Into the scandalous lives of Manhattan's elite. Serena, where's Charles?
Mom, what's wrong? (Lily) Bart's been in an accident.
My father's dead because of your father.
My father met with you right before he died.
I want to know what you told him that night. It's no one's fault.
Yes, it is. It's your fault. His blood is on your hands.
I want you to come to Buenos Aires with me. I don't want to say no, but I have to.
My family is a disaster. Are you sure it's your family you don't want to leave?
I don't want you to go with him. Well, you're too late. I already told him I would.
Tell him you're not. It's not about Aaron. It's about our parents.
What about our parents? They're in love. I already asked my mom
not to follow her heart once. I'm not gonna do it again. Come away with me.
Let's take that trip we didn't take last year,
figure things out. There's something you need to know.
Just tell me one thing. Was it or boy or a girl?
I will stand by you through anything.
Why would you do that? Because I love you.
Well, that's too bad.
And who am I?
That's a secret I'll never tell.
You know you love me.
X.o.x.o., gossip girl.
Gossip girl here, welcoming you to the new year,
when manhattanites who flew south for the sun
return to their park Avenue perches,
which means I have a lot of catching up to do.
(Department of eagles) ♫ oh, oh, oh, oh ♫
Word is Serena Van Der Woodsen tangoed in the new year
in the plazas of Buenos Aires.
♫ Oh ♫
I guess that means lonely boy was all alone
when the clock tolled 12:00. And what of little j.?
There it is. Thank god.
Rumor is she's given up couture for tartan.
All right, go learn something.
Has she also renounced her rebellious ways?
So what did your dad say when you told him
you wanted to go back to constance?
Ha. Well, it wasn't so much words as a whoop.
No he actually called headmistress queller
at home at night on Christmas Eve.
Wow. So you know, I still don't understand your sudden flip. I don't know. I...
I guess it was the snowflake ball. I just felt 15 again
for a second, and it felt kind of good. I don't know.
Blair Waldorf has been spotted
making inroads at the colony club.
♫ Don't need to be... ♫
With high school nearing its end,
has queen b. Found a new social ladder to climb?
So there's still no word from Chuck?
M.i.a. Since the day after the funeral.
Uncle Jack went to go look for him. Wait. Since when do you have an uncle Jack?
It's Bart's younger brother.
He does something for bass industries in Australia.
He landed and kind of took charge. Somebody had to.
So the only real question remaining
is where in the world is Chuck bass?
♫ Oh, oh, oh ♫
And is he ever coming back?
♫ ...Like you ♫
Mm. Dad, hey.
I was just e-mailing Vanessa. Here. Let me take that.
Is she still up with her parents? Yeah. Yeah, you know, I didn't expect you back
until this afternoon. The search for my sculptor hit a dead end.
Sc... wait. I thought it was a painter.
Sculptor, painter... uh, he's sort of into mixed media.
Or she. Still not sure about that.
I can't believe you didn't find him or her.
Hey, it's good to see you. Hey.
Where's your sister? Oh, she left for school already.
Mm. Yeah, sigh of relief all around.
In fact, I should get going myself. Why don't I go with you?
Well, because I'm not a third grader anymore. Come on. We can catch up.
Today's the first day of your last semester.
Allow me a trip down nostalgia Lane. All right, that's fine. But no hugs.
Of course, the colony club is
the oldest, most prestigious ladies' club in the city.
I'm honored just to be considered.
Oh, miss Blair, they must take you as member.
They must do nothing, Dorota.
It's the colony club, the most exclusive club in New York,
which means the world.
Now when the selection committee comes over tomorrow,
things have to be perfect.
It's my first step to building the kind of life I want...
One without...
(Whispers) Mr. Chuck?
Shh.
It's a new year, Dorota...
Time to focus on a new, unencumbered future.
(Cell phone alert rings)
(Ring)
Then again... (Snaps cell phone shut)
To deny one's past is to deny one's self.
We'll discuss the party on our way.
So you really haven't thought about it? Jenny.
Yeah? I asked if you were nervous about Penelope
and the mean girls. Please, Eric. Really, in the past four months,
I have faced down Eleanor Waldorf,
I've hijacked a society gala, I had my entire collection
torched by a crazy model and was basically homeless,
so I can handle high school.
