announcer: Tonight, on "The Bachelor"...
- Oh, my gosh.
- Welcome to Iceland.
- This is so cool.
You can't even dream of a place like this.
- This week is overnights.
This time together could change everything.
- It is exciting to know
that we can still get deeper and deeper.
This night could be one of the most incredible nights
of my life.
It could show me everything that I need to know.
- It just feels like I'm dreaming.
- I can really see us at the end of this.
- It's time to let my walls down.
I am falling in love...
- Whoo! - And it feels so good!
- I'm so all in with Clayton.
- I don't want anything to be off limits between us.
- My heart is telling me
that I'm falling in love
with all three of these women.
[dramatic music]
- It's really hard because I don't know
how Clayton feels about these other women.
- He could be in love with Susie.
He could be in love with Gabby.
- I know that I could end up heartbroken.
- Just don't wanna hurt anybody.
And I'm going to.
This is exactly what I was afraid of.
I don't believe in anything anymore.
It's over. It's over.
I am done.
♪ ♪
[wind whistling]
[soft music]
♪ ♪
- Hello. - Hi, velkominn.
Welcome to Iceland Air.
- This is the most important week for me.
- Have a safe flight. - Thank you.
And I'm so excited.
This is overnights week.
And I will be continuing my journey
to find love in Iceland.
[engine roaring]
As far as, like, falling in love, I mean,
I don't know if there's a much better place
to do it than Iceland.
[dramatic music]
It's absolutely beautiful and breathtaking.
♪ ♪
[bird chirping]
I realized over the last week or so that
I have been holding back,
kind of protecting myself.
Just trying to make sense of all my feelings.
I'm really hoping that the overnights
will give me some clarity.
I do have a strong physical connection
with each of the three women that are left.
Susie,
Gabby,
and Rachel.
And they all told me
that they're falling in love with me.
I think I might be falling in love
with all three of these women.
And I also might already be in love with Susie.
[dramatic music]
I don't know.
Can you fall in love multiple times at the same time?
I don't know.
But I know it's time to let my walls down,
quit being guarded.
This is the perfect week to open up and be vulnerable.
I'm done holding back.
I am just so excited to see these women.
[clock ticking]
- It's weird, but I'm happy to see you all.
- I know. I agree. - Yeah, same.
- I can't believe there's three of us.
- I know, it's crazy. - I know.
- I feel like we blinked and all of a sudden, we're here.
- I know. - I know.
- So naturally, I'm having a panic attack, but...
- Welcome to the panic attack room.
- Yeah. - Yeah, literally.
- We're all having one.
- It's a big week. - Yeah.
- It's exciting, but I think
there's a lot of pressure there too.
- I haven't dated anyone for this long
and, like, not have had kind of, you know, like,
just time alone, essentially. - Mm-hmm.
- So it's like much needed in so many different ways.
I mean, I don't want anything to be off-limits between us.
- Yeah.
It's strange.
[tense music]
- I'm so excited to spend some time
with Clayton in the Fantasy Suite.
Really get to, like, explore each other
and give a taste of, like, what it's gonna be like.
Last week, I told Clayton
I was falling in love with him, which is definitely true.
We just have so much fun together and we're, like,
so natural and it's so easy between us.
You know, I just feel like in our body language,
he always makes me feel, like, loved.
What we really do have is really special and, like,
I can't wait to see him and have him all to myself.
[knocking on door]
- Hey.
all: Hi. - Hi!
How's everybody feeling?
- Good. - Good!
- Good.
Well, congratulations on making it to Iceland.
You know, when all this started,
there were 30 women that
didn't really know what they were getting themselves into.
And here we are, there's three of you left.
And within a matter of days,
there's a really great chance that one of you
is going to be engaged to Clayton.
- Mm-hmm. - This really is
the most important week yet
because over the next couple of days,
each of you will be embarking on a meaningful
and intimate overnight date with Clayton.
So, yes, I'm talking about Fantasy Suites.
If both you and Clayton accept the key to the Fantasy Suite,
you will be given private, uninterrupted time.
No cameras, no intrusions.
Just the two of you alone.
The time in that Fantasy Suite could bring you two
closer than you ever thought possible.
It could be the difference between you leaving here alone
or leaving Iceland with Clayton.
On that note,
got the first date card right here.
I wish you all the best of luck,
and I hope to see you all at the next Rose Ceremony.
- Thanks. - Thanks, Jesse.
- Good luck. - Thank you.
[tense music]
♪ ♪
- Yeah.
- I feel like my connection with Clayton is
definitely something I've never experienced before,
and every time I'm with him,
it changes and it just gets better.
If it's not me and him at the end,
I will be heartbroken.
There's no way around that at this point.
- Oh, my gosh.
- The dates this week are so important.
It could just completely take us to the next level,
and I want that so much.
[soft, dramatic music]
♪ ♪
- Rachel.
"Let's see how deep our love can go.
Love, Clayton."
- [chuckles] - [high-pitched] Oh, my gosh!
- Thanks, guys. - Yeah.
- I'm definitely excited to see him after Hometowns.
I feel like we all have so much to talk about,
but, yeah, we'll see.
I'm excited, really. - Yeah.
- [exhales]
- I'm happy for you. - Thank you.
- Yes. - Me too.
- Yeah, it'll be nice.
[clock ticking]
- All right, well, I'm gonna go get ready for the date.
- Okay, have fun. - I'll see you guys
back at our--our house. - Have fun, we love you.
- Yeah.
- Bye. - Bye.
[door closes]
- Oh, man.
- This week's gonna be intense.
There is, like, such big decisions to be made.
- Yeah.
I can't possibly know,
like, where Clayton's head is at in this.
If tonight goes really well for Rachel, like,
obviously they would be, like, sharing intimate time together
and, like, that would be, like, a really tough pill to swallow.
- Yeah.
- I don't know how Clayton feels about these other women,
but in my head, it's me at the end of this with Clayton.
I can see myself getting engaged to this man.
I can see myself having a family with him,
but I'm hoping that he takes, like,
physical intimacy as seriously as I do.
[dramatic music]
Sex is incredibly important in a relationship,
but it's something that
I only do with people that I have
some form of commitment with.
If I find out that he's falling in love
with other women or that he has become
physically intimate with another woman,
that would be devastating.
This week seems impossible,
and I don't know how to get through this.
[lively music]
[geese honking]
[bike bell rings]
♪ ♪
- It feels really good to get the first overnight.
I'm really excited to see Clayton
and I already feel like we have such a great connection.
And the more I'm with him, the more I see an engagement.
For it to be this close, it's just--it's terrifying.
[dramatic music]
My fears going into today are kinda just all stemming
off of how uneasy I felt after the Rose Ceremony.
I got the last rose
and I truly felt in that moment
that he was about to send me home.
This week is so huge.
Fantasy Suites.
I mean, you could walk out of it stronger than ever
or maybe realizing it wouldn't work
and that's really scary.
So I'm just hoping that today,
he tells me that he is falling in love with me.
[laughs] Hi.
[dramatic music]
- Mm.
How are you doing?
- I really missed you. - Yeah?
I missed you too. - I'm so excited to be here.
- I know, like, we're in...
I mean, look at this. - We're in Iceland.
- First off, look at the view, it's ridiculous.
Anywhere you look, it is absolutely beautiful.
- I know. - I am extremely excited today.
Do you have any clue what we're about to do?
- No.
- You don't? - Mm-mm.
- But you're excited.
- I'm so excited. - Okay,
you ready to go see what we're gonna do?
- Yes, show me. - Okay.
All right, let's go.
[soft music]
This way. - What are we doing?
Tell me. - I can't.
- Why? - 'Cause it's so much better
if I don't tell you.
- [gasps]
- So... - Oh, my gosh.
