1
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<i>(meredith)
when something begins,</i>

2
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<i>you generally have no idea
how it's going to end.</i>

3
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<i>the house
you were going to sell</i>

4
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<i>becomes your home.</i>

5
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<i>the roommates
you were forced to take in</i>

6
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<i>become your family.</i>

7
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<i>and the one-night stand
you were determined to forget</i>

8
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<i>becomes the love of your life.</i>

9
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Hey. how long
have you been up?
all night.

10
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I was trying to figure out

11
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How to get the tumor
out of izzie's brain.

12
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Why are you smiling?
'cause i figured out
how to do it.

13
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Once izzie's in the clear,
we're gonna go to the bahamas

14
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And have our wedding
on the beach.

15
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The one & only beach club--

16
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You can actually have drinks
during the ceremony. (laughs)
(laughs)

17
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Are you sure you're okay
to be up and around?

18
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Yes. i have good days
and bad days.

19
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Plus, i don't want to spend
our entire honeymoon

20
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In a hospital bed.

21
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This is not our honeymoon.

22
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It totally is.

23
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Come on. i want you
to meet my friends.

24
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I know all your friends.

25
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You know all my doctor friends.
i'm a patient now.

26
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You're gonna meet
my patient friends,

27
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<i>and they're gonna love
my new husband.</i>

28
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Don't make a big deal.
i'm not gonna make
a big deal.

29
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(singsong voice)
i'm a bride. (laughs)

30
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Iz, come on. i'm getting her
a real one.
(normal voice)
i love this one,

31
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And that makes it
a real one.

32
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Okay, everybody,
this is alex, my husband.

33
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Husband, this is austin, star,
meg, miguel and alison.

34
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Can you turn him around
so we can see the butt?

35
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Yes. alex?

36
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What, are you kidding me?

37
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No. oh, a big trauma
just came in. that's...

38
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That's quality booty.
right?

39
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Congratulations, izzie.
thank you. (laughs)

40
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(laughs)

41
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(laughs)

42
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So, uh...

43
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I had a good session
with my shrink this morning.

44
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Did you talk to her
about your mom?

45
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(elevator bell dings)

46
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I mean, have you
seen your mom yet?

47
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'cause she lives, like,
you know, a few miles away,

48
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And she thinks
you're still in iraq.
yeah, i--i'm planning
to see her.

49
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When?

50
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Dr. hunt...
i'm not on trauma today?

51
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Follow me, o'malley.

52
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Lieutenant lowell,
i'm dr. hunt.

53
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We spoke on the phone.
major hunt, it's good
to finally meet you.

54
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My c.o. has told me
a lot about you.

55
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Ah, you shouldn't believe
anything steve mason tells you.

56
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This is dr. o'malley, and you've
already met dr. torres.

57
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I'm looking at charlie's post-op
scans, but i'm not finding

58
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Anything functionally wrong
with the leg.
except that i can't walk
or run or move really

59
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Without serious pain.

60
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I've tried everything--
medications, physical therapy.

61
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Nothing works.

62
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Which could indicate
nerve damage.

63
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Or a chronic pain syndrome.
and we can definitely
look into

64
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Pain management procedures,

65
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But surgically, i'm afraid,
uh, there's nothing i can do.

66
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Actually, there is.

67
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You could cut it off.

68
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You can cut it off

69
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And replace it
with a prosthetic leg

70
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So i can get back to iraq
where i'm needed.

71
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Captioning provided by
abc studios, abc, inc.

72
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And brought to you by ford.
drive one.

73
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<i>(woman speaking indistinctly
over p.a.)</i>

74
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(sighs) did you know
that's why he was here?

75
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No, but is it
such an unreasonable request?

76
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Unreasonable? cutting off
a viable limb is dismemberment.

77
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That kid made lieutenant
at 19.

78
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He was planning on spending
the rest of his life

79
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In the military.
they gonna take him back
with one leg?

80
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There have been several
lower-leg amputees

81
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Who've returned to active duty
with prosthetics.
voluntary amputees?

82
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Maybe. i don't know.

83
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Are you saying i have to
turn this kid away?

84
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His c.o. sent him here
because he trusts me.

85
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We could get
another set of scans

86
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And then try an epidural
for the pain.
dr. torres?

87
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Fine. do an m.r.i.
and an epidural.

88
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I'll take a look
at the scans,

89
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But if the leg is healthy,
i'm not cutting it off.

90
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Dr. bailey,
are you busy today?
that depends.

91
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You got any more dying children
you want me to become

92
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Overly attached to
before they expire?

93
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No. i have an 8-year-old
neuroblastoma patient,

94
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And he's gonna live.
i can feel it in my bones.

95
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So scrub in with me
and see the joy.
um, dr. bailey.

96
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May i borrow you?

97
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Who is santa claus?

98
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An old white man
who lives at the north pole

99
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And enters people's homes
inappropriately.

100
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No.

101
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<i>i'm santa claus.</i>

102
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(beeping and whirring)

103
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<i>(electronic male voice)
all systems ready.</i>

104
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Oh, no, you did not!

105
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Oh, yes, i did.

106
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The da vinci s.i.
h.d. surgical system.

107
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Tell me you didn't wait

108
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Till i had all but left
the general surgery program

109
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To buy us a da vinci!

110
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Care to take it out
for a spin?

111
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Santa.

112
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(beep)

113
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(laughs)

114
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Hey, i was thinking,
you know,

115
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With, uh, derek and meredith
getting married, they, uh,

116
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Probably don't want us hanging
out in the attic much longer.

117
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So i was thinking
i'd start looking for a condo.

118
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Perfect,

119
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And then you'd finally
have a place of your own.

120
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Actually, i was, you know,
thinking maybe you'd, uh,

121
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You'd come with me.
absolutely. no, i-i--
i would love to see it.

122
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I'm so happy for you.

123
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(derek clears throat)

124
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How much of that
did you hear?

125
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You mean the part where you
asked her to move in with you,

126
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Or the part
where she shot you down?
mm.

127
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I was here for both.

128
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By the way,
it's just way too early

129
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For you to be
moving in with lexie.

130
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<i>you don't have to do
everything i do.
this is not about you.</i>

131
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I have my own future
to think about. life is short.

132
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Look at what's going on
with stevens.
don't worry about stevens.
i got a plan.

133
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You want to remove
her hippocampus?

134
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One of them. it's a common
procedure for seizure patients.

135
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Removing her hippocampus

136
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Could compromise her memory,
her speech.

137
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She wouldn't be able
to practice medicine anymore.
i have performed this surgery
hundreds of times.

138
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On cancer patients?
no, but it's--

139
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If you do the surgery,
i could lose my memory?

140
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It's unlikely, but it's possible.
and if you don't do the surgery?

141
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(swender) we could shrink
the tumor with i.l.-2.
if the tumor
doesn't kill me first.

142
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Why take the chance?
have you even done
a wada test

143
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To see how her memory
would be affected?
putting her brain to sleep
and asking her to remember

144
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A bunch of flash cards
is not an accurate assessment

145
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Of the post-surgical outcome.
but it would tell us
whether or not

146
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She could function afterwards,

147
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And as dr. stevens'
primary physician--
fine, i'll do it.
it's unnecessary--

148
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The surgery is unnecessary.
the tumor's already symptomatic.
she's having hallucinations.

149
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(waves crashing)

150
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(birds calling)

151
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That's a nice ring.

152
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Alex outdid himself.

153
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We're gonna have
beautiful kids,

154
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Don't you think?

155
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Is four too many?

156
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Four is perfect.

157
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Ideally, it would be
two boys and two girls--

158
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One of which
would definitely be a tomboy.

159
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And i was thinking

160
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I should have them
pretty close together,

161
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Though that might be stupid.

162
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Why wait?
exactly.

163
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That way,

164
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If i'm not able to
practice medicine anymore...

165
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You won't want to.

166
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You don't think?

167
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Do you?

168
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I'm asking you.

169
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Why do you keep agreeing
with everything i say?

170
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Because i am you.
i'm your tumor.

171
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You're...
talking to yourself.

172
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Right.

173
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At least
until you have surgery,

174
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<i>if you have surgery.</i>

175
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Are you gonna have surgery?

176
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(waves crashing)

177
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(waves continue crashing)

178
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If derek cuts the tumor out,
i could lose my memory,

179
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And if he doesn't,
i could die.

180
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I don't know what to do.
alex, tell me what to do.

181
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Iz, i can't tell you
what to do.
of course you can.

182
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You're my husband.
that's what husbands do.

183
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They stomp around
telling their wives what to do.

184
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It's your job.
no, my job is to support
whatever you want to do.

185
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I don't know
what i want to do.

186
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That's why i'm asking you.

187
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Okay, i have an idea.

188
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Let's put it to a vote.
all in favor of the surgery...

189
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No, we're not voting.
no one's--no one's voting.

190
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Opposed?

191
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I'm opposed...
(elevator bell dings)

192
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To voting.

193
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Just decide for me.
please.

194
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You don't have to know
right now. think about it.

195
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I don't have time.

196
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Captain mason told me
that you saved his life

197
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At least four times
in the field.
yeah, and a couple of times
in the canteen,

198
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But don't tell mason
i told you that.

199
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So... you think
i'll get to go back?

200
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Are you sure you want to?

201
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I mean, why do you
want to cut off your leg

202
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Just to go back
to the war?

203
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Don't you have family?

204
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You know what it's like to have
family who don't know you,

205
00:09:01,167 --> 00:09:04,401
Who don't get you,
maybe even don't like you?

206
00:09:04,468 --> 00:09:06,500
Yeah, actually, uh,
i have brothers.

207
00:09:06,567 --> 00:09:08,500
Me, too.

208
00:09:08,567 --> 00:09:10,500
So there's that family,

209
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The guys i grew up with,

210
00:09:13,101 --> 00:09:15,034
And we've got
nothing in common,

211
00:09:15,101 --> 00:09:17,600
And then there's my guys
in iraq--

212
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My real family

213
00:09:20,834 --> 00:09:24,567
Whatever we got into,
we were in it together.

214
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But here, i'm alone.
i'm nobody.

215
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And i've tried.

216
00:09:29,301 --> 00:09:31,234
You know, i've tried
fitting in here.

217
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I've tried
being a regular person.

218
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I've tried getting a job,
but there aren't any.

219
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There are a lot of things
that i wanted to be in my life,

220
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A lot of things i wanted to do,

221
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But none of them's here.

222
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This is alison clark. she was
referred to me two years ago.

223
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Mets in her brain,
liver, kidney?

224
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Mm-hmm. she ended up
having five surgeries

225
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And extensive chemo,
which worked,

226
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But then...

227
00:10:02,401 --> 00:10:04,834
Oh, yeah,
the mets came back.

228
00:10:04,900 --> 00:10:06,001
Mm-hmm.

229
00:10:06,067 --> 00:10:08,267
That's when i started
her i.l.-2 therapy.

230
00:10:08,334 --> 00:10:09,834
And now...

231
00:10:09,900 --> 00:10:13,167
After three treatments
in as many months...

232
00:10:16,767 --> 00:10:18,533
The mets are gone?

233
00:10:18,600 --> 00:10:20,334
The mets are gone.

234
00:10:20,401 --> 00:10:22,800
Dr. stevens
should be patient.

235
00:10:22,867 --> 00:10:25,633
She should give her therapies
a chance.

236
00:10:25,700 --> 00:10:27,633
As surgeons,
we like to cut,

237
00:10:27,700 --> 00:10:29,134
But... (sighs)

238
00:10:29,201 --> 00:10:32,001
Sometimes
there's a better way.

239
00:10:35,800 --> 00:10:39,001
Let me retract
that small bowel

240
00:10:39,067 --> 00:10:41,834
So you'll have
better visualization.

241
00:10:41,900 --> 00:10:43,368
You know what, chief?

242
00:10:43,434 --> 00:10:46,201
Thanks to leo,
you don't have to.
leo?

243
00:10:46,267 --> 00:10:48,201
Leonardo... (laughs)
da vinci.

244
00:10:48,267 --> 00:10:49,900
Here, here, watch this.

245
00:10:49,967 --> 00:10:52,401
See?

246
00:10:52,468 --> 00:10:57,700
540 degrees
of wristed movement.

247
00:10:57,767 --> 00:10:59,700
Can't do that
with a laparoscope.

248
00:10:59,767 --> 00:11:01,533
Or in open surgery.

249
00:11:01,600 --> 00:11:03,834
Feels pretty good,
doesn't it?

250
00:11:03,900 --> 00:11:09,167
(imitating lightsaber
sound effects)

251
00:11:09,234 --> 00:11:11,667
Dr. bailey,

252
00:11:11,734 --> 00:11:13,734
Are you making
lightsaber noises?

253
00:11:13,800 --> 00:11:16,800
Uh, not anymore, sir.

254
00:11:16,867 --> 00:11:18,301
(clears throat)

255
00:11:18,368 --> 00:11:21,201
You know, dr. chalikonda
at cleveland clinic

256
00:11:21,267 --> 00:11:23,900
Is doing single-incision
gall bladder removal

257
00:11:23,967 --> 00:11:25,734
Through the belly button.

258
00:11:25,800 --> 00:11:30,301
We could try that
on the next one...

259
00:11:30,368 --> 00:11:31,967
If you're up to it.

260
00:11:32,034 --> 00:11:33,967
Don't tease me, sir.

261
00:11:34,034 --> 00:11:35,967
Oh, i'm not.

262
00:11:36,034 --> 00:11:38,600
Why should dr. chalikonda
have all the fun?

263
00:11:38,667 --> 00:11:41,633
(giggles)

264
00:11:41,700 --> 00:11:44,368
(imitates
lightsaber sound effects)

265
00:11:44,434 --> 00:11:46,934
(miranda giggles)

266
00:11:47,001 --> 00:11:49,633
It's impressive, but it took
two years to get these results.

267
00:11:49,700 --> 00:11:51,967
Yeah, but these two scans
were taken three months apart.

268
00:11:52,034 --> 00:11:54,101
But izzie may not have
three months.

269
00:11:54,167 --> 00:11:57,334
That tumor could start bleeding
in three days or three seconds.

270
00:11:57,401 --> 00:12:00,101
And since when are you
not about cutting?

271
00:12:00,167 --> 00:12:03,633
Since it may not be in the best
interest of our patient.

272
00:12:03,700 --> 00:12:07,401
And derek's not acting
in izzie's best interest?

273
00:12:07,468 --> 00:12:10,667
They're ready for us
in radiology.

274
00:12:10,734 --> 00:12:12,567
(sighs)

275
00:12:23,567 --> 00:12:25,001
(monitor beeps)

276
00:12:25,067 --> 00:12:26,934
Okay, iz,

277
00:12:27,001 --> 00:12:28,934
I am going to show you
a series--

278
00:12:29,001 --> 00:12:31,934
A series of images that you
want me to try to remember

279
00:12:32,001 --> 00:12:35,533
Once derek puts the right side
of my brain to sleep.
mm-hmm.

280
00:12:35,600 --> 00:12:37,967
Hit me.
show me what you got.
okay.

281
00:12:38,034 --> 00:12:40,934
Is that a schnauzer
or a scottie?

282
00:12:41,001 --> 00:12:43,633
How specific
do i need to be?
dog's fine.

283
00:12:43,700 --> 00:12:47,667
It's either a 727
or a 747.

284
00:12:47,734 --> 00:12:49,001
Plane.

285
00:12:50,533 --> 00:12:53,633
Ooh, a 2-story
victorian mansion.

286
00:12:53,700 --> 00:12:55,700
We would also accept
the word "house."

287
00:12:55,767 --> 00:12:59,867
Schnauzer, 747, mansion.
schnauzer, 747, mansion.

288
00:12:59,934 --> 00:13:01,867
Or dog, plane, house.

289
00:13:01,934 --> 00:13:04,867
I'm gonna put the right
hemisphere of your brain

290
00:13:04,934 --> 00:13:07,001
To sleep now, okay?

291
00:13:07,067 --> 00:13:08,867
Dog, plane, house.
dog, plane, house.

292
00:13:08,934 --> 00:13:10,700
Dog, plane, house.

293
00:13:10,767 --> 00:13:12,900
Dog, plane, house.
dog, plane, house.

294
00:13:12,967 --> 00:13:14,867
Dog, plane, house.

295
00:13:14,934 --> 00:13:16,500
Dog, plane, house.

296
00:13:16,567 --> 00:13:18,001
(monitor beeps)

297
00:13:18,067 --> 00:13:20,500
Okay, now we just wait
for the brain activity

298
00:13:20,567 --> 00:13:22,667
In that area to stop.

299
00:13:22,734 --> 00:13:26,368
Dog, plane, house.
dog, plane...

300
00:13:26,434 --> 00:13:29,134
H...

301
00:13:31,967 --> 00:13:33,934
(monitor beeps)

302
00:13:36,834 --> 00:13:39,767
Okay, iz. can you
tell me what you saw?

303
00:13:46,567 --> 00:13:48,867
Show her the cards.

304
00:13:48,934 --> 00:13:51,267
Um...
what's this?

