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Previously on
"Grey's Anatomy"...

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What if it wasn't
ridiculous?What?

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What if you try to cure
Alzheimer's?

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Should I anticipate any
goodbye e-mails from you?I don't know.

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Tessa's like Seattle royalty.

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Man, I grew up
on her stories.

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Tessa: I do have
another story to tell.

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"Tessa and the Rising Sun."

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I'm sorry. I can't.

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Nick: You don't consider me
part of your life.

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Of course you're
part of my life.

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You took the Boston job
without even talking to me.

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I love cardio.
But I love you more.

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Guess I'm not sure
that I respect that.

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[ Thunder crashes,
glass shatters ]

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[ Child screaming ]

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♪♪

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♪ I'm up, I'm here,
I'm out the door ♪

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Meredith: One of the greatest
frustrations surgeons have

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are the unrealistic
expectations of our patients.

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Whoa.

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♪ Don't you wanna go with me

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Whoa!

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Whoa! Whoa!

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No!

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No. No, no, no!

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Whether they're acutely ill or
they've been sick for years...

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No, no, no, no, no.

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No, no.

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Oh, my God. No.

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...by the time they're
on the surgical table,

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they're hoping for a miracle.

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Thanks for the ride.Get out.

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I'm late.
So am I.

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But often, surgery is just
the beginning of the healing,

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rather than an end.

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Because for weeks
or months post-op,

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people have to learn
how to live

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without the part of their
body we've just removed.

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Simone: You're late.Mika: Not as late as you.

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And that's not always easy
and it's never painless.

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So, surgery is not
the happily ever after

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our patients hope it will be.

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Like everything else in life,
it's an evolution.

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Now, remember what
I said to you.

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You're going to take
these gifts

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and go visit your
old daycare teachers.

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They're gonna be
very excited to see you.

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Do you remember
where you're going?

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Mom, I'm not a baby.Same, Mom.

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Okay.

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Amelia: Hey!
Maggie:
Look who's here!

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Hi.
Big last day.

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Yeah, we're
trying to forget

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all that and act
like everything

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is super normal.How are we doing?

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Not great.
[ Chuckles ]

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How's the new place?Amelia: It is great.

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It is weird to live alone
when I don't have Scout,

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but I feel
very grown up.

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Do you have any surgeries
I can watch today?Zola --

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I might have
a very excellent one

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with Uncle Winston in O.R. two,
if your mom says it's okay.

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Mom, please?

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Okay, if anyone asks,
I don't know where you are.

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Link!
Hi. Hey.

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Do you, uh -- Do you have
a busy schedule today?Actually, no.

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I've carved out my whole day
to catch up on charting.

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I am buried in --I need you to pick up
a cake by noon.

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This bakery's across town.It's for Meredith.

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Does she like
faraway cake?

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It's her favorite.

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It's the triple berry
with the buttercream.

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I would do it myself,

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but the baby
that I delivered

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two weeks ago with
the malformed heart,

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he's having
heart surgery today,

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and his parents are very
attached to me, and --

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and -- and you love me,
so please help.

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That is true.

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I do love you.
Thank you.

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[ Sighs, sniffs ]

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You're all rounding with
Doctors Ndugu and Pierce.

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They are breaking new
surgical ground,

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and it is a privilege
that they have invited --

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Sorry.
My car broke down.

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Had to get a ride
with my sister.

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Yeah, my car got towed
and it's also my house.

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Do you know who else
wasn't punctual?

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Taryn Helm
wasn't punctual,

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despite being
an excellent surgeon,

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and now you can find her
throwing her life away

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bartending
across the street.

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There's a surgeon
bartending at Joe's?

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Why?

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Because she burnt out,
that's why.

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So, hydrate and sleep
and lean on your friends,

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and take a break
and get a good therapist.

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And be on time,

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unless you
want to wind up like Helm,

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wasting your talents,

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your family's investment,
and your futures.

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Does she know you're throwing
shade behind her back?

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[ Scoffs ]

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Woman over PA:
Dr. Joseph to L&D.

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Dr. Earl Joseph to L&D.

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Meadow, Will.

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Um, we're
a teaching hospital,

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and these
are our first years.

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Is it okay
if they stay?

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You can say no.

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Uh, i-it should be okay.

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Baby?

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[ Baby cries ]

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Dr. Kwan.

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Arlo Fischer, delivered by
Dr. Wilson two weeks ago,

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and diagnosed with
truncus arteriosus and VSD.

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He's been listed for
a transplant for heart failure,

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and he was placed
on ECMO a week ago.

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Arlo's deterioration is
sending him into organ failure.

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We got a call from UNOS last
night that there is a match,

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but the procurement team
reported

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that the donor heart muscle
is weak

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and not suitable
for transplantation.

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Winston: But Dr. Pierce
and I believe

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that we can still
make use of the heart

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if we transplant only
the two major arteries.

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So, it's a partial
heart transplant?

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Has that ever
been done before?

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No, this
will be the first.

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Meadow: [ Sniffles ]
I don't understand.

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Why can't we just wait
on another heart?

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Meadow, it could take months
to find another match.

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Arlo cannot stay on ECMO
for that long.

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Baby, she's saying partial
is better than nothing.

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We know this is frightening,
but if this works,

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these valves will grow with him
for the rest of his life,

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and he won't need
a heart transplant

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or any other
additional surgeries.

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Ifthis works.
What if it doesn't work?

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He dies?
My baby dies?

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We're gonna give you
some time to think about it.

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We really do believe
that this is

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Arlo's best option
at this point.

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[ Crying ]

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Can you...
Jo: I can stay.

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Yes, Of course.

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Thank you, Doctor.Yeah.

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♪♪

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[ Knock on door ]

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Come in.

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Hey.
Hi.

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[ Door closes ]

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Heard it's your
last day.
It is.

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Thanks for coming.

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I went by the house.

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It's nice to see
it's still standing.

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There's a giant hole
where the attic used to be.

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They've spent the last two weeks
stabilizing the place,

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but everything
still reeks of smoke.

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It's...
How are the kids?

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Zola's excited to start
at her new school.

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I think Bailey and Ellis
are sad to leave.

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I called, you know?

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I know.

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This has been a lot.

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A fire,
living in a hotel, moving.

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No, I know it's been a lot,
but what -- what was your plan?

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You were just gonna leave
and not call me back?

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And you're gonna move
across the country

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without a conversation?

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I-I-I-I don't get that.
I don't.

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I didn't know
what to say.

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I moved here
to be with you.

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Yes, I took a job,
but I moved here

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to be with you.

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You didn't say it back.

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I didn't
say what back?

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You s--
[ Sighs ]

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What?

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I said, "I love you."

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You were standing
exactly in that spot

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where you are
right now.

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I said, "I love you."

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You didn't say it back.

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You had just taken a job
at my hospital.

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I thought --
I had hoped

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that we were
gonna pick it up

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right where we left off.

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But you seemed to want
to take it slow.

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So, it did not
occur to me

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to confer with you
about me moving.

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Okay, so wait, wait, wait,
wait, wait, whoa.

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This --
So, this is on me?

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This whole thing,
it's my fault?

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That is not
what I just said.

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I-I didn't do and say
exactly what you thought

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I should do and say
on exactly your timeline,

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so this whole mess
is my fault.

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That's what
you're saying?
That is not
what I said.

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No, no. Nope.

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I can't.[ Door opens ]

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I can't.

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♪♪

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♪♪

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So essentially, we will
take out the truncus

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and the malformed artery,

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replace it with the donor
aorta and pulmonary trunk,

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and then use their walls
to close the VSD.

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So it's like gutting
the inside of a house

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without
disturbing the frames.

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Can you not use the word
"gutting" when talking

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about a tiny baby heart?

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Mm, cosign.

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I don't like the verbiage,
but it is a pretty apt metaphor.

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Do we
get to scrub in?

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There will only be room
for one of you at the table.

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We are operating on a heart
the size of a strawberry.

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The vessels are
half a centimeter wide.

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My hands
are the smallest!

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You will not be stitching.
You will be observing.

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But whoever does the best
vascular anastomosis

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in the skills lab
wins the spot.

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Dr. Kwan.

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Yeah?

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Uh, don't do your finger
agility exercises

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in front of the patients,
alright?

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Oh, it's a technique
I use to disengage

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from the emotionality.

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To stay neutral.

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Y-You know, when --
when the mother

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started crying,
I was...

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It's smart. You just can't
let them see it, Kwan.

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Understood.

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[ Sighs ]

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[ Door opens, closes ]

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Teddy: Richard!

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Just curious
how it's going.

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The search
for the new chief.

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It was easy
a few years ago

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when we were
at the top of our game.
Right.

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But we've got a lot
of interesting applicants

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we're sorting through,
yeah.

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I mean, Grey-Sloan
is not an easy place

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just to step right into.[ Chuckles ]

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It's got its own history,
its -- its own quirks,

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its own personality.

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Well, that it does.
[ Chuckles ]

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Yeah. I mean, it -- it wouldn't
be the -- the worst idea

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to look closer to home.

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Someone who's been here,

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who -- who understands
our history,

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the issues, and -- and our past
and our needs.

254
00:09:02,852 --> 00:09:06,097
Altman, I think
you're onto something.

255
00:09:06,131 --> 00:09:08,375
T-There's no
extra pay involved,

256
00:09:08,409 --> 00:09:09,514
but there's lots
of free pastries

257
00:09:09,549 --> 00:09:11,378
and we could use
your expertise.

258
00:09:11,412 --> 00:09:13,863
I-I'm sorry,
there's no extra pay?

