:51,786 Ben: I tried to call you.Ben, how did it -- 271 00:09:51,829 --> 00:09:53,744 I picked up your mom,and she's sick.Wait, slow down. I ca-- 272 00:09:53,788 --> 00:09:56,007 We're at the hospital.Now?! 273 00:09:56,051 --> 00:09:58,183 Ben: Right now. 274 00:09:58,227 --> 00:09:59,837 Mom! 275 00:09:59,881 --> 00:10:02,100 [ Labored breathing ] 276 00:10:02,144 --> 00:10:04,973 ♪♪ 277 00:10:05,016 --> 00:10:06,452 Mom? 278 00:10:06,496 --> 00:10:07,889 Hey, it's me. 279 00:10:07,932 --> 00:10:09,542 I'm here. 280 00:10:15,636 --> 00:10:17,638 William?Maggie: Alright, okay. 281 00:10:17,681 --> 00:10:18,551 [ Gasping ] Where -- Where -- Where's William? 282 00:10:18,595 --> 00:10:20,292 Mom, you're in the hospital. 283 00:10:20,336 --> 00:10:21,380 We're gonna take care of you. 284 00:10:21,424 --> 00:10:22,947 He's gonna be here soon, right? 285 00:10:22,991 --> 00:10:25,428 Okay.Yes, yes. He's coming soon. 286 00:10:25,471 --> 00:10:27,560 Okay? Just lay back and relax. 287 00:10:27,604 --> 00:10:30,389 I can't wear this. I got to get my clothes. 288 00:10:30,433 --> 00:10:31,521 Where my clothes? 289 00:10:31,564 --> 00:10:33,610 Okay. She seems really agitated. 290 00:10:33,654 --> 00:10:34,785 Are there any meds we can give her to calm her? 291 00:10:34,829 --> 00:10:36,569 I can order some meds? 292 00:10:36,613 --> 00:10:38,310 [ Grunts ] 293 00:10:38,354 --> 00:10:43,054 ♪ I got sunshine 294 00:10:43,098 --> 00:10:47,798 ♪ On a cloudy day 295 00:10:47,842 --> 00:10:52,760 ♪ When it's cold outside ♪ Cold outside 296 00:10:52,803 --> 00:10:55,284 ♪ I got the month of May ♪ I got the month of May 297 00:10:55,327 --> 00:10:57,721 Yeah. 298 00:10:57,765 --> 00:11:03,988 ♪ I guess you'd say ♪ I guess you'd say 299 00:11:04,032 --> 00:11:10,212 ♪ What can make me feel this way? ♪♪ What can make me feel...way? 300 00:11:10,255 --> 00:11:13,781 ♪ My girl ♪ My girl 301 00:11:13,824 --> 00:11:14,999 ♪ My girl 302 00:11:15,043 --> 00:11:17,306 [ Chuckles ] ♪ Talking 'bout 303 00:11:17,349 --> 00:11:21,397 ♪ My girl ♪ My girl 304 00:11:21,440 --> 00:11:24,139 ♪ My girl ♪ My girl 305 00:11:24,182 --> 00:11:25,880 [ Monitor beeping ] 306 00:11:27,751 --> 00:11:29,144 What do you see, Shepherd? 307 00:11:29,187 --> 00:11:30,972 Uh, I see a lesion on his thalamus, 308 00:11:31,015 --> 00:11:33,104 but it's small, so that's something. 309 00:11:33,148 --> 00:11:35,237 Have you been able to talk to him since the seizure? 310 00:11:35,280 --> 00:11:37,152 He was post-ictal, and they gave him lorazepam, 311 00:11:37,195 --> 00:11:38,849 so he wasn't really coherent. 312 00:11:38,893 --> 00:11:41,678 Okay. I'm coming in. 313 00:11:41,722 --> 00:11:43,985 Are -- Are you sure? I mean, do you want me to call Dr. Mehta? 314 00:11:44,028 --> 00:11:45,726 It's Tom. I'm coming. 315 00:11:45,769 --> 00:11:47,902 Thank you. 316 00:11:47,945 --> 00:11:51,079 Uh, Ellis decided she didn't want her mac and cheese 317 00:11:51,122 --> 00:11:53,734 after begging me to make it, so if you're hungry -- 318 00:11:55,126 --> 00:11:56,824 What's going on?[ Sighs ] 319 00:11:56,867 --> 00:11:59,565 It looks like Tom is having some neuro complications from COVID. 320 00:11:59,609 --> 00:12:02,307 I thought he was asymptomatic.Yeah, so did I. 321 00:12:02,351 --> 00:12:04,875 I just pumped, so there is milk in the fridge for Scout. 322 00:12:04,919 --> 00:12:06,442 Uh, Bailey and Ellis need a nap. 323 00:12:06,485 --> 00:12:09,314 Make sure you check in with Zola about her homework. 324 00:12:09,358 --> 00:12:12,491 If Scout starts to fuss, just try the yoga ball. 325 00:12:12,535 --> 00:12:14,102 What am I forgetting? 326 00:12:14,145 --> 00:12:15,538 To breathe.[ Sighs ] 327 00:12:15,581 --> 00:12:16,974 We'll be fine here, okay? 328 00:12:17,018 --> 00:12:18,933 Go. Save your friend. 329 00:12:18,976 --> 00:12:20,804 [ Sighs ] 330 00:12:20,848 --> 00:12:22,588 He was my teacher. 331 00:12:22,632 --> 00:12:23,764 And he saved my brain. 332 00:12:23,807 --> 00:12:26,114 And, uh, he was my first sex after Owen, 333 00:12:26,157 --> 00:12:27,942 which shouldn't matter, but it kind of saved me, too, 334 00:12:27,985 --> 00:12:31,075 so I don't want him to die. 335 00:12:31,119 --> 00:12:35,123 And I don't want to leave Scout, and I'm scared of the pandemic. 336 00:12:35,166 --> 00:12:37,038 You had sex with Koracick? 337 00:12:37,081 --> 00:12:38,126 What? 338 00:12:41,999 --> 00:12:43,784 [ Door opens ] 339 00:12:43,827 --> 00:12:45,786 [ Door closes ] 340 00:12:45,829 --> 00:12:48,440 Jackson: Hey. Oh, um, Mr. Anderson's trach in 4722 341 00:12:48,484 --> 00:12:50,007 needs to be suctioned, please.I'm on it. 342 00:12:50,051 --> 00:12:52,053 Hey, got your page. Did you hear anything from Mom? 343 00:12:52,096 --> 00:12:54,098 She's just texting me back hearts and "Love you, baby"s 344 00:12:54,142 --> 00:12:55,665 like that's gonna shut me up. 345 00:12:55,708 --> 00:12:57,580 No, I haven't had the time.Richard, this is not something 346 00:12:57,623 --> 00:12:59,582 that can wait till your schedule frees up, right? 347 00:12:59,625 --> 00:13:01,497 It's my mom. She's gonna give me a damn rage stroke. 348 00:13:01,540 --> 00:13:04,848 Bailey's mother was just admitted, COVID-positive. 349 00:13:04,892 --> 00:13:06,632 It's bad. 350 00:13:06,676 --> 00:13:08,373 Look, can you fill in for her at the board meeting today, 351 00:13:08,417 --> 00:13:10,593 take a few of her patients? 352 00:13:10,636 --> 00:13:12,508 We'll all pitch in. 353 00:13:12,551 --> 00:13:14,684 Yeah, of course. Whatever she needs. 354 00:13:14,727 --> 00:13:18,079 ♪♪ 355 00:13:18,122 --> 00:13:21,386 Jo: We took a lot more of her liver than I was hoping to. 356 00:13:21,430 --> 00:13:22,474 Keep an eye on her liver panel. 357 00:13:22,518 --> 00:13:24,128 The next few hours will be crucial. 