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announcer: Tonight,
on "The Bachelor"...
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- Oh, my gosh.
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- Welcome to Iceland.
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- This is so cool.
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You can't even dream
of a place like this.
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- This week is overnights.
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This time together
could change everything.
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- It is exciting to know
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that we can still
get deeper and deeper.
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This night could be one of
the most incredible nights
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of my life.
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It could show me everything
that I need to know.
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- It just feels like
I'm dreaming.
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- I can really see us
at the end of this.
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- It's time
to let my walls down.
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I am falling in love...
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- Whoo!
- And it feels so good!
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- I'm so all in with Clayton.
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- I don't want anything
to be off limits between us.
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- My heart is telling me
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that I'm falling in love
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with all three
of these women.
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[dramatic music]
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- It's really hard
because I don't know
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how Clayton feels about
these other women.
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- He could be in love
with Susie.
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He could be in love
with Gabby.
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- I know that I could
end up heartbroken.
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- Just don't wanna
hurt anybody.
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And I'm going to.
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This is exactly
what I was afraid of.
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I don't believe
in anything anymore.
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It's over. It's over.
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I am done.
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[wind whistling]
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♪ ♪
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- Hello.
- Hi, velkominn.
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Welcome to Iceland Air.
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- This is the most
important week for me.
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- Have a safe flight.
- Thank you.
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And I'm so excited.
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This is overnights week.
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And I will be
continuing my journey
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to find love in Iceland.
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[engine roaring]
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As far as, like,
falling in love, I mean,
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I don't know if there's
a much better place
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to do it than Iceland.
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[dramatic music]
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It's absolutely beautiful
and breathtaking.
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♪ ♪
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[bird chirping]
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I realized over
the last week or so that
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I have been holding back,
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kind of protecting myself.
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Just trying to make sense
of all my feelings.
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I'm really hoping
that the overnights
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will give me some clarity.
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I do have a strong
physical connection
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with each of the three women
that are left.
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Susie,
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Gabby,
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and Rachel.
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And they all told me
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that they're falling in love
with me.
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I think I might be
falling in love
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with all three of these women.
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And I also might already
be in love with Susie.
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[dramatic music]
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I don't know.
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Can you fall in love multiple
times at the same time?
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I don't know.
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But I know it's time
to let my walls down,
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quit being guarded.
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This is the perfect week
to open up and be vulnerable.
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I'm done holding back.
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I am just so excited
to see these women.
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[clock ticking]
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- It's weird,
but I'm happy to see you all.
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- I know. I agree.
- Yeah, same.
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- I can't believe
there's three of us.
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- I know, it's crazy.
- I know.
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- I feel like we blinked and
all of a sudden, we're here.
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- I know.
- I know.
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- So naturally, I'm
having a panic attack, but...
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- Welcome to
the panic attack room.
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- Yeah.
- Yeah, literally.
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- We're all having one.
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- It's a big week.
- Yeah.
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- It's exciting, but I think
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there's a lot
of pressure there too.
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- I haven't dated anyone
for this long
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and, like, not have had kind
of, you know, like,
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just time alone, essentially.
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- So it's like much needed
in so many different ways.
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I mean, I don't want anything
to be off-limits between us.
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It's strange.
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[tense music]
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- I'm so excited
to spend some time
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with Clayton
in the Fantasy Suite.
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Really get to, like,
explore each other
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and give a taste of,
like, what it's gonna be like.
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Last week, I told Clayton
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I was falling in love with him,
which is definitely true.
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We just have so much
fun together and we're, like,
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so natural and
it's so easy between us.
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You know, I just feel like
in our body language,
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he always makes me feel,
like, loved.
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What we really do have
is really special and, like,
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I can't wait to see him
and have him all to myself.
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[knocking on door]
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- Hey.
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all: Hi.
- Hi!
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How's everybody feeling?
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- Good.
- Good!
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- Good.
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Well, congratulations
on making it to Iceland.
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You know,
when all this started,
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there were 30 women that
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didn't really know what they
were getting themselves into.
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And here we are,
there's three of you left.
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And within a matter of days,
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there's a really great chance
that one of you
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is going to be engaged
to Clayton.
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- Mm-hmm.
- This really is
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the most important week yet
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because over the next
couple of days,
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each of you will be embarking
on a meaningful
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and intimate overnight date
with Clayton.
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So, yes, I'm talking
about Fantasy Suites.
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If both you and Clayton accept
the key to the Fantasy Suite,
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you will be given private,
uninterrupted time.
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No cameras, no intrusions.
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Just the two of you alone.
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The time in that Fantasy Suite
could bring you two
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closer than you
ever thought possible.
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It could be the difference
between you leaving here alone
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or leaving Iceland
with Clayton.
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On that note,
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got the first
date card right here.
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I wish you all
the best of luck,
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and I hope to see you all at
the next Rose Ceremony.
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- Thanks.
- Thanks, Jesse.
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- Good luck.
- Thank you.
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- Yeah.
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- I feel like my connection
with Clayton is
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definitely something
I've never experienced before,
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and every time I'm with him,
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it changes and it just
gets better.
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If it's not me and him
at the end,
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I will be heartbroken.
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There's no way
around that at this point.
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- Oh, my gosh.
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- The dates this week
are so important.
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It could just completely
take us to the next level,
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and I want that so much.
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[soft, dramatic music]
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- Rachel.
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"Let's see how deep
our love can go.
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Love, Clayton."
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- [chuckles]
- [high-pitched] Oh, my gosh!
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- Thanks, guys.
- Yeah.
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- I'm definitely excited
to see him after Hometowns.
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I feel like we all have
so much to talk about,
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but, yeah, we'll see.
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I'm excited, really.
- Yeah.
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- [exhales]
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- I'm happy for you.
- Thank you.
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- Yes.
- Me too.
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- Yeah, it'll be nice.
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[clock ticking]
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- All right, well, I'm gonna
go get ready for the date.
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- Okay, have fun.
- I'll see you guys
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back at our--our house.
- Have fun, we love you.
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- Yeah.
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- Bye.
- Bye.
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- Oh, man.
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- This week's gonna be intense.
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There is, like,
such big decisions to be made.
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- Yeah.
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I can't possibly know,
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like, where Clayton's head
is at in this.
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If tonight goes really
well for Rachel, like,
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obviously they would be, like,
sharing intimate time together
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and, like, that would be, like,
a really tough pill to swallow.
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- I don't know how Clayton
feels about these other women,
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but in my head, it's me at
the end of this with Clayton.
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I can see myself getting
engaged to this man.
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I can see myself
having a family with him,
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but I'm hoping
that he takes, like,
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physical intimacy
as seriously as I do.
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[dramatic music]
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Sex is incredibly important
in a relationship,
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but it's something that
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I only do with people
that I have
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some form of commitment with.
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If I find out
that he's falling in love
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with other women
or that he has become
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physically intimate
with another woman,
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that would be devastating.
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This week seems impossible,
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and I don't know
how to get through this.
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[lively music]
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[geese honking]
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[bike bell rings]
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- It feels really good
to get the first overnight.
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I'm really excited
to see Clayton
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and I already feel like we
have such a great connection.
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And the more I'm with him,
the more I see an engagement.
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For it to be this close,
it's just--it's terrifying.
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[dramatic music]
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My fears going into today
are kinda just all stemming
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off of how uneasy I felt
after the Rose Ceremony.
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I got the last rose
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and I truly felt
in that moment
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that he was about
to send me home.
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This week is so huge.
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Fantasy Suites.
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I mean, you could walk
out of it stronger than ever
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or maybe realizing
it wouldn't work
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and that's really scary.
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So I'm just hoping that today,
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he tells me that he
is falling in love with me.
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[laughs] Hi.
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[dramatic music]
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- Mm.
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How are you doing?
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- I really missed you.
- Yeah?
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I missed you too.
- I'm so excited to be here.
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- I know, like, we're in...
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I mean, look at this.
- We're in Iceland.
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- First off, look at the view,
it's ridiculous.
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Anywhere you look,
it is absolutely beautiful.
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- I know.
- I am extremely excited today.
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Do you have any clue
what we're about to do?
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- No.
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- You don't?
- Mm-mm.
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- But you're excited.
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- I'm so excited.
- Okay,
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you ready to go see
what we're gonna do?
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- Yes, show me.
- Okay.
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All right, let's go.
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[soft music]
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This way.
- What are we doing?
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Tell me.
- I can't.
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- Why?
- 'Cause it's so much better
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if I don't tell you.
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- [gasps]
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00:10:40,440 --> 00:10:41,841
- So...
- Oh, my gosh.
259
00:10:41,908 --> 00:10:43,910
- Iceland is great,
but what better way
260
00:10:43,977 --> 00:10:46,779
to see it than a helicopter?
261
00:10:46,846 --> 00:10:49,582
[whirring]
262
00:10:49,649 --> 00:10:50,583
- [gasps]
263
00:10:50,650 --> 00:10:52,085
This is gonna be so cool.
264
00:10:52,152 --> 00:10:53,286
- Just wait.
265
00:10:53,353 --> 00:10:55,088
Just wait.
266
00:10:55,155 --> 00:10:57,390
- Gosh.
- Going up.
267
00:10:57,457 --> 00:10:59,626
[dramatic music]
268
00:10:59,692 --> 00:11:01,261
I'm so excited to see Rachel.
269
00:11:01,327 --> 00:11:03,296
It's gonna
be absolutely mind-blowing
270
00:11:03,363 --> 00:11:05,398
to experience Iceland
with her,
271
00:11:05,465 --> 00:11:08,268
and I think it'll do
a lot for our relationship.
272
00:11:08,334 --> 00:11:11,671
- Oh, my gosh,
it's just so beautiful.
273
00:11:11,738 --> 00:11:13,273
- I love the mountains.
274
00:11:13,339 --> 00:11:15,675
Rachel's been all in
since the beginning,
275
00:11:15,742 --> 00:11:18,711
and so it allowed us to really
take our relationship
276
00:11:18,778 --> 00:11:22,115
to newer heights faster
than anybody else.
277
00:11:22,182 --> 00:11:24,851
Always feels like so long
from the last time I saw you.
278
00:11:24,918 --> 00:11:25,885
- I know.
279
00:11:25,952 --> 00:11:29,122
♪ ♪
280
00:11:29,189 --> 00:11:30,790
- Rachel and I
have the strongest
281
00:11:30,857 --> 00:11:33,059
physical connection.
282
00:11:33,126 --> 00:11:35,094
You can't separate us
if you tried.
283
00:11:35,161 --> 00:11:36,829
- This is a volcano.
284
00:11:36,896 --> 00:11:38,698
So this is
an ongoing eruption here.
285
00:11:38,765 --> 00:11:40,767
- Oh, wow, look at this.
This is actually really cool.
286
00:11:40,833 --> 00:11:42,535
- I'm glad we didn't miss it.
287
00:11:42,602 --> 00:11:45,205
- We have this explosive
connection and, you know,
288
00:11:45,271 --> 00:11:47,907
Rachel has told me she
is falling in love with me.
289
00:11:47,974 --> 00:11:50,143
I haven't told her that.
290
00:11:50,210 --> 00:11:52,212
I realize that if I
just keep holding back,
291
00:11:52,278 --> 00:11:55,648
I run the risk of Rachel maybe
losing some of the feelings.
292
00:11:55,715 --> 00:11:58,518
I know it's time
to let my walls down.
293
00:11:58,585 --> 00:12:00,787
And I hope
that I can do that today.
294
00:12:00,853 --> 00:12:05,758
♪ ♪
295
00:12:06,693 --> 00:12:07,627
I mean, look at this.
296
00:12:07,694 --> 00:12:09,095
You can't beat
a view like this.
297
00:12:09,162 --> 00:12:12,065
- I've never seen
anything like this.
298
00:12:20,707 --> 00:12:22,275
- All right, okay.
- We have things to do.
299
00:12:22,342 --> 00:12:24,344
- We can
do that all day, but...
300
00:12:25,511 --> 00:12:28,681
I wouldn't just
bring you up here
301
00:12:28,748 --> 00:12:30,450
for no reason.
- Mm-hmm.
302
00:12:30,516 --> 00:12:32,085
- That's actually a volcano.
303
00:12:32,151 --> 00:12:34,087
We're going inside of it.
304
00:12:34,153 --> 00:12:35,088
- [laughs]
305
00:12:35,154 --> 00:12:36,155
No way.
- We are,
306
00:12:36,222 --> 00:12:37,590
we are going inside of it,
307
00:12:37,657 --> 00:12:40,627
so let's go ahead
and--and head towards it.
308
00:12:40,693 --> 00:12:43,730
Can't believe that I'm
about to go into a volcano.
309
00:12:43,796 --> 00:12:45,498
It isn't active, obviously.
310
00:12:45,565 --> 00:12:47,133
It's extremely exciting.
311
00:12:47,200 --> 00:12:48,668
Ooh, look at this drop-off.
312
00:12:48,735 --> 00:12:50,536
- Do you want to slide down it?
313
00:12:50,603 --> 00:12:52,071
- Can't wait to see
what the inside looks like.
314
00:12:52,138 --> 00:12:55,241
I can only imagine,
but it's 400 feet down.
315
00:12:55,308 --> 00:12:56,242
Wow.
316
00:12:56,309 --> 00:12:57,343
[machinery clunking]
317
00:12:58,711 --> 00:13:00,880
Ooh-hoo-hoo!
- Right?
318
00:13:00,947 --> 00:13:02,415
- Here we go.
319
00:13:05,018 --> 00:13:07,520
- Like, it just drops
on the way down.
320
00:13:07,587 --> 00:13:09,889
- When it comes to Rachel,
I--I realized that
321
00:13:09,956 --> 00:13:12,592
I was holding back 'cause I
was just protecting myself.
322
00:13:12,659 --> 00:13:15,495
I have to start going
deeper with our relationship
323
00:13:15,561 --> 00:13:20,466
and that's what today's about,
no matter how scary it is.
324
00:13:20,533 --> 00:13:22,769
- Ooh!
- Down into the depths.
325
00:13:22,835 --> 00:13:25,772
[water dripping]
326
00:13:25,838 --> 00:13:27,707
I know, like,
what's at stake today,
327
00:13:27,774 --> 00:13:30,510
and I'm nervous, I'm scared.
328
00:13:31,811 --> 00:13:32,779
Really, if you look
straight down,
329
00:13:32,845 --> 00:13:34,514
there's just nothing.
330
00:13:34,580 --> 00:13:36,316
- Wow.
331
00:13:36,382 --> 00:13:37,317
[tense music]
332
00:13:37,383 --> 00:13:38,484
- Oh.
333
00:13:38,551 --> 00:13:40,186
[laughs]
That is far.
334
00:13:40,253 --> 00:13:41,788
You know,
who knows how much more
335
00:13:41,854 --> 00:13:45,625
this relationship can grow
once I open up and go deeper?
336
00:13:45,692 --> 00:13:47,994
I think that's been overdue,
it's long overdue.
337
00:13:48,061 --> 00:13:49,762
- This is so cool.
338
00:13:52,565 --> 00:13:55,468
[majestic music]
339
00:13:55,535 --> 00:13:57,270
♪ ♪
340
00:13:57,337 --> 00:13:59,505
- Absolutely ridiculous.
341
00:14:01,040 --> 00:14:03,076
- [chuckles]
342
00:14:03,142 --> 00:14:07,113
- I think I am
falling for Rachel.
343
00:14:07,180 --> 00:14:09,916
I look at how she
continually expresses herself.
344
00:14:09,982 --> 00:14:12,051
She shows me so much love.
345
00:14:12,118 --> 00:14:14,287
- [giggles]
- Blowing my mind.
346
00:14:14,354 --> 00:14:17,357
I'm gonna try to dive
into that fully.
347
00:14:17,423 --> 00:14:19,058
But, like, in the same way
that it's scary
348
00:14:19,125 --> 00:14:21,894
to drop down
into a 400 foot hole,
349
00:14:21,961 --> 00:14:24,664
opening up is--it's just hard.
350
00:14:24,731 --> 00:14:25,898
400 feet down.
351
00:14:25,965 --> 00:14:28,301
And touching down,
there it is.
352
00:14:28,368 --> 00:14:30,536
- Man, this is so cool.
353
00:14:30,603 --> 00:14:33,706
- It's nothing that
you'd ever think you'd do.
354
00:14:33,773 --> 00:14:35,475
We're 400 feet down.
355
00:14:35,541 --> 00:14:38,711
[water dripping]
356
00:14:38,778 --> 00:14:40,146
- In Iceland.
357
00:14:40,213 --> 00:14:42,715
I'm really happy to be here,
honestly.
358
00:14:43,850 --> 00:14:47,120
I feel like, after Hometowns,
it just, like,
359
00:14:47,186 --> 00:14:50,256
feels, like, incredible.
360
00:14:50,323 --> 00:14:52,358
- Yeah, that was great.
That felt like forever ago,
361
00:14:52,425 --> 00:14:53,559
but it was really
just last week.
362
00:14:53,626 --> 00:14:54,694
- I know.
363
00:14:54,761 --> 00:14:55,828
How was everything?
364
00:14:55,895 --> 00:14:58,197
Like, do you have
any other, like,
365
00:14:58,264 --> 00:15:01,300
questions, like, after,
like, talking to everyone?
366
00:15:01,367 --> 00:15:02,835
- [sniffs]
Um...
367
00:15:02,902 --> 00:15:04,771
No, I feel like,
honestly, I think it, like,
368
00:15:04,837 --> 00:15:07,306
went very well.
369
00:15:07,373 --> 00:15:09,108
- I know.
I was very impressed by you.
370
00:15:09,175 --> 00:15:11,511
They're normally not
that impressed by anyone.
371
00:15:11,577 --> 00:15:12,945
- They were--they were tough.
- They could've given you
372
00:15:13,012 --> 00:15:14,847
a little bit more, but...
- You think?
373
00:15:14,914 --> 00:15:16,416
- Yes.
- I think they were tough.
374
00:15:16,482 --> 00:15:17,750
- You did?
- Yeah.
375
00:15:17,817 --> 00:15:19,986
I thought I was, like,
going into a firing squad.
376
00:15:20,052 --> 00:15:23,623
And I came out, you know,
pretty--pretty not too bad, so.
377
00:15:23,689 --> 00:15:25,425
- I think the one thing
I wanted, like,
378
00:15:25,491 --> 00:15:29,462
going in to the entire week
was just for them to see me
379
00:15:29,529 --> 00:15:30,863
and, like, know how I felt.
380
00:15:30,930 --> 00:15:32,064
And I feel like
they really did.
381
00:15:32,131 --> 00:15:33,332
- Yeah.
- Like, every single person
382
00:15:33,399 --> 00:15:34,434
that saw me there, like,
383
00:15:34,500 --> 00:15:35,835
"We've never seen you
like this."
384
00:15:35,902 --> 00:15:37,370
For them to see how I felt.
