1 00:02:32,120 --> 00:02:33,680 You lost eight pounds. 2 00:02:33,760 --> 00:02:36,090 People would kill to be in the shape you were in. 3 00:02:36,160 --> 00:02:37,790 You were recovering, but you blew it. 4 00:02:37,860 --> 00:02:40,390 This isn't about weight, it's about lungs. 5 00:02:40,450 --> 00:02:42,160 -Pneumonia. -We don't know yet. 6 00:02:42,230 --> 00:02:44,390 The fuck we don't. I know! 7 00:02:44,930 --> 00:02:46,830 You may not, but I can't breathe. 8 00:02:46,900 --> 00:02:49,900 You'd breathe better if you didn't holler like that. 9 00:02:50,740 --> 00:02:53,830 This is my ex-lover's lover's Mormon mother. 10 00:02:55,410 --> 00:02:58,040 Even in New York in the '80s, that is strange. 11 00:02:58,450 --> 00:03:00,420 This is serious, you understand? 12 00:03:00,470 --> 00:03:03,820 Keep breathing, stop moving, and stay put. I'm getting you a room. 13 00:03:11,460 --> 00:03:12,830 I should go. 14 00:03:12,890 --> 00:03:14,390 I saw an angel. 15 00:03:15,460 --> 00:03:18,690 Two weeks ago. I did. I saw her. I did. 16 00:03:19,500 --> 00:03:20,890 I'm not insane. 17 00:03:22,030 --> 00:03:25,300 -I didn't say you-- -I saw an angel. That's insane. 18 00:03:26,980 --> 00:03:30,430 Insane. But I'm not insane. But then why did I do this to myself? 19 00:03:30,950 --> 00:03:35,180 'Cause I have been driven insane by your son and by that lying.... 20 00:03:36,810 --> 00:03:39,570 Because ever since she arrived... 21 00:03:40,190 --> 00:03:45,090 ever since I have been consumed by this ice-cold razor blade... 22 00:03:45,360 --> 00:03:48,800 terror that just shouts and shouts: 23 00:03:49,030 --> 00:03:52,750 "Keep moving, run," and I've run myself into the ground. 24 00:03:54,500 --> 00:03:56,940 Right where she said I would eventually be. 25 00:03:57,000 --> 00:03:59,340 Really, she seems so real. 26 00:04:01,270 --> 00:04:05,290 As real as you. I remember everything. 27 00:04:07,140 --> 00:04:08,440 What's happened to me? 28 00:04:10,040 --> 00:04:11,170 Tell me. 29 00:04:19,890 --> 00:04:21,220 You had a vision. 30 00:04:21,290 --> 00:04:22,550 A vision? 31 00:04:23,320 --> 00:04:25,550 Thank you, Maria Ouspenskaya. 32 00:04:25,660 --> 00:04:29,620 I'm not so far gone I can be assuaged by pity and lies. 33 00:04:30,270 --> 00:04:31,630 I don't have pity. 34 00:04:32,530 --> 00:04:36,240 It's just not something I have. 35 00:04:45,880 --> 00:04:48,070 170 years ago... 36 00:04:49,520 --> 00:04:51,240 which is recent... 37 00:04:51,320 --> 00:04:54,050 an angel of God appeared to Joseph Smith... 38 00:04:54,120 --> 00:04:56,710 in upstate New York, not far from here. 39 00:04:57,960 --> 00:04:59,290 People have visions. 40 00:04:59,360 --> 00:05:00,790 That's preposterous. 41 00:05:00,860 --> 00:05:02,660 It's not polite... 42 00:05:03,560 --> 00:05:06,360 to call other people's beliefs preposterous. 43 00:05:11,000 --> 00:05:14,030 He had great need of understanding, our prophet. 44 00:05:15,640 --> 00:05:17,540 His desire made prayer. 45 00:05:18,650 --> 00:05:21,550 His prayer made an angel. 46 00:05:22,850 --> 00:05:24,580 The angel was real. 47 00:05:25,850 --> 00:05:27,620 -I believe that. -I don't. 48 00:05:28,350 --> 00:05:32,290 I'm sorry, but it's repellant to me, so much of what you believe. 49 00:05:32,630 --> 00:05:33,720 What do I believe? 50 00:05:33,790 --> 00:05:36,630 I'm a homosexual with AlDS. 51 00:05:36,700 --> 00:05:40,150 -I can just imagine what you-- -No, you can't... 52 00:05:41,530 --> 00:05:42,590 imagine... 53 00:05:44,540 --> 00:05:46,400 the things in my head. 54 00:05:47,970 --> 00:05:50,910 You don't make assumptions about me, mister. 55 00:05:52,480 --> 00:05:54,470 And I won't make them about you. 56 00:05:56,950 --> 00:05:58,140 Fair enough. 57 00:05:58,220 --> 00:05:59,710 My son is... 58 00:06:04,920 --> 00:06:07,150 -...Iike you. -Homosexual? 59 00:06:08,860 --> 00:06:11,130 I flew into a rage when he told me. 60 00:06:12,370 --> 00:06:13,830 Mad as hornets. 61 00:06:14,130 --> 00:06:16,620 I assumed at first it was about.... 62 00:06:18,810 --> 00:06:21,370 -Homosexuality? -But that wasn't it. 63 00:06:24,340 --> 00:06:26,370 Homosexuality. 64 00:06:26,450 --> 00:06:30,280 That just seems so ungainly to me. 65 00:06:31,580 --> 00:06:33,110 Two men together. 66 00:06:33,920 --> 00:06:36,820 It's not an appetizing notion. 67 00:06:37,590 --> 00:06:40,920 But then, for me, men in any configuration is.... 68 00:06:42,930 --> 00:06:45,760 They're just so lumpish and... 69 00:06:47,070 --> 00:06:48,160 stupid. 70 00:06:48,500 --> 00:06:50,630 Stupidity gets me crazy. 71 00:06:52,010 --> 00:06:54,500 I wish you'd be more true to your demographic profile. 72 00:06:54,570 --> 00:06:56,570 Life is confusing enough. 73 00:07:06,720 --> 00:07:08,650 You know the Bible. 74 00:07:09,320 --> 00:07:10,550 Reasonably well, yes. 75 00:07:10,620 --> 00:07:14,720 The prophets in the Bible, do they ever refuse their vision? 76 00:07:16,800 --> 00:07:19,090 There is scriptural precedent, yes. 77 00:07:19,170 --> 00:07:22,230 What does God do to them when they do that? 78 00:07:24,770 --> 00:07:28,070 He feeds them to whales. 79 00:07:34,050 --> 00:07:35,880 Here, just be still... 80 00:07:36,820 --> 00:07:38,440 you'll be all right. 81 00:07:41,890 --> 00:07:43,520 No, I won't be. 82 00:07:45,060 --> 00:07:47,120 My lungs are getting tighter. 83 00:07:47,560 --> 00:07:50,030 The fever mounts, and you get delirious. 84 00:07:50,100 --> 00:07:53,460 Then the days of delirium and all the pain and drugs. 85 00:07:54,870 --> 00:07:56,630 Then you start slipping. 86 00:08:01,070 --> 00:08:02,800 I really fucked up. 87 00:08:04,040 --> 00:08:06,270 I'm scared, I can't do it again. 88 00:08:07,350 --> 00:08:09,470 You shouldn't talk that way. 89 00:08:09,720 --> 00:08:12,580 You should make a better show of yourself. 90 00:08:12,650 --> 00:08:14,310 Look at this horror. 91 00:08:18,490 --> 00:08:21,390 See? That's not human. That's why I run. 92 00:08:21,830 --> 00:08:24,130 Wouldn't you? Wouldn't anybody? 93 00:08:24,230 --> 00:08:25,600 It's a cancer. 94 00:08:26,870 --> 00:08:28,160 Nothing more. 95 00:08:29,800 --> 00:08:32,200 Nothing more human than that. 96 00:08:32,410 --> 00:08:35,310 God, I wanna be done. I don't want this! 97 00:08:35,370 --> 00:08:36,770 I reject this. 98 00:08:38,710 --> 00:08:40,080 I'm sorry. 99 00:08:41,780 --> 00:08:44,980 Stay with me, please. Just till my friend gets off work. 100 00:08:47,950 --> 00:08:50,350 You comfort me. You do. 101 00:08:51,220 --> 00:08:53,020 You stiffen my spine. 