358 00:13:24,172 --> 00:13:25,390 Levi: You think she'll need a transplant? 359 00:13:25,434 --> 00:13:27,915 Knowing her luck, probably. 360 00:13:27,958 --> 00:13:31,396 But if she needs it, we can try liver dialysis first. 361 00:13:31,440 --> 00:13:34,225 Khan, finish the op notes. Keep an eye on her. 362 00:13:34,269 --> 00:13:35,705 Dr. Wilson, thank you 363 00:13:35,748 --> 00:13:37,054 for allowing me to observe your process. 364 00:13:37,098 --> 00:13:38,751 That was amazing. 365 00:13:38,795 --> 00:13:40,536 She could still need a transplant. 366 00:13:40,579 --> 00:13:43,017 Yes, I understand, but you resected most of her liver, 367 00:13:43,060 --> 00:13:44,453 and she's still alive. 368 00:13:44,496 --> 00:13:45,976 I mean, do you know how rare that is? 369 00:13:46,020 --> 00:13:49,197 That -- That's unheard of in so many parts of the world. 370 00:13:49,240 --> 00:13:53,288 I know. Op notes. I'm going. 371 00:13:53,331 --> 00:13:55,246 [ Sighs ] Was I really amazing, 372 00:13:55,290 --> 00:13:57,988 or is he just some weird happy person? 373 00:13:58,032 --> 00:14:01,513 If you impressed him, I think amazing's a safe bet. 374 00:14:03,646 --> 00:14:07,258 Glad you got to operate again. 375 00:14:07,302 --> 00:14:08,303 [ Door opens ] 376 00:14:08,346 --> 00:14:11,045 [ Sighs ] 377 00:14:11,088 --> 00:14:13,264 Bailey: Her ferritin is 2087. 378 00:14:13,308 --> 00:14:15,614 600 is severe in COVID. 379 00:14:15,658 --> 00:14:18,879 Her CRP is 87. 380 00:14:18,922 --> 00:14:20,576 Creatinine's 2.3. 381 00:14:20,619 --> 00:14:23,448 W-What about her oxygen requirements? 382 00:14:23,492 --> 00:14:25,102 ♪ Caught swimming in your new sundress ♪ 383 00:14:25,146 --> 00:14:27,322 [ Sighs ] She's at 100% F-I-O2. 384 00:14:27,365 --> 00:14:29,541 40 liters. 385 00:14:29,585 --> 00:14:31,630 She went into A-fib an hour ago. 386 00:14:31,674 --> 00:14:35,199 We pushed dig, but so far, no response. 387 00:14:35,243 --> 00:14:36,809 ♪ Keep living like the sun don't set ♪ 388 00:14:36,853 --> 00:14:39,073 Her systolic was in the 80s, but we pushed a fluid bolus 389 00:14:39,116 --> 00:14:41,379 and got it back up into the 90s. 390 00:14:41,423 --> 00:14:46,167 So she's starting to have multi-system organ failure 391 00:14:46,210 --> 00:14:48,778 in addition to her cytokine storm. 392 00:14:48,821 --> 00:14:50,911 I'm sorry, Bailey. 393 00:14:50,954 --> 00:14:53,174 ♪♪ 394 00:14:53,217 --> 00:14:54,610 There is still more we can do. 395 00:14:54,653 --> 00:14:57,439 We can take her to the ICU, intubate -- 396 00:14:57,482 --> 00:14:59,876 She didn't want to be on machines. 397 00:14:59,920 --> 00:15:03,488 Or be kept alive with medication. 398 00:15:03,532 --> 00:15:08,841 ♪♪ 399 00:15:08,885 --> 00:15:11,714 I got to call my dad. Um... 400 00:15:11,757 --> 00:15:13,716 ♪♪ 401 00:15:13,759 --> 00:15:17,198 I'm here if you need me. 402 00:15:17,241 --> 00:15:19,765 H-How -- How do I tell my dad 403 00:15:19,809 --> 00:15:24,118 that the love of his life 404 00:15:24,161 --> 00:15:26,772 won't make it through the night? 405 00:15:26,816 --> 00:15:31,342 ♪♪ 406 00:15:37,914 --> 00:15:39,263 [ Telephone rings in distance ] 407 00:15:42,353 --> 00:15:44,573 Amelia: Neuro exam's intact. No deficits. 408 00:15:44,616 --> 00:15:46,096 He asked for his son. 409 00:15:46,140 --> 00:15:50,361 I think the seizure and delirium are secondary to hypoxemia 410 00:15:50,405 --> 00:15:53,756 and inflammation from COVID -- possible early sepsis. 411 00:15:53,799 --> 00:15:54,931 Let's just watch him 412 00:15:54,975 --> 00:15:56,715 and, uh, see how he responds to treatment. 413 00:15:56,759 --> 00:15:58,935 Okay.Oh, hey, Shepherd. Didn't realize you were back. 414 00:15:58,979 --> 00:16:00,893 Welcome to...hell. 415 00:16:00,937 --> 00:16:02,765 Just consulting on Koracick. 416 00:16:02,808 --> 00:16:04,549 Oh, right, 'cause he needs somebody to cover his service. 417 00:16:04,593 --> 00:16:06,812 Onhim, not -- uh, not forhim. 418 00:16:06,856 --> 00:16:08,858 Sats dropped, he's got a fever of 103, 419 00:16:08,901 --> 00:16:10,816 and he seized when they brought him in. 420 00:16:10,860 --> 00:16:13,515 [ Sighs ] Well, I hate everything. 421 00:16:13,558 --> 00:16:16,648 Woman: [ Over P.A. ] Dr. Cade to the ICU. Emma Cade to the ICU. 422 00:16:16,692 --> 00:16:18,128 I was wondering if you get used to this, 423 00:16:18,172 --> 00:16:20,565 but I'm guessing that's my answer. 424 00:16:20,609 --> 00:16:21,871 How's the baby? 425 00:16:21,914 --> 00:16:24,439 Uh, yeah, uh, well, he won't let me sleep, 426 00:16:24,482 --> 00:16:27,181 but other than that, um, yeah, I can't wait to get back to him. 427 00:16:27,224 --> 00:16:29,139 Leo and Allison are with Owen's mom. 428 00:16:29,183 --> 00:16:30,619 I'm just -- I miss them like crazy, 429 00:16:30,662 --> 00:16:33,100 but with both parents treating COVID patients, 430 00:16:33,143 --> 00:16:35,102 it just -- it doesn't seem safe. 431 00:16:35,145 --> 00:16:36,842 Uh-huh. 432 00:16:36,886 --> 00:16:40,194 So, um, guess you heard what happened. 433 00:16:40,237 --> 00:16:42,892 Yeah. And I have feelings. 434 00:16:42,935 --> 00:16:44,633 But I've also done 435 00:16:44,676 --> 00:16:47,070 more hurtful and complicated things in my life 436 00:16:47,114 --> 00:16:49,812 than anyone I've met outside an NA meeting, so -- 437 00:16:49,855 --> 00:16:51,814 some of them to Owen. 438 00:16:51,857 --> 00:16:53,381 Owen won't say a word to me 439 00:16:53,424 --> 00:16:54,382 that doesn't have to do with the kids, 440 00:16:54,425 --> 00:16:57,385 and everyone is ignoring me 441 00:16:57,428 --> 00:17:00,301 or treating me like I'm wearing a scarlet letter. 