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This job isn't easy.

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The sheer amount
of pressure and loss

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that we square off against
every day...

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♪ I don't see nothin' comin'

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...can leave you exhausted...

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♪ Maybe they were
all misplaced ♪

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...or helpless.

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You're okay.
You're okay.

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♪ Good news, I could use some

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You're going to need to find
an outlet for the stress.

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♪ One man revolution

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♪ Hallelujah, take me to ya

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♪ 'Cause I'm lost alone again

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♪ Hallelujah, take me to ya Maybe it's physical...

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♪ I don't believe,
but I'll pretend ♪

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...maybe it's emotional...

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♪ Your little runaway
is runnin' out of faith ♪

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Hey, buddy. Hey!

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Hi.
Oh, you're so big.

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Mommy misses
you both so much.

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I love you, Mommy.

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I love you. I miss you.

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...maybe it's family...

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♪ Runnin' out of faith,
so if you can ♪

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...but trust me, you're not
going to survive residency

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unless you have
a happy place...

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♪ 'Cause I'm waitin'

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♪ Hallelujah, take me to ya

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...somewhere that you
can just escape it all.

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♪ 'Cause I'll be waitin'

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I need another ABD.

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Why aren't we there yet?

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We're going as fast as we can
without crashing.

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Uh...

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You need to tell them
it's him so they're ready.

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Okay, Carina, I know you are
scared, but this isn't helping.

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"B."

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"B"?
"B" what, buddy?

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"B" positive.
That's my blood type.

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We'll call ahead
and make sure they know.

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Give me a 4x4.

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Andrea, you are gonna be okay,
Andrea, okay?

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Okay?

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Val Ashton.

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Two days post extended
liver resection.

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LFTs are still elevated.

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Blood cultures are growing
gram-negative bacteria.

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How are you feeling?
Any tenderness or nausea?

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Honestly, I think
I can get out of bed

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and do a couple laps.

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She's still septic.

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Start her on Levophed,
add an antifungal,

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and order a repeat CT.

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You feel like crap, and you're
acting like you don't.

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Why would I--

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So I'll let you out of bed
so you can see Luna.

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I've tried
this your way.

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It isn't working.

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Val, I know that this--

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Please don't say you
know how this feels,

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because I like you,
and I want to keep liking you.

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But unless you've had
a baby that you haven't

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been allowed to hold or even see
in person her whole life,

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you don't know.

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I finally got ahold
of Luna's father.

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He signed over
his parental rights.

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Isn't that
what you wanted?

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Yeah.

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But I expected at least
a little fight.

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Not a text back that says,
"Good luck."

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Baby emoji.

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So, yes,
I feel like crap.

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I feel sick down to my bones
that I made a child

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with someone who doesn't
even care she exists.

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Let's get the sepsis
under control,

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and then we can talk
about seeing Luna.

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They were out of oat milk,
so it's gonna be almond.

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Savages.

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Right?

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Mm.

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Hmm.

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You should eat.

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Coffee first.

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And I don't need a speech
about breakfast

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and nutrients for my brain
because my brain

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is finally turned off.

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I'd like to keep it that way
for as long as possible.

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Want to get
some fresh air?

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We could go for a walk.

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I'm right where
I want to be.

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Maggie, I don't know
if you are asleep

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or if you are ignoring me
or the world entirely, but call.

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Still nothing?

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Uh, she could be passed out
on the floor from COVID,

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and no one would know.

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Or--Or she could be
hit by a car on the I-94

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on the way to Wyoming.

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What's in Wyoming? I don't know.

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But one sister's on a vent
and the other one is missing,

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and the last time a sibling
was missing,

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he was dying on the side
of the road, so--

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Is my mommy
gonna die?

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Uh...

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It's okay.
You can tell me.

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Come on, Zo.
Let's go inside.

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I called up to
the blood bank

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to have type "B" blood
on standby.

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Hopefully,
it's a sign.

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You know,
"be positive"?

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Rig's here.

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Carina, what the hell?

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It's Andrea.
What?

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Stab wound to the abdomen,
possibly into the chest.

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Slightly hypotensive
and tachycardic after

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one liter of NS. What happened?

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He was following
a sex trafficker,

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and she attacked him.

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They got her.
I-I think I'm okay.

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DeLuca, try not to talk.
It's Dr. Hunt.

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You're at Grey-Sloan.
Let's get him to trauma one.

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Let's move.
Schmitt, let's go.

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Owen.
Yeah?

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Please save him.
Please.

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Okay.

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There's fluid in his abdomen
and around his heart.

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How you feeling, DeLuca? Like I got stabbed.

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Chest films are up.

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Okay, let me see.

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DeLuca, you have
a hemothorax.

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I'm gonna have to place
a chest tube, okay?

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Great. Schmitt, hang another unit.

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Here it comes. Ready?

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BP's still dropping.

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Okay,
let's call the O. R.

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Tell them we're on
our way up, okay?

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Hey, I want
to go with him.

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Carina, no.

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Andrea, I want
to come with you.

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Carina, he's right.
Please.

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Okay, ready? We good?

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Oh, God.

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Okay, good.
Let's go. Move.

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Uh, Dr. Webber.

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Um...

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There's a...

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a huge trauma that just
came in, and, um...

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Well, did
Hunt ask for help?

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No. Uh...

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Did he ask you to come
to stare at me?

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It's, uh--

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It's DeLuca.

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He's been stabbed,
and, um, I saw him,

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and I-I wish I hadn't,

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but, um, I did,
and I thought you should know.

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Hey!

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Hey yourself.

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Impressive.

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Your turn.

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Let's see
what you got.

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Okay.

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There you go.

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Just gotta put a little bit
more muscle into it.

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Yeah.

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You know, this isthe first time in my life

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I can ever remembernot feeling competitive.

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Is this your life?

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What?

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Well, you said
the first time in your life,

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but I don't know.

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I'm not so sure.

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Are we alive?

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I think so.

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You look good.

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The beach suits you.

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You too.

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I made Zola
a grilled cheese.

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She's watching a moviewith the other two.

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Did you actually
say anything?

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Ellis interrupted usbefore we got too far.

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Which feels like
divine intervention

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because I have no ideawhat I would say.

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I mean, I can't lie
because...lying.

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And Zola's so smart she'd just
see right through it.

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So you're just gonna keepmaking grilled cheeses?

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Are you just gonna
walk for two hours

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every time
Scout needs to sleep?

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You want to see what
happens when I stop?

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I'm sorry.
I need Maggie.

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Maggie is thoughtful
and levelheaded,

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and I know I have to tell
Zola the truth,

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but I need help knowing how
to tell her the truth.

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She's not picking up.
I have to go get her.

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W-What?
No, you haven't slept.

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You can't stand still.
You're not driving.

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You haven't slept either.

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Okay, deep breaths.

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We'll figure this out.

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Um, I-I'll just call somebody
that can find Maggie.

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Who?

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I don't know.

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Ooh.

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Hey, where's Carina?

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Uh, they headed up
to the chapel.

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Okay, can you tell her
that DeLuca is stable

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and he's on his way
to the O.R.?

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Yeah. Thanks.

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00:10:08,259 --> 00:10:09,826
Who's that?

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Uh, it's the woman
DeLuca was following.

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Detectives
need her photo.

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Why?
You--You know her?

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She was here last night,
and I treated her.

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For what?

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She said she was mugged.
Oh, my God.

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Schmitt, hey, hey. Oh, my God. Is this my fault?

