*** amount of fear,
Unbearable pain.
Cruel injustice.
As surgeons, we are faced with it every day.
Impossible diagnosis.
Family tragedy.
Looming mortality.
We face yours while we face our own.
And some days, in the thick of it,
in the worst of it...
...we feel just as lost as you do.
- Somebody, help me! - Aah! Get me out of here!
Are you okay?
Something's wrong. I can't get out!
- Aah! - Somebody, help me!
Stay in your car, sir.
Are you okay?
Stay by your cars.
People aren't stopping!
I can't see anything!
Whoa!
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I have to go. I have to get out of here.
I can't let him go tank his whole career.
I can't decompress the chamber.
We get the bends if we decompress too fast, and Gus could die.
- I'm not doing it. - Is there a phone in here?
Yeah, it calls those tech guys out there.
You want to tell them how your boyfriend's going to jail for you
and you still haven't said "I love you"?
Is that what you're gonna do? You're gonna judge me?
Now?
No.
Just...
What can we do for Gus? How can we help him?
Nothing.
We just wait.
We... We... We let the oxygen do its job,
and we hope they get the blood here in time.
So while we're stuck here, you want to tell me
what the hell is going on with my wife?
Thanks, Bailey.
We'll be in soon.
Okay.
Babysitter's on the way.
Bailey is expecting us.
I want my mom.
Oh, uh... okay.
Can I...
Should I call her?
She died a long time ago.
Uh... okay.
What would she say?
If she were here, what would she say?
S-She was a planner.
She made lists, so she'd be so angry with me.
'Cause I don't even have a nursery yet.
And I didn't ever make it to the birthing classes.
And Owen and I haven't even talked about baby names.
And there's a really good man back at my apartment
putting together a changing table,
and he's not even the baby's father,
so she would be so mad at me.
But still, she would rub my back, and she would say,
"Baby girl, I am always on your side,
no matter how wrong I think you are."
Mm. She'd...
Oh!
Whoa, God!
Oh, God!
Okay. First contraction.
Holy... Ow!
Oh!
What are you doing? Why don't you call...
just call... call an ambulance?!
If the next one comes in under three minutes,
we'll call an ambulance.
If not, we are fine to drive.
Oh, God. Ohh, God!
Hiiiii.
My mom said you wanted me
to come watch Leo.
No!
Um...
what are we, like, doing?
Um, Chief, can I speak to you for a second?
Are you back?
Um...
We're getting calls about a pileup on the freeway
and my head of trauma is in labor.
My other trauma surgeon is on some rescue mission,
and one of my best residents was just arrested.
Who got arrested?
Look, I-I know that you're going through...
something.
But if you feel you can work...?
Yes.
Yes, I can work.
Okay, if I wasn't so mad about all the other things,
I'd dance for joy.
Put on some scrubs and head to the pit.
Thank you.
No!
Okay, let me help you!
Oh, my God. Oh, my God. We're gonna die.
It's okay.
Somebody, call 911!
That's beautiful.
My mom used to sing it when I couldn't fall asleep.
Okay. Looks like a truck crashed,
and then all the cars crashed into the truck
and then each other.
Okay, Frances?
You hear that?
The sirens growing closer? That is our ride.
We're gonna have to get out. Okay, Frances?
So, I'm gonna carry you just like before, okay?
You are so very brave, and I am not.
Frances, Gus is still alive.
And you're still the only one who can save him.
Now, I get that this was scary.
I know. I got scared, too.
But it was a miracle that we didn't get hurt.
So let's not waste it.
Let's go save a life, okay?
I got you. Come on.
I got you. I got you.
It's okay. Got you.
People are hurt. Should we see if we can help?
We're the only ones who can help Gus,
and that is our mission.
He maketh me down to lie in pastures green.
He... leadeth me to something waters by.
You a churchgoer back home, Frances?
I might be if I left my flat.
Yeah, of course.
Probably will be after this.
Okay, this way. Let's go.
Oh, my God! Oh, my God! Oh, my God!
Ow, ow, ow! This is not normal!
I-I think it probably is.