102 00:09:00,570 --> 00:09:02,160 When I got up this morning... 103 00:09:02,240 --> 00:09:05,600 this is not how I envisioned the day would end. 104 00:09:10,340 --> 00:09:14,110 An angel is a belief... 105 00:09:15,450 --> 00:09:19,010 with wings and arms that can carry you. 106 00:09:20,320 --> 00:09:22,380 It's not to be afraid of. 107 00:09:24,190 --> 00:09:26,090 If it can't hold you up... 108 00:09:26,860 --> 00:09:28,990 seek for something new. 109 00:09:49,220 --> 00:09:50,510 Louis. 110 00:10:09,600 --> 00:10:10,800 Oh, my God. 111 00:10:13,640 --> 00:10:15,830 It's the spring rain, is all. 112 00:10:18,240 --> 00:10:19,440 It's her. 113 00:10:21,250 --> 00:10:22,900 She's approaching. 114 00:10:23,470 --> 00:10:24,540 She? 115 00:10:31,120 --> 00:10:34,460 Modesty forbids explaining exactly how I know... 116 00:10:35,460 --> 00:10:38,620 but I have an infallible barometer of her proximity. 117 00:10:39,970 --> 00:10:41,560 And it's rising. 118 00:11:18,340 --> 00:11:19,460 Hello. 119 00:11:24,470 --> 00:11:25,880 I've come back. 120 00:11:31,140 --> 00:11:32,660 Please let me in. 121 00:11:33,440 --> 00:11:34,780 You're in. 122 00:11:41,620 --> 00:11:45,610 "Have you no decency, sir? At long last, Have you no sense of decency?" 123 00:11:45,700 --> 00:11:47,280 Who said that? 124 00:11:47,360 --> 00:11:50,630 I'm having a really hard time, Louis. 125 00:11:51,490 --> 00:11:53,020 It's so good to see you again. 126 00:11:53,100 --> 00:11:56,060 You really don't know who said, "Have you no decency?" 127 00:11:56,130 --> 00:11:58,740 -What's wrong? -Second question: Have you no decency? 128 00:11:59,550 --> 00:12:01,470 Guess what I spent the rainy afternoon doing? 129 00:12:01,540 --> 00:12:03,140 -What? -My homework. 130 00:12:03,220 --> 00:12:05,540 Research at the courthouse. Look what I got. 131 00:12:05,610 --> 00:12:07,670 The decisions of Justice Theodore J. Wilson... 132 00:12:07,740 --> 00:12:10,510 Second Circuit Court of Appeals, 1981-1984. 133 00:12:10,580 --> 00:12:14,020 -The Reagan Years. -You read my decisions. 134 00:12:14,250 --> 00:12:16,150 Your decisions. Yes. 135 00:12:16,350 --> 00:12:18,510 The librarian was gay. He had all the good dish. 136 00:12:18,590 --> 00:12:21,390 He said Wilson didn't write these opinions any more... 137 00:12:21,460 --> 00:12:22,920 than Nixon wrote Six Crises... 138 00:12:22,990 --> 00:12:24,790 Or Kennedy wrote Profiles in Courage. 139 00:12:24,860 --> 00:12:27,020 ...or Reagan wrote Where's the Rest of Me... 140 00:12:27,100 --> 00:12:28,720 or you and I wrote the Book of Love. 141 00:12:28,800 --> 00:12:32,290 Listen, I don't wanna do this now. I need you to stop attacking me. 142 00:12:33,370 --> 00:12:35,860 These gems were ghost-written by you... 143 00:12:35,970 --> 00:12:39,100 his obedient eager clerk. Naturally, I was eager to read them. 144 00:12:39,180 --> 00:12:42,110 Now I love the one where you found against those women... 145 00:12:42,180 --> 00:12:45,080 on Staten lsland who were suing the New Jersey factory. 146 00:12:45,350 --> 00:12:47,680 The toothpaste makers whose orange-colored smoke... 147 00:12:47,750 --> 00:12:49,050 was blinding children. 148 00:12:49,120 --> 00:12:50,680 Not blind, just minor irritation. 149 00:12:50,750 --> 00:12:53,420 Three of them had to be hospitalized, Joe. 150 00:12:54,020 --> 00:12:56,420 It's sort of brilliant in a satanic sort of way... 151 00:12:56,490 --> 00:12:58,460 concluding that these women have no right... 152 00:12:58,530 --> 00:13:00,790 to sue under the Air and Water Protection Act... 153 00:13:00,860 --> 00:13:03,490 because that Act doesn't protect people... 154 00:13:03,570 --> 00:13:06,760 but actually only air and water. Amazing! 155 00:13:06,840 --> 00:13:07,930 Have you no decency? 156 00:13:08,000 --> 00:13:10,800 I can't believe my opinions are being criticized by the guy... 157 00:13:10,870 --> 00:13:13,430 who changes the coffee filters in the Secretary's Lounge. 158 00:13:13,510 --> 00:13:15,270 Absolute favorite is this. 159 00:13:15,340 --> 00:13:16,870 Stephens v. the United States... 160 00:13:16,950 --> 00:13:19,920 the Army guy who got a dishonorable discharge for being gay. 161 00:13:19,980 --> 00:13:23,150 Stevens told the Army that he was gay when he enlisted. 162 00:13:23,220 --> 00:13:25,520 When he got ready to retire, they booted him out... 163 00:13:25,590 --> 00:13:27,020 cheat the queer of his pension. 164 00:13:27,090 --> 00:13:29,390 Right. He sued, won the case, and got his pension. 165 00:13:29,460 --> 00:13:32,620 The first judges gave him his pension back because... 166 00:13:32,700 --> 00:13:36,150 they ruled that gay men are members of a legitimate minority... 167 00:13:36,230 --> 00:13:40,100 entitled to the special protection of the 14th Amendment of the US Constitution. 168 00:13:40,170 --> 00:13:41,860 "Equal protection under the law." 169 00:13:41,940 --> 00:13:43,000 I can just imagine... 170 00:13:43,070 --> 00:13:45,970 how news of that momentary lapse into decency was received. 171 00:13:46,040 --> 00:13:48,670 Then all the judges of the Second Circuit were assembled-- 172 00:13:48,740 --> 00:13:50,610 We found for the guy again. 173 00:13:50,680 --> 00:13:52,270 But on an equitable estoppel. 174 00:13:52,350 --> 00:13:56,010 I had to look that up. But Mr. Coffee can't be expected to know these things. 175 00:13:56,090 --> 00:13:59,680 They didn't change the decision, just the reason for the decision. 176 00:13:59,760 --> 00:14:01,520 They gave it to him on a technicality. 177 00:14:01,590 --> 00:14:04,890 The Army knew Stevens was gay when he was enlisted. That's why he won. 178 00:14:04,960 --> 00:14:08,290 Not because it's unconstitutional to discriminate against homosexuals. 179 00:14:08,360 --> 00:14:10,230 "Because homosexuals," they write... 180 00:14:10,300 --> 00:14:12,930 "are not entitled to equal protection under the law." 181 00:14:13,000 --> 00:14:15,600 -You're being melodramatic. -They didn't write this. 182 00:14:15,670 --> 00:14:18,730 You did. They gave this decision to Wilson to write. 183 00:14:18,810 --> 00:14:22,370 Which, since they know he's a vegetable incapable of writing do-re-mi... 184 00:14:22,450 --> 00:14:25,640 was quite the vote of confidence in his industrious little clerk. 185 00:14:25,710 --> 00:14:28,440 This is an important bit of legal fag-bashing, isn't it? 186 00:14:28,520 --> 00:14:30,820 They trusted you to do it and you didn't disappoint. 