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Have you ever confused
a dream with life?

2
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Or stolen something
when you have the cash?

3
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Have you ever been blue?

4
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Or thought your train moving
while sitting still?

5
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Maybe l was just crazy.

6
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Maybe it was the '60s.

7
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Or maybe l was just a girl...

8
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... interrupted.

9
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Put her in restraints.
Withdraw bIood.

10
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HoId on.

11
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Give her five miIIigrams
of VaIium, IV.

12
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Turn her head so she doesn't aspirate.

13
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There you go.

14
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Aspirin fragments
and vodka, I think.

15
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Don't teII me what you think.
Take it to the Iab.

16
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You shouId check my hand.
There's no bones in it.

17
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A wrist banger.

18
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Is that why you did this?
And other things.

19
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Her parents are on the way.

20
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Sometimes it's hard...

21
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...for me to stay in one...

22
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...pIace.

23
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Susanna...

24
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... if you had no bones
in your hand...

25
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...how did you pick up the aspirin?

26
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What is my mother doing?

27
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WouId you answer my question, pIease?

28
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How did you pick up the aspirin
if you had no bones in your hand?

29
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By then, they'd come back.

30
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I see.

31
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No, you don't.

32
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WeII...

33
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...induIge me, then.

34
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ExpIain it to me.

35
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ExpIain what?

36
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ExpIain to a doctor that the Iaws
of physics can be suspended?

37
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That what goes up
may not come down?

38
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ExpIain...

39
00:04:04,940 --> 00:04:07,360
...that time...

40
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...can move backwards and forwards...

41
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...and now to then and back again...

42
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...and you can't controI it?

43
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Why can't you controI it?

44
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What?

45
00:04:23,878 --> 00:04:25,755
Why can't you controI time?

46
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Where were you?
Everyone is here. Come on.

47
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Mary, you remember Susanna.
Yes, I do.

48
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You're wearing this?

49
00:05:01,962 --> 00:05:05,340
I didn't know it was so earIy.
I wouId've changed.

50
00:05:05,591 --> 00:05:08,177
Everybody, Iook who's here.

51
00:05:08,844 --> 00:05:11,013
Happy birthday, Dad.
Thanks, sweetie.

52
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I'm sorry, I want to say hi to her.

53
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Sweetie, wouId you hoId this for me?
I just want to say hi to Susanna.

54
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Excuse me. Susanna!

55
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Susanna!
Professor GiIcrest's wife.

56
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Barbara GiIcrest.
You remember me?

57
00:05:27,532 --> 00:05:29,867
Bonnie's mom. I'm Bonnie's mom.

58
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Your skin is so beautifuI.

59
00:05:32,662 --> 00:05:34,539
Wasn't Bonnie in your Iit. cIass?

60
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Yeah. How is she doing?

61
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She just got accepted to RadcIiffe.

62
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What a conundrum.

63
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I'm a WeIIesIey girI, myseIf.

64
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But I think young women shouId
make up their own mind, don't you?

65
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Are you stoned?

66
00:05:57,106 --> 00:05:58,774
Do you smoke pot?

67
00:06:01,402 --> 00:06:03,196
Take LSD?

68
00:06:06,700 --> 00:06:08,118
No drugs?

69
00:06:14,292 --> 00:06:16,294
How do you feeI right now?

70
00:06:19,923 --> 00:06:21,299
I...

71
00:06:22,801 --> 00:06:24,636
...don't know.

72
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I don't know what I'm feeIing.

73
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You need a rest.

74
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WeII, I'II go home, take a nap.

75
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No. You need to go somewhere
where you can get a genuine rest.

76
00:06:41,280 --> 00:06:42,990
And you're very Iucky.

77
00:06:43,282 --> 00:06:45,660
The best pIace
for someone Iike you...

78
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...is Iess than
a haIf an hour from here.

79
00:06:48,955 --> 00:06:50,915
You don't mean CIaymoore?

80
00:06:53,126 --> 00:06:55,003
Four days ago...

81
00:06:55,212 --> 00:06:58,757
...you chased a bottIe of aspirin
with a bottIe of vodka.

82
00:07:00,718 --> 00:07:02,803
I had a headache.

83
00:07:08,476 --> 00:07:10,604
Your father is a friend of mine.

84
00:07:11,146 --> 00:07:14,316
He's a coIIeague.
He asked me to see you...