Okay, I'm a little nervous. (Chuckles nervously) Jenny, you're really here.
I was so happy when I heard you were coming back.
Wow. Um, thanks, Nelly. That's really nice.
Nelly? I think you need your prescription checked.
Do you realize who you're talking to?
And I don't see you holding
my double tall no foam dry cap with two splendas.
We'll have to punish her.
(Hazel) Hmm.
(Jenny scoffs)
Is that always how they treat you?
Why would you put up with that?
She's been gone a-a while. If I even dreamed of defecting,
Penelope and the others would make my life hell
or more hell.
(Speaks indistinctly)
I-I better go. I'm glad you're back.
Thanks.
So Nelly yuki is
the new old Jenny Humphrey.
Hey. Uh, you can't get involved.
I know. It's...
I know.
Blair.
You came to greet us.
No you, Jack. Chuck. You said you found him.
In Bangkok. He was staying at our hotel there.
I mean, you hear the term "den of iniquity,"
but until you really see it... Do you have him or not?
Nephew mine?
On est arrivée.
Tell his teachers he'll be taking a personal day.
Why are you following me?
Go home and get ready for my party.
Yes, miss Blair.
You got me here safe and sound, so... Yeah. Uh, l-let's, uh, make a plan for tonight.
I missed you on Christmas and new year's.
(Cell phone ringing) Hold on.
(School bell rings) All right.
Rufus Humphrey. Mr. Humphrey, this is Beth
from child services in Dorchester.
Yeah. Thanks for calling me back. Uh, in response to your query,
unfortunately, we don't have any record of such an adoption.
I spent the last two weeks striking out
at every adoption agency in Boston,
so I'm not exactly surprised. You know, most likely, this was a private adoption.
Your only Avenue is to check with the mother,
the one who gave up the child? Yeah, I know. I-I was actually about to do that.
Um, I guess I was just hoping there was another way.
Hey.
Hey. You're back.
Yeah. Just. I literally drove here from the airport.
Well, you look tan.
Well, it is summer in Buenos Aires.
That's right. Southern hemisphere,
beauty of a round globe... I broke up with Aaron.
Oh.
When?
How about three hours after we left New York?
Which was maybe not the brightest idea
on a 15-hour flight.
When I landed, I got an e-mail from my mom
saying that she and your dad weren't gonna be together,
now or ever. I know. I tried calling you before you left.
If you knew, you... I-I mean, you know, you could have
called or... or e-mailed.
Of course, unless you didn't want to.
No. I needed to make sure
that when the dust settled, we still felt the same.
And do you?
Yes.
Do you?
Spotted... s. And lonely boy
kicking off the new year like it's last year.
But knowing these two,
I wouldn't crack open the bubbly just yet.
(School bell rings)
(Indistinct conversations)
B.!
Oh! I missed you so much.
Not as much as I missed you.
Mm. Hey, did, uh, Jack ever find Chuck? Yeah, what was left of him.
I'm surprised they made it through customs.
Chuck's body odor could have given a contact high
to half of Manhattan. Oh.
S., I have to tell you something.
I did something so stupid. B., what is it?
I told Chuck I loved him. Oh, my gosh. That's great.
Great? No, it's awful. Not only did he not say it back,
but he disappeared for a month.
If I could just go back
and strangle myself as the words come out. No, I'm sure Chuck will say it back.
He was probably thinking about you the whole time he was gone.
Not unless I was a thai hooker named Bo.
And there's something else. Hey.
Oh. Hey. This is my news. When I was in Buenos Aires...
A postcard would have been fine.
I'm really happy for you. I'm gonna go vomit now.
Happy new year. She just needs time.
Mm-hmm. Hey, listen. I have an idea.
Uh, your last class today... Is is... is it,
by any chance, incredibly "unmissably" fascinating?
Why? Do you have something in mind? Mm-hmm.
Hello, Rufus.
Lily.
How was your...
I want to know where my child is.
We already talked about that.
Do you realize I had to say, "my child"
because I still don't know if it's a boy or girl? I shouldn't have come.
I just spent the last two weeks
knocking on the door of every adoption agency in Boston,
hoping to avoid this conversation.
