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A month ago, you were in med
school being taught by doctors.
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Today you are the doctors.
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The seven years you spend
here as a surgical resident
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will be the best and worst of your life.
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There's an old joke doctors like to tell.
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"Hey, Doc, it hurts when I go like this."
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And the doctor says,
"Well, don't go like this."
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It's a lame joke,
but it's nonetheless true.
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Okay, folks. Meeting time.
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Please take your seats.
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As human beings, we can't help
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but want to follow our instincts...
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Hey!
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I, uh, went back to the loft
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and got you another bag of your stuff.
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- Oh.
- Couldn't find those
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ugly, fuzzy socks you like.
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...to follow our guts...
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That face is over socks?
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...our primal urges...
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Uh, some bills, some junk,
and, uh, top letter.
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...no matter how much it may hurt.
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I'll sit with you.
We can read it together.
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I got it.
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I got it.
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You know where to find me.
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Dear Jo...
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Mer, this is not the way
I wanted to do this.
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Dear Dr. Bailey, I regret to
inform you, blah, blah, blah,
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that I will not be
returning to Grey-Sloan.
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The last thing on Earth
I want to do is hurt you,
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but I'm leaving.
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I already left, actually.
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I'm gone.
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Synced & corrected by -robtor-
www.addic7ed.com
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This is not the way I wanted
to do this, but you know me.
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Any chance to take the easy way out.
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Or maybe that used
to be true. I don't know.
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God, I hate nurses.
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I'm Alex. I'm with Jeremy.
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You're, uh... You're
with the Nazi, right?
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She may not have pneumonia, you know?
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She could be splinting, or have a P.E.
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Like I said, I hate nurses.
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What did you just say?
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Did you just call me a nurse?
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Well, if the white cap fits.
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What I do know is I owe you the truth,
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and I don't know how else to tell you.
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But you know as well as I do
if I showed up on your doorstep,
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you'd yell or give me guilt or crap
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or whatever you do that
seems to always set me straight.
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We're grown-ups.
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We can't run.
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We have to face up to
the stupid things we do.
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- Alex!
- Get off!
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Supposedly, if you face up to them,
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something good comes out
of it. I don't know what.
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You were always the
one to set me straight...
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God, I smell good!
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You know what it is?
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It's the smell of open-heart surgery.
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It's awesome. It is awesome.
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- You gotta smell me.
- I don't want to smell you.
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...to point out when I was being an ass.
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You have got to be kidding me!
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Okay, I have more important
things to deal with than you.
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I have roommates and boy
problems and family problems.
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You wanna act like a little
frat-boy bitch? That's fine.
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You wanna take credit for
your saves and everybody else's?
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That's fine, too.
Just stay outta my face.
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And for the record,
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you smell like crap!
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And when that didn't work,
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you'd flop in my bed and
say the one perfect thing
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that would make sense.
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But the thing is, I can't come back.
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I can't face you.
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You can go.
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What are you gonna do if I leave?
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It's just us now.
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There were five of us,
and now it's just you and I.
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And it can't be just me.
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It seems like five seconds ago,
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we were the interns
hiding in the tunnels.
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- Alex!
- Get off.
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Look, I'm not gonna stay in Seattle
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just because you don't want to be alone.
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I deserve the guilt
and to be called an ass,
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but I don't want to be set straight.
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I don't want you to say the right thing
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because the one perfect
thing isn't in Seattle.
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Not anymore.
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Yang left me her shares
and her board seat
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and... she left me you, too.
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It's just us now.
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I don't know... if you need
somebody to bitch to
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or just be...
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My person.
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I don't know what you mean.
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But you do.
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Apparently, I'm your emergency contact.
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I want waffle Sundays.
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Like a family, all of us...
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everybody, all together.
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Okay.
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I want to do that as long as we can.
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- It's important to me.
- God, get off! Stop it!
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Oh, my God. Ohh.
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But I swear, it's not
about work or you or Jo.
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It's about me.
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I left.
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And I'm with Izzie.
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This is probably the part where
you're gonna get on your phone
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and call a million times
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and leave hateful messages on my machine
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till I call you back.
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But I can't, Mer.
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I can't lie to you, and I can't promise
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I'm gonna come home
because it's not home anymore.
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- Go make her happy.
- Yeah.
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When you were in danger
of losing your license,
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when I called everyone to write letters
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and show up on your behalf,
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I called Izzie, too.
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I want to say I hoped
she wouldn't answer,
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but the truth is I hoped she would.
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I want to say,
"I had to call her for you,"
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but that would be a lie.
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The truth is your trial gave me
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an excuse good enough to call her.
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'Cause I wanted to know where she landed.
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Today is the day my life begins.
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All my life, I've been just me...
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just a smart-mouth kid.
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Today I become a man.
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Today I become a husband.
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Today I become accountable
to someone other than myself.
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Today I become accountable to you,
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to our future,
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to all the possibilities that
our marriage has to offer.
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Together, no matter what happens,
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I'll be ready...
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I wanted to know if
she was alive and well.
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Screw the DNR.
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Hand me those paddles.
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- Clear.
- I wanted to hear her voice.
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I'm a bride.
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Iz, come on. I'm getting her a real one.
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I love this one,
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and that makes it a real one.
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When she picked up,
I blurted out the whole thing
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about you picking up trash off the street
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and needing a letter that
proved you're better than that.
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And she laughed and said,
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"Of course she'd be trash-picking,
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trying to save the world."
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Today, Izzie Stevens,
our life together begins.
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And I, for one, can't wait.
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And then these voices
were in the background
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and a girl was singing this song about
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"greasy, grimy gopher guts"
that I learned in first grade
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and I started laughing and
I asked if she had kids and...
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Izzie got quiet.
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For so long, she was quiet,
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and finally, she said,
"Yeah, I have kids."
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"Twins."
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And it turns out they're my kids, Mer.
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Izzie's and my kids.
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She had our kids.
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I love Jo.
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Deeply. Still.
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I think I always will.
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And if it was just about
two women I love,
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I'd choose my wife.
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You know I would.
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- Hey.
- But it's not just her.
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Izzie made our kids.
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I snooched into a cup for you today.
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Um... thank you?
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She was single and wanted children
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and couldn't have 'em because
the cancer nuked her eggs.
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But she had our embryos.
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Back then I was too freaked out
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to care about what she did with
them if we never used them.
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You think a Dixie cup full of my swimmers
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will make everything okay?
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It's crap. This is crap.
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You just can't go messing
with people's heads like that.
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Even if she freezes the embryos,
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you think... you think we'll
get a chance to use them?
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You think she'll still be here?
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You think she'll survive all this?
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Do you think...
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She t-told me...
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she told me she was seeing a ghost, okay?
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And I'm so used to all
the crazy chicks in my life
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that I didn't even...
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I'm a doctor.
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A doctor!
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And I didn't even think to...
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And now she's... This is...
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This is wrong.
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This isn't how it's supposed to happen.
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I know.
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- It's crap.
- I know.
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I hate this.
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I know.
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This isn't...
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This isn't how we... How we were supp...
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this isn't how I wanted to do this.
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This isn't how Izzie and I
were supposed to make a baby.
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So I signed papers saying she could do
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whatever she wanted with them.
