[ Planet of Souls feat. Lily Papas' "One" plays ]
♪♪
Meredith: Before operating, a surgeon scrubs.
♪ Caught up in a modern illusion ♪
♪ I'm feeling like we have to prove ♪
We meticulously wash our hands and forearms
for several minutes and then dry with sterile towels.
♪ Trying to find a way to the answer ♪
♪ 'Cause nobody wants to believe that we're all one ♪
Technically, we do this to prevent infection...
♪ Caught up in a common delusion ♪
...but it's also a ritual.
♪ I'm feeling like we have to lose ♪
♪ Our right to feel love ♪
♪ Trying to hide away from the madness ♪
It's a way to shut out the rest of the world...
♪ 'Cause nobody wants to reveal ♪
...and mentally prepare.
[ Monitor beeping, flatline ]
♪♪
Because no matter how experienced you are...
...it's never easy holding someone's life in your hands.
[ Flatline continues ]
[ Monitor beeping ]
How's she doing?
Well, Ndugu says the heart pump is doing its job,
but I won't feel better until she's awake.
And how are things going with you?
-I'm fine. -Have you told Catherine?
She's flying home tonight.
Uh, did you speak with your urologist?
He wants me to get new blood work,
and then we'll discuss a plan.
Oh, you have time to do that today.
You know, you should do that as soon as possible.
I got my biopsy results not even 24 hours ago.
Can I have a minute to wrap my head around it?
I just want to make sure
that you are taking care of yourself.
I mean, you should take the day.
I-I can cover your patients.
That's not a terrible idea.
If that's your way of thanking me,
it needs work. [ Cellphone vibrates ]
Oh.
Okay, I have to check on a patient.
Hey, would you sit with her until Link comes back?
I just don't want her to be alone.
Oh, of course.
[ Sighs ]
Woman: Dr. Higgins to the E.R.
They are beautiful.
They're so small.
But mighty.
Do they have names?
Uh, we hadn't decided yet,
and if I name them without Jo,
I'll have a very short marriage.
[ Chuckles ] Smart man.
Do you know when they're going to be extubated?
Baby A's having a CPAP trial later today,
and we don't know about her sister.
They haven't been able to decrease the vent settings.
Well, it hasn't even been 12 hours.
She'll get there.
Dr. Kasliwal: Dr. Lincoln, can I have a word?
Oh, Dr. Kasliwal, this is Ben Warren.
He's one of the doctors that helped deliver the girls.
You all did a great job. They came out just in time.
So I examined them again.
No news on Baby A, which is good,
but I am picking up a heart murmur on Baby B.
It can be normal, but since she needs more oxygen,
I'd like to do an echo.
Yeah, of course. Whatever you need to do.
Do you want to check on Jo?
I will find you when we get the results.
[ Sighs ]
My day-old baby's having an echo.
NICU is a different world.
Minute-to-minute and a marathon at the same time.
Just pace yourself.
♪♪
[ Sighs ]
My usual and whatever she wants.
Just a coffee.
You sure?
Burned a lot of calories last night.
Hi. Uh, large coffee, please.
-Me. Me, me, me. -Make that two.
-You got it. -Max host karaoke again?
No, I was just up late at Joe's.
I wasn't breaking the pact. I was just having a drink.
Barista: Here you go. That'll be $5.50, please.
I thought she hated him.
-They hooked up last night. -Gross.
-And she made him waffles. -Ugh.
-Ooh, look. -Check it out.
-Aww. -See that?
Do you think they changed their mind?
Wouldn't be the first person.
Millin, hey, I'm sorry I didn't make it last night.
Um, no problem.
Rain check?
I don't think that's a good idea.
Okay.
Uh, well, if you change your mind,
I will definitely need a drink tonight.
Yep.
You were trying to break the pack.
But I didn't. The pact is intact.
Why? Are you trying to break the pact?
Absolutely not.
♪♪
How's my favorite patient?
Yeah, I bet you say that about all your patients.
Ah, but you are the only one that I am visiting
on her first day of her clinical trial.
Come on. Are you ready to kick cancer's --
I've only vomited twice today.
