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When I was a kid,
I would wake up every morning
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in the winter and immediately
open the curtains
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to see if it was snowing.
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Where are you, where are you...
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And it usually was. It was Boston.
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Dr. James...
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Okay, so what are we, uh...
Hey! What are you doing? Stop!
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It's freezing out there,
and there are sick people in here.
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Sorry, Vic... Vic... Hello?
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No, it's crazy in the ER
right now. I can't talk.
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Alright.
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What do you... What do you mean?
Why are you mad?
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Um, okay.
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You know what? I can't hear you. Hello?
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Pretty sure she just faked not hearing me
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so she could hang up. You paged?
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You said you got
a patient with frostbite?
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Yeah, beds 2, 3, 6, 7, and 9. Have fun.
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- All...
- Yeah. Uh. Hey, whoa!
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Get away from that door.
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- Okay.
- Schools would close.
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People would hunker down, light candles,
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and eat everything in the refrigerator.
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- Sorry, sorry, sorry.
- Hey, Schmitt!
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I don't have time, for God's sake!
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Come on, you can't be serious.
This is supposed to be
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the bloody Pacific Northwest,
and you're telling me...
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Well, thank you very much.
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You've been very helpful.
Yeah, thank you.
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Hayes.
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We usually let the parents do
the screaming on this floor.
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I just told my 6-year-old
patient's parents
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that I have a liver
for their dying child,
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but now half a foot of snow
has rendered every road
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in Seattle useless, apparently.
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Okay. And no airlift either?
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No, there's no visibility.
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And it's just three miles away.
Three bloody miles.
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Okay, well, I'm sure the roads
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are gonna be cleared up in a few hours.
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She doesn't have a few hours, Grey.
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INR is climbing.
She's developing ascites.
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- I'll get it.
- What?
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I'll get your liver.
It's at Seattle Pres, right?
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Give me the paperwork right now. I'll go.
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Thank you.
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I don't know whose service
you're on, but I'll cover you.
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- How are you gonna get there?
- I'll walk.
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Thank you. You're welcome.
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Everyone loves a "snow day."
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Except for one person.
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My mother.
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She always said the same thing...
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"Meredith, surgeons don't get snow days."
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Hey.
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So, you know it's 8 degrees outside
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with a wind chill of minus-15.
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People are freezing to death.
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Hey, I'm used to the cold,
alright? I grew up in Wisconsin.
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I used to be a cross-country
skier in high school.
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Okay, well, where are your skis,
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in your locker?
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Look, just tell Hayes
to call Seattle Pres
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and that I'll be there in an hour, okay?
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Listen to me. I'm not just not sure
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you're thinking about this clearly.
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Hayes was just screaming
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at the top of his lungs
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and slamming his phone down.
On the PEDS floor.
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You gonna tell him that
he sounds like my dad, too?
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She was right.
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We don't.
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Synced & corrected by -robtor-
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"An object's weight is the product
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of the Earth's gravitational pull
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and the mass of that object.
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What happens to the mass
and weight of a rocket
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as it travels beyond Earth's orbit?"
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Kind of tricky.
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Mass is the same. Weight decreases.
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Hmm. I mean, correct.
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Chief?
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Yeah? Eight more nurses
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can't get here due to
the road conditions.
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ER's over capacity, and Dr. DeLuca
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went on foot to pick up
a liver from Seattle Pres.
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He did what?
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Di...
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Alright. I-I'm coming.
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Joey.
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Keep at it.
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Yes, ma'am.
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Checked on the TEVAR from last night.
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BP is finally normalized.
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Shh, shh, shh!
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Still snowing?
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Uh, it is.
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- Coffee?
- Two sugars. Thanks.
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So, Amelia's not coming to work.
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She's not returning my calls or my texts.
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Um, are we just gonna keep doing this
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- till the baby arrives, then we...
- Hey, Teddy!
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Oh. Would you like some coffee, as well?
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I am pouring for everyone.
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Everything okay with Amelia?
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What, she get snowed in?
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Oh.
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Something like that.
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Mm. Shepherd should
take a leave more often.
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Makes him look like he actually belongs
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with the rest of us mortals.
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Mm. You know what?
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I...
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I don't need any more coffee.
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Here, someone take this.
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Uh...
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Amelia's on leave?
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- Why?
- Beats me. I just got a cryptic text
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saying the baby's fine but she
needed me to cover her service.
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And judging from Link's
disregard for personal hygiene,
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that doesn't bode well
for their little insta-family.
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Or her patients.
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Ha ha! Kidding.
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Ohh! Adonis has made this warm.
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Ahh.
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Little bit of bleeding.
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- A rupture.
- Oh, come on, man!
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Get proximal and distal control.
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Yeah, that's why that guy died...
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- What
- Oops. Spoiler alert.
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Whatcha working on?
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Oh, I have a lap chole later today.
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Not everybody was snowed out.
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Oh, yeah. Haven't you done
like a million of those?
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- Why are you practicing?
- I'm experienced because I practice.
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I just don't get it.
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Those residents...
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they work their butts off,
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they go into a mountain
of debt, all for a chance
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at the greatest job on the planet,
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and they treat it like it's retail.
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- What's your name?
- Desmond, sir. Tess Desmond.
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Well, Dr. Desmond,
why don't you step over here?
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And let's see what
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your laparoscopic skills are like, hmm?
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- Uh, Dr. Karev! Good morning!
- It's not. And move.
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We need to do pre-op
rounds on my carcinoma.
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I actually think we should
save Ms. Anderson for last.
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- Like, switch it up a bit, right?
- I disrespectfully disagree.
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I need to order... I need to talk to her.
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Move!
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- Schmitt.
- Um, I might've misplaced her.
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Or she misplaced herself.
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You misplace pens.
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You misplace keys.
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You don't misplace people.
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Sure, when you put it like that,
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- but I still don't know where she...
- Find her!
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While you're at it,
try and find my husband.
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Stupid. Cavalier. Cowboy.
Doesn't ever listen.
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- Maybe fired.
- All due respect, Chief,
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my patient will die without that liver.
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DeLuca could save her.
It's only three miles away.
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Have you been outside?
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You can't even see
three feet ahead of you.
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Somebody needs to go after him.
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What about Ben? Can Ben send a rig out
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- and look for him?
- Yeah.
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He can get him to Seattle Pres
and get him back.
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Last time we spoke,
Ben was amputating a foot
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in a grounded rig. So, no.
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Dr. Bailey, you asked me to let you know
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when I discharged Joey Phillips.
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No, no! In the middle of a blizzard?
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What's the matter with you?
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Sorry, there's no medical
reason to keep him.
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All that's left is his dispo
with Social Services.
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He's free to go.
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Uh, and let me know if there's an update.
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I'll call Andrea every 15 minutes.
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Dr. Hayes, something's wrong!
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Baby? Elisa? Honey, wake up.
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- Honey?
- She's hemorrhaging.
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Let's hang some FFP and get
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Damn it, she's unresponsive.
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- Oh, God.
- It's okay. It's okay. She's okay.
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Let's get an intubation
tray in here right now.
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Let's book an OR!
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Ms. Gutierrez, how are we feeling today?
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I called my neighbor, Stevie,
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to check that the heat
is still on in my house
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so my cats are okay,
but I worry about the strays.
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They don't have wings,
can't just fly south.
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You know, freezing to death
isn't supposed to be that bad.
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Uh, uh, people, uh,
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who have been resuscitated
said it was blissful.
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Ms. Gutierrez, if I may,
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I saw on TV that the animal
shelters are open 24/7.
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There's plenty of food.
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People can bring in
any animal that they find.
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- Even horses.
- Really?
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Oh, that's nice.
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Okay, then, Ms. Gutierrez.
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Someone will come to
bring you to pre-op soon.
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Hey, Desmond, meet me in the scrub room.
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- Me?
- Her? Uh, I'm... I'm supposed
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to assist, Dr. Webber.
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I remember. But I'm
sure the ER is slammed.