385
00:15:37,437 --> 00:15:39,005
- Yeah.
- Because I know,
386
00:15:39,071 --> 00:15:40,840
like, how I feel.
387
00:15:40,907 --> 00:15:42,608
It was just really nice
and to have, like,
388
00:15:42,675 --> 00:15:43,776
to share it with you.
389
00:15:43,843 --> 00:15:45,411
- Yeah, but it--for me too.
390
00:15:45,478 --> 00:15:47,146
Like, it was--like,
391
00:15:47,213 --> 00:15:48,681
yes, it was tough, but they--
392
00:15:48,748 --> 00:15:50,116
I really felt like,
you know, it was all a lot
393
00:15:50,183 --> 00:15:51,517
of great conversations
394
00:15:51,584 --> 00:15:53,519
and it was a really good,
uh, visit.
395
00:15:53,586 --> 00:15:56,889
- So you don't have any,
like, reservations or anything?
396
00:15:56,956 --> 00:15:58,191
- No.
- No?
397
00:16:00,293 --> 00:16:01,461
- Yeah.
398
00:16:01,527 --> 00:16:02,728
What?
- What?
399
00:16:02,795 --> 00:16:04,263
[giggles]
400
00:16:04,330 --> 00:16:07,667
[romantic music]
401
00:16:07,733 --> 00:16:11,037
I want him to open up,
and he hasn't yet.
402
00:16:12,171 --> 00:16:14,340
It still was
an incredible day and I'm--
403
00:16:14,407 --> 00:16:17,376
I'm really excited to,
you know, go into the night,
404
00:16:17,443 --> 00:16:19,579
have, you know,
some conversations.
405
00:16:19,645 --> 00:16:21,481
- All right,
should we get off this rock?
406
00:16:21,547 --> 00:16:24,917
- But I still think there are
things I want to talk about
407
00:16:25,017 --> 00:16:27,620
just because
I really truly feel like
408
00:16:27,687 --> 00:16:31,290
I have done nothing
but be vulnerable
409
00:16:31,357 --> 00:16:33,025
this entire time,
and I need him
410
00:16:33,092 --> 00:16:35,895
to just give
a little bit back.
411
00:16:35,962 --> 00:16:38,264
My hopes are that
I can get what I need
412
00:16:38,331 --> 00:16:40,333
to move forward
into Fantasy Suites.
413
00:16:40,399 --> 00:16:43,703
If I don't, I'm really worried
that our relationship,
414
00:16:43,769 --> 00:16:45,071
it's not meant to be.
415
00:16:45,137 --> 00:16:47,473
♪ ♪
416
00:16:49,942 --> 00:16:52,278
[tense music]
417
00:16:52,345 --> 00:16:54,780
- Feel like
it's very strange times.
418
00:16:54,847 --> 00:16:56,115
- Yeah.
419
00:16:56,182 --> 00:16:58,851
Of course, they're
gonna go to Fantasy Suites.
420
00:16:58,918 --> 00:17:00,152
I think all of us are.
421
00:17:00,219 --> 00:17:02,688
- Mm-hmm.
- But I want the person
422
00:17:02,755 --> 00:17:05,157
I'm gonna be with to explore
other relationships.
423
00:17:05,224 --> 00:17:06,959
- Mm-hmm.
- And to on purpose choose me.
424
00:17:07,026 --> 00:17:09,228
- Mm-hmm.
- Like, I want him to be able
425
00:17:09,295 --> 00:17:10,429
to explore everything.
426
00:17:10,496 --> 00:17:12,064
Like, I really do.
- Mm-hmm.
427
00:17:12,131 --> 00:17:14,934
- Like, truly getting
to know us inside and out.
428
00:17:14,967 --> 00:17:16,736
Just to see what it feels like.
429
00:17:16,802 --> 00:17:19,472
I'm like, "Do it."
430
00:17:19,539 --> 00:17:22,108
- I don't know that I feel
the same way where I'm, like,
431
00:17:22,174 --> 00:17:24,210
I didn't even really, like,
432
00:17:24,277 --> 00:17:27,780
comprehend the gravity of it
until this second.
433
00:17:27,847 --> 00:17:29,248
I don't know if he can
434
00:17:29,315 --> 00:17:30,883
fall in love
with multiple people at once
435
00:17:30,950 --> 00:17:32,151
and, like, I don't know
if he's falling in love
436
00:17:32,218 --> 00:17:33,619
with any one of us,
like, I don't know.
437
00:17:33,686 --> 00:17:35,154
I haven't heard from him
if he is.
438
00:17:35,221 --> 00:17:37,056
And, like, Rachel's
literally gonna have
439
00:17:37,123 --> 00:17:42,161
that clarity or at least
some aspect of it tonight.
440
00:17:42,228 --> 00:17:46,265
♪ ♪
441
00:17:52,071 --> 00:17:54,073
- You look nice.
442
00:17:54,140 --> 00:17:56,108
- Thank you.
You look beautiful as always.
443
00:17:56,175 --> 00:17:57,510
- Oh, thank you.
444
00:18:00,346 --> 00:18:02,949
We had such an incredible day.
445
00:18:03,015 --> 00:18:05,084
I'm just so happy and, like,
446
00:18:05,151 --> 00:18:07,320
living in the moment
and it just feels amazing.
447
00:18:07,386 --> 00:18:09,689
- Let's go.
448
00:18:09,755 --> 00:18:11,190
- I love Clayton.
449
00:18:11,257 --> 00:18:15,661
I can definitely see him
being my future husband.
450
00:18:15,728 --> 00:18:17,730
[soft music]
451
00:18:17,797 --> 00:18:22,168
I feel that I have
constantly pushed myself
452
00:18:22,234 --> 00:18:25,137
to be completely
open and vulnerable.
453
00:18:25,204 --> 00:18:29,141
But I don't know how he feels.
454
00:18:29,208 --> 00:18:33,112
I definitely do need to have
that two-way relationship,
455
00:18:33,179 --> 00:18:36,082
so I don't know if I
would be able to go
456
00:18:36,148 --> 00:18:39,685
into Fantasy Suite not
knowing where he's at at all.
457
00:18:39,752 --> 00:18:43,189
- Today was great as always.
458
00:18:43,255 --> 00:18:44,323
- It was
the most incredible date,
459
00:18:44,390 --> 00:18:46,826
and I was not
expecting it at all.
460
00:18:46,892 --> 00:18:49,929
It really felt like we were,
like, on a different planet.
461
00:18:49,996 --> 00:18:53,566
- That's what's so great
is we always have so much fun.
462
00:18:53,633 --> 00:18:55,101
- I know, and I feel like
463
00:18:55,167 --> 00:18:58,838
we have had such an incredible
connection, like, day one.
464
00:18:58,904 --> 00:19:00,840
- Mm-hmm.
- Like, and I've always, like,
465
00:19:00,906 --> 00:19:01,974
told you that.
466
00:19:02,041 --> 00:19:03,209
- It's just crazy.
467
00:19:03,275 --> 00:19:04,844
I dunno, this whole thing
has been crazy.
468
00:19:04,910 --> 00:19:07,780
- I know.
- How it happened so quickly
469
00:19:07,847 --> 00:19:09,915
that, like, it didn't almost
make sense.
470
00:19:09,982 --> 00:19:11,784
- Yeah, like, you know,
the way I feel,
471
00:19:11,851 --> 00:19:14,420
I've never in my life
felt before.
472
00:19:14,487 --> 00:19:15,521
- Mm-hmm.
- And I think it's because you
473
00:19:15,588 --> 00:19:17,823
continuously, like, push me.
474
00:19:17,890 --> 00:19:20,292
Then, like, going into
Croatia and, like,
475
00:19:20,359 --> 00:19:21,727
telling you how I felt
and, like,
476
00:19:21,794 --> 00:19:23,362
how I was falling for you.
477
00:19:23,429 --> 00:19:28,567
And after Hometowns,
I was so happy and so excited.
478
00:19:28,634 --> 00:19:31,871
But during the Rose Ceremony,
479
00:19:31,937 --> 00:19:35,274
I felt like I ha--couldn't
breathe.
480
00:19:35,341 --> 00:19:37,009
And I was standing there
481
00:19:37,076 --> 00:19:39,311
and I--I couldn't read you.
482
00:19:39,378 --> 00:19:41,714
And I feel like I normally can
and I was--I remember,
483
00:19:41,781 --> 00:19:43,716
like, looking at you.
484
00:19:43,783 --> 00:19:46,786
And, like, I genuinely
was terrified.
485
00:19:46,852 --> 00:19:48,587
I don't even remember, like,
486
00:19:48,654 --> 00:19:50,156
those moments of you
calling my name
487
00:19:50,222 --> 00:19:54,593
because I was so shocked
488
00:19:54,660 --> 00:19:56,362
that I could get to that
point of thinking
489
00:19:56,429 --> 00:19:59,765
that you were about to
walk me out and how it
490
00:19:59,832 --> 00:20:04,003
actually felt like a heartbreak
before it even happened.
491
00:20:04,070 --> 00:20:07,940
It really did put
everything into perspective
492
00:20:08,007 --> 00:20:09,709
of how I actually feel
493
00:20:09,775 --> 00:20:13,946
and I did, I cried
the entire drive to the hotel
494
00:20:14,013 --> 00:20:15,581
'cause I was like,
I don't know where he's at,
495
00:20:15,648 --> 00:20:17,049
I don't know.
496
00:20:17,116 --> 00:20:19,418
- [inhales]
Yeah, um...
497
00:20:19,485 --> 00:20:22,254
[soft music]
498
00:20:25,157 --> 00:20:29,095
Yeah, I think honestly...
499
00:20:29,161 --> 00:20:30,663
I mean, I definitely
have had something,
500
00:20:30,730 --> 00:20:32,064
you know,
kind of weighing on me.
501
00:20:32,131 --> 00:20:33,866
- Mm-hmm.
502
00:20:33,933 --> 00:20:36,469
- I, uh, I don't feel like
503
00:20:36,535 --> 00:20:39,438
I was--been able to be
like 100% transparent,
504
00:20:39,505 --> 00:20:41,273
like, when I was
with your family.
505
00:20:41,340 --> 00:20:43,375
- Mm-hmm.
506
00:20:43,442 --> 00:20:47,413
- And I've kind of come
507
00:20:47,480 --> 00:20:51,050
to terms with, like,
what I am feeling.
508
00:20:53,319 --> 00:20:56,455
And I kind of wish I had
told you earlier.
509
00:20:56,522 --> 00:20:59,091
And I was kind of
holding on to it.
510
00:20:59,158 --> 00:21:01,460
So...
511
00:21:01,527 --> 00:21:03,829
I'll just come out and say,
like...
512
00:21:05,765 --> 00:21:08,501
I'm falling in love with you.
513
00:21:08,567 --> 00:21:11,337
I am, and I haven't--
514
00:21:11,403 --> 00:21:14,640
- You just scared me.
I was like...
515
00:21:14,707 --> 00:21:17,209
My--do you know how cold
my hands are?
516
00:21:17,276 --> 00:21:18,477
- [chuckles]
517
00:21:18,544 --> 00:21:23,082
I realize that I have
been feeling this way
518
00:21:23,149 --> 00:21:26,685
for probably a couple weeks,
if not more.
519
00:21:26,752 --> 00:21:29,155
But part of me was scared
because I hadn't
520
00:21:29,221 --> 00:21:31,991
felt those feelings
for over five or six years
521
00:21:32,057 --> 00:21:33,592
since my last relationship.
522
00:21:33,659 --> 00:21:36,395
So thank you
for being patient with me.
523
00:21:36,462 --> 00:21:38,297
- Of course.
- I'm just glad, obviously,
524
00:21:38,364 --> 00:21:39,999
I could finally tell you,
because it's like
525
00:21:40,065 --> 00:21:41,567
a weight on my shoulders
and I'm just happy
526
00:21:41,634 --> 00:21:42,735
'cause I've been
wanting to say it.
527
00:21:42,802 --> 00:21:44,336
- I'm glad you finally did,
528
00:21:44,403 --> 00:21:48,073
because I feel so much better.
529
00:21:48,140 --> 00:21:51,010
[romantic music]
530
00:21:51,076 --> 00:21:55,381
♪ ♪
531
00:21:55,447 --> 00:21:58,551
To finally see him
be vulnerable
532
00:21:58,617 --> 00:22:02,555
and to hear that he is also
falling in love with me
533
00:22:02,621 --> 00:22:06,992
is the most incredible feeling.
534
00:22:07,059 --> 00:22:10,796
It just feels like
I'm dreaming.
535
00:22:12,731 --> 00:22:15,901
I feel incredibly close
to him to know that
536
00:22:15,968 --> 00:22:19,004
all of my feelings
are reciprocated
537
00:22:19,071 --> 00:22:21,407
and going forward,
538
00:22:21,473 --> 00:22:24,743
I'm ready for
whatever happens tonight.
539
00:22:24,810 --> 00:22:26,679
- I have something for you.
540
00:22:26,745 --> 00:22:29,148
♪ ♪
541
00:22:36,488 --> 00:22:37,990
- Oh.
542
00:22:40,292 --> 00:22:42,695
"Clayton and Rachel,
543
00:22:42,761 --> 00:22:46,498
"from high in the sky
to far beneath the ground,
544
00:22:46,565 --> 00:22:49,902
"your day has been
nothing short of breathtaking.
545
00:22:49,969 --> 00:22:53,639
"Should you choose to forgo
your individual rooms,
546
00:22:53,706 --> 00:22:56,475
"please use this key to stay
547
00:22:56,542 --> 00:22:59,511
"as a couple
in the Fantasy Suite.
548
00:22:59,578 --> 00:23:02,147
Jesse."
549
00:23:02,214 --> 00:23:06,285
Going into tonight,
I really did need an answer
550
00:23:06,352 --> 00:23:08,654
from you, and I think you
551
00:23:08,721 --> 00:23:11,090
surpassed every expectation
always.
552
00:23:11,156 --> 00:23:13,692
And I feel very confident that
553
00:23:13,759 --> 00:23:18,130
we should definitely
stay tonight together.
554
00:23:18,197 --> 00:23:20,099
- [chuckles]
555
00:23:20,165 --> 00:23:21,533
- I feel like I have
556
00:23:21,600 --> 00:23:24,703
searched my whole life
to feel this way.
557
00:23:24,770 --> 00:23:26,205
- Get outta here?
558
00:23:26,272 --> 00:23:29,575
- It feels amazing and
almost too good to be true.
559
00:23:29,642 --> 00:23:32,678
I don't think it's a question
in either of our minds
560
00:23:32,745 --> 00:23:35,180
that we're going to be
physically,
561
00:23:35,247 --> 00:23:37,716
you know, very intimate.
562
00:23:37,783 --> 00:23:41,120
The Fantasy Suite
will change everything.
563
00:23:44,023 --> 00:23:46,258
- All right, here it is.
564
00:23:46,325 --> 00:23:48,227
The Fantasy Suite.
565
00:23:48,294 --> 00:23:50,062
- Ooh.
566
00:23:50,129 --> 00:23:52,231
- Gonna, uh,
check it out a little bit.
567
00:23:52,298 --> 00:23:53,699
It's really exciting
568
00:23:53,766 --> 00:23:56,268
for me to finally be fully
vulnerable myself
569
00:23:56,335 --> 00:23:58,037
and to tell her, like,
say the words,
570
00:23:58,103 --> 00:23:59,471
"I'm falling in love
with you."
571
00:23:59,538 --> 00:24:01,774
- Kitchen. We can cook
breakfast in the morning.
572
00:24:01,840 --> 00:24:03,008
- Yeah.
573
00:24:03,075 --> 00:24:04,510
This girl is beyond special,
like,
574
00:24:04,576 --> 00:24:06,312
she has it all.
575
00:24:06,378 --> 00:24:08,881
I love the fact
that when I see her
576
00:24:08,948 --> 00:24:10,582
she just has this little grin
on her face.
577
00:24:10,649 --> 00:24:12,151
- Ready?
- Yeah.
578
00:24:14,119 --> 00:24:15,554
[mouth full]
You gotta let go of it.
579
00:24:15,621 --> 00:24:16,922
[giggling]
580
00:24:16,989 --> 00:24:18,457
There's just this feeling
she gives me
581
00:24:18,524 --> 00:24:20,426
that pulls me in.
582
00:24:22,328 --> 00:24:24,797
Hopefully we are falling
more in love tomorrow morning
583
00:24:24,863 --> 00:24:27,199
than we were tonight.
584
00:24:27,266 --> 00:24:28,867
[triumphant music]
585
00:24:28,934 --> 00:24:31,437
- I don't know how Clayton
feels about Rachel,
586
00:24:31,503 --> 00:24:34,673
but it's very intimidating,
like, to think about.
587
00:24:34,740 --> 00:24:36,041
- Right.
- I think I would, like,
588
00:24:36,108 --> 00:24:38,310
want to know his intentions
on everything.
589
00:24:38,377 --> 00:24:39,979
On every action
he makes this week,
590
00:24:40,045 --> 00:24:42,081
I just--I would just want
to know his intentions on it.
591
00:24:42,147 --> 00:24:45,250
- Yeah, and I think, like,
592
00:24:45,317 --> 00:24:48,620
he's always spoke
really loud with his actions.
593
00:24:48,687 --> 00:24:49,989
- Yeah.
594
00:24:50,055 --> 00:24:52,324
If Clayton is feeling
that, like, intuition
595
00:24:52,391 --> 00:24:54,693
that I'm feeling
in this relationship
596
00:24:54,760 --> 00:24:58,931
that, like, I see myself
at the end of this with him,
597
00:24:58,998 --> 00:24:59,932
I think sex would be, like,
598
00:24:59,999 --> 00:25:01,500
a really big boundary to cross.
599
00:25:01,567 --> 00:25:04,536
- [giggling]
600
00:25:04,603 --> 00:25:06,805
- And I am still really
confident in who he is.
601
00:25:06,872 --> 00:25:09,675
I'm not making any
assumptions at this point,
602
00:25:09,742 --> 00:25:12,778
but if Clayton
603
00:25:12,845 --> 00:25:15,047
thinks that it's me
at the end of this...
604
00:25:15,114 --> 00:25:16,415
- [gasps]
605
00:25:16,482 --> 00:25:17,683
- And then proceeds
606
00:25:17,750 --> 00:25:21,020
to sleep with another woman,
like, anyways...
607
00:25:23,088 --> 00:25:26,191
I would have
a really hard time
608
00:25:26,258 --> 00:25:27,960
moving forward with him.
609
00:25:28,027 --> 00:25:31,764
♪ ♪
610
00:25:33,732 --> 00:25:36,735
[birds chirping]
611
00:25:38,470 --> 00:25:41,306
[ducks quacking]
612
00:25:56,922 --> 00:26:01,760
- It is absolutely incredible
to finally
613
00:26:01,827 --> 00:26:04,096
wake up next to you.