[ Sighs ]
But you are here.
Mm.
Look, and you're young,
you're strong, and you can do this.
And the results for this immunotherapy
continue to be very promising.
Uh -- -Uh, t's time to go?
Uh, well, uh, can I -- can I talk to you?
Sure.
Yes? -Her medication's expired.
That's impossible. It just got here.
I don't know. Maybe it's mislabeled.
Well...
No, it's not worth the risk.
Okay, better move on to plan "B."
Which is...?
You tell me.
Uh...I could have them ship a new bag.
It'll be here by the end of the week.
Absolutely not.
No, I want her treatment to start today.
You wanted on the team, figure it out -- today.
Woman: Satellite Pharmacy 5-5-0-6.
Looks like a Monteggia fracture.
We need to page ortho to get him admitted.
-Mm-hmm. -"We" as in, you.
[ Sighs ] -Hey.
Hey, can this wait? We're slammed.
Link's obviously out,
and Webber gave Bailey all his cases for some reason.
Well, I'll make it quick.
Sound Science Magazine wants to do an interview.
Oh, congratulations.
Well, it's about the ventral aorta,
so it would be a joint interview.
With Nora.
Oh, well, you don't need my permission to do an interview.
Wasn't asking. I just wanted to be transparent.
Yeah.
Incoming trauma.
I -- I need to go.
[ Siren wails ]
Okay, what have we got?
Graham Clayton, 26-year-old male in small aircraft crash.
GCS 15. Tachycardic. Systolics in the 90s.
He's got a right-leg fracture
and burns involving left-sided lower
and upper extremities, chest and back.
Damn, that does not look good.
Uh, I'll page the burns team.
Okay, tell them 911. Let's get him to trauma three.
Okay? Let's go.
Whoa! -Hey, hey. What the...?
-Hey, you can't park here. -Graham.
That's my friend. Is he okay? You got to be okay, man.
He borrowed my Uncle Doug's plane
to propose to his girlfriend.
-Was she on the plane, too? -No, she's at work.
So Graham was the skywriter?
He has a pilot's license,
but it was his first time doing loops.
Sir, you need to move your car.
Take it. I don't care.
Unfortunately, her echo doesn't show
an increase in her EF.
Thought you said the pump was working.
It is working.
It's keeping her alive,
and it's allowing her heart a chance to recover
after the cardiomyopathy.
But all we can do is monitor her
and keep watching her EF,
look at the contractility.
So sit and wait?
What happens if it doesn't recover?
Okay, let's not go there yet.
What...happens?
We would need to consider a more permanent solution.
Possibly a heart transplant.
Can I have a minute?
Of course. But like Warren said,
let's not go to the worst-case scenario.
It's only been hours.
I need a minute alone with my wife.
♪♪
Dr. Bailey. I'm late for my next consult, so talk fast.
Okay, Harbor General in Tacoma.
It's a site for the same clinical trial
that Katie's enrolled in.
I'm liking the sound of this.
Yeah, they have the medication,
but the drugs are -- -Ah, there's always a "but."
Yeah, the drugs are already mixed,
so it's too unstable to transport.
Katie will have to go there to get it.
Doesn't sound like an issue to me.
Drive safe, now.
Wait, you want -- you want me to take her?
Well, she's in no shape to drive.
And if you think you're going to stuff her
into a rideshare and call it a day,
you clearly don't understand the assignment.
[ Stammers ] Why not send her with medical transport?
I have other patients.
Your interns can cover you.
That is what they're here for.
Katie is precious cargo.
I expect you to treat her as such.
Woman: Dr. Brasington to Oncology.
Dr. Ari Brasington to Oncology. [ Sighs ]
-Ooh, got anything good? -Plane-crash survivor.
Extensive burns. Possible internal bleeding.
-Shut up. -Mm.
He's an intern.
There's nothing going on.
Trying to convince me or you?
I have learned my lesson about dating coworkers,
unlike some people. -Mm.
Why aren't you answering my page?
Uh, you paged two minutes ago.
Precisely. And I heard you were late for rounds.
Ah, so was Millin.
