Hello?
Sorry, but you are a bit early. Who are you booked in to see?
Oh, I'm not ill, love.
I'm "retorting" for duty.
What was wrong with the old brand?
It was double the price. Yeah, and quadruple the flavour.
You can always bring your own.
What gives you the right to tinker with a working man's morning beverage?
Partner's prerogative.
Look who I found on the doorstep.
It's me! Oh, Rosemary.
Let's have a hug.
Dr Haskey. Long time, no see.
And Dr Clay. This is a nice surprise.
Well, I better go open up.
It was lovely to see you. Thank you, Kirsty.
It's lovely to have a visit, but it's not exactly the right time.
Our first patients are about to stampede in.
Oh, it's not a visit. This is my first day.
I'm your new receptionist.
Welcome aboard then.
Again. Thank you.
I've heard so much about The Mill.
I can't tell you how excited I am to have a look around.
We'll have to have a catch-up later.
Good to see you, sweetheart.
Right. Well, it looks like you're going to give me the guided tour then?
Come through.
Sorry for disturbing you at work.
I'm only doing admin.
Please take a seat. How are you?
Some days are better than others.
What about you?
Everyone rallies around the widow,
but people forget that friends also need to grieve.
I can't believe it's been two months.
I can't face going to the club.
You don't realise what a hole someone can leave in your life.
I've been putting it off, sorting out his affairs.
Then, going through his papers...
..I found this.
I think I understand, but...
You just want a second opinion?
I've looked up the clinic.
It's in Birmingham.
They offer advice on infertility...
..embryo banking...
..and sperm freezing.
That's it. One Cracklr account, ready to go.
So, ideas?
What have you seen recently that's good?
Erm... Lots of dance challenges.
Oh, yeah, I saw this really cool one with a guy unpacking a drone.
What about that one you showed me of the scary clowns?
That was a laugh. Yeah. Oh, they've just uploaded a new one.
It's zombie clowns in a lift. They've got loads of followers!
So, is that it then? We do pranks? Yeah, but not scary clowns.
We only need to go viral once and we'll have loads of subscribers.
And then the advertisers will follow.
Thank you.
Am I being punished?
For what?
For waiting too long.
I married my man.
Landed a wonderful job.
We always meant to have kids...
..but...
I keep wondering whether I should have spotted the signs earlier?
But he was always so fit.
This is dated three weeks after his cancer diagnosis.
He knew he was facing surgery to remove the tumour and then chemo.
Yes. I suppose so.
So this was what?
Preserving his sperm in case the treatment left him infertile?
If he wanted to have children.
But why didn't he talk to me about it?
Perhaps he was waiting until after the surgery.
He was so...
..positive when they wheeled him into the theatre.
He wouldn't even let me say goodbye.
This would have been a huge decision.
You're sure he never said anything to you?
You know, in the last few weeks, he became distant.
I put it down to the chemo.
Mark's gone, but...
..a part of him could be sitting in some laboratory fridge.
And if it is, what should I do about it?
I'd say, don't make any hasty decisions.
But if his last wish was that we should start a family...
..is this my last chance to show him how much I loved him...
..by having his baby?
And here we are, back in reception.
Take a seat, please, Mr Withers.
So, what do you think? I love the patio.
I think that's really going to come in in the summer time.
Is that the only thing that impressed you? Love your range of biscuits.
But if I was to be totally honest... Oh, don't hold back now.
..it's a little bit smaller than Sutton Vale.
And yet we seem to manage somehow.
And the bathrooms aren't as nice.
Is the toilet cubicle size really that important?
I'm just saying it as I see it.
I'll make sure I mention it at the next partners' meeting.
Kirsty, can you show Rosie how reception works? No problem.
Our systems probably won't be as good as Sutton Vale,
but I'm sure you'll cope.
If you'd like to see Kirsty at the front desk, she'll book you in.
Oh, Dr Reid! What are you doing here? I'm joining the gang.
