1 00:00:06,903 --> 00:00:08,905 I feel like I'll say the wrong thing. 2 00:00:08,905 --> 00:00:10,320 You really can't. 3 00:00:10,320 --> 00:00:12,184 There are no wrong answers here. 4 00:00:14,255 --> 00:00:15,739 Okay. 5 00:00:19,088 --> 00:00:21,573 His kindness. 6 00:00:21,573 --> 00:00:26,233 He's very kind. 7 00:00:26,233 --> 00:00:30,547 Something you love and appreciate about Maggie? 8 00:00:30,547 --> 00:00:33,550 Yeah. 9 00:00:33,550 --> 00:00:36,415 I guess I am-- 10 00:00:36,415 --> 00:00:38,728 well, I love--I love that she's here this morning, 11 00:00:38,728 --> 00:00:41,110 because that means that she's finally admitting 12 00:00:41,110 --> 00:00:43,077 that we need help communicating. 13 00:00:43,077 --> 00:00:47,081 So... 14 00:00:47,081 --> 00:00:50,119 And I-- 15 00:00:50,119 --> 00:00:54,985 I appreciate how hard Maggie works. 16 00:00:54,985 --> 00:00:57,298 How is that a bad thing? 17 00:00:57,298 --> 00:00:58,955 How is what I said bad? 18 00:00:58,955 --> 00:01:01,440 Every life on the planet begins as a single cell, 19 00:01:01,440 --> 00:01:04,547 which splits and multiplies over and over again. 20 00:01:04,547 --> 00:01:06,066 Each cell has a purpose. 21 00:01:06,066 --> 00:01:08,137 Okay, the kids are dressed and ready, 22 00:01:08,137 --> 00:01:10,104 and you're... still not up. 23 00:01:10,104 --> 00:01:12,658 I can't. I feel awful. 24 00:01:12,658 --> 00:01:16,490 Can you take Luna to day care for me so that I can sleep? 25 00:01:16,490 --> 00:01:18,492 - Yeah. - Thank you. 26 00:01:18,492 --> 00:01:21,460 And as it forms, internal and external forces 27 00:01:21,460 --> 00:01:24,222 converge on it. 28 00:01:24,222 --> 00:01:26,569 I know what you're doing. 29 00:01:26,569 --> 00:01:27,501 What, trying to spend a little more time 30 00:01:27,501 --> 00:01:29,123 with my wife? 31 00:01:29,123 --> 00:01:30,642 Now, you're gonna have to go home 32 00:01:30,642 --> 00:01:32,264 and then come back at the end of the day. 33 00:01:32,264 --> 00:01:34,991 Yeah, well, I got the day off, so I got time. 34 00:01:34,991 --> 00:01:39,927 Two extra trips, more carbon footprint, 35 00:01:39,927 --> 00:01:42,240 killing the planet-- think of our children. 36 00:01:42,240 --> 00:01:43,827 You see? 37 00:01:43,827 --> 00:01:46,313 They've extended the security perimeter, 38 00:01:46,313 --> 00:01:47,969 perfectly safe. 39 00:01:47,969 --> 00:01:50,248 Signaling to the cell what it will become. 40 00:01:50,248 --> 00:01:52,353 We call this process differentiation. 41 00:01:52,353 --> 00:01:54,976 Thanks for the ride. 42 00:01:54,976 --> 00:01:58,048 - Love you. - It'll be fine. 43 00:01:58,048 --> 00:02:01,673 An arm, a bone, a brain... 44 00:02:01,673 --> 00:02:04,158 Hi, good morning. 45 00:02:04,158 --> 00:02:05,539 Perfectly safe. 46 00:02:05,539 --> 00:02:06,678 All cells take a journey 47 00:02:06,678 --> 00:02:10,130 from generalized to specialized. 48 00:02:10,130 --> 00:02:11,993 Sorry, sorry. I know I'm a little late. 49 00:02:11,993 --> 00:02:13,650 I have roommates, tandem parking. 50 00:02:13,650 --> 00:02:15,963 Anyway, I am here for my plasma donation. 51 00:02:15,963 --> 00:02:20,070 We don't call it a donation when you're taking $75 for it. 52 00:02:20,070 --> 00:02:21,348 Fair point. 53 00:02:21,348 --> 00:02:23,315 They go from nothing to something-- 54 00:02:23,315 --> 00:02:24,558 You're three pounds underweight. 55 00:02:24,558 --> 00:02:25,697 Can't give plasma today. 56 00:02:25,697 --> 00:02:27,181 Not possible. 57 00:02:27,181 --> 00:02:28,734 I do this every two months. Check your records. 58 00:02:28,734 --> 00:02:29,804 Check the scale. 59 00:02:29,804 --> 00:02:32,290 Come back when you qualify. 60 00:02:32,290 --> 00:02:36,742 Or what you could be to what you are. 61 00:02:36,742 --> 00:02:39,089 - Hey. - Good morning. 62 00:02:39,089 --> 00:02:40,815 Do you want to meet up if you have a break, 63 00:02:40,815 --> 00:02:42,023 on-call room on four? 64 00:02:42,023 --> 00:02:43,404 Sounds fun. 65 00:02:43,404 --> 00:02:45,026 Might take me a while to get there. 66 00:02:45,026 --> 00:02:46,027 I'm in Phoenix. 67 00:02:46,027 --> 00:02:47,512 Why? 68 00:02:47,512 --> 00:02:48,927 Because that's where my next job is. 69 00:02:48,927 --> 00:02:50,515 I finished my gig in Seattle. - What? 70 00:02:50,515 --> 00:02:51,654 You never said anything. 71 00:02:51,654 --> 00:02:53,725 I was with you two days ago. 72 00:02:53,725 --> 00:02:55,485 Well, you always seem more interested 73 00:02:55,485 --> 00:02:57,487 in the on-call room on four than actually talking. 74 00:02:57,487 --> 00:02:59,731 I-- 75 00:02:59,731 --> 00:03:01,215 I got to go. 76 00:03:01,215 --> 00:03:03,700 Let me know if you're ever in Phoenix. 77 00:03:03,700 --> 00:03:05,323 I mean, I'd just as soon elope, 78 00:03:05,323 --> 00:03:07,842 but Trey and his family-- super into tradition. 79 00:03:07,842 --> 00:03:10,914 When he asked his brother to be his best man, he cried. 80 00:03:10,914 --> 00:03:14,539 My sister and I hardly speak, and-- 81 00:03:14,539 --> 00:03:16,679 She's trying to say that she needs a maid of honor. 82 00:03:16,679 --> 00:03:19,751 Oh, I like you so much, but I would be bad at that job. 83 00:03:19,751 --> 00:03:21,201 Hey, what the hell? 84 00:03:21,201 --> 00:03:22,581 You left me again. - Be on time. 85 00:03:22,581 --> 00:03:24,514 You know, if your silver-spoon, nepotism ass 86 00:03:24,514 --> 00:03:26,930 isn't in the seat by 7:00, you are out of luck. 87 00:03:26,930 --> 00:03:29,519 Tough, punctual, efficient-- there's your maid of honor. 88 00:03:29,519 --> 00:03:31,038 - What? - Forget it. 89 00:03:31,038 --> 00:03:32,557 But you said 6:45. 90 00:03:32,557 --> 00:03:34,144 Yes, because we gave you a fake time 91 00:03:34,144 --> 00:03:36,388 that's 15 minutes before we're actually planning to leave. 92 00:03:36,388 --> 00:03:38,045 And yet, you still can't make it. 93 00:03:38,045 --> 00:03:39,598 Well, you could have woken me up. 94 00:03:39,598 --> 00:03:40,910 Does anybody have my back here? 95 00:03:40,910 --> 00:03:42,463 No. 96 00:04:01,965 --> 00:04:04,002 Oh, okay. Yes, I understand. 97 00:04:04,002 --> 00:04:06,315 And I appreciate it, but-- 98 00:04:06,315 --> 00:04:07,281 Okay. Thank you. 99 00:04:07,281 --> 00:04:09,559 Busy morning? 100 00:04:09,559 --> 00:04:11,561 How come no one ever mentions that part of the chief job 101 00:04:11,561 --> 00:04:13,943 is actually being a reference for other institutions 102 00:04:13,943 --> 00:04:15,427 who are looking to poach your surgeons? 103 00:04:15,427 --> 00:04:16,980 Not following. 104 00:04:16,980 --> 00:04:19,017 Harvard Med, NYU, Heart Center of Chicago, 105 00:04:19,017 --> 00:04:20,398 they're all on my call list 106 00:04:20,398 --> 00:04:22,020 because they are interested in Pierce. 107 00:04:22,020 --> 00:04:23,470 How long has she been working here? 108 00:04:23,470 --> 00:04:25,506 Maybe there is something in her contract 109 00:04:25,506 --> 00:04:27,301 that prohibits her from leaving. 110 00:04:27,301 --> 00:04:29,648 - Leaving? Maggie? - Yeah. 111 00:04:29,648 --> 00:04:32,099 That article has given her a lot of attention. 112 00:04:32,099 --> 00:04:34,135 Look, I don't wanna hold anyone back, but we just lost Grey. 113 00:04:34,135 --> 00:04:35,965 I mean, how do we get Pierce to stay? 114 00:04:35,965 --> 00:04:37,587 Yeah, I'm on it. 115 00:04:37,587 --> 00:04:38,588 Oh, great. Thanks. 116 00:04:38,588 --> 00:04:41,211 I'm sorry--yeah, hi. 117 00:04:41,211 --> 00:04:43,144 This is she. 118 00:04:44,456 --> 00:04:47,321 So cough and sniffles, bed six. 119 00:04:47,321 --> 00:04:48,840 Nothing like half a decade of medical training 120 00:04:48,840 --> 00:04:50,359 to use on a runny nose. 121 00:04:50,359 --> 00:04:51,843 You know, I had a patient who had sniffles. 122 00:04:51,843 --> 00:04:54,190 Turned out he had a CSF leak in his brain, so-- 123 00:04:54,190 --> 00:04:56,123 Uh, oh, complex trauma case transferred 124 00:04:56,123 --> 00:04:57,331 from a rural hospital. 125 00:04:57,331 --> 00:04:58,815 Kwan, you wanna see the helipad? 126 00:04:58,815 --> 00:05:00,196 - Oh, yeah. - Just Kwan or-- 127 00:05:00,196 --> 00:05:01,231 Adams, code phlegm. 