187 00:14:30,890 --> 00:14:32,220 It's law, not justice. 188 00:14:32,290 --> 00:14:34,380 It's power, not the merits of its exercise. 189 00:14:34,460 --> 00:14:36,720 It's not an expression of an ideal, it's reality. 190 00:14:36,790 --> 00:14:38,690 So who said, "Have you no decency?" 191 00:14:38,760 --> 00:14:39,960 I'm leaving. 192 00:14:40,830 --> 00:14:42,820 You moron. How could you not know that? 193 00:14:42,900 --> 00:14:44,630 I'm leaving, you son of a bitch! 194 00:14:44,700 --> 00:14:47,000 It's the greatest punch line in American history. 195 00:14:47,070 --> 00:14:48,900 -Out of my way! -"Have you no decency?" 196 00:14:48,970 --> 00:14:51,060 "At long last, sir, have you no decency?" 197 00:14:51,140 --> 00:14:53,340 I don't know who said it. Why are you doing this? 198 00:14:53,410 --> 00:14:55,310 -I love you! -Joseph Welch! 199 00:14:55,380 --> 00:14:56,870 The Army-McCarthy Hearings! 200 00:14:56,950 --> 00:15:00,010 Ask Roy! He'll tell you, he knows! He was there. 201 00:15:00,550 --> 00:15:02,210 Roy Cohn! 202 00:15:02,890 --> 00:15:06,010 -What I want to know is, did you fuck him? -Did I what? 203 00:15:06,090 --> 00:15:09,650 How often has the latex-sheathed cock I put in my mouth... 204 00:15:09,730 --> 00:15:12,820 been previously in the mouth of the most evil, twisted... 205 00:15:12,900 --> 00:15:15,990 vicious bastard ever to snort coke at Studio 54? 206 00:15:16,070 --> 00:15:18,800 'Cause lips that kissed those lips will never kiss mine! 207 00:15:18,870 --> 00:15:21,200 Don't worry about that. Get out of my-- 208 00:15:23,140 --> 00:15:24,610 Did you fuck him? 209 00:15:24,670 --> 00:15:27,300 -Did he pay you to let him fuck you? -Move! 210 00:15:29,650 --> 00:15:30,810 You lied to me. 211 00:15:30,880 --> 00:15:32,210 You love me? 212 00:15:32,280 --> 00:15:34,340 Fuck you, you cheap piece of shit! 213 00:15:38,620 --> 00:15:40,450 He's got AlDS. 214 00:15:40,520 --> 00:15:42,720 Do you even know that? 215 00:15:42,790 --> 00:15:45,020 Stupid closeted bigot! 216 00:15:45,090 --> 00:15:47,060 You probably never figured out-- 217 00:15:50,200 --> 00:15:51,260 Hypocrite! 218 00:15:55,740 --> 00:15:57,370 Stop! 219 00:16:14,760 --> 00:16:17,560 Please say you're okay. 220 00:16:19,300 --> 00:16:21,230 God, that hurt. 221 00:16:23,200 --> 00:16:25,100 I never did that before. 222 00:16:26,240 --> 00:16:27,900 I never hit anyone. 223 00:16:31,510 --> 00:16:34,840 -Can you open it? Can you see? -I can see blood. 224 00:16:38,050 --> 00:16:39,510 Let me get a towel. 225 00:16:40,680 --> 00:16:43,450 I could have you arrested, you creep. 226 00:16:44,250 --> 00:16:46,810 They could put you in jail for beating me up. 227 00:16:46,890 --> 00:16:48,450 I've never hit anyone before. 228 00:16:48,520 --> 00:16:50,960 It'd really be for those decisions.... 229 00:16:53,700 --> 00:16:56,690 It was like a sex scene in an Ayn Rand novel, huh? 230 00:16:56,770 --> 00:17:00,760 I hurt you. I'm sorry, Louis. I never hit anyone before. 231 00:17:01,100 --> 00:17:02,930 Get lost... 232 00:17:03,470 --> 00:17:06,640 before I really lose my temper and hurt you back. 233 00:17:14,580 --> 00:17:17,520 I just wanna lie here and bleed for a while. 234 00:17:17,890 --> 00:17:19,290 Do me good. 235 00:18:15,840 --> 00:18:17,740 Look at that big smile. 236 00:18:18,940 --> 00:18:21,280 What you got to smile about, Roy? 237 00:18:21,350 --> 00:18:23,650 I'm going, Ethel. 238 00:18:24,850 --> 00:18:27,070 Finally, finally... 239 00:18:27,160 --> 00:18:29,270 done with this world. 240 00:18:29,790 --> 00:18:31,590 At long last. 241 00:18:32,490 --> 00:18:36,760 All mine enemies will be standing on the other shore... 242 00:18:37,300 --> 00:18:40,820 mouths gaping open like stupid fish... 243 00:18:40,900 --> 00:18:45,240 while the Almighty parts the sea of death... 244 00:18:46,330 --> 00:18:50,700 and lets his Roy-boy cross over the Jordan... 245 00:18:52,040 --> 00:18:54,030 on dry land... 246 00:18:54,570 --> 00:18:56,280 and still a lawyer. 247 00:18:58,420 --> 00:19:00,620 I wouldn't count my chickens, Roy. 248 00:19:02,320 --> 00:19:03,540 It's over. 249 00:19:05,660 --> 00:19:06,710 Over? 250 00:19:07,560 --> 00:19:10,120 I wanted the news should come from me. 251 00:19:10,920 --> 00:19:14,530 The panel rules against you, Roy. 252 00:19:16,100 --> 00:19:17,620 Oh, no. 253 00:19:18,170 --> 00:19:21,790 They just started meeting two days ago. 254 00:19:21,880 --> 00:19:25,570 They recommended disbarment. 255 00:19:26,420 --> 00:19:30,340 The executive has to rule on the recommendation. 256 00:19:30,410 --> 00:19:33,940 That'll take at least a week to sort things out. 257 00:19:34,020 --> 00:19:37,150 The executive was waiting. 258 00:19:37,530 --> 00:19:39,810 And they ruled. One, two, three. 259 00:19:40,750 --> 00:19:43,450 They accepted the panel's recommendation. 260 00:19:47,060 --> 00:19:49,930 And one of the main guys on the executive... 261 00:19:50,000 --> 00:19:52,460 he leaned over to his friend and he said: 262 00:19:52,530 --> 00:19:53,840 "Finally! 263 00:19:54,510 --> 00:19:58,400 "I've hated that little faggot for 36 years." 264 00:20:05,610 --> 00:20:08,770 They won, Roy. You're not a lawyer anymore. 265 00:20:12,620 --> 00:20:15,640 -But am I dead? -No. 266 00:20:16,090 --> 00:20:19,490 They beat you. You lost. 267 00:20:38,640 --> 00:20:40,740 I decided to come here... 268 00:20:40,810 --> 00:20:42,970 so I could see, could I forgive you? 269 00:20:44,580 --> 00:20:45,570 You... 270 00:20:46,920 --> 00:20:49,910 who I have hated so terribly. 271 00:20:51,820 --> 00:20:54,660 I have borne my hatred up into the heavens... 272 00:20:54,760 --> 00:20:58,360 and made a needle-sharp little star in the sky out of it. 273 00:21:00,430 --> 00:21:03,490 It's the star of Ethel Rosenberg's hatred. 274 00:21:04,370 --> 00:21:08,140 And it burns every year, for one night only. 275 00:21:10,510 --> 00:21:12,000 June 19. 276 00:21:15,150 --> 00:21:18,170 It burns acid green. 277 00:21:20,090 --> 00:21:21,810 I came to forgive... 278 00:21:24,790 --> 00:21:28,560 but all I can do is take pleasure in your misery... 279 00:21:32,230 --> 00:21:35,460 hoping I would get to see you die... 280 00:21:36,300 --> 00:21:38,360 more terrible than I did. 281 00:21:40,110 --> 00:21:41,570 And you are... 282 00:21:42,880 --> 00:21:45,210 'cause you're dying in shit, Roy. 283 00:21:45,510 --> 00:21:46,770 Defeated. 