Isn't it wonderful?
Yes. Yes, wonderful.
We're going to have such fun.
TELEPHONE RINGS
Rosie, could you...
Excuse me. Sorry, Dr Reid. Duty calls.
Sutton Vale... No. The Mill Health Centre.
Rosie speaking.
I would never have had you two down as besties.
No.
Me neither.
It would have been your anniversary next month.
Together for 12 years.
Married for ten.
And yet, you never had kids.
Mark always wanted a big family.
And you?
When the time was right.
But we both had our careers.
Having a baby wouldn't have affected Mark's, but...
..I've seen colleagues passed over for promotion
when they come back from maternity leave.
Really? In this day and age?
They never say it out loud,
but some employers can't accept that you can be a mother
and still be dedicated to the company.
I always thought we had plenty of time.
But now I can see how hard it must have been for Mark
when I kept kicking the can down the road.
So why try and start a family now?
After Mark's death I've had to question everything.
I mean, is my career really worth the sacrifices that I made him make?
Give yourself some time.
That's one thing I haven't got.
If I want to start a family with someone else...
..how long will it take to meet the right man?
You're still grieving.
But if Mark did leave me this...
..gift, shouldn't I use it?
You're right.
I'm all over the place.
Have my dead husband's baby? What was I thinking?
I'm sorry that I couldn't be more help.
If I didn't know what was going on in his head, how could you?
Maybe it was because he was a barrister.
You know, client confidentiality. That made him such a private man.
Look after yourself, Amy.
Thank you, Daniel.
How's the lighting? Yeah, cool.
This is going to be so good.
I don't think these are big enough.
What about a wheelie bin? And do you want to clean that out?
I will if I have to.
No. Do you know what? I've got an idea.
Rah! Ah!
It's crap. It's not that bad.
There's no way that's going to make us any money.
But it's still a good idea.
It's back to the Jobcentre for me, then.
Come on! We're not giving up that easily.
We just need a more natural reaction.
How have you been?
You know.
I thought we sent over all of Mark's things.
You did.
Thanks.
Can I get you a coffee?
Sorry. I'm wasting your time.
If there's anything we can do...
Something's happened.
Something I don't understand.
I thought that you...
Please.
I'm trying to understand what was going on in Mark's mind...
..before his operation.
I can't tell you what cases he was working on,
and as for outside of chambers...
But you worked closely together for years.
All those long days.
When we had a particularly complex case on.
Mark always said you were friends as well as colleagues.
Our workload doesn't leave too much time for chitchat.
Maybe a few words during a coffee break.
I'm sorry, I need to prepare a case.
Mark froze his sperm.
You knew?
He mentioned it, yes.
On one of your coffee breaks?
I don't remember when.
So he could talk to a colleague, but not his own wife?
Did he go through with it? Does it really matter now?
His appointment was on...
..the seventh?
I was away at a conference.
Mark was too ill to drive.
How did he get there? He was on sick leave by then.
Someone must have helped him.
You know something.
It's not me you need to talk to.
Then who?
Why did you lie to me? Sorry, what?
You said that you knew nothing about Mark going to the clinic, when it was you who took him there.
Or are you going to deny it?
Mark called me, OK.
He said he had an appointment, but that he wasn't well enough to drive himself there.
So you took him to this fertility clinic? Why didn't you say something earlier?
Because he swore me to secrecy.
And you don't think that his secrets died with him?
Look, erm... I never meant to cause you any more distress.
Did he say why he wanted to do it?
I waited in the car.
When he came out he was tired.
He didn't want to talk, so I just drove him home.
I'm really sorry, I can't be of more help.
Daniel. Sorry, but...
Sarah!
What's going on?
So, what do you think of the new receptionist?
I haven't really met her yet. You? Yeah, I think she's great. She'll fit right in.
I am off to check on Hilda's maggots. Rather you than me!
Rah! Ah!
What is wrong with you? Did you get it?
What are you two playing at?