128 00:05:01,231 --> 00:05:02,681 Bed five needs a Neti pot. 129 00:05:02,681 --> 00:05:04,234 Thank God you're here. 130 00:05:05,788 --> 00:05:07,997 Ma'am, please try to keep your mask on. 131 00:05:07,997 --> 00:05:09,826 Agh, help! 132 00:05:09,826 --> 00:05:11,241 I need a doctor. 133 00:05:11,241 --> 00:05:12,312 - Move. - I saw him first. 134 00:05:12,312 --> 00:05:13,727 - Nope. - No-- 135 00:05:13,727 --> 00:05:15,349 Hey, hey. 136 00:05:15,349 --> 00:05:18,179 Have you been injured? 137 00:05:18,179 --> 00:05:20,181 Okay, rodeo wreck-- rider in Oregon 138 00:05:20,181 --> 00:05:22,805 got bucked off and stomped on by a 1,000-pound bull. 139 00:05:22,805 --> 00:05:25,255 It's barbaric--bull riding. 140 00:05:25,255 --> 00:05:26,636 Nothing but testosterone addicts 141 00:05:26,636 --> 00:05:28,017 getting off on torturing animals 142 00:05:28,017 --> 00:05:29,398 because it makes them feel more like a man. 143 00:05:29,398 --> 00:05:31,400 Huh. Let's go. 144 00:05:31,400 --> 00:05:32,711 Kay, what do we got? 145 00:05:32,711 --> 00:05:34,748 Georgia Arkins, 16. Crush injuries 146 00:05:34,748 --> 00:05:36,370 from being trampled by a bull. 147 00:05:36,370 --> 00:05:39,097 GCS 15, CT scan shows a retrohepatic hematoma 148 00:05:39,097 --> 00:05:40,650 from an IVC tear, 149 00:05:40,650 --> 00:05:42,100 multiple lumbar burst fractures. 150 00:05:42,100 --> 00:05:43,515 Vital signs are stable. 151 00:05:43,515 --> 00:05:44,723 She's been given sedatives for transfer, 152 00:05:44,723 --> 00:05:46,104 so she's a little out of it. 153 00:05:46,104 --> 00:05:47,243 Local hospital didn't feel equipped to handle 154 00:05:47,243 --> 00:05:48,900 her complex injuries. - Thank you. 155 00:05:48,900 --> 00:05:50,419 Can I go again? 156 00:05:50,419 --> 00:05:52,179 The bull, can I go again? 157 00:05:52,179 --> 00:05:53,698 I only got to 5 seconds. 158 00:05:53,698 --> 00:05:55,009 So anything you want to add 159 00:05:55,009 --> 00:05:57,253 to your initial assessment, Kwan? 160 00:05:57,253 --> 00:05:58,288 Look up for me. 161 00:06:01,153 --> 00:06:02,500 He's exaggerating. 162 00:06:02,500 --> 00:06:03,846 Ever since the interview, she's received 163 00:06:03,846 --> 00:06:06,020 half a dozen amazing offers, 164 00:06:06,020 --> 00:06:09,092 including a position in bioartificial heart research. 165 00:06:09,092 --> 00:06:11,578 So we inject an extracellular matrix 166 00:06:11,578 --> 00:06:14,443 of a pig's heart, which serves as, like, scaffolding, 167 00:06:14,443 --> 00:06:17,066 with human stem cells, that it can grow 168 00:06:17,066 --> 00:06:18,619 cardiac muscle tissue. 169 00:06:18,619 --> 00:06:21,070 And then we electrically stimulate them to twitch, 170 00:06:21,070 --> 00:06:23,728 cell by cell, until they start to beat together, 171 00:06:23,728 --> 00:06:26,903 essentially as one beating heart. 172 00:06:26,903 --> 00:06:28,215 It's beautiful. 173 00:06:28,215 --> 00:06:29,458 Yeah, which means more hearts 174 00:06:29,458 --> 00:06:31,563 for people who need them. 175 00:06:31,563 --> 00:06:34,255 The research is at the Heart Center of Chicago. 176 00:06:34,255 --> 00:06:37,811 Oh. Well, that's a fantastic city. 177 00:06:37,811 --> 00:06:39,606 Yes, it is! 178 00:06:39,606 --> 00:06:42,436 It's the Art Institute and Steppenwolf, 179 00:06:42,436 --> 00:06:43,886 deep dish pizza. 180 00:06:43,886 --> 00:06:45,577 You can keep those winters, though, 181 00:06:45,577 --> 00:06:48,787 with the wind just ripping in off the lake like that. 182 00:06:48,787 --> 00:06:50,548 That's what parkas and mittens are for. 183 00:06:50,548 --> 00:06:52,722 And it's weak pizza, really. 184 00:06:52,722 --> 00:06:54,483 It's just quantity over quality. 185 00:06:54,483 --> 00:06:56,623 So are you considering it? 186 00:06:56,623 --> 00:06:58,314 Well, I might like to, but-- 187 00:06:58,314 --> 00:06:59,591 Look, I've already moved across the country 188 00:06:59,591 --> 00:07:01,110 for you once. 189 00:07:01,110 --> 00:07:02,767 And then, when I tried to change my specialty, 190 00:07:02,767 --> 00:07:05,632 also for you, you lost all respect for me. 191 00:07:05,632 --> 00:07:07,185 So-- 192 00:07:07,185 --> 00:07:08,497 Please don't put words into my mouth. 193 00:07:08,497 --> 00:07:10,084 Those are your words. 194 00:07:10,084 --> 00:07:11,776 You put those words in your own mouth. 195 00:07:17,609 --> 00:07:21,095 I have to go. 196 00:07:21,095 --> 00:07:23,926 - You have to go now? - Can we pick this up? 197 00:07:23,926 --> 00:07:26,169 God's sake, Maggie, I have waited weeks, 198 00:07:26,169 --> 00:07:28,206 weeks of just tiptoeing around, 199 00:07:28,206 --> 00:07:31,002 going along with this ceasefire that you proposed 200 00:07:31,002 --> 00:07:32,831 until we could get in here and try to fix this. 201 00:07:32,831 --> 00:07:35,696 And now you're on the hot seat, so you just want to walk out? 202 00:07:35,696 --> 00:07:39,148 You know, no, I'm not even that surprised by this. 203 00:07:39,148 --> 00:07:41,046 I'm on trauma call, Winston. 204 00:07:45,534 --> 00:07:47,156 Please excuse me. 205 00:08:07,072 --> 00:08:09,385 Hey, what are you doing here? 206 00:08:09,385 --> 00:08:10,524 The kids okay? 207 00:08:10,524 --> 00:08:13,147 Everyone's fine, except you. 208 00:08:13,147 --> 00:08:14,563 You're not fine. 209 00:08:14,563 --> 00:08:16,737 And you're also not sick. 210 00:08:16,737 --> 00:08:19,809 I am sick. What are you doing here? 211 00:08:19,809 --> 00:08:22,432 I took the kids to day care, and I took a personal day, 212 00:08:22,432 --> 00:08:26,195 because your body does this. 213 00:08:26,195 --> 00:08:27,921 My body does what? 214 00:08:27,921 --> 00:08:30,993 It aches so that you'll rest because it's learned 215 00:08:30,993 --> 00:08:32,546 that if it aches, you'll stay in bed, 216 00:08:32,546 --> 00:08:35,031 when nothing else works to keep you in bed. 217 00:08:35,031 --> 00:08:38,103 You need a day off, but you're not sick, 218 00:08:38,103 --> 00:08:42,245 which is why you get a latte 219 00:08:42,245 --> 00:08:45,455 and... 220 00:08:49,045 --> 00:08:54,361 The little doughnuts with the pink frosting. 221 00:08:56,087 --> 00:08:57,433 You took the day off? 222 00:08:57,433 --> 00:09:00,022 Yeah, I figured you could use the company. 223 00:09:00,022 --> 00:09:04,095 Plus, after I eat three boxes of these, I'm no good at work. 224 00:09:04,095 --> 00:09:05,924 You ate three boxes? 225 00:09:05,924 --> 00:09:07,719 No, but I'm about to. 226 00:09:10,411 --> 00:09:11,585 You might want to look away. 227 00:09:12,759 --> 00:09:13,794 I'm just gonna go. 228 00:09:13,794 --> 00:09:16,038 No. 229 00:09:16,038 --> 00:09:18,696 - Ow! - Any feeling of nausea? 230 00:09:18,696 --> 00:09:21,940 Ah, not really. 231 00:09:21,940 --> 00:09:24,425 Is there anything you can do about the pain? 232 00:09:24,425 --> 00:09:26,945 It feels like someone's dicing my intestines. 233 00:09:26,945 --> 00:09:28,740 We'll take care of that for you in a moment. 234 00:09:28,740 --> 00:09:30,397 But I need to finish this physical exam 235 00:09:30,397 --> 00:09:32,088 before we can-- - Look, I came here 236 00:09:32,088 --> 00:09:34,263 because Grey-Sloan's supposed to be the best. 237 00:09:34,263 --> 00:09:36,230 So please, you gotta help me. 238 00:09:36,230 --> 00:09:37,784 It could be a positive McBurney sign. 239 00:09:37,784 --> 00:09:39,164 Which could be caused by... 240 00:09:39,164 --> 00:09:40,510 - Appendicitis. - Diverticulitis. 241 00:09:42,754 --> 00:09:44,998 Yo! What the hell? 242 00:09:44,998 --> 00:09:45,964 I was seeing if the pain was exacerbated 243 00:09:45,964 --> 00:09:47,069 by jostling movements. 244 00:09:47,069 --> 00:09:48,588 Can we wait to play school 245 00:09:48,588 --> 00:09:50,244 until I'm not in agony? 246 00:09:50,244 --> 00:09:51,729 Let's get him comfortable. 247 00:09:51,729 --> 00:09:53,351 We'll send him up for the basic labs, 248 00:09:53,351 --> 00:09:55,664 and then let's take him up to CT for some scans. 249 00:10:03,154 --> 00:10:04,914 Did I hear correctly, a bull? 250 00:10:04,914 --> 00:10:07,192 T-bird. He's feisty. 