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They could use the help.
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The worst snowstorm
we have ever seen in Seattle.
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That's right...
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residents around the region...
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I've never seen it
snow like this in Seattle.
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Mm, it's not supposed to,
but y'all ruined the planet so...
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The social worker said
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that you declined to meet
with her about your options.
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Mm. I just turned 18.
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Which means you can apply
for extended foster care
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- or go to a group home.
- Or go out on my own.
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Why take the chance on
getting crappy foster parents
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just in it for the money?
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Because you... you might
get a great family.
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People that can help you get
your high-school diploma,
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apply for college.
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Uh, help you find a career you love.
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- What?
- Oh. College?
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That'll never happen.
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I'll just get a job.
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There's always a sign at a Burger Shack.
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Joey.
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Goodness.
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What...
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Come on.
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You're coming with me.
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You are checking out jobs around here.
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I said, come on!
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Yes, ma'am.
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Hey. Have you seen my patient?
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She's got brown hair
and maybe brownish eyes.
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She's about, um...
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Well, I don't know how tall she is.
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I... I've only seen her in bed.
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Uh, no, but after you find her,
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why don't we find an on-call room?
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My hip replacement rescheduled.
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Um, yeah, yeah, sure.
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May... Uh, maybe.
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What? Doesn't sound fun?
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Might get snowed in,
make a night out of it.
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It does, but we've been
having a lot of fun lately.
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In fact, this might be
the most we've talked
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since you told me you
weren't out to your parents.
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I love you, Nico. You can talk to me.
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You still haven't found her?
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Schmitt, I know this job is hard,
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but you should be able
to follow basics like,
257
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don't let a severely
sick patient evaporate.
258
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If she isn't here,
you shouldn't be either.
259
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I have to find my patient.
260
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Hey, more frostbite, bed 10.
261
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Of course there is.
262
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Hey. So, Mom called.
263
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Leo is stir-crazy.
264
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He keeps trying to open the front door.
265
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But Allison rolled over. Twice.
266
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No! Wait, did your mom record...
Oh, you know what?
267
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I don't even know why I bothered to ask.
268
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Help! Help me, please! Please help!
269
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It's my wife... she's not talking.
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- I don't think she's breathing.
- Okay, just stop moving her. Stop.
271
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Let's lay her down. I got her.
272
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- Alright. Yep.
- Yeah.
273
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- We need a gurney!
- On it!
274
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She's 32 weeks pregnant.
275
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Why's she hurt? What happened?
276
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I hit her with my car.
277
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Oh, my God. How far along?
278
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32 weeks. Page OB.
279
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Let's get the X-ray in here, warm saline,
280
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and where's the fetal heart monitor?
281
00:10:37,341 --> 00:10:39,576
- Is she dead?
- We need to do a full exam.
282
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Kendra, are you hurt?
283
00:10:41,045 --> 00:10:42,378
No, no, I'm just c-cold.
284
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Alright, let's get her a warming blanket.
285
00:10:44,081 --> 00:10:46,193
Her back's been hurting her,
and I was snowed in at work,
286
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and she called and said
that she was worried
287
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that she might be having contractions.
288
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And she wanted to come here.
We only live four blocks away.
289
00:10:51,021 --> 00:10:52,165
She was walking here?
290
00:10:52,190 --> 00:10:54,290
I told her not to go,
but I-I got in my car.
291
00:10:54,325 --> 00:10:58,094
I was almost home, and that's
when I-I hit something.
292
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And I got out, and...
293
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- I'm gonna be sick.
- Whoa, whoa. Hey.
294
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Fetal heartbeat's strong.
295
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Tube's good.
296
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I thought I was driving on the street.
297
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I was on the sidewalk.
298
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...and then, under direct visualization,
299
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we remove the ports.
300
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At which point we...
301
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Uh, deflate the abdomen
302
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and close the fascia with U stitches.
303
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Great. So... you ready?
304
00:11:26,423 --> 00:11:28,391
Uh, why wouldn't I be ready?
305
00:11:28,459 --> 00:11:30,860
Oh, my mistake. I didn't realize
306
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that you had already
performed a lap chole.
307
00:11:33,664 --> 00:11:35,498
Performed one? Of course not.
308
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Wait, you don't want me to...
309
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No, I-I...
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I can't. I'm not ready.
311
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Do you know how many
of your classmates beg
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to do procedures when they're not ready?
313
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By the way you formed the question,
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I assume it's a big number.
315
00:11:48,345 --> 00:11:50,413
I'm not gonna leave you
on your own, Desmond.
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You'll be my hands,
317
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but I will guide you
through the whole thing,
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step by step.
319
00:11:58,289 --> 00:12:01,925
Have you ever wanted something
with your whole being,
320
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but there are so many obstacles
321
00:12:05,229 --> 00:12:06,469
it seems like you won't get it?
322
00:12:06,530 --> 00:12:08,398
So you try to stop dreaming,
323
00:12:08,432 --> 00:12:10,600
but you can't make yourself stop,
324
00:12:10,634 --> 00:12:15,772
so you just live with it,
quietly in hell?
325
00:12:15,806 --> 00:12:18,307
Let's show your classmates
what you're made of.
326
00:12:20,311 --> 00:12:22,912
Yeah. So, uh, Ruben's a phlebotomist,
327
00:12:22,947 --> 00:12:25,982
draws blood for lab work,
never leaves a bruise.
328
00:12:26,016 --> 00:12:28,885
And Pablo, he's
a respiratory therapist...
329
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he oversees ventilators on patients
330
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and, um, helps them if
331
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- they have any lung issues.
- Right.
332
00:12:35,492 --> 00:12:37,260
So should you... Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa!
333
00:12:37,328 --> 00:12:38,294
Schmitt! Slow down!
334
00:12:38,329 --> 00:12:40,407
- Huh? What's the problem?
- Uh, nothing. No problem.
335
00:12:40,431 --> 00:12:41,731
All good.
336
00:12:43,033 --> 00:12:44,767
I lost a patient.
337
00:12:44,835 --> 00:12:46,869
I mean, physically. I can't find her.
338
00:12:48,272 --> 00:12:49,583
If this story doesn't
have a happy ending,
339
00:12:49,607 --> 00:12:51,474
neither will your career. Understand?
340
00:12:51,508 --> 00:12:53,443
Yep. I'm just gonna...
341
00:12:55,279 --> 00:12:56,613
Can I have his job?
342
00:12:56,647 --> 00:12:57,647
Losing people?
343
00:12:57,815 --> 00:12:59,749
You're not funny.
344
00:12:59,783 --> 00:13:02,118
Think this shunt will stop the bleeding?
345
00:13:02,152 --> 00:13:04,744
Well, it's our only choice
until the liver gets here.
346
00:13:05,644 --> 00:13:07,624
So, you were fired.
347
00:13:08,252 --> 00:13:09,659
And?
348
00:13:09,693 --> 00:13:12,996
And I never heard the full story,
and we have time to kill.
349
00:13:15,466 --> 00:13:17,600
I had a 4-year-old patient,
350
00:13:17,635 --> 00:13:20,370
and she did not have health insurance,
351
00:13:20,404 --> 00:13:22,805
so I put my daughter's
name on her paperwork
352
00:13:22,840 --> 00:13:25,275
- so that I could save her life.
- That's insane.
353
00:13:25,788 --> 00:13:27,543
Well, if you had seen how sick she was...
354
00:13:27,578 --> 00:13:29,222
No, this country's
medical system is insane
355
00:13:29,246 --> 00:13:31,080
that you had to do that.
356
00:13:31,215 --> 00:13:33,049
I'd do it for more people if I could,
357
00:13:33,083 --> 00:13:35,451
but then they would definitely
take away my license.
358
00:13:35,486 --> 00:13:36,490
Hmm.
359
00:13:36,515 --> 00:13:38,979
Never seen such an early
case of cirrhosis before.
360
00:13:39,023 --> 00:13:41,391
Alpha-1-Antitrypsin deficiency.