442 00:17:00,344 --> 00:17:02,564 What about Tom? 443 00:17:02,607 --> 00:17:05,349 He's hurt, too. 444 00:17:05,393 --> 00:17:08,396 Well, um, I'll keep checking on him. 445 00:17:08,439 --> 00:17:11,877 And, uh, thank you for getting Mer into the trial. 446 00:17:11,921 --> 00:17:13,140 Oh, yeah, uh, of course. 447 00:17:13,183 --> 00:17:15,751 [ Sighs ] 448 00:17:15,794 --> 00:17:18,319 [ Monitor beeping ] 449 00:17:18,362 --> 00:17:20,930 Hi, Grey. 450 00:17:20,973 --> 00:17:22,932 It's me. 451 00:17:22,975 --> 00:17:25,195 I'm gonna say it. 452 00:17:25,239 --> 00:17:26,762 I miss you. 453 00:17:32,376 --> 00:17:34,117 [ Sighs ] 454 00:17:36,250 --> 00:17:40,645 When I was a kid, I had big thoughts. 455 00:17:40,689 --> 00:17:42,865 Big feelings. 456 00:17:42,908 --> 00:17:45,694 And I never knew where to put them. 457 00:17:45,737 --> 00:17:50,829 Physically, they ran through my body like a high-speed train. 458 00:17:50,873 --> 00:17:53,702 And anytime I felt the train coming, 459 00:17:53,745 --> 00:17:57,009 my mom could see it. 460 00:17:57,053 --> 00:17:59,925 So she took me around the corner to the park 461 00:17:59,969 --> 00:18:04,930 with this strange, twisted tree. 462 00:18:04,974 --> 00:18:07,150 Said it was mytree. 463 00:18:07,194 --> 00:18:11,023 And I could scream at it, hit it, hold it -- 464 00:18:11,067 --> 00:18:12,721 and it would make the feelings small enough 465 00:18:12,764 --> 00:18:17,029 that they would fit back inside of my own body again. 466 00:18:17,073 --> 00:18:20,772 So I did. 467 00:18:20,816 --> 00:18:22,861 And it worked. 468 00:18:22,905 --> 00:18:28,128 But now I'm an adult, and tree-hitting is... 469 00:18:28,171 --> 00:18:29,999 [Chuckling] frowned upon. 470 00:18:30,042 --> 00:18:33,263 I can be your tree. 471 00:18:33,307 --> 00:18:37,528 My mother has Alzheimer's. 472 00:18:37,572 --> 00:18:39,661 I never told you 473 00:18:39,704 --> 00:18:43,969 because she's older, 474 00:18:44,013 --> 00:18:47,059 and I didn't want to bring up any old pain 475 00:18:47,103 --> 00:18:49,845 for your or Richard. 476 00:18:49,888 --> 00:18:52,239 But it would be a lie 477 00:18:52,282 --> 00:18:55,938 to say that it hasn't been hard. 478 00:18:55,981 --> 00:18:58,984 Or painful. 479 00:18:59,028 --> 00:19:03,728 Even as a doctor who knows about the disease, 480 00:19:03,772 --> 00:19:06,818 I feel like... 481 00:19:06,862 --> 00:19:08,168 I didn't know crap. 482 00:19:08,211 --> 00:19:12,389 ...like I don't know anything. 483 00:19:12,433 --> 00:19:14,217 It's difficult to talk about it 484 00:19:14,261 --> 00:19:16,088 with someone who hasn't been there, 485 00:19:16,132 --> 00:19:18,569 been through it. 486 00:19:18,613 --> 00:19:21,877 ♪♪ 487 00:19:21,920 --> 00:19:24,619 No one understands that you are 488 00:19:24,662 --> 00:19:28,057 watching your own mother die... 489 00:19:28,100 --> 00:19:30,712 twice. 490 00:19:30,755 --> 00:19:34,498 I'm so sorry, Bailey. 491 00:19:34,542 --> 00:19:37,371 [ Crying ] I wish you were awake. 492 00:19:37,414 --> 00:19:46,597 ♪♪ 493 00:19:46,641 --> 00:19:48,556 Reza: Val's still not awake. LFTs are up slightly. 494 00:19:48,599 --> 00:19:50,427 Jo: Okay. Do another panel in a few hours. 495 00:19:50,471 --> 00:19:52,386 Absolutely, Dr. Wilson. 496 00:19:52,429 --> 00:19:56,085 Okay, has your attitude always been this good? 497 00:19:56,128 --> 00:19:59,306 My mom used to say every day above ground is a good day. 498 00:19:59,349 --> 00:20:01,133 Did she get that from "Scarface"? 499 00:20:01,177 --> 00:20:04,267 She did. Still, it's true.[ Elevator bell dings ] 500 00:20:04,311 --> 00:20:05,921 [ Sighs ][ Telephone rings ] 501 00:20:05,964 --> 00:20:08,402 [ Woman speaks indistinctly over P.A. ] 502 00:20:08,445 --> 00:20:10,578 Nurse Terri: You! You're a doctor, right? 503 00:20:10,621 --> 00:20:12,449 Yeah.Great, follow me. 504 00:20:12,493 --> 00:20:14,277 We're delivering a baby.Oh, no, no, no, no, no. 505 00:20:14,321 --> 00:20:16,061 I'm not an OB, I'm a general surgeon.I don't care. 506 00:20:16,105 --> 00:20:17,933 We have an imminent delivery, and all our OBs are busy. 507 00:20:17,976 --> 00:20:19,630 Hospital rules say we need a doctor. 508 00:20:19,674 --> 00:20:21,284 I haven't delivered a baby -- 509 00:20:21,328 --> 00:20:22,764 You heard the "I don't care" part, right? 510 00:20:22,807 --> 00:20:23,895 We'll talk you through it. 511 00:20:23,939 --> 00:20:25,549 The Elmores. Okay. 512 00:20:25,593 --> 00:20:28,509 G3P2 came in fully effaced and dilated at zero station. 513 00:20:28,552 --> 00:20:31,076 Started crowning by the time we got her settled on the bed. 514 00:20:31,120 --> 00:20:34,471 Ms. Elmore? Hi. I know that I'm not who you expected, 515 00:20:34,515 --> 00:20:36,081 but I am here --The head is coming now. 516 00:20:36,125 --> 00:20:37,953 Hi. Hi. 517 00:20:37,996 --> 00:20:39,694 Okay. Okay. 518 00:20:39,737 --> 00:20:41,261 [ Kathy panting ] 519 00:20:41,304 --> 00:20:43,175 Alright. Contraction and big push, okay? 520 00:20:43,219 --> 00:20:44,176 Big push. 521 00:20:44,220 --> 00:20:46,396 [ Grunting ] 522 00:20:46,440 --> 00:20:48,224 ♪ Told my troubled heart 523 00:20:48,268 --> 00:20:50,835 Okay. Contraction and push. 524 00:20:50,879 --> 00:20:52,533 [ Screaming ] 525 00:20:52,576 --> 00:20:55,013 The head is out. There -- No cord around the neck. 526 00:20:55,057 --> 00:20:57,320 See? Just like riding a bike. 527 00:20:57,364 --> 00:20:58,669 Alright, uh... 528 00:20:58,713 --> 00:21:01,324 Pull head down, then up, to deliver the shoulders. 529 00:21:01,368 --> 00:21:03,195 Okay, it's coming.[ Screaming ] 530 00:21:03,239 --> 00:21:04,849 Coming. 531 00:21:04,893 --> 00:21:07,548 Oh, my God. [ Laughing ] Oh, my God. 532 00:21:07,591 --> 00:21:10,115 Ms. Elmore asked that the baby go directly onto her chest 533 00:21:10,159 --> 00:21:11,203 while still connected.[ Baby crying ] 534 00:21:11,247 --> 00:21:13,249 Okay, clamp. 