259
00:09:13,898 --> 00:09:15,520
No, the search committee
is voluntary.

260
00:09:15,555 --> 00:09:17,073
But we'd love to have you.

261
00:09:17,108 --> 00:09:18,903
We're meeting in the second
floor conference room

262
00:09:18,937 --> 00:09:21,491
from 4:00 to 6:00
on Monday.

263
00:09:21,526 --> 00:09:23,183
Okay, got it.
Thank you.

264
00:09:23,217 --> 00:09:24,529
I will...

265
00:09:24,564 --> 00:09:26,013
join.
Great.

266
00:09:26,048 --> 00:09:27,083
Yeah.
[ Chuckles ]
Thank you.

267
00:09:27,118 --> 00:09:28,360
Okay.

268
00:09:30,604 --> 00:09:32,641
Meadow, I got a page.
Is everything okay?

269
00:09:32,675 --> 00:09:34,125
I can't do it.

270
00:09:35,195 --> 00:09:37,887
I-I can't
kiss him goodbye

271
00:09:37,922 --> 00:09:39,751
for what
might be forever.

272
00:09:39,786 --> 00:09:41,201
She wants to wait.

273
00:09:42,443 --> 00:09:45,585
W-We want to wait
for a whole heart.

274
00:09:45,619 --> 00:09:48,311
An infant donor heart
could take up to six months

275
00:09:48,346 --> 00:09:49,347
to find a match.

276
00:09:49,381 --> 00:09:50,659
But we got this one.

277
00:09:50,693 --> 00:09:52,143
This one was a match
and it came in days.

278
00:09:52,177 --> 00:09:54,386
But it was damaged.I know.

279
00:09:54,421 --> 00:09:56,561
But we could get
another match

280
00:09:56,596 --> 00:09:58,080
in the next
couple of days.

281
00:09:58,114 --> 00:09:59,978
It could happen.

282
00:10:00,013 --> 00:10:02,602
I know that it's hard,
and I know that it's scary,

283
00:10:02,636 --> 00:10:05,570
but Dr. Pierce
is as good as it gets

284
00:10:05,605 --> 00:10:07,365
and she is not
a risk taker.

285
00:10:07,399 --> 00:10:09,574
She doesn't do
experimental surgeries

286
00:10:09,609 --> 00:10:11,507
for practice or for glory.

287
00:10:11,541 --> 00:10:13,992
She is suggesting this
because she believes

288
00:10:14,027 --> 00:10:15,373
that she can
save Arlo's life.

289
00:10:19,998 --> 00:10:23,484
I don't know
how to love my son this much

290
00:10:23,519 --> 00:10:25,728
and send him in
for an experimental surgery

291
00:10:25,763 --> 00:10:27,212
that might kill him.

292
00:10:29,387 --> 00:10:30,906
I-I can't do it.

293
00:10:33,598 --> 00:10:35,324
[ Crying ] If he dies
in that surgery,

294
00:10:35,358 --> 00:10:38,327
I won't ever
be okay again.

295
00:10:38,361 --> 00:10:40,398
Tell Dr. Pierce
thank you, but no.

296
00:10:40,432 --> 00:10:42,331
The surgery is off.

297
00:10:42,365 --> 00:10:49,890
♪♪

298
00:10:49,925 --> 00:10:52,548
[ Cries ]

299
00:10:52,582 --> 00:10:58,347
♪♪

300
00:11:04,594 --> 00:11:06,666
Ow! Damn it.[ Glasses clatter ]

301
00:11:06,700 --> 00:11:08,668
You know what?

302
00:11:08,702 --> 00:11:10,048
Screw this.

303
00:11:12,844 --> 00:11:14,674
What? Should I
go after her?
Blue: Shh.

304
00:11:14,708 --> 00:11:16,399
Some of us
are trying to win.

305
00:11:16,434 --> 00:11:18,229
I hate this stitch.

306
00:11:18,263 --> 00:11:21,439
Oh, you have to kinda twirl
your wrist like, um...

307
00:11:21,473 --> 00:11:22,716
Here.

308
00:11:24,753 --> 00:11:26,582
Right.

309
00:11:26,616 --> 00:11:28,170
Yeah.

310
00:11:29,585 --> 00:11:30,828
[ Cellphone buzzes ]

311
00:11:30,862 --> 00:11:32,381
Oh, no.It's Tessa Hobbes.

312
00:11:32,415 --> 00:11:33,727
Who?

313
00:11:33,762 --> 00:11:35,177
I have no idea.

314
00:11:35,211 --> 00:11:36,557
[ Tweezers clatter ]

315
00:11:36,592 --> 00:11:37,697
Done.

316
00:11:39,008 --> 00:11:40,216
Tessa.
What happened?

317
00:11:40,251 --> 00:11:41,562
I'm so sorry.

318
00:11:41,597 --> 00:11:43,219
She came in with severe
abdominal pain.

319
00:11:43,254 --> 00:11:46,050
She's a bit hypotensive.
Take her to CT.

320
00:11:46,084 --> 00:11:48,052
I-I picked up
my groceries.

321
00:11:48,086 --> 00:11:50,054
Tessa, we said no heavy
lifting, three months.

322
00:11:50,088 --> 00:11:51,365
It was just
a grocery bag,

323
00:11:51,400 --> 00:11:54,265
and I was feeling so great.

324
00:11:54,299 --> 00:11:56,025
And then there
was this sharp pain,

325
00:11:56,060 --> 00:11:57,475
like something tore.

326
00:11:57,509 --> 00:11:58,821
And then she drove
herself here.

327
00:11:58,856 --> 00:12:00,029
Wh-- You
drove yourself?

328
00:12:00,064 --> 00:12:01,134
Well, in retrospect,
I can see

329
00:12:01,168 --> 00:12:02,514
that might have been
a bad idea.

330
00:12:02,549 --> 00:12:04,344
Tessa, which area
hurts exactly?

331
00:12:04,378 --> 00:12:06,208
All of it.
The entire abdomen hurts.

332
00:12:06,242 --> 00:12:07,312
Here --
touch right there.

333
00:12:07,347 --> 00:12:08,762
Ow!She's tachycardic.

334
00:12:08,797 --> 00:12:10,074
We should take her
straight to the O.R.

335
00:12:10,108 --> 00:12:11,523
No, her blood pressure's
holding.

336
00:12:11,558 --> 00:12:12,870
Get her to CT first
and then call the O.R.

337
00:12:12,904 --> 00:12:14,216
to be on standby.

338
00:12:14,250 --> 00:12:15,735
Skip the line.
I'll call ahead.

339
00:12:15,769 --> 00:12:17,184
I really think we
should just take her

340
00:12:17,219 --> 00:12:18,427
straight to the O.R.Go! I'll call Marsh.

341
00:12:18,461 --> 00:12:19,566
Someone page Chief Grey!

342
00:12:25,986 --> 00:12:28,161
♪ Hey, love

343
00:12:28,195 --> 00:12:32,027
Are you Dr. Hellum?Who's asking?

344
00:12:32,061 --> 00:12:34,374
Mika Yasuda, first year
surgical resident.

345
00:12:34,408 --> 00:12:36,238
It's Helm, and I'm
no longer a doctor.

346
00:12:36,272 --> 00:12:37,653
Cool, 'cause
I'm barely a doctor

347
00:12:37,687 --> 00:12:38,930
and I'm desperate
for a win.

348
00:12:40,794 --> 00:12:42,347
Could you
possibly teach me

349
00:12:42,382 --> 00:12:44,902
how to do a perfect
microvascular anastomosis?

350
00:12:44,936 --> 00:12:47,042
There's a contest and if I win
I get to scrub in

351
00:12:47,076 --> 00:12:48,975
on a partial heart transplant
on a newborn.

352
00:12:49,009 --> 00:12:50,700
A partial heart transplant
doesn't exist.

353
00:12:50,735 --> 00:12:54,083
I know, but it is about to,
and I-I need this.

354
00:12:55,119 --> 00:12:57,155
I need a win
because I, uh --

355
00:12:57,190 --> 00:12:58,363
I don't have anywhere
to sleep tonight,

356
00:12:58,398 --> 00:13:00,780
and Seattle is
outrageously expensive,

357
00:13:00,814 --> 00:13:04,576
and being a surgical
resident is exhausting...

358
00:13:04,611 --> 00:13:06,647
[ Chuckles ]
...to the point
of nearly impossible,

359
00:13:06,682 --> 00:13:09,374
and I just really need to give
myself a reason to keep caring.

360
00:13:10,582 --> 00:13:13,585
And if Blue wins,
I cannot take the gloating.

361
00:13:13,620 --> 00:13:15,242
Blue?
Like the ribbon.

362
00:13:15,277 --> 00:13:16,968
And this is a nickname
he perpetuates.

363
00:13:17,003 --> 00:13:18,556
Wow.
That is arrogant.

364
00:13:18,590 --> 00:13:19,937
Right?

365
00:13:21,593 --> 00:13:23,526
20 bucks.

366
00:13:23,561 --> 00:13:25,977
My house was towed this morning,
so I don't have 20 bucks.

367
00:13:26,012 --> 00:13:27,496
But if I win
this contest,

368
00:13:27,530 --> 00:13:28,842
I will barback for you
on Friday night for free.

369
00:13:28,877 --> 00:13:30,188
You've been a barback?

370
00:13:30,223 --> 00:13:31,362
No, but I've been
a cater waiter

371
00:13:31,396 --> 00:13:32,846
and I'm excellent
at chopping limes.

372
00:13:32,881 --> 00:13:37,299
♪♪

373
00:13:37,333 --> 00:13:38,576
Give me it.