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And so she used them.
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And she had twins.
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Eli and Alexis.
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I should have told Jo
or told you, but I didn't.
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I got through the trial
and then I came here
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and I met the kids.
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Met, my kids, Mer.
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They're five.
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And hilarious and stubborn
as hell, just like Izzie.
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Like this little team that gangs up on me
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with stubbornness and sticky hands.
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Hi, horsey!
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And the second I walked in the door,
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they wanted to show me their rooms
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and the look on their faces
when they were showing me
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all their toys and books and...
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asked if they could call me...
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Dad.
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They both want to be doctors,
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and Izzie teaches them
to bake just like her.
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And they scribble
pictures of stethoscopes
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all over the walls in chalk.
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And Alexis...
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...oh, she's got Izzie's eyes.
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And Eli smiles crooked just like I do.
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And now I live on a freaking
farm in Nowhere, Kansas.
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And the kids play with the chickens
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and Izzie goes to work
as a surgical oncologist.
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Oh, and she's amazing, Mer.
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The progress she's made.
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She's alive.
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And she's a miracle and
keeping other people alive.
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And I'm applying to the hospital nearby.
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And I wanted to be mad at Izzie
for keeping them from me,
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but I can't because all I am
is grateful she made them.
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Oh, they're so damn smart,
smarter than I was at their age.
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Hell, sometimes at my age.
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And they get to have everything...
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a home where they feel safe and loved,
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and they play "sleepover,"
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where they just keep
swapping beds non-stop,
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all night until they land
in ours at 4:00 a.m.
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And they wake up with two parents,
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when I rarely ever even had one.
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Oh, I love them, Mer,
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with every inch of me and every cell,
261
00:13:28,320 --> 00:13:30,754
and I get to be their dad.
262
00:13:30,789 --> 00:13:33,757
I'm the guy who lied and
said I only had one ball
263
00:13:33,792 --> 00:13:35,680
to get into Seattle Grace.
264
00:13:35,714 --> 00:13:37,361
And it worked.
265
00:13:37,429 --> 00:13:40,231
I got a job and a career
I love based on a lie
266
00:13:40,265 --> 00:13:43,567
that no one really cared about,
and I made it work.
267
00:13:44,970 --> 00:13:46,904
And when I look at my kids
268
00:13:46,938 --> 00:13:49,740
and doubt if I know
how to do right by them,
269
00:13:49,808 --> 00:13:53,426
I just think of you and
Zola and Bailey and Ellis.
270
00:13:53,460 --> 00:13:54,540
You're so brave.
271
00:13:54,565 --> 00:13:56,548
And you've grown into
this incredible mother,
272
00:13:56,592 --> 00:13:58,849
this incredible surgeon.
273
00:13:59,985 --> 00:14:01,407
You did that.
274
00:14:02,721 --> 00:14:04,922
You always said Cristina was your person.
275
00:14:04,990 --> 00:14:06,957
Then I was your person.
276
00:14:06,992 --> 00:14:09,827
But you've always been
your own damn person,
277
00:14:09,861 --> 00:14:12,930
a force of freaking nature.
278
00:14:12,964 --> 00:14:16,214
You've never needed anyone but you.
279
00:14:16,902 --> 00:14:17,835
And you can come here, you know?
280
00:14:17,869 --> 00:14:19,904
You... You... You could
show up at my door
281
00:14:19,938 --> 00:14:21,972
and... and get me to
walk away from all this
282
00:14:22,007 --> 00:14:24,508
and just go back to you
and Jo and the hospital
283
00:14:24,542 --> 00:14:26,911
- and everyone who helped me get here.
- ...two... one!
284
00:14:26,945 --> 00:14:29,146
But I hope you don't.
285
00:14:29,180 --> 00:14:31,015
Mer, you are my best friend,
286
00:14:31,049 --> 00:14:32,616
and I will miss the hell out of you,
287
00:14:32,651 --> 00:14:38,489
but I'm finally exactly
where I should be.
288
00:14:38,623 --> 00:14:40,905
I never had that before.
289
00:14:41,626 --> 00:14:45,296
So, I hope you do come here one day,
290
00:14:45,330 --> 00:14:48,265
but not to ask me to leave.
291
00:14:48,290 --> 00:14:50,691
I hope you come to meet my kids
292
00:14:50,716 --> 00:14:52,984
and they get to call you "Auntie Mer."
293
00:14:53,071 --> 00:14:56,254
Because you'll love them,
and they'll love you.
294
00:14:56,908 --> 00:14:58,965
And until you're ready to do that,
295
00:15:00,111 --> 00:15:02,413
try not to hate me too much.
296
00:15:02,447 --> 00:15:03,761
Please?
297
00:15:05,083 --> 00:15:06,764
Alex.
298
00:15:20,162 --> 00:15:22,162
I'm sorry!
299
00:15:24,405 --> 00:15:26,640
You deserve more than a letter.
300
00:15:26,674 --> 00:15:28,141
I'm your intern for the day.
301
00:15:28,209 --> 00:15:30,064
Oh. Well, hello, intern. You have a name?
302
00:15:30,099 --> 00:15:31,178
Jo Wilson.
303
00:15:31,212 --> 00:15:33,447
Oh, nice. I like chicks with boys names.
304
00:15:34,042 --> 00:15:35,816
And this right here,
305
00:15:35,850 --> 00:15:39,720
this cowardice, this letter?
306
00:15:39,754 --> 00:15:42,289
It's officially the worst
thing I've ever done.
307
00:15:43,691 --> 00:15:45,893
But it's about me, Jo.
308
00:15:45,927 --> 00:15:47,194
It's not about you.
309
00:15:47,228 --> 00:15:49,207
I don't live in my car anymore, jerk.
310
00:15:49,232 --> 00:15:50,664
It's not what you deserve.
311
00:15:50,698 --> 00:15:53,734
You deserve and have earned
so much better than this.
312
00:15:53,768 --> 00:15:55,269
Hey, powdered sugar's your favorite.
313
00:15:55,303 --> 00:15:57,337
Yeah, no. Uh, this is great.
314
00:15:57,362 --> 00:15:59,063
You wanted to hear me say the words.
315
00:15:59,088 --> 00:16:01,623
So I'm... saying them right now.
316
00:16:04,245 --> 00:16:06,647
I love you, Jo.
317
00:16:06,714 --> 00:16:08,682
I love that you are brilliant and brave,
318
00:16:08,750 --> 00:16:10,350
and no matter what you go through...
319
00:16:10,385 --> 00:16:11,318
Hey, Brooke.
320
00:16:11,352 --> 00:16:13,687
Oh, wait. It's... It's "Jo" now, right?
321
00:16:15,256 --> 00:16:17,057
...you never let it hold you back.
322
00:16:17,082 --> 00:16:19,817
- Do I look like him?
- You have my father's eyes...
323
00:16:19,928 --> 00:16:21,328
You have an out.
324
00:16:24,632 --> 00:16:27,167
It makes you stronger, kinder.
325
00:16:27,201 --> 00:16:28,502
You made me kinder.
326
00:16:28,536 --> 00:16:30,203
That works? The compliments thing?
327
00:16:30,238 --> 00:16:31,405
Mm-hmm.