535 00:21:13,293 --> 00:21:16,426 Okay. Oh, my gosh. Okay. 536 00:21:16,470 --> 00:21:18,776 ♪ A new light shining down on me ♪ 537 00:21:18,820 --> 00:21:20,082 Okay. 538 00:21:20,125 --> 00:21:22,302 ♪ A new way, a new road 539 00:21:22,345 --> 00:21:25,217 You ready to cut the cord? 540 00:21:25,261 --> 00:21:27,176 Hi. Okay, right here. 541 00:21:27,219 --> 00:21:28,786 Okay, yeah. In between here. 542 00:21:28,830 --> 00:21:30,919 In between, yeah. 543 00:21:30,962 --> 00:21:32,747 Good. Hi, little one! 544 00:21:32,790 --> 00:21:34,270 ♪ Take my hand 545 00:21:34,314 --> 00:21:35,706 [ Laughs ][ Baby crying ] 546 00:21:35,750 --> 00:21:41,973 ♪ The worst is over 547 00:21:42,017 --> 00:21:47,283 ♪ Weight is liftin' 548 00:21:47,327 --> 00:21:52,462 ♪ Off our shoulders 549 00:21:52,506 --> 00:21:55,160 ♪ I can see ♪ Oh, I can see 550 00:21:55,204 --> 00:21:58,120 ♪ I can see ♪ I can see 551 00:21:58,163 --> 00:22:00,644 ♪ A new light ♪ New light 552 00:22:00,688 --> 00:22:03,604 ♪ Shining down on me ♪ Down on me 553 00:22:03,647 --> 00:22:06,171 ♪ A new way, a new road 554 00:22:06,215 --> 00:22:08,522 Just need you to sign the paperwork, and you can go. 555 00:22:08,565 --> 00:22:11,220 Is it alright if I stay? 556 00:22:11,263 --> 00:22:15,398 ♪ Oh, oh, to a new kind of beautiful ♪ 557 00:22:15,442 --> 00:22:18,445 Okay. Mommy? 558 00:22:18,488 --> 00:22:19,794 Hey, it's me. 559 00:22:19,837 --> 00:22:22,318 Look, Dad's here, too. 560 00:22:22,362 --> 00:22:25,103 Hi, honey. I'm here. 561 00:22:25,147 --> 00:22:27,454 Wait till you see Miranda's hotel. 562 00:22:27,497 --> 00:22:29,456 I mean, there's room service, 563 00:22:29,499 --> 00:22:32,241 and the view is so much better than Silver Villas. 564 00:22:32,284 --> 00:22:34,896 You can actually s-see the water. 565 00:22:34,939 --> 00:22:36,854 [ Weakly ] William? 566 00:22:36,898 --> 00:22:38,900 Is that you, William? 567 00:22:38,943 --> 00:22:41,381 Right here by your side, as always. 568 00:22:41,424 --> 00:22:45,341 I love you. I love you so much. 569 00:22:45,385 --> 00:22:47,474 Sweetheart? [ Crying ] 570 00:22:47,517 --> 00:22:51,652 Uh, she drifts in and out, Dad. 571 00:22:51,695 --> 00:22:55,090 In her state, even breathing's exhausting. 572 00:22:55,133 --> 00:22:57,266 I can't do this. 573 00:22:57,309 --> 00:22:58,702 I know. 574 00:22:58,746 --> 00:23:00,443 It's difficult. 575 00:23:00,487 --> 00:23:01,836 I should be there. 576 00:23:01,879 --> 00:23:03,620 It's too risky, Dad. 577 00:23:03,664 --> 00:23:07,581 She should be in her own bed, not in some sterile box. 578 00:23:07,624 --> 00:23:13,456 She spent 60 years taking care of me, and now... 579 00:23:13,500 --> 00:23:17,199 She hardly ever got a cold before this. 580 00:23:17,242 --> 00:23:20,420 Just call me when she wakes up. 581 00:23:20,463 --> 00:23:22,334 [ Labored breathing ] 582 00:23:22,378 --> 00:23:24,467 Of course, Dad. 583 00:23:24,511 --> 00:23:32,475 ♪♪ 584 00:23:32,519 --> 00:23:34,956 Okay. 585 00:23:34,999 --> 00:23:37,437 [ Gasping indistinctly ] 586 00:23:37,480 --> 00:23:42,137 ♪♪ 587 00:23:42,180 --> 00:23:44,574 ♪ It's a new kind of beautiful 588 00:23:44,618 --> 00:23:47,969 Mommy. 589 00:23:48,012 --> 00:23:49,666 If you're ready to go, 590 00:23:49,710 --> 00:23:51,146 it's okay. 591 00:23:51,189 --> 00:23:53,409 We're gonna be okay. 592 00:23:53,453 --> 00:23:56,368 ♪ A new kind of beautiful, oh, oh ♪ 593 00:23:56,412 --> 00:23:59,197 [ Voice breaking ] We love you. 594 00:23:59,241 --> 00:24:01,461 But we don't want you to suffer. 595 00:24:01,504 --> 00:24:02,549 ♪ Oh, oh 596 00:24:02,592 --> 00:24:08,076 I'm not r-ready. 597 00:24:08,119 --> 00:24:11,166 If you're tired, I understand. 598 00:24:11,209 --> 00:24:12,559 ♪ A new light 599 00:24:12,602 --> 00:24:13,603 I love you. 600 00:24:13,647 --> 00:24:14,604 ♪ Shining down on me 601 00:24:14,648 --> 00:24:16,606 Ready to die? 602 00:24:16,650 --> 00:24:17,781 ♪ A new way 603 00:24:17,825 --> 00:24:19,087 No. 604 00:24:19,130 --> 00:24:20,871 ♪ A new road 605 00:24:20,915 --> 00:24:24,962 I-I want to go home. 606 00:24:25,006 --> 00:24:27,922 ♪ Oh, oh 607 00:24:27,965 --> 00:24:29,750 ♪ To a new kind of beautiful 608 00:24:35,277 --> 00:24:37,932 Ben: Hey, you've reached Ben Warren. Please leave a message. 609 00:24:37,975 --> 00:24:40,543 [ Beep ]Yeah, I -- Ben? Um, it's my mom. 610 00:24:40,587 --> 00:24:43,938 I think she was just lucid with me, 611 00:24:43,981 --> 00:24:46,723 and she said some things that I don't understand, 612 00:24:46,767 --> 00:24:48,986 and now I-I don't know what do, 613 00:24:49,030 --> 00:24:50,945 and I need someone to tell me what to do. 614 00:24:50,988 --> 00:24:54,775 Just, uh, call me as soon as you can. 615 00:24:54,818 --> 00:24:55,950 Uh, I love you. 616 00:24:55,993 --> 00:24:58,039 [ Siren wailing in distance ] 617 00:25:00,520 --> 00:25:01,825 Maggie: Hey. 618 00:25:01,869 --> 00:25:04,436 I saw you leave. I wanted to check. 619 00:25:05,176 --> 00:25:07,831 She said she's not ready to go. 620 00:25:07,875 --> 00:25:10,094 For a split second, 621 00:25:10,138 --> 00:25:13,402 my heart was filled up with so much joy. 622 00:25:13,445 --> 00:25:15,578 But now I'm just mad. 623 00:25:15,622 --> 00:25:19,974 Mad because no one told me she was sick, 624 00:25:20,017 --> 00:25:26,241 mad because she probably has no idea what's happening. 625 00:25:26,284 --> 00:25:30,506 You know, if I'm being totally honest, 626 00:25:30,550 --> 00:25:33,248 I don't want her to suffer from this Alzheimer's anymore. 627 00:25:33,291 --> 00:25:36,077 You know, it's a horrific disease, 628 00:25:36,120 --> 00:25:39,341 and I want her to be free. 629 00:25:39,384 --> 00:25:41,256 But I don't want COVID to be the reason. 