305
00:13:53,434 --> 00:13:55,067
Dog.

306
00:13:55,134 --> 00:13:56,834
Can you say dog?

307
00:13:56,900 --> 00:13:58,434
(mutters)

308
00:14:00,134 --> 00:14:02,067
(mutters)

309
00:14:02,134 --> 00:14:05,101
What's my name?
just stick to
the cards, meredith.

310
00:14:07,767 --> 00:14:09,734
M...

311
00:14:09,800 --> 00:14:11,234
Meredith.

312
00:14:11,301 --> 00:14:13,800
You know my name.
you can say my name.

313
00:14:13,867 --> 00:14:16,800
M...

314
00:14:16,867 --> 00:14:18,600
(mutters)

315
00:14:18,667 --> 00:14:21,101
This is what
i was afraid of.

316
00:14:21,167 --> 00:14:24,600
Okay, who's alex?

317
00:14:24,667 --> 00:14:26,900
Iz, okay,
you don't have to speak.

318
00:14:26,967 --> 00:14:30,600
Just nod your head for me
if you know who alex karev is.

319
00:14:43,434 --> 00:14:45,134
The test impaired your memory
to such a degree that

320
00:14:45,201 --> 00:14:48,067
I have to strongly recommend
you don't have the surgery.

321
00:14:48,134 --> 00:14:50,934
Izzie, the test was
the worst-case scenario.

322
00:14:51,000 --> 00:14:53,301
The result has nothing
to do with the surgery.
we don't know that.

323
00:14:53,367 --> 00:14:55,334
What i do know is that
not operating

324
00:14:55,401 --> 00:14:58,201
Is every bit as risky
as the surgery itself,

325
00:14:58,267 --> 00:15:00,700
If not more,
but it's up to you.

326
00:15:00,767 --> 00:15:02,668
What do you think?

327
00:15:02,733 --> 00:15:05,367
I think he's talking
to you, not me.

328
00:15:05,434 --> 00:15:07,501
I'll leave you two alone
to discuss this.

329
00:15:07,568 --> 00:15:10,967
Uh, i'll come with you.
i have a couple of questions.
wait, alex.

330
00:15:11,034 --> 00:15:13,967
Just think about what you want
to do for a second, okay?

331
00:15:14,034 --> 00:15:16,367
I'll be right back.

332
00:15:24,067 --> 00:15:27,034
You are not
having this surgery.

333
00:15:29,100 --> 00:15:31,534
I need you to not talk
medicine to me, okay?

334
00:15:31,601 --> 00:15:33,733
Talk to me
like i'm your friend,

335
00:15:33,800 --> 00:15:36,733
Like i'm the guy whose cereal
you eat in the morning,

336
00:15:36,800 --> 00:15:38,900
And tell me what to do.
karev--

337
00:15:38,967 --> 00:15:41,534
Please.
karev, i can't tell you
what to do.

338
00:15:41,601 --> 00:15:43,534
What if it was meredith?

339
00:15:43,601 --> 00:15:46,000
What would you do
if you had to choose

340
00:15:46,067 --> 00:15:48,501
Between spending a few more
months with meredith

341
00:15:48,568 --> 00:15:51,000
Knowing she was gonna die--

342
00:15:51,067 --> 00:15:54,700
Watching her hurt,
watching her sick--

343
00:15:54,767 --> 00:15:56,700
Or spending
the rest of your life

344
00:15:56,767 --> 00:15:58,700
With someone
who looked like meredith

345
00:15:58,767 --> 00:16:00,833
But wasn't her anymore?

346
00:16:00,900 --> 00:16:03,668
She's the one good thing
that ever happened to me,

347
00:16:03,733 --> 00:16:05,668
The one good thing.

348
00:16:05,733 --> 00:16:07,668
So i need to know
what to do.

349
00:16:07,733 --> 00:16:11,601
I need you to tell me--
what if it was meredith?

350
00:16:13,367 --> 00:16:16,034
I would ask her
to have the surgery.

351
00:16:19,467 --> 00:16:22,067
(meredith)
you couldn't remember anything.

352
00:16:22,134 --> 00:16:24,034
You didn't know my name.

353
00:16:24,100 --> 00:16:27,867
You didn't know who derek was.
you didn't know who alex was.

354
00:16:27,934 --> 00:16:29,867
You couldn't even remember
how to speak.

355
00:16:29,934 --> 00:16:32,100
How come i don't remember
any of this?

356
00:16:32,167 --> 00:16:35,000
Because the tumor is sitting
right in the middle

357
00:16:35,067 --> 00:16:37,034
Of everything
that makes you you.

358
00:16:37,100 --> 00:16:39,034
I was standing there
talking to you

359
00:16:39,100 --> 00:16:41,568
Exactly like i am now,

360
00:16:41,634 --> 00:16:43,568
Only you weren't there.

361
00:16:43,634 --> 00:16:47,067
You weren't you.
you were gone.

362
00:16:47,134 --> 00:16:49,067
So what do i do?

363
00:16:49,134 --> 00:16:51,634
Well,
swender has a patient--

364
00:16:51,700 --> 00:16:55,301
Female, 22 years old,
metastatic melanoma.

365
00:16:55,367 --> 00:16:58,100
Alison clark?
after three months
of the i.l.-2,

366
00:16:58,167 --> 00:17:02,234
Her mets were gone--
all of them.

367
00:17:02,301 --> 00:17:04,467
You're not having
this surgery.

368
00:17:07,334 --> 00:17:10,401
Don't do it.
that's my vote.

369
00:17:10,467 --> 00:17:12,467
Don't have the surgery.

370
00:17:12,534 --> 00:17:15,334
I didn't.
i freakin' hate surgery.

371
00:17:16,900 --> 00:17:19,668
I'm hallucinating,
alison.

372
00:17:19,733 --> 00:17:21,668
I have
really long conversations

373
00:17:21,733 --> 00:17:23,167
With dead people

374
00:17:23,234 --> 00:17:25,668
And i see things
that aren't...

375
00:17:25,733 --> 00:17:28,167
Like right now,
for example,

376
00:17:28,234 --> 00:17:31,267
I'm pretty certain there aren't
birds flying over your head

377
00:17:31,334 --> 00:17:34,267
Because this is a hospital
and that would be weird,

378
00:17:34,334 --> 00:17:36,967
But that's what i'm seeing.

379
00:17:37,034 --> 00:17:38,467
I have a brain tumor.

380
00:17:38,534 --> 00:17:41,467
Am i really not gonna
let them cut it out?

381
00:17:41,534 --> 00:17:43,467
I didn't let them
cut out mine.

382
00:17:43,534 --> 00:17:45,501
It's like...

383
00:17:45,568 --> 00:17:48,000
Okay, one minute,
i'm this college kid,

384
00:17:48,067 --> 00:17:50,434
Rowing crew
and being an idiot

385
00:17:50,501 --> 00:17:53,434
And forgetting my sunscreen
and thinking it doesn't matter

386
00:17:53,501 --> 00:17:55,434
Because i'm me,

387
00:17:55,501 --> 00:17:58,434
And life has worked out
pretty well for me.

388
00:17:58,501 --> 00:17:59,934
And then the next minute,

389
00:18:00,000 --> 00:18:03,134
They're cutting into my body
every other week.

390
00:18:03,201 --> 00:18:06,733
I had 15 surgeries.

391
00:18:06,800 --> 00:18:11,000
And then i said, enough.

392
00:18:11,067 --> 00:18:12,501
Forget it.

393
00:18:12,568 --> 00:18:16,067
I'll row crew in heaven
or whatever.

394
00:18:16,134 --> 00:18:19,700
And then the i.l.-2 worked.

395
00:18:19,767 --> 00:18:21,201
It worked.

396
00:18:21,267 --> 00:18:23,201
I come here
every three weeks,

397
00:18:23,267 --> 00:18:25,201
I get my medicine,

398
00:18:25,267 --> 00:18:29,967
And... i don't have
a brain tumor anymore.

399
00:18:34,134 --> 00:18:36,367
Look, charlie,
if we admit you,

400
00:18:36,434 --> 00:18:39,167
If we do what you're
asking us to do,

401
00:18:39,234 --> 00:18:41,167
The pain in your leg...

402
00:18:41,234 --> 00:18:44,134
There's no way of knowing
if amputation will cure it.
but it might.

403
00:18:44,201 --> 00:18:46,634
Yes, it might.
and once i get
the prosthetic, then--

404
00:18:46,700 --> 00:18:48,634
Uh, it will be months
before i can even begin

405
00:18:48,700 --> 00:18:50,668
Fitting you
with a prosthetic,

406
00:18:50,733 --> 00:18:53,401
Which won't feel anything
like a new leg, by the way.

407
00:18:53,467 --> 00:18:56,234
It will feel like 5 pounds
of metal that hurts and pinches.

408
00:18:56,301 --> 00:18:58,367
And what if the army says no?
no, no--

409
00:18:58,434 --> 00:19:01,434
What if they don't
take you back?
they will. chances are that--

410
00:19:01,501 --> 00:19:03,534
You really want to take
that chance, charlie?

411
00:19:03,601 --> 00:19:06,534
You're asking me to remove
one of your limbs.
yeah, you think
i don't know that?

412
00:19:06,601 --> 00:19:09,100
You think i want to cut
my leg off? of course not.

413
00:19:09,167 --> 00:19:11,100
Am i sure about this? no.

414
00:19:11,167 --> 00:19:14,668
The only thing i'm sure about
is that i am in hell right now.

415
00:19:14,733 --> 00:19:16,668
<i>that i am sure of.
i've lost everything--</i>

416
00:19:16,733 --> 00:19:18,767
Everything i've worked for,
everything that i care about--

417
00:19:18,833 --> 00:19:20,767
And i've traded it in for

418
00:19:20,833 --> 00:19:23,800
A 6-times-a-day pain-pill habit
that doesn't even work.

419
00:19:23,867 --> 00:19:26,833
So don't waste both our times
by trying to scare me,

420
00:19:26,900 --> 00:19:28,833
Because you do not
scare me, dr. torres.

421
00:19:28,900 --> 00:19:30,833
After everything
i've been through,

422
00:19:30,900 --> 00:19:34,067
Nothing scares me.

423
00:19:35,467 --> 00:19:37,800
So are we gonna do this
or not?

424
00:19:42,434 --> 00:19:43,867
Dr. robbins,

425
00:19:43,934 --> 00:19:46,568
Dr. bailey just performed
seattle grace's

426
00:19:46,634 --> 00:19:49,034
First single-incision
gall bladder removal.

427
00:19:49,100 --> 00:19:50,900
Oh, wow. that's cool.

428
00:19:51,967 --> 00:19:54,234
Through the patient's
belly button.
and now it's kinda creepy.

429
00:19:54,301 --> 00:19:56,700
No, no.
you shoulda seen it.

430
00:19:56,767 --> 00:19:59,234
No scars, no bleeding,
and about half the time

431
00:19:59,301 --> 00:20:01,067
It would've taken
laparoscopically.

432
00:20:01,134 --> 00:20:04,601
You want to do one after lunch?
i've got another coli.
y-you don't mind?

433
00:20:04,668 --> 00:20:06,234
Oh, well, also,

434
00:20:06,301 --> 00:20:08,634
I guess i'm on my own
for this afternoon.

435
00:20:08,700 --> 00:20:10,167
My neuroblastoma?

436
00:20:10,234 --> 00:20:12,301
No, no, no, no.
don't worry. you don't have to.

437
00:20:12,367 --> 00:20:15,501
You'll have the rest of
your life to do neuroblastomas.

438
00:20:15,568 --> 00:20:18,867
Well, then i'll see you
after lunch, sir.
okay.

439
00:20:18,934 --> 00:20:21,167
Chief.

440
00:20:21,234 --> 00:20:23,501
Yes, dr. robbins.

441
00:20:25,867 --> 00:20:27,301
Chief...

442
00:20:27,367 --> 00:20:30,334
Did you want
to tell me something?

443
00:20:30,401 --> 00:20:33,401
I am going to cry,
and i just want you to know

444
00:20:33,467 --> 00:20:35,900
That i know
that it's going to happen,

445
00:20:35,967 --> 00:20:37,900
<i>and i just want you
to ignore it.</i>

446
00:20:37,967 --> 00:20:39,900
And i'm not crying
because i'm upset.

447
00:20:39,967 --> 00:20:42,267
It's just what happens
when i get mad

448
00:20:42,334 --> 00:20:44,634
At people of authority.
you're mad at me?

449
00:20:44,700 --> 00:20:47,434
(crying)
i am mad at you.

450
00:20:47,501 --> 00:20:50,000
And i'm crying because
you're the boss, my boss,

451
00:20:50,067 --> 00:20:52,501
Which brings up my issues
of authority and my dad,

452
00:20:52,568 --> 00:20:55,401
Who you
kind of remind me of.

453
00:20:55,467 --> 00:20:57,401
Not that you're old,
but you command respect.

454
00:20:57,467 --> 00:21:00,100
People respect you.
i mean, i know i do,

455
00:21:00,167 --> 00:21:03,301
And i know bailey does,
which is why i'm mad.

456
00:21:03,367 --> 00:21:06,334
Because it's wrong, sir. it's
wrong and mean to use a robot

457
00:21:06,401 --> 00:21:08,334
To lure dr. bailey
back into general surgery

458
00:21:08,401 --> 00:21:10,334
'cause i don't have a robot.

459
00:21:10,401 --> 00:21:12,334
All i have are little kids,

460
00:21:12,401 --> 00:21:14,334
And... they're not as fun
as a robot.

461
00:21:14,401 --> 00:21:16,334
And they're not shiny
and--and new and silver

462
00:21:16,401 --> 00:21:17,833
And they don't have things

463
00:21:17,900 --> 00:21:19,900
Coming out of
their belly buttons,

464
00:21:19,967 --> 00:21:22,867
But... i will fight you,
and i will win... sir.

465
00:21:22,934 --> 00:21:26,201
You think you can fight me
and win?

466
00:21:26,267 --> 00:21:28,467
Yes.

467
00:21:28,534 --> 00:21:30,800
(chuckles)

468
00:21:30,867 --> 00:21:32,401
Good luck.

469
00:21:32,467 --> 00:21:34,900
Because i have something
that you don't have.

470
00:21:34,967 --> 00:21:36,900
I have joy...

471
00:21:36,967 --> 00:21:39,000
Sir.

472
00:21:41,733 --> 00:21:44,733
<i>(woman speaking indistinctly
over p.a.)</i>

473
00:21:46,501 --> 00:21:47,934
(speaks indistinctly)

474
00:21:48,000 --> 00:21:49,501
What's going on?

475
00:21:49,568 --> 00:21:53,234
Oh, we're just going over,
uh, izzie's i.l.-2 schedule.

476
00:21:53,301 --> 00:21:54,867
Oh, for after the surgery?

477
00:21:58,301 --> 00:22:01,668
I decided not to have
the surgery.

478
00:22:01,733 --> 00:22:03,401
What?

479
00:22:03,467 --> 00:22:05,401
Uh, maybe we should
come back...

480
00:22:05,467 --> 00:22:07,601
Yeah.
dr. yang.

481
00:22:07,668 --> 00:22:09,568
Sure.

482
00:22:12,234 --> 00:22:14,234
You're having the surgery.
what?

483
00:22:14,301 --> 00:22:16,601
Shepherd said
this is your last shot.
but i dec--

484
00:22:16,668 --> 00:22:18,601
Look, i am your husband,

485
00:22:18,668 --> 00:22:22,634
And i say that you are having
the surgery.
what happened to,
"this is your decision"?

486
00:22:22,700 --> 00:22:25,634
That was when i thought you were
gonna make the right one.

487
00:22:25,700 --> 00:22:27,134
But you chose wrong,

488
00:22:27,201 --> 00:22:30,134
So now you don't get to make
this decision on your own,

489
00:22:30,201 --> 00:22:31,733
Because you married me.

490
00:22:31,800 --> 00:22:34,434
It's not just your life
at stake anymore.

491
00:22:34,501 --> 00:22:36,767
It's my life, too,
my life with you.

492
00:22:36,833 --> 00:22:38,767
So you can tell swender
whatever you want,

493
00:22:38,833 --> 00:22:41,267
But i'm telling shepherd
and i'm telling you,

494
00:22:41,334 --> 00:22:43,334
You're having the surgery.

495
00:22:45,833 --> 00:22:48,367
(door slams)

496
00:22:50,934 --> 00:22:51,668
Sync by honeybunny
www.addic7ed.com

497
00:22:51,668 --> 00:22:52,634
Thx to YYeTs.net for the transcript.

498
00:22:55,201 --> 00:22:56,368
She may be your friend,

499
00:22:56,433 --> 00:22:59,001
But that doesn't give you
the right to go in and--

500
00:22:59,067 --> 00:23:01,867
And talk her out of a surgery
you know nothing about.

501
00:23:01,934 --> 00:23:04,001
You're not her doctor.
you're swender's resident.

502
00:23:04,067 --> 00:23:06,567
What you did
is not only inappropriate...
(meredith) derek--

503
00:23:06,634 --> 00:23:09,533
It is unprofessional.
you crossed the line, cristina.
no, she didn't. i did.

