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Do you know where he is?

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I know what I need to do.

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No one should tell me
how I feel.

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It's not right.

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Tennis turn, 47 down.

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Oh, hey!

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Is Sam in here?
Do you guys know where he is?

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{\an8}- Uh...
- He's in his room.

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- What?
- My heart stopped for a second.

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It was like seeing--
I was like...

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It's a new week, and this
week, we are in Seattle.

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We're back in the US.

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I've never been to
Seattle before.

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Seattle is known
as the Emerald City,

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and it's because it's
green here year round,

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so it's beautiful here.

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Hello, Seattle!

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Jenn!

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Back to the States.

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Last week in
New Zealand,

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I was able to break down
my walls with the guys.

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I felt so seen by each
and every one of them.

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But next week is hometowns.

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I can see my future
with all of them.

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So it's all about figuring
out who those four guys

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are going to be,
that I'm going to meet

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their families next week.

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Like, it scares me
because I'm going to send

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home a really strong connection.

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It's probably going to be one
of the hardest decisions yet.

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It's not going to be easy.

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On Joey's season,
I was sent home the week

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before hometowns,
and at that time,

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I know all the feelings I had,
and I can only imagine

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where these guys are at now,
and so that's why this week

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is going to be so hard for me,
is because these are

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serious relationships
at this point.

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{\an8}I think I just want to talk to
someone who's done this before.

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{\an8}- Oh, my goodness.
- Oh, my goodness.

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{\an8}Charity's been
the Bachelorette.

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She's found love in this same
journey, and that's what I want.

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I hope that I can get some
really good advice from Charity.

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I've been dying to talk to
you, actually.

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- Yes.
- Please.

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Okay, well,
I just want to see, like,

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how you're holding up
with everything

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because I know it's a lot.
- Yeah, I mean, like,

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Hometowns is next week.

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- Oh, my gosh.
- I just don't want to make

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the wrong decision.
-I know.

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It's always going to
be like a what if a little bit.

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- Yeah.
- Which is hard.

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It's hard to come to terms with.
- Like, how did you discern

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like what you needed
from certain people,

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like, you know?
- Yeah, I literally had

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a list of everyone's names,
and like every week

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when I would talk to them,
I would write down something

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else that was like a quality
that, you know,

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that they brought.
- That's smart.

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I should have done that.
- It's okay.

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You still have time.

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So when I like would reflect,
I had to, like,

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look deeper at like things
that I wanted.

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And then what do I need
from them?

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I do still have
seven guys here.

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- Okay.
- And to, like, have to dwindle

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that down to four
is honestly really,

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really hard for me.

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- Let's do it, boys.
- Oh, it's the needle.

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Oh, whoa! Look at that.

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Do you
feel like any of

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the guys are,
like, holding back?

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I think Sam's holding
back a little bit.

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He does remind me a lot of,
like, my previous.

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Like, guys I've gone for,
in a sense, where we had, like,

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this physical connection,
and I think there's more to be,

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like, explored with,
like, emotionally.

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Is this just, like, physical?
Like, what is it?

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And I think that's maybe
the part that is scaring me.

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Then there's Jeremy.
- Okay.

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Jeremy is someone
who I laugh with nonstop.

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Like, I feel like 110%
myself with him.

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Like, we have the same
exact sense of humor.

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- Yeah.
- But I don't know if

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there's going to be more there.

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- Yeah.
- Um, Marcus is holding

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back a little bit.
-You think?

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I think he's expressed that
it's hard for him to be

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vulnerable, which makes me want
to hold back a little bit, too.

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But I do agree.
Like, this week is huge,

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and I want to feel confident
in giving out these roses

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and knowing that
there is a future there.

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Yeah. Do you, like,
see yourself at the end of it,

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like being engaged?

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I do really feel
like I can get there with some

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of those guys,
and I'm excited for it.

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Like, I'm more excited
than I am nervous.

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It's going to be
super worth it.

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And I'm so happy.
- I'm so excited.

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- Give me a hug.
- Yes. Thank you so much.

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Thank you.

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- Whoa!
- Oh, here we are.

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{\an8}We are in the Emerald
City, my old stomping grounds.

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{\an8}So it's kind of a full circle
moment to to come back with,

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{\an8}like, a full heart and
the prospect of love with Jenn.

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This is better than anything
that I could have ever

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dreamt up for myself.

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- What does it look like?
- Oh!

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- Oh!
- Nice!

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So cool!

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The hotel,
it's beautiful.

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You know, it's like an
old school, like, classic vibe.

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Oh, I'm so excited.
This is going to be the town

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{\an8}where I find out if
I'm going to hometowns or not.

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I know I'm falling for Jenn,
so I cannot wait to see whatever

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dates I'm on
this week with Jenn.

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Pressure's on, boys.
A rose this week means

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she wants to meet your family.

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I feel like we're in an area now
where everything is intimate.

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Obviously that's what I want,
but man, this week,

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I'm really just
looking forward to,

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you know, I can bring
her back home to mom and pops

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and the rest
of my family and stuff.

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Just excited for this week, man.

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It's super exciting to
know that Jenn is going to come

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{\an8}home to hopefully meet my family
and the people that I love.

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Yeah, now it's just one
of those things

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about being selfish with time.

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So, you know,
obviously I want the one on one.

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{\an8}So obviously everybody wants to
be the one that gets that

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{\an8}one on one time with Jenn.

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{\an8}But I think with Sam,
he's a cocky guy,

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and I've always known
that there is something

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different about him,
and I know that he's just

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not right for Jenn,
and everybody's entitled

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to their own opinion,
and I have my own opinion.

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- Hey, got a date card.

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I know I haven't had
the one on one yet.

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Saving the best for last.

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{\an8}It might just be delusion
at this point, but I feel--

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{\an8}I still feel
like there's something strong

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between me and Jenn,
so I'm expecting

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to get a one on one.

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- Oh.
- Whoa! Whoa!

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What the hell?

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"Marcus,
let's find love in Emerald City.

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Love, Jenn."
- Okay.

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Very excited. I'm dying to see
what's inside of that box.

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I just had my name called for
another one on one.

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Feeling on top of the world.

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I think that Jenn and I could
be great for each other.

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- Oh, God.
- Ooh!

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It's a letterman.

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Yeah.
What do you guys think it means?

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- Oh, bro.
- I haven't worn one of these

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since high school, man.

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No idea what the letterman
jacket is for, but, uh,

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{\an8}I'm buzzing right now.

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If I get a rose tonight,
that means that Jenn

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will be meeting my family,

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and that is the biggest
deal to me.

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{\an8}Because without them,
I'm nothing.

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{\an8}So like it's crucial.

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But my only fear would be
kind of getting in my own way

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and kind of keeping up a guard
and getting sent home.

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I think sometimes the scariest
thing that you can do is, like,

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open yourself up
to the possibility of love.

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I feel like I'm, like,
bracing for impact right now.

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You're like, "Oh, relax."
But you're like--

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but what if I get hurt?

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Today's my first one on one
date here in Seattle.

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And it's going to be
with Marcus.

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It is our second
one on one date together,

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and this is huge for us.

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Like, I have so many feelings
for him.

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And we have a strong connection,

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but Marcus tends to hold
back a little bit.

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You know,
next week is hometowns,

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and if we can't push past that,
I think it would be

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detrimental to our relationship.

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I want to keep growing
and moving forward.

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So the stakes are high today.

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- Hello.

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- I'm so excited.
- Nice jacket.

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Today is
so important to me.

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Having my name called for
this second one on one,

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the timing couldn't be
more perfect.

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{\an8}So today's a big deal for me.

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- I missed you.
- Missed you, too.

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Good. Okay, well, I have a
little special surprise for you.

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- I'm ready.

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Jesse!

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Hi!
Look at this jacket.

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We kind of match a little bit.

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We do match.
Welcome to Seattle, you two.

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- Thank you.
- Thank you.

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Well, let's talk about
your date today.

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Today is all about
the magical road to love.

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And I'm sure you both know
by now

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the journey is the best part,
and since we're here

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in beautiful Seattle,
also known as the Emerald City,

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I thought it would be
so much fun to celebrate

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the new movie <i>Wicked,</i>

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which hits
theaters this Thanksgiving.

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The movie is all about love,
it's about adventure,

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and it's also
about understanding

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someone's true character.

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All of very important parts
of today's date.

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I've seen
the musical <i>Wicked.</i>

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For me personally,
what I love about it is the idea

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that there's so much more to a
person than what meets the eye.

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And today with Marcus,
I want to be able to see

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if our relationship
can continue to grow.

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So what do you say?

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- Let's do it.
- Let's do it.

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All right. Let's get your
adventure started.

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Whoo!

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I do feel
a little guarded still.

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Jenn has definitely
encouraged me

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to open up and to be vulnerable.

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I missed you.

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- Whoo!

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I struggle to let
people in my life.

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But for Jenn,
all I want to do is try

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to be open to the possibility
of being vulnerable

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and, you know, finding love.

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Now it's time for the two of
you to begin your own adventure.

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Here we go.

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Whoa!

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These big green
curtains open.

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{\an8}And in front of Jenn
and I are Kelsey and Daisy.

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{\an8}And there's a yellow brick road,
and yeah, I still have no idea

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{\an8}what's happening.

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- Oh, my God!

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- How's it going?
- Nice to meet you.

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Daisy and Kelsey are here.

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I could not be happier
to see them.

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You know, they're two people
who I got to know

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really close on Joey's season,
and to have them a part

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of this journey means so much.

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Jenn and Marcus,
we're so excited

242
00:10:37,763 --> 00:10:39,681
to be here on your love journey.

243
00:10:39,681 --> 00:10:42,434
You know that I found the love
of my life on this same journey.

244
00:10:42,434 --> 00:10:45,395
I know that you're going to find
yours very soon.

245
00:10:45,395 --> 00:10:48,273
Me and Kelsey did find
an unexpected friendship.

246
00:10:48,273 --> 00:10:51,068
Much like Glinda and Elphaba
from <i>Wicked.</i>

247
00:10:51,068 --> 00:10:52,903
And along this
yellow brick road,

248
00:10:52,903 --> 00:10:55,614
you're gonna find a bunch
of surprises from me and Kelsey.

249
00:10:55,614 --> 00:10:58,408
At each stop, you'll have to be
honest with your preferences,

250
00:10:58,408 --> 00:11:00,952
but make a final decision
together, because that's what

251
00:11:00,952 --> 00:11:02,871
a relationship is all about.

252
00:11:02,871 --> 00:11:04,748
So good luck.

253
00:11:04,748 --> 00:11:06,750
- And have fun!
- And have fun!

254
00:11:06,750 --> 00:11:09,127
- Thank you. Awesome.
- Have fun!

255
00:11:09,127 --> 00:11:10,921
Love you.

256
00:11:10,921 --> 00:11:13,757
Kelsey and Daisy
let us know that finding

257
00:11:13,757 --> 00:11:17,135
and falling in love is all
about choices and compromise.

258
00:11:17,135 --> 00:11:19,012
Which one do you want to pick?
I know which one I want.

259
00:11:19,012 --> 00:11:20,764
I know which one
I want to pick.

260
00:11:20,764 --> 00:11:23,308
And they set us on the task
to do exactly that.

261
00:11:23,308 --> 00:11:24,601
- Three, two, one...
- Three, two, one...

262
00:11:24,601 --> 00:11:26,436
- Spicy.
- Spicy.

263
00:11:26,436 --> 00:11:29,272
- Easy, easy.
- Okay. Open it.

264
00:11:29,272 --> 00:11:31,400
Alright. Oh, wait. Oh, no.

265
00:11:31,400 --> 00:11:34,277
- Oh! Come on.

266
00:11:34,277 --> 00:11:36,321
{\an8}We had this fun
little game set up for Jenn

267
00:11:36,321 --> 00:11:38,490
{\an8}where they're going on
this little journey

268
00:11:38,490 --> 00:11:41,159
{\an8}and picking between opposites.

269
00:11:41,159 --> 00:11:43,370
One of them is sweet and spicy.

270
00:11:43,370 --> 00:11:45,622
- Oh.

271
00:11:45,622 --> 00:11:47,791
Is that not burning your mouth?

272
00:11:50,252 --> 00:11:52,587
Marcus, he seems like
a really great guy.

273
00:11:52,587 --> 00:11:54,881
And they look really great
together.

274
00:11:54,881 --> 00:11:56,967
I can't believe you're not
dying. This is so unfair.

275
00:11:56,967 --> 00:11:59,386
I think Jenn and Marcus
have a lot of chemistry.

276
00:11:59,386 --> 00:12:02,305
{\an8}They seem very, like,
complementary to each other.

277
00:12:02,305 --> 00:12:03,807
So I feel like scream
is where I'm at.

278
00:12:03,807 --> 00:12:06,518
I like it.

279
00:12:06,518 --> 00:12:08,353
"Scream your feelings..."

280
00:12:08,353 --> 00:12:11,314
I like Jenn!

281
00:12:11,940 --> 00:12:14,401
I feel like a real
couple with Marcus

282
00:12:14,401 --> 00:12:16,903
going down the yellow brick road
and making decisions.

283
00:12:16,903 --> 00:12:19,489
Little playful action.
I like it.

284
00:12:19,489 --> 00:12:23,577
What does that mean?

285
00:12:23,577 --> 00:12:25,787
You're gonna need that.

286
00:12:25,787 --> 00:12:27,622
Hey!

287
00:12:27,622 --> 00:12:29,583
Marcus and I have a really,
really good, playful side

288
00:12:29,583 --> 00:12:31,501
in our relationship together.

289
00:12:31,501 --> 00:12:33,837
Come on. Oh!

290
00:12:35,881 --> 00:12:39,384
I know it was playful,
but jumping on to Marcus

291
00:12:39,384 --> 00:12:42,762
on this pile of pillows feels
pretty passionate right now.

292
00:12:42,762 --> 00:12:45,223
Okay, that was enough
playful time.

293
00:12:45,223 --> 00:12:46,933
When I woke up today,
I did not think that

294
00:12:46,933 --> 00:12:50,270
I would be making out with Jenn
on top of a mountain

295
00:12:50,270 --> 00:12:51,605
of pink pillows.

296
00:12:51,605 --> 00:12:53,523
On to the next one?
- Yeah.

297
00:12:53,523 --> 00:12:55,400
You know, I think
this is the perfect date for

298
00:12:55,400 --> 00:12:57,861
Jenn and I because life
is a journey

299
00:12:57,861 --> 00:12:59,821
and it's full of difficult
choices.

300
00:12:59,821 --> 00:13:01,490
And I think that we're
definitely off

301
00:13:01,490 --> 00:13:03,033
to a strong start.

302
00:13:03,033 --> 00:13:05,118
All right. Slow or fast?

303
00:13:05,118 --> 00:13:07,662
- Slow?
- Fast.

304
00:13:07,662 --> 00:13:10,624
- Slow?
- I think typically.

305
00:13:10,624 --> 00:13:12,167
- Typically you're slow?
- In relationships.

306
00:13:12,167 --> 00:13:14,794
Yeah, I think I take
a while to, to warm up.

307
00:13:14,794 --> 00:13:16,922
- Okay.
- Yeah.

308
00:13:16,922 --> 00:13:19,799
Between going fast
or going slow, I pick slow

309
00:13:19,799 --> 00:13:23,053
because when I let someone
into my life, that decision is

310
00:13:23,053 --> 00:13:25,180
like a permanent decision,
for better or worse,

311
00:13:25,180 --> 00:13:27,015
which is scary.

312
00:13:27,015 --> 00:13:29,100
- I'm a fast girl.
- Okay.

313
00:13:29,100 --> 00:13:30,769
- You got to keep up.
- I want to try it out.

314
00:13:30,769 --> 00:13:33,063
- Okay.
- Okay, let's do it.

315
00:13:33,063 --> 00:13:34,814
That's concerning.

316
00:13:34,814 --> 00:13:37,567
Marcus, he's more of a slow burn
than I am, so I think

317
00:13:37,567 --> 00:13:40,820
that freaks me out a little bit.

318
00:13:40,820 --> 00:13:42,239
Hm.

319
00:13:42,239 --> 00:13:44,950
- It's a bell.
- Should I ring it?

320
00:13:48,578 --> 00:13:50,830
They're back! They're back!

321
00:13:50,830 --> 00:13:53,124
Hop on in for your next stop.

322
00:13:53,124 --> 00:13:55,293
Follow the yellow brick road.

323
00:13:55,293 --> 00:13:58,213
I'm also fearful
that I can be fast with

324
00:13:58,213 --> 00:14:01,341
my emotions, and with Marcus,
he is someone worth

325
00:14:01,341 --> 00:14:04,553
investing more into,
but it goes both ways.

326
00:14:04,553 --> 00:14:06,263
Ah!

327
00:14:06,263 --> 00:14:10,225
So if I'm the only one investing
today, then it's scary.

328
00:14:10,725 --> 00:14:13,436
{\an8}Hi! Come on over.

329
00:14:13,436 --> 00:14:15,689
{\an8}Next week is
hometowns, and home

330
00:14:15,689 --> 00:14:17,816
is really where your heart is.

331
00:14:17,816 --> 00:14:21,027
Home is where you get to see
who somebody really is.

332
00:14:21,027 --> 00:14:24,155
You guys look so great.
I'm here to remind you

333
00:14:24,155 --> 00:14:28,159
that there is no place like home
or, in your case, hometowns.

334
00:14:28,159 --> 00:14:30,870
The next step in your journey
is uncovering pieces of home

335
00:14:30,870 --> 00:14:32,747
that made you who you are today.

336
00:14:32,747 --> 00:14:37,043
Behind me are some of
Glinda's famous popular bubbles.

337
00:14:37,043 --> 00:14:40,589
You'll need my wand to help you
burst these special bubbles.

338
00:14:40,589 --> 00:14:42,924
I'm gonna give this over to you.

339
00:14:42,924 --> 00:14:44,551
- Thank you.
- Be very careful.

340
00:14:44,551 --> 00:14:47,012
- Okay.
- Okay. Thank you.

341
00:14:47,012 --> 00:14:48,513
- Bye.
- Thank you.

342
00:14:48,513 --> 00:14:49,973
- Ah!

343
00:14:49,973 --> 00:14:51,099
- Okay.
- Oh, God.

344
00:14:51,099 --> 00:14:52,934
Hey, what does it say?

345
00:14:52,934 --> 00:14:54,477
It says, "Share your
proudest moment..."

346
00:14:54,477 --> 00:14:56,605
-Who is that?
-My sister.

347
00:14:56,605 --> 00:14:58,607
This is when
I graduated basic training.

348
00:14:58,607 --> 00:15:02,110
My family flew out to, uh,
to watch me graduate.

349
00:15:02,110 --> 00:15:03,862
Your whole family
was there?

350
00:15:03,862 --> 00:15:07,616
Yeah. Yeah.
That was a good day.