85
00:07:14,525 --> 00:07:17,403
...even though I don't do this anymore.

86
00:07:18,154 --> 00:07:21,783
You're hurting everyone around you.

87
00:07:23,326 --> 00:07:28,248
Now, CIaymoore is a topnotch pIace.

88
00:07:28,999 --> 00:07:31,210
A Iot of peopIe go there.

89
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Even writers.

90
00:07:32,837 --> 00:07:34,255
Like you.

91
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Great.

92
00:07:53,151 --> 00:07:56,571
Yes, I'd Iike a cab
at 1240 MiIford, pIease.

93
00:07:58,073 --> 00:07:59,866
My mother's here.

94
00:08:00,075 --> 00:08:03,496
It'II be Iess emotionaI
if we do it this way.

95
00:08:03,704 --> 00:08:06,415
Your parents and I taIked about it.

96
00:08:44,040 --> 00:08:46,585
Now make sure, no stops.

97
00:09:43,606 --> 00:09:45,650
Susanna, you there?

98
00:09:51,615 --> 00:09:53,450
I want to see you again.

99
00:09:53,659 --> 00:09:55,870
It was a one.time thing, okay?

100
00:09:56,162 --> 00:09:57,830
Just come to my office tonight.

101
00:09:57,997 --> 00:09:59,499
We're opening the presents!

102
00:09:59,749 --> 00:10:02,001
TeII them you're going to a friend's.

103
00:10:02,168 --> 00:10:03,753
Who shouId I teII first?

104
00:10:04,004 --> 00:10:06,840
My parents, the department chairman,
or your wife?

105
00:10:07,090 --> 00:10:07,925
No.

106
00:10:14,766 --> 00:10:16,351
What did you do?

107
00:10:17,769 --> 00:10:19,479
What did you do?

108
00:10:21,440 --> 00:10:23,025
Excuse me?

109
00:10:25,527 --> 00:10:27,154
WeII, you Iook normaI.

110
00:10:29,866 --> 00:10:31,534
I'm sad.

111
00:10:32,869 --> 00:10:34,871
WeII, everyone's sad.

112
00:10:36,456 --> 00:10:38,333
I see things.

113
00:10:38,834 --> 00:10:40,669
You mean, Iike tripping?

114
00:10:43,297 --> 00:10:44,548
Kind of.

115
00:10:45,550 --> 00:10:48,261
Then they shouId put
John Lennon away, huh?

116
00:10:50,388 --> 00:10:52,599
I'm not John Lennon.

117
00:11:38,942 --> 00:11:40,986
Don't get too comfortabIe.

118
00:11:51,164 --> 00:11:52,457
ShouIdn't my parents...?

119
00:11:52,624 --> 00:11:54,459
You have to sign them, Miss Kaysen.

120
00:11:54,751 --> 00:11:57,504
You're over 18.
This is your decision.

121
00:12:09,809 --> 00:12:11,519
I didn't try to kiII myseIf.

122
00:12:14,022 --> 00:12:18,152
That's the kind of thing you taIk
about in therapy, honey. Not here.

123
00:12:23,658 --> 00:12:25,118
Miss Kaysen?

124
00:12:26,077 --> 00:12:28,955
You have the distinction
of being the onIy senior...

125
00:12:29,206 --> 00:12:31,083
...not going on to coIIege.

126
00:12:36,339 --> 00:12:38,257
May I ask what you pIan to do?

127
00:12:39,509 --> 00:12:41,928
I pIan to write.

128
00:12:43,930 --> 00:12:45,682
WeII, what do you pIan to do?

129
00:12:47,184 --> 00:12:52,023
Look, I'm not gonna burn my bra or
drop acid or go march on Washington...

130
00:12:52,231 --> 00:12:55,360
...I just don't want to end up
Iike my mother.

131
00:12:55,860 --> 00:12:58,071
Women today have
more choices than that.

132
00:12:59,364 --> 00:13:00,782
No, they don't.

133
00:13:01,366 --> 00:13:02,743
And here.

134
00:13:04,870 --> 00:13:07,331
You forgot one, dear. Here.

135
00:13:10,877 --> 00:13:15,799
Speaking for Dr. Wick and myseIf,
weIcome to CIaymoore, Susanna.

136
00:13:19,470 --> 00:13:22,640
This is the women's ward,
aIso known as South BeII.

137
00:13:22,890 --> 00:13:26,728
This is where you'II be staying,
and this is where I work.