Oh, throwing your co-resident under the bus and late. Thank you.
Congratulations.
You're both on ureteral stent removals.
All day?
Six kidney transplants at an hour each
plus documentation,
so unless you do it in a time portal, yes.
Woman: Trauma Team to the ICU. Trauma Team to the ICU.
There's nothing you need help with that's more surgical?
Or less boring?
Uh, could -- could we get in on that plane-crash guy?
What color are my scrubs?
-Navy. -Correct. I'm an attending
doing a favor for your chief resident
who is with his friend in a coma.
You don't like your assignment, take it up with him.
Or Bailey.
Would you like to talk to Dr. Bailey?
Oh. We're -- We're -- We're good. We're good. Love stents.
I suggest you be on time tomorrow.
[ Elevator bell dings ]
Excuse me. What have we got?
Full thickness burns to the left upper
and lower extremities.
Some are circumferential.
Partial thickness burns to the chest and the abdomen.
Hang another LR and calculate the modified parkland formula.
Graham, I'm here, buddy.
Colin...call Fiona.
Owen: I need to intubate him right now, okay?
I need you to move back, sir, please.
Can someone get him out of here? I'm not leaving him.
We will update you when we know more.
Let's go.
Yeah. I'm in.
There's free fluid in the abdominal cavity.
Okay, let's keep a close eye on it.
Let's get him ready to move to the burn ICU to resuscitate.
Millin, I need you to prep a subclavian line
as soon as we get there.
I'll be placing the line.
Oh, with all due respect --
You're a second-year resident.
I'm a fellow specifically trained in burns.
It needs to be done right.
It needs to be done ASAP.
Mohanty will place the line, okay?
Let's get ready to move him, okay?
Let's move.
♪♪
Hey.
[ Sighs ] Who sent you? Warren or Ndugu?
Myself. Wanted to see how you're doing.
Mm.
How are the babies?
Uh, I guess they're...
...adjusting to the NICU.
I'm filling out their birth-certificate applications. [ Cellphone beeps ]
That's the NICU.
They have the results of one of the girls' echoes.
Why'd she need an echo?
Well, they found a murmur.
Is it harsh systolic? Holosystolic?
I didn't ask.
Well, do you know where it is?
Do you know where it's radiating?
They didn't say.
Do you want me to go with you?
I'm not a neonatologist,
but I do know all the right questions.
Yeah, that'd be helpful.
Great.
I'll be back.
Woman: Dr. Manuel to the Step Down Unit.
Dr. Denise Manuel to the Step Down Unit. [ Sighs ]
Aww, they are so tiny and precious.
Hello, Lincoln and Wilson girls.
You got here quick. Dr. Altman, good to see you.
Did you find anything on Baby B's echo?
She has a shunting patent ductus arteriosus.
Sorry, it's been a long 24 hours.
That's an aortic defect?
The opening between the pulmonary artery
and the aorta hasn't closed.
It puts strain on the heart.
All preemies have PDA to some degree.
It's just a question of how symptomatic they are.
-Will she need surgery? -She may,
but we'll start with multiple rounds of indomethacin
and see how she responds.
What are the risks?
Most common side effect is urinary retention,
which makes it even harder to breathe.
But if that happens, we know what to do.
Okay, let's start her on the meds.
Okay, thank you.
She's in good hands.
What if she needs surgery?
Let's focus on one thing at a time.
Right now, we just need this little lady to pee.
I can't focus on one thing.
I have to check on Jo and Luna and Scout.
I haven't even called out of work today.
Don't worry. We know.
Why don't you go call the kids and I'll stay here?
[ Exhales sharply ] I can't leave.
They're going to do a CPAP trial on Baby A soon.
You need to take care of the rest of your family, too.
Okay. Alright.
If anything happens --
I will call you immediately.
♪♪
Are we lost?
Well, the app says that the highway's backed up, so...
How does the hospital have my immunotherapy?
I thought it was tailored to me.
Uh, it's tailored to your tumor.
Someone with the same biomarkers as you
must have decided not to do it.
That or they died before they got the chance.
It -- It could be a lot of things.
You really think somebody might decide not to do it?