351
00:15:07,616 --> 00:15:09,951
Oh. Glad you
got to share that.

352
00:15:09,951 --> 00:15:12,662
Oh.
- Yeah. Just...

353
00:15:12,662 --> 00:15:14,331
I miss my sister right now.
- You do?

354
00:15:14,331 --> 00:15:16,333
Yeah. We talk--
We talk every day.

355
00:15:16,333 --> 00:15:18,877
So if I make it to hometowns,
you'll definitely meet her.

356
00:15:18,877 --> 00:15:20,086
- Really?
- She's the most important

357
00:15:20,086 --> 00:15:21,671
person in my life.

358
00:15:21,671 --> 00:15:23,214
- Wow.
- Yeah.

359
00:15:23,214 --> 00:15:25,467
- Oh.
- Geez.

360
00:15:25,467 --> 00:15:27,177
It's okay.

361
00:15:27,177 --> 00:15:29,346
Life has been
difficult at times.

362
00:15:29,346 --> 00:15:32,098
My sister's the one constant
in my life

363
00:15:32,098 --> 00:15:34,100
that's been through everything
that I've been through.

364
00:15:34,100 --> 00:15:37,729
And, um, she's been there for
all the highs and all the lows.

365
00:15:37,729 --> 00:15:39,773
All right, we got to--
- Okay.

366
00:15:39,773 --> 00:15:42,567
We got to pop some more here.

367
00:15:42,567 --> 00:15:45,070
Oh!

368
00:15:45,070 --> 00:15:46,988
Oh, man.

369
00:15:46,988 --> 00:15:49,658
{\an8}Hey, big brother,
I hope everything is going good.

370
00:15:49,658 --> 00:15:52,160
{\an8}I hope that you're having
the time of your life

371
00:15:52,160 --> 00:15:54,954
on this amazing journey that
you are on.

372
00:15:54,954 --> 00:15:56,498
I can't wait to see you.
I miss you.

373
00:15:56,498 --> 00:15:59,000
Better come home
with a fiancée on your arm.

374
00:16:01,378 --> 00:16:04,089
For Jenn to see how special,
you know, my sister is to me,

375
00:16:04,089 --> 00:16:07,050
like, I want her to know
all about that.

376
00:16:07,050 --> 00:16:10,845
Wow.
- That was really special.

377
00:16:10,845 --> 00:16:12,097
I don't come
from a perfect family,

378
00:16:12,097 --> 00:16:13,682
and that's kind of something

379
00:16:13,682 --> 00:16:16,768
that I'm hoping
to get off my chest.

380
00:16:16,768 --> 00:16:18,395
- Aah!

381
00:16:18,395 --> 00:16:21,314
But for me,
I'm, like, scared

382
00:16:21,314 --> 00:16:24,734
because our journey to find love
isn't just about us.

383
00:16:24,734 --> 00:16:28,905
It's about our family, too.
-Oh, this is mine.

384
00:16:28,905 --> 00:16:31,825
"My dear daughter,
I hope all is well with you.

385
00:16:31,825 --> 00:16:33,785
I miss and love you so much.

386
00:16:33,785 --> 00:16:36,538
I'm excited to follow your
journey in finding true love."

387
00:16:39,499 --> 00:16:41,876
"I'm sorry for not being able
to give you a perfect family

388
00:16:41,876 --> 00:16:44,879
with both parents.
I never wanted it to happen,

389
00:16:44,879 --> 00:16:48,466
but I tried my best but couldn't
because that's out of my hands.

390
00:16:48,466 --> 00:16:50,301
I'm always right there
in your heart.

391
00:16:50,301 --> 00:16:51,928
I love you more than anything
in this world.

392
00:16:51,928 --> 00:16:54,973
And you're everything to me.
Love, Mom."

393
00:17:00,311 --> 00:17:02,647
Come here.
-My mom,

394
00:17:02,647 --> 00:17:05,567
I know that she tried her best,
and she didn't want me to feel

395
00:17:05,567 --> 00:17:07,360
like I came from
a broken family.

396
00:17:07,360 --> 00:17:11,448
She didn't want me to feel like
I had anything missing.

397
00:17:12,282 --> 00:17:15,326
Growing up, I definitely felt
like things were broken.

398
00:17:15,326 --> 00:17:19,622
But I mean, being who I am now,
like, I am who I am today,

399
00:17:19,622 --> 00:17:23,293
and I've made it through
this horrible past I've had.

400
00:17:23,293 --> 00:17:25,837
This whole thing is a lot bigger
than just each other.

401
00:17:25,837 --> 00:17:30,592
You know, I feel like my family
would love Marcus.

402
00:17:30,592 --> 00:17:32,719
{\an8}Hello!

403
00:17:32,719 --> 00:17:33,970
{\an8}Welcome to
my yellow brick road.

404
00:17:33,970 --> 00:17:35,764
{\an8}Oh, thank you.

405
00:17:35,764 --> 00:17:37,515
It's just becoming more
and more real

406
00:17:37,515 --> 00:17:39,893
that there is an engagement
at the end of this road.

407
00:17:39,893 --> 00:17:42,145
And I want that so badly.

408
00:17:42,145 --> 00:17:43,563
Many, many years ago,

409
00:17:43,563 --> 00:17:46,441
I found love
on the very same road.

410
00:17:46,441 --> 00:17:48,902
It's scary to be vulnerable,

411
00:17:48,902 --> 00:17:52,614
but you have to be honest
with what you want in love.

412
00:17:52,614 --> 00:17:56,785
So let your love defy gravity
above the city.

413
00:17:56,785 --> 00:18:01,122
- Into the future.
- Bye. Thank you so much.

414
00:18:01,122 --> 00:18:02,916
What are we about to do?

415
00:18:02,916 --> 00:18:05,752
Have you ever been
on a hot air balloon before?

416
00:18:05,752 --> 00:18:07,670
- The first time.
- Me too.

417
00:18:07,670 --> 00:18:10,048
Our last one on one
date, we jumped out of planes.

418
00:18:10,048 --> 00:18:12,550
And it wouldn't be a date
with Marcus

419
00:18:12,550 --> 00:18:16,012
if there wasn't something
exhilarating about it.

420
00:18:18,807 --> 00:18:21,017
Here we go.
- We're up, guys.

421
00:18:21,017 --> 00:18:23,186
Not bad.

422
00:18:23,186 --> 00:18:27,398
After today's date,
I feel a lot closer to Marcus.

423
00:18:33,154 --> 00:18:38,034
Right now, this moment just
makes me so hopeful for

424
00:18:38,034 --> 00:18:39,994
for Marcus and I.

425
00:18:39,994 --> 00:18:44,624
♪ I defy gravity ♪

426
00:18:44,624 --> 00:18:48,837
But I'm also fearful that
I might be on a different level

427
00:18:48,837 --> 00:18:51,464
that Marcus is at.

428
00:18:51,464 --> 00:18:54,092
Tonight is the first
hometown rose.

429
00:18:54,092 --> 00:18:58,555
And I hope that
we can get there.

430
00:19:08,857 --> 00:19:10,525
Marcus going out for
his one on one, you know,

431
00:19:10,525 --> 00:19:12,026
expecting him to come back
with a rose.

432
00:19:12,026 --> 00:19:14,237
That leaves three, three roses.

433
00:19:14,237 --> 00:19:16,531
You know, there's six of us
sitting here,

434
00:19:16,531 --> 00:19:19,117
so half of us are going home.

435
00:19:19,117 --> 00:19:20,660
It's surreal.

436
00:19:20,660 --> 00:19:22,662
This is a big week
for all of us,

437
00:19:22,662 --> 00:19:24,706
{\an8}but I'm honestly hoping that
I get a one on one with Jenn.

438
00:19:24,706 --> 00:19:26,958
{\an8}You know, I know I'm just
coming off one last week.

439
00:19:26,958 --> 00:19:28,418
I'm beginning to fall in love
with this woman.

440
00:19:28,418 --> 00:19:29,919
Like it's real, you know?

441
00:19:29,919 --> 00:19:31,921
So I need at least
another one on one.

442
00:19:31,921 --> 00:19:33,590
Or at least to see her again,

443
00:19:33,590 --> 00:19:35,383
have another conversation
to tell her how I feel.

444
00:19:35,383 --> 00:19:39,137
I'm looking forward
to a one on one, hopefully.

445
00:19:41,890 --> 00:19:44,392
Oh.

446
00:19:44,392 --> 00:19:46,144
We've got a date card.

447
00:19:46,144 --> 00:19:50,356
If this is a group date,
my name better not be on that.

448
00:19:50,356 --> 00:19:52,692
{\an8}You know, I wish
I could read her mind,

449
00:19:52,692 --> 00:19:54,777
{\an8}but there's only one person left

450
00:19:54,777 --> 00:19:56,571
who hasn't had a one on one,
and that's me.

451
00:19:56,571 --> 00:19:58,781
So, like, if my name showed up
on the group date card

452
00:19:58,781 --> 00:20:01,075
this week, it would suck.

453
00:20:01,618 --> 00:20:03,661
- Date card.
-Oh, God.

454
00:20:17,592 --> 00:20:19,427
Spencer...

455
00:20:20,470 --> 00:20:22,055
Jonathon...

456
00:20:23,222 --> 00:20:24,724
Sam...

457
00:20:25,975 --> 00:20:27,310
Devin...

458
00:20:31,898 --> 00:20:33,733
Grant.

459
00:20:35,777 --> 00:20:38,655
"I want a love that listens."

460
00:20:38,655 --> 00:20:40,406
- Oh! Let's go.
- "Jenn."

461
00:20:40,406 --> 00:20:42,492
Does that mean I have
a one on one for sure?

462
00:20:42,492 --> 00:20:44,410
- Yeah, yeah.
- All right.

463
00:20:44,410 --> 00:20:46,287
Best for last, like I said.

464
00:20:47,956 --> 00:20:50,458
Oh, no.
I didn't get the one on one.

465
00:20:50,458 --> 00:20:52,794
And I'm really bummed
about it.

466
00:20:52,794 --> 00:20:54,295
{\an8}Getting that connection

467
00:20:54,295 --> 00:20:56,255
{\an8}and then not being able
to see the person,

468
00:20:56,255 --> 00:20:58,174
{\an8}and I know she's on another
date, it's like, damn.

469
00:20:58,174 --> 00:21:00,677
It doesn't feel great at all.
It sucks.

470
00:21:07,266 --> 00:21:09,519
Marcus, Marcus, Marcus.

471
00:21:09,519 --> 00:21:12,814
You know
I'm having fun with you.

472
00:21:12,814 --> 00:21:16,859
Today, Marcus and I,
we had such a great date.

473
00:21:16,859 --> 00:21:21,948
And going into tonight,
I feel hopeful, but also fearful

474
00:21:21,948 --> 00:21:26,661
that I might be investing
too much, too fast into Marcus.

475
00:21:30,873 --> 00:21:32,417
Isn't this like insane?

476
00:21:32,417 --> 00:21:34,127
This is crazy.

477
00:21:34,127 --> 00:21:36,170
This is unlike anything
I've ever seen.

478
00:21:36,170 --> 00:21:38,089
Look at the scoreboard.

479
00:21:38,089 --> 00:21:40,425
-Oh my goodness.

480
00:21:41,884 --> 00:21:46,431
I feel very strongly for Marcus,
but there is a lingering fear

481
00:21:46,431 --> 00:21:50,101
that I might be further
along than he is,

482
00:21:50,101 --> 00:21:51,894
and that's scary.

483
00:21:51,894 --> 00:21:53,813
Thank you.

484
00:21:53,813 --> 00:21:56,274
So tonight, I just need him
to be more vulnerable with me

485
00:21:56,274 --> 00:21:59,152
and more open with me,

486
00:21:59,152 --> 00:22:01,571
just like how I would be
for my partner.

487
00:22:01,571 --> 00:22:04,991
And if Marcus isn't
where I'm at tonight,

488
00:22:04,991 --> 00:22:08,494
I mean, that's going
to be devastating.

489
00:22:08,494 --> 00:22:10,496
Never in a million
years if you told me

490
00:22:10,496 --> 00:22:12,498
that I'd be sitting here
having dinner

491
00:22:12,498 --> 00:22:14,667
with the beautiful Bachelorette.

492
00:22:14,667 --> 00:22:16,544
Today's been
the best day ever.

493
00:22:16,544 --> 00:22:18,296
Like you saw me get emotional
today, and I didn't--

494
00:22:18,296 --> 00:22:19,756
I didn't like that.

495
00:22:19,756 --> 00:22:21,924
And I know that
it's a good thing.

496
00:22:21,924 --> 00:22:24,469
- Yeah.
- And for me to be able

497
00:22:24,469 --> 00:22:27,388
to let down my walls last week
and to really let you guys

498
00:22:27,388 --> 00:22:29,807
into, like,
a little bit of how I really am

499
00:22:29,807 --> 00:22:32,602
and what I'm really feeling
was really hard for me.

500
00:22:32,602 --> 00:22:34,395
And I wouldn't have
been able to do it

501
00:22:34,395 --> 00:22:36,230
if you weren't in that room.

502
00:22:36,230 --> 00:22:38,566
Like, you know, you've opened up
about how hard it is

503
00:22:38,566 --> 00:22:41,486
for you to also be vulnerable,
and I want you to know, like,

504
00:22:41,486 --> 00:22:43,237
I want to be that safe space
for you, too.

505
00:22:43,237 --> 00:22:45,490
Like, I want you to be able
to feel that.

506
00:22:45,490 --> 00:22:47,742
I know that,
and I can feel it.

507
00:22:47,742 --> 00:22:51,913
I know that it is difficult
for me to open up.

508
00:22:51,913 --> 00:22:56,626
And, um, I'm super grateful
that you can see me trying.

509
00:22:56,626 --> 00:22:58,377
Mm-hmm.

510
00:22:58,377 --> 00:23:00,505
Um...

511
00:23:00,505 --> 00:23:03,216
Hometowns are coming up,
and opening up to Jenn

512
00:23:03,216 --> 00:23:06,385
{\an8}about where I came from
and how I feel about it

513
00:23:06,385 --> 00:23:11,933
{\an8}is something that I like,
don't share with anyone really.

514
00:23:11,933 --> 00:23:13,476
Like even some of
my closest friends

515
00:23:13,476 --> 00:23:16,604
don't really even get
that side of me.

516
00:23:16,604 --> 00:23:18,397
So yeah, I think
I just kind of want

517
00:23:18,397 --> 00:23:20,858
to be honest with her
about everything

518
00:23:20,858 --> 00:23:24,445
and see, you know,
how she takes that.

519
00:23:25,738 --> 00:23:29,158
The part that's like sticking
out to me the most about today

520
00:23:29,158 --> 00:23:32,912
was like the comment
that your mother had made about,

521
00:23:32,912 --> 00:23:37,625
you know, her doing the best
that she could for you.

522
00:23:37,625 --> 00:23:40,586
And, you know,
even though that you're, like,

523
00:23:40,586 --> 00:23:44,215
dad wasn't around the way
that maybe

524
00:23:44,215 --> 00:23:46,467
he, like, could have been
or should have been.

525
00:23:46,467 --> 00:23:49,220
Um, and I want you to know that
that strikes a chord with me.

526
00:23:49,220 --> 00:23:51,389
It hits home with me
because I do not come

527
00:23:51,389 --> 00:23:55,643
from a perfect family,
far from it.

528
00:23:55,643 --> 00:23:57,353
Um...

529
00:24:02,733 --> 00:24:05,945
My sister, when we were
young, when we were kids,

530
00:24:05,945 --> 00:24:08,156
uh, we were kind of born

531
00:24:08,156 --> 00:24:11,576
into, like,
a pretty, like, rough situation.

532
00:24:11,576 --> 00:24:16,956
Um, we had parents who couldn't

533
00:24:16,956 --> 00:24:19,292
like, really, like,
take care of us.

534
00:24:19,292 --> 00:24:24,881
Um, they were a bit like...

535
00:24:24,881 --> 00:24:27,091
Just like unstable
and just like

536
00:24:27,091 --> 00:24:28,718
they weren't fit to be parents,

537
00:24:28,718 --> 00:24:31,262
and they, like, brought us
to daycare one day

538
00:24:31,262 --> 00:24:34,307
and just,
like, never came back for us.

539
00:24:36,267 --> 00:24:37,852
And, uh...

540
00:24:46,068 --> 00:24:48,738
That was that was the
start of, like, you know,

541
00:24:48,738 --> 00:24:52,783
like a very rough chapter
in my childhood.

542
00:24:52,783 --> 00:24:55,953
Like, I had to, like,
take on the the role

543
00:24:55,953 --> 00:24:58,706
of looking after my sister.

544
00:24:58,706 --> 00:25:03,419
We lived in
a foster home together.

545
00:25:03,419 --> 00:25:06,756
Families would like
try us on for size.

546
00:25:06,756 --> 00:25:08,424
And there was a lot of times

547
00:25:08,424 --> 00:25:11,260
where I thought
that I was going to,

548
00:25:11,260 --> 00:25:14,305
like, have a mom and dad,
and then they would, like,

549
00:25:14,305 --> 00:25:16,307
change their mind, and then,
like, me and my sister

550
00:25:16,307 --> 00:25:20,186
would end up back at,
you know, a foster home.

551
00:25:21,646 --> 00:25:26,359
So I think that experience
kind of made me

552
00:25:26,359 --> 00:25:31,364
feel like there was, like,
something wrong with me.

553
00:25:37,787 --> 00:25:39,747
There's nothing
wrong with you.

554
00:25:39,747 --> 00:25:42,208
- Thank you.
- Nothing.

555
00:25:43,709 --> 00:25:46,295
Hearing Marcus tell me
his story tonight,

556
00:25:46,295 --> 00:25:51,968
it's so heartbreaking,
and for him to be open to me

557
00:25:51,968 --> 00:25:56,597
and to really share what he was
feeling in those moments

558
00:25:56,597 --> 00:26:00,142
makes me understand
why he was holding back

559
00:26:00,142 --> 00:26:03,271
and always just had a guard up.

560
00:26:03,271 --> 00:26:05,564
I get it. It just makes sense.

561
00:26:05,564 --> 00:26:09,652
You know, I feel like
there's a huge canyon

562
00:26:09,652 --> 00:26:13,281
in between liking someone
and loving someone.

563
00:26:13,281 --> 00:26:15,700
And especially after today,
like, I'm at a point

564
00:26:15,700 --> 00:26:20,621
where I want
to kind of fall into that canyon

565
00:26:20,621 --> 00:26:24,333
and I want, like,
a love that's going to stay

566
00:26:24,333 --> 00:26:27,211
when anyone else would leave.

567
00:26:29,964 --> 00:26:33,884
I hope you know
how strong you are.

568
00:26:33,884 --> 00:26:36,137
I hope you truly believe that
and you see that.