328
00:16:31,439 --> 00:16:32,673
God, you're sexy.
329
00:16:32,740 --> 00:16:34,441
Doesn't work on me.
330
00:16:34,475 --> 00:16:36,009
Ohh!
331
00:16:36,044 --> 00:16:38,445
Oh. A little warning when people are over
332
00:16:38,479 --> 00:16:39,546
would be nice.
333
00:16:39,581 --> 00:16:42,416
You loved me for exactly
who I was, and I loved you.
334
00:16:42,450 --> 00:16:44,418
I'm gonna marry that girl.
335
00:16:44,452 --> 00:16:46,553
Ohh! Yes!
336
00:16:46,588 --> 00:16:48,121
I love you.
337
00:16:48,156 --> 00:16:51,258
Maybe it's not fair to
say that, but it's true.
338
00:16:51,292 --> 00:16:52,893
What's also true is...
339
00:16:54,996 --> 00:16:56,463
...I'm in love with Izzie.
340
00:17:03,004 --> 00:17:05,572
When I asked you if you
wanted to move in with me,
341
00:17:05,607 --> 00:17:07,207
you said that you did
342
00:17:07,241 --> 00:17:08,586
and that you could
picture a life with me,
343
00:17:08,610 --> 00:17:10,744
but you never said anything about babies.
344
00:17:10,778 --> 00:17:13,807
You said, "Maybe we could get a dog."
345
00:17:13,832 --> 00:17:14,961
Do you want a dog?
346
00:17:14,986 --> 00:17:16,560
No, I want to know what we're doing here.
347
00:17:16,584 --> 00:17:18,552
I love you, and you love me.
348
00:17:18,586 --> 00:17:20,220
I know, but when I look ahead...
349
00:17:20,254 --> 00:17:21,288
Why are we looking ahead?
350
00:17:21,322 --> 00:17:23,423
If you had or maybe you
do have, for all I know,
351
00:17:23,458 --> 00:17:26,093
a bunch of Izzie babies walking
around with your face on them...
352
00:17:26,160 --> 00:17:27,171
And why are we doing it now?
353
00:17:27,195 --> 00:17:29,463
And... And I'm just the
"Let's get a dog" girl?
354
00:17:29,497 --> 00:17:31,598
You always ask about Izzie,
what she was like.
355
00:17:31,633 --> 00:17:33,300
Well, that... that girl right there.
356
00:17:33,334 --> 00:17:35,002
That... That's what Izzie was like.
357
00:17:35,036 --> 00:17:38,105
I imagined this whole life
for her where she was baking
358
00:17:38,139 --> 00:17:40,140
and happy and had a bunch of kids.
359
00:17:40,174 --> 00:17:42,142
Alex, if you want to know how she is,
360
00:17:42,176 --> 00:17:43,248
you should just call her.
361
00:17:43,283 --> 00:17:45,178
And I never imagined me in that picture.
362
00:17:45,213 --> 00:17:46,346
You should call Izzie.
363
00:17:46,381 --> 00:17:48,348
But suddenly, I am.
364
00:17:48,416 --> 00:17:51,184
Not suddenly. That's a lie there.
365
00:17:51,219 --> 00:17:53,353
There was a part of me
that always wondered,
366
00:17:53,388 --> 00:17:54,921
always wanted to know,
367
00:17:54,989 --> 00:17:59,526
always felt like we
left things unresolved,
368
00:17:59,594 --> 00:18:01,628
unfinished.
369
00:18:01,663 --> 00:18:06,333
So, when Mer needed all those
letters, I reached out to her.
370
00:18:06,367 --> 00:18:08,802
I reached out to Izzie
and we started talking
371
00:18:08,836 --> 00:18:10,437
and it scared the crap out of me
372
00:18:10,462 --> 00:18:13,259
because it felt like no time had passed,
373
00:18:13,875 --> 00:18:17,544
like Izzie and I were kind
of frozen together in time,
374
00:18:17,612 --> 00:18:19,946
and now... now we're not.
375
00:18:19,981 --> 00:18:22,549
She's not. She's here in Kansas,
376
00:18:22,583 --> 00:18:25,786
on a farm in this incredible
place in the middle of nowhere.
377
00:18:25,820 --> 00:18:27,688
And I never, in a million years,
378
00:18:27,713 --> 00:18:30,815
would think I belong here, but I do.
379
00:18:30,925 --> 00:18:32,893
And I can't lie to you...
380
00:18:32,960 --> 00:18:34,605
...and pretend the
truth isn't the truth...
381
00:18:34,629 --> 00:18:37,141
that I love you and I love Izzie.
382
00:18:38,184 --> 00:18:42,002
But if it was just me missing
her or nostalgia or whatever...
383
00:18:42,036 --> 00:18:43,047
Will you stay with me?
384
00:18:43,081 --> 00:18:44,838
...I would have been able to walk away
385
00:18:44,863 --> 00:18:46,363
and come back to you.
386
00:18:48,109 --> 00:18:50,744
But Izzie had my kids.
387
00:18:50,778 --> 00:18:54,047
And I know you get
what that really means.
388
00:18:54,082 --> 00:18:55,649
I know you of all people
389
00:18:55,683 --> 00:18:57,751
understand why I can't just leave now...
390
00:18:57,785 --> 00:18:59,757
...why I can't miss another
391
00:18:59,782 --> 00:19:02,189
second of my kids' lives.
392
00:19:02,223 --> 00:19:05,092
I have a chance to
make this family whole,
393
00:19:05,126 --> 00:19:08,435
and I just hope you love me
back enough to let me take it.
394
00:19:09,652 --> 00:19:12,220
I need to give these kids
the family you and I never had,
395
00:19:12,245 --> 00:19:16,048
with barbecuing out on the
back porch and soccer games
396
00:19:16,073 --> 00:19:18,408
and movie nights and book reports.
397
00:19:18,433 --> 00:19:19,867
Mom.
398
00:19:26,440 --> 00:19:28,341
I didn't know she would have my kids,
399
00:19:28,366 --> 00:19:30,634
and now that she does,
400
00:19:30,659 --> 00:19:33,394
I don't know how to look
anyone in the eye if I don't stay
401
00:19:33,419 --> 00:19:36,688
and do everything I can
to make this work...
402
00:19:36,824 --> 00:19:40,580
make this a life, make this a family.
403
00:19:41,529 --> 00:19:43,130
You were wrong.
404
00:19:43,197 --> 00:19:45,866
You're not the "Let's get a dog" girl.
405
00:19:45,891 --> 00:19:47,258
And I was never holding a candle
406
00:19:47,283 --> 00:19:48,516
or those pieces of paper
407
00:19:48,541 --> 00:19:51,257
thinking anything would ever change.
408
00:19:52,106 --> 00:19:54,574
When I asked you to marry me, I meant it.
409
00:19:56,677 --> 00:19:58,522
And we'll be together
forever, right? You and me.
410
00:19:58,546 --> 00:20:00,347
And if we have kids, we'll be great.
411
00:20:00,381 --> 00:20:02,516
I'll be a great dad, and you'll be great,
412
00:20:02,550 --> 00:20:03,917
and it'll be just us.
413
00:20:03,951 --> 00:20:05,719
We won't need anybody else, okay?