But they all told me I had to ask the mother, so I'm asking.
I told you before Christmas. When I gave him up...
So it's a boy. That's something, I guess. I also gave up the right to go looking for him,
and I'm not gonna allow you to bulldoze into his life.
It's not fair.
How is that fair to me? When was I asked if I was okay with it?
'Cause it's just you not wanting anyone to find out.
Oh, no. I've given up on that. Charles already knows,
although I actually believe he won't say anything. I have a right to know my son.
And he has the right to his own life,
just like you've had yours.
I was gonna be a rock star, remember?
Instead I had two kids, and I was there to take them
to school every morning and talk about their days at night.
And if someone came to me and said I could trade that
for the life I wanted when I was 19, I wouldn't.
Being a father's who I am.
Don't take that away.
I'm sorry. I can't.
Then I'll find him without your help.
(Slurps)
(Temporary thing) ♫ yesterday I was blue ♫
♫ I was crying over you ♫
(Jenny sighs)
They treat her like their servant. And it is none of your business.
It's a new year, remember? New leaf, new Jenny Humphrey.
Yeah.
Um, Nelly?
(Theme from "the godfather" plays)
Okay, no. That's not okay.
And here we go.
Hi. Penelope, can I talk to you for a second?
So I don't mean to intrude on your authority or whatever,
but... could you maybe be a little nicer to Nelly?
Sure. Why not?
Really?
We're not monsters, j. Nelly's our friend.
Oh, look at that. Nelly, can you help me...
As a friend?
Oh, not with a napkin. It smudges.
(Hazel laughs) Use your finger.
Okay, no. That's enough.
Nelly, let's go.
Do you know what you're doing, little j.?
I'm not little j. Anymore. Thank you so much.
Just keep walking.
Hazel?
Clean my shoe.
You want to get kicked out?
Hello to you, too, lover. Long time no see. Put that out.
You didn't say the magic word. What are you even doing here?
You should be passed out or hooked up to an I.V.
I didn't want to miss the first day of school...
Though it looks like I already did. That's the only reason you came here?
Not because you had something to tell me? Like what?
You know like what. Look at me.
Who are you?
Chuck bass.
Please tell me that's not what I think it is.
(Giggles)
Oh. Uh...
Hey, dad.
Um, you know, Serena was... she was...
We're busted. (Chuckles nervously) (Chuckles nervously)
Hi, Mr. Humphrey. Happy new year.
Serena. So you two are back together?
Yeah. Right? I mean, we... yeah, we are. We're back together.
I think Serena should be getting home.
What? Uh...
No.
I don't like the two of you being here alone when I'm not.
(Scoffs) Are you... Are you kidding?
Dan, this is my home. I-I would appreciate if you respect that.
Yeah, I-I should go. Um, it's a school night,
and I haven't seen my mom yet, so...
Okay, yeah. I'll... I'll get you a cab.
Good night, Mr. Humphrey.
I'm telling you...
This is a mistake.
Miss Waldorf, this is not normal.
Headmistress queller,
and as Mrs. Bass is...
Van Der Woodsen. My father is dead.
Is indisposed with grief.
Someone has to be here, so I am.
Sorry I'm late.
Jack bass, Chuck's uncle.
How are you?
Uncle Jack. What a surprise.
How have you been?
Uh-huh. So you don't remember our rickshaw ride
down selon road? The 15-hour flight? That was you?
(Whispers) That was me. Thank you, Jack, but I've got this covered.
I figured, principal's office,
a boys needs a parent or a guardian.
Parents being dead... sorry, Chuck... I'm the closest thing,
so what seems to be the problem? I found Charles smoking marijuana on school property.
It was hash, actually.
I find it gives a softer high.
Right.
The evidence seems questionable.
Would you stop?
I think we can all agree
that Charles has been through an ordeal.
He's clearly out of his right mind
and can't be held responsible for his actions.
It's temporary insanity.
Headmistress,
no court of law could find him guilty of a crime. How can we?
Mr. Bass has been through a lot.
Do you promise me
that nothing like this will ever happen again?
Pop quiz... what do you get when you cross Chuck bass,
a billion dollars and Bart cold in the ground?
For you, headmistress...
Anything.
Everyone...
It has been a pleasure.
Freefall.