138
00:13:27,353 --> 00:13:29,939
AII right, this is the second fIoor.

139
00:13:30,148 --> 00:13:34,027
I need you to stay cIose to me
because it's easy to get Iost here.

140
00:13:39,533 --> 00:13:41,536
This is our ward.

141
00:13:44,080 --> 00:13:47,751
AII right, Iet's start with this room.

142
00:13:49,836 --> 00:13:52,172
This is the art room.

143
00:13:53,799 --> 00:13:54,925
PoIIy.

144
00:13:55,468 --> 00:13:56,636
What are you doing here?

145
00:13:57,595 --> 00:14:00,181
I feeI very musicaI today.

146
00:14:00,431 --> 00:14:03,226
Can I just, for just a second?
Not today, honey.

147
00:14:12,153 --> 00:14:15,740
That's PoIIy. Come on.

148
00:14:21,538 --> 00:14:25,125
Margie, PoIIy was in
the art room by herseIf.

149
00:14:25,334 --> 00:14:26,961
I'm sorry, VaI.

150
00:14:30,631 --> 00:14:32,217
The Iiving room.

151
00:14:33,009 --> 00:14:34,928
Everyone hates it.

152
00:14:45,022 --> 00:14:47,150
And these are the phones.

153
00:14:47,442 --> 00:14:50,570
To make a caII, pick up
the handIe, teII the nurse...

154
00:14:50,779 --> 00:14:52,489
...she'II connect you.

155
00:14:52,739 --> 00:14:56,327
This is the nurses' station,
which is seIf.expIanatory...

156
00:14:56,577 --> 00:14:59,747
...and this is the TV room,
where everyone hangs out.

157
00:14:59,956 --> 00:15:01,999
I want my fucking cIothes!

158
00:15:02,250 --> 00:15:06,004
Then you'II have to
eat something, won't you?

159
00:15:07,547 --> 00:15:08,673
The check.in board.

160
00:15:08,965 --> 00:15:11,677
You check in here to take
a waIk on the grounds.

161
00:15:11,885 --> 00:15:13,596
Oh, lordy, pick a bale of hay

162
00:15:13,846 --> 00:15:16,849
Gotta jump down, spin around
Pick a bale of cotton

163
00:15:17,058 --> 00:15:19,352
Jump down, spin around
Pick a bale of hay

164
00:15:20,562 --> 00:15:22,272
She thinks that bothers me.

165
00:15:22,522 --> 00:15:25,275
You're an "R," which means
"restricted to the ward."

166
00:15:25,525 --> 00:15:28,028
But soon you'II
move up to two.to.ones...

167
00:15:28,278 --> 00:15:30,531
...which is two nurses
to every patient.

168
00:15:30,781 --> 00:15:33,951
I won't be here that Iong.
I'm just here for a rest.

169
00:15:34,202 --> 00:15:38,123
It's aII right. Everybody gets
the same tour free of charge.

170
00:15:44,046 --> 00:15:47,216
Georgina, this is Susanna,
your new roommate.

171
00:15:47,508 --> 00:15:49,385
Oh, great. Hi.

172
00:15:49,969 --> 00:15:52,639
You're Iucky.
Georgina's an exceIIent roommate.

173
00:15:53,390 --> 00:15:54,557
Why, thank you, VaIerie.

174
00:15:54,975 --> 00:15:56,435
You're weIcome.

175
00:15:57,394 --> 00:16:00,064
The cops are bringing Lisa.
She was at the park.

176
00:16:03,025 --> 00:16:06,529
WiII you excuse me?
I have business I have to attend to.

177
00:16:06,988 --> 00:16:10,742
Georgina, wiII you take Susanna
to the dining room in a haIf.hour?

178
00:16:12,202 --> 00:16:13,912
Yes means yes, Georgina.

179
00:16:14,413 --> 00:16:16,081
I know.

180
00:16:32,600 --> 00:16:33,767
Groovy box.

181
00:16:35,102 --> 00:16:36,479
That.

182
00:16:37,271 --> 00:16:39,190
Yeah, they're French.

183
00:16:39,440 --> 00:16:42,319
The French Resistance
smoked them, I think.

184
00:16:49,493 --> 00:16:51,454
Read this?

185
00:16:53,080 --> 00:16:56,126
No. I saw the movie
a bunch of times, though.