It can cause autoimmune-like inflammation
leading to pneumonitis or colitis.
Normally, it doesn't lead to hair loss.
-Too late for that. -Also nephritis, rashes.
Is that it?
Those are the big ones.
I'm joking.
Oh.
Wait, were you actually hearing yourself?
It sounded like you were reciting a recipe.
How -- How would you like me to say it?
I don't know. Maybe like I'm a human
who's actually experiencing this stuff.
[ Clank, tires screech ] [ Gasps ]
Woman: Dr. Bradford to Labor and Delivery.
I eat, uh, when I'm stressed. How's Graham?
We can't give you too much information
because you are not family,
but, uh, his injuries are severe.
He's headed upstairs now.
Is there anyone else that we can call?
I think his dad lives in Arizona.
[ Sighs ] I-I knew this was a bad idea.
He-- He's only had his pilot's license for four months.
-You can't blame yourself. -I know.
It's just, Graham, He always does everything fast.
You know, he's only known Fiona for eight weeks.
-And he proposed? Wow. -In his defense,
we work at a ropes course for minimum wage,
and she's a lawyer.
Like, she went to law school, so needed to lock that down.
Uh, have you been able to reach her?
I haven't heard back from her.
She -- She might be in court. Or she hates me.
I'm sure it's not that.
She always cancels when we're supposed to hang out together.
When it's just the two of them, though, she --
she drops everything for him.
You have to fix him.
Please let us know when you hear from her, okay?
Okay. [ Sighs ]
Woman: Nurse Cade, extension 2-2-1-9.
Winston: Dr. Warren.
Nurse Emma Cade, extension 2-2-1-9.
Still no increase in EF.
-Where's Link? -Upstairs in the NICU.
I think, collectively, this family's had
5 echoes in the last 24 hours.
Okay, well, I'm not worried yet.
How's her C-section site looking?
Everything looks good.
Well, let's hope I never have to do another one.
Really? I thought you might want
to get double-board-certified after that.
No, I do not need that kind of pressure in my life.
Well, that's a shame.
I thought we made a good team.
Uh, page me when Link gets back.
So, um, you and Nurse Iris, uh, teaming up?
It's just a saying.
-Is it? -It is.
Are you trying to wingman me
outside of our intubated colleague's hospital room?
Please. Wilson would've loved this.
[ Sighs ]
Got it. Thanks.
[ Cellphone beeps ]
Roadside assistance is on their way.
Who doesn't keep a spare tire?
Well, it's my aunt's car, so...
...I guess my aunt.
[ Exhales slowly ]
-You okay? -I have cancer.
And the car broke down.
Not okay.
Got it. Uh...
Do you -- Look, I know having cancer must suck.
You wouldn't know the first thing
about what I'm going through.
No, I just meant that I have patients
who have cancer, and, you know,
between all the treatment and the cancer itself --
So, you know that there have been entire days
where I haven't gotten off the bathroom floor
or that I can't have ice cream,
my favorite food, because my mouth hurts so bad
because of the sores and the nerve pain?
No, no, no, I just --
Or that my best friend of 10 years
dumped me after my diagnosis.
Or that my other friend disappeared
after I told her I had stage 4?
They think that they are giving me space...
...but their absence sometimes hurts worse
than the cancer itself.
You may be a doctor...
...but there is a lot you do not know.
[ Sighs ]
♪♪
Uh, can I ask your advice?
Uh, Mrs. Arrington's mesh looks infected.
So would you remove it and do a component separation
or wait until after we've controlled the infection?
I'd remove it and place a synthetic mesh.
-Wait, really? -No.
And you'd fail your boards with that answer.
Okay, that worried me for a sec.
Are you checking up on me?
-Nope. -I'm fine.
Okay, I just wanted to see
if you've gotten your labs yet.
Well, that's between me and my doctor.
Rich-- [ Sighs ]
Don't you have some patients to see?
Don't you have my patience to see?
Okay, you are right.
I am sorry.
[ Door closes ]
[ Monitor beeping ]
Hey, you're only on your third one?
[ Sighs ] Griffith has the first three,
and I'll make up time in the last three.