- Iceland is great, but what better way
to see it than a helicopter?
[whirring]
- [gasps]
This is gonna be so cool.
- Just wait.
Just wait.
- Gosh. - Going up.
[dramatic music]
I'm so excited to see Rachel.
It's gonna be absolutely mind-blowing
to experience Iceland with her,
and I think it'll do a lot for our relationship.
- Oh, my gosh, it's just so beautiful.
- I love the mountains.
Rachel's been all in since the beginning,
and so it allowed us to really take our relationship
to newer heights faster than anybody else.
Always feels like so long from the last time I saw you.
- I know.
♪ ♪
- Rachel and I have the strongest
physical connection.
You can't separate us if you tried.
- This is a volcano.
So this is an ongoing eruption here.
- Oh, wow, look at this. This is actually really cool.
- I'm glad we didn't miss it.
- We have this explosive connection and, you know,
Rachel has told me she is falling in love with me.
I haven't told her that.
I realize that if I just keep holding back,
I run the risk of Rachel maybe losing some of the feelings.
I know it's time to let my walls down.
And I hope that I can do that today.
♪ ♪
I mean, look at this.
You can't beat a view like this.
- I've never seen anything like this.
- All right, okay. - We have things to do.
- We can do that all day, but...
I wouldn't just bring you up here
for no reason. - Mm-hmm.
- That's actually a volcano.
We're going inside of it.
- [laughs]
No way. - We are,
we are going inside of it,
so let's go ahead and--and head towards it.
Can't believe that I'm about to go into a volcano.
It isn't active, obviously.
It's extremely exciting.
Ooh, look at this drop-off.
- Do you want to slide down it?
- Can't wait to see what the inside looks like.
I can only imagine, but it's 400 feet down.
Wow.
[machinery clunking]
Ooh-hoo-hoo! - Right?
- Here we go.
- Like, it just drops on the way down.
- When it comes to Rachel, I--I realized that
I was holding back 'cause I was just protecting myself.
I have to start going deeper with our relationship
and that's what today's about, no matter how scary it is.
- Ooh! - Down into the depths.
[water dripping]
I know, like, what's at stake today,
and I'm nervous, I'm scared.
Really, if you look straight down,
there's just nothing.
- Wow.
[tense music]
- Oh.
[laughs] That is far.
You know, who knows how much more
this relationship can grow once I open up and go deeper?
I think that's been overdue, it's long overdue.
- This is so cool.
[majestic music]
♪ ♪
- Absolutely ridiculous.
- [chuckles]
- I think I am falling for Rachel.
I look at how she continually expresses herself.
She shows me so much love.
- [giggles] - Blowing my mind.
I'm gonna try to dive into that fully.
But, like, in the same way that it's scary
to drop down into a 400 foot hole,
opening up is--it's just hard.
400 feet down.
And touching down, there it is.
- Man, this is so cool.
- It's nothing that you'd ever think you'd do.
We're 400 feet down.
[water dripping]
- In Iceland.
I'm really happy to be here, honestly.
I feel like, after Hometowns, it just, like,
feels, like, incredible.
- Yeah, that was great. That felt like forever ago,
but it was really just last week.
- I know.
How was everything?
Like, do you have any other, like,
questions, like, after, like, talking to everyone?
- [sniffs] Um...
No, I feel like, honestly, I think it, like,
went very well.
- I know. I was very impressed by you.
They're normally not that impressed by anyone.
- They were--they were tough. - They could've given you
a little bit more, but... - You think?
- Yes. - I think they were tough.
- You did? - Yeah.
I thought I was, like, going into a firing squad.
And I came out, you know, pretty--pretty not too bad, so.
- I think the one thing I wanted, like,
going in to the entire week was just for them to see me
and, like, know how I felt.
And I feel like they really did.
- Yeah. - Like, every single person
that saw me there, like,
"We've never seen you like this."
For them to see how I felt.
- Yeah. - Because I know,
like, how I feel.
It was just really nice and to have, like,
to share it with you.
- Yeah, but it--for me too.
Like, it was--like,
yes, it was tough, but they--
I really felt like, you know, it was all a lot
of great conversations
and it was a really good, uh, visit.
- So you don't have any, like, reservations or anything?
- No. - No?
- Yeah.
What? - What?
[giggles]
[romantic music]
I want him to open up, and he hasn't yet.
It still was an incredible day and I'm--
I'm really excited to, you know, go into the night,
have, you know, some conversations.
- All right, should we get off this rock?
- But I still think there are things I want to talk about
just because I really truly feel like
I have done nothing but be vulnerable
this entire time, and I need him
to just give a little bit back.
My hopes are that I can get what I need
to move forward into Fantasy Suites.
If I don't, I'm really worried that our relationship,
it's not meant to be.
♪ ♪
[tense music]
- Feel like it's very strange times.
- Yeah.
Of course, they're gonna go to Fantasy Suites.
I think all of us are.
- Mm-hmm. - But I want the person
I'm gonna be with to explore other relationships.
- Mm-hmm. - And to on purpose choose me.
- Mm-hmm. - Like, I want him to be able
to explore everything.
Like, I really do. - Mm-hmm.
- Like, truly getting to know us inside and out.
Just to see what it feels like.
I'm like, "Do it."
- I don't know that I feel the same way where I'm, like,
I didn't even really, like,
comprehend the gravity of it until this second.
I don't know if he can
fall in love with multiple people at once
and, like, I don't know if he's falling in love
with any one of us, like, I don't know.
I haven't heard from him if he is.
And, like, Rachel's literally gonna have
that clarity or at least some aspect of it tonight.
♪ ♪
- You look nice.
- Thank you. You look beautiful as always.
- Oh, thank you.
We had such an incredible day.
I'm just so happy and, like,
living in the moment and it just feels amazing.
- Let's go.
- I love Clayton.
I can definitely see him being my future husband.
[soft music]
I feel that I have constantly pushed myself
to be completely open and vulnerable.
But I don't know how he feels.
I definitely do need to have that two-way relationship,
so I don't know if I would be able to go
into Fantasy Suite not knowing where he's at at all.
- Today was great as always.
- It was the most incredible date,
and I was not expecting it at all.
It really felt like we were, like, on a different planet.
- That's what's so great is we always have so much fun.
- I know, and I feel like
we have had such an incredible connection, like, day one.
- Mm-hmm. - Like, and I've always, like,
told you that.
- It's just crazy.
I dunno, this whole thing has been crazy.
- I know. - How it happened so quickly
that, like, it didn't almost make sense.
- Yeah, like, you know, the way I feel,
I've never in my life felt before.
- Mm-hmm. - And I think it's because you
continuously, like, push me.
Then, like, going into Croatia and, like,
telling you how I felt and, like,
how I was falling for you.
And after Hometowns, I was so happy and so excited.
But during the Rose Ceremony,
I felt like I ha--couldn't breathe.
And I was standing there
and I--I couldn't read you.
And I feel like I normally can and I was--I remember,
like, looking at you.
And, like, I genuinely was terrified.
I don't even remember, like,
those moments of you calling my name
because I was so shocked
that I could get to that point of thinking
that you were about to walk me out and how it
actually felt like a heartbreak before it even happened.
It really did put everything into perspective
of how I actually feel
and I did, I cried the entire drive to the hotel
'cause I was like, I don't know where he's at,
I don't know.
- [inhales] Yeah, um...
[soft music]
Yeah, I think honestly...
I mean, I definitely have had something,
you know, kind of weighing on me.
- Mm-hmm.
- I, uh, I don't feel like
I was--been able to be like 100% transparent,
like, when I was with your family.
- Mm-hmm.
- And I've kind of come
to terms with, like, what I am feeling.
And I kind of wish I had told you earlier.