614
00:26:04,163 --> 00:26:07,166
- I mean, just to me it was,
like, so special
615
00:26:07,232 --> 00:26:11,403
to, like, wake up
and, like, have you be, like,
616
00:26:11,470 --> 00:26:13,138
on my shoulder which
is a little dead, but whatever.
617
00:26:13,205 --> 00:26:14,239
- I'm sorry!
618
00:26:14,306 --> 00:26:15,808
[laughter]
619
00:26:15,874 --> 00:26:19,545
- Rachel and I had
a near-perfect night together.
620
00:26:19,611 --> 00:26:21,780
Everything went exactly
as I hoped it would go.
621
00:26:21,847 --> 00:26:26,518
We talked about so much,
we had a strong connection.
622
00:26:26,585 --> 00:26:28,420
It felt like a dream.
623
00:26:28,487 --> 00:26:31,190
- It's been
a really long journey
624
00:26:31,256 --> 00:26:34,626
since stepping out of the limo.
625
00:26:34,693 --> 00:26:38,163
And now we're in Iceland,
and I'm in love with you.
626
00:26:38,230 --> 00:26:40,466
- It just--like I said,
it doesn't feel real.
627
00:26:40,532 --> 00:26:41,600
- Mm-mm.
628
00:26:41,667 --> 00:26:43,669
You make it easy.
629
00:26:43,735 --> 00:26:45,003
- Everything with us is easy.
630
00:26:45,070 --> 00:26:46,538
- Yeah, it is.
631
00:26:46,605 --> 00:26:47,806
- It really is.
632
00:26:47,873 --> 00:26:49,675
[romantic music]
633
00:26:49,741 --> 00:26:52,611
I know how I feel right now.
634
00:26:52,678 --> 00:26:54,980
I do love Rachel.
635
00:26:55,047 --> 00:26:59,384
And it's just scary,
'cause it's like
636
00:26:59,451 --> 00:27:01,820
I've never been so open.
637
00:27:01,887 --> 00:27:03,355
I just have to follow my heart
638
00:27:03,422 --> 00:27:06,458
and my heart is telling me
that I'm in love with her.
639
00:27:06,525 --> 00:27:07,860
All right, should we go
make some breakfast?
640
00:27:07,926 --> 00:27:09,128
- Mm-hmm.
- Yeah.
641
00:27:09,194 --> 00:27:11,663
- [giggles]
642
00:27:11,730 --> 00:27:13,866
[romantic music]
643
00:27:13,932 --> 00:27:17,336
- I just couldn't have
imagined it going any better,
644
00:27:17,402 --> 00:27:19,605
and I just feel
like our relationship
645
00:27:19,671 --> 00:27:22,407
is on an entirely
new level now.
646
00:27:22,474 --> 00:27:24,109
[giggles]
647
00:27:31,049 --> 00:27:32,784
Intimacy is really important
648
00:27:32,851 --> 00:27:35,921
in a relationship and so,
649
00:27:35,988 --> 00:27:38,590
yeah, it was a good night.
650
00:27:38,657 --> 00:27:41,994
That's all I have to say.
651
00:27:42,060 --> 00:27:44,997
[sweeping music]
652
00:27:45,063 --> 00:27:49,134
♪ ♪
653
00:27:49,201 --> 00:27:50,869
Hey!
654
00:27:50,936 --> 00:27:53,405
I love you!
655
00:27:53,472 --> 00:27:55,541
- I love you too, Rachel!
656
00:27:55,607 --> 00:27:56,675
♪ ♪
657
00:27:56,742 --> 00:27:59,011
All the time!
658
00:27:59,077 --> 00:28:01,380
I'm gonna miss you.
659
00:28:01,446 --> 00:28:04,283
- This morning,
it was so perfect,
660
00:28:04,349 --> 00:28:06,752
and it's like
I will hold onto that
661
00:28:06,818 --> 00:28:08,420
for the rest of my life.
662
00:28:08,487 --> 00:28:11,423
For--yeah, forever.
It's incredible.
663
00:28:11,490 --> 00:28:13,692
I feel like you do not
get moments like that
664
00:28:13,759 --> 00:28:15,194
in life a lot.
665
00:28:15,260 --> 00:28:17,429
Yeah, I'm definitely
gonna hold on to it.
666
00:28:17,496 --> 00:28:20,532
[bell tolling]
667
00:28:26,638 --> 00:28:28,974
- I didn't sleep great.
668
00:28:29,041 --> 00:28:31,343
I woke up in the middle of
the night and I'm just, like,
669
00:28:31,410 --> 00:28:33,512
running every possible
scenario
670
00:28:33,579 --> 00:28:34,513
through my head, like--
671
00:28:34,580 --> 00:28:35,681
- Yeah.
- Every which way
672
00:28:35,747 --> 00:28:37,683
this week could go.
- Yeah.
673
00:28:37,749 --> 00:28:40,352
- No one knows what's going on
674
00:28:40,419 --> 00:28:41,954
literally behind closed doors
at this point.
675
00:28:42,020 --> 00:28:44,856
- Yeah.
- So it's, like, to assume--
676
00:28:44,923 --> 00:28:46,792
it's--it makes it worse
for yourself.
677
00:28:46,858 --> 00:28:48,527
- Yeah, totally, yeah.
- So I think we'll
678
00:28:48,594 --> 00:28:50,495
pick up on some vibes for sure.
679
00:28:50,562 --> 00:28:51,763
- Right.
- But, like, I don't think--
680
00:28:51,830 --> 00:28:53,732
I'm not gonna try
to read into it too much.
681
00:28:53,799 --> 00:28:55,500
- Yeah, me either.
682
00:28:55,567 --> 00:28:57,336
- Mm-hmm.
683
00:28:57,402 --> 00:28:59,738
[soft music]
684
00:28:59,805 --> 00:29:01,240
To me, Clayton
is like the person
685
00:29:01,306 --> 00:29:03,842
that I want to get engaged to.
686
00:29:03,909 --> 00:29:06,311
But, like, I don't know
what happened last night.
687
00:29:06,378 --> 00:29:08,213
Like, obviously,
their relationship
688
00:29:08,280 --> 00:29:10,549
probably reached new levels.
689
00:29:10,616 --> 00:29:13,585
And, like, it's very possible
that they had sex.
690
00:29:13,652 --> 00:29:16,288
It's possible that he
told her he loved her.
691
00:29:16,355 --> 00:29:18,390
But I just feel like
692
00:29:18,457 --> 00:29:22,361
I would be crazy to assume
anything, in my opinion.
693
00:29:22,427 --> 00:29:25,163
Or maybe I'm crazy
to assume that they didn't.
694
00:29:25,230 --> 00:29:26,965
But there's obviously
a part of me that's hoping
695
00:29:27,032 --> 00:29:28,934
that they didn't because,
like...
696
00:29:31,470 --> 00:29:34,072
That would suck,
you know?
697
00:29:36,942 --> 00:29:37,876
[door opening]
- [gasps]
698
00:29:37,943 --> 00:29:39,611
Hi!
699
00:29:39,678 --> 00:29:41,280
- [giggles]
- Hi.
700
00:29:41,346 --> 00:29:42,814
- You look so cute.
- How are you?
701
00:29:42,881 --> 00:29:45,350
- Look at you.
- Oh, hello.
702
00:29:45,417 --> 00:29:46,385
- How's it going?
703
00:29:46,451 --> 00:29:49,354
- Hi, guys.
- Hi.
704
00:29:49,421 --> 00:29:50,622
- What'd you do?
705
00:29:50,689 --> 00:29:52,090
Do you wanna tell us,
like, what your date was?
706
00:29:52,157 --> 00:29:54,559
- Yeah, so we went,
like, in a ca--
707
00:29:54,626 --> 00:29:56,228
like, down a volcano, like,
in a cave.
708
00:29:56,295 --> 00:29:59,564
It was fun.
- Mm.
709
00:30:02,167 --> 00:30:04,636
- I know this is really awkward
and I respect you guys so much.
710
00:30:04,703 --> 00:30:05,771
- Same.
- I know.
711
00:30:05,837 --> 00:30:06,905
- We all respect each other.
- Yeah.
712
00:30:06,972 --> 00:30:09,141
Yeah.
- I'm really sorry in advance.
713
00:30:09,207 --> 00:30:13,545
[tense music]
714
00:30:13,612 --> 00:30:14,980
I think it's just gonna be
a tough week
715
00:30:15,047 --> 00:30:16,281
for all of us having
716
00:30:16,348 --> 00:30:18,483
to, you know, see all of us
come home
717
00:30:18,550 --> 00:30:20,252
because it is a--
it's a big night.
718
00:30:20,319 --> 00:30:24,222
- Yeah.
- But yeah, it was nice.
719
00:30:24,289 --> 00:30:25,657
Yeah.
720
00:30:26,591 --> 00:30:28,093
- Rachel seemed
to have clarity.
721
00:30:28,160 --> 00:30:31,129
She seemed happy.
722
00:30:31,196 --> 00:30:33,332
But, like...
723
00:30:35,901 --> 00:30:38,870
[tearfully] There was, like,
that side of me that
724
00:30:38,937 --> 00:30:41,840
just kept thinking, like,
so much has happened.
725
00:30:41,907 --> 00:30:44,109
[sobs]
726
00:30:44,176 --> 00:30:48,246
I haven't ever met
someone like Clayton.
727
00:30:48,313 --> 00:30:50,315
I do have, like, you know,
high hopes,
728
00:30:50,382 --> 00:30:52,718
but right now,
729
00:30:52,784 --> 00:30:56,088
it just feels, like, too good
to be true, you know?
730
00:30:56,154 --> 00:30:59,024
- I think
I'm gonna go get ready.
731
00:30:59,091 --> 00:31:00,559
I'll see you guys soon.
- Yes.
732
00:31:00,625 --> 00:31:01,727
- Have fun.
733
00:31:01,793 --> 00:31:03,528
See you.
734
00:31:03,595 --> 00:31:05,330
- Like,
I hope Clayton's for me.
735
00:31:05,397 --> 00:31:07,599
Like, I hope that--he's
like this person I've, like,
736
00:31:07,666 --> 00:31:09,267
dreamt of him being
and, like...
737
00:31:09,334 --> 00:31:10,802
[sniffles]
738
00:31:10,869 --> 00:31:13,338
That's the thing
is, like, you don't know.
739
00:31:13,405 --> 00:31:16,341
[somber music]
740
00:31:16,408 --> 00:31:19,177
♪ ♪
741
00:31:19,244 --> 00:31:21,947
- I felt so good after
742
00:31:22,013 --> 00:31:24,616
spending the night
with Rachel.
743
00:31:24,683 --> 00:31:26,051
It was perfect, it was perfect.
744
00:31:26,118 --> 00:31:28,453
There was nothing...
745
00:31:28,520 --> 00:31:29,988
there was nothing that
could've went
746
00:31:30,055 --> 00:31:33,158
any differently
or any better.
747
00:31:33,225 --> 00:31:34,626
And if it was just her,
748
00:31:34,693 --> 00:31:37,562
I would just be bouncing off
the walls and so excited
749
00:31:37,629 --> 00:31:40,832
to see what was gonna
happen next between us,
750
00:31:40,899 --> 00:31:42,167
but it's like
it's not just her.
751
00:31:42,234 --> 00:31:46,371
[somber music]
752
00:31:46,438 --> 00:31:48,673
I didn't know I was gonna say
I'm in love with Rachel,
753
00:31:48,740 --> 00:31:50,108
but, like, I meant it.
754
00:31:50,175 --> 00:31:52,043
That's why I said it.
755
00:31:52,110 --> 00:31:55,547
There's two other women
that I could also
756
00:31:55,614 --> 00:31:57,816
wake up feeling
the exact same way,
757
00:31:57,883 --> 00:31:59,684
because I just don't know
758
00:31:59,751 --> 00:32:02,120
what's gonna happen
in these next two overnights.
759
00:32:02,187 --> 00:32:03,455
There's the potential
760
00:32:03,522 --> 00:32:05,590
to be in love
with all three of them.
761
00:32:05,657 --> 00:32:10,162
And it's, like, so then what?
762
00:32:11,730 --> 00:32:15,367
That's the scary part
about it.
763
00:32:19,538 --> 00:32:22,240
[dramatic music]
764
00:32:22,307 --> 00:32:27,712
♪ ♪
765
00:32:27,779 --> 00:32:31,450
- I'm so excited to have my
overnight date with Clayton
766
00:32:31,516 --> 00:32:34,686
and get some intimate
one-on-one time.
767
00:32:34,753 --> 00:32:36,788
This date's important for us
768
00:32:36,855 --> 00:32:39,558
to continue to grow
and potentially take things
769
00:32:39,624 --> 00:32:41,827
to a whole new level.
770
00:32:41,893 --> 00:32:45,096
I just always feel better
when I'm in his presence.
771
00:32:45,163 --> 00:32:48,300
So I can't wait
to see him again.
772
00:32:48,366 --> 00:32:50,302
I don't know what
we're gonna be doing,
773
00:32:50,368 --> 00:32:53,605
but I obviously bundled
to stay warm.
774
00:32:53,672 --> 00:32:56,441
I was hoping
an Icelandic cruise
775
00:32:56,508 --> 00:32:59,244
with whale-watching and
strawberries and champagne.
776
00:32:59,311 --> 00:33:01,980
But I think, um, that's not it.
777
00:33:11,523 --> 00:33:14,726
[adventurous music]
778
00:33:14,793 --> 00:33:16,895
Oh, God, no.
779
00:33:19,631 --> 00:33:20,765
Oh, my God.
780
00:33:20,832 --> 00:33:21,900
[laughs]
781
00:33:21,967 --> 00:33:24,903
Oh, my God, this is crazy.
782
00:33:24,970 --> 00:33:26,438
- All right.
783
00:33:26,505 --> 00:33:28,206
- I'm so dead.
784
00:33:28,273 --> 00:33:31,376
[laughs]
785
00:33:31,443 --> 00:33:33,645
- Oh, wait.
786
00:33:33,712 --> 00:33:34,746
Helmet.
787
00:33:34,813 --> 00:33:36,081
- [laughs]
Hi.
788
00:33:36,147 --> 00:33:37,883
What is going on?
789
00:33:37,949 --> 00:33:39,117
It's so cold.
790
00:33:39,184 --> 00:33:40,519
[giggling]
791
00:33:40,585 --> 00:33:42,787
- It is freezing.
792
00:33:42,854 --> 00:33:44,222
- It's good to see you.
- Look at you all bundled up.
793
00:33:44,289 --> 00:33:45,290
- [laughs]
794
00:33:45,357 --> 00:33:47,259
- So welcome to Iceland.
- Thank you.
795
00:33:47,325 --> 00:33:48,627
- We're gonna go
explore the beach...
796
00:33:48,693 --> 00:33:50,629
- Uh-huh.
- In that, okay?
797
00:33:50,695 --> 00:33:51,696
- Okay.
- All right, ready to go?
798
00:33:51,763 --> 00:33:53,265
- Yeah.
- All right, let's do it.
799
00:33:53,331 --> 00:33:55,967
I'm extremely excited
to see Gabby today.
800
00:33:56,001 --> 00:33:58,136
I have a really,
really fun dune buggy date
801
00:33:58,203 --> 00:33:59,204
planned
for the two of us, so...
802
00:33:59,271 --> 00:34:00,405
You need a helmet.
803
00:34:00,472 --> 00:34:01,673
I'm really excited for it,
I can't wait.
804
00:34:01,740 --> 00:34:03,041
It's something I've never done.
805
00:34:03,909 --> 00:34:05,377
- This is crazy.
- There you go.
806
00:34:05,443 --> 00:34:07,345
Last week, Gabby told me she's
falling in love with me
807
00:34:07,412 --> 00:34:09,481
and that was nice to hear,
808
00:34:09,548 --> 00:34:11,983
because Gabby and I had a
slow start in our relationship
809
00:34:12,050 --> 00:34:13,718
as opposed to Rachel and Susie
who completely
810
00:34:13,785 --> 00:34:14,920
took off right out the gate.
811
00:34:15,921 --> 00:34:18,390
- Stop, you have to stop.
812
00:34:18,456 --> 00:34:20,025
- But with Gabby,
I continue to see
813
00:34:20,091 --> 00:34:21,560
this upward trajectory
814
00:34:21,626 --> 00:34:23,128
and it's, like,
we're not slowing down.
815
00:34:23,194 --> 00:34:24,930
I really love so many things
about her.
816
00:34:24,996 --> 00:34:27,232
And I'm excited to see,
like, what today brings.
817
00:34:27,299 --> 00:34:29,501
- You have to start off
in low gear.
818
00:34:29,568 --> 00:34:31,002
- No, stop!
- High it is.
819
00:34:31,069 --> 00:34:32,537
[buggy engine roars]
820
00:34:32,604 --> 00:34:33,672
And we're off!
- No, stop!
821
00:34:33,738 --> 00:34:35,440
- Whoo-hoo-hoo!
- Oh, my God!
822
00:34:35,507 --> 00:34:37,175
Oh, my God!
- Whoo!
823
00:34:37,242 --> 00:34:39,477
- Oh, my God,
this is so pretty.
824
00:34:39,544 --> 00:34:41,346
- Where's a ramp at?
We need to find a ramp.
825
00:34:41,413 --> 00:34:43,248
- [laughs]
826
00:34:43,315 --> 00:34:44,749
[shrieks]
827
00:34:44,816 --> 00:34:46,251
- Whoo-hoo-hoo!
- Which way are you dri--
828
00:34:46,318 --> 00:34:47,352
[screams]
- Whoa!
829
00:34:47,419 --> 00:34:48,553
[laughter]
830
00:34:48,620 --> 00:34:49,621
This thing is fast!
831
00:34:49,688 --> 00:34:51,423
- Don't go this way.
Go that way.
832
00:34:51,489 --> 00:34:53,191
I trust Clayton with my heart,
833
00:34:53,258 --> 00:34:56,328
but not so much when it comes
to, like, this buggy.
834
00:34:56,394 --> 00:34:58,330
He has this need for speed.
835
00:35:00,398 --> 00:35:03,101
[screaming]
836
00:35:03,168 --> 00:35:05,203
Oh, no!
837
00:35:05,270 --> 00:35:08,006
[imitating engine roaring]
838
00:35:08,073 --> 00:35:10,175
- Take it down by the water
a little bit?
839
00:35:10,241 --> 00:35:12,677
- Oh, my God,
it's so beautiful.
840
00:35:12,744 --> 00:35:14,145
♪ ♪
841
00:35:14,212 --> 00:35:16,314
I'm gonna cry.
842
00:35:16,381 --> 00:35:19,184
[serene music]
843
00:35:19,250 --> 00:35:21,953
It's, like,
such an amazing date.
844
00:35:22,020 --> 00:35:24,122
The terrain is very romantic.
845
00:35:24,189 --> 00:35:28,360
We're having so much fun
just, like, being kids.