569
00:26:36,137 --> 00:26:39,974
And like sharing your story
doesn't show weakness,

570
00:26:39,974 --> 00:26:41,767
doesn't show that you're broken,

571
00:26:41,767 --> 00:26:43,436
doesn't show that
you're not worth anything.

572
00:26:43,436 --> 00:26:46,272
It shows how incredible
of a person

573
00:26:46,272 --> 00:26:48,607
that you are to have overcome
all of that.

574
00:26:48,607 --> 00:26:50,609
I see that, and I see you,

575
00:26:50,609 --> 00:26:55,448
and I want you to know
how happy I am that you're here,

576
00:26:55,448 --> 00:26:59,285
because I can't imagine
this journey without you,

577
00:26:59,285 --> 00:27:00,995
honestly.

578
00:27:06,042 --> 00:27:09,462
Will you just come with me?
- Yeah. Where are we going?

579
00:27:09,462 --> 00:27:12,340
Hearing Marcus' story
and really understanding

580
00:27:12,340 --> 00:27:15,509
where he comes from made me
understand him

581
00:27:15,509 --> 00:27:17,386
so much more as a person

582
00:27:17,386 --> 00:27:20,973
and why he is the way he is
and how he reads relationships.

583
00:27:20,973 --> 00:27:24,977
And it's exactly the way
that I view relationships.

584
00:27:24,977 --> 00:27:26,771
I mean, we're just so similar

585
00:27:26,771 --> 00:27:29,732
because we grew up
in such untraditional families.

586
00:27:29,732 --> 00:27:31,942
It's like we're both scared,
but we both know,

587
00:27:31,942 --> 00:27:34,945
like, once we fall in love,
like, that's it.

588
00:27:34,945 --> 00:27:36,864
Today has been a dream.

589
00:27:36,864 --> 00:27:40,409
And tonight getting to know you
even more means so much to me.

590
00:27:40,409 --> 00:27:43,204
If you ever felt unlovable,

591
00:27:43,204 --> 00:27:47,083
I want you to know
that you're worthy to me.

592
00:27:47,083 --> 00:27:50,920
So, Marcus,
will you accept this rose?

593
00:27:50,920 --> 00:27:52,588
I would love to.

594
00:27:55,841 --> 00:27:58,677
Thank you.

595
00:27:58,677 --> 00:28:00,471
This is the love story that

596
00:28:00,471 --> 00:28:02,390
I've always wanted
when I was a kid.

597
00:28:02,390 --> 00:28:05,768
This is a love story that
I thought I was never worthy of.

598
00:28:05,768 --> 00:28:08,020
And it's happening.

599
00:28:09,605 --> 00:28:12,483
I feel like
I'm living in a dream.

600
00:28:12,483 --> 00:28:15,653
This has been
a wicked cool date today.

601
00:28:17,780 --> 00:28:20,366
Hello!
Jenn and Marcus!

602
00:28:20,366 --> 00:28:24,787
We hope you enjoyed your day
in the Emerald City.

603
00:28:24,787 --> 00:28:28,499
Now look to the western skies.

604
00:28:37,967 --> 00:28:39,927
- Aah!
- Okay.

605
00:28:39,927 --> 00:28:41,637
They have a firework guy.

606
00:28:41,637 --> 00:28:45,099
- I'm the Bachelorette.
- You can do whatever you want.

607
00:28:46,892 --> 00:28:48,686
I feel like lighter.

608
00:28:48,686 --> 00:28:50,729
like I can breathe now after
being vulnerable with Jenn.

609
00:28:50,729 --> 00:28:55,443
She's accepting me for who I am,
imperfection at all.

610
00:28:55,443 --> 00:28:58,988
Jenn is going to meet every
single person that I care about.

611
00:28:58,988 --> 00:29:02,032
So I feel like
the luckiest person alive.

612
00:29:02,032 --> 00:29:07,163
♪ So if you care to find me,
look to the western sky ♪

613
00:29:15,588 --> 00:29:17,882
Good morning.
Welcome to <i>Love on Air Seattle.</i>

614
00:29:17,882 --> 00:29:19,633
We're gonna do
a little deep dive

615
00:29:19,633 --> 00:29:21,719
into the matters of the heart.

616
00:29:21,719 --> 00:29:24,930
In studio today, none other than
the Bachelorette herself.

617
00:29:24,930 --> 00:29:27,641
It's Jenn.
- Hello. Hello.

618
00:29:27,641 --> 00:29:29,894
Thank you so much
for having me here.

619
00:29:29,894 --> 00:29:31,812
{\an8}My name is Bender.
I'm going to introduce the team.

620
00:29:31,812 --> 00:29:33,731
{\an8}This is Jubal.
- What's up?

621
00:29:33,731 --> 00:29:36,317
{\an8}And the OGs
of Bachelor Nation,

622
00:29:36,317 --> 00:29:38,569
{\an8}Jason and Molly Mesnick.
- Oh. I'm old.

623
00:29:38,569 --> 00:29:41,405
{\an8}We're so, so old. So old.
Thank you.

624
00:29:41,405 --> 00:29:46,952
15 years ago, Jason was on
the old incarnation of the show.

625
00:29:46,952 --> 00:29:50,247
And Molly was just
a contestant at the time.

626
00:29:50,247 --> 00:29:53,584
- Who's the best kisser?
- I'd say Molly.

627
00:29:53,584 --> 00:29:55,294
Molly is? Okay.

628
00:29:55,294 --> 00:29:57,129
I was on the group date,
doing the radio show.

629
00:29:57,129 --> 00:29:58,464
- Yeah.
- That's crazy.

630
00:29:58,464 --> 00:30:00,341
- Yeah.
- It's really crazy.

631
00:30:00,341 --> 00:30:02,635
Jenn, we are just so excited
to be here with you today.

632
00:30:02,635 --> 00:30:04,094
It feels really helpful
to be able to talk

633
00:30:04,094 --> 00:30:05,804
to Jason and Molly today,

634
00:30:05,804 --> 00:30:08,349
knowing that they found love
in this same journey

635
00:30:08,349 --> 00:30:10,726
and that they still have
a beautiful family today.

636
00:30:10,726 --> 00:30:14,480
It just makes me really hopeful
for my journey, too.

637
00:30:14,480 --> 00:30:17,525
We have the guys coming in.
This is a great opportunity.

638
00:30:17,525 --> 00:30:19,235
Radio is all
about communicating.

639
00:30:19,235 --> 00:30:20,903
Absolutely. I'm excited.

640
00:30:20,903 --> 00:30:22,154
I want to keep these men
on their toes.

641
00:30:22,154 --> 00:30:23,697
Let's do it.

642
00:30:23,697 --> 00:30:25,950
Today is all
about communication.

643
00:30:25,950 --> 00:30:28,744
Listening to your partner and
communication is so important.

644
00:30:28,744 --> 00:30:31,413
That is the best thing
in a relationship.

645
00:30:31,413 --> 00:30:33,207
Can you see it ending
in an engagement?

646
00:30:33,207 --> 00:30:34,959
Absolutely, yes.

647
00:30:34,959 --> 00:30:36,752
Is there anybody that stuck
out right away for you?

648
00:30:36,752 --> 00:30:38,837
Yeah, I mean, on night one,
I only kissed one guy,

649
00:30:38,837 --> 00:30:41,799
and it was Sam,
and it is more physical

650
00:30:41,799 --> 00:30:43,259
right now than emotional,

651
00:30:43,259 --> 00:30:45,135
but I want it
to get more emotional.

652
00:30:45,135 --> 00:30:47,471
So it's all about really like
breaking that barrier

653
00:30:47,471 --> 00:30:49,098
and really continuing
to do that.

654
00:30:49,098 --> 00:30:51,058
Okay, so we got to break
through to him,

655
00:30:51,058 --> 00:30:53,185
get you two deeper.
- Yeah.

656
00:30:53,185 --> 00:30:54,979
Who, like, when you hug
them, who do you just kind of

657
00:30:54,979 --> 00:30:56,772
fall into and you
feel safe with?

658
00:30:56,772 --> 00:30:58,983
- Oh, Sam.
-Sam?

659
00:30:58,983 --> 00:31:01,318
Yeah.
Yeah, he's a great snuggle.

660
00:31:03,153 --> 00:31:05,364
I feel a strong connection
with Sam.

661
00:31:05,364 --> 00:31:09,201
He's smooth. he's hot, and we've
had this physical connection.

662
00:31:09,201 --> 00:31:11,328
And I think we've had a little
bit of an emotional connection

663
00:31:11,328 --> 00:31:12,955
on our one on one date.

664
00:31:12,955 --> 00:31:14,999
Hey, can I slide in?
Can I slide in?

665
00:31:14,999 --> 00:31:17,376
But I mean,
there's red flags, too.

666
00:31:17,376 --> 00:31:20,963
I just want to feel more secure
in our relationship,

667
00:31:20,963 --> 00:31:23,007
and I just don't.
There's something missing there.

668
00:31:23,007 --> 00:31:25,426
And I want to be able
to pull that out today.

669
00:31:25,426 --> 00:31:28,012
Let's bring in the guys.

670
00:31:28,012 --> 00:31:32,182
- Hello.
- Hi!

671
00:31:32,182 --> 00:31:33,976
How are you?

672
00:31:33,976 --> 00:31:35,936
We we walk in,
and it's a radio show.

673
00:31:35,936 --> 00:31:38,105
{\an8}You know, talking needs to be
a strength in a relationship.

674
00:31:38,105 --> 00:31:40,733
And I'm immediately
in my comfort zone.

675
00:31:40,733 --> 00:31:43,152
As far as the other guys,
I think Sam's is in trouble,

676
00:31:43,152 --> 00:31:46,238
in my opinion,
because it's a funny thing

677
00:31:46,238 --> 00:31:48,866
when you get put on the spot
and have to say things

678
00:31:48,866 --> 00:31:50,743
that you actually
are supposed to truly feel.

679
00:31:50,743 --> 00:31:52,536
Hey, how are you?

680
00:31:52,536 --> 00:31:54,705
In Sam's case,
I'm sure he'll blow it,

681
00:31:54,705 --> 00:31:56,957
but, you know,
we'll see how that goes.

682
00:31:56,957 --> 00:31:59,084
Jenn really wants to
get to know the deeper side

683
00:31:59,084 --> 00:32:00,628
of all of you guys.

684
00:32:00,628 --> 00:32:02,004
And with hometowns
right around the corner,

685
00:32:02,004 --> 00:32:04,590
this is really important.

686
00:32:04,590 --> 00:32:07,134
{\an8}Today, I'm gonna chase
what what I want.

687
00:32:07,134 --> 00:32:08,802
{\an8}You know, what my dream in life,

688
00:32:08,802 --> 00:32:11,138
{\an8}which is become a husband,
is become a father.

689
00:32:11,138 --> 00:32:13,057
I'm somebody who's going to keep
the main thing the main thing.

690
00:32:13,057 --> 00:32:16,935
Yeah, I'm not gonna let
anything get in the way of that.

691
00:32:16,935 --> 00:32:18,937
So we want to have
some fun conversations,

692
00:32:18,937 --> 00:32:20,606
but also a little bit
serious, as well.

693
00:32:20,606 --> 00:32:21,982
So we're on
the hot seat today.

694
00:32:21,982 --> 00:32:23,567
- Oh, yeah.
- Yes, you are.

695
00:32:23,567 --> 00:32:25,361
Here's what
we're gonna do.

696
00:32:25,361 --> 00:32:27,571
We're gonna do a quick,
rapid fire word association.

697
00:32:27,571 --> 00:32:30,991
Ooh.
Uh, Spencer-- rose.

698
00:32:30,991 --> 00:32:32,993
- Me.

699
00:32:32,993 --> 00:32:34,536
I love that.

700
00:32:34,536 --> 00:32:37,039
-Grant-- shower.
- Every day.

701
00:32:37,039 --> 00:32:40,209
- Very nice.

702
00:32:40,209 --> 00:32:42,294
Very, very good.

703
00:32:42,294 --> 00:32:45,798
Sam-- Fantasy suite.

704
00:32:45,798 --> 00:32:47,549
It's rapid fire.

705
00:32:47,549 --> 00:32:49,426
- Aggressive.
- What'd you say?

706
00:32:49,426 --> 00:32:50,844
Aggressive?

707
00:32:50,844 --> 00:32:53,013
- What the hell?
- Is that what he said?

708
00:32:53,013 --> 00:32:54,139
- Yep.
- Aggressive.

709
00:32:54,139 --> 00:32:57,476
- My gosh.
- Okay.

710
00:32:57,476 --> 00:32:59,436
- Yes.
- Grant.

711
00:32:59,436 --> 00:33:02,189
Three adjectives
to describe Jenn.

712
00:33:02,189 --> 00:33:06,235
She's witty, charming, intellectual.

713
00:33:06,235 --> 00:33:09,113
Jenn is exhilarating, breathtaking.

714
00:33:09,113 --> 00:33:11,365
And I think the most fun one
is spontaneous.

715
00:33:11,365 --> 00:33:14,118
Driven. Exciting.

716
00:33:14,118 --> 00:33:16,286
And to me, the most important
is open minded.

717
00:33:16,286 --> 00:33:17,871
Mm.

718
00:33:17,871 --> 00:33:19,873
There's a lot of questions
being asked,

719
00:33:19,873 --> 00:33:22,960
and I almost feel like it's a
who loves Jenn more competition,

720
00:33:22,960 --> 00:33:25,379
and I am eating up
every second of it.

721
00:33:25,379 --> 00:33:28,340
I want to know who loves
Jenn more, too.

722
00:33:28,340 --> 00:33:32,386
Sam, how do you feel
about Jenn?

723
00:33:32,386 --> 00:33:35,013
Um. I would say...

724
00:33:35,013 --> 00:33:38,851
just fire and, like,
strong passion, so, uh...

725
00:33:38,851 --> 00:33:42,771
Yeah, to say that
I've been doing nothing

726
00:33:42,771 --> 00:33:45,524
but falling in love with you
from, uh, from the first time

727
00:33:45,524 --> 00:33:47,359
that we had
a conversation would be,

728
00:33:47,359 --> 00:33:50,988
uh, yeah, that would be a lie.

729
00:33:50,988 --> 00:33:54,742
I didn't know if you would
be able to show love

730
00:33:54,742 --> 00:33:56,952
the way that I knew how to.

731
00:33:56,952 --> 00:34:00,330
And it literally took you
giving a toast

732
00:34:00,330 --> 00:34:03,709
to all of us saying cheers
to a ferocious love.

733
00:34:03,709 --> 00:34:07,129
Um, for that to be so
unorthodox,

734
00:34:07,129 --> 00:34:09,673
and I describe my love
as reckless.

735
00:34:09,673 --> 00:34:12,259
I have been saying
this since he got here.

736
00:34:12,259 --> 00:34:15,095
{\an8}Sam, that he talks,
for the life of him,

737
00:34:15,095 --> 00:34:16,722
{\an8}but nothing ever comes
out of his mouth.

738
00:34:16,722 --> 00:34:18,515
I feel like I'm somebody that,
like I say,

739
00:34:18,515 --> 00:34:21,101
it constantly pours
into somebody else's cup, uh...

740
00:34:21,101 --> 00:34:23,604
I'm sitting here
listening to Sam,

741
00:34:23,604 --> 00:34:26,356
and you can tell she's, like,
not feeling the answers.

742
00:34:26,356 --> 00:34:30,277
{\an8}You know, she's listening
to what's being said,

743
00:34:30,277 --> 00:34:34,198
{\an8}but what's being said
isn't answering the question.

744
00:34:34,198 --> 00:34:35,824
Yeah, I think with
those two things,

745
00:34:35,824 --> 00:34:37,910
it's tough to lose
in a relationship.

746
00:34:37,910 --> 00:34:39,244
Hmm.

747
00:34:39,244 --> 00:34:41,455
I'm so confused.

748
00:34:41,455 --> 00:34:45,626
I don't know, I don't feel like
his answers make sense to me,

749
00:34:45,626 --> 00:34:49,379
and I'm not sure how authentic
his answers are.

750
00:34:49,379 --> 00:34:51,423
All the other guys in the room,
you know,

751
00:34:51,423 --> 00:34:55,010
they're being open and honest,
and I appreciate that.

752
00:34:55,010 --> 00:34:57,513
I'm going to ask
most of you guys to leave.

753
00:34:57,513 --> 00:35:00,557
And for one person,
uh, we truly believe

754
00:35:00,557 --> 00:35:02,392
needs to get to know
Jenn better

755
00:35:02,392 --> 00:35:06,271
and Jenn to get to know them
better is going to be Sam.

756
00:35:06,271 --> 00:35:08,982
We're going to go to break.
When we come back,

757
00:35:08,982 --> 00:35:11,068
we're just scratching
the surface.

758
00:35:11,068 --> 00:35:13,570
They choose
the person they thought needed

759
00:35:13,570 --> 00:35:17,366
{\an8}more time with Jenn,
and that's Sam.

760
00:35:17,366 --> 00:35:22,120
{\an8}So Sam gets more time with Jenn,
and we get pulled into a room

761
00:35:22,120 --> 00:35:24,248
where we get
the distinct pleasure

762
00:35:24,248 --> 00:35:27,084
of watching it on a screen.

763
00:35:27,084 --> 00:35:28,961
You can pretend
we're not even here.

764
00:35:28,961 --> 00:35:31,839
This is literally the two of you
just asking each other questions

765
00:35:31,839 --> 00:35:33,757
and getting to know each other.

766
00:35:33,757 --> 00:35:35,342
- No problem.
-Okay.

767
00:35:35,342 --> 00:35:37,094
How was
your first impression of me,

768
00:35:37,094 --> 00:35:40,472
and how has that changed
over time?

769
00:35:40,472 --> 00:35:42,474
It's a testament
to this process.

770
00:35:42,474 --> 00:35:44,142
I've told you
I almost didn't even make--

771
00:35:44,142 --> 00:35:46,812
I almost didn't even come here,
and I thought,

772
00:35:46,812 --> 00:35:49,273
no, like, there's an opportunity
to find my wife here.

773
00:35:49,273 --> 00:35:50,858
And that's exactly
what I'm going to do.

774
00:35:50,858 --> 00:35:53,569
She asked what it is
about her,

775
00:35:53,569 --> 00:35:55,112
and he's talking about himself.

776
00:35:55,112 --> 00:35:57,030
And then I got out
of the limo.

777
00:35:57,030 --> 00:36:00,325
I'm like, "Okay,
this girl is not my type."

778
00:36:00,325 --> 00:36:01,869
Like, this is that
whole idea of,

779
00:36:01,869 --> 00:36:05,330
like, the unknown right there.

780
00:36:05,330 --> 00:36:09,251
I thought the Bachelorette
was going to be Daisy or Maria.

781
00:36:13,380 --> 00:36:16,383
Damn, Sam.