Shut up. It's not! Mnh!
Okay.
I'm sorry.
- I'm sorry I said "shut up." - That is okay.
That is what women in normal labor do.
Oh, my God.
What is this traffic?!
Well, it looks like the freeway is closed.
What?!
There is a multi-car pileup
that has shut down the freeway.
Wow, and half the city is sucked in in fog.
Are we thinking maybe we should've called an ambulance?!
What are you doing?
Where are you going?!
Stay here!
Where would I possibly go?!
Oh, my God! Oh, my God!
I don't want to have this baby in your car!
Oh, my God! Oh, my God! Oh, my God!
Aah!
Yeah, we got a lot of pissed-off people back here.
Come on.
What's going on here?
Doesn't look like it's letting up at all.
we've gotten lots of calls about the situation...
Officer?
You want to get back in your car, Miss?
This is not safe.
Yes, I know. I will.
Uh, but, also, there is a big baby
trying to come out of a small place in my car.
- So... - You can back up.
...could you help us get to the hospital, please?
- No. - Back up.
Her father raped her mother?
And, apparently, Jo looks just like him.
And her mother...
wants nothing to do with her.
And her father...
I'll kill him.
Well he's already dead.
She's agreed to talk to Bailey
and take a leave of absence a-and get some help.
I keep thinking about the day
she told me she was going to Pittsburgh.
She was laughing. She was excited.
And I said, "No." I said I was worried.
She said, "Alex, the worst thing that could happen
is I find her, and she's not happy about it.
Then I come home to you, and at least I know.
At least I get to stop wondering."
I should've stopped her.
You couldn't have stopped her.
She's... She's Jo.
No, she's not. She's not Jo anymore.
She's a ghost.
I know. She needs help.
I tried.
She won't let me.
She needs more help than you and I can give her.
Dr. Jensen to Oncology.
Nico, you have a new job.
Kari Donnelly. Her finger twitched.
It was probably just a muscle spasm,
but, uh, who knows?
I'd like you to keep an eye on her.
What? Do you want me to babysit a quadriplegic?
I was gonna say witness a potential miracle.
Maybe it'll help.
Yeah? Help with what?
Help you not fail your fellowship.
I've been defending you,
but you're turning into someone no one wants to work with.
So, go. Sit with my patient.
Who's on the cusp of a life-changing medical breakthrough.
And try as hard as you can to care.
Wendy Bliss to Admitting.
Hey.
Bailey said it was slammed in here,
- so I came to help, but where... - The fog is so thick,
no ambulance can get through yet.
We're just... waiting.
How you doing?
Um...
All right. Listen to me.
- You listening? - Yes.
20 minutes east of here, the fog is so thick,
no one can drive through.
But here, right outside,
it's sunny.
So...
So, I'm saying... the sun is gonna shine again.
You just got to get...
20 minutes east of wherever you are.
Yeah, you're right. That was bad.
- Horrible. - I'm embarrassed.
Oh, my God. You should be.
...to Radiology.
Dr. Kelly to Radiology.
Uh, Luis.
- Hi. - Hi, I'm Dr. Bailey.
And this is Dr. Fox.
- Hi. - Hello.
We have some good news.
All right, Gabby's test results came back,
and her cancer is only Stage 2.
That's good news?
Oh, absolutely.
Non-Hodgkin's lymphoma is a very treatable cancer.
And when it's found early, like hers was,
the survival rate is quite high.
And she will require further treatment,
but I want to assure you that my foundation
will cover all the costs.
Thank you.
I just, uh...
my gordita has cancer.
What if something happens
before Gabby's mamá can get here?
Sir... I want you to look at me.
I am living with a more advanced version
of a far less treatable cancer right now.
And I'm here, I'm working, and I am very much alive.
And so is Gabby.
And we're gonna work really hard to keep her that way.
Dr. Worden to Peds ICU.
Dr. Judy Worden to Peds ICU.
Hey, uh, uh, w...
wait a... wait a minute, everyone.
- What's going on here? - Dr. Webber, don't.
No. W-W-Why are you in handcuffs?