251 00:10:07,192 --> 00:10:09,470 I just didn't get out over his front end in time. 252 00:10:09,470 --> 00:10:11,438 When T-bird trampled over Georgia, 253 00:10:11,438 --> 00:10:13,647 he crushed her liver and likely tore her IVC. 254 00:10:13,647 --> 00:10:16,305 There's a big hematoma in the retrohepatic space, 255 00:10:16,305 --> 00:10:19,342 which it looks contained for now, stable HNH. 256 00:10:19,342 --> 00:10:22,138 She's got unstable T10 through L3 burst fractures. 257 00:10:22,138 --> 00:10:23,657 Please don't tell my parents. 258 00:10:23,657 --> 00:10:25,107 They freak out whenever stuff like this happens. 259 00:10:25,107 --> 00:10:27,109 This has happened before? 260 00:10:27,109 --> 00:10:30,112 I had a huge cut on my back, a broken wrist, a broken leg. 261 00:10:30,112 --> 00:10:32,148 Oh, and I have this massive scar. 262 00:10:32,148 --> 00:10:34,288 - Whoa, whoa! - Push two of midazolam. 263 00:10:34,288 --> 00:10:37,050 Okay, this burst L3 fracture is too unstable. 264 00:10:37,050 --> 00:10:39,190 Without immediate surgery, we're talking about paralysis. 265 00:10:39,190 --> 00:10:41,571 Once Maggie goes in and repairs the IVC, 266 00:10:41,571 --> 00:10:43,056 I will stabilize the spine. 267 00:10:43,056 --> 00:10:44,678 I don't think I should go in. 268 00:10:44,678 --> 00:10:45,990 There's a massive hematoma. 269 00:10:45,990 --> 00:10:47,198 And it's sitting in a minefield. 270 00:10:47,198 --> 00:10:48,544 The hematoma is stable for now. 271 00:10:48,544 --> 00:10:50,339 But you should go in and repair the spine, 272 00:10:50,339 --> 00:10:52,065 and I will be there to monitor her. 273 00:10:52,065 --> 00:10:54,239 Just use a posterior approach to avoid rupturing it. 274 00:10:54,239 --> 00:10:55,862 What if it happens anyway? 275 00:10:55,862 --> 00:10:57,035 Then we'll flip her, 276 00:10:57,035 --> 00:10:58,519 and I will control the bleeding. 277 00:10:58,519 --> 00:11:00,004 No, I'm not sure I should go in. 278 00:11:00,004 --> 00:11:02,592 If you don't, she never walks again. 279 00:11:02,592 --> 00:11:04,077 Are Georgia's parents here? 280 00:11:06,458 --> 00:11:08,702 Look. All I need is antibiotics. 281 00:11:08,702 --> 00:11:10,670 It'll clear up in a few days or so. 282 00:11:10,670 --> 00:11:12,568 Maybe. 283 00:11:12,568 --> 00:11:15,088 But I am hearing some wheezing in the left lung. 284 00:11:15,088 --> 00:11:16,745 Okay. 285 00:11:16,745 --> 00:11:18,678 We should get a chest X-ray, make sure 286 00:11:18,678 --> 00:11:19,989 we're not looking at pneumonia. 287 00:11:19,989 --> 00:11:22,578 No. No chest X-ray. 288 00:11:22,578 --> 00:11:24,166 There's no discomfort involved. 289 00:11:24,166 --> 00:11:26,030 Until the bill comes. 290 00:11:28,722 --> 00:11:30,931 When my husband died, I was lucky enough 291 00:11:30,931 --> 00:11:33,002 to find work in a bookstore. 292 00:11:33,002 --> 00:11:34,694 It's lovely. 293 00:11:34,694 --> 00:11:38,525 The owner is kind, but low wages and no-- 294 00:11:38,525 --> 00:11:40,354 No benefits. 295 00:11:40,354 --> 00:11:42,253 Without the X-ray, I can't tell 296 00:11:42,253 --> 00:11:43,633 how serious this is, so-- 297 00:11:43,633 --> 00:11:46,740 I can hardly afford antibiotics. 298 00:11:46,740 --> 00:11:49,122 Anything else is out of the question. 299 00:11:49,122 --> 00:11:52,125 Look, I'll get you the antibiotics, 300 00:11:52,125 --> 00:11:54,748 but just stay here. 301 00:11:54,748 --> 00:11:56,094 Okay? I'll be right back. 302 00:11:56,094 --> 00:11:57,475 Dr. Sutton, Dr. Tracy, 303 00:11:57,475 --> 00:11:58,476 psych to recovery. 304 00:11:58,476 --> 00:12:01,375 Dr. Sutton to recovery. 305 00:12:01,375 --> 00:12:03,308 He didn't even tell me he was leaving. 306 00:12:03,308 --> 00:12:05,138 He insinuated that I wouldn't care 307 00:12:05,138 --> 00:12:07,278 because I only cared about the sex. 308 00:12:07,278 --> 00:12:08,935 I didn't use him for sex. 309 00:12:08,935 --> 00:12:12,559 He used me for sex, and then he left. 310 00:12:12,559 --> 00:12:13,905 I'm the victim here. 311 00:12:13,905 --> 00:12:15,389 You're the doctor. He's the nurse. 312 00:12:15,389 --> 00:12:17,081 You've got all the power. 313 00:12:17,081 --> 00:12:18,979 You clearly don't understand gay male culture. 314 00:12:18,979 --> 00:12:20,463 He's hotter. 315 00:12:20,463 --> 00:12:21,913 He has all the power. 316 00:12:21,913 --> 00:12:23,397 Doesn't sound like he felt that way. 317 00:12:23,397 --> 00:12:25,054 Why aren't you sad for me? 318 00:12:25,054 --> 00:12:27,954 I'm the nice guy who, once again, got left. 319 00:12:27,954 --> 00:12:29,818 Well, the interns who have come in here 320 00:12:29,818 --> 00:12:31,647 after working and being yelled at for 16 hours 321 00:12:31,647 --> 00:12:32,959 definitely don't feel like you're the nice guy. 322 00:12:32,959 --> 00:12:35,168 I don't yell! 323 00:12:35,168 --> 00:12:36,307 That wasn't yelling. 324 00:12:36,307 --> 00:12:37,791 That was loud talking. 325 00:12:37,791 --> 00:12:39,137 I'm nice. 326 00:12:44,522 --> 00:12:47,490 I love you. I mean it. 327 00:12:47,490 --> 00:12:50,493 If the hematoma ruptures while you're fixing the spine, 328 00:12:50,493 --> 00:12:51,667 she could die. 329 00:12:51,667 --> 00:12:53,151 But if it doesn't rupture, 330 00:12:53,151 --> 00:12:55,326 it could heal on its own? - That's right. 331 00:12:55,326 --> 00:12:59,295 The safest option is to just monitor Georgia in the ICU. 332 00:12:59,295 --> 00:13:01,953 She may not walk again, but she would be alive. 333 00:13:01,953 --> 00:13:04,645 Sounds like this thing could rupture any time. 334 00:13:04,645 --> 00:13:06,371 I mean, hell, it could be rupturing right now. 335 00:13:06,371 --> 00:13:07,821 Cody... She... 336 00:13:07,821 --> 00:13:10,824 He's not wrong. 337 00:13:19,039 --> 00:13:21,386 Do the spinal surgery. 338 00:13:21,386 --> 00:13:23,112 Sir, I wanna make sure that you understand-- 339 00:13:23,112 --> 00:13:24,700 We do. 340 00:13:24,700 --> 00:13:26,771 Save our daughter's ability to ride. 341 00:13:30,879 --> 00:13:33,364 No stranding, appendix looks normal. 342 00:13:33,364 --> 00:13:35,849 No evidence of colitis. 343 00:13:35,849 --> 00:13:39,197 That's an awfully quick assessment, Adams. 344 00:13:39,197 --> 00:13:42,545 You know, scans are like a piece of art, 345 00:13:42,545 --> 00:13:44,306 a still life, say. 346 00:13:44,306 --> 00:13:47,136 Maybe you first look at it and you shrug. 347 00:13:47,136 --> 00:13:49,207 Looks like a pear, or tulip. 348 00:13:49,207 --> 00:13:50,899 But you sit with it for a while, 349 00:13:50,899 --> 00:13:52,590 learn to open up your mind, 350 00:13:52,590 --> 00:13:55,524 and maybe it might guide your eye 351 00:13:55,524 --> 00:13:58,699 to something that the artist wants you to see. 352 00:13:58,699 --> 00:14:00,253 Hold up. 353 00:14:00,253 --> 00:14:01,910 It turns out Seth's been to five different Seattle ERs 354 00:14:01,910 --> 00:14:03,532 in the past three weeks, 355 00:14:03,532 --> 00:14:06,949 all discharged with a script for controlled pain meds. 356 00:14:08,917 --> 00:14:11,195 Seattle Pres, two nights, Pacific Gen, one, 357 00:14:11,195 --> 00:14:12,886 St. Anne's, two hours. - Okay. 358 00:14:12,886 --> 00:14:14,094 I get what you're implying. 359 00:14:14,094 --> 00:14:15,682 And according to their records, 360 00:14:15,682 --> 00:14:17,684 you have a history of drug use 361 00:14:17,684 --> 00:14:19,928 that you didn't bother to tell us about. 362 00:14:19,928 --> 00:14:21,791 We can't help you if you're not telling the truth. 363 00:14:21,791 --> 00:14:24,173 Oh, my God. I--I don't have-- 364 00:14:27,245 --> 00:14:29,385 Back in the day, I did Adderall to stay up. 365 00:14:29,385 --> 00:14:30,904 I'm a private equity analyst. 366 00:14:30,904 --> 00:14:32,216 All-nighters go with the territory 367 00:14:32,216 --> 00:14:33,355 when you're starting out. 368 00:14:33,355 --> 00:14:34,943 But I haven't done it in years. 369 00:14:34,943 --> 00:14:36,461 And I didn't tell you because I didn't want you 370 00:14:36,461 --> 00:14:37,877 to write me off like all those other hospitals. 371 00:14:37,877 --> 00:14:39,188 We're not writing you off. 372 00:14:39,188 --> 00:14:40,603 Addiction is a disease. 373 00:14:40,603 --> 00:14:42,019 It's a disease I don't have. 374 00:14:42,019 --> 00:14:44,021 And your scans are clean. 