1 00:00:01,602 --> 00:00:03,871 - Tonight on "The Bachelorette"... 2 00:00:03,871 --> 00:00:06,273 - I'm not supposed to be falling for three people, 3 00:00:06,273 --> 00:00:07,374 but I am. 4 00:00:07,374 --> 00:00:08,675 - Queen Charity! 5 00:00:08,675 --> 00:00:10,077 - It's like watching your favorite 6 00:00:10,077 --> 00:00:12,513 prince and princess fall in love. 7 00:00:12,513 --> 00:00:15,682 I am 100% in love with you. 8 00:00:15,682 --> 00:00:17,184 - Whoo! 9 00:00:17,184 --> 00:00:18,719 I never felt like fairy tales were meant for me, 10 00:00:18,719 --> 00:00:20,487 but here I am. 11 00:00:20,487 --> 00:00:22,723 - [crying] I'm so done with this. 12 00:00:22,723 --> 00:00:25,325 Does he feel like, in his hearts of hearts, 13 00:00:25,325 --> 00:00:27,094 that I truly could be the one? 14 00:00:27,094 --> 00:00:29,663 - In my mind, there is that doubt. 15 00:00:29,663 --> 00:00:31,164 - I'm afraid to show that side, 16 00:00:31,164 --> 00:00:33,100 because there's a solid part of me that feels like 17 00:00:33,100 --> 00:00:34,167 it could be a mistake. 18 00:00:34,167 --> 00:00:35,636 It can be tough to be 19 00:00:35,636 --> 00:00:36,703 in a relationship with me, 20 00:00:36,703 --> 00:00:38,672 because it can be a roller coaster. 21 00:00:38,672 --> 00:00:40,941 - We're a week out from a proposal. 22 00:00:40,941 --> 00:00:42,876 Like, what's the next surprise? 23 00:00:42,876 --> 00:00:44,211 [dramatic music] 24 00:00:44,211 --> 00:00:45,546 I can't believe my eyes, 25 00:00:45,546 --> 00:00:48,115 because he's not supposed to be here. 26 00:00:48,115 --> 00:00:49,283 I'm shaking. [laughs] 27 00:00:49,283 --> 00:00:50,651 I just told him right now 28 00:00:50,651 --> 00:00:52,152 that I was falling in love with him, 29 00:00:52,152 --> 00:00:53,820 or am--I don't know. 30 00:00:53,820 --> 00:00:55,088 What are we gonna do? 31 00:00:55,088 --> 00:00:56,089 ♪ 32 00:00:56,089 --> 00:00:57,424 This is not a drill. 33 00:00:57,424 --> 00:01:00,527 ♪ 34 00:01:00,527 --> 00:01:03,530 [soft music] 35 00:01:03,530 --> 00:01:05,265 ♪ 36 00:01:05,265 --> 00:01:07,501 [seagulls calling] 37 00:01:07,501 --> 00:01:10,504 [bright music] 38 00:01:10,504 --> 00:01:16,209 ♪ 39 00:01:16,209 --> 00:01:20,347 This week, we're in Fiji, and we are at overnights. 40 00:01:20,347 --> 00:01:23,617 So I'm on cloud a million. 41 00:01:23,617 --> 00:01:25,152 ♪ 42 00:01:25,152 --> 00:01:29,056 It's been a long but beautiful journey to get here. 43 00:01:29,056 --> 00:01:31,024 And I truly cannot believe that 44 00:01:31,024 --> 00:01:33,627 I will be getting engaged in Fiji. 45 00:01:33,627 --> 00:01:39,366 ♪ 46 00:01:39,366 --> 00:01:40,534 It is so gorgeous here. 47 00:01:40,534 --> 00:01:41,969 I mean, take a look. 48 00:01:41,969 --> 00:01:43,303 Everyone, take a look. 49 00:01:43,303 --> 00:01:45,672 It's stunning. 50 00:01:45,672 --> 00:01:47,240 The waters are crystal clear. 51 00:01:47,240 --> 00:01:49,343 They're blue and turquoise. 52 00:01:49,343 --> 00:01:51,478 I mean, all the shades of blue. 53 00:01:51,478 --> 00:01:53,046 It is so romantic. 54 00:01:53,046 --> 00:01:55,248 ♪ 55 00:01:55,248 --> 00:01:57,451 This is the absolute most perfect place to be in 56 00:01:57,451 --> 00:01:58,852 coming into overnights 57 00:01:58,852 --> 00:02:00,621 and knowing there's a lot of magic 58 00:02:00,621 --> 00:02:02,189 that will happen this week. 59 00:02:02,189 --> 00:02:03,957 My God. 60 00:02:03,957 --> 00:02:05,726 ♪ 61 00:02:05,726 --> 00:02:07,160 [squeals] 62 00:02:07,160 --> 00:02:08,662 "Bula." 63 00:02:08,662 --> 00:02:09,663 Yeah. [laughs] 64 00:02:09,663 --> 00:02:10,664 I'm happy. 65 00:02:10,664 --> 00:02:12,366 ♪ 66 00:02:12,366 --> 00:02:13,533 Last week was Hometowns, 67 00:02:13,533 --> 00:02:15,736 and I had to say goodbye to Aaron, 68 00:02:15,736 --> 00:02:18,772 which was the most difficult thing I've ever had to do 69 00:02:18,772 --> 00:02:21,475 and something that, like, is in the back of my head. 70 00:02:21,475 --> 00:02:25,012 Because he is somebody that I was falling in love with. 71 00:02:25,012 --> 00:02:26,380 ♪ 72 00:02:26,380 --> 00:02:28,482 But going into this week, 73 00:02:28,482 --> 00:02:30,250 I have three guys left: 74 00:02:30,250 --> 00:02:31,518 Dotun, 75 00:02:31,518 --> 00:02:32,552 Joey, 76 00:02:32,552 --> 00:02:34,021 and Xavier. 77 00:02:34,021 --> 00:02:35,589 All of those guys told me that 78 00:02:35,589 --> 00:02:37,391 they were falling in love with me, 79 00:02:37,391 --> 00:02:40,093 so hopefully these overnights 80 00:02:40,093 --> 00:02:42,629 will give me the clarity I need 81 00:02:42,629 --> 00:02:45,465 so I can make the most difficult but best decision 82 00:02:45,465 --> 00:02:48,301 of my life of who I'm gonna choose to be my husband. 83 00:02:48,301 --> 00:02:50,337 ♪ 84 00:02:51,505 --> 00:02:54,174 [soft music] 85 00:02:54,174 --> 00:02:56,843 - I am so excited for my time with Charity this week. 86 00:02:56,843 --> 00:02:58,378 What we have is really special, 87 00:02:58,378 --> 00:03:00,847 because it really feels like she's meant for me. 88 00:03:00,847 --> 00:03:02,449 At the end of our time here in Fiji, 89 00:03:02,449 --> 00:03:03,950 someone's gonna be getting on a knee, 90 00:03:03,950 --> 00:03:08,321 and I feel very prepared for that to be me at this point. 91 00:03:08,321 --> 00:03:10,590 Obviously, I don't know what the connection she has 92 00:03:10,590 --> 00:03:12,659 with Xavier or Joey is like, 93 00:03:12,659 --> 00:03:16,029 but I am continuing to try to stay positive. 94 00:03:16,029 --> 00:03:17,431 I feel pretty ready 95 00:03:17,431 --> 00:03:19,332 for it to be just me at the end of this. 96 00:03:19,332 --> 00:03:22,903 ♪ 97 00:03:22,903 --> 00:03:24,571 - I'm falling in love with Charity. 98 00:03:24,571 --> 00:03:25,972 She's a special woman, 99 00:03:25,972 --> 00:03:27,574 and I can see a future with her. 100 00:03:27,574 --> 00:03:30,644 But my Hometown didn't go great. 101 00:03:30,644 --> 00:03:34,147 The last moment we had was her stepping into a vehicle crying 102 00:03:34,147 --> 00:03:36,450 and me not sure why she was upset. 103 00:03:36,450 --> 00:03:40,220 So this week, I hope that we can get back on the same page. 104 00:03:40,220 --> 00:03:42,422 I think this place is an amazing place 105 00:03:42,422 --> 00:03:45,392 to tell Charity I'm in love with her. 106 00:03:45,392 --> 00:03:48,395 [sweeping music] 107 00:03:48,395 --> 00:03:49,796 ♪ 108 00:03:49,796 --> 00:03:51,765 - Before this, like, I was afraid 109 00:03:51,765 --> 00:03:54,668 of committing to one person forever. 110 00:03:54,668 --> 00:03:57,771 But now I think it's a possibility. 111 00:03:57,771 --> 00:04:01,875 Charity has allowed me to open up and also be vulnerable. 112 00:04:01,875 --> 00:04:03,110 And she's been vulnerable 113 00:04:03,110 --> 00:04:04,511 and open with me as well. 114 00:04:04,511 --> 00:04:06,713 She deserves 100% honesty. 115 00:04:06,713 --> 00:04:09,750 And I plan to continue to give her that. 116 00:04:09,750 --> 00:04:13,487 So at this point, I could see her as my wife. 117 00:04:13,487 --> 00:04:14,521 ♪ 118 00:04:14,521 --> 00:04:15,522 - So how are you liking Fiji? 119 00:04:15,522 --> 00:04:16,523 - Oh, I love it. 120 00:04:16,523 --> 00:04:17,791 I'm like, I want to live here. 121 00:04:17,791 --> 00:04:19,326 - Is this, like, bucket list place for you? 122 00:04:19,326 --> 00:04:21,328 - Oh, this is absolutely, like, probably top three. 123 00:04:21,328 --> 00:04:23,063 - Well, I gotta say, Fiji looks very good on you. 124 00:04:23,063 --> 00:04:24,397 - Oh, thank you. 125 00:04:24,397 --> 00:04:26,399 - Yeah, it has been such a long journey 126 00:04:26,399 --> 00:04:28,135 to get here, right, literally and figuratively. 127 00:04:28,135 --> 00:04:29,236 - I--yes. 128 00:04:29,236 --> 00:04:30,904 - I know it hasn't always been easy. 129 00:04:30,904 --> 00:04:32,439 And at the last Rose Ceremony, 130 00:04:32,439 --> 00:04:33,907 you had a really emotional and really difficult 131 00:04:33,907 --> 00:04:35,675 goodbye with Aaron. - Yeah. Mm-hmm. 132 00:04:35,675 --> 00:04:36,777 Uh, yeah. 133 00:04:36,777 --> 00:04:39,713 Um, that was a really, really hard one. 134 00:04:39,713 --> 00:04:41,848 He was someone that I was extremely close to, 135 00:04:41,848 --> 00:04:44,384 someone I still very much deeply care for. 136 00:04:44,384 --> 00:04:45,752 So it's still weighing on me. 137 00:04:45,752 --> 00:04:47,721 But I know, like, this is a big week. 138 00:04:47,721 --> 00:04:49,923 And I'm here with three incredible men. 139 00:04:49,923 --> 00:04:51,391 So, like, I'm just moving forward, 140 00:04:51,391 --> 00:04:53,860 and these connections are growing, like, 141 00:04:53,860 --> 00:04:55,662 at a rate that I can't even describe. 142 00:04:55,662 --> 00:04:56,863 - Tell me about Xavier. 143 00:04:56,863 --> 00:04:57,998 How are you feeling about him at this point? 144 00:04:57,998 --> 00:04:59,533 - I am feeling so good about Xavier. 145 00:04:59,533 --> 00:05:02,636 But I mean, with him, I just think I'm still wanting 146 00:05:02,636 --> 00:05:04,404 just to see that he is ready 147 00:05:04,404 --> 00:05:06,273 for an engagement at the end of this. 148 00:05:06,273 --> 00:05:07,741 And like, he's expressed it to me, 149 00:05:07,741 --> 00:05:09,910 but I don't know why I feel like he's just saying that. 150 00:05:09,910 --> 00:05:11,845 I don't know. That's just my own thing. 151 00:05:11,845 --> 00:05:14,247 And sometimes that's, like, my insecurities coming out. 152 00:05:14,247 --> 00:05:17,117 But this week will give us the uninterrupted time 153 00:05:17,117 --> 00:05:20,020 to really just lay it out and--and see. 154 00:05:20,020 --> 00:05:21,054 So I'm hopeful. 155 00:05:21,054 --> 00:05:22,155 - All right. 156 00:05:22,155 --> 00:05:23,857 Let's move on to Dotun now, shall we? 157 00:05:23,857 --> 00:05:25,025 - Yeah. 158 00:05:25,025 --> 00:05:27,060 Me and Dotun's connection is unreal. 159 00:05:27,060 --> 00:05:29,196 It's just unreal that there has not been 160 00:05:29,196 --> 00:05:30,997 anything that's been, like, alarming. 161 00:05:30,997 --> 00:05:32,098 - Yeah, like, is it too good to be true? 162 00:05:32,098 --> 00:05:33,600 - Yeah, that's what I was thinking. 163 00:05:33,600 --> 00:05:35,068 Am I, like, so, like, locked in that I'm like, you know... 164 00:05:35,068 --> 00:05:36,336 - There's nothing wrong with this man. 165 00:05:36,336 --> 00:05:37,704 - My blinders are on? Yeah. 166 00:05:37,704 --> 00:05:39,139 [laughs] - All right. 167 00:05:39,139 --> 00:05:40,473 Well, how are you feeling about Joey at this point? 168 00:05:40,473 --> 00:05:42,142 - I feel so good about Joey. 169 00:05:42,142 --> 00:05:44,945 I'm in a place, truly, where I am falling in love with him. 170 00:05:44,945 --> 00:05:47,147 But coming off of Hometowns last week, 171 00:05:47,147 --> 00:05:48,548 am I getting the real Joey? 172 00:05:48,548 --> 00:05:50,684 I think that's, like, the burning question for me. 173 00:05:50,684 --> 00:05:53,053 So I'm just really wanting to talk about it 174 00:05:53,053 --> 00:05:55,622 and see, like, what does Joey make sense of that as well. 175 00:05:55,622 --> 00:05:56,990 - And listen, the dates that you're gonna be on 176 00:05:56,990 --> 00:05:58,859 here in Fiji could change everything for you, 177 00:05:58,859 --> 00:06:00,527 because these are overnight dates. 178 00:06:00,527 --> 00:06:03,029 Just how important is this off-camera time 179 00:06:03,029 --> 00:06:04,197 that you're gonna have with some of these men? 180 00:06:04,197 --> 00:06:05,932 - Oh, it's so important, obviously. 181 00:06:05,932 --> 00:06:09,202 Like, it's Fantasy Suites, but it's like, for me, 182 00:06:09,202 --> 00:06:13,640 it's more so just building that bond and just having 183 00:06:13,640 --> 00:06:16,476 that uninterrupted time and just being able to, like, 184 00:06:16,476 --> 00:06:18,511 have real and raw conversations. 185 00:06:18,511 --> 00:06:21,514 And that's my goal, is for these overnights 186 00:06:21,514 --> 00:06:22,716 to give me clarity. 187 00:06:22,716 --> 00:06:24,451 So I know, like, this week 188 00:06:24,451 --> 00:06:28,255 will be transformative for the better. 189 00:06:28,255 --> 00:06:31,124 - Well, listen, the last time I saw you 190 00:06:31,124 --> 00:06:32,926 before the Rose Ceremony, you told me 191 00:06:32,926 --> 00:06:34,160 you were falling in love with four men 192 00:06:34,160 --> 00:06:35,896 at the same time. - Ridiculous. 193 00:06:35,896 --> 00:06:37,130 - Is it safe to say you're still falling 194 00:06:37,130 --> 00:06:38,164 in love with three men... - Mm-hmm. 195 00:06:38,164 --> 00:06:39,566 - At the same time now? - Mm-hmm. 196 00:06:39,566 --> 00:06:40,767 - And is it still crazy? 197 00:06:40,767 --> 00:06:41,968 - It's still crazy. 198 00:06:41,968 --> 00:06:43,536 I don't think it's gonna stop being crazy. 199 00:06:43,536 --> 00:06:47,574 But I know, like, the three men that I am falling in love with 200 00:06:47,574 --> 00:06:50,710 are, like, the best men ever, so it's gonna be a heavy week 201 00:06:50,710 --> 00:06:53,914 emotionally, but the goal is to get the clarity, 202 00:06:53,914 --> 00:06:57,817 spend this time with each of my guys, and however it ends, 203 00:06:57,817 --> 00:07:00,687 it'll lead me one step closer to finding my--my husband 204 00:07:00,687 --> 00:07:01,821 and my forever person. 205 00:07:01,821 --> 00:07:03,723 So we'll see. 206 00:07:03,723 --> 00:07:05,325 This week is super important. 207 00:07:05,325 --> 00:07:08,895 I'm not supposed to be falling for three people, but I am. 208 00:07:08,895 --> 00:07:10,730 And as I stand here right now, 209 00:07:10,730 --> 00:07:12,933 I have no idea who I'm getting engaged to. 210 00:07:12,933 --> 00:07:14,267 - All right. You got a big week. 211 00:07:14,267 --> 00:07:15,468 - A big week. - I'm gonna leave you to it. 212 00:07:15,468 --> 00:07:16,803 - [laughs] Thank you, Jesse. 213 00:07:16,803 --> 00:07:18,605 - As always, I'm around if you need me. 214 00:07:18,605 --> 00:07:20,540 - And if I'm being real, like, that's what I'm actually 215 00:07:20,540 --> 00:07:22,809 so concerned about going into this week, 216 00:07:22,809 --> 00:07:24,511 is that by the end of the week, 217 00:07:24,511 --> 00:07:27,480 I could actually say to all three, "I'm in love." 218 00:07:27,480 --> 00:07:29,049 ♪ 219 00:07:29,049 --> 00:07:31,084 No way. 220 00:07:31,084 --> 00:07:33,053 Saying that right now sounds insane, 221 00:07:33,053 --> 00:07:36,122 but like, the likelihood of it actually happening 222 00:07:36,122 --> 00:07:38,491 is pretty great. 223 00:07:38,491 --> 00:07:40,293 Ugh, God help me. 224 00:07:43,897 --> 00:07:46,900 [relaxed music] 225 00:07:46,900 --> 00:07:53,907 ♪ 226 00:07:57,777 --> 00:07:59,446 - We're in Fiji right now. 227 00:07:59,446 --> 00:08:01,715 This is lit. The ocean. 228 00:08:01,715 --> 00:08:03,416 You can hear the waves crashing. 229 00:08:03,416 --> 00:08:07,220 It's a perfect environment if you want to fall in love. 230 00:08:07,220 --> 00:08:10,256 Last time me and Charity spoke at Hometowns, 231 00:08:10,256 --> 00:08:12,325 I told her that I was falling in love with her. 232 00:08:12,325 --> 00:08:15,228 So I know how I feel about her. 233 00:08:15,228 --> 00:08:17,564 There is no question in that respect. 234 00:08:17,564 --> 00:08:19,632 But there is that doubt. 235 00:08:19,632 --> 00:08:22,268 Can I get on one knee and be certain about it? 236 00:08:22,268 --> 00:08:24,270 I'm hopeful that today will illuminate that. 237 00:08:24,270 --> 00:08:29,242 ♪ 238 00:08:29,242 --> 00:08:31,811 - Today is my first overnight date, 239 00:08:31,811 --> 00:08:33,246 and it is with Xavier. 240 00:08:33,246 --> 00:08:34,514 And I'm so excited. 241 00:08:34,514 --> 00:08:36,016 I miss him so much. 242 00:08:36,016 --> 00:08:39,686 I have not seen Xavier since, obviously, Hometowns. 243 00:08:39,686 --> 00:08:42,522 Last week definitely helped with having his parents 244 00:08:42,522 --> 00:08:45,091 and his sister confirm, like, Xavier is ready. 245 00:08:45,091 --> 00:08:47,460 And he did express he's falling in love with me. 246 00:08:47,460 --> 00:08:49,329 And that's exciting. 247 00:08:49,329 --> 00:08:51,231 Hi. Oh! 248 00:08:51,231 --> 00:08:52,399 - I missed you so much. 249 00:08:52,399 --> 00:08:54,134 - I missed you! 250 00:08:54,134 --> 00:08:56,136 I can see a future with him, but it's still 251 00:08:56,136 --> 00:08:57,771 in the back of my mind that I do question, 252 00:08:57,771 --> 00:08:59,973 does he feel like, in his hearts of hearts, 253 00:08:59,973 --> 00:09:01,608 that I truly could be the one? 254 00:09:01,608 --> 00:09:03,676 And hopefully today will provide me 255 00:09:03,676 --> 00:09:06,046 some sense of peace with that. 256 00:09:06,046 --> 00:09:07,814 - You are looking fine. Killing it. 257 00:09:07,814 --> 00:09:09,449 - I'm so freaking happy. - So am I. 258 00:09:09,449 --> 00:09:10,850 - This is gonna be a great day. 259 00:09:10,850 --> 00:09:11,985 - This is so incredible. - Are you excited? 260 00:09:11,985 --> 00:09:13,186 - I'm so excited. 261 00:09:13,186 --> 00:09:14,354 Like, I don't even know what to do. 262 00:09:14,354 --> 00:09:15,422 - Okay. 263 00:09:15,422 --> 00:09:18,625 We are on one of the 333 islands 264 00:09:18,625 --> 00:09:19,626 that Fiji has. 265 00:09:19,626 --> 00:09:20,927 - Okay, 330. 266 00:09:20,927 --> 00:09:23,463 - But this is our own private island. 267 00:09:23,463 --> 00:09:25,265 - What? - Yes. 268 00:09:25,265 --> 00:09:26,366 - Okay. - Isn't that insane? 269 00:09:26,366 --> 00:09:27,467 - Oh, it's so beautiful. 270 00:09:27,467 --> 00:09:30,036 - All for us, but not just us. 271 00:09:30,036 --> 00:09:31,671 I did bring some friends. 272 00:09:31,671 --> 00:09:33,907 They have something super special for us. 273 00:09:33,907 --> 00:09:35,275 - All right. I'm ready. - All right. 274 00:09:35,275 --> 00:09:36,609 Come on, guys. [laughs] 275 00:09:36,609 --> 00:09:38,611 - [singing in non-English language] 276 00:09:38,611 --> 00:09:40,280 [drumming] 277 00:09:40,280 --> 00:09:43,283 [all singing in non-English language] 278 00:09:43,283 --> 00:09:47,587 ♪ 279 00:09:47,587 --> 00:09:50,457 - Oh, my God. - Isn't this insane? 280 00:09:50,457 --> 00:09:52,759 I brought some friends along the way to help me. 281 00:09:52,759 --> 00:09:56,729 And I call them out for a little performance. 282 00:09:56,729 --> 00:09:59,299 ♪ 283 00:09:59,299 --> 00:10:02,035 It's obviously super special to their culture. 284 00:10:02,035 --> 00:10:03,036 I'm in awe. 285 00:10:03,036 --> 00:10:05,672 Xavier, he's in awe as well. 286 00:10:05,672 --> 00:10:07,107 - I can't even believe it. - I know. 287 00:10:07,107 --> 00:10:08,108 Like, what is happening? 288 00:10:08,108 --> 00:10:09,275 - This is insane. 289 00:10:09,275 --> 00:10:11,644 ♪ 290 00:10:11,644 --> 00:10:13,746 - Bula. both: Bula. 291 00:10:13,746 --> 00:10:14,881 - Welcome to Fiji. - Thank you. 292 00:10:14,881 --> 00:10:16,149 - Thank you. 293 00:10:16,149 --> 00:10:19,119 - We are so happy to have you with us today. 