414
00:20:05,753 --> 00:20:09,122
When I told you I love you, I meant it.
415
00:20:09,157 --> 00:20:12,559
But Izzie has our kids, Jo.
416
00:20:12,593 --> 00:20:14,494
Our kids.
417
00:20:14,529 --> 00:20:16,991
And the way you and I grew up, I...
418
00:20:17,598 --> 00:20:19,966
I-I came to meet them,
to start to know them.
419
00:20:20,001 --> 00:20:22,369
I missed five years of their lives.
420
00:20:22,403 --> 00:20:24,404
And not because I was
a junkie like my dad
421
00:20:24,438 --> 00:20:26,740
or off my meds like my mom.
422
00:20:26,808 --> 00:20:30,296
I didn't exist to them until
I walked through the front door.
423
00:20:30,678 --> 00:20:34,648
And once I did, I had this
family I never knew I had
424
00:20:34,682 --> 00:20:37,549
on this insane farm, and I wish I'd
425
00:20:38,619 --> 00:20:41,588
I wish getting everything I always wanted
426
00:20:41,656 --> 00:20:43,957
didn't have to hurt you in the process.
427
00:20:55,069 --> 00:20:56,947
But I can't lie to you.
428
00:20:57,505 --> 00:20:58,805
And I can't come home.
429
00:20:58,840 --> 00:21:00,707
Are you asking me to a dance?
430
00:21:00,741 --> 00:21:04,778
No, I'm... I'm asking
you to come back home.
431
00:21:06,581 --> 00:21:08,281
I'm not coming home, Jo.
432
00:21:08,316 --> 00:21:09,316
I can't face you.
433
00:21:09,383 --> 00:21:10,550
I can't look you in the eye
434
00:21:10,585 --> 00:21:12,986
because I wouldn't be able to walk away.
435
00:21:13,054 --> 00:21:15,622
Maybe "I love you" is wrong to say,
436
00:21:15,647 --> 00:21:19,516
but thank you for making me better
437
00:21:19,541 --> 00:21:21,552
and taking care of me when I needed it,
438
00:21:21,629 --> 00:21:25,565
for taking care of yourself
when you needed it, too.
439
00:21:25,600 --> 00:21:27,167
I went to a lawyer.
440
00:21:27,201 --> 00:21:28,735
I signed divorce papers.
441
00:21:28,769 --> 00:21:31,504
I left everything to you. It's yours.
442
00:21:31,572 --> 00:21:35,008
You worked for every cent
you ever owned and then some.
443
00:21:35,076 --> 00:21:37,644
I also left you my shares in Grey-Sloan.
444
00:21:37,712 --> 00:21:40,714
Whatever you choose to do with
them, I know it will be amazing.
445
00:21:40,781 --> 00:21:42,682
Just like you.
446
00:21:44,333 --> 00:21:45,600
You know, I, uh...
447
00:21:45,686 --> 00:21:48,555
I barely saw you this week,
448
00:21:48,589 --> 00:21:51,168
and it sucked.
449
00:21:52,093 --> 00:21:54,928
I'll find another job. Whatever.
450
00:21:54,962 --> 00:21:58,798
I, uh, but I don't want
to never see you again.
451
00:21:58,833 --> 00:22:02,304
Oh, you deserve everything
good in this life, Jo.
452
00:22:03,404 --> 00:22:06,473
I hope you find so much better than me.
453
00:22:06,507 --> 00:22:07,707
Thank you.
454
00:22:08,519 --> 00:22:10,354
I'm... I'm sorry.
455
00:22:11,112 --> 00:22:13,232
I don't know how to end this.
456
00:22:13,814 --> 00:22:15,582
I don't want to.
457
00:22:17,685 --> 00:22:19,029
Goodbye.
458
00:22:26,626 --> 00:22:28,520
I'm guessing you're
not surprised by this,
459
00:22:28,544 --> 00:22:31,417
and definitely not happy about it.
460
00:22:32,428 --> 00:22:34,629
They called me Evil Spawn
most of the time
461
00:22:34,697 --> 00:22:36,698
growing up in your hospital.
462
00:22:36,732 --> 00:22:38,199
Nice panties, Yang.
463
00:22:39,556 --> 00:22:41,269
In your dreams, Evil Spawn.
464
00:22:41,303 --> 00:22:43,004
It's probably one of the better nicknames
465
00:22:43,072 --> 00:22:45,373
I had most of my life, to be honest.
466
00:22:45,407 --> 00:22:47,175
I earned the name.
467
00:22:47,243 --> 00:22:48,919
I know it, you know it.
468
00:22:48,954 --> 00:22:50,154
Morning, people.
469
00:22:50,179 --> 00:22:53,272
Hell, you probably know
that better than anyone.
470
00:22:54,416 --> 00:22:57,285
Truth is, you didn't like me
very much in the beginning.
471
00:22:59,221 --> 00:23:01,756
I didn't really like you much, either.
472
00:23:01,790 --> 00:23:03,391
Sloppy, sloppy, sloppy.
473
00:23:03,459 --> 00:23:06,194
Redo these and return them
to me before lunch, understood?
474
00:23:06,228 --> 00:23:08,096
- Understood.
- Karev, don't tempt me.
475
00:23:08,130 --> 00:23:09,741
And, Karev, see the chief
by the end of the day.
476
00:23:09,765 --> 00:23:10,864
What for?
477
00:23:10,898 --> 00:23:12,667
Do I look psychic to you? He's the chief.
478
00:23:12,701 --> 00:23:13,701
He asked, you go.
479
00:23:13,736 --> 00:23:15,436
Karev, go stand in the hall.
480
00:23:15,471 --> 00:23:17,205
- Karev, cover the pit.
- Pit!
481
00:23:17,239 --> 00:23:18,906
Hate being an intern.
482
00:23:18,941 --> 00:23:23,177
You were mean and impatient...
and knew everything,
483
00:23:23,212 --> 00:23:24,779
and you liked everyone else but me,
484
00:23:24,813 --> 00:23:26,447
even when you pretended you didn't.
485
00:23:26,482 --> 00:23:27,810
Are you sure they're balloons?
486
00:23:28,516 --> 00:23:30,718
You have reason to believe
they're not balloons?
487
00:23:30,753 --> 00:23:32,720
This one here's got a face.
488
00:23:32,755 --> 00:23:34,622
They all do.
489
00:23:34,690 --> 00:23:36,224
I'll be damned.
490
00:23:36,258 --> 00:23:38,726
- They're Judys.
- Judys?
491
00:23:38,794 --> 00:23:43,931
He swallowed the heads of ten Judy dolls.
492
00:23:43,999 --> 00:23:46,567
Or you were convinced I had "it"...
493
00:23:46,635 --> 00:23:50,538
that something that would
make them great someday.
494
00:23:50,788 --> 00:23:53,141
Hell, you named your kid after O'Malley.
495
00:23:53,208 --> 00:23:55,977
And Mer named her
kid after you, and you...
496
00:23:57,246 --> 00:24:00,415
...you just seemed like all
my other teachers before you
497
00:24:00,449 --> 00:24:03,718
who took one look at me,
decided I was garbage,
498
00:24:03,786 --> 00:24:06,387
and that was all I'd ever be.