504
00:23:09,600 --> 00:23:13,034
I'm the one who convinced izzie
not to have the surgery.

505
00:23:13,101 --> 00:23:16,067
I'm the one you should be
yelling at right now.

506
00:23:16,134 --> 00:23:18,500
Well, i'm gonna go now.

507
00:23:18,567 --> 00:23:21,101
Unless you want
to apologize to--

508
00:23:21,167 --> 00:23:23,600
Okay.

509
00:23:23,667 --> 00:23:26,901
(door closes)

510
00:23:26,967 --> 00:23:29,867
My mother disappeared
right in front of me.

511
00:23:29,934 --> 00:23:32,368
Everything she had,
everything she was--

512
00:23:32,433 --> 00:23:34,368
Her dignity, her memory.

513
00:23:34,433 --> 00:23:36,800
In the end, she wasn't even
my mother anymore.

514
00:23:36,867 --> 00:23:38,800
Izzie is not your mother.

515
00:23:38,867 --> 00:23:41,201
She doesn't have
an untreatable brain condition.

516
00:23:41,268 --> 00:23:44,934
She has a tumor,
and it can be treated.

517
00:23:45,001 --> 00:23:46,934
Don't make this personal,
meredith.
i wasn't.

518
00:23:47,001 --> 00:23:48,867
You went to izzie
as her friend

519
00:23:48,934 --> 00:23:50,867
And you made up her mind
for her.

520
00:23:50,934 --> 00:23:53,600
So now as my resident,
you go back there and change it,

521
00:23:53,667 --> 00:23:55,667
Because this tumor
will kill her.

522
00:23:57,368 --> 00:23:59,334
<i>(woman speaking indistinctly
over p.a.)</i>

523
00:23:59,400 --> 00:24:01,901
Quick consult, dr. yang.

524
00:24:03,901 --> 00:24:05,467
What are you doing?

525
00:24:05,533 --> 00:24:08,234
I've realized,

526
00:24:08,301 --> 00:24:10,234
The reason i haven't
told my mother i'm back

527
00:24:10,301 --> 00:24:12,234
Is because part of me
is still over there.

528
00:24:12,301 --> 00:24:14,800
I made a commitment to the army
that i wasn't able to fulfill.

529
00:24:14,867 --> 00:24:16,800
If my unit
hadn't been destroyed,

530
00:24:16,867 --> 00:24:18,567
I would still be there.

531
00:24:18,634 --> 00:24:20,567
So no wonder
i can't sleep at night

532
00:24:20,634 --> 00:24:23,301
Or--or look my mother
in the eye.

533
00:24:23,368 --> 00:24:25,301
No wonder you and i--
we can't move forward.

534
00:24:25,368 --> 00:24:27,301
My work there isn't done.

535
00:24:27,368 --> 00:24:30,600
Until it is, i have
no business being here.

536
00:24:30,667 --> 00:24:34,767
So... i've decided
to go back.

537
00:24:34,834 --> 00:24:38,134
I have to go.

538
00:24:38,201 --> 00:24:40,268
Cristina, come on.

539
00:24:40,334 --> 00:24:42,667
What? i'm sorry.
what am i supposed to say?

540
00:24:42,734 --> 00:24:45,867
I could use your support.

541
00:24:45,934 --> 00:24:48,667
You don't have it.

542
00:24:53,400 --> 00:24:55,800
Dr. torres.

543
00:24:55,867 --> 00:24:59,034
Dr. o'malley.

544
00:24:59,101 --> 00:25:01,533
I just wanted
to apologize for...

545
00:25:01,600 --> 00:25:03,101
It's okay, charlie.

546
00:25:03,167 --> 00:25:05,700
You don't have to do that.
no, i do,

547
00:25:05,767 --> 00:25:08,700
'cause you were both just trying
to do your job in there,

548
00:25:08,767 --> 00:25:11,201
And your job is to put people
back together,

549
00:25:11,268 --> 00:25:14,134
Not take them apart,
and i get that.

550
00:25:14,201 --> 00:25:16,634
And i know it doesn't
make sense to you

551
00:25:16,700 --> 00:25:19,301
That i would want
to go back to a place

552
00:25:19,368 --> 00:25:21,301
Where people get hurt
and die, but...

553
00:25:21,368 --> 00:25:23,800
We're there because we're
trying to help people,

554
00:25:23,867 --> 00:25:25,800
Save people, same as you.

555
00:25:25,867 --> 00:25:28,634
It's my job, who i am,
it's...

556
00:25:28,700 --> 00:25:30,634
If something happened,

557
00:25:30,700 --> 00:25:33,167
And suddenly you couldn't
be a doctor anymore,

558
00:25:33,234 --> 00:25:36,067
If someone told you
you couldn't do it anymore,

559
00:25:36,134 --> 00:25:39,101
Wouldn't you want to do
everything you could possibly do

560
00:25:39,167 --> 00:25:41,467
To be a doctor again?

561
00:25:45,268 --> 00:25:47,700
(izzie) we haven't even
been married 24 hours yet,

562
00:25:47,767 --> 00:25:50,201
And we've already had
our first fight.

563
00:25:50,268 --> 00:25:51,967
That's a good sign.

564
00:25:52,034 --> 00:25:54,034
Fighting leads to
good makeup sex.

565
00:25:56,767 --> 00:25:59,800
Are you watching birds
fly around my head again?

566
00:25:59,867 --> 00:26:02,734
Am i, like, totally
snow white right now?

567
00:26:02,800 --> 00:26:05,600
I just don't want
to hurt him.

568
00:26:05,667 --> 00:26:07,967
He'll come around.

569
00:26:08,034 --> 00:26:11,001
It might take a while,
but once that tumor disappears,

570
00:26:11,067 --> 00:26:14,001
Once you're back at work,
cutting open other people,

571
00:26:14,067 --> 00:26:16,001
He'll come around.

572
00:26:19,800 --> 00:26:22,001
Is it hummingbirds at least?

573
00:26:23,734 --> 00:26:26,101
I really like hummingbirds.

574
00:26:29,368 --> 00:26:32,634
(meredith)
we need to go talk to izzie.

575
00:26:32,700 --> 00:26:35,134
No, we are not talking izzie
into having surgery

576
00:26:35,201 --> 00:26:37,134
Because your future husband
is mad at you.

577
00:26:37,201 --> 00:26:39,134
But he has a right
to be mad

578
00:26:39,201 --> 00:26:41,301
Because we didn't talk izzie
out of the surgery

579
00:26:41,368 --> 00:26:43,734
As her doctors,
we did it as her friends.

580
00:26:43,800 --> 00:26:46,533
No, our job as doctors
is to present the options,

581
00:26:46,600 --> 00:26:48,034
Answer questions

582
00:26:48,101 --> 00:26:51,034
And let the patient decide
their course of treatment.

583
00:26:51,101 --> 00:26:53,034
That is what we did.
right.

584
00:26:53,101 --> 00:26:55,034
Except i may have presented
her options as,

585
00:26:55,101 --> 00:26:57,600
"you're having the surgery
over my dead body."

586
00:26:57,667 --> 00:26:59,767
(elevator bell dings)

587
00:26:59,834 --> 00:27:02,500
He has a right to be mad.
(pager beeps)

588
00:27:02,567 --> 00:27:04,301
Oh, crap.

589
00:27:04,368 --> 00:27:06,134
Who is it?

590
00:27:06,201 --> 00:27:07,800
(monitor beeping erratically)

591
00:27:07,867 --> 00:27:10,467
Izzie? what the--
what happened?

592
00:27:10,533 --> 00:27:12,167
I don't know.
where's swender?

593
00:27:12,234 --> 00:27:15,667
Izzie, let me take over.
izzie, come sit down.

594
00:27:23,600 --> 00:27:24,800
(monitor beeping rhythmically)

595
00:27:24,867 --> 00:27:26,800
The vessels and nerves
are separated.

596
00:27:26,867 --> 00:27:28,301
Skin flap is done.

597
00:27:28,367 --> 00:27:30,800
Remind me again
why i'm doing this.

598
00:27:30,867 --> 00:27:32,700
Someone
please remind me again.

599
00:27:36,201 --> 00:27:39,134
You don't know what's gonna
happen to this kid,

600
00:27:39,201 --> 00:27:43,967
How many fights he could win,
how many lives he could save.

601
00:27:44,034 --> 00:27:47,067
If you don't do this,

602
00:27:47,134 --> 00:27:49,800
He's never gonna get
the chance.

603
00:27:49,867 --> 00:27:53,234
We're not doing harm.
we're not hurting him.

604
00:27:53,301 --> 00:27:55,000
We are saving him.

605
00:27:55,067 --> 00:27:57,600
We're doing what he wants.

606
00:27:57,667 --> 00:27:59,834
It's what he wants.

607
00:28:10,667 --> 00:28:12,167
(buzzes)

608
00:28:16,767 --> 00:28:19,767
(saw buzzing)

609
00:28:22,800 --> 00:28:24,733
(monitor beeping erratically)

610
00:28:24,800 --> 00:28:26,501
B.p.'s still dropping.

611
00:28:26,568 --> 00:28:28,733
We need more blood.
we need to move faster.

612
00:28:28,800 --> 00:28:31,134
Okay, i'm done.
i'm at the end.

613
00:28:31,201 --> 00:28:33,134
I didn't see
any bowel perforation.

614
00:28:33,201 --> 00:28:35,700
It's there somewhere.
run it again.
dr. swender--

615
00:28:35,767 --> 00:28:38,101
Run it again.

616
00:28:38,167 --> 00:28:40,800
Yes, ma'am.

617
00:28:40,867 --> 00:28:43,534
So much for i.l.-2.

618
00:28:43,600 --> 00:28:46,101
You think
this is my fault?

619
00:28:46,167 --> 00:28:48,700
You think i did this
to her?

620
00:28:48,767 --> 00:28:50,201
No, ma'am.

621
00:28:50,267 --> 00:28:53,767
There is no cure
for cancer, dr. yang.

622
00:28:53,834 --> 00:28:56,767
There's only us, the two of us,
right here, right now,

623
00:28:56,834 --> 00:28:59,700
Fighting this thing
as aggressively as we know how.

624
00:28:59,767 --> 00:29:01,267
And sometimes that means

625
00:29:01,334 --> 00:29:03,733
Pumping toxins into the patient
to kill the cancer,

626
00:29:03,800 --> 00:29:06,900
And yes, sometimes,
not very often, but sometimes,

627
00:29:06,967 --> 00:29:09,301
Those toxins
kill the patient as well.

628
00:29:09,367 --> 00:29:11,434
But alison
had three months to live

629
00:29:11,501 --> 00:29:14,167
When she first came
to see me,

630
00:29:14,234 --> 00:29:17,267
And i have managed to
keep her alive for two years.

631
00:29:17,334 --> 00:29:20,267
So i am not about
to give up on her

632
00:29:20,334 --> 00:29:22,267
Or the i.l.-2 anytime soon,

633
00:29:22,334 --> 00:29:24,967
And neither are you.

634
00:29:29,401 --> 00:29:31,834
<i>(woman speaking indistinctly
over p.a.)</i>

635
00:29:31,900 --> 00:29:34,867
I wasn't asking you
to come see the condo.

636
00:29:34,934 --> 00:29:39,034
I was asking you
to move in with me...

637
00:29:39,101 --> 00:29:42,967
If that's what you want.

638
00:29:43,034 --> 00:29:44,700
I do.

639
00:29:44,767 --> 00:29:46,434
You do?

640
00:29:46,501 --> 00:29:47,934
Yeah. not right away.

641
00:29:48,000 --> 00:29:51,134
No, of course not.
in, like, a year.
ten years.

642
00:29:51,201 --> 00:29:53,767
I'm sorry, what now?
oh, um, well, because i'll--

643
00:29:53,834 --> 00:29:56,867
I'll still be a resident
for, like, six more years,

644
00:29:56,934 --> 00:29:59,867
And--and then i'd want to get
my practice up and running.

645
00:29:59,934 --> 00:30:01,867
So... how about seven?

646
00:30:01,934 --> 00:30:04,800
How about five years?
i'll still be a resident.

647
00:30:04,867 --> 00:30:06,800
So? stevens and karev
are residents.

648
00:30:06,867 --> 00:30:08,900
Meredith's a resident,
bailey's a resident--

649
00:30:08,967 --> 00:30:10,900
All married or soon to be,

650
00:30:10,967 --> 00:30:13,167
And happily... or whatever.

651
00:30:14,800 --> 00:30:17,401
I'm sorry.
are you asking me...

652
00:30:17,468 --> 00:30:19,468
(chuckles) to--to--
to marry you?

653
00:30:19,534 --> 00:30:20,633
<i>no.</i>

654
00:30:20,700 --> 00:30:22,334
(laughs)

655
00:30:22,401 --> 00:30:24,134
Why? would you?

656
00:30:24,201 --> 00:30:27,301
Um, should we be having
this conversation?
no, probably not.

657
00:30:27,367 --> 00:30:29,034
No, i-i--that's... okay.

658
00:30:29,101 --> 00:30:31,034
Impressive work today,
dr. bailey.

659
00:30:31,101 --> 00:30:33,034
(laughs) thank you, sir.
it was fun.

660
00:30:33,101 --> 00:30:35,834
Yeah, it was,
wasn't it?

661
00:30:39,301 --> 00:30:42,167
(pen clicks)

662
00:30:42,234 --> 00:30:45,401
Sounds like you guys
had a good day.

663
00:30:45,468 --> 00:30:48,700
Oh! how did the, uh,
neuroblastoma kid do?

664
00:30:48,767 --> 00:30:51,234
Oh, he was awesome.
the surgery was totally easy,

665
00:30:51,301 --> 00:30:53,234
And he's gonna make
a full recovery.
good.

666
00:30:53,301 --> 00:30:55,700
That's kind of why
i wanted you there.

667
00:30:55,767 --> 00:30:58,000
'cause the kids you can save

668
00:30:58,067 --> 00:31:00,568
Almost make up
for the ones you can't.

669
00:31:00,633 --> 00:31:03,401
Anyways, i'm gonna go
monitor him post-op.

670
00:31:03,468 --> 00:31:06,067
And then i'm gonna tell
his family the good news.

671
00:31:06,134 --> 00:31:09,667
You should stop by,
come see the joy.
okay.

672
00:31:30,767 --> 00:31:37,267
(swender) we had to resect
part of her bowel.

673
00:31:37,334 --> 00:31:40,534
Unfortunately, we weren't
able to finish the surgery

674
00:31:40,600 --> 00:31:42,468
Because she was too unstable.

675
00:31:42,534 --> 00:31:46,101
Right now
she's on a ventilator

676
00:31:46,167 --> 00:31:50,167
Because she can't breathe
on her own.
(breathe catches)

677
00:31:50,234 --> 00:31:53,733
But, uh, you're gonna be able
to finish the surgery, right?

678
00:31:53,800 --> 00:31:57,134
Yes, if she stabilizes.

679
00:31:57,201 --> 00:32:00,067
And then she'll be able
to breathe on her own again?

680
00:32:06,167 --> 00:32:11,501
Your daughter's heart
stopped during surgery,

681
00:32:11,568 --> 00:32:15,167
Which means her brain
wasn't getting oxygen.

682
00:32:15,234 --> 00:32:17,434
So it's unlikely

683
00:32:17,501 --> 00:32:19,367
She'll be able
to come off the ventilator.

684
00:32:21,834 --> 00:32:25,434
(woman sobbing)
oh, god. oh, no.

685
00:32:25,501 --> 00:32:28,900
(sobbing continues)

686
00:32:35,167 --> 00:32:38,034
(crying continues)

687
00:32:41,101 --> 00:32:43,967
(waves crashing)

688
00:33:02,000 --> 00:33:04,267
<i>(george) izzie.</i>

689
00:33:04,334 --> 00:33:06,534
<i>izzie.</i>

690
00:33:06,600 --> 00:33:08,568
Izzie.

691
00:33:08,633 --> 00:33:10,867
You paged me.
are you okay?

692
00:33:10,934 --> 00:33:14,034
No. i don't know what to do.

693
00:33:14,101 --> 00:33:16,534
I don't know if i should
have the surgery.

694
00:33:16,600 --> 00:33:19,201
I think i'm gonna die
either way.

695
00:33:19,267 --> 00:33:21,501
You gotta tell me what to do.
you know what to do.

696
00:33:21,568 --> 00:33:23,401
No, i don't.

697
00:33:23,468 --> 00:33:25,834
I don't.

698
00:33:25,900 --> 00:33:28,568
Yes, you do.

699
00:33:28,633 --> 00:33:30,501
You're just scared to do it.

700
00:33:30,568 --> 00:33:32,934
This back and forth
is just fear.

701
00:33:33,000 --> 00:33:36,568
But you've already made
the decision.

702
00:33:38,667 --> 00:33:40,101
You already made it.

703
00:33:40,167 --> 00:33:43,600
You made it the second
you decided to fight this thing.