630 00:25:41,299 --> 00:25:42,431 I d-- I don't want her 631 00:25:42,474 --> 00:25:45,869 to be just another Black woman statistic 632 00:25:45,913 --> 00:25:47,784 in this pandemic count. 633 00:25:47,828 --> 00:25:49,917 Yeah, I hear that. 634 00:25:49,960 --> 00:25:52,136 100%. 635 00:25:54,878 --> 00:25:56,619 None of this is easy. 636 00:25:56,663 --> 00:25:59,883 All of it is confusing and... 637 00:25:59,927 --> 00:26:02,625 [sighs] hard and awful. 638 00:26:02,669 --> 00:26:06,673 But even with Alzheimer's, she's been healthy. 639 00:26:06,716 --> 00:26:09,676 And now I'm watching her struggle 640 00:26:09,719 --> 00:26:15,203 to do the most basic of human reflexes -- breathing. 641 00:26:15,246 --> 00:26:19,860 And if she's saying she's not ready to go... 642 00:26:19,903 --> 00:26:22,689 I don't know what to think. 643 00:26:22,732 --> 00:26:24,734 I felt so sure 644 00:26:24,778 --> 00:26:27,084 that she wouldn't want to live like she's been living, 645 00:26:27,128 --> 00:26:30,348 but maybe I'm wrong, yeah? 646 00:26:30,392 --> 00:26:35,440 Maybe she's happy in the world her mind takes her to. 647 00:26:35,484 --> 00:26:38,008 Now I'm questioning every choice I made. 648 00:26:38,052 --> 00:26:39,619 I mean, s-should I be doing more? 649 00:26:39,662 --> 00:26:43,013 Should I move her to the ICU? Intubate her? 650 00:26:43,057 --> 00:26:45,276 Am I just thinking about how Ifeel 651 00:26:45,320 --> 00:26:50,281 instead of what's going on with her -- inside of her mind? 652 00:26:50,325 --> 00:26:52,936 Do you want my opinion?Please. 653 00:26:52,980 --> 00:26:56,636 I've been the one who does everything, 654 00:26:56,679 --> 00:27:02,642 who fights tooth and nail against death at all costs. 655 00:27:02,685 --> 00:27:05,688 But truthfully, with my mom, 656 00:27:05,732 --> 00:27:09,692 it didn't give me more peace of mind in the end. 657 00:27:09,736 --> 00:27:12,608 It might have done the opposite. 658 00:27:12,652 --> 00:27:18,222 I didn't think so at the time, but it was the easier choice. 659 00:27:18,266 --> 00:27:20,660 To fall back on acting like a surgeon 660 00:27:20,703 --> 00:27:22,879 and searching for all the answers. 661 00:27:26,013 --> 00:27:30,887 Bailey, you've given your mom so much. 662 00:27:30,931 --> 00:27:33,020 She's gotten to raise you 663 00:27:33,063 --> 00:27:35,718 and watch you turn into this incredible surgeon 664 00:27:35,762 --> 00:27:38,199 and chief of a hospital. 665 00:27:38,242 --> 00:27:40,114 She watched you fall in love. 666 00:27:40,157 --> 00:27:42,725 Twice. Twice! 667 00:27:42,769 --> 00:27:45,554 [ Laughs ] And raise a family. 668 00:27:48,818 --> 00:27:53,344 Of course you're never going to feel ready to say goodbye, 669 00:27:53,388 --> 00:27:56,086 but... 670 00:27:56,130 --> 00:27:58,698 she's had an amazing life. 671 00:27:58,741 --> 00:28:03,746 Bailey: I brought my parents to Seattle kicking and fighting. 672 00:28:03,790 --> 00:28:06,270 I promised them, if they moved here, 673 00:28:06,314 --> 00:28:08,446 it was the right thing to do 674 00:28:08,490 --> 00:28:11,188 so they could be closer to their only daughter. 675 00:28:11,232 --> 00:28:14,670 I told them I knew best. Just listen to me. 676 00:28:14,714 --> 00:28:17,760 And if they hadn't done that, they would still be at home. 677 00:28:17,804 --> 00:28:19,022 Isolated. 678 00:28:19,066 --> 00:28:20,763 And Mom wouldn't be dying. Not yet. 679 00:28:20,807 --> 00:28:22,286 You don't know that. 680 00:28:22,330 --> 00:28:25,289 She was exposed at the place that I set up for them. 681 00:28:25,333 --> 00:28:30,904 The -- The facility let someone move in from New York, 682 00:28:30,947 --> 00:28:33,210 a retired surgeon. 683 00:28:33,254 --> 00:28:36,605 He became symptomatic the day after his arrival. 684 00:28:36,648 --> 00:28:40,130 Afterthey said they had shut down to all outsiders, 685 00:28:40,174 --> 00:28:41,915 including family. 686 00:28:41,958 --> 00:28:43,830 How in the hell could you have known that was going to happen? 687 00:28:43,873 --> 00:28:48,399 How could you have known any of this was going to happen? 688 00:28:48,443 --> 00:28:50,967 Bailey, you cannot feel guilty about this. 689 00:28:51,011 --> 00:28:52,752 [ Chuckles ] 690 00:28:56,494 --> 00:28:59,106 My mom, she left me five voicemails 691 00:28:59,149 --> 00:29:00,847 for my birthday last year. 692 00:29:00,890 --> 00:29:03,197 She kept calling 693 00:29:03,240 --> 00:29:04,676 because she forgot that she had already 694 00:29:04,720 --> 00:29:07,331 wished me happy birthday. 695 00:29:07,375 --> 00:29:11,118 There they are.Elena: ♪ Happy birthday to you♪ 696 00:29:11,161 --> 00:29:12,380 I never deleted them 697 00:29:12,423 --> 00:29:15,426 because I guess I realized 698 00:29:15,470 --> 00:29:18,386 that it might be the last time she remembered at all. 699 00:29:18,429 --> 00:29:21,215 [ Phone clicks, singing stops ] 700 00:29:21,258 --> 00:29:25,175 She raised me to be a good little girl. 701 00:29:25,219 --> 00:29:29,223 And even when I defied her... 702 00:29:29,266 --> 00:29:32,443 [Chuckles] I was never disrespectful. 703 00:29:32,487 --> 00:29:36,926 And I tried to be good at everything. 704 00:29:36,970 --> 00:29:40,016 A good student, a good mother. 705 00:29:40,060 --> 00:29:43,715 Wife, doctor, chief. 706 00:29:43,759 --> 00:29:47,937 And now she just needs me to be a good daughter, 707 00:29:47,981 --> 00:29:49,809 and I'm not sure how to do that, 708 00:29:49,852 --> 00:29:52,376 even though it's what I've been the longest. 709 00:29:52,420 --> 00:29:55,771 You've chosen palliative care. 710 00:29:55,815 --> 00:29:58,774 You're giving her the best care possible 711 00:29:58,818 --> 00:30:02,343 while keeping her as comfortable as possible. 712 00:30:02,386 --> 00:30:03,910 That is good. 713 00:30:03,953 --> 00:30:07,957 And it is kind and respectful 714 00:30:08,001 --> 00:30:09,219 and brave. 