374
00:13:38,610 --> 00:13:40,820
♪♪

375
00:13:40,854 --> 00:13:43,374
♪ I love you far

376
00:13:43,408 --> 00:13:45,410
♪ You know I'm never right

377
00:13:47,688 --> 00:13:51,209
I was treating myself
to champagne and fruit salad

378
00:13:51,244 --> 00:13:53,591
because that's what
I was craving,

379
00:13:53,625 --> 00:13:56,076
and I had plenty
to celebrate.

380
00:13:56,111 --> 00:13:57,802
Now, okay, wait, wait.

381
00:13:59,390 --> 00:14:01,392
[ Shakily ] And then
the groceries came.

382
00:14:01,426 --> 00:14:03,394
They left them
on the front stoop.

383
00:14:03,428 --> 00:14:05,085
It didn't even o-occur to me

384
00:14:05,120 --> 00:14:07,260
not to bend over
and pick them up.

385
00:14:07,294 --> 00:14:08,778
It's routine.

386
00:14:08,813 --> 00:14:11,816
It's muscle memory.

387
00:14:11,851 --> 00:14:14,508
Dr. Griffith, the ring
around your necklace --

388
00:14:14,543 --> 00:14:15,889
are you engaged?

389
00:14:15,924 --> 00:14:17,477
I-I was.
I was engaged.

390
00:14:17,511 --> 00:14:19,065
Now I'm not.

391
00:14:20,031 --> 00:14:22,033
Heartbreak is the worst.

392
00:14:22,068 --> 00:14:23,724
It is.

393
00:14:23,759 --> 00:14:25,692
If I die today, I might
even miss heartbreak.

394
00:14:25,726 --> 00:14:26,900
Please try
not to die today.

395
00:14:26,935 --> 00:14:28,660
Yeah, I'll do my best.

396
00:14:28,695 --> 00:14:30,524
Oh, wait.
I need my purse.

397
00:14:30,559 --> 00:14:32,147
Right now?Yes, where is it?

398
00:14:32,181 --> 00:14:33,182
Uh, it's downstairs
with your clothes.

399
00:14:33,217 --> 00:14:34,494
I can get it
after we're done here.

400
00:14:34,528 --> 00:14:36,082
Okay.

401
00:14:36,116 --> 00:14:37,911
Meredith:
Hey, what happened?

402
00:14:37,946 --> 00:14:40,017
Schmitt said her abdomen
is distended and she's tachy.

403
00:14:40,051 --> 00:14:41,604
She's getting more
hypotensive.

404
00:14:41,639 --> 00:14:43,710
Okay, well, you two
need to go book an O.R.

405
00:14:43,744 --> 00:14:45,574
I don't care if you have to
kick someone out to do it.

406
00:14:45,608 --> 00:14:47,472
Tessa takes priority.

407
00:14:47,507 --> 00:14:49,992
[ Sighs ]
I don't get it.

408
00:14:50,027 --> 00:14:51,511
She did this
for groceries?

409
00:14:51,545 --> 00:14:53,685
Well, I don't think she
did it on purpose, Nick.

410
00:14:53,720 --> 00:14:56,240
I think she probably lives alone
and is set in her ways,

411
00:14:56,274 --> 00:14:58,759
and I'm sure it's a lot for her
to change and ask for help.

412
00:14:58,794 --> 00:15:00,485
Hello?

413
00:15:00,520 --> 00:15:02,763
We're here, Tessa.
Please stay very still.

414
00:15:02,798 --> 00:15:05,559
I'm afraid.
This is all wrong.

415
00:15:05,594 --> 00:15:06,940
I-I don't want to die.

416
00:15:06,975 --> 00:15:08,355
[ Breathes shakily ]

417
00:15:08,390 --> 00:15:10,254
I still have
something to say.

418
00:15:10,288 --> 00:15:11,980
Tessa, you're not
going anywhere today.

419
00:15:12,014 --> 00:15:13,188
We've got you.

420
00:15:13,222 --> 00:15:14,568
She's bleeding out.

421
00:15:14,603 --> 00:15:16,467
We're gonna need
some help in here.

422
00:15:16,501 --> 00:15:18,745
We're gonna need
blood in the O.R.

423
00:15:18,779 --> 00:15:20,712
Tessa, we're gonna
take you upstairs.

424
00:15:22,024 --> 00:15:23,577
Amelia: So on a scale
of one to better?

425
00:15:23,612 --> 00:15:25,752
We're better. I think.
I think we're better.

426
00:15:25,786 --> 00:15:28,134
But you're not sure?

427
00:15:28,168 --> 00:15:30,377
I am sure that we
are both excited

428
00:15:30,412 --> 00:15:32,932
about this partial heart
transplant on an infant,

429
00:15:32,966 --> 00:15:34,554
which is a
stroke-of-genius idea

430
00:15:34,588 --> 00:15:36,211
that we came up
with together.

431
00:15:36,245 --> 00:15:39,214
And that is because in the
O.R., we're good together.

432
00:15:39,248 --> 00:15:41,595
In our chosen field of study,
we are so good.

433
00:15:41,630 --> 00:15:43,080
Are you rehearsing
a speech you plan on

434
00:15:43,114 --> 00:15:44,702
giving him later?Maybe a little.

435
00:15:44,736 --> 00:15:46,773
So the two of you haven't
really spoken since the fire.

436
00:15:46,807 --> 00:15:48,740
Oh, we said some things.

437
00:15:48,775 --> 00:15:50,328
We needed
a cooling-off period.

438
00:15:50,363 --> 00:15:52,537
It's best that we haven't
talked about it.

439
00:15:52,572 --> 00:15:55,747
A-And, you know,
we'll talk again soon.

440
00:15:55,782 --> 00:15:58,129
As soon as we change
medical history.

441
00:15:58,164 --> 00:16:00,338
I have bad news.

442
00:16:00,373 --> 00:16:01,305
Oh, no.
The baby?

443
00:16:01,339 --> 00:16:02,858
No, he's stable.

444
00:16:02,892 --> 00:16:04,342
But his mom's too scared.

445
00:16:04,377 --> 00:16:06,034
She wants to call it off.

446
00:16:06,068 --> 00:16:08,381
I can't talk her into it.
That would be unethical.

447
00:16:08,415 --> 00:16:10,659
But you think she's got
this one wrong?

448
00:16:10,693 --> 00:16:13,696
Without this surgery,
the baby has days to live.

449
00:16:13,731 --> 00:16:16,216
She had a 30-hour labor
and she did it without any meds.

450
00:16:16,251 --> 00:16:18,011
Meaning?She's a warrior.

451
00:16:18,046 --> 00:16:19,426
She's strong
in her convictions,

452
00:16:19,461 --> 00:16:21,428
and she seems sure
of what she wants.

453
00:16:22,843 --> 00:16:24,328
Let me talk to her.

454
00:16:24,362 --> 00:16:25,639
You can't.

455
00:16:25,674 --> 00:16:26,778
I'm not her doctor.

456
00:16:28,194 --> 00:16:29,264
Let me talk to her.

457
00:16:31,714 --> 00:16:34,407
Will: You're a neurosurgeon,
so do you think Arlo needs --

458
00:16:34,441 --> 00:16:35,891
No, no, no.
No.

459
00:16:35,925 --> 00:16:37,651
No, I'm not here as one
of Arlo's doctors.

460
00:16:37,686 --> 00:16:40,206
I'm sorry, but if you're here
to try to talk me into --

461
00:16:40,240 --> 00:16:42,173
I'm here
because I had a baby

462
00:16:42,208 --> 00:16:45,038
who only lived
for 43 minutes.

463
00:16:45,073 --> 00:16:47,075
He had a condition
called anencephaly,

464
00:16:47,109 --> 00:16:50,595
which is when the baby's brain
does not develop typically,

465
00:16:50,630 --> 00:16:54,392
and, uh, we discovered it
when I was 6 months pregnant.

466
00:16:54,427 --> 00:16:56,222
We didn't know.

467
00:16:56,256 --> 00:16:57,533
We didn't know
until he was born

468
00:16:57,568 --> 00:16:59,052
that there
was anything wrong.

469
00:16:59,087 --> 00:17:00,329
I gave birth
to Christopher

470
00:17:00,364 --> 00:17:02,228
knowing that he would be
an organ donor,

471
00:17:02,262 --> 00:17:04,230
uh, because there was nothing
that we could do.

472
00:17:04,263 --> 00:17:07,301
There was no surgery
that we could try.

473
00:17:07,336 --> 00:17:11,753
And, um, I think about
him a lot these days

474
00:17:11,789 --> 00:17:16,069
because he has
a brother now, named Scout,

475
00:17:16,104 --> 00:17:17,553
and as Scout grows up,

476
00:17:17,588 --> 00:17:19,175
I cannot help
but think about

477
00:17:19,210 --> 00:17:20,694
who Christopher
would have been.

478
00:17:21,694 --> 00:17:24,560
And, um...

479
00:17:24,595 --> 00:17:28,047
what I do know is [sighs]

480
00:17:28,080 --> 00:17:30,911
if there
had been a chance

481
00:17:30,946 --> 00:17:32,189
that Christopher
could have lived,

482
00:17:32,223 --> 00:17:34,053
if there had been
any hope,

483
00:17:34,087 --> 00:17:36,331
if there had been
any surgery

484
00:17:36,365 --> 00:17:40,473
and it meant
that he might live...

485
00:17:40,507 --> 00:17:42,164
I would take the shot.