782
00:36:16,383 --> 00:36:19,136
{\an8}I don't know what was
going on with Sam. I don't know.

783
00:36:19,136 --> 00:36:22,639
{\an8}But, yeah, it was weird.

784
00:36:22,639 --> 00:36:24,975
Obviously, like,
you're you're stunning.

785
00:36:24,975 --> 00:36:26,643
There's no doubt
about that right there.

786
00:36:26,643 --> 00:36:28,979
But like, that's-- I know
that that fades,

787
00:36:28,979 --> 00:36:32,024
but I think I trust
the process.

788
00:36:32,024 --> 00:36:33,775
Sounds phony.

789
00:36:33,775 --> 00:36:35,569
I truly feel like I'm like
meant to be here.

790
00:36:35,569 --> 00:36:38,322
My dream is to be a father,
is to be a husband.

791
00:36:38,322 --> 00:36:41,241
Um, my parents have been
together for 30 plus years.

792
00:36:41,241 --> 00:36:44,411
What does this mean?
He hasn't said anything.

793
00:36:44,411 --> 00:36:46,121
But, like, I think you know

794
00:36:46,121 --> 00:36:48,498
everybody wants a love
that's lasting and real.

795
00:36:48,498 --> 00:36:50,208
But I think, like,
what is it about me

796
00:36:50,208 --> 00:36:51,835
that makes you feel like

797
00:36:51,835 --> 00:36:53,712
we could have a really
great future together,

798
00:36:53,712 --> 00:36:56,673
besides the fact that we both
want this ferocious love?

799
00:36:56,673 --> 00:36:59,134
Truly your selflessness.

800
00:36:59,134 --> 00:37:01,929
Because I consider myself
a very selfless person, as well.

801
00:37:01,929 --> 00:37:05,307
How do you know
that I'm selfless?

802
00:37:05,307 --> 00:37:08,101
I mean, you're either selfless
or you're full of

803
00:37:08,101 --> 00:37:10,103
One or the other.

804
00:37:10,103 --> 00:37:11,980
- At the end of the day,

805
00:37:11,980 --> 00:37:14,399
like, I'm somebody
that's trusting this process.

806
00:37:14,399 --> 00:37:17,110
I've told you that. You know,
I don't think somebody

807
00:37:17,110 --> 00:37:19,655
that is full of
would come in and say--

808
00:37:19,655 --> 00:37:23,533
see 25 guys and just be like,

809
00:37:23,533 --> 00:37:25,202
"Okay, yeah, this is
what I want,

810
00:37:25,202 --> 00:37:26,787
and just say those words
out loud. I could answer.

811
00:37:26,787 --> 00:37:28,205
I could answer this
question right now.

812
00:37:28,205 --> 00:37:29,915
I can also answer
this question.

813
00:37:29,915 --> 00:37:31,458
Multiple examples of how
she's been selfless...

814
00:37:31,458 --> 00:37:33,335
- I know. I know.
- ...in this process.

815
00:37:33,335 --> 00:37:35,587
Also this is how I know
you're selfless, actually.

816
00:37:35,587 --> 00:37:38,298
After night one,

817
00:37:38,298 --> 00:37:43,428
that connection
that we had was... hot.

818
00:37:43,428 --> 00:37:45,764
- That's not selfless.
- I don't understand it either.

819
00:37:45,764 --> 00:37:48,809
I don't get it.
I'm so confused here.

820
00:37:48,809 --> 00:37:54,231
And truly, I feel like
you've kept me in a closet.

821
00:37:54,231 --> 00:37:56,483
How does that mean selfless?

822
00:37:56,483 --> 00:37:58,151
Dude, I don't know.
I'm telling you, I don't know.

823
00:37:58,151 --> 00:37:59,277
Does he know the definition
of selfless?

824
00:37:59,277 --> 00:38:01,113
He does not.

825
00:38:01,113 --> 00:38:03,156
Sam's not really answering
any of my questions.

826
00:38:03,156 --> 00:38:05,742
He's kind of giving
vague answers.

827
00:38:05,742 --> 00:38:10,080
I, like, cannot express to you
enough how serious I am

828
00:38:10,080 --> 00:38:11,790
about this situation right here.

829
00:38:11,790 --> 00:38:14,668
I am frustrated
because all these little moments

830
00:38:14,668 --> 00:38:15,919
have been building up.

831
00:38:15,919 --> 00:38:17,629
At this point in the journey,

832
00:38:17,629 --> 00:38:22,968
I need to feel reassured
and secure in our relationship.

833
00:38:22,968 --> 00:38:24,928
I don't know.
Like, how can you be so sure

834
00:38:24,928 --> 00:38:27,931
about being an engagement at
the end of this with me when--

835
00:38:27,931 --> 00:38:30,559
do you feel like you
really know me?

836
00:38:30,559 --> 00:38:32,394
Oh.

837
00:38:36,231 --> 00:38:39,526
Honestly, you know,
I told you from--

838
00:38:39,526 --> 00:38:42,863
from early that my love language
is physical touch.

839
00:38:42,863 --> 00:38:44,698
It's like this. It's like...

840
00:38:46,700 --> 00:38:48,243
Ooh!

841
00:38:48,243 --> 00:38:49,911
Oh, nope.

842
00:38:49,911 --> 00:38:51,997
I don't know
why he's doing this.

843
00:38:51,997 --> 00:38:56,084
I need him to tell me
why he sees me as his wife

844
00:38:56,084 --> 00:38:58,462
and what exact qualities in me

845
00:38:58,462 --> 00:39:00,005
that he sees
that he wants in the future.

846
00:39:00,005 --> 00:39:02,632
I didn't feel as
if I got any answers.

847
00:39:02,632 --> 00:39:04,718
Calm down, cowboy.

848
00:39:04,718 --> 00:39:08,013
Well, Jenn, I think it's time
for you to take the boys

849
00:39:08,013 --> 00:39:10,015
for the rest of your evening.

850
00:39:10,015 --> 00:39:11,600
That's all the time we have

851
00:39:11,600 --> 00:39:15,020
on this episode
of <i>Love On Air Seattle.</i>

852
00:39:15,020 --> 00:39:19,149
Tonight, it's important to
understand what he sees in me

853
00:39:19,149 --> 00:39:21,777
and if he understands me at all.

854
00:39:34,331 --> 00:39:35,874
I was actually
really looking forward

855
00:39:35,874 --> 00:39:38,001
to spending the day
with you guys today.

856
00:39:38,001 --> 00:39:40,128
I feel like it's been so long
since we've been able to chat

857
00:39:40,128 --> 00:39:44,049
since the last rose ceremony,
so today was so fun for me

858
00:39:44,049 --> 00:39:46,468
and you guys made me feel
so seen today and made me

859
00:39:46,468 --> 00:39:49,304
feel like I'm picking
the right relationships here.

860
00:39:49,304 --> 00:39:52,432
Uh, there was one conversation
in which

861
00:39:52,432 --> 00:39:55,560
I left feeling
a little bit unsettled.

862
00:39:55,560 --> 00:39:57,771
I'm not in the business
of making another mistake again.

863
00:39:57,771 --> 00:39:59,773
And with hometowns
being next week,

864
00:39:59,773 --> 00:40:01,691
I need tonight to be about

865
00:40:01,691 --> 00:40:04,402
how we're going to fit
into each other's futures.

866
00:40:04,402 --> 00:40:06,196
- Gotcha.
- Yeah.

867
00:40:06,196 --> 00:40:07,572
We could do a little
cheers to that.

868
00:40:07,572 --> 00:40:08,824
Cheers.

869
00:40:13,203 --> 00:40:15,914
Jenn feels like
somebody frustrated her.

870
00:40:15,914 --> 00:40:17,666
All of us think it's Sam.

871
00:40:17,666 --> 00:40:19,417
{\an8}That conversation
at with the group date wasn't--

872
00:40:19,417 --> 00:40:21,545
{\an8}It was off.
Something was off there.

873
00:40:21,545 --> 00:40:25,215
Me personally,
I'm excited to see Jenn tonight.

874
00:40:25,215 --> 00:40:27,259
Last week, I felt like
on our one on one date,

875
00:40:27,259 --> 00:40:28,969
{\an8}all I needed was
that emotional connection,

876
00:40:28,969 --> 00:40:31,096
{\an8}and I got exactly that.

877
00:40:31,096 --> 00:40:34,391
My feelings for Jenn
are tremendous at this point.

878
00:40:34,391 --> 00:40:37,435
Tonight I'm going
to tell her how I feel.

879
00:40:37,435 --> 00:40:38,937
This is real.

880
00:40:38,937 --> 00:40:40,522
I'm a little nervous,
a little bit.

881
00:40:40,522 --> 00:40:42,899
Why are you nervous?
Tell me more about that.

882
00:40:42,899 --> 00:40:44,776
I respect you a lot.

883
00:40:44,776 --> 00:40:48,864
I respect you, and I respect
the way you carry yourself.

884
00:40:48,864 --> 00:40:50,407
Me seeing you going
through your journey

885
00:40:50,407 --> 00:40:51,658
and seeing
how you carry yourself,

886
00:40:51,658 --> 00:40:53,493
it's like I cherish that.

887
00:40:53,493 --> 00:40:56,204
I could see myself being
with you

888
00:40:56,204 --> 00:40:57,998
for the rest of my life.

889
00:40:57,998 --> 00:41:02,085
And I just want you to know
I already chose you.

890
00:41:02,085 --> 00:41:03,795
You know, so...
- I feel that.

891
00:41:03,795 --> 00:41:05,589
You know,
it's already there.

892
00:41:05,589 --> 00:41:07,340
This is a different experience.

893
00:41:07,340 --> 00:41:11,678
It's something that I hold
close to my heart.

894
00:41:11,678 --> 00:41:16,141
And, um, I cherish it.
And I see a future in you.

895
00:41:17,934 --> 00:41:21,062
I just want you to know that
I am falling in love with you.

896
00:41:21,062 --> 00:41:24,941
And I mean that when I say it.
- I know you do.

897
00:41:30,030 --> 00:41:32,532
Grant expressed his
feelings of love

898
00:41:32,532 --> 00:41:34,534
for me tonight, and obviously,

899
00:41:34,534 --> 00:41:36,536
it makes me so happy
to hear that he's there.

900
00:41:36,536 --> 00:41:39,372
And it makes me so happy
to hear with him.

901
00:41:39,372 --> 00:41:44,002
I know that it's coming
from a real place.

902
00:41:44,002 --> 00:41:46,338
To see you today
made me really excited.

903
00:41:46,338 --> 00:41:50,550
And then also to hear you, like,
express how you felt about me

904
00:41:50,550 --> 00:41:52,761
and everything that you said
about me today,

905
00:41:52,761 --> 00:41:55,138
it made me feel
even more for you

906
00:41:55,138 --> 00:41:57,557
because you really saw me today.

907
00:41:57,557 --> 00:41:58,975
Everything from today

908
00:41:58,975 --> 00:42:01,102
and a huge point
that I wanted to make

909
00:42:01,102 --> 00:42:04,231
was the feelings
I have for you skyrocketed.

910
00:42:04,231 --> 00:42:06,483
- Yeah.
- And it makes me so happy.

911
00:42:06,483 --> 00:42:09,277
Jonathon says
that he feels strongly for me,

912
00:42:09,277 --> 00:42:11,529
and that's exactly
what I needed to hear.

913
00:42:11,529 --> 00:42:15,408
He's someone
who I see challenges me

914
00:42:15,408 --> 00:42:18,954
in a lot of different ways,
especially emotional depth.

915
00:42:18,954 --> 00:42:21,081
We had so much momentum
coming off of our one on one.

916
00:42:21,081 --> 00:42:24,042
It was the best date
I've ever been on, and, like,

917
00:42:24,042 --> 00:42:28,004
thank you for letting me know
that you see me and...

918
00:42:28,004 --> 00:42:29,923
I do, and I see you trying.

919
00:42:29,923 --> 00:42:31,716
And I know it's hard
because it's hard for me to.

920
00:42:31,716 --> 00:42:34,177
It doesn't come easy to me.
I want you to know that.

921
00:42:34,177 --> 00:42:36,179
Like, you've given me
so much more

922
00:42:36,179 --> 00:42:40,141
than any of
my previous relationships have.

923
00:42:42,394 --> 00:42:44,938
With Spencer,
I feel so seen and understood,

924
00:42:44,938 --> 00:42:49,150
and I feel so good with where
I'm at with a lot of these guys.

925
00:42:49,150 --> 00:42:50,944
There are so many great parts
to tonight

926
00:42:50,944 --> 00:42:54,030
and so many parts
that I'm so excited about.

927
00:42:54,030 --> 00:42:58,118
I want you to know
that I actually am enjoying

928
00:42:58,118 --> 00:43:00,954
the thought of you
coming home to my family

929
00:43:00,954 --> 00:43:02,539
because I know exactly
who you are,

930
00:43:02,539 --> 00:43:04,332
which is something
that I could never say

931
00:43:04,332 --> 00:43:05,750
about my previous relationship.

932
00:43:05,750 --> 00:43:07,252
I feel so strongly about you,

933
00:43:07,252 --> 00:43:09,587
and I have no doubts
about who you are

934
00:43:09,587 --> 00:43:12,007
and the way you make me feel.

935
00:43:12,007 --> 00:43:15,135
I have only ever told my mom

936
00:43:15,135 --> 00:43:16,678
that I want to bring
a girl home

937
00:43:16,678 --> 00:43:20,223
that makes me proud
and makes her proud.

938
00:43:20,223 --> 00:43:23,393
And you are the definition
of both of those things, so...

939
00:43:23,393 --> 00:43:27,439
I want you to know
how much the way

940
00:43:27,439 --> 00:43:30,066
that you've been throughout this
entire journey has meant to me.

941
00:43:30,066 --> 00:43:34,779
And I feel so seen by you,

942
00:43:34,779 --> 00:43:38,700
and I feel like you're someone
who gets me, like--

943
00:43:38,700 --> 00:43:40,910
And that's not an easy
feeling to come by.

944
00:43:40,910 --> 00:43:44,748
And you've expressed before like
you're falling in love with me.

945
00:43:44,748 --> 00:43:47,709
And I want you
to know that today,

946
00:43:47,709 --> 00:43:49,878
like, I feel
all the same things

947
00:43:49,878 --> 00:43:51,338
and I'm falling for you as well.

948
00:43:51,338 --> 00:43:54,299
So good.

949
00:43:54,299 --> 00:43:55,633
{\an8}Oh, my God.

950
00:43:56,968 --> 00:43:58,261
{\an8}I feel fantastic.

951
00:43:58,261 --> 00:44:00,180
{\an8}She told me she was falling
for me.

952
00:44:00,180 --> 00:44:02,057
{\an8}All I needed to hear was that,
and there's no turning back.

953
00:44:07,187 --> 00:44:09,022
I do. I do know that.

954
00:44:09,022 --> 00:44:11,858
I--
I couldn't be happier.

955
00:44:11,858 --> 00:44:17,572
I have such a strong sense
of who you are

956
00:44:17,572 --> 00:44:20,325
in such a short amount of time.

957
00:44:20,325 --> 00:44:22,494
And it blows my mind
that you can continue

958
00:44:22,494 --> 00:44:26,539
to surprise me
every single day.

959
00:44:26,539 --> 00:44:28,208
You ready?
- Absolutely, man.

960
00:44:28,208 --> 00:44:30,502
- You got a plan?
- You know, I think she's

961
00:44:30,502 --> 00:44:33,797
looking for that emotional side.

962
00:44:33,797 --> 00:44:36,591
So, uh, yeah, moment's here, man.

963
00:44:36,591 --> 00:44:39,177
Moment's here. I'm hoping that
everybody makes the most of it.

964
00:44:39,177 --> 00:44:41,012
Don't take this the wrong way,
but do you think

965
00:44:41,012 --> 00:44:43,390
that she could have been talking
about you in that moment?

966
00:44:43,390 --> 00:44:45,016
Yeah. I don't know
who it's about, you know?

967
00:44:45,016 --> 00:44:46,935
It could be about any of us.

968
00:44:46,935 --> 00:44:49,062
We're this deep in, and she's
having those questions.

969
00:44:49,062 --> 00:44:50,855
Like, it's not good.
- I think she just really

970
00:44:50,855 --> 00:44:53,149
expressed the seriousness
in what she's looking for

971
00:44:53,149 --> 00:44:54,651
in tonight's conversation
with--

972
00:44:54,651 --> 00:44:56,486
you know, with everybody.

973
00:44:56,486 --> 00:44:58,696
And, uh, you know,
I feel good

974
00:44:58,696 --> 00:45:00,949
about how this conversation's
gonna go.

975
00:45:00,949 --> 00:45:03,326
The main thing was not
the main thing today.

976
00:45:03,326 --> 00:45:06,746
{\an8}Jenn isn't playing games with--
with people that are tiptoeing

977
00:45:06,746 --> 00:45:08,331
around the subjects
that she needs to hear.

978
00:45:08,331 --> 00:45:10,041
I mean, this is forever.
Sam, do you want

979
00:45:10,041 --> 00:45:12,335
go for a chat?
- Absolutely.

980
00:45:13,962 --> 00:45:16,297
I'm feeling
really confused about Sam.

981
00:45:16,297 --> 00:45:18,758
There is something
that is not connecting

982
00:45:18,758 --> 00:45:21,719
that I am not understanding
and I am not seeing,

983
00:45:21,719 --> 00:45:23,763
and it's because
I don't feel like

984
00:45:23,763 --> 00:45:26,516
he can back up his feelings
for me.

985
00:45:26,516 --> 00:45:28,977
I don't understand where we're
missing it with each other.

986
00:45:28,977 --> 00:45:30,478
Like, we've had such

987
00:45:30,478 --> 00:45:32,605
amazing moments together
that it's like--

988
00:45:32,605 --> 00:45:36,151
It's frustrating because,
what is going wrong?

989
00:45:36,151 --> 00:45:37,485
I don't know.

990
00:45:37,485 --> 00:45:40,029
Hey.
- Hello.

991
00:45:40,029 --> 00:45:42,615
How are you?

992
00:45:42,615 --> 00:45:45,660
Um... okay, I guess.

993
00:45:45,660 --> 00:45:49,122
I think, you know, I do need
to be honest with you.

994
00:45:49,122 --> 00:45:52,208
And I think that today--

995
00:45:52,208 --> 00:45:53,877
I don't know.
I feel like you didn't really

996
00:45:53,877 --> 00:45:55,837
see me, you didn't really
understand me today.

997
00:45:55,837 --> 00:45:58,923
And we had such a great spark
and chemistry from night one,

998
00:45:58,923 --> 00:46:01,551
but there's just something
that's missing,

999
00:46:01,551 --> 00:46:05,847
and I feel like today it was
becoming more and more apparent.