846
00:35:28,426 --> 00:35:30,829
I can see us, like,
always playing around
847
00:35:30,895 --> 00:35:32,797
and living
some of our life like this.
848
00:35:32,864 --> 00:35:34,199
It's really so fun.
849
00:35:34,265 --> 00:35:35,467
- Do I get to drive?
850
00:35:35,533 --> 00:35:36,534
- Okay.
851
00:35:37,869 --> 00:35:38,837
- Being there
with Clayton, like,
852
00:35:38,903 --> 00:35:40,505
I just feel, like, so free.
853
00:35:40,572 --> 00:35:43,408
I love that he loves
adventure so much.
854
00:35:43,475 --> 00:35:45,110
He's just, like, so cute.
855
00:35:45,176 --> 00:35:46,211
- Here we go.
- [shrieks]
856
00:35:46,277 --> 00:35:48,279
- [laughs]
857
00:35:48,346 --> 00:35:50,248
Do a little turn.
858
00:35:50,315 --> 00:35:51,983
There we go.
859
00:35:52,050 --> 00:35:53,151
Push it.
860
00:35:53,218 --> 00:35:54,786
- I gave it the juice!
861
00:35:54,853 --> 00:35:57,355
- You're cutting these corners
way harder than I did.
862
00:35:57,422 --> 00:35:59,624
- She can't be stopped!
863
00:35:59,691 --> 00:36:01,159
- [laughs]
864
00:36:01,226 --> 00:36:03,061
- It's because of days
like this
865
00:36:03,128 --> 00:36:06,765
I can see myself with Clayton
for the rest of my life.
866
00:36:06,831 --> 00:36:10,268
I want him to know that
I am ready for our next step.
867
00:36:10,335 --> 00:36:12,837
Like, I want to be with him
at the end of this.
868
00:36:12,904 --> 00:36:14,506
That was fun.
869
00:36:14,572 --> 00:36:15,707
- Yeah, see?
870
00:36:15,774 --> 00:36:17,575
You were giving me trouble.
- [giggling]
871
00:36:17,642 --> 00:36:19,344
♪ ♪
872
00:36:19,411 --> 00:36:20,879
What'd you think of my family?
873
00:36:20,945 --> 00:36:22,947
I feel like we haven't
talked about Hometowns.
874
00:36:23,014 --> 00:36:24,482
- They were so much fun.
- Yeah.
875
00:36:24,549 --> 00:36:26,251
- They're--like, your grandpa
the second I walked in
876
00:36:26,317 --> 00:36:27,352
was just cracking jokes
right off the bat.
877
00:36:27,419 --> 00:36:29,287
- Mm-hmm.
- And it's so obvious,
878
00:36:29,354 --> 00:36:31,456
like, where you're--
you're coming from,
879
00:36:31,523 --> 00:36:32,590
I feel like I fit in.
880
00:36:32,657 --> 00:36:34,025
- Yeah, okay.
881
00:36:34,092 --> 00:36:35,660
- And--and obviously
like to see that,
882
00:36:35,727 --> 00:36:37,696
even if for a moment,
883
00:36:37,762 --> 00:36:39,230
was really special.
- Yeah.
884
00:36:39,297 --> 00:36:40,899
I feel like it went, like,
so well.
885
00:36:40,965 --> 00:36:45,203
But then after,
I was, like, very emotional.
886
00:36:45,270 --> 00:36:48,907
Because, like, I realized
how serious things were getting
887
00:36:48,973 --> 00:36:52,610
and obviously, I didn't have
any expectations coming here.
888
00:36:52,677 --> 00:36:54,145
So, like, each week has always
889
00:36:54,212 --> 00:36:56,214
exceeded any kind
of expectation,
890
00:36:56,281 --> 00:36:58,717
but I also didn't, like,
891
00:36:58,783 --> 00:37:02,487
have the expectation of,
like, being so, like, scared
892
00:37:02,554 --> 00:37:05,356
just because, you know,
like, what's at stake.
893
00:37:05,423 --> 00:37:08,126
Especially after seeing
my family, honestly.
894
00:37:08,193 --> 00:37:09,627
- Yeah, I feel like
895
00:37:09,694 --> 00:37:12,030
we're all realizing, like, how
emotionally invested, like,
896
00:37:12,097 --> 00:37:13,565
this has--this journey
has been.
897
00:37:13,631 --> 00:37:15,166
- Yeah.
- And I think it is
898
00:37:15,233 --> 00:37:17,535
really natural to have us
even start to be fearful.
899
00:37:17,602 --> 00:37:19,771
Like, I'm--I'm fearful
in my own ways.
900
00:37:19,838 --> 00:37:21,940
- Yeah, I'm sure.
- Knowing, like, that there's,
901
00:37:22,006 --> 00:37:24,275
like, the emotions are getting
stronger and stronger.
902
00:37:24,342 --> 00:37:26,044
- Yeah.
- And it's--it is scary
903
00:37:26,111 --> 00:37:27,879
but I think it's also
at the end of it
904
00:37:27,946 --> 00:37:29,414
it'll be very rewarding
905
00:37:29,481 --> 00:37:31,516
but it's not easy.
- Totally.
906
00:37:31,583 --> 00:37:33,818
I know that I could end up,
like, heartbroken
907
00:37:33,885 --> 00:37:36,087
and that's scary as hell
to think about.
908
00:37:36,154 --> 00:37:40,859
But like, I trust you
and if I do end up at the end,
909
00:37:40,925 --> 00:37:42,093
I don't want it to be because
910
00:37:42,160 --> 00:37:44,062
you didn't explore
your options, you know?
911
00:37:44,129 --> 00:37:45,430
- Yeah.
- Like, I want it to be
912
00:37:45,497 --> 00:37:49,768
because you did and with that,
like, you chose me.
913
00:37:49,834 --> 00:37:52,370
- Mm-hmm.
- Like, I'm ready,
914
00:37:52,437 --> 00:37:54,773
you know,
and I don't know if I've
915
00:37:54,839 --> 00:37:56,875
been like this, like,
this vocal about it before.
916
00:37:56,941 --> 00:37:58,343
I'm sure I haven't.
[chuckles]
917
00:37:58,409 --> 00:38:02,547
But like, I am,
you know, and like,
918
00:38:02,614 --> 00:38:07,452
I feel like I want you
to know that, like...
919
00:38:07,519 --> 00:38:10,321
- I really do appreciate
you telling me all this
920
00:38:10,388 --> 00:38:11,990
because it's good that I know
where you're at mentally.
921
00:38:12,056 --> 00:38:14,459
- Mm-hmm.
- And yes,
922
00:38:14,526 --> 00:38:15,860
you can protect yourself
923
00:38:15,927 --> 00:38:17,695
and not say something,
but like,
924
00:38:17,762 --> 00:38:18,997
on the reverse side of it,
925
00:38:19,063 --> 00:38:20,465
it's like what happens
if I don't say this?
926
00:38:20,532 --> 00:38:22,000
Then, like walls go back up.
927
00:38:22,066 --> 00:38:23,268
- Yeah.
928
00:38:23,334 --> 00:38:25,270
- One of us had to start
opening up, right?
929
00:38:25,336 --> 00:38:26,538
- Yeah.
- It was you.
930
00:38:26,604 --> 00:38:28,339
- Mm-hmm.
- Like, you opened up
931
00:38:28,406 --> 00:38:29,407
and, like, now we're here.
932
00:38:29,474 --> 00:38:30,775
Like, that's why we're here.
933
00:38:30,842 --> 00:38:32,043
- Totally.
- That is why,
934
00:38:32,110 --> 00:38:35,647
so I really do
appreciate it so much.
935
00:38:35,713 --> 00:38:37,982
- [chuckles]
936
00:38:38,049 --> 00:38:41,452
[serene music]
937
00:38:41,519 --> 00:38:43,855
- Today's date
went great with Gabby.
938
00:38:43,922 --> 00:38:46,057
It was about as perfect
as it gets.
939
00:38:46,124 --> 00:38:48,793
I love that she's able to be
vulnerable and doesn't
940
00:38:48,860 --> 00:38:53,164
have to just put up her, like,
funny front to be around me.
941
00:38:53,231 --> 00:38:57,435
And she's shown me so much,
she's given me everything.
942
00:38:57,502 --> 00:38:59,571
It makes me feel
vulnerable and emotional.
943
00:38:59,637 --> 00:39:01,840
It's really a great sign
of where we're at.
944
00:39:01,906 --> 00:39:04,309
It's just, like,
I have the feelings there,
945
00:39:04,375 --> 00:39:07,645
and I'm not gonna fight it.
946
00:39:07,712 --> 00:39:10,148
You know,
I'm falling in love with her.
947
00:39:10,215 --> 00:39:12,217
♪ ♪
948
00:39:15,486 --> 00:39:18,556
[bell tolling]
949
00:39:22,961 --> 00:39:26,064
[soft music]
950
00:39:26,130 --> 00:39:28,600
♪ ♪
951
00:39:28,666 --> 00:39:30,668
- [gasps]
952
00:39:32,804 --> 00:39:35,573
[giggles]
953
00:39:35,640 --> 00:39:36,574
Hi.
- How are you doing?
954
00:39:36,641 --> 00:39:37,742
You look great.
955
00:39:37,809 --> 00:39:39,110
- You do too.
956
00:39:39,177 --> 00:39:41,112
- Thank you.
957
00:39:44,349 --> 00:39:45,316
Ready to go inside?
958
00:39:45,383 --> 00:39:46,484
- Yeah.
- All right, let's go.
959
00:39:46,551 --> 00:39:47,952
[laughter]
960
00:39:48,019 --> 00:39:49,854
- Going into dinner tonight
961
00:39:49,921 --> 00:39:52,824
after a really
great day together
962
00:39:52,891 --> 00:39:55,894
feels like a dream.
963
00:39:55,960 --> 00:39:57,528
I know it's a day
we'll never forget.
964
00:39:57,595 --> 00:39:59,631
And tonight is another
chance to, like,
965
00:39:59,697 --> 00:40:01,633
bond us deeper.
966
00:40:01,699 --> 00:40:03,801
I told Clayton that I
was falling in love with him
967
00:40:03,868 --> 00:40:07,205
last week at Hometowns,
so it would really mean
968
00:40:07,272 --> 00:40:11,676
so much to, you know,
for him to say it back.
969
00:40:11,743 --> 00:40:13,077
- Such a fun day, like.
- So much fun.
970
00:40:13,144 --> 00:40:15,213
- Yeah.
It was really, really cool.
971
00:40:15,280 --> 00:40:16,814
Even considering,
like, the elements.
972
00:40:16,881 --> 00:40:18,783
Like, it was just, like,
I've never seen weather
973
00:40:18,850 --> 00:40:20,051
be so all over the place.
974
00:40:20,118 --> 00:40:21,486
- [giggles]
- Like, it was freezing.
975
00:40:21,552 --> 00:40:22,687
- I thought you were
talking about me for a second.
976
00:40:22,754 --> 00:40:23,721
- No, not you.
- I'm like, that answer...
977
00:40:23,788 --> 00:40:24,789
- You could switch gears,
though.
978
00:40:24,856 --> 00:40:26,090
- I did.
- You went from being, like,
979
00:40:26,157 --> 00:40:27,325
"You're crazy, like,
what are you doing?"
980
00:40:27,392 --> 00:40:28,726
to like all of a sudden
putting your hands
981
00:40:28,793 --> 00:40:29,861
on the wheel
and there's fire in your eyes.
982
00:40:29,928 --> 00:40:30,862
I was like, "Oh, no."
983
00:40:30,929 --> 00:40:33,765
[laughter]
984
00:40:33,831 --> 00:40:36,401
No, I really thought that
the talk we had
985
00:40:36,467 --> 00:40:37,769
at that little, like, diner
986
00:40:37,835 --> 00:40:40,738
was just, like, so natural
and it just flowed.
987
00:40:40,805 --> 00:40:43,408
And it was, like,
everything that you said
988
00:40:43,474 --> 00:40:44,776
I thought at
one time or another.
989
00:40:44,842 --> 00:40:47,045
- Yeah, I feel the same.
990
00:40:47,111 --> 00:40:49,414
I know, it's so nice
that we both are able
991
00:40:49,480 --> 00:40:50,982
to open that line
of communication.
992
00:40:51,049 --> 00:40:52,350
- Yeah.
- 'Cause, like,
993
00:40:52,417 --> 00:40:55,186
the men I've been in
relationships with in the past
994
00:40:55,253 --> 00:40:57,922
just expected me to be, like,
the fun Gabby
995
00:40:57,989 --> 00:41:01,159
and, like, not have
any other sides to me.
996
00:41:01,225 --> 00:41:05,196
But, like, you saw that there's
a lot of different sides to me
997
00:41:05,263 --> 00:41:07,065
that I, like,
want to be able to show people.
998
00:41:07,131 --> 00:41:08,833
- Yeah.
- But also, you hear me
999
00:41:08,900 --> 00:41:10,535
and, like, that speaks volumes.
1000
00:41:10,601 --> 00:41:11,703
Like, you're even, like,
willing
1001
00:41:11,769 --> 00:41:13,438
to have those conversations
and, like,
1002
00:41:13,504 --> 00:41:16,174
go those places with me.
- Yeah.
1003
00:41:16,240 --> 00:41:17,508
Yeah, absolutely, I mean,
I--I just
1004
00:41:17,575 --> 00:41:21,279
talking about, like,
not holding back.
1005
00:41:21,346 --> 00:41:22,647
I've been proud of you
for, like,
1006
00:41:22,714 --> 00:41:24,415
going through all this
and hearing about your past
1007
00:41:24,482 --> 00:41:27,185
and what you've dealt with
to get to this point.
1008
00:41:27,251 --> 00:41:29,954
- Yeah.
- And you've opened up more
1009
00:41:30,021 --> 00:41:31,322
and more every single time.
1010
00:41:31,389 --> 00:41:34,158
And to hear the word,
like, love.
1011
00:41:34,225 --> 00:41:35,526
You know, I--when you said it,
it was like,
1012
00:41:35,593 --> 00:41:36,828
that's not holding back.
1013
00:41:36,894 --> 00:41:38,363
Like, that's being all in.
1014
00:41:38,429 --> 00:41:40,031
- Yeah.
1015
00:41:40,098 --> 00:41:42,033
- And I can't believe at times
that, like,
1016
00:41:42,100 --> 00:41:44,402
I'm fortunate enough to, like,
be receiving
1017
00:41:44,469 --> 00:41:46,604
that kind of love and so I--
I really just want to say
1018
00:41:46,671 --> 00:41:48,873
thank you so much
because now it's really
1019
00:41:48,940 --> 00:41:50,475
shown me, I was like,
"Wow, like,
1020
00:41:50,541 --> 00:41:52,110
this is something special."
1021
00:41:52,176 --> 00:41:53,644
- Oh, my God.
1022
00:41:53,711 --> 00:41:56,714
- And you've really
allowed me to get there as well
1023
00:41:56,781 --> 00:41:59,817
because I was so afraid.
- Yeah.
1024
00:41:59,884 --> 00:42:06,024
- And, you know, because
of that, you know, I've--I've
1025
00:42:06,090 --> 00:42:11,796
realized that, like, you know,
I'm falling in love with you.
1026
00:42:11,863 --> 00:42:14,198
I am--I really am.
1027
00:42:14,265 --> 00:42:16,434
And it wasn't just like
something I came to today.
1028
00:42:16,501 --> 00:42:18,936
I'd had these feelings,
I just wasn't allowing myself
1029
00:42:19,003 --> 00:42:21,606
to, like, admit it
because I was so fearful
1030
00:42:21,672 --> 00:42:23,074
from, like,
my past relationship.
1031
00:42:23,141 --> 00:42:25,510
I mean, I've been dying.
- Thank you.
1032
00:42:25,576 --> 00:42:28,146
♪ ♪
1033
00:42:28,212 --> 00:42:30,148
- It just feels right
to tell Gabby
1034
00:42:30,214 --> 00:42:34,185
I'm falling in love with her
and not hold back any longer.
1035
00:42:34,252 --> 00:42:36,554
I'm not going to fight
the feelings anymore.
1036
00:42:36,621 --> 00:42:38,790
We were both slow to open up,
but yet we're exactly
1037
00:42:38,856 --> 00:42:40,191
where we need to be.
1038
00:42:40,258 --> 00:42:42,960
She's just as excited
to hear it as I am to say it.
1039
00:42:43,027 --> 00:42:45,430
Like, it's beautiful, and it
just makes me extremely happy.
1040
00:42:47,832 --> 00:42:49,567
I have something for you.
1041
00:42:50,768 --> 00:42:56,340
♪ ♪
1042
00:42:56,407 --> 00:43:00,278
- "Clayton and Gabby,
today you forged your own path
1043
00:43:00,344 --> 00:43:04,115
to love on the beautiful
black sand beaches of Iceland."
1044
00:43:04,182 --> 00:43:06,250
- Ooh!
1045
00:43:06,317 --> 00:43:10,021
- "Should you choose to forgo
your individual rooms..."
1046
00:43:10,088 --> 00:43:11,956
Oh, my God, it's so cute!
1047
00:43:12,023 --> 00:43:13,357
"Please use this key
1048
00:43:13,424 --> 00:43:16,994
to stay as a couple
in the Fantasy Suite."
1049
00:43:17,061 --> 00:43:18,196
Oh, my God.
- With a hot tub.
1050
00:43:18,262 --> 00:43:20,131
- [gasps]
- Look at this.
1051
00:43:20,198 --> 00:43:21,532
- Oh, my God...
1052
00:43:21,599 --> 00:43:22,967
both: Oh...
1053
00:43:23,034 --> 00:43:24,769
- Oh, my God,
strawberries and champagne.
1054
00:43:24,836 --> 00:43:26,871
- In Iceland
in a friggin' igloo.
1055
00:43:26,938 --> 00:43:29,040
- This is amazing.
- This is crazy.
1056
00:43:29,107 --> 00:43:34,011
- It's amazing to hear Clayton
is falling in love with me,
1057
00:43:34,078 --> 00:43:37,515
especially on a night
that we get some time alone.
1058
00:43:37,582 --> 00:43:39,951
It feels so right,
like, it feels like
1059
00:43:40,051 --> 00:43:42,687
we're in the right
place at the right time
1060
00:43:42,753 --> 00:43:45,556
and opening a new door
to our relationship.
1061
00:43:45,623 --> 00:43:49,494
- Oh, we are doing it
in style tonight.
1062
00:43:49,560 --> 00:43:51,896
- We're just connecting
on, like, a whole new level.
1063
00:43:51,963 --> 00:43:57,301
♪ ♪
1064
00:43:57,368 --> 00:44:00,304
[uneasy music]
1065
00:44:00,371 --> 00:44:06,777
♪ ♪
1066
00:44:06,844 --> 00:44:09,347
- I'm just spiraling
emotionally
1067
00:44:09,413 --> 00:44:13,284
thinking through
the worst-case scenario.