Why is my star resident in handcuffs?
- Sir, I need you to step aside. - DeLuca?
Look, I-I committed fraud, okay? I'm sorry, all right?
I'm sorry, Dr. Webber.
What the hell did he do?
He put little Ellis Grey's name
on another child's records.
I know. I'm sick over it, too.
And we're needed in the pit.
Frances, I'm gonna set you down
beside an ambulance.
I want you to slowly open your eyes
and try to stay calm, okay?
All right, folks, please stay with your car.
I'm Owen Hunt, head of trauma at Grey-Sloan.
Oh, thank God. Truck driver's critical...
hypertensive with a rapid and thready pulse,
decreased breath sounds on the left.
We got to move him now.
I'll come with you, and I'll help out,
but these two need a ride, too.
- No, we don't have room. - Well, make room.
A kid's life depends on it. Let's move.
- Let's go. - Okay, big step, big step.
Okay, go, go, go.
The GPS says
we're supposed to be going... east.
We're going north.
No, we don't need the GPS, all right?
- Just follow the trail. - What trail?
This is just a mudslide waiting to happen.
Will you just trust, please?
- Trust what? - Me.
Trust the ground underneath your feet.
It's really hard to trust the road
when you can't see it.
Yeah, well, sometimes you got to trust things you can't see.
All right, now we just want to take
one step at a time, and then we'll just...
Jackson!
You fell into a river. You could have broken your neck.
It's a creek.
It's less than a foot deep. I'm fine.
You said to trust the road.
Ah, it... it's just a little bit of water.
You said to trust you and come camping,
and now there's a child dying,
and there's nobody there to operate on him.
Okay.
- Oh, you're mad at me now? - No, I'm not even mad.
I just don't feel like talking about this.
I want to focus,
just focus on getting the hell out of these woods.
These beautiful, pristine, sacred woods
that you're just so damn determined to hate.
I don't hate them. It's just a stressful situation.
It doesn't have to be!
This could just be a muddy situation
that we both go through together!
But, no. You want to assign blame.
More specifically, you want to assign blame to me
when all I did was ask you
to come explore something that I love.
I'm the one that's soaked. Am I blaming you for that?
Kinda.
You're yelling at me.
Well, I don't want to talk!
You are some kinda genius. I mean it.
I-I-I really think, in another life,
that you and I could be friends.
Well, then why don't we just decide
to be friends in this one?
I mean, I'm in Leo's life.
I'm not gonna let that change.
And we've basically been through a police chase together.
I mean, think how we could laugh about that
if we were friends.
Seriously, you would just have to overcome
most of your disdain for me.
But I really think that you could do that if you tried.
Well, I don't disdain you, Amelia.
Um, okay, I did. Last year.
But there was a whole brain tumor
that explained the things that I didn't like.
Thank you.
Because, you know, I really think people
don't give that tumor the credit it deserved.
Are you still in love with Owen?
I mean...
maybe a little.
But I fall in love easily and quickly.
I mean, I could very well be in love with someone else
by the time your baby comes.
I'm a little in love with this cop here right now.
Seriously. I'm very easily attracted.
You know, the last time Owen and I broke up,
I walked in on him and Carina, and I was more jealous of him
because I had a little crush on her,
which is like, the reason
I masturbated for her in that study
which lead to my brain tumor being diagnosed.
Owen and Carina?
Like, my O.B., Carina?
Ohhhhh, no.
Aaaaaaaaah!
Oh, boy.
Oof.
Ohhhhhh, God!
Meredith?
They took DeLuca.
I know! I couldn't go after him because I'm stuck in here.
I need you to go to the police
and tell them it was all me.
I am not gonna tell a lie to the police.
It's not a lie! It was me.
I mean, sure, a few of you followed my lead,
but Andrew had nothing to do with it.
His career won't recover from this.
You know who else won't recover?
Your children when they watch their mother
get locked away.
Meredith, you could lose everything...
- your career, your family. - I won't.
I'll hire a great lawyer, plead my case.
I'm a well-established, award-winning surgeon.