[ Scoffs ] Griffith will believe that when she sees it.
Just don't forget to include urology
when you send in your notes.
What's the point of a promotion
when you're asked to do the same damn job?
You have about five millimeters.
-I see that. -A little to the left.
Do you want to do this one?
I don't want to do any of them.
Neither of us would be doing this
if your girlfriend didn't make us late
by making waffles this morning.
"A," you ate some of those waffles,
and, "B," not my girlfriend.
Whatever. Woman you're dating.
Not dating, just fun.
You can't just have fun with a coworker.
When you work with someone, you see them every day.
That in itself is a relationship.
You sleep with them,
you're taking it to the next level.
We think differently.
Well, Mohanty is a grown-up, so you want to keep seeing her,
you need to show her you're serious.
Am I serious?
You don't have to buy her jewelry.
Just some kind of nice gesture.
Buy her a drink after work.
Send flowers from the gift shop.
Those are sick-people flowers.
I'm done.
With this stent or this conversation?
Both.
[ Monitor beeping ]
Stay superficial.
The goal is to release the burn skin
so the tissue underneath can expand.
Good.
How do we graft over all this?
We'll have to do it in stages over several months,
if he makes it that long.
All of this for a two-month relationship.
Sometimes, when you know, you know.
She's not even here.
Maybe she was too busy to check her messages.
Epi-soak. -Or maybe he's delusional.
I'm betting on a happy ending.
What do you think, Dr. Hunt?
Well, I think Graham has a devoted friend,
and he's obviously lovable to someone,
but short courtship, mismatched skills and interests --
if I had to put money on this, I'm going with Millin.
Suit yourselves.
We're almost done with this leg.
Hold on a second.
Yeah, compartment syndrome.
Going to need to switch to a fasciotomy.
Should we confirm with a needle?
No need. Dr. Hunt's right.
The limb's tense, and he's got weak pulses.
Bryant, we're going to need more burn dressings.
On my way.
Alright, little lady, let's see what you can do.
95. She's got this.
Well, we'll keep an eye on her,
but she looks great.
How long do you expect to keep her on CPAP?
Until she can maintain breathing on her own.
Then we'll be able to --
[ Alarms beeping ]
Oh, her oxygen requirements are outpacing the ventilator.
We need to put her
on high-frequency oscillatory ventilation.
-Do we need an ABG? -I need you to call Dad.
♪♪
[ Elevator bell dings ] Woman: Dr. Rymoch, call the Psych Unit.
Permission to come aboard?
[ Clears throat ] [ Elevator doors close ]
Thought you were on the plane-crash guy.
Uh, they needed more burn dressing,
so headed back up now.
How about you?
I'm on my way to O.R. three
to remove my fourth ureteral stent.
Yikes. Sounds like fun.
God, I love live music.
You know, there's this bar on Union Street, and --
No.
I didn't ask you anything.
It was implied.
Kind of sure of yourself.
What if I just wanted to talk about music?
Cool.
We don't have to talk at all.
[ Elevator bell dings ]
[ Sighs ]
-That's not the O.R. floor. -Yeah, I'm going to a walk.
[ Elevator bell dings ] [ Scoffs ]
Woman: Cardio Tech to room 12:15.
Oh, hey. How's she doing?
-[ Sighs ] No change. -[ Sighs ]
But -- But -- But -- But I really need your help
with something.
Uh, with a case?
Uh, with hanging here while I go to the bathroom.
[ Stammers ] I just didn't want to leave her alone.
Yeah, no, no. Go. Uh, I could use the break.
You are the last person I should say this to,
but I am beat.
[ Chuckles, sighs ]
So I'm not supposed to tell anyone,
but, uh, I need to talk,
and you seem like a safe bet, so...
...Richard...
...has [sighs]
prostate cancer.
He doesn't, uh, know what stage yet,
but, um, it's never news that you want to get.
So between him and you
and my cancer patient whose meds were expired.
I just...
I don't mean to make it all about me,
but it's, you know, a lot to -- [ Alarms beeping ]
Jo? You -- No. Stop it.
Uh, hey, hey!