1068
00:44:13,351 --> 00:44:15,720
Whether it's, like,
Clayton falling in love
1069
00:44:15,786 --> 00:44:18,923
or him being physically
intimate with Gabby.
1070
00:44:18,990 --> 00:44:20,057
[sniffling]
1071
00:44:20,124 --> 00:44:22,994
I can't, like,
grasp the concept of it.
1072
00:44:26,998 --> 00:44:31,369
For me, sex is connective
with somebody.
1073
00:44:31,435 --> 00:44:33,838
I just hope that, like,
Clayton's on the same page
1074
00:44:33,905 --> 00:44:36,274
and sees it
from my perspective.
1075
00:44:36,340 --> 00:44:37,842
If that's--I don't even--
1076
00:44:37,909 --> 00:44:39,544
I'm talking as if
it's, like, the reality.
1077
00:44:39,610 --> 00:44:42,280
I don't really know
what's happening.
1078
00:44:42,346 --> 00:44:49,320
♪ ♪
1079
00:44:49,387 --> 00:44:53,057
It would suck to, like, not
end up with Clayton, like...
1080
00:44:53,124 --> 00:44:55,860
- Keep the fire hot.
I got you.
1081
00:44:58,596 --> 00:45:01,032
- I value him and I
cherish him and, like,
1082
00:45:01,098 --> 00:45:06,337
have love for him in my heart,
but I don't know what to do.
1083
00:45:06,404 --> 00:45:11,008
I just feel sad,
'cause I feel like it's ending.
1084
00:45:15,780 --> 00:45:18,716
[soft music]
1085
00:45:18,783 --> 00:45:23,054
♪ ♪
1086
00:45:23,120 --> 00:45:24,689
- I remember
just waking up, like,
1087
00:45:24,755 --> 00:45:26,824
where all the covers went,
like, I don't know if
1088
00:45:26,891 --> 00:45:28,693
you were kicking them off
or what happened.
1089
00:45:28,759 --> 00:45:30,061
Were you throwing them?
Were you sabotaging me?
1090
00:45:30,127 --> 00:45:32,763
- Not intentionally.
- Yeah.
1091
00:45:32,830 --> 00:45:33,998
That was a great night.
1092
00:45:34,065 --> 00:45:35,466
I used to be able
to, like, fall asleep, like,
1093
00:45:35,533 --> 00:45:37,902
to the rain was--it's, like,
one of my favorite things.
1094
00:45:37,969 --> 00:45:39,103
- Me too.
- Yeah.
1095
00:45:39,170 --> 00:45:40,705
- I know.
1096
00:45:40,771 --> 00:45:47,011
♪ ♪
1097
00:45:47,078 --> 00:45:50,548
- Last night really
was just so special.
1098
00:45:50,615 --> 00:45:53,317
Like, it didn't feel
like the first time
1099
00:45:53,384 --> 00:45:54,885
with somebody new.
1100
00:45:54,952 --> 00:45:59,023
It felt like the comfortability
of, like, home.
1101
00:45:59,090 --> 00:46:01,292
[laughing]
- Look what I brought.
1102
00:46:01,359 --> 00:46:02,627
- Oh, my God!
1103
00:46:02,693 --> 00:46:04,028
Champagne for breakfast!
1104
00:46:04,095 --> 00:46:05,630
It feels just,
like, fun for us,
1105
00:46:05,696 --> 00:46:09,467
like, no pressure,
we're able to laugh together.
1106
00:46:09,533 --> 00:46:11,002
Where's yours?
1107
00:46:11,068 --> 00:46:12,870
[laughter]
1108
00:46:12,937 --> 00:46:15,072
- Oh, you're gonna
put this all down?
1109
00:46:15,139 --> 00:46:16,374
- Yeah.
1110
00:46:16,440 --> 00:46:18,476
It just feels like
everything's gonna work out.
1111
00:46:18,542 --> 00:46:21,045
- Falling in love
is effortless with you
1112
00:46:21,112 --> 00:46:23,347
and I just want
to cheers to that.
1113
00:46:23,414 --> 00:46:25,850
- Aw, you're so sweet.
1114
00:46:27,752 --> 00:46:30,721
- With Gabby,
I really just am at peace.
1115
00:46:30,788 --> 00:46:33,291
Things with Gabby are easy,
like, they're easy
1116
00:46:33,357 --> 00:46:35,293
and they just fit,
they make sense.
1117
00:46:35,359 --> 00:46:37,061
There's no, like, fear,
1118
00:46:37,128 --> 00:46:38,562
there's no pressure,
there's no stress.
1119
00:46:38,629 --> 00:46:41,666
It's just like,
let's just continue to grow.
1120
00:46:41,732 --> 00:46:44,702
Last night,
I had so much fun with you,
1121
00:46:44,769 --> 00:46:48,439
more than I could have ever
expected and it feels so right.
1122
00:46:48,506 --> 00:46:51,042
- Mm.
1123
00:46:51,108 --> 00:46:53,778
Thank you.
1124
00:46:53,844 --> 00:46:57,748
You're easy
to fall in love with.
1125
00:46:57,815 --> 00:46:59,617
- I am falling
more in love with her
1126
00:46:59,684 --> 00:47:01,786
with every moment
that we have.
1127
00:47:01,852 --> 00:47:05,089
Okay, well, I have to go.
- Okay.
1128
00:47:05,156 --> 00:47:08,592
- See you later.
- Okay--okay, bye!
1129
00:47:10,995 --> 00:47:14,665
- Walking away this morning,
it's hard,
1130
00:47:14,732 --> 00:47:18,869
but it feels really good to be
able to tell Gabby my feelings
1131
00:47:18,936 --> 00:47:22,106
and not hold back any longer
on what she means to me.
1132
00:47:22,173 --> 00:47:23,874
Hey, Gabby, one more thing.
1133
00:47:23,941 --> 00:47:26,544
I just want you to know
1134
00:47:26,610 --> 00:47:32,016
that I am falling in love,
and it feels so good.
1135
00:47:32,083 --> 00:47:33,417
- [laughs]
1136
00:47:33,484 --> 00:47:39,090
♪ ♪
1137
00:47:42,226 --> 00:47:44,095
- These mornings
are so awkward, like,
1138
00:47:44,161 --> 00:47:45,830
I know she's
gonna feel awkward.
1139
00:47:45,896 --> 00:47:49,100
How are you feeling
having to watch this again?
1140
00:47:49,166 --> 00:47:51,369
I mean, I'm--I know
how tough it feels right now.
1141
00:47:51,435 --> 00:47:52,803
I can't imagine you're...
1142
00:47:52,870 --> 00:47:56,240
- Yeah, I don't know,
I'm just--I'm getting through.
1143
00:47:56,307 --> 00:47:58,242
- I don't know how
you're doing it because--
1144
00:47:58,309 --> 00:47:59,977
[door opens]
Oh.
1145
00:48:00,044 --> 00:48:04,548
all: Hi!
- You guys look cute.
1146
00:48:04,615 --> 00:48:08,285
- So do you,
you look so comfy-cozy.
1147
00:48:11,922 --> 00:48:14,291
Welcome home.
- Thank you.
1148
00:48:14,358 --> 00:48:15,726
- How was it?
- It was good.
1149
00:48:15,793 --> 00:48:17,661
- What'd you guys
end up doing?
1150
00:48:17,728 --> 00:48:20,364
- We rode dune buggies...
- What?
1151
00:48:20,431 --> 00:48:22,366
- On the black sand beaches.
[both gasp]
1152
00:48:22,433 --> 00:48:26,170
Yeah, I was scared
'cause he's a maniac.
1153
00:48:26,237 --> 00:48:28,105
- Oh, my God!
1154
00:48:28,172 --> 00:48:31,509
- And then we stayed
in, like--like a yurt.
1155
00:48:31,575 --> 00:48:32,877
Like, have you seen
one of those yurts?
1156
00:48:32,943 --> 00:48:34,278
- Oh, really?
1157
00:48:34,345 --> 00:48:37,815
- It was small,
but there was, like, a huge bed
1158
00:48:37,882 --> 00:48:39,850
in the middle
just, like, with all these,
1159
00:48:39,917 --> 00:48:42,052
like, cute blankets
and stuff, but...
1160
00:48:42,119 --> 00:48:43,521
- It sounds beautiful.
1161
00:48:43,587 --> 00:48:45,923
- It was really beautiful,
like, you felt pretty remote.
1162
00:48:45,990 --> 00:48:47,825
- That's cool.
1163
00:48:49,326 --> 00:48:51,362
- Yeah, so...
1164
00:48:52,797 --> 00:48:56,767
- She got bed-head.
- Yeah.
1165
00:48:56,834 --> 00:48:59,537
This is always a mess.
1166
00:49:02,273 --> 00:49:04,675
Is it okay?
- Mm-hmm.
1167
00:49:06,343 --> 00:49:08,813
I'm just, like,
kind of freaking out.
1168
00:49:08,879 --> 00:49:11,649
I'm in the dark.
I don't know what happened.
1169
00:49:11,715 --> 00:49:16,487
Nobody's, like, sharing
what he's expressed to them.
1170
00:49:18,556 --> 00:49:21,792
Like, it's very possible
that Clayton's either, like,
1171
00:49:21,859 --> 00:49:23,260
falling in love
with somebody else
1172
00:49:23,327 --> 00:49:26,163
or has been, like,
physically intimate
1173
00:49:26,230 --> 00:49:27,898
with somebody else and, like,
1174
00:49:27,965 --> 00:49:30,568
just ready to know,
like, if...
1175
00:49:30,634 --> 00:49:33,504
Clayton and I
are moving forward.
1176
00:49:33,571 --> 00:49:40,611
♪ ♪
1177
00:49:44,148 --> 00:49:46,383
I don't want to cry.
1178
00:49:48,319 --> 00:49:50,454
There's no reason to be crying.
I don't know anything.
1179
00:49:50,521 --> 00:49:51,956
Like, I literally don't know.
1180
00:49:52,022 --> 00:49:56,594
But, like, at this point,
it's all confusing.
1181
00:49:56,660 --> 00:49:58,929
I just want to get
to the bottom of everything.
1182
00:49:58,996 --> 00:50:06,003
♪ ♪
1183
00:50:08,239 --> 00:50:10,341
- Last night,
it felt like a dream,
1184
00:50:10,407 --> 00:50:13,844
the whole night did,
the morning did.
1185
00:50:13,911 --> 00:50:15,679
And then, all of a sudden,
1186
00:50:15,746 --> 00:50:18,115
everything came
crashing back in.
1187
00:50:21,185 --> 00:50:22,620
I've now realized
I've told two women
1188
00:50:22,686 --> 00:50:24,355
I'm in love with them.
1189
00:50:24,421 --> 00:50:28,125
I also know that I could
feel that way with Susie.
1190
00:50:28,192 --> 00:50:31,095
And so now, a thousand percent,
1191
00:50:31,161 --> 00:50:33,998
I'm going to absolutely
shatter somebody.
1192
00:50:36,433 --> 00:50:38,636
Like, I just don't
want to hurt anybody...
1193
00:50:43,574 --> 00:50:45,643
And I'm going to.
1194
00:50:46,810 --> 00:50:49,446
Like, I wanted to fall
in love, but I just
1195
00:50:49,513 --> 00:50:52,082
didn't want to fall in love
with multiple people.
1196
00:50:52,149 --> 00:50:55,119
[tense music]
1197
00:50:55,185 --> 00:51:01,959
♪ ♪
1198
00:51:03,327 --> 00:51:06,263
[dramatic music]
1199
00:51:07,197 --> 00:51:14,204
♪ ♪
1200
00:51:14,371 --> 00:51:16,407
- It's absolutely
crazy to think that
1201
00:51:16,473 --> 00:51:18,375
I could be
in love with three women.
1202
00:51:18,442 --> 00:51:20,744
I'm just very confused.
1203
00:51:20,811 --> 00:51:23,314
I told Rachel
that I was in love.
1204
00:51:23,380 --> 00:51:25,649
Gabby, I told her
I was in love with her.
1205
00:51:25,716 --> 00:51:28,285
And then today is
the overnight date with Susie.
1206
00:51:28,352 --> 00:51:29,987
I'm so excited.
1207
00:51:30,054 --> 00:51:32,790
This is, you know,
someone that really was
1208
00:51:32,856 --> 00:51:37,261
the first person that I started
to have feelings of love for.
1209
00:51:37,328 --> 00:51:39,363
And I just hope that
when I'm with her today
1210
00:51:39,430 --> 00:51:43,000
that we can continue to, like,
pick up where we left off.
1211
00:51:43,067 --> 00:51:48,005
♪ ♪
1212
00:51:48,072 --> 00:51:50,941
- This whole week has been
one of the most challenging
1213
00:51:51,008 --> 00:51:52,543
in my life.
1214
00:51:52,610 --> 00:51:54,044
I'm just in a dark place.
1215
00:51:54,111 --> 00:51:56,981
I just want to get
to the bottom of everything.
1216
00:51:59,450 --> 00:52:02,286
It's very possible
that he is falling in love
1217
00:52:02,353 --> 00:52:04,822
with the other women.
1218
00:52:04,888 --> 00:52:06,457
I'm, like,
struggling emotionally,
1219
00:52:06,523 --> 00:52:08,392
but at the same time, like,
1220
00:52:08,459 --> 00:52:10,995
I'm not taking on
the assumption of anything
1221
00:52:11,061 --> 00:52:13,297
at this point.
1222
00:52:13,364 --> 00:52:16,867
I'm going to go into the date
obviously hoping for the best
1223
00:52:16,934 --> 00:52:18,235
and, like, hoping
that I've just been, like,
1224
00:52:18,302 --> 00:52:21,372
worked up and, like, distraught
over this for no reason.
1225
00:52:21,438 --> 00:52:23,440
So I just hope
I can be comfortable
1226
00:52:23,507 --> 00:52:24,742
and, like, relax today.
1227
00:52:24,808 --> 00:52:29,647
[wind whistling]
1228
00:52:32,483 --> 00:52:33,851
- [laughs]
1229
00:52:33,917 --> 00:52:36,186
- I can't even do anything.
1230
00:52:36,253 --> 00:52:39,390
- Are you gonna make it here?
- I can't even make this cute!
1231
00:52:41,525 --> 00:52:42,860
This is too crazy!
1232
00:52:42,926 --> 00:52:44,028
- Do the jump.
1233
00:52:44,094 --> 00:52:46,664
- No. How's it going?
1234
00:52:46,730 --> 00:52:48,365
- [laughing] Good.
1235
00:52:49,500 --> 00:52:52,936
- I can't do it,
but I'm happy to see you.
1236
00:52:54,405 --> 00:52:57,608
Oh, my God, it's hailing!
What's happening here?
1237
00:52:57,675 --> 00:52:59,176
- Well, welcome to Iceland.
1238
00:52:59,243 --> 00:53:01,612
I am so excited
to be here with you,
1239
00:53:01,679 --> 00:53:04,281
and my only question is,
do you have a swimsuit?
1240
00:53:04,348 --> 00:53:05,482
- Yes.
- Okay.
1241
00:53:05,549 --> 00:53:07,651
All right, well, let's go.
- Okay, let's go.
1242
00:53:07,718 --> 00:53:09,453
- I'm really excited.
1243
00:53:09,520 --> 00:53:11,321
We have a really
fun day planned
1244
00:53:11,388 --> 00:53:14,091
that's going to really
allow us to see Iceland
1245
00:53:14,158 --> 00:53:15,859
and what it's
really known for.
1246
00:53:15,926 --> 00:53:17,594
- I'm ready to go inside.
1247
00:53:17,661 --> 00:53:18,862
- What do
you think we're doing?
1248
00:53:18,929 --> 00:53:19,963
- I don't know,
this looks like a--
1249
00:53:20,030 --> 00:53:20,964
- What does
this look like to you?
1250
00:53:21,031 --> 00:53:23,400
- A hobbit hole,
but like modern.
1251
00:53:23,467 --> 00:53:26,336
- Today we'll be going
to the Sky Lagoon,
1252
00:53:26,403 --> 00:53:29,506
which is a hot springs.
1253
00:53:29,573 --> 00:53:31,175
So there's a ritual
at the lagoon
1254
00:53:31,241 --> 00:53:34,578
to kind of go through different
steps of a process towards,
1255
00:53:34,645 --> 00:53:36,513
like, really full rejuvenation.
1256
00:53:36,580 --> 00:53:39,049
- I feel better inside already.
1257
00:53:39,116 --> 00:53:40,217
- Hi, guys.
- Hi!
1258
00:53:40,284 --> 00:53:41,518
- As you may have heard,
1259
00:53:41,585 --> 00:53:43,587
Iceland is known
for its geothermal waters.
1260
00:53:43,654 --> 00:53:46,523
Today, you'll get to experience
it together, to heal your mind
1261
00:53:46,590 --> 00:53:49,359
and body, and bring you closer
together on your journey.
1262
00:53:49,426 --> 00:53:51,361
Once you go in the change room
and get ready,
1263
00:53:51,428 --> 00:53:53,530
you'll warm up and then
you'll cool down a little bit
1264
00:53:53,597 --> 00:53:54,531
and have fun.
1265
00:53:54,598 --> 00:53:56,200
- Thank you.
- Thank you.
1266
00:53:56,266 --> 00:53:58,569
- It's safe to say
that the water that's--
1267
00:53:58,635 --> 00:54:00,170
that'll be steamy today.
1268
00:54:00,237 --> 00:54:03,307
I imagine the chemistry
between Susie and I
1269
00:54:03,373 --> 00:54:05,743
will also
be right there with it.
1270
00:54:05,809 --> 00:54:08,178
- Oh, my gosh!
- Cold mist.
1271
00:54:08,245 --> 00:54:09,480
- Cold mist?
1272
00:54:09,546 --> 00:54:11,281
Clayton!
1273
00:54:11,348 --> 00:54:13,450
What've you got me into?
1274
00:54:13,517 --> 00:54:16,386
Okay, ah, how long
do we stay in here?
1275
00:54:16,453 --> 00:54:18,255
- How long?
- Yeah?
1276
00:54:18,322 --> 00:54:24,128
The cold room, mm-mm.
This is brutal.
1277
00:54:24,194 --> 00:54:25,729
- I feel like
it's getting better, no?
1278
00:54:25,796 --> 00:54:28,365
- Is it?
Are your toes not freezing?
1279
00:54:28,432 --> 00:54:30,267
- Are you feeling like
you got another minute in you?
1280
00:54:30,334 --> 00:54:31,769
- I'm cold, I don't know,
maybe 30 seconds.
1281
00:54:31,835 --> 00:54:33,637
- 30 seconds, okay.
1282
00:54:33,704 --> 00:54:34,772
- I was, like, struggling
at first just 'cause
1283
00:54:34,838 --> 00:54:36,774
I was so cold
and, like, so nervous.