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No, none of
this is your fault.

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Hi.

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What, no gifts?

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At the very least,
some crosswords,

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peanut butter cookies,
contraband porn?

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Kidding.

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I'd trade all thatfor good conversation.

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Okay, if thisis about the nurses,

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they need to calm down.

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We both have COVID.
It was no biggie.

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What are you
talking about?

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I went to see Grey.

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I needed to see some
living scenery.

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You would have loved it--the two of us under blankets,

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it was like
"On COVID Pond."

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It's not funny.

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It's a little funny.

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00:11:05,752 --> 00:11:07,667
We intubated
Meredith, Tom.

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You know, if you everfind yourself thinking about

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cheering up kidsin the cancer ward, don't.

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Sorry. I'm sorry.
I-I just...

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I just needed to be in
a room with someone

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who doesn't hate me.

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Well, no one can
clear a remarkably low bar

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like Tom Koracick.

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Have a seat.

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I don't hate you,
Altman.

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But it would help me
to hear you admit

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that you never
loved me.

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You don't have
to say it now, but...

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You're tired.
We're both sc-scared.

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But it would help me
to hear it sometime soon.

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00:12:06,638 --> 00:12:08,249
Dr. Wilson.
Yeah?

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00:12:08,292 --> 00:12:09,990
I've maxed out Ms. Ashton
on pressors,

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but her MAPS
keep dropping.

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Her repeat CT shows no fluid,which means that

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what's left of her liveris failing.

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Um, start her on
liver dialysis

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and keep me postedif she gets any worse.

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00:12:27,529 --> 00:12:29,705
Luna Ashton's mom
is your patient, right?

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Why?

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00:12:30,837 --> 00:12:32,490
Luna has
a bronchogenic cyst.

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I'd like to get her
into the O. R.

260
00:12:33,840 --> 00:12:35,929
before it causes
respiratory distress.

261
00:12:35,972 --> 00:12:37,495
Thought you might like to
join me to tell her mom.

262
00:12:37,539 --> 00:12:38,453
No.

263
00:12:38,496 --> 00:12:39,976
Okay, suit yourself.

264
00:12:40,020 --> 00:12:41,543
No, I just--I don't want you
to tell her either.

265
00:12:41,586 --> 00:12:42,936
I don't want anyone
to tell her.

266
00:12:42,979 --> 00:12:45,112
I suppose we could
sneak Luna in

267
00:12:45,155 --> 00:12:47,244
and say it was emergent,
that Val was sleeping.

268
00:12:47,288 --> 00:12:48,724
We didn't have time
to ask her.

269
00:12:48,768 --> 00:12:50,813
Really?
No.
What's wrong with you?

270
00:12:50,857 --> 00:12:52,728
She just--She needs some really

271
00:12:52,772 --> 00:12:54,338
not-terrible news
right now.

272
00:12:54,382 --> 00:12:55,731
We all do.

273
00:12:59,126 --> 00:13:01,345
You're gonna do an ex-lap
anda sternotomy?

274
00:13:01,389 --> 00:13:02,651
Is that necessary?

275
00:13:02,694 --> 00:13:04,566
His FAST exam indicates
cardiac injury.

276
00:13:04,609 --> 00:13:06,089
Well,
then I'll scrub in.

277
00:13:06,133 --> 00:13:07,874
Respectfully, Richard,
you haven't operated in months.

278
00:13:07,917 --> 00:13:09,789
I'm not sure that this is
the way to jump back in.

279
00:13:09,832 --> 00:13:11,355
Well, respectfully,
you need the help,

280
00:13:11,399 --> 00:13:13,357
and I'm not about
to wake up Bailey

281
00:13:13,401 --> 00:13:15,316
when she's sleeping
for the first time
since her mother died.

282
00:13:15,359 --> 00:13:16,926
I'm not asking you to.
Get Altman.

283
00:13:16,970 --> 00:13:19,233
Altman's coming off
a 20-hour shift which ended

284
00:13:19,276 --> 00:13:20,843
in putting Meredith Grey
on a vent.

285
00:13:20,887 --> 00:13:22,627
She's in no condition
to operate.

286
00:13:22,671 --> 00:13:25,717
Look,
DeLuca saved my life.

287
00:13:25,761 --> 00:13:27,676
It's only right that
I do the same.

288
00:13:27,719 --> 00:13:31,506
When Teddy and I were in Iraq,
this was our job.

289
00:13:31,549 --> 00:13:33,987
To sew up our own people
when they were broken.

290
00:13:34,030 --> 00:13:35,902
We knew the names of
their kids, their dogs,

291
00:13:35,945 --> 00:13:38,034
what compelled them
to serve their country.

292
00:13:38,078 --> 00:13:40,471
Day after day, they'd go
out there, they'd take shrapnel,

293
00:13:40,515 --> 00:13:42,299
and we would take it out,
we'd sew them back up,

294
00:13:42,343 --> 00:13:44,780
and then we'd send them out
there and do it all over again.

295
00:13:44,824 --> 00:13:46,042
There was no sleep,
no rest,

296
00:13:46,086 --> 00:13:48,392
no time to let the gravity
of it all sink in.

297
00:13:48,436 --> 00:13:50,786
That was the job, Richard.
Not many people can do it.

298
00:13:50,830 --> 00:13:53,745
Altman can.
So, please, get me Altman.

299
00:14:00,796 --> 00:14:02,754
Hey, I got your page,
but DeLuca doesn't need ortho.

300
00:14:02,798 --> 00:14:04,844
Ineeded ortho.

301
00:14:04,887 --> 00:14:06,280
I saw the woman who
did this to DeLuca.

302
00:14:06,323 --> 00:14:07,977
She was here last night.

303
00:14:08,021 --> 00:14:09,805
She said that she was mugged,
but I think that she was lying.

304
00:14:09,849 --> 00:14:11,894
I mean, I-I know
she was lying.

305
00:14:11,938 --> 00:14:14,462
And she was asking
about the kidnappers,

306
00:14:14,505 --> 00:14:16,725
but I didn't put
the pieces together.

307
00:14:16,768 --> 00:14:18,248
And I don't know
if I could have,

308
00:14:18,292 --> 00:14:21,338
but I still feel like
I should have.

309
00:14:21,382 --> 00:14:23,732
Which is crazy, right?

310
00:14:23,775 --> 00:14:25,908
I-I-I just need to focus
on DeLuca's surgery.

311
00:14:25,952 --> 00:14:28,041
No, you can't scrub in.

312
00:14:28,084 --> 00:14:30,260
This was
a pep-talk page.

313
00:14:30,304 --> 00:14:32,872
Okay, then, switch services.
You can do it. Come on.

314
00:14:32,915 --> 00:14:35,352
I want to help.

315
00:14:35,396 --> 00:14:38,181
Then make sure DeLuca gets
a surgeon that's not a wreck.

316
00:14:38,225 --> 00:14:41,271
Said with love, in case you
couldn't tell behind the mask.

317
00:14:44,274 --> 00:14:46,886
It's a small piece
of abnormal lung growth

318
00:14:46,929 --> 00:14:49,062
that I need to remove
so she can breathe normally.

319
00:14:49,105 --> 00:14:50,933
And then it'll be my turn
for another surgery.

320
00:14:50,977 --> 00:14:52,326
And then hers.

321
00:14:52,369 --> 00:14:54,241
And then maybe I'll go twice
so you keep me guessing.