375 00:14:44,021 --> 00:14:45,229 And I got on the phone with colleagues 376 00:14:45,229 --> 00:14:46,540 of those other hospitals, 377 00:14:46,540 --> 00:14:48,715 who also found nothing on your scans. 378 00:14:48,715 --> 00:14:50,441 Maybe they didn't sit long enough with the scans. 379 00:14:50,441 --> 00:14:52,236 These aren't interns, Adams. 380 00:14:52,236 --> 00:14:53,306 These are world-class surgeons 381 00:14:53,306 --> 00:14:54,928 with decades of experience. 382 00:14:54,928 --> 00:14:56,274 So you're just gonna kick me out on the street 383 00:14:56,274 --> 00:14:57,655 like everyone else? 384 00:14:57,655 --> 00:14:59,105 No, we are gonna exercise our due diligence 385 00:14:59,105 --> 00:15:00,623 and take extra tests, 386 00:15:00,623 --> 00:15:02,591 and if they show nothing, then we will discharge you 387 00:15:02,591 --> 00:15:04,765 with a referral to an addiction specialist. 388 00:15:04,765 --> 00:15:08,321 I should never have admitted I ever used drugs. 389 00:15:08,321 --> 00:15:10,875 You screw up once, you're a screw-up forever. 390 00:15:23,612 --> 00:15:28,341 She's about prepped and ready. 391 00:15:28,341 --> 00:15:31,068 Why didn't you tell me about all the job offers? 392 00:15:31,068 --> 00:15:32,966 Offers come in every time I publish. 393 00:15:32,966 --> 00:15:35,106 Happens to everyone. - Not like this. 394 00:15:35,106 --> 00:15:37,971 Look, it doesn't matter where you are, right? 395 00:15:37,971 --> 00:15:40,249 I mean, it matters what you're doing. 396 00:15:40,249 --> 00:15:41,630 If you just ask Teddy or Richard 397 00:15:41,630 --> 00:15:43,183 for whatever you need research-wise, 398 00:15:43,183 --> 00:15:44,667 they will get it for you. 399 00:15:44,667 --> 00:15:47,084 You don't have to move to do your next big thing. 400 00:15:47,084 --> 00:15:48,464 Meredith and I managed to pull off 401 00:15:48,464 --> 00:15:51,502 the Parkinson's procedure right down the hall. 402 00:15:51,502 --> 00:15:53,987 She's ready. 403 00:15:53,987 --> 00:15:55,230 All right. 404 00:15:59,234 --> 00:16:00,994 So when you all told me about those 8:30 405 00:16:00,994 --> 00:16:03,169 surgical study sessions, what time were they really? 406 00:16:08,519 --> 00:16:09,623 What do you think 407 00:16:09,623 --> 00:16:11,108 about Chilaiditi syndrome for Seth? 408 00:16:11,108 --> 00:16:12,661 Thinking it's usually associated 409 00:16:12,661 --> 00:16:14,214 with ascitic and cirrhotic patients. 410 00:16:14,214 --> 00:16:15,871 Also, we would have seen it in the scans. 411 00:16:15,871 --> 00:16:17,804 And we have our answer. 412 00:16:17,804 --> 00:16:19,012 All those tests came back clean, except his urinalysis, 413 00:16:19,012 --> 00:16:20,393 which is positive for opiates. 414 00:16:20,393 --> 00:16:22,326 Because all those other hospitals gave him meds. 415 00:16:22,326 --> 00:16:23,396 Webber said to discharge him. 416 00:16:23,396 --> 00:16:25,536 I'm gonna discharge him. 417 00:16:25,536 --> 00:16:28,573 Tessa Hobbes. 418 00:16:28,573 --> 00:16:31,680 Why would you bring up Tessa? You know that still hurts. 419 00:16:31,680 --> 00:16:33,130 Because my gut told me that we should have taken her 420 00:16:33,130 --> 00:16:34,545 straight to the OR. 421 00:16:34,545 --> 00:16:36,719 You heard me say it, but I didn't fight for it. 422 00:16:36,719 --> 00:16:38,687 And now my gut's saying that Seth's telling the truth. 423 00:16:38,687 --> 00:16:40,344 Nothing I've seen makes me think Webber's wrong. 424 00:16:40,344 --> 00:16:41,517 Yeah, but do you think there might be 425 00:16:41,517 --> 00:16:43,174 a chance that I'm right? 426 00:16:43,174 --> 00:16:44,589 I mean, I've always had your back. 427 00:16:44,589 --> 00:16:46,350 Could you at least have mine? 428 00:16:51,700 --> 00:16:52,839 I'm already on my second residency. 429 00:16:52,839 --> 00:16:57,016 He's not gonna fire us. 430 00:16:57,016 --> 00:16:58,672 Have suction ready. 431 00:16:58,672 --> 00:17:00,088 Blood pressure's steady. 432 00:17:01,951 --> 00:17:04,885 Chief, I have a wheezing 60-year-old patient in the ER, 433 00:17:04,885 --> 00:17:06,542 possible pneumonia. 434 00:17:06,542 --> 00:17:08,613 She needs a chest X-ray and a nebulizer treatment, 435 00:17:08,613 --> 00:17:10,926 but can't afford it. Can we do it pro bono? 436 00:17:10,926 --> 00:17:12,928 You'll have to fill out the forms with accounting. 437 00:17:12,928 --> 00:17:14,274 They're gonna want to confirm her income 438 00:17:14,274 --> 00:17:15,275 and make sure that she qualifies. 439 00:17:15,275 --> 00:17:16,518 It may take a day or so. 440 00:17:16,518 --> 00:17:18,175 But she needs to be treated now. 441 00:17:18,175 --> 00:17:19,969 If we break the rules for one patient, 442 00:17:19,969 --> 00:17:21,419 it's not fair for the others. 443 00:17:24,043 --> 00:17:26,459 I was eating doughnuts from the trash 444 00:17:26,459 --> 00:17:28,702 because I need to gain weight in order to be eligible 445 00:17:28,702 --> 00:17:30,221 to donate my plasma because I am broke. 446 00:17:30,221 --> 00:17:32,085 So is my patient. 447 00:17:32,085 --> 00:17:33,259 I don't need your help, 448 00:17:33,259 --> 00:17:34,777 and I am not looking for handouts. 449 00:17:34,777 --> 00:17:36,227 I just want to take care of my patient. 450 00:17:36,227 --> 00:17:37,884 I'm sorry. 451 00:17:37,884 --> 00:17:41,405 You have to go through the proper channels. 452 00:17:41,405 --> 00:17:45,719 Yasuda, I have protein bars in my office. 453 00:17:45,719 --> 00:17:47,963 You're welcome to them any time. 454 00:17:47,963 --> 00:17:49,413 Removing the lamina. 455 00:17:49,413 --> 00:17:51,553 Can't stop thinking about that father. 456 00:17:51,553 --> 00:17:54,314 I'm reconstructing a spine just to have her go back out there 457 00:17:54,314 --> 00:17:55,798 and wreck it all over again. 458 00:17:55,798 --> 00:17:57,110 Yeah, lots of parents 459 00:17:57,110 --> 00:17:58,663 live out their fantasies through their kids. 460 00:17:58,663 --> 00:18:00,803 So her last shock panel showed a hemoglobin of 11. 461 00:18:00,803 --> 00:18:02,426 So the bleed is stable. 462 00:18:02,426 --> 00:18:04,945 Just be careful with your instrumentation. 463 00:18:04,945 --> 00:18:06,982 I'm not sure you hovering is gonna make things 464 00:18:06,982 --> 00:18:08,673 go more smoothly. 465 00:18:08,673 --> 00:18:10,606 How many times have we fixed up a pro football player 466 00:18:10,606 --> 00:18:12,160 just so he can go back out in the field in the hopes 467 00:18:12,160 --> 00:18:13,506 of making the playoffs? 468 00:18:13,506 --> 00:18:15,232 Don't get me started on football. 469 00:18:15,232 --> 00:18:16,819 Except rodeo is the only gig 470 00:18:16,819 --> 00:18:18,511 with a poor animal out there against their will. 471 00:18:18,511 --> 00:18:20,029 It's cruel. - Can we keep 472 00:18:20,029 --> 00:18:21,859 all nonessential chatter to a minimum? 473 00:18:21,859 --> 00:18:23,964 Georgia has a giant bleed hanging over her 474 00:18:23,964 --> 00:18:26,139 that could burst in any second. 475 00:18:26,139 --> 00:18:27,175 Pedicle screw, please. 476 00:18:31,489 --> 00:18:33,629 I think it's a connection. I think-- 477 00:18:33,629 --> 00:18:36,287 Adams, Griffith! 478 00:18:36,287 --> 00:18:37,840 Is everything okay, Dr. Schmidt? 479 00:18:37,840 --> 00:18:40,464 Just checking in on how you two are doing. 480 00:18:40,464 --> 00:18:43,122 How's life? 481 00:18:43,122 --> 00:18:44,675 What's up? 482 00:18:44,675 --> 00:18:45,779 I don't understand. 483 00:18:45,779 --> 00:18:48,541 What are you working on? 484 00:18:48,541 --> 00:18:50,957 Okay, we--we know Webber said to discharge him. 485 00:18:50,957 --> 00:18:53,615 But we really think 486 00:18:53,615 --> 00:18:56,031 that there's something more to this patient. 487 00:18:56,031 --> 00:18:57,619 And if we could just have a little more time 488 00:18:57,619 --> 00:18:58,792 to study his case, we can figure it out. 489 00:18:58,792 --> 00:18:59,897 Okay. No. 490 00:18:59,897 --> 00:19:01,070 You're interns. 491 00:19:01,070 --> 00:19:03,003 It doesn't matter what you think. 492 00:19:03,003 --> 00:19:05,558 If you can't be trusted to follow instructions, 493 00:19:05,558 --> 00:19:07,491 then you can't be trusted in the OR. 494 00:19:07,491 --> 00:19:10,149 Discharge the patient. 