486
00:17:50,207 --> 00:17:52,519
[ Alarm beeping ]

487
00:17:52,554 --> 00:17:59,561
♪♪

488
00:17:59,595 --> 00:18:01,183
I knew it.

489
00:18:01,218 --> 00:18:02,702
I knew we should have taken
her straight to the O.R.

490
00:18:02,736 --> 00:18:03,806
We needed the CT to see
if we could operate --

491
00:18:03,841 --> 00:18:06,154
My gut doesn't lie.

492
00:18:06,188 --> 00:18:07,845
And I should have
fought for it.

493
00:18:07,879 --> 00:18:09,743
We should have brought
her straight here.

494
00:18:15,128 --> 00:18:16,647
Yeah,
I'm number one.

495
00:18:16,681 --> 00:18:18,062
Ew, someone
likes himself.

496
00:18:18,097 --> 00:18:21,030
No, my sample
is literally number one.

497
00:18:21,065 --> 00:18:22,825
But yes,
I intend to win.

498
00:18:22,860 --> 00:18:25,414
What is that face?
Is that good?

499
00:18:25,449 --> 00:18:27,209
It is if you want
to go home early.

500
00:18:27,244 --> 00:18:28,831
I knew I shouldn't have
practiced on bananas.

501
00:18:28,866 --> 00:18:31,386
What about fruit says
"baby veins" to you?

502
00:18:31,420 --> 00:18:33,146
This is all good work.

503
00:18:33,181 --> 00:18:35,769
Number one's sutures
are particularly precise.

504
00:18:38,427 --> 00:18:41,154
But with perfect
alignment and tension,

505
00:18:41,189 --> 00:18:43,639
the winner
is number three.

506
00:18:43,674 --> 00:18:45,745
That's me!

507
00:18:45,779 --> 00:18:49,024
Guess we gotta call you
Red today, huh?

508
00:18:49,058 --> 00:18:50,198
[ Sniffles ]
Hm.

509
00:18:50,232 --> 00:18:52,338
[ Sirens wailing ]

510
00:18:52,372 --> 00:19:00,208
♪♪

511
00:19:00,242 --> 00:19:08,181
♪♪

512
00:19:08,216 --> 00:19:16,051
♪♪

513
00:19:16,085 --> 00:19:17,570
Scalpel.

514
00:19:17,604 --> 00:19:22,678
♪♪

515
00:19:22,713 --> 00:19:28,097
♪♪

516
00:19:28,132 --> 00:19:30,099
I thought
you would win.

517
00:19:30,134 --> 00:19:32,067
Your stitches
are typically excellent.

518
00:19:32,101 --> 00:19:33,379
I know.

519
00:19:33,413 --> 00:19:35,415
Better than Yasuda's.

520
00:19:35,450 --> 00:19:37,176
I tanked the contest

521
00:19:37,210 --> 00:19:39,523
because babies scare
the crap out of me.[ Chuckles ]

522
00:19:39,557 --> 00:19:41,214
Didn't want to be
anywhere near that table.

523
00:19:41,249 --> 00:19:42,767
Why are you
scared of babies?

524
00:19:44,079 --> 00:19:45,218
Oh, no, no, no,
no, no, no, no.

525
00:19:45,253 --> 00:19:46,219
You gotta tell me.
Come on.

526
00:19:46,254 --> 00:19:48,670
Okay, but you
owe me one.

527
00:19:48,704 --> 00:19:49,705
Owe you what?

528
00:19:49,740 --> 00:19:50,982
Whatever I decide.

529
00:19:51,017 --> 00:19:52,398
Fine.

530
00:19:54,262 --> 00:19:57,644
When I was 5,
my dad took me into the backyard

531
00:19:57,679 --> 00:20:02,097
where my mom had just
given birth to my brother

532
00:20:02,131 --> 00:20:03,685
in a kiddie pool.

533
00:20:03,719 --> 00:20:05,238
[ Inhales deeply ]

534
00:20:05,273 --> 00:20:07,240
Now, you've done
an OB rotation.

535
00:20:07,275 --> 00:20:10,105
You're acquainted with all
the blood and placenta

536
00:20:10,139 --> 00:20:12,901
and the literal horror movie
that is human child birth.

537
00:20:12,935 --> 00:20:15,283
And I'm sure it's all
very beautiful in its own way,

538
00:20:15,317 --> 00:20:17,008
but I was 5.

539
00:20:17,043 --> 00:20:19,252
And before I could fully
process what I was seeing,

540
00:20:19,287 --> 00:20:21,461
my dad handed me
a pair of scissors

541
00:20:21,496 --> 00:20:23,636
and told me to cut
the umbilical cord.

542
00:20:23,670 --> 00:20:24,878
Wait, you were 5?

543
00:20:24,913 --> 00:20:26,225
Yeah.

544
00:20:26,259 --> 00:20:28,572
[ Stifled laughter ]

545
00:20:28,606 --> 00:20:30,677
What, you think
this is funny?

546
00:20:30,712 --> 00:20:32,921
This is trauma.

547
00:20:32,955 --> 00:20:35,164
This is -- This
is crystal-loving,

548
00:20:35,199 --> 00:20:38,029
weed-smoking, latter-day
hippie-style trauma.

549
00:20:38,064 --> 00:20:40,308
[ Laughter ]Zola: Shh!

550
00:20:40,342 --> 00:20:42,102
Sorry to shush you,
but my aunt

551
00:20:42,137 --> 00:20:43,414
is making history
right now,

552
00:20:43,449 --> 00:20:45,451
and I think we should
all be paying attention.

553
00:20:47,901 --> 00:20:57,842
♪♪

554
00:20:57,877 --> 00:21:02,675
♪ I've had my heart
get swallowed ♪

555
00:21:02,709 --> 00:21:05,229
[ Monitor alarm ]

556
00:21:05,264 --> 00:21:07,542
♪ And dragged down
to the deep ♪

557
00:21:11,511 --> 00:21:15,239
♪ But I made it to tomorrow

558
00:21:17,724 --> 00:21:21,107
♪ So I believe

559
00:21:23,696 --> 00:21:28,563
♪ After all these years
of trying ♪

560
00:21:30,358 --> 00:21:34,914
♪ Weighing on these
tired bones ♪

561
00:21:37,019 --> 00:21:41,541
♪ If there's something
I'll take with me ♪

562
00:21:41,576 --> 00:21:42,715
[ Flatline ]

563
00:21:42,749 --> 00:21:44,164
Starting compressions.

564
00:21:44,199 --> 00:21:45,890
[ Flatline ]

565
00:21:45,925 --> 00:21:47,858
♪ Let it be hope

566
00:21:47,892 --> 00:21:49,169
Come on, Tessa.

567
00:21:49,204 --> 00:21:52,552
♪ Yeah, let it be hope

568
00:21:52,587 --> 00:21:55,900
♪ Yeah, let it be

569
00:21:55,935 --> 00:21:58,800
♪ Let it be hope

570
00:21:58,834 --> 00:22:00,042
♪ Let it be

571
00:22:00,077 --> 00:22:02,044
Come on, Tessa.
Fight.

572
00:22:02,079 --> 00:22:03,356
Nick: Mer.

573
00:22:03,391 --> 00:22:04,875
Meredith,
let Griffith take over.

574
00:22:04,909 --> 00:22:08,499
♪ After all these years
of trying ♪

575
00:22:11,088 --> 00:22:15,575
♪ Weighing on these
tired bones ♪

576
00:22:17,715 --> 00:22:22,306
♪ If there's something
I'll take with me ♪

577
00:22:23,514 --> 00:22:25,067
♪ Mm-mmm

578
00:22:26,690 --> 00:22:29,831
♪ Let it be hope

579
00:22:29,865 --> 00:22:33,144
♪ Yeah, let it be hope

580
00:22:33,179 --> 00:22:34,422
♪ Yeah, let it be

581
00:22:36,596 --> 00:22:38,667
♪ Let it be hope

582
00:22:39,875 --> 00:22:41,083
♪ Yeah, let it be

583
00:22:42,878 --> 00:22:46,399
♪ Yeah, let it be hope

584
00:22:46,434 --> 00:22:48,228
Meredith: Griffith,
it's time to stop.

585
00:22:49,678 --> 00:22:52,854
♪ Let it be hope

586
00:22:52,888 --> 00:22:53,855
[ Exhales deeply ]

587
00:22:53,889 --> 00:22:55,753
♪ Let it be hope

588
00:22:55,788 --> 00:22:57,168
[ Flatline ]

589
00:22:57,203 --> 00:22:58,411
Simone: Oh, God.

590
00:22:58,446 --> 00:23:00,689
[ Flatline ]

591
00:23:03,105 --> 00:23:04,900
Oh, my God. No.
[ Sniffles ]

592
00:23:04,935 --> 00:23:07,731
♪ Let it be hope

593
00:23:10,699 --> 00:23:12,908
Time of death 12:21.

594
00:23:16,360 --> 00:23:20,260
Chief Grey,
I'd like to close her up.

595
00:23:20,295 --> 00:23:21,365
I'd like to pay her
that respect.

596
00:23:26,922 --> 00:23:28,924
Can I help?
Yeah.

597
00:23:28,959 --> 00:23:30,512
[ Door opens ]

598
00:23:40,177 --> 00:23:42,559
[ Exhales deeply ]

599
00:23:46,459 --> 00:23:49,151
That was so
incredibly stupid.

600
00:23:49,186 --> 00:23:50,429
That did not have
to end that way.

601
00:23:50,463 --> 00:23:52,085
I hate this day.

602
00:23:52,120 --> 00:23:53,673
I hate everything
about this day.

603
00:23:53,708 --> 00:23:55,261
Me, too.