322
00:14:54,284 --> 00:14:56,591
I know it sounds scary,
but Dr. Hayes has done

323
00:14:56,634 --> 00:14:58,898
this surgery
countless times.

324
00:15:00,682 --> 00:15:03,772
Has anyone even held her
since she was born?

325
00:15:03,815 --> 00:15:05,905
Well, she has to
stay in the incubator

326
00:15:05,948 --> 00:15:07,254
for her own safety,
I'm afraid.

327
00:15:07,297 --> 00:15:08,864
That's not right.

328
00:15:08,908 --> 00:15:11,301
She is helpless,
and she is scared.

329
00:15:11,345 --> 00:15:14,478
Babies aren't supposed to live
in a plastic container.

330
00:15:16,393 --> 00:15:19,092
You're right, Val.
You're right.

331
00:15:19,135 --> 00:15:21,094
You need to see her.
It's not right that you haven't.

332
00:15:21,137 --> 00:15:22,530
Wilson.

333
00:15:22,573 --> 00:15:24,097
I'll bring her to you before
she goes into surgery.

334
00:15:24,140 --> 00:15:25,925
Thank you.

335
00:15:25,968 --> 00:15:28,275
Thank you so much.

336
00:15:28,318 --> 00:15:30,407
Wilson.

337
00:15:33,889 --> 00:15:34,934
Webber paged.

338
00:15:34,977 --> 00:15:37,153
Yeah, for me.
DeLuca got stabbed.

339
00:15:37,197 --> 00:15:39,460
He has a massive hemothorax
and blood in the pericardium.

340
00:15:39,503 --> 00:15:40,940
Sternotomy tray? And Balfour.

341
00:15:40,983 --> 00:15:42,550
We treated a kid in Jordan
who had shrapnel

342
00:15:42,593 --> 00:15:43,812
in the same area.

343
00:15:43,855 --> 00:15:45,466
Right.
Texas Hold 'Em guy.

344
00:15:45,509 --> 00:15:47,120
And we sent him home
in one piece.

345
00:15:47,163 --> 00:15:49,035
Alright,
let's do it again.

346
00:15:49,078 --> 00:15:50,993
Yep.

347
00:15:53,430 --> 00:15:54,997
Ready?

348
00:15:55,041 --> 00:15:56,651
Okay, Schmitt,
let's call the blood bank,

349
00:15:56,694 --> 00:15:58,392
make sure there's more coming,
and you can scrub in.

350
00:15:58,435 --> 00:15:59,741
Khan, not Schmitt.

351
00:15:59,784 --> 00:16:01,525
Dr. Schmitt said he needed
to switch services.

352
00:16:01,569 --> 00:16:04,267
I assume because of my time in
Pakistan as a vascular surgeon.

353
00:16:04,311 --> 00:16:05,616
Excellent call,
Schmitt.

354
00:16:05,660 --> 00:16:07,401
Alright, you'll assist me
with the sternotomy

355
00:16:07,444 --> 00:16:09,359
while Dr. Hunt explores
the abdomen.

356
00:16:09,403 --> 00:16:10,404
We're gonna go fast.

357
00:16:10,447 --> 00:16:11,709
Understood.

358
00:16:11,753 --> 00:16:13,755
Okay, then.

359
00:16:13,798 --> 00:16:14,930
Scalpel.

360
00:16:14,974 --> 00:16:20,762
♪ I hear the thunder
calling me ♪

361
00:16:23,983 --> 00:16:26,855
♪ I see the skies

362
00:16:26,898 --> 00:16:29,640
♪ They gently weep

363
00:16:29,684 --> 00:16:32,252
Warren got called to
a four-alarm downtown.

364
00:16:32,295 --> 00:16:34,863
Do you have to go?

365
00:16:34,906 --> 00:16:36,734
Carina,
I'm not going anywhere.

366
00:16:38,780 --> 00:16:41,217
Hey, hey.

367
00:16:41,261 --> 00:16:43,915
♪ I hope when I close my eyes

368
00:16:45,265 --> 00:16:48,442
♪ That beauty will find me

369
00:16:48,485 --> 00:16:53,577
Before she died, Mama called us
two halves of one whole.

370
00:16:53,621 --> 00:16:54,709
♪ Will there be someone...

371
00:16:54,752 --> 00:16:57,625
It loses something
in translation.

372
00:16:57,668 --> 00:17:01,411
My dad, he thought
we were completely different,

373
00:17:01,455 --> 00:17:07,896
but my mom knew that we couldn't
breathe without the other.

374
00:17:07,939 --> 00:17:11,987
One year, when Dad was
too manic to talk sense to,

375
00:17:12,031 --> 00:17:14,946
he, um, spent all
our Christmas money

376
00:17:14,990 --> 00:17:17,775
on stuff he didn't need,
but Mom saved up,

377
00:17:17,819 --> 00:17:20,909
and she surprised us
with one gift.

378
00:17:20,952 --> 00:17:22,998
A pair
of roller skates.

379
00:17:23,042 --> 00:17:25,174
Andrea tried to
give them to me,

380
00:17:25,218 --> 00:17:28,438
but I-I put on the left
and he put on the right,

381
00:17:28,482 --> 00:17:33,356
and we held the other
two legs up like flamingos

382
00:17:33,400 --> 00:17:37,578
and skated
around the house.

383
00:17:37,621 --> 00:17:39,536
♪ That beauty will find me

384
00:17:39,580 --> 00:17:42,757
Two parts, one whole.

385
00:17:42,800 --> 00:17:45,542
♪ I've seen fire
and ashes fall ♪

386
00:17:45,586 --> 00:17:47,631
♪ Will there be someone
to save my soul? ♪

387
00:17:47,675 --> 00:17:49,155
Looks like the knife went
through the pericardium

388
00:17:49,198 --> 00:17:50,460
and just nicked
the ventricle.

389
00:17:50,504 --> 00:17:53,246
You can repair the ventricle
with 3-0 prolene.

390
00:17:53,289 --> 00:17:54,203
Altman?

391
00:17:54,247 --> 00:17:55,117
Yeah, he's right.
I'm on it.

392
00:17:55,161 --> 00:17:56,510
Okay, get in there.

393
00:17:56,553 --> 00:17:57,728
Right,
3-0 large taper needle.

394
00:17:57,772 --> 00:17:59,817
Damn it.
Looks like it's gone through

395
00:17:59,861 --> 00:18:01,950
his spleen, his stomach,
andhis diaphragm.

396
00:18:01,993 --> 00:18:03,038
We're gonna have to
remove his spleen

397
00:18:03,082 --> 00:18:05,127
and check for
intestinal injuries.

398
00:18:05,171 --> 00:18:07,086
Dr. Knox, how many units
has he received so far?

399
00:18:07,129 --> 00:18:09,175
Six units of blood,
six of FFP.

400
00:18:09,218 --> 00:18:11,742
Alright, run a TEG to check
for his clotting factors.

401
00:18:12,656 --> 00:18:14,093
You good?

402
00:18:14,136 --> 00:18:15,137
Yep.

403
00:18:15,181 --> 00:18:16,356
Bovie.

404
00:18:16,399 --> 00:18:18,488
♪ Pulls me in and tears me up

405
00:18:19,881 --> 00:18:23,319
Please don't take this boy. ♪ I hope when I close my eyes

406
00:18:23,363 --> 00:18:27,454
♪ That beauty will find me Please don't take this boy.

407
00:18:35,026 --> 00:18:36,115
Mm.