704
00:33:45,733 --> 00:33:49,867
Just look...
where you started.

705
00:33:49,934 --> 00:33:52,900
Look where you are now.

706
00:33:52,967 --> 00:33:55,034
I mean, now you're this...

707
00:33:55,101 --> 00:33:57,934
Incredible surgeon...

708
00:33:58,000 --> 00:34:01,301
And teacher.

709
00:34:03,800 --> 00:34:05,733
You're a doer, remember?

710
00:34:05,800 --> 00:34:08,067
(chuckles)

711
00:34:12,034 --> 00:34:16,767
You know exactly
what you have to do.

712
00:34:24,301 --> 00:34:25,733
(knock on door)

713
00:34:25,800 --> 00:34:27,167
Come in.

714
00:34:33,367 --> 00:34:35,334
You can do it.

715
00:34:35,401 --> 00:34:37,900
You can
cut into my brain again.

716
00:34:40,834 --> 00:34:42,301
Okay.

717
00:34:42,367 --> 00:34:45,167
You can do it, but...

718
00:34:45,234 --> 00:34:47,667
I don't want
to end up a vegetable.

719
00:34:47,733 --> 00:34:50,733
Izzie, you won't.
no, just listen.

720
00:34:50,800 --> 00:34:53,633
I want the surgery,
right now,

721
00:34:53,700 --> 00:34:55,633
But if something goes wrong,

722
00:34:55,700 --> 00:34:58,934
I don't want to end up
on a ventilator.

723
00:34:59,000 --> 00:35:01,434
So i'm signing a d.n.r.

724
00:35:12,767 --> 00:35:13,934
Please.
alex--

725
00:35:14,001 --> 00:35:15,433
Look, you went crazy.

726
00:35:15,500 --> 00:35:17,433
When denny signed that d.n.r.,
you went crazy.

727
00:35:17,500 --> 00:35:19,667
Is that what you want?
you want me cutting l-vads?

728
00:35:19,734 --> 00:35:22,534
No, i--
you want to wreck my career?
'cause i will.

729
00:35:22,600 --> 00:35:24,534
I will freakin' cut l-vads
before i let you--

730
00:35:24,600 --> 00:35:26,934
Just st--just wait, stop.

731
00:35:27,001 --> 00:35:30,134
You don't get to quit.
you don't get to quit on me.

732
00:35:30,201 --> 00:35:32,534
Please... tear it up.

733
00:35:32,600 --> 00:35:36,101
The d.n.r.--tear it up.

734
00:35:38,134 --> 00:35:41,300
Where your eyes
are supposed to be right now,

735
00:35:41,367 --> 00:35:44,667
I see white sandy beaches...

736
00:35:44,734 --> 00:35:47,001
And there's an ocean
behind your head,

737
00:35:47,067 --> 00:35:50,067
And there are ghosts
wandering in and out.

738
00:35:51,700 --> 00:35:53,901
I can't live like this.

739
00:35:53,967 --> 00:35:56,201
And i can't live...

740
00:35:56,268 --> 00:35:58,600
(exhales)

741
00:35:58,667 --> 00:36:00,600
If something goes wrong
in that surgery,

742
00:36:00,667 --> 00:36:03,700
I don't want any
extraordinary measures taken

743
00:36:03,767 --> 00:36:05,700
To keep me alive.

744
00:36:05,767 --> 00:36:07,801
It's not what i want.

745
00:36:07,867 --> 00:36:10,467
I went crazy when denny signed
the d.n.r.

746
00:36:10,534 --> 00:36:12,834
Because i didn't understand.

747
00:36:12,901 --> 00:36:14,834
I didn't understand,
but now i do.

748
00:36:14,901 --> 00:36:18,433
And i need you
to understand.

749
00:36:18,500 --> 00:36:20,433
I don't want you
to go crazy.

750
00:36:20,500 --> 00:36:23,201
I want you to have
a brilliant career,

751
00:36:23,268 --> 00:36:26,201
And i hope that i get
to be here for that,

752
00:36:26,268 --> 00:36:29,767
But if i can't, i just want
to go to the other side.

753
00:36:29,834 --> 00:36:32,767
I don't know what's there,
but it's gotta be better

754
00:36:32,834 --> 00:36:35,400
Than hospital beds
and tubes down my throat,

755
00:36:35,467 --> 00:36:37,400
So please...

756
00:36:37,467 --> 00:36:40,101
Please don't cut l-vads.

757
00:36:40,168 --> 00:36:43,134
Just...

758
00:36:43,201 --> 00:36:46,801
If it comes down to it,

759
00:36:46,867 --> 00:36:49,767
Just let me go.

760
00:36:57,967 --> 00:37:00,867
And right now, kiss me.

761
00:37:00,934 --> 00:37:03,734
Please, please just kiss me,
and close your eyes,

762
00:37:03,801 --> 00:37:06,268
Because the beach
is so distracting.

763
00:37:06,333 --> 00:37:07,867
(sighs)

764
00:37:07,934 --> 00:37:10,034
(sniffles)

765
00:37:22,767 --> 00:37:24,667
(sniffles)

766
00:37:30,067 --> 00:37:32,801
I always thought
it would be me.

767
00:37:34,667 --> 00:37:36,600
I'd get alzheimer's
like my mother

768
00:37:36,667 --> 00:37:39,268
And forget everyone.

769
00:37:43,867 --> 00:37:45,934
Let's go
to city hall tomorrow.

770
00:37:47,801 --> 00:37:49,734
I don't want to spend
another day

771
00:37:49,801 --> 00:37:52,067
Not being married to you.

772
00:37:52,134 --> 00:37:54,201
Okay.

773
00:38:15,467 --> 00:38:19,001
It doesn't matter
how good you are

774
00:38:19,067 --> 00:38:21,001
Or how hard you work.

775
00:38:21,067 --> 00:38:23,667
You can do all the research,

776
00:38:23,734 --> 00:38:27,134
You can master
all the latest techniques,

777
00:38:27,201 --> 00:38:29,134
Um, you can be the best,

778
00:38:29,201 --> 00:38:32,168
You can be the best surgeon
in the world...

779
00:38:32,234 --> 00:38:35,734
But your patients
are still gonna die.

780
00:38:37,967 --> 00:38:41,567
'cause the next day
or the next... month

781
00:38:41,634 --> 00:38:44,734
Or next year, you know,
they're just gonna...

782
00:38:44,801 --> 00:38:46,734
(blows air)
get hit by a car

783
00:38:51,567 --> 00:38:55,134
And there's nothing
you can do about it.

784
00:38:58,600 --> 00:39:00,901
I don't want you to die.

785
00:39:15,168 --> 00:39:16,767
You okay?

786
00:39:19,734 --> 00:39:21,767
I cut off a healthy leg.

787
00:39:21,834 --> 00:39:24,268
I just cut it off.

788
00:39:24,333 --> 00:39:26,268
It was
for the patient's own good,

789
00:39:26,333 --> 00:39:28,467
But still,
i feel like a butcher.

790
00:39:28,534 --> 00:39:31,901
My miracle case
is on life support.

791
00:39:31,967 --> 00:39:34,901
I thought i had one...

792
00:39:34,967 --> 00:39:38,767
One miracle.

793
00:39:38,834 --> 00:39:40,667
(sighs)

794
00:39:40,734 --> 00:39:43,201
I hate this job sometimes.

795
00:39:43,268 --> 00:39:46,500
I don't know
why we do this.

796
00:39:48,634 --> 00:39:51,134
Come on. come with me.

797
00:39:59,367 --> 00:40:02,234
Okay,
what are we doing here?

798
00:40:02,300 --> 00:40:04,433
We came to see that.

799
00:40:04,500 --> 00:40:06,201
What?

800
00:40:06,268 --> 00:40:09,300
The joy.

801
00:40:09,367 --> 00:40:11,667
It comes around rarely,

802
00:40:11,734 --> 00:40:14,700
So rarely we forget
it can happen.

803
00:40:17,134 --> 00:40:18,834
But that...

804
00:40:18,901 --> 00:40:21,300
That's why we do this--

805
00:40:21,367 --> 00:40:23,268
The joy.

806
00:40:35,268 --> 00:40:39,467
<i>we spend our whole lives
worrying about the future...</i>

807
00:40:39,534 --> 00:40:43,101
<i>planning for the future,</i>

808
00:40:43,168 --> 00:40:46,734
<i>trying to predict the future...</i>

809
00:40:46,801 --> 00:40:48,667
Will you come with me?

810
00:40:54,700 --> 00:40:58,367
<i>as if figuring it out
will somehow cushion the blow.</i>

811
00:40:58,433 --> 00:41:02,600
<i>but the future
is always changing.</i>

812
00:41:02,667 --> 00:41:04,967
Got one more.

813
00:41:05,034 --> 00:41:08,400
He's a doctor. he says
he needs to do it today.

814
00:41:15,201 --> 00:41:16,667
Come in.

815
00:41:16,734 --> 00:41:20,600
<i>the future is the home
of our deepest fears...</i>

816
00:41:22,901 --> 00:41:25,034
Owen?

817
00:41:25,101 --> 00:41:28,234
Hi, mom.

818
00:41:31,134 --> 00:41:33,268
I'm home.

819
00:41:35,534 --> 00:41:37,433
<i>and our wildest hopes.</i>

820
00:41:45,400 --> 00:41:48,268
<i>but one thing is certain...</i>

821
00:41:49,901 --> 00:41:52,101
<i>when it finally
reveals itself...</i>

822
00:41:52,168 --> 00:41:54,234
Congratulations, doctor.

823
00:41:54,300 --> 00:41:55,867
Welcome to the army.

824
00:41:55,934 --> 00:41:57,367
<i>the future...</i>

825
00:41:57,433 --> 00:41:58,867
Thank you.

826
00:41:58,934 --> 00:42:00,901
<i>is never the way
we imagined it.</i>

827
00:42:13,901 --> 00:42:17,534
(monitor beeping rhythmically)

828
00:42:17,600 --> 00:42:19,700
<i>(meredith)
doctors spend a lot of time</i>

829
00:42:19,767 --> 00:42:22,201
<i>focused on the future...</i>

830
00:42:22,268 --> 00:42:24,700
<i>planning it...</i>

831
00:42:24,767 --> 00:42:27,168
<i>working toward it.</i>

832
00:42:30,300 --> 00:42:31,934
(beeping continues)

833
00:42:32,001 --> 00:42:34,801
<i>but at some point,
you start to realize,</i>

834
00:42:34,867 --> 00:42:37,600
<i>your life is happening now...</i>

835
00:42:37,667 --> 00:42:39,934
Any changes overnight?

836
00:42:40,001 --> 00:42:41,433
No.

837
00:42:41,500 --> 00:42:43,867
<i>not after med school,
not after residency,</i>

838
00:42:43,934 --> 00:42:46,234
<i>right now.</i>

839
00:42:46,300 --> 00:42:48,834
<i>this is it. it's here.</i>

840
00:42:48,901 --> 00:42:50,934
<i>blink and you'll miss it.</i>

841
00:42:51,001 --> 00:42:53,268
(pager beeps)

842
00:42:53,333 --> 00:42:56,268
Oh, it's the chief. somebody
better make a coffee run.

843
00:42:56,333 --> 00:42:58,700
You all look like hell.

844
00:42:58,767 --> 00:43:01,433
(groans) i gotta be
in surgery in ten minutes.

845
00:43:01,500 --> 00:43:03,967
Um, mer,
will you let me know?

846
00:43:04,034 --> 00:43:05,801
Yeah.

847
00:43:05,867 --> 00:43:08,667
We should go, too.
it's probably gonna be a while.

848
00:43:08,734 --> 00:43:10,700
Shepherd said she'd wake up
in the morning.

849
00:43:10,767 --> 00:43:13,300
What did he tell you?
was that all crap?

850
00:43:13,367 --> 00:43:14,801
What did he say?

851
00:43:14,867 --> 00:43:17,534
He said it may be a while.

852
00:43:23,500 --> 00:43:25,567
She's gonna wake up.

853
00:43:42,534 --> 00:43:45,600
(speaking inaudibly)

854
00:43:48,700 --> 00:43:50,734
Stevens still isn't awake.

855
00:43:50,801 --> 00:43:54,400
And i'm having something
of a day even aside from that.

856
00:43:54,467 --> 00:43:57,101
So... don't take
my face personally.

857
00:43:57,168 --> 00:43:59,967
It's just my face today.
did you tell her?

858
00:44:00,034 --> 00:44:02,600
Uh, you should tell her,

859
00:44:02,667 --> 00:44:04,801
And don't take her face
personally.
okay, well...

860
00:44:04,867 --> 00:44:08,034
On behalf of the department
of pediatric surgery,

861
00:44:08,101 --> 00:44:10,567
I'd like to welcome you
to the fellowship program.

862
00:44:10,634 --> 00:44:14,067
You're in! we're gonna get you
a pair of wheelie sneaks.

863
00:44:14,134 --> 00:44:16,234
(richard) congratulations.

864
00:44:18,600 --> 00:44:20,034
All right.

865
00:44:20,101 --> 00:44:23,367
I know i didn't support you
during this process.

866
00:44:23,433 --> 00:44:27,934
In any event,
i am behind you now.

867
00:44:29,934 --> 00:44:32,367
I'm trying to be
a big person here.

868
00:44:32,433 --> 00:44:34,433
How about
you meet me halfway?

869
00:44:37,433 --> 00:44:39,634
(sighs)

870
00:44:39,700 --> 00:44:41,634
(whispering)
wake up. wake up.

871
00:44:41,700 --> 00:44:43,367
Wake up. wake up.

872
00:44:43,433 --> 00:44:46,201
Wake up. wake up.

873
00:44:46,268 --> 00:44:49,634
I have a headache.

874
00:44:49,700 --> 00:44:53,534
(normal voice) you're up?

875
00:44:53,600 --> 00:44:55,700
You're up
and you're talking.

876
00:44:55,767 --> 00:44:57,567
You talked, right?

877
00:44:57,634 --> 00:44:59,067
Talk!

878
00:44:59,134 --> 00:45:01,634
Ow. i said i have
a headache. stop yelling.

879
00:45:01,700 --> 00:45:03,134
Page shepherd!

880
00:45:03,201 --> 00:45:05,134
Ow.
i'm sorry.

881
00:45:05,201 --> 00:45:08,600
Captioned by
closed captioning services, inc.

882
00:45:10,067 --> 00:45:12,734
Hey, what's with
hugging o'malley?

883
00:45:12,801 --> 00:45:14,268
I slept, cristina.

884
00:45:14,333 --> 00:45:17,268
Last night, i slept
for the first time in...

885
00:45:17,333 --> 00:45:19,268
(exhales deeply)
i slept.

886
00:45:19,333 --> 00:45:21,333
And, uh, i don't know,

887
00:45:21,400 --> 00:45:23,333
Hugging o'malley
because you slept?

888
00:45:23,400 --> 00:45:25,867
No, i hugged o'malley
'cause he's got great news,

889
00:45:25,934 --> 00:45:29,333
Which i'll let him tell you,
but, yeah, i... i guess,

890
00:45:29,400 --> 00:45:31,333
Yeah, maybe i hugged him
because i slept.

891
00:45:31,400 --> 00:45:33,134
And that's because of you,

892
00:45:33,201 --> 00:45:35,300
Because you came with me
to see my mom,

893
00:45:35,367 --> 00:45:38,367
And then i slept,
and i slept without nightmares.

894
00:45:38,433 --> 00:45:40,367
That's not a small thing,
cristina.

895
00:45:40,433 --> 00:45:43,367
(whispers)
that... that is everything.

896
00:45:43,433 --> 00:45:45,400
(normal voice)
i can be a better man.

897
00:45:45,467 --> 00:45:47,901
I can be a better man
for you, and if...

898
00:45:47,967 --> 00:45:50,201
I hope, you know,
if you'll let me,

899
00:45:50,268 --> 00:45:52,667
I can be a better man
with you.

900
00:45:52,734 --> 00:45:54,667
No, don't say anything.

901
00:45:54,734 --> 00:45:57,201
Just... just think about it,
okay? okay?

902
00:45:57,268 --> 00:45:58,700
What--

903
00:45:58,767 --> 00:46:00,268
Mm.

904
00:46:05,034 --> 00:46:07,467
Dr. bailey, i need
to tell you something.
oh, not now, o'malley.

905
00:46:07,534 --> 00:46:09,467
I know. it'll be quick
'cause i gotta

906
00:46:09,534 --> 00:46:11,967
Get to the o.r.
to scrub in with the chief.

907
00:46:12,034 --> 00:46:14,467
Now i think you're gonna
be mad at first,

908
00:46:14,534 --> 00:46:16,467
But i'm about to
do something important,

909
00:46:16,534 --> 00:46:18,500
And i'm very sure
about this decision,

910
00:46:18,567 --> 00:46:20,500
And i-i think eventually,
you're gonna be proud.

911
00:46:20,567 --> 00:46:22,101
But, you know, before that,

912
00:46:22,168 --> 00:46:23,767
You're probably
gonna be like...