So what kind of suspension are we looking at?
Hey, Dan.
Morning, Jen.
♫ Out on the street ♫
♫ I heard the march of a million strong ♫
Okay. What's with the cold front? Nothing. Eat your breakfast.
Dad doesn't want me dating Serena. Wait. What? You guys are back together?
How did I not know this? I'd rather we didn't discuss this right now.
Dad, Serena's, like, the best thing
that's ever happened to Dan. I mean, she's smart,
she's funny, and she's, like, nine levels hotter than him. Thank you. But she's right.
Come on. Get onboard. Dan, Serena. Dan, Serena. Whoo!
Okay. Dad is not into cheering.
Am I really supposed to pretend like this has nothing to do
with what happened between you and Lily before Christmas? Wait. What happened with him and Lily?
What happened between you and Lily? It's none of your business.
Oh, so you can tell me not to date Serena,
but I can't say anything about you and Lily? Him and Lily what? Somebody, please.
I think you need to leave for school. Oh, you're not gonna walk me today?
I'm heartbroken.
(Door shuts) Okay, dad. Seriously?
You're gonna be late. No, I'm not.
Yes, I am. (Clears throat)
Dan, wait up. (Door shuts)
(School bell rings)
Nelly has put in a full year of loyal service.
She should be allowed to leave without reprisals.
For example, people breaking into her locker
and smashing her glasses.
I see. Rebuttal?
(Sighs) First, there has been a long tradition
of newer members being subjected to more... attention,
some of the things I had to do? Disgusting.
Oh, I remember. I made you do them.
But more importantly, once people find out you can quit,
the girls at the steps will be finished.
Come on, Blair. What's your decision?
Tonight I'm hosting the selection committee
of the colony club. You're getting into the colony club?
They never take girls from high school.
I know. I was surprised, too. That's not entirely true.
The point is, enough of this high school nonsense.
Nelly or no Nelly, who cares?
I have enough going on already.
God!
Blair's leaving us behind.
It's like the end of an era.
We're more than any one member,
and the only way Nelly is leaving is in a body bag.
God, p., tone down the crazy. (Chuckles)
(Scoffs)
When I left for Argentina, my mom acted like she and your dad
were riding off into the sunset together,
then three hours later, he tells you it's over.
(Sighs) We were so happy for ourselves.
We... we never asked what happened between them.
And so... so what do we do? I don't know, but we have to do something, Dan.
I need to talk to you.
Yeah, I'm... I'll see you later.
Have you seen Chuck today? No. Why?
Did he come home last night? No, Blair, I don't know. What's wrong?
Yesterday queller caught him smoking hash at school.
There was a meeting,
and to say it went badly would be an understatement.
I'm worried.
Blair, it's Chuck.
He's somewhere blowing off steam. It's what he does.
He'll show up in a couple days
minus a few million brain cells and some liver tissue.
That's true.
He always disappeared.
Marrakech, Prague.
And he always came back,
tie perfectly knotted.
But this time,
when I looked in his eyes...
(Voice breaks) I couldn't see him anymore.
You're really worried.
Okay, um, okay. Uh, just give it till tonight,
and if he hasn't shown up, we'll help you.
I gotta get to class. I'm sorry.
(Sniffles)
Dorota, is everything ready for the colony ladies?
No, not yet. I have somewhere to go first.
(Magic bullet's "will Scarlet" playing)
Ow. Watch it! Sorry.
Oh, my god.
They've got our table. (Scoffs)
Here they come. Just let me do the talking.
I think I'm gonna be sick. Yeah, try not to do that.
Isabel's gonna count to three.
If you've not vanished by then, I will not be responsible.
One...
(Indistinct conversations)
Actually, I'd grab a table. They're filling up pretty fast.
Sit anywhere, guys. The tables belong to everyone.
(Girl) Come on.
Two?
You're gonna pay for this, Jenny Humphrey. I promise.
You will pay.
So should I keep counting?
Oh, shut up, is.
Daddy? I need you to call headmistress queller.
There's a girl bullying me.