1000
00:46:05,847 --> 00:46:08,224
And I don't want to--
I don't want this to come off

1001
00:46:08,224 --> 00:46:10,602
as, like, I'm, like,
badgering you into--

1002
00:46:10,602 --> 00:46:12,187
but, like, I just--
I need answers,

1003
00:46:12,187 --> 00:46:13,771
and I need to know
how you feel

1004
00:46:13,771 --> 00:46:15,982
and I need-- I need clarity.
- Yeah.

1005
00:46:15,982 --> 00:46:18,818
So, the word that I gave you
today was "selfless."

1006
00:46:18,818 --> 00:46:20,862
- I get that.
- Like, I don't-- I don't know.

1007
00:46:20,862 --> 00:46:23,239
And I feel like
--

1008
00:46:23,239 --> 00:46:24,949
That's what--
That's what I need,

1009
00:46:24,949 --> 00:46:26,701
where I feel like every other
relationship I had

1010
00:46:26,701 --> 00:46:29,704
I'd didn't have
that emotional support.

1011
00:46:31,289 --> 00:46:35,126
And, like, yeah,
so I come into this right here

1012
00:46:35,126 --> 00:46:37,420
with this idea of, like, "Yeah,
how do I know it's you?"

1013
00:46:37,420 --> 00:46:40,673
I don't. I do trust
that I'm here for a reason.

1014
00:46:40,673 --> 00:46:42,675
But that's you,
and that's your journey

1015
00:46:42,675 --> 00:46:44,594
and wanting to be here,
and I don't--

1016
00:46:44,594 --> 00:46:47,055
I don't--
How do I fit into that?

1017
00:46:47,055 --> 00:46:48,556
Um...

1018
00:46:50,808 --> 00:46:53,311
I-- You-- Like, you sit here
and talk about how,

1019
00:46:53,311 --> 00:46:56,981
how do you fit into this
right here?

1020
00:46:56,981 --> 00:46:59,526
It's a tough feeling.
Like, I can't say

1021
00:46:59,526 --> 00:47:01,778
that I can just sit here
and, like--

1022
00:47:01,778 --> 00:47:04,989
Like, it's just something
that I feel.

1023
00:47:04,989 --> 00:47:06,950
But why me?

1024
00:47:18,795 --> 00:47:20,838
Mm.

1025
00:47:20,838 --> 00:47:22,632
Sorry. I don't mean to like -

1026
00:47:22,632 --> 00:47:24,008
No, you don't.
I just think--

1027
00:47:24,008 --> 00:47:25,885
I've been trying
to wait on this.

1028
00:47:25,885 --> 00:47:29,472
I think it's important
for me to be able to understand

1029
00:47:29,472 --> 00:47:34,394
where you're coming from and
to be able to understand why.

1030
00:47:34,394 --> 00:47:37,689
It's like you're saying
that you want this,

1031
00:47:37,689 --> 00:47:40,149
and I want this and--

1032
00:47:40,149 --> 00:47:44,696
Because I love you.

1033
00:47:44,696 --> 00:47:46,656
- Sam--
- Stop.

1034
00:47:46,656 --> 00:47:48,491
You want to know why?
Like, there's things

1035
00:47:48,491 --> 00:47:51,244
that I have waited to say.

1036
00:47:51,244 --> 00:47:54,664
And, like, that feeling is
extremely scary to me.

1037
00:47:54,664 --> 00:47:56,541
Like, this is it.

1038
00:47:56,541 --> 00:47:58,251
I'm feeling frustrated
and confused.

1039
00:47:58,251 --> 00:48:02,672
Where the hell is
this coming from?

1040
00:48:02,672 --> 00:48:07,135
To not be able to back up
such a bold proclamation.

1041
00:48:07,135 --> 00:48:10,138
I don't feel like...

1042
00:48:13,474 --> 00:48:15,310
...it's real to me.

1043
00:48:15,310 --> 00:48:18,396
I just don't even feel like
we truly know each other.

1044
00:48:18,396 --> 00:48:22,775
You can't even express to me
who I am to you.

1045
00:48:22,775 --> 00:48:24,319
And-- And it can't just be
a feeling.

1046
00:48:24,319 --> 00:48:25,945
Like, that's not real love.

1047
00:48:25,945 --> 00:48:27,488
We skipped over all of, like,

1048
00:48:27,488 --> 00:48:29,407
the little conversations
and stuff like that,

1049
00:48:29,407 --> 00:48:31,993
and we just jumped, like,
straight, like--

1050
00:48:31,993 --> 00:48:33,411
talking about, you know,
ferocious love,

1051
00:48:33,411 --> 00:48:35,330
talking about reckless love.

1052
00:48:35,330 --> 00:48:36,956
In the back of my head,
like, it's like we're having

1053
00:48:36,956 --> 00:48:38,666
the same conversations
about ferocious love,

1054
00:48:38,666 --> 00:48:43,296
but there's no substance there,
there's no logic there.

1055
00:48:43,296 --> 00:48:45,757
Like, I'm just-- I'm-- I'm--
I'm a little confused still.

1056
00:48:45,757 --> 00:48:47,675
And I think, like,
we just need more time

1057
00:48:47,675 --> 00:48:49,886
to get there and more
conversations to be had

1058
00:48:49,886 --> 00:48:51,888
to, like, really understand
each other and where we're at

1059
00:48:51,888 --> 00:48:54,682
and-- and to get
on the same page.

1060
00:48:54,682 --> 00:48:56,517
Yeah.
- I hear you.

1061
00:48:56,517 --> 00:48:58,561
Okay.

1062
00:49:01,439 --> 00:49:04,859
I feel so much for Sam, and
I want it to be there for us.

1063
00:49:04,859 --> 00:49:06,736
And thinking back
to all the good times

1064
00:49:06,736 --> 00:49:08,946
that we had together,
night one, our one-on-one date,

1065
00:49:08,946 --> 00:49:10,657
like, I opened up to him
in a way

1066
00:49:10,657 --> 00:49:13,534
that I hadn't opened up
to anybody before.

1067
00:49:13,534 --> 00:49:16,204
And it doesn't feel like
Sam saw that.

1068
00:49:16,204 --> 00:49:18,373
You know, I appreciate
you guys being able to express

1069
00:49:18,373 --> 00:49:21,000
how you were feeling
today with me.

1070
00:49:21,000 --> 00:49:23,419
Um...

1071
00:49:23,419 --> 00:49:26,673
There won't be a group date
rose given out tonight,

1072
00:49:26,673 --> 00:49:30,301
and that's because I want to be
100% with where I'm feeling,

1073
00:49:30,301 --> 00:49:32,220
as you guys are, too.

1074
00:49:32,220 --> 00:49:34,639
So I have a lot to think about.

1075
00:49:34,639 --> 00:49:36,974
I will see you guys
at the rose ceremony.

1076
00:49:36,974 --> 00:49:39,310
Can't wait.
- Okay? Okay.

1077
00:49:39,310 --> 00:49:43,356
I am still leaving the night
a little confused with Sam.

1078
00:49:43,356 --> 00:49:45,983
Going into this day,
I felt like it was a sure thing

1079
00:49:45,983 --> 00:49:47,819
that I was gonna want
to meet his family

1080
00:49:47,819 --> 00:49:50,238
because I felt so strong
in our relationship.

1081
00:49:50,238 --> 00:49:53,783
But at this point,
I don't know if I'm gonna

1082
00:49:53,783 --> 00:49:55,159
meet Sam's family or not.

1083
00:50:03,960 --> 00:50:06,421
Sam M. did say
on the radio show

1084
00:50:06,421 --> 00:50:09,590
that he felt like
he was already with Jenn

1085
00:50:09,590 --> 00:50:11,426
and we were all biding our time.

1086
00:50:11,426 --> 00:50:14,721
Like, that's so disrespectful.

1087
00:50:14,721 --> 00:50:16,389
She asked a lot
of questions about her,

1088
00:50:16,389 --> 00:50:19,225
and he, like, kept circling
around the topics

1089
00:50:19,225 --> 00:50:21,060
and, like, bringing it back
to himself.

1090
00:50:21,060 --> 00:50:22,895
Ah.
I also think

1091
00:50:22,895 --> 00:50:24,564
to an extent
it does sound like lip service.

1092
00:50:24,564 --> 00:50:26,441
It sounds like saying things

1093
00:50:26,441 --> 00:50:28,151
to try to make her feel
a certain way.

1094
00:50:28,151 --> 00:50:29,861
You can only say what
you think somebody wants to hear

1095
00:50:29,861 --> 00:50:32,029
for so long before it starts
to bite you in the ass.

1096
00:50:34,073 --> 00:50:37,368
Last night
was just very tough.

1097
00:50:37,368 --> 00:50:39,746
{\an8}That could be the very last time
that I spoke with her,

1098
00:50:39,746 --> 00:50:41,831
{\an8}so that's what sucks,
and that's what leaves

1099
00:50:41,831 --> 00:50:43,833
the fear of the unknown for me.

1100
00:50:43,833 --> 00:50:45,668
I don't want to go home.
That's the last thing I want.

1101
00:50:45,668 --> 00:50:48,463
Like, I said this to her,
that like I love her, you know?

1102
00:50:48,463 --> 00:50:50,006
That's the truth.
I woke up this morning.

1103
00:50:50,006 --> 00:50:51,966
I still feel the exact same way.
I'm just hoping

1104
00:50:51,966 --> 00:50:54,177
that she trusts where I'm at.
and she really takes

1105
00:50:54,177 --> 00:50:56,596
what I said that, uh--
that it's the truth.

1106
00:51:05,021 --> 00:51:08,524
Last night,
I left my conversation with Sam

1107
00:51:08,524 --> 00:51:11,819
just feeling so confused.

1108
00:51:11,819 --> 00:51:14,822
I mean, Sam and I had that
initial spark since night one,

1109
00:51:14,822 --> 00:51:16,699
and I can see him
at the end of this.

1110
00:51:16,699 --> 00:51:19,452
That's why it's so
frustrating to me.

1111
00:51:19,452 --> 00:51:20,995
I know that I have to
figure it out,

1112
00:51:20,995 --> 00:51:22,497
but I'm really just trying

1113
00:51:22,497 --> 00:51:26,584
to focus on the day ahead
with Jeremy.

1114
00:51:26,584 --> 00:51:28,878
He is someone
who I feel so comfortable with

1115
00:51:28,878 --> 00:51:30,797
and can have so much fun with.

1116
00:51:30,797 --> 00:51:33,966
After last night, I feel like
I just have so much more clarity

1117
00:51:33,966 --> 00:51:36,427
on what I need and what I want.

1118
00:51:36,427 --> 00:51:38,679
You're supposed to run and jump.

1119
00:51:38,679 --> 00:51:41,432
Hi!
And make some noise.

1120
00:51:41,432 --> 00:51:43,476
A whole one-on-one
date is so eye-opening

1121
00:51:43,476 --> 00:51:45,895
that I am so hopeful,
but the whole date

1122
00:51:45,895 --> 00:51:49,148
could also go really badly
and I could not see a future

1123
00:51:49,148 --> 00:51:50,900
with Jeremy
at the end of the day.

1124
00:51:50,900 --> 00:51:53,152
Well, we are
at Pike Place Market today.

1125
00:51:53,152 --> 00:51:55,279
It is very, very famous
here in Seattle,

1126
00:51:55,279 --> 00:51:58,407
and I'm just excited to explore
more of Seattle with you.

1127
00:51:58,407 --> 00:51:59,617
Me too.
Let's go this way.

1128
00:51:59,617 --> 00:52:01,202
Alright. Show me around.

1129
00:52:01,202 --> 00:52:03,871
Let's go.

1130
00:52:07,875 --> 00:52:10,294
Whoa!

1131
00:52:10,294 --> 00:52:12,088
This market
is absolute chaos.

1132
00:52:12,088 --> 00:52:13,548
There's people everywhere.
There's fish

1133
00:52:13,548 --> 00:52:14,966
being flown everywhere.

1134
00:52:14,966 --> 00:52:16,551
You love
taking me to markets.

1135
00:52:16,551 --> 00:52:18,511
I do.
When I think markets,

1136
00:52:18,511 --> 00:52:20,096
I think "Jerbear."

1137
00:52:20,096 --> 00:52:22,932
I'm very excited
to hang out with Jeremy today,

1138
00:52:22,932 --> 00:52:25,268
but I am a little nervous

1139
00:52:25,268 --> 00:52:26,811
that hometowns is next week

1140
00:52:26,811 --> 00:52:29,021
and Jeremy and I
are probably the most behind

1141
00:52:29,021 --> 00:52:30,439
in terms of feelings.

1142
00:52:30,439 --> 00:52:32,316
And so today,

1143
00:52:32,316 --> 00:52:36,112
I really do want to dig deeper
into our futures together

1144
00:52:36,112 --> 00:52:39,073
and seeing if we can have
more of an emotional connection.

1145
00:52:39,073 --> 00:52:40,658
Hi!

1146
00:52:40,658 --> 00:52:41,868
Can I make her a bouquet?

1147
00:52:41,868 --> 00:52:43,619
Sure.
Aww!

1148
00:52:43,619 --> 00:52:45,872
- Can I come back there?
- Sure.

1149
00:52:45,872 --> 00:52:48,541
Okay. Okay.

1150
00:52:48,541 --> 00:52:49,959
I'm excited, and, first off,

1151
00:52:49,959 --> 00:52:51,627
Jenn's looking amazing.

1152
00:52:51,627 --> 00:52:54,171
{\an8}I just want to make sure
that she's in good spirits

1153
00:52:54,171 --> 00:52:56,924
after her night last night,
which I briefly heard about

1154
00:52:56,924 --> 00:52:58,426
from the guys this morning.

1155
00:52:58,426 --> 00:53:00,261
You're doing so well, sweetheart.

1156
00:53:00,261 --> 00:53:01,721
This is harder than it looks.

1157
00:53:01,721 --> 00:53:04,015
What's your inspiration
right now?

1158
00:53:04,015 --> 00:53:06,517
Like, I might take you home
to meet my mom?

1159
00:53:06,517 --> 00:53:08,811
- Hmm?
- Wow. Okay.

1160
00:53:08,811 --> 00:53:10,563
I want her to come
meet my family.

1161
00:53:10,563 --> 00:53:12,523
And I know she would love them
and they would love her.

1162
00:53:12,523 --> 00:53:13,941
It's a big deal to me.

1163
00:53:13,941 --> 00:53:15,443
But right now,
I'm just trying to take

1164
00:53:15,443 --> 00:53:16,903
advantage of every minute
I have with her

1165
00:53:16,903 --> 00:53:18,237
and put a smile on her face.

1166
00:53:18,237 --> 00:53:20,197
Where's your--

1167
00:53:20,197 --> 00:53:22,241
Thanks, Jerbear.
I do really like her,

1168
00:53:22,241 --> 00:53:24,452
and I have so much fun with her,
but at the same time

1169
00:53:24,452 --> 00:53:26,537
I feel pressure just because

1170
00:53:26,537 --> 00:53:28,080
other guys are further along.

1171
00:53:28,080 --> 00:53:30,082
So it's a big day.

1172
00:53:30,082 --> 00:53:31,542
- For me?
- Yeah.

1173
00:53:31,542 --> 00:53:34,086
They look beautiful.

1174
00:53:34,086 --> 00:53:35,713
They're actually really nice.
Thank you.

1175
00:53:35,713 --> 00:53:39,800
- You're welcome.
- That was very sweet.

1176
00:53:39,800 --> 00:53:40,927
- Very nice.
- Aww.

1177
00:53:40,927 --> 00:53:42,637
This is something I would do,

1178
00:53:42,637 --> 00:53:44,764
you know, if I visited Seattle
with a girlfriend,

1179
00:53:44,764 --> 00:53:47,350
or similar things that I would
do in New York on a weekend.

1180
00:53:47,350 --> 00:53:48,976
Alright. Do we do it?

1181
00:53:48,976 --> 00:53:51,312
It feels extremely
natural with her.

1182
00:53:51,312 --> 00:53:53,230
We just have this chemistry
between us.

1183
00:53:53,230 --> 00:53:55,274
Whoa.

1184
00:53:55,274 --> 00:53:57,026
You don't say.
Uncontrollable!

1185
00:53:57,026 --> 00:53:59,362
You don't say.
Okay. Look at us.

1186
00:53:59,362 --> 00:54:00,655
Oh!

1187
00:54:00,655 --> 00:54:02,573
A psychic chicken?!

1188
00:54:02,573 --> 00:54:04,116
I'm having
so much fun with Jenn,

1189
00:54:04,116 --> 00:54:05,993
and I love being around her.

1190
00:54:05,993 --> 00:54:08,162
It's great to see, like, what
that life would look like

1191
00:54:08,162 --> 00:54:10,456
before I take her home
to meet my family.

1192
00:54:10,456 --> 00:54:12,667
"Lives are not meant
to be built on laughs alone."

1193
00:54:12,667 --> 00:54:14,752
Hmm.
It said "not laughs alone,"

1194
00:54:14,752 --> 00:54:16,170
but a lot of laughs.

1195
00:54:16,170 --> 00:54:18,172
Well, you got to add
more stuff to it

1196
00:54:18,172 --> 00:54:19,674
than just the laughing part.
- Yeah. Of course.

1197
00:54:19,674 --> 00:54:21,050
Yeah.
I think we're both

1198
00:54:21,050 --> 00:54:23,177
having a great time,
so I'm excited,

1199
00:54:23,177 --> 00:54:26,180
and I'm looking forward to
what the future could hold.

1200
00:54:26,180 --> 00:54:27,848
Have you ever had
your palms read?

1201
00:54:27,848 --> 00:54:30,351
Um, no, I don't think so.

1202
00:54:30,351 --> 00:54:32,269
- Yeah?
- Are we compatible?

1203
00:54:32,269 --> 00:54:35,773
It looks like you have
a lot of good things going on.

1204
00:54:35,773 --> 00:54:38,109
You do.
I mean, she's gonna want

1205
00:54:38,109 --> 00:54:40,319
what she wants right now.
Mm.

1206
00:54:40,319 --> 00:54:42,863
Some people love
the bad boys at your age,

1207
00:54:42,863 --> 00:54:44,740
but you need, like,
a lot of stimulation

1208
00:54:44,740 --> 00:54:46,993
and a lot of intellectual talk.
Mm-hmm.

1209
00:54:46,993 --> 00:54:49,620
You have to bring her flowers.
You'll have to bring

1210
00:54:49,620 --> 00:54:50,955
this one flowers.
- That's weird.

1211
00:54:50,955 --> 00:54:52,540
He just made me
a bouquet today.

1212
00:54:52,540 --> 00:54:54,250
Oh, that's great.

1213
00:54:54,250 --> 00:54:57,003
I know that there's
a lot of layers to Jeremy

1214
00:54:57,003 --> 00:54:59,046
and there's a lot of pieces
to our relationship

1215
00:54:59,046 --> 00:55:00,548
that we can explore more of.