294 00:10:19,119 --> 00:10:22,188 I can see the true love between you two. 295 00:10:22,188 --> 00:10:24,424 - Love is very important in our culture. 296 00:10:24,424 --> 00:10:26,359 It's rooted deeply into our culture. 297 00:10:26,359 --> 00:10:29,529 - So we'll have to wear the traditional clothing. 298 00:10:29,529 --> 00:10:30,530 - Okay. 299 00:10:30,530 --> 00:10:31,564 - So please, Charity-- 300 00:10:31,564 --> 00:10:32,565 - Yes. 301 00:10:32,565 --> 00:10:33,633 - You'll follow me. - Okay. 302 00:10:33,633 --> 00:10:34,834 I'll follow you. - All right, bye. 303 00:10:34,834 --> 00:10:35,935 - See you soon. - See you soon. 304 00:10:35,935 --> 00:10:36,970 - Okay. - Thank you. 305 00:10:36,970 --> 00:10:37,971 - You? - Yeah. 306 00:10:37,971 --> 00:10:39,005 - You're coming with me. 307 00:10:39,005 --> 00:10:40,006 - Okay. 308 00:10:40,006 --> 00:10:41,474 Sounds good. 309 00:10:41,474 --> 00:10:44,611 The Fijian people tell us that we're to split up. 310 00:10:44,611 --> 00:10:45,845 And I'm like, why are we splitting up? 311 00:10:45,845 --> 00:10:47,013 I just got here. 312 00:10:47,013 --> 00:10:48,681 - You're gonna take off all your clothes. 313 00:10:48,681 --> 00:10:49,816 - Okay. 314 00:10:49,816 --> 00:10:50,817 - No, I'm just joking. 315 00:10:50,817 --> 00:10:52,919 - [laughs] I was like, uh... 316 00:10:52,919 --> 00:10:54,387 Uh, I don't know what we're doing, 317 00:10:54,387 --> 00:10:58,992 but I know that Fiji has, like, a rich culture. 318 00:10:58,992 --> 00:11:03,096 And I'm just trying to embrace it and have fun today. 319 00:11:03,096 --> 00:11:04,631 - Gotta oil you up, you know, bro? 320 00:11:04,631 --> 00:11:05,899 - Yeah, absolutely. 321 00:11:05,899 --> 00:11:09,102 There's no possible way that I'm not gonna 322 00:11:09,102 --> 00:11:11,671 have a good time with that beautiful woman. 323 00:11:11,671 --> 00:11:13,139 [mellow music] 324 00:11:13,139 --> 00:11:15,808 [laughing] Whoa. 325 00:11:15,808 --> 00:11:18,444 Yo. 326 00:11:18,444 --> 00:11:20,213 Wow. Woman king. 327 00:11:20,213 --> 00:11:22,849 Like, she's-- she's doing it for sure. 328 00:11:22,849 --> 00:11:24,184 She's looking great. 329 00:11:24,184 --> 00:11:26,252 I'm just, like, in shock. 330 00:11:26,252 --> 00:11:28,154 That's low-key my queen right there. 331 00:11:28,154 --> 00:11:29,822 Queen Charity. 332 00:11:29,822 --> 00:11:31,191 - Hey, Xavier. 333 00:11:31,191 --> 00:11:32,792 - [laughs] - Hey, you look good. 334 00:11:32,792 --> 00:11:36,029 They are carrying me in, awaiting my king. 335 00:11:36,029 --> 00:11:37,030 - Got you a chariot. 336 00:11:37,030 --> 00:11:38,298 - I know. Literally. 337 00:11:38,298 --> 00:11:40,567 Like, it is top tier. 338 00:11:40,567 --> 00:11:41,601 I am queen. 339 00:11:41,601 --> 00:11:42,735 - Hi. - Hello. 340 00:11:42,735 --> 00:11:44,470 - You look good. - I got oil everywhere. 341 00:11:44,470 --> 00:11:46,873 - I know. I'm like, I gotta be careful. 342 00:11:46,873 --> 00:11:48,241 - Bula. - Bula. 343 00:11:48,241 --> 00:11:51,544 - As you can see, this is the traditional wedding 344 00:11:51,544 --> 00:11:53,012 for a bride and groom. 345 00:11:53,012 --> 00:11:56,783 - Part of sharing one's love to each other 346 00:11:56,783 --> 00:11:58,084 is through the dance. 347 00:11:58,084 --> 00:11:59,953 So right now, we're gonna be teaching you 348 00:11:59,953 --> 00:12:01,754 our traditional dance. 349 00:12:01,754 --> 00:12:02,822 - Okay. 350 00:12:02,822 --> 00:12:04,824 [all singing in non-English language] 351 00:12:04,824 --> 00:12:06,492 [drumming] 352 00:12:06,492 --> 00:12:08,494 - This is a super special day. 353 00:12:08,494 --> 00:12:11,297 We are learning about the Fijian rituals 354 00:12:11,297 --> 00:12:14,534 and ceremonial procedures before marriage. 355 00:12:14,534 --> 00:12:15,501 - Is it good? - Yeah! 356 00:12:15,501 --> 00:12:16,736 - Yeah! [laughs] 357 00:12:16,736 --> 00:12:18,471 This is like the wedding rehearsal 358 00:12:18,471 --> 00:12:20,673 before we walk down the aisle. 359 00:12:20,673 --> 00:12:21,908 - Ha! 360 00:12:21,908 --> 00:12:22,942 [all cheering] 361 00:12:22,942 --> 00:12:24,377 - Yay! That was so good. 362 00:12:24,377 --> 00:12:25,478 I'm so hopeful. 363 00:12:25,478 --> 00:12:27,046 It could be me and Xavier in the end. 364 00:12:27,046 --> 00:12:29,349 - Welcome to our kava ceremony. 365 00:12:29,349 --> 00:12:30,416 - Kava. 366 00:12:30,416 --> 00:12:31,918 - We do a kava ceremony 367 00:12:31,918 --> 00:12:34,087 for very important occasions, 368 00:12:34,087 --> 00:12:36,289 such as a wedding ceremony. 369 00:12:36,289 --> 00:12:38,458 - I'm having fun, but you know, 370 00:12:38,458 --> 00:12:41,160 at the same time, I'm like, this is very serious. 371 00:12:41,160 --> 00:12:42,829 - You're wife to be, "Adi." 372 00:12:42,829 --> 00:12:43,830 - Okay. 373 00:12:43,830 --> 00:12:45,131 - And you're "Ratu." 374 00:12:45,131 --> 00:12:46,399 - "Ratu." Okay. 375 00:12:46,399 --> 00:12:48,534 - We are trying to get to an engagement. 376 00:12:48,534 --> 00:12:52,105 And this date has serious undertones 377 00:12:52,105 --> 00:12:53,439 about, like, our love 378 00:12:53,439 --> 00:12:55,642 and possible future together. 379 00:12:55,642 --> 00:12:58,411 So yeah, it's pretty intense. 380 00:12:58,411 --> 00:12:59,579 I will say. 381 00:12:59,579 --> 00:13:02,282 - And Ratu, when Adi drinks, 382 00:13:02,282 --> 00:13:03,616 you clap three times. 383 00:13:03,616 --> 00:13:05,785 That symbolizes that you got her back. 384 00:13:05,785 --> 00:13:07,153 - Got it. 385 00:13:07,153 --> 00:13:10,523 I still have a bit of fear because getting married 386 00:13:10,523 --> 00:13:11,891 is a huge responsibility. 387 00:13:11,891 --> 00:13:13,459 - [speaking Fijian] 388 00:13:13,459 --> 00:13:15,361 - It's a matter of, can I do this, 389 00:13:15,361 --> 00:13:16,562 or can I not do this? 390 00:13:16,562 --> 00:13:19,432 ♪ 391 00:13:19,432 --> 00:13:22,168 If Charity and I are going to spend the rest 392 00:13:22,168 --> 00:13:25,271 of our lives together, she deserves 100% honesty. 393 00:13:25,271 --> 00:13:26,372 ♪ 394 00:13:26,372 --> 00:13:30,076 - After you both drink as Mr. and Mrs., 395 00:13:30,076 --> 00:13:32,445 you have to acknowledge your love for each other. 396 00:13:32,445 --> 00:13:33,479 So Adi. 397 00:13:33,479 --> 00:13:34,781 - Mm-hmm. 398 00:13:34,781 --> 00:13:37,250 - What do you want to say to Ratu? 399 00:13:37,250 --> 00:13:39,952 - Xavier, you make me feel like 400 00:13:39,952 --> 00:13:43,189 I have full potential to one day blossom 401 00:13:43,189 --> 00:13:44,891 into all that I can be. 402 00:13:44,891 --> 00:13:49,362 And so us together will be a beautiful journey. 403 00:13:49,362 --> 00:13:51,564 So thank you. 404 00:13:51,564 --> 00:13:52,665 - That was great. 405 00:13:52,665 --> 00:13:54,634 - [clapping] That was beautiful, guys. 406 00:13:54,634 --> 00:13:58,671 Ratu, what do you want to say back to Adi? 407 00:13:58,671 --> 00:14:01,507 - You are a delicate flower 408 00:14:01,507 --> 00:14:04,110 that I don't want to crush when I pick up. 409 00:14:04,110 --> 00:14:05,678 - Mm. 410 00:14:05,678 --> 00:14:08,748 - I am willing to water the seed... 411 00:14:08,748 --> 00:14:10,249 - Aw. 412 00:14:10,249 --> 00:14:13,619 - To see it grow and blossom into something beautiful. 413 00:14:13,619 --> 00:14:17,256 And once it's ready, I will pick it. 414 00:14:17,256 --> 00:14:19,292 - Xavier is saying I'm a delicate flower 415 00:14:19,292 --> 00:14:22,128 that he doesn't want to crush when he picks up. 416 00:14:22,128 --> 00:14:24,130 There's a million ways to interpret that. 417 00:14:24,130 --> 00:14:25,131 Thank you. - Vinaka. 418 00:14:25,131 --> 00:14:26,399 both: Vinaka. 419 00:14:26,399 --> 00:14:27,633 - One way to look at it is, like, 420 00:14:27,633 --> 00:14:29,202 I'm super protective over you, 421 00:14:29,202 --> 00:14:31,437 but then there's another way of like, okay, 422 00:14:31,437 --> 00:14:33,306 when you do pick me up, why would you crush me? 423 00:14:33,306 --> 00:14:34,640 Like, I don't know. 424 00:14:34,640 --> 00:14:36,442 This is, like, super special, 425 00:14:36,442 --> 00:14:38,444 knowing, like, marriage is around the corner, 426 00:14:38,444 --> 00:14:40,513 like, that they wanted to share, like, 427 00:14:40,513 --> 00:14:41,781 their rituals with us. 428 00:14:41,781 --> 00:14:44,450 And to be spending it with you is super special 429 00:14:44,450 --> 00:14:46,819 because we're in a place where 430 00:14:46,819 --> 00:14:48,721 we're propelling forward. - Yeah. 431 00:14:48,721 --> 00:14:49,789 - I don't know about you, 432 00:14:49,789 --> 00:14:51,324 but that's where I feel like I'm at. 433 00:14:51,324 --> 00:14:52,592 - I definitely agree. 434 00:14:52,592 --> 00:14:54,060 I think that, you know, 435 00:14:54,060 --> 00:14:56,596 I've made tremendous strides in this. 436 00:14:56,596 --> 00:14:58,698 And I think you have also made tremendous strides 437 00:14:58,698 --> 00:15:00,233 with me as well. - You have. 438 00:15:00,233 --> 00:15:02,535 I didn't think that we would be here, 439 00:15:02,535 --> 00:15:03,836 but I'm, like, so glad we did 440 00:15:03,836 --> 00:15:06,572 because I just see so much growth in, like, you 441 00:15:06,572 --> 00:15:08,574 and then also myself of just, like, 442 00:15:08,574 --> 00:15:09,942 leaning in and trusting you 443 00:15:09,942 --> 00:15:13,079 and wanting--like, wanting this so bad 444 00:15:13,079 --> 00:15:14,313 for the both of us. - Yeah, absolutely. 445 00:15:14,313 --> 00:15:16,382 I think about just, you know, 446 00:15:16,382 --> 00:15:19,185 marriage as not like a business, but like-- 447 00:15:19,185 --> 00:15:20,386 - Yeah, well, it is like... - Yeah. 448 00:15:20,386 --> 00:15:22,054 - Together. - You have to invest in it, 449 00:15:22,054 --> 00:15:23,322 right? - Yeah, yeah. 450 00:15:23,322 --> 00:15:25,024 - And you gotta make smart decisions together. 451 00:15:25,024 --> 00:15:28,528 Like, for me, it's, like, trying to make sure 452 00:15:28,528 --> 00:15:29,762 that you're somebody 453 00:15:29,762 --> 00:15:31,464 that I can be in the same accord with. 454 00:15:31,464 --> 00:15:33,766 And like, when there are those tough conversations... 455 00:15:33,766 --> 00:15:35,535 - Yeah. - You know, how are we both 456 00:15:35,535 --> 00:15:37,470 gonna handle those tough conversations, 457 00:15:37,470 --> 00:15:38,738 you know what I mean? - Yeah. Yeah. 458 00:15:38,738 --> 00:15:40,440 Going into tonight, 459 00:15:40,440 --> 00:15:43,142 I would love to understand truly, 460 00:15:43,142 --> 00:15:44,977 yet again, the burning question of, 461 00:15:44,977 --> 00:15:49,382 Xavier, are you truly ready, without a doubt, no concerns? 462 00:15:49,382 --> 00:15:52,018 Like, do you feel like in the matter of certain days, 463 00:15:52,018 --> 00:15:54,420 I can be the one, yes or no? 464 00:15:54,420 --> 00:15:56,355 I hope it's a yes. 465 00:15:56,355 --> 00:15:58,357 It would be heartbreaking if I was to say goodbye 466 00:15:58,357 --> 00:16:01,260 to someone who I am falling in love with. 467 00:16:01,260 --> 00:16:04,163 And so I just hope that there is not anything 468 00:16:04,163 --> 00:16:06,899 that could keep us from moving forward. 469 00:16:06,899 --> 00:16:09,936 ♪ 470 00:16:09,936 --> 00:16:12,939 [soft music] 471 00:16:12,939 --> 00:16:19,745 ♪ 472 00:16:22,515 --> 00:16:26,652 - You know, I just got eliminated by Charity 473 00:16:26,652 --> 00:16:29,455 a couple nights ago after Hometowns, you know, 474 00:16:29,455 --> 00:16:33,059 after telling her that I was falling in love with her. 475 00:16:33,059 --> 00:16:35,261 And yeah. 476 00:16:35,261 --> 00:16:37,330 I mean, that was a very tough conversation to have, 477 00:16:37,330 --> 00:16:39,265 especially when you're about to leave someone 478 00:16:39,265 --> 00:16:40,566 that you think so highly of, 479 00:16:40,566 --> 00:16:42,902 that you formed a strong connection with. 480 00:16:42,902 --> 00:16:44,437 The last time I saw her, Charity tells me 481 00:16:44,437 --> 00:16:46,339 that she's not sure if she's made the right decision, 482 00:16:46,339 --> 00:16:48,207 and really just kind of replaying that in my head. 483 00:16:48,207 --> 00:16:49,709 There's a lot of things I want to say to her. 484 00:16:49,709 --> 00:16:50,810 ♪ 485 00:16:50,810 --> 00:16:52,411 So now I'm going to Fiji 486 00:16:52,411 --> 00:16:56,115 to go after the woman that I'm falling in love with. 487 00:16:56,115 --> 00:16:57,683 Charity is definitely worth fighting for. 488 00:16:57,683 --> 00:16:58,985 And you know, I really hope 489 00:16:58,985 --> 00:17:01,821 that Charity just accepts me back. 490 00:17:01,821 --> 00:17:03,122 ♪ 491 00:17:05,091 --> 00:17:08,094 [relaxed music] 492 00:17:08,094 --> 00:17:14,634 ♪ 493 00:17:14,634 --> 00:17:16,135 - Ah, this is so romantic. 494 00:17:16,135 --> 00:17:17,303 - This is beautiful. 495 00:17:17,303 --> 00:17:20,306 I am super excited for tonight. 496 00:17:20,306 --> 00:17:21,807 Thank you. - Mm-hmm. 497 00:17:21,807 --> 00:17:22,808 Absolutely. 498 00:17:22,808 --> 00:17:23,809 - Okay. 499 00:17:23,809 --> 00:17:25,311 Tonight is overnights. 500 00:17:25,311 --> 00:17:28,247 It's so much more than just, like, oh, it's Fantasy Suites. 501 00:17:28,247 --> 00:17:30,983 I think for me and Xavier both, this overnight 502 00:17:30,983 --> 00:17:33,819 holds so much for us to overcome 503 00:17:33,819 --> 00:17:36,656 these doubts and these fears that we both have had. 504 00:17:36,656 --> 00:17:38,691 Like, it's up to both of us whether or not 505 00:17:38,691 --> 00:17:40,660 we're gonna let our fears and doubts hold us back. 506 00:17:40,660 --> 00:17:42,395 And for me, it's like, I don't want that 507 00:17:42,395 --> 00:17:43,629 to be the case anymore. 508 00:17:43,629 --> 00:17:44,830 Isn't this beautiful? 509 00:17:44,830 --> 00:17:46,132 - This is amazing. 510 00:17:46,132 --> 00:17:47,199 - I'm so happy. 511 00:17:47,199 --> 00:17:48,868 - I'm so happy too. 512 00:17:48,868 --> 00:17:50,770 Today was incredible. 513 00:17:50,770 --> 00:17:52,104 - It was so spectacular. 514 00:17:52,104 --> 00:17:54,574 - Being on Fiji, on a private island with you, 515 00:17:54,574 --> 00:17:57,276 was all a man could ask for, for real. 516 00:17:57,276 --> 00:18:02,148 I am looking forward to having alone time with Charity. 517 00:18:02,148 --> 00:18:05,885 - Just a beautiful date and being here on this island. 518 00:18:05,885 --> 00:18:07,720 Like, we're in Fiji. That's insane. 519 00:18:07,720 --> 00:18:08,988 - Insane. 520 00:18:08,988 --> 00:18:11,324 My heart is fully committed, 521 00:18:11,324 --> 00:18:13,059 but my head is, like, 522 00:18:13,059 --> 00:18:15,194 putting my heart against the wall 523 00:18:15,194 --> 00:18:17,897 and, like, telling it to stop. 524 00:18:17,897 --> 00:18:21,167 - To see our growth up until this point gives me hope. 525 00:18:21,167 --> 00:18:23,869 - In order for me to be able to get on one knee 526 00:18:23,869 --> 00:18:26,205 and there is no doubt, no fear, 527 00:18:26,205 --> 00:18:29,942 I need to be completely open and honest. 528 00:18:29,942 --> 00:18:32,545 I'm nervous, obviously, about the things 529 00:18:32,545 --> 00:18:35,348 that I have to tell her, but I hope that 530 00:18:35,348 --> 00:18:37,316 she will accept me for me. 531 00:18:37,316 --> 00:18:40,086 The date was amazing, incredible, 532 00:18:40,086 --> 00:18:43,489 and I know one aspect of the date 533 00:18:43,489 --> 00:18:44,890 that sticks out in my head is just-- 534 00:18:44,890 --> 00:18:46,359 - Oh, I was gonna ask you. 535 00:18:46,359 --> 00:18:47,994 I was like, what's your fav-- what's your favorite part? 536 00:18:47,994 --> 00:18:50,596 - Definitely you riding in that chariot towards me. 537 00:18:50,596 --> 00:18:54,834 I felt like that is a queen that I want to be, you know, 538 00:18:54,834 --> 00:18:56,802 a king for, you know, so... 539 00:18:56,802 --> 00:18:57,937 - Period. [laughs] 540 00:18:57,937 --> 00:19:00,272 - That was awesome. 541 00:19:00,272 --> 00:19:01,607 But there is another moment 542 00:19:01,607 --> 00:19:04,010 that, you know, sticks out in my head. 543 00:19:04,010 --> 00:19:06,445 We started to dive deep, and I really wanted 544 00:19:06,445 --> 00:19:09,281 to get deep because there are-- a lot of questions 545 00:19:09,281 --> 00:19:11,684 arise in my head because I'm so invested 546 00:19:11,684 --> 00:19:14,687 and, like, intrigued by the possibilities 547 00:19:14,687 --> 00:19:15,788 of being with you forever. 548 00:19:15,788 --> 00:19:16,789 - Yeah. 549 00:19:16,789 --> 00:19:18,991 - And it is scary. 550 00:19:18,991 --> 00:19:20,292 - That's okay. 551 00:19:20,292 --> 00:19:23,362 - But it's also very calming because I've grown 552 00:19:23,362 --> 00:19:29,735 to, like, accept and visualize what that looks like with you. 553 00:19:29,735 --> 00:19:31,437 You know I'm a logical person. - Yeah. 554 00:19:31,437 --> 00:19:34,373 - I overanalyze sometimes, but rightly so, 555 00:19:34,373 --> 00:19:37,943 because this is forever we're talking about. 556 00:19:37,943 --> 00:19:40,179 And so that's what's been troubling me, 557 00:19:40,179 --> 00:19:43,349 is my heart is 100% with you. 558 00:19:43,349 --> 00:19:45,418 But I think the doubt and the fear 559 00:19:45,418 --> 00:19:48,220 is the boxes that, you know, you--can't be checked, 560 00:19:48,220 --> 00:19:49,488 you know what I mean? - Mm-hmm, mm-hmm. 561 00:19:49,488 --> 00:19:52,858 - So that's where the doubt stems from. 562 00:19:52,858 --> 00:19:54,293 [tense music] 563 00:19:54,293 --> 00:19:55,294 - Oh, my God. 564 00:19:55,294 --> 00:19:56,896 Are you kidding me right now? 565 00:19:56,896 --> 00:20:00,933 I have a little bit of a fear that Xavier could hurt me. 566 00:20:00,933 --> 00:20:02,668 And I don't know why I feel that way. 567 00:20:02,668 --> 00:20:03,836 I don't. 568 00:20:03,836 --> 00:20:05,871 And because I care so much, 569 00:20:05,871 --> 00:20:08,274 I'm going the extra degree of, like, trying to make sure, 570 00:20:08,274 --> 00:20:10,543 like, I'm protecting myself, in a sense. 571 00:20:10,543 --> 00:20:13,079 I wish I could have, like, the perfect formula 572 00:20:13,079 --> 00:20:15,781 to, like, know if, like, the person 573 00:20:15,781 --> 00:20:18,718 that I'm gonna end up with will check those things off. 574 00:20:18,718 --> 00:20:22,054 But like, I think what we, like, both have to focus on 575 00:20:22,054 --> 00:20:23,789 is, like, strictly, like, 576 00:20:23,789 --> 00:20:25,191 the foundation that we're building. 577 00:20:25,191 --> 00:20:27,126 When we know that, like, the foundation 578 00:20:27,126 --> 00:20:29,829 that we're building is strong, like, those little things, 579 00:20:29,829 --> 00:20:31,931 honestly, like, will be a breeze. 