And I was kind of holding on to it.
So...
I'll just come out and say, like...
I'm falling in love with you.
I am, and I haven't--
- You just scared me. I was like...
My--do you know how cold my hands are?
- [chuckles]
I realize that I have been feeling this way
for probably a couple weeks, if not more.
But part of me was scared because I hadn't
felt those feelings for over five or six years
since my last relationship.
So thank you for being patient with me.
- Of course. - I'm just glad, obviously,
I could finally tell you, because it's like
a weight on my shoulders and I'm just happy
'cause I've been wanting to say it.
- I'm glad you finally did,
because I feel so much better.
[romantic music]
♪ ♪
To finally see him be vulnerable
and to hear that he is also falling in love with me
is the most incredible feeling.
It just feels like I'm dreaming.
I feel incredibly close to him to know that
all of my feelings are reciprocated
and going forward,
I'm ready for whatever happens tonight.
- I have something for you.
♪ ♪
- Oh.
"Clayton and Rachel,
"from high in the sky to far beneath the ground,
"your day has been nothing short of breathtaking.
"Should you choose to forgo your individual rooms,
"please use this key to stay
"as a couple in the Fantasy Suite.
Jesse."
Going into tonight, I really did need an answer
from you, and I think you
surpassed every expectation always.
And I feel very confident that
we should definitely stay tonight together.
- [chuckles]
- I feel like I have
searched my whole life to feel this way.
- Get outta here?
- It feels amazing and almost too good to be true.
I don't think it's a question in either of our minds
that we're going to be physically,
you know, very intimate.
The Fantasy Suite will change everything.
- All right, here it is.
The Fantasy Suite.
- Ooh.
- Gonna, uh, check it out a little bit.
It's really exciting
for me to finally be fully vulnerable myself
and to tell her, like, say the words,
"I'm falling in love with you."
- Kitchen. We can cook breakfast in the morning.
- Yeah.
This girl is beyond special, like,
she has it all.
I love the fact that when I see her
she just has this little grin on her face.
- Ready? - Yeah.
[mouth full] You gotta let go of it.
[giggling]
There's just this feeling she gives me
that pulls me in.
Hopefully we are falling more in love tomorrow morning
than we were tonight.
[triumphant music]
- I don't know how Clayton feels about Rachel,
but it's very intimidating, like, to think about.
- Right. - I think I would, like,
want to know his intentions on everything.
On every action he makes this week,
I just--I would just want to know his intentions on it.
- Yeah, and I think, like,
he's always spoke really loud with his actions.
- Yeah.
If Clayton is feeling that, like, intuition
that I'm feeling in this relationship
that, like, I see myself at the end of this with him,
I think sex would be, like,
a really big boundary to cross.
- [giggling]
- And I am still really confident in who he is.
I'm not making any assumptions at this point,
but if Clayton
thinks that it's me at the end of this...
- [gasps]
- And then proceeds
to sleep with another woman, like, anyways...
I would have a really hard time
moving forward with him.
♪ ♪
[birds chirping]
[ducks quacking]
- It is absolutely incredible to finally
wake up next to you.
- I mean, just to me it was, like, so special
to, like, wake up and, like, have you be, like,
on my shoulder which is a little dead, but whatever.
- I'm sorry!
[laughter]
- Rachel and I had a near-perfect night together.
Everything went exactly as I hoped it would go.
We talked about so much, we had a strong connection.
It felt like a dream.
- It's been a really long journey
since stepping out of the limo.
And now we're in Iceland, and I'm in love with you.
- It just--like I said, it doesn't feel real.
- Mm-mm.
You make it easy.
- Everything with us is easy.
- Yeah, it is.
- It really is.
[romantic music]
I know how I feel right now.
I do love Rachel.
And it's just scary, 'cause it's like
I've never been so open.
I just have to follow my heart
and my heart is telling me that I'm in love with her.
All right, should we go make some breakfast?
- Mm-hmm. - Yeah.
- [giggles]
[romantic music]
- I just couldn't have imagined it going any better,
and I just feel like our relationship
is on an entirely new level now.
[giggles]
Intimacy is really important
in a relationship and so,
yeah, it was a good night.
That's all I have to say.
[sweeping music]
♪ ♪
Hey!
I love you!
- I love you too, Rachel!
♪ ♪
All the time!
I'm gonna miss you.
- This morning, it was so perfect,
and it's like I will hold onto that
for the rest of my life.
For--yeah, forever. It's incredible.
I feel like you do not get moments like that
in life a lot.
Yeah, I'm definitely gonna hold on to it.
[bell tolling]
- I didn't sleep great.
I woke up in the middle of the night and I'm just, like,
running every possible scenario
through my head, like--
- Yeah. - Every which way
this week could go. - Yeah.
- No one knows what's going on
literally behind closed doors at this point.
- Yeah. - So it's, like, to assume--
it's--it makes it worse for yourself.
- Yeah, totally, yeah. - So I think we'll
pick up on some vibes for sure.
- Right. - But, like, I don't think--
I'm not gonna try to read into it too much.
- Yeah, me either.
- Mm-hmm.
[soft music]
To me, Clayton is like the person
that I want to get engaged to.
But, like, I don't know what happened last night.
Like, obviously, their relationship
probably reached new levels.
And, like, it's very possible that they had sex.
It's possible that he told her he loved her.
But I just feel like
I would be crazy to assume anything, in my opinion.
Or maybe I'm crazy to assume that they didn't.
But there's obviously a part of me that's hoping
that they didn't because, like...
That would suck, you know?
[door opening] - [gasps]
Hi!
- [giggles] - Hi.
- You look so cute. - How are you?
- Look at you. - Oh, hello.
- How's it going?
- Hi, guys. - Hi.
- What'd you do?
Do you wanna tell us, like, what your date was?
- Yeah, so we went, like, in a ca--
like, down a volcano, like, in a cave.
It was fun. - Mm.
- I know this is really awkward and I respect you guys so much.
- Same. - I know.
- We all respect each other. - Yeah.
Yeah. - I'm really sorry in advance.
[tense music]
I think it's just gonna be a tough week
for all of us having
to, you know, see all of us come home
because it is a-- it's a big night.
- Yeah. - But yeah, it was nice.
Yeah.
- Rachel seemed to have clarity.
She seemed happy.
But, like...
[tearfully] There was, like, that side of me that
just kept thinking, like, so much has happened.
[sobs]
I haven't ever met someone like Clayton.
I do have, like, you know, high hopes,
but right now,
it just feels, like, too good to be true, you know?
- I think I'm gonna go get ready.
I'll see you guys soon. - Yes.
- Have fun.
See you.
- Like, I hope Clayton's for me.
Like, I hope that--he's like this person I've, like,
dreamt of him being and, like...
[sniffles]
That's the thing is, like, you don't know.
[somber music]
♪ ♪
- I felt so good after
spending the night with Rachel.
It was perfect, it was perfect.
There was nothing...
there was nothing that could've went
any differently or any better.
And if it was just her,
I would just be bouncing off the walls and so excited
to see what was gonna happen next between us,
but it's like it's not just her.
[somber music]
I didn't know I was gonna say I'm in love with Rachel,
but, like, I meant it.
That's why I said it.
There's two other women that I could also
wake up feeling the exact same way,
because I just don't know
what's gonna happen in these next two overnights.
There's the potential
to be in love with all three of them.
And it's, like, so then what?
That's the scary part about it.
[dramatic music]
♪ ♪
- I'm so excited to have my overnight date with Clayton
and get some intimate one-on-one time.
This date's important for us
to continue to grow and potentially take things
to a whole new level.
I just always feel better when I'm in his presence.
So I can't wait to see him again.
I don't know what we're gonna be doing,
but I obviously bundled to stay warm.