495 00:19:10,149 --> 00:19:11,978 And never question Dr. Webber ever again. 496 00:19:26,613 --> 00:19:30,307 I should probably go to work and check on Tia. 497 00:19:30,307 --> 00:19:32,688 Tia and her baby are both okay. 498 00:19:32,688 --> 00:19:35,553 I've checked. 499 00:19:35,553 --> 00:19:37,555 A car drove into human beings 500 00:19:37,555 --> 00:19:39,212 and tried to kill you and your friends. 501 00:19:39,212 --> 00:19:40,420 You've earned a day off. 502 00:19:43,527 --> 00:19:47,496 Why is it so hard for me to rest? 503 00:19:47,496 --> 00:19:51,742 How am I supposed to know that? 504 00:19:51,742 --> 00:19:54,331 Because you knew that I wasn't sick 505 00:19:54,331 --> 00:19:55,918 before I even knew that I wasn't sick. 506 00:19:55,918 --> 00:19:57,334 I've known you a long time. 507 00:19:57,334 --> 00:19:58,921 You notice things about somebody 508 00:19:58,921 --> 00:20:01,130 when you've known them a long time. 509 00:20:01,130 --> 00:20:03,443 You knew what my favorite doughnuts were. 510 00:20:03,443 --> 00:20:04,893 Same answer. 511 00:20:04,893 --> 00:20:07,344 So why is it so hard for me to rest? 512 00:20:07,344 --> 00:20:08,862 You don't have a theory? 513 00:20:08,862 --> 00:20:11,934 I could tell you why I think 514 00:20:11,934 --> 00:20:13,246 it's hard for me to rest. 515 00:20:13,246 --> 00:20:14,937 Would that help? 516 00:20:14,937 --> 00:20:18,044 Yes, please. 517 00:20:18,044 --> 00:20:22,600 Well, I was a pretty happy go-lucky kid. 518 00:20:22,600 --> 00:20:25,707 I got cancer, and my parents started to fight all the time. 519 00:20:25,707 --> 00:20:31,471 And I was sick, stuck in bed, listening to my parents fight 520 00:20:31,471 --> 00:20:33,059 through the walls. 521 00:20:33,059 --> 00:20:36,027 So I think I associate rest with misery. 522 00:20:38,754 --> 00:20:41,067 I don't think that's it. 523 00:20:41,067 --> 00:20:42,379 Okay. 524 00:20:42,379 --> 00:20:44,104 You know me better than I know me. 525 00:20:44,104 --> 00:20:45,451 I've known you a long time, 526 00:20:45,451 --> 00:20:46,797 and when you've known someone a long time, 527 00:20:46,797 --> 00:20:47,798 you notice things. 528 00:20:50,352 --> 00:20:52,423 So what do you think it is? 529 00:20:52,423 --> 00:20:56,565 I think you only have trouble resting 530 00:20:56,565 --> 00:20:59,465 when you're not taking care of somebody else. 531 00:20:59,465 --> 00:21:02,640 You'll lay around all day with a baby on your chest 532 00:21:02,640 --> 00:21:05,298 if that baby needs you. 533 00:21:05,298 --> 00:21:10,752 You lay in bed with me with doughnuts if I need you. 534 00:21:10,752 --> 00:21:12,754 And when you got cancer 535 00:21:12,754 --> 00:21:15,619 and your parents started fighting, 536 00:21:15,619 --> 00:21:17,345 you started to take care of them 537 00:21:17,345 --> 00:21:19,933 so they wouldn't split up. 538 00:21:19,933 --> 00:21:21,763 You learned to take emotional care 539 00:21:21,763 --> 00:21:23,937 of the people who are supposed to be taking care of you. 540 00:21:23,937 --> 00:21:25,801 And that's why it's hard for you to rest 541 00:21:25,801 --> 00:21:28,114 when you're by yourself. 542 00:21:28,114 --> 00:21:29,978 You don't feel safe when you're not 543 00:21:29,978 --> 00:21:33,119 taking care of somebody else. 544 00:21:33,119 --> 00:21:34,879 That makes you anxious. 545 00:21:44,682 --> 00:21:49,825 And I think you can't rest 546 00:21:49,825 --> 00:21:53,622 because you never had anyone to take care of you. 547 00:21:53,622 --> 00:21:56,211 So you stayed busy all the time 548 00:21:56,211 --> 00:21:58,386 taking care of yourself. 549 00:21:58,386 --> 00:22:00,077 And when you're still, you feel that pain. 550 00:22:08,396 --> 00:22:10,363 I need a nap. 551 00:22:10,363 --> 00:22:12,986 Want me to go? 552 00:22:12,986 --> 00:22:14,885 No. 553 00:22:21,754 --> 00:22:23,687 That feels nice. 554 00:22:33,869 --> 00:22:39,496 Harborview Med, last Tuesday, 2311, nothing. 555 00:22:39,496 --> 00:22:41,532 If Webber or Schmidt finds us, we're fired. 556 00:22:41,532 --> 00:22:42,947 Yeah, well-- 557 00:22:45,709 --> 00:22:48,850 You'd think that'd be annoying. 558 00:22:48,850 --> 00:22:52,371 It clears my mind, helps me unwind. 559 00:22:52,371 --> 00:22:53,579 You have anything like that? 560 00:22:53,579 --> 00:22:54,545 Ice skating. 561 00:22:57,065 --> 00:22:58,618 What? 562 00:22:58,618 --> 00:23:00,448 I just-- I wasn't expecting that. 563 00:23:00,448 --> 00:23:04,555 Well, you don't know everything about me. 564 00:23:04,555 --> 00:23:05,763 True. 565 00:23:05,763 --> 00:23:07,247 I never pictured you as the type 566 00:23:07,247 --> 00:23:10,527 to have a big fancy wedding or matching dresses. 567 00:23:10,527 --> 00:23:12,805 I don't want either. 568 00:23:12,805 --> 00:23:17,913 I want the marriage, but not the pomp and circumstance. 569 00:23:17,913 --> 00:23:21,434 Not even a little pomp, like meat on a stick 570 00:23:21,434 --> 00:23:24,230 or chucking a bouquet at your girls, group pics? 571 00:23:24,230 --> 00:23:29,338 I truly hate you. 572 00:23:29,338 --> 00:23:30,823 I think it's sweet that Trey wants 573 00:23:30,823 --> 00:23:32,549 to create a moment in our lives 574 00:23:32,549 --> 00:23:34,067 that we're gonna remember forever. 575 00:23:34,067 --> 00:23:35,586 But he's a romantic. 576 00:23:35,586 --> 00:23:37,450 Even when we're just out getting pizza, 577 00:23:37,450 --> 00:23:38,727 he's like, "I wish I could freeze this moment forever." 578 00:23:38,727 --> 00:23:39,970 Oh, wait. Wait. Wait. 579 00:23:39,970 --> 00:23:42,110 That's it. 580 00:23:42,110 --> 00:23:43,767 Moments--that's... 581 00:23:43,767 --> 00:23:45,251 Okay. 582 00:23:45,251 --> 00:23:46,666 These scans-- they're not works of art. 583 00:23:46,666 --> 00:23:48,254 They're--they're moments. 584 00:23:48,254 --> 00:23:51,360 They're frozen moments in time. 585 00:23:54,398 --> 00:23:56,504 Oh, good. Glad we cleared that up. 586 00:23:56,504 --> 00:23:58,471 Okay, look. Here we go. 587 00:23:58,471 --> 00:23:59,817 There and there... 588 00:24:03,062 --> 00:24:05,789 Do you know where they came up with the eight seconds 589 00:24:05,789 --> 00:24:08,516 as the time the rider has to stay on the bull? 590 00:24:08,516 --> 00:24:10,449 It's because the bull starts to lose its strength 591 00:24:10,449 --> 00:24:12,589 to fight back and they stop bucking. 592 00:24:12,589 --> 00:24:15,350 The official line is that it's for the safety of the animals, 593 00:24:15,350 --> 00:24:17,386 but it's really because they become so weakened 594 00:24:17,386 --> 00:24:19,043 that we stop being entertained. 595 00:24:20,700 --> 00:24:22,184 BP's dropping. 596 00:24:22,184 --> 00:24:23,531 Pierce, is that what I think it is? 597 00:24:23,531 --> 00:24:24,946 She's bleeding out. 598 00:24:24,946 --> 00:24:26,499 The hematoma ruptured. Stop the fusion. 599 00:24:26,499 --> 00:24:27,776 We need to flip her. - Her spine is exposed. 600 00:24:27,776 --> 00:24:29,226 It doesn't matter. 601 00:24:29,226 --> 00:24:30,399 Pack it and throw some ioban on it. 602 00:24:30,399 --> 00:24:31,642 Hang 2 units of blood. 603 00:24:31,642 --> 00:24:33,472 Prep for an x-flap and a sternotomy. 604 00:24:33,472 --> 00:24:35,059 Every second counts here, people. 605 00:24:35,059 --> 00:24:36,336 Until we get this bleed stopped, 606 00:24:36,336 --> 00:24:37,372 this is my OR. 607 00:24:58,738 --> 00:25:00,257 Okay. This is it. 608 00:25:00,257 --> 00:25:02,052 When we get in there, Kwan, you're gonna alternate 609 00:25:02,052 --> 00:25:04,537 cardiac massage with Millin. 610 00:25:04,537 --> 00:25:06,815 Scalpel. 611 00:25:06,815 --> 00:25:10,819 Okay, Georgia, here we go. 612 00:25:10,819 --> 00:25:12,407 Scalpel. 613 00:25:12,407 --> 00:25:16,549 ♪ I've been looking for a sign ♪ 614 00:25:16,549 --> 00:25:19,863 ♪ Now I see a shining light 615 00:25:19,863 --> 00:25:22,521 Get the saw ready. 616 00:25:22,521 --> 00:25:25,454 Starting pressors. 617 00:25:25,454 --> 00:25:27,560 ♪ Set me free 618 00:25:40,711 --> 00:25:42,782 Send a TEG. 619 00:25:49,099 --> 00:25:51,101 She's becoming more acidotic. 