186
00:16:56,793 --> 00:16:58,837
The movie's based on the first book.

187
00:16:59,087 --> 00:17:03,008
I read that one too, but there were
no ruby sIippers in it originaIIy.

188
00:17:03,258 --> 00:17:06,470
They added that.
This takes pIace afterwards.

189
00:17:06,679 --> 00:17:09,640
Dorothy doesn't reaIIy have
such a big part in this one.

190
00:17:13,645 --> 00:17:15,480
Fucking pig.

191
00:17:18,317 --> 00:17:19,651
Get off me!

192
00:17:32,290 --> 00:17:33,166
Thanks, Gretta.

193
00:17:34,376 --> 00:17:36,587
Hey, Dais, Iet anyone
in your room yet?

194
00:17:40,466 --> 00:17:43,219
Hey, girIs! Hey, sexy.

195
00:17:47,015 --> 00:17:48,850
It's good to be home.

196
00:17:52,187 --> 00:17:54,231
Hey, Torch.
Hey, Lisa.

197
00:17:54,440 --> 00:17:56,692
You miss me?
Not much.

198
00:17:58,528 --> 00:18:01,364
Get her to her room.
Gretta wiII do the strip search.

199
00:18:02,240 --> 00:18:03,784
Who's that with Georgie.girI?

200
00:18:04,034 --> 00:18:06,203
Where's Jamie?
I can't deaI with this.

201
00:18:06,453 --> 00:18:08,455
Don't give me a hard time.

202
00:18:09,373 --> 00:18:10,875
Where is she? Where's Jamie?

203
00:18:15,630 --> 00:18:17,090
Who are you?

204
00:18:17,382 --> 00:18:20,969
Her name is Susanna, Lisa.
She smokes French cigarettes.

205
00:18:21,386 --> 00:18:24,598
Why is aII your shit on her bed?
Open the damn door!

206
00:18:24,890 --> 00:18:26,308
Why? Where's Jamie?

207
00:18:26,559 --> 00:18:29,520
I don't know what
you're taIking about!

208
00:18:31,397 --> 00:18:33,274
What the heII are you doing, Lisa?

209
00:18:34,985 --> 00:18:36,028
Back off her.

210
00:18:36,653 --> 00:18:38,947
Back off!
You've been gone for two weeks.

211
00:18:39,281 --> 00:18:42,076
A Iot of shit has gone down.
Back off!

212
00:18:42,326 --> 00:18:43,494
How'd she do it?

213
00:18:44,120 --> 00:18:45,371
How'd she do it?

214
00:18:46,247 --> 00:18:47,832
How did she do it, VaIerie?

215
00:18:48,083 --> 00:18:49,918
Get the fuck off me!

216
00:18:50,168 --> 00:18:53,714
You weak peopIe. You're aII weak
fucking peopIe! You're victims!

217
00:18:53,964 --> 00:18:55,466
You peopIe are fucking sick!

218
00:18:55,758 --> 00:18:58,469
What? No, no.
VaI, pIease. PIease!

219
00:19:02,765 --> 00:19:04,559
Get her Iegs.

220
00:19:05,936 --> 00:19:06,770
Get her feet!

221
00:19:07,020 --> 00:19:08,146
I got her.
Get off!

222
00:19:11,108 --> 00:19:12,484
HeIp!

223
00:19:18,408 --> 00:19:20,410
We have got to cut those naiIs again.

224
00:19:26,417 --> 00:19:30,421
My God! What the heII was that?

225
00:19:30,921 --> 00:19:32,590
That was Lisa.

226
00:19:33,967 --> 00:19:36,094
And Jamie was your roommate?

227
00:19:36,344 --> 00:19:38,221
Jamie was Lisa's best friend.

228
00:19:38,972 --> 00:19:41,183
She was sad because Lisa ran away...

229
00:19:41,433 --> 00:19:43,602
...so she hung herseIf with
a voIIeybaII net.

230
00:19:53,822 --> 00:19:55,449
Meds!

231
00:19:57,910 --> 00:19:59,787
Cynthia CrowIey.

232
00:20:01,247 --> 00:20:03,374
Susanna Kaysen.

233
00:20:05,334 --> 00:20:07,253
Susanna Kaysen.

234
00:20:09,381 --> 00:20:12,009
I am Mrs. McWiIIey,
and these are for you.

235
00:20:12,217 --> 00:20:14,595
What are they?
They'II heIp you sIeep.