Um, page Ndugu and bring me an ultrasound.
Jo.
-What happened? -Uh, she's in V-tach.
Ah, thank you.
Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you.
Okay.
Is she okay?
Dr. Kasliwal just set her up.
You should prepare yourself.
I thought you said she was just putting her
on another vent. -This is it.
It looks rough, but she can handle it.
Dr. Kasliwal put her on sedation
to keep her comfortable.
It's normal to be upset. This is scary.
You didn't say she'd be sedated.
She was desatting. There wasn't time to tell you.
I never should've left you in charge.
You can't be here all the time. You did nothing wrong.
I didn't ask your opinion.
♪♪
Fasciotomy's finished.
The leg looks softer. Okay, let's dress and wrap it.
-Okay. -How's the arm?
You can see coagulated veins through the fat.
-Is that the muscle? -Yep.
Third-, maybe fourth-degree.
The patient's girlfriend is here.
[ Chuckles ] You two were wrong.
Sorry. -It's Fiona?
Nurse Jane: Yeah, and she's asking for an update.
I can go talk to her.
Always bet on love.
[ Alarms beeping ] Bailey: Still runs of V-tach.
Have you found anything?
Winston: The pump is working, and it's in the correct place.
but the swan catheter is coiled in the right ventricle.
So I'm going to need to inflate and advance it
into the pulmonary artery.
Why don't you grab that?
[ Beeping continues ]
♪♪
Got it. There we go. [ Monitor beeping steadily ]
Uh...I can redress the catheter
and secure it in place.
♪♪
Okay, yeah, um...
Yeah, just let me know if there's any issues, alright?
Absolutely.
♪♪
[ Breathing shakily ]
I was trying -- I was trying to make it go down...
-Shh, shh. Shh. It's okay. -...but it wouldn't go down.
You're okay. Listen to my voice.
Name five things that you hear.
-Your voice. -Right.
-My voice. -Okay.
The m-monitor. The monitor.
It's going -- What else -- What else do you hear?
Shh. Don't focus on the monitor.
Focus on my voice. Focus on my voice.
Okay. [ Crying ] So strong.
It's okay. It's okay.
-Okay. Okay. Okay. -Okay. Okay.
Man: Echo Tech to Cardiology Bay 3.
Echo Tech to Cardiology Bay 3.
Oh, thank you.
I mean, you don't have to sit with me if you don't want to.
Yes, but if I don't, Bailey's going to put me
on rectal exams for an entire month, so...
[ Chuckles ]
Yeah, sorry about dumping my issues on you.
I just don't want to worry my mom.
Uh, yeah, listen, you were right.
I -- I do have a lot to learn.
Well, luckily, you seem pretty smart.
[ Chuckles ]
Are you ready for lesson number two?
Mm.
Only way to get through an infusion
is by watching a romantic comedy.
I like rom-coms.
Well, "Die Hard" is not a rom-com.
Hey, wait, is that the one with Meg Ryan?
[ Chuckles ]
Last chance to save yourself.
♪♪
-Dr. Mohanty? -Oh.
-Here you go. -Thanks?
Oh. Nice flowers.
They're from your roommate.
That's thoughtful.
Yeah.
He's got the wrong idea.
I mean, he's a nice guy,
but I'm not looking for a relationship.
I thought he'd understand, being a surgeon, too.
Guess I was wrong.
Can I leave these until I finish my shift?
Thanks.
♪♪
Uh, Fiona? I'm Dr. Jules Millin.
Is Graham okay?
I'm really not supposed to say much
other than we're treating him.
He was in a plane crash.
He suffered significant burns and injuries.
I don't -- I don't understand.
How did this happen?
You. What did you do?
It was all Graham's idea. I swear.
He thought you'd see it from your office.
See what? What are you talking about?
How did he get a plane?
It's my uncle's.
You let him fly your uncle's plane, and he crashed.
Get out. Get out!
[ Sighs ]
He told me to look out the window,
but I was in a meeting.
I don't know what he was thinking.
He always gets these ideas in his head.
You know, you don't have to say yes,
even with the crash.
What? What?