1216
00:55:00,548 --> 00:55:02,466
These are potential
drummer's hands.

1217
00:55:02,466 --> 00:55:03,676
I used to play the drums.
That's weird.

1218
00:55:03,676 --> 00:55:04,969
Really?
- Really?

1219
00:55:04,969 --> 00:55:06,429
That's super weird.
Yeah.

1220
00:55:06,429 --> 00:55:07,930
You'd be good at martial arts.

1221
00:55:07,930 --> 00:55:08,889
I was a black belt
when I was a kid.

1222
00:55:08,889 --> 00:55:10,558
What?

1223
00:55:10,558 --> 00:55:12,268
I don't know where she's
coming up with this.

1224
00:55:12,268 --> 00:55:14,770
I'm seeing new things,
and I'm being surprised.

1225
00:55:14,770 --> 00:55:16,647
And we just have
so much fun together.

1226
00:55:16,647 --> 00:55:18,607
And we have the same
exact sense of humor.

1227
00:55:18,607 --> 00:55:20,359
Where are you taking me,
Jennifer?

1228
00:55:20,359 --> 00:55:23,446
- Into a little alley.
- It this where you kill me?

1229
00:55:23,446 --> 00:55:25,364
Well, we'll see.

1230
00:55:25,364 --> 00:55:26,699
- Mine?
- Oh, don't touch that,

1231
00:55:26,699 --> 00:55:28,075
you weirdo.

1232
00:55:28,075 --> 00:55:29,493
Does this not gross you out
at all?

1233
00:55:29,493 --> 00:55:30,870
No.
If that's not love...

1234
00:55:30,870 --> 00:55:33,122
- Wow.
- ...I don't know what is.

1235
00:55:33,122 --> 00:55:34,582
- Whoa!
Oh!

1236
00:55:34,582 --> 00:55:36,542
- Good catch.
- You want to try it?

1237
00:55:36,542 --> 00:55:37,960
- That's a big one.
- Yeah.

1238
00:55:37,960 --> 00:55:39,670
Wow.
You just-- You have a pr--

1239
00:55:39,670 --> 00:55:41,797
- Here, high five.
- You have a problem.

1240
00:55:41,797 --> 00:55:44,800
I have so much hope
with Jeremy and I.

1241
00:55:44,800 --> 00:55:46,635
He just makes me feel happy.

1242
00:55:46,635 --> 00:55:47,845
That's a big fish.

1243
00:55:47,845 --> 00:55:50,306
TT for Jenn!

1244
00:55:50,306 --> 00:55:52,850
Ohh!

1245
00:55:52,850 --> 00:55:54,143
That was--
That was a bad throw.

1246
00:55:54,143 --> 00:55:55,478
Sorry.
- I got it.

1247
00:55:58,272 --> 00:56:00,066
That was a good toss.

1248
00:56:00,066 --> 00:56:01,358
That was a good toss.

1249
00:56:01,358 --> 00:56:04,278
TT for Jeremy!
Hey!

1250
00:56:04,278 --> 00:56:05,863
- Whoo!
- Yay!

1251
00:56:05,863 --> 00:56:08,574
A future Jeremy
looks so exciting to me.

1252
00:56:08,574 --> 00:56:11,410
And we'd be laughing
our little booties off.

1253
00:56:11,410 --> 00:56:13,537
It's effortless
because I'm so able

1254
00:56:13,537 --> 00:56:15,873
to be myself
at all times with Jeremy.

1255
00:56:15,873 --> 00:56:18,584
You know, I haven't had that
in a lot of other relationships.

1256
00:56:20,503 --> 00:56:26,175
And I feel like
he really cares about me.

1257
00:56:26,175 --> 00:56:28,886
How was your night last night?

1258
00:56:28,886 --> 00:56:31,305
It was good. It was--

1259
00:56:31,305 --> 00:56:34,600
It was a really-- It was a
really interesting night for me.

1260
00:56:34,600 --> 00:56:37,812
I think the whole day--
the whole day was good.

1261
00:56:37,812 --> 00:56:40,606
And then there was, like,
a moment of confusion

1262
00:56:40,606 --> 00:56:43,275
and-- and--
and frustration 'cause I--

1263
00:56:43,275 --> 00:56:45,319
- Do you feel better?
- Yes, I feel better.

1264
00:56:45,319 --> 00:56:46,779
- Okay.
- Thank you for asking.

1265
00:56:46,779 --> 00:56:48,239
- Of course.
- Really, really good.

1266
00:56:48,239 --> 00:56:49,782
- Now you're with me.

1267
00:56:49,782 --> 00:56:50,991
And now we're here,
and it's great.

1268
00:56:50,991 --> 00:56:52,576
Exactly.

1269
00:56:52,576 --> 00:56:54,245
Like, I feel strong
about where we are.

1270
00:56:54,245 --> 00:56:55,329
I'm like--
- I like that.

1271
00:56:55,329 --> 00:56:56,872
You make it really easy

1272
00:56:56,872 --> 00:56:58,624
for me to be myself, actually.
- You too.

1273
00:56:58,624 --> 00:56:59,959
- It's been amazing.
- It's one of my favorite things

1274
00:56:59,959 --> 00:57:01,669
about you.

1275
00:57:01,669 --> 00:57:03,796
Coming into today,
I was already excited

1276
00:57:03,796 --> 00:57:06,507
about the opportunity
for Jenn to meet my family.

1277
00:57:06,507 --> 00:57:08,676
Have a bite, Jerbear.
But after hearing

1278
00:57:08,676 --> 00:57:11,846
how she feels confident in us
and she's felt that connection,

1279
00:57:11,846 --> 00:57:15,808
it makes me that much more
excited to-- to bring her home.

1280
00:57:15,808 --> 00:57:17,643
I couldn't think of
a more important rose,

1281
00:57:17,643 --> 00:57:19,562
and I'm looking forward
to whatever she has

1282
00:57:19,562 --> 00:57:21,021
in store for tonight.

1283
00:57:21,021 --> 00:57:22,523
Beautiful day. Thank you.
- Mm-hmm.

1284
00:57:22,523 --> 00:57:23,858
You're welcome.
- It's not over yet,

1285
00:57:23,858 --> 00:57:26,777
though, is it?
- I don't know.

1286
00:57:26,777 --> 00:57:28,612
Time will tell.

1287
00:57:31,073 --> 00:57:33,450
Today was a really,
really good day.

1288
00:57:33,450 --> 00:57:35,369
I know that I can have fun
with Jeremy and laugh

1289
00:57:35,369 --> 00:57:38,873
and just have a good time,
but hometowns are next week.

1290
00:57:38,873 --> 00:57:41,709
And for me to be able to give
a rose at the end of tonight,

1291
00:57:41,709 --> 00:57:44,795
I need to feel confident that we
have that emotional connection

1292
00:57:44,795 --> 00:57:47,214
that I do have
with these other guys here.

1293
00:57:47,214 --> 00:57:50,092
So there's a lot
riding on today.

1294
00:57:55,973 --> 00:57:57,892
Are you excited?
I'm very excited.

1295
00:57:57,892 --> 00:57:59,226
This is so cool.

1296
00:57:59,226 --> 00:58:01,145
It's by a famous artist.

1297
00:58:01,145 --> 00:58:03,272
His name is Chihuly.

1298
00:58:03,272 --> 00:58:04,690
Oh, it's not a real tree?

1299
00:58:04,690 --> 00:58:07,109
You're so funny.

1300
00:58:07,109 --> 00:58:08,277
I mean,
this is actually dope.

1301
00:58:08,277 --> 00:58:09,612
Yeah, isn't it?

1302
00:58:09,612 --> 00:58:10,821
Is this where you kill me?

1303
00:58:10,821 --> 00:58:12,990
Yeah, I think so.

1304
00:58:12,990 --> 00:58:15,951
- I don't know about this.
- Oh, wow.

1305
00:58:15,951 --> 00:58:18,037
It's nice.
It's beautiful.

1306
00:58:18,037 --> 00:58:20,873
Thank you.

1307
00:58:20,873 --> 00:58:23,709
I had such an amazing day
with Jeremy today.

1308
00:58:23,709 --> 00:58:26,837
We have so much fun
every time we're together.

1309
00:58:26,837 --> 00:58:31,508
And Jeremy and I have the most
beautiful dinner set up tonight.

1310
00:58:31,508 --> 00:58:32,593
- Cheers.
- Yeah.

1311
00:58:32,593 --> 00:58:34,553
Do you want to do a toast?

1312
00:58:34,553 --> 00:58:36,388
I was just gonna thank you
for an amazing day.

1313
00:58:36,388 --> 00:58:37,806
Which I guess is a toast
in itself.

1314
00:58:37,806 --> 00:58:39,225
Sure.

1315
00:58:39,225 --> 00:58:40,601
So thank you
for an amazing day.

1316
00:58:40,601 --> 00:58:43,270
Going into tonight,

1317
00:58:43,270 --> 00:58:46,106
I wanted to make sure
that every single person

1318
00:58:46,106 --> 00:58:49,902
that I'm bringing into hometowns
this next week knows who I am

1319
00:58:49,902 --> 00:58:52,571
and knows what they want
and I feel aligned with.

1320
00:58:52,571 --> 00:58:54,782
So I want to see if Jeremy and I

1321
00:58:54,782 --> 00:58:56,909
could do more than
just have fun together.

1322
00:58:56,909 --> 00:59:01,455
Can we have the same outlook
on life and culture,

1323
00:59:01,455 --> 00:59:04,667
tradition, family, and love?

1324
00:59:04,667 --> 00:59:07,378
I'm going to need more
from Jeremy

1325
00:59:07,378 --> 00:59:10,881
to give him this hometown
rose tonight.

1326
00:59:10,881 --> 00:59:12,091
I didn't know what
we were going to do,

1327
00:59:12,091 --> 00:59:13,634
but actually it was perfect

1328
00:59:13,634 --> 00:59:15,469
because it was like
a normal day to me.

1329
00:59:15,469 --> 00:59:18,597
And I feel super close
to you after today.

1330
00:59:18,597 --> 00:59:20,683
- Oh, good.
- It was fun exploring with you.

1331
00:59:20,683 --> 00:59:22,268
- Yeah, it was a good time.
- Mm-hmm.

1332
00:59:22,268 --> 00:59:24,103
I do feel like a lot
of our relationship

1333
00:59:24,103 --> 00:59:26,814
is, like, laughing
and having fun together

1334
00:59:26,814 --> 00:59:30,693
because you bring out
the most me out of anybody here.

1335
00:59:30,693 --> 00:59:32,361
- Aww.
- But I also was like,

1336
00:59:32,361 --> 00:59:33,821
you know,
I really wanted tonight

1337
00:59:33,821 --> 00:59:36,198
to be able to dig into, like,

1338
00:59:36,198 --> 00:59:37,908
a lot more
serious stuff with you,

1339
00:59:37,908 --> 00:59:39,910
like with hometowns
being next week.

1340
00:59:39,910 --> 00:59:41,912
I don't know. Meeting families
is important to me.

1341
00:59:41,912 --> 00:59:43,872
- Me too.
- And I think

1342
00:59:43,872 --> 00:59:46,083
I need to be asking
more serious questions

1343
00:59:46,083 --> 00:59:49,086
of like, what do these guys
see in me?

1344
00:59:49,086 --> 00:59:50,587
Because at the end of the day,

1345
00:59:50,587 --> 00:59:52,131
like, you can say
you want an engagement,

1346
00:59:52,131 --> 00:59:53,590
you can say you want
a serious relationship,

1347
00:59:53,590 --> 00:59:55,175
but, like, why with me?

1348
00:59:55,175 --> 00:59:57,511
And how we're gonna
fit our futures

1349
00:59:57,511 --> 00:59:59,638
together into all of this,
you know?

1350
00:59:59,638 --> 01:00:01,598
At a certain point,
it's just like,

1351
01:00:01,598 --> 01:00:05,477
who do I want to be with that,
like, makes me comfortable...

1352
01:00:05,477 --> 01:00:06,979
- Mm-hmm.
- ...and, like, makes me smile

1353
01:00:06,979 --> 01:00:09,023
and laugh and that--
- Mm-hmm.

1354
01:00:09,023 --> 01:00:10,399
Like, right now, that's you.

1355
01:00:10,399 --> 01:00:13,110
Like, I love
spending time with you.

1356
01:00:13,110 --> 01:00:17,531
And I feel like I've always
looked for someone who's like--

1357
01:00:17,531 --> 01:00:19,283
I'm not trying to compare you
to my mom,

1358
01:00:19,283 --> 01:00:22,119
but someone who's as, like,
caring as my mom.

1359
01:00:22,119 --> 01:00:25,456
She would do anything
for the people that she loves...

1360
01:00:25,456 --> 01:00:27,958
- Mm-hmm.
- ... like you said you are.

1361
01:00:27,958 --> 01:00:29,460
She's, like, the nicest person

1362
01:00:29,460 --> 01:00:30,919
I know, to a fault.
- Mm-hmm.

1363
01:00:30,919 --> 01:00:32,338
Like, to an annoying
part sometimes,

1364
01:00:32,338 --> 01:00:33,797
which I've told her.
- Really?

1365
01:00:33,797 --> 01:00:36,050
- She worries so much.
- Mm-hmm.

1366
01:00:36,050 --> 01:00:38,469
- Very Jewish mom of her.
- My mom's the same way.

1367
01:00:38,469 --> 01:00:40,304
- Really?
- She's overbearing as--

1368
01:00:40,304 --> 01:00:42,723
as hell, but it's all coming
from a place of love,

1369
01:00:42,723 --> 01:00:45,934
so I feel the struggle.
- Yeah.

1370
01:00:45,934 --> 01:00:48,812
Like, if-- if you meet her,
like, which hopefully you do...

1371
01:00:48,812 --> 01:00:50,397
- Mm-hmm.
- ...she'll be like

1372
01:00:50,397 --> 01:00:52,024
the nicest person ever.
- Have you introduced

1373
01:00:52,024 --> 01:00:53,776
a lot of girls
to your family before?

1374
01:00:53,776 --> 01:00:55,361
- No, only my two girlfriends.
- How many? Which ones?

1375
01:00:55,361 --> 01:00:57,321
I mean, what are their names?

1376
01:00:57,321 --> 01:01:00,449
I've-- I've brought two girls
to my-- to my parents before.

1377
01:01:00,449 --> 01:01:02,076
- Yeah.
- My mom has always made

1378
01:01:02,076 --> 01:01:04,370
jokes like,
"Oh, gotta marry a Jew."

1379
01:01:04,370 --> 01:01:08,123
But, like, also,
both my exes were Catholic,

1380
01:01:08,123 --> 01:01:09,583
and she loved both of them.
- Okay.

1381
01:01:09,583 --> 01:01:11,168
Being Jewish,
like, culturally,

1382
01:01:11,168 --> 01:01:12,628
is, like, very important to me.

1383
01:01:12,628 --> 01:01:14,797
- Okay.
- I don't expect you to convert.

1384
01:01:14,797 --> 01:01:17,216
I don't need you to convert.
- Okay.

1385
01:01:17,216 --> 01:01:19,510
- But eventually I do want kids.
- Yeah.

1386
01:01:19,510 --> 01:01:22,805
And I think that having
a Jewish identity...

1387
01:01:22,805 --> 01:01:24,556
- Mm-hmm.
- ...just 'cause of like

1388
01:01:24,556 --> 01:01:26,141
obviously what's happened
to Jews in the past.

1389
01:01:26,141 --> 01:01:29,520
- Absolutely.
- And, like, my grandmother,

1390
01:01:29,520 --> 01:01:31,105
who you'll maybe be able
to meet--

1391
01:01:31,105 --> 01:01:33,190
like, her grandfather
was, like, a very, like,

1392
01:01:33,190 --> 01:01:35,401
famous rabbi in Lithuania.
- Oh, wow.

1393
01:01:35,401 --> 01:01:37,027
You know,
died in the country

1394
01:01:37,027 --> 01:01:38,570
because he wouldn't leave,
like, when--

1395
01:01:38,570 --> 01:01:40,239
during World War II.

1396
01:01:40,239 --> 01:01:42,699
Um, so, it is super important
to me.

1397
01:01:42,699 --> 01:01:45,994
And I'm curious if that's
something you'd ever be open to.

1398
01:01:45,994 --> 01:01:48,956
Well, I have a lot of
Jewish friends in Miami.

1399
01:01:48,956 --> 01:01:50,457
We do a little Shabbat.
- Really?

1400
01:01:50,457 --> 01:01:52,459
- We break some bread.
- Wow.

1401
01:01:52,459 --> 01:01:54,920
Um, yeah.
We say "Shabbat shalom."

1402
01:01:54,920 --> 01:01:56,463
It's fun.
- You'd fit right in.

1403
01:01:58,090 --> 01:01:59,800
Well, I'm like, just, like,
really open

1404
01:01:59,800 --> 01:02:02,344
to a lot of different things.

1405
01:02:02,344 --> 01:02:04,680
But I also am Buddhist.
- Mm.

1406
01:02:04,680 --> 01:02:09,435
And my family grew up going
to temple for big holidays,

1407
01:02:09,435 --> 01:02:11,395
which are things that
I wouldn't want to give up.

1408
01:02:11,395 --> 01:02:14,940
and just, like, being around
the faith, which I do love.

1409
01:02:14,940 --> 01:02:19,862
And, um, I would want to be able
to have my mom really, like,

1410
01:02:19,862 --> 01:02:23,323
teach those things, like,
to our kids and stuff like that.

1411
01:02:23,323 --> 01:02:25,993
And obviously, if I'm asking
for you to be willing to,

1412
01:02:25,993 --> 01:02:28,162
I'm obviously open to that also.

1413
01:02:28,162 --> 01:02:30,497
It's really, like,
the culture and family aspect...

1414
01:02:30,497 --> 01:02:32,291
- Absolutely, yeah.
- ...which I could tell

1415
01:02:32,291 --> 01:02:34,543
you're about, too, so...
- I love that you said that.

1416
01:02:34,543 --> 01:02:37,463
That's what I want
in my future family is, like,

1417
01:02:37,463 --> 01:02:39,423
I really want to blend
families together...

1418
01:02:39,423 --> 01:02:41,091
- Me, too, yeah.
- ...and I-- I want to be able

1419
01:02:41,091 --> 01:02:43,135
to, like, be a part
of my partner's family

1420
01:02:43,135 --> 01:02:46,263
and also have my partner
be a part of my family, too.

1421
01:02:46,263 --> 01:02:47,764
So I love that.
- Mm-hmm.

1422
01:02:47,764 --> 01:02:51,018
Jeremy makes me feel
seen and heard.

1423
01:02:51,018 --> 01:02:53,187
I'm Buddhist, and, like, having
two different cultures

1424
01:02:53,187 --> 01:02:55,022
come together is never easy.