604
00:24:01,370 --> 00:24:03,200
I-I'm a -- I-I'm
a transplant surgeon.

605
00:24:03,234 --> 00:24:05,547
I-I wait.
I'm trained to wait.

606
00:24:05,582 --> 00:24:08,170
I attach, I perfuse,
I wait for the organ to take.

607
00:24:08,205 --> 00:24:10,379
For it not
to be rejected.

608
00:24:10,414 --> 00:24:13,037
For it to pink up.
For blood to flow.

609
00:24:13,072 --> 00:24:15,005
Because that's
how humans respond.

610
00:24:15,039 --> 00:24:17,904
They're not machines
with an on/off switch.

611
00:24:17,939 --> 00:24:19,319
[ Sighs ]

612
00:24:19,354 --> 00:24:21,632
And I'm a grown woman
with a big life

613
00:24:21,667 --> 00:24:23,047
and a big career
and three kids.

614
00:24:23,082 --> 00:24:25,222
And this move is what
my daughter needs.

615
00:24:25,256 --> 00:24:27,845
I want you in my life
if you want to be in my life.

616
00:24:29,053 --> 00:24:31,193
But if I have to choose,
I'm going to pick me.

617
00:24:31,228 --> 00:24:34,265
I pick my kids, and I
pick what's best for us.

618
00:24:34,300 --> 00:24:36,751
And I am not going to beg you
to love me.

619
00:24:41,549 --> 00:24:43,378
[ Sighs ]

620
00:24:43,412 --> 00:24:45,691
[ Door opens, closes ]

621
00:24:54,389 --> 00:24:56,218
[ Exhales deeply ]

622
00:24:57,461 --> 00:25:00,084
[ Siren wails in distance ]

623
00:25:00,119 --> 00:25:01,672
I'm sorry
I was emotional earlier.

624
00:25:04,364 --> 00:25:07,575
Be sorry when you stop feeling
the losses.

625
00:25:07,609 --> 00:25:09,059
This was my last surgery
here.

626
00:25:11,268 --> 00:25:13,822
I thought for sure I was
going out on a high.

627
00:25:13,857 --> 00:25:15,652
I know that
sounds shallow.

628
00:25:15,686 --> 00:25:17,999
No, it's devastating,
on every level.

629
00:25:20,933 --> 00:25:22,521
How's your grandmother?

630
00:25:22,555 --> 00:25:24,074
Awful.
It's awful.

631
00:25:24,108 --> 00:25:26,525
She exclusively calls me
by my mother's name now,

632
00:25:26,559 --> 00:25:27,905
which I can handle.
I didn't know my mother.

633
00:25:27,940 --> 00:25:30,252
But my sister,
she remembers my mother,

634
00:25:30,287 --> 00:25:31,668
she remembers
that I killed her.

635
00:25:31,702 --> 00:25:34,429
She was 6
when it happened and...

636
00:25:34,463 --> 00:25:37,225
she's never
forgiven me for it.

637
00:25:37,259 --> 00:25:39,054
And every time
my grandmother calls me

638
00:25:39,089 --> 00:25:41,229
by my mother's name,
she hates me more,

639
00:25:41,263 --> 00:25:43,024
and I don't know why I'm
telling you this, Chief Grey.

640
00:25:45,267 --> 00:25:48,029
Well, because you know
I know.

641
00:25:48,063 --> 00:25:49,375
And I don't work
here anymore,

642
00:25:49,409 --> 00:25:51,653
so you can call me
Meredith.

643
00:25:54,553 --> 00:25:55,899
I have Tessa's book,
Meredith.

644
00:25:57,279 --> 00:25:59,040
What?She wrote her last book.

645
00:25:59,074 --> 00:26:00,800
She saved it
on a thumb drive,

646
00:26:00,835 --> 00:26:02,250
and she brought it
here to the hospital,

647
00:26:02,284 --> 00:26:03,527
which means after
she felt her pain,

648
00:26:03,562 --> 00:26:04,908
the first thing she did

649
00:26:04,942 --> 00:26:06,150
is go to her computer
and save her book.

650
00:26:06,185 --> 00:26:08,532
♪♪

651
00:26:08,567 --> 00:26:10,983
She wanted me to give it
to her publisher in Boston,

652
00:26:11,017 --> 00:26:13,710
and, um, I know you're --
you're going there today.

653
00:26:13,744 --> 00:26:16,229
♪ Your color's fading

654
00:26:17,196 --> 00:26:19,750
♪ 'Cause I kept you waiting

655
00:26:19,785 --> 00:26:21,994
♪ It's a wild, wild world

656
00:26:22,028 --> 00:26:24,134
I'm so happy she got
to write her last story.

657
00:26:24,168 --> 00:26:28,172
♪ And you're a wild,
wild girl ♪

658
00:26:30,105 --> 00:26:31,866
Chief Grey?
Meredith?

659
00:26:31,900 --> 00:26:33,177
♪ Our sun's still shining

660
00:26:33,212 --> 00:26:35,248
♪ But it seems half the size I'm sorry.

661
00:26:35,283 --> 00:26:37,354
♪ And it's a wild, wild world

662
00:26:37,388 --> 00:26:39,080
My mentor once
told me you worry

663
00:26:39,114 --> 00:26:41,289
when you stop
feeling the losses.

664
00:26:45,396 --> 00:26:50,298
♪ Before my time runs out [ Sighs ]
Let's go inside.

665
00:26:51,437 --> 00:26:57,236
♪ What if I run away to Mars?

666
00:26:59,548 --> 00:27:01,171
♪ Would you find me
in the stars? ♪

667
00:27:01,205 --> 00:27:02,966
The heart is completely
pumping on its own.

668
00:27:03,000 --> 00:27:07,971
♪♪

669
00:27:08,005 --> 00:27:09,593
♪ Would you miss me
in the end? ♪

670
00:27:09,628 --> 00:27:11,043
It worked?

671
00:27:11,077 --> 00:27:12,216
So far, yeah.
So far,
it worked, yeah.

672
00:27:12,251 --> 00:27:15,841
♪ If I run out of oxygen

673
00:27:15,875 --> 00:27:17,187
♪ When I run away

674
00:27:17,221 --> 00:27:18,844
Amelia, thank you.

675
00:27:18,878 --> 00:27:22,571
♪ To Mars

676
00:27:22,606 --> 00:27:25,264
[ Exhales deeply ]

677
00:27:25,298 --> 00:27:29,026
Echo looks great.
VSD is closed.

678
00:27:29,061 --> 00:27:31,373
Outflow from the new arteries
looks good.

679
00:27:31,408 --> 00:27:32,823
It sure feels like we
saved that baby's life.

680
00:27:32,858 --> 00:27:34,480
[ Chuckles ]

681
00:27:34,514 --> 00:27:37,069
[ Sighs ]

682
00:27:37,103 --> 00:27:39,865
Are you taking in
the miracle?

683
00:27:39,899 --> 00:27:42,419
That is exactly
what I'm doing.

684
00:27:42,453 --> 00:27:44,352
That was beyond
my wildest imagination

685
00:27:44,386 --> 00:27:45,802
of what my day would be.

686
00:27:45,836 --> 00:27:47,666
And not just this day,
which was awful

687
00:27:47,700 --> 00:27:49,564
because my house-van got towed
with my whole life in it.

688
00:27:49,598 --> 00:27:52,222
That was beyond
my wildest imagination

689
00:27:52,256 --> 00:27:54,431
of what any day
of my life could be.

690
00:27:54,465 --> 00:27:57,745
The way that you saved
that tiny baby heart.

691
00:27:57,779 --> 00:27:58,815
I will never forget it.

692
00:27:58,849 --> 00:28:00,057
Did you say house-van?

693
00:28:00,092 --> 00:28:01,369
Yeah, you
sleep in a van?

694
00:28:01,403 --> 00:28:03,682
Oh, well, I can't afford
to get it out of impound,

695
00:28:03,716 --> 00:28:05,684
so not tonight.

696
00:28:05,718 --> 00:28:07,686
Anyway, thank you.

697
00:28:07,720 --> 00:28:12,069
♪ Mars

698
00:28:12,104 --> 00:28:17,316
♪ Would you find me
in the stars? ♪

699
00:28:17,350 --> 00:28:19,525
Aunt Amy,
how did you do it?

700
00:28:19,559 --> 00:28:21,147
How did I do what?

701
00:28:21,182 --> 00:28:22,908
How did you stop caring
what other people think?

702
00:28:22,942 --> 00:28:25,531
My mom, your sisters,
they talk about you like --

703
00:28:25,565 --> 00:28:26,843
like -- like you
don't give a flying crap

704
00:28:26,877 --> 00:28:28,499
what anybody else thinks

705
00:28:28,534 --> 00:28:30,709
and, like, they're
a little jealous of that.

706
00:28:30,743 --> 00:28:31,951
And I want to know
how you did it.

707
00:28:33,608 --> 00:28:36,542
Because I wanted to fight
for a patient today.

708
00:28:36,576 --> 00:28:38,751
My gut told me everything
she needed and I didn't do it

709
00:28:38,786 --> 00:28:40,649
because I was worried about
what other people would think.

710
00:28:40,684 --> 00:28:43,204
I-I was worried about
getting in trouble.

711
00:28:43,238 --> 00:28:45,724
You want to know
the truth?

712
00:28:45,758 --> 00:28:50,729
The truth is I care deeply
what other people think.

713
00:28:50,763 --> 00:28:54,733
And then I do what
I think is right anyway.

714
00:28:54,767 --> 00:28:56,493
But I learned
that the hard way.