580 00:20:31,931 --> 00:20:34,033 It's scary as hell to think about, like, 581 00:20:34,033 --> 00:20:36,902 Okay, what the hell life is gonna be like after this. 582 00:20:36,902 --> 00:20:40,039 But like, if you can, like, truly envision that with me, 583 00:20:40,039 --> 00:20:41,340 then that's what you hold on to, 584 00:20:41,340 --> 00:20:42,608 and that's what, like, 585 00:20:42,608 --> 00:20:45,711 you make happen, like, no matter what. 586 00:20:45,711 --> 00:20:47,813 - Yeah, I-- 587 00:20:47,813 --> 00:20:50,182 I think this has allowed-- 588 00:20:50,182 --> 00:20:51,951 this is definitely growth. 589 00:20:51,951 --> 00:20:53,619 - Yeah. - Yeah. 590 00:20:53,619 --> 00:20:55,054 - I believe so too. 591 00:20:55,054 --> 00:20:57,757 - With an engagement right around the corner, 592 00:20:57,757 --> 00:21:04,530 it's important to share with her who I am completely. 593 00:21:04,530 --> 00:21:06,198 The waiting and the anticipation, 594 00:21:06,198 --> 00:21:08,701 it's really, like, killing me right now. 595 00:21:08,701 --> 00:21:10,302 I am ready to, like, finally 596 00:21:10,302 --> 00:21:12,004 have that conversation with her. 597 00:21:12,004 --> 00:21:15,107 I just hope that she understands 598 00:21:15,107 --> 00:21:16,776 where I'm coming from. 599 00:21:16,776 --> 00:21:20,679 For a long time, I've been, like, just thinking. 600 00:21:20,679 --> 00:21:22,314 Um... - Mm-hmm. 601 00:21:22,314 --> 00:21:28,487 - And another aspect that was very serious for me-- 602 00:21:28,487 --> 00:21:32,124 that is very serious for me is, you know... 603 00:21:32,124 --> 00:21:33,826 ♪ 604 00:21:33,826 --> 00:21:35,561 Um... 605 00:21:35,561 --> 00:21:39,465 so in the past, with my ex, 606 00:21:39,465 --> 00:21:41,534 I was unfaithful. 607 00:21:41,534 --> 00:21:42,701 [dramatic music] 608 00:21:42,701 --> 00:21:45,304 And I wanted to tell you that 609 00:21:45,304 --> 00:21:46,438 because I know that 610 00:21:46,438 --> 00:21:48,707 that is, like, very triggering for you. 611 00:21:48,707 --> 00:21:49,708 - Mm-hmm. 612 00:21:49,708 --> 00:21:52,545 - And it was disrespectful. 613 00:21:52,545 --> 00:21:54,914 It's not the man that I am. 614 00:21:54,914 --> 00:21:58,284 And I know that for a marriage, you cannot do that. 615 00:21:58,284 --> 00:21:59,418 - No way. - You know? 616 00:21:59,418 --> 00:22:00,519 - Are you kidding? - Yeah, exactly. 617 00:22:00,519 --> 00:22:01,720 - No way. 618 00:22:01,720 --> 00:22:03,923 - That's why I felt the need to tell you 619 00:22:03,923 --> 00:22:07,593 because I thought you deserved to know. 620 00:22:07,593 --> 00:22:09,128 ♪ 621 00:22:09,128 --> 00:22:11,130 - I am shocked. 622 00:22:11,130 --> 00:22:13,165 Infidelity, that is the fear. 623 00:22:13,165 --> 00:22:14,567 That's the biggest fear. 624 00:22:14,567 --> 00:22:16,902 I'm looking at our date that we had today, 625 00:22:16,902 --> 00:22:18,704 and knowing how great it was, 626 00:22:18,704 --> 00:22:22,308 and then this just... 627 00:22:22,308 --> 00:22:23,676 completely derails it. 628 00:22:23,676 --> 00:22:25,945 Are you--are you kidding? 629 00:22:25,945 --> 00:22:27,146 ♪ 630 00:22:27,146 --> 00:22:28,914 Okay. 631 00:22:28,914 --> 00:22:29,915 Give me a second. 632 00:22:29,915 --> 00:22:32,284 ♪ 633 00:22:32,284 --> 00:22:33,919 Give me a second. 634 00:22:33,919 --> 00:22:35,888 [sniffles] 635 00:22:35,888 --> 00:22:38,657 To hear him say this, in this moment-- 636 00:22:38,657 --> 00:22:42,862 we're, like, a week out, two weeks out from a proposal. 637 00:22:42,862 --> 00:22:43,996 - [sniffs] 638 00:22:43,996 --> 00:22:45,664 - What's next? 639 00:22:45,664 --> 00:22:47,867 Like, what's the next surprise? 640 00:22:47,867 --> 00:22:50,002 ♪ 641 00:22:51,971 --> 00:22:54,974 [tense music] 642 00:22:54,974 --> 00:23:01,447 ♪ 643 00:23:01,447 --> 00:23:03,215 - Xavier dropped a huge bomb. 644 00:23:03,215 --> 00:23:06,118 He told me he cheated on his girlfriend. 645 00:23:06,118 --> 00:23:09,321 I know exactly what it feels like. 646 00:23:09,321 --> 00:23:10,823 ♪ 647 00:23:10,823 --> 00:23:13,058 I've experienced infidelity 648 00:23:13,058 --> 00:23:15,861 on and off for about six years. 649 00:23:15,861 --> 00:23:17,296 It literally breaks you. 650 00:23:17,296 --> 00:23:19,465 I think there's nothing worse in this world 651 00:23:19,465 --> 00:23:23,535 than betrayal with a person that you love. 652 00:23:23,535 --> 00:23:26,505 My dream and my hope is, like, 653 00:23:26,505 --> 00:23:28,307 if I'm falling in love with someone, like, 654 00:23:28,307 --> 00:23:30,309 I want that love to be forever. 655 00:23:30,309 --> 00:23:31,944 How I feel about Xavier, 656 00:23:31,944 --> 00:23:34,747 I want this to be a forever thing. 657 00:23:34,747 --> 00:23:38,217 Like, I feel like I owe it to us to hear him out. 658 00:23:38,217 --> 00:23:41,253 [dramatic music] 659 00:23:41,253 --> 00:23:46,191 ♪ 660 00:23:46,191 --> 00:23:47,393 Okay. 661 00:23:48,661 --> 00:23:49,929 Hi. - Hey. 662 00:23:49,929 --> 00:23:51,196 - Hey. 663 00:23:51,196 --> 00:23:53,232 I'm back. 664 00:23:53,232 --> 00:23:54,566 Okay. 665 00:23:54,566 --> 00:23:57,436 Sorry, I just had to, like, collect myself. 666 00:23:57,436 --> 00:23:59,738 Um, okay. 667 00:23:59,738 --> 00:24:00,940 Whew. Deep breaths. 668 00:24:00,940 --> 00:24:03,742 Um, just continuing our conversation, 669 00:24:03,742 --> 00:24:07,112 obviously, you saw me get a little emotional, um, 670 00:24:07,112 --> 00:24:10,082 about all of that, because it is a sensitive spot. 671 00:24:10,082 --> 00:24:14,720 And it's a sensitive spot for my life, um, 672 00:24:14,720 --> 00:24:17,890 because obviously, that's what I endured 673 00:24:17,890 --> 00:24:20,626 for, like, six [bleep] years. - Yeah. Yeah. 674 00:24:20,626 --> 00:24:22,194 - Um... 675 00:24:22,194 --> 00:24:23,963 - And I just want to tell you 676 00:24:23,963 --> 00:24:27,166 that, like, if you do end up with me, 677 00:24:27,166 --> 00:24:30,035 I don't want to ever be unfaithful to you. 678 00:24:30,035 --> 00:24:31,770 - Mm-hmm. 679 00:24:31,770 --> 00:24:33,305 ♪ 680 00:24:33,305 --> 00:24:38,143 I'm, like, wanting to be with someone 681 00:24:38,143 --> 00:24:41,246 who's going to protect me, like, from that. 682 00:24:41,246 --> 00:24:43,615 And just, like, I'm very curious 683 00:24:43,615 --> 00:24:45,884 to know, like, two things. 684 00:24:45,884 --> 00:24:47,019 Um, one-- 685 00:24:47,019 --> 00:24:48,320 - Was it multiple times? 686 00:24:48,320 --> 00:24:49,321 - Yes. 687 00:24:49,321 --> 00:24:50,622 Was it multiple times? 688 00:24:50,622 --> 00:24:51,957 It's like you knew. 689 00:24:51,957 --> 00:24:53,158 Was it multiple times? 690 00:24:53,158 --> 00:24:55,961 And then also, how long ago? 691 00:24:55,961 --> 00:24:57,463 Because I know, like-- was this, like, 692 00:24:57,463 --> 00:24:59,298 the most recent relationship where... 693 00:24:59,298 --> 00:25:01,100 - Mm-hmm. - It was, like, 2 1/2 years? 694 00:25:01,100 --> 00:25:05,337 - It was multiple times in the span of five days. 695 00:25:05,337 --> 00:25:07,639 - Oh. Okay. 696 00:25:07,639 --> 00:25:09,241 - And it happened, like, 697 00:25:09,241 --> 00:25:11,677 two years into our relationship. 698 00:25:11,677 --> 00:25:13,679 So prior to that, like, 699 00:25:13,679 --> 00:25:16,915 there was just, like, a long period of time 700 00:25:16,915 --> 00:25:23,655 where I just wanted her to do and be who I wanted her to be, 701 00:25:23,655 --> 00:25:24,923 and that was wrong. 702 00:25:24,923 --> 00:25:29,428 And I just chose myself instead of choosing her. 703 00:25:29,428 --> 00:25:31,263 - This is exactly what my ex did. 704 00:25:31,263 --> 00:25:34,833 I, in my past, have overlooked all these concerns. 705 00:25:34,833 --> 00:25:37,936 And then now, I'm like, mm, absolutely not. 706 00:25:37,936 --> 00:25:40,606 Thank you for feeling like I am deserving to know, 707 00:25:40,606 --> 00:25:42,841 because I 100% am. 708 00:25:42,841 --> 00:25:46,245 But I mean, I'm curious to know, like, 709 00:25:46,245 --> 00:25:48,113 what work did you do on your end 710 00:25:48,113 --> 00:25:49,681 to become, like, a better person 711 00:25:49,681 --> 00:25:50,916 or to learn and grow from that? 712 00:25:50,916 --> 00:25:54,920 Because if not, like, that mistake 100% 713 00:25:54,920 --> 00:25:57,890 is capable of being hap-- like, happening again. 714 00:25:57,890 --> 00:26:00,292 - [sighs] I think the main thing 715 00:26:00,292 --> 00:26:05,097 that I learned and that I did to, like, grow from that 716 00:26:05,097 --> 00:26:10,502 was to, like, just be more introspective. 717 00:26:10,502 --> 00:26:11,870 ♪ 718 00:26:11,870 --> 00:26:15,074 And so I was just more in tune with, like, 719 00:26:15,074 --> 00:26:16,642 okay, why am I doing this? 720 00:26:16,642 --> 00:26:18,210 What made me do this? 721 00:26:18,210 --> 00:26:20,112 And so I think that that's the only way 722 00:26:20,112 --> 00:26:24,783 I can develop change is by questioning myself. 723 00:26:24,783 --> 00:26:29,321 I realized that I not only hurt her so much, 724 00:26:29,321 --> 00:26:31,023 but I hurt myself. 725 00:26:31,023 --> 00:26:34,293 And like, it made me question my own character. 726 00:26:34,293 --> 00:26:37,162 - Mm-hmm. - And like, it-- 727 00:26:37,162 --> 00:26:39,498 I really don't want it to define me. 728 00:26:39,498 --> 00:26:41,133 But sometimes... - It's-- 729 00:26:41,133 --> 00:26:43,001 - I, like, question myself 730 00:26:43,001 --> 00:26:46,672 because, like, you know, I did do that. 731 00:26:46,672 --> 00:26:47,906 - What do you mean by, like, 732 00:26:47,906 --> 00:26:49,708 when you say you question yourself? 733 00:26:49,708 --> 00:26:52,311 - I question, like, you know, 734 00:26:52,311 --> 00:26:54,613 if I'm put in that position again-- 735 00:26:54,613 --> 00:26:56,048 - Okay, so when you say 736 00:26:56,048 --> 00:26:57,449 "I'm put in that position again," 737 00:26:57,449 --> 00:26:58,650 what do you mean? Like, explain that. 738 00:26:58,650 --> 00:27:00,252 - When I'm in the position on vacation 739 00:27:00,252 --> 00:27:04,056 with my boys and that [bleep] around me. 740 00:27:04,056 --> 00:27:05,057 - Okay. 741 00:27:05,057 --> 00:27:08,227 - I'm like, shut the door. 742 00:27:08,227 --> 00:27:12,531 I know how to, like, deal with that now. 743 00:27:12,531 --> 00:27:13,532 You know? 744 00:27:13,532 --> 00:27:14,633 - Okay. 745 00:27:14,633 --> 00:27:16,301 - Uh... 746 00:27:16,301 --> 00:27:17,636 I know it makes you uncomfortable. 747 00:27:17,636 --> 00:27:18,971 - It doesn't make me uncomfortable. 748 00:27:18,971 --> 00:27:20,572 It's one of those things that I'm like, 749 00:27:20,572 --> 00:27:22,207 okay, let me flesh out. 750 00:27:22,207 --> 00:27:23,876 Because it's like, I absolutely don't want that 751 00:27:23,876 --> 00:27:25,477 ever to happen again to me. - Absolutely. 752 00:27:25,477 --> 00:27:26,912 - And that's why, like, my standards 753 00:27:26,912 --> 00:27:28,647 are, like, ridiculously high. 754 00:27:28,647 --> 00:27:30,749 I'll never apologize for them. - Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. 755 00:27:30,749 --> 00:27:32,985 - I refuse to ever go back there. 756 00:27:32,985 --> 00:27:35,654 My only question is just, like, the simple fact of, 757 00:27:35,654 --> 00:27:37,523 like, I want to know-- 758 00:27:37,523 --> 00:27:38,824 - Is it a possibility-- 759 00:27:38,824 --> 00:27:41,560 - That it would happen again? - Yeah. 760 00:27:41,560 --> 00:27:45,731 It's not a possibility if I choose to be with you-- 761 00:27:45,731 --> 00:27:46,932 - With me. 762 00:27:46,932 --> 00:27:49,935 - And you choose to be with me. - Okay. 763 00:27:49,935 --> 00:27:53,605 - Because being on a girlfriend status and, like, doing that, 764 00:27:53,605 --> 00:27:55,440 that's like, damn, that [bleep] sucks. 765 00:27:55,440 --> 00:27:56,909 You know? - I'll be damned. 766 00:27:56,909 --> 00:27:58,410 - Right. - I would be damned. 767 00:27:58,410 --> 00:27:59,611 - But being on a wife status? 768 00:27:59,611 --> 00:28:00,612 - Are you kidding? 769 00:28:00,612 --> 00:28:01,980 It's inexcusable for any level. 770 00:28:01,980 --> 00:28:03,415 Are you kidding? - Right. 771 00:28:03,415 --> 00:28:04,516 - Like, no way. 772 00:28:04,516 --> 00:28:06,018 - Not gonna do that. 773 00:28:06,018 --> 00:28:08,921 Is it gonna be hard to do that? Hell yes. 774 00:28:08,921 --> 00:28:12,224 Because I never have been in a position where it's like, 775 00:28:12,224 --> 00:28:14,726 you have to just choose one woman 776 00:28:14,726 --> 00:28:15,727 for the rest of your life. 777 00:28:15,727 --> 00:28:18,363 And that freedom is gone. 778 00:28:18,363 --> 00:28:20,432 - Mm. - Gone. 779 00:28:20,432 --> 00:28:22,868 - We're two weeks out from a proposal, 780 00:28:22,868 --> 00:28:25,971 and you can't tell me that you trust yourself 781 00:28:25,971 --> 00:28:29,141 from not making a mistake of loyalty again? 782 00:28:29,141 --> 00:28:31,243 Like, what--what is this? 783 00:28:31,243 --> 00:28:33,378 But, like, the simple choice is, like, 784 00:28:33,378 --> 00:28:35,147 your love should be so, like, firm... 785 00:28:35,147 --> 00:28:36,148 - Exactly. 786 00:28:36,148 --> 00:28:38,817 - With me that it's like, okay. 787 00:28:38,817 --> 00:28:39,952 - Right. But you're-- 788 00:28:39,952 --> 00:28:41,153 - Bitch walks by, bye. Like, okay. 789 00:28:41,153 --> 00:28:42,654 - That's what I'm-- - Like, are you kidding? 790 00:28:42,654 --> 00:28:44,890 - If you choose me and I choose you, 791 00:28:44,890 --> 00:28:46,325 I'm not gonna [bleep] do that. That's... 792 00:28:46,325 --> 00:28:48,260 - Then what the hell are we talking about? 793 00:28:48,260 --> 00:28:49,861 Then you're saying you're good? 794 00:28:49,861 --> 00:28:50,963 Is that what you're saying? 795 00:28:50,963 --> 00:28:53,232 - I am saying I'm good... 796 00:28:53,232 --> 00:28:54,600 - If it's-- - But it's [bleep] scary. 797 00:28:54,600 --> 00:28:56,401 - Okay. That's--that's fine. - That's what I'm saying. 798 00:28:56,401 --> 00:28:58,070 - That's valid. It's scary. 799 00:28:58,070 --> 00:28:59,071 It's [bleep] scary too. 800 00:28:59,071 --> 00:29:00,405 - Mm-hmm. - Okay. 801 00:29:01,273 --> 00:29:02,841 Okay. 802 00:29:02,841 --> 00:29:04,476 I mean, I don't want you to think I'm not--like, 803 00:29:04,476 --> 00:29:06,345 I'm not upset. - Mm-hmm. 804 00:29:06,345 --> 00:29:07,579 - Don't think that. 805 00:29:07,579 --> 00:29:09,181 - No, you're pushing me, challenging me. 806 00:29:09,181 --> 00:29:10,182 - Correct. 807 00:29:10,182 --> 00:29:12,050 And I always will. - Mm-hmm. 808 00:29:12,050 --> 00:29:13,185 - And I'm cautious. 809 00:29:13,185 --> 00:29:14,386 - Yeah. 810 00:29:14,386 --> 00:29:15,687 - And I think you understand that. 811 00:29:15,687 --> 00:29:16,955 Rightfully so, right? - Mm-hmm. 812 00:29:16,955 --> 00:29:18,090 - Okay. 813 00:29:18,090 --> 00:29:20,058 ♪ 814 00:29:20,058 --> 00:29:22,494 Xavier says things with no hesitation. 815 00:29:22,494 --> 00:29:24,029 He just, like, gets them off his chest, 816 00:29:24,029 --> 00:29:25,330 which I appreciate that. 817 00:29:25,330 --> 00:29:27,866 And he is someone who's very honest and open. 818 00:29:27,866 --> 00:29:29,835 I appreciate his honesty. 819 00:29:29,835 --> 00:29:31,370 I appreciate him being vulnerable 820 00:29:31,370 --> 00:29:34,906 and sharing something to me that was so close to him. 821 00:29:34,906 --> 00:29:37,509 I'm not looking for a crafted answer. 822 00:29:37,509 --> 00:29:39,978 I'm not looking for you to be at 100%. 823 00:29:39,978 --> 00:29:41,880 But there's just something I need to know. 824 00:29:41,880 --> 00:29:44,950 This card... - Mm-hmm. 825 00:29:44,950 --> 00:29:48,287 - Is super meaningful. 826 00:29:48,287 --> 00:29:54,626 I think, with the conversations that we've had tonight, 827 00:29:54,626 --> 00:29:57,696 conversation that was raw, 828 00:29:57,696 --> 00:29:58,697 it was real, 829 00:29:58,697 --> 00:30:02,067 it was hard as hell. 830 00:30:02,067 --> 00:30:03,969 The question of the day is, 831 00:30:03,969 --> 00:30:06,772 can you be someone that will show up for me 832 00:30:06,772 --> 00:30:08,140 at the end of this 833 00:30:08,140 --> 00:30:12,311 if we both feel like this is right in our hearts? 834 00:30:12,311 --> 00:30:16,114 ♪ 835 00:30:16,114 --> 00:30:19,151 Can this be somebody that will maintain loyalty to me? 836 00:30:19,151 --> 00:30:22,454 ♪ 837 00:30:22,454 --> 00:30:27,059 I hold this card... 838 00:30:27,059 --> 00:30:28,727 not because I doubt you, 839 00:30:28,727 --> 00:30:31,296 but because I believe in you. 840 00:30:31,296 --> 00:30:32,497 And I want this. 841 00:30:32,497 --> 00:30:34,032 Like, I want this for us. 842 00:30:34,032 --> 00:30:35,634 I want this to work. 843 00:30:35,634 --> 00:30:37,202 [sniffles] 844 00:30:37,202 --> 00:30:40,639 ♪ 845 00:30:40,639 --> 00:30:42,007 I don't have any doubts about 846 00:30:42,007 --> 00:30:44,876 what I'm capable of giving to you. 847 00:30:44,876 --> 00:30:46,445 And I just, like-- 848 00:30:46,445 --> 00:30:48,447 I need to know that you're going to do 849 00:30:48,447 --> 00:30:52,451 what it takes for you to show up for me. 850 00:30:52,451 --> 00:30:54,052 Like, you're gonna put in the work. 851 00:30:54,052 --> 00:30:58,523 Like, you're gonna make it work without a doubt. 852 00:30:58,523 --> 00:31:00,726 It's only gonna work if you want it to work. 853 00:31:00,726 --> 00:31:02,761 ♪ 854 00:31:02,761 --> 00:31:06,865 So will you do that? 855 00:31:06,865 --> 00:31:08,867 Will you do that for us? 856 00:31:08,867 --> 00:31:10,369 ♪ 857 00:31:12,337 --> 00:31:15,173 [dramatic music] 858 00:31:15,173 --> 00:31:16,174 ♪ 859 00:31:16,174 --> 00:31:18,076 - The question of the day is, 860 00:31:18,076 --> 00:31:20,946 can you be someone that will show up for me 861 00:31:20,946 --> 00:31:22,581 at the end of this? 862 00:31:22,581 --> 00:31:24,282 Like, I care so much about Xavier, 863 00:31:24,282 --> 00:31:28,019 but what Xavier shared with me, it's upsetting. 864 00:31:28,019 --> 00:31:30,989 Just trying to make sense and understand 865 00:31:30,989 --> 00:31:33,258 everything, truly, that just happened. 866 00:31:33,258 --> 00:31:35,927 And I want to give him the benefit of the doubt. 867 00:31:35,927 --> 00:31:37,028 ♪ 868 00:31:37,028 --> 00:31:41,600 I hold this card... 869 00:31:41,600 --> 00:31:43,135 not because I doubt you, 870 00:31:43,135 --> 00:31:45,170 but because I believe in you. 871 00:31:45,170 --> 00:31:48,373 I need to be 100% confident in his ability 872 00:31:48,373 --> 00:31:50,842 to trust himself to be loyal. 873 00:31:50,842 --> 00:31:54,146 I'm not asking for anything more. 874 00:31:54,146 --> 00:31:57,315 But I need to know that you're going to do what it takes 875 00:31:57,315 --> 00:32:00,685 for you to show up for me. 876 00:32:00,685 --> 00:32:02,354 Like, you're gonna put in the work, 877 00:32:02,354 --> 00:32:06,858 like, you're gonna make it work, without a doubt. 878 00:32:06,858 --> 00:32:09,494 It's only gonna work if you want it to work. 879 00:32:09,494 --> 00:32:10,962 ♪ 880 00:32:10,962 --> 00:32:15,200 So will you do that? 881 00:32:15,200 --> 00:32:17,202 Will you do that for us? 882 00:32:17,202 --> 00:32:21,206 ♪ 883 00:32:21,206 --> 00:32:24,476 - It has to be no doubt 884 00:32:24,476 --> 00:32:27,679 and 100% certainty... 