1425
01:02:55,022 --> 01:02:58,233
But Jeremy and I talk a lot
about faith and religion,

1426
01:02:58,233 --> 01:03:01,695
and hearing him talk about kids,
family, like, tradition

1427
01:03:01,695 --> 01:03:04,114
makes me very sure
that we can get deep

1428
01:03:04,114 --> 01:03:06,158
and that there is
another side to him.

1429
01:03:06,158 --> 01:03:09,286
And it makes me feel
really hopeful for our future.

1430
01:03:09,286 --> 01:03:12,372
Hearing about your family
makes me so excited.

1431
01:03:12,372 --> 01:03:15,000
For me, if you're committed
to somebody,

1432
01:03:15,000 --> 01:03:17,085
all that matters is that, like,

1433
01:03:17,085 --> 01:03:19,922
me and my partner
are open to--

1434
01:03:19,922 --> 01:03:21,590
to the mix of it all.
- Yeah.

1435
01:03:21,590 --> 01:03:24,760
And I think it would be
totally cool to have

1436
01:03:24,760 --> 01:03:27,346
our kids grow up as--
as Jewish.

1437
01:03:27,346 --> 01:03:32,726
Honestly, the idea of, like,
Jewish Buddhist kids sounds fun.

1438
01:03:32,726 --> 01:03:34,436
- Don't laugh.
- I'm like--

1439
01:03:34,436 --> 01:03:36,230
- This is gonna be serious.
- I know. It is serious.

1440
01:03:36,230 --> 01:03:37,981
But, like, I'm serious, too.
Like, I feel like

1441
01:03:37,981 --> 01:03:39,566
it would be fun with you.

1442
01:03:39,566 --> 01:03:42,194
I love that.
That means a lot to me.

1443
01:03:45,489 --> 01:03:49,660
Well, I think going into today,
I was like,

1444
01:03:49,660 --> 01:03:51,161
we can have so much fun together

1445
01:03:51,161 --> 01:03:53,914
and we are so comfortable
with each other,

1446
01:03:53,914 --> 01:03:57,334
But I did want to know, like,
if there was more there.

1447
01:03:57,334 --> 01:04:01,004
We were able to touch
on a lot of different things

1448
01:04:01,004 --> 01:04:04,174
that make us who we are
and what we want in the future,

1449
01:04:04,174 --> 01:04:07,302
and I think we align
on a lot of those.

1450
01:04:07,302 --> 01:04:09,846
I do feel like, you know,

1451
01:04:09,846 --> 01:04:11,723
you speak
so highly of your family,

1452
01:04:11,723 --> 01:04:16,270
and I'm so excited
to meet your... <i>mishpachah.</i>

1453
01:04:19,064 --> 01:04:21,817
Do you feel like
you want that for us?

1454
01:04:21,817 --> 01:04:25,028
I'm so excited to introduce
you to my family.

1455
01:04:25,028 --> 01:04:26,405
And I know they'll love you.

1456
01:04:26,405 --> 01:04:28,323
Will you accept this rose?

1457
01:04:28,323 --> 01:04:30,325
Of course.

1458
01:04:36,915 --> 01:04:38,333
I'm very excited.

1459
01:04:38,333 --> 01:04:40,544
Today has been incredible.

1460
01:04:40,544 --> 01:04:43,005
{\an8}I had a great conversation
with Jenn.

1461
01:04:43,005 --> 01:04:44,506
We see relationships the same.

1462
01:04:44,506 --> 01:04:46,592
We see family the same.
- Ready?

1463
01:04:46,592 --> 01:04:48,427
Yeah.
Especially after tonight,

1464
01:04:48,427 --> 01:04:49,928
I see a future with Jenn,

1465
01:04:49,928 --> 01:04:51,930
and I really
couldn't be happier.

1466
01:04:56,059 --> 01:04:59,646
I'm feeling so good.

1467
01:04:59,646 --> 01:05:02,065
<i>Mishpachah</i> means "family"
in Hebrew,

1468
01:05:02,065 --> 01:05:05,944
and I am excited
to meet his <i>mishpachah.</i>

1469
01:05:05,944 --> 01:05:08,196
Are you excited?
- Very excited. Are you?

1470
01:05:08,196 --> 01:05:10,741
Good.
With Jeremy tonight,

1471
01:05:10,741 --> 01:05:14,119
I got to see a different side
of him that I haven't seen yet.

1472
01:05:14,119 --> 01:05:16,204
He completely surprised me.

1473
01:05:16,204 --> 01:05:17,914
He's someone that
I can have fun with

1474
01:05:17,914 --> 01:05:19,333
and have that emotional
connection with.

1475
01:05:19,333 --> 01:05:20,959
And what we have is

1476
01:05:20,959 --> 01:05:23,170
exactly what I've been
looking for

1477
01:05:23,170 --> 01:05:25,297
and what I know that I deserve.

1478
01:05:33,639 --> 01:05:35,974
Tonight is the rose ceremony.

1479
01:05:35,974 --> 01:05:38,685
I only have two hometown roses
to give out,

1480
01:05:38,685 --> 01:05:41,980
so I have some really
big decisions to make.

1481
01:05:41,980 --> 01:05:45,567
The biggest thing I have
to deal with tonight is Sam.

1482
01:05:45,567 --> 01:05:48,528
I like Sam.
I see something with him.

1483
01:05:48,528 --> 01:05:52,115
On night one, we had
an amazing natural chemistry.

1484
01:05:52,115 --> 01:05:53,992
I gave him
my first impression rose.

1485
01:05:53,992 --> 01:05:56,203
I left that night
feeling so excited

1486
01:05:56,203 --> 01:05:58,455
for this journey with him.

1487
01:05:58,455 --> 01:06:00,624
I had no doubt that I was
gonna meet Sam's family

1488
01:06:00,624 --> 01:06:02,584
because we had
such a strong connection.

1489
01:06:02,584 --> 01:06:04,920
He just made me so happy.

1490
01:06:04,920 --> 01:06:07,756
But on the radio date,
I thought I was gonna learn

1491
01:06:07,756 --> 01:06:10,133
some more things
about how Sam felt about me.

1492
01:06:10,133 --> 01:06:11,968
And he just can't even come up
with one thing.

1493
01:06:11,968 --> 01:06:13,261
He can't even come up
with an adjective,

1494
01:06:13,261 --> 01:06:14,846
a-- a story, like, nothing.

1495
01:06:14,846 --> 01:06:17,974
And he just blurts out
that he loves me?

1496
01:06:17,974 --> 01:06:21,186
Like, I--
What the hell?

1497
01:06:21,186 --> 01:06:23,897
I have so many questions
that I need answers to.

1498
01:06:26,441 --> 01:06:28,985
I'm confused.
I don't understand.

1499
01:06:28,985 --> 01:06:33,949
But maybe there was something
that I'm still missing.

1500
01:06:33,949 --> 01:06:36,076
My connection with Sam
has been so strong.

1501
01:06:36,076 --> 01:06:38,704
It's like, if we can get through
one more challenge together,

1502
01:06:38,704 --> 01:06:41,748
it just seems like maybe
we could get through anything.

1503
01:06:41,748 --> 01:06:44,876
And I owe it to myself
to have a conversation with Sam

1504
01:06:44,876 --> 01:06:46,795
and get to the bottom of this.

1505
01:06:46,795 --> 01:06:50,006
And I'm gonna do that right now
before the rose ceremony.

1506
01:06:50,006 --> 01:06:51,967
Whoa! Whoa, hey!

1507
01:06:51,967 --> 01:06:54,261
Is Sam in here?
Do you guys know where he is?

1508
01:06:54,261 --> 01:06:56,138
- Uh...
-He's in his room.

1509
01:06:58,682 --> 01:07:00,267
What?!
My heart stopped

1510
01:07:00,267 --> 01:07:01,601
for a second.
It was like seeing a gh--

1511
01:07:01,601 --> 01:07:03,645
I was like...

1512
01:07:03,645 --> 01:07:05,897
Is Sam in here?
- He's not.

1513
01:07:05,897 --> 01:07:06,940
You know where he is?

1514
01:07:06,940 --> 01:07:08,942
I do not.

1515
01:07:11,319 --> 01:07:14,656
Hello?

1516
01:07:14,656 --> 01:07:16,491
Hey.

1517
01:07:16,491 --> 01:07:18,744
How's it going?
- Hello.

1518
01:07:18,744 --> 01:07:20,245
Do you wanna--
Do you wanna have a chat?

1519
01:07:20,245 --> 01:07:22,456
Yeah, absolutely.

1520
01:07:27,669 --> 01:07:29,546
How are you feeling?

1521
01:07:29,546 --> 01:07:31,840
Um...

1522
01:07:34,176 --> 01:07:37,012
Terrified.

1523
01:07:37,012 --> 01:07:38,722
How are you feeling
after the conversation

1524
01:07:38,722 --> 01:07:41,725
that we had the other night?

1525
01:07:41,725 --> 01:07:45,187
I'm sorry for the way
that that date went.

1526
01:07:45,187 --> 01:07:46,938
And I've been trying
to walk this fine line

1527
01:07:46,938 --> 01:07:49,149
of being vulnerable
and also protecting my feelings

1528
01:07:49,149 --> 01:07:51,693
in the same breath.

1529
01:07:51,693 --> 01:07:54,654
But the only way
for me to see it

1530
01:07:54,654 --> 01:07:59,451
was to fall in love again.

1531
01:07:59,451 --> 01:08:01,870
Okay. I'm confused.

1532
01:08:01,870 --> 01:08:04,456
- Okay.
- How can-- I don't even know.

1533
01:08:04,456 --> 01:08:06,166
I thought you were gonna say,
like, "Oh, I didn't mean

1534
01:08:06,166 --> 01:08:07,876
to say I love you," like...

1535
01:08:07,876 --> 01:08:10,962
Yeah. No. That's not--
I meant to say it.

1536
01:08:10,962 --> 01:08:15,926
Like, what-- To you, what
does it mean to love somebody?

1537
01:08:15,926 --> 01:08:19,304
For me, love is selfless.

1538
01:08:19,304 --> 01:08:20,931
Love is sacrifice.

1539
01:08:20,931 --> 01:08:23,225
Love is understanding

1540
01:08:23,225 --> 01:08:26,520
and listening to the person
that is in front of you,

1541
01:08:26,520 --> 01:08:30,065
always validating them
in whatever way that that means,

1542
01:08:30,065 --> 01:08:31,858
making sure
that this other person knows

1543
01:08:31,858 --> 01:08:35,779
that you're the only person
in the world that I see.

1544
01:08:35,779 --> 01:08:38,740
You're saying all the
right things, and I just--

1545
01:08:38,740 --> 01:08:41,117
It's hard for me to believe you.

1546
01:08:41,117 --> 01:08:42,702
- Yeah.
- I don't...

1547
01:08:42,702 --> 01:08:45,288
Hearing Sam,
nothing sounds genuine to me.

1548
01:08:45,288 --> 01:08:49,835
I'm nervous that he's
saying things to make me happy,

1549
01:08:49,835 --> 01:08:52,712
and I just don't believe him
when he says that.

1550
01:08:52,712 --> 01:08:56,466
Having to put your feelings
in words--

1551
01:08:56,466 --> 01:09:00,637
this is not my strong suit.
I am--

1552
01:09:00,637 --> 01:09:03,974
This is, like, the biggest
learning curve for me right now.

1553
01:09:03,974 --> 01:09:07,519
There's no words that I can say
that can describe the love

1554
01:09:07,519 --> 01:09:09,521
because any-- everything
that comes out of my mouth,

1555
01:09:09,521 --> 01:09:14,109
I feel like I'm downplaying
the way that I actually love.

1556
01:09:14,109 --> 01:09:16,027
We're right there to getting,
you know,

1557
01:09:16,027 --> 01:09:18,822
to hometowns, where everything
that I'm trying to say

1558
01:09:18,822 --> 01:09:22,158
would just be so [bleep] evident

1559
01:09:22,158 --> 01:09:25,495
in the way that I interact
with my family and my friends.

1560
01:09:25,495 --> 01:09:28,915
Like...
I am so confused.

1561
01:09:28,915 --> 01:09:31,626
He's telling me, "Oh, you'll
see the love when I see

1562
01:09:31,626 --> 01:09:33,753
my friends and family.
Like, you'll see the way--"

1563
01:09:33,753 --> 01:09:37,173
Like, I know you love
your friends and family.

1564
01:09:37,173 --> 01:09:40,135
But that doesn't mean
that he loves me.

1565
01:09:40,135 --> 01:09:42,804
Right now, I need to know
that he sees me

1566
01:09:42,804 --> 01:09:46,266
and he understands me
and he listens to me.

1567
01:09:46,266 --> 01:09:48,852
I genuinely
see something in you,

1568
01:09:48,852 --> 01:09:51,521
and I genuinely
want this to work.

1569
01:09:51,521 --> 01:09:54,274
And I was so confused of like,

1570
01:09:54,274 --> 01:09:56,484
how could someone
that I feel like

1571
01:09:56,484 --> 01:09:58,612
I have such a strong
connection with

1572
01:09:58,612 --> 01:10:02,699
not be seeing me?

1573
01:10:02,699 --> 01:10:05,118
So, what do you see in me?

1574
01:10:08,079 --> 01:10:11,499
I could go on about
your passion for love,

1575
01:10:11,499 --> 01:10:14,002
your desire
for wanting a family,

1576
01:10:14,002 --> 01:10:15,629
all these things
that resonate with me.

1577
01:10:15,629 --> 01:10:17,213
But the fact of the matter is,

1578
01:10:17,213 --> 01:10:18,632
is that there's other people
out there

1579
01:10:18,632 --> 01:10:21,551
with the same characteristics
of you.

1580
01:10:21,551 --> 01:10:24,304
I've had those people
in front of me.

1581
01:10:24,304 --> 01:10:26,014
Like, you look at me,
and you're like--

1582
01:10:26,014 --> 01:10:27,807
You ask me these questions,
hey, how do I know this?

1583
01:10:27,807 --> 01:10:29,643
How do I know that?
Like, I feel like you're looking

1584
01:10:29,643 --> 01:10:32,145
at me waiting for this-- like,
these answers with words.

1585
01:10:32,145 --> 01:10:34,314
I feel like--
That's not--

1586
01:10:34,314 --> 01:10:35,815
That's not what I'm saying.
That's not what I'm saying.

1587
01:10:35,815 --> 01:10:37,859
Here's my story.

1588
01:10:37,859 --> 01:10:39,194
I stepped out of the limo.

1589
01:10:39,194 --> 01:10:42,614
Your energy soothed my nerves.

1590
01:10:42,614 --> 01:10:44,157
That emotional connection--

1591
01:10:44,157 --> 01:10:46,076
But that's just energy.

1592
01:10:46,076 --> 01:10:48,244
I don't think that
that's emotional connection.

1593
01:10:48,244 --> 01:10:50,038
This is the story.

1594
01:10:50,038 --> 01:10:51,539
You cheersed
to a ferocious love.

1595
01:10:51,539 --> 01:10:53,333
I felt that.

1596
01:10:53,333 --> 01:10:55,126
That was another thing.
- I'm not looking for a script.

1597
01:10:55,126 --> 01:10:56,962
Love isn't a script.
You tell somebody--

1598
01:10:56,962 --> 01:10:58,588
It's not a script.
It's knowing that the person

1599
01:10:58,588 --> 01:11:00,256
that you share a life with,

1600
01:11:00,256 --> 01:11:03,051
you couldn't imagine
a day without them.

1601
01:11:03,051 --> 01:11:05,095
I'm getting confused again.

1602
01:11:05,095 --> 01:11:07,764
This is, like, just not good.
and, like, he's dismissing me

1603
01:11:07,764 --> 01:11:09,683
and he's not listening
and he's not asking

1604
01:11:09,683 --> 01:11:12,769
and it was just like--
I'm not seeing the love.

1605
01:11:12,769 --> 01:11:14,479
The second time
that I got to talk to you

1606
01:11:14,479 --> 01:11:16,898
was at the next rose ceremony.
I took the biggest

1607
01:11:16,898 --> 01:11:19,734
breath of air,
and I felt life again.

1608
01:11:19,734 --> 01:11:22,362
But, really, where everything
switched for me

1609
01:11:22,362 --> 01:11:24,990
was after the whole
stripping thing.

1610
01:11:24,990 --> 01:11:29,619
You're, like, pouring into
my emotional part.

1611
01:11:29,619 --> 01:11:32,622
What the hell
does that even mean?

1612
01:11:32,622 --> 01:11:34,249
And then we get
to the one-on-one.

1613
01:11:34,249 --> 01:11:36,876
What did you learn
about me that night?

1614
01:11:36,876 --> 01:11:39,462
I learned that you yearn

1615
01:11:39,462 --> 01:11:43,174
for a love that's so powerful,

1616
01:11:43,174 --> 01:11:44,843
that's endless.

1617
01:11:44,843 --> 01:11:47,220
What else did you learn
about me that night?

1618
01:11:55,979 --> 01:11:59,816
First...

1619
01:11:59,816 --> 01:12:02,110
you have no idea
how much I appreciate you.

1620
01:12:05,488 --> 01:12:08,908
And now I see it.

1621
01:12:10,785 --> 01:12:12,620
I love you.

1622
01:12:12,620 --> 01:12:17,125
But to love someone means
to really understand them.

1623
01:12:17,125 --> 01:12:21,087
He's fighting for this love
and this relationship for who?

1624
01:12:21,087 --> 01:12:23,298
I-- I could--
I could literally be

1625
01:12:23,298 --> 01:12:25,675
anybody right now,
and it wouldn't matter.

1626
01:12:25,675 --> 01:12:28,678
I'm a firm believer that you
don't get to pick who you love.

1627
01:12:28,678 --> 01:12:32,223
I'm just. I'm sorry--
I'm-- I don't...

1628
01:12:32,223 --> 01:12:35,477
You saw the best in me
whenever I couldn't even see it.

1629
01:12:35,477 --> 01:12:37,645
I just need a second.
I think I just need a second.

1630
01:12:45,779 --> 01:12:48,615
I just-- I feel confused.

1631
01:12:48,615 --> 01:12:52,243
It's just words and words
and words, and it's not--

1632
01:12:52,243 --> 01:12:54,913
It's not--
I don't know.

1633
01:12:54,913 --> 01:12:57,832
It's not answering anything
for me.

1634
01:12:57,832 --> 01:13:00,960
I feel annoyed, frustrated,
dismissed, ignored.

1635
01:13:00,960 --> 01:13:03,713
It's like, he hasn't even
asked me how I'm feeling.

1636
01:13:03,713 --> 01:13:06,174
He doesn't even ask me
where my head is at.

1637
01:13:06,174 --> 01:13:08,051
And he's just talking,
talking, talking.