620 00:25:51,101 --> 00:25:52,585 We can't lose her. 621 00:25:52,585 --> 00:25:54,138 I need more suction. 622 00:25:54,138 --> 00:25:56,382 Still no pulse. 623 00:25:56,382 --> 00:25:59,765 ♪ Head under water and I can't breathe ♪ 624 00:26:04,252 --> 00:26:09,464 ♪ Pull me up 'cause I'm too deep ♪ 625 00:26:09,464 --> 00:26:13,433 ♪ I've been looking for a sign ♪ 626 00:26:13,433 --> 00:26:16,333 ♪ Now I see a shining light 627 00:26:16,333 --> 00:26:18,922 ♪ Oh won't somebody come and set me free ♪ 628 00:26:18,922 --> 00:26:20,820 Okay, I've got the infrahepatic IVC 629 00:26:20,820 --> 00:26:22,960 and Pringle. Lap pads. 630 00:26:22,960 --> 00:26:25,584 I've got the cava and the pericardium. 631 00:26:25,584 --> 00:26:26,826 Millin, switch with Kwan. 632 00:26:26,826 --> 00:26:28,517 We've maxed out on her pressors. 633 00:26:28,517 --> 00:26:30,174 - Pickups? - Still no pulse. 634 00:26:30,174 --> 00:26:31,728 I feel the heart. I'm there. 635 00:26:31,728 --> 00:26:34,282 I see the hepatic vein injury. 636 00:26:42,497 --> 00:26:46,121 Ligating, push epi. 637 00:26:46,121 --> 00:26:48,365 Packing the retrohepatic space. 638 00:26:48,365 --> 00:26:50,850 Come on, Georgia. 639 00:26:50,850 --> 00:26:53,473 ♪ Set me free 640 00:26:53,473 --> 00:26:55,993 The nurse brought the antibiotics 641 00:26:55,993 --> 00:26:58,133 and the inhaler. I'm off to my shift. 642 00:26:58,133 --> 00:26:59,445 Please don't go before getting an X-ray 643 00:26:59,445 --> 00:27:00,688 and the nebulizer treatment. 644 00:27:00,688 --> 00:27:01,930 We could do it pro bono, 645 00:27:01,930 --> 00:27:03,656 but we just need to fill these forms out. 646 00:27:03,656 --> 00:27:05,140 If I miss work, I don't get paid. 647 00:27:05,140 --> 00:27:06,659 And if I don't get paid-- 648 00:27:06,659 --> 00:27:08,005 You can't pay your bills. I get it. 649 00:27:08,005 --> 00:27:09,110 - No-- - But-- 650 00:27:09,110 --> 00:27:11,112 No, you don't. 651 00:27:11,112 --> 00:27:13,666 You're a doctor with a cushy salary. 652 00:27:13,666 --> 00:27:16,358 Well, I am a surgical intern. 653 00:27:16,358 --> 00:27:19,051 My salary is government funded, and it is not enough 654 00:27:19,051 --> 00:27:20,673 to keep me from drowning in loans. 655 00:27:20,673 --> 00:27:21,985 Between undergrad and med school, 656 00:27:21,985 --> 00:27:23,676 I owe more than two grand a month. 657 00:27:23,676 --> 00:27:25,471 That doesn't even account for what I send to my parents 658 00:27:25,471 --> 00:27:26,817 to help them with their mortgage payment 659 00:27:26,817 --> 00:27:28,647 because they co-signed all of my loans. 660 00:27:28,647 --> 00:27:31,408 I literally sell my blood in order to get by. 661 00:27:31,408 --> 00:27:32,720 And if I thought that I had pneumonia that could lead 662 00:27:32,720 --> 00:27:34,376 to sepsis and respiratory failure 663 00:27:34,376 --> 00:27:36,378 that could prove fatal if left untreated, 664 00:27:36,378 --> 00:27:37,586 or, at the very least, 665 00:27:37,586 --> 00:27:39,002 keep me out of work for eight weeks, 666 00:27:39,002 --> 00:27:42,419 I would get the X-ray and the treatment. 667 00:27:42,419 --> 00:27:44,490 And when the bill came, I would pay the bare minimum. 668 00:27:44,490 --> 00:27:45,974 And if it went to the collection agencies, 669 00:27:45,974 --> 00:27:48,252 I would pay them the bare minimum too. 670 00:27:48,252 --> 00:27:51,152 And it might be a huge, long, pain in the ass, 671 00:27:51,152 --> 00:27:52,636 but I would be alive. 672 00:27:57,848 --> 00:28:00,023 Where do I go for the chest X-ray? 673 00:28:06,961 --> 00:28:11,241 Pick it up, guys, a little faster. 674 00:28:11,241 --> 00:28:14,071 You know what they called me when I was chief resident? 675 00:28:14,071 --> 00:28:15,383 The Nazi. 676 00:28:15,383 --> 00:28:16,867 That is wildly inappropriate... 677 00:28:16,867 --> 00:28:19,698 - Yes. - On so many levels. 678 00:28:19,698 --> 00:28:22,252 I mean, I wasn't a tough child, 679 00:28:22,252 --> 00:28:23,598 not in the obvious ways. 680 00:28:23,598 --> 00:28:26,463 I was sensitive all through high school 681 00:28:26,463 --> 00:28:28,637 and undergrad and med school. 682 00:28:28,637 --> 00:28:31,848 So as a resident, even more so as chief resident, 683 00:28:31,848 --> 00:28:34,954 I thought I had to overcompensate. 684 00:28:34,954 --> 00:28:37,888 And for a while, I became someone 685 00:28:37,888 --> 00:28:42,065 people didn't like very much. 686 00:28:42,065 --> 00:28:43,929 And what did you do? 687 00:28:43,929 --> 00:28:47,726 Well, I realized that my idea of myself 688 00:28:47,726 --> 00:28:51,799 had come out of sync with who I had become. 689 00:28:51,799 --> 00:28:54,491 Schmidt, you are chief resident now. 690 00:28:54,491 --> 00:28:56,217 You are no longer an underdog. 691 00:28:56,217 --> 00:28:58,875 It's time for you to stop seeing yourself that way. 692 00:28:58,875 --> 00:29:00,497 You're saying I shouldn't demand 693 00:29:00,497 --> 00:29:02,085 excellence from the interns? 694 00:29:02,085 --> 00:29:04,294 I'm saying there's many ways to do that. 695 00:29:04,294 --> 00:29:06,261 And the one that will work best for you 696 00:29:06,261 --> 00:29:09,057 is likely the one that lets you be you. 697 00:29:09,057 --> 00:29:12,751 I mean, you said you want us to be the vagina of the program 698 00:29:12,751 --> 00:29:15,098 because vaginas are so strong. 699 00:29:15,098 --> 00:29:18,411 Well, vaginas also bring pleasure. 700 00:29:18,411 --> 00:29:21,621 They bring joy, bring life. 701 00:29:21,621 --> 00:29:25,625 You got to be the whole vagina, Schmidt, not just the muscle. 702 00:29:31,183 --> 00:29:33,254 It's like we were staring at a single cell of film 703 00:29:33,254 --> 00:29:34,600 and trying to watch a movie. 704 00:29:34,600 --> 00:29:36,119 We have to look at all the scans 705 00:29:36,119 --> 00:29:38,777 in order to see if they tell a story. 706 00:29:38,777 --> 00:29:42,366 Okay, look-- look here, four to five. 707 00:29:42,366 --> 00:29:44,610 There's a slight thickening in the cecal wall here. 708 00:29:44,610 --> 00:29:47,509 Yeah? And then six and seven-- 709 00:29:47,509 --> 00:29:49,511 No more thickening, but mild fat stranding. 710 00:29:49,511 --> 00:29:51,134 Yeah. 711 00:29:51,134 --> 00:29:55,517 And then eight, nine, ten, the pattern reappears. 712 00:29:55,517 --> 00:29:57,209 The flare-ups come and go, 713 00:29:57,209 --> 00:29:59,832 but the CT scans only capture one moment in time. 714 00:29:59,832 --> 00:30:01,938 Now our little film tells a different story. 715 00:30:01,938 --> 00:30:03,318 I mean, there's gotta be something in there, 716 00:30:03,318 --> 00:30:05,493 a foreign object causing these reactions. 717 00:30:05,493 --> 00:30:08,392 Like a fish bone, maybe, or a piece of cartilage 718 00:30:08,392 --> 00:30:09,842 that wasn't digested properly? 719 00:30:09,842 --> 00:30:11,464 You want to tell me why the patient 720 00:30:11,464 --> 00:30:15,192 I told you to discharge hours ago is still stuck in my ER? 721 00:30:18,437 --> 00:30:21,405 So she's gonna be okay? 722 00:30:21,405 --> 00:30:22,890 Uh, yeah. 723 00:30:22,890 --> 00:30:25,858 Georgia did well under the circumstances, 724 00:30:25,858 --> 00:30:28,343 against all odds. 725 00:30:28,343 --> 00:30:29,517 But we would like to speak with you 726 00:30:29,517 --> 00:30:31,139 about the bull riding. 727 00:30:31,139 --> 00:30:34,039 I should wait for my husband. 728 00:30:34,039 --> 00:30:37,042 We would like to have a minute with just you. 729 00:30:37,042 --> 00:30:38,181 Oh. 730 00:30:41,909 --> 00:30:46,154 Georgia's father, her grandfather, her uncles-- 731 00:30:46,154 --> 00:30:48,432 they are all champion riders. 732 00:30:48,432 --> 00:30:51,780 But Cody never wanted Georgia to go near a bull. 733 00:30:51,780 --> 00:30:55,543 Every Christmas, he would give her 734 00:30:55,543 --> 00:31:00,065 a dollhouse, ballet slippers, a soccer ball. 735 00:31:00,065 --> 00:31:01,445 She wouldn't touch them. 736 00:31:01,445 --> 00:31:05,104 She wanted boots, spurs, a saddle. 