No, no, I meant...
he could have just taken me to a nice restaurant or --
or asked me to go for a walk.
But this? This is so him.
You would've said yes.
Of course I would.
I love him.
[ Hazlett's "I Don't Want Your Garden" plays ]
Everyone thinks I could do better,
but I don't care what they think.
I don't need our relationship to make sense to them
or anyone else. It makes sense to me.
To us.
I-I-I need to see him. Where is he?
He's in the burn ICU.
You wait here, and I --
I will come and get you when he's ready.
Okay?
♪♪
♪ Cleaning all my clothes till I dream again ♪
♪ The sorry wasn't good, but we wanna be friends ♪
Oh, uh, I'm -- I'm sorry to interrupt.
No, it's okay.
I don't even know what I'm doing here.
Um, looked like you were praying.
No, I'm not religious.
Well, that's not a requirement.
Sometimes I stop in just to get away from things.
♪ We don't see it coming ♪
♪ But we know how this goes ♪
My...daughter was sedated
and put on a medieval-looking vent,
and I wasn't there, so she had to go through that alone.
So I guess I'm just looking for some forgiveness.
You feeling any?
Nope.
That's a big ask.
Give it time.
Jo said she prayed for me after the explosion.
She said it made her feel better.
But just makes me angry.
You know, I grew up in church,
and I still struggle to understand
how God allows certain things to happen.
But that's what having faith is about.
It's how prayer...
gives me...peace,
even in times of doubt.
Well, I don't think it works for me.
There's a thing we say in recovery.
If you can't bring yourself to believe in a higher power...
♪ We don't see it coming ♪
...believe in the people in this room.
I'm biased, but...
you and Jo have some great people around you.
In this time of doubt,
let them give you peace.
♪ Until it goes away ♪
♪ I don't want your garden ♪ [ Alarms beeping ]
Come on. Come on. ♪ I don't like the cold ♪
-Come on. -What happened?
Charge to 200. Clear.
He went into v-fib.
-What about his potassium? -I already corrected it.
[ Flatline ]
Time of death -- -No. No, no, no, no, no.
She's -- She's -- She's here.
She's here, and she's going to say yes.
Millin, we pushed six rounds of epi.
His kidneys are shutting down. He's too acidotic to survive.
Time of death -- 19:23.
♪ I don't want your garden ♪
♪ I don't like the cold ♪
♪ We don't see it coming ♪
♪ We know how this goes ♪
[ Horn honks ]
-Okay. Hot take. -Mm?
"Sleepless in Seattle" is the worst rom-com. [ Chuckles ]
I mean, they don't even meet until the last scene.
Yeah, but...
at a house on the water?
Yes, please.
Fair.
I mean, could you imagine
waking up to that view every morning?
I mean, I live like five minutes from the water,
but I haven't been in months.
Neither have I.
[ Aron Wright's "Follow Me" plays ]
What are you doing right now?
I think you're taking me home.
Let's go see the houseboats.
♪ I hope to keep ♪
Don't you have to go back to work? Yeah, we'll tell Bailey
that the infusion took a little longer than expected.
You feeling okay? ♪ These years of you ♪
Yeah.
Take the next left.
♪ Forever etched on my heart like a tattoo ♪
Hey.
I've already started the notes for Patty Torres.
-Great. Not why I'm here. -Yeah? Then talk.
I may have steered you in the wrong direction with Mohanty.
What does that mean?
You and I may think differently,
but you and her think alike.
You're not dating.
I knew it. I knew it. I knew.
You owe me 50 bucks for those stupid, dumb flowers.
-Flowers cost 50 bucks? -What do I do now?
I'm not going to get involved.
Wait.
But there's no such thing as a stapler for an aorta,
so we had to use a gastrointestinal one.
That doesn't sound like "Goldilocks."
I'm sorry. I'll -- I'll leave.
I just wanted to say goodnight before I left for the evening.
No, no, you have nothing to apologize for.
I'm the one who's sorry. You were just trying to help.
I get it.
Truly.
I'm grateful...
to have people that understand.
Because I don't even know how to hold it together right now.
I'm here.
Whatever you need.