1638
01:13:08,051 --> 01:13:10,345
It's like, I'm, like, trying
to listen to him,

1639
01:13:10,345 --> 01:13:12,430
and now I'm even more confused.

1640
01:13:12,430 --> 01:13:15,809
And that's why this is making it
so hard for me to see.

1641
01:13:15,809 --> 01:13:17,644
Oh, it is so--

1642
01:13:17,644 --> 01:13:19,604
I don't-- Like, it's not
black and white, right?

1643
01:13:19,604 --> 01:13:21,231
It's not clear-cut.

1644
01:13:21,231 --> 01:13:23,358
And I don't know what to do.

1645
01:13:34,953 --> 01:13:36,621
Did she come in here
and talk to any of y'all?

1646
01:13:36,621 --> 01:13:38,331
She came in hot, bro.
- She came in hot.

1647
01:13:38,331 --> 01:13:40,250
Emotional.
Hey. Question.

1648
01:13:40,250 --> 01:13:43,336
Have any of y'all ever had
a woman approach you

1649
01:13:43,336 --> 01:13:45,839
with that energy?
And was it good?

1650
01:13:45,839 --> 01:13:47,799
No.
- I mean, that is kind of true.

1651
01:13:47,799 --> 01:13:49,592
Yeah, the answer is no.

1652
01:13:49,592 --> 01:13:52,220
Can I say this, though?
When they have, they care.

1653
01:13:52,220 --> 01:13:55,181
Like, I've been in situations
where you can tell

1654
01:13:55,181 --> 01:13:57,892
when a woman cares
and she's still--

1655
01:13:57,892 --> 01:13:59,227
There's still a piece of Jenn

1656
01:13:59,227 --> 01:14:00,645
that still wants
to see something,

1657
01:14:00,645 --> 01:14:02,605
or she would not be--
Me, personally,

1658
01:14:02,605 --> 01:14:04,232
I don't think she would come
all the way here to tell him

1659
01:14:04,232 --> 01:14:05,191
don't come to
the rose cemetery tonight.

1660
01:14:11,906 --> 01:14:15,618
I think that it's been
a confusing week.

1661
01:14:15,618 --> 01:14:18,413
It's been a confusing journey
for us both.

1662
01:14:18,413 --> 01:14:22,250
But, like, since the beginning,
there was so much there,

1663
01:14:22,250 --> 01:14:25,962
and I really want it
to work for us

1664
01:14:25,962 --> 01:14:28,548
and I really want it
to be real between us.

1665
01:14:28,548 --> 01:14:30,967
But I feel like going into
this conversation today,

1666
01:14:30,967 --> 01:14:33,595
like, I wanted to be able
to also explain to you

1667
01:14:33,595 --> 01:14:35,430
how I was feeling
about everything,

1668
01:14:35,430 --> 01:14:37,473
and you didn't even ask me
what I need from you.

1669
01:14:37,473 --> 01:14:40,059
And I feel like we're just like
at this disconnect

1670
01:14:40,059 --> 01:14:43,688
and I don't know what it is
and I just don't--

1671
01:14:43,688 --> 01:14:45,607
I feel like you've been
looking-- You've been--

1672
01:14:45,607 --> 01:14:47,108
You're waiting for this, like,

1673
01:14:47,108 --> 01:14:48,943
answer and this response.
- I'm not--

1674
01:14:48,943 --> 01:14:50,320
You tell somebody you love them,
you should be able to say

1675
01:14:50,320 --> 01:14:53,364
100 other things
that you love about them

1676
01:14:53,364 --> 01:14:55,533
or even like about them
and that you see in them

1677
01:14:55,533 --> 01:14:56,951
and want to know
about them and--

1678
01:14:56,951 --> 01:14:58,161
Yeah. Like I said,
this whole--

1679
01:14:58,161 --> 01:15:00,121
this whole journey for me.

1680
01:15:00,121 --> 01:15:02,457
For you. Again.

1681
01:15:02,457 --> 01:15:04,459
I-- I can't do this.

1682
01:15:04,459 --> 01:15:07,420
I can't sit here with someone
who says that they love me,

1683
01:15:07,420 --> 01:15:09,672
but doesn't even really want
to get to know me

1684
01:15:09,672 --> 01:15:11,591
and understand me and see me.

1685
01:15:11,591 --> 01:15:15,094
Everything that I said to you,
you didn't hear.

1686
01:15:15,094 --> 01:15:17,055
I heard them.
I just don't think

1687
01:15:17,055 --> 01:15:19,641
there was any weight to them.
and I don't think that--

1688
01:15:19,641 --> 01:15:22,268
Like, you telling me
that you love me?

1689
01:15:22,268 --> 01:15:24,896
You don't understand me.
You don't know me.

1690
01:15:24,896 --> 01:15:26,689
And it's like,
I know what I deserve,

1691
01:15:26,689 --> 01:15:28,900
and I know the love
that I deserve.

1692
01:15:28,900 --> 01:15:31,986
And the way that this is

1693
01:15:31,986 --> 01:15:35,323
reminds me
so much of a relationship

1694
01:15:35,323 --> 01:15:38,451
that I'd already
put in the past.

1695
01:15:38,451 --> 01:15:40,787
I've been through this
so many times,

1696
01:15:40,787 --> 01:15:42,205
teaching people what love means,

1697
01:15:42,205 --> 01:15:43,957
teaching people
how to prioritize me.

1698
01:15:43,957 --> 01:15:46,125
I've closed this chapter
in my life already.

1699
01:15:46,125 --> 01:15:48,544
I'm done.
I'm done with it.

1700
01:16:12,026 --> 01:16:14,988
{\an8}Yeah, that's, uh--
That's frustrating.

1701
01:16:14,988 --> 01:16:17,657
Um, I didn't think that today

1702
01:16:17,657 --> 01:16:19,742
was gonna be my time
to go home.

1703
01:16:19,742 --> 01:16:21,619
You know, it sucks,
but the energy

1704
01:16:21,619 --> 01:16:25,665
that she brought was very dull.

1705
01:16:25,665 --> 01:16:27,417
It's not my fault, you know?

1706
01:16:27,417 --> 01:16:30,253
And this is one thing that
I stand 10 toes down on.

1707
01:16:30,253 --> 01:16:31,671
At the end of the day,
it just--

1708
01:16:31,671 --> 01:16:34,340
It is what it is.

1709
01:16:34,340 --> 01:16:36,467
I will always keep
the main thing, the main thing.

1710
01:16:36,467 --> 01:16:38,469
And my main thing is finding
that person that I love

1711
01:16:38,469 --> 01:16:39,595
and the person
that I want to spend

1712
01:16:39,595 --> 01:16:42,473
the rest of my life with, so...

1713
01:16:42,473 --> 01:16:43,766
Yeah.

1714
01:16:48,062 --> 01:16:50,440
It's just not
my definition of love.

1715
01:16:50,440 --> 01:16:53,026
It's just not-- It's not right.

1716
01:16:53,026 --> 01:16:55,278
Listen, I don't know
exactly what love is,

1717
01:16:55,278 --> 01:16:59,198
but I know that
that is not what love is.

1718
01:16:59,198 --> 01:17:03,619
I really pride myself on reading
people well and being intuitive,

1719
01:17:03,619 --> 01:17:06,122
and I am so mad

1720
01:17:06,122 --> 01:17:10,335
that I got it wrong.

1721
01:17:10,335 --> 01:17:13,796
It was a relationship
in which it was mainly physical.

1722
01:17:13,796 --> 01:17:16,174
He didn't really try
to get to know me

1723
01:17:16,174 --> 01:17:18,593
and had this idea of me.

1724
01:17:18,593 --> 01:17:21,179
It's not me.
Like, he doesn't know me.

1725
01:17:23,931 --> 01:17:27,268
This is another turning point.

1726
01:17:27,268 --> 01:17:29,604
I would not have been able
to do this a year ago,

1727
01:17:29,604 --> 01:17:31,898
maybe even
a couple months ago.

1728
01:17:31,898 --> 01:17:34,609
I understand my worth
and what I deserve

1729
01:17:34,609 --> 01:17:36,778
and understand what I want.

1730
01:17:36,778 --> 01:17:41,366
What I want is not Sam.

1731
01:17:41,366 --> 01:17:44,494
I've been there, done that,
and I'm not doing it again.

1732
01:17:44,494 --> 01:17:46,037
I'm done.

1733
01:17:46,037 --> 01:17:48,039
This is not what love
should feel like.

1734
01:17:48,039 --> 01:17:51,417
Putting somebody else first.
That's what love is.

1735
01:18:01,177 --> 01:18:03,554
Let's do it, boys.

1736
01:18:03,554 --> 01:18:07,392
This last week was
an emotional roller coaster.

1737
01:18:07,392 --> 01:18:09,936
Jenn breaking up with Sam
before the rose ceremony

1738
01:18:09,936 --> 01:18:12,105
was crazy.

1739
01:18:12,105 --> 01:18:14,565
She's seen a strong connection
with him since the beginning,

1740
01:18:14,565 --> 01:18:17,235
so we were all caught off guard.

1741
01:18:17,235 --> 01:18:18,778
{\an8}The nerves kind of kicked
in a little bit.

1742
01:18:18,778 --> 01:18:20,405
{\an8}Things got really real.

1743
01:18:20,405 --> 01:18:22,490
We're down to four people
without a rose

1744
01:18:22,490 --> 01:18:24,492
and two roses
still on the table.

1745
01:18:24,492 --> 01:18:26,786
So the pressure's on.

1746
01:18:33,751 --> 01:18:35,586
I have fallen in love with Jenn,

1747
01:18:35,586 --> 01:18:40,133
and I've done everything I can
to show Jenn how I feel.

1748
01:18:40,133 --> 01:18:42,552
I'm excited about her meeting
my family,

1749
01:18:42,552 --> 01:18:44,429
but what scares me is

1750
01:18:44,429 --> 01:18:46,806
{\an8}she could have a stronger
connection with somebody else.

1751
01:18:51,519 --> 01:18:55,064
{\an8}I'm feeling
anxious and nervous.

1752
01:18:55,064 --> 01:18:56,691
You know,
whenever you put your heart

1753
01:18:56,691 --> 01:18:59,360
out there on the line,
it's scary.

1754
01:18:59,360 --> 01:19:03,823
But I know that Jenn knows
we have a strong connection.

1755
01:19:03,823 --> 01:19:07,160
So if I don't get a rose
tonight,

1756
01:19:07,160 --> 01:19:08,953
it would be a dagger
to the heart.

1757
01:19:14,167 --> 01:19:15,543
- Hi, guys.
- Hi.

1758
01:19:15,543 --> 01:19:17,336
Hello.
Hey.

1759
01:19:17,336 --> 01:19:21,716
This week in Seattle
has been so insightful for me.

1760
01:19:21,716 --> 01:19:24,760
I tell you guys each week
that my perspective on love

1761
01:19:24,760 --> 01:19:27,388
is changing, and it has.

1762
01:19:27,388 --> 01:19:30,892
And I think this week
it was really challenged.

1763
01:19:30,892 --> 01:19:34,562
And that's why Sam had to go.

1764
01:19:34,562 --> 01:19:38,524
With that said, I do have
to do the impossible tonight

1765
01:19:38,524 --> 01:19:41,110
and send two of you home.

1766
01:19:41,110 --> 01:19:44,947
And I want you to know how sorry
I am that I have to do that.

1767
01:19:44,947 --> 01:19:47,825
I know exactly what it's like
to go home in this week,

1768
01:19:47,825 --> 01:19:51,120
but ultimately
I have to follow my heart

1769
01:19:51,120 --> 01:19:54,290
because I know that my husband
is in this room.

1770
01:20:14,644 --> 01:20:16,854
Devin.

1771
01:20:19,440 --> 01:20:21,526
Devin,
will you accept this rose?

1772
01:20:21,526 --> 01:20:22,485
Without a doubt.

1773
01:20:40,086 --> 01:20:43,256
Gentlemen. Jenn.

1774
01:20:43,256 --> 01:20:45,508
It's the final rose tonight.

1775
01:21:15,079 --> 01:21:17,707
Jonathan.

1776
01:21:22,545 --> 01:21:24,797
Jonathan,
will you accept this rose?

1777
01:21:24,797 --> 01:21:26,716
Of course I will.

1778
01:21:38,477 --> 01:21:41,689
Spencer, Grant,

1779
01:21:41,689 --> 01:21:44,692
just take a moment
and say your goodbyes.

1780
01:21:50,323 --> 01:21:52,241
I'll see you.

1781
01:21:54,201 --> 01:21:56,037
I feel empty right now.

1782
01:22:07,423 --> 01:22:09,342
I don't know,
Jenn's a great woman.

1783
01:22:09,342 --> 01:22:12,053
She's a great woman,
and, uh...

1784
01:22:12,053 --> 01:22:14,013
I expressed my love for her.

1785
01:22:15,806 --> 01:22:17,308
Like, I poured everything out,

1786
01:22:17,308 --> 01:22:20,728
and it wasn't good enough.

1787
01:22:20,728 --> 01:22:22,396
Ooh.

1788
01:22:22,396 --> 01:22:24,231
Good luck, okay?

1789
01:22:24,231 --> 01:22:27,610
It just sucks knowing that
you feel some way about somebody

1790
01:22:27,610 --> 01:22:29,445
and that they don't feel
the same about you, you know?

1791
01:22:29,445 --> 01:22:31,447
Okay.

1792
01:22:31,447 --> 01:22:32,865
I want a family, you know?

1793
01:22:32,865 --> 01:22:34,867
I want to be happy.
I want a wife.

1794
01:22:34,867 --> 01:22:37,119
I want to be in love.

1795
01:22:37,119 --> 01:22:38,621
I want that, you know?

1796
01:22:38,621 --> 01:22:40,331
I want to give everything
to somebody,

1797
01:22:40,331 --> 01:22:42,458
and I want them to give
everything to me in return.

1798
01:22:44,835 --> 01:22:47,129
I don't know what else to say.

1799
01:22:47,129 --> 01:22:49,298
I did not think that was
gonna happen tonight.

1800
01:22:53,427 --> 01:22:57,682
{\an8}Jenn's the first woman
I've met since my last breakup

1801
01:22:57,682 --> 01:22:59,600
{\an8}where I've, like--
I've seen the path

1802
01:22:59,600 --> 01:23:03,312
towards an engagement.

1803
01:23:03,312 --> 01:23:06,440
And losing that stings.

1804
01:23:06,440 --> 01:23:10,695
It's just, every time,
it just doesn't work out.

1805
01:23:10,695 --> 01:23:14,073
I don't know what to do.

1806
01:23:16,534 --> 01:23:17,993
<i>Hello?</i>

1807
01:23:17,993 --> 01:23:19,704
Hey, Mama.

1808
01:23:19,704 --> 01:23:23,290
<i>Hi, baby!</i>
- Hey.

1809
01:23:23,290 --> 01:23:26,293
<i>Oh, my gosh!
What does this mean?</i>

1810
01:23:27,211 --> 01:23:29,213
Um, I'm getting
sent home.

1811
01:23:29,880 --> 01:23:31,590
<i>Aw, baby.</i>

1812
01:23:31,590 --> 01:23:33,050
Alright.

1813
01:23:33,050 --> 01:23:34,427
<i>Are you okay?</i>

1814
01:23:34,427 --> 01:23:36,053
I don't know. It just sucks.

1815
01:23:36,053 --> 01:23:37,346
Like, I couldn't be happier
for someone

1816
01:23:37,346 --> 01:23:39,181
that she's finding her person.

1817
01:23:39,181 --> 01:23:42,184
But I wish it was me.
I-- It's just--

1818
01:23:42,184 --> 01:23:44,478
<i>I know, baby. I know.</i>

1819
01:23:44,478 --> 01:23:47,940
To our futures,
to meeting your loved ones,

1820
01:23:47,940 --> 01:23:50,735
to hometowns.
- To hometowns!

1821
01:23:50,735 --> 01:23:55,114
I just want my person.
<i>Aw, baby.</i>

1822
01:23:55,114 --> 01:23:57,491
<i>Next week
on</i> The Bachelorette...

1823
01:23:57,491 --> 01:24:01,495
♪ We're avocados,
we're avocados ♪

1824
01:24:01,495 --> 01:24:03,706
This is the wildest
hometowns week.

1825
01:24:03,706 --> 01:24:05,458
Bag boy, hurry it up.

1826
01:24:05,458 --> 01:24:09,879
And I cannot be more grateful
and honored and excited.

1827
01:24:09,879 --> 01:24:11,630
One of these guys
could be my husband

1828
01:24:11,630 --> 01:24:13,174
{\an8}at the end of this.
Gotcha!

1829
01:24:13,174 --> 01:24:15,259
{\an8}You have to play big
to win big.

1830
01:24:15,259 --> 01:24:17,303
{\an8}Love is scary, but it is
definitely worth it

1831
01:24:17,303 --> 01:24:19,180
{\an8}at the end of the day.

1832
01:24:19,180 --> 01:24:21,807
{\an8}He's gone through so much
in life that he's earned

1833
01:24:21,807 --> 01:24:23,809
{\an8}someone to love him
unconditionally.

1834
01:24:25,936 --> 01:24:28,272
{\an8}I could get everything
I've ever wanted in my life.

1835
01:24:28,272 --> 01:24:29,940
{\an8}I love you.

1836
01:24:29,940 --> 01:24:31,525
{\an8}I could potentially also be hurt

1837
01:24:31,525 --> 01:24:33,569
{\an8}like I've never been hurt
before.

1838
01:24:33,569 --> 01:24:36,447
{\an8}There's other guys around,
and I know you.

1839
01:24:36,447 --> 01:24:38,073
{\an8}That's not the person for you.

1840
01:24:38,073 --> 01:24:39,533
{\an8}Is this just what
she wants me to see,

1841
01:24:39,533 --> 01:24:41,494
{\an8}or is it what she really is?

1842
01:24:41,494 --> 01:24:43,829
{\an8}You'll never know if you don't
put it all out there.

1843
01:24:43,829 --> 01:24:46,457
{\an8}You think that you
and Jeremy have a bond,

1844
01:24:46,457 --> 01:24:51,045
{\an8}but this is not a game.
It's your future.

1845
01:24:51,045 --> 01:24:53,005
{\an8}Jenn is, like, incredible.

1846
01:24:53,005 --> 01:24:55,841
{\an8}But I'm stuck between liking
someone and loving them.

1847
01:24:55,841 --> 01:24:59,053
{\an8}It's like this feeling of shame
of not being there yet.

1848
01:24:59,053 --> 01:25:00,888
{\an8}Going into this rose ceremony,

1849
01:25:00,888 --> 01:25:04,600
{\an8}Jenn deserves to have guys
here that are certain.

1850
01:25:04,600 --> 01:25:07,478
{\an8}Beautiful night
for some heartbreak.

1851
01:25:07,478 --> 01:25:09,438
{\an8}Ain't that the truth?