737 00:31:05,104 --> 00:31:07,072 Cody thought when she took her first spill, 738 00:31:07,072 --> 00:31:10,109 she'd lose interest, but... 739 00:31:10,109 --> 00:31:12,422 but when she got laid up with a crushed trachea, 740 00:31:12,422 --> 00:31:14,734 we said no more. 741 00:31:14,734 --> 00:31:16,875 Guess what? She wouldn't eat, 742 00:31:16,875 --> 00:31:19,912 wouldn't speak, couldn't sleep. 743 00:31:19,912 --> 00:31:24,572 The light in her eyes was just gone. 744 00:31:24,572 --> 00:31:27,782 To keep doing this will very likely kill her. 745 00:31:27,782 --> 00:31:29,611 You think I don't worry about that 746 00:31:29,611 --> 00:31:32,235 every single day of my life? 747 00:31:32,235 --> 00:31:35,307 But to take her dream away from her-- 748 00:31:35,307 --> 00:31:37,896 that would for sure kill her. 749 00:31:37,896 --> 00:31:39,069 Excuse me. 750 00:31:39,069 --> 00:31:40,174 I'm gonna go find my husband. 751 00:31:44,592 --> 00:31:45,834 Nothing is harder than parenting, 752 00:31:45,834 --> 00:31:48,147 but you have to be the parent. 753 00:31:48,147 --> 00:31:50,046 Would it have worked on you 754 00:31:50,046 --> 00:31:51,944 when you were a teenager doing hard drugs, 755 00:31:51,944 --> 00:31:54,291 risking your life? 756 00:31:54,291 --> 00:31:56,052 Was your mom able to stop you? 757 00:31:56,052 --> 00:31:57,570 I was using drugs to mask 758 00:31:57,570 --> 00:32:00,677 some very real pain in my life. 759 00:32:00,677 --> 00:32:02,472 Maybe it's the same for Georgia. 760 00:32:02,472 --> 00:32:04,508 Maybe she's masking the pain of having found 761 00:32:04,508 --> 00:32:06,303 her one true passion 762 00:32:06,303 --> 00:32:07,995 and hearing everyone around her 763 00:32:07,995 --> 00:32:12,068 tell her that she is selfish for chasing it. 764 00:32:13,517 --> 00:32:15,002 Oh, no, no, no, no. Georgia, no. 765 00:32:15,002 --> 00:32:16,348 She's pulling the tube out. 766 00:32:16,348 --> 00:32:18,937 Increase her O2 and draw an ABG. 767 00:32:18,937 --> 00:32:20,352 Hey. 768 00:32:20,352 --> 00:32:21,870 Georgia, you're okay. Just take a breath. 769 00:32:27,497 --> 00:32:28,705 Georgia, calm down. I need you to put this mask on. 770 00:32:28,705 --> 00:32:30,155 Your body needs additional oxygen. 771 00:32:30,155 --> 00:32:31,984 I've had kids self-extubate before. 772 00:32:31,984 --> 00:32:34,021 Instinct and adrenaline kick in. 773 00:32:34,021 --> 00:32:35,815 How long-- how long will it take? 774 00:32:35,815 --> 00:32:39,302 You will be up and walking in four to six weeks. 775 00:32:39,302 --> 00:32:40,889 Ride. 776 00:32:40,889 --> 00:32:43,133 Georgia, going back to rodeo would be a mistake. 777 00:32:43,133 --> 00:32:45,135 Most people do not survive the surgery 778 00:32:45,135 --> 00:32:46,205 that Dr. Pierce just did. 779 00:32:46,205 --> 00:32:47,827 I'm not most people! 780 00:32:47,827 --> 00:32:50,865 Would you be saying the same thing if I was a guy? 781 00:32:50,865 --> 00:32:52,694 Georgia, I'm not like most people either. 782 00:32:52,694 --> 00:32:55,111 I was really good at something when I was your age too. 783 00:32:55,111 --> 00:32:57,009 I skipped grades, I won prizes, 784 00:32:57,009 --> 00:32:58,114 and everybody thought it was my parents 785 00:32:58,114 --> 00:32:59,218 that were pushing me, but it was me. 786 00:32:59,218 --> 00:33:00,288 It was all me. 787 00:33:00,288 --> 00:33:01,980 So I get your focus. 788 00:33:01,980 --> 00:33:03,705 I get your passion. 789 00:33:03,705 --> 00:33:04,810 And I certainly get what it's like to be 790 00:33:04,810 --> 00:33:06,294 a girl in an all-guys' world. 791 00:33:06,294 --> 00:33:08,296 Maybe you'll ride again someday. 792 00:33:08,296 --> 00:33:10,574 But a few hours ago, you were almost dead and paralyzed. 793 00:33:10,574 --> 00:33:13,198 Stop fighting us and let us save the possibility 794 00:33:13,198 --> 00:33:15,338 of your future. 795 00:33:19,445 --> 00:33:20,860 There's the ileocecal valve. 796 00:33:20,860 --> 00:33:22,828 I hope we didn't just put a tube 797 00:33:22,828 --> 00:33:24,864 into a patient for no reason. 798 00:33:24,864 --> 00:33:27,039 Whoa, whoa, what's that in the distal ileum? 799 00:33:27,039 --> 00:33:30,767 Move the camera down and left. 800 00:33:30,767 --> 00:33:33,183 - There! - Is that a-- 801 00:33:33,183 --> 00:33:35,082 Toothpick. I'll be damned. 802 00:33:35,082 --> 00:33:36,773 Oh, my God. 803 00:33:36,773 --> 00:33:38,775 How did it not shred his esophagus on the way down? 804 00:33:38,775 --> 00:33:40,708 Well, it perfed the bowel. 805 00:33:40,708 --> 00:33:43,021 Then it impacted into the intestinal wall, 806 00:33:43,021 --> 00:33:45,333 where it hid from the scanner's radar. 807 00:33:45,333 --> 00:33:47,059 Adams, what's the game plan? 808 00:33:47,059 --> 00:33:50,028 Use the endoscopy forceps to fish it out carefully. 809 00:33:50,028 --> 00:33:52,099 Being careful not to break it and leave a piece behind 810 00:33:52,099 --> 00:33:53,893 that could cause an abscess later. 811 00:33:57,207 --> 00:33:58,864 All right, hold it steady. 812 00:33:58,864 --> 00:34:00,728 Will this take away all of this pain? 813 00:34:00,728 --> 00:34:02,074 It absolutely will. 814 00:34:02,074 --> 00:34:03,593 Almost there. 815 00:34:08,218 --> 00:34:09,564 Incredible save, Adams. 816 00:34:18,780 --> 00:34:19,954 Incredible save. 817 00:34:22,922 --> 00:34:24,890 Have I mentioned that I had my hand 818 00:34:24,890 --> 00:34:26,616 on an actual beating heart? 819 00:34:26,616 --> 00:34:28,825 Only about six times. 820 00:34:28,825 --> 00:34:31,207 But hey, I heard you found a bobby pin in some guy's ass 821 00:34:31,207 --> 00:34:33,933 or something, so also cool. 822 00:34:33,933 --> 00:34:35,935 I convinced a patient to get a chest X-ray. 823 00:34:35,935 --> 00:34:37,765 Hey, congratulations, Adams. 824 00:34:37,765 --> 00:34:39,560 Yasuda's day was sadder than yours. 825 00:34:39,560 --> 00:34:41,079 Yeah. 826 00:34:41,079 --> 00:34:43,460 Hey, thanks for everything today. 827 00:34:43,460 --> 00:34:45,290 If you need anything, I got your back. 828 00:34:47,844 --> 00:34:49,156 I do need something. 829 00:34:49,156 --> 00:34:50,778 I know this might be weird, 830 00:34:50,778 --> 00:34:52,435 and if it's still hard for you, you can say no. 831 00:34:52,435 --> 00:34:55,265 But you know me better than anyone here, 832 00:34:55,265 --> 00:34:58,165 better than anyone at my old program, actually. 833 00:34:58,165 --> 00:35:01,340 And I could really use a friend to help me get through this. 834 00:35:04,447 --> 00:35:06,656 I'm asking you to be my man of honor. 835 00:35:12,144 --> 00:35:15,803 Yeah, of course. 836 00:35:15,803 --> 00:35:16,735 It'd be an honor. 837 00:35:18,702 --> 00:35:19,703 Thank you. 838 00:35:19,703 --> 00:35:22,775 Hey, everyone, 839 00:35:22,775 --> 00:35:25,157 I want you to know I heard you all did 840 00:35:25,157 --> 00:35:27,849 some incredible work today. 841 00:35:27,849 --> 00:35:30,058 And so, if you're up for it, I would like to invite 842 00:35:30,058 --> 00:35:32,026 you all out for drinks. 843 00:35:34,615 --> 00:35:35,547 I'm actually serious. 844 00:35:37,100 --> 00:35:40,172 - Uh, oh. - So just, you know, 845 00:35:40,172 --> 00:35:41,656 meet me at Joe's. 846 00:35:45,143 --> 00:35:46,730 - Free drinks. - Yeah. 847 00:35:51,045 --> 00:35:53,185 Any chance you need another bartender? 848 00:35:53,185 --> 00:35:54,807 When would you sleep? 849 00:35:54,807 --> 00:35:56,430 I'd figure it out. 850 00:35:57,879 --> 00:35:59,329 Uh, yeah, yeah. 851 00:35:59,329 --> 00:36:01,228 The manager is hiring for the late shift. 852 00:36:01,228 --> 00:36:02,746 I can put in a good word. 853 00:36:02,746 --> 00:36:04,092 Thank you. 854 00:36:07,717 --> 00:36:09,339 Okay, people, this is my treat. 855 00:36:09,339 --> 00:36:10,513 Thank God. 856 00:36:10,513 --> 00:36:11,755 - Yay, thank you. - You're welcome. 857 00:36:11,755 --> 00:36:13,654 Thank you. 858 00:36:13,654 --> 00:36:14,931 Thanks, Dr. Schmidt. 859 00:36:14,931 --> 00:36:16,070 - Cheers. - Yeah. 860 00:36:16,070 --> 00:36:17,382 Welcome. 861 00:36:17,382 --> 00:36:18,383 Thank you. 862 00:36:18,383 --> 00:36:20,074 Mm-hmm. 863 00:36:21,040 --> 00:36:22,697 - Mm. - Oh. 864 00:36:22,697 --> 00:36:24,216 Oh. 865 00:36:24,216 --> 00:36:25,528 - Chaser? - Mm-hmm. 866 00:36:25,528 --> 00:36:26,667 What are you, her babysitter? 867 00:36:26,667 --> 00:36:27,944 Man of honor, actually. 