284 00:21:47,880 --> 00:21:49,510 And you could kill me. 285 00:21:50,520 --> 00:21:53,810 But you couldn't ever defeat me. 286 00:21:57,820 --> 00:21:59,950 You never won. 287 00:22:04,830 --> 00:22:06,320 When you die... 288 00:22:07,370 --> 00:22:09,460 all anyone will ever say is... 289 00:22:10,100 --> 00:22:12,590 "Better he had never lived at all." 290 00:22:18,910 --> 00:22:19,900 Ma? 291 00:22:21,310 --> 00:22:22,840 Muddy, is it? 292 00:22:26,020 --> 00:22:27,420 It's Ethel, Roy. 293 00:22:30,960 --> 00:22:32,250 I feel bad. 294 00:22:38,460 --> 00:22:41,360 Who are you talking to? It's me. 295 00:22:42,600 --> 00:22:44,430 Good to see you, Ma. 296 00:22:44,900 --> 00:22:46,560 It's been years. 297 00:22:47,610 --> 00:22:49,040 I feel bad. 298 00:22:50,040 --> 00:22:51,340 Sing to me. 299 00:22:52,280 --> 00:22:54,370 I am not your mother, Roy. 300 00:22:54,450 --> 00:22:56,110 It's cold in here. 301 00:22:57,450 --> 00:22:59,110 I'm up so late. 302 00:23:00,620 --> 00:23:02,250 Past my time. 303 00:23:04,820 --> 00:23:06,650 Don't be mad, Ma. 304 00:23:09,460 --> 00:23:12,950 I'm scared a little. 305 00:23:14,000 --> 00:23:15,490 Don't be mad. 306 00:23:17,500 --> 00:23:18,990 Sing me a song. 307 00:23:19,870 --> 00:23:22,310 -Please. -I don't want to, Roy. 308 00:23:22,910 --> 00:23:25,430 -I am not-- -It's scary out here. 309 00:23:29,250 --> 00:23:30,370 Oh, God. 310 00:23:33,250 --> 00:23:34,240 God... 311 00:23:35,050 --> 00:23:36,520 I'm so sorry. 312 00:23:38,860 --> 00:23:40,150 So sorry. 313 00:25:12,450 --> 00:25:13,440 Roy. 314 00:25:19,960 --> 00:25:20,950 Are you.... 315 00:25:37,410 --> 00:25:40,070 -That's it. -What's up? Do you need me? 316 00:25:47,920 --> 00:25:51,010 No, I'm not! I fooled you, Ethel! 317 00:25:51,360 --> 00:25:53,520 I knew who you were all along. 318 00:25:53,590 --> 00:25:55,890 I can't believe you fell for that Ma stuff. 319 00:25:55,950 --> 00:25:59,420 I just wanted to see if I could finally... 320 00:25:59,500 --> 00:26:02,230 make Ethel Rosenberg sing! 321 00:26:02,300 --> 00:26:03,600 I win! 322 00:26:07,610 --> 00:26:08,600 Fuck. 323 00:26:19,980 --> 00:26:21,180 Next time around... 324 00:26:22,740 --> 00:26:24,590 I don't wanna be a man. 325 00:26:27,130 --> 00:26:28,920 I wanna be an octopus. 326 00:26:30,730 --> 00:26:32,720 Remember that, okay? 327 00:29:15,480 --> 00:29:16,640 She's on her way. 328 00:29:20,760 --> 00:29:22,250 Turn the lights back on! 329 00:29:23,330 --> 00:29:25,090 Turn the lights back on! 330 00:29:38,840 --> 00:29:41,310 I have returned, Prophet... 331 00:29:41,380 --> 00:29:43,470 and not according to plan! 332 00:29:43,550 --> 00:29:44,670 Take it back! 333 00:29:44,750 --> 00:29:48,480 The book, whatever you left with me, I won't be its repository. I reject it. 334 00:29:50,920 --> 00:29:53,080 You gotta help me out here! Help me! 335 00:29:53,660 --> 00:29:54,710 This is a dream. 336 00:29:54,790 --> 00:29:57,780 I don't think that's really the point at this particular moment. 337 00:29:57,860 --> 00:29:58,880 I don't know what to do. 338 00:29:58,960 --> 00:30:01,590 It was your idea. "Reject the vision," you said. 339 00:30:01,660 --> 00:30:04,290 I thought it was going to be more of a metaphorical.... 340 00:30:04,370 --> 00:30:06,270 You said scriptural precedent. 341 00:30:06,330 --> 00:30:08,200 What am I supposed to do? 342 00:30:12,510 --> 00:30:13,740 Wrestle her! 343 00:30:13,980 --> 00:30:15,270 Say, what? 344 00:30:15,340 --> 00:30:18,280 It's an angel! You just grab hold of her... 345 00:30:18,780 --> 00:30:20,110 and say.... 346 00:30:21,120 --> 00:30:22,410 What was it? 347 00:30:22,980 --> 00:30:24,140 Wait. 348 00:30:24,220 --> 00:30:27,150 Yes. You grab a hold of her and you say... 349 00:30:29,320 --> 00:30:32,290 "l will not let thee go except thou bless me." 350 00:30:34,530 --> 00:30:36,960 Then you wrestle her until she gives in. 351 00:30:39,630 --> 00:30:42,030 You wrestle her. I don't know how to wrestle. 352 00:31:38,430 --> 00:31:41,090 I will not let thee go except thou bless me! 353 00:31:41,160 --> 00:31:42,960 Take back your book! 354 00:32:11,490 --> 00:32:13,320 Free me! Unfetter me! 355 00:32:13,390 --> 00:32:17,660 Bless me or whatever, but I will be let go. 356 00:32:21,340 --> 00:32:25,670 I am the continental principality of America! 357 00:32:27,110 --> 00:32:29,410 I am a bird of prey! 358 00:32:29,480 --> 00:32:32,880 I will not be compelled! 359 00:33:06,980 --> 00:33:08,710 Entrance has been gained. 360 00:33:09,680 --> 00:33:11,980 Return the text to Heaven. 361 00:33:13,490 --> 00:33:14,980 Can I come back? 362 00:33:15,990 --> 00:33:17,390 I don't wanna go unless.... 363 00:33:17,460 --> 00:33:19,980 You have prevailed, Prophet. You choose. 364 00:33:20,060 --> 00:33:22,760 Now release me. I have torn a muscle in my thigh. 365 00:33:22,830 --> 00:33:25,700 Big deal. My leg's been hurting for months. 366 00:34:31,670 --> 00:34:32,780 What? 367 00:34:43,370 --> 00:34:45,510 You've got no business with me. 368 00:34:46,480 --> 00:34:49,270 I didn't call you. You are his fever dream. 369 00:34:50,140 --> 00:34:51,440 Not mine. 370 00:34:52,750 --> 00:34:54,370 He's gone now... 371 00:34:55,150 --> 00:34:57,080 so you should go, too. 372 00:35:01,890 --> 00:35:03,850 I'm going to wake up now. 373 00:35:04,770 --> 00:35:06,090 Right now. 374 00:35:44,700 --> 00:35:47,670 The body is the garden of the soul. 375 00:39:08,970 --> 00:39:10,760 Greetings, Prophet. 376 00:39:10,840 --> 00:39:13,130 We have been waiting for you. 377 00:39:13,270 --> 00:39:14,600 Hurry. 378 00:39:17,710 --> 00:39:19,110 Oh, my God. 379 00:39:19,310 --> 00:39:22,440 This is too weird for words. It's Roy Cohn. 380 00:39:22,750 --> 00:39:24,770 It's so creepy here. I hate hospitals. 381 00:39:24,920 --> 00:39:27,320 Stop whining. We have to move fast. 382 00:39:27,450 --> 00:39:30,440 I'm supposed to call the duty nurse if his condition changes. 383 00:39:31,060 --> 00:39:32,450 It's changed. 384 00:39:32,520 --> 00:39:35,420 Take off those glasses. You look ridiculous. 385 00:39:37,430 --> 00:39:39,290 What happened to you? 386 00:39:39,360 --> 00:39:41,260 Expiation for my sins. 387 00:39:41,330 --> 00:39:44,560 -What am I doing here? -Expiation for your sins. 388 00:39:45,200 --> 00:39:46,830 I can't take this stuff out myself. 389 00:39:46,900 --> 00:39:49,130 I have to tell them he's dead and fill out forms. 