715 00:30:09,263 --> 00:30:11,961 ♪ I'm gonna lay down 716 00:30:12,005 --> 00:30:15,095 I wish I could've given my mom a more dignified death. 717 00:30:15,138 --> 00:30:16,792 ♪ Lay down some roots, this rolling stone ♪ 718 00:30:16,836 --> 00:30:21,492 But I pushed so hard. 719 00:30:21,536 --> 00:30:25,670 ♪ He's gonna lay down 720 00:30:25,714 --> 00:30:28,064 You know, it's her own damn fault, really. 721 00:30:28,108 --> 00:30:29,544 ♪ For you 722 00:30:29,587 --> 00:30:32,373 My whole life, she told me to push through. 723 00:30:32,416 --> 00:30:34,418 [ Chuckles ] 724 00:30:34,462 --> 00:30:37,421 Be strong. Fight the good fight. 725 00:30:37,465 --> 00:30:40,381 My mom was kind of the opposite. 726 00:30:40,424 --> 00:30:43,253 Like, overprotective, like, hovering. 727 00:30:43,297 --> 00:30:45,995 There was a reception 728 00:30:46,039 --> 00:30:49,216 sponsored by the Daughters of the Revolution. 729 00:30:49,259 --> 00:30:51,566 They had given me a scholarship. 730 00:30:51,609 --> 00:30:52,828 [ Snorts ] 731 00:30:52,872 --> 00:30:55,918 So my mom said I should take the scholarship 732 00:30:55,962 --> 00:30:58,051 but not go to the reception. 733 00:30:58,094 --> 00:30:59,922 But I didn't want to give them that satisfaction. 734 00:30:59,966 --> 00:31:02,794 No, I wanted them to see 735 00:31:02,838 --> 00:31:04,971 what "Miranda Bailey" looked like, right? 736 00:31:05,014 --> 00:31:09,062 So I went with my dad. 737 00:31:09,105 --> 00:31:11,020 [ Both laugh ] 738 00:31:11,064 --> 00:31:14,110 We had a good laugh 739 00:31:14,154 --> 00:31:18,680 at those very proper ladies. 740 00:31:18,723 --> 00:31:20,943 I think you mean "white" ladies. 741 00:31:20,987 --> 00:31:23,076 Uh... [ Laughs ]Yeah. 742 00:31:23,119 --> 00:31:26,514 Watching them try to hide their horror 743 00:31:26,557 --> 00:31:30,083 when they saw who they had given their scholarship to, 744 00:31:30,126 --> 00:31:32,781 yeah, that was classic.[ Chuckles ] 745 00:31:32,824 --> 00:31:34,391 Oh, and guidance counselors, oh, my God. 746 00:31:34,435 --> 00:31:36,916 Oh, yeah, yeah, always trying to suggest 747 00:31:36,959 --> 00:31:39,048 a school where we might feel "more comfortable." 748 00:31:39,092 --> 00:31:41,877 "Oh, Wellesley. 749 00:31:41,921 --> 00:31:44,401 That's a fine school, Miranda. 750 00:31:44,445 --> 00:31:48,188 But, um, I think state school is more your speed." 751 00:31:48,231 --> 00:31:50,059 Mm-hmm.Like I don't know my speed. 752 00:31:50,103 --> 00:31:52,322 Please.Try harder and do better 753 00:31:52,366 --> 00:31:53,802 just to be considered average. 754 00:31:53,845 --> 00:31:55,978 Or to be considered at all. 755 00:31:56,022 --> 00:31:59,939 But how they underestimate our greatness. 756 00:31:59,982 --> 00:32:02,550 Graduated magna cum laude...Mm-hmm. 757 00:32:02,593 --> 00:32:06,641 ...with my biology degree, by the way. 758 00:32:06,684 --> 00:32:11,689 And you better bet my mom cut out the graduation announcement 759 00:32:11,733 --> 00:32:14,431 from Wellesley and mailed it to my guidance counselor. 760 00:32:14,475 --> 00:32:17,304 [ Both laugh ] 761 00:32:17,347 --> 00:32:19,393 [ Sighs deeply ] 762 00:32:19,436 --> 00:32:22,570 [ Both chuckle ] 763 00:32:22,613 --> 00:32:25,225 I don't know how I'm gonna do this. 764 00:32:25,268 --> 00:32:26,704 ♪♪ 765 00:32:26,748 --> 00:32:29,011 [ Sighs ] 766 00:32:29,055 --> 00:32:31,100 ♪♪ 767 00:32:39,065 --> 00:32:41,893 Oh. Uh, I c-- I can come back. 768 00:32:41,937 --> 00:32:44,722 No. No, no, no. Uh, no, I just finished up his EEG. 769 00:32:44,766 --> 00:32:46,463 I wanted to, um, make sure 770 00:32:46,507 --> 00:32:47,856 that the seizure was a one-and-done, 771 00:32:47,899 --> 00:32:51,599 before I head home, take 10 scalding hot showers, 772 00:32:51,642 --> 00:32:53,383 and hug up on everybody. 773 00:32:53,427 --> 00:32:57,605 Um, Maggie says that his numbers are holding. 774 00:32:57,648 --> 00:33:00,782 Good. Thanks. 775 00:33:00,825 --> 00:33:02,218 [ Door closes ] 776 00:33:02,262 --> 00:33:04,264 [ Monitor beeping ] 777 00:33:10,487 --> 00:33:11,923 I don't know if you were ignoring me 778 00:33:11,967 --> 00:33:13,403 when I came by the house 779 00:33:13,447 --> 00:33:15,405 or -- or if you were just too sick to answer, 780 00:33:15,449 --> 00:33:17,625 but I-I'm -- I'm gonna go with too sick 781 00:33:17,668 --> 00:33:21,107 'cause then -- then maybe there's a-a ray of hope for us, 782 00:33:21,150 --> 00:33:23,500 which I could really use right now, 783 00:33:23,544 --> 00:33:27,026 and I know you could. 784 00:33:27,069 --> 00:33:28,244 You know, I'm -- I'm gonna stop asking. 785 00:33:28,288 --> 00:33:29,637 I'm just gonna decide. 786 00:33:29,680 --> 00:33:33,554 I-I'm deciding that we mean enough to each other 787 00:33:33,597 --> 00:33:37,862 that, even though I hurt you and I-I... 788 00:33:37,906 --> 00:33:39,995 I hurt you more than I could ever imagine, 789 00:33:40,039 --> 00:33:45,087 that a repair could be made, that... 790 00:33:45,131 --> 00:33:48,395 maybe you could remember 791 00:33:48,438 --> 00:33:50,179 some of the things that you don't hate about me 792 00:33:50,223 --> 00:33:55,097 and we --- we could salvage our friendship because... 793 00:33:55,141 --> 00:33:57,056 I don't know how we're going to get through this pandemic, 794 00:33:57,099 --> 00:33:58,927 but I do know -- I do know 795 00:33:58,970 --> 00:34:00,798 that we're not going to get through it alone. 