361
00:13:41,425 --> 00:13:43,459
Elisa's older sister
died of the same thing.
362
00:13:43,494 --> 00:13:46,029
Family's first doctor
diagnosed it from the autopsy.
363
00:13:46,063 --> 00:13:47,563
That was Seattle Pres.
364
00:13:47,598 --> 00:13:49,432
Dr. DeLuca just left
with the donor organ.
365
00:13:49,466 --> 00:13:51,567
- On foot?
- No idea.
366
00:13:53,570 --> 00:13:55,538
Alpha-1-Antitrypsin deficiency.
367
00:13:55,572 --> 00:13:57,373
Was their first doctor Alex Karev?
368
00:13:57,408 --> 00:13:59,509
My absentee co-chief? Yes, it was.
369
00:13:59,543 --> 00:14:02,912
I think I remember her.
She loved comic books.
370
00:14:02,946 --> 00:14:05,348
He did a whole thing
for her on the PEDS floor.
371
00:14:05,382 --> 00:14:06,526
He was devastated when she died.
372
00:14:06,550 --> 00:14:09,485
Well, not devastated enough
to come back and help Elisa.
373
00:14:09,520 --> 00:14:11,287
Yang spoke a lot about Karev.
374
00:14:11,322 --> 00:14:12,866
She used to call him
the devil or something?
375
00:14:12,890 --> 00:14:15,625
- Evil Spawn.
- Evil Spawn. That was it.
376
00:14:16,527 --> 00:14:18,800
What did Yang say about me?
377
00:14:19,676 --> 00:14:21,531
Nothing that I can recall.
378
00:14:22,095 --> 00:14:24,033
Hmm.
379
00:14:46,557 --> 00:14:48,358
No.
380
00:14:48,392 --> 00:14:50,727
No, no, no, no, no, no!
381
00:14:50,794 --> 00:14:53,207
Stop! Everybody. Oh, my God, stop.
382
00:14:53,275 --> 00:14:54,974
Schmitt?! What if we'd have
been in mid-dissection?
383
00:14:54,998 --> 00:14:56,576
You could've startled
Dr. Desmond so badly
384
00:14:56,600 --> 00:14:58,134
she'd injure the common bile duct.
385
00:14:58,168 --> 00:14:59,869
Dr. Desmond? Who's that?
386
00:14:59,903 --> 00:15:01,147
She may not have been your year,
387
00:15:01,171 --> 00:15:03,539
but, Schmitt, that's no excuse
for not knowing who she is.
388
00:15:03,574 --> 00:15:06,242
That's my patient, Tess Anderson!
389
00:15:07,644 --> 00:15:09,479
Your patient? Now, that's absurd.
390
00:15:09,513 --> 00:15:11,214
I can explain.
391
00:15:11,281 --> 00:15:13,216
Am I, um, technically a-a patient?
392
00:15:13,250 --> 00:15:15,261
Yes. But you were the one
that brought me into the OR.
393
00:15:15,285 --> 00:15:16,796
I was just gonna stay in the skills lab,
394
00:15:16,820 --> 00:15:19,555
but you told me to be
confident, and I also...
395
00:15:21,024 --> 00:15:22,492
Oh, not again!
396
00:15:22,526 --> 00:15:23,926
Ohh!
397
00:15:23,994 --> 00:15:25,628
Hey! Stop!
398
00:15:25,696 --> 00:15:27,994
God in heaven.
399
00:15:30,023 --> 00:15:31,443
Hey, Pierce! Pierce, Pierce, here!
400
00:15:31,467 --> 00:15:33,188
I want you to meet, uh, Joey Phillips.
401
00:15:33,213 --> 00:15:36,282
He is experiencing my
version of a career fair.
402
00:15:36,349 --> 00:15:38,751
Joey, this is Dr. Maggie Pierce.
403
00:15:38,785 --> 00:15:41,387
Just like Avery, she is chief
of her own department,
404
00:15:41,421 --> 00:15:44,123
- cardiothoracic surgery.
- Well, technically, I'm co-chief, right?
405
00:15:44,157 --> 00:15:46,692
I was the chief, but then
I kind of got demoted.
406
00:15:46,760 --> 00:15:50,462
After you quit and got rehired
out of the goodness of my heart.
407
00:15:50,497 --> 00:15:54,433
Which is why it is such
an honor to be co-chief,
408
00:15:54,467 --> 00:15:55,467
and I'm so proud.
409
00:15:55,502 --> 00:15:58,237
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.
- Maggie. Mom's in P.E.A.
410
00:15:58,271 --> 00:15:59,772
Okay, come on, come on.
411
00:15:59,806 --> 00:16:02,274
Okay. We lost her pulse. Did we get OB?
412
00:16:02,309 --> 00:16:03,986
They got swamped with
an abruption upstairs.
413
00:16:04,010 --> 00:16:05,210
Give me that ultrasound.
414
00:16:05,278 --> 00:16:06,476
You know what, Joey?
415
00:16:06,510 --> 00:16:08,247
We should go check out
a calmer department.
416
00:16:08,315 --> 00:16:09,400
Is she gonna be okay?
417
00:16:09,435 --> 00:16:10,375
The rib must've punctured her heart.
418
00:16:10,409 --> 00:16:11,928
Damn it. Fetal heart rate's down to 80.
419
00:16:11,952 --> 00:16:13,052
I think we're out of time.
420
00:16:13,086 --> 00:16:15,521
Time for what? Use words.
You're not using words.
421
00:16:15,555 --> 00:16:16,591
Am I losing them both?
422
00:16:16,625 --> 00:16:17,870
I'm sorry, what's your name?
423
00:16:17,904 --> 00:16:18,958
Kendra. I'm Kendra.
424
00:16:19,025 --> 00:16:20,726
Kendra, okay, they need
to do a C-section.
425
00:16:20,760 --> 00:16:22,140
But she's only 32 weeks.
426
00:16:22,174 --> 00:16:24,396
Yeah, but her heart has
been stopped for too long,
427
00:16:24,431 --> 00:16:27,299
and if they don't deliver the
baby now, it'll be too late.
428
00:16:27,334 --> 00:16:28,667
And then they'll help Lesley?
429
00:16:28,702 --> 00:16:30,035
Uh, I'm afraid...
430
00:16:30,070 --> 00:16:31,480
Let's get a lap and a thoracotomy tray.
431
00:16:31,504 --> 00:16:33,272
We're gonna do a C-section
and a thoracotomy.
432
00:16:33,340 --> 00:16:35,641
- Both?
- Hunt, she will lose way too much blood.
433
00:16:35,675 --> 00:16:37,710
We can give her more.
We're saving them both.
434
00:16:37,744 --> 00:16:39,511
Mom and baby, okay?
435
00:16:39,579 --> 00:16:41,034
Teddy, you take over CPR.
436
00:16:41,068 --> 00:16:43,588
- I... Hold on. Hold on.
- I'm gonna prep for a crash C-section.
437
00:16:44,484 --> 00:16:46,452
Joey, take her arm.
438
00:16:46,486 --> 00:16:47,506
Get her out of here.
439
00:16:47,540 --> 00:16:49,088
Come on. Lesley, I love you.
440
00:16:49,122 --> 00:16:51,623
I'm so sorry. I'm sorry.
441
00:16:53,193 --> 00:16:54,537
You don't have to have me guarded.
442
00:16:54,561 --> 00:16:55,661
I'm not a lunatic.
443
00:16:55,695 --> 00:16:58,530
You almost cut into a patient
with zero qualifications.
444
00:16:58,565 --> 00:17:00,132
I spent half my life in hospitals.
445
00:17:00,166 --> 00:17:01,467
Mm. What kind of hospitals?
446
00:17:01,501 --> 00:17:04,536
Schmitt, can you go
check on the psych eval?
447
00:17:04,571 --> 00:17:06,872
Gladly.
448
00:17:06,906 --> 00:17:09,208
Is there someone that
we can call for you?