236
00:20:15,346 --> 00:20:17,848
It's 10:30. I'm not gonna...
For chrissake.

237
00:20:18,057 --> 00:20:20,935
You can discuss it in the morning
with your doctor.

238
00:20:21,185 --> 00:20:23,521
In the meantime,
we'II agree to disagree.

239
00:20:27,234 --> 00:20:29,361
Take them here. Have some water.

240
00:20:32,698 --> 00:20:34,659
PoIIy CIark.

241
00:20:35,076 --> 00:20:36,953
You can go now.

242
00:20:42,000 --> 00:20:43,335
Teresa McCuIIian.

243
00:20:49,258 --> 00:20:51,344
Daisy Randone.

244
00:20:54,848 --> 00:20:57,183
AngeIa Coury.

245
00:21:00,395 --> 00:21:02,564
JacqueIine Lights.

246
00:21:05,276 --> 00:21:07,194
Donna Smith.

247
00:21:46,780 --> 00:21:48,574
Ryan Reed...

248
00:21:49,199 --> 00:21:52,411
...yearbook editor and member
of the honour society.

249
00:21:52,620 --> 00:21:54,789
Heading off to Tulane University.

250
00:21:55,039 --> 00:21:56,624
CongratuIations, son.

251
00:21:57,291 --> 00:22:02,464
Andrea Jacobs, president of
the French cIub and honour society...

252
00:22:02,923 --> 00:22:05,342
...and on her way to Sarah Lawrence.

253
00:22:08,137 --> 00:22:09,930
Susanna Kaysen.

254
00:22:11,307 --> 00:22:14,102
What is she doing?
Some kind of a stunt.

255
00:22:24,446 --> 00:22:26,407
Wake up, freak.

256
00:22:28,785 --> 00:22:29,661
Checks.

257
00:22:49,474 --> 00:22:51,685
Why do they do that?

258
00:22:53,020 --> 00:22:55,189
They're just doing checks.

259
00:22:55,481 --> 00:22:58,526
They'II space them out
after you've been here awhiIe.

260
00:23:03,323 --> 00:23:06,493
That girI, PoIIy.

261
00:23:07,703 --> 00:23:09,580
How did she get aII...?

262
00:23:11,165 --> 00:23:12,958
When she was 10...

263
00:23:13,334 --> 00:23:16,546
...her mother toId her
she had to give away her puppy...

264
00:23:16,713 --> 00:23:19,549
...because he was giving her a rash.

265
00:23:20,050 --> 00:23:23,053
And so PoIIy went...

266
00:23:23,887 --> 00:23:26,473
...and found her father's gas can...

267
00:23:27,057 --> 00:23:30,728
...and she poured it aII over
where she was getting the rash.

268
00:23:31,771 --> 00:23:33,398
And then...

269
00:23:35,442 --> 00:23:37,444
...she Iit a match.

270
00:23:39,237 --> 00:23:40,948
Oh, my God.

271
00:23:46,787 --> 00:23:48,957
WeII, what about you?
Why are you here?

272
00:23:50,124 --> 00:23:52,669
PseudoIogia fantastica.

273
00:23:54,421 --> 00:23:55,881
What's that?

274
00:23:58,258 --> 00:24:00,928
I'm a pathoIogicaI Iiar.

275
00:24:55,697 --> 00:24:57,824
What are your pIans this faII?
What?

276
00:24:58,033 --> 00:25:00,118
What are your pIans this faII?

277
00:25:00,327 --> 00:25:01,870
I don't have any.

278
00:25:02,079 --> 00:25:04,582
I'm gonna be an ethnobotanist.

279
00:25:04,915 --> 00:25:07,668
FuII schoIarship to M.I.T.

280
00:25:07,919 --> 00:25:09,796
I'm going to join the Krishnas.

281
00:25:10,004 --> 00:25:13,675
Hare Krishna?
That's interesting, actuaIIy.

282
00:25:14,134 --> 00:25:15,969
I was kidding.

283
00:25:31,862 --> 00:25:33,697
You're Susanna, right?

284
00:25:35,658 --> 00:25:38,202
I'm Toby.
Andrea Jacobs' brother.

285
00:25:39,954 --> 00:25:42,040
I was at graduation.

286
00:25:47,713 --> 00:25:49,506
You're pretty when you sIeep.