We're doing pranks for Cracklr. You're the first.
Of many. Sorry, mate.
We're not just messing about. Really?
It's a business opportunity. It was you who gave me the idea. How?
Foxy Fox. You could have been a star. But now, at least you'll make people laugh.
So I've gone from being a sex symbol to an object of fun?
Come on, this is gold. You've got to let me post it.
Are you kidding?
Luca, please! We only need one good one to get us going.
Why not?
Thanks, I knew you'd be cool. Come on, we need to film the outro.
Were you in on this? No. But I'm glad I saw it.
It doesn't mean you need to tell anyone else. Oh, I don't know.
When they've uploaded it, the whole world will be able to see it.
Nobody's going to watch their silly stunts.
What am I missing?
I met Daniel through Mark.
OK. One of you needs to tell me what's going on.
You're not the only one who's grieving. Sarah!
Look...
..it wasn't the first challenging case we'd had.
We prosecute rapists, murderers, but...
..parents who would kill their own baby...
I remember that trial.
Mark couldn't sleep until it was over.
We usually toast a victory.
But we were both too drained.
What I needed was a hug.
Maybe this isn't the right place or the right time...
The hug turned into something else.
Mark could be quite emotional.
In the face of that tragic death...
..we both needed to feel loved.
Mark was loved. Yes.
From the moment I met him...
..but I hadn't told him how I really felt until that day.
And he reminded you that he wasn't available.
He said that he loved me, too.
You're making this up.
Why would you do that?
The next day I told him we should forget it. It was all a mistake.
Exactly. He said no...
..that we had something special.
He was vulnerable and you took advantage.
We both knew what we were doing.
Then he got ill and you concocted this fantasy
that some teenage fumble meant anything.
It was real...
..and it was special.
I was the one who had to hold his hand as he died.
And I had to sit at the back of the funeral.
Daniel was the only one that I could tell that I hadn't just lost a colleague but...
..I loved him.
You knew...
..about this fling all along?
It wasn't just a fling.
He was married to me.
You were just a moment of weakness.
Do you want to know why he didn't tell you about the clinic?
Because he wasn't freezing his sperm to start a family with you,
he was doing it for me.
Right, so that's 4:30pm with Dr Vere. We'll see you then.
No, it's no problem. Bye-bye.
How are you settling in? It's good to be useful, that's what I always say.
Though it did seem like nobody knew I was coming.
Did you forget to tell them?
I didn't say because I didn't want to ruin the surprise.
Oh, that's nice.
But you could have told me that Karen had died.
Or was that supposed to be a surprise as well?
Rosie, I am so sorry.
When it happened, everything was so chaotic.
But I should have remembered to phone and tell you the news.
How about I make you a cuppa?
He was just about to leave you when he became ill.
In your dreams.
I'd put my flat up for sale.
We'd found the perfect home
where we were going to start our new life together.
That's what you say.
Do you want to see the photos of our new apartment?
Who did he turn to when he was in need? Not you.
He was scared. In pain.
I didn't blame him on having to focus on just staying alive.
He loved me.
He froze his sperm so that we could have the family that we always wanted.
No. That was our future.
That's why he didn't tell you what he'd done.
I think you both need time to process everything.
You took him to the clinic.
He must have told you who was he doing it for?
I knew that he still wanted to start a family...
And then he died. And, what?
You weren't going to tell me
that I had this last chance to have his baby?
I didn't know what to do.
Or you're just a coward who can't deal with women's emotions?
It was an impossible situation.
None of us can change the past.
But I have to think about my future, the future that Mark and I planned.
What does that mean?
I'm going to use his samples to have the baby that we both wanted.
It's the only way for me to keep a part of him alive.
Over my dead body!
Rah! Ah!
What is wrong with you?!
Add to your favourites.
And see the next crazy prank from... The Mad Badgers! The Mad Badgers!
Gets funnier every time. It's Luca's reaction that makes it.