449
00:17:09,275 --> 00:17:11,844
Um, friends or family?
450
00:17:11,878 --> 00:17:13,672
No one who'd come out in a blizzard.
451
00:17:15,548 --> 00:17:18,617
Tess, what were you thinking?
452
00:17:18,651 --> 00:17:20,452
I got caught. It doesn't matter.
453
00:17:20,487 --> 00:17:23,355
Well, it matters to me.
454
00:17:23,390 --> 00:17:25,491
I have adrenocortical carcinoma.
455
00:17:25,525 --> 00:17:27,793
Which is extremely
treatable at your stage.
456
00:17:27,827 --> 00:17:29,428
Yeah, so I've heard.
457
00:17:29,462 --> 00:17:32,531
First time you get sick,
everyone's there for you.
458
00:17:32,565 --> 00:17:35,567
Kids at school who hated me...
459
00:17:35,602 --> 00:17:39,038
...came to the hospital
and apologized and cried.
460
00:17:39,072 --> 00:17:40,455
Not so much the second time
461
00:17:40,480 --> 00:17:41,421
or the third.
462
00:17:41,455 --> 00:17:44,009
This is my fourth type
of cancer in eight years.
463
00:17:44,044 --> 00:17:47,146
In high school, I was
so inspired by the doctors,
464
00:17:47,180 --> 00:17:48,414
I decided to become one,
465
00:17:48,448 --> 00:17:50,979
to become the people who saved my life.
466
00:17:53,253 --> 00:17:55,421
Got diagnosed the
third time in med school.
467
00:17:55,455 --> 00:17:58,724
Recovery took a year,
drained my college fund.
468
00:17:58,758 --> 00:18:00,692
Now I'm a barista.
469
00:18:04,431 --> 00:18:08,067
And when I was getting sick,
everyone else just kept living.
470
00:18:08,101 --> 00:18:10,335
Graduating, matching.
471
00:18:10,370 --> 00:18:14,072
They all got to live their
dream while I just sat here.
472
00:18:16,876 --> 00:18:18,677
And then, one night, it snowed.
473
00:18:20,146 --> 00:18:22,581
It snowed so much almost no one was here.
474
00:18:22,615 --> 00:18:26,518
And everything looked new.
475
00:18:26,586 --> 00:18:29,588
And I thought, "What if I were new?"
476
00:18:31,161 --> 00:18:33,749
"What if I got to live
my dream just once?"
477
00:18:34,916 --> 00:18:36,328
"Just for a day.
478
00:18:36,362 --> 00:18:38,397
How would it feel?"
479
00:18:38,431 --> 00:18:39,998
Felt great, by the way.
480
00:18:40,033 --> 00:18:42,367
Escaping.
481
00:18:42,402 --> 00:18:43,936
Dr. Webber, you paged?
482
00:18:44,003 --> 00:18:45,771
Uh, yes, I need you
to scrub in with me...
483
00:18:45,805 --> 00:18:47,573
...for Ms. Gutierrez's lap chole.
484
00:18:47,607 --> 00:18:49,208
Wow. Thank you.
485
00:18:53,146 --> 00:18:54,313
What happened?
486
00:18:54,347 --> 00:18:58,684
Uh... it doesn't concern you.
487
00:19:05,692 --> 00:19:09,161
Second round of epi is in. Are we ready?
488
00:19:11,038 --> 00:19:13,098
Okay, here we go, Lesley.
489
00:19:18,638 --> 00:19:20,049
When's the last time you did a C-section?
490
00:19:20,073 --> 00:19:23,408
This is just a normal laparotomy
with a... baby inside.
491
00:19:23,443 --> 00:19:25,811
- Did we page the NICU team yet?
- They're on their way.
492
00:19:25,845 --> 00:19:27,356
We have seconds before
we lose both of them.
493
00:19:27,380 --> 00:19:28,622
We have a liver lac,
494
00:19:28,656 --> 00:19:30,059
I need you to be on standby
with the laps.
495
00:19:30,083 --> 00:19:31,261
Owen, you need to cut.
496
00:19:31,329 --> 00:19:33,519
- Okay.
- Stopping compressions.
497
00:19:34,888 --> 00:19:37,022
My turn. Stop CPR.
498
00:19:37,056 --> 00:19:38,690
Retractor.
499
00:19:42,598 --> 00:19:44,363
No response from Dr. DeLuca.
500
00:19:44,397 --> 00:19:45,797
He left over an hour ago.
501
00:19:45,865 --> 00:19:47,566
Should I not have trusted him to go?
502
00:19:47,600 --> 00:19:49,468
Suture scissors.
503
00:19:51,371 --> 00:19:53,826
Okay. So, why Switzerland?
504
00:19:53,851 --> 00:19:55,285
- What?
- We have time to kill.
505
00:19:55,319 --> 00:19:56,820
Why did you move to Switzerland?
506
00:19:56,854 --> 00:19:59,189
I sort of ran away. When my wife died.
507
00:19:59,257 --> 00:20:02,159
Took my kids and went to the
furthest place I could think of.
508
00:20:03,861 --> 00:20:05,896
Don't usually get a
laugh when I tell that one.
509
00:20:05,930 --> 00:20:08,965
Uh, I'm sorry, it's just that
I did the same exact thing.
510
00:20:13,738 --> 00:20:15,205
Where'd you run to?
511
00:20:15,239 --> 00:20:17,274
San Diego.
512
00:20:17,341 --> 00:20:18,875
No idea why.
513
00:20:18,910 --> 00:20:19,994
Hmm.
514
00:20:20,711 --> 00:20:23,747
When your husband died,
was it fast or was it slow?
515
00:20:23,781 --> 00:20:25,482
Fast, very fast.
516
00:20:27,151 --> 00:20:28,952
- You?
- Unbearably slow.
517
00:20:29,462 --> 00:20:30,954
Years.
518
00:20:31,464 --> 00:20:32,956
Everyone says it gets easier.
519
00:20:36,994 --> 00:20:39,396
Well, it does and it doesn't.
520
00:20:39,430 --> 00:20:42,632
I mean, the firsts are tough.
521
00:20:42,667 --> 00:20:44,935
And just when you feel like
you're starting to heal...
522
00:20:44,969 --> 00:20:46,436
First time Liam got a stomach bug,
523
00:20:46,471 --> 00:20:48,238
I nearly had to be committed.
524
00:20:48,272 --> 00:20:50,607
15 years of medical
training out the window.
525
00:20:50,641 --> 00:20:53,944
First anniversary, first birthdays...
526
00:20:55,446 --> 00:20:56,780
First kiss.
527
00:20:58,382 --> 00:20:59,916
Haven't had that one yet.
528
00:21:00,618 --> 00:21:03,286
Okay, I'm back. I got it.
529
00:21:03,321 --> 00:21:06,256
Here. Here. I got it.
530
00:21:06,324 --> 00:21:08,959
Dr. DeLuca, tell me you wore gloves.
531
00:21:08,993 --> 00:21:11,027
Okay. I wore gloves.
532
00:21:11,062 --> 00:21:12,996
Let's page Dr. Avery right now.
533
00:21:13,064 --> 00:21:15,131
And let's prep for this transplant!
534
00:21:19,662 --> 00:21:22,281
Everyone is overexaggerating, okay?
535
00:21:22,315 --> 00:21:24,935
We're taking away resources
from actual patients that need us.
536
00:21:24,970 --> 00:21:25,870
Stop.
537
00:21:32,899 --> 00:21:34,499
Simms, I need a rewarming basin
538
00:21:34,534 --> 00:21:36,034
set up at 100 degrees with saline,
539
00:21:36,068 --> 00:21:38,770
warming blanket,
and I want tPA on standby
540
00:21:38,804 --> 00:21:40,605
- just in case we end up needing it.
- On it.
541
00:21:40,640 --> 00:21:42,681
No. Stop. This is ridiculous.
I need to treat patients.
542
00:21:42,705 --> 00:21:44,509
You're not treating patients like this.