885 00:32:27,679 --> 00:32:28,980 - Mm-hmm. 886 00:32:28,980 --> 00:32:31,783 - For me to do that. 887 00:32:31,783 --> 00:32:35,921 And in my heart, there is not any [bleep] doubt. 888 00:32:38,089 --> 00:32:43,061 But in my mind, 889 00:32:43,061 --> 00:32:44,262 there is that doubt. 890 00:32:44,262 --> 00:32:47,699 [tense music] 891 00:32:47,699 --> 00:32:50,702 And for me to get to that point... 892 00:32:50,702 --> 00:32:53,805 ♪ 893 00:32:53,805 --> 00:32:56,074 That has to happen tonight. 894 00:32:56,074 --> 00:32:57,175 ♪ 895 00:32:57,175 --> 00:32:58,610 - Kay. 896 00:32:58,610 --> 00:32:59,811 ♪ 897 00:32:59,811 --> 00:33:01,746 - I need to see more. 898 00:33:01,746 --> 00:33:02,981 - Okay. 899 00:33:02,981 --> 00:33:07,486 ♪ 900 00:33:07,486 --> 00:33:08,820 Oh, my God. 901 00:33:08,820 --> 00:33:11,423 This is, like, literally making me so upset. 902 00:33:11,423 --> 00:33:12,691 ♪ 903 00:33:12,691 --> 00:33:15,026 That makes no sense to me. 904 00:33:15,026 --> 00:33:16,661 What do you need to see? 905 00:33:16,661 --> 00:33:18,029 Nothing. 906 00:33:18,029 --> 00:33:19,965 This is me. Like, that is what you get. 907 00:33:19,965 --> 00:33:22,400 Like, us in a bedroom is not gonna determine 908 00:33:22,400 --> 00:33:24,970 whether or not you can see longevity in a relationship. 909 00:33:24,970 --> 00:33:26,338 ♪ 910 00:33:26,338 --> 00:33:27,472 Yeah, [bleep] this. 911 00:33:27,472 --> 00:33:30,041 I'm so mad. I'm so mad. 912 00:33:30,041 --> 00:33:32,277 It was [bleep] that you cheated on your girlfriend. 913 00:33:32,277 --> 00:33:33,545 What did you learn from that? 914 00:33:33,545 --> 00:33:34,746 How did you better yourself? 915 00:33:34,746 --> 00:33:36,114 You can't even answer. 916 00:33:36,114 --> 00:33:38,450 That's letting me know right now that you haven't 917 00:33:38,450 --> 00:33:40,785 done [bleep] to work on this. 918 00:33:40,785 --> 00:33:42,621 ♪ 919 00:33:42,621 --> 00:33:44,256 [sighs] 920 00:33:45,957 --> 00:33:47,025 [clears throat] - I'm sorry, it's-- 921 00:33:47,025 --> 00:33:48,059 - No, I don't-- 922 00:33:48,059 --> 00:33:49,060 - I'm not trying to make you upset. 923 00:33:49,060 --> 00:33:50,262 - No, I know you're not. 924 00:33:50,262 --> 00:33:51,863 - But I want to give you the whole honest answer. 925 00:33:51,863 --> 00:33:52,864 And I'm-- 926 00:33:52,864 --> 00:33:54,533 - You are giving honest answers. 927 00:33:54,533 --> 00:33:55,667 - Right. 928 00:33:55,667 --> 00:33:57,636 And I understand how, you know, like... 929 00:33:57,636 --> 00:33:59,137 [huffs] 930 00:33:59,137 --> 00:34:00,138 [sighs] 931 00:34:00,138 --> 00:34:02,474 - It's not the transparency. 932 00:34:02,474 --> 00:34:04,242 It's not the accountability. 933 00:34:04,242 --> 00:34:06,811 I just sat there and I gave you praise for that. 934 00:34:06,811 --> 00:34:08,680 It's the answers that followed 935 00:34:08,680 --> 00:34:11,950 of me getting the reassurance that I need 936 00:34:11,950 --> 00:34:14,586 that this is not gonna be something that's repetitive, 937 00:34:14,586 --> 00:34:15,921 this is something that you can sit here 938 00:34:15,921 --> 00:34:19,257 and say without a doubt, I'm a loyal man. 939 00:34:19,257 --> 00:34:22,360 It's just a simple promise of, I don't know, 940 00:34:22,360 --> 00:34:25,430 can you trust yourself to not, like, hurt me? 941 00:34:25,430 --> 00:34:26,731 I'm sorry. 942 00:34:26,731 --> 00:34:28,266 Like, maybe that's too high of an expectation. 943 00:34:28,266 --> 00:34:31,469 But like, at this point, the amount of doubt 944 00:34:31,469 --> 00:34:33,338 that you have for yourself, 945 00:34:33,338 --> 00:34:35,173 I don't have that doubt for you. 946 00:34:35,173 --> 00:34:37,542 But I'm asking you in this moment, 947 00:34:37,542 --> 00:34:39,244 do you have that doubt for yourself? 948 00:34:39,244 --> 00:34:42,180 And you couldn't even give me a yes or no. 949 00:34:42,180 --> 00:34:45,083 ♪ 950 00:34:45,083 --> 00:34:47,652 What am I supposed to do with that? 951 00:34:47,652 --> 00:34:51,957 And like, that's fair because that's what you feel 952 00:34:51,957 --> 00:34:53,692 and that's where you're at. 953 00:34:53,692 --> 00:34:56,861 I don't want to force you to get there prematurely. 954 00:34:56,861 --> 00:34:58,830 I only want you there if you're fully ready. 955 00:34:58,830 --> 00:35:00,932 Because when I choose my person, 956 00:35:00,932 --> 00:35:03,501 I want that person to be secure in themselves, 957 00:35:03,501 --> 00:35:05,971 and I want them to be ready. 958 00:35:05,971 --> 00:35:07,639 ♪ 959 00:35:07,639 --> 00:35:10,108 - I should have taken more time to think about that answer. 960 00:35:10,108 --> 00:35:11,176 - Mm-mm. 961 00:35:11,176 --> 00:35:12,744 No way. 962 00:35:12,744 --> 00:35:16,414 Me in this moment of being Charity Lawson, 963 00:35:16,414 --> 00:35:20,285 who Charity Lawson is in 2023, not willing to settle, 964 00:35:20,285 --> 00:35:24,255 not willing to put up with just whatever, being selfish-- 965 00:35:24,255 --> 00:35:25,757 when I said something I struggle with, 966 00:35:25,757 --> 00:35:27,926 I'm gonna be selfish in this moment. 967 00:35:27,926 --> 00:35:32,330 And I wish I could open this, 968 00:35:32,330 --> 00:35:35,934 but it's not happening. 969 00:35:35,934 --> 00:35:38,169 - Okay. 970 00:35:38,169 --> 00:35:39,604 [sighs] 971 00:35:39,604 --> 00:35:41,673 ♪ 972 00:35:41,673 --> 00:35:45,777 Well, I did not expect... 973 00:35:45,777 --> 00:35:47,879 - Me, either. Me, either. - This to end me like this. 974 00:35:47,879 --> 00:35:49,381 ♪ 975 00:35:49,381 --> 00:35:50,548 And I'm sorry. 976 00:35:50,548 --> 00:35:52,017 - You don't have to apologize. 977 00:35:52,017 --> 00:35:55,053 - No, I do, because allowing the doubt 978 00:35:55,053 --> 00:35:57,122 to flood in your head and... 979 00:35:57,122 --> 00:35:59,691 ♪ 980 00:35:59,691 --> 00:36:00,892 Yeah. 981 00:36:00,892 --> 00:36:02,293 I'm sorry. 982 00:36:02,293 --> 00:36:03,795 - I'm mad. I'm sad. 983 00:36:03,795 --> 00:36:05,664 I'm disappointed. 984 00:36:05,664 --> 00:36:08,033 I'm frustrated that it's not you, 985 00:36:08,033 --> 00:36:09,834 and this isn't happening today. 986 00:36:09,834 --> 00:36:12,303 Because I thought it was. 987 00:36:12,303 --> 00:36:15,306 ♪ 988 00:36:15,306 --> 00:36:16,641 Let's go. 989 00:36:16,641 --> 00:36:18,376 [sniffles] 990 00:36:18,376 --> 00:36:20,011 Come on. 991 00:36:20,011 --> 00:36:24,582 ♪ 992 00:36:24,582 --> 00:36:27,218 Sending Xavier home was the absolute last thing 993 00:36:27,218 --> 00:36:29,054 I expected. 994 00:36:29,054 --> 00:36:31,756 ♪ 995 00:36:31,756 --> 00:36:33,892 I am angry, upset, 996 00:36:33,892 --> 00:36:35,627 but ultimately disappointed. 997 00:36:35,627 --> 00:36:37,362 [sighs] 998 00:36:37,362 --> 00:36:41,566 Because I held onto so much hope with this man. 999 00:36:41,566 --> 00:36:42,867 I saw the potential. 1000 00:36:42,867 --> 00:36:44,803 I saw it clearly. 1001 00:36:44,803 --> 00:36:46,571 But he couldn't see it clearly. 1002 00:36:46,571 --> 00:36:47,972 He didn't see it enough. 1003 00:36:47,972 --> 00:36:52,143 ♪ 1004 00:36:52,143 --> 00:36:53,878 - I don't know what else I can say 1005 00:36:53,878 --> 00:36:56,481 if you're comfortable in that decision. 1006 00:36:56,481 --> 00:37:00,185 Just know, Charity, that you can put me in this car... 1007 00:37:00,185 --> 00:37:01,252 - And I am. 1008 00:37:01,252 --> 00:37:02,520 - And I don't-- 1009 00:37:02,520 --> 00:37:05,156 I--I--it's--I understand now. 1010 00:37:05,156 --> 00:37:07,425 ♪ 1011 00:37:07,425 --> 00:37:09,527 - Okay. 1012 00:37:09,527 --> 00:37:10,895 Give you a hug. 1013 00:37:15,300 --> 00:37:17,268 - I love you. 1014 00:37:17,268 --> 00:37:20,505 ♪ 1015 00:37:20,505 --> 00:37:24,042 - It's the most disappointing goodbye yet. 1016 00:37:24,042 --> 00:37:25,176 ♪ 1017 00:37:25,176 --> 00:37:27,412 Jesus help me. 1018 00:37:27,412 --> 00:37:31,015 ♪ 1019 00:37:31,015 --> 00:37:32,817 Okay. Bye. 1020 00:37:32,817 --> 00:37:38,089 ♪ 1021 00:37:38,089 --> 00:37:39,724 Oh, my God. 1022 00:37:39,724 --> 00:37:41,126 Help me. 1023 00:37:41,126 --> 00:37:45,296 ♪ 1024 00:37:45,296 --> 00:37:48,366 [crying] 1025 00:37:48,366 --> 00:37:52,137 ♪ 1026 00:37:52,137 --> 00:37:58,042 - I know that I just hurt her so much. 1027 00:37:58,042 --> 00:38:00,245 ♪ 1028 00:38:00,245 --> 00:38:04,182 That woman put her heart on the line every single day. 1029 00:38:04,182 --> 00:38:10,522 And I doubted myself and us. 1030 00:38:10,522 --> 00:38:12,357 And I shouldn't have done that. 1031 00:38:12,357 --> 00:38:13,892 I should have... 1032 00:38:13,892 --> 00:38:18,496 ♪ 1033 00:38:18,496 --> 00:38:20,331 I shouldn't have doubted it. 1034 00:38:20,331 --> 00:38:23,601 - [sobbing] 1035 00:38:23,601 --> 00:38:26,437 I am was so done with this. 1036 00:38:26,437 --> 00:38:27,906 [sniffling] 1037 00:38:27,906 --> 00:38:30,642 It was heartbreaking, but I would be a fool 1038 00:38:30,642 --> 00:38:32,410 to sit here and keep someone who I know 1039 00:38:32,410 --> 00:38:34,179 that they are not ready. 1040 00:38:34,179 --> 00:38:36,080 I'd be a fool. 1041 00:38:36,080 --> 00:38:37,582 And that, I am not. 1042 00:38:37,582 --> 00:38:40,351 [crying] 1043 00:38:40,351 --> 00:38:42,654 I am--[bleep] God, I'm done. 1044 00:38:42,654 --> 00:38:45,056 I hate that what happened tonight 1045 00:38:45,056 --> 00:38:47,258 is making me lose hope. 1046 00:38:47,258 --> 00:38:49,460 I [bleep] hate that for myself. 1047 00:38:49,460 --> 00:38:51,362 ♪ 1048 00:38:51,362 --> 00:38:54,098 I am so upset. 1049 00:38:59,671 --> 00:39:02,674 [somber music] 1050 00:39:02,674 --> 00:39:04,609 ♪ 1051 00:39:04,609 --> 00:39:08,913 - Waking up this morning, I am waking up alone. 1052 00:39:08,913 --> 00:39:10,949 ♪ 1053 00:39:10,949 --> 00:39:15,286 I sent Xavier home last night because Xavier is not ready 1054 00:39:15,286 --> 00:39:19,257 for commitment to one person. 1055 00:39:19,257 --> 00:39:20,758 I'm not here to fix anybody. 1056 00:39:20,758 --> 00:39:23,528 I'm not here to build a man. 1057 00:39:23,528 --> 00:39:26,564 Like, this isn't build-a-man workshop. 1058 00:39:26,564 --> 00:39:29,534 I have no choice but to move forward. 1059 00:39:29,534 --> 00:39:31,803 I am focused on the two great people that I have, 1060 00:39:31,803 --> 00:39:33,538 Dotun and Joey. 1061 00:39:33,538 --> 00:39:36,908 And God willing, one of them will work out 1062 00:39:36,908 --> 00:39:40,111 like I'm praying and hoping. 1063 00:39:40,111 --> 00:39:41,880 ♪ 1064 00:39:41,880 --> 00:39:45,283 Today is my date with Joey. 1065 00:39:45,283 --> 00:39:47,118 I'm excited to see him, 1066 00:39:47,118 --> 00:39:50,622 but I do have concerns, because at Joey's Hometown, 1067 00:39:50,622 --> 00:39:54,893 his uncle felt like Joey was not really himself, 1068 00:39:54,893 --> 00:39:56,961 which was so confusing for me because I'm like, 1069 00:39:56,961 --> 00:39:58,663 what am I missing? 1070 00:39:58,663 --> 00:40:01,199 Am I getting the real Joey? 1071 00:40:01,199 --> 00:40:04,802 But I'm hopeful, and I'm looking onward and outward 1072 00:40:04,802 --> 00:40:06,537 to spend today with Joey. 1073 00:40:06,537 --> 00:40:08,606 I want to have a good time with him 1074 00:40:08,606 --> 00:40:11,542 and hopefully find the answers that I need. 1075 00:40:11,542 --> 00:40:16,214 ♪ 1076 00:40:16,214 --> 00:40:17,482 [light music] 1077 00:40:17,482 --> 00:40:20,151 - Today is my overnight date. 1078 00:40:20,151 --> 00:40:23,021 And I feel like it's going to be the most important day 1079 00:40:23,021 --> 00:40:24,322 for me and Charity. 1080 00:40:24,322 --> 00:40:26,758 Last week, she got to meet a big side of me 1081 00:40:26,758 --> 00:40:28,159 in terms of meeting my family. 1082 00:40:28,159 --> 00:40:30,461 And it was beautiful in so many ways, 1083 00:40:30,461 --> 00:40:32,563 but at the end of the Hometown date, 1084 00:40:32,563 --> 00:40:34,032 when she got in the car, 1085 00:40:34,032 --> 00:40:35,733 she was just crying and looking down. 1086 00:40:35,733 --> 00:40:37,869 And that felt like it was a goodbye. 1087 00:40:37,869 --> 00:40:39,537 It was tough to not really know 1088 00:40:39,537 --> 00:40:41,506 what she was thinking and not being able 1089 00:40:41,506 --> 00:40:43,474 to talk to her about it. 1090 00:40:43,474 --> 00:40:45,777 It's just the first time I had some serious doubts 1091 00:40:45,777 --> 00:40:47,578 if she felt the same way about me. 1092 00:40:47,578 --> 00:40:50,782 So today I just want to get back on the same page. 1093 00:40:50,782 --> 00:40:53,584 I cannot wait another moment to see her today. 1094 00:40:53,584 --> 00:40:56,587 ♪ 1095 00:40:56,587 --> 00:41:00,124 [birds chirping] 1096 00:41:00,124 --> 00:41:02,393 Waiting in the middle of nowhere. 1097 00:41:05,797 --> 00:41:06,831 [animal grunts] 1098 00:41:06,831 --> 00:41:09,133 [squealing] 1099 00:41:15,473 --> 00:41:17,508 [engine rumbling in distance] 1100 00:41:20,044 --> 00:41:23,047 [rock music] 1101 00:41:23,047 --> 00:41:26,117 ♪ 1102 00:41:26,117 --> 00:41:27,485 Yes. 1103 00:41:27,485 --> 00:41:32,123 ♪ 1104 00:41:32,123 --> 00:41:34,292 - [laughs] 1105 00:41:34,292 --> 00:41:35,693 - Badass. 1106 00:41:35,693 --> 00:41:40,631 ♪ 1107 00:41:40,631 --> 00:41:42,033 How sick is that? 1108 00:41:42,033 --> 00:41:43,101 - It's pretty sick. 1109 00:41:43,101 --> 00:41:44,102 Hello. 1110 00:41:44,102 --> 00:41:45,103 - Hi. 1111 00:41:45,103 --> 00:41:46,170 You look amazing. 1112 00:41:46,170 --> 00:41:47,171 - Hi. 1113 00:41:47,171 --> 00:41:48,773 I have water on my face. 1114 00:41:48,773 --> 00:41:50,842 How are you? - Good now. 1115 00:41:50,842 --> 00:41:51,943 - Missed you. 1116 00:41:51,943 --> 00:41:54,045 - Missed you too. 1117 00:41:54,045 --> 00:41:55,179 You good? 1118 00:41:55,179 --> 00:41:56,314 - I'm good. 1119 00:41:56,314 --> 00:41:57,982 I have a super fun date. - I can tell. 1120 00:41:57,982 --> 00:41:59,083 That looks like the right way to get around. 1121 00:41:59,083 --> 00:42:00,184 - I think so. 1122 00:42:00,184 --> 00:42:01,185 - I think we got a fun one planned. 1123 00:42:01,185 --> 00:42:02,186 - Are you ready? - Let's do it. 1124 00:42:02,186 --> 00:42:03,688 - Let's hop on in. 1125 00:42:03,688 --> 00:42:05,656 - It's great to see Charity after a week. 1126 00:42:05,656 --> 00:42:07,959 Just seeing her, seeing her smile, 1127 00:42:07,959 --> 00:42:09,394 all the feelings come rushing back, 1128 00:42:09,394 --> 00:42:11,262 all the confidence comes back. 1129 00:42:11,262 --> 00:42:12,497 - I'm gonna say a prayer, honestly. 1130 00:42:12,497 --> 00:42:13,598 - I'm not saying a prayer. - You're not? 1131 00:42:13,598 --> 00:42:14,832 - I got nothing but faith in you. 1132 00:42:14,832 --> 00:42:16,300 - Okay. 1133 00:42:16,300 --> 00:42:18,603 [laughs] 1134 00:42:18,603 --> 00:42:19,937 - As much as there's a lot of important things 1135 00:42:19,937 --> 00:42:21,272 that I want to talk about, 1136 00:42:21,272 --> 00:42:23,641 I just want to have a full day of fun. 1137 00:42:23,641 --> 00:42:25,209 Yeah! 1138 00:42:25,209 --> 00:42:26,844 Hopefully just take the next step in our relationship. 1139 00:42:26,844 --> 00:42:28,279 That's really important. 1140 00:42:28,279 --> 00:42:30,014 ♪ 1141 00:42:30,014 --> 00:42:31,416 - [squeals] 1142 00:42:31,416 --> 00:42:32,650 [laughs] 1143 00:42:32,650 --> 00:42:34,419 - My Hometown didn't go great, 1144 00:42:34,419 --> 00:42:36,754 but I do need today to go perfectly. 1145 00:42:36,754 --> 00:42:38,222 [engine winds down] 1146 00:42:38,222 --> 00:42:40,158 - No, why is it doing this? 1147 00:42:40,158 --> 00:42:41,392 No way. - Reverse it back. 1148 00:42:41,392 --> 00:42:42,393 You're good. 1149 00:42:42,393 --> 00:42:43,394 You got it. 1150 00:42:43,394 --> 00:42:44,962 This thing's loud. 1151 00:42:44,962 --> 00:42:45,963 - This is the hard one. 1152 00:42:45,963 --> 00:42:46,964 - Yeah. 1153 00:42:46,964 --> 00:42:49,333 So we go back--yeah. 1154 00:42:49,333 --> 00:42:50,435 - Nope. 1155 00:42:50,435 --> 00:42:51,436 - You got this. 1156 00:42:51,436 --> 00:42:52,437 [engine grinding] 1157 00:42:52,437 --> 00:42:54,839 That seemed like something. 1158 00:42:54,839 --> 00:42:57,608 - Me and Joey tried to have a nice ATV date today. 1159 00:42:57,608 --> 00:42:59,110 The ATV said... [clears throat] Nope. 1160 00:42:59,110 --> 00:43:02,647 [engine grinding] 1161 00:43:02,647 --> 00:43:04,882 - I can tell Charity is frustrated. 1162 00:43:04,882 --> 00:43:07,452 The ATV, it, uh-- it does not want to go. 1163 00:43:07,452 --> 00:43:10,221 [engine revving] 1164 00:43:10,221 --> 00:43:12,990 - I am looking at Joey, and he sees me 1165 00:43:12,990 --> 00:43:14,892 slightly having a little bit of a panic. 1166 00:43:14,892 --> 00:43:16,160 Joey, do you want to drive? - Sure. 1167 00:43:16,160 --> 00:43:17,462 - Okay. - Yeah. 1168 00:43:17,462 --> 00:43:19,030 We'll see how it goes. - We'll see. 1169 00:43:19,030 --> 00:43:20,731 - I'm like, I don't think I would do anything different, 1170 00:43:20,731 --> 00:43:23,801 but I'm staying positive in every possible way. 1171 00:43:23,801 --> 00:43:27,672 [engine revving, grinding] 1172 00:43:27,672 --> 00:43:28,840 That's the noise you don't want to hear right now. 1173 00:43:28,840 --> 00:43:31,042 - I don't know. All right. 1174 00:43:31,042 --> 00:43:32,410 All right. Well, you know what, Joey? 1175 00:43:32,410 --> 00:43:33,744 We tried. - [laughs] 1176 00:43:33,744 --> 00:43:35,646 - This isn't working, clearly. 1177 00:43:35,646 --> 00:43:38,783 We had to just end it a little early. 1178 00:43:38,783 --> 00:43:41,285 But despite things not going as planned, 1179 00:43:41,285 --> 00:43:43,421 Joey responds great. 1180 00:43:43,421 --> 00:43:44,655 - I'll follow your lead. 1181 00:43:44,655 --> 00:43:45,990 - Yeah, I don't know really where we go. 1182 00:43:45,990 --> 00:43:47,391 - Okay. I'm up for whatever. 1183 00:43:47,391 --> 00:43:48,726 - Great. - We're doing it. 1184 00:43:48,726 --> 00:43:51,062 [birds chirping] 1185 00:43:51,062 --> 00:43:52,196 - So cold, I know. 1186 00:43:52,196 --> 00:43:53,731 - Shoes are wet. - Shoes are wet. 1187 00:43:53,731 --> 00:43:55,133 - Just hold on to me if you're gonna fall, okay? 1188 00:43:55,133 --> 00:43:56,300 - You know what? I don't care at this point. 1189 00:43:56,300 --> 00:43:58,002 - Were we supposed to go ATVing through this? 1190 00:43:58,002 --> 00:43:59,137 - Oh, yeah. - Because there's no way 1191 00:43:59,137 --> 00:44:00,138 we would have made it out of here-- 1192 00:44:00,138 --> 00:44:01,172 that was a very good pivot. 1193 00:44:01,172 --> 00:44:02,540 - Yeah, I'm sorry. - No. 1194 00:44:02,540 --> 00:44:05,076 Any way I'm holding your hand, I'm not complaining. 1195 00:44:05,076 --> 00:44:07,145 There's just such a-- beauty around, 1196 00:44:07,145 --> 00:44:08,880 walking through this forest. 1197 00:44:08,880 --> 00:44:10,248 I'm truthfully just happy 1198 00:44:10,248 --> 00:44:11,649 because I'm spending time with her. 1199 00:44:11,649 --> 00:44:13,951 And it's now just becoming a more intimate date. 1200 00:44:13,951 --> 00:44:15,486 I'm hearing more moving water. 