715
00:28:56,527 --> 00:28:58,150
I had to live
a lot of life

716
00:28:58,184 --> 00:28:59,496
before I became
the kind of person

717
00:28:59,530 --> 00:29:01,187
I like and respect.

718
00:29:04,052 --> 00:29:05,467
My patient died today.

719
00:29:07,676 --> 00:29:08,919
I should have fought.

720
00:29:10,990 --> 00:29:12,889
The good news is...

721
00:29:12,923 --> 00:29:14,442
you let that pain
soak in...

722
00:29:16,202 --> 00:29:19,309
...next time,
you will fight.

723
00:29:19,343 --> 00:29:25,177
♪♪

724
00:29:25,211 --> 00:29:27,213
Did you ever find
a place to live, Shep?

725
00:29:28,697 --> 00:29:32,184
Uh, yeah, I found a youth hostel
with a roach problem.

726
00:29:32,218 --> 00:29:34,220
And please
don't call me Shep.

727
00:29:34,255 --> 00:29:36,084
Then don't call me
Aunt Amy.

728
00:29:39,467 --> 00:29:40,882
[ Siren wails in distance ]

729
00:29:40,917 --> 00:29:42,504
Is that it?

730
00:29:42,539 --> 00:29:44,127
Straight from the oven
from the faraway bakery.

731
00:29:44,161 --> 00:29:47,199
You are truly, madly,
deeply the best.

732
00:29:47,233 --> 00:29:49,753
Wow, it's so much bigger
than I thought it would be.

733
00:29:49,788 --> 00:29:51,513
I know. It barely
fit in my car.

734
00:29:51,548 --> 00:29:53,584
Wait, what
do you mean bigger?

735
00:29:53,619 --> 00:29:55,034
Did you check it?

736
00:29:55,069 --> 00:29:56,795
I gave them your name,
they gave me a cake.

737
00:30:00,764 --> 00:30:04,768
[ Laughs ]

738
00:30:04,803 --> 00:30:05,873
Well, there's no time
to take it back.

739
00:30:05,907 --> 00:30:07,322
What do we do?

740
00:30:07,357 --> 00:30:12,569
♪♪

741
00:30:13,777 --> 00:30:15,158
[ Cork pops ]

742
00:30:17,401 --> 00:30:21,129
♪♪

743
00:30:21,164 --> 00:30:22,579
Oh, hey.

744
00:30:22,613 --> 00:30:32,520
♪♪

745
00:30:32,554 --> 00:30:34,591
Oh.
[ Clears throat ]

746
00:30:34,625 --> 00:30:36,420
Top of my class.What?

747
00:30:36,455 --> 00:30:38,767
I was top of my class at
an East Coast boarding school

748
00:30:38,802 --> 00:30:40,528
where my classmates
were doing designer drugs

749
00:30:40,562 --> 00:30:41,909
and cheating their way
to a passing grade.

750
00:30:41,943 --> 00:30:43,427
I was top of my class.

751
00:30:43,462 --> 00:30:45,015
And I didn't even drink
in high school.

752
00:30:45,050 --> 00:30:46,327
Well, this is
sparkling cider.

753
00:30:46,361 --> 00:30:48,501
Then I was second
in my class in undergrad,

754
00:30:48,536 --> 00:30:50,883
but that's because I had
a brutal case of mono

755
00:30:50,918 --> 00:30:52,816
my junior year,
which took me out for weeks,

756
00:30:52,851 --> 00:30:56,233
but in med school,
I was back up to number one.

757
00:30:56,268 --> 00:30:59,029
And I completed my
cardiothoracic fellowship

758
00:30:59,064 --> 00:31:01,342
at the Mayo Clinic before
coming here

759
00:31:01,376 --> 00:31:05,139
and training Cristina Yang
as a heart surgeon.

760
00:31:05,173 --> 00:31:07,486
I have an inarguable pedigree
and I find it insulting

761
00:31:07,520 --> 00:31:10,213
that you invite me to sit
on a panel to choose a chief

762
00:31:10,247 --> 00:31:12,525
without stopping to consider
offering me the job.

763
00:31:12,560 --> 00:31:15,425
Teddy, this hospital
just came out of a shutdown.

764
00:31:15,459 --> 00:31:17,876
Dr. Bailey and Dr. Grey
both quit the job

765
00:31:17,910 --> 00:31:19,153
that you're talking about,

766
00:31:19,187 --> 00:31:21,362
and their pedigree
is quite similar to yours.

767
00:31:21,396 --> 00:31:22,881
I didn't consider you
for the job

768
00:31:22,915 --> 00:31:24,813
because it
is a flailing program

769
00:31:24,848 --> 00:31:26,885
with a huge
amount of stress.

770
00:31:26,919 --> 00:31:29,646
But by all means,
if you want it,

771
00:31:29,680 --> 00:31:32,062
it's yours.

772
00:31:32,097 --> 00:31:33,546
Really?
Is that a yes?

773
00:31:34,754 --> 00:31:35,894
Can I think about it?

774
00:31:40,415 --> 00:31:42,072
What is going on here?

775
00:31:42,107 --> 00:31:44,178
Oh, crap. She's here.
Surprise!

776
00:31:44,212 --> 00:31:45,904
All: Surprise!

777
00:31:45,938 --> 00:31:48,009
Aw, Come on, people.
You can do better than this.

778
00:31:48,044 --> 00:31:49,666
Okay, ready?

779
00:31:49,700 --> 00:31:51,426
All: Surprise!

780
00:31:51,461 --> 00:31:53,221
[ Chuckles ]

781
00:31:53,256 --> 00:31:54,602
Well, this
is very thoughtful.

782
00:31:56,155 --> 00:31:58,364
And ridiculous because
I'm only going to Boston,

783
00:31:58,399 --> 00:32:00,504
and you know I'll probably
be here next week.

784
00:32:00,539 --> 00:32:02,575
For God's sake, Grey,
will you just let us toast you?

785
00:32:02,610 --> 00:32:03,991
[ Laughter ]

786
00:32:04,025 --> 00:32:06,338
To Meredith Grey![ Cheering ]

787
00:32:06,372 --> 00:32:08,064
♪ Been swimming
through shadows ♪

788
00:32:08,098 --> 00:32:09,755
You know,
once upon a time...

789
00:32:09,789 --> 00:32:11,136
♪ Moonrise

790
00:32:11,170 --> 00:32:14,346
...you were the bane
of my existence.

791
00:32:14,380 --> 00:32:18,315
But, no, you
grew up to become

792
00:32:18,350 --> 00:32:21,146
one of my greatest
points of pride.

793
00:32:21,180 --> 00:32:22,941
I'm...

794
00:32:22,975 --> 00:32:27,635
♪ We keep run, run, running
from the cold ♪

795
00:32:30,051 --> 00:32:31,294
To-- Wa--

796
00:32:31,328 --> 00:32:33,227
♪ Keep my eyes wide open

797
00:32:33,261 --> 00:32:34,745
Okay, go. Go.

798
00:32:34,780 --> 00:32:39,336
Dr. Grey, what Dr. Bailey
is trying to say is...

799
00:32:39,371 --> 00:32:42,753
this place won't be
the same without you.

800
00:32:42,788 --> 00:32:44,928
♪ On my, my way

801
00:32:44,963 --> 00:32:46,999
♪ On my, my way

802
00:32:47,034 --> 00:32:51,003
♪ Oh, you gotta keep on
feeding that fire ♪

803
00:32:51,038 --> 00:32:55,559
♪ Oh, you gotta keep on
dancing through the night ♪

804
00:32:55,594 --> 00:32:58,873
♪ Hey, let it fall

805
00:32:58,907 --> 00:33:00,288
To Meredith Grey.

806
00:33:00,323 --> 00:33:01,324
Hey. Hear, hear.

807
00:33:01,358 --> 00:33:03,912
[ Cheering ]

808
00:33:03,947 --> 00:33:08,124
♪ Hey

809
00:33:08,158 --> 00:33:09,677
Mom.
Yes?

810
00:33:09,711 --> 00:33:10,919
It was amazing.Was it?

811
00:33:10,954 --> 00:33:12,473
Aunt Maggie
was amazing.

812
00:33:12,507 --> 00:33:14,233
Of course
she's amazing.

813
00:33:14,268 --> 00:33:15,752
I think I might
want to change

814
00:33:15,786 --> 00:33:17,547
from neuro to cardio.

815
00:33:17,581 --> 00:33:19,238
Will you be mad?

816
00:33:19,273 --> 00:33:21,137
I will absolutely
not be mad.

817
00:33:21,171 --> 00:33:22,862
[ Laughter ]

818
00:33:22,897 --> 00:33:24,519
Did you
talk to Nick?
I did.

819
00:33:26,073 --> 00:33:27,212
We have
a plane to catch.

820
00:33:28,213 --> 00:33:29,593
Should we go?

821
00:33:29,628 --> 00:33:31,078
♪ Chasing the light

822
00:33:34,219 --> 00:33:35,082
[ Giggles ]

823
00:33:41,571 --> 00:33:43,814
[ Indistinct conversations ]

824
00:33:43,849 --> 00:33:44,677
[ Exhales deeply ]

825
00:33:46,265 --> 00:33:47,542
Dr. Marsh.

826
00:33:48,371 --> 00:33:50,752
[ Clears throat ]
Helm.

827
00:33:50,787 --> 00:33:52,099
Hey.

828
00:33:53,686 --> 00:33:56,034
What are you
doing behind a bar?

829
00:33:56,068 --> 00:33:57,311
Living my best life.

830
00:33:57,345 --> 00:33:59,209
What are you
doing atthe bar?