1284
00:54:36,840 --> 00:54:38,342
Ahh!
1285
00:54:38,408 --> 00:54:42,246
Ah, oh, my God!
1286
00:54:42,312 --> 00:54:44,248
What in the hell?
1287
00:54:44,314 --> 00:54:45,716
Okay, it feels
much better in here.
1288
00:54:45,783 --> 00:54:48,218
We're just going from
hot to cold, and hot to cold.
1289
00:54:48,285 --> 00:54:51,121
I have no idea what
I'm getting myself into.
1290
00:54:51,188 --> 00:54:52,623
This is crazy.
1291
00:54:52,689 --> 00:54:54,625
Maybe this is like my
relationship with Clayton.
1292
00:54:54,691 --> 00:54:55,726
- Oh, it's cold.
1293
00:54:58,095 --> 00:55:00,364
- Oh, my gosh, okay.
- All right, ready--oh!
1294
00:55:00,430 --> 00:55:02,833
- Ah!
Okay, I'm done!
1295
00:55:03,867 --> 00:55:06,904
I did it.
Come on!
1296
00:55:06,970 --> 00:55:08,739
It, like, took me a minute
to, like, get my bearings.
1297
00:55:08,806 --> 00:55:11,041
I was, like, kind of feeling
nervous going into the day.
1298
00:55:11,108 --> 00:55:15,412
And then there was
my, like, dark mindset.
1299
00:55:15,479 --> 00:55:18,148
But I'm just like,
can I be present right now?
1300
00:55:18,215 --> 00:55:20,818
Ooh, this is nice.
- Yeah?
1301
00:55:20,884 --> 00:55:23,420
- Yeah.
- Don't lose your balance here.
1302
00:55:23,487 --> 00:55:27,257
This firm--firm base.
- Okay, really get in there.
1303
00:55:29,326 --> 00:55:32,429
It feels nice to be in there
together and, like, be playful.
1304
00:55:34,698 --> 00:55:37,868
Strong legs, strong man.
1305
00:55:39,436 --> 00:55:44,908
Clayton's shirtless,
looking good, looking hot.
1306
00:55:47,744 --> 00:55:48,946
- Oh, did you?
- Yeah.
1307
00:55:49,012 --> 00:55:51,481
- Do you need to get more
salt off, is that right?
1308
00:55:51,548 --> 00:55:54,017
Oh, yeah, I think there's
a little salt on your butt too.
1309
00:55:54,084 --> 00:55:55,352
- Oh, no, it's fine.
1310
00:55:55,419 --> 00:55:57,487
[laughter]
1311
00:55:57,554 --> 00:56:02,926
♪ ♪
1312
00:56:02,993 --> 00:56:05,562
- It's been such
an emotional week
1313
00:56:05,629 --> 00:56:07,931
and I was, like,
kind of feeling nervous.
1314
00:56:08,732 --> 00:56:13,503
But to finally see Clayton
and, like, feel his energy,
1315
00:56:13,570 --> 00:56:16,139
this guy that I'm
falling in love with...
1316
00:56:20,010 --> 00:56:22,613
I just feel so reassured
of, like, my connection
1317
00:56:22,679 --> 00:56:25,682
with him and, like, how
strongly I'm feeling for him.
1318
00:56:25,749 --> 00:56:28,919
This was fun.
- It really was, yeah.
1319
00:56:28,986 --> 00:56:31,221
- This was really cool
and so beautiful.
1320
00:56:31,288 --> 00:56:33,323
- Like, for me, I was
obviously looking forward
1321
00:56:33,390 --> 00:56:36,059
to this and--and being
back in the know.
1322
00:56:36,126 --> 00:56:38,595
- Right?
- Let's highlight that again.
1323
00:56:38,662 --> 00:56:41,665
- Me too, for all I know,
you could be gone by now.
1324
00:56:41,732 --> 00:56:43,200
- It was like a week,
I was like, uh-oh.
1325
00:56:43,267 --> 00:56:44,668
- It's been so long.
1326
00:56:44,735 --> 00:56:46,403
- How does she feel?
It's been a while.
1327
00:56:46,470 --> 00:56:47,938
- It's been a minute.
1328
00:56:48,005 --> 00:56:50,073
I definitely was feeling, like,
a little bit, like, nervous.
1329
00:56:50,140 --> 00:56:51,742
And I feel like
I haven't really felt
1330
00:56:51,808 --> 00:56:53,577
super nervous
around you in a while.
1331
00:56:53,644 --> 00:56:55,579
Like, I still feel
like giddy and, like,
1332
00:56:55,646 --> 00:56:58,615
excited and stuff, but, like,
nerves have kind of subdued,
1333
00:56:58,682 --> 00:57:00,884
but, of course, like,
as soon as I saw you,
1334
00:57:00,951 --> 00:57:02,753
once we got
through the wind tunnel.
1335
00:57:02,819 --> 00:57:04,421
- Once you came back down--
1336
00:57:04,488 --> 00:57:07,024
- And the cold bath
and the other cold things.
1337
00:57:07,090 --> 00:57:08,191
- Yeah, once we got--
1338
00:57:08,258 --> 00:57:10,027
- Everything, I mean,
yeah, I'm, like,
1339
00:57:10,093 --> 00:57:12,095
so happy to be here
and move forward.
1340
00:57:12,162 --> 00:57:13,630
- I mean, I totally get that.
1341
00:57:13,697 --> 00:57:15,465
I definitely felt the nerves
too, just because, again,
1342
00:57:15,532 --> 00:57:16,967
I was like, wow,
it's been, like,
1343
00:57:17,000 --> 00:57:18,669
a substantial amount of time
and I was like, I don't know,
1344
00:57:18,735 --> 00:57:21,505
I just want to make sure
obviously that everything is
1345
00:57:21,571 --> 00:57:24,007
just as--kind of, like,
how it was--last--last was.
1346
00:57:24,074 --> 00:57:25,776
- For sure.
1347
00:57:25,842 --> 00:57:28,779
[warm music]
1348
00:57:28,845 --> 00:57:32,249
♪ ♪
1349
00:57:32,316 --> 00:57:35,252
Today was incredible,
like, on so many levels.
1350
00:57:35,319 --> 00:57:37,554
Oh, it feels so nice.
1351
00:57:38,889 --> 00:57:40,157
Whoo!
1352
00:57:40,223 --> 00:57:42,793
I feel rejuvenated,
and I feel good.
1353
00:57:42,859 --> 00:57:43,894
I'm so happy.
1354
00:57:45,729 --> 00:57:48,065
I can see Clayton as somebody
to start a family with
1355
00:57:48,131 --> 00:57:50,100
and spend a life with.
1356
00:57:50,167 --> 00:57:51,935
Like, I can totally see that.
1357
00:57:52,002 --> 00:57:53,570
Ah!
1358
00:57:53,637 --> 00:57:54,805
♪ ♪
1359
00:57:54,871 --> 00:57:56,340
Obviously I have
so many questions
1360
00:57:56,406 --> 00:57:59,676
I still need answered,
but, like, I feel hopeful.
1361
00:57:59,743 --> 00:58:02,913
At this point, like,
I'm so all in with Clayton.
1362
00:58:02,980 --> 00:58:07,484
♪ ♪
1363
00:58:07,551 --> 00:58:09,586
- The date was perfect.
1364
00:58:09,653 --> 00:58:13,056
It feels like we picked up
right where we left off.
1365
00:58:13,123 --> 00:58:14,524
Like, when I'm with Susie,
it's like I'm just beaming
1366
00:58:14,591 --> 00:58:16,126
with energy and I always
just want to, like,
1367
00:58:16,193 --> 00:58:19,296
be next to her and, like,
you can't hide that.
1368
00:58:19,363 --> 00:58:21,398
[laughter]
1369
00:58:21,465 --> 00:58:23,433
- The love for her
is on another level.
1370
00:58:25,469 --> 00:58:28,005
I have every intention
of telling Susie tonight
1371
00:58:28,071 --> 00:58:29,840
that I'm in love with her.
1372
00:58:29,906 --> 00:58:32,442
The expectations are
through the roof tonight.
1373
00:58:36,113 --> 00:58:39,149
[wind howling]
1374
00:58:45,455 --> 00:58:47,057
- I'm so excited.
1375
00:58:47,124 --> 00:58:49,760
This is a day that will
change everything,
1376
00:58:49,826 --> 00:58:51,361
potentially.
1377
00:58:51,428 --> 00:58:54,664
Tonight at dinner,
I'm going to tell Susie
1378
00:58:54,731 --> 00:58:57,601
that I am in love with her.
1379
00:58:57,667 --> 00:58:59,736
Now that I've really
addressed my emotions
1380
00:58:59,803 --> 00:59:02,272
the last week as a whole,
you know,
1381
00:59:02,339 --> 00:59:04,641
it's so easy for me
to come to the conclusion
1382
00:59:04,708 --> 00:59:06,610
that this wasn't a matter
of, like, falling in love.
1383
00:59:06,676 --> 00:59:08,412
I was past that point.
1384
00:59:08,478 --> 00:59:10,680
The anticipation
is killing me.
1385
00:59:10,747 --> 00:59:12,816
There's no doubt in my mind,
1386
00:59:12,883 --> 00:59:17,854
this is the biggest night
of this entire journey.
1387
00:59:17,921 --> 00:59:20,857
[soft music]
1388
00:59:20,924 --> 00:59:23,126
♪ ♪
1389
00:59:23,193 --> 00:59:24,961
- Today was very special.
1390
00:59:25,028 --> 00:59:28,265
I felt like Clayton
really made me feel,
1391
00:59:28,331 --> 00:59:31,001
like, secure
in my connection with him.
1392
00:59:31,068 --> 00:59:32,502
This night could be,
like, one of the most
1393
00:59:32,569 --> 00:59:34,504
incredible nights of
my life and it could show me
1394
00:59:34,571 --> 00:59:36,740
everything that I
need to know and, like,
1395
00:59:36,807 --> 00:59:40,811
move forward with him
and start a future with him.
1396
00:59:40,877 --> 00:59:46,817
♪ ♪
1397
00:59:48,685 --> 00:59:49,753
- Hello!
1398
00:59:49,820 --> 00:59:51,088
- Susie, you look beautiful.
1399
00:59:51,154 --> 00:59:54,324
- How's it going?
Thank you, you look handsome.
1400
00:59:55,158 --> 00:59:57,727
I do have such a strong
connection with Clayton
1401
00:59:57,794 --> 01:00:00,497
and I can see him
as a future husband
1402
01:00:00,564 --> 01:00:01,932
and somebody
that I start a family with.
1403
01:00:01,998 --> 01:00:03,967
Thank you.
1404
01:00:04,034 --> 01:00:06,770
But I still have questions
going into tonight.
1405
01:00:06,837 --> 01:00:08,772
I know how I feel about him,
but I don't know
1406
01:00:08,839 --> 01:00:11,041
where he is
with everybody else.
1407
01:00:11,108 --> 01:00:13,643
And I know what I'm not
willing to compromise on,
1408
01:00:13,710 --> 01:00:16,880
so tonight is going to be
a really big step for us.
1409
01:00:16,947 --> 01:00:21,518
- We are in Iceland,
which is absolutely wild to me.
1410
01:00:21,585 --> 01:00:23,720
- Mm-hmm.
1411
01:00:23,787 --> 01:00:26,857
- And everything
that we went through,
1412
01:00:26,923 --> 01:00:29,626
I mean, like, it's like
we've had so many experiences,
1413
01:00:29,693 --> 01:00:33,130
so many first times,
and you make it easy
1414
01:00:33,196 --> 01:00:38,702
to embrace all the--
all the wild things we've done.
1415
01:00:38,768 --> 01:00:40,504
I mean--
- It's been so fun.
1416
01:00:40,570 --> 01:00:44,608
- Yeah, the biggest
moment for me
1417
01:00:44,674 --> 01:00:47,644
was in Croatia.
1418
01:00:47,711 --> 01:00:49,446
- For sure.
1419
01:00:49,513 --> 01:00:51,148
- At the top
of the clock tower, like,
1420
01:00:51,214 --> 01:00:54,050
for you to tell me that you
were falling in love with me,
1421
01:00:54,117 --> 01:00:58,622
like, I hadn't felt that
in--for so--in so long.
1422
01:00:58,688 --> 01:01:00,657
It's like I almost just
forgot what it felt like.
1423
01:01:00,724 --> 01:01:02,893
And when you said it,
I just remember I was,
1424
01:01:02,959 --> 01:01:05,128
like, beaming, like,
ear to ear, I was so happy.
1425
01:01:05,195 --> 01:01:06,863
It was like
one of the happiest moments
1426
01:01:06,930 --> 01:01:08,932
I've had in a long time.
1427
01:01:08,999 --> 01:01:10,767
But I kind of walked away
from it and was like,
1428
01:01:10,834 --> 01:01:12,469
okay, what is this
I'm feeling?
1429
01:01:14,304 --> 01:01:16,806
Since that point,
I've had a lot of time
1430
01:01:16,873 --> 01:01:20,243
to think about it and...
1431
01:01:20,310 --> 01:01:22,112
the more that we've,
like, spent time together,
1432
01:01:22,179 --> 01:01:24,714
and spending time
with your family,
1433
01:01:24,781 --> 01:01:27,951
I realized, like, how serious
things were getting.
1434
01:01:28,051 --> 01:01:30,554
And, you know,
the more I thought about it,
1435
01:01:30,620 --> 01:01:33,156
I realized that it was,
like, that night,
1436
01:01:33,223 --> 01:01:35,792
I was also
falling in love with you.
1437
01:01:35,859 --> 01:01:39,362
You've made me feel
what I haven't felt in so long
1438
01:01:39,429 --> 01:01:42,499
and it's so exciting when I
finally allowed myself
1439
01:01:42,566 --> 01:01:44,134
to open up
and feel those feelings
1440
01:01:44,201 --> 01:01:46,203
and acknowledge them because
I think I was trying to
1441
01:01:46,269 --> 01:01:49,806
avoid them just because of how
much I was hurt in the past.
1442
01:01:49,873 --> 01:01:52,742
And I had my own walls up.
1443
01:01:52,809 --> 01:01:58,014
And I was so afraid
to admit it,
1444
01:01:58,081 --> 01:02:02,452
but since that point,
like, it's no longer about me
1445
01:02:02,519 --> 01:02:06,223
falling in love with you,
like, I am in love with you.
1446
01:02:06,289 --> 01:02:07,891
- Oh, my gosh.
1447
01:02:07,958 --> 01:02:11,261
- And I've wanted to tell you.
1448
01:02:11,328 --> 01:02:14,197
It scared me to think,
like, the longer I wait,
1449
01:02:14,264 --> 01:02:15,532
like, she doesn't know
how I feel.
1450
01:02:15,599 --> 01:02:18,835
Like, I want her to know
and so--
1451
01:02:18,902 --> 01:02:20,337
it's a lot, I know, right?
1452
01:02:20,403 --> 01:02:22,872
But I haven't--the thing is,
like, I just hadn't told you
1453
01:02:22,939 --> 01:02:25,442
anything on my side
and you were so patient.
1454
01:02:25,508 --> 01:02:29,779
So I have been waiting to tell
you, and I was so excited,
1455
01:02:29,846 --> 01:02:32,749
and this just felt
like the perfect time.
1456
01:02:32,816 --> 01:02:36,152
- Well, I, like,
appreciate you telling me.
1457
01:02:36,219 --> 01:02:38,355
I honestly, like,
didn't expect to hear that.
1458
01:02:38,421 --> 01:02:41,591
I've been very much, like,
in this with you for sure.
1459
01:02:41,658 --> 01:02:44,728
Like, you know how I feel.
Like, I adore you.
1460
01:02:44,794 --> 01:02:48,231
Like, I think
you're incredible, but...
1461
01:02:48,298 --> 01:02:50,967
there are things, like,
in knowing that there's
1462
01:02:51,034 --> 01:02:54,638
an engagement, like,
literally in a week, like,
1463
01:02:54,704 --> 01:02:56,606
there are things that I feel
like I can't compromise
1464
01:02:56,673 --> 01:03:01,444
and, like, tonight, like,
I feel uncomfortable.
1465
01:03:01,511 --> 01:03:03,513
Like, I feel like
I don't want to even,
1466
01:03:03,580 --> 01:03:04,914
like, have this conversation.
1467
01:03:04,981 --> 01:03:07,017
But I do feel like I
have to tell you kind of, like,
1468
01:03:07,083 --> 01:03:09,419
where I'm at with, like,
my expectations
1469
01:03:09,486 --> 01:03:13,690
that I'm not willing
to, like, let go of in this.
1470
01:03:13,757 --> 01:03:15,492
I know you just told me
that, like, you feel like
1471
01:03:15,558 --> 01:03:18,295
you're in love with me,
but I don't know, like,
1472
01:03:18,361 --> 01:03:22,599
do you feel that same way
with somebody else?
1473
01:03:22,666 --> 01:03:27,637
Or have you, like,
slept with another woman?
1474
01:03:27,704 --> 01:03:31,174
Like, those are things that,
like, I think would be, like,
1475
01:03:31,241 --> 01:03:34,144
impossible to move forward
towards an engagement.
1476
01:03:37,747 --> 01:03:41,451
If I'm sharing your love
with somebody else,
1477
01:03:41,518 --> 01:03:47,390
I don't think that I would
be comfortable, like...
1478
01:03:50,527 --> 01:03:56,132
- I guess my--you know,
what--what...
1479
01:03:56,199 --> 01:04:01,738
I mean, I understand, like,
that thought process,
1480
01:04:01,805 --> 01:04:04,107
and it is--
like, for me, I think
1481
01:04:04,174 --> 01:04:06,376
the big thing
that I'm shocked at is,
1482
01:04:06,443 --> 01:04:09,646
like, you did say
to, like, explore, like,
1483
01:04:09,713 --> 01:04:14,551
the relationships,
and I thought, like,
1484
01:04:14,617 --> 01:04:16,052
when we talked,
it was about, you know, like,
1485
01:04:16,119 --> 01:04:17,587
saying, like,
I want you to explore
1486
01:04:17,654 --> 01:04:20,323
and I don't want to be
the default at the end of it.
1487
01:04:20,390 --> 01:04:22,192
- Yeah.
- Like, I want you to pick me
1488
01:04:22,258 --> 01:04:23,660
for me, and...
1489
01:04:26,196 --> 01:04:28,198
So I want to...
1490
01:04:32,869 --> 01:04:34,371
To answer your question, yes.
1491
01:04:34,437 --> 01:04:39,776
Like, I have slept
with someone else here and...
1492
01:04:41,878 --> 01:04:44,180
Yes, I've expressed feelings
towards someone else
1493
01:04:44,247 --> 01:04:46,449
of falling in love.
1494
01:04:54,958 --> 01:04:56,459
- If you feel like
you're in love with me,
1495
01:04:56,526 --> 01:04:59,028
like, it doesn't, like,
make sense to me
1496
01:04:59,095 --> 01:05:00,597
to, like,
sleep with somebody else.