1201 00:44:15,486 --> 00:44:17,155 - I am too. 1202 00:44:17,155 --> 00:44:19,624 - Ooh. - Ooh. 1203 00:44:19,624 --> 00:44:20,691 [upbeat music] 1204 00:44:20,691 --> 00:44:22,193 Oh, what a moment. 1205 00:44:22,193 --> 00:44:25,263 Joey is someone who's patient, someone who's flexible. 1206 00:44:25,263 --> 00:44:27,698 He's someone who's just calming. 1207 00:44:27,698 --> 00:44:29,700 - It does feel so good. - It really does. 1208 00:44:29,700 --> 00:44:32,403 I, like, honestly forgot that the ATV didn't work out 1209 00:44:32,403 --> 00:44:34,272 because he's just appreciating 1210 00:44:34,272 --> 00:44:35,907 what this moment is supposed to be entailing. 1211 00:44:35,907 --> 00:44:37,542 And that's just the both of us. 1212 00:44:37,542 --> 00:44:39,110 - That was crazy, by the way. 1213 00:44:39,110 --> 00:44:40,411 Coming in, like, I didn't know what 1214 00:44:40,411 --> 00:44:41,746 we were gonna be doing. 1215 00:44:41,746 --> 00:44:44,182 And it was obviously going to be a lot of fun. 1216 00:44:44,182 --> 00:44:45,316 But those ATVs did not work. 1217 00:44:45,316 --> 00:44:46,317 - Yeah. 1218 00:44:46,317 --> 00:44:47,585 And that's the thing. 1219 00:44:47,585 --> 00:44:49,086 I just want to say, like, thank you, 1220 00:44:49,086 --> 00:44:51,556 obviously, for being a trooper and just going with it. 1221 00:44:51,556 --> 00:44:53,090 - I think in a relationship in general, 1222 00:44:53,090 --> 00:44:55,159 there's a lot of roller coasters and turns. 1223 00:44:55,159 --> 00:44:57,261 And it's more about how you get through it together. 1224 00:44:57,261 --> 00:44:58,529 So... - Exactly. 1225 00:44:58,529 --> 00:45:00,031 - We're here now, and that's all that matters. 1226 00:45:00,031 --> 00:45:01,432 - How are you feeling, being here? 1227 00:45:01,432 --> 00:45:03,267 I know we talked about it, but how are you feeling? 1228 00:45:03,267 --> 00:45:05,269 - Yeah, no, like, I can't, like, tell you enough 1229 00:45:05,269 --> 00:45:08,172 how excited I am for what this week is gonna become 1230 00:45:08,172 --> 00:45:09,407 and what's possible. 1231 00:45:09,407 --> 00:45:10,975 - Yeah. - But I would be lying 1232 00:45:10,975 --> 00:45:12,043 if I didn't tell you, like, 1233 00:45:12,043 --> 00:45:13,377 I had a really tough week last week. 1234 00:45:13,377 --> 00:45:14,545 - Mm-hmm. - Um... 1235 00:45:14,545 --> 00:45:16,814 when you got in the car when you left, 1236 00:45:16,814 --> 00:45:18,149 like, I could kind of see through it. 1237 00:45:18,149 --> 00:45:19,784 And I could see you were still crying, 1238 00:45:19,784 --> 00:45:21,219 but you, like, wouldn't look at me. 1239 00:45:21,219 --> 00:45:24,355 So when you were going away, it was the first time 1240 00:45:24,355 --> 00:45:26,123 that, truthfully, like, felt like we might not 1241 00:45:26,123 --> 00:45:27,692 have been on the same page or like 1242 00:45:27,692 --> 00:45:29,560 it was possibly a goodbye. 1243 00:45:29,560 --> 00:45:32,029 Yeah, I got in my head. - Yeah, no. 1244 00:45:32,029 --> 00:45:34,966 And part of that was, like, yes, I was gonna miss you. 1245 00:45:34,966 --> 00:45:38,436 And like, I just realized like, okay, I just met your family. 1246 00:45:38,436 --> 00:45:41,739 And like, every conversation did go so good. 1247 00:45:41,739 --> 00:45:43,474 - Good. - Um... 1248 00:45:43,474 --> 00:45:46,244 but there was one conversation with Uncle Joe. 1249 00:45:46,244 --> 00:45:48,479 - Mm-hmm. - He was mentioning 1250 00:45:48,479 --> 00:45:49,680 the tennis courts. 1251 00:45:49,680 --> 00:45:51,482 And he was like, um, 1252 00:45:51,482 --> 00:45:53,517 "The Joey that I saw on the tennis courts 1253 00:45:53,517 --> 00:45:56,187 I don't feel like was the Joey that I know." 1254 00:45:56,187 --> 00:45:57,855 - Mm-hmm. - I was just curious to know, 1255 00:45:57,855 --> 00:46:00,858 like, what his take on it was. 1256 00:46:00,858 --> 00:46:02,260 - What that meant? - Yeah. 1257 00:46:02,260 --> 00:46:03,594 - I did feel uncomfortable, 1258 00:46:03,594 --> 00:46:05,029 and it had nothing to do with you. 1259 00:46:05,029 --> 00:46:07,131 But I was so worried about how I was gonna look, 1260 00:46:07,131 --> 00:46:08,432 and I wanted you to have a good time. 1261 00:46:08,432 --> 00:46:09,700 And I think it was-- 1262 00:46:09,700 --> 00:46:11,902 as much as you've been doing so much for me, 1263 00:46:11,902 --> 00:46:13,671 that was the first time I was doing something for you. 1264 00:46:13,671 --> 00:46:15,873 So I think I just felt a lot of pressure. 1265 00:46:15,873 --> 00:46:17,541 And then him showing up is like-- 1266 00:46:17,541 --> 00:46:18,542 - It was like, surprise. 1267 00:46:18,542 --> 00:46:19,744 - Yeah. 1268 00:46:19,744 --> 00:46:20,811 I didn't know he was gonna be there. 1269 00:46:20,811 --> 00:46:22,013 It was--I was uncomfortable. 1270 00:46:22,013 --> 00:46:23,748 That's the only way I can describe it. 1271 00:46:23,748 --> 00:46:25,816 There's reasons why my family has questioned 1272 00:46:25,816 --> 00:46:28,085 if I was being myself, because I think a lot 1273 00:46:28,085 --> 00:46:29,487 about what other people feel. 1274 00:46:29,487 --> 00:46:31,555 And sometimes it makes me stop being myself. 1275 00:46:31,555 --> 00:46:33,658 But that hasn't been the case for Charity. 1276 00:46:33,658 --> 00:46:35,493 She's consistently made me feel great. 1277 00:46:35,493 --> 00:46:38,062 But I'm really glad to talk to her about why it was there. 1278 00:46:38,062 --> 00:46:40,598 And I think we're just building a foundation 1279 00:46:40,598 --> 00:46:42,600 to getting to a really good spot. 1280 00:46:42,600 --> 00:46:44,068 Was there anything else from the day, 1281 00:46:44,068 --> 00:46:45,436 like any other conversations? - No, it was just like-- 1282 00:46:45,436 --> 00:46:46,737 that was the only thing 1283 00:46:46,737 --> 00:46:47,872 that, like, stuck with me. - Yeah, okay. 1284 00:46:47,872 --> 00:46:49,940 - Like, yeah. 1285 00:46:49,940 --> 00:46:51,642 So we're--we're good. 1286 00:46:51,642 --> 00:46:52,843 - Good. 1287 00:46:52,843 --> 00:46:55,846 [soft music] 1288 00:46:55,846 --> 00:46:59,183 ♪ 1289 00:46:59,183 --> 00:47:02,586 - I am feeling a lot better. 1290 00:47:02,586 --> 00:47:03,821 I think we should, um... - Is it time? 1291 00:47:03,821 --> 00:47:05,356 - Go, um... - Waterfall. 1292 00:47:05,356 --> 00:47:06,590 - Take a little splish-splash. 1293 00:47:06,590 --> 00:47:07,825 - All right. 1294 00:47:07,825 --> 00:47:09,994 - Asking Joey about that comment, 1295 00:47:09,994 --> 00:47:12,930 I got all the clarification I need. 1296 00:47:12,930 --> 00:47:15,599 [sweeping romantic music] 1297 00:47:15,599 --> 00:47:18,803 ♪ 1298 00:47:18,803 --> 00:47:23,341 Me and Joey kissing at the waterfall is magic. 1299 00:47:23,341 --> 00:47:26,844 Tonight is my overnight dinner with Joey. 1300 00:47:26,844 --> 00:47:30,781 I'm eager to tell Joey that I'm falling in love. 1301 00:47:30,781 --> 00:47:33,718 But I need to be 100% sure, 1302 00:47:33,718 --> 00:47:36,887 especially because of how last night with Xavier 1303 00:47:36,887 --> 00:47:39,123 took some twists and turns. 1304 00:47:39,123 --> 00:47:40,691 So it's huge, yeah. 1305 00:47:40,691 --> 00:47:42,226 There is pressure on tonight. 1306 00:47:42,226 --> 00:47:43,761 ♪ 1307 00:47:47,565 --> 00:47:50,534 [soft music] 1308 00:47:50,534 --> 00:47:57,475 ♪ 1309 00:47:57,475 --> 00:48:01,512 - I feel so good going into tonight with Joey. 1310 00:48:01,512 --> 00:48:05,216 I am so ready to spend more time with him 1311 00:48:05,216 --> 00:48:08,018 away from everything. 1312 00:48:08,018 --> 00:48:11,989 But I haven't told Joey that I am falling in love, 1313 00:48:11,989 --> 00:48:15,760 and I don't want to hold back anymore. 1314 00:48:15,760 --> 00:48:20,197 So going into tonight, what I need to see from Joey 1315 00:48:20,197 --> 00:48:24,668 is just a continuation of what we've been building on today-- 1316 00:48:24,668 --> 00:48:28,139 the honesty, the openness, the vulnerability-- 1317 00:48:28,139 --> 00:48:31,742 for me to be at a place where I'm confident 1318 00:48:31,742 --> 00:48:34,979 to read that card, to extend that invitation, 1319 00:48:34,979 --> 00:48:39,917 and to take our relationship to a whole new level. 1320 00:48:39,917 --> 00:48:41,552 ♪ 1321 00:48:41,552 --> 00:48:43,154 - You look so good. - Thank you. 1322 00:48:43,154 --> 00:48:44,188 You too. 1323 00:48:44,188 --> 00:48:45,456 - Wow. 1324 00:48:45,456 --> 00:48:47,792 - Isn't it pretty? 1325 00:48:47,792 --> 00:48:49,760 Thank you. - Mm-hmm. 1326 00:48:49,760 --> 00:48:50,828 I'm just excited. 1327 00:48:50,828 --> 00:48:52,029 I'm just--I'm ready to see 1328 00:48:52,029 --> 00:48:54,031 where tonight goes with Charity. 1329 00:48:54,031 --> 00:48:56,333 I think it's gonna be one of the more pivotal points 1330 00:48:56,333 --> 00:48:58,068 that really get us to where we need to be. 1331 00:48:58,068 --> 00:48:59,136 Long time no see. 1332 00:48:59,136 --> 00:49:00,805 - Long time no see. 1333 00:49:00,805 --> 00:49:03,240 - But there's been a lot that I've been waiting 1334 00:49:03,240 --> 00:49:05,743 to talk with Charity about. 1335 00:49:05,743 --> 00:49:07,478 I want to get her to understand 1336 00:49:07,478 --> 00:49:09,747 that I'm not gonna always be perfect. 1337 00:49:09,747 --> 00:49:11,348 - So shall we grab our drinks? 1338 00:49:11,348 --> 00:49:13,484 - Yes, of course. 1339 00:49:13,484 --> 00:49:15,119 There's a lot of times in my life 1340 00:49:15,119 --> 00:49:17,121 where I'm not the best version of myself 1341 00:49:17,121 --> 00:49:19,990 and don't have the same air of confidence. 1342 00:49:19,990 --> 00:49:21,659 both: Cheers. 1343 00:49:21,659 --> 00:49:23,394 - You know, there's another version of me 1344 00:49:23,394 --> 00:49:27,031 that's scared, nervous, worried, anxious, 1345 00:49:27,031 --> 00:49:28,799 uncertain about his future. 1346 00:49:28,799 --> 00:49:32,102 And it's definitely, I think, important to show. 1347 00:49:32,102 --> 00:49:36,040 But it's scary to show that to someone you care about 1348 00:49:36,040 --> 00:49:39,143 because it might push them away. 1349 00:49:39,143 --> 00:49:41,312 - How are you feeling after our chaotic day? 1350 00:49:41,312 --> 00:49:42,980 - After our day? - [laughs] Yeah. 1351 00:49:42,980 --> 00:49:44,915 - I'm feeling great, honestly, after today, 1352 00:49:44,915 --> 00:49:46,917 just because, like, I don't know. 1353 00:49:46,917 --> 00:49:48,619 I'm a big person that doesn't go in 1354 00:49:48,619 --> 00:49:50,621 with, like, expectations in any way. 1355 00:49:50,621 --> 00:49:52,957 And it obviously didn't go according to plan. 1356 00:49:52,957 --> 00:49:55,292 But it was nice just to be able to walk with you. 1357 00:49:55,292 --> 00:49:58,028 And kissing by the waterfall wasn't the worst thing ever. 1358 00:49:58,028 --> 00:49:59,797 - It was not the worst. - No, it wasn't the worst. 1359 00:49:59,797 --> 00:50:00,898 - Not at all. 1360 00:50:00,898 --> 00:50:01,999 Today was--it was wild. 1361 00:50:01,999 --> 00:50:03,000 It was good. 1362 00:50:03,000 --> 00:50:04,902 - Yeah, this is amazing. 1363 00:50:04,902 --> 00:50:06,437 Like, I can't-- I couldn't ask for anything 1364 00:50:06,437 --> 00:50:08,405 more than this right now. - Mm-hmm. 1365 00:50:08,405 --> 00:50:12,176 I want to ask, like, in just, like, a transparent moment, 1366 00:50:12,176 --> 00:50:13,644 like, are you nervous about, like, 1367 00:50:13,644 --> 00:50:15,379 anything, like, moving forward? 1368 00:50:15,379 --> 00:50:18,782 - Yeah, it's not that-- I don't know. 1369 00:50:18,782 --> 00:50:22,753 There is a part of me that has belief that sometimes 1370 00:50:22,753 --> 00:50:25,189 people fall in love with the idea of me 1371 00:50:25,189 --> 00:50:28,792 and that person that is that great guy. 1372 00:50:28,792 --> 00:50:30,027 And then when they get to, like, 1373 00:50:30,027 --> 00:50:31,328 know me a little bit better, 1374 00:50:31,328 --> 00:50:32,963 they--they... - Preaching to the choir. 1375 00:50:32,963 --> 00:50:35,866 - Maybe don't think it's, like, who I truthfully am anymore, 1376 00:50:35,866 --> 00:50:37,902 and they start to question. 1377 00:50:37,902 --> 00:50:40,905 Like, if this was a relationship where we had 1378 00:50:40,905 --> 00:50:43,774 more time, you would be able to see 1379 00:50:43,774 --> 00:50:45,910 more moments like last week. 1380 00:50:45,910 --> 00:50:48,245 You'd be able to see more times where-- 1381 00:50:48,245 --> 00:50:51,115 for me, I call it when I get in a funk or just like a moment 1382 00:50:51,115 --> 00:50:53,117 where I have a little sense of doubt. 1383 00:50:53,117 --> 00:50:57,421 And the big thing for me is I know how I am. 1384 00:50:57,421 --> 00:50:59,390 I give off a very confident persona. 1385 00:50:59,390 --> 00:51:01,058 I'm a great energy. 1386 00:51:01,058 --> 00:51:03,227 I've been told that my entire life. 1387 00:51:03,227 --> 00:51:06,497 And it's something that I'm grateful that people say that. 1388 00:51:06,497 --> 00:51:08,532 I think it's something that I always strive to be. 1389 00:51:08,532 --> 00:51:10,734 But I am human. - Yeah. Yeah, you are. 1390 00:51:10,734 --> 00:51:14,271 - And there's moments where I don't feel that way. 1391 00:51:14,271 --> 00:51:16,473 But then I try to push to be that person 1392 00:51:16,473 --> 00:51:18,776 that I think everyone sees me to be. 1393 00:51:18,776 --> 00:51:21,378 That's the part that can be, like, taxing. 1394 00:51:21,378 --> 00:51:23,480 And I know it can be tough to be 1395 00:51:23,480 --> 00:51:25,182 a person in a relationship with me 1396 00:51:25,182 --> 00:51:27,318 because it can almost maybe sometimes feel like 1397 00:51:27,318 --> 00:51:29,086 it can be a roller coaster. 1398 00:51:29,086 --> 00:51:32,056 But it's just me, right? 1399 00:51:32,056 --> 00:51:33,057 - Yeah, yeah. 1400 00:51:33,057 --> 00:51:35,626 - So I don't know. 1401 00:51:35,626 --> 00:51:37,094 - Hearing Joey talk about this, 1402 00:51:37,094 --> 00:51:39,029 like, I just feel so, like, bad. 1403 00:51:39,029 --> 00:51:40,464 I just want to, like, give him a hug. 1404 00:51:40,464 --> 00:51:43,934 But I feel like he puts a lot of pressure on himself. 1405 00:51:43,934 --> 00:51:45,669 But I relate so much to that. 1406 00:51:45,669 --> 00:51:49,406 And so it's something that I'm very understanding of. 1407 00:51:49,406 --> 00:51:52,309 From what I'm taking it as is like, 1408 00:51:52,309 --> 00:51:55,045 I feel like I'm a lot like that in this sense. 1409 00:51:55,045 --> 00:51:57,715 But I feel like for me, it's like, I struggle a lot 1410 00:51:57,715 --> 00:51:59,717 with, like, people pleasing. 1411 00:51:59,717 --> 00:52:02,987 I think that stems obviously from relationships, 1412 00:52:02,987 --> 00:52:06,323 but also just, like, growing up, when I got rewarded 1413 00:52:06,323 --> 00:52:10,828 or when I got attention, it was when I was at my best. 1414 00:52:10,828 --> 00:52:13,931 And so I think that, like, conditioned me to be like, 1415 00:52:13,931 --> 00:52:16,400 okay, like, this is what it takes in order 1416 00:52:16,400 --> 00:52:18,502 to get rewarded or praised by people 1417 00:52:18,502 --> 00:52:20,738 and still is something that I will say 1418 00:52:20,738 --> 00:52:22,339 I'm actively working on. 1419 00:52:22,339 --> 00:52:24,942 Because it's so hard to, like, get out of that. 1420 00:52:24,942 --> 00:52:26,877 And it's an unrealistic expectation 1421 00:52:26,877 --> 00:52:28,178 to place on anyone... - Yes. 1422 00:52:28,178 --> 00:52:31,348 - To be, like, the same or to be as consistent 1423 00:52:31,348 --> 00:52:33,317 every single day with their emotions. 1424 00:52:33,317 --> 00:52:34,918 Like, that's just not-- 1425 00:52:34,918 --> 00:52:36,520 that's not normal, I feel like. - It's not real. 1426 00:52:36,520 --> 00:52:37,554 - Yeah, it's, like, not real. 1427 00:52:37,554 --> 00:52:38,789 It's not normal. 1428 00:52:38,789 --> 00:52:42,226 So I feel like I'm similar in that sense. 1429 00:52:42,226 --> 00:52:44,061 100%. 1430 00:52:44,061 --> 00:52:47,531 - It's refreshing to hear that back. 1431 00:52:47,531 --> 00:52:49,867 Charity's making me feel extremely special. 1432 00:52:49,867 --> 00:52:53,103 And no doubt a huge weight has come off my shoulders. 1433 00:52:53,103 --> 00:52:55,105 It just feels like we see each other 1434 00:52:55,105 --> 00:52:56,573 and understand each other. 1435 00:52:56,573 --> 00:52:59,743 It's just nice to be able to--to talk through it. 1436 00:52:59,743 --> 00:53:02,179 Just want you to understand that side of me, 1437 00:53:02,179 --> 00:53:06,784 just because, like, I know I told you in New Orleans 1438 00:53:06,784 --> 00:53:08,952 that I was falling in love with you. 1439 00:53:08,952 --> 00:53:10,788 I told you at Hometowns I was falling deeper 1440 00:53:10,788 --> 00:53:11,955 and deeper in love with you. 1441 00:53:11,955 --> 00:53:15,225 But since that moment, 1442 00:53:15,225 --> 00:53:18,262 I've realized that I am in love with you. 1443 00:53:18,262 --> 00:53:23,100 And I've been wanting to tell you that for a while, 1444 00:53:23,100 --> 00:53:25,169 but I am in love with you. 1445 00:53:25,169 --> 00:53:26,603 And I just want you to know that. 1446 00:53:26,603 --> 00:53:28,372 - Oh, Joey, that makes me so happy. 1447 00:53:28,372 --> 00:53:34,378 Um, I mean, you saying those words to me in this moment 1448 00:53:34,378 --> 00:53:36,180 could not make me happier. 1449 00:53:36,180 --> 00:53:39,083 And after the day that we spent, 1450 00:53:39,083 --> 00:53:42,486 it's not even a matter of, 1451 00:53:42,486 --> 00:53:44,288 am I falling in love with you? 1452 00:53:44,288 --> 00:53:46,790 I am in love with you. 1453 00:53:46,790 --> 00:53:52,162 And it is the best feeling. 1454 00:53:52,162 --> 00:53:54,598 And to say those words, like, and just 1455 00:53:54,598 --> 00:53:59,002 to be smiling right now is, like, huge for me. 1456 00:53:59,002 --> 00:54:00,704 I'm so excited... 1457 00:54:00,704 --> 00:54:02,306 - Come here. I'm like-- - To be feeling this. 1458 00:54:02,306 --> 00:54:04,308 I know. [laughs] 1459 00:54:04,308 --> 00:54:07,911 ♪ 1460 00:54:07,911 --> 00:54:09,446 I haven't said "I love you" 1461 00:54:09,446 --> 00:54:12,416 or I'm in love with someone in a long time. 1462 00:54:12,416 --> 00:54:14,918 And I'm just like-- 1463 00:54:14,918 --> 00:54:16,053 I'm floating. 1464 00:54:16,053 --> 00:54:18,422 [laughing] Like, actually levitating. 1465 00:54:18,422 --> 00:54:19,990 ♪ 1466 00:54:19,990 --> 00:54:22,659 It makes me so happy on the inside, like, 1467 00:54:22,659 --> 00:54:26,196 just to know that we're really both in the same place. 1468 00:54:26,196 --> 00:54:28,432 We're, like, so in sync with each other. 