390 00:39:49,210 --> 00:39:52,070 I don't want them confiscating the medicine. It's AZT. 391 00:39:52,140 --> 00:39:53,800 Nearly 60 bottles left. 392 00:39:54,180 --> 00:39:56,610 I needed a pack mule, so I called you. 393 00:39:56,680 --> 00:39:58,210 Why me? You hate me. 394 00:39:58,350 --> 00:40:00,840 I needed a Jew. You were the first to come to mind. 395 00:40:00,920 --> 00:40:03,440 -What do you mean? -We're gonna thank him. 396 00:40:03,520 --> 00:40:04,990 -For the pills. -Thank him? 397 00:40:05,060 --> 00:40:07,150 What do you call the Jewish prayer for the dead? 398 00:40:07,220 --> 00:40:09,280 -A Kaddish. -That's the one. Hit it. 399 00:40:09,960 --> 00:40:11,050 Do it. 400 00:40:11,630 --> 00:40:13,790 I'm not saying Kaddish for him. 401 00:40:13,860 --> 00:40:15,890 The drugs, okay, fine, sure. 402 00:40:15,970 --> 00:40:18,830 But no fucking way am I praying for him. 403 00:40:18,900 --> 00:40:23,170 My New Deal pinko parents in Schenectady would never forgive me. 404 00:40:23,240 --> 00:40:25,070 They're already so disappointed: 405 00:40:25,140 --> 00:40:27,010 "He's a fag, he's an office temp. 406 00:40:27,080 --> 00:40:29,310 "Now look, he's saying Kaddish for Roy Cohn." 407 00:40:29,380 --> 00:40:31,510 I can't believe you'd actually pray for him. 408 00:40:31,580 --> 00:40:33,610 Louis, I'd even pray for you. 409 00:40:35,750 --> 00:40:37,780 He was a terrible person. 410 00:40:38,990 --> 00:40:40,790 He died a hard death. 411 00:40:44,830 --> 00:40:48,790 Maybe a queen can forgive her vanquished foe. 412 00:40:50,840 --> 00:40:54,570 It isn't easy. It doesn't count if it's easy. It's the hardest thing. 413 00:40:55,440 --> 00:40:56,870 Forgiveness. 414 00:40:56,940 --> 00:41:00,210 Maybe that's where love and justice finally meet. 415 00:41:01,680 --> 00:41:04,730 Peace at least. Isn't what the Kaddish asks for? 416 00:41:04,810 --> 00:41:07,440 It's Hebrew or Aramaic or something. 417 00:41:07,520 --> 00:41:09,510 Who knows what it's asking. 418 00:41:14,230 --> 00:41:15,660 I'm 32 years old... 419 00:41:15,720 --> 00:41:18,820 and I've never been in a room with a dead body before. 420 00:41:28,330 --> 00:41:30,310 So heavy and small. 421 00:41:32,810 --> 00:41:35,710 I know probably less of the Kaddish than you do. 422 00:41:35,770 --> 00:41:39,220 I'm an intensely secular Jew. I didn't even bar mitzvah. 423 00:41:39,270 --> 00:41:41,410 Do the best you can. 424 00:42:07,310 --> 00:42:10,140 No, that's the Kiddush, not the.... 425 00:42:16,640 --> 00:42:20,240 I don't know. This is silly. Please, I can't. 426 00:43:29,820 --> 00:43:32,340 -You son of a bitch. -You son of a bitch. 427 00:44:00,610 --> 00:44:02,280 Thank you, Louis. 428 00:44:03,650 --> 00:44:04,910 You did fine. 429 00:44:05,650 --> 00:44:06,640 Fine? 430 00:44:07,490 --> 00:44:11,220 What are you talking about fine now? It was fucking miraculous. 431 00:45:12,120 --> 00:45:13,710 I saw it. It was there. 432 00:45:42,320 --> 00:45:45,510 Most august fellow principalities, angels most high... 433 00:45:45,590 --> 00:45:48,180 I regret my absence at this session. 434 00:45:48,260 --> 00:45:50,250 I was detained. 435 00:45:52,590 --> 00:45:55,290 -This is.... -The Prophet. Yes. 436 00:46:01,770 --> 00:46:04,200 -We're working. -We're making progress. 437 00:46:17,750 --> 00:46:19,510 I wanna return this. 438 00:46:20,950 --> 00:46:23,680 -What's the matter with it? -lt just.... 439 00:46:27,630 --> 00:46:29,860 We can't just stop. 440 00:46:30,730 --> 00:46:32,600 We're not rocks. 441 00:46:32,900 --> 00:46:37,230 Progress, migration, motion is modernity. 442 00:46:37,300 --> 00:46:38,770 It's animate. 443 00:46:38,840 --> 00:46:42,500 It's what living things do. We desire. 444 00:46:42,940 --> 00:46:46,540 Even if all we desire is stillness, it's still desire. 445 00:46:46,610 --> 00:46:50,010 For, even if we go faster than we should... 446 00:46:50,720 --> 00:46:53,620 we can't wait, and wait for what? 447 00:46:53,690 --> 00:46:54,680 God.... 448 00:47:07,130 --> 00:47:09,360 He isn't coming back. 449 00:47:10,140 --> 00:47:13,070 Even if he did, if he ever did come back... 450 00:47:13,410 --> 00:47:17,840 if he ever dared to show his face or whatever in the garden again... 451 00:47:19,210 --> 00:47:21,310 if after all this destruction... 452 00:47:21,380 --> 00:47:25,550 if after all the terrible days of this terrible century... 453 00:47:27,290 --> 00:47:30,780 he returned to see how much suffering his abandonment has created... 454 00:47:30,990 --> 00:47:33,260 if all he has to offer is death... 455 00:47:35,130 --> 00:47:36,930 you should sue the bastard. 456 00:47:37,000 --> 00:47:40,630 That's my only contribution to all this theology. 457 00:47:40,970 --> 00:47:45,030 Sue the bastard for walking out. How dare he! 458 00:47:47,980 --> 00:47:49,940 Thus spake the Prophet. 459 00:47:53,180 --> 00:47:56,550 So thank you for sharing this with me, but I don't want to keep it. 460 00:47:56,620 --> 00:47:57,850 He wants to live. 461 00:47:57,920 --> 00:48:00,510 Yes! I'm 30 years old, for God's sake. 462 00:48:00,590 --> 00:48:02,580 I haven't done anything yet. 463 00:48:03,460 --> 00:48:05,320 I wanna be healthy again. 464 00:48:05,960 --> 00:48:09,120 And this plague, it should stop in me and everywhere. 465 00:48:10,200 --> 00:48:13,660 -Make it go away. -We have tried. 466 00:48:15,840 --> 00:48:17,630 We suffer with you... 467 00:48:19,110 --> 00:48:22,100 but we don't know. We do not know how. 468 00:48:23,940 --> 00:48:27,140 This is the tome of immobility... 469 00:48:28,080 --> 00:48:29,610 of respite. 470 00:48:29,980 --> 00:48:33,510 Stay in heaven, don't return to life. 471 00:48:33,920 --> 00:48:35,450 Suffer no more. 472 00:48:36,190 --> 00:48:37,560 You choose. 473 00:48:42,960 --> 00:48:43,950 I can't. 474 00:49:03,520 --> 00:49:05,350 I still want my blessing. 475 00:49:06,120 --> 00:49:09,320 Even sick, I wanna be alive. 476 00:49:09,720 --> 00:49:11,650 You only think you do. 477 00:49:11,790 --> 00:49:13,850 Life is a habit with you. 478 00:49:13,920 --> 00:49:16,420 You have not seen what is to come. We have. 479 00:49:16,530 --> 00:49:19,830 What will the grim unfolding of these latter days bring... 480 00:49:19,890 --> 00:49:23,100 that you or any being should wish to endure them? 481 00:49:23,470 --> 00:49:24,460 Death... 482 00:49:25,000 --> 00:49:28,520 more plenteous than all heaven has tears to mourn it. 483 00:49:29,880 --> 00:49:32,340 The slow dissolving of the great design. 484 00:49:32,580 --> 00:49:35,500 The spiraling apart of the work of eternity. 485 00:49:35,940 --> 00:49:40,040 The world and its beautiful particle logic... 