408
00:18:39,596 --> 00:18:41,207
Mm.

409
00:18:44,949 --> 00:18:46,255
Okay.

410
00:18:46,299 --> 00:18:48,475
Comedy or drama?

411
00:18:49,780 --> 00:18:52,392
C-SPAN?

412
00:18:53,915 --> 00:18:56,004
Listen, there's something
really soothing about

413
00:18:56,047 --> 00:18:58,789
the whole scrolling
at the bottom.

414
00:18:58,833 --> 00:19:00,704
It's like this endless
potential of information.

415
00:19:00,748 --> 00:19:01,879
You're gonna make me read
that to you

416
00:19:01,923 --> 00:19:04,099
when we're 80,
aren't you?

417
00:19:04,143 --> 00:19:06,188
I mean--
I didn't mean...

418
00:19:06,232 --> 00:19:08,364
Yeah, you did.

419
00:19:08,408 --> 00:19:11,106
You did mean it.

420
00:19:12,977 --> 00:19:14,196
Okay.

421
00:19:15,850 --> 00:19:18,069
Did you order
more champagne?

422
00:19:18,113 --> 00:19:19,636
No.

423
00:19:19,680 --> 00:19:21,769
Hold on.
I'll get rid of them.

424
00:19:24,163 --> 00:19:26,034
We're coming.

425
00:19:27,078 --> 00:19:28,384
Yeah, we're coming.

426
00:19:33,781 --> 00:19:35,435
Hey, uh,
can I help you?

427
00:19:35,478 --> 00:19:38,089
Oh, sorry.
Wrong--Wrong room.

428
00:19:38,133 --> 00:19:40,048
Jackson?

429
00:19:40,091 --> 00:19:42,311
Oh, um, this is--
Okay, it's the right room.

430
00:19:42,355 --> 00:19:43,921
Why are you here?

431
00:19:43,965 --> 00:19:45,619
Link called me.
You need to come home.

432
00:19:53,801 --> 00:19:55,150
How are we, Knox?

433
00:19:55,194 --> 00:19:56,238
Just hung
another two units.

434
00:19:56,282 --> 00:19:57,500
Blood pressure's
starting to come up.

435
00:19:57,544 --> 00:19:58,762
Just a few more sutures. Nice repair.

436
00:19:58,806 --> 00:20:00,024
I don't see any leak.

437
00:20:00,068 --> 00:20:01,330
I'm just gonna run
this bowel one more time,

438
00:20:01,374 --> 00:20:02,984
and then I am good
to go down here.

439
00:20:03,027 --> 00:20:05,943
Alright, I just need
to place the drain,

440
00:20:05,987 --> 00:20:09,469
and then we are good
to start the wire closure.

441
00:20:09,512 --> 00:20:10,731
Great work, everyone.

442
00:20:18,608 --> 00:20:19,566
When was
everyone tested?

443
00:20:19,609 --> 00:20:20,828
Last night.
Yesterday.

444
00:20:20,871 --> 00:20:22,438
This morning. Alright, come on in.

445
00:20:22,482 --> 00:20:25,224
Amelia's in her room, and, uh,
please keep it down.

446
00:20:25,267 --> 00:20:27,878
This guy
just went to sleep.

447
00:20:31,752 --> 00:20:33,232
Anybody want a beer?

448
00:20:33,275 --> 00:20:34,581
I'm good. It's pretty early.

449
00:20:34,624 --> 00:20:35,669
Okay, I'll get some.

450
00:20:48,943 --> 00:20:50,379
The wound was more
severe than we'd hoped,

451
00:20:50,423 --> 00:20:51,598
but he's pulled through.

452
00:20:51,641 --> 00:20:52,990
Oh, my God.

453
00:20:53,034 --> 00:20:54,383
He's alive.
Your brother's alive.

454
00:20:54,427 --> 00:20:55,906
Oh, my God!

455
00:20:55,950 --> 00:20:58,300
Oh, it hurts not to hug you
right now.

456
00:20:58,344 --> 00:20:59,954
Hey, look at them
while you hug me.

457
00:21:03,262 --> 00:21:04,828
Thank you.

458
00:21:06,917 --> 00:21:09,355
Thank you for getting me
to help.

459
00:21:09,398 --> 00:21:10,312
Yeah,
don't read into it.

460
00:21:10,356 --> 00:21:11,835
I owed it to DeLuca.

461
00:21:11,879 --> 00:21:13,097
And if there was someone else
I could've called,

462
00:21:13,141 --> 00:21:14,142
I would've.

463
00:21:21,192 --> 00:21:22,803
I said no
and I meant it.

464
00:21:22,846 --> 00:21:24,848
I do not take preemies
on joyrides.

465
00:21:24,892 --> 00:21:26,850
You're already moving her.
This is just adding a stop.

466
00:21:26,894 --> 00:21:28,852
Plus, I told Val
we would make it happen.

467
00:21:28,896 --> 00:21:30,376
Without consulting me
first.

468
00:21:30,419 --> 00:21:32,160
It's out of the question.

469
00:21:32,203 --> 00:21:33,553
Get out of my way,
Wilson.

470
00:21:33,596 --> 00:21:35,424
Were you nice
before your wife died?

471
00:21:35,468 --> 00:21:36,556
Excuse me?

472
00:21:36,599 --> 00:21:37,774
I'm just curious.

473
00:21:37,818 --> 00:21:39,559
You know, I lost the love
of my life.

474
00:21:39,602 --> 00:21:41,648
He didn't die,
but he might as well have,

475
00:21:41,691 --> 00:21:44,564
and I was sad and angry
and confused,

476
00:21:44,607 --> 00:21:45,913
but I still cared
about other people.

477
00:21:45,956 --> 00:21:47,523
In fact, I think
it made me care more.

478
00:21:47,567 --> 00:21:48,959
I'm looking out
for my patient.

479
00:21:49,003 --> 00:21:50,309
You know
this won't jeopardize Luna.

480
00:21:50,352 --> 00:21:51,962
Grey was laughing
and joking,

481
00:21:52,006 --> 00:21:53,747
and a few hours later
she's on a vent.

482
00:21:53,790 --> 00:21:55,749
This is not the time to play
fast and loose with rules

483
00:21:55,792 --> 00:21:57,054
that keep
our patients safe.

484
00:21:57,098 --> 00:21:59,187
If it was Meredith Grey
asking to see her child,

485
00:21:59,230 --> 00:22:00,754
would you say
the same thing?

486
00:22:04,061 --> 00:22:06,716
Five minutes,
not a second longer.

487
00:22:14,333 --> 00:22:15,421
Ah. Ah.

488
00:22:18,206 --> 00:22:21,818
ABG's the same
as this morning,

489
00:22:21,862 --> 00:22:24,299
but no fever
and labs are decent.

490
00:22:24,343 --> 00:22:26,823
DeLuca's awake.

491
00:22:26,867 --> 00:22:28,738
Does Bailey know? She's still sleeping,

492
00:22:28,782 --> 00:22:31,524
but, uh,
I'll tell her in a bit.

493
00:22:31,567 --> 00:22:33,352
That was a great save,
Altman.

494
00:22:33,395 --> 00:22:35,310
Thank you.

495
00:22:35,354 --> 00:22:38,574
I'm gonna go check
on my other patients.

496
00:22:38,618 --> 00:22:42,883
♪ I've been here all day

497
00:22:42,926 --> 00:22:46,408
♪ It's too hot to sleep

498
00:22:46,452 --> 00:22:48,323
♪ Time is running away

499
00:22:48,367 --> 00:22:49,672
I don't regret it.