I was hoping an Icelandic cruise
with whale-watching and strawberries and champagne.
But I think, um, that's not it.
[adventurous music]
Oh, God, no.
Oh, my God.
[laughs]
Oh, my God, this is crazy.
- All right.
- I'm so dead.
[laughs]
- Oh, wait.
Helmet.
- [laughs] Hi.
What is going on?
It's so cold.
[giggling]
- It is freezing.
- It's good to see you. - Look at you all bundled up.
- [laughs]
- So welcome to Iceland. - Thank you.
- We're gonna go explore the beach...
- Uh-huh. - In that, okay?
- Okay. - All right, ready to go?
- Yeah. - All right, let's do it.
I'm extremely excited to see Gabby today.
I have a really, really fun dune buggy date
planned for the two of us, so...
You need a helmet.
I'm really excited for it, I can't wait.
It's something I've never done.
- This is crazy. - There you go.
Last week, Gabby told me she's falling in love with me
and that was nice to hear,
because Gabby and I had a slow start in our relationship
as opposed to Rachel and Susie who completely
took off right out the gate.
- Stop, you have to stop.
- But with Gabby, I continue to see
this upward trajectory
and it's, like, we're not slowing down.
I really love so many things about her.
And I'm excited to see, like, what today brings.
- You have to start off in low gear.
- No, stop! - High it is.
[buggy engine roars]
And we're off! - No, stop!
- Whoo-hoo-hoo! - Oh, my God!
Oh, my God! - Whoo!
- Oh, my God, this is so pretty.
- Where's a ramp at? We need to find a ramp.
- [laughs]
[shrieks]
- Whoo-hoo-hoo! - Which way are you dri--
[screams] - Whoa!
[laughter]
This thing is fast!
- Don't go this way. Go that way.
I trust Clayton with my heart,
but not so much when it comes to, like, this buggy.
He has this need for speed.
[screaming]
Oh, no!
[imitating engine roaring]
- Take it down by the water a little bit?
- Oh, my God, it's so beautiful.
♪ ♪
I'm gonna cry.
[serene music]
It's, like, such an amazing date.
The terrain is very romantic.
We're having so much fun just, like, being kids.
I can see us, like, always playing around
and living some of our life like this.
It's really so fun.
- Do I get to drive?
- Okay.
- Being there with Clayton, like,
I just feel, like, so free.
I love that he loves adventure so much.
He's just, like, so cute.
- Here we go. - [shrieks]
- [laughs]
Do a little turn.
There we go.
Push it.
- I gave it the juice!
- You're cutting these corners way harder than I did.
- She can't be stopped!
- [laughs]
- It's because of days like this
I can see myself with Clayton for the rest of my life.
I want him to know that I am ready for our next step.
Like, I want to be with him at the end of this.
That was fun.
- Yeah, see?
You were giving me trouble. - [giggling]
♪ ♪
What'd you think of my family?
I feel like we haven't talked about Hometowns.
- They were so much fun. - Yeah.
- They're--like, your grandpa the second I walked in
was just cracking jokes right off the bat.
- Mm-hmm. - And it's so obvious,
like, where you're-- you're coming from,
I feel like I fit in.
- Yeah, okay.
- And--and obviously like to see that,
even if for a moment,
was really special. - Yeah.
I feel like it went, like, so well.
But then after, I was, like, very emotional.
Because, like, I realized how serious things were getting
and obviously, I didn't have any expectations coming here.
So, like, each week has always
exceeded any kind of expectation,
but I also didn't, like,
have the expectation of, like, being so, like, scared
just because, you know, like, what's at stake.
Especially after seeing my family, honestly.
- Yeah, I feel like
we're all realizing, like, how emotionally invested, like,
this has--this journey has been.
- Yeah. - And I think it is
really natural to have us even start to be fearful.
Like, I'm--I'm fearful in my own ways.
- Yeah, I'm sure. - Knowing, like, that there's,
like, the emotions are getting stronger and stronger.
- Yeah. - And it's--it is scary
but I think it's also at the end of it
it'll be very rewarding
but it's not easy. - Totally.
I know that I could end up, like, heartbroken
and that's scary as hell to think about.
But like, I trust you and if I do end up at the end,
I don't want it to be because
you didn't explore your options, you know?
- Yeah. - Like, I want it to be
because you did and with that, like, you chose me.
- Mm-hmm. - Like, I'm ready,
you know, and I don't know if I've
been like this, like, this vocal about it before.
I'm sure I haven't. [chuckles]
But like, I am, you know, and like,
I feel like I want you to know that, like...
- I really do appreciate you telling me all this
because it's good that I know where you're at mentally.
- Mm-hmm. - And yes,
you can protect yourself
and not say something, but like,
on the reverse side of it,
it's like what happens if I don't say this?
Then, like walls go back up.
- Yeah.
- One of us had to start opening up, right?
- Yeah. - It was you.
- Mm-hmm. - Like, you opened up
and, like, now we're here.
Like, that's why we're here.
- Totally. - That is why,
so I really do appreciate it so much.
- [chuckles]
[serene music]
- Today's date went great with Gabby.
It was about as perfect as it gets.
I love that she's able to be vulnerable and doesn't
have to just put up her, like, funny front to be around me.
And she's shown me so much, she's given me everything.
It makes me feel vulnerable and emotional.
It's really a great sign of where we're at.
It's just, like, I have the feelings there,
and I'm not gonna fight it.
You know, I'm falling in love with her.
♪ ♪
[bell tolling]
[soft music]
♪ ♪
- [gasps]
[giggles]
Hi. - How are you doing?
You look great.
- You do too.
- Thank you.
Ready to go inside?
- Yeah. - All right, let's go.
[laughter]
- Going into dinner tonight
after a really great day together
feels like a dream.
I know it's a day we'll never forget.
And tonight is another chance to, like,
bond us deeper.
I told Clayton that I was falling in love with him
last week at Hometowns, so it would really mean
so much to, you know, for him to say it back.
- Such a fun day, like. - So much fun.
- Yeah. It was really, really cool.
Even considering, like, the elements.
Like, it was just, like, I've never seen weather
be so all over the place.
- [giggles] - Like, it was freezing.
- I thought you were talking about me for a second.
- No, not you. - I'm like, that answer...
- You could switch gears, though.
- I did. - You went from being, like,
"You're crazy, like, what are you doing?"
to like all of a sudden putting your hands
on the wheel and there's fire in your eyes.
I was like, "Oh, no."
[laughter]
No, I really thought that the talk we had
at that little, like, diner
was just, like, so natural and it just flowed.
And it was, like, everything that you said
I thought at one time or another.
- Yeah, I feel the same.
I know, it's so nice that we both are able
to open that line of communication.
- Yeah. - 'Cause, like,
the men I've been in relationships with in the past
just expected me to be, like, the fun Gabby
and, like, not have any other sides to me.
But, like, you saw that there's a lot of different sides to me
that I, like, want to be able to show people.
- Yeah. - But also, you hear me
and, like, that speaks volumes.
Like, you're even, like, willing
to have those conversations and, like,
go those places with me. - Yeah.
Yeah, absolutely, I mean, I--I just
talking about, like, not holding back.
I've been proud of you for, like,
going through all this and hearing about your past
and what you've dealt with to get to this point.
- Yeah. - And you've opened up more
and more every single time.
And to hear the word, like, love.
You know, I--when you said it, it was like,
that's not holding back.
Like, that's being all in.
- Yeah.
- And I can't believe at times that, like,
I'm fortunate enough to, like, be receiving
that kind of love and so I-- I really just want to say
thank you so much because now it's really
shown me, I was like, "Wow, like,
this is something special."
- Oh, my God.
- And you've really allowed me to get there as well
because I was so afraid. - Yeah.