543
00:21:44,544 --> 00:21:46,811
W-Who are you gonna treat?
You're not a doctor right now.
544
00:21:46,846 --> 00:21:48,390
Can... Can we get my sister
out of here, please?
545
00:21:48,414 --> 00:21:49,758
DeLuca, I've been doing this all day,
546
00:21:49,782 --> 00:21:50,959
so I need you to listen close.
547
00:21:50,983 --> 00:21:53,552
If you do not let me treat you
exactly the way I need to,
548
00:21:53,586 --> 00:21:55,320
you will lose one or both of your hands,
549
00:21:55,354 --> 00:21:56,665
and your future as a surgeon, okay?
550
00:21:56,689 --> 00:21:59,129
So sit tight, shut the hell up,
and let me get you thawed out.
551
00:22:03,863 --> 00:22:06,765
A rib has punctured the pericardium.
552
00:22:06,799 --> 00:22:08,400
It feels like one big clot.
553
00:22:08,434 --> 00:22:10,702
She's tamponading...
the heart has no room to beat.
554
00:22:10,736 --> 00:22:12,183
- We're gonna have to open her up.
- Metz.
555
00:22:12,207 --> 00:22:14,573
How are you doing?
Okay. Where's that warmer?
556
00:22:14,607 --> 00:22:17,976
Okay. Alright.
557
00:22:18,044 --> 00:22:19,978
Okay, here we go.
558
00:22:20,012 --> 00:22:22,881
Okay.
559
00:22:22,915 --> 00:22:24,349
Okay.
560
00:22:26,652 --> 00:22:28,186
Okay.
561
00:22:29,288 --> 00:22:31,356
Okay, starting compressions.
562
00:22:31,390 --> 00:22:34,793
Come on, come on, come on,
come on, come on.
563
00:22:34,827 --> 00:22:37,362
I'm gonna need a neonatal
intubation tray.
564
00:22:37,396 --> 00:22:39,798
Come on, come on, come on.
Come on, come on.
565
00:22:39,832 --> 00:22:42,267
I asked her not to leave the house.
566
00:22:42,301 --> 00:22:44,869
I asked her not to go.
567
00:22:44,904 --> 00:22:46,871
Hey...
568
00:22:46,906 --> 00:22:49,974
You know, pregnant women
have a stubborn streak.
569
00:22:50,876 --> 00:22:53,272
Yeah, but this isn't normal, right?
570
00:22:54,080 --> 00:22:57,382
I mean, having heart surgery
and delivering a baby?
571
00:22:57,416 --> 00:22:59,250
Have you ever seen this?
572
00:23:01,487 --> 00:23:03,955
Y... I-I'll go check on her.
573
00:23:03,990 --> 00:23:05,724
Hey, stay right here.
574
00:23:11,998 --> 00:23:13,765
Her bleeding has stopped with the shunt,
575
00:23:13,799 --> 00:23:15,634
and we did a successful transplant.
576
00:23:15,668 --> 00:23:17,002
Her numbers are improving.
577
00:23:17,036 --> 00:23:19,070
So... she's okay. Elisa's okay?
578
00:23:19,138 --> 00:23:20,302
She's gonna be okay.
579
00:23:22,108 --> 00:23:24,019
We'd like to thank the doctor
who went out in the snow
580
00:23:24,043 --> 00:23:25,520
to get the liver.
Do you know where he is?
581
00:23:25,544 --> 00:23:26,911
Oh, he's warming up.
582
00:23:26,979 --> 00:23:29,247
You've all been so...
583
00:23:29,281 --> 00:23:30,749
Thank you. Thank you.
584
00:23:30,783 --> 00:23:31,783
Mm-hmm.
585
00:23:31,817 --> 00:23:33,585
Thank you.
586
00:23:40,593 --> 00:23:43,728
Oh, God. Is there an update?
587
00:23:43,796 --> 00:23:46,264
I just pulled a huge clot
out of her pericardium,
588
00:23:46,298 --> 00:23:48,276
- and now I'm massaging...
- Wait, hold compressions.
589
00:23:48,300 --> 00:23:49,768
Let's see if we have a rhythm.
590
00:23:54,140 --> 00:23:56,068
Alright, let's pack her
591
00:23:56,093 --> 00:23:57,173
and get her to the OR.
592
00:23:57,207 --> 00:23:59,911
- Uh, Hunt?
- Baby's intubated, two rounds of epi.
593
00:23:59,945 --> 00:24:02,347
Just hold on, just... give it a second.
594
00:24:11,924 --> 00:24:13,324
It's a girl.
595
00:24:13,359 --> 00:24:16,294
Dear God.
596
00:24:16,328 --> 00:24:17,929
You guys...
597
00:24:17,963 --> 00:24:19,864
Okay.
598
00:24:19,899 --> 00:24:20,832
Joey!
599
00:24:20,866 --> 00:24:23,034
He brought them both back.
600
00:24:23,069 --> 00:24:24,369
Awesome.
601
00:24:24,403 --> 00:24:28,306
He's right, Hunt.
Everybody, this was awesome.
602
00:24:29,208 --> 00:24:30,875
- It was, wasn't it?
- Oh!
603
00:24:49,962 --> 00:24:50,829
Careful.
604
00:24:50,863 --> 00:24:52,997
Avery's trying to save DeLuca's hands
605
00:24:53,032 --> 00:24:54,733
because he played outside for too long.
606
00:24:54,800 --> 00:24:56,401
How did you know I was out here?
607
00:24:56,435 --> 00:24:59,037
A little blinking beacon in my brain
608
00:24:59,071 --> 00:25:00,772
tells me where you are at all times.
609
00:25:00,806 --> 00:25:02,373
That was creepy. Even for me.
610
00:25:02,408 --> 00:25:06,077
No, I... I came down
from the ER with cocoa,
611
00:25:06,145 --> 00:25:08,046
and I saw you walk out of trauma one.
612
00:25:08,114 --> 00:25:09,757
Looked like an unbelievable save.
613
00:25:09,825 --> 00:25:11,015
Here. Here.
614
00:25:11,050 --> 00:25:12,016
Thanks.
615
00:25:12,051 --> 00:25:14,486
Everything okay?
616
00:25:14,520 --> 00:25:16,755
Yeah, I'm just, uh...
617
00:25:16,789 --> 00:25:20,225
I'm just, uh... trying to quiet my mind.
618
00:25:20,259 --> 00:25:22,227
You know, I've had this
fear for a couple months,
619
00:25:22,261 --> 00:25:23,661
and I'm just, uh...
620
00:25:25,631 --> 00:25:27,732
Just worried that it
might be coming true.
621
00:25:27,767 --> 00:25:28,867
What's that?
622
00:25:28,934 --> 00:25:30,568
Well, I'm just...
623
00:25:30,636 --> 00:25:33,538
I'm worried that Owen is
the father of Amelia's baby.
624
00:25:33,572 --> 00:25:36,441
Which is crazy, probably, right? That...
625
00:25:36,475 --> 00:25:39,177
But it... it...
I just... I can't shake it.
626
00:25:39,211 --> 00:25:40,956
It's the first thing that
went through my mind
627
00:25:40,980 --> 00:25:43,014
when I heard that Amelia was pregnant.
628
00:25:43,048 --> 00:25:44,549
W-Why... Why do you think that is?
629
00:25:44,583 --> 00:25:47,051
- Because I'm broken, maybe?
- Ah.
630
00:25:48,754 --> 00:25:52,618
'Cause I can't trust that things
will work out 'cause...
631
00:25:53,259 --> 00:25:55,126
Because maybe I'm afraid that...
632
00:25:55,161 --> 00:25:57,529
that he'll always be in love with Amelia.
633
00:25:57,596 --> 00:25:59,964
That's a terrible feeling,
634
00:25:59,999 --> 00:26:01,143
thinking somebody you're in love with
635
00:26:01,167 --> 00:26:02,867
is pining for someone else.