796 00:34:00,842 --> 00:34:03,671 So if you want to have nothing to do with me, 797 00:34:03,714 --> 00:34:05,499 then you are just going to have to get all better 798 00:34:05,542 --> 00:34:06,630 and tell me yourself, 799 00:34:06,674 --> 00:34:08,545 because until I hear you say the words, 800 00:34:08,589 --> 00:34:11,244 you're not gonna get rid of me. 801 00:34:11,287 --> 00:34:14,682 ♪♪ 802 00:34:14,725 --> 00:34:16,901 Oh, my God. Tom. Tom? 803 00:34:16,945 --> 00:34:19,165 Tom, can you hear me? 804 00:34:19,208 --> 00:34:21,558 It's me. It's -- It's Teddy. 805 00:34:21,602 --> 00:34:23,343 Koracick: You were wrong. 806 00:34:23,386 --> 00:34:24,431 Wrong about what? 807 00:34:24,474 --> 00:34:25,867 ♪ The setting free 808 00:34:25,910 --> 00:34:28,652 When you came to my house. 809 00:34:28,696 --> 00:34:30,001 I was ignoring you. 810 00:34:30,045 --> 00:34:32,743 ♪ The bittersweet but sweet release ♪ 811 00:34:32,787 --> 00:34:36,878 Did you hear everything I-I just said? 812 00:34:36,921 --> 00:34:39,141 ♪ A heavy sky 813 00:34:39,185 --> 00:34:41,056 [ Chuckles ] I hate you. 814 00:34:41,100 --> 00:34:42,318 ♪ Hangs on the sea 815 00:34:42,362 --> 00:34:44,712 Well, we both know that's not true. 816 00:34:44,755 --> 00:34:46,322 ♪♪ 817 00:34:46,366 --> 00:34:47,889 [ Laughs, wheezes ] 818 00:34:47,932 --> 00:34:49,238 ♪ Then all at once an opening 819 00:34:49,282 --> 00:34:52,937 [ Sighs ] Hey. 820 00:34:52,981 --> 00:34:55,114 What would you say to a sponge bath? 821 00:34:55,157 --> 00:34:56,506 [ Laughs ] 822 00:34:56,550 --> 00:34:58,813 Well, but, you know, as friends. 823 00:34:58,856 --> 00:35:01,076 Friendly sponge bath. [ Chuckles ] 824 00:35:01,120 --> 00:35:06,168 ♪ I am lifted, I am lifted 825 00:35:06,212 --> 00:35:11,304 ♪ I am lifted, I am free 826 00:35:11,347 --> 00:35:16,483 ♪ I've been holding on, I've been holding on ♪ 827 00:35:16,526 --> 00:35:23,881 ♪ I've been holding on, now I'm lifted ♪ 828 00:35:23,925 --> 00:35:29,060 ♪ We can learn to love 829 00:35:29,104 --> 00:35:30,627 ♪ Without looking back Hey. 830 00:35:30,671 --> 00:35:32,368 I rounded on all of Bailey's patients. 831 00:35:32,412 --> 00:35:35,328 DeLuca said he'll keep an eye on them for the rest of the night. 832 00:35:35,371 --> 00:35:36,851 Yeah, thank you. 833 00:35:36,894 --> 00:35:39,419 Yeah, I hesitate to ask, but how's her mom doing? 834 00:35:39,462 --> 00:35:41,769 They don't expect her to last the night. 835 00:35:41,812 --> 00:35:45,555 ♪ Everything is beautiful 836 00:35:45,599 --> 00:35:46,556 That's -- [ Sighs ] 837 00:35:46,600 --> 00:35:48,210 ♪ I am lifted, I am lifted 838 00:35:48,254 --> 00:35:50,952 You realize half of our COVID patients are Black and brown? 839 00:35:50,995 --> 00:35:52,171 I know. 840 00:35:52,214 --> 00:35:53,998 In a city that's 7% Black? 841 00:35:54,042 --> 00:35:56,479 Like, how does that even compute? 842 00:35:56,523 --> 00:35:58,307 It doesn't. 843 00:35:58,351 --> 00:36:00,918 If I hear one more person blame it on pre-existing conditions 844 00:36:00,962 --> 00:36:04,095 as if the conditions aren't manmade to begin with... 845 00:36:04,139 --> 00:36:06,446 Like we're not pushed into the front line of all of our jobs 846 00:36:06,489 --> 00:36:09,231 and forced to live in overcrowded situations, 847 00:36:09,275 --> 00:36:11,233 surrounded by environmental hazards. 848 00:36:11,277 --> 00:36:12,626 Yeah, people want 849 00:36:12,669 --> 00:36:15,368 to make everything bad that happens your own fault. 850 00:36:15,411 --> 00:36:17,239 Yeah, when systemic racism is the root 851 00:36:17,283 --> 00:36:18,980 of the whole damn thing. Forget the pre-, 852 00:36:19,023 --> 00:36:20,851 it's the existing condition. 853 00:36:20,895 --> 00:36:22,331 Existing while Black. 854 00:36:22,375 --> 00:36:26,292 ♪ I am lifted, I am free 855 00:36:26,335 --> 00:36:28,468 ♪ I've been holding on 856 00:36:28,511 --> 00:36:30,687 You know, Richard, we both know my mom is stubborn. 857 00:36:30,731 --> 00:36:32,428 ♪ I've been holding on too long ♪ 858 00:36:32,472 --> 00:36:34,082 And everything she's been through, I feel like 859 00:36:34,125 --> 00:36:36,519 she thinks she's invincible now, and she's not. 860 00:36:36,563 --> 00:36:38,260 ♪ I've been holding on too long ♪ 861 00:36:38,304 --> 00:36:41,611 We can't lose her, Richard. 862 00:36:41,655 --> 00:36:43,787 The world can't lose her, you know? 863 00:36:43,831 --> 00:36:46,137 It's been handled. 864 00:36:46,181 --> 00:36:47,574 Oh, you talked to her? 865 00:36:47,617 --> 00:36:49,228 Oh, good. 866 00:36:49,271 --> 00:36:50,620 What'd you say? 867 00:36:50,664 --> 00:36:54,058 I think it's best kept between us. 868 00:36:54,102 --> 00:36:57,018 Why are you being weird about it? 869 00:36:57,061 --> 00:36:59,194 'Cause it's about sex, isn't it? 870 00:36:59,238 --> 00:37:01,327 It is.Thanks. Right. Good night. 871 00:37:01,370 --> 00:37:03,242 [ Clears throat ]♪ I am free 872 00:37:07,289 --> 00:37:10,510 Oh, my God. That smells so good. 873 00:37:10,553 --> 00:37:12,251 We're sharing, right? 874 00:37:12,294 --> 00:37:14,688 Pod together, eat together? Please say yes. 875 00:37:14,731 --> 00:37:17,038 I delivered a baby today. 876 00:37:17,081 --> 00:37:18,082 Is that a yes? Yes! 877 00:37:18,126 --> 00:37:19,562 Oh. Yes, yes. 878 00:37:19,606 --> 00:37:21,303 Wait, weren't we together all day? 879 00:37:21,347 --> 00:37:24,045 What do you mean you delivered a secret baby? 880 00:37:24,088 --> 00:37:26,395 Happened very quick. I went to check on Luna, 881 00:37:26,439 --> 00:37:28,745 and this nurse said that there was an imminent delivery, 882 00:37:28,789 --> 00:37:33,620 and the next second, I was catching a baby. 883 00:37:33,663 --> 00:37:38,320 I was literally the first person in the universe to hold him. 884 00:37:38,364 --> 00:37:40,104 And then I handed him to his parents, 885 00:37:40,148 --> 00:37:43,369 and their faces were just... 886 00:37:43,412 --> 00:37:45,153 No wonder Val's so depressed. 887 00:37:45,196 --> 00:37:48,025 It's the happiest thing I've ever seen. 888 00:37:48,069 --> 00:37:52,595 It was just so pure and simple and perfect. 