- And, you know, because of that, you know, I've--I've
realized that, like, you know, I'm falling in love with you.
I am--I really am.
And it wasn't just like something I came to today.
I'd had these feelings, I just wasn't allowing myself
to, like, admit it because I was so fearful
from, like, my past relationship.
I mean, I've been dying. - Thank you.
♪ ♪
- It just feels right to tell Gabby
I'm falling in love with her and not hold back any longer.
I'm not going to fight the feelings anymore.
We were both slow to open up, but yet we're exactly
where we need to be.
She's just as excited to hear it as I am to say it.
Like, it's beautiful, and it just makes me extremely happy.
I have something for you.
♪ ♪
- "Clayton and Gabby, today you forged your own path
to love on the beautiful black sand beaches of Iceland."
- Ooh!
- "Should you choose to forgo your individual rooms..."
Oh, my God, it's so cute!
"Please use this key
to stay as a couple in the Fantasy Suite."
Oh, my God. - With a hot tub.
- [gasps] - Look at this.
- Oh, my God...
both: Oh...
- Oh, my God, strawberries and champagne.
- In Iceland in a friggin' igloo.
- This is amazing. - This is crazy.
- It's amazing to hear Clayton is falling in love with me,
especially on a night that we get some time alone.
It feels so right, like, it feels like
we're in the right place at the right time
and opening a new door to our relationship.
- Oh, we are doing it in style tonight.
- We're just connecting on, like, a whole new level.
♪ ♪
[uneasy music]
♪ ♪
- I'm just spiraling emotionally
thinking through the worst-case scenario.
Whether it's, like, Clayton falling in love
or him being physically intimate with Gabby.
[sniffling]
I can't, like, grasp the concept of it.
For me, sex is connective with somebody.
I just hope that, like, Clayton's on the same page
and sees it from my perspective.
If that's--I don't even--
I'm talking as if it's, like, the reality.
I don't really know what's happening.
♪ ♪
It would suck to, like, not end up with Clayton, like...
- Keep the fire hot. I got you.
- I value him and I cherish him and, like,
have love for him in my heart, but I don't know what to do.
I just feel sad, 'cause I feel like it's ending.
[soft music]
♪ ♪
- I remember just waking up, like,
where all the covers went, like, I don't know if
you were kicking them off or what happened.
Were you throwing them? Were you sabotaging me?
- Not intentionally. - Yeah.
That was a great night.
I used to be able to, like, fall asleep, like,
to the rain was--it's, like, one of my favorite things.
- Me too. - Yeah.
- I know.
♪ ♪
- Last night really was just so special.
Like, it didn't feel like the first time
with somebody new.
It felt like the comfortability of, like, home.
[laughing] - Look what I brought.
- Oh, my God!
Champagne for breakfast!
It feels just, like, fun for us,
like, no pressure, we're able to laugh together.
Where's yours?
[laughter]
- Oh, you're gonna put this all down?
- Yeah.
It just feels like everything's gonna work out.
- Falling in love is effortless with you
and I just want to cheers to that.
- Aw, you're so sweet.
- With Gabby, I really just am at peace.
Things with Gabby are easy, like, they're easy
and they just fit, they make sense.
There's no, like, fear,
there's no pressure, there's no stress.
It's just like, let's just continue to grow.
Last night, I had so much fun with you,
more than I could have ever expected and it feels so right.
- Mm.
Thank you.
You're easy to fall in love with.
- I am falling more in love with her
with every moment that we have.
Okay, well, I have to go. - Okay.
- See you later. - Okay--okay, bye!
- Walking away this morning, it's hard,
but it feels really good to be able to tell Gabby my feelings
and not hold back any longer on what she means to me.
Hey, Gabby, one more thing.
I just want you to know
that I am falling in love, and it feels so good.
- [laughs]
♪ ♪
- These mornings are so awkward, like,
I know she's gonna feel awkward.
How are you feeling having to watch this again?
I mean, I'm--I know how tough it feels right now.
I can't imagine you're...
- Yeah, I don't know, I'm just--I'm getting through.
- I don't know how you're doing it because--
[door opens] Oh.
all: Hi! - You guys look cute.
- So do you, you look so comfy-cozy.
Welcome home. - Thank you.
- How was it? - It was good.
- What'd you guys end up doing?
- We rode dune buggies... - What?
- On the black sand beaches. [both gasp]
Yeah, I was scared 'cause he's a maniac.
- Oh, my God!
- And then we stayed in, like--like a yurt.
Like, have you seen one of those yurts?
- Oh, really?
- It was small, but there was, like, a huge bed
in the middle just, like, with all these,
like, cute blankets and stuff, but...
- It sounds beautiful.
- It was really beautiful, like, you felt pretty remote.
- That's cool.
- Yeah, so...
- She got bed-head. - Yeah.
This is always a mess.
Is it okay? - Mm-hmm.
I'm just, like, kind of freaking out.
I'm in the dark. I don't know what happened.
Nobody's, like, sharing what he's expressed to them.
Like, it's very possible that Clayton's either, like,
falling in love with somebody else
or has been, like, physically intimate
with somebody else and, like,
just ready to know, like, if...
Clayton and I are moving forward.
♪ ♪
I don't want to cry.
There's no reason to be crying. I don't know anything.
Like, I literally don't know.
But, like, at this point, it's all confusing.
I just want to get to the bottom of everything.
♪ ♪
- Last night, it felt like a dream,
the whole night did, the morning did.
And then, all of a sudden,
everything came crashing back in.
I've now realized I've told two women
I'm in love with them.
I also know that I could feel that way with Susie.
And so now, a thousand percent,
I'm going to absolutely shatter somebody.
Like, I just don't want to hurt anybody...
And I'm going to.
Like, I wanted to fall in love, but I just
didn't want to fall in love with multiple people.
[tense music]
♪ ♪
[dramatic music]
♪ ♪
- It's absolutely crazy to think that
I could be in love with three women.
I'm just very confused.
I told Rachel that I was in love.
Gabby, I told her I was in love with her.
And then today is the overnight date with Susie.
I'm so excited.
This is, you know, someone that really was
the first person that I started to have feelings of love for.
And I just hope that when I'm with her today
that we can continue to, like, pick up where we left off.
♪ ♪
- This whole week has been one of the most challenging
in my life.
I'm just in a dark place.
I just want to get to the bottom of everything.
It's very possible that he is falling in love
with the other women.
I'm, like, struggling emotionally,
but at the same time, like,
I'm not taking on the assumption of anything
at this point.
I'm going to go into the date obviously hoping for the best
and, like, hoping that I've just been, like,
worked up and, like, distraught over this for no reason.
So I just hope I can be comfortable
and, like, relax today.
[wind whistling]
- [laughs]
- I can't even do anything.
- Are you gonna make it here? - I can't even make this cute!
This is too crazy!
- Do the jump.
- No. How's it going?
- [laughing] Good.
- I can't do it, but I'm happy to see you.
Oh, my God, it's hailing! What's happening here?
- Well, welcome to Iceland.
I am so excited to be here with you,
and my only question is, do you have a swimsuit?
- Yes. - Okay.
All right, well, let's go. - Okay, let's go.
- I'm really excited.
We have a really fun day planned
that's going to really allow us to see Iceland
and what it's really known for.
- I'm ready to go inside.
- What do you think we're doing?
- I don't know, this looks like a--
- What does this look like to you?
- A hobbit hole, but like modern.
- Today we'll be going to the Sky Lagoon,
which is a hot springs.
So there's a ritual at the lagoon
to kind of go through different steps of a process towards,
like, really full rejuvenation.
- I feel better inside already.
- Hi, guys. - Hi!
- As you may have heard,
Iceland is known for its geothermal waters.