913
00:46:23,834 --> 00:46:25,767
(imitates miranda)
"what did you do?!"

914
00:46:25,834 --> 00:46:29,101
(normal voice) i'm...
i don't mean to imitate you--
you call that quick?

915
00:46:29,168 --> 00:46:31,168
I joined the army
to be a trauma surgeon.

916
00:46:31,234 --> 00:46:33,934
I report for duty tomorrow.

917
00:46:34,001 --> 00:46:36,168
You did what?!

918
00:46:36,234 --> 00:46:38,168
Yeah, that's where
i thought we'd start.

919
00:46:38,234 --> 00:46:40,667
You know, something's
going on with george.
what?

920
00:46:40,734 --> 00:46:42,834
Owen hugged him.
they were happy.

921
00:46:42,901 --> 00:46:46,034
Well, we don't hug
when we're happy.

922
00:46:46,101 --> 00:46:48,901
Are you better?

923
00:46:48,967 --> 00:46:50,067
What?

924
00:46:50,134 --> 00:46:52,634
You know, with your therapy.
uh, whatever.

925
00:46:52,700 --> 00:46:55,634
You said you got well.
well, are you... better?

926
00:46:55,700 --> 00:46:59,168
Or are you just, you know,
fake better?
what do you mean?

927
00:46:59,234 --> 00:47:01,834
I'm asking you if people,
you know...

928
00:47:01,901 --> 00:47:03,834
I mean, are you
actually different?

929
00:47:03,901 --> 00:47:06,667
I mean,
do you feel different?

930
00:47:06,734 --> 00:47:09,433
I'm getting married today.
mm-hmm. city hall.

931
00:47:09,500 --> 00:47:11,934
No muss, no fuss.
just quick and dirty.

932
00:47:12,001 --> 00:47:14,433
Well, uh...
do you want me to come?

933
00:47:14,500 --> 00:47:16,433
No, no.
just letting you know.

934
00:47:16,500 --> 00:47:18,500
Oh, no, wait. uh, uh...

935
00:47:18,567 --> 00:47:20,767
Okay,
this is my grocery list.

936
00:47:20,834 --> 00:47:25,034
It's old.
uh, this--this is new.

937
00:47:25,101 --> 00:47:29,134
Um, this is my favorite pen,
so i want it back. borrowed.

938
00:47:29,201 --> 00:47:32,168
And all of it's blue,
so you're covered.

939
00:47:32,234 --> 00:47:35,333
Now see, if we were
george and owen,

940
00:47:35,400 --> 00:47:37,567
We would hug right now.

941
00:47:40,201 --> 00:47:42,867
(siren wailing)

942
00:47:42,934 --> 00:47:45,034
Dude.

943
00:47:45,101 --> 00:47:47,367
Unidentified male,
dragged by a bus.

944
00:47:47,433 --> 00:47:49,367
He's clamped down,
so we couldn't intubate.

945
00:47:49,433 --> 00:47:52,367
Didn't they stop
when they hit him?
bus driver
didn't know he was there

946
00:47:52,433 --> 00:47:55,333
Until he got
halfway down the block.
oh, is he gonna be okay?

947
00:47:55,400 --> 00:47:57,367
Okay, i'll take over c.p.r.

948
00:47:57,433 --> 00:48:00,234
(owen) push 20 etomidate
and 100 of sux.

949
00:48:00,300 --> 00:48:03,834
(monitor beeping erratically)

950
00:48:03,901 --> 00:48:05,467
He saved my life.

951
00:48:05,534 --> 00:48:09,067
The bus was gonna hit me.
he threw me out of the way.

952
00:48:09,134 --> 00:48:12,700
Grey, get her out of here.
it was supposed to be me
under the bus. he's all alone.

953
00:48:12,767 --> 00:48:15,867
They don't even know
who he is. please.
all right, stand over there
and just don't move.

954
00:48:15,934 --> 00:48:18,834
He's back.
(callie) okay, let's get
a trauma series,

955
00:48:18,901 --> 00:48:20,934
Trauma labs
and o-neg blood in here.

956
00:48:21,001 --> 00:48:23,734
Severe avulsion injury
to the left forearm.

957
00:48:29,367 --> 00:48:31,600
Whoa.
okay,
his skull is bashed in.

958
00:48:31,667 --> 00:48:33,734
Page shepherd.
and sloan.

959
00:48:33,801 --> 00:48:36,801
Start antibiotics and start
cleaning out those wounds.
(vomits)

960
00:48:36,867 --> 00:48:39,134
(callie) uh...
(groans)

961
00:48:39,201 --> 00:48:41,467
Now can you get her
out of here?

962
00:48:43,967 --> 00:48:45,901
Did you get the whole thing?

963
00:48:45,967 --> 00:48:47,901
Did you get
the whole tumor out?

964
00:48:47,967 --> 00:48:49,901
Just let me finish
my exam.

965
00:48:49,967 --> 00:48:51,901
Can you tell me
your name?

966
00:48:51,967 --> 00:48:54,901
My name is isobel stevens.
it's 2009.

967
00:48:54,967 --> 00:48:59,201
And i'm in the... neuro i.c.u.
at seattle grace hospital.

968
00:48:59,268 --> 00:49:03,433
Did you get
the damn thing out?
got the whole damn thing.

969
00:49:03,500 --> 00:49:06,168
You got it?
yeah.

970
00:49:06,234 --> 00:49:09,567
Oh, god. you got
the whole thing.

971
00:49:09,634 --> 00:49:11,400
And i can talk
and i know my name

972
00:49:11,467 --> 00:49:13,734
And i'm not a turnip.
nope.

973
00:49:13,801 --> 00:49:16,034
No offense.
oh, no.

974
00:49:16,101 --> 00:49:18,234
You are a great surgeon,
but i really thought

975
00:49:18,300 --> 00:49:21,234
I was gonna be a turnip.

976
00:49:21,300 --> 00:49:23,567
This is so unbelievably great.

977
00:49:23,634 --> 00:49:25,567
Your, uh, kidneys
are a little sluggish,

978
00:49:25,634 --> 00:49:28,767
So we're just gonna keep
an eye on your electrolytes

979
00:49:28,834 --> 00:49:30,767
For a few hours.

980
00:49:30,834 --> 00:49:34,467
Your post-op crit was--
was fine.
okay, good. good.

981
00:49:34,534 --> 00:49:36,901
Good.

982
00:49:38,834 --> 00:49:40,867
How did the surgery go?

983
00:49:40,934 --> 00:49:44,300
Did you get the brain tumor?
did you get it out?

984
00:49:44,367 --> 00:49:46,433
Iz, you just
asked him that.

985
00:49:46,500 --> 00:49:48,268
We just talked about it.

986
00:49:48,333 --> 00:49:51,367
No, no, it's okay. she's gonna
be foggy for a while.

987
00:49:51,433 --> 00:49:52,867
The tumor's out.

988
00:49:52,934 --> 00:49:55,201
There was a little bleeding
during the post--

989
00:49:55,268 --> 00:49:57,201
You got it?
yeah.

990
00:49:57,268 --> 00:49:59,201
All of it?
mm-hmm.

991
00:49:59,268 --> 00:50:02,268
That's amazing.

992
00:50:02,333 --> 00:50:05,801
Derek shepherd,
you... are a hero.

993
00:50:05,867 --> 00:50:08,467
And i know that
that's derek shepherd.

994
00:50:08,534 --> 00:50:12,801
And you're alex.
and you should kiss me.

995
00:50:15,667 --> 00:50:17,034
Alex...

996
00:50:17,101 --> 00:50:19,700
I don't have a brain tumor.

997
00:50:19,767 --> 00:50:21,201
I'm tumor-free.

998
00:50:21,268 --> 00:50:22,967
(alex) yes, you are.

999
00:50:27,067 --> 00:50:30,667
What's wrong?
why do you look weird?

1000
00:50:30,734 --> 00:50:32,867
No, nothing. nothing.

1001
00:50:32,934 --> 00:50:34,867
Uh, your kidneys
are a little slow.

1002
00:50:34,934 --> 00:50:37,067
We're just gonna watch them.

1003
00:50:37,134 --> 00:50:40,500
Okay. so you'll just recheck
my electrolytes in an hour?
mm-hmm.

1004
00:50:40,567 --> 00:50:41,634
Okay.

1005
00:50:41,700 --> 00:50:44,134
How did the surgery go?

1006
00:50:46,333 --> 00:50:48,901
Did you get the tumor?

1007
00:50:51,001 --> 00:50:53,500
We did.

1008
00:50:53,567 --> 00:50:55,201
The tumor's gone.

1009
00:50:55,268 --> 00:50:57,201
There was a little bit
of bleeding,

1010
00:50:57,268 --> 00:50:59,201
And we took care of that.

1011
00:50:59,268 --> 00:51:01,333
You got it?
mm-hmm.

1012
00:51:01,400 --> 00:51:04,001
Oh, my god.

1013
00:51:04,067 --> 00:51:07,201
And i can talk,
and you didn't kill me.

1014
00:51:07,268 --> 00:51:11,967
What's wrong with you people?
we should be celebrating.

1015
00:51:12,034 --> 00:51:14,034
(cristina) we will.

1016
00:51:15,433 --> 00:51:17,201
She's like the woman

1017
00:51:17,268 --> 00:51:19,700
Who couldn't remember
her husband was dead.

1018
00:51:19,767 --> 00:51:22,834
We had to keep telling her
every five minutes.
could be a perfectly normal
post-operative haze.

1019
00:51:22,901 --> 00:51:25,001
Or the bleeding
during the procedure

1020
00:51:25,067 --> 00:51:27,734
Blitzed
her short-term retention.

1021
00:51:27,800 --> 00:51:29,834
Did you screw up her brain?
karev--

1022
00:51:29,901 --> 00:51:32,600
(pager beeps)
i'll be back.
try and stay calm.

1023
00:51:32,667 --> 00:51:34,600
Freaking her out
is not gonna help.

1024
00:51:34,667 --> 00:51:38,167
(sighs)

1025
00:51:38,234 --> 00:51:40,634
Wake up.

1026
00:51:40,700 --> 00:51:42,901
(siren wailing)
whoa.

1027
00:51:42,967 --> 00:51:44,901
Man versus bus.
the bus won.

1028
00:51:44,967 --> 00:51:48,067
Check out the left arm.

1029
00:51:48,134 --> 00:51:50,234
(monitor beeping erratically)
he's crashing again!

1030
00:51:50,301 --> 00:51:52,734
What do we got?
we got roadkill.

1031
00:51:52,800 --> 00:51:55,467
You mind? he stepped out
in front of a moving bus

1032
00:51:55,533 --> 00:51:58,301
So he could pull a woman
out of the way. he's a hero.
(callie) can you fix the arm?

1033
00:51:58,368 --> 00:52:00,368
Fingers are already blue.
if it's gonna happen,

1034
00:52:00,433 --> 00:52:02,800
It's gotta be
in the next few hours.
pupil's blown. stop c.p.r.

1035
00:52:02,867 --> 00:52:04,567
Okay, give me
a cranial drill, please.

1036
00:52:04,634 --> 00:52:07,368
Grey, want to practice
your, uh, burr holes?
(razor buzzes)

1037
00:52:07,433 --> 00:52:09,734
(derek) stabilize his neck,
please, nurse.

1038
00:52:09,800 --> 00:52:11,634
(monitor continues
beeping erratically)

1039
00:52:11,700 --> 00:52:14,400
Okay, hand her the drill.

1040
00:52:14,467 --> 00:52:16,700
Okay, go in slowly.
when you feel it grab, stop,

1041
00:52:16,767 --> 00:52:18,800
'cause otherwise you're gonna
be hitting the brain.

1042
00:52:18,867 --> 00:52:20,834
(drill whirring)
okay, let's go. quickly.

1043
00:52:20,901 --> 00:52:23,667
(beeping continues)

1044
00:52:23,734 --> 00:52:25,834
(whirring continues)

1045
00:52:25,901 --> 00:52:27,700
(drill tone deepens)
right there!

1046
00:52:27,767 --> 00:52:30,467
(owen) pull back, pull back!
that's it.
(mark) that's enough!

1047
00:52:30,533 --> 00:52:33,234
(beeping slows
and returns to normal rhythm)

1048
00:52:33,301 --> 00:52:35,134
Nice work, dr. grey.

1049
00:52:35,201 --> 00:52:38,001
I'm gonna go get
some bacitracin for that face.

1050
00:52:38,067 --> 00:52:40,001
All right. let's get
his head rotated. easy.

1051
00:52:40,067 --> 00:52:43,734
Watch--watch his neck.
welcome back, sir. you had us
worried there for a minute.

1052
00:52:43,800 --> 00:52:46,767
(indistinct conversations)

1053
00:52:46,834 --> 00:52:48,967
You think
he's gonna make it?

1054
00:52:49,034 --> 00:52:50,467
I hope so.

1055
00:52:50,533 --> 00:52:54,201
He really has to make it.

1056
00:52:54,268 --> 00:52:56,533
Oh.

1057
00:52:56,600 --> 00:52:58,167
Dr. sloan.

1058
00:52:58,234 --> 00:53:00,667
There's gonna be
too much tension.

1059
00:53:00,734 --> 00:53:03,834
Start over
and do a layered closure.

1060
00:53:03,901 --> 00:53:07,700
Um, c--uh, c-can i ask
a question about that?

1061
00:53:12,067 --> 00:53:15,500
Okay. you brought up
moving in together

1062
00:53:15,567 --> 00:53:17,867
And marriage,
and i put it off.

1063
00:53:17,934 --> 00:53:19,934
And now you're embarrassed

1064
00:53:20,001 --> 00:53:22,800
And you won't make
eye contact with me because

1065
00:53:22,867 --> 00:53:25,400
You feel that i have all
the power in the relationship,

1066
00:53:25,467 --> 00:53:28,368
But i don't want all the power
in the relationship.

1067
00:53:28,433 --> 00:53:31,533
I--i'm happy to share it.
can we just skip this part?

1068
00:53:31,600 --> 00:53:34,533
Get some 4-0 vicryl so you can
redo your patient's sutures.

1069
00:53:34,600 --> 00:53:35,734
(sighs)

1070
00:53:35,800 --> 00:53:39,234
(glove snaps)

1071
00:53:39,301 --> 00:53:42,500
I'll totally pretend
i didn't hear any of that.

1072
00:53:42,567 --> 00:53:45,700
Women do this to me.
i don't do this.

1073
00:53:45,767 --> 00:53:48,400
"let's get a house together."
sucks being the girl, huh?

1074
00:53:48,467 --> 00:53:51,201
I'm not the girl.
(glove snaps)

1075
00:53:51,268 --> 00:53:53,600
What do girls do?

1076
00:53:53,667 --> 00:53:57,600
Well, uh, we start
with the cold shoulder,

1077
00:53:57,667 --> 00:53:59,767
So you're right on track.

1078
00:53:59,834 --> 00:54:01,901
And we go to our girlfriends
and we bitch,

1079
00:54:01,967 --> 00:54:04,834
And our girlfriends say,
"you want to build a future,

1080
00:54:04,901 --> 00:54:06,834
"build it yourself.

1081
00:54:06,901 --> 00:54:09,500
"you don't need a man
to give you that.

1082
00:54:09,567 --> 00:54:12,167
"so you want to buy a house?

1083
00:54:12,234 --> 00:54:14,634
Buy a house."

1084
00:54:14,700 --> 00:54:16,533
Huh.

1085
00:54:16,600 --> 00:54:18,034
You're good at this.

1086
00:54:18,101 --> 00:54:21,500
(chuckles) i ought to help
someone get a love life.

1087
00:54:21,567 --> 00:54:24,034
I suck at my own.

1088
00:54:24,101 --> 00:54:27,734
He jumped in front of a bus...
for me.

1089
00:54:27,800 --> 00:54:29,600
(indistinct conversations)

1090
00:54:29,667 --> 00:54:32,101
What did you do to o'malley?
excuse me?

1091
00:54:32,167 --> 00:54:34,533
Uh, somebody else around here
likely to convince someone

1092
00:54:34,600 --> 00:54:36,967
To join the army and be
a trauma surgeon in iraq?

1093
00:54:37,034 --> 00:54:38,901
(callie) what?!
the army?!

1094
00:54:38,967 --> 00:54:41,234
What?
(monitor beeping erratically)

1095
00:54:41,301 --> 00:54:43,734
(meredith) v-fib.
charge the paddles to 360.

1096
00:54:43,800 --> 00:54:46,800
Just call who you have to call
and undo this.
dr. bailey,
little busy here.

1097
00:54:46,867 --> 00:54:49,001
Clear.
george?
george o'malley?

1098
00:54:49,067 --> 00:54:50,800
It wasn't my idea.
no change.

1099
00:54:50,867 --> 00:54:52,901
Charge again.
clear.

1100
00:54:52,967 --> 00:54:56,101
I did what i could to give him
a decent education in trauma.

1101
00:54:56,167 --> 00:54:59,201
I didn't know
he was gonna go and enlist.

1102
00:54:59,268 --> 00:55:01,467
He keeps coding.
here's why--
open-book pelvic fracture.