This is my first offense.
I am not doing anything until you're out of there,
and we think all of this through!
- Damn it, he's coding. - Start the decompression.
Got it.
Come on. Let's start decompression now!
What can I do?
Call Hunt. Tell him we need him now!
That is a very large needle.
He has a tension pneumo.
I'm gonna need to decompress his chest.
You definitely want to close your eyes for this.
Okay. Here we go.
Oh! That is just demented.
Schmitt, get that.
It's clearing. We're out of the fog.
Hold on.
Hey, Dr. Webber. It's Dr. Webber.
- Tell him we're close! - How close?
- 7 minutes, uh... - 20 minutes to extract the blood.
Uh, okay. We'll be at the hospital in 7.
Come on, Mom. You can do this.
Come on.
This is a depressing room to be in, I know.
No, ma'am. You should keep at it.
I think we both know I shouldn't.
Mom.
Honey.
I think it's time to accept the twitch for what it was...
a twitch.
The final spasm of a dying muscle.
It's awful. And I hate it.
But I love you and...
She just squeezed my hand!
Mom, Mom, you just... you just squeezed my hand!
- No, I didn't. - You did, too.
You... You squeezed my hand!
You did, I saw it!
I-I have to...
I'll get Link. Wait, Shepherd.
I'll get them all! Yeah!
Oh!
So, you're feeling better? Really?
Uh, can we save a life first and talk after?
Deal.
All right, 40-something driver.
Left tension pneumo decompressed in the field.
He's hypotensive and tachycardic.
He's bleeding in there somewhere.
Okay, trauma one.
- Frances, let's go. - Who's Frances?
- Ohh! - This is Frances.
She needs somewhere quiet to donate blood.
Oh, oh! You're the golden blood lady!
- I suppose I am, yes. - I can take you!
- Let me... Can I take her? - Yes.
- Karev, you can take her. - Hooray, more needles.
Dr. Bailey!
Shepherd? What the hell?
Okay, open the door. Okay. I need help.
Okay. Okay.
You dated my O.B.,
- and you didn't think to mention it?! - What?
- I am so sorry. - Oh, that's complex.
Listen, we didn't exactly date. We were more just...
- Oh, God! - Why are you in a police...
- Owen... Owen, she is in labor. - Okay.
- Okay, oh... oh, my God. Okay, don't... - Get your hands off of me.
Don't touch me. Don't touch me.
Alex, we should...
No, I'm not stopping till that blood arrives.
This kid deserves to live.
He deserves to build towers
of every building in this damn world
and play tee-ball and hug his parents.
His good, kind parents who have always been there
and done everything for him.
So, no. No, I'm not stopping.
I'm not asking you to stop.
I'm asking you to just switch off for a minute.
Just take a break. You're not alone in here.
The hell I'm not.
You're gonna trade places with DeLuca
and go to jail.
And Jo...
Look, you're gonna disappear, and Jo's already disappeared,
and I'm gonna be here all alone.
Well, you're not alone yet,
and you're getting tired, so just let me help!
Let's go! Come on, switch. One, two, three.
I didn't ask you to change. I'm asking you to expand.
That's just a fancy word for change.
I am a grown woman.
I know what I like and what I don't like.
Okay, Maggie. But do you, really?
I mean, you constantly talk about
how you had to race through
high school, college, med school.
Those are all formative years. You know?
You were buried in books basically from birth.
You don't think it's possible
you missed out on some aspects of life
that you could come to love with some encouragement?
Do you hear yourself?
Do you hear how patronizing that sounds?
I don't think that we are in this mess
because I missed out on my formative years
due to my genius.
I think that we are in this mess
because you missed out on the opportunity
to learn consequences due to your privilege.
But your mom and her money can't get us to our car
and help me save my dying patient,
so this is on you.
This is what consequences feel like.
You really think that?
That's what you think of me?
I'm saying...
maybe I missed out on summer camp,
- but you missed out on a summer job. - What?
And filling out financial aid forms
and worrying if your family could even afford college.
Work-study and student loans
and hoping that you find a job after college
that can pay off your student loans.