500
00:22:49,716 --> 00:22:51,239
How did you know
I was wondering that?

501
00:22:51,282 --> 00:22:52,458
I don't know.

502
00:22:52,501 --> 00:22:54,677
I just did.

503
00:22:54,721 --> 00:22:56,853
I don't regret it.

504
00:22:56,897 --> 00:22:58,159
You know, we walk through
our lives

505
00:22:58,202 --> 00:22:59,813
and we witness
atrocities.

506
00:22:59,856 --> 00:23:01,858
See homeless people
on the street asking for help

507
00:23:01,902 --> 00:23:04,383
and we just walk
right past them.

508
00:23:04,426 --> 00:23:06,776
See people that can't pay
for medicine for their children,

509
00:23:06,820 --> 00:23:08,256
see people beating
their kids,

510
00:23:08,299 --> 00:23:09,997
and we just say, "Well,
it's none of our business."

511
00:23:10,040 --> 00:23:12,478
See atrocities on the news
every day.

512
00:23:12,521 --> 00:23:14,784
Crimes and cruelties committed
by our government,

513
00:23:14,828 --> 00:23:17,526
paid for, nonetheless,
by our own tax dollars.

514
00:23:19,310 --> 00:23:20,747
And what do we do? We just
change the channel, right?

515
00:23:20,790 --> 00:23:23,837
We just--
We tune it out.

516
00:23:23,880 --> 00:23:25,926
Then we go back to work and we
pretend like what we just saw,

517
00:23:25,969 --> 00:23:29,886
or that article we just read was
somehow normal or acceptable,

518
00:23:29,930 --> 00:23:31,584
and the people
who take to the streets

519
00:23:31,627 --> 00:23:33,716
screaming out for change,

520
00:23:33,760 --> 00:23:34,891
they're written off
as crazy,

521
00:23:34,935 --> 00:23:37,111
they're written off
as extreme.

522
00:23:37,154 --> 00:23:39,113
Doesn't make any sense.

523
00:23:39,156 --> 00:23:40,897
Makes no sense.

524
00:23:40,941 --> 00:23:42,638
But what you did,
Meredith,

525
00:23:42,682 --> 00:23:44,771
risking your medical license
to save that little girl--

526
00:23:44,814 --> 00:23:45,989
that made sense.

527
00:23:46,033 --> 00:23:47,251
And what I did--
following that woman,

528
00:23:47,295 --> 00:23:48,514
not letting up,
not letting her get away,

529
00:23:48,557 --> 00:23:52,169
not letting her harm
another single human being.

530
00:23:52,213 --> 00:23:55,303
Yeah, it was dangerous,
but it made sense.

531
00:23:55,346 --> 00:23:59,220
It's the only thing
that made sense.

532
00:23:59,263 --> 00:24:00,743
So I don't regret it.

533
00:24:03,093 --> 00:24:06,009
♪ But I'm standing still

534
00:24:06,053 --> 00:24:07,663
He suffered
a lot of bleeding,

535
00:24:07,707 --> 00:24:09,056
but his vitals
are stable.

536
00:24:09,099 --> 00:24:10,405
Oh, Andrea.

537
00:24:10,449 --> 00:24:13,060
♪ Is so vacant and numb

538
00:24:13,103 --> 00:24:14,583
Hey, hey.

539
00:24:14,627 --> 00:24:16,367
♪ I can't even remember
what it was ♪

540
00:24:16,411 --> 00:24:17,891
Hey.

541
00:24:17,934 --> 00:24:21,503
Easy, easy,
don't try to talk.

542
00:24:21,547 --> 00:24:23,287
You did it.
It's over.

543
00:24:23,331 --> 00:24:24,463
They arrested the woman,

544
00:24:24,506 --> 00:24:25,942
they arrested
the man who stabbed you.

545
00:24:25,986 --> 00:24:28,031
You saved so many children,
Andrea.

546
00:24:32,471 --> 00:24:34,560
Now, blink once
for morphine

547
00:24:34,603 --> 00:24:37,084
and twice for "I'm a dummy
who will never ignore

548
00:24:37,127 --> 00:24:38,738
his sister ever again."

549
00:24:38,781 --> 00:24:40,261
♪ Is more than I can bear

550
00:24:44,439 --> 00:24:47,747
♪ It's not dark yet

551
00:24:47,790 --> 00:24:48,704
♪ But it's getting there

552
00:24:59,019 --> 00:25:02,457
What was the surgery?
I want details.

553
00:25:04,851 --> 00:25:07,549
It was a trauma.
It went well.

554
00:25:07,593 --> 00:25:10,813
Your oxygen saturation's
gone up.

555
00:25:10,857 --> 00:25:12,815
That's encouraging.

556
00:25:19,822 --> 00:25:21,302
I did love you,

557
00:25:21,345 --> 00:25:23,173
even though I tried so hard
not to love you

558
00:25:23,217 --> 00:25:25,045
because
I also loved Owen.

559
00:25:25,088 --> 00:25:27,264
I think I thought
that I could love you both,

560
00:25:27,308 --> 00:25:29,440
but instead, I just--
I tore it all to the ground

561
00:25:29,484 --> 00:25:31,399
and took you both
with me.

562
00:25:31,442 --> 00:25:34,707
Wow.

563
00:25:34,750 --> 00:25:37,623
I asked you for one thing,
Altman.

564
00:25:37,666 --> 00:25:39,538
You asked me
for the truth.

565
00:25:39,581 --> 00:25:40,843
No, no.
I didn't ask you for that

566
00:25:40,887 --> 00:25:43,150
because the truth
is relative.

567
00:25:43,193 --> 00:25:45,021
You got yourself convinced
that you loved us both,

568
00:25:45,065 --> 00:25:47,241
but empirical evidence
would suggest otherwise.

569
00:25:47,284 --> 00:25:48,372
Empirical? I--

570
00:25:48,416 --> 00:25:50,244
He doesn't want you.

571
00:25:54,248 --> 00:25:55,597
You're right, you dragged us
both to the ground,

572
00:25:55,641 --> 00:25:56,729
but he doesn't want anything
to do with you

573
00:25:56,772 --> 00:25:58,121
and I'm still here
sitting in the dust.

574
00:25:58,165 --> 00:26:01,864
If you loved me, Teddy,
we'd be together

575
00:26:01,908 --> 00:26:06,869
instead of...together
in our misery.

576
00:26:06,913 --> 00:26:10,525
Empirical evidence.

577
00:26:10,569 --> 00:26:13,310
I asked you to admit
you never loved me

578
00:26:13,354 --> 00:26:16,792
because...

579
00:26:16,836 --> 00:26:19,534
I need it.

580
00:26:19,578 --> 00:26:23,582
If I survive
this thing...

581
00:26:26,280 --> 00:26:28,151
...I want to get up off the
ground where you dropped me,

582
00:26:28,195 --> 00:26:29,283
so...

583
00:26:32,155 --> 00:26:34,070
...I need it.

584
00:26:45,081 --> 00:26:46,866
I never loved you,
Tom.

585
00:26:52,828 --> 00:26:54,221
Thank you.

586
00:26:57,703 --> 00:27:00,227
You want to sit, or...

587
00:27:00,270 --> 00:27:02,142
Oh,
the second I stop,

588
00:27:02,185 --> 00:27:04,100
Scout starts wailing
like a human ambulance.