1469 00:54:28,432 --> 00:54:31,702 So I'm the happiest girl. 1470 00:54:31,702 --> 00:54:36,907 Um, I have something for you. 1471 00:54:36,907 --> 00:54:38,575 Do you mind opening it? 1472 00:54:38,575 --> 00:54:39,576 - Yeah. 1473 00:54:39,576 --> 00:54:40,978 - Okay. 1474 00:54:40,978 --> 00:54:44,715 [soft music] 1475 00:54:44,715 --> 00:54:47,484 - "Charity and Joey, today you've learned 1476 00:54:47,484 --> 00:54:49,887 "that life has bumps in the road, 1477 00:54:49,887 --> 00:54:52,489 "but it's how you work together that matters. 1478 00:54:52,489 --> 00:54:55,025 "Should you choose to forgo your individual rooms, 1479 00:54:55,025 --> 00:54:57,127 "please stay as a couple in the Fantasy Suite. 1480 00:54:57,127 --> 00:54:58,128 Jesse." 1481 00:54:58,128 --> 00:54:59,630 - So what do you say? 1482 00:54:59,630 --> 00:55:01,131 - Yeah, 100%. 1483 00:55:01,131 --> 00:55:03,300 - Great. [laughs] 1484 00:55:03,300 --> 00:55:05,169 I think we should go. Are you ready? 1485 00:55:05,169 --> 00:55:06,737 - Yeah, yes. 1486 00:55:06,737 --> 00:55:10,607 All I'm feeling is just happiness, validation, 1487 00:55:10,607 --> 00:55:14,878 because for me, it's extremely hard to be insecure. 1488 00:55:14,878 --> 00:55:17,314 The fact that we know there's love there now 1489 00:55:17,314 --> 00:55:19,550 gives me so much more confidence. 1490 00:55:19,550 --> 00:55:21,685 It's everything I could have asked for. 1491 00:55:21,685 --> 00:55:23,420 - Oh, my goodness. 1492 00:55:23,420 --> 00:55:24,621 [gasps] Are you kidding? 1493 00:55:24,621 --> 00:55:26,056 - This place is awesome. - Are you kidding? 1494 00:55:26,056 --> 00:55:27,124 - It's huge. 1495 00:55:27,124 --> 00:55:29,193 - [laughs] Should we go upstairs? 1496 00:55:29,193 --> 00:55:30,294 - Yeah, let's do it. 1497 00:55:30,294 --> 00:55:31,628 Let's see what's upstairs. - Okay. 1498 00:55:31,628 --> 00:55:34,031 When I look at Joey, like, I look at him 1499 00:55:34,031 --> 00:55:36,433 as someone that I'm, like, incredibly grateful for 1500 00:55:36,433 --> 00:55:38,268 because he is, like, 1501 00:55:38,268 --> 00:55:40,804 the definition of, like, a perfect person 1502 00:55:40,804 --> 00:55:42,339 and the person that I prayed for. 1503 00:55:42,339 --> 00:55:43,574 - Ooh. 1504 00:55:43,574 --> 00:55:45,776 - Oh, my goodness. 1505 00:55:45,776 --> 00:55:47,911 Wait. This is so beautiful. 1506 00:55:47,911 --> 00:55:52,115 ♪ 1507 00:55:52,115 --> 00:55:55,752 We both continuously pour into one another, 1508 00:55:55,752 --> 00:55:59,156 and we care so much about each other. 1509 00:55:59,156 --> 00:56:04,394 Tonight makes me incredibly hopeful that, I don't know, 1510 00:56:04,394 --> 00:56:07,030 our love could reach new heights. 1511 00:56:07,030 --> 00:56:09,833 ♪ 1512 00:56:11,768 --> 00:56:15,339 [soft music] 1513 00:56:15,339 --> 00:56:17,541 [birds chirping] 1514 00:56:17,541 --> 00:56:19,676 ♪ 1515 00:56:19,676 --> 00:56:21,778 - Thank you for last night. 1516 00:56:21,778 --> 00:56:22,779 - How are you? 1517 00:56:22,779 --> 00:56:24,815 - I'm good. How'd you sleep? 1518 00:56:24,815 --> 00:56:27,317 - Good. - [laughs] Good. 1519 00:56:27,317 --> 00:56:32,756 ♪ 1520 00:56:32,756 --> 00:56:34,258 These are, like, the hard moments. 1521 00:56:34,258 --> 00:56:35,726 It's like you don't want to get up. 1522 00:56:35,726 --> 00:56:37,261 - Yeah. - I don't want to get up. 1523 00:56:37,261 --> 00:56:38,428 - We can just stay here all day. 1524 00:56:38,428 --> 00:56:39,596 - I can't. - Fine by me. 1525 00:56:39,596 --> 00:56:41,698 - [laughing] Okay. 1526 00:56:41,698 --> 00:56:44,668 Waking up this morning, I am blissful. 1527 00:56:44,668 --> 00:56:46,570 I feel so at peace. 1528 00:56:46,570 --> 00:56:48,205 Like, I can't--I'm beaming. 1529 00:56:48,205 --> 00:56:49,606 Like, you know when you're just glowing 1530 00:56:49,606 --> 00:56:50,674 because you're just so happy? 1531 00:56:50,674 --> 00:56:52,910 Like, joy is within my heart. 1532 00:56:52,910 --> 00:56:54,144 - Yeah. 1533 00:56:54,144 --> 00:56:55,879 I want to make sure you're feeling good. 1534 00:56:55,879 --> 00:56:56,914 - Yeah. 1535 00:56:56,914 --> 00:56:58,749 - I believe you. 1536 00:56:58,749 --> 00:56:59,950 - My face tells it all. 1537 00:56:59,950 --> 00:57:00,951 - Mm-hmm. 1538 00:57:00,951 --> 00:57:03,754 - It's just a look of love. 1539 00:57:03,754 --> 00:57:06,423 A love with Joey feels eternal. 1540 00:57:06,423 --> 00:57:07,991 Oh, God. That's a big word. 1541 00:57:07,991 --> 00:57:09,192 [laughs] 1542 00:57:09,192 --> 00:57:11,495 Can I just say that? 1543 00:57:11,495 --> 00:57:12,562 That's okay. 1544 00:57:12,562 --> 00:57:14,498 A love with Joey feels eternal. 1545 00:57:14,498 --> 00:57:16,333 - Sadly, we can't stay here all day, 1546 00:57:16,333 --> 00:57:19,303 but it's good to know that we want to. 1547 00:57:19,303 --> 00:57:20,304 - Mm-hmm. 1548 00:57:20,304 --> 00:57:21,838 I am in love. 1549 00:57:21,838 --> 00:57:23,607 I'm in love with Joey. 1550 00:57:23,607 --> 00:57:25,108 I still can't believe I said it, 1551 00:57:25,108 --> 00:57:26,777 but I'm just like, ah, I did. 1552 00:57:26,777 --> 00:57:29,212 And it feels so good. 1553 00:57:29,212 --> 00:57:32,582 - Everything was how it needed to be for me to just 1554 00:57:32,582 --> 00:57:34,451 not have doubts moving forward. 1555 00:57:34,451 --> 00:57:35,819 - Good. 1556 00:57:35,819 --> 00:57:39,089 - Waking up next to Charity this morning feels right. 1557 00:57:39,089 --> 00:57:41,925 I could do that for the rest of my life for sure. 1558 00:57:41,925 --> 00:57:45,295 Last night, I finally got the opportunity to tell Charity 1559 00:57:45,295 --> 00:57:46,463 that I'm in love with her, 1560 00:57:46,463 --> 00:57:47,864 and to hear her say that 1561 00:57:47,864 --> 00:57:50,901 she's in love with me too was amazing. 1562 00:57:50,901 --> 00:57:53,403 - The feelings that I have 1563 00:57:53,403 --> 00:57:56,039 are feelings that I've--I've prayed for. 1564 00:57:56,039 --> 00:57:57,975 I am in love with you. 1565 00:57:57,975 --> 00:58:00,477 And waking up this morning, 1566 00:58:00,477 --> 00:58:02,579 it's just--it's stronger by the second. 1567 00:58:02,579 --> 00:58:04,181 So...love you. 1568 00:58:04,181 --> 00:58:06,817 - Love you too. 1569 00:58:06,817 --> 00:58:08,552 This morning, I have zero doubts 1570 00:58:08,552 --> 00:58:10,387 that we're on the same page. 1571 00:58:10,387 --> 00:58:12,756 But I know there's more to come. 1572 00:58:12,756 --> 00:58:14,391 Maybe something will get in the way 1573 00:58:14,391 --> 00:58:16,360 just because of an amazing experience 1574 00:58:16,360 --> 00:58:18,128 she has with one of the other guys. 1575 00:58:18,128 --> 00:58:19,730 That's the scary part. 1576 00:58:19,730 --> 00:58:23,900 I'm just gonna focus on trying to be okay. 1577 00:58:23,900 --> 00:58:25,402 - I don't want to do this. 1578 00:58:25,402 --> 00:58:27,738 - You're good. - I know. 1579 00:58:27,738 --> 00:58:29,006 - It's not goodbye. 1580 00:58:29,006 --> 00:58:30,540 It's see you later. 1581 00:58:30,540 --> 00:58:31,742 It's all part of it. 1582 00:58:31,742 --> 00:58:34,311 - I know. 1583 00:58:34,311 --> 00:58:37,080 I just don't want it to be. 1584 00:58:37,080 --> 00:58:39,082 - Bye. - Bye. 1585 00:58:39,082 --> 00:58:41,018 - Her being upset and crying doesn't feel like 1586 00:58:41,018 --> 00:58:42,519 a goodbye this time. 1587 00:58:42,519 --> 00:58:45,655 It really truthfully feels like I don't want this to end. 1588 00:58:45,655 --> 00:58:49,159 So I feel strong about where I'm at right now. 1589 00:58:49,159 --> 00:58:53,964 ♪ 1590 00:58:53,964 --> 00:58:56,967 [light music] 1591 00:58:56,967 --> 00:58:59,770 ♪ 1592 00:58:59,770 --> 00:59:02,305 - I'm really excited to spend some time with Charity today 1593 00:59:02,305 --> 00:59:04,474 in Fiji and get to enjoy the waters 1594 00:59:04,474 --> 00:59:06,243 with her, the person I care about. 1595 00:59:06,243 --> 00:59:08,378 I'm coming into this just missing her. 1596 00:59:08,378 --> 00:59:10,680 I can't wait to see her face, her smile. 1597 00:59:10,680 --> 00:59:12,049 I have no idea what's in store today, 1598 00:59:12,049 --> 00:59:14,351 but I don't want it to just be la-di-da-di, 1599 00:59:14,351 --> 00:59:16,686 because Joey and Xavier are also here, 1600 00:59:16,686 --> 00:59:18,155 and it's a little unnerving. 1601 00:59:18,155 --> 00:59:21,792 It's not fun to think about not growing a relationship 1602 00:59:21,792 --> 00:59:23,427 when others are. 1603 00:59:23,427 --> 00:59:25,796 So I want to just continue growing our connection today, 1604 00:59:25,796 --> 00:59:27,831 but definitely not sitting back and relaxing. 1605 00:59:27,831 --> 00:59:34,805 ♪ 1606 00:59:34,805 --> 00:59:38,341 - Today is my last overnight, and it's with Dotun. 1607 00:59:38,341 --> 00:59:39,976 And I absolutely cannot wait 1608 00:59:39,976 --> 00:59:42,546 to explore this island with him. 1609 00:59:42,546 --> 00:59:44,314 And I'm so excited. 1610 00:59:44,314 --> 00:59:45,849 He's an incredible person. 1611 00:59:45,849 --> 00:59:50,187 He has an ability to make me feel so loved and prioritized. 1612 00:59:50,187 --> 00:59:52,122 And he doesn't even know that he's doing that for me. 1613 00:59:52,122 --> 00:59:53,156 Hi! 1614 00:59:53,156 --> 00:59:55,058 - [laughs] 1615 00:59:55,058 --> 00:59:57,594 - That is how he is so special to me. 1616 00:59:57,594 --> 00:59:59,729 - Look at you. - Look at you! 1617 00:59:59,729 --> 01:00:00,997 - Oh, so beautiful. 1618 01:00:00,997 --> 01:00:02,265 How are you doing? 1619 01:00:02,265 --> 01:00:03,300 - I'm good. 1620 01:00:03,300 --> 01:00:04,267 How are you? 1621 01:00:04,267 --> 01:00:06,536 I missed you. 1622 01:00:06,536 --> 01:00:07,904 Oh, so happy. 1623 01:00:07,904 --> 01:00:09,172 - I'm so happy. 1624 01:00:09,172 --> 01:00:10,207 - Oh, my goodness. 1625 01:00:10,207 --> 01:00:11,942 Welcome to... - Thank you. 1626 01:00:11,942 --> 01:00:13,710 - Freaking Fiji. - This is fire. 1627 01:00:13,710 --> 01:00:14,878 - We're gonna have a good day. 1628 01:00:14,878 --> 01:00:16,213 - I can't wait. 1629 01:00:16,213 --> 01:00:18,715 - I have a super fun date planned for us. 1630 01:00:18,715 --> 01:00:20,117 - Let's go. - Are you ready? 1631 01:00:20,117 --> 01:00:21,551 - I'm 100% ready. - Okay. 1632 01:00:21,551 --> 01:00:22,552 Let's go. 1633 01:00:22,552 --> 01:00:23,920 - Let's rock and roll. 1634 01:00:23,920 --> 01:00:26,923 [upbeat music] 1635 01:00:26,923 --> 01:00:28,391 ♪ 1636 01:00:28,391 --> 01:00:30,927 Guess what we're doing today. 1637 01:00:30,927 --> 01:00:32,562 - I'm seeing a couple... - Okay! 1638 01:00:32,562 --> 01:00:33,630 - Jet Skis here. 1639 01:00:33,630 --> 01:00:35,332 Let's run. - Okay. Mm. 1640 01:00:35,332 --> 01:00:37,968 It seems like there's no bad thing about Dotun. 1641 01:00:37,968 --> 01:00:40,504 And that scares me a little bit, 1642 01:00:40,504 --> 01:00:42,305 because it feels like 1643 01:00:42,305 --> 01:00:44,174 everything between me and Dotun thus far 1644 01:00:44,174 --> 01:00:45,442 is way too good to be true. 1645 01:00:45,442 --> 01:00:47,077 Like, is this, like, real? 1646 01:00:47,077 --> 01:00:49,312 But at the same time, I'm tired of, like, 1647 01:00:49,312 --> 01:00:51,081 looking for something to go wrong. 1648 01:00:51,081 --> 01:00:52,649 Why, no? Come on. 1649 01:00:52,649 --> 01:00:53,783 Why is it going? 1650 01:00:53,783 --> 01:00:55,252 I'm not pressing anything. 1651 01:00:55,252 --> 01:00:56,786 - I think some of them come with brakes. 1652 01:00:56,786 --> 01:00:58,021 - No! - [laughs] 1653 01:00:58,021 --> 01:00:59,756 - Like, don't run into me. [laughter] 1654 01:00:59,756 --> 01:01:01,158 So you know what? 1655 01:01:01,158 --> 01:01:02,826 Today, we're just gonna have a great time. 1656 01:01:02,826 --> 01:01:08,365 ♪ 1657 01:01:08,365 --> 01:01:10,133 - Whoo! 1658 01:01:10,133 --> 01:01:11,701 [engine revving] 1659 01:01:11,701 --> 01:01:13,670 - No! 1660 01:01:13,670 --> 01:01:15,238 Toodles! 1661 01:01:15,238 --> 01:01:18,675 ♪ 1662 01:01:18,675 --> 01:01:20,010 - Charity is so much fun. 1663 01:01:20,010 --> 01:01:22,445 - [squeals] - [laughs] 1664 01:01:22,445 --> 01:01:23,480 We're vibing with each other. 1665 01:01:23,480 --> 01:01:24,481 She's riding my waves. 1666 01:01:24,481 --> 01:01:25,549 I'm riding her waves. 1667 01:01:25,549 --> 01:01:28,318 It's the best time. 1668 01:01:28,318 --> 01:01:30,587 I'm looking out for the waves and trying not to crash 1669 01:01:30,587 --> 01:01:32,289 and look like an idiot in front of Charity, 1670 01:01:32,289 --> 01:01:34,090 but it's hard to do when I keep staring at her. 1671 01:01:34,090 --> 01:01:35,692 She just looks fire. 1672 01:01:35,692 --> 01:01:38,695 Like, so good, hair flowing in the wind. 1673 01:01:38,695 --> 01:01:40,530 I wouldn't mind crashing for that view. 1674 01:01:46,069 --> 01:01:49,906 My hair is matching the vibe of me and Dotun today, 1675 01:01:49,906 --> 01:01:52,342 which is wild, young, and free. 1676 01:01:52,342 --> 01:01:54,511 [laughs] 1677 01:01:54,511 --> 01:01:56,079 The ocean is ours. 1678 01:01:56,079 --> 01:01:58,215 It's here for me and Dotun. 1679 01:01:58,215 --> 01:02:01,985 We are in Fiji on a private island at a sandbar. 1680 01:02:01,985 --> 01:02:04,087 This is like a dream date. 1681 01:02:04,087 --> 01:02:06,756 ♪ 1682 01:02:06,756 --> 01:02:08,525 - I didn't know you could look even better, 1683 01:02:08,525 --> 01:02:09,559 but somehow, you've managed-- 1684 01:02:09,559 --> 01:02:11,061 - Stop. No way. 1685 01:02:11,061 --> 01:02:12,796 - Somehow you've... - This is the best... 1686 01:02:12,796 --> 01:02:14,030 - Managed-- - This is the best compliment 1687 01:02:14,030 --> 01:02:15,899 right now, because you don't understand. 1688 01:02:15,899 --> 01:02:17,234 I'm like... - Somehow, you've managed. 1689 01:02:17,234 --> 01:02:18,435 - Just accepting this. 1690 01:02:18,435 --> 01:02:19,836 And how I'm looking is how I'm looking. 1691 01:02:19,836 --> 01:02:21,371 - I don't understand you. - Oh, I love this. 1692 01:02:21,371 --> 01:02:23,440 - It's crazy. [cork pops] 1693 01:02:23,440 --> 01:02:24,541 - Yay. - Look at that. 1694 01:02:24,541 --> 01:02:25,742 - We just popped champagne in Fiji. 1695 01:02:25,742 --> 01:02:27,644 - We just did! Like, who can say that? 1696 01:02:27,644 --> 01:02:29,579 - I know. - That's awesome. 1697 01:02:29,579 --> 01:02:33,416 I wanted to say, it's just been a really beautiful 1698 01:02:33,416 --> 01:02:35,252 beginning, middle, and obviously coming up 1699 01:02:35,252 --> 01:02:36,653 on the "end." 1700 01:02:36,653 --> 01:02:37,954 - Yeah. 1701 01:02:37,954 --> 01:02:39,155 - And I don't think this would be a fairy tale 1702 01:02:39,155 --> 01:02:40,323 if there was anybody else, 1703 01:02:40,323 --> 01:02:41,558 even if they did things in a similar way. 1704 01:02:41,558 --> 01:02:42,892 - Aw. - Like, it really-- 1705 01:02:42,892 --> 01:02:44,594 - Now you're gonna make me cry. [both laughing] 1706 01:02:44,594 --> 01:02:46,730 - Well, let it come out if it's gonna. 1707 01:02:46,730 --> 01:02:48,431 - Have we had--like, we talked about it. 1708 01:02:48,431 --> 01:02:49,733 I don't think we've had a bad moment. 1709 01:02:49,733 --> 01:02:51,034 Like... - No. Yeah. 1710 01:02:51,034 --> 01:02:52,435 - It's just been, like, exciting. 1711 01:02:52,435 --> 01:02:54,004 - Seriously, I think about that all the time. 1712 01:02:54,004 --> 01:02:55,705 - You don't understand. - [laughs] 1713 01:02:55,705 --> 01:02:57,674 - No, I mean, I just, like, I need to pause for a second. 1714 01:02:57,674 --> 01:03:01,845 Like, your family, oh, is so incredible. 1715 01:03:01,845 --> 01:03:03,213 And I don't know if I told you this, 1716 01:03:03,213 --> 01:03:04,981 but your mom essentially, like, prayed with me. 1717 01:03:04,981 --> 01:03:06,283 - Oh, wow. 1718 01:03:06,283 --> 01:03:08,018 - And like, it just reminded me, like, 1719 01:03:08,018 --> 01:03:10,620 this is something my mom would say to me in these moments. 1720 01:03:10,620 --> 01:03:11,921 And so I don't know. 1721 01:03:11,921 --> 01:03:14,257 Like, as weird as that sounds, but like, 1722 01:03:14,257 --> 01:03:17,427 I felt every single word that she said for me. 1723 01:03:17,427 --> 01:03:18,895 Like, my prayer life is important. 1724 01:03:18,895 --> 01:03:19,963 Like, I'm praying right now. 1725 01:03:19,963 --> 01:03:21,498 Like, okay, like, my husband. 1726 01:03:21,498 --> 01:03:23,233 Like, he's here. Like, just help me. 1727 01:03:23,233 --> 01:03:24,734 Like, I'm listening to these things. 1728 01:03:24,734 --> 01:03:25,935 I'm following those things. 1729 01:03:25,935 --> 01:03:29,239 So that moment with your mom was pure. 1730 01:03:29,239 --> 01:03:30,573 - That's crazy. - Yeah. 1731 01:03:30,573 --> 01:03:32,475 Like, I literally love your family so much, so... 1732 01:03:32,475 --> 01:03:33,810 - Aw. They love the hell out of you. 1733 01:03:33,810 --> 01:03:35,111 - [laughs] 1734 01:03:35,111 --> 01:03:36,413 - Charity really speaks from her emotions, 1735 01:03:36,413 --> 01:03:38,048 which I think is just so admirable. 1736 01:03:38,048 --> 01:03:40,350 And I'm just so grateful and appreciative 1737 01:03:40,350 --> 01:03:42,585 to have somebody like Charity in my life. 1738 01:03:42,585 --> 01:03:45,021 But if I'm gonna be getting engaged to Charity 1739 01:03:45,021 --> 01:03:46,790 at the end of this, there's something 1740 01:03:46,790 --> 01:03:48,725 she should know and be aware of know. 1741 01:03:48,725 --> 01:03:50,160 You know something funny? 1742 01:03:50,160 --> 01:03:51,628 You mentioned, like, you found your husband, right? 1743 01:03:51,628 --> 01:03:52,762 - Yeah, yeah, yeah. 1744 01:03:52,762 --> 01:03:54,264 - Um... - No way I'm ready for this. 1745 01:03:54,264 --> 01:03:55,532 - So this is kind of funny. 1746 01:03:55,532 --> 01:03:57,267 Like, I really don't know much about the show. 1747 01:03:57,267 --> 01:03:58,835 - I assumed, but it's okay. It's okay. 1748 01:03:58,835 --> 01:04:00,003 [laughs] 1749 01:04:00,003 --> 01:04:02,038 - So, like, I didn't really understand 1750 01:04:02,038 --> 01:04:03,673 what happens at the end of all this. 1751 01:04:03,673 --> 01:04:05,141 - Wait, stop. - [laughs] 1752 01:04:05,141 --> 01:04:06,476 - No way. 1753 01:04:06,476 --> 01:04:09,012 - Up until probably, like, three or four weeks ago. 1754 01:04:09,012 --> 01:04:10,680 I don't remember who I asked. I asked one of the guys. 1755 01:04:10,680 --> 01:04:12,649 I was like, so like, what-- what, like, kind of happens? 1756 01:04:12,649 --> 01:04:13,883 - I love it. 1757 01:04:13,883 --> 01:04:15,352 - And they're like, it's an engagement. 1758 01:04:15,352 --> 01:04:17,287 And I was like, for maybe a millisecond, taken aback. 1759 01:04:17,287 --> 01:04:18,822 - Mm-hmm. - And I thought about you. 1760 01:04:18,822 --> 01:04:20,357 I was like, I'm actually fine with that. 1761 01:04:20,357 --> 01:04:21,491 - Aw. 1762 01:04:21,491 --> 01:04:22,559 - So I don't know. 1763 01:04:22,559 --> 01:04:24,060 Just a testament. 1764 01:04:24,060 --> 01:04:25,895 - That is the definition of truly trust in the process... 