486 00:49:40,110 --> 00:49:42,770 all collapsed, all dead... 487 00:49:44,120 --> 00:49:45,110 forever. 488 00:49:46,130 --> 00:49:48,350 We are failing. 489 00:49:49,000 --> 00:49:51,460 The earth and the angels. 490 00:49:51,800 --> 00:49:55,490 Who asks of the Order's blessing with Apocalypse descending? 491 00:49:55,560 --> 00:49:57,690 Who demands more life... 492 00:49:58,160 --> 00:50:01,260 when death like a protector blinds our eyes... 493 00:50:01,330 --> 00:50:04,610 shielding from tender nerve more horror than can be borne? 494 00:50:06,110 --> 00:50:09,870 Let any being on whom Fortune smiles creep away to death... 495 00:50:09,950 --> 00:50:12,770 before that last, dreadful daybreak... 496 00:50:12,840 --> 00:50:15,400 when all your ravaging returns to you. 497 00:50:15,510 --> 00:50:20,280 And morning blisters crimson and bears all life away. 498 00:50:20,680 --> 00:50:23,280 A tidal wave of protean fire... 499 00:50:23,350 --> 00:50:26,380 that curls around the planet and bares the earth... 500 00:50:28,060 --> 00:50:30,120 clean as bone. 501 00:50:35,570 --> 00:50:36,930 But still... 502 00:50:45,620 --> 00:50:49,170 bless me anyway. I want more life. I can't help myself. 503 00:50:50,380 --> 00:50:51,400 I do. 504 00:50:52,680 --> 00:50:54,550 I've lived through such terrible times... 505 00:50:54,620 --> 00:50:57,550 and there are people who live through much worse. 506 00:50:57,820 --> 00:50:59,980 But you see them living anyway. 507 00:51:00,360 --> 00:51:03,290 When they're more spirit than body... 508 00:51:03,360 --> 00:51:05,450 more sores than skin... 509 00:51:06,000 --> 00:51:08,790 when they're burned and in agony... 510 00:51:09,030 --> 00:51:12,630 when flies lay eggs in the corners of the eyes of their children... 511 00:51:12,770 --> 00:51:14,000 they live. 512 00:51:14,100 --> 00:51:16,040 Death usually has to take life away. 513 00:51:16,110 --> 00:51:18,170 I don't know if that's just the animal. 514 00:51:18,240 --> 00:51:22,300 I don't know if it's not braver to die, but I recognize the habit. 515 00:51:23,010 --> 00:51:25,070 The addiction to being alive. 516 00:51:26,580 --> 00:51:28,450 So we live past hope. 517 00:51:28,520 --> 00:51:32,180 If I can find hope anywhere, that's it, that's the best I can do. 518 00:51:32,560 --> 00:51:34,490 It's so much not enough. 519 00:51:34,860 --> 00:51:36,550 It's so inadequate. 520 00:51:38,730 --> 00:51:39,890 But still... 521 00:51:41,300 --> 00:51:42,930 bless me anyway. 522 00:51:44,570 --> 00:51:46,130 I want more life. 523 00:52:15,930 --> 00:52:18,870 And if He returns, take Him to court. 524 00:52:19,200 --> 00:52:21,000 He walked out on us. 525 00:52:21,510 --> 00:52:23,000 He ought to pay. 526 00:53:44,050 --> 00:53:45,580 I'm exhausted. 527 00:53:46,220 --> 00:53:49,160 -You've been working hard. -I feel terrible. 528 00:53:50,730 --> 00:53:52,750 We were worried we'd lost you. 529 00:53:52,830 --> 00:53:55,560 -Welcome back to the world. -From where? 530 00:54:01,940 --> 00:54:03,370 Well, look at this. 531 00:54:05,310 --> 00:54:06,830 It's the dawn of man. 532 00:54:06,910 --> 00:54:09,670 -Venus rising from the sea. -I'm wet. 533 00:54:10,210 --> 00:54:13,080 -Fever broke. That's a good sign. -Mrs. Pitt. 534 00:54:13,150 --> 00:54:16,140 The little girl's room. Where did you find her? 535 00:54:17,420 --> 00:54:18,910 We found each other. 536 00:54:20,220 --> 00:54:22,380 I've had a remarkable dream. 537 00:54:22,730 --> 00:54:24,960 And you were there and you... 538 00:54:26,030 --> 00:54:27,290 and you. 539 00:54:28,570 --> 00:54:29,550 I what? 540 00:54:29,630 --> 00:54:32,530 Some of it was terrible and some of it was wonderful. 541 00:54:32,900 --> 00:54:35,460 But all the same, I kept saying I wanna go home. 542 00:54:35,540 --> 00:54:38,840 -And they sent me home. -What are you talking about? 543 00:54:40,510 --> 00:54:41,500 Thank you. 544 00:54:42,450 --> 00:54:45,310 -I just sat in a chair. -She saved my life. 545 00:54:45,780 --> 00:54:48,550 Did no such thing. I slept in the chair. 546 00:54:51,420 --> 00:54:54,150 Being in the hospital upsets me, reminds me of things. 547 00:54:58,430 --> 00:55:00,090 I have to go now. 548 00:55:00,600 --> 00:55:02,860 I had the most peculiar dream. 549 00:55:10,910 --> 00:55:12,270 Can I come in? 550 00:55:14,980 --> 00:55:16,570 I have to start rounds. 551 00:55:17,280 --> 00:55:20,770 You are one of the lucky ones. I could give you a rose. 552 00:55:20,850 --> 00:55:22,680 You rest your weary bones. 553 00:55:28,460 --> 00:55:30,290 What happened to you? 554 00:55:30,660 --> 00:55:32,180 Visible scars. 555 00:55:33,000 --> 00:55:36,230 Louis, you're so goddamn literal about everything. 556 00:55:38,170 --> 00:55:40,140 -I'm going now. -You'll come back? 557 00:55:40,640 --> 00:55:42,070 If I can.... 558 00:55:42,570 --> 00:55:44,840 I have things I have to take care of. 559 00:55:44,910 --> 00:55:48,710 Please do. I have always depended on the kindness of strangers. 560 00:55:49,210 --> 00:55:51,370 That's a stupid thing to do. 561 00:55:54,850 --> 00:55:55,840 Who's she? 562 00:55:56,550 --> 00:55:58,490 You really don't want to know. 563 00:55:58,820 --> 00:56:00,520 Before I depart... 564 00:56:01,160 --> 00:56:02,780 a homecoming gift. 565 00:56:10,770 --> 00:56:12,700 What, I can't read the label. 566 00:56:13,240 --> 00:56:15,140 My eyes aren't any better. 567 00:56:17,240 --> 00:56:19,000 AZT, where on earth? 568 00:56:19,680 --> 00:56:21,910 These are hot pills. I am shocked. 569 00:56:21,980 --> 00:56:24,850 Contribution to the Get Well Fund from a bad fairy. 570 00:56:24,920 --> 00:56:27,110 These pills, they make you better. 571 00:56:27,420 --> 00:56:30,050 They're poison, they make you anemic. 572 00:56:30,480 --> 00:56:34,150 This is my life from now on, Louis. I'm not getting better. 573 00:56:34,820 --> 00:56:37,420 I'm not sure I'm ready to do that to my bone marrow. 574 00:56:37,480 --> 00:56:39,590 We can talk about it tomorrow. 575 00:56:39,660 --> 00:56:43,120 I am going home to nurse my grudges. 576 00:56:43,800 --> 00:56:44,960 Ta, baby. 577 00:56:45,600 --> 00:56:47,130 Sleep all day. 578 00:56:48,100 --> 00:56:49,430 Ta, Louis. 579 00:56:51,330 --> 00:56:53,130 You sure know how to clear a room. 580 00:56:58,540 --> 00:56:59,740 Prior. 581 00:57:01,280 --> 00:57:02,800 I wanna come back to you. 582 00:57:08,060 --> 00:57:09,720 You could respond. 