589
00:27:04,144 --> 00:27:05,188
As you were.

590
00:27:05,232 --> 00:27:07,408
And Scout needs me
to keep moving.

591
00:27:07,451 --> 00:27:11,064
Zola, Bailey, Ellis--
they need us to keep on moving,

592
00:27:11,107 --> 00:27:12,848
playing songs
and eating.

593
00:27:12,892 --> 00:27:14,067
They eat so much.

594
00:27:14,110 --> 00:27:15,808
So I just keep
going to the grocery store

595
00:27:15,851 --> 00:27:18,462
and buying food
that Amelia keeps pretending

596
00:27:18,506 --> 00:27:19,725
she knows how to cook,

597
00:27:19,768 --> 00:27:21,770
and what if Meredith
doesn't survive this,

598
00:27:21,814 --> 00:27:24,599
you know what it's gonna do
to my life?

599
00:27:24,643 --> 00:27:27,384
Yeah, you just said that
out loud.

600
00:27:27,428 --> 00:27:28,472
Don't worry about it,
we're all scared.

601
00:27:28,516 --> 00:27:29,735
No one's judging you.

602
00:27:29,778 --> 00:27:31,171
I'm a little bit judging,

603
00:27:31,214 --> 00:27:33,477
but that's 'cause I've only
known you seven minutes.

604
00:27:33,521 --> 00:27:36,785
I'm on my knees every night
praying that she survives this,

605
00:27:36,829 --> 00:27:38,700
and I'm not an
on-my-knees-praying kind of guy.

606
00:27:38,744 --> 00:27:40,310
I get it. I'm not praying for myself.

607
00:27:40,354 --> 00:27:42,443
You're human, Link.
Give yourself a break, alright?

608
00:27:42,486 --> 00:27:43,792
You're exhausted.

609
00:27:43,836 --> 00:27:46,229
Meredith is--
she's family to me.

610
00:27:46,273 --> 00:27:49,276
I mean,
Meredith is family.

611
00:27:49,319 --> 00:27:53,019
I can think of a million reasons
I don't want her to...die.

612
00:27:53,062 --> 00:27:54,934
Some of them are about her,
some are about me,

613
00:27:54,977 --> 00:27:56,675
some are about
the world at large.

614
00:27:56,718 --> 00:27:58,372
Point is, you're allowed
to have your reasons.

615
00:27:58,415 --> 00:28:00,069
They don't all have
to be selfless.

616
00:28:00,113 --> 00:28:03,072
I just...

617
00:28:03,116 --> 00:28:05,335
I mean, those kids already lost
their dad.

618
00:28:05,379 --> 00:28:09,775
I don't want them to have
to grow up without a mom, too.

619
00:28:09,818 --> 00:28:10,906
And all we can do
is just--

620
00:28:10,950 --> 00:28:11,951
Keep moving.

621
00:28:11,994 --> 00:28:13,517
Yeah.

622
00:28:13,561 --> 00:28:14,910
I mean,
literally keep moving,

623
00:28:14,954 --> 00:28:16,303
'cause human ambulance.

624
00:28:16,346 --> 00:28:17,957
Yeah.

625
00:28:18,000 --> 00:28:19,654
You know,
you're pretty good at this.

626
00:28:19,698 --> 00:28:21,177
The whole
"keep somebody calm

627
00:28:21,221 --> 00:28:24,180
you've only known seven minutes"
thing.

628
00:28:24,224 --> 00:28:26,922
Well, to be fair, it's been more
like eight minutes now.

629
00:28:26,966 --> 00:28:28,445
It's true.

630
00:28:28,489 --> 00:28:30,534
And, Jackson, thank you
for getting Maggie over here.

631
00:28:30,578 --> 00:28:32,232
I-I-I'm sorry
if that was awkward.

632
00:28:32,275 --> 00:28:33,799
You were the only one
picking up. No, it's fine.

633
00:28:33,842 --> 00:28:36,192
Why would it be awkward?

634
00:28:39,326 --> 00:28:42,024
Uh, just...

635
00:28:42,068 --> 00:28:43,678
Yeah.

636
00:28:43,722 --> 00:28:46,333
Okay, you're, uh--
you're her ex, aren't you?

637
00:28:46,376 --> 00:28:48,161
Mm.
Another round?

638
00:28:48,204 --> 00:28:49,379
Yeah.

639
00:28:54,645 --> 00:28:58,780
I was Zola and Bailey
and Ellis.

640
00:28:58,824 --> 00:29:00,608
I was the kid
who lost a parent

641
00:29:00,651 --> 00:29:03,785
and the world
turned upside down.

642
00:29:03,829 --> 00:29:06,222
And I don't know...

643
00:29:06,266 --> 00:29:09,138
if I hadn't been there to see
my dad dead on the ground,

644
00:29:09,182 --> 00:29:11,706
how long they would've waited
to tell me.

645
00:29:15,101 --> 00:29:16,885
Nobody talked about it.

646
00:29:18,626 --> 00:29:22,848
I didn't expect answers,
but...

647
00:29:22,891 --> 00:29:25,285
there wasn't room
for questions.

648
00:29:25,328 --> 00:29:29,811
Just...silence.

649
00:29:29,855 --> 00:29:34,033
Meredith told the kids
about Derek.

650
00:29:34,076 --> 00:29:35,382
We can do this
for her.

651
00:29:35,425 --> 00:29:37,601
She deserves us

652
00:29:37,645 --> 00:29:40,387
stepping up.

653
00:29:40,430 --> 00:29:43,520
And the kids do, too.

654
00:29:43,564 --> 00:29:45,696
Can we just stay here
a little longer?

655
00:29:54,618 --> 00:29:57,099
Your mom is gonna freak out
when she sees you.

656
00:29:57,143 --> 00:29:58,927
Yes, she is.

657
00:29:58,971 --> 00:30:01,277
Code blue, code blue.

658
00:30:01,321 --> 00:30:02,322
Code blue.

659
00:30:02,365 --> 00:30:03,671
Val's coding! Hurry!

660
00:30:03,714 --> 00:30:04,846
No.

661
00:30:04,890 --> 00:30:06,239
No, no, no.

662
00:30:09,285 --> 00:30:11,635
Hey.

663
00:30:11,679 --> 00:30:13,768
Comfortable?

664
00:30:13,812 --> 00:30:15,204
Well, your sister just went
to get coffee,

665
00:30:15,248 --> 00:30:17,380
but she left
strict instructions.

666
00:30:17,424 --> 00:30:19,078
No car chases, okay?

667
00:30:24,605 --> 00:30:26,172
Okay.

668
00:30:28,043 --> 00:30:31,264
He's tachycardic
and his CVP's going up.

669
00:30:31,307 --> 00:30:32,439
Code blue, code blue.

670
00:30:32,482 --> 00:30:33,919
Must be cardiac tamponade.

671
00:30:33,962 --> 00:30:35,137
We're gonna have
to open him back up again.

672
00:30:35,181 --> 00:30:36,922
Let's get a scalpel
and order more blood.

673
00:30:36,965 --> 00:30:39,228
Code blue, code blue.

674
00:30:39,272 --> 00:30:41,883
DeLuca? DeLuca, we're gonna have
to open you back up, okay?

675
00:30:41,927 --> 00:30:43,493
But I am with you,
okay?

676
00:30:43,537 --> 00:30:44,886
I got you, okay?