Life stuff...
stuff that comes from not being Mr. Monopoly.
Mr. Monopoly?
Wow.
So you just kinda don't have any respect for me.
And you just kinda don't like me.
Maggie, I love you.
I know.
But you don't like me.
Not the way I am.
You want me to expand.
Teddy, I'm sorry, really.
It honestly never even occurred to me.
It never occurred to you?! Ohh!
It never occurred to you to mention to me
that you slept with my O.B.?!
Okay. Hello.
For what it's worth,
the affair meant very little to me.
Okay.
Can you spread your legs for me?
Hmm.
Okay.
Ugh.
Okay, you're gonna feel a little pinch.
Just tell me when it's over.
And... it's over.
- That's it? - That's it.
And what happens now?
And now you get...
Oh, well, now you get cookies
and you get juice.
What will I feel when my blood is gone?
Woozy, sick, empty?
How much extra or food might I need?
I, um...
Frances, you have about 10 units of blood in your body,
and you can live on about 6 units.
And I'm only taking two, so you should feel just fine.
In fact, you should feel better than fine
because, as you sit here, eating your cookie,
you are saving a little boy's life.
This has been
the single most terrifying day of my life.
I heard that you don't like to travel.
A-Also, there was a pileup.
It was legitimately terrifying.
This morning, if you'd asked me
to list my fears of what might happen,
I would've made quite a long one.
But sitting there, listening to vehicle after vehicle,
the crunching sounds, the blinding fog,
the screaming...
even I couldn't have imagined that.
And yet, here I am,
with a frightening stench of flop sweat.
But other than that,
unscathed, sipping juice.
There's something about walking through your fears...
actually going through the worst thing
you could imagine happening to you...
that is oddly freeing.
I... give them supervision.
I offer guidance.
I praise them.
I steer them on the right path when they stumble,
like they were my own children.
And what do I get in return?
A big, fat felony covered in bureaucratic mess.
Lap pads.
Well, maybe DeLuca didn't understand
what he was doing.
DeLuca was number two in his class.
He understands.
Uh, the bleeding's coming from the mesentery.
Got it. Right angle.
I'm just saying that there could be
another explanation.
Um, I've been working a lot with DeLuca lately,
and he is smart, talented, and excellent bedside manner.
And his medical license is as good as trash.
Not to mention, he put that asylum-seeking family at risk
and jeopardized
every hospital employee's insurance policy.
And I don't think he did it alone.
Hmm.
Meredith Grey's name was on that chart.
I think she participated and DeLuca's covering for her.
- Really? Hmm? - Really.
You wouldn't know anything about that, would you?
Um, let's run the bowel again, check for other injuries.
What do we, uh... Is it... Is it somebody's birthday?
Are we singing, huh?
Tom, be quiet, please.
What?
Mom, you can do this.
You did it once... you can do it again.
I'm tired.
So...
pretend it's me.
Pretend you're fighting for me instead of for yourself
because you have never once gotten tired
when you've been fighting for me.
Look.
Oh, my God!
Did I do that? A-Am I doing that?!
Can... Can somebody tilt me down?
Kari, point to me.
Tom, I don't think she can take direction.
Oh, my God.
I did that!
Oh!
I knew you could do it.
I bet you want me to sing now.
You moved my finger. You can sing whatever you want!
Hey! Hey!
I'm here, I'm here, I'm here, I'm here!
- Let her through! - Move out of the way!
Sorry! Sorry that it took so long.
We had to extract the blood, process, and test it.
Okay. Okay.
Just squeeze the bag to make it go.
I know, go faster. I get it.
Are we too late? Is there enough?
Come on, Gus. Come on. Come on.
Come on, come on!
Come on, come on! Come on.
Hey, we got a rhythm.
Yes!
- Yeah. - We got a pulse.
I'll hang another unit of LR and keep giving him fluids.
Hey.
Hey, buddy. Hey, it's Alex.
Remember me?
Now, your chest is gonna feel really sore,
but that's normal.
You're not in your regular room right now.
We had to bring you in here for a minute.