636
00:26:02,902 --> 00:26:06,371
I mean... trust me, I know.
637
00:26:06,405 --> 00:26:08,092
But, hey...
638
00:26:08,808 --> 00:26:10,141
Come on. I...
639
00:26:10,176 --> 00:26:12,277
I've seen Owen with you.
640
00:26:12,311 --> 00:26:14,245
That man's clearly in love with you.
641
00:26:14,280 --> 00:26:17,816
It's seeping out of
his ruddy little pores.
642
00:26:17,850 --> 00:26:19,362
Trust me, I'd be the first one
643
00:26:19,397 --> 00:26:21,152
to tell you otherwise.
644
00:26:26,058 --> 00:26:27,792
Mm.
645
00:26:27,827 --> 00:26:29,460
You're a good man, Tom.
646
00:26:29,495 --> 00:26:31,162
Oh, God.
647
00:26:31,230 --> 00:26:33,998
You're the only person
here who thinks that.
648
00:26:34,535 --> 00:26:37,702
I-I know people dislike me.
649
00:26:37,736 --> 00:26:39,270
Strongly.
650
00:26:39,305 --> 00:26:42,858
And I know I don't show it,
but, uh, I think I hate it.
651
00:26:43,704 --> 00:26:45,410
And... they're all part of a club,
652
00:26:45,477 --> 00:26:48,012
and they won't have me join.
653
00:26:48,047 --> 00:26:50,314
And I've been trying for two years.
654
00:26:51,183 --> 00:26:52,550
Well, I don't dislike you.
655
00:26:52,585 --> 00:26:54,118
Hmm.
656
00:26:54,153 --> 00:26:55,620
I'd even say I like you.
657
00:26:57,156 --> 00:26:58,189
Hm.
658
00:26:58,224 --> 00:27:00,258
- A lot.
- Hmm.
659
00:27:00,326 --> 00:27:01,926
Hmm.
660
00:27:01,961 --> 00:27:04,262
- What are you doing?
- What?
661
00:27:04,330 --> 00:27:06,297
Oh, that look, I... That look is...
662
00:27:06,332 --> 00:27:08,199
- No, there's no look!
- You always have a look.
663
00:27:08,234 --> 00:27:09,701
No. No look.
664
00:27:09,735 --> 00:27:11,236
- Oh.
- There's no look.
665
00:27:11,270 --> 00:27:12,804
I don't... No, that's... Oh, that...
666
00:27:12,872 --> 00:27:13,972
Oh.
667
00:27:14,006 --> 00:27:16,040
Tom! Oh!
668
00:27:16,108 --> 00:27:18,847
You are a dead man!
669
00:27:18,872 --> 00:27:20,249
- Don't. Don't!
- You wait. Oh, yes.
670
00:27:20,273 --> 00:27:22,341
Don't... Don't do it. Don't...
671
00:27:26,580 --> 00:27:28,747
These hands are insured!
672
00:27:28,782 --> 00:27:31,417
Psych says that she's not a flight risk,
673
00:27:31,451 --> 00:27:34,019
so I moved her surgery to tomorrow.
674
00:27:34,087 --> 00:27:35,354
Thanks.
675
00:27:40,694 --> 00:27:42,428
Ms. Gutierrez is okay.
676
00:27:42,462 --> 00:27:44,063
You here to rub it in?
677
00:27:44,097 --> 00:27:46,265
No, I'm here because after the surgery,
678
00:27:46,299 --> 00:27:47,733
she asked where the doctor was
679
00:27:47,767 --> 00:27:50,136
that had the nice things
to say about the animals.
680
00:27:50,170 --> 00:27:52,771
Did you tell her I'm in a straitjacket?
681
00:27:52,806 --> 00:27:55,374
I said that Dr. Desmond
was with another patient.
682
00:27:55,408 --> 00:27:57,810
Desmond.
683
00:27:57,844 --> 00:28:00,312
Sounds like something
out of a soap opera.
684
00:28:00,347 --> 00:28:01,480
I'm such an idiot.
685
00:28:02,883 --> 00:28:05,184
My dream was to be a surgeon, too.
686
00:28:05,418 --> 00:28:07,019
Yeah, well, lucky you.
687
00:28:07,053 --> 00:28:09,988
You really want to get into a
contest about obstacles with me?
688
00:28:11,491 --> 00:28:14,560
What I was saying was
my dream was a lot harder
689
00:28:14,594 --> 00:28:16,929
than it was for other people.
690
00:28:16,963 --> 00:28:20,699
But I stuck with it,
and I made it come true.
691
00:28:21,635 --> 00:28:23,702
If you can survive four cancers...
692
00:28:24,638 --> 00:28:26,739
...you can finish med school.
693
00:28:33,380 --> 00:28:37,483
You know why I asked
you to be my hands today?
694
00:28:37,517 --> 00:28:39,818
Some teaching crap, I guess.
695
00:28:47,661 --> 00:28:49,328
What is it? Parkinson's?
696
00:28:50,430 --> 00:28:52,264
Yeah, it could be.
697
00:28:52,332 --> 00:28:54,061
Or old age, I'm not sure.
698
00:28:55,218 --> 00:28:57,046
There are treatments
for that now. Medications.
699
00:28:57,070 --> 00:28:58,848
They're even working on
some brain surgeries that...
700
00:28:58,872 --> 00:29:00,873
There's no treatment that can let me
701
00:29:00,907 --> 00:29:03,442
keep doing what I love most.
702
00:29:04,508 --> 00:29:07,179
This job defined me.
703
00:29:07,214 --> 00:29:10,549
More than any relationship, any illness.
704
00:29:10,584 --> 00:29:12,322
And if I can't do it anymore, then...
705
00:29:13,954 --> 00:29:15,621
You were right earlier,
706
00:29:15,655 --> 00:29:17,623
this is the greatest job on the planet.
707
00:29:17,657 --> 00:29:19,725
And if I thought there was even a chance
708
00:29:19,759 --> 00:29:21,860
that I could get to operate again,
709
00:29:21,895 --> 00:29:24,163
I would move heaven and
earth to make it happen.
710
00:29:24,197 --> 00:29:25,564
So you can give up, but I can't?
711
00:29:25,599 --> 00:29:26,999
No, there is a big difference
712
00:29:27,034 --> 00:29:29,535
between throwing in
the towel after a fight
713
00:29:29,569 --> 00:29:32,037
and before the fight even started.
714
00:29:41,948 --> 00:29:44,316
No, you... you can't.
715
00:29:44,384 --> 00:29:48,554
Ah, I don't need it anymore.
716
00:29:51,124 --> 00:29:53,104
But I really hope you do.
717
00:30:06,904 --> 00:30:09,103
And this will help with the pain.
718
00:30:09,128 --> 00:30:10,579
It doesn't hurt, actually.
719
00:30:10,603 --> 00:30:12,804
It will. I mean, none of
your blisters are open now,
720
00:30:12,839 --> 00:30:14,049
but there's a very strong chance
721
00:30:14,073 --> 00:30:15,707
I'm gonna need to debride in the OR.
722
00:30:15,742 --> 00:30:17,353
And, DeLuca,
I can't stress this enough...
723
00:30:17,377 --> 00:30:19,678
the next 12 hours are critical.
724
00:30:22,315 --> 00:30:23,649
- Thank you.
- Thank you.
725
00:30:23,683 --> 00:30:25,817
I'm not really in the mood for visitors.
726
00:30:25,852 --> 00:30:29,788
Andrew, that little girl
is alive because of you.
727
00:30:29,822 --> 00:30:32,190
So I just wanted you to know that.
728
00:30:32,258 --> 00:30:33,592
I do know that.
729
00:30:33,626 --> 00:30:35,761
And I also know that
if you'd had it your way,
730
00:30:35,795 --> 00:30:36,972
I wouldn't have gone out there,
731
00:30:36,996 --> 00:30:38,173
and that little girl would be dead.
732
00:30:38,197 --> 00:30:40,999
So I guess you're thanking
me for not listening to you.