Today, you'll get to experience it together, to heal your mind
and body, and bring you closer together on your journey.
Once you go in the change room and get ready,
you'll warm up and then you'll cool down a little bit
and have fun.
- Thank you. - Thank you.
- It's safe to say that the water that's--
that'll be steamy today.
I imagine the chemistry between Susie and I
will also be right there with it.
- Oh, my gosh! - Cold mist.
- Cold mist?
Clayton!
What've you got me into?
Okay, ah, how long do we stay in here?
- How long? - Yeah?
The cold room, mm-mm. This is brutal.
- I feel like it's getting better, no?
- Is it? Are your toes not freezing?
- Are you feeling like you got another minute in you?
- I'm cold, I don't know, maybe 30 seconds.
- 30 seconds, okay.
- I was, like, struggling at first just 'cause
I was so cold and, like, so nervous.
Ahh!
Ah, oh, my God!
What in the hell?
Okay, it feels much better in here.
We're just going from hot to cold, and hot to cold.
I have no idea what I'm getting myself into.
This is crazy.
Maybe this is like my relationship with Clayton.
- Oh, it's cold.
- Oh, my gosh, okay. - All right, ready--oh!
- Ah! Okay, I'm done!
I did it. Come on!
It, like, took me a minute to, like, get my bearings.
I was, like, kind of feeling nervous going into the day.
And then there was my, like, dark mindset.
But I'm just like, can I be present right now?
Ooh, this is nice. - Yeah?
- Yeah. - Don't lose your balance here.
This firm--firm base. - Okay, really get in there.
It feels nice to be in there together and, like, be playful.
Strong legs, strong man.
Clayton's shirtless, looking good, looking hot.
- Oh, did you? - Yeah.
- Do you need to get more salt off, is that right?
Oh, yeah, I think there's a little salt on your butt too.
- Oh, no, it's fine.
[laughter]
♪ ♪
- It's been such an emotional week
and I was, like, kind of feeling nervous.
But to finally see Clayton and, like, feel his energy,
this guy that I'm falling in love with...
I just feel so reassured of, like, my connection
with him and, like, how strongly I'm feeling for him.
This was fun. - It really was, yeah.
- This was really cool and so beautiful.
- Like, for me, I was obviously looking forward
to this and--and being back in the know.
- Right? - Let's highlight that again.
- Me too, for all I know, you could be gone by now.
- It was like a week, I was like, uh-oh.
- It's been so long.
- How does she feel? It's been a while.
- It's been a minute.
I definitely was feeling, like, a little bit, like, nervous.
And I feel like I haven't really felt
super nervous around you in a while.
Like, I still feel like giddy and, like,
excited and stuff, but, like, nerves have kind of subdued,
but, of course, like, as soon as I saw you,
once we got through the wind tunnel.
- Once you came back down--
- And the cold bath and the other cold things.
- Yeah, once we got--
- Everything, I mean, yeah, I'm, like,
so happy to be here and move forward.
- I mean, I totally get that.
I definitely felt the nerves too, just because, again,
I was like, wow, it's been, like,
a substantial amount of time and I was like, I don't know,
I just want to make sure obviously that everything is
just as--kind of, like, how it was--last--last was.
- For sure.
[warm music]
♪ ♪
Today was incredible, like, on so many levels.
Oh, it feels so nice.
Whoo!
I feel rejuvenated, and I feel good.
I'm so happy.
I can see Clayton as somebody to start a family with
and spend a life with.
Like, I can totally see that.
Ah!
♪ ♪
Obviously I have so many questions
I still need answered, but, like, I feel hopeful.
At this point, like, I'm so all in with Clayton.
♪ ♪
- The date was perfect.
It feels like we picked up right where we left off.
Like, when I'm with Susie, it's like I'm just beaming
with energy and I always just want to, like,
be next to her and, like, you can't hide that.
[laughter]
- The love for her is on another level.
I have every intention of telling Susie tonight
that I'm in love with her.
The expectations are through the roof tonight.
[wind howling]
- I'm so excited.
This is a day that will change everything,
potentially.
Tonight at dinner, I'm going to tell Susie
that I am in love with her.
Now that I've really addressed my emotions
the last week as a whole, you know,
it's so easy for me to come to the conclusion
that this wasn't a matter of, like, falling in love.
I was past that point.
The anticipation is killing me.
There's no doubt in my mind,
this is the biggest night of this entire journey.
[soft music]
♪ ♪
- Today was very special.
I felt like Clayton really made me feel,
like, secure in my connection with him.
This night could be, like, one of the most
incredible nights of my life and it could show me
everything that I need to know and, like,
move forward with him and start a future with him.
♪ ♪
- Hello!
- Susie, you look beautiful.
- How's it going? Thank you, you look handsome.
I do have such a strong connection with Clayton
and I can see him as a future husband
and somebody that I start a family with.
Thank you.
But I still have questions going into tonight.
I know how I feel about him, but I don't know
where he is with everybody else.
And I know what I'm not willing to compromise on,
so tonight is going to be a really big step for us.
- We are in Iceland, which is absolutely wild to me.
- Mm-hmm.
- And everything that we went through,
I mean, like, it's like we've had so many experiences,
so many first times, and you make it easy
to embrace all the-- all the wild things we've done.
I mean-- - It's been so fun.
- Yeah, the biggest moment for me
was in Croatia.
- For sure.
- At the top of the clock tower, like,
for you to tell me that you were falling in love with me,
like, I hadn't felt that in--for so--in so long.
It's like I almost just forgot what it felt like.
And when you said it, I just remember I was,
like, beaming, like, ear to ear, I was so happy.
It was like one of the happiest moments
I've had in a long time.
But I kind of walked away from it and was like,
okay, what is this I'm feeling?
Since that point, I've had a lot of time
to think about it and...
the more that we've, like, spent time together,
and spending time with your family,
I realized, like, how serious things were getting.
And, you know, the more I thought about it,
I realized that it was, like, that night,
I was also falling in love with you.
You've made me feel what I haven't felt in so long
and it's so exciting when I finally allowed myself
to open up and feel those feelings
and acknowledge them because I think I was trying to
avoid them just because of how much I was hurt in the past.
And I had my own walls up.
And I was so afraid to admit it,
but since that point, like, it's no longer about me
falling in love with you, like, I am in love with you.
- Oh, my gosh.
- And I've wanted to tell you.
It scared me to think, like, the longer I wait,
like, she doesn't know how I feel.
Like, I want her to know and so--
it's a lot, I know, right?
But I haven't--the thing is, like, I just hadn't told you
anything on my side and you were so patient.
So I have been waiting to tell you, and I was so excited,
and this just felt like the perfect time.
- Well, I, like, appreciate you telling me.
I honestly, like, didn't expect to hear that.
I've been very much, like, in this with you for sure.
Like, you know how I feel. Like, I adore you.
Like, I think you're incredible, but...
there are things, like, in knowing that there's
an engagement, like, literally in a week, like,
there are things that I feel like I can't compromise
and, like, tonight, like, I feel uncomfortable.
Like, I feel like I don't want to even,
like, have this conversation.
But I do feel like I have to tell you kind of, like,
where I'm at with, like, my expectations
that I'm not willing to, like, let go of in this.
I know you just told me that, like, you feel like
you're in love with me, but I don't know, like,
do you feel that same way with somebody else?
Or have you, like, slept with another woman?
Like, those are things that, like, I think would be, like,
impossible to move forward towards an engagement.
If I'm sharing your love with somebody else,
I don't think that I would be comfortable, like...
- I guess my--you know, what--what...
I mean, I understand, like, that thought process,
and it is-- like, for me, I think
the big thing that I'm shocked at is,
like, you did say to, like, explore, like,
the relationships, and I thought, like,
when we talked, it was about, you know, like,
saying, like, I want you to explore
and I don't want to be the default at the end of it.