499
00:24:06,422 --> 00:24:08,156
But here's the thing.
500
00:24:08,223 --> 00:24:11,993
Unlike everyone else,
you let me grow the hell up.
501
00:24:12,061 --> 00:24:14,896
- He saved a baby's life.
- You gave me crap when I deserved it.
502
00:24:14,963 --> 00:24:17,265
You pushed my buttons and
my limits when I needed it.
503
00:24:17,299 --> 00:24:20,001
What the hell? You are not some
hotshot surgeon right now.
504
00:24:20,035 --> 00:24:22,270
Yeah, it's a teaching
hospital and all that,
505
00:24:22,337 --> 00:24:25,206
but you did more than that,
and you know it.
506
00:24:25,240 --> 00:24:27,441
Why is there a trailer
in my parking spot?
507
00:24:27,700 --> 00:24:30,678
Is one of these yours? My bad.
508
00:24:30,713 --> 00:24:31,973
And, sure, it'd be pretty great
509
00:24:32,008 --> 00:24:33,581
if I just stayed there forever
510
00:24:33,649 --> 00:24:36,150
and repaid you for
everything you did for me.
511
00:24:37,001 --> 00:24:39,420
But you and I both know I can't.
512
00:24:41,023 --> 00:24:42,824
Never could.
513
00:24:42,858 --> 00:24:44,859
You helped me grow the hell up,
514
00:24:44,927 --> 00:24:46,861
and you took a bullet out of my stomach.
515
00:24:46,895 --> 00:24:48,029
You paged me?
516
00:24:48,063 --> 00:24:50,465
I did. I have a surgery.
517
00:24:50,499 --> 00:24:52,084
You're actually gonna
let me near a patient?
518
00:24:52,108 --> 00:24:53,325
You are the patient.
519
00:24:53,369 --> 00:24:55,524
- Get in there and get on that table.
- Oh...
520
00:24:56,683 --> 00:24:58,651
I don't need a reminder of this thing.
521
00:24:58,676 --> 00:25:00,310
I'm gonna carry that day around with me
522
00:25:00,335 --> 00:25:02,319
every day for the rest of my life.
523
00:25:02,344 --> 00:25:04,255
I don't need a reminder
every time I look at you.
524
00:25:04,279 --> 00:25:07,482
And I'm tired of bullying you,
525
00:25:07,516 --> 00:25:09,317
so I am asking you,
526
00:25:09,351 --> 00:25:13,221
please, get in there
and get your shirt off.
527
00:25:15,758 --> 00:25:17,525
You protected Jo from herself,
528
00:25:17,559 --> 00:25:19,060
and if I started the whole list
529
00:25:19,094 --> 00:25:20,495
of everything I learned from you,
530
00:25:20,529 --> 00:25:22,263
I would never stop writing.
531
00:25:22,298 --> 00:25:24,332
And right now my hand hurts.
532
00:25:24,924 --> 00:25:26,842
So just know this.
533
00:25:27,142 --> 00:25:29,744
It took me a long time to say it,
534
00:25:30,005 --> 00:25:32,440
but I'm a good peds surgeon.
535
00:25:33,509 --> 00:25:35,276
I'm an okay guy.
536
00:25:35,643 --> 00:25:37,378
I'm still trying.
537
00:25:37,811 --> 00:25:41,349
But I'm a really damn good surgeon.
538
00:25:41,417 --> 00:25:42,961
- We got movement!
- And I don't mind saying it now
539
00:25:42,985 --> 00:25:45,286
because I didn't figure it out myself.
540
00:25:46,195 --> 00:25:49,424
You kicked my ass and
asked more of me than anyone
541
00:25:49,458 --> 00:25:51,098
and hired other teachers
who kicked my ass
542
00:25:51,126 --> 00:25:52,427
and asked more of me.
543
00:25:52,461 --> 00:25:54,629
Karev, I hear that
you're the future of peds.
544
00:25:54,663 --> 00:25:56,036
- Excuse me?
- Yeah, a little birdie named
545
00:25:56,060 --> 00:25:57,365
Bailey whispered it in my ear.
546
00:25:57,399 --> 00:25:59,320
I want you to work with me
today so I can see if she's right.
547
00:25:59,344 --> 00:26:00,472
What did she say?
548
00:26:00,507 --> 00:26:02,380
That you're the best
babysitter in the hospital.
549
00:26:02,404 --> 00:26:03,771
Shut up.
550
00:26:03,806 --> 00:26:05,106
And I know who I am.
551
00:26:05,140 --> 00:26:08,910
I'm not that guy with a million
Catherine Fox Awards on a shelf.
552
00:26:08,977 --> 00:26:10,244
Goodbye, Mom.
553
00:26:10,279 --> 00:26:11,637
Bye.
554
00:26:12,763 --> 00:26:15,383
A junkie dad, a crackpot mom,
555
00:26:15,451 --> 00:26:18,953
and somehow Karev still became a doctor.
556
00:26:18,987 --> 00:26:21,456
I'm not easily impressed,
but I'm impressed.
557
00:26:21,523 --> 00:26:23,739
I became the guy you
trusted to run the hospital
558
00:26:23,773 --> 00:26:24,838
and keep your secrets.
559
00:26:24,906 --> 00:26:26,727
And now... It's okay.
560
00:26:26,762 --> 00:26:29,397
...and now I'm a surgeon, a friend,
561
00:26:29,431 --> 00:26:32,366
a father of two incredible
kids with Izzie Stevens,
562
00:26:32,434 --> 00:26:35,202
which I'm sure is breaking your brain.
563
00:26:36,205 --> 00:26:38,239
- But it's true.
- Nothing!
564
00:26:38,307 --> 00:26:40,107
I'm all these things.
565
00:26:40,142 --> 00:26:41,409
She been out there all day?
566
00:26:41,443 --> 00:26:43,644
And by the way, I have a shot
567
00:26:43,712 --> 00:26:46,113
at being Chief of Peds
at Shawnee County here,
568
00:26:46,547 --> 00:26:48,983
but I'm guessing you're the last person
569
00:26:49,017 --> 00:26:51,760
I should put down as a rec right now.
570
00:26:52,821 --> 00:26:56,424
Okay, look, the... the kids
keep asking for pizza sushi,
571
00:26:56,458 --> 00:26:59,060
and I have to go tell
them that's not a thing.
572
00:26:59,094 --> 00:27:01,796
And if I say any more in this letter,
573
00:27:01,830 --> 00:27:04,732
there are going to be
feelings all over the place.
574
00:27:04,766 --> 00:27:06,442
Yours, not mine.
575
00:27:07,035 --> 00:27:09,403
And, really, I'm just
writing to say goodbye.
576
00:27:10,154 --> 00:27:11,939
And thanks.
577
00:27:11,974 --> 00:27:13,508
And that sounds lame and small
578
00:27:13,575 --> 00:27:14,819
compared to everything you've done,
579
00:27:14,843 --> 00:27:18,245
but there it is.
580
00:27:19,381 --> 00:27:21,816
Goodbye, and thanks.
581
00:27:23,719 --> 00:27:25,653
I love you, Dr. Bailey.
582
00:27:27,656 --> 00:27:29,457
Dr. Alex Karev.