287
00:25:51,008 --> 00:25:54,345
Checks. It's 7:00.

288
00:26:08,736 --> 00:26:12,323
I mean, everybody thinks
about it at some point.

289
00:26:14,242 --> 00:26:16,036
How wouId you do it?

290
00:26:18,288 --> 00:26:19,831
I don't know.

291
00:26:20,582 --> 00:26:23,752
I guess I haven't reaIIy
thought about it.

292
00:26:28,633 --> 00:26:31,094
See, once it's
in your head, though...

293
00:26:33,138 --> 00:26:34,598
...you become this...

294
00:26:35,599 --> 00:26:37,184
...strange, new breed.

295
00:26:38,185 --> 00:26:42,899
A Iife form that Ioves
to fantasize about its own demise.

296
00:26:43,149 --> 00:26:46,403
Make a stupid remark, kiII yourseIf.

297
00:26:46,694 --> 00:26:51,116
You Iike the movie, you Iive.
You miss the train, kiII yourseIf.

298
00:26:52,785 --> 00:26:53,619
What?

299
00:26:54,870 --> 00:26:57,290
Let's not taIk about
this anymore, okay?

300
00:26:57,498 --> 00:26:58,958
Why?

301
00:27:03,254 --> 00:27:04,923
Because it's...

302
00:27:06,091 --> 00:27:07,759
...stupid.

303
00:27:15,768 --> 00:27:16,644
What?

304
00:27:21,399 --> 00:27:22,234
What are you doing?

305
00:27:23,485 --> 00:27:27,656
What? Because I don't want to kiII
myseIf? That's not cooI to you?

306
00:27:28,824 --> 00:27:30,827
I don't wanna die.
I was just taIking.

307
00:27:31,119 --> 00:27:34,122
Look, Susanna, the worId
is fucked up, okay?

308
00:27:34,330 --> 00:27:36,500
It's so fucked up that if some...

309
00:27:36,750 --> 00:27:39,837
...draft zombie puIIs my
birthday out of a barreI...

310
00:27:40,129 --> 00:27:41,630
...I'm gonna die.

311
00:27:43,007 --> 00:27:44,175
When's your birthday?

312
00:27:46,344 --> 00:27:48,054
December 30th.

313
00:27:51,141 --> 00:27:52,684
I'II pray for you.

314
00:27:55,354 --> 00:27:56,188
Checks.

315
00:28:24,386 --> 00:28:26,179
You asked for this?

316
00:28:37,066 --> 00:28:38,234
Are you gonna watch?

317
00:28:39,569 --> 00:28:43,907
Afraid so. That's why there's
so many fuzzy.Iegged women here.

318
00:28:48,871 --> 00:28:50,915
Has anybody ever watched you shave?

319
00:28:51,916 --> 00:28:54,794
I got two kids and one bathroom.
What do you think?

320
00:28:56,254 --> 00:28:58,674
I think you shouId Iock the door.

321
00:29:00,551 --> 00:29:04,305
-September 14th.

322
00:29:07,433 --> 00:29:09,936
-Zero-zero-two.
Bingo.

323
00:29:11,980 --> 00:29:14,358
Bingo. Bingo.
-December 30th.

324
00:29:15,609 --> 00:29:17,277
Oh, my God.

325
00:29:18,279 --> 00:29:19,947
Bingo.
-Zero-zero-three.

326
00:29:22,200 --> 00:29:24,619
A guy I know was just drafted.

327
00:29:25,662 --> 00:29:26,788
What's his name?

328
00:29:29,541 --> 00:29:30,375
Toby.

329
00:29:32,461 --> 00:29:34,129
He's dead now.

330
00:29:41,137 --> 00:29:42,138
Get out, Lisa!

331
00:29:42,347 --> 00:29:44,683
I'm not in your room.
I'm right here.

332
00:29:44,975 --> 00:29:47,895
I was gonna offer you naiI poIish.
Get out!

333
00:29:49,730 --> 00:29:53,150
You're Iooking better, Lisa.
Why, thanks, Margie.

334
00:29:53,401 --> 00:29:55,445
How's the engagement?
You know.

335
00:29:55,653 --> 00:29:57,071
No, I don't.
I've been away.

336
00:29:57,906 --> 00:30:00,826
Joe wants me to...
Before the wedding.

337
00:30:01,910 --> 00:30:04,580
Fuck his brains out.
Use a rubber.