733
00:30:41,901 --> 00:30:45,704
Andrea, we were just worried about you.
734
00:30:46,973 --> 00:30:50,709
Okay, this is just like when Papa...
735
00:30:50,743 --> 00:30:53,345
I'm not him, okay?! I'm not him!
736
00:30:53,379 --> 00:30:55,314
For the first time in my career,
737
00:30:55,348 --> 00:30:57,749
I'm succeeding on my own,
without anybody's help.
738
00:30:57,784 --> 00:31:00,052
Why can't you just be happy
for me and accept that?
739
00:31:00,086 --> 00:31:01,230
Why... Why... Why you do
you always got to accuse me
740
00:31:01,254 --> 00:31:04,222
- of... of not being well?
- Because there's a history...
741
00:31:04,257 --> 00:31:05,768
Okay, well I don't accuse
you of having Alzheimer's
742
00:31:05,792 --> 00:31:07,526
every time you forget something, do I?
743
00:31:09,329 --> 00:31:10,439
You know, you can go, Meredith.
744
00:31:10,463 --> 00:31:12,297
Please, just... just leave.
745
00:31:27,280 --> 00:31:29,948
Sorry. I had a couple
of fires to put out.
746
00:31:30,016 --> 00:31:32,517
That's a chief's job.
747
00:31:32,874 --> 00:31:34,252
Did the baby's mom make it?
748
00:31:34,287 --> 00:31:37,456
She did. Lesley's in the ICU.
749
00:31:37,523 --> 00:31:38,957
Was that woman right?
750
00:31:38,992 --> 00:31:40,459
This doesn't usually happen?
751
00:31:40,493 --> 00:31:43,428
It definitely does not.
752
00:31:44,469 --> 00:31:46,889
That might have been the
coolest thing I've ever seen.
753
00:31:48,468 --> 00:31:50,225
Me, too.
754
00:31:56,242 --> 00:31:58,310
Hey, c-come home with me.
755
00:31:58,344 --> 00:31:59,978
With my family.
756
00:32:00,046 --> 00:32:02,447
- What?
- Come to my house.
757
00:32:02,515 --> 00:32:04,149
Stay while you finish high school,
758
00:32:04,183 --> 00:32:06,184
while we fill out your
college applications.
759
00:32:06,219 --> 00:32:10,055
And after you've been away at school,
760
00:32:10,123 --> 00:32:12,758
come back and eat Thanksgiving dinner
761
00:32:12,792 --> 00:32:14,620
and... and do your laundry.
762
00:32:14,655 --> 00:32:18,497
And maybe talk about
what career you want.
763
00:32:18,564 --> 00:32:20,365
Look, I don't need money from the county.
764
00:32:20,400 --> 00:32:22,134
That's not what this is about.
765
00:32:22,168 --> 00:32:25,470
I have an extra room, extra food,
766
00:32:25,505 --> 00:32:28,573
extra... love to give.
767
00:32:28,608 --> 00:32:30,008
I...
768
00:32:30,076 --> 00:32:32,644
I have a son who loves
to play video games.
769
00:32:32,678 --> 00:32:39,251
And a husband who... will
understand eventually.
770
00:32:40,520 --> 00:32:42,354
You're serious?
771
00:32:42,388 --> 00:32:44,623
When have you known
me to not to be serious?
772
00:32:46,626 --> 00:32:48,260
Yeah.
773
00:32:48,294 --> 00:32:51,196
Yeah. I'd like that.
774
00:32:51,230 --> 00:32:53,632
You...
775
00:32:53,666 --> 00:32:56,134
Okay. Yeah.
776
00:32:56,202 --> 00:32:58,103
Okay.
777
00:32:59,872 --> 00:33:01,273
Alright.
778
00:33:04,143 --> 00:33:07,846
Thank you. Thank you so much.
779
00:33:13,119 --> 00:33:14,719
Hi.
780
00:33:19,425 --> 00:33:22,661
I've seen her, sweetheart.
781
00:33:22,728 --> 00:33:25,730
I've seen our little girl.
782
00:33:25,798 --> 00:33:27,864
And she is...
783
00:33:29,469 --> 00:33:31,503
she is so you.
784
00:33:42,648 --> 00:33:43,772
Can I give this to you?
785
00:33:43,806 --> 00:33:44,983
Thank you.
786
00:33:45,017 --> 00:33:46,551
Maggie, I have a favor to ask you.
787
00:33:46,619 --> 00:33:47,719
Sure...
788
00:33:49,422 --> 00:33:51,490
I know that Amelia just
took some personal time.
789
00:33:51,524 --> 00:33:53,602
And I know that Link is
having a terrible time with it.
790
00:33:53,626 --> 00:33:55,594
And I... I know that
791
00:33:55,628 --> 00:33:57,629
I have this feeling that I can't shake,
792
00:33:57,663 --> 00:33:59,864
but has something to do with Owen.
793
00:34:01,434 --> 00:34:02,834
I know that you're Amelia's sister,
794
00:34:02,869 --> 00:34:04,369
and that your allegiance is to her,
795
00:34:04,437 --> 00:34:06,271
and I deeply respect that.
796
00:34:06,339 --> 00:34:08,317
And I'm not asking you to tell
me everything that you know,
797
00:34:08,341 --> 00:34:10,108
but I am asking you...
798
00:34:10,176 --> 00:34:11,276
Am I crazy?
799
00:34:11,310 --> 00:34:15,380
Am I seeing things that...
that... that aren't there?
800
00:34:18,784 --> 00:34:20,552
You're not crazy.
801
00:34:35,601 --> 00:34:38,203
- Hey.
- Ah.
802
00:34:38,237 --> 00:34:40,639
Uh, the rigs got the
all-clear, so I just...
803
00:34:40,673 --> 00:34:45,210
we just dropped off the guy
with the amputated foot.
804
00:34:45,678 --> 00:34:48,213
Uh, JJ gave birth at the
station in the bathroom.
805
00:34:48,247 --> 00:34:49,681
Wow, that's, um...
806
00:34:49,715 --> 00:34:51,660
- But she's good.
- She's good, and the baby's good.
807
00:34:51,684 --> 00:34:53,885
- So...
- I'm sorry, Vic.
808
00:34:53,953 --> 00:34:56,488
I'm... Look, I'm sorry
we had our first fight.
809
00:34:56,522 --> 00:34:58,623
I'm sorry I...
810
00:34:58,658 --> 00:34:59,991
God, I'm too tired to remember.
811
00:35:00,026 --> 00:35:02,127
But I... I am sorry.
812
00:35:03,563 --> 00:35:05,430
I'm sorry, too.
813
00:35:05,464 --> 00:35:07,130
It was stupid.
814
00:35:07,633 --> 00:35:09,234
I'm pretty sure I was stupid, but...
815
00:35:09,268 --> 00:35:10,435
- Not touching that.
- Yeah.
816
00:35:10,503 --> 00:35:12,571
I know better than that.
817
00:35:12,638 --> 00:35:14,439
- Meet you at your place?
- Yeah.
818
00:35:14,473 --> 00:35:15,551
We could have our second fight.
819
00:35:15,575 --> 00:35:16,942
Oh, it's too soon.
820
00:35:24,183 --> 00:35:25,617
Find your patient?
821
00:35:25,651 --> 00:35:28,086
Yeah, and she got to do
more medicine than I did
822
00:35:28,120 --> 00:35:30,555
because she impersonated a surgeon.
823
00:35:30,590 --> 00:35:32,624
She could have killed somebody.
824
00:35:38,698 --> 00:35:40,799
Nico, you're silencing me with sex.
825
00:35:40,833 --> 00:35:44,793
And it's really amazing sex,
but it's becoming all we do.
826
00:35:45,304 --> 00:35:47,439
And I understand if you're not ready
827
00:35:47,473 --> 00:35:48,707
to talk about your parents.
828
00:35:48,741 --> 00:35:54,713
But I want a relationship,
not an impersonation.