(Sohodolls) ♫ I thought you put me in rapture ♫
♫ I never asked you to dump her ♫
♫ I thought you knew we'd have a high life ♫
♫ ba dubba ba dubba ♫
(Laughs)
♫ still I see your philosophy ♫
♫ falling through my tainted mind ♫
♫ would you dig my dirt? 'Cause I'm so desolate ♫
Hello, Chuck.
I thought I'd find you here.
Blair.
Ladies, could you give us a moment?
I thought you sold this place.
I bought it back last night. Owner took me to the cleaners,
but some things are worth the price.
You should go home. Lily, Serena, Eric...
That is not my home or my family.
Fine. Go to the palace.
Just get out of here.
Well, that would be rude
since I'm throwing a party here tonight.
I just posted it on "gossip girl."
Maybe you'll grace us with a dance.
Chuck, stop.
All this doesn't help. It isn't you.
Wrong.
Bart may have been a bastard,
but he saw me better than anyone.
I'm simply living up to my potential.
It's time to let go of your fantasies.
I don't believe you.
That's your business.
(Sighs)
Now is that it,
or were you going to tell me you love me again?
Why did you even come back?
Dad?
So what are we looking for again?
Uh, notes, messages, anything that seems tied to my mom.
I don't... I don't see why I had to come.
He doesn't want me here.
I figure he's less likely to murder me with witnesses.
Yes. That makes sense.
Oh, my god.
He asked my mom to marry him, and she said no.
That's why he's angry. Yeah, that's my mom's ring.
She gave it back to him before Christmas.
It was a... It was a good theory, though. Oh. (Chuckles)
(Cell phone chiming) Oh.
It's Blair. She... she needs me. I have to go.
Call me if you find something.
And what if he tries to kill me?
(Laughing)
(Telephone rings)
(Woman) South Boston adoption agency.
New year, schmoo year.
Nothing ever changes.
The darkest secrets
are the ones buried closest to home.
Hello?
Miss Blair, where have you been?
The colony club ladies will be here.
I just need ten minutes.
(Crying)
(Inhales and exhales deeply)
What happened? (Sighs) Penelope and the girls
got their parents to call queller.
They say I'm bullying them.
Wow. Oh, my god, I... th-that is kind of genius. (Chuckles)
(Sighs) She wants me to try to handle it by myself,
which basically means, roll over and take it.
I don't even understand.
Why won't Penelope just let you quit? She's probably afraid
I'll tell people she's sleeping with her dad's junior partner.
I mean, the things I know...
No. Penelope would kill me... Literally.
Yeah. We'll see.
How much do you know?
Dan, if you're here to argue... What were you looking for in Boston?
I-I know it's not a painter and I know it's not a sculptor,
or... or whatever story it was you couldn't keep straight.
H-hold on. How do...
Uh, did, uh, Chuck bass say something to you?
Chuck ba... what?
Wh... so wait, y-you're telling me
that Chuck bass knows something about our life,
and I don't know?
I can't talk to you about this right now.
You know, if it was just your life, I would say fine.
But it's not. It's... it's mine, and it's Serena's.
I think we have a right to know. I agree, but there are other people involved.
Let me take a wild guess and say Lily. Just give me a day.
There's a right way for all of us to talk about this. Yeah. Well, we're... we're past that.
Hey, b., is everything okay? I came as fast as I could.
Fine. False alarm.
Wait, what happened?
Chuck.
He's holed up at victrola
in some Jim Morrison downward spiral.
Sad in a way. Luckily, it's not my concern.
Thank you for coming. (Elevator bell dings)
Dorota! I think my guests from the colony club are here!
Wait, if Chuck is really in trouble,
then we need to help him.
He doesn't have any brothers and sisters.
We are all he has. You are all he has. He doesn't want my help.
(Woman) Oh, hello. Please take my jacket. So that's just it?
You're gonna abandon him for a bunch of society matrons?
Those matrons, as you call them, are helping me build a life.
All Chuck can do is destroy one. (Woman speaks indistinctly)
I'm not abandoning Chuck. I'm just saving myself.
Now if you'll excuse me...
Hi, ladies. Glad you could make it. Come on in.
(Unkle featuring the Duke spirit's "mayday" playing)
♫♫
♫ I ebb and... ♫
♫ you flow ♫
♫ it's a bit screwed ♫
♫ but you can't catch my love ♫
That's the problem with an open invitation.