889 00:37:52,639 --> 00:37:54,162 I was buzzing. 890 00:37:54,205 --> 00:37:56,164 But it was a total random fluke, 891 00:37:56,207 --> 00:37:59,080 and tomorrow, I'll be back to the same depressing crap. 892 00:37:59,123 --> 00:38:02,953 I mean, you did save Val's life today. 893 00:38:02,997 --> 00:38:04,433 You think that's why Carina DeLuca 894 00:38:04,477 --> 00:38:05,869 is always in such a good mood?[ Chuckles ] 895 00:38:05,913 --> 00:38:07,958 She's just, you know, handing out babies, 896 00:38:08,002 --> 00:38:10,396 and it shoots her serotonin level through the roof. 897 00:38:10,439 --> 00:38:14,269 Well, yeah, but doesn't she also have, like, an orgasm hobby? 898 00:38:15,575 --> 00:38:16,924 What if I changed? 899 00:38:16,967 --> 00:38:18,404 Changed what? 900 00:38:18,447 --> 00:38:20,188 Careers. Programs. 901 00:38:20,231 --> 00:38:22,669 [ Chuckles ]Is that insane? 902 00:38:22,712 --> 00:38:24,584 [ Sighs ]Khan did it, and what he did 903 00:38:24,627 --> 00:38:27,500 is so much harder than switching specialties. 904 00:38:27,543 --> 00:38:30,285 He started over with nothing. 905 00:38:30,329 --> 00:38:32,548 And I know -- I know I've put years into surgery, 906 00:38:32,592 --> 00:38:35,508 but if it's not bringing me any joy, 907 00:38:35,551 --> 00:38:40,164 then wouldn't it be insane to notchange? 908 00:38:40,208 --> 00:38:44,255 I think you eat and then sleep before you make any major li-- 909 00:38:44,299 --> 00:38:47,041 Oh, my God. I sound like my mother. 910 00:38:47,084 --> 00:38:49,696 [ Sighs ] I want to be happy. 911 00:38:49,739 --> 00:38:51,437 Everyone's dying. 912 00:38:51,480 --> 00:38:54,091 Meredith's -- 913 00:38:54,135 --> 00:38:57,051 Tomorrow is not promised. 914 00:38:57,094 --> 00:38:58,705 Not in marriage. 915 00:38:58,748 --> 00:39:00,663 Not in life. 916 00:39:00,707 --> 00:39:03,274 I want to be happy. 917 00:39:03,318 --> 00:39:08,367 ♪♪ 918 00:39:08,410 --> 00:39:11,805 She's decompensating. 919 00:39:11,848 --> 00:39:15,548 You should go in. 920 00:39:15,591 --> 00:39:18,681 She barely knows who I am. 921 00:39:18,725 --> 00:39:21,118 And I want to be there for her. 922 00:39:21,162 --> 00:39:24,818 I-I want her husband to be there for her. 923 00:39:24,861 --> 00:39:30,911 She deserves to be surrounded by love and family. 924 00:39:30,954 --> 00:39:33,043 But Dad's in quarantine. 925 00:39:33,087 --> 00:39:36,873 He's high-risk, and I don't want him to expose anyone. 926 00:39:36,917 --> 00:39:39,310 I don't want him to be exposed. 927 00:39:39,354 --> 00:39:42,662 I know this is not what you imagined for your mother. 928 00:39:42,705 --> 00:39:45,795 And I'm sorry about that. 929 00:39:45,839 --> 00:39:49,669 But she needs you now. 930 00:39:49,712 --> 00:39:52,454 It's time. 931 00:39:52,498 --> 00:39:53,673 And if you don't go in, 932 00:39:53,716 --> 00:39:56,719 I promise you will never forgive yourself. 933 00:39:56,763 --> 00:39:58,982 ♪♪ 934 00:39:59,026 --> 00:40:02,029 [ Crying ] I'm scared. 935 00:40:02,072 --> 00:40:03,509 ♪ I've got sunshine 936 00:40:03,552 --> 00:40:06,207 I know. 937 00:40:06,250 --> 00:40:08,252 We'll do it together.♪ On a cloudy day 938 00:40:08,296 --> 00:40:09,993 Bailey: Patients lose their power 939 00:40:10,037 --> 00:40:12,996 when they are referred to as "Bed number 4" 940 00:40:13,040 --> 00:40:15,825 or "arm pain guy."[ Sighs ] 941 00:40:15,869 --> 00:40:16,870 ♪ I've got the month of May 942 00:40:16,913 --> 00:40:19,089 Even in their deaths, 943 00:40:19,133 --> 00:40:21,831 they are not faceless. 944 00:40:21,875 --> 00:40:24,051 They are not nameless. 945 00:40:24,094 --> 00:40:25,095 ♪ I guess you'd say 946 00:40:25,139 --> 00:40:27,620 They are more than statistics. 947 00:40:27,663 --> 00:40:30,449 ♪ What can make me feel this way? ♪ 948 00:40:30,492 --> 00:40:32,538 [ Door closes ] 949 00:40:32,581 --> 00:40:34,322 More than "co-morbid conditions" 950 00:40:34,365 --> 00:40:36,411 or "nursing-home patients." 951 00:40:36,455 --> 00:40:38,457 ♪ My girl 952 00:40:38,500 --> 00:40:41,895 They are sons, brothers, and uncles 953 00:40:41,938 --> 00:40:43,418 who speak five languages 954 00:40:43,462 --> 00:40:47,509 and run restaurants -- Wade Klein, 66. 955 00:40:47,553 --> 00:40:49,076 ♪ My girl 956 00:40:49,119 --> 00:40:52,514 They are great-grandfathers who love Broadway -- 957 00:40:52,558 --> 00:40:55,212 Jacob Lappin, 92. 958 00:40:55,256 --> 00:40:59,826 ♪ I don't need no money 959 00:40:59,869 --> 00:41:04,744 ♪ Fortune or fame 960 00:41:04,787 --> 00:41:07,877 ♪ I got all the riches, baby 961 00:41:07,921 --> 00:41:11,838 They are baseball loving nurses with an easy laugh -- 962 00:41:11,881 --> 00:41:14,101 Dane Wilson, 45. 963 00:41:14,144 --> 00:41:20,194 ♪ I guess you'd say 964 00:41:20,237 --> 00:41:23,414 ♪ What can make me feel 965 00:41:23,458 --> 00:41:26,417 ♪ This way? ♪ This way? 966 00:41:26,461 --> 00:41:30,334 ♪ My girl ♪ My girl 967 00:41:30,378 --> 00:41:35,557 ♪ Talking 'bout my girl ♪ Talking 'bout my girl 968 00:41:35,601 --> 00:41:37,777 ♪♪ 969 00:41:37,820 --> 00:41:39,343 ♪ My girl♪ 970 00:41:39,387 --> 00:41:42,782 It's okay. 971 00:41:42,825 --> 00:41:44,566 Okay.♪ My girl 972 00:41:44,610 --> 00:41:45,872 [ Flatline ] 973 00:41:45,915 --> 00:41:48,744 They are the world's greatest mothers, 974 00:41:48,788 --> 00:41:52,226 and they are the most beloved wives -- 975 00:41:52,269 --> 00:41:56,752 Elena Rose Bailey, 84. 976 00:41:56,796 --> 00:42:00,016 [ Flatline ] 977 00:42:00,060 --> 00:42:02,018 ♪♪ 978 00:42:27,478 --> 00:42:30,438 --Captions by VITAC-- 979 00:42:30,481 --> 00:42:38,577 ♪♪ 980 00:42:38,620 --> 00:42:46,933 ♪♪ 981 00:42:46,976 --> 00:42:55,332 ♪♪ 982 00:43:00,686 --> 00:43:02,557 ♪♪