583 00:57:11,330 --> 00:57:13,990 You could say something. Just say it's fine or... 584 00:57:14,120 --> 00:57:16,390 it's not fine, but sure, what the hell or.... 585 00:57:18,800 --> 00:57:20,560 I really failed you. 586 00:57:26,780 --> 00:57:27,960 Sorry. 587 00:57:31,200 --> 00:57:33,170 Failing in love... 588 00:57:34,510 --> 00:57:36,750 isn't the same as not loving. 589 00:57:37,080 --> 00:57:40,380 It doesn't let you off the hook. It doesn't mean... 590 00:57:41,390 --> 00:57:43,610 you're free to not love. 591 00:57:51,420 --> 00:57:53,090 I love you, Louis. 592 00:58:06,670 --> 00:58:07,770 Good. 593 00:58:09,290 --> 00:58:11,300 -I love you. -I really do. 594 00:58:13,010 --> 00:58:14,710 But you can't come back. 595 00:58:16,120 --> 00:58:17,410 Not ever. 596 00:58:24,370 --> 00:58:26,350 I'm sorry, but you can't. 597 00:58:45,680 --> 00:58:47,510 I want your credit card. 598 00:58:48,420 --> 00:58:49,510 That's all. 599 00:58:50,550 --> 00:58:53,540 You can keep track of me from where the charges come from... 600 00:58:53,620 --> 00:58:55,590 if you wanna keep track. 601 00:58:59,860 --> 00:59:02,520 -I have some things to tell you. -We shouldn't talk. 602 00:59:02,600 --> 00:59:05,090 I don't want to do that anymore. Credit card? 603 00:59:07,230 --> 00:59:09,860 I don't know what will happen to me without you. 604 00:59:12,970 --> 00:59:14,700 Only you love me... 605 00:59:15,540 --> 00:59:17,570 out of everyone in the world. 606 00:59:18,580 --> 00:59:21,140 I've done things, I'm ashamed, but.... 607 00:59:23,380 --> 00:59:24,820 I've changed. 608 00:59:25,090 --> 00:59:27,250 I don't know how yet, but... 609 00:59:27,850 --> 00:59:29,150 please... 610 00:59:31,220 --> 00:59:33,280 don't leave me now, Harper. 611 00:59:34,430 --> 00:59:35,990 You're my good heart. 612 00:59:40,300 --> 00:59:41,790 Did that hurt? 613 00:59:42,340 --> 00:59:44,360 Yes? Remember that. 614 00:59:44,870 --> 00:59:46,070 Please. 615 00:59:50,940 --> 00:59:55,280 If I can get a job or something, I'll cut the card to pieces and there won't be charges. 616 00:59:58,850 --> 01:00:00,010 Credit card. 617 01:00:02,920 --> 01:00:04,410 Just call or.... 618 01:00:05,760 --> 01:00:07,450 Just call. You have to. 619 01:00:08,030 --> 01:00:10,050 No, probably never again. 620 01:00:11,030 --> 01:00:12,360 That's how bad. 621 01:00:16,300 --> 01:00:18,570 Sometimes, maybe lost is best. 622 01:00:21,940 --> 01:00:23,240 Get lost, Joe. 623 01:00:24,040 --> 01:00:25,600 Go exploring... 624 01:00:26,680 --> 01:00:28,700 with a big glass of water. 625 01:02:05,680 --> 01:02:07,240 You look a fright. 626 01:02:07,310 --> 01:02:09,750 -So do you. -I had a horrid night. 627 01:02:09,820 --> 01:02:11,680 -So did l. -Where is.... 628 01:02:14,790 --> 01:02:16,380 I'm sure she'll be all right. 629 01:02:18,590 --> 01:02:22,690 -What can happen to her in New York City? -It's not what I expected... 630 01:02:23,200 --> 01:02:25,630 which is the best thing you can say for it. 631 01:02:27,570 --> 01:02:29,730 Shall I make supper tonight? 632 01:02:31,840 --> 01:02:32,930 Joe? 633 01:02:38,480 --> 01:02:41,140 I'll try to wait up till you get home. 634 01:03:22,020 --> 01:03:24,290 Night flight to San Francisco. 635 01:03:25,020 --> 01:03:27,320 Chase the moon across America. 636 01:03:28,860 --> 01:03:29,850 God! 637 01:03:30,300 --> 01:03:33,030 It's been years since I was on a plane. 638 01:03:33,930 --> 01:03:35,990 When we hit 35,000 feet... 639 01:03:36,270 --> 01:03:38,240 we'll have reached the tropopause... 640 01:03:38,300 --> 01:03:40,900 the great belt of calm air. 641 01:03:40,970 --> 01:03:43,130 As close as I'll ever get to the ozone. 642 01:03:44,310 --> 01:03:45,870 I dreamed we were there. 643 01:03:46,010 --> 01:03:49,110 The plane leapt the tropopause, the safe air... 644 01:03:49,180 --> 01:03:51,910 and attained the outer rim, the ozone... 645 01:03:51,980 --> 01:03:54,920 which was ragged and torn, patches of it... 646 01:03:55,490 --> 01:03:58,950 threadbare as old cheesecloth, and that was frightening. 647 01:03:59,150 --> 01:04:01,180 But I saw something only I could see... 648 01:04:01,260 --> 01:04:04,250 because of my astonishing ability to see such things. 649 01:04:04,850 --> 01:04:06,650 Souls were rising... 650 01:04:07,430 --> 01:04:10,770 from the earth far below, souls of the dead... 651 01:04:10,840 --> 01:04:12,670 of people who'd perished from... 652 01:04:13,240 --> 01:04:17,300 famine, from war, from the plague, and they floated up... 653 01:04:18,340 --> 01:04:22,080 Iike skydivers in reverse, limbs all akimbo, wheeling and... 654 01:04:22,650 --> 01:04:23,940 spinning. 655 01:04:24,610 --> 01:04:27,080 And the souls of these departed... 656 01:04:27,240 --> 01:04:30,350 joined hands, clasped ankles, and formed... 657 01:04:30,920 --> 01:04:32,190 a web... 658 01:04:33,090 --> 01:04:35,020 a great net of souls. 659 01:04:35,260 --> 01:04:38,460 And the souls were three-atom oxygen molecules... 660 01:04:38,520 --> 01:04:42,970 of the stuff of ozone, and the outer rim absorbed them, and was repaired. 661 01:04:47,110 --> 01:04:49,040 Nothing's lost forever. 662 01:04:53,080 --> 01:04:55,400 In this world, there is a kind of... 663 01:04:57,670 --> 01:04:59,330 painful progress. 664 01:05:01,840 --> 01:05:04,710 Longing for what we've left behind, and... 665 01:05:05,520 --> 01:05:07,070 dreaming ahead. 666 01:05:11,600 --> 01:05:13,710 At least I think that's so. 667 01:05:26,600 --> 01:05:28,400 The Berlin Wall has fallen. 668 01:05:28,600 --> 01:05:30,230 The Ceausescus are out. 669 01:05:30,350 --> 01:05:33,880 He's building democratic socialism, the new internationalism. 670 01:05:33,940 --> 01:05:36,940 Gorbachev is the greatest political thinker since Lenin. 671 01:05:37,010 --> 01:05:39,240 We don't know enough yet to start canonizing him. 672 01:05:39,320 --> 01:05:40,870 The Russians hate his guts. 673 01:05:57,630 --> 01:05:59,190 Happy birthday. 674 01:06:01,000 --> 01:06:02,970 Thomas Jefferson died on his birthday. 675 01:06:03,040 --> 01:06:05,530 -You aren't Thomas Jefferson. -I'm related to him. 676 01:06:05,610 --> 01:06:08,840 -The Walters are related to everyone. -Only the white meat, darling. 677 01:06:13,650 --> 01:06:14,880 Salute. 678 01:06:18,920 --> 01:06:22,410 Remember four years ago, the whole time we were feeling... 679 01:06:22,490 --> 01:06:23,980 everything everywhere was stuck. 680 01:06:24,060 --> 01:06:27,030 While in Russia, perestroika, the thaw. 681 01:06:27,160 --> 01:06:30,460 It's the end of the Cold War. The whole world's changing overnight. 