Try to get some sleep.
♪ There is a distance ♪
♪ That waits for us ♪ [ Sighs ]
♪ The only way... ♪
I told your brother and sister that you're here,
and they can't wait to meet you.
Of course, I can't guarantee
they won't try to hit you when they visit.
They're toddlers.
That's how they show their love.
But you'll understand soon enough.
♪ Follow me ♪
She peed.
My daughter -- My daughter peed.
She peed.
-Alright. -Yes.
♪ When you can't see your way through the sorrow ♪
Hey, I-I'm -- I'm sorry,
but, uh, these flowers were delivered to the wrong person.
They're addressed to Dr. Mohanty.
Yeah, for the, uh --
for the other Dr. Mohanty.
Dr. Sunil Mohanty,
the dermatologist who's retiring next month?
Yeah.
"Thanks for a great night.
Let's do it again sometime."
He took a look at a rash for me.
On a patient.
You know what?
I'll send him chocolates tomorrow.
You keep these.
♪♪
You coming?
♪♪
[ Knock on door ]
Oh, uh, Bailey, I just wanted to --
I know you think I am overstepping,
but I don't give a damn.
You are a mentor, a friend,
and I care about you. -Okay.
I know you think you have it all covered
because you're a doctor, a smart man,
but you are also stubborn.
And I refuse to let you get in the way
of your own care because -- What are you doing?
I wanted to ask if you would draw some blood
for my new lab test,
if you'd let me get a word in edgewise.
Of course.
Sorry I snapped at you earlier.
I have cancer.
How long are you going to milk that?
Until the cows come home.
[ Sighs ] Okay. Here.
♪♪
Hey.
Fiona called me and told me.
She says it's my fault he died.
That's not true.
My best friend is dead,
and he's the only person I want to talk to about it.
I'm sorry.
Yeah.
Me, too.
[ Sniffling ]
-Hey. -Hey.
How's Jo?
Oh.
Same. Twins are hanging in,
and Link... -Yeah.
-He'll get there. -Yeah.
Oh, uh, don't forget about Allison's, um --
Yeah, dentist appointment tomorrow?
Yeah, I saw it on the calendar.
Good luck with the interview.
What you did was amazing,
and the world should know about it.
Thank you.
I talked to Nora.
She told me that you guys broke up.
I mean, you could've told me.
I could've, but...
[ Sighs ]
...that would've been us falling into our old patterns,
and I'm trying my hardest to move forward, so...
Doesn't mean I'm not proud of you.
[ Viv Parker feat. Katie Hargrove's "Here and Now" plays ]
-Good night. -Good night.
♪♪
Meredith: When a surgeon steps into the O.R...
♪ Oh I can almost taste it ♪
...there's no room for self-doubt.
♪ Feels like I have to chase it ♪
♪ Hoping for something more ♪
You have to silence that small voice
that says you aren't ready.
♪ All that we waited for ♪
Got to be kidding me.
♪ 'Cause it's here and now ♪
♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪
Why are you everywhere all the time?
I work here.
Is that going to be a problem for you?
♪ It's here and now ♪
♪ Writing this story as we go ♪
Because if you wait to make a move until you're ready...
♪ Where it leads next, we never know ♪
♪ We're standing on the edge ♪
[ Both breathing heavily ]
♪ Wonder what's coming next ♪
...you might never leave the starting gate.
♪ 'Cause it's here and now ♪
♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪
♪ It's here and now ♪
♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪
♪ It's here and now ♪
♪ Take my hand, don't look down ♪
You simply have to trust
that you'll be able to weather the storm.
Contractility has improved.
Her EF has gone up 5%.
Her heart's recovering?
It's recovering.
I'll give you two some space.
Hey, if you don't mind --
Checking on your girls?
Was already headed there.
[ Sighs ]
I know it doesn't make any sense, but...
...Baby B looks just like Luna.
You'll see when you meet her.
Baby A, she's got this way oh, uh,
scrunching up her nose like you do
when you think I'm talking too much.
Jo?
Whatever that storm may be.
♪ Show me what it's all about ♪
♪ It's here and now ♪
♪♪