1103
00:55:01,533 --> 00:55:03,334
There's too much bleeding.

1104
00:55:03,400 --> 00:55:05,800
We take him to an o.r. now,
he'll die on the table.

1105
00:55:05,867 --> 00:55:08,268
He needs to go to angio
if we're gonna stop

1106
00:55:08,334 --> 00:55:10,433
The pelvic arterial bleeding.
sinus tach.
we have a rhythm.

1107
00:55:10,500 --> 00:55:13,600
It's barely there,
but it's there.
(owen)
let's stabilize the pelvis.

1108
00:55:13,667 --> 00:55:16,400
I know what goes on
in this hospital.

1109
00:55:16,467 --> 00:55:19,268
I know you're messed up
from that war,

1110
00:55:19,334 --> 00:55:21,500
And not in a small way.
get him out of it.

1111
00:55:21,567 --> 00:55:24,301
Page me if you need me.
i've got other patients.

1112
00:55:24,368 --> 00:55:26,067
(monitor beeping rhythmically)

1113
00:55:26,134 --> 00:55:28,301
How'd you piss off
all the women?

1114
00:55:28,368 --> 00:55:31,767
(exhales deeply) um,
let's get our guy to angio.

1115
00:55:31,834 --> 00:55:36,167
Angio?
he's barely got a pulse.
it's now or never if we
want him to live. let's move.

1116
00:55:36,234 --> 00:55:37,667
Sir, i know it's tough,

1117
00:55:37,734 --> 00:55:39,667
But i'd personally
be very grateful

1118
00:55:39,734 --> 00:55:42,867
If you'd try and stay alive
for the next few minutes.

1119
00:55:44,751 --> 00:55:47,884
Maybe we're bouncier in peds
than in general surgery,

1120
00:55:47,951 --> 00:55:50,217
But i thought that
there would be a "yay"

1121
00:55:50,283 --> 00:55:52,684
Or some jumping around.

1122
00:55:52,751 --> 00:55:55,417
'cause you look pretty dour
for someone

1123
00:55:55,484 --> 00:55:57,984
Who's about to start
a highly prized fellowship.

1124
00:55:58,051 --> 00:56:00,984
<i>you are about to start a highly
prized fellowship, right?</i>

1125
00:56:01,051 --> 00:56:04,917
Hey, i've got a plan
to stop george. are you in?
stop george from what?

1126
00:56:04,984 --> 00:56:07,183
He joined the army.
yes, i'm in.

1127
00:56:07,250 --> 00:56:11,250
Bailey,
i'm talking to you.

1128
00:56:11,317 --> 00:56:13,417
(sighs) why are you
trying to stop him?

1129
00:56:13,484 --> 00:56:15,751
Because he joined the army.
and?

1130
00:56:15,817 --> 00:56:18,084
And because he's
my ex-husband,

1131
00:56:18,150 --> 00:56:20,517
And i know his mom
and i love his mom,

1132
00:56:20,584 --> 00:56:23,417
And normally izzie would
talk sense into him,

1133
00:56:23,484 --> 00:56:26,051
But she's got cancer and kind of
a bad mental deficit,

1134
00:56:26,118 --> 00:56:29,084
So it's on me to stop him.
but why would you want
to stop him?

1135
00:56:29,150 --> 00:56:31,417
Because he joined the army.

1136
00:56:31,484 --> 00:56:34,384
Don't you think
that's a problem?
i think that's awesome.

1137
00:56:34,450 --> 00:56:36,684
Awesome?

1138
00:56:40,917 --> 00:56:42,851
(indistinct conversations)

1139
00:56:42,917 --> 00:56:45,051
You gonna chew?
(mouth full) mm.

1140
00:56:45,118 --> 00:56:47,250
My dragged-under-a-bus guy's
in angio,

1141
00:56:47,317 --> 00:56:49,751
And they're gonna
page me any minute.

1142
00:56:49,817 --> 00:56:52,384
How's izzie?
is she retaining anything?
no.

1143
00:56:52,450 --> 00:56:54,550
Okay, uh, at 6:00 p.m.,

1144
00:56:54,617 --> 00:56:57,417
Your idiotic colleague
george o'malley

1145
00:56:57,484 --> 00:56:59,917
Will finish his surgery
with the chief.
and at 6:00 p.m.,

1146
00:56:59,984 --> 00:57:02,784
You will be standing beside us
in the o.r. hallway,

1147
00:57:02,851 --> 00:57:06,250
Prepared to join
in an intervention.
what polite company
might call an intervention,

1148
00:57:06,317 --> 00:57:08,417
Though i'm not sure
interventions

1149
00:57:08,484 --> 00:57:11,150
Involve whooping people
on the behind with a belt.

1150
00:57:11,217 --> 00:57:13,617
What, he's got
a drinking problem now?
he joined the army.

1151
00:57:13,684 --> 00:57:15,951
What?!
007? he can't go to army.

1152
00:57:16,018 --> 00:57:19,217
He's the guy
that gets killed.
he's that guy who gets killed
cleaning his own gun.

1153
00:57:19,283 --> 00:57:22,217
Grey is going to coax him back
as a loving friend.

1154
00:57:22,283 --> 00:57:24,951
You are going to use logic
and reason

1155
00:57:25,018 --> 00:57:27,283
To point out the idiocy
of his ways.

1156
00:57:27,350 --> 00:57:29,283
Stevens will make
sad cancer eyes.

1157
00:57:29,350 --> 00:57:32,617
And if all of that doesn't work,
karev, you're gonna pull out

1158
00:57:32,684 --> 00:57:35,951
Your "i was raised out back
with the trash cans" roots

1159
00:57:36,018 --> 00:57:38,951
And just beat the crap
out of him.
6:00.

1160
00:57:39,018 --> 00:57:40,118
6:00.

1161
00:57:40,183 --> 00:57:42,651
(pager beeps)

1162
00:57:45,684 --> 00:57:47,617
Hey there.

1163
00:57:47,684 --> 00:57:51,118
I know this must be scary,
but if it's any consolation,

1164
00:57:51,183 --> 00:57:52,784
You're a hard-core hero.

1165
00:57:52,851 --> 00:57:54,684
You saved that woman's life.

1166
00:58:00,550 --> 00:58:04,484
I-is he trying
to write something?

1167
00:58:09,684 --> 00:58:13,150
Can you hold this?

1168
00:58:13,217 --> 00:58:14,851
(pen clatters)

1169
00:58:19,651 --> 00:58:21,417
Oh, okay.

1170
00:58:21,484 --> 00:58:24,917
You'll be stronger tomorrow.

1171
00:58:24,984 --> 00:58:28,317
(owen) call o.r. one.
tell 'em to get ready for him.

1172
00:58:31,317 --> 00:58:33,917
Amanda,
you can't be out here.

1173
00:58:33,984 --> 00:58:38,118
Would you want to be all alone
at a time like this?

1174
00:58:38,183 --> 00:58:40,484
We had 30 seconds
of interaction

1175
00:58:40,550 --> 00:58:42,651
Before he saved my life,

1176
00:58:42,717 --> 00:58:46,417
And... and i wasn't
even nice.

1177
00:58:46,484 --> 00:58:50,550
I was standing on a corner
when this...

1178
00:58:50,617 --> 00:58:53,951
Ordinary-looking guy
stands next to me and smiles,

1179
00:58:54,018 --> 00:58:57,350
And... and i'm so busy

1180
00:58:57,417 --> 00:59:01,550
Scoping for someone hotter
that...

1181
00:59:01,617 --> 00:59:04,917
I don't even
give him a second look.

1182
00:59:04,984 --> 00:59:07,283
And next thing i know,
he throws me

1183
00:59:07,350 --> 00:59:10,317
Out of the way of a bus
i'm about to walk in front of

1184
00:59:10,384 --> 00:59:12,317
And almost
gets himself killed.

1185
00:59:12,384 --> 00:59:15,884
He literally...
he swept me off my feet.

1186
00:59:15,951 --> 00:59:20,617
That is my prince
in that bed.

1187
00:59:20,684 --> 00:59:24,984
Okay, you can stay until
they take him to surgery.

1188
00:59:36,084 --> 00:59:39,317
Uh, not a good time.
you know what?
you walk away from me again,

1189
00:59:39,384 --> 00:59:42,317
I swear i will grab you
by the hair and pull hard.

1190
00:59:42,384 --> 00:59:44,317
I grew up
with the name arizona.

1191
00:59:44,384 --> 00:59:46,751
I learned how to play dirty
on the playground.

1192
00:59:46,817 --> 00:59:50,984
I stuck my neck out for you.
you were my pick.
and i appreciate that,
but it's a big decision.

1193
00:59:51,051 --> 00:59:53,817
It's not, frankly.
it's the brass ring.

1194
00:59:53,884 --> 00:59:55,817
It's the most exclusive,
it's the most competitive,

1195
00:59:55,884 --> 00:59:57,817
And we're as good
as it gets.

1196
00:59:57,884 --> 00:59:59,817
Nobody lands this thing
and says no.

1197
00:59:59,884 --> 01:00:01,817
My husband
informed me yesterday

1198
01:00:01,884 --> 01:00:03,817
That if i accept
the peds fellowship,

1199
01:00:03,884 --> 01:00:06,317
If i sign on for another
two years of training

1200
01:00:06,384 --> 01:00:09,584
And the hours and the workload
that come with it

1201
01:00:09,651 --> 01:00:11,584
When i could be
a general surgery attending

1202
01:00:11,651 --> 01:00:13,584
And make it home for dinner,

1203
01:00:13,651 --> 01:00:16,517
He will divorce me.

1204
01:00:16,584 --> 01:00:19,150
it's a big decision.

1205
01:00:28,984 --> 01:00:31,750
<i>(woman speaking indistinctly
over p.a.)</i>

1206
01:00:31,817 --> 01:00:34,384
You're gonna have a hard time
saving that arm.

1207
01:00:34,451 --> 01:00:36,384
I can get him back
to full function

1208
01:00:36,451 --> 01:00:38,384
If i can get there in time.

1209
01:00:38,451 --> 01:00:40,484
I'm thinking about
buying a house.
good for you.

1210
01:00:40,551 --> 01:00:43,484
Meredith and i are gonna go
to city hall this afternoon.

1211
01:00:43,551 --> 01:00:45,217
We're getting married.
really?

1212
01:00:45,284 --> 01:00:46,217
Mm-hmm.

1213
01:00:46,284 --> 01:00:48,618
That's great news.
i know.

1214
01:00:48,683 --> 01:00:50,884
If i could just
save stevens---

1215
01:00:50,950 --> 01:00:53,750
You're allowed to be happy.
you're allowed to get married.

1216
01:00:53,817 --> 01:00:55,251
You've earned that right.

1217
01:00:55,317 --> 01:00:57,551
Congratulations,
you lucky bastard.

1218
01:00:57,618 --> 01:00:59,384
Come here.
give me a hug.

1219
01:00:59,451 --> 01:01:00,551
Oh.

1220
01:01:00,618 --> 01:01:02,084
Why is
everyone hugging today?

1221
01:01:02,151 --> 01:01:03,584
Oh, the blushing bride.

1222
01:01:03,650 --> 01:01:06,084
All right, here is the plan
for our john doe.

1223
01:01:06,151 --> 01:01:07,750
Shepherd, you'll evacuate
the epidural.

1224
01:01:07,817 --> 01:01:10,451
Grey and i will correct
the internal injuries.

1225
01:01:10,518 --> 01:01:13,484
That'll make room for torres
to place the internal fixator.

1226
01:01:13,551 --> 01:01:17,050
Sloan, you should still have
time to work on the arm

1227
01:01:17,117 --> 01:01:19,584
If the patient doesn't get
too acidotic or hypothermic.

1228
01:01:19,683 --> 01:01:22,917
Do you think he has a shot?
i've seen people
come back from worse.

1229
01:01:24,984 --> 01:01:26,917
Hey, i thought
you were in surgery.

1230
01:01:26,984 --> 01:01:29,417
I'm on my way.
have you talked to bailey

1231
01:01:29,484 --> 01:01:33,584
About this peds
and tucker thing?
no, i talked to bailey about
the army thing and george.

1232
01:01:33,650 --> 01:01:35,518
Are you upset with me?

1233
01:01:35,584 --> 01:01:36,783
(chuckles)

1234
01:01:36,850 --> 01:01:39,984
No, i'm awesome.

1235
01:01:40,050 --> 01:01:43,618
Calliope--
no, do not--
do not "calliope" me, okay?

1236
01:01:43,683 --> 01:01:45,251
You said it was awesome.

1237
01:01:45,317 --> 01:01:48,184
George--sweet, kind george
who can't even kill a fly--

1238
01:01:48,251 --> 01:01:50,184
Is joining the army
to go to iraq

1239
01:01:50,251 --> 01:01:53,850
In the middle of a war,
and you said "awesome."
it is awesome.

1240
01:01:53,917 --> 01:01:57,484
No, it is not awesome.
god! who are you?

1241
01:01:57,551 --> 01:01:59,783
**

1242
01:01:59,850 --> 01:02:02,783
(derek) how's the arm?
(mark) the nerves
are still intact.

1243
01:02:02,850 --> 01:02:05,783
Just have to reattach
the vessels.
you ready for me?

1244
01:02:05,850 --> 01:02:08,317
I'm almost done with the major
internal crush injuries.

1245
01:02:08,384 --> 01:02:10,618
Pelvis will be all yours
in a minute.

1246
01:02:10,683 --> 01:02:13,317
Give me
some more laps, please.
you think you could do it?

1247
01:02:13,384 --> 01:02:16,151
Step in front of a bus
for a perfect stranger?
(callie) we'd all like
to think we would, but--

1248
01:02:16,217 --> 01:02:18,683
That's more or less
what major hunt's been doing

1249
01:02:18,750 --> 01:02:21,950
Every day
for the last couple of years.
oh, no, the guys did.
i just came in behind 'em

1250
01:02:22,017 --> 01:02:25,484
With a dustpan and a broom
and swept up.

1251
01:02:25,551 --> 01:02:29,017
You sewed up soldiers
under fire.

1252
01:02:29,084 --> 01:02:31,850
You didn't sweep up.

1253
01:02:31,917 --> 01:02:34,317
How do you think o'malley
is gonna do over there?

1254
01:02:34,384 --> 01:02:37,351
You think--you think
he can handle it?
no, i don't.

1255
01:02:37,417 --> 01:02:39,351
I think he's gonna
surprise us all.

1256
01:02:39,417 --> 01:02:41,417
I think he's coming back
in a body bag.

1257
01:02:41,484 --> 01:02:44,384
I think you all
should just shut up.

1258
01:02:44,451 --> 01:02:46,518
Just shut the hell up.

1259
01:02:46,584 --> 01:02:48,783
Please. shut up.

1260
01:02:48,850 --> 01:02:51,950
**

1261
01:02:53,384 --> 01:02:56,050
"shepherd got
your whole tumor out."

1262
01:02:56,117 --> 01:02:58,351
Oh, my god.

1263
01:02:58,417 --> 01:03:02,184
Alex, why didn't you tell me?
oh, my god.

1264
01:03:02,251 --> 01:03:04,917
Oh.
but we're working on it.

1265
01:03:04,984 --> 01:03:08,184
You remember what time
you woke up this morning?

1266
01:03:08,251 --> 01:03:09,683
Um, not exactly.

1267
01:03:09,750 --> 01:03:11,017
7:45.

1268
01:03:11,084 --> 01:03:13,717
7:45.
"o'malley joined the army"?

1269
01:03:13,783 --> 01:03:16,184
What?
yeah, he's gonna be
a trauma surgeon in iraq.

1270
01:03:16,251 --> 01:03:18,284
When'd you wake up?

1271
01:03:18,351 --> 01:03:21,417
7:45.
he's gonna get killed.
yeah,
we're dealing with it.

1272
01:03:21,484 --> 01:03:23,518
Did you know
about this george thing?

1273
01:03:23,584 --> 01:03:25,518
Yep. (sighs)
canon fodder.

1274
01:03:25,584 --> 01:03:27,750
I'm just gonna take
some more blood.

1275
01:03:27,817 --> 01:03:30,417
Last time we checked,
your potassium was 6.3.

1276
01:03:30,484 --> 01:03:33,618
When'd you wake up?
um, early.
i can't quite remember. i...

1277
01:03:33,717 --> 01:03:36,551
7:45. 6.3. 7:45.

1278
01:03:36,618 --> 01:03:38,417
(sighs)

1279
01:03:38,484 --> 01:03:41,551
"o'malley joined the army"?
george?

1280
01:03:41,618 --> 01:03:43,484
We're dealing with it.

1281
01:03:43,551 --> 01:03:45,284
What's your potassium?

1282
01:03:45,351 --> 01:03:46,783
Uh, i...

1283
01:03:46,850 --> 01:03:48,783
Iz,
what's your potassium?
you know what?

1284
01:03:48,850 --> 01:03:51,317
Why don't we just give her
the chart to read

1285
01:03:51,384 --> 01:03:53,384
And try and memorize, okay?