1497
01:05:00,663 --> 01:05:02,465
Like, those are, like,
the two things where I'm,
1498
01:05:02,532 --> 01:05:04,334
like, feeling strong.
1499
01:05:04,401 --> 01:05:06,870
Like, coming into tonight
and, like, moving forward,
1500
01:05:06,936 --> 01:05:09,706
I don't think
I would feel comfortable.
1501
01:05:09,773 --> 01:05:12,208
- Like, I told myself coming
in this that I wouldn't
1502
01:05:12,275 --> 01:05:13,643
fall in love
with multiple women,
1503
01:05:13,710 --> 01:05:17,147
but it's happened, and what I
can tell you, though,
1504
01:05:17,213 --> 01:05:20,283
is that, where I stand,
1505
01:05:20,350 --> 01:05:22,619
there's different feelings
for different people.
1506
01:05:22,685 --> 01:05:26,322
It's not--like, with you,
I feel way different
1507
01:05:26,389 --> 01:05:27,757
than I feel with somebody else.
1508
01:05:27,824 --> 01:05:32,028
And I can promise you,
like, that it's very special,
1509
01:05:32,095 --> 01:05:33,596
where we're at.
1510
01:05:33,663 --> 01:05:35,899
- I didn't go into this
assuming that it was
1511
01:05:35,965 --> 01:05:39,636
gonna be me at the end of this,
or even this week, but like,
1512
01:05:39,702 --> 01:05:43,072
I thought, like, certainly,
if he knows or hopes, like,
1513
01:05:43,139 --> 01:05:44,808
has like an inkling
of, like, a feeling of like,
1514
01:05:44,874 --> 01:05:47,544
I hope that it's Susie,
like, I would--like,
1515
01:05:47,610 --> 01:05:49,612
I hoped that you would
like protect me in that
1516
01:05:49,679 --> 01:05:51,381
and, like...
1517
01:05:51,448 --> 01:05:55,351
and I know that's maybe cutting
your experience short as well,
1518
01:05:55,418 --> 01:05:56,686
but I didn't want
to ask you to do that.
1519
01:05:56,753 --> 01:05:58,221
I just, like,
if that were the case, like,
1520
01:05:58,288 --> 01:06:02,425
I would have hoped, like, that
would have been your action.
1521
01:06:04,260 --> 01:06:07,397
- I hope that, like,
you can see that, like,
1522
01:06:07,464 --> 01:06:08,765
everything that we went through
1523
01:06:08,832 --> 01:06:12,101
was so very real
and so authentic.
1524
01:06:12,168 --> 01:06:16,039
And, like,
I don't want you to, like,
1525
01:06:16,105 --> 01:06:20,743
just give up and walk away
on this because of that.
1526
01:06:20,810 --> 01:06:23,012
Like, I mean to hear you say,
like, you don't know
1527
01:06:23,079 --> 01:06:24,948
if you can continue forward,
it just like--it's, like,
1528
01:06:25,014 --> 01:06:26,282
it's the worst thing
I could have heard.
1529
01:06:26,349 --> 01:06:28,885
- Yeah.
- And, like, I have
1530
01:06:28,952 --> 01:06:31,554
such strong feelings for you,
like, very strong feelings.
1531
01:06:31,621 --> 01:06:34,457
And I can tell you
that, like, right now, like,
1532
01:06:34,524 --> 01:06:36,559
I am the most in love with you.
1533
01:06:36,626 --> 01:06:39,496
And--and I really felt that,
it's like,
1534
01:06:39,562 --> 01:06:41,331
this could be it, like...
1535
01:06:41,397 --> 01:06:43,032
- Like, I mean, honestly,
to hear all this, like,
1536
01:06:43,099 --> 01:06:46,236
makes it so much worse, like,
makes me feel worse and, like,
1537
01:06:46,302 --> 01:06:50,273
makes me more sad, like,
for all of it because, like...
1538
01:06:52,342 --> 01:06:55,278
Like, I honestly, like,
don't feel like I knew
1539
01:06:55,345 --> 01:06:59,182
how strongly you felt as well
and I didn't want--like,
1540
01:06:59,249 --> 01:07:00,683
I really didn't want
to give you an ultimatum,
1541
01:07:00,750 --> 01:07:02,986
I really didn't want to say,
like, I can't move forward
1542
01:07:03,052 --> 01:07:05,154
if you sleep with other people
because I don't--I didn't
1543
01:07:05,221 --> 01:07:08,992
want you to cut yourself short
in this process, and like...
1544
01:07:11,828 --> 01:07:13,863
It's like, it's heartbreaking
to hear, like...
1545
01:07:13,930 --> 01:07:15,431
[sniffling]
1546
01:07:16,833 --> 01:07:19,102
It sucks because,
like, I do feel, like,
1547
01:07:19,168 --> 01:07:20,503
so strongly about you.
1548
01:07:20,570 --> 01:07:23,139
And I feel like you're
this incredible person that's,
1549
01:07:23,206 --> 01:07:25,975
like, shocked me
in so many ways, like,
1550
01:07:26,042 --> 01:07:30,280
come into my life and been,
like, so wonderful.
1551
01:07:30,346 --> 01:07:32,916
You've reassured, like,
my ability to know that
1552
01:07:32,982 --> 01:07:34,083
there's, like,
good men out there.
1553
01:07:34,150 --> 01:07:35,351
Like, I don't know,
like, I've had
1554
01:07:35,418 --> 01:07:37,620
some bad experiences.
1555
01:07:37,687 --> 01:07:42,058
But this is something,
like, very big to me.
1556
01:07:42,125 --> 01:07:45,695
And, like, I don't think
I can get past those things
1557
01:07:45,762 --> 01:07:50,767
and, like--like, I don't--I
just don't think I can, and...
1558
01:07:52,902 --> 01:07:54,337
- I...
1559
01:07:56,406 --> 01:07:57,473
- I know, like...
1560
01:07:57,540 --> 01:08:01,244
- No, it's just,
like, it's because...
1561
01:08:06,482 --> 01:08:08,518
I feel like I did what I did,
1562
01:08:08,585 --> 01:08:12,088
but had I known how
important that was to you,
1563
01:08:12,155 --> 01:08:13,790
that that was literally
a deal-breaker,
1564
01:08:13,856 --> 01:08:15,992
I would have changed the way
that I approached things
1565
01:08:16,059 --> 01:08:17,760
because I know what we have.
1566
01:08:17,827 --> 01:08:19,896
I mean, I'm sorry that
I went and did that, like,
1567
01:08:19,963 --> 01:08:23,032
I ask for your forgiveness
because, like, I don't want
1568
01:08:23,099 --> 01:08:25,768
to throw something away that we
have that I feel so sure about.
1569
01:08:25,835 --> 01:08:28,237
I do love you and I--like,
1570
01:08:28,304 --> 01:08:30,239
I didn't--like, I'm not
expecting you to say it back,
1571
01:08:30,306 --> 01:08:32,175
but like,
I would hope that, like,
1572
01:08:32,241 --> 01:08:34,677
what we have is something
that's worth fighting for.
1573
01:08:36,746 --> 01:08:38,481
- I don't know, like--
like, I think one of
1574
01:08:38,548 --> 01:08:39,949
my biggest fears,
like, in telling you,
1575
01:08:40,016 --> 01:08:42,418
like, go explore other
relationships is that, like,
1576
01:08:42,485 --> 01:08:44,787
I didn't want to have to share,
like, your heart or your love.
1577
01:08:44,854 --> 01:08:46,756
And I know you're saying,
like, you would be able to,
1578
01:08:46,823 --> 01:08:48,625
like, close that off.
1579
01:08:48,691 --> 01:08:53,896
But it still feels like I need
somebody who would have...
1580
01:08:55,498 --> 01:08:57,367
I don't know,
like thought through that.
1581
01:08:57,433 --> 01:08:58,668
I don't--I don't know, like...
1582
01:08:58,735 --> 01:09:00,470
- A relationship isn't easy,
and there are times
1583
01:09:00,536 --> 01:09:02,538
where you have--you go through
those challenging times,
1584
01:09:02,605 --> 01:09:04,641
and it's like,
is it worth fighting for?
1585
01:09:04,707 --> 01:09:07,043
Because you feel
that that person, like,
1586
01:09:07,110 --> 01:09:09,178
is special and you
don't want to lose them.
1587
01:09:09,245 --> 01:09:11,881
Let's work through it, like,
that's what a relationship is,
1588
01:09:11,948 --> 01:09:14,817
it's working through the hard
times, because this isn't--
1589
01:09:14,884 --> 01:09:17,253
- I'm hearing, like, every
word you're saying, for sure.
1590
01:09:17,320 --> 01:09:21,290
And I just, like, feel terrible
in general, but I don't know,
1591
01:09:21,357 --> 01:09:23,860
like, I don't know if
I can get through this, like...
1592
01:09:23,926 --> 01:09:26,562
- But, do you--I mean,
would any of this, like,
1593
01:09:26,629 --> 01:09:29,699
being able to talk through it,
like, to me, it's like,
1594
01:09:29,766 --> 01:09:31,901
worth spending an extra
seven hours talking through
1595
01:09:31,968 --> 01:09:34,137
everything and seeing
if this is worth it?
1596
01:09:34,203 --> 01:09:37,373
I mean like that's--
like, to me, like,
1597
01:09:37,440 --> 01:09:40,943
I feel like
that is worth it, and...
1598
01:09:41,010 --> 01:09:43,046
- I agree, like,
I do think we have something
1599
01:09:43,112 --> 01:09:44,681
special so I don't know,
it's like--it's like,
1600
01:09:44,747 --> 01:09:47,383
I'm so confused, like, this
is so confusing for me to be
1601
01:09:47,450 --> 01:09:51,421
in this situation because,
like, I couldn't have imagined,
1602
01:09:51,487 --> 01:09:55,792
like, a scenario in which,
like, you become physically
1603
01:09:55,858 --> 01:09:57,727
intimate with any other person
and it's me at the end.
1604
01:09:57,794 --> 01:09:59,162
Like, I just--I...
1605
01:09:59,228 --> 01:10:00,563
- No one told me I had
to go sleep with somebody,
1606
01:10:00,630 --> 01:10:03,733
okay, like I was in l--I was,
you know, having feelings
1607
01:10:03,800 --> 01:10:05,334
of love with these--
with--with--with this--
1608
01:10:05,401 --> 01:10:07,637
this person
and I slept with them
1609
01:10:07,704 --> 01:10:09,739
because I love this person,
1610
01:10:09,806 --> 01:10:13,376
so I'm going to, like,
see, like, how the physical
1611
01:10:13,443 --> 01:10:16,713
connection is because, like,
you would just explore that.
1612
01:10:16,779 --> 01:10:18,147
If you were in love
with somebody, then you would
1613
01:10:18,214 --> 01:10:19,782
explore that--it wasn't
like I was just sleeping with
1614
01:10:19,849 --> 01:10:21,751
somebody because I'm like,
they're here so I'm
1615
01:10:21,818 --> 01:10:23,252
just gonna sleep with them.
- Right, I get that.
1616
01:10:23,319 --> 01:10:26,856
- So I--me sleeping
with, like, with...
1617
01:10:27,857 --> 01:10:29,559
Both.
- Mm-hmm.
1618
01:10:29,625 --> 01:10:32,161
- Was because I've somehow
fallen in love
1619
01:10:32,228 --> 01:10:35,164
with three women,
and it makes zero sense to me.
1620
01:10:35,231 --> 01:10:37,900
And, but the thing is,
is it's, like, I literally
1621
01:10:37,967 --> 01:10:40,570
didn't understand how it could,
and I freaked out,
1622
01:10:40,636 --> 01:10:42,739
and I cried about it,
because I was like,
1623
01:10:42,805 --> 01:10:45,141
I'm going to hurt somebody
and, like, this scares me.
1624
01:10:45,208 --> 01:10:46,676
But then I was like,
you know what, like,
1625
01:10:46,743 --> 01:10:48,945
at the same time, I'm finding
what I'm looking for here
1626
01:10:49,011 --> 01:10:50,146
and if I just continue
to press forward
1627
01:10:50,213 --> 01:10:51,447
with the relationships I have,
1628
01:10:51,514 --> 01:10:53,316
like, I will walk out
of here with one person
1629
01:10:53,382 --> 01:10:55,351
because they were
the best person for me.
1630
01:10:55,418 --> 01:10:59,055
- I just feel like--
I don't know, I can't--
1631
01:10:59,122 --> 01:11:01,457
I have been rationalizing,
like, all week, like,
1632
01:11:01,524 --> 01:11:04,293
every possible way
this could go and, like,
1633
01:11:04,360 --> 01:11:06,295
I don't think there's, like,
a single scenario in which
1634
01:11:06,362 --> 01:11:08,698
those are true and, like,
I can move forward.
1635
01:11:11,501 --> 01:11:13,736
- I'm a week out and this--
this is shattering me.
1636
01:11:13,803 --> 01:11:15,772
Like, it's like I look at it
and I see you in front of me
1637
01:11:15,838 --> 01:11:16,973
and it's like, that's it.
1638
01:11:17,039 --> 01:11:18,841
Like, everything
that we went through.
1639
01:11:18,908 --> 01:11:21,010
Like, you--if you--if you
felt this strongly about this,
1640
01:11:21,077 --> 01:11:22,812
why wouldn't you have
told me early on?
1641
01:11:22,879 --> 01:11:25,348
You let us get all the way
to this point and then you just
1642
01:11:25,414 --> 01:11:27,583
let--you just--you just
don't tell me until now
1643
01:11:27,650 --> 01:11:29,218
and it's after the fact,
and you're like,
1644
01:11:29,285 --> 01:11:32,488
I'm not willing to forgive you,
I can't--I can't move on?
1645
01:11:32,555 --> 01:11:33,723
How can you do that?
1646
01:11:33,790 --> 01:11:35,158
Like, after everything
we went through,
1647
01:11:35,224 --> 01:11:38,127
after all the feelings and
experiences that we've had,
1648
01:11:38,194 --> 01:11:39,529
how can you just
straight up say
1649
01:11:39,595 --> 01:11:41,831
I can't move forward
after all this, like--
1650
01:11:41,898 --> 01:11:43,633
- I don't know, like,
I'm very confused right now
1651
01:11:43,699 --> 01:11:46,402
and I don't know
what to think.
1652
01:11:49,939 --> 01:11:51,474
- I--
1653
01:11:54,410 --> 01:11:57,346
[dramatic music]
1654
01:11:57,413 --> 01:12:03,553
♪ ♪
1655
01:12:03,619 --> 01:12:05,688
I don't want to be [bleep],
you know, like...
1656
01:12:05,755 --> 01:12:07,657
like, I understand
everything he's saying,
1657
01:12:07,723 --> 01:12:10,760
like, I really do,
and I, like, believe him.
1658
01:12:20,603 --> 01:12:22,271
I don't know what to do.
1659
01:12:23,906 --> 01:12:26,142
- This is exactly
what I was afraid of.
1660
01:12:29,478 --> 01:12:31,581
I don't believe
in anything anymore.
1661
01:12:32,415 --> 01:12:33,616
It's just, it's everything--
1662
01:12:33,683 --> 01:12:36,886
everything
is literally invalidated.
1663
01:12:38,087 --> 01:12:39,755
[sighs]
1664
01:12:39,822 --> 01:12:42,959
♪ ♪
1665
01:12:51,534 --> 01:12:53,169
- [sighs]
1666
01:12:56,906 --> 01:13:00,142
Jesse, how's it going?
- You tell me, what's going on?
1667
01:13:01,944 --> 01:13:05,214
- I mean,
I'm just absolutely blown away.
1668
01:13:05,281 --> 01:13:06,816
You know, Susie, just--
she asked me the question,
1669
01:13:06,883 --> 01:13:08,718
if you've slept with anybody,
if you've fallen in love
1670
01:13:08,784 --> 01:13:11,921
with anybody else,
then like, I can't continue.
1671
01:13:11,988 --> 01:13:14,490
If that
was a deal-breaker to you,
1672
01:13:14,557 --> 01:13:16,525
then why would you
not tell me that?
1673
01:13:16,592 --> 01:13:19,528
- [sniffling] I believe, like,
everything he's saying
1674
01:13:19,595 --> 01:13:22,064
and, like, and I feel it
and, like, and I don't know.
1675
01:13:22,131 --> 01:13:24,367
Like, maybe it is asking
too much, but like,
1676
01:13:24,433 --> 01:13:26,402
at the same time,
I'm not willing to accept it,
1677
01:13:26,469 --> 01:13:29,338
like, and I know that's,
like, the truth for me.
1678
01:13:29,405 --> 01:13:31,073
But, like, it feels so awful.
1679
01:13:31,140 --> 01:13:33,509
Like, I feel so
[bleep] right now.
1680
01:13:33,576 --> 01:13:35,811
- I mean, hopefully she
comes back and she's like,
1681
01:13:35,878 --> 01:13:39,548
okay, like, I thought about it
and let's talk it out.
1682
01:13:41,484 --> 01:13:42,919
I don't know
where to go from here.
1683
01:13:42,985 --> 01:13:45,154
- I'm sorry, man.
- I have no idea.
1684
01:13:45,221 --> 01:13:48,157
- I know you--I know you had
really strong feelings for her.
1685
01:13:48,224 --> 01:13:49,158
I know you
were in love with her.
1686
01:13:49,225 --> 01:13:51,394
- She's just torn me apart.
1687
01:13:51,460 --> 01:13:53,195
Everything that I've--
that we went through,
1688
01:13:53,262 --> 01:13:54,397
she just
completely destroyed me.
1689
01:13:54,463 --> 01:13:56,132
- I mean this man, listen,
I'm sorry.
1690
01:13:56,198 --> 01:13:57,767
I know from the beginning
of this you told me
1691
01:13:57,833 --> 01:13:59,402
that this is what
you were afraid of.
1692
01:13:59,468 --> 01:14:01,637
[footsteps]
1693
01:14:01,704 --> 01:14:04,607
Hey, we'll leave you two alone.
1694
01:14:05,241 --> 01:14:08,077
- How's it going out here?
1695
01:14:08,144 --> 01:14:10,246
Do you wanna come back inside?
1696
01:14:10,313 --> 01:14:12,381
- I mean, I want to hear
what you have to say,
1697
01:14:12,448 --> 01:14:14,750
but now I have--
1698
01:14:14,817 --> 01:14:17,420
we'll go back inside.
1699
01:14:17,486 --> 01:14:24,527
♪ ♪
1700
01:14:27,730 --> 01:14:29,565
- Um...
1701
01:14:35,604 --> 01:14:39,475
Yeah, I don't know, like, I'm--
I feel, like, awful right now.