583
00:27:38,552 --> 00:27:42,227
- Richard, alcoholic.
- Hi, Richard.
584
00:27:46,169 --> 00:27:48,237
See one,
585
00:27:48,305 --> 00:27:50,172
do one,
586
00:27:50,207 --> 00:27:51,653
teach one.
587
00:27:52,890 --> 00:27:55,839
That's been the motto
of every hospital I run,
588
00:27:55,864 --> 00:27:57,743
every teacher I've loved.
589
00:27:59,149 --> 00:28:04,353
I loved being a surgeon, saving lives,
590
00:28:04,387 --> 00:28:08,357
giving people back their families,
591
00:28:08,391 --> 00:28:11,911
their loved ones, and their friends.
592
00:28:11,935 --> 00:28:16,386
Giving them back to them
when all seemed lost.
593
00:28:17,106 --> 00:28:20,375
And I loved my students,
not because of ego...
594
00:28:23,379 --> 00:28:25,180
I'm done. I'm done! I'm done!
595
00:28:25,215 --> 00:28:29,985
...but because it gave me that
same rush, that same feeling...
596
00:28:30,019 --> 00:28:33,188
That's why I'm the chief.
597
00:28:33,223 --> 00:28:37,025
It's like you're helping
to keep people alive,
598
00:28:37,093 --> 00:28:39,701
keep families alive.
599
00:28:40,697 --> 00:28:43,165
And then this morning,
I wake up to a letter
600
00:28:43,233 --> 00:28:46,902
from a student of mine, who, well,
601
00:28:46,936 --> 00:28:51,006
let's just say he's not the one
I would have put money down on.
602
00:28:51,074 --> 00:28:53,041
What happens, uh,
if I... if I take the exam
603
00:28:53,076 --> 00:28:55,344
for a second time and I don't pass?
604
00:28:55,378 --> 00:28:58,013
You will no longer be a surgical
resident at Seattle Grace.
605
00:28:58,081 --> 00:28:59,882
Failing again is not an option.
606
00:28:59,949 --> 00:29:02,094
- What's the big deal?
- Well, the big deal is you're...
607
00:29:02,118 --> 00:29:05,787
you're sweaty and you and you smell.
608
00:29:05,822 --> 00:29:07,799
And you're not going into my OR.
609
00:29:07,834 --> 00:29:09,101
What the hell's the
matter with you today?
610
00:29:09,125 --> 00:29:10,626
This is a teaching hospital, okay?
611
00:29:10,660 --> 00:29:12,528
You were the chief for 20 years.
612
00:29:12,562 --> 00:29:14,730
You're supposed to be
teaching your residents.
613
00:29:14,797 --> 00:29:17,132
Oh, I think I taught you something today.
614
00:29:17,200 --> 00:29:20,035
You don't give up a
once-in-a-lifetime surgery,
615
00:29:20,103 --> 00:29:24,106
not for any reason,
not for anyone, not ever.
616
00:29:24,140 --> 00:29:26,074
But he... he did the work.
617
00:29:27,249 --> 00:29:29,244
Yeah. He... He showed up.
618
00:29:29,312 --> 00:29:31,837
He... He stepped up.
619
00:29:32,749 --> 00:29:35,484
Became an excellent student,
620
00:29:35,518 --> 00:29:38,253
- a stellar surgeon.
- 10 blade.
621
00:29:38,288 --> 00:29:40,155
You're an underdog, aren't you, Karev?
622
00:29:40,189 --> 00:29:41,667
It's not that you don't have the skills.
623
00:29:41,691 --> 00:29:42,958
You have the skills.
624
00:29:42,992 --> 00:29:46,128
But you're scrappy. You're a fighter.
625
00:29:46,162 --> 00:29:47,603
I like that.
626
00:29:48,164 --> 00:29:49,631
I always root for the underdog.
627
00:29:49,699 --> 00:29:51,982
A fine teacher.
628
00:29:52,869 --> 00:29:55,777
He was working with the best of the best.
629
00:29:57,073 --> 00:30:00,809
But instead,
630
00:30:00,877 --> 00:30:03,345
he chose to abandon it all
631
00:30:03,379 --> 00:30:07,616
for who he says is the woman he loves.
632
00:30:07,650 --> 00:30:11,627
And for the two children they now have.
633
00:30:12,522 --> 00:30:16,158
You know, I wanted to
look him straight in the eye
634
00:30:16,192 --> 00:30:19,461
and yell at him and... and tell him
635
00:30:19,495 --> 00:30:21,196
that he's made a mistake,
636
00:30:21,230 --> 00:30:24,066
that it feels like a mistake.
637
00:30:25,401 --> 00:30:27,703
I've been there before, yeah.
638
00:30:27,770 --> 00:30:31,773
I've fallen in love with two
people at the same time,
639
00:30:31,808 --> 00:30:32,941
and...
640
00:30:34,711 --> 00:30:37,446
And I know all you can
do is go with what your...
641
00:30:37,480 --> 00:30:40,215
your bones and your guts
and your heart tell you to.
642
00:30:40,249 --> 00:30:43,885
I wanted to grab him
and shake him and tell him,
643
00:30:43,920 --> 00:30:46,188
"Don't give it all away.
644
00:30:46,222 --> 00:30:48,223
Not now. Not for... for this."
645
00:30:50,893 --> 00:30:55,087
But I missed my chance to watch
my own child grow into an adult.
646
00:30:56,366 --> 00:31:00,869
And I would give anything to
have those years with Maggie.
647
00:31:00,903 --> 00:31:02,504
I'd do anything.
648
00:31:04,107 --> 00:31:05,931
I guess, um...
649
00:31:07,143 --> 00:31:09,351
I just wanted to say goodbye.
650
00:31:10,446 --> 00:31:12,681
I just wanted to say goodbye.
651
00:31:12,715 --> 00:31:14,147
Hey, Dr. Webber.
652
00:31:14,684 --> 00:31:16,251
I-I didn't want to work here, either.
653
00:31:16,319 --> 00:31:19,388
You know, at Grey-Sloan,
I inherited a-a legacy.
654
00:31:19,422 --> 00:31:21,123
Bailey's legacy, your legacy.
655
00:31:21,157 --> 00:31:22,301
You know, I mean, every choice I made,
656
00:31:22,325 --> 00:31:25,093
I heard your voice in my head...
"Don't settle. Do better."
657
00:31:25,128 --> 00:31:27,429
At Grey-Sloan,
failing was our last option.
658
00:31:27,497 --> 00:31:29,197
But here, failure's the culture.
659
00:31:29,232 --> 00:31:30,499
But we can change that.
660
00:31:30,566 --> 00:31:32,167
Help me turn this place around.
661
00:31:32,201 --> 00:31:34,169
Help me do the impossible.
662
00:31:34,237 --> 00:31:37,305
I wanted to say thank you for helping me
663
00:31:37,340 --> 00:31:42,259
to be a better doctor, better teacher.
664
00:31:42,538 --> 00:31:44,072
I mean, anything.
665
00:31:46,215 --> 00:31:47,382
But he up and left...
666
00:31:47,417 --> 00:31:49,518
Karev! Do better!