831
00:34:00,452 --> 00:34:02,764
Uh, yeah, well, it was
a bit of a rough day,

832
00:34:02,799 --> 00:34:04,939
so I decided
to call it early.

833
00:34:04,973 --> 00:34:07,873
Actually, can I have
a whiskey rocks, please?

834
00:34:07,907 --> 00:34:09,909
Thank you.
I don't get it.

835
00:34:09,944 --> 00:34:12,498
Isn't Dr. Grey
leaving today?

836
00:34:12,533 --> 00:34:14,534
Isn't her party,
like, right now?

837
00:34:16,433 --> 00:34:17,710
Yeah.
Oh, my God.

838
00:34:17,745 --> 00:34:18,884
You are such an idiot.

839
00:34:18,918 --> 00:34:20,505
[ Chuckles ] Wow.

840
00:34:22,335 --> 00:34:24,199
[ Sighs ] I don't work
there anymore,

841
00:34:24,234 --> 00:34:25,717
so I'm just gonna
tell you the truth

842
00:34:25,753 --> 00:34:27,065
instead of pretending
to respect

843
00:34:27,099 --> 00:34:28,342
your awful
decision making.

844
00:34:28,376 --> 00:34:29,998
She's Meredith Grey.

845
00:34:30,033 --> 00:34:31,862
She's impossible,
and she's perfect,

846
00:34:31,897 --> 00:34:33,692
and she's brilliant,
and she cares.

847
00:34:33,726 --> 00:34:36,315
And she can be mean sometimes,
but only when she needs to be,

848
00:34:36,350 --> 00:34:38,110
and she can be
selfish sometimes

849
00:34:38,145 --> 00:34:40,353
because she has
earned that right.

850
00:34:40,388 --> 00:34:42,286
And for some stupid reason
she's into men

851
00:34:42,321 --> 00:34:43,495
so she never fell
in love with me,

852
00:34:43,529 --> 00:34:45,152
but she fell
in love with you.

853
00:34:46,532 --> 00:34:47,775
And you're here?

854
00:34:48,741 --> 00:34:50,329
How stupid are you?

855
00:34:50,364 --> 00:34:56,197
♪♪

856
00:34:56,232 --> 00:35:02,134
♪♪

857
00:35:02,169 --> 00:35:04,895
[ Maggie sighs ]

858
00:35:04,930 --> 00:35:07,553
He's still going strong.

859
00:35:07,588 --> 00:35:09,555
I am in awe.

860
00:35:09,590 --> 00:35:12,731
It really
is a miracle.

861
00:35:12,765 --> 00:35:15,043
Yes.
Yeah.

862
00:35:15,078 --> 00:35:18,495
It is -- It's a miracle
of science, Winston.

863
00:35:18,530 --> 00:35:22,016
Specifically, it's a miracle
of cardiothoracic surgery.

864
00:35:22,050 --> 00:35:24,846
We did a thing that no one
else has done today,

865
00:35:24,881 --> 00:35:27,228
and -- and we
saved that baby's life.

866
00:35:27,263 --> 00:35:29,403
And if it worked
like I think it did,

867
00:35:29,437 --> 00:35:31,336
this miracle of science
is going to save

868
00:35:31,370 --> 00:35:34,477
thousands of babies' lives.
[ Chuckles ]

869
00:35:34,511 --> 00:35:36,824
That has to make you see
that you can't just change

870
00:35:36,858 --> 00:35:39,171
your field of study at this
stage of your career.

871
00:35:41,069 --> 00:35:43,831
You told me that you
didn't respect my choice --

872
00:35:43,865 --> 00:35:45,177
you said you
didn't respect me.

873
00:35:45,212 --> 00:35:46,558
I didn't say that.And then there was a fire.

874
00:35:46,592 --> 00:35:48,042
You know, it was a lot.

875
00:35:48,076 --> 00:35:49,354
I gave you time,
and I gave you space,

876
00:35:49,388 --> 00:35:50,976
but for two weeks now,
I've been waiting

877
00:35:51,010 --> 00:35:52,495
for an apology
that hasn't come.

878
00:35:52,529 --> 00:35:54,566
And now
you're doubling down?

879
00:35:54,600 --> 00:35:56,154
You're -- There's no
apology coming

880
00:35:56,188 --> 00:35:57,396
because you meant
what you said?

881
00:35:57,431 --> 00:35:59,053
I think
you'll reconsider --

882
00:35:59,087 --> 00:36:00,641
Yeah, changing my job
to protect my marriage.

883
00:36:00,675 --> 00:36:01,642
It's not a job.

884
00:36:01,676 --> 00:36:03,575
It's nota job.

885
00:36:03,609 --> 00:36:05,232
It is a gift.

886
00:36:05,266 --> 00:36:08,304
Alright.

887
00:36:08,338 --> 00:36:10,858
And just like that
the feeling is mutual.

888
00:36:10,892 --> 00:36:13,067
What feeling?

889
00:36:13,101 --> 00:36:15,173
You told Kwan that
his strategy to disengage

890
00:36:15,207 --> 00:36:17,658
emotionally from his patients
was smart.

891
00:36:17,692 --> 00:36:19,522
What feeling?

892
00:36:19,556 --> 00:36:21,075
All this time, I don't --
I don't know how I missed it.

893
00:36:21,109 --> 00:36:22,835
Winston, what feeling?

894
00:36:22,870 --> 00:36:24,734
The disrespect.

895
00:36:24,768 --> 00:36:26,218
You're cold.

896
00:36:26,253 --> 00:36:28,462
And I don't respect it.

897
00:36:28,496 --> 00:36:36,090
♪♪

898
00:36:38,057 --> 00:36:39,507
Bailey,
w-w-where's Meredith?

899
00:36:39,542 --> 00:36:41,371
She's one of a kind.

900
00:36:41,406 --> 00:36:42,717
That's what I was trying to say.
She's one of a kind.

901
00:36:42,752 --> 00:36:44,029
A firecracker.

902
00:36:44,063 --> 00:36:45,479
Yeah.Any words at all, really.

903
00:36:45,513 --> 00:36:47,032
Look, she's, uh,
on her way to the airport.

904
00:36:47,066 --> 00:36:49,103
But look, there's cake
if you need some.

905
00:36:49,137 --> 00:36:50,069
You look like
you need some.

906
00:36:50,104 --> 00:36:52,658
♪♪

907
00:36:52,693 --> 00:36:56,524
Well, fine.
More for me.

908
00:36:56,559 --> 00:36:58,664
Woman over PA: This is the final
boarding call for Flight 623.

909
00:36:58,699 --> 00:37:00,079
Any remaining passengers,

910
00:37:00,114 --> 00:37:02,150
please proceed
to the gate at this time.

911
00:37:02,185 --> 00:37:06,879
♪♪

912
00:37:06,914 --> 00:37:10,918
♪ Hold steady

913
00:37:10,952 --> 00:37:14,715
♪ This heaviness

914
00:37:14,749 --> 00:37:15,681
♪ Will break

915
00:37:15,716 --> 00:37:16,820
Come on, come on, come on.

916
00:37:16,855 --> 00:37:18,719
♪ Through the ground

917
00:37:18,753 --> 00:37:22,723
♪♪

918
00:37:22,757 --> 00:37:26,554
♪ Take cover

919
00:37:26,589 --> 00:37:29,626
♪ What's underneath

920
00:37:29,661 --> 00:37:31,490
Oh, come on.

921
00:37:31,525 --> 00:37:32,905
[ Sighs ] Oh, my God.

922
00:37:32,940 --> 00:37:35,253
♪ Will find a way out

923
00:37:37,531 --> 00:37:38,532
Alright.

924
00:37:38,566 --> 00:37:40,292
Zola,
you can sit here.

925
00:37:40,327 --> 00:37:41,397
Guys, we're gonna
sit here.

926
00:37:43,019 --> 00:37:44,331
Go right in there.

927
00:37:44,365 --> 00:37:46,540
♪ Living in the lost

928
00:37:46,574 --> 00:37:48,507
[ Sighs ]

929
00:37:48,542 --> 00:37:52,546
[ Sighs ]
I'm never gonna make it.

930
00:37:52,580 --> 00:37:54,513
♪ Falling through the motions
like a sinking stone ♪

931
00:37:54,548 --> 00:37:56,343
Okay.

932
00:37:56,377 --> 00:37:58,103
♪ Living in the lost

933
00:37:58,137 --> 00:38:00,692
♪ Living in the lost

934
00:38:00,726 --> 00:38:03,867
♪ Seeking out the silence,
but you're never alone ♪

935
00:38:03,902 --> 00:38:05,731
♪ Living in the lost

936
00:38:05,766 --> 00:38:08,665
♪ Living in the lost

937
00:38:08,700 --> 00:38:12,497
Who wants to read the new
[singsong voice] Tessa book?

938
00:38:12,531 --> 00:38:14,568
Oh, Zola, I know these are
a little young for you,

939
00:38:14,602 --> 00:38:15,845
but this
is the last one ever.

940
00:38:15,879 --> 00:38:17,674
Ellis:
That's the book?

941
00:38:17,709 --> 00:38:19,435
[ Cellphone buzzes ]Yes, I got
an advanced copy.

942
00:38:21,747 --> 00:38:23,093
Hold on, guys.

943
00:38:24,509 --> 00:38:26,200
Hi.
We're on the plane.

944
00:38:26,234 --> 00:38:27,305
I love you.

945
00:38:29,445 --> 00:38:31,585
I fell in love with you
the first day I met you.