1765 01:04:25,895 --> 01:04:27,163 - 100%. - Because you don't know. 1766 01:04:27,163 --> 01:04:28,598 Like, you don't even know what the hell happens 1767 01:04:28,598 --> 01:04:30,100 at the end of it. but you're just like, 1768 01:04:30,100 --> 01:04:32,202 here, and like, you're being yourself 1769 01:04:32,202 --> 01:04:34,471 and seeing if it could work. 1770 01:04:34,471 --> 01:04:36,606 And I don't know. 1771 01:04:36,606 --> 01:04:38,475 Like, that does excite me in a sense. 1772 01:04:38,475 --> 01:04:40,243 - Yeah, I'm happy to be in that position. 1773 01:04:40,243 --> 01:04:41,544 I'm happy to get to the end. 1774 01:04:41,544 --> 01:04:44,214 And I mean, to me, it almost feels more real. 1775 01:04:44,214 --> 01:04:46,015 - And yeah, I was gonna say, like, it's so real. 1776 01:04:46,015 --> 01:04:47,117 - Yeah. 1777 01:04:47,117 --> 01:04:48,151 - A absolute fairy tale. 1778 01:04:48,151 --> 01:04:49,152 - Yeah. 1779 01:04:49,152 --> 01:04:50,220 - Like, truly. 1780 01:04:50,220 --> 01:04:53,223 [romantic music] 1781 01:04:53,223 --> 01:04:59,262 ♪ 1782 01:04:59,262 --> 01:05:00,897 I'm on cloud nine with Dotun. 1783 01:05:00,897 --> 01:05:03,433 Everything up until this point with Dotun 1784 01:05:03,433 --> 01:05:05,068 has been exceptional. 1785 01:05:05,068 --> 01:05:07,337 Like, it has exceeded all of my expectations. 1786 01:05:07,337 --> 01:05:08,972 ♪ 1787 01:05:08,972 --> 01:05:10,540 What we are creating and writing 1788 01:05:10,540 --> 01:05:13,042 is the most beautiful love story. 1789 01:05:13,042 --> 01:05:15,445 Even though there's nothing in my gut that's telling me, 1790 01:05:15,445 --> 01:05:19,048 like, oh, no, like, hold on, I still feel a little nervous. 1791 01:05:19,048 --> 01:05:20,417 [laughs] 1792 01:05:20,417 --> 01:05:23,520 Because my gut has been wrong in the past. 1793 01:05:23,520 --> 01:05:25,955 But I'm hopeful that with Dotun, 1794 01:05:25,955 --> 01:05:27,490 that's not the case. 1795 01:05:27,490 --> 01:05:29,192 ♪ 1796 01:05:32,829 --> 01:05:35,832 [upbeat music] 1797 01:05:35,832 --> 01:05:40,603 ♪ 1798 01:05:40,603 --> 01:05:41,838 - Are you ready? - I'm pumped. 1799 01:05:41,838 --> 01:05:42,839 - [laughs] 1800 01:05:42,839 --> 01:05:44,574 - Tonight's huge for me. 1801 01:05:44,574 --> 01:05:47,010 I'm excited to get uninterrupted time together 1802 01:05:47,010 --> 01:05:48,678 in a way that we haven't been able to 1803 01:05:48,678 --> 01:05:52,148 and see a little bit more of the raw parts of who we are. 1804 01:05:52,148 --> 01:05:53,349 We don't have to wait. 1805 01:05:53,349 --> 01:05:54,384 - Oh. 1806 01:05:54,384 --> 01:05:55,819 ♪ 1807 01:05:55,819 --> 01:05:57,153 - I feel like Charity's my person. 1808 01:05:57,153 --> 01:05:58,621 It feels like the world is trying to tell me 1809 01:05:58,621 --> 01:06:00,023 Charity's my person. 1810 01:06:00,023 --> 01:06:03,159 And I have no reason to believe that the world is lying, 1811 01:06:03,159 --> 01:06:04,594 or the universe, or God. 1812 01:06:04,594 --> 01:06:05,595 - Good. [laughs] 1813 01:06:05,595 --> 01:06:06,596 - [growls] 1814 01:06:06,596 --> 01:06:07,831 - That was great. 1815 01:06:07,831 --> 01:06:10,400 - I'm smitten and in love with Charity. 1816 01:06:10,400 --> 01:06:11,868 - God, now I'm just gonna show up to dinner 1817 01:06:11,868 --> 01:06:12,902 with no lipstick on. 1818 01:06:12,902 --> 01:06:14,504 Okay. - [laughs] I'm sorry. 1819 01:06:14,504 --> 01:06:17,207 But as things continue to be fairy tale-like, 1820 01:06:17,207 --> 01:06:19,075 that puts me at a big risk now. 1821 01:06:19,075 --> 01:06:21,311 - Okay. - Oh, they went off today. 1822 01:06:21,311 --> 01:06:22,512 - [laughs] 1823 01:06:22,512 --> 01:06:24,481 - I think I feel the love on her end, 1824 01:06:24,481 --> 01:06:27,283 but I haven't heard those magical words from her. 1825 01:06:27,283 --> 01:06:29,219 And that makes me feel a little nervous. 1826 01:06:29,219 --> 01:06:30,887 So at the end of the day, 1827 01:06:30,887 --> 01:06:32,822 my heart is still very much on the line. 1828 01:06:32,822 --> 01:06:34,123 - You look so cute. 1829 01:06:34,123 --> 01:06:35,492 - I've just been trying to keep up with you. 1830 01:06:35,492 --> 01:06:36,493 - You're doing great. 1831 01:06:36,493 --> 01:06:37,527 [both laughing] 1832 01:06:37,527 --> 01:06:38,528 - Thank you. 1833 01:06:38,528 --> 01:06:39,596 - You're doing a great job. 1834 01:06:39,596 --> 01:06:41,464 How are you feeling after today? 1835 01:06:41,464 --> 01:06:42,465 - Um, I feel great. 1836 01:06:42,465 --> 01:06:43,666 - Good. - I feel amazing. 1837 01:06:43,666 --> 01:06:44,968 I feel at peace. - Good. 1838 01:06:44,968 --> 01:06:47,070 - I feel at home. Today was awesome. 1839 01:06:47,070 --> 01:06:48,471 - I know. - And it's like, we keep 1840 01:06:48,471 --> 01:06:51,407 talking about this fairy tale, you know, story 1841 01:06:51,407 --> 01:06:53,843 that we're having, which is so crazy. 1842 01:06:53,843 --> 01:06:56,846 Like, I just never felt like fairy tales were meant for me. 1843 01:06:56,846 --> 01:06:57,847 - Aw. 1844 01:06:57,847 --> 01:06:59,115 - But here I am. 1845 01:06:59,115 --> 01:07:01,251 And you've let me embrace that. 1846 01:07:01,251 --> 01:07:03,686 And it makes me think that, you know, fairy tales can be 1847 01:07:03,686 --> 01:07:05,355 there for anybody, you know? 1848 01:07:05,355 --> 01:07:07,490 And I feel so lucky and special about that. 1849 01:07:07,490 --> 01:07:10,260 So cheers to you for being my fairy tale story. 1850 01:07:10,260 --> 01:07:11,995 - Oh, stop. Now I'm gonna cry. 1851 01:07:11,995 --> 01:07:13,363 It's too early. - Cheers. 1852 01:07:13,363 --> 01:07:14,564 - Cheers. 1853 01:07:14,564 --> 01:07:16,099 - That was so, so beautiful. 1854 01:07:16,099 --> 01:07:19,402 To hear Dotun feels that our relationship is a fairy tale 1855 01:07:19,402 --> 01:07:23,606 and he doesn't deserve it, but our love is one for him-- 1856 01:07:23,606 --> 01:07:25,942 it's huge to hear that. 1857 01:07:25,942 --> 01:07:27,410 I mean, I've talked to you about it, 1858 01:07:27,410 --> 01:07:30,880 just my past relationships and my fears. 1859 01:07:30,880 --> 01:07:37,053 And just, I never had just, like, ease or just effortless. 1860 01:07:37,053 --> 01:07:39,522 And honestly, like, my relationships was, like, 1861 01:07:39,522 --> 01:07:41,925 the root and stem point for me. 1862 01:07:41,925 --> 01:07:43,493 Like, getting to a point where 1863 01:07:43,493 --> 01:07:45,094 I was, like, developing anxiety. 1864 01:07:45,094 --> 01:07:46,996 And like, that was awful. 1865 01:07:46,996 --> 01:07:49,666 And like, do you have any fears 1866 01:07:49,666 --> 01:07:53,269 or, like, just fears in relationships in general? 1867 01:07:53,269 --> 01:07:55,505 - Not that I've tried to stop thinking about fears 1868 01:07:55,505 --> 01:07:57,206 because I feel like my mind can run away with that. 1869 01:07:57,206 --> 01:07:58,441 - Yeah, yeah, yeah. 1870 01:07:58,441 --> 01:07:59,776 - If something comes up that is fearful, 1871 01:07:59,776 --> 01:08:01,811 then I would make note of that. 1872 01:08:01,811 --> 01:08:03,346 But nothing has come up yet. - Yeah. 1873 01:08:03,346 --> 01:08:04,480 - So to me, that's a good sign. 1874 01:08:04,480 --> 01:08:05,748 - Right, right. 1875 01:08:05,748 --> 01:08:08,117 - Like, I've thought about life after this. 1876 01:08:08,117 --> 01:08:09,252 Like, it's not something that's new to me. 1877 01:08:09,252 --> 01:08:10,587 I didn't start about it this week. 1878 01:08:10,587 --> 01:08:12,121 - Right, yeah. 1879 01:08:12,121 --> 01:08:13,556 - I'm sure, again, it's gonna take some sacrifices 1880 01:08:13,556 --> 01:08:14,857 here and there. - Yeah. 1881 01:08:14,857 --> 01:08:16,159 Let me just be real for a moment, 1882 01:08:16,159 --> 01:08:17,794 but I think the reality is, like, there is noth-- 1883 01:08:17,794 --> 01:08:19,228 like, it's so crazy. 1884 01:08:19,228 --> 01:08:20,229 Like, nothing is scary. 1885 01:08:20,229 --> 01:08:22,332 Nothing feels wrong. - Yeah. 1886 01:08:22,332 --> 01:08:23,566 And I think that's kind of 1887 01:08:23,566 --> 01:08:25,468 what is so crazy about it, right? 1888 01:08:25,468 --> 01:08:26,669 - Mm-hmm. 1889 01:08:26,669 --> 01:08:29,172 - You know, going back to New Orleans, 1890 01:08:29,172 --> 01:08:30,873 I expressed my feelings for you, 1891 01:08:30,873 --> 01:08:32,275 that I was falling for you... - Mm-hmm. 1892 01:08:32,275 --> 01:08:33,943 - And I sat with it. - Mm-hmm. 1893 01:08:33,943 --> 01:08:35,945 - And that feeling only grew more and more 1894 01:08:35,945 --> 01:08:37,413 each and every day. - Oh. 1895 01:08:37,413 --> 01:08:38,414 - I know, it's crazy. 1896 01:08:38,414 --> 01:08:39,682 [laughs] - Hella. [laughs] 1897 01:08:39,682 --> 01:08:42,418 - And so, you know, I always talk about 1898 01:08:42,418 --> 01:08:43,519 my brain and my heart. 1899 01:08:43,519 --> 01:08:44,887 And you know, my heart's run away. 1900 01:08:44,887 --> 01:08:46,189 And I think my brain is that part 1901 01:08:46,189 --> 01:08:47,924 that is making sure that, 1902 01:08:47,924 --> 01:08:49,659 oh, afterwards, like, what's going on? 1903 01:08:49,659 --> 01:08:50,793 Is everything gonna be okay? 1904 01:08:50,793 --> 01:08:52,395 And I can tell you that it's in line 1905 01:08:52,395 --> 01:08:54,030 with where the heart is now at this point. 1906 01:08:54,030 --> 01:08:56,165 - Mm-hmm. - And yeah. 1907 01:08:56,165 --> 01:08:59,602 You know, the scary part is that I'm not scared. 1908 01:08:59,602 --> 01:09:02,071 The way that I care for you, the way that I feel about you 1909 01:09:02,071 --> 01:09:04,607 when I see you, like, holding you, all these things 1910 01:09:04,607 --> 01:09:06,309 are such a clear sign to me. 1911 01:09:06,309 --> 01:09:07,543 ♪ 1912 01:09:07,543 --> 01:09:12,715 Uh, it's scary how easy it is to say 1913 01:09:12,715 --> 01:09:15,818 that I'm genuinely in love with you, Charity. 1914 01:09:15,818 --> 01:09:16,819 - Oh, my goodness. 1915 01:09:16,819 --> 01:09:18,087 - And yeah. 1916 01:09:18,087 --> 01:09:20,423 It's scary how easy that is for me to say. 1917 01:09:20,423 --> 01:09:22,558 - I'm so sorry, but like, I'm sitting here. 1918 01:09:22,558 --> 01:09:25,161 I'm like, mm, because the exact same thing 1919 01:09:25,161 --> 01:09:29,666 you just expressed, like, 100% is where my heart was at. 1920 01:09:29,666 --> 01:09:33,436 I am 100%, like, in love with you. 1921 01:09:33,436 --> 01:09:35,672 And being able to say, like, I love you, 1922 01:09:35,672 --> 01:09:37,507 like, that is where I'm at. 1923 01:09:37,507 --> 01:09:40,043 And I don't want to hold that in. 1924 01:09:40,043 --> 01:09:41,210 And I'm not going to hold it in anymore. 1925 01:09:41,210 --> 01:09:42,311 - Don't hold it in. 1926 01:09:42,311 --> 01:09:43,813 - And it feels so freaking good to say. 1927 01:09:43,813 --> 01:09:44,814 - Same, same. 1928 01:09:44,814 --> 01:09:47,250 I'm totally in love. 1929 01:09:47,250 --> 01:09:48,885 - Aw, you make me happy. 1930 01:09:48,885 --> 01:09:50,453 Come here. - Of course. 1931 01:09:50,453 --> 01:09:53,456 [soft music] 1932 01:09:53,456 --> 01:09:58,361 ♪ 1933 01:09:58,361 --> 01:10:00,363 I feel so good, 1934 01:10:00,363 --> 01:10:02,198 better than I can imagine right now 1935 01:10:02,198 --> 01:10:05,668 because not only did I tell Dotun tonight that I love him, 1936 01:10:05,668 --> 01:10:09,605 but he is also feeling the exact same way. 1937 01:10:09,605 --> 01:10:10,606 - I'm free. 1938 01:10:10,606 --> 01:10:12,408 - I know! [laughs] 1939 01:10:12,408 --> 01:10:14,043 It's so good. 1940 01:10:14,043 --> 01:10:16,579 Being in love with Dotun feels good. 1941 01:10:16,579 --> 01:10:17,880 [laughs] 1942 01:10:17,880 --> 01:10:19,916 ♪ 1943 01:10:19,916 --> 01:10:22,251 Like, it's indescribable. 1944 01:10:22,251 --> 01:10:24,153 You got me hot and steamy. [laughs] 1945 01:10:24,153 --> 01:10:27,223 - You're telling me. [sighs] - Mm. 1946 01:10:27,223 --> 01:10:30,226 - It feels very freeing, like a weight off the shoulders, 1947 01:10:30,226 --> 01:10:32,929 and now I can just move forward. 1948 01:10:32,929 --> 01:10:34,263 - Truly. - Yeah. 1949 01:10:34,263 --> 01:10:35,631 The engine's choo-chooing. - Yeah. 1950 01:10:35,631 --> 01:10:37,266 [laughter] 1951 01:10:37,266 --> 01:10:38,801 - Do you mind opening this? 1952 01:10:38,801 --> 01:10:39,836 - Of course. - Okay. 1953 01:10:39,836 --> 01:10:40,937 - I'll be happy to. 1954 01:10:40,937 --> 01:10:42,839 - And could you read it out loud? 1955 01:10:42,839 --> 01:10:44,240 - Okay. 1956 01:10:44,240 --> 01:10:46,809 "Charity and Dotun, what a wonderful day together." 1957 01:10:46,809 --> 01:10:48,211 Facts. - [laughs] 1958 01:10:48,211 --> 01:10:50,546 - "Exploring the turquoise seas of Fiji. 1959 01:10:50,546 --> 01:10:54,016 "I hope this adventure helped you grow closer as a couple. 1960 01:10:54,016 --> 01:10:56,619 "Should you choose to forgo your individual rooms, 1961 01:10:56,619 --> 01:11:00,957 "please use this key to stay as a couple in the Fantasy Suite. 1962 01:11:00,957 --> 01:11:02,191 Jesse." 1963 01:11:02,191 --> 01:11:05,061 - Well, what do you say? 1964 01:11:05,061 --> 01:11:07,196 - I say 100% yes. - Okay. 1965 01:11:07,196 --> 01:11:08,598 - This night and hopefully every night 1966 01:11:08,598 --> 01:11:09,599 for the rest of our lives. 1967 01:11:09,599 --> 01:11:11,434 - Oh, how beautiful. Kay. 1968 01:11:11,434 --> 01:11:12,435 - Let's do it. 1969 01:11:12,435 --> 01:11:15,838 ♪ 1970 01:11:15,838 --> 01:11:20,409 It's nice to be in love again and to feel loved. 1971 01:11:20,409 --> 01:11:22,478 Like, okay, I can finally breathe. 1972 01:11:22,478 --> 01:11:24,380 [sighs] 1973 01:11:24,380 --> 01:11:26,949 Everything that it took to get here 1974 01:11:26,949 --> 01:11:28,417 and the ups and downs and the doubts 1975 01:11:28,417 --> 01:11:31,454 have all been so, so worth it. 1976 01:11:31,454 --> 01:11:33,289 - All right. Hey. 1977 01:11:33,289 --> 01:11:35,158 - Oh, this is fire. - Is it not? 1978 01:11:35,158 --> 01:11:37,326 - I really do think love is the most powerful thing, 1979 01:11:37,326 --> 01:11:41,364 and to have that right here in this moment with Charity-- 1980 01:11:41,364 --> 01:11:43,232 I don't know, it's hard to stop smiling. 1981 01:11:43,232 --> 01:11:44,834 This is fire. - This is actually insane. 1982 01:11:44,834 --> 01:11:46,469 No kidding. - It's crazy. 1983 01:11:46,469 --> 01:11:48,271 Love is the greatest story ever told. 1984 01:11:48,271 --> 01:11:50,072 And I'm living my story right now. 1985 01:11:50,072 --> 01:11:52,275 - Come here. - [sighs] 1986 01:11:52,275 --> 01:11:55,278 [sweeping music] 1987 01:11:55,278 --> 01:11:57,213 ♪ 1988 01:11:57,213 --> 01:11:58,548 - It's like watching your favorite 1989 01:11:58,548 --> 01:12:00,683 prince and princess, like, fall in love. 1990 01:12:00,683 --> 01:12:03,152 Like, that is what this is. 1991 01:12:03,152 --> 01:12:08,758 ♪ 1992 01:12:08,758 --> 01:12:10,059 I don't even want to say fairy tale. 1993 01:12:10,059 --> 01:12:11,394 It's not a fairy-- like, this is real life. 1994 01:12:11,394 --> 01:12:12,795 It's happening. 1995 01:12:12,795 --> 01:12:15,364 It feels like we're free as two birdies 1996 01:12:15,364 --> 01:12:19,168 that are in love and flying. 1997 01:12:19,168 --> 01:12:20,870 Okay. 1998 01:12:20,870 --> 01:12:22,071 Goodbye, everybody. 1999 01:12:22,071 --> 01:12:24,707 Flapping our wings. 2000 01:12:24,707 --> 01:12:26,676 Goodbye. 2001 01:12:26,676 --> 01:12:27,677 ♪ 2002 01:12:27,677 --> 01:12:28,678 Come here. 2003 01:12:28,678 --> 01:12:30,513 [laughing] 2004 01:12:33,015 --> 01:12:34,684 [birds chirping] 2005 01:12:34,684 --> 01:12:37,453 [soft music] 2006 01:12:37,453 --> 01:12:40,489 ♪ 2007 01:12:40,489 --> 01:12:43,426 - How can we top a day like yesterday 2008 01:12:43,426 --> 01:12:45,561 and a night like last night? 2009 01:12:45,561 --> 01:12:46,596 ♪ 2010 01:12:46,596 --> 01:12:47,597 - Keep doing it. 2011 01:12:47,597 --> 01:12:48,965 - Mm, somehow. 2012 01:12:48,965 --> 01:12:51,067 - Somehow. - Somehow. 2013 01:12:51,067 --> 01:12:53,703 Waking up this morning next to Dotun 2014 01:12:53,703 --> 01:12:55,171 just feels so good. 2015 01:12:58,040 --> 01:12:59,575 - [laughs] 2016 01:12:59,575 --> 01:13:03,012 I feel like I could have not asked for a better night. 2017 01:13:03,012 --> 01:13:04,380 I'm really happy. 2018 01:13:04,380 --> 01:13:05,982 - Happy as hell. 2019 01:13:05,982 --> 01:13:06,983 - What an understatement. 2020 01:13:06,983 --> 01:13:08,217 - Yeah. 2021 01:13:08,217 --> 01:13:09,518 It's the understatement of the century. 2022 01:13:09,518 --> 01:13:10,553 - [laughs] - Yeah. 2023 01:13:10,553 --> 01:13:13,089 - Dotun has me on cloud nine. 2024 01:13:13,089 --> 01:13:15,091 Somehow, every time we're together, 2025 01:13:15,091 --> 01:13:18,928 it just constantly exceeds my expectations. 2026 01:13:18,928 --> 01:13:19,929 Truly. 2027 01:13:19,929 --> 01:13:22,832 [laughs] Truly. 2028 01:13:22,832 --> 01:13:23,833 - I'm a happy boy. 2029 01:13:23,833 --> 01:13:24,867 - Mm-hmm. 2030 01:13:24,867 --> 01:13:25,968 - And I feel great. 2031 01:13:25,968 --> 01:13:27,270 - Mm-hmm. 2032 01:13:27,270 --> 01:13:29,071 Even though it's, like, great waking up, 2033 01:13:29,071 --> 01:13:31,440 this is, like, the hard part. 2034 01:13:31,440 --> 01:13:33,709 - Yeah. 2035 01:13:33,709 --> 01:13:35,845 I'm so over these goodbyes. 2036 01:13:35,845 --> 01:13:37,813 ♪ 2037 01:13:37,813 --> 01:13:39,749 At this point, I'm just ready to move on 2038 01:13:39,749 --> 01:13:42,618 and hopefully have a life with her. 2039 01:13:42,618 --> 01:13:45,721 But I'm aware that there are other men still here. 2040 01:13:45,721 --> 01:13:46,722 - Okay. 2041 01:13:46,722 --> 01:13:48,424 - [sighs] 2042 01:13:48,424 --> 01:13:49,692 - This is not normal at all. 2043 01:13:49,692 --> 01:13:51,827 - I know. 2044 01:13:51,827 --> 01:13:53,796 I respect her decision to make sure 2045 01:13:53,796 --> 01:13:56,866 all options are exhausted. 2046 01:13:56,866 --> 01:13:59,669 - [sighs] Love you. 2047 01:13:59,669 --> 01:14:02,672 - But it--it doesn't feel good. 2048 01:14:02,672 --> 01:14:05,374 If I don't get what I want at the end of this, 2049 01:14:05,374 --> 01:14:06,742 which is Charity, 2050 01:14:06,742 --> 01:14:08,244 just knowing how I feel about her now, 2051 01:14:08,244 --> 01:14:09,578 how strong I feel about her, 2052 01:14:09,578 --> 01:14:12,348 how much I want a future with her, 2053 01:14:12,348 --> 01:14:14,717 I will be heartbroken, for real. 2054 01:14:14,717 --> 01:14:18,154 ♪ 2055 01:14:18,154 --> 01:14:21,390 [thunder rumbling] 2056 01:14:21,390 --> 01:14:24,393 [tense music] 2057 01:14:24,393 --> 01:14:27,897 ♪ 2058 01:14:27,897 --> 01:14:30,433 - So I'm in Fiji right now. 2059 01:14:30,433 --> 01:14:31,634 I'm very excited to see Charity. 2060 01:14:31,634 --> 01:14:34,170 I'm ready to see her yesterday. 