667
00:31:49,552 --> 00:31:53,955
...with only a note and
an apology, and that's it,
668
00:31:53,990 --> 00:31:57,626
not considering that I might
want to say goodbye
669
00:31:57,660 --> 00:31:59,061
as a teacher...
670
00:31:59,095 --> 00:32:00,562
Watch your back, Karev.
671
00:32:00,596 --> 00:32:03,031
I may decide to teach
you something tomorrow.
672
00:32:03,766 --> 00:32:05,300
Time of...
673
00:32:05,334 --> 00:32:06,535
...as a colleague...
674
00:32:06,569 --> 00:32:08,236
Time of death... 15:42.
675
00:32:08,271 --> 00:32:09,745
...as a friend.
676
00:32:10,973 --> 00:32:12,207
See one.
677
00:32:12,664 --> 00:32:14,376
Do one.
678
00:32:14,410 --> 00:32:16,168
Teach one.
679
00:32:17,013 --> 00:32:22,351
I've seen people leave.
680
00:32:22,485 --> 00:32:24,926
I've done the leaving.
681
00:32:25,388 --> 00:32:29,458
Richard! Richard! Richard!
682
00:32:29,525 --> 00:32:31,046
I was gonna ask you to be by my side
683
00:32:31,080 --> 00:32:32,160
for the rest of our lives.
684
00:32:32,195 --> 00:32:34,262
I'm not sorry about a damn thing.
685
00:32:37,333 --> 00:32:41,036
And lately, it seems like
all the people I love just...
686
00:32:42,238 --> 00:32:44,806
...they just disappear.
687
00:32:45,447 --> 00:32:46,990
And...
688
00:32:48,177 --> 00:32:49,826
I can't...
689
00:32:50,346 --> 00:32:53,849
find a way to make it stop.
690
00:33:03,096 --> 00:33:05,264
Alex, if you want to know how she is,
691
00:33:05,332 --> 00:33:07,399
you should just call her.
692
00:33:07,434 --> 00:33:08,628
You should call Izzie.
693
00:33:08,663 --> 00:33:09,602
No.
694
00:33:09,669 --> 00:33:11,403
No, it's okay.
695
00:33:11,471 --> 00:33:12,771
No.
696
00:33:12,839 --> 00:33:15,741
I mean, I-I-I don't need to call her.
697
00:33:15,775 --> 00:33:17,312
I know how she is.
698
00:33:18,244 --> 00:33:20,112
I mean, she's, uh...
699
00:33:20,180 --> 00:33:22,848
she's married with three kids,
700
00:33:22,882 --> 00:33:28,454
and she lives somewhere,
I think, uh, kind of woodsy?
701
00:33:30,357 --> 00:33:32,691
And she's a surgeon and
she goes to work every day,
702
00:33:32,726 --> 00:33:37,165
so she refuses to hire help,
so her house is always a mess.
703
00:33:38,264 --> 00:33:41,400
And it has Christmas
decorations all over it
704
00:33:41,434 --> 00:33:44,756
because she won't let her
husband take them down.
705
00:33:47,073 --> 00:33:48,440
It smells like muffins,
706
00:33:48,508 --> 00:33:50,709
and she's...
707
00:33:50,744 --> 00:33:52,177
she's smiling.
708
00:33:54,681 --> 00:33:57,102
When I picture her, she's always smiling.
709
00:33:57,817 --> 00:34:01,022
I don't need to call her because
I want it to stay that way.
710
00:34:02,956 --> 00:34:07,393
I picture her as happy as I am with you.
711
00:34:08,495 --> 00:34:10,295
You imagined a whole life for her?
712
00:34:10,330 --> 00:34:13,065
Oh, yeah. It's way better than wondering.
713
00:34:17,470 --> 00:34:19,304
Hi, Izzie Stevens. Washington.
714
00:34:19,339 --> 00:34:22,274
Hi, Alex Karev. Iowa.
715
00:34:22,308 --> 00:34:23,575
What program are you in?
716
00:34:23,610 --> 00:34:25,811
Surgery.
717
00:34:25,879 --> 00:34:27,479
- Seriously?
- Seriously.
718
00:34:27,514 --> 00:34:29,281
Morning, Dr. Model.
719
00:34:29,315 --> 00:34:30,783
Dr. Evil Spawn.
720
00:34:30,817 --> 00:34:33,285
Ooh. Nice tat.
721
00:34:33,319 --> 00:34:34,830
Do you ever wake up
in the morning and realize
722
00:34:34,854 --> 00:34:38,190
nobody likes you and, I don't know, care?
723
00:34:38,258 --> 00:34:39,992
Oh.
724
00:34:40,026 --> 00:34:41,360
I think somebody likes me.
725
00:34:41,394 --> 00:34:43,362
What is she doing?
726
00:34:43,396 --> 00:34:46,098
She's hanging out with Alex.
727
00:34:48,201 --> 00:34:51,036
What?
728
00:34:51,171 --> 00:34:52,604
There's a discussion we could have
729
00:34:52,672 --> 00:34:54,807
if you wanted to have one.
730
00:34:54,841 --> 00:34:56,442
I kissed you with tongue...
731
00:34:56,476 --> 00:34:59,878
...and I plan to do it again and again.
732
00:34:59,913 --> 00:35:01,380
Get used to it.
733
00:35:01,414 --> 00:35:03,148
Ow!
734
00:35:03,173 --> 00:35:04,184
I care about you.
735
00:35:05,418 --> 00:35:07,286
And I'm not gonna stop caring about you,
736
00:35:07,353 --> 00:35:09,154
no matter how hard you push me away.
737
00:35:09,222 --> 00:35:10,462
Shut up and get out of my room.
738
00:35:10,490 --> 00:35:11,857
No.
739
00:35:11,891 --> 00:35:14,426
I care about you.
740
00:35:14,461 --> 00:35:15,861
And I know you care about me, too.
741
00:35:15,895 --> 00:35:17,596
It is not too late for us.
742
00:35:17,630 --> 00:35:18,741
Admit that you care about me, too.
743
00:35:18,765 --> 00:35:21,333
I know you do. I care about you.
744
00:35:22,200 --> 00:35:23,426
I care about you.
745
00:35:23,470 --> 00:35:25,804
I care about you. I care about you.
746
00:35:25,872 --> 00:35:27,359
I...
747
00:35:28,108 --> 00:35:31,009
I think with you, you make me better.
748
00:35:31,077 --> 00:35:33,712
- Oh!
- You make me want to be better.
749
00:35:33,847 --> 00:35:35,581
You make me want to be good.
750
00:35:35,615 --> 00:35:37,049
And I think I can.
751
00:35:37,083 --> 00:35:39,184
With you, I think I can.
752
00:35:39,252 --> 00:35:40,730
And if you want to
be scared, that's okay.
753
00:35:40,754 --> 00:35:42,087
Just be scared with me.
754
00:35:42,122 --> 00:35:43,532
I don't want to be the
future of this hospital
755
00:35:43,556 --> 00:35:45,626
if you're not there with me.
756
00:35:55,802 --> 00:35:57,703
I didn't know you still
felt that way about me.
757
00:35:57,737 --> 00:35:58,904
Me neither.
758
00:36:00,607 --> 00:36:03,542
I love you.