946
00:38:31,619 --> 00:38:34,242
I fell in love with you
the second day I met you.

947
00:38:34,277 --> 00:38:36,383
And I have loved you
every minute of every day

948
00:38:36,417 --> 00:38:38,005
that I have known you.

949
00:38:41,422 --> 00:38:43,528
Meredith?

950
00:38:43,562 --> 00:38:45,840
Um, I...

951
00:38:45,875 --> 00:38:47,359
Meredith?

952
00:38:47,394 --> 00:38:50,189
I can't quite
hear you.
Meredith?

953
00:38:50,224 --> 00:38:51,674
We're about to take off,

954
00:38:51,708 --> 00:38:55,160
so I'll call you
when we get settled.

955
00:38:55,194 --> 00:38:56,851
Meredith...

956
00:38:56,886 --> 00:38:58,370
Meredi--
[ Beep ]

957
00:39:00,614 --> 00:39:09,347
♪♪

958
00:39:09,381 --> 00:39:12,350
"I've flown rockets
and slayed dragons,

959
00:39:12,384 --> 00:39:16,526
I've saved lives
and I've had my life saved.

960
00:39:16,561 --> 00:39:19,149
I've been through broken
bones and a broken home

961
00:39:19,184 --> 00:39:22,463
and the death of people I love,
but I'm still here."

962
00:39:22,498 --> 00:39:24,258
[ Elevator bell dings ]

963
00:39:24,292 --> 00:39:26,467
"I never chose
the safety of what was known

964
00:39:26,502 --> 00:39:29,401
when there was the possibility
of more to be discovered."

965
00:39:29,436 --> 00:39:30,402
Hey.

966
00:39:30,437 --> 00:39:32,197
Hey.

967
00:39:32,231 --> 00:39:34,268
Could I stay
at your place tonight?

968
00:39:34,302 --> 00:39:37,582
♪♪

969
00:39:37,616 --> 00:39:40,136
"I've had adventures that
most people only dream about."

970
00:39:41,896 --> 00:39:43,726
♪ Nocturnal

971
00:39:43,760 --> 00:39:45,486
"And I've had losses
that I still dream about."

972
00:39:45,521 --> 00:39:49,179
♪ When the days and the nights
blend into one ♪

973
00:39:51,078 --> 00:39:52,562
"And if there's one thing
I've learned

974
00:39:52,597 --> 00:39:56,359
in all my adventures,
it's that there's no such thing

975
00:39:56,394 --> 00:39:59,397
as a life lived
happily ever after.

976
00:39:59,431 --> 00:40:03,470
Unless the happily means
simply that we're still alive.

977
00:40:03,504 --> 00:40:06,162
That the sun is rising
on another day.

978
00:40:06,196 --> 00:40:07,474
Because with every sunrise

979
00:40:07,508 --> 00:40:09,476
comes the possibility
of happiness

980
00:40:09,510 --> 00:40:12,479
and also the possibility
of heartache."

981
00:40:12,513 --> 00:40:15,067
[ Chuckles ]
Uh, what are you doing here?

982
00:40:15,102 --> 00:40:16,241
Grey gave me a key.

983
00:40:16,275 --> 00:40:18,139
She said there's a hole
in the attic,

984
00:40:18,174 --> 00:40:21,453
but if I don't mind overseeing
the repairs, I can stay here.

985
00:40:21,488 --> 00:40:23,490
"And sometimes it's all
rolled up together."

986
00:40:23,524 --> 00:40:26,113
Yeah, my Aunt Amelia
told me the same thing.

987
00:40:27,701 --> 00:40:29,461
[ Chuckles ]

988
00:40:29,496 --> 00:40:31,498
"I came to understand
as a very young child

989
00:40:31,532 --> 00:40:33,914
that when the imagination
is limitless,

990
00:40:33,948 --> 00:40:35,985
life's possibilities
are endless."

991
00:40:36,019 --> 00:40:39,091
When I got kicked out
of my residency,

992
00:40:39,126 --> 00:40:40,852
it also ended
my relationship.

993
00:40:40,886 --> 00:40:44,096
Had my dream job,
was planning my dream life,

994
00:40:44,131 --> 00:40:45,650
and then I didn't,
and I wasn't.

995
00:40:45,684 --> 00:40:47,306
"But I learned that
the hard way."

996
00:40:47,341 --> 00:40:49,861
It's not that
I don't feel things.

997
00:40:49,895 --> 00:40:51,034
It's that
I don't want to put

998
00:40:51,069 --> 00:40:56,074
you through
any kind of rebound.

999
00:40:56,108 --> 00:40:57,558
♪ Keep reaching and seeing if
I can just break my way out ♪

1000
00:40:57,593 --> 00:40:59,077
[ Chuckles ]

1001
00:40:59,111 --> 00:41:01,148
I-I mean,

1002
00:41:01,182 --> 00:41:03,357
I could be down
for a rebound.

1003
00:41:03,391 --> 00:41:05,221
[ Chuckles ]
Did you really just say that?

1004
00:41:05,255 --> 00:41:07,223
[ Both chuckle ]

1005
00:41:07,257 --> 00:41:08,914
Um, okay,
w-what I'm saying is,

1006
00:41:08,949 --> 00:41:10,571
you know, as long as
we call it what it is,

1007
00:41:10,606 --> 00:41:13,194
then no harm,
no foul, right?

1008
00:41:13,229 --> 00:41:15,093
Apparently
we live together

1009
00:41:15,127 --> 00:41:17,336
so that's
a really, uh...

1010
00:41:17,371 --> 00:41:19,166
[ Chuckles ]

1011
00:41:19,200 --> 00:41:21,375
...terrible idea.

1012
00:41:21,409 --> 00:41:22,549
Yeah.

1013
00:41:22,583 --> 00:41:24,861
♪ Oh

1014
00:41:24,896 --> 00:41:26,725
[ Exhales deeply ]

1015
00:41:28,175 --> 00:41:29,141
[ Chuckles ]

1016
00:41:29,176 --> 00:41:31,558
♪ Nocturnal

1017
00:41:31,592 --> 00:41:33,525
"I learned it through yearning
and frustration

1018
00:41:33,560 --> 00:41:35,423
and ache and longing

1019
00:41:35,458 --> 00:41:37,218
and sometimes desperation
for a life different

1020
00:41:37,253 --> 00:41:38,565
than the one I was living."

1021
00:41:38,599 --> 00:41:42,016
♪ Turned purple

1022
00:41:42,051 --> 00:41:46,262
♪ All the air that I had gone
from my lungs ♪

1023
00:41:47,608 --> 00:41:51,957
♪ Eyes are closing,
head spinning round ♪

1024
00:41:51,992 --> 00:41:53,890
"I learned to stretch
my imagination

1025
00:41:53,925 --> 00:41:55,616
and spread my wings,

1026
00:41:55,651 --> 00:41:58,550
and to allow for all
the options life had to offer."

1027
00:41:58,585 --> 00:42:02,071
♪♪

1028
00:42:02,105 --> 00:42:05,039
♪ Oh

1029
00:42:05,074 --> 00:42:08,042
"Not only the ones
I could see with my eyes.

1030
00:42:08,077 --> 00:42:10,873
I stretch for the ones
I could feel with my heart."

1031
00:42:13,220 --> 00:42:18,328
♪ Lost or found,
who am I now? ♪

1032
00:42:18,363 --> 00:42:20,676
Wow.

1033
00:42:20,710 --> 00:42:22,850
This is amazing.

1034
00:42:22,885 --> 00:42:26,613
♪ Before I hit the ground

1035
00:42:26,647 --> 00:42:29,201
[ Door closes ]♪ Lost or found

1036
00:42:29,236 --> 00:42:31,065
♪ Who am I now?

1037
00:42:31,100 --> 00:42:31,997
What are
you doing here?

1038
00:42:32,032 --> 00:42:33,689
What are
you doing here?

1039
00:42:33,723 --> 00:42:35,622
Uh, Dr. Pierce
gave me a key.

1040
00:42:35,656 --> 00:42:37,347
She said I could stay

1041
00:42:37,382 --> 00:42:39,349
if I fix up the hole
in the attic.

1042
00:42:41,731 --> 00:42:43,491
Same.
Same.

1043
00:42:43,526 --> 00:42:45,666
"As long as the sun rises
on your life..."

1044
00:42:45,701 --> 00:42:48,807
Then I guess we should have
brought sleeping bags.

1045
00:42:48,842 --> 00:42:51,638
"...there will be new
dragons to slay."

1046
00:42:51,672 --> 00:42:53,018
So, who wants pizza?

1047
00:42:53,053 --> 00:42:55,055
[ Chuckles ]

1048
00:42:55,089 --> 00:42:58,472
"So the end of my story is not
any kind of ever after.

1049
00:42:58,506 --> 00:43:00,232
Because I'm still alive.

1050
00:43:00,267 --> 00:43:02,234
I'm still here.

1051
00:43:02,269 --> 00:43:05,168
And the sun still
rises on my life."

1052
00:43:05,203 --> 00:43:08,827
♪ Break my way out

1053
00:43:08,862 --> 00:43:12,244
♪ Oh

1054
00:43:12,279 --> 00:43:13,521
♪ Oh

1055
00:43:13,556 --> 00:43:15,662
[ Sighs ]

1056
00:43:15,696 --> 00:43:23,393
♪♪

1057
00:43:28,778 --> 00:43:31,505
--Captions by VITAC--

1058
00:43:31,539 --> 00:43:40,169
♪♪

1059
00:43:40,203 --> 00:43:48,073
♪♪

1060
00:43:48,108 --> 00:43:56,116
♪♪