- Yeah. - Like, I want you to pick me
for me, and...
So I want to...
To answer your question, yes.
Like, I have slept with someone else here and...
Yes, I've expressed feelings towards someone else
of falling in love.
- If you feel like you're in love with me,
like, it doesn't, like, make sense to me
to, like, sleep with somebody else.
Like, those are, like, the two things where I'm,
like, feeling strong.
Like, coming into tonight and, like, moving forward,
I don't think I would feel comfortable.
- Like, I told myself coming in this that I wouldn't
fall in love with multiple women,
but it's happened, and what I can tell you, though,
is that, where I stand,
there's different feelings for different people.
It's not--like, with you, I feel way different
than I feel with somebody else.
And I can promise you, like, that it's very special,
where we're at.
- I didn't go into this assuming that it was
gonna be me at the end of this, or even this week, but like,
I thought, like, certainly, if he knows or hopes, like,
has like an inkling of, like, a feeling of like,
I hope that it's Susie, like, I would--like,
I hoped that you would like protect me in that
and, like...
and I know that's maybe cutting your experience short as well,
but I didn't want to ask you to do that.
I just, like, if that were the case, like,
I would have hoped, like, that would have been your action.
- I hope that, like, you can see that, like,
everything that we went through
was so very real and so authentic.
And, like, I don't want you to, like,
just give up and walk away on this because of that.
Like, I mean to hear you say, like, you don't know
if you can continue forward, it just like--it's, like,
it's the worst thing I could have heard.
- Yeah. - And, like, I have
such strong feelings for you, like, very strong feelings.
And I can tell you that, like, right now, like,
I am the most in love with you.
And--and I really felt that, it's like,
this could be it, like...
- Like, I mean, honestly, to hear all this, like,
makes it so much worse, like, makes me feel worse and, like,
makes me more sad, like, for all of it because, like...
Like, I honestly, like, don't feel like I knew
how strongly you felt as well and I didn't want--like,
I really didn't want to give you an ultimatum,
I really didn't want to say, like, I can't move forward
if you sleep with other people because I don't--I didn't
want you to cut yourself short in this process, and like...
It's like, it's heartbreaking to hear, like...
[sniffling]
It sucks because, like, I do feel, like,
so strongly about you.
And I feel like you're this incredible person that's,
like, shocked me in so many ways, like,
come into my life and been, like, so wonderful.
You've reassured, like, my ability to know that
there's, like, good men out there.
Like, I don't know, like, I've had
some bad experiences.
But this is something, like, very big to me.
And, like, I don't think I can get past those things
and, like--like, I don't--I just don't think I can, and...
- I...
- I know, like...
- No, it's just, like, it's because...
I feel like I did what I did,
but had I known how important that was to you,
that that was literally a deal-breaker,
I would have changed the way that I approached things
because I know what we have.
I mean, I'm sorry that I went and did that, like,
I ask for your forgiveness because, like, I don't want
to throw something away that we have that I feel so sure about.
I do love you and I--like,
I didn't--like, I'm not expecting you to say it back,
but like, I would hope that, like,
what we have is something that's worth fighting for.
- I don't know, like-- like, I think one of
my biggest fears, like, in telling you,
like, go explore other relationships is that, like,
I didn't want to have to share, like, your heart or your love.
And I know you're saying, like, you would be able to,
like, close that off.
But it still feels like I need somebody who would have...
I don't know, like thought through that.
I don't--I don't know, like...
- A relationship isn't easy, and there are times
where you have--you go through those challenging times,
and it's like, is it worth fighting for?
Because you feel that that person, like,
is special and you don't want to lose them.
Let's work through it, like, that's what a relationship is,
it's working through the hard times, because this isn't--
- I'm hearing, like, every word you're saying, for sure.
And I just, like, feel terrible in general, but I don't know,
like, I don't know if I can get through this, like...
- But, do you--I mean, would any of this, like,
being able to talk through it, like, to me, it's like,
worth spending an extra seven hours talking through
everything and seeing if this is worth it?
I mean like that's-- like, to me, like,
I feel like that is worth it, and...
- I agree, like, I do think we have something
special so I don't know, it's like--it's like,
I'm so confused, like, this is so confusing for me to be
in this situation because, like, I couldn't have imagined,
like, a scenario in which, like, you become physically
intimate with any other person and it's me at the end.
Like, I just--I...
- No one told me I had to go sleep with somebody,
okay, like I was in l--I was, you know, having feelings
of love with these-- with--with--with this--
this person and I slept with them
because I love this person,
so I'm going to, like, see, like, how the physical
connection is because, like, you would just explore that.
If you were in love with somebody, then you would
explore that--it wasn't like I was just sleeping with
somebody because I'm like, they're here so I'm
just gonna sleep with them. - Right, I get that.
- So I--me sleeping with, like, with...
Both. - Mm-hmm.
- Was because I've somehow fallen in love
with three women, and it makes zero sense to me.
And, but the thing is, is it's, like, I literally
didn't understand how it could, and I freaked out,
and I cried about it, because I was like,
I'm going to hurt somebody and, like, this scares me.
But then I was like, you know what, like,
at the same time, I'm finding what I'm looking for here
and if I just continue to press forward
with the relationships I have,
like, I will walk out of here with one person
because they were the best person for me.
- I just feel like-- I don't know, I can't--
I have been rationalizing, like, all week, like,
every possible way this could go and, like,
I don't think there's, like, a single scenario in which
those are true and, like, I can move forward.
- I'm a week out and this-- this is shattering me.
Like, it's like I look at it and I see you in front of me
and it's like, that's it.
Like, everything that we went through.
Like, you--if you--if you felt this strongly about this,
why wouldn't you have told me early on?
You let us get all the way to this point and then you just
let--you just--you just don't tell me until now
and it's after the fact, and you're like,
I'm not willing to forgive you, I can't--I can't move on?
How can you do that?
Like, after everything we went through,
after all the feelings and experiences that we've had,
how can you just straight up say
I can't move forward after all this, like--
- I don't know, like, I'm very confused right now
and I don't know what to think.
- I--
[dramatic music]
♪ ♪
I don't want to be [bleep], you know, like...
like, I understand everything he's saying,
like, I really do, and I, like, believe him.
I don't know what to do.
- This is exactly what I was afraid of.
I don't believe in anything anymore.
It's just, it's everything--
everything is literally invalidated.
[sighs]
♪ ♪
- [sighs]
Jesse, how's it going? - You tell me, what's going on?
- I mean, I'm just absolutely blown away.
You know, Susie, just-- she asked me the question,
if you've slept with anybody, if you've fallen in love
with anybody else, then like, I can't continue.
If that was a deal-breaker to you,
then why would you not tell me that?
- [sniffling] I believe, like, everything he's saying
and, like, and I feel it and, like, and I don't know.
Like, maybe it is asking too much, but like,
at the same time, I'm not willing to accept it,
like, and I know that's, like, the truth for me.
But, like, it feels so awful.
Like, I feel so [bleep] right now.
- I mean, hopefully she comes back and she's like,
okay, like, I thought about it and let's talk it out.
I don't know where to go from here.
- I'm sorry, man. - I have no idea.
- I know you--I know you had really strong feelings for her.
I know you were in love with her.
- She's just torn me apart.
Everything that I've-- that we went through,
she just completely destroyed me.
- I mean this man, listen, I'm sorry.
I know from the beginning of this you told me
that this is what you were afraid of.
[footsteps]
Hey, we'll leave you two alone.
- How's it going out here?
Do you wanna come back inside?
- I mean, I want to hear what you have to say,
but now I have--
we'll go back inside.