682 01:06:30,530 --> 01:06:35,230 I wonder what will happen now, though, in places like Czechoslovakia, Yugoslavia. 683 01:06:35,440 --> 01:06:38,640 -Yugoslavia. -Let's turn the volume down on this, okay? 684 01:06:38,710 --> 01:06:40,180 They'll be at it for hours. 685 01:06:40,240 --> 01:06:43,340 It's not that what they're saying isn't important, it's just.... 686 01:06:45,410 --> 01:06:48,910 This is my favorite place in New York City, no, in the whole universe... 687 01:06:48,990 --> 01:06:52,050 the parts that I've seen, on a day like today. 688 01:06:52,660 --> 01:06:55,680 A sunny winter's day, warm and cold at once. 689 01:06:56,260 --> 01:07:01,060 The sky's a little hazy, so the sunlight has a physical presence, a character. 690 01:07:01,630 --> 01:07:04,620 In autumn, those trees across the lake are yellow... 691 01:07:05,370 --> 01:07:08,340 and the sun strikes those most brilliantly... 692 01:07:09,010 --> 01:07:11,170 against the blue of the sky. 693 01:07:11,770 --> 01:07:15,470 That sad fall blue, those trees are more light than vegetation. 694 01:07:15,550 --> 01:07:16,840 They're Yankee trees. 695 01:07:17,450 --> 01:07:19,440 New England transplants. 696 01:07:20,550 --> 01:07:21,880 They're barren now. 697 01:07:23,950 --> 01:07:25,850 It's January 1990. 698 01:07:26,090 --> 01:07:28,390 I've been living with AlDS for five years. 699 01:07:28,460 --> 01:07:31,260 That's six whole months longer than I lived with Louis. 700 01:07:31,330 --> 01:07:35,090 ...amount of energy, whatever comes, what you have to admire in Gorbachev... 701 01:07:35,160 --> 01:07:38,190 and the Russians is that they are making a leap into the unknown. 702 01:07:38,270 --> 01:07:40,930 You can't wait around for theory. The sprawl of life... 703 01:07:41,000 --> 01:07:41,990 the weird.... 704 01:07:42,140 --> 01:07:43,440 -lnterconnectedness. -Yes. 705 01:07:43,510 --> 01:07:45,170 Maybe the sheer size of the terrain. 706 01:07:45,240 --> 01:07:48,010 It's all too much to be encompassed by a single theory now. 707 01:07:48,080 --> 01:07:49,570 The world is faster than the mind. 708 01:07:49,650 --> 01:07:51,810 That's what politics is, the world moving ahead. 709 01:07:51,880 --> 01:07:54,280 And only in politics does the miraculous occur. 710 01:07:54,580 --> 01:07:55,810 But that's a theory. 711 01:07:57,590 --> 01:08:01,680 Yes, but you can't live in the world without an idea of the world. 712 01:08:02,020 --> 01:08:04,050 But it's living that makes the ideas. 713 01:08:04,130 --> 01:08:07,320 You can't wait for a theory, but you have to have a theory. 714 01:08:07,400 --> 01:08:09,520 Go know, as my grandma would say. 715 01:08:10,800 --> 01:08:12,860 This angel, she is my favorite angel. 716 01:08:13,900 --> 01:08:16,200 I like them best when they are statuary. 717 01:08:16,270 --> 01:08:19,830 They commemorate death, but suggest a world without dying. 718 01:08:19,910 --> 01:08:23,540 They're made of the heaviest things on earth, stone and iron. 719 01:08:23,610 --> 01:08:25,210 They weigh tons. 720 01:08:26,420 --> 01:08:30,040 But their wings, they are engines and instruments of flight. 721 01:08:31,890 --> 01:08:33,580 This is the angel Bethesda. 722 01:08:33,660 --> 01:08:35,890 Louis will tell you her story. 723 01:08:38,690 --> 01:08:42,360 She was this angel who landed in the Temple Square in Jerusalem... 724 01:08:42,430 --> 01:08:44,190 in the days of the Second Temple. 725 01:08:44,270 --> 01:08:47,170 Right in the middle of a working day, she descended and... 726 01:08:47,240 --> 01:08:51,100 her foot touched earth, and where it did, a fountain shot up from the ground. 727 01:08:51,170 --> 01:08:54,770 When the Romans destroyed the temple, the fountain of Bethesda ran dry. 728 01:08:54,840 --> 01:08:58,870 Belize will tell you about the nature of the fountain before its flowing stopped. 729 01:09:02,180 --> 01:09:06,050 If anyone who was suffering in... 730 01:09:06,590 --> 01:09:08,680 the body or the spirit... 731 01:09:08,760 --> 01:09:11,630 walked through the waters of the fountain of Bethesda... 732 01:09:11,690 --> 01:09:13,130 they would be healed... 733 01:09:13,760 --> 01:09:15,290 washed clean of pain. 734 01:09:15,360 --> 01:09:17,730 They know this 'cause I've told them many times. 735 01:09:18,530 --> 01:09:21,300 Hannah here told it to me. She also told me this: 736 01:09:21,870 --> 01:09:24,570 -When the Millennium comes.... -Not the year 2000 but... 737 01:09:24,640 --> 01:09:26,610 -the capital-M Millennium. -Right. 738 01:09:26,910 --> 01:09:29,570 The Bethesda fountain will flow again. 739 01:09:29,910 --> 01:09:33,140 And I told him that I would personally take him there to bathe. 740 01:09:33,220 --> 01:09:35,310 We will all bathe ourselves clean. 741 01:09:35,450 --> 01:09:36,880 Not literally in Jerusalem. 742 01:09:36,950 --> 01:09:39,350 We don't want this to have Zionist implications. 743 01:09:39,420 --> 01:09:42,690 But we do recognize the right of the State of lsrael to exist. 744 01:09:42,760 --> 01:09:46,690 But the West Bank should be homeland to the Palestinians and the Golan Heights.... 745 01:09:46,760 --> 01:09:49,060 Not both the West Bank and the Golan Heights and... 746 01:09:49,130 --> 01:09:51,260 no one supports Palestinians more than I do. 747 01:09:51,330 --> 01:09:54,100 -You're right. -I'm almost done. 748 01:09:55,670 --> 01:09:58,700 The fountain's not flowing now. They turn it off in the winter. 749 01:09:58,770 --> 01:10:00,440 Ice in the pipes. 750 01:10:02,040 --> 01:10:03,600 But in the summer... 751 01:10:03,910 --> 01:10:06,610 it's a sight to see. I wanna be around to see it. 752 01:10:07,920 --> 01:10:09,780 I plan to be. I hope to be. 753 01:10:10,820 --> 01:10:14,420 This disease will be the end of many of us, but not nearly all. 754 01:10:15,090 --> 01:10:17,290 And the dead will be commemorated... 755 01:10:17,560 --> 01:10:19,720 and will struggle on with the living... 756 01:10:20,030 --> 01:10:21,720 and we're not going away. 757 01:10:21,830 --> 01:10:24,320 We won't die secret deaths anymore. 758 01:10:25,600 --> 01:10:27,800 The world only spins forward. 759 01:10:28,970 --> 01:10:30,730 We will be citizens. 760 01:10:31,140 --> 01:10:32,800 The time has come. 761 01:10:37,150 --> 01:10:38,410 Bye now. 762 01:10:39,520 --> 01:10:42,040 You are fabulous, each and every one. 763 01:10:42,820 --> 01:10:44,340 I bless you. 764 01:10:45,990 --> 01:10:47,350 More life. 765 01:10:48,490 --> 01:10:50,390 The great work begins.