759
00:36:03,576 --> 00:36:05,377
What?
760
00:36:05,411 --> 00:36:07,112
I love you.
761
00:36:07,147 --> 00:36:08,355
I freaking love you.
762
00:36:08,389 --> 00:36:10,015
I can totally see you in ten years...
763
00:36:10,049 --> 00:36:11,950
...a little salt and pepper in your hair,
764
00:36:11,985 --> 00:36:14,254
big-shot attending.
765
00:36:15,288 --> 00:36:16,789
You're gonna be a rock star, Alex.
766
00:36:16,823 --> 00:36:18,090
Shut up.
767
00:36:23,396 --> 00:36:25,464
I love you.
768
00:36:48,555 --> 00:36:50,522
You taking my spot on the couch tonight?
769
00:36:53,993 --> 00:36:55,394
Miranda, is...?
770
00:36:55,461 --> 00:36:57,930
Alex Karev isn't coming back.
771
00:36:58,064 --> 00:37:00,076
Left his wife,
772
00:37:00,869 --> 00:37:03,204
his friends, his job.
773
00:37:04,037 --> 00:37:09,775
Alex Karev is now a father
of two with Izzie Stevens.
774
00:37:13,079 --> 00:37:16,448
And, if they take my
recommendation seriously,
775
00:37:16,482 --> 00:37:20,786
he'll soon be Chief of Peds
at Shawnee Memorial.
776
00:37:24,157 --> 00:37:25,691
What's this got to do with Joey?
777
00:37:27,493 --> 00:37:30,495
Now, it is a matter of luck,
778
00:37:30,530 --> 00:37:35,400
of grace that Alex Karev
is who he is today.
779
00:37:35,435 --> 00:37:40,272
He could have just as easily
been lost to this world,
780
00:37:40,306 --> 00:37:42,574
aimless.
781
00:37:42,609 --> 00:37:46,445
But he survived his home,
782
00:37:46,479 --> 00:37:49,381
his family, his foster homes
783
00:37:49,415 --> 00:37:51,683
and became a man,
784
00:37:51,718 --> 00:37:53,672
now a father,
785
00:37:55,048 --> 00:37:58,457
a fine surgeon by luck,
786
00:37:58,885 --> 00:38:00,428
by chance.
787
00:38:02,695 --> 00:38:06,101
Joey's future shouldn't
be a matter of chance.
788
00:38:06,466 --> 00:38:10,805
A child's future
can't be a matter of luck.
789
00:38:14,407 --> 00:38:15,860
Okay.
790
00:38:17,076 --> 00:38:18,644
"Okay"?
791
00:38:18,678 --> 00:38:20,573
Just like that? "Okay"?
792
00:38:22,015 --> 00:38:25,584
I just wanted to talk about it.
793
00:38:25,618 --> 00:38:27,452
I mean, you and I,
look, we... we both make
794
00:38:27,487 --> 00:38:31,156
these big, sweeping decisions
without each other.
795
00:38:31,190 --> 00:38:34,026
You... You had a heart attack
and didn't tell me.
796
00:38:34,060 --> 00:38:36,395
You... You had a miscarriage
and shut me out.
797
00:38:36,429 --> 00:38:38,842
- You...
- You change careers like sweaters.
798
00:38:39,432 --> 00:38:42,220
Yeah.
799
00:38:43,102 --> 00:38:46,505
And I am down for all of it. I...
800
00:38:46,572 --> 00:38:50,776
All the change and the easy
and the hard that comes with it.
801
00:38:50,843 --> 00:38:53,045
Of course Joey should have you.
802
00:38:53,079 --> 00:38:54,513
Should have us.
803
00:38:54,547 --> 00:38:57,416
He should have a family.
804
00:38:57,450 --> 00:38:58,737
But...
805
00:38:59,819 --> 00:39:06,825
that family needs to learn to
talk to each other first, okay?
806
00:39:10,229 --> 00:39:11,916
I'm sorry.
807
00:39:12,632 --> 00:39:13,632
I know.
808
00:39:13,700 --> 00:39:15,467
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
809
00:39:19,072 --> 00:39:21,473
Congratulations, Miranda.
810
00:39:21,507 --> 00:39:22,741
It's a boy.
811
00:39:22,775 --> 00:39:24,876
A teenage boy!
812
00:39:26,546 --> 00:39:29,314
It's another boy.
813
00:39:39,492 --> 00:39:43,128
- You can quit hovering.
- I'm not hovering.
814
00:39:44,115 --> 00:39:45,588
I'm... deciding
815
00:39:45,631 --> 00:39:48,870
whether to come in or give you space...
816
00:39:49,802 --> 00:39:52,771
...or take you day drinking.
817
00:39:55,008 --> 00:39:57,275
Okay, whiskey it is.
818
00:40:03,649 --> 00:40:05,851
Pierce is paging me for a cecal bascule
819
00:40:05,885 --> 00:40:07,719
for one of our CABG patients.
820
00:40:09,956 --> 00:40:12,358
Okay.
821
00:40:13,393 --> 00:40:15,227
Whiskey tonight.
822
00:40:15,261 --> 00:40:17,862
Today I am working.
823
00:40:22,839 --> 00:40:25,138
You're my hero.
824
00:40:26,172 --> 00:40:27,172
Mine, too.
825
00:40:27,206 --> 00:40:29,035
We hold onto hope,
826
00:40:29,942 --> 00:40:32,277
thinking one small detail,
827
00:40:32,311 --> 00:40:34,179
one tiny piece of information
828
00:40:34,213 --> 00:40:36,548
will somehow make things right,
829
00:40:36,582 --> 00:40:38,050
make it different,
830
00:40:38,084 --> 00:40:40,052
make it okay...
831
00:40:40,086 --> 00:40:42,788
stop the world from
spinning off its axis.
832
00:40:42,822 --> 00:40:46,391
Mom, Uncle Alex said when
I finish my science project,
833
00:40:46,459 --> 00:40:47,726
I'm supposed to show him.
834
00:40:47,760 --> 00:40:48,960
Can you show me?
835
00:40:49,028 --> 00:40:50,662
He helped me come up with it.
836
00:40:50,730 --> 00:40:52,697
It's a dog feeder. See?
837
00:40:52,732 --> 00:40:54,232
When the dog walks on this lever,
838
00:40:54,267 --> 00:40:56,301
the pulley tips the bucket over and...
839
00:40:56,369 --> 00:40:59,037
That is so smart!
840
00:40:59,071 --> 00:41:01,006
All we need is a dog.
841
00:41:02,875 --> 00:41:05,844
So, can I show him?
842
00:41:05,878 --> 00:41:09,714
Can we go and show
Uncle Alex right now, please?
843
00:41:09,749 --> 00:41:12,084
Um...
844
00:41:12,151 --> 00:41:13,918
Come sit here.
845
00:41:16,856 --> 00:41:20,258
Your Uncle Alex loves you so much.
846
00:41:21,527 --> 00:41:23,310
And I just got a letter from him.
847
00:41:24,117 --> 00:41:25,183
- You did?
- I did.
848
00:41:25,217 --> 00:41:26,476
When the truth is...
849
00:41:28,034 --> 00:41:30,735
...there's really no good
way to say goodbye.