1702
01:14:39,542 --> 01:14:41,577
Like, hearing you out
and, like, hearing your
1703
01:14:41,644 --> 01:14:44,313
perspective on all this
has, like, made this, like,
1704
01:14:44,380 --> 01:14:47,616
way harder and, like,
I probably should have, like,
1705
01:14:47,683 --> 01:14:51,387
had that conversation
just about maybe, you know,
1706
01:14:51,454 --> 01:14:53,322
like, what sex means to me
earlier on,
1707
01:14:53,389 --> 01:14:57,626
but I didn't know that you
were feeling so strongly.
1708
01:14:57,693 --> 01:15:01,864
Like, I don't feel like I can
leave here with you, but like--
1709
01:15:01,931 --> 01:15:05,034
like, I don't know what to do
right now because, like--
1710
01:15:05,101 --> 01:15:07,069
- What do you mean?
You made your mind up.
1711
01:15:07,136 --> 01:15:09,205
You literally have said--
like, you came back in here.
1712
01:15:09,271 --> 01:15:10,840
I was waiting to see
and hoping you'd say,
1713
01:15:10,906 --> 01:15:12,241
you know what, honestly,
I thought about it,
1714
01:15:12,308 --> 01:15:13,743
I heard you, I believe
everything you're saying and,
1715
01:15:13,809 --> 01:15:15,444
like, I want to give, like,
I want us to give us more time
1716
01:15:15,511 --> 01:15:17,213
to talk through it
and maybe we can make it work.
1717
01:15:17,279 --> 01:15:19,615
- My hope was that you wouldn't
have done that this week
1718
01:15:19,682 --> 01:15:20,916
and that we would
be able to leave here,
1719
01:15:20,983 --> 01:15:23,619
and I would feel totally,
like, total clarity.
1720
01:15:23,686 --> 01:15:25,821
And I thought that would be my
clarity, like, I thought that
1721
01:15:25,888 --> 01:15:28,724
would be my way to be like, oh,
there's no [bleep] way, like,
1722
01:15:28,791 --> 01:15:32,294
this dude would compromise
what we have, like, in any way.
1723
01:15:32,361 --> 01:15:34,530
And, like, that's how
I thought I was gonna know,
1724
01:15:34,597 --> 01:15:35,898
like, at the end of this.
1725
01:15:35,965 --> 01:15:37,299
- So what am I supposed--
so what am I supposed to do?
1726
01:15:37,366 --> 01:15:38,467
- That's what
I'm saying, like--
1727
01:15:38,534 --> 01:15:40,036
- I'm still fighting--
I'm still fighting
1728
01:15:40,102 --> 01:15:41,270
'cause I'm trying
to, like, I was trying
1729
01:15:41,337 --> 01:15:43,472
to convince you,
but now it's like...
1730
01:15:44,907 --> 01:15:48,677
- I feel so [bleep],
like, I feel awful.
1731
01:15:48,744 --> 01:15:50,713
I feel like I just
[bleep] everything up,
1732
01:15:50,780 --> 01:15:53,516
and, like, I don't know how...
1733
01:15:55,051 --> 01:15:57,153
I don't know how I could have,
like, done it better, but I
1734
01:15:57,219 --> 01:16:02,291
just know that I feel, like,
awful about this whole thing.
1735
01:16:02,358 --> 01:16:07,129
♪ ♪
1736
01:16:07,196 --> 01:16:11,534
- I'm just gonna be honest
with you, I mean, in my eyes,
1737
01:16:11,600 --> 01:16:15,871
like, you just invalidated
everything that we had.
1738
01:16:15,938 --> 01:16:18,974
And it just, like, to me,
like, if you cared so much
1739
01:16:19,041 --> 01:16:20,242
about me,
if you really actually
1740
01:16:20,309 --> 01:16:22,978
thought I was the person,
and I instilled, like,
1741
01:16:23,045 --> 01:16:24,647
this belief in you that
there's good men out there,
1742
01:16:24,713 --> 01:16:26,348
and I re-instilled that
and, like, your family
1743
01:16:26,415 --> 01:16:28,250
said they'd never
seen you happier.
1744
01:16:28,317 --> 01:16:30,152
Like, if it was really true,
like, I would think
1745
01:16:30,219 --> 01:16:32,121
you would work
through something like this.
1746
01:16:32,188 --> 01:16:34,557
- I believe everything that
you have said to me tonight,
1747
01:16:34,623 --> 01:16:37,726
like, and it's actually,
like, made me rethink,
1748
01:16:37,793 --> 01:16:39,061
like, did I go about
this the wrong way?
1749
01:16:39,128 --> 01:16:40,596
Like, was I expecting too much?
1750
01:16:40,663 --> 01:16:42,698
Or like, you know, it's made
me think those things, but then
1751
01:16:42,765 --> 01:16:44,400
at the same time I'm like,
but you had sex with two women.
1752
01:16:44,467 --> 01:16:47,203
- If--if you had this
big old reservation, this huge
1753
01:16:47,269 --> 01:16:50,473
deal-breaker, why would you not
bring this up until right now?
1754
01:16:50,539 --> 01:16:52,374
- I feel like at this point,
like, you're not--like, I feel
1755
01:16:52,441 --> 01:16:54,944
like at this point, like, I'm
going home for sure now, like,
1756
01:16:55,010 --> 01:16:57,379
you're--you are committed
to me going home at this point.
1757
01:16:57,446 --> 01:16:58,547
And, like, that's okay, like,
1758
01:16:58,614 --> 01:17:00,049
I realize
I [bleep] this up and like...
1759
01:17:00,116 --> 01:17:02,184
- What do you mean, don't--
you're putting this on me now.
1760
01:17:02,251 --> 01:17:03,486
- I'm not. I'm not.
1761
01:17:03,552 --> 01:17:04,920
- You made the decision
when I walked back in.
1762
01:17:04,987 --> 01:17:06,388
- I'm telling you right now,
like, I realize and, like,
1763
01:17:06,455 --> 01:17:08,624
it feels very much like this
is, like, ending and, like--
1764
01:17:08,691 --> 01:17:09,959
- Because you put an end to it.
1765
01:17:10,025 --> 01:17:11,994
- I know, I know,
but, like, I still feel
1766
01:17:12,061 --> 01:17:14,497
strongly about
what I'm feeling.
1767
01:17:14,563 --> 01:17:15,865
- It's--I'm not
trying to place any
1768
01:17:15,931 --> 01:17:17,633
extra blame on you,
but the fact of the matter is,
1769
01:17:17,700 --> 01:17:19,902
it's like, I don't even know
who I'm looking at anymore.
1770
01:17:19,969 --> 01:17:21,036
Like, I don't.
1771
01:17:21,103 --> 01:17:22,404
- Dude, like,
please don't say that,
1772
01:17:22,471 --> 01:17:24,240
like, that's like the worst
part in all of this.
1773
01:17:24,306 --> 01:17:25,407
- I'm sorry, Susie,
but it's the honest truth.
1774
01:17:25,474 --> 01:17:26,842
- How, like, how can you not?
1775
01:17:26,909 --> 01:17:28,144
Like that's, like, the part
that's upsetting to me.
1776
01:17:28,210 --> 01:17:29,311
- Because you just
dropped a bombshell on me--
1777
01:17:29,378 --> 01:17:30,579
you just dropped
a bombshell on me.
1778
01:17:30,646 --> 01:17:32,281
And like, and I don't
agree with it at all,
1779
01:17:32,348 --> 01:17:33,549
how you--
how you went about this.
1780
01:17:33,616 --> 01:17:36,318
I think it's BS
and, like, just, we're done.
1781
01:17:36,385 --> 01:17:38,420
And I'm done--I'm done.
We're not getting
1782
01:17:38,487 --> 01:17:39,922
anything else out of what
we're saying anymore.
1783
01:17:39,989 --> 01:17:41,290
- Okay.
1784
01:17:41,357 --> 01:17:42,658
- I don't--I'm sorry
that I even raised my voice
1785
01:17:42,725 --> 01:17:44,293
because this is--this
is out of character for me.
1786
01:17:44,360 --> 01:17:47,062
It's just 'cause I cared so
much and I really did love you.
1787
01:17:47,129 --> 01:17:49,565
And to have this
ripped from me is why
1788
01:17:49,632 --> 01:17:51,734
you're seeing what
you're seeing right now.
1789
01:17:52,468 --> 01:17:54,737
I have nothing more to say--
there's nothing more.
1790
01:17:54,803 --> 01:17:57,006
Anything you say to me at this
point doesn't matter anymore,
1791
01:17:57,072 --> 01:18:00,776
and so I'm just gonna
walk you and this--I'm done.
1792
01:18:03,479 --> 01:18:06,282
- I'm sorry that this is,
like, the way this has gone,
1793
01:18:06,348 --> 01:18:08,651
like, I mean, I know
that you're saying, like,
1794
01:18:08,717 --> 01:18:11,053
at this point nothing you--
nothing I can say will, like,
1795
01:18:11,120 --> 01:18:17,927
mean anything different to you,
but like, I genuinely, like,
1796
01:18:17,993 --> 01:18:24,633
want you to know that this
was real for me and, like...
1797
01:18:30,105 --> 01:18:32,942
I'm, like, I know that you,
like, don't want to hear
1798
01:18:33,008 --> 01:18:34,777
anything at this point
and, like, I can tell by,
1799
01:18:34,843 --> 01:18:37,446
like, every ounce in you
that you probably hate me
1800
01:18:37,513 --> 01:18:40,983
at this point, and, like,
I'm genuinely so sorry for,
1801
01:18:41,050 --> 01:18:42,918
like, the pain I've
caused you and, like,
1802
01:18:42,985 --> 01:18:46,655
I promise you, like,
every ounce of this has been
1803
01:18:46,722 --> 01:18:51,427
real and, like, genuine
and, like, and I actually feel,
1804
01:18:51,493 --> 01:18:54,863
like, awful in how this has
gone down tonight in every way.
1805
01:18:54,930 --> 01:18:56,932
- This is the last thing
I'll say.
1806
01:18:58,534 --> 01:18:59,602
Because of my faith,
I believe everything
1807
01:18:59,668 --> 01:19:01,704
happens for a reason.
1808
01:19:01,770 --> 01:19:04,006
And I'm just gonna take
that and move forward
1809
01:19:04,073 --> 01:19:05,975
in my life and realize that,
like, I had to go through this.
1810
01:19:06,041 --> 01:19:09,211
So at some point, I'll end up
finding somebody that actually
1811
01:19:09,278 --> 01:19:11,580
will stick through it and will
understand me for who I am,
1812
01:19:11,647 --> 01:19:13,949
and will fight for me
as much as I fight for them.
1813
01:19:14,016 --> 01:19:16,619
And I thought you were that
person, you're not that person,
1814
01:19:16,685 --> 01:19:18,254
and, like, this is how
it's supposed to end
1815
01:19:18,320 --> 01:19:20,656
and I'm done--
I'm done, I just...
1816
01:19:20,723 --> 01:19:22,258
- Okay.
1817
01:19:26,161 --> 01:19:27,896
Oh, my God.
1818
01:19:38,707 --> 01:19:41,644
[somber music]
1819
01:19:41,710 --> 01:19:48,751
♪ ♪
1820
01:20:26,789 --> 01:20:28,691
- Oh, my gosh.
1821
01:20:35,564 --> 01:20:38,367
[dramatic music]
1822
01:20:38,434 --> 01:20:40,769
That was my biggest fear,
I'm like, I'm falling in love,
1823
01:20:40,836 --> 01:20:42,438
and this is my person,
and I believe that person's
1824
01:20:42,504 --> 01:20:47,409
out there, and--
that's right in front of me,
1825
01:20:47,476 --> 01:20:49,912
and now it's not--now it's not.
1826
01:20:51,480 --> 01:20:52,915
- I just, like, thought
he would have had more
1827
01:20:52,981 --> 01:20:55,084
compassion for me in the end,
to be honest, like,
1828
01:20:55,150 --> 01:20:58,721
regardless of what kind
of love, at this point,
1829
01:20:58,787 --> 01:21:03,258
I'd just thought, like,
we would have been better
1830
01:21:03,325 --> 01:21:05,961
at getting through
that conversation kindly.
1831
01:21:10,733 --> 01:21:12,234
- Everything is invalidated
to me right now,
1832
01:21:12,301 --> 01:21:13,502
this--this
whole thing--nothing,
1833
01:21:13,569 --> 01:21:15,537
I don't even--my heart's
not in it anymore.
1834
01:21:15,604 --> 01:21:18,040
My heart's out--it's out,
it's done.
1835
01:21:18,107 --> 01:21:19,441
It's over--it's over.
1836
01:21:19,508 --> 01:21:26,548
♪ ♪
1837
01:21:31,420 --> 01:21:33,756
[breathing heavily]
1838
01:21:36,425 --> 01:21:39,294
announcer: Next week,
on "The Bachelor"...
1839
01:21:39,361 --> 01:21:41,230
the crazy drama begins.
1840
01:21:41,296 --> 01:21:43,665
- Your actions speak
way louder than words.
1841
01:21:43,732 --> 01:21:47,269
I can't believe anything
you say--not one thing.
1842
01:21:47,336 --> 01:21:49,071
announcer:
Get ready for two nights
1843
01:21:49,138 --> 01:21:50,672
of unbelievable television.
1844
01:21:50,739 --> 01:21:52,274
- I'm so broken.
1845
01:21:52,341 --> 01:21:53,742
announcer:
Clayton's hopes and dreams
1846
01:21:53,809 --> 01:21:55,344
have blown up in his face.
1847
01:21:55,411 --> 01:21:57,279
- You've put yourself
in this situation.
1848
01:21:57,346 --> 01:21:59,348
You screwed the pooch,
in my opinion.
1849
01:21:59,415 --> 01:22:01,150
- I wish I never
would have fallen in love.
1850
01:22:01,216 --> 01:22:03,952
announcer: And there is more
shocking drama to come.
1851
01:22:04,019 --> 01:22:07,089
- I wanna be fully transparent.
1852
01:22:07,156 --> 01:22:08,757
I am in love with each of you.
1853
01:22:08,824 --> 01:22:10,993
announcer: Welcome to
the Rose Ceremony from hell.
1854
01:22:11,059 --> 01:22:14,897
- And I also was...
intimate with both of you.
1855
01:22:14,963 --> 01:22:16,398
- [sobbing]
1856
01:22:16,465 --> 01:22:18,500
announcer: No Bachelor
has ever done this before.
1857
01:22:18,567 --> 01:22:20,302
- He told me he was falling
in love with me,
1858
01:22:20,369 --> 01:22:21,804
and he told Rachel.
1859
01:22:21,870 --> 01:22:22,905
- He's in love with all of us,
1860
01:22:22,971 --> 01:22:25,340
so how could it be
special at all?
1861
01:22:25,407 --> 01:22:26,975
- I had no idea this
was what was gonna happen.
1862
01:22:27,042 --> 01:22:28,043
- Don't blame anybody
but yourself.
1863
01:22:28,110 --> 01:22:29,044
- I'm not blaming anybody,
but Dad--
1864
01:22:29,111 --> 01:22:30,045
- But you are.
1865
01:22:30,112 --> 01:22:31,280
You're grasping at straws.
1866
01:22:31,346 --> 01:22:34,483
- This is like the worst
feeling I've ever had.
1867
01:22:34,550 --> 01:22:36,752
announcer: And if you think
you know what happens next...
1868
01:22:36,819 --> 01:22:37,786
♪ ♪
1869
01:22:37,853 --> 01:22:39,922
Guess again.
1870
01:22:39,988 --> 01:22:41,924
- I've got some news
1871
01:22:41,990 --> 01:22:44,092
that I think is gonna
change everything for you.
1872
01:22:44,159 --> 01:22:45,461
♪ ♪
1873
01:22:45,527 --> 01:22:47,563
announcer: Don't miss
this historic moment
1874
01:22:47,629 --> 01:22:49,331
Monday and Tuesday night.
1875
01:22:49,398 --> 01:22:50,632
- No matter
what's gonna happen,
1876
01:22:50,699 --> 01:22:51,967
you're gonna hurt somebody.
1877
01:22:52,034 --> 01:22:54,369
- I do love you, but--
- That is [bleep]!
1878
01:22:54,436 --> 01:22:57,506
- [crying] This is not
how I wanted it to go.
1879
01:22:58,507 --> 01:22:59,875
- I wanna believe love's here,
1880
01:22:59,942 --> 01:23:02,311
but I just don't know
what's gonna happen.
1881
01:23:02,377 --> 01:23:04,179
announcer:
It's the truly shocking
1882
01:23:04,246 --> 01:23:07,616
live season finale
of "The Bachelor."
1883
01:23:07,683 --> 01:23:10,219
- The date card said,
"Let's see how deep
1884
01:23:10,285 --> 01:23:13,555
our love can go, or is,"
something like that?
1885
01:23:13,622 --> 01:23:15,624
- Yeah.
- Scuba diving.
1886
01:23:15,691 --> 01:23:17,893
- S--that wouldn't be fun.
1887
01:23:17,960 --> 01:23:20,028
- But deep.
1888
01:23:20,095 --> 01:23:23,799
- Um, maybe they're
gonna be ice fishing.
1889
01:23:23,866 --> 01:23:25,901
- [gasps] Oh, my God.
1890
01:23:25,968 --> 01:23:27,236
Yeah, that could be a thing.
1891
01:23:27,302 --> 01:23:30,205
Um, I feel like cavern,
like, you know, like,
1892
01:23:30,272 --> 01:23:32,574
cave-ish, but not quite.
1893
01:23:32,641 --> 01:23:34,776
- Do you know "spelunkeling"?
1894
01:23:34,843 --> 01:23:38,013
- No, is that a--what is it?
1895
01:23:38,080 --> 01:23:40,449
Is that the name
of a place here?
1896
01:23:40,516 --> 01:23:42,284
What is it?
1897
01:23:42,351 --> 01:23:44,286
- Spunk--spunkeling?
1898
01:23:44,353 --> 01:23:46,088
- Like, that's what you call
cave adventures,
1899
01:23:46,154 --> 01:23:49,558
spelunkel--spunkel--
spelunkel--spelunkeling.
1900
01:23:49,625 --> 01:23:51,026
[laughter]
1901
01:23:51,093 --> 01:23:52,160
- Spelunkeling?
- Yeah.
1902
01:23:52,227 --> 01:23:53,362
- Maybe they're
going spelunkeling.
1903
01:23:53,428 --> 01:23:54,930
- I think they're
going spelunkeling.
1904
01:23:54,997 --> 01:23:56,331
And you know what?
She can have it.
1905
01:23:56,398 --> 01:23:57,866
- You know what? Have fun.
1906
01:23:57,933 --> 01:23:59,701
- You know what?
I hope a stalagmite
1907
01:23:59,768 --> 01:24:00,802
doesn't hit you in the ass
on the way out.
1908
01:24:00,869 --> 01:24:03,872
- Yeah.
[both laughing]
1909
01:24:03,939 --> 01:24:07,709
- Uh-oh, too bad.