Hey, look! We're already getting likes. First followers.
Five, six... It's great, but half a dozen is not enough.
More will come. Only if we keep making the videos.
Couple a week? Sounds doable.
So, what are we going to do next?
That's it. The Newell Clinic.
Why are you wasting your time?
Because if this could answer all of your questions...
But Mark's will leaves everything to me. Not everything.
I get to decide what happens to those samples
and if anyone's going to have his baby, it's me.
Please, Amy.
If Mark's last wish was for me to have his baby, then shouldn't you just respect that?
Why should I do any favours for the woman who tried to destroy my marriage?
If you'd given him the children he'd wanted, maybe he wouldn't have had to look elsewhere.
OK, listen. According to this, Mark would have left instructions
about what should happen to the stored material in the event of his death.
What sort of instructions?
It says here, "If in the event of your death or mental incapacity
"you would like your partner to be able to use your sperm,
"your partner must be named on the consent form."
Fine. There's the answer. We ask the clinic.
Clear that up, once and for all.
Booking in system. Check.
Cancellation procedures. Check.
Repeat prescriptions. Check.
That's it. I think you're all good to go for tomorrow.
I can't wait.
I hope you'll be really happy here.
Anything's better than sitting at home, staring at the walls.
Retirement not all it's cracked up to be then?
I miss the patients.
You know, chatting to them, hearing about their days,
how they've been going, helping them with their problems.
I miss Sutton Vale. Oh, yeah, I do.
But that couldn't last. It had to close.
You don't get over a murdered doctor and an embezzling nurse.
What? Whoa, murder?
I was even a suspect for a bit.
OK, you and me need to have lunch
and you're going to tell me everything from the beginning.
Mm.
Yes.
Death certificate?
Of course, I can get that to you first thing tomorrow.
Yes, I do have one question.
In the event of his death,
Mark would have nominated someone on the consent form.
Can you confirm that he named me?
Yes.
Thank you.
No, that's...
..all I needed to know.
Goodbye.
I did try to warn you.
Now will you believe that we were planning a future together?
It's not your name on the form.
What?
You're lying.
No.
He wouldn't have put your name.
You're right.
I don't understand.
He left it blank.
No name.
What does that mean?
Daniel?
It means that if there's no name on the form,
then nobody can make a claim on Mark's samples.
They'll be destroyed.
He was ill. Confused.
He was a barrister.
He knew the importance of filling out that form.
He was waiting until after the operation.
Then he was going to fill in my name.
Or was that Mark all over?
Keeping us both on the hook until he had finally made his mind up
which one of us he wanted to be with?
We're never going to know now, are we?
No.
Do you think it will ever end?
What?
This feeling...
..of emptiness.
Do you really think you can compare your pain to mine?
We both loved him.
Most people eventually get over their grief.
They find solace in remembering all the good times they had.
But you've stolen that from me as well, haven't you?
I won't be able to remember Mark as a loving husband.
Now, he'll always be the liar, the cheat.
You needed to know the truth.
Did I?
KNOCK ON DOOR
Yes?
Quick word? Yep. Sure.
The new receptionist. Is she really the best we could do?
She is very experienced. Not with our IT system.
I'm sure she'll get the hang of it.
Jimmi says she's scatty.
Scatty? I mean, that is hardly the worst criticism I've heard of our receptionists.
Wouldn't a temp be better?
You never know what you're getting from a temp agency and it's always way more expensive.
It's Rosie's first day. Just give her a chance.
I'm sorry, but I'm not convinced.
OK.
If she's not up to it, I will deal with it.
I'd have the temp agency on speed dial.
I want you and me to build something long-term.
It's going to make so much money, it will make your eyeballs bleed.
Miles Bailey. Pleasure to meet you, Dr Carmichael. Likewise.
Now, that is a Tickly Truncheon.
I got the job. Well, of course you did. Well done.
It's good to know the grumpy hedgehog video didn't put him off.
Do not mention that video ever again.