677
00:30:44,930 --> 00:30:46,714
Come on.
Staple remover.

678
00:30:46,757 --> 00:30:49,369
Thank you.

679
00:30:49,412 --> 00:30:51,632
Come on, come on, come on,
come on.

680
00:30:53,460 --> 00:30:56,419
Okay, wire cutters.

681
00:30:56,463 --> 00:30:57,507
Okay.

682
00:31:00,119 --> 00:31:01,381
Good, let's go.

683
00:31:01,424 --> 00:31:03,165
One, two, three.

684
00:31:07,648 --> 00:31:09,868
Somebody page Altman and have
her meet me in the O.R.!

685
00:31:19,399 --> 00:31:21,053
Call for more blood.

686
00:31:21,096 --> 00:31:23,794
Start the massive
transfusion protocol.

687
00:31:23,838 --> 00:31:25,796
♪ Black water fills the room
all around me ♪Almost there, DeLuca, okay?

688
00:31:25,840 --> 00:31:27,537
Let's go, let's go!

689
00:31:27,581 --> 00:31:29,235
Charge to 150.
Clear.

690
00:31:30,671 --> 00:31:31,846
Come on, Val!

691
00:31:31,890 --> 00:31:34,240
You're so close
to seeing your baby girl.

692
00:31:34,283 --> 00:31:36,198
Charged to 200.

693
00:31:36,242 --> 00:31:36,982
Clear.

694
00:31:39,810 --> 00:31:42,291
♪ My fingers turning red

695
00:31:42,335 --> 00:31:43,423
What happened?

696
00:31:43,466 --> 00:31:44,903
He went into DIC.
He's bleeding out.

697
00:31:44,946 --> 00:31:45,947
Push TXA--

698
00:31:45,991 --> 00:31:47,122
I already have.

699
00:31:47,166 --> 00:31:48,080
Push more.

700
00:31:48,123 --> 00:31:49,168
I'm gonna need a ton
of lap pads.

701
00:31:49,211 --> 00:31:50,169
Let me in.

702
00:31:52,040 --> 00:31:56,088
♪ I can feel it
slowly caving in ♪

703
00:31:56,131 --> 00:32:00,483
♪ I can feel it

704
00:32:00,527 --> 00:32:02,833
♪ I can feel it

705
00:32:03,922 --> 00:32:05,140
He's crashing.

706
00:32:05,184 --> 00:32:08,970
Starting
cardiac massage.

707
00:32:09,014 --> 00:32:11,799
♪ I can feel it

708
00:32:11,842 --> 00:32:13,583
Charge to 270.

709
00:32:13,627 --> 00:32:15,194
I think it's too late.

710
00:32:15,237 --> 00:32:16,586
Clear.

711
00:32:21,678 --> 00:32:24,899
♪ I can barely feel
my heart beat ♪

712
00:32:24,943 --> 00:32:28,555
So, this morning they put
your mom on a ventilator.

713
00:32:28,598 --> 00:32:31,123
That's the machine
that breathes for her.

714
00:32:31,166 --> 00:32:32,298
Yes.

715
00:32:32,341 --> 00:32:33,995
When will they take her
off of it?

716
00:32:34,039 --> 00:32:36,650
Different people come off of it
at different times.

717
00:32:38,782 --> 00:32:41,133
My dad never did.

718
00:32:41,176 --> 00:32:42,699
Do you think
my mom will?

719
00:32:46,138 --> 00:32:47,704
We hope so.

720
00:32:47,748 --> 00:32:49,489
But we don't know.

721
00:32:49,532 --> 00:32:51,447
We just--

722
00:32:51,491 --> 00:32:52,840
We don't know.

723
00:32:56,844 --> 00:33:00,413
We shouldn't tell Bailey
and Ellis.

724
00:33:00,456 --> 00:33:03,024
Not unless we need to.

725
00:33:03,068 --> 00:33:05,287
They're just too young
to understand.

726
00:33:05,331 --> 00:33:07,420
Okay.
We'll wait.

727
00:33:40,583 --> 00:33:42,063
No respiratory distress,

728
00:33:42,107 --> 00:33:44,065
chest tube's barely
putting out anything.

729
00:33:44,109 --> 00:33:45,458
Thank you.

730
00:33:45,501 --> 00:33:46,633
She's a trouper.

731
00:33:46,676 --> 00:33:48,983
She's gonna need to be.

732
00:33:49,027 --> 00:33:50,637
No.

733
00:33:50,680 --> 00:33:53,074
I ran the code
for an hour.

734
00:34:00,038 --> 00:34:00,995
You know...

735
00:34:02,170 --> 00:34:05,565
I was nicer...

736
00:34:05,608 --> 00:34:07,784
before Abigail died.

737
00:34:07,828 --> 00:34:11,353
I was a great deal many things,
most of them better.

738
00:34:11,397 --> 00:34:12,659
I'm sorry,
I never should've--

739
00:34:12,702 --> 00:34:15,618
Oh, it was kind
what you wanted to do, it was.

740
00:34:15,662 --> 00:34:17,490
I'm so sorry.

741
00:34:17,533 --> 00:34:19,970
Me too.

742
00:35:08,236 --> 00:35:09,629
Val is dead.

743
00:35:09,672 --> 00:35:12,588
I heard.

744
00:35:12,632 --> 00:35:14,982
I'm sorry.

745
00:35:15,025 --> 00:35:17,376
DeLuca was okay
and now he might not be.

746
00:35:24,426 --> 00:35:27,125
I spent so many years
pretending to be someone else.

747
00:35:29,083 --> 00:35:31,651
So many years afraid
of what my mother thought,

748
00:35:31,694 --> 00:35:33,392
neighbors thought,
what I thought.

749
00:35:37,135 --> 00:35:40,181
I wasted so much time.

750
00:35:40,225 --> 00:35:45,012
And now we're all just working
and surviving and waiting.

751
00:35:46,361 --> 00:35:48,015
For what?

752
00:35:50,409 --> 00:35:52,454
Is this all just gonna end
one day?

753
00:35:52,498 --> 00:35:55,327
Like, one day
we're all gonna get a memo

754
00:35:55,370 --> 00:35:58,504
that says, "COVID's over.
Everyone back to normal"?

755
00:35:59,940 --> 00:36:02,725
I think I wasted all the time
I was supposed to be happy.

756
00:36:17,349 --> 00:36:19,133
Mm.

757
00:36:21,396 --> 00:36:23,311
How long
have I been asleep?

758
00:36:23,355 --> 00:36:25,400
Uh, most of the day.

759
00:36:27,402 --> 00:36:29,709
Bailey,
something's happened.

760
00:36:29,752 --> 00:36:33,278
No, it's--
it's not Meredith.

761
00:36:33,321 --> 00:36:35,062
It's DeLuca.

762
00:36:35,105 --> 00:36:36,150
What?

763
00:36:38,065 --> 00:36:39,719
Richard, what?

764
00:36:47,509 --> 00:36:48,945
Okay,
give me 1 of epi.

765
00:36:59,391 --> 00:37:00,827
The tide
is coming in!

766
00:37:00,870 --> 00:37:02,263
I know.

767
00:37:02,307 --> 00:37:03,786
It's gonna wash it away.

768
00:37:03,830 --> 00:37:06,267
I know,
I'm trying to beat it.

769
00:37:06,311 --> 00:37:07,529
You're trying to beat
the tide?

770
00:37:07,573 --> 00:37:08,400
Yeah.