But it's like a medical spaceship. It's pretty cool.
Where...
Where are my LEGO bricks?
Let's go get them.
Jo.
I'm not okay.
I know how to rise...
when I need to.
And I know how to take care of other patients, but...
I'm not okay.
I love you, and I'm sorry.
It's okay. We'll figure it out.
We'll... We'll talk to Bailey.
Karev.
Can we talk?
It's about Meredith.
God! Ow, ow, ow!
Something's wrong! What's wrong?!
Something's wrong! Ow! Nothing's wrong.
Nothing is wrong, Dr. Altman. You're crowning.
- ! Oh, God! - What? Already?
Sometimes mothers with geriatric pregnancies
- tend to have... - Did you just say "geriatric"?!
I-It's just the term.
I know the term!
I'm just saying, try not to add to my pain!
What you're feeling right now is called the ring of fire.
Do I keep pushing?
No. You wait until the next contraction.
Oh, God, come on!
If you like to masturbate, it can alleviate the...
- What?! - No!
Okay. Then... just wait.
Oh, God, come on.
- Oh, my God, ow! - Teddy.
- Ow, ow, ow, ow! - Teddy.
Our daughter is coming out now.
I know this is supposed to be...
a really beautiful moment, but it hurts like a mother!
Oh, my God!
I got to see this. I got...
- No, no way. - Whoa, whoa.
Whatever's happening down there is not pretty.
Okay.
Listen, Teddy, I have seen men ripped limb from limb.
I know, but you will not see the war between my legs.
You'll thank me later. No more PTSD.
Okay, here's another one. Ow!
- Teddy, push, push, push, push, push! - Oh, my God!
- You got this, Major. - Oh, my God!
Push, push, push, push, push, push!
Hey.
I have had a day from hell.
I miss you.
I know I can be annoying.
I spent the day with a woman who imagines the worst.
And she was annoying.
Right up until the part where she was a hero.
Levi, I...
I get that my feelings can be big
and my fears can be big, and I can be annoying.
But I am also a pretty great guy.
I care about the world.
I sing with people who are scared,
and I help deliver blood to dying children,
and I care.
And if you love me,
I deserve better than what you've been giving me.
I know you do.
And I don't think you're annoying.
I just...
I don't know.
I just get... jealous.
J...
Jealous of what?
Since my patient died,
since I... killed him...
...the only thing I feel is angry.
I just witnessed a medical miracle in there.
And people are crying and... and laughing...
...and still, all I feel is this...
...anger.
I don't know how to do what you do...
...but I want to.
Well, I can help with that.
Oh, oh.
The donor arrived!
Gus got his transfusion! Oh, my...
Oh, this is good.
What... What is... What is this? What is going on?
It's fog, Maggie. We have it in the city, too.
I know what fog is.
But this... this is... We can't drive in this.
Yeah, that's...
...why I stopped the car.
I'm gonna check out the situation.
You can't see anything.
That's why I've got a flashlight.
Got a little bit of faith.
You can stay here and be safe and sound...
...and knowing exactly at's going to happen
for the next 10 minutes, all right?
Patronizing.
Good!
So, her head is halfway out.
Just one more gentle push on the next contraction.
- I have to push now. - You wait or you tear.
30 seconds. Breathe.
But it hurts. I can't keep doing this.
Please tell me something to distract me.
Okay.
I'm in love with you... I'm in love with you...
...and I've been in love with you since the day I met you.
And I didn't understand
that I was allowed to be happy.
I was afraid.
I was afraid that the way that I feel around you
was... unsafe...
...unsafe because it feels so good.
You make me feel so good that I would sabotage it...
...before life would come in and do it for me.
But I get that now.
And I'm done with that now.
Teddy...
...I want to spend the rest of my life
proving to you that I'm worthy of your love.
If you'll let me.
- Another one's coming.
Here it is, it's coming! It's coming!
Push! Push, push, push! Push, push!
Oh, my God!
DeLuca was not involved. He had no prior knowledge.
I will go on record.
I take full responsibility for my behavior.