829
00:35:54,747 --> 00:35:56,615
And this... it doesn't feel real.
830
00:35:56,682 --> 00:35:57,716
Okay, look.
831
00:35:57,783 --> 00:35:59,384
Uh, Levi...
832
00:36:01,034 --> 00:36:02,287
I'm not you.
833
00:36:02,321 --> 00:36:04,689
I don't like talking about feelings,
834
00:36:04,724 --> 00:36:06,057
I don't like to "dive deep."
835
00:36:06,092 --> 00:36:09,561
I like to show up
and just... be together.
836
00:36:09,595 --> 00:36:12,664
And I accept all your feelings talk
837
00:36:12,698 --> 00:36:13,732
and whatever, all of you.
838
00:36:13,766 --> 00:36:15,700
I accept you.
839
00:36:15,735 --> 00:36:17,492
I don't try to change you.
840
00:36:18,827 --> 00:36:21,039
But you can't stop trying to change me.
841
00:36:24,010 --> 00:36:26,945
So, this is all I have to give.
This right here, Levi...
842
00:36:26,979 --> 00:36:28,647
This is who I am.
843
00:36:30,383 --> 00:36:32,651
And if I'm really not
enough for you, then...
844
00:36:34,086 --> 00:36:35,664
Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait.
845
00:36:35,688 --> 00:36:36,688
Don't go.
846
00:36:36,722 --> 00:36:38,423
I love you.
847
00:36:38,491 --> 00:36:40,859
I... I accept you. Don't go.
848
00:36:53,064 --> 00:36:54,339
Hey.
849
00:37:04,873 --> 00:37:07,919
Okay, no need to take it out on the door,
850
00:37:07,953 --> 00:37:09,954
I'm coming, I'm coming,
coming, coming, coming.
851
00:37:11,324 --> 00:37:12,499
Hold on.
852
00:37:15,861 --> 00:37:17,028
Oh.
853
00:37:17,063 --> 00:37:18,797
I was just kidding. I, uh...
854
00:37:18,831 --> 00:37:20,298
I love the way you knock.
855
00:37:20,333 --> 00:37:21,700
Never change...
856
00:37:29,842 --> 00:37:32,644
Right after a storm, I would run outside.
857
00:37:32,678 --> 00:37:35,690
Whether it was the air or
the fresh blanket of snow...
858
00:37:35,725 --> 00:37:37,649
...it always felt magical.
859
00:37:37,717 --> 00:37:38,883
Or new.
860
00:37:38,918 --> 00:37:40,218
- Hey.
- Hey.
861
00:37:40,252 --> 00:37:41,563
Finally stopped snowing, so I ran out
862
00:37:41,587 --> 00:37:42,862
and made an executive
decision about dinner.
863
00:37:42,886 --> 00:37:44,732
- Oh.
- Chicken noodle soup from Harry's.
864
00:37:44,767 --> 00:37:46,791
You know, with the bagel chips you like.
865
00:37:46,826 --> 00:37:47,759
Oh, wait, wait.
866
00:37:47,793 --> 00:37:49,394
Ben.
867
00:37:49,428 --> 00:37:50,829
Are you, uh...
868
00:37:50,863 --> 00:37:52,130
Everything okay?
869
00:37:52,164 --> 00:37:54,599
Everything's great!
870
00:37:54,667 --> 00:37:56,635
Oh, there we go. Um...
871
00:37:56,702 --> 00:37:58,870
Is that Joey?
872
00:37:59,105 --> 00:38:01,639
Is he wearing my clothes?
873
00:38:03,909 --> 00:38:06,811
Uh, so we should talk.
874
00:38:11,538 --> 00:38:14,476
But as beautiful as it is,
the snow starts to melt.
875
00:38:25,264 --> 00:38:27,966
Misery loves company, so...
876
00:38:28,000 --> 00:38:29,768
I brought donuts...
877
00:38:29,802 --> 00:38:32,237
and despair.
878
00:38:41,647 --> 00:38:43,848
Jo?
879
00:38:43,883 --> 00:38:44,783
I...
880
00:38:44,817 --> 00:38:46,851
I thought you were him.
881
00:38:51,891 --> 00:38:54,058
I'm sorry.
882
00:38:54,093 --> 00:38:56,895
He left me.
883
00:38:56,929 --> 00:38:58,329
No, he didn't.
884
00:39:00,933 --> 00:39:02,867
I think he did.
885
00:39:05,771 --> 00:39:09,441
I think he woke up one day
886
00:39:09,475 --> 00:39:14,312
and felt the need to
escape his life and me.
887
00:39:18,017 --> 00:39:19,884
I called his mom.
888
00:39:21,420 --> 00:39:23,319
He wasn't there.
889
00:39:24,342 --> 00:39:26,243
He'd never been there.
890
00:39:29,862 --> 00:39:31,896
He left me.
891
00:39:31,964 --> 00:39:34,432
And now I can't...
892
00:39:34,467 --> 00:39:36,901
I can't...
893
00:39:36,936 --> 00:39:38,336
I can't breathe.
894
00:39:38,370 --> 00:39:40,171
And you're suddenly standing
895
00:39:40,196 --> 00:39:41,730
- in dirty slush...
- I can't breathe.
896
00:39:41,774 --> 00:39:44,466
...frozen and unable
to feel anything at all.
897
00:39:52,818 --> 00:39:57,255
But after enough time,
even that disappears.
898
00:40:00,159 --> 00:40:01,860
Hey.
899
00:40:01,927 --> 00:40:03,795
Hey.
900
00:40:03,829 --> 00:40:05,330
Where you off to?
901
00:40:05,364 --> 00:40:06,764
Home to hug my boys,
902
00:40:06,799 --> 00:40:09,534
spoil them rotten just
because they're alive.
903
00:40:09,602 --> 00:40:10,568
You?
904
00:40:10,603 --> 00:40:11,903
Same.
905
00:40:11,937 --> 00:40:13,872
Hmm.
906
00:40:16,976 --> 00:40:18,089
Grey.
907
00:40:19,812 --> 00:40:23,615
Dr. DeLuca, who is he to you?
908
00:40:31,023 --> 00:40:34,626
He's one of my firsts.
909
00:40:34,760 --> 00:40:36,427
He's the first man that I said
910
00:40:36,462 --> 00:40:38,108
"I love you" to after my husband.
911
00:40:43,002 --> 00:40:44,616
Was it good?
912
00:40:46,344 --> 00:40:48,940
To say I love you to someone new?
913
00:40:53,846 --> 00:40:54,989
Yeah, I...
914
00:40:55,057 --> 00:40:56,646
It was.
915
00:40:57,850 --> 00:40:59,232
It was good.
916
00:41:00,052 --> 00:41:02,287
It was really good.
917
00:41:02,321 --> 00:41:04,022
I've been, um...
918
00:41:10,462 --> 00:41:12,730
It's been lonely.
919
00:41:12,865 --> 00:41:14,198
You know?
920
00:41:14,233 --> 00:41:16,668
I've never met anyone like me.
921
00:41:16,936 --> 00:41:19,504
Widowed so young.
922
00:41:19,572 --> 00:41:20,905
It's nice.
923
00:41:22,575 --> 00:41:24,132
It helps.
924
00:41:25,711 --> 00:41:27,178
To have a friend.
925
00:41:29,682 --> 00:41:31,105
It helps me, too.
926
00:41:31,140 --> 00:41:33,918
The ground thaws, the days get longer,
927
00:41:33,953 --> 00:41:35,853
and though you could never imagine it,
928
00:41:35,888 --> 00:41:37,522
you start to feel again.
929
00:41:37,590 --> 00:41:40,391
Good night, Hayes.
930
00:41:46,665 --> 00:41:48,945
She talked about
having a "twisted sister."
931
00:41:50,035 --> 00:41:52,537
Yang did.
932
00:41:52,605 --> 00:41:54,138
I'm guessing that's you?
933
00:42:04,016 --> 00:42:06,751
It surprises me every time.