♪ ♪
- Um...
Yeah, I don't know, like, I'm-- I feel, like, awful right now.
Like, hearing you out and, like, hearing your
perspective on all this has, like, made this, like,
way harder and, like, I probably should have, like,
had that conversation just about maybe, you know,
like, what sex means to me earlier on,
but I didn't know that you were feeling so strongly.
Like, I don't feel like I can leave here with you, but like--
like, I don't know what to do right now because, like--
- What do you mean? You made your mind up.
You literally have said-- like, you came back in here.
I was waiting to see and hoping you'd say,
you know what, honestly, I thought about it,
I heard you, I believe everything you're saying and,
like, I want to give, like, I want us to give us more time
to talk through it and maybe we can make it work.
- My hope was that you wouldn't have done that this week
and that we would be able to leave here,
and I would feel totally, like, total clarity.
And I thought that would be my clarity, like, I thought that
would be my way to be like, oh, there's no [bleep] way, like,
this dude would compromise what we have, like, in any way.
And, like, that's how I thought I was gonna know,
like, at the end of this.
- So what am I supposed-- so what am I supposed to do?
- That's what I'm saying, like--
- I'm still fighting-- I'm still fighting
'cause I'm trying to, like, I was trying
to convince you, but now it's like...
- I feel so [bleep], like, I feel awful.
I feel like I just [bleep] everything up,
and, like, I don't know how...
I don't know how I could have, like, done it better, but I
just know that I feel, like, awful about this whole thing.
♪ ♪
- I'm just gonna be honest with you, I mean, in my eyes,
like, you just invalidated everything that we had.
And it just, like, to me, like, if you cared so much
about me, if you really actually
thought I was the person, and I instilled, like,
this belief in you that there's good men out there,
and I re-instilled that and, like, your family
said they'd never seen you happier.
Like, if it was really true, like, I would think
you would work through something like this.
- I believe everything that you have said to me tonight,
like, and it's actually, like, made me rethink,
like, did I go about this the wrong way?
Like, was I expecting too much?
Or like, you know, it's made me think those things, but then
at the same time I'm like, but you had sex with two women.
- If--if you had this big old reservation, this huge
deal-breaker, why would you not bring this up until right now?
- I feel like at this point, like, you're not--like, I feel
like at this point, like, I'm going home for sure now, like,
you're--you are committed to me going home at this point.
And, like, that's okay, like,
I realize I [bleep] this up and like...
- What do you mean, don't-- you're putting this on me now.
- I'm not. I'm not.
- You made the decision when I walked back in.
- I'm telling you right now, like, I realize and, like,
it feels very much like this is, like, ending and, like--
- Because you put an end to it.
- I know, I know, but, like, I still feel
strongly about what I'm feeling.
- It's--I'm not trying to place any
extra blame on you, but the fact of the matter is,
it's like, I don't even know who I'm looking at anymore.
Like, I don't.
- Dude, like, please don't say that,
like, that's like the worst part in all of this.
- I'm sorry, Susie, but it's the honest truth.
- How, like, how can you not?
Like that's, like, the part that's upsetting to me.
- Because you just dropped a bombshell on me--
you just dropped a bombshell on me.
And like, and I don't agree with it at all,
how you-- how you went about this.
I think it's BS and, like, just, we're done.
And I'm done--I'm done. We're not getting
anything else out of what we're saying anymore.
- Okay.
- I don't--I'm sorry that I even raised my voice
because this is--this is out of character for me.
It's just 'cause I cared so much and I really did love you.
And to have this ripped from me is why
you're seeing what you're seeing right now.
I have nothing more to say-- there's nothing more.
Anything you say to me at this point doesn't matter anymore,
and so I'm just gonna walk you and this--I'm done.
- I'm sorry that this is, like, the way this has gone,
like, I mean, I know that you're saying, like,
at this point nothing you-- nothing I can say will, like,
mean anything different to you, but like, I genuinely, like,
want you to know that this was real for me and, like...
I'm, like, I know that you, like, don't want to hear
anything at this point and, like, I can tell by,
like, every ounce in you that you probably hate me
at this point, and, like, I'm genuinely so sorry for,
like, the pain I've caused you and, like,
I promise you, like, every ounce of this has been
real and, like, genuine and, like, and I actually feel,
like, awful in how this has gone down tonight in every way.
- This is the last thing I'll say.
Because of my faith, I believe everything
happens for a reason.
And I'm just gonna take that and move forward
in my life and realize that, like, I had to go through this.
So at some point, I'll end up finding somebody that actually
will stick through it and will understand me for who I am,
and will fight for me as much as I fight for them.
And I thought you were that person, you're not that person,
and, like, this is how it's supposed to end
and I'm done-- I'm done, I just...
- Okay.
Oh, my God.
[somber music]
♪ ♪
- Oh, my gosh.
[dramatic music]
That was my biggest fear, I'm like, I'm falling in love,
and this is my person, and I believe that person's
out there, and-- that's right in front of me,
and now it's not--now it's not.
- I just, like, thought he would have had more
compassion for me in the end, to be honest, like,
regardless of what kind of love, at this point,
I'd just thought, like, we would have been better
at getting through that conversation kindly.
- Everything is invalidated to me right now,
this--this whole thing--nothing,
I don't even--my heart's not in it anymore.
My heart's out--it's out, it's done.
It's over--it's over.
♪ ♪
[breathing heavily]
announcer: Next week, on "The Bachelor"...
the crazy drama begins.
- Your actions speak way louder than words.
I can't believe anything you say--not one thing.
announcer: Get ready for two nights
of unbelievable television.
- I'm so broken.
announcer: Clayton's hopes and dreams
have blown up in his face.
- You've put yourself in this situation.
You screwed the pooch, in my opinion.
- I wish I never would have fallen in love.
announcer: And there is more shocking drama to come.
- I wanna be fully transparent.
I am in love with each of you.
announcer: Welcome to the Rose Ceremony from hell.
- And I also was... intimate with both of you.
- [sobbing]
announcer: No Bachelor has ever done this before.
- He told me he was falling in love with me,
and he told Rachel.
- He's in love with all of us,
so how could it be special at all?
- I had no idea this was what was gonna happen.
- Don't blame anybody but yourself.
- I'm not blaming anybody, but Dad--
- But you are.
You're grasping at straws.
- This is like the worst feeling I've ever had.
announcer: And if you think you know what happens next...
♪ ♪
Guess again.
- I've got some news
that I think is gonna change everything for you.
♪ ♪
announcer: Don't miss this historic moment
Monday and Tuesday night.
- No matter what's gonna happen,
you're gonna hurt somebody.
- I do love you, but-- - That is [bleep]!
- [crying] This is not how I wanted it to go.
- I wanna believe love's here,
but I just don't know what's gonna happen.
announcer: It's the truly shocking
live season finale of "The Bachelor."
- The date card said, "Let's see how deep
our love can go, or is," something like that?
- Yeah. - Scuba diving.
- S--that wouldn't be fun.
- But deep.
- Um, maybe they're gonna be ice fishing.
- [gasps] Oh, my God.
Yeah, that could be a thing.
Um, I feel like cavern, like, you know, like,
cave-ish, but not quite.
- Do you know "spelunkeling"?
- No, is that a--what is it?
Is that the name of a place here?
What is it?
- Spunk--spunkeling?
- Like, that's what you call cave adventures,
spelunkel--spunkel-- spelunkel--spelunkeling.
[laughter]
- Spelunkeling? - Yeah.
- Maybe they're going spelunkeling.
- I think they're going spelunkeling.
And you know what? She can have it.
- You know what? Have fun.
- You know what? I hope a stalagmite
doesn't hit you in the ass on the way out.
- Yeah. [both laughing]
- Uh-oh, too bad.