771
00:37:08,443 --> 00:37:09,488
I had more to do.

772
00:37:09,531 --> 00:37:11,011
I had plans.

773
00:37:11,054 --> 00:37:12,795
Wanted to do another tower
over here

774
00:37:12,839 --> 00:37:16,364
and a--a--
a bridge with a moat.

775
00:37:16,408 --> 00:37:19,541
Tide's coming in
too fast.

776
00:37:19,585 --> 00:37:21,239
Come on.
It's too fast.

777
00:37:21,282 --> 00:37:23,284
I had plans.

778
00:37:25,330 --> 00:37:26,592
Come on.

779
00:37:26,635 --> 00:37:28,507
You can't build a sand castle
without a moat.

780
00:37:30,813 --> 00:37:33,294
I don't know what happens
from here, Meredith.

781
00:37:33,338 --> 00:37:36,254
Me either.

782
00:37:36,297 --> 00:37:38,560
But no matter
what happens,

783
00:37:38,604 --> 00:37:41,781
I want you to know that I never
felt seen the way you saw me.

784
00:37:41,824 --> 00:37:44,566
I never felt inspired
the way you inspired me.

785
00:37:44,610 --> 00:37:46,568
You made me want to be
not just my best self,

786
00:37:46,612 --> 00:37:48,222
but better.

787
00:37:48,266 --> 00:37:50,398
And yeah, I felt small
around you sometimes.

788
00:37:50,442 --> 00:37:52,400
I felt insecure.

789
00:37:52,444 --> 00:37:56,186
I wanted something from you that
I needed to give to myself.

790
00:37:56,230 --> 00:37:58,754
But here, now,
on this beach with you,

791
00:37:58,798 --> 00:38:02,323
I...I get it.

792
00:38:02,367 --> 00:38:04,238
I don't just get it,
I feelit.

793
00:38:04,282 --> 00:38:05,631
I get who I am.

794
00:38:05,674 --> 00:38:07,894
I know my own soul,
my strength.

795
00:38:10,375 --> 00:38:12,377
Do you want to take
a walk?

796
00:38:12,420 --> 00:38:15,162
We can watch the sunset
from the dock.

797
00:38:15,205 --> 00:38:17,773
In a minute.

798
00:38:17,817 --> 00:38:21,299
I just want to
feel this first.

799
00:38:21,342 --> 00:38:23,388
I just want to hold onto this
a little longer.

800
00:38:23,431 --> 00:38:25,259
I'm a little bit
of an exception

801
00:38:25,303 --> 00:38:27,783
when it comes to having
a happy place.

802
00:38:27,827 --> 00:38:30,133
Because the hospital's
always been mine.

803
00:38:30,177 --> 00:38:31,961
Internal paddles.

804
00:38:32,005 --> 00:38:33,615
Come on, come on.
- Let's go, let's go.

805
00:38:33,659 --> 00:38:35,313
♪ And there could be a place

806
00:38:35,356 --> 00:38:36,618
Charge to 20.

807
00:38:37,576 --> 00:38:39,229
Clear.

808
00:38:40,883 --> 00:38:41,667
Again.

809
00:38:41,710 --> 00:38:42,929
Clear.

810
00:38:44,365 --> 00:38:45,584
Charge to 30.

811
00:38:45,627 --> 00:38:46,498
Clear.

812
00:38:46,541 --> 00:38:47,673
Come on.

813
00:38:47,716 --> 00:38:48,804
Again.
Again.

814
00:38:48,848 --> 00:38:49,805
Clear.

815
00:38:51,938 --> 00:38:54,027
♪ Always so far

816
00:38:54,070 --> 00:38:55,637
Come on.

817
00:38:55,681 --> 00:38:57,944
♪ Always so near

818
00:38:57,987 --> 00:38:59,685
Maybe it's because
it's where I grew up.

819
00:38:59,728 --> 00:39:03,123
♪ Who cast the spell

820
00:39:03,166 --> 00:39:05,821
♪ Of our fair weather

821
00:39:05,865 --> 00:39:07,214
Andrea!

822
00:39:07,257 --> 00:39:11,131
♪ The sweet hellos

823
00:39:11,174 --> 00:39:14,264
♪ The fair farewells

824
00:39:15,918 --> 00:39:17,485
Mom?

825
00:39:17,529 --> 00:39:18,704
Mom?

826
00:39:18,747 --> 00:39:20,488
Andrea!

827
00:39:24,274 --> 00:39:27,582
I'll miss you.

828
00:39:27,626 --> 00:39:30,237
If I go back
and you don't,

829
00:39:30,280 --> 00:39:31,586
I'll miss you.

830
00:39:33,283 --> 00:39:35,721
It'll be okay,
Meredith.

831
00:39:35,764 --> 00:39:38,811
It will.
It'll be okay.

832
00:39:38,854 --> 00:39:41,248
Andrea!

833
00:39:41,291 --> 00:39:41,988
I have to go.

834
00:39:42,031 --> 00:39:43,685
Okay.

835
00:39:53,478 --> 00:39:54,783
Mama!

836
00:39:54,827 --> 00:39:57,177
♪ Where the wind may blow

837
00:39:58,961 --> 00:40:01,442
♪ I've never been a man

838
00:40:01,486 --> 00:40:02,922
♪ For another's shadows

839
00:40:02,965 --> 00:40:05,272
Oh!

840
00:40:05,315 --> 00:40:08,362
♪ But sometimes I

841
00:40:08,406 --> 00:40:11,931
♪ Drive by the place you live

842
00:40:11,974 --> 00:40:15,761
♪ Just hoping I

843
00:40:15,804 --> 00:40:17,066
♪ Might catch you
in the windows ♪

844
00:40:19,678 --> 00:40:23,116
♪ Well, if you've known love

845
00:40:23,159 --> 00:40:25,466
His heart
won't restart.

846
00:40:25,510 --> 00:40:28,164
He's been down
for 40 minutes.

847
00:40:28,208 --> 00:40:32,038
♪ The sun
and then the bloody rain ♪

848
00:40:36,216 --> 00:40:39,524
♪ And though there's nothing

849
00:40:39,567 --> 00:40:42,875
♪ Nothing to forgive

850
00:40:42,918 --> 00:40:46,661
♪ If we could find the grace

851
00:40:46,705 --> 00:40:50,448
♪ There could be a place

852
00:40:50,491 --> 00:40:52,667
♪ There could be
a place ♪

853
00:40:58,456 --> 00:41:00,327
Isn't somebody
going to call it?

854
00:41:25,395 --> 00:41:28,181
Time of death--22:50.

855
00:41:34,361 --> 00:41:39,366
♪ Ohh

856
00:41:39,409 --> 00:41:43,936
♪ Ohh

857
00:41:43,979 --> 00:41:46,547
♪ Another life

858
00:41:46,591 --> 00:41:47,983
But if you're not like me...

859
00:41:48,027 --> 00:41:51,334
♪ Another time

860
00:41:51,378 --> 00:41:55,164
♪ Could there be a place

861
00:41:55,208 --> 00:41:58,907
♪ For you and I?

862
00:41:58,951 --> 00:42:02,563
♪ Abandon reason

863
00:42:02,607 --> 00:42:05,914
♪ Adopt the rhyme

864
00:42:05,958 --> 00:42:07,786
♪ And there could be a place

865
00:42:07,829 --> 00:42:10,092
...you're going to want
somewhere else.

866
00:42:10,136 --> 00:42:13,443
♪ For us to find