868 00:36:27,944 --> 00:36:29,532 Oh, thank God. 869 00:36:29,532 --> 00:36:31,119 I didn't wanna have to carry around those blood vials. 870 00:36:33,294 --> 00:36:34,675 You mix them together, 871 00:36:34,675 --> 00:36:36,194 and you pour them out at the altar. 872 00:36:36,194 --> 00:36:37,919 Why do you think a maid of honor does that? 873 00:36:37,919 --> 00:36:39,680 My mom did it at my uncle's wedding. 874 00:36:39,680 --> 00:36:41,440 I cannot overstate how not normal that is. 875 00:36:41,440 --> 00:36:43,339 Whatever. I'm going to order food. 876 00:36:43,339 --> 00:36:45,341 Anyone else? 877 00:36:45,341 --> 00:36:48,240 Can you get me some fries? 878 00:36:48,240 --> 00:36:49,241 I'm starving. 879 00:36:51,381 --> 00:36:53,349 - So when's the wedding? - Next month. 880 00:36:53,349 --> 00:36:55,523 But it's in town so no one has to travel. 881 00:36:55,523 --> 00:36:57,076 And I don't need any extra time off. 882 00:36:57,076 --> 00:36:58,354 Trey is gonna take care of most of the logistics, 883 00:36:58,354 --> 00:36:59,803 so you won't-- - Griffin, I-- 884 00:36:59,803 --> 00:37:02,220 I was just asking. 885 00:37:02,220 --> 00:37:03,807 - Sorry, yeah. - That's okay. 886 00:37:03,807 --> 00:37:05,878 - Next month. - Okay. 887 00:37:05,878 --> 00:37:07,984 Wanna get out of here? 888 00:37:07,984 --> 00:37:10,918 I can't. 889 00:37:10,918 --> 00:37:13,472 We said no feelings, and unfortunately, 890 00:37:13,472 --> 00:37:16,268 I find your staunch support of animal rights... 891 00:37:16,268 --> 00:37:17,959 hot. 892 00:37:17,959 --> 00:37:20,065 Okay. 893 00:37:20,065 --> 00:37:21,963 What if I have no feelings? 894 00:37:25,829 --> 00:37:26,934 That works. 895 00:37:35,183 --> 00:37:36,737 You wanna pick up takeout? 896 00:37:36,737 --> 00:37:38,911 I kind of feel like Italian. 897 00:37:38,911 --> 00:37:41,845 I already ordered, Chang's Garden. 898 00:37:41,845 --> 00:37:44,469 Right, of course you decided. 899 00:37:53,167 --> 00:37:56,791 Stop. I need to look at you 900 00:37:56,791 --> 00:37:57,723 when I say this. 901 00:37:59,863 --> 00:38:01,796 Okay. 902 00:38:01,796 --> 00:38:03,695 You invited me to dinner with your family, 903 00:38:03,695 --> 00:38:05,938 and then you abandoned me when things got tough. 904 00:38:05,938 --> 00:38:07,285 What? When? 905 00:38:07,285 --> 00:38:09,494 The first time that I met your family, 906 00:38:09,494 --> 00:38:11,530 your father showed up, and you became unhappy, 907 00:38:11,530 --> 00:38:16,880 and then you logged off, and you left me there. 908 00:38:16,880 --> 00:38:18,675 My mother always used to quote Maya Angelou. 909 00:38:18,675 --> 00:38:22,023 She used to say, "When someone shows you who they are, 910 00:38:22,023 --> 00:38:24,302 believe them the first time." 911 00:38:24,302 --> 00:38:25,958 Why didn't I believe you the first time? 912 00:38:25,958 --> 00:38:27,512 You showed me who you were, 913 00:38:27,512 --> 00:38:29,341 and I just didn't wanna see it. 914 00:38:29,341 --> 00:38:31,343 - And who am I? - You're a person who retreats. 915 00:38:31,343 --> 00:38:33,311 When the going gets tough, you retreat. 916 00:38:33,311 --> 00:38:36,072 You quit. You disappear. 917 00:38:36,072 --> 00:38:40,179 You protect yourself, no matter what it costs anybody else. 918 00:38:40,179 --> 00:38:43,182 You're the one thinking of taking a job in Chicago. 919 00:38:43,182 --> 00:38:45,668 A job in Chicago is nothing, Winston. 920 00:38:45,668 --> 00:38:48,360 Marriages can easily survive a job in Chicago. 921 00:38:48,360 --> 00:38:51,329 But you don't seem to want us to survive. 922 00:38:51,329 --> 00:38:53,848 You just seem to want to punish me with your absence. 923 00:38:53,848 --> 00:38:56,092 - I'm right here! - But you're not. 924 00:38:56,092 --> 00:38:57,714 You're not. 925 00:38:57,714 --> 00:39:00,993 You took your love, and you retreated. 926 00:39:00,993 --> 00:39:05,032 You disappeared inside yourself. 927 00:39:05,032 --> 00:39:07,241 When the going got tough, you protected yourself, 928 00:39:07,241 --> 00:39:09,761 no matter what it cost anybody else. 929 00:39:09,761 --> 00:39:11,728 I am right here. 930 00:39:11,728 --> 00:39:14,248 You are gone. 931 00:39:14,248 --> 00:39:16,215 You couldn't even think of something nice to say 932 00:39:16,215 --> 00:39:18,356 about me this morning. 933 00:39:18,356 --> 00:39:20,219 Even when you wanted to quit cardio, 934 00:39:20,219 --> 00:39:22,187 supposedly to save our marriage, 935 00:39:22,187 --> 00:39:23,533 that was you quitting. 936 00:39:23,533 --> 00:39:25,052 That was you retreating. 937 00:39:25,052 --> 00:39:28,193 That was you giving up your gift 938 00:39:28,193 --> 00:39:29,884 so that you could avoid direct conflict, 939 00:39:29,884 --> 00:39:32,956 and that is what I don't respect. 940 00:39:32,956 --> 00:39:36,857 It isn't your heart, Winston, it's your cowardice. 941 00:39:36,857 --> 00:39:39,411 Oh, wow, really, Maggie? 942 00:39:39,411 --> 00:39:42,794 And the pizza in Chicago is the best in the world. 943 00:39:42,794 --> 00:39:44,865 So I'm gonna go there. 944 00:39:44,865 --> 00:39:47,557 And I'm gonna take my extraordinary passion, 945 00:39:47,557 --> 00:39:49,628 and I'm going to use it to build hearts 946 00:39:49,628 --> 00:39:51,458 that will save thousands of lives. 947 00:39:51,458 --> 00:39:53,736 And you can stay here, and you can pretend 948 00:39:53,736 --> 00:39:55,393 like it was you who was abandoned, 949 00:39:55,393 --> 00:39:57,291 but we both know the truth. 950 00:39:57,291 --> 00:40:00,467 At a cellular level, we are made of forks in the road. 951 00:40:00,467 --> 00:40:04,436 A generalized cell is born, and it splits and splits, 952 00:40:04,436 --> 00:40:06,093 not having much choice in the matter. 953 00:40:07,577 --> 00:40:09,614 Eventually, it's a body. 954 00:40:09,614 --> 00:40:11,443 Eventually, it's you... 955 00:40:11,443 --> 00:40:14,101 - Come here, Scout. - Out in the world. 956 00:40:14,101 --> 00:40:15,930 He was down. 957 00:40:15,930 --> 00:40:17,449 How are you feeling? 958 00:40:20,452 --> 00:40:23,110 I... 959 00:40:23,110 --> 00:40:26,734 I feel-- 960 00:40:26,734 --> 00:40:28,253 Better? 961 00:40:28,253 --> 00:40:29,323 ♪ If we survive 962 00:40:29,323 --> 00:40:30,462 Yes, better. 963 00:40:30,462 --> 00:40:31,498 I feel better. 964 00:40:31,498 --> 00:40:33,258 Hear that, Scout? 965 00:40:33,258 --> 00:40:36,157 She feels better. Whoo-hoo! 966 00:40:36,157 --> 00:40:37,607 So maybe you are who you are. 967 00:40:37,607 --> 00:40:40,507 All right, can you say whoo-hoo? 968 00:40:40,507 --> 00:40:42,819 Maybe you can't choose who you love or what you want 969 00:40:42,819 --> 00:40:44,511 any more than a cell can choose to be 970 00:40:44,511 --> 00:40:48,584 a liver, a lung, a heart. 971 00:40:48,584 --> 00:40:51,794 But cells only take you so far. 972 00:40:51,794 --> 00:40:53,105 Rough day? 973 00:40:53,105 --> 00:40:55,314 Oh, thank you. 974 00:40:55,314 --> 00:40:58,801 Oh, it was humbling. 975 00:40:58,801 --> 00:41:02,460 I missed a diagnosis and almost lost a patient. 976 00:41:02,460 --> 00:41:04,600 But? 977 00:41:04,600 --> 00:41:07,844 I was bailed out by a Shepherd. 978 00:41:07,844 --> 00:41:10,398 - Hmm. - You? 979 00:41:12,677 --> 00:41:15,473 I'm afraid I might be losing another sister. 980 00:41:18,234 --> 00:41:22,825 In the end, you create yourself. 981 00:41:22,825 --> 00:41:24,412 And your life is the life you've made. 982 00:41:24,412 --> 00:41:27,761 ♪ But you hold your breath 983 00:41:30,660 --> 00:41:34,353 ♪ If we survive 984 00:41:34,353 --> 00:41:36,701 What the... 985 00:41:36,701 --> 00:41:39,669 Hey! Hey! 986 00:41:39,669 --> 00:41:42,396 ♪ If we survive 987 00:41:42,396 --> 00:41:46,573 Hey! What the... 988 00:41:46,573 --> 00:41:48,402 Oh, no. - Ben? 989 00:41:48,402 --> 00:41:49,576 Ben, what's going on? 990 00:41:49,576 --> 00:41:50,715 ♪ I'll look for you 991 00:41:50,715 --> 00:41:53,200 Miranda. 992 00:41:53,200 --> 00:41:56,065 ♪ On the other side 993 00:42:01,553 --> 00:42:03,555 We are not fine, Miranda. 994 00:42:13,427 --> 00:42:15,774 But no one said it would be easy. 995 00:42:15,774 --> 00:42:18,536 ♪ On the other side