You can't keep out the hoi polloi.
What do you know about my dad and Lily?
So the cat's out of the bag.
(Sighs) I-I found some numbers.
My... my dad was supposed to be in Boston looking for an artist.
He was, uh... apparently visiting some orphanages.
How dickensian.
(Sighs) Chuck, I need to know this.
♫♫
You know, the funny thing is,
I was going to keep Lily's secret.
You buried the arson story on my dad.
This makes us even.
You're not the first-born Humphrey,
so if you were planning on inheriting the family estate,
I'd make other arrangements.
Um... that... that... That's not possible.
I mean, my dad... Lily and her mother kept it a secret,
gave the kid away.
I imagine your dad just found out.
♫ These stars are... ♫
And now there's only one more person to tell.
Of course, as soon as you do, it's over between you, isn't it?
Sharing a sibling?
It's a bit much, even for me.
Spotted... Lonely boy at the victrola,
having a heart-to-heart with s.'S now ex-stepbrother.
Let's hope Chuck bass wasn't spilling any family secrets.
The colony club exemplified the highest ideals of character.
Public service...
I frequently feed the ducks in central park.
And read to blind children.
Impressive.
However, for better or worse,
we are known by the company we keep.
Tell me,
was that Serena Van Der Woodsen who came earlier?
Yes. She's an old friend.
I see her quite a bit on page six.
And... quite a bit of her.
(Women laugh)
Well, when I said she was an old friend,
it was... habit.
I don't...
Can't approve of how she lives her life.
(Woman) Hmm. (Woman) Mm.
And her mother married Bart bass.
The man was all new money and models.
If you ask me, that car hitting him was a mercy killing. (Woman laughs)
I hear bass junior is a piece of work.
You wouldn't have anything to do with him, would you?
Well, I...
Blair, the answer is "no."
Yes. I mean, no.
I have to go.
That "piece of work"... Chuck bass... needs me.
And Serena and her mother are wonderful, kind people.
Blair...
Do you know what you're doing?
I thought I was leaving high school behind.
I guess you never do.
Dorota will get your coats.
(Shiny toy guns' "ricochet!" Playing)
♫ when I focus, I never miss ♫
♫ it starts with a kiss ♫ ♫ la la la, la la la ♫
♫ she ricochets ♫
♫ and you don't notice ♫
♫ she's in your head ♫
♫ and you just don't notice ♫
♫ she ricochets ♫
♫ and you don't notice ♫
(Eric) Welcome back.
How was Thailand?
♫ And you just don't notice ♫
I honestly don't remember.
You should come home, Chuck.
♫ Notice, notice, notice, notice, notice ♫
♫ notice, notice, notice, notice, notice, notice ♫
I think I'll take the view from above.
It was nice having you as my little brother.
♫♫
(Cell phone chiming)
♫ let the sweat fall, find me in the back stall ♫
♫ let it snow down, now we're gonna deck halls ♫
♫ I hit the bulls-eye, making all the boys cry ♫
(Indistinct conversations)
Eric, where's little j.?
I imagine busy cleaning out her locker.
Actually...
I just got done writing a "gossip girl" post,
saying how, Penelope, for the past six months,
you've been having an affair with your dad's junior partner.
And, Hazel... you got drunk
and hooked up with your cousin... twice. Oh, my god.
And, Isabel...
Do I even have to say? No.
Those things were told to you in confidence! No, more like stupidity.
And unless you get your parents to back off
and you start leaving Nelly alone, I hit "send." Duh, you win.
I know.
So what are you gonna do about the collegiate party tomorrow?
What? What are you talking about?
Don't play the innocent. You wanted queen, you've got it.
Wait. (Chuckles) That's what you think I did all this for? Didn't you?
No. No, not at all. You're telling me this was just a good deed?
Oh, my god. I'm so bored.
Okay... Big miscalculation.
See, I kind of thought, coming back to school,
you did wanna be queen. Oh, that's not good.
And I was never gonna move past Hazel and is,
but I thought maybe if there was a new regime... Wait, you played me?
You... Nelly yuki? And now she wants to go to the collegiate party.
I'm sorry, Jenny.
Penelope!
Really, though?
Wow. (Laughs)
So everything... is exactly the same. Nothing changed.