1286
01:03:53,451 --> 01:03:56,717
And i can talk to you
about her hyperkalemia.

1287
01:04:00,484 --> 01:04:02,417
Look, she just had
brain surgery

1288
01:04:02,484 --> 01:04:04,618
And an incredibly aggressive
course of i.l.-2.

1289
01:04:04,683 --> 01:04:07,317
She needs rest.
she needs to exercise
whatever memory she's got left

1290
01:04:07,384 --> 01:04:09,850
Before it all turns to mush.
well, she's not gonna heal

1291
01:04:09,917 --> 01:04:12,251
With you barking orders at her
like a caveman.

1292
01:04:12,317 --> 01:04:14,984
Butt out, yang.
no, she's my patient. i don't
care if you're her husband.

1293
01:04:15,050 --> 01:04:18,151
Look, she--
you want to see how fast
i can get your visiting hours

1294
01:04:18,217 --> 01:04:20,650
Down to zero?
she signed a d.n.r.
she signed a friggin' d.n.r.

1295
01:04:20,717 --> 01:04:23,151
And made me promise she'd
come outta this with a life.

1296
01:04:23,217 --> 01:04:26,017
Not in a hospital bed,
not with no brain,

1297
01:04:26,084 --> 01:04:28,017
I had to promise
she'd have a life.

1298
01:04:28,084 --> 01:04:29,850
You want to know
what happens

1299
01:04:29,917 --> 01:04:31,850
If she can't make
any new memories?

1300
01:04:31,917 --> 01:04:33,984
Forget about being a doctor.

1301
01:04:34,050 --> 01:04:35,984
She's gonna need
round-the-clock babysitters.

1302
01:04:36,050 --> 01:04:37,984
We get an apartment together,
and she can't ever

1303
01:04:38,050 --> 01:04:40,117
Find her way
to the damn toilet.

1304
01:04:40,184 --> 01:04:42,117
Tracker on her ankle in case,
god forbid,

1305
01:04:42,184 --> 01:04:45,117
She wanders
out the front door!
alex, you can handle this.
she will get better.

1306
01:04:45,184 --> 01:04:47,117
Maybe. maybe not.
it's on me.

1307
01:04:47,184 --> 01:04:49,518
Her future is on me.

1308
01:04:55,084 --> 01:04:56,217
Is he gonna be okay?

1309
01:04:56,284 --> 01:04:58,317
We'll know more
in the morning.

1310
01:05:00,884 --> 01:05:02,618
Go ahead.

1311
01:05:16,984 --> 01:05:19,484
(clicks keyboard keys)

1312
01:05:19,551 --> 01:05:22,750
How's she doing?
any better?

1313
01:05:24,384 --> 01:05:25,717
No.

1314
01:05:25,783 --> 01:05:27,484
(sighs) damn.

1315
01:05:27,551 --> 01:05:29,451
(clicks keyboard keys)

1316
01:05:29,518 --> 01:05:32,184
Well, i'm going to
city hall

1317
01:05:32,251 --> 01:05:35,217
To go do the thing.

1318
01:05:35,284 --> 01:05:39,117
Seriously? it doesn't
seem like the day for it.

1319
01:05:39,184 --> 01:05:41,251
(speaking inaudibly)
look at alex.

1320
01:05:41,317 --> 01:05:43,783
He's in there working
so hard all day,

1321
01:05:43,850 --> 01:05:45,284
And she doesn't know.

1322
01:05:45,351 --> 01:05:47,284
And if she stays like this,

1323
01:05:47,351 --> 01:05:49,817
She may never know
how much he loves her.

1324
01:05:49,884 --> 01:05:51,451
And that girl amanda...

1325
01:05:51,518 --> 01:05:54,084
She's in there
loving a stranger.

1326
01:05:54,151 --> 01:05:56,917
She thinks that's her
prince charming.
mm.

1327
01:05:56,984 --> 01:05:59,251
I mean, he's probably
gonna die today, chances are.

1328
01:05:59,317 --> 01:06:01,584
So yeah, i'm gonna go
get married.

1329
01:06:01,683 --> 01:06:04,117
Because i think it's important
to take the time

1330
01:06:04,184 --> 01:06:07,117
To tell the people you love
how much you love them

1331
01:06:07,184 --> 01:06:08,984
While they can hear you.

1332
01:06:13,950 --> 01:06:17,518
(speaking inaudibly)

1333
01:06:19,017 --> 01:06:21,650
I love you,
cristina yang.

1334
01:06:27,284 --> 01:06:29,384
You have changed.

1335
01:06:29,451 --> 01:06:31,717
Mm. maybe i have.

1336
01:06:31,783 --> 01:06:34,984
(elevator bell dings)

1337
01:06:35,050 --> 01:06:36,317
What?

1338
01:06:36,384 --> 01:06:38,584
I'm gonna hug you.

1339
01:06:51,117 --> 01:06:53,151


1341
01:06:53,217 --> 01:06:54,650
I don't see things.

1342
01:06:54,717 --> 01:06:56,650
So maybe i just don't get

1343
01:06:56,717 --> 01:06:59,518
What's going on with you
or why you're so mad,

1344
01:06:59,584 --> 01:07:01,518
But i do
think it's awesome.

1345
01:07:01,584 --> 01:07:04,518
I think that george
joining the army is awesome.
um, shut up.

1346
01:07:04,584 --> 01:07:06,518
Um, no. you asked me
who i was.

1347
01:07:06,584 --> 01:07:09,251
I am a person who thinks
that what george is doing

1348
01:07:09,317 --> 01:07:12,050
Is dangerous and terrifying
and brave.

1349
01:07:12,117 --> 01:07:13,750
He's going to serve
his country.

1350
01:07:13,817 --> 01:07:16,750
He's going to risk his life
to save the men and women

1351
01:07:16,817 --> 01:07:19,184
Who make it possible
for you and i

1352
01:07:19,251 --> 01:07:21,184
To sleep safely
in our beds.

1353
01:07:21,251 --> 01:07:23,850
I'm a person who thinks that
that is brave.

1354
01:07:23,917 --> 01:07:26,884
And i am a person who stood
in an airplane hanger

1355
01:07:26,950 --> 01:07:28,884
And watched them
unload my brother's body

1356
01:07:28,950 --> 01:07:30,884
In a coffin...

1357
01:07:30,950 --> 01:07:33,884
(voice breaks)
and all we got was a flag.

1358
01:07:33,950 --> 01:07:36,384
(normal voice)
my brother died over there

1359
01:07:36,451 --> 01:07:38,384
Because there weren't
enough doctors, callie.

1360
01:07:38,451 --> 01:07:41,417
So for my money,
george o'malley is a patriot.

1361
01:07:41,484 --> 01:07:42,950
He's a hero,

1362
01:07:43,017 --> 01:07:44,950
And i am grateful
that he exists.

1363
01:07:45,017 --> 01:07:47,683
So yeah, the word i use
is "awesome."

1364
01:07:47,750 --> 01:07:49,950
That's who i am.

1365
01:07:57,518 --> 01:08:00,050
I'm sorry.

1366
01:08:02,950 --> 01:08:05,050
(air hissing)

1367
01:08:05,117 --> 01:08:07,050
(metal clanging)

1368
01:08:07,117 --> 01:08:09,151
Sorry,
i-i didn't realize--

1369
01:08:09,217 --> 01:08:12,484
Oh, no, no, wait.

1370
01:08:23,117 --> 01:08:25,717
I... love...

1371
01:08:25,783 --> 01:08:27,984
You.

1372
01:08:30,117 --> 01:08:32,050
Well,
i-i-i love you, too.

1373
01:08:32,117 --> 01:08:34,518
No, just...

1374
01:08:36,251 --> 01:08:38,950
I love you.

1375
01:08:41,618 --> 01:08:44,518
I said--
i said "i love you."

1376
01:08:44,584 --> 01:08:46,518
Me.

1377
01:08:48,783 --> 01:08:50,551
Cristina yang.

1378
01:08:50,618 --> 01:08:52,184
(mutters)

1379
01:08:52,251 --> 01:08:54,950
(exhales deeply)

1380
01:08:55,017 --> 01:08:56,984
You traumatized me.

1381
01:08:57,050 --> 01:08:59,984
And you know that i am s--
i am so sorry about--

1382
01:09:00,050 --> 01:09:01,984
Oh, no, damn it.
not about the choking.

1383
01:09:02,050 --> 01:09:05,484
It's... it's like you come here
and then you pull out my icicle

1384
01:09:05,551 --> 01:09:08,518
And you make me love you,
and i can't--

1385
01:09:08,584 --> 01:09:10,451
I mean, i don't want to--

1386
01:09:10,518 --> 01:09:12,484
<i>i-i can't breathe...</i>

1387
01:09:12,551 --> 01:09:15,551
Without you.

1388
01:09:18,750 --> 01:09:21,184
You can do this.
cristina, we can do this.

1389
01:09:21,251 --> 01:09:24,683
All you have to do
is just meet me halfway.

1390
01:09:24,750 --> 01:09:29,584
All you have to do
is say yes.

1391
01:09:31,683 --> 01:09:34,384
All you have to do
is say yes.

1392
01:09:34,451 --> 01:09:37,984
(metal clanks, air hisses)

1393
01:09:38,050 --> 01:09:39,984
What's your crit?

1394
01:09:40,050 --> 01:09:41,484
Ugh.

1395
01:09:41,551 --> 01:09:43,683
(mouth full)
this is disgusting.

1396
01:09:43,750 --> 01:09:46,184
I can't believe
we serve it to the patients.

1397
01:09:46,251 --> 01:09:48,817
(normal voice)
"you keep asking for lime jell-o

1398
01:09:48,884 --> 01:09:50,817
And don't like it."

1399
01:09:50,884 --> 01:09:52,917
So stop giving it to me.

1400
01:09:52,984 --> 01:09:55,384
You get mad if i don't.

1401
01:09:55,451 --> 01:09:57,417
Okay,
now what's your crit?

1402
01:09:57,484 --> 01:09:59,850
I don't know.
i'm tired.

1403
01:09:59,917 --> 01:10:01,518
What's o'malley doing
tomorrow?

1404
01:10:01,584 --> 01:10:03,518
Joining the army.

1405
01:10:03,584 --> 01:10:05,584
Yeah.
i need a break.

1406
01:10:05,650 --> 01:10:08,451
You don't think i need
a break? suck it up.

1407
01:10:08,518 --> 01:10:10,384
What--god.

1408
01:10:10,451 --> 01:10:12,251
Back off.

1409
01:10:12,317 --> 01:10:15,251
I'm sorry
if this is hard for you,

1410
01:10:15,317 --> 01:10:17,917
But you are not the one

1411
01:10:17,984 --> 01:10:20,518
With the short-term memory
of a carrot.

1412
01:10:20,584 --> 01:10:23,351
(sighs)

1413
01:10:23,417 --> 01:10:24,683
(clatters)

1414
01:10:24,750 --> 01:10:27,251
Hey. go ahead.
get it off your chest.

1415
01:10:27,317 --> 01:10:31,084
It's not like i'm gonna
remember in five minutes.
okay, i'm not the one
with a carrot for a brain,

1416
01:10:31,151 --> 01:10:33,950
But i'm married to it 'cause of
some crock of a wedding

1417
01:10:34,017 --> 01:10:35,950
We walked into,
and only because

1418
01:10:36,017 --> 01:10:38,417
The two of us thought
you'd be dead within a week.

1419
01:10:38,484 --> 01:10:41,451
You made me promise you that
you wouldn't live like this.

1420
01:10:41,518 --> 01:10:43,451
So now what the hell
am i supposed to do,

1421
01:10:43,518 --> 01:10:45,484
Smother you with a pillow,

1422
01:10:45,551 --> 01:10:47,484
Shoot you up with
a-an overdose of morphine?

1423
01:10:47,551 --> 01:10:49,950
Not really psyched
about that. leave you?

1424
01:10:50,017 --> 01:10:51,950
Not really psyched
about that either.

1425
01:10:52,017 --> 01:10:53,950
So i guess
i'm kinda screwed, right?

1426
01:10:54,017 --> 01:10:55,750
I mean, not as bad as you,

1427
01:10:55,817 --> 01:10:58,850
But not a friggin'
walk in the park, either.

1428
01:11:01,484 --> 01:11:03,451
I'm sorry, iz.

1429
01:11:03,518 --> 01:11:05,551
No.

1430
01:11:05,618 --> 01:11:09,017
I told you to get it
off your chest. you did.

1431
01:11:09,084 --> 01:11:11,518
(sighs)

1432
01:11:15,351 --> 01:11:17,683
Did you forget yet?

1433
01:11:17,750 --> 01:11:20,217
Nope. not yet.

1434
01:11:20,284 --> 01:11:23,417
Give me a minute.

1435
01:11:32,684 --> 01:11:34,483
Um... j--

1436
01:11:34,550 --> 01:11:37,483
If there's still a spot
for me in general surgery,

1437
01:11:37,550 --> 01:11:40,117
I'd like to take you up
on that.

1438
01:11:40,184 --> 01:11:42,650
I spent months trying to
talk you off peds.

1439
01:11:42,717 --> 01:11:45,917
I finally get on board,
and you change your mind?

1440
01:11:45,984 --> 01:11:47,917
Tucker gave me
an ultimatum--

1441
01:11:47,984 --> 01:11:50,817
The fellowship
or our marriage.

1442
01:11:53,383 --> 01:11:55,318
You chose your marriage.

1443
01:11:55,383 --> 01:11:57,318
No, i'm leaving him,

1444
01:11:57,383 --> 01:12:00,318
Because a marriage that
resorts to ultimatums,

1445
01:12:00,383 --> 01:12:02,318
That's not a marriage.

1446
01:12:02,383 --> 01:12:05,318
I mean, what kind of husband
does that?

1447
01:12:05,383 --> 01:12:09,318
So... i'm going to be
a single mom.

1448
01:12:09,383 --> 01:12:12,318
(voice breaking)
it's not the time for...

1449
01:12:12,383 --> 01:12:14,318
New specialties.

1450
01:12:14,383 --> 01:12:16,318
(breathes erratically)

1451
01:12:16,383 --> 01:12:19,517
(crying) damn.

1452
01:12:19,584 --> 01:12:21,750
I'm sorry.

1453
01:12:21,817 --> 01:12:24,750
It's just the first time
i said it out loud,

1454
01:12:24,817 --> 01:12:27,750
So it just kinda
took the wind out of me.

1455
01:12:27,817 --> 01:12:31,151
Miranda,
are you sure about this?

1456
01:12:31,218 --> 01:12:33,318
I mean,
he might come around.

1457
01:12:33,383 --> 01:12:35,318
He... he's just scared.

1458
01:12:35,383 --> 01:12:37,151
Well, we're all scared.

1459
01:12:37,218 --> 01:12:40,251
I mean, if you're not scared,
you're not paying attention.

1460
01:12:40,318 --> 01:12:43,917
O-one of my residents
just signed up to go to war.

1461
01:12:43,984 --> 01:12:45,483
That's scary.

1462
01:12:45,550 --> 01:12:48,251
Another one just almost
lost her life to melanoma.

1463
01:12:48,318 --> 01:12:50,284
Now she doesn't know
what day it is.

1464
01:12:50,350 --> 01:12:51,784
That's scary.

1465
01:12:51,851 --> 01:12:53,784
What tucker's facing
isn't scary.

1466
01:12:53,851 --> 01:12:56,951
He's just weak.

1467
01:13:03,350 --> 01:13:06,284
No, a pat on the back
isn't gonna help, sir.

1468
01:13:06,350 --> 01:13:09,617
Okay.
um, should i go? uh...

1469
01:13:09,684 --> 01:13:12,984
(crying)

1470
01:13:13,051 --> 01:13:17,517
Okay. okay.

1471
01:13:17,584 --> 01:13:18,684
(whimpers)

1472
01:13:18,750 --> 01:13:20,784
Okay.

1473
01:13:20,851 --> 01:13:23,117
I'll just stand here
with you

1474
01:13:23,184 --> 01:13:24,984
If that's all right.

1475
01:13:25,051 --> 01:13:26,817
Yes, sir.

1476
01:13:26,884 --> 01:13:29,483
That would be fine.

1477
01:13:40,650 --> 01:13:42,917
I thought you were
operating on john doe.

1478
01:13:42,984 --> 01:13:46,017
I already did. right now
i'm looking at houses.

1479
01:13:46,084 --> 01:13:48,017
One has a stone fireplace,
which i like.

1480
01:13:48,084 --> 01:13:51,218
This one has a backyard
the size of montana.

1481
01:13:51,284 --> 01:13:54,284
Uh-huh.
you're buying a house?

1482
01:13:54,350 --> 01:13:55,917
Yeah.

1483
01:13:55,984 --> 01:13:58,550
Right. (chuckles)
okay.

1484
01:13:58,617 --> 01:14:00,750
I'm buying a house
right now.

1485
01:14:00,817 --> 01:14:03,017
It's a buyer's market,
and i'm buying a house.