No, no, no, no. You two have to wait.
You need to hear what we have to say, okay?
Richard, not now.
Y-Y-Yes, now.
- It was me. - No, it wasn't.
I forged the name on Gabby's paperwork.
- No, no, no. - Yeah.
It was not... It was not. It was me.
- No, it was me. I forged it. - It was me. Alex, stop that!
No! It was not... It was me!
Are all of you kidding me right now?
This is not a game!
This is not an... an LVAD wire, and you're not interns.
This is criminal behavior. So stop this nonsense.
Bailey, it was all of us.
Meredith may have done it,
but I knew about it, and I didn't report.
Same. It was all of us.
The only person it wasn't was Andrew DeLuca.
- Yeah. - Richard. You got to be kidding me.
You are a part of this?!
Look, I'm sorry, Catherine.
I know we got it wrong.
It was an emotional decision and a bad one.
But we just couldn't see putting that father...
that family... through any more of this.
Bailey, it was all of us.
What do you want to do?
What do I want to do? W... I-I'm... I...
My God.
I mean, what... what can I do?
You're fired.
What?
Who's fired?
All three of you.
You're all fired!
Catherine.
Oh, my God.
Thank you.
Push, push, push, push! Push, push!
Yeah!
Oh, my God. Oh, my God.
Got it.
- Oh, lookit. - Oh, my God!
Hey. Hey.
I know.
Yeah.
What's her name?
- Allison. - Allison.
Hm.
How long will you be gone?
Oh, just a little while.
But where are you going?
Well...
I have to go take care of something very important.
Okay? But I'll be back.
- All right? - Okay.
And Auntie Amelia will be here
and Auntie Maggie and Uncle Alex.
There you go.
You are... pretty wonderful.
- - I hear a "but" coming.
But I, um...
...jumped in to you really fast.
On the heels of Owen, and, um...
...the life that I thought I was building.
I'm a rebound.
You definitely were.
I don't know if you still are.
So, you're saying...?
I'm saying I'm...
...open to possibilities.
And that could include you.
If you don't need me to decide anything
too permanent right now.
I, um...
I need time...
to figure out who I am outside of Owen.
Okay.
...go tree climbing, Thomas J.?
Oh. His face hurts.
And where is his glasses?
He can't see without his glasses.
I heard "My Girl" playing.
Made you some soup.
- Ohh! - Oh, tough week?
- Aww. - Thanks, Mom.
Yeah. Who's your friend?
This is Nico.
- Hi, Nico. - Hi.
He's actually my boyfriend.
And he's the one who's had the tough week.
W-We'll talk more later then.
- Yes. - All right, then.
Nico, do you like chicken noodle soup?
Yes, ma'am.
Well, then, this is for you.
Oh! Thank you so much.
All right. You enjoy.
Okay.
You all right?
You're amazing.
When there's no clear path...
all we can do is put one foot in front of the other.
Dr. Karev, are you ready?
- Love you. - I love you, too.
She'll be okay.
She'll need medication and therapy,
but she will be okay.
How do you know?
She's depressed.
It's scary and it's hard, but it's treatable.
Bailey, am I really fired?
Alex Karev.
I hate it more than you do.
All we can do is the next right thing.
And then the next.
This was so stupid.
Well...
Were you expecting a thank you?
Your career won't survive this.
You're going to lose your license.
Meredith, what was I supposed to do? Huh?
They called me into a room and asked me for details.
Was I supposed to turn you in?
Would that have been more noble somehow?
Well, if we're gonna be together...
...you need to develop some instincts
for self-preservation.
All I'm saying is, let me clean up my own messes
and live in my own truth.
Because what I did was wrong.
But what I was trying to remedy was so much more wrong.
And I stand by that.
You think a judge will buy that?
I don't know.
Either way, I have to turn myself in
and get you out of here.
Meredith, don't do that.
Andrew, as stupid as this was...
...and as much as this terrifies me...
I love you, too.
In the darkness, in the fog,
all we can do is feel our way through.
Jackson!
And try to trust that somehow
we will come out on the other side.
Jackson!