2061 01:14:34,170 --> 01:14:36,939 You know, after sending me home last week, 2062 01:14:36,939 --> 01:14:38,207 the fact that she said that 2063 01:14:38,207 --> 01:14:40,042 she didn't know if it was the right decision 2064 01:14:40,042 --> 01:14:41,310 really kind of threw me off. 2065 01:14:41,310 --> 01:14:43,946 So I'm here to do everything I can, 2066 01:14:43,946 --> 01:14:45,348 lay everything out there, 2067 01:14:45,348 --> 01:14:47,683 just making sure that nothing's left unsaid. 2068 01:14:47,683 --> 01:14:50,720 [dramatic music] 2069 01:14:50,720 --> 01:14:53,055 ♪ 2070 01:14:53,055 --> 01:14:55,224 - Bula. 2071 01:14:55,224 --> 01:14:57,693 I'm just lost around here. 2072 01:14:57,693 --> 01:14:59,528 Do you know where Charity's at? 2073 01:15:01,998 --> 01:15:03,599 - No, I don't. 2074 01:15:03,599 --> 01:15:04,800 Ah. 2075 01:15:06,635 --> 01:15:07,636 - That's okay. 2076 01:15:07,636 --> 01:15:09,972 No worries. Thank you. 2077 01:15:09,972 --> 01:15:12,274 I gotta figure it out. 2078 01:15:12,274 --> 01:15:14,543 ♪ 2079 01:15:14,543 --> 01:15:17,213 I'm really putting myself out here right now. 2080 01:15:17,213 --> 01:15:18,414 This is such a risk. 2081 01:15:18,414 --> 01:15:19,715 I mean, I flew halfway across the world 2082 01:15:19,715 --> 01:15:21,017 to see Charity. 2083 01:15:21,017 --> 01:15:25,688 She has no idea that I'm here in Fiji. 2084 01:15:25,688 --> 01:15:27,790 I told Charity I was falling in love with her, 2085 01:15:27,790 --> 01:15:30,893 and that's something you just don't throw away, either. 2086 01:15:30,893 --> 01:15:33,529 Falling in love is still right there. 2087 01:15:33,529 --> 01:15:36,065 I need more time with her. 2088 01:15:36,065 --> 01:15:38,100 - [laughing] 2089 01:15:38,100 --> 01:15:40,669 - I feel very deeply for Charity. 2090 01:15:40,669 --> 01:15:42,104 That's why I'm here to talk to her. 2091 01:15:42,104 --> 01:15:44,673 I'm here to explore where her head's at. 2092 01:15:44,673 --> 01:15:49,745 And now I hope today Charity just accepts me back 2093 01:15:49,745 --> 01:15:51,847 and also gives me a chance to just 2094 01:15:51,847 --> 01:15:53,382 show her the man I truly am. 2095 01:15:53,382 --> 01:16:00,289 ♪ 2096 01:16:00,289 --> 01:16:01,323 Hey, Charity. 2097 01:16:01,323 --> 01:16:02,525 ♪ 2098 01:16:02,525 --> 01:16:04,193 Can I talk to you for a second? 2099 01:16:05,361 --> 01:16:06,462 - Oh, my God. 2100 01:16:06,462 --> 01:16:08,798 - [laughs] 2101 01:16:08,798 --> 01:16:10,066 - Hi. - Hi. 2102 01:16:10,066 --> 01:16:11,934 How are you? - I'm good. 2103 01:16:11,934 --> 01:16:13,502 How are you? - I'm good. 2104 01:16:13,502 --> 01:16:14,837 Hey-- - Wait, let me get up. 2105 01:16:14,837 --> 01:16:16,238 Wait. Hi. 2106 01:16:16,238 --> 01:16:17,940 - I know. - Hi. 2107 01:16:17,940 --> 01:16:19,708 - Hey, look, I know I caught you on a whim. 2108 01:16:19,708 --> 01:16:20,843 - Uh-huh. 2109 01:16:20,843 --> 01:16:22,211 Wait. You look so good. - Thank you. 2110 01:16:22,211 --> 01:16:23,946 No, you do too. I love your fit. 2111 01:16:23,946 --> 01:16:25,181 I know I caught you on a whim. 2112 01:16:25,181 --> 01:16:26,315 If you need to take a second, that's cool. 2113 01:16:26,315 --> 01:16:27,349 - Okay. - My heart's pounding too. 2114 01:16:27,349 --> 01:16:28,951 - No, same. - Yeah. [laughs] 2115 01:16:28,951 --> 01:16:30,286 - What's going on? 2116 01:16:30,286 --> 01:16:32,154 - I mean, I don't know what's happening. 2117 01:16:32,154 --> 01:16:33,656 I can't believe my eyes, 2118 01:16:33,656 --> 01:16:37,059 because he's not supposed to be here. 2119 01:16:37,059 --> 01:16:39,962 Um, I said goodbye to Aaron last week. 2120 01:16:39,962 --> 01:16:41,363 But he's here in flesh. 2121 01:16:41,363 --> 01:16:44,467 And...am I mad about it? 2122 01:16:44,467 --> 01:16:45,701 No. 2123 01:16:45,701 --> 01:16:48,304 Like, I'm excited to see him. 2124 01:16:48,304 --> 01:16:50,005 - Yeah, but take as much time as you need, okay? 2125 01:16:50,005 --> 01:16:51,006 - Okay. - Yeah. 2126 01:16:51,006 --> 01:16:52,007 - Okay. - All right. 2127 01:16:52,007 --> 01:16:53,008 - All right. Thank you. 2128 01:16:53,008 --> 01:16:54,243 - Uh-huh. [laughs] 2129 01:16:54,243 --> 01:16:55,845 - Um, okay. 2130 01:16:55,845 --> 01:16:57,847 I'm just trying to make sense of this. 2131 01:16:57,847 --> 01:17:00,616 But it's just like, like, I don't know what's happening. 2132 01:17:02,618 --> 01:17:05,621 [soft music] 2133 01:17:05,621 --> 01:17:07,857 ♪ 2134 01:17:07,857 --> 01:17:09,525 - How was that for a surprise? 2135 01:17:09,525 --> 01:17:11,894 - Oh, uh, talk about a surprise. 2136 01:17:11,894 --> 01:17:12,895 - Yeah. 2137 01:17:12,895 --> 01:17:14,096 No, we can sit for a second. 2138 01:17:14,096 --> 01:17:15,898 - Okay. - Um... 2139 01:17:15,898 --> 01:17:17,099 whew. 2140 01:17:17,099 --> 01:17:19,068 - Aaron came back, and I'm happy, 2141 01:17:19,068 --> 01:17:21,770 but there's other--there's other emotions going on. 2142 01:17:21,770 --> 01:17:24,473 I'm overwhelmed, 100%. 2143 01:17:24,473 --> 01:17:26,275 I mean, this is not a short flight. 2144 01:17:26,275 --> 01:17:27,943 This isn't across the street. 2145 01:17:27,943 --> 01:17:29,311 You're, like, here. Yeah. 2146 01:17:29,311 --> 01:17:30,713 - Yeah. - In the flesh. 2147 01:17:30,713 --> 01:17:31,714 - Yeah. - Okay. 2148 01:17:31,714 --> 01:17:33,082 - 100% - I'm shaking. 2149 01:17:33,082 --> 01:17:35,784 - [laughs] 2150 01:17:35,784 --> 01:17:37,286 [sighs] - Oh, no. 2151 01:17:37,286 --> 01:17:38,587 - You remember how it went last week? 2152 01:17:38,587 --> 01:17:39,655 I was kind of shook. 2153 01:17:39,655 --> 01:17:41,157 I didn't really know what to say. 2154 01:17:41,157 --> 01:17:43,225 - Mm-hmm. - And it wasn't 2155 01:17:43,225 --> 01:17:46,996 until the van door was closed where I was just like-- 2156 01:17:46,996 --> 01:17:48,097 like, this is real? 2157 01:17:48,097 --> 01:17:49,298 Like, no gimmicks? Like, I'm gone? 2158 01:17:49,298 --> 01:17:51,300 Like, our relationship is over? - Mm-hmm. 2159 01:17:51,300 --> 01:17:54,770 - And that's probably the hardest emotion 2160 01:17:54,770 --> 01:17:58,307 I've had to ever sit with. - Mm-hmm. 2161 01:17:58,307 --> 01:18:01,043 - You know, even driving back to San Diego, 2162 01:18:01,043 --> 01:18:03,946 I knew that there was more I could have given. 2163 01:18:03,946 --> 01:18:06,916 And then when you said also you wasn't sure 2164 01:18:06,916 --> 01:18:09,752 if you were making the right decision, 2165 01:18:09,752 --> 01:18:13,055 that's really what got me stuck and in shock. 2166 01:18:13,055 --> 01:18:15,958 So I mean, that's really why I'm here, to talk about that, 2167 01:18:15,958 --> 01:18:17,860 and also see where your head's at. 2168 01:18:17,860 --> 01:18:20,229 I want to know if you've been thinking about it as well. 2169 01:18:20,229 --> 01:18:22,064 - Mm-hmm. 2170 01:18:22,064 --> 01:18:24,233 Um... 2171 01:18:24,233 --> 01:18:29,305 I 100%, like, understand where you were at. 2172 01:18:29,305 --> 01:18:31,073 Um... 2173 01:18:31,073 --> 01:18:33,075 I--I've been there. 2174 01:18:33,075 --> 01:18:34,376 - Yeah, yeah. 2175 01:18:34,376 --> 01:18:36,111 - And...[sighs] 2176 01:18:36,111 --> 01:18:37,746 I will be very honest. 2177 01:18:37,746 --> 01:18:39,715 Uh... 2178 01:18:39,715 --> 01:18:42,084 I'm, like, shaking. 2179 01:18:42,084 --> 01:18:43,919 I, um... 2180 01:18:43,919 --> 01:18:47,389 ♪ 2181 01:18:47,389 --> 01:18:50,626 Yeah, um, I have been-- 2182 01:18:50,626 --> 01:18:54,697 I've been thinking about it every single day, 2183 01:18:54,697 --> 01:18:57,499 our relationship, and obviously, what it meant 2184 01:18:57,499 --> 01:19:01,470 and to make sense of, like, saying goodbye. 2185 01:19:01,470 --> 01:19:03,939 That--that does still stand of, like, I don't know 2186 01:19:03,939 --> 01:19:05,774 if I made the right choice. 2187 01:19:05,774 --> 01:19:12,548 And that hurts me, because our relationship 2188 01:19:12,548 --> 01:19:17,486 was something that was so good and so powerful. 2189 01:19:17,486 --> 01:19:19,488 And I was, like, falling in love. 2190 01:19:19,488 --> 01:19:22,758 Um... 2191 01:19:22,758 --> 01:19:24,960 and that's something, like, I hadn't verbalized to you. 2192 01:19:24,960 --> 01:19:28,063 Like, truthfully, falling in love, 2193 01:19:28,063 --> 01:19:31,133 um, and still care so much about you. 2194 01:19:31,133 --> 01:19:32,701 - Wow. - Yeah. 2195 01:19:32,701 --> 01:19:34,737 I don't know if that's gonna make anything better, 2196 01:19:34,737 --> 01:19:36,639 but I think you deserve to know that. 2197 01:19:36,639 --> 01:19:38,907 Like, and yeah, leaving that night, 2198 01:19:38,907 --> 01:19:40,376 I--it--every morning, 2199 01:19:40,376 --> 01:19:42,211 I woke up, and I was like, I don't know. 2200 01:19:42,211 --> 01:19:44,713 Like, it was in, like, the pit of my stomach 2201 01:19:44,713 --> 01:19:46,915 of, did I make the right choice? 2202 01:19:46,915 --> 01:19:48,017 And... 2203 01:19:48,017 --> 01:19:51,520 ♪ 2204 01:19:51,520 --> 01:19:53,822 I don't know. 2205 01:19:53,822 --> 01:19:56,792 - I am very happy to hear you say that 2206 01:19:56,792 --> 01:19:59,695 you were falling in love, or you are. 2207 01:19:59,695 --> 01:20:01,597 I still feel the same way. 2208 01:20:01,597 --> 01:20:06,769 And I'm just glad that time did provide clarity, 2209 01:20:06,769 --> 01:20:08,737 because I know exactly where I want to be. 2210 01:20:08,737 --> 01:20:10,506 And I'm just glad to be sitting here, honestly. 2211 01:20:10,506 --> 01:20:11,640 Like... - I'm so glad. 2212 01:20:11,640 --> 01:20:13,075 - I knew when I saw you, I'd feel-- 2213 01:20:13,075 --> 01:20:14,143 - Yeah. 2214 01:20:14,143 --> 01:20:15,577 - I mean, I'm-- 2215 01:20:15,577 --> 01:20:16,845 like, literally, I don't know how long that flight was. 2216 01:20:16,845 --> 01:20:18,380 - I know! I'm like, you're here. 2217 01:20:18,380 --> 01:20:19,715 Like, I can't believe it. 2218 01:20:19,715 --> 01:20:21,016 - [laughs] 2219 01:20:21,016 --> 01:20:22,685 - Can I just, like, step away for a sec? 2220 01:20:22,685 --> 01:20:23,886 - Yeah, that's okay. - Yeah. 2221 01:20:23,886 --> 01:20:24,887 I'll be right back. - Yeah. 2222 01:20:24,887 --> 01:20:26,088 ♪ 2223 01:20:26,088 --> 01:20:27,222 Take as much time as you need. 2224 01:20:27,222 --> 01:20:28,590 I'll be by the beach, okay? - Okay. 2225 01:20:28,590 --> 01:20:29,692 - Yeah. 2226 01:20:29,692 --> 01:20:31,593 All right. 2227 01:20:31,593 --> 01:20:33,429 - How am I feeling? 2228 01:20:33,429 --> 01:20:34,697 I can't believe my-- 2229 01:20:34,697 --> 01:20:36,498 I can't believe what's happening. 2230 01:20:36,498 --> 01:20:38,734 I don't know, like, seeing Aaron in flesh 2231 01:20:38,734 --> 01:20:40,235 literally took me back to the Rose Ceremony. 2232 01:20:40,235 --> 01:20:42,504 I'm like, I literally was losing my mind 2233 01:20:42,504 --> 01:20:44,340 because I did not want to say goodbye to this man. 2234 01:20:44,340 --> 01:20:46,475 It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. 2235 01:20:46,475 --> 01:20:48,243 But like, I did send him home. 2236 01:20:48,243 --> 01:20:49,244 And I was like, all right. 2237 01:20:49,244 --> 01:20:50,446 I'm gonna live with that. 2238 01:20:50,446 --> 01:20:51,780 I'm gonna live with that forever. 2239 01:20:51,780 --> 01:20:53,449 But I just told him right now 2240 01:20:53,449 --> 01:20:55,484 that I was falling in love with him, 2241 01:20:55,484 --> 01:20:56,719 or am--I don't know. 2242 01:20:56,719 --> 01:20:57,720 Am? 2243 01:20:57,720 --> 01:20:59,855 He's not here anymore, so-- 2244 01:20:59,855 --> 01:21:01,290 but he's here now. 2245 01:21:01,290 --> 01:21:02,291 ♪ 2246 01:21:02,291 --> 01:21:03,392 What do I say? 2247 01:21:03,392 --> 01:21:04,860 Like, I still care for him. 2248 01:21:04,860 --> 01:21:06,562 Like, you cannot shut off, 2249 01:21:06,562 --> 01:21:08,063 like, how you feel about someone, 2250 01:21:08,063 --> 01:21:11,266 whether that's two days go by, a week. 2251 01:21:11,266 --> 01:21:15,637 But the reality is that it is not just me and Aaron. 2252 01:21:15,637 --> 01:21:17,906 I'm in love with Joey 2253 01:21:17,906 --> 01:21:21,543 and very much in love with Dotun as well. 2254 01:21:21,543 --> 01:21:24,046 It's already a crazy concept that I'm feeling that way 2255 01:21:24,046 --> 01:21:25,347 about several people. 2256 01:21:25,347 --> 01:21:27,349 But now, like, with Aaron, like, he is so st-- 2257 01:21:27,349 --> 01:21:28,617 he's a strong connection. 2258 01:21:28,617 --> 01:21:32,287 And I'm just like, what are we gonna do? 2259 01:21:32,287 --> 01:21:34,189 I like, just-- I actually don't know. 2260 01:21:34,189 --> 01:21:35,691 Again, this is like-- 2261 01:21:35,691 --> 01:21:36,892 this is insane. 2262 01:21:36,892 --> 01:21:38,060 It's a lot. 2263 01:21:38,060 --> 01:21:40,262 It's a lot on the line. 2264 01:21:40,262 --> 01:21:41,897 ♪ 2265 01:21:41,897 --> 01:21:43,065 This is not a drill. 2266 01:21:43,065 --> 01:21:45,901 ♪ 2267 01:21:45,901 --> 01:21:47,269 - Next week... 2268 01:21:47,269 --> 01:21:50,172 Welcome to "The Bachelorette," "The Men Tell All." 2269 01:21:50,172 --> 01:21:53,342 All of your favorite men from Charity's season return... 2270 01:21:53,342 --> 01:21:54,510 - If you weren't there 2271 01:21:54,510 --> 01:21:55,978 for an engagement, why were you there? 2272 01:21:55,978 --> 01:21:57,980 - You were ready to marry whoever the Bachelorette was. 2273 01:21:57,980 --> 01:21:59,782 - It should be about Charity's journey to find love, 2274 01:21:59,782 --> 01:22:01,650 and it ended up being about Brayden. 2275 01:22:01,650 --> 01:22:03,819 - And they're ready to tell it like it is. 2276 01:22:03,819 --> 01:22:05,587 - You guys caused all the drama. 2277 01:22:05,587 --> 01:22:06,822 - I'ma look you in your face and let you know. 2278 01:22:06,822 --> 01:22:08,223 - You have no [bleep] personality, dude. 2279 01:22:08,223 --> 01:22:09,224 Shut the [bleep] up. 2280 01:22:09,224 --> 01:22:10,659 [audience gasping] 2281 01:22:10,659 --> 01:22:12,494 - I just wanted to see Charity, not the Bachelorette. 2282 01:22:12,494 --> 01:22:14,630 - I feel like I was my 100% 2283 01:22:14,630 --> 01:22:16,265 authentic self to you the whole time. 2284 01:22:16,265 --> 01:22:18,967 I don't think I ever put on for anybody in this house. 2285 01:22:18,967 --> 01:22:20,903 - I really loved you. 2286 01:22:20,903 --> 01:22:22,905 - Please let me know how the hell 2287 01:22:22,905 --> 01:22:25,073 I'm supposed to, like, take that moving forward. 2288 01:22:25,073 --> 01:22:27,209 [audience gasping] 2289 01:22:27,209 --> 01:22:28,510 - Plus... 2290 01:22:28,510 --> 01:22:29,778 all: Gerry! Gerry! Gerry! 2291 01:22:29,778 --> 01:22:31,947 - Meet the first ever Golden Bachelor. 2292 01:22:31,947 --> 01:22:34,049 You were trending on social media. 2293 01:22:34,049 --> 01:22:35,384 - If I knew what that meant, 2294 01:22:35,384 --> 01:22:38,053 I'm sure I would appreciate it a whole lot more. 2295 01:22:38,053 --> 01:22:39,221 [laughter] 2296 01:22:39,221 --> 01:22:41,089 - Then, in two weeks... 2297 01:22:41,089 --> 01:22:43,292 - I know that I am getting engaged, 2298 01:22:43,292 --> 01:22:47,162 but I don't know who it's going to be. 2299 01:22:47,162 --> 01:22:50,866 - Charity's incredible journey comes to an emotional end. 2300 01:22:50,866 --> 01:22:54,470 - I don't want to leave here and regret my decision. 2301 01:22:54,470 --> 01:22:57,039 - You're gonna have to come down to one person. 2302 01:22:57,039 --> 01:22:59,007 - It's scary to think that Charity 2303 01:22:59,007 --> 01:23:01,076 might not choose you. 2304 01:23:01,076 --> 01:23:02,945 - Like, my brain is, like, clouded. 2305 01:23:02,945 --> 01:23:06,348 - I can't imagine Charity with anybody else but me. 2306 01:23:06,348 --> 01:23:08,417 - There's, like, a small panic in my head. 2307 01:23:08,417 --> 01:23:10,185 I really see her as the mother of my children, 2308 01:23:10,185 --> 01:23:11,220 my future wife. 2309 01:23:22,231 --> 01:23:24,733 - How will her fairy tale love story end? 2310 01:23:24,733 --> 01:23:25,834 - [sobbing] 2311 01:23:25,834 --> 01:23:27,202 For the first time in all this, 2312 01:23:27,202 --> 01:23:28,637 I'm, like, truly not okay. 2313 01:23:28,637 --> 01:23:29,938 [sobbing] 2314 01:23:29,938 --> 01:23:31,340 I don't even want to think about the fact 2315 01:23:31,340 --> 01:23:33,275 that our story ends today. 2316 01:23:33,275 --> 01:23:35,043 I'm gonna have a panic attack. 2317 01:23:35,043 --> 01:23:36,678 You are not supposed to say goodbye 2318 01:23:36,678 --> 01:23:38,680 to somebody that you love. 2319 01:23:38,680 --> 01:23:42,084 - It's all coming up on "The Bachelorette." 2320 01:23:42,084 --> 01:23:44,186 - There's a salamander on top of us. 2321 01:23:44,186 --> 01:23:45,621 - There's two. - This isn't a joke. 2322 01:23:45,621 --> 01:23:46,688 - No, there's not two. There's zero. 2323 01:23:46,688 --> 01:23:48,156 - No, do you see--no. 2324 01:23:48,156 --> 01:23:49,558 Okay. 2325 01:23:49,558 --> 01:23:50,926 Come over here. 2326 01:23:50,926 --> 01:23:51,960 Like, look right there. 2327 01:23:51,960 --> 01:23:53,762 It's a big one! - Oh, I see. 2328 01:23:53,762 --> 01:23:55,297 - And if it falls on this table... 2329 01:23:55,297 --> 01:23:56,532 - The little salamander? 2330 01:23:56,532 --> 01:23:57,733 [both laughing] 2331 01:23:57,733 --> 01:23:58,800 - I'm, like, terrified. 2332 01:23:58,800 --> 01:23:59,868 I'm gonna be paranoid now. 2333 01:23:59,868 --> 01:24:01,069 - Really? 2334 01:24:01,069 --> 01:24:02,371 They're not gonna drop. 2335 01:24:02,371 --> 01:24:03,572 They've been doing this longer than you have. 2336 01:24:03,572 --> 01:24:05,207 - Did I not tell you what my biggest fear is? 2337 01:24:05,207 --> 01:24:06,241 - I thought it was bungee jumping, 2338 01:24:06,241 --> 01:24:07,409 but maybe that's changed. 2339 01:24:07,409 --> 01:24:08,610 - Well, that's like-- yeah, like a... 2340 01:24:08,610 --> 01:24:10,045 - Okay. - Fear of that. 2341 01:24:10,045 --> 01:24:11,780 Different genre, I guess, but... 2342 01:24:11,780 --> 01:24:13,215 - Yeah, hit me. - It's, like, 2343 01:24:13,215 --> 01:24:15,884 anything that crawls--like, anything that's not human. 2344 01:24:15,884 --> 01:24:18,520 - I get you. - Like, this type of stuff. 2345 01:24:18,520 --> 01:24:20,556 Like, spiders. - Yeah. 2346 01:24:20,556 --> 01:24:22,057 - Roaches-- don't get me started. 2347 01:24:22,057 --> 01:24:23,292 - Yeah, yeah. Those are disgusting. 2348 01:24:23,292 --> 01:24:25,627 I'm with you on those, but that one's tiny. 2349 01:24:25,627 --> 01:24:26,828 - No way. Do you see it? 2350 01:24:26,828 --> 01:24:28,063 - I do. I see it. I see it. - Okay. 2351 01:24:28,063 --> 01:24:29,264 Oh, my God. 2352 01:24:29,264 --> 01:24:30,866 - Yeah, they're everywhere on the island. 2353 01:24:30,866 --> 01:24:32,267 I feel like-- - I haven't seen any yet! 2354 01:24:32,267 --> 01:24:34,202 So, like... - [laughs] That's crazy. 2355 01:24:34,202 --> 01:24:36,038 - Have you been seeing 'em? - Hundreds, at least. 2356 01:24:36,038 --> 01:24:38,040 - Okay. - [laughs] 2357 01:24:38,040 --> 01:24:40,075 - I'm, like, freaking out. Oh, my God. 2358 01:24:40,075 --> 01:24:42,110 They're literally everywhere. I'm sorry.