1486
01:14:03,084 --> 01:14:06,350
The only reason that you're
even talking about a house

1487
01:14:06,417 --> 01:14:08,350
Is to make me feel bad.
(scoffs)

1488
01:14:08,417 --> 01:14:11,383
You're trying to prove that
you're moving on without me

1489
01:14:11,450 --> 01:14:14,218
So then i'll regret my decision
and change my mind.
okay, is this
what women are doing

1490
01:14:14,284 --> 01:14:16,218
When they say
they're moving on?
yeah.

1491
01:14:16,284 --> 01:14:19,218
They don't usually take out
a home loan to do it, but--

1492
01:14:19,284 --> 01:14:22,184
Pathetic. let me be clear.
i'm moving on.

1493
01:14:22,251 --> 01:14:24,483
I'm a better woman
than you.

1494
01:14:24,550 --> 01:14:26,517
(scoffs)

1495
01:14:26,584 --> 01:14:29,350
(pager beeps)
ready to go?

1496
01:14:29,417 --> 01:14:32,350
I just got a page. our john doe
needs to go back into surgery.

1497
01:14:32,417 --> 01:14:34,517
Yeah. his post-op c.t.
showed a re-bleed.

1498
01:14:34,584 --> 01:14:37,284
I'm gonna have nelson
take care of it.
no, really?

1499
01:14:37,350 --> 01:14:39,284
Yeah. well, i'd prefer
to do it myself,

1500
01:14:39,350 --> 01:14:41,084
But i want to check in
on izzie.

1501
01:14:41,151 --> 01:14:44,851
Maybe we can go do that first
and then go get married after?
no, we can't

1502
01:14:44,917 --> 01:14:47,951
Because we have the george
intervention after that.
i'll have nelson do it.

1503
01:14:48,017 --> 01:14:49,951
You know what?
tell them to prep him.

1504
01:14:50,017 --> 01:14:52,218
We'll run to city hall,
we'll come back

1505
01:14:52,284 --> 01:14:54,184
And we'll do it then.
meredith--

1506
01:14:54,251 --> 01:14:56,184
No, you know, let's go.
we gotta go.

1507
01:14:56,251 --> 01:14:58,051
We gotta run to city hall,
we'll come back,

1508
01:14:58,117 --> 01:15:00,617
You'll check on izzie,
we'll monitor john doe,

1509
01:15:00,684 --> 01:15:03,717
I'll go talk george
out of joining the army--
look, we could do this
another day.

1510
01:15:03,784 --> 01:15:07,251
There is no other day.
every day is like this.

1511
01:15:07,318 --> 01:15:09,917
Every day there's a crisis.
there's no time.
meredith--

1512
01:15:09,984 --> 01:15:12,917
I love you, and i do want
to marry you today,

1513
01:15:12,984 --> 01:15:15,084
But there is no time.

1514
01:15:15,151 --> 01:15:16,184
(sighs)

1515
01:15:16,251 --> 01:15:20,051
**

1516
01:15:20,117 --> 01:15:22,417
You have a piece of paper?

1517
01:15:22,483 --> 01:15:24,084
For what?

1518
01:15:24,151 --> 01:15:26,084
I want to be with you
forever,

1519
01:15:26,151 --> 01:15:28,084
And you want
to be with me forever.

1520
01:15:28,151 --> 01:15:31,084
And in order to do that,
we need to make vows,

1521
01:15:31,151 --> 01:15:34,284
A commitment, a contract.

1522
01:15:34,350 --> 01:15:36,318
Give me a piece of paper.

1523
01:15:36,383 --> 01:15:37,817
I don't.

1524
01:15:37,884 --> 01:15:39,784
I-i-i don't.

1525
01:15:39,851 --> 01:15:41,951
I-i have post-its.

1526
01:15:42,017 --> 01:15:44,017
**

1527
01:15:44,084 --> 01:15:46,917
Okay.

1528
01:15:46,984 --> 01:15:48,151
(sighs)

1529
01:15:48,218 --> 01:15:52,017
What do we want to promise
each other?

1530
01:15:52,084 --> 01:15:54,084
**

1531
01:15:54,151 --> 01:15:56,517
(taps post-its)

1532
01:15:56,584 --> 01:16:00,251
**

1533
01:16:00,318 --> 01:16:02,417
That you'll love me...

1534
01:16:02,483 --> 01:16:05,450
Even when you hate me.

1535
01:16:05,517 --> 01:16:10,117
To love each other
even when we hate each other.

1536
01:16:10,184 --> 01:16:13,951
No running... ever.

1537
01:16:14,017 --> 01:16:17,450
Nobody walks out
no matter what happens.

1538
01:16:17,517 --> 01:16:20,450
No running.
what else?

1539
01:16:20,517 --> 01:16:24,117
That we'll take care
of each other

1540
01:16:24,184 --> 01:16:26,851
Even when we're old
and smelly and senile,

1541
01:16:26,917 --> 01:16:30,218
And if i get alzheimer's
and forget you...

1542
01:16:30,284 --> 01:16:34,017
I will remind you who i am
every day.

1543
01:16:34,084 --> 01:16:39,383
To take care when old,
senile... and smelly.

1544
01:16:39,450 --> 01:16:41,483
This...

1545
01:16:41,550 --> 01:16:44,251
Is forever.

1546
01:16:47,951 --> 01:16:50,051
Sign.

1547
01:16:50,117 --> 01:16:52,851
This is our wedding,
a post-it?

1548
01:16:52,917 --> 01:16:56,117
Mm-hmm. if you sign it.

1549
01:17:07,884 --> 01:17:10,051
Now what?

1550
01:17:10,117 --> 01:17:12,184
Now i kiss the bride.

1551
01:17:21,984 --> 01:17:24,218
Married.

1552
01:17:24,284 --> 01:17:26,417
Married.

1553
01:17:26,483 --> 01:17:28,350
(sighs)

1554
01:17:30,318 --> 01:17:34,117
See that?

1555
01:17:34,184 --> 01:17:36,650
Plenty of time.

1556
01:17:42,084 --> 01:17:43,851
Gotta do an e.k.g.

1557
01:17:43,917 --> 01:17:46,951
What, i don't even get
any small talk?

1558
01:17:47,017 --> 01:17:49,817
What's your problem?
well, i'll tell you.

1559
01:17:49,884 --> 01:17:51,817
I know that
i'm supposed to be grateful

1560
01:17:51,884 --> 01:17:53,784
For my "new lease on life,"

1561
01:17:53,851 --> 01:17:56,284
But alex marched in here
and basically told me

1562
01:17:56,350 --> 01:17:58,151
That being married to me

1563
01:17:58,218 --> 01:18:01,117
Was the worst thing
that ever happened to him.

1564
01:18:01,184 --> 01:18:04,617
Yeah, and that he was
trying to decide

1565
01:18:04,684 --> 01:18:07,617
If smothering me with a pillow
was the best way

1566
01:18:07,684 --> 01:18:10,117
To put us both
out of our misery.

1567
01:18:15,550 --> 01:18:16,984
Okay, where is it?

1568
01:18:17,051 --> 01:18:18,617
Where is what?

1569
01:18:18,684 --> 01:18:20,951
Where's the note
that says that?

1570
01:18:21,017 --> 01:18:23,450
Did you write that down?
no.

1571
01:18:25,218 --> 01:18:27,650
No.

1572
01:18:27,717 --> 01:18:29,151
(chuckles)

1573
01:18:31,151 --> 01:18:34,917
(speaking inaudibly)

1574
01:18:43,851 --> 01:18:46,117
Yes.

1575
01:18:46,184 --> 01:18:47,951
Yes.

1576
01:18:48,017 --> 01:18:50,584
(chuckles) i've gotta go.
i've gotta find alex.

1577
01:18:50,650 --> 01:18:52,550
Go, go.

1578
01:18:57,851 --> 01:19:00,784
Oh, i'm sorry. i was just--
i was looking for george.

1579
01:19:00,851 --> 01:19:03,184
Bailey, it's after 6:00.

1580
01:19:03,251 --> 01:19:05,184
Yes, uh, we scheduled
an intervention

1581
01:19:05,251 --> 01:19:07,383
So that we could give o'malley
a piece of our minds

1582
01:19:07,450 --> 01:19:09,383
About this idiotic
army business.

1583
01:19:09,450 --> 01:19:11,784
Now did he leave already?
he never scrubbed in.

1584
01:19:11,851 --> 01:19:14,684
He told me he was enlisting.
i sent him home,

1585
01:19:14,750 --> 01:19:16,684
Told him to spend the day
with his mom

1586
01:19:16,750 --> 01:19:18,984
Since he was leaving
so soon.

1587
01:19:19,051 --> 01:19:21,817
Uh, he took off
this morning.
(sighs)

1588
01:19:25,650 --> 01:19:27,550
How's his i.c.p.?

1589
01:19:27,617 --> 01:19:29,584
Uh. worse.
o.r. is expecting us.

1590
01:19:29,650 --> 01:19:32,017
I thought you were
getting married.
we did.

1591
01:19:32,084 --> 01:19:33,717
Oh, congratulations.

1592
01:19:33,784 --> 01:19:38,151
You sure you want to start
your honeymoon in an o.r.?
we're sure.

1593
01:19:38,218 --> 01:19:40,383
You can't be in here.

1594
01:19:40,450 --> 01:19:43,051
I'll come and get you
in the waiting room.

1595
01:19:43,117 --> 01:19:45,051
Hold his hand
until you put him under.

1596
01:19:45,117 --> 01:19:47,517
It really does
make him feel better.

1597
01:19:47,584 --> 01:19:48,684
Okay.

1598
01:19:48,750 --> 01:19:52,318
(sniffling)

1599
01:19:55,051 --> 01:19:57,851
(meredith) well, you made
a good friend there.

1600
01:19:57,917 --> 01:20:01,550
I guess that happens when
you take a bus for somebody.

1601
01:20:01,617 --> 01:20:03,284
Okay.

1602
01:20:03,350 --> 01:20:05,383
I know this is scary,

1603
01:20:05,450 --> 01:20:08,951
But you do have
a great team up there.

1604
01:20:09,017 --> 01:20:11,884
You want to try
to write again?

1605
01:20:13,517 --> 01:20:15,450
Can you hold the pen?

1606
01:20:15,517 --> 01:20:17,017
No.

1607
01:20:17,084 --> 01:20:19,084
Okay, "o."

1608
01:20:19,151 --> 01:20:21,318
"o."

1609
01:20:23,450 --> 01:20:26,951
7?

1610
01:20:31,517 --> 01:20:34,151
Double 0...

1611
01:20:34,218 --> 01:20:35,984
7.

1612
01:20:38,450 --> 01:20:41,450
(gasps)

1613
01:20:43,851 --> 01:20:46,750
Oh, god! oh, god.

1614
01:20:50,951 --> 01:20:53,884
You paged me.
what do you need?
well, way to go, dipwad.

1615
01:20:53,951 --> 01:20:56,884
Telling your wife you're trying
to figure out how to off her?

1616
01:20:56,951 --> 01:20:58,383
Oh, mind your own bus--

1617
01:20:58,450 --> 01:21:00,383
Wait.
how did you know that?

1618
01:21:00,450 --> 01:21:02,784
She told me.

1619
01:21:02,851 --> 01:21:05,084
You remember?

1620
01:21:05,151 --> 01:21:07,584
Pillow or morphine.
i got the whole thing.

1621
01:21:07,650 --> 01:21:09,617
Oh, i'm so sorry.
i didn't mean that.

1622
01:21:09,684 --> 01:21:11,784
Of course you didn't.

1623
01:21:11,851 --> 01:21:14,584
You love me too much
to shoot me up with morphine

1624
01:21:14,650 --> 01:21:17,151
Even if i asked you to.

1625
01:21:17,218 --> 01:21:20,784
And my stupid corked brain
is coming back.
oh, my god. i was so scared.

1626
01:21:20,851 --> 01:21:23,750
I mean, i would've loved you
no matter what, but...
(laughs)

1627
01:21:23,817 --> 01:21:27,483
You're back. you're back.

1628
01:21:27,550 --> 01:21:29,750
Iz?
(monitor beeping erratically)

1629
01:21:29,817 --> 01:21:31,184
Iz?

1630
01:21:31,251 --> 01:21:33,884
Izzie? yang!

1631
01:21:33,951 --> 01:21:36,517
(meredith)
it's george! it's george!

1632
01:21:36,584 --> 01:21:40,318
It's george!
john doe is george!

1633
01:21:40,383 --> 01:21:42,483
(monitor beeping erratically)

1634
01:21:42,550 --> 01:21:44,483
Izzie, look at me.
open your eyes!

1635
01:21:44,550 --> 01:21:46,851
Page shepherd. page the chief
and bailey right now.

1636
01:21:46,917 --> 01:21:49,517
(owen) we have you, o'malley.
you hear me? we have you.

1637
01:21:49,584 --> 01:21:51,617
We'll fix this.
just stay with us.
o'malley, it's shepherd.

1638
01:21:51,684 --> 01:21:54,218
You're not going anywhere.
you understand me?

1639
01:21:54,284 --> 01:21:57,717
B.p.'s dropping.
all right,
let's put him out, now.

1640
01:21:57,784 --> 01:21:59,851
What happened?
is it her brain?

1641
01:21:59,917 --> 01:22:02,117
No, it's hyperkalemia.
we couldn't control
the arrhythmias.

1642
01:22:02,184 --> 01:22:04,617
Her pressure's
dropping off a cliff.
give me an intubation tray.

1643
01:22:04,684 --> 01:22:06,318
Alex...

1644
01:22:06,383 --> 01:22:08,817
She signed a d.n.r.
shut up, yang.

1645
01:22:08,884 --> 01:22:11,717
She knew this might happen.
that's why she signed it.
i don't give a crap
what she signed.

1646
01:22:11,784 --> 01:22:13,984
Alex, it's not
what she wants.

1647
01:22:14,051 --> 01:22:17,817
(monitor emitting
continuous tone)
get a crash cart!

1648
01:22:17,884 --> 01:22:19,650
Karev, if she doesn't--

1649
01:22:19,717 --> 01:22:22,650
Look at her!
get a crash cart!

1650
01:22:22,717 --> 01:22:24,951
(tone continues)

1651
01:22:28,584 --> 01:22:31,051
Screw the d.n.r.
hand me those paddles.

1652
01:22:31,117 --> 01:22:34,584
Yang, take over compressions.
karev, back up.
i got it. i got it.

1653
01:22:34,650 --> 01:22:36,851
(richard) one, two, three.
and down.

1654
01:22:36,917 --> 01:22:38,817
Okay, down.

1655
01:22:40,984 --> 01:22:43,084
<i>did you say it?</i>

1656
01:22:46,450 --> 01:22:48,483
<i>i love you...</i>

1657
01:22:48,550 --> 01:22:50,684
Clear.
(defibrillator whines)

1658
01:22:50,750 --> 01:22:52,051
(paddles thunk)

1659
01:22:52,117 --> 01:22:55,051
<i>i don't ever want to live
without you...</i>

1660
01:22:55,117 --> 01:22:57,151
<i>you changed my life...</i>

1661
01:22:57,218 --> 01:22:59,151
<i>did you say it?</i>

1662
01:22:59,218 --> 01:23:01,284
(monitor beeping erratically)

1663
01:23:01,350 --> 01:23:04,650
<i>make a plan...</i>

1664
01:23:04,717 --> 01:23:06,984
<i>set a goal...
(defibrillator whines)</i>

1665
01:23:07,051 --> 01:23:10,383
<i>work toward it...
(paddles thunk)</i>

1666
01:23:10,450 --> 01:23:14,084
<i>but every now and again,
look around...</i>

1667
01:23:14,151 --> 01:23:16,017
<i>drink it in.</i>

1668
01:23:44,784 --> 01:23:47,817
<i>'cause this is it.</i>

1669
01:23:51,717 --> 01:23:54,584
(owen) we're losing him!

1670
01:23:54,650 --> 01:23:57,084
<i>(defibrillator whines,
monitor beeps)</i>

1671
01:23:57,151 --> 01:23:59,817
(paddles thunk)

1672
01:23:59,884 --> 01:24:03,650
<i>(monitor emits continuous tone,
defibrillator whines)</i>

1673
01:24:03,717 --> 01:24:05,251
(monitor beeps,
paddles thunk)

1674
01:24:05,318 --> 01:24:06,750
(tone continues)

1675
01:24:06,817 --> 01:24:09,350
(richard) come on.

1676
01:24:09,417 --> 01:24:11,017
(crying) iz.

1677
01:24:11,084 --> 01:24:12,851
(richard) come on.

1678
01:24:12,917 --> 01:24:14,350
(tone continues)

1679
01:24:14,417 --> 01:24:16,350
(richard) v-fib. clear!

1680
01:24:16,417 --> 01:24:18,784
(defibrillator whines,
paddles thunk)

1681
01:24:18,851 --> 01:24:20,784
<i>it might all be gone tomorrow.</i>

1682
01:24:20,851 --> 01:24:23,284
Sync by honeybunny
www.addic7ed.com
Thx to YYeTs.net for the transcript.

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