Everything but you.
Okay. (Laughs) Hot chocolate?
Let me get my coat. Yeah.
(Laughs)
(Exhales deeply)
(Elevator bell dings)
Rufus. Your message said it was urgent. Has something happened?
Dan knows, or... He doesn't yet,
but I think he will soon.
And then I imagine he'll tell Serena,
and... I thought you should know.
Rufus, wait.
What will they think of me?
Who, Serena and Eric?
Well, it's not my problem. We're each on our own, remember?
Look, you already hate me. What if they hate me, too?
I gave away their... (Voice breaks) Their brother.
(Normal voice) I wasn't ready.
I was young and scared...
Heartbroken over you.
And Cece kept pressuring me.
But the truth is, I wasn't ready to have a baby.
(Sighs deeply)
And it's been a hole in my life ever since.
I understand
why you gave him up.
But it's that you didn't tell me.
Oh, Rufus, please...
I don't hate you, lil...
As much as I want to.
Neither will your kids.
But you've had 20 years to make peace with this.
It's gonna take me some time.
What do you wanna know?
♫♫
Hey.
Hey. What are you doing here?
Uh, weirdly enough, I-I came to see Chuck. Me, too.
♫♫
Is everything okay? Did you find something in the loft?
Kind of. Uh, can we... can we go to... somewhere to talk...
Privately, without all of... this? Okay.
♫♫
Blair!
Aren't you a little old to be here? Hmm? (Laughs)
I heard my nephew is throwing the first big party of the year.
And I have to say, he does the bass name proud.
I can see you've been a wonderful influence on him.
Oh, hey, Eric. Have you seen Chuck? Uh, a while ago.
He said something about wanting to take in the view from above.
He probably meant upstairs.
Clearly, you don't know Chuck. He has a thing for rooftops.
Enjoy.
♫♫
♫ Farewell ♫
♫ and adieu ♫
♫ to you ♫
♫ Spanish ladies ♫
♫ farewell ♫
♫ and adieu ♫
♫ to you ♫
♫♫
One thing about being on top of the world...
It gives you a long, long way to fall.
Oops.
Chuck!
(Blair) No!
God, you idiot! You don't surprise someone
standing off the edge of a building! Chuck, come away from there.
Let's go down and join the party.
I was at the party. I'm not really that into it.
Chuck, your father wouldn't have wanted this. Dear old dad.
Unfortunately, all I know is what he didn't want...
Which was me.
I'm Chuck bass!
No one cares.
I do.
Don't you understand?
I'll always be here.
I don't want you going anywhere.
I couldn't bear it.
So whatever you want to do to yourself,
please don't do that to me.
Please.
(Chuck) I'm sorry.
(Sniffles) It's okay.
Hey, what... whatever it is, you can tell me.
No, yeah, I-I know. But it's...
Uh, it's our parents. They...
(Cell phone rings) Hold on.
(Ring)
Just...
Yeah, dad, what's going on?
(Sighs) Do you know?
Yeah, I do.
Have you told Serena?
W-well, I was... I was about to.
I'm with Lily. We're about to go look for our child.
Dad, that... Lily wants to tell Serena and Eric herself.
Dad, no. I... you can't ask me to hide this from Serena.
This is too big to keep secret.
Son, this isn't your secret to share.
This is between mother and daughter.
I know it's hard, but you have to respect that.
Yeah. Okay.
Thanks, son. I'll call you soon.
He should go back to Lily's.
He'll just take off again.
I've got a better chance keeping an eye on him.
So you know, I don't trust you.
All I want is what's best for my nephew.
And as for trusting me, do you really have a choice?
He can't know what happened on new year's.
Good night, Blair.
(White lies' "e.S.T." Playing)
♫♫
Ah, me. The year's scarcely turned,
and already the secrets have begun.
♫♫
Where will it end this time?
What is it?
Uh, it's... that was my dad.
Uh, he... he and Lily are going away for a couple days.
And... and you're worried what'll happen to us.
Hey.
(Sighs)
It's fine. We're gonna be okay.
The new year isn't about what happened,
it's about what's to come.
♫♫
But the past is always with us,
just waiting to mess with the present,
and when it does, I'll be watching.
X.o.x.o., gossip girl.