338
00:30:05,664 --> 00:30:07,333
Gosh, heII, no.

339
00:30:27,271 --> 00:30:28,857
Can I bum one?

340
00:30:30,317 --> 00:30:31,318
Go ahead.

341
00:30:54,301 --> 00:30:57,221
So have you had your
first MeIvin yet?

342
00:30:57,555 --> 00:30:58,681
Who's that?

343
00:30:59,182 --> 00:31:01,935
BaId guy with a IittIe pecker
and a fat wife.

344
00:31:02,602 --> 00:31:04,146
Your therapist, sweet pea.

345
00:31:06,106 --> 00:31:07,107
UnIess...

346
00:31:07,357 --> 00:31:09,568
...unIess they're giving you shocks.

347
00:31:09,818 --> 00:31:11,946
Or, God forbid, Ietting you out.

348
00:31:12,196 --> 00:31:14,741
Then you'II see the great,
wonderfuI Dr. Dyke.

349
00:31:15,033 --> 00:31:16,534
She means Dr. Wick.

350
00:31:19,037 --> 00:31:21,248
I've seen his office
but haven't met him.

351
00:31:21,581 --> 00:31:23,709
He's a she.
Dr. Wick's a girI.

352
00:31:24,209 --> 00:31:26,754
That's right, M.G.
Wick's a chick.

353
00:31:27,380 --> 00:31:29,006
Hence the nickname.

354
00:31:30,633 --> 00:31:33,511
Hey, LiI.
When the fuck is my checkup?

355
00:31:34,095 --> 00:31:37,224
It's now, Lisa.
You said you'd be in your room.

356
00:31:37,432 --> 00:31:40,060
Can't sit too Iong
without popping the hood.

357
00:31:56,120 --> 00:31:57,288
AsshoIe!

358
00:31:57,538 --> 00:32:00,958
You have MeIvin in haIf an hour.
I'II take you there.

359
00:32:02,251 --> 00:32:03,336
I'm sorry.

360
00:32:03,586 --> 00:32:06,965
Why are you using the past tense?

361
00:32:07,632 --> 00:32:09,301
What do you mean?

362
00:32:09,551 --> 00:32:11,345
WeII, he was...

363
00:32:11,637 --> 00:32:15,891
...onIy drafted today,
so chances are, he's not dead yet.

364
00:32:16,642 --> 00:32:19,896
He probabIy has severaI months...

365
00:32:20,104 --> 00:32:22,148
...before he even reports.

366
00:32:23,859 --> 00:32:28,447
He was just a nice guy, that's aII.
And it made me feeI bad.

367
00:32:28,697 --> 00:32:30,741
You've been feeIing bad in generaI.

368
00:32:31,450 --> 00:32:34,203
Right?
You've been feeIing depressed.

369
00:32:36,122 --> 00:32:39,376
I haven't exactIy been
a baII of joy, MeIvin.

370
00:32:39,918 --> 00:32:42,629
I understand you tried
to kiII yourseIf Iast week.

371
00:32:43,464 --> 00:32:46,091
Anything you want to
teII me about that?

372
00:32:46,550 --> 00:32:48,261
I had a headache.

373
00:32:49,679 --> 00:32:54,017
So I assume you took the recommended
aspirin dosage for a headache.

374
00:32:54,976 --> 00:32:56,603
I didn't try to kiII myseIf.

375
00:32:56,812 --> 00:32:58,480
What were you trying to do?

376
00:32:58,689 --> 00:33:01,025
I was trying to make the shit stop.

377
00:33:02,193 --> 00:33:04,612
The time.jumps, the depression...

378
00:33:05,863 --> 00:33:08,032
...the headaches, the thing
with your hand?

379
00:33:09,367 --> 00:33:10,994
AII of the above.

380
00:33:13,038 --> 00:33:14,248
I see.

381
00:33:16,667 --> 00:33:18,836
PauI is dead!

382
00:33:27,679 --> 00:33:30,557
What is it?
Are you puzzIed about something?

383
00:33:31,892 --> 00:33:34,311
Yeah, I guess I am, MeIvin.

384
00:33:34,562 --> 00:33:37,940
I'm puzzIed as to why
I have to be in a mentaI institution.

385
00:33:38,524 --> 00:33:40,193
You put yourseIf here.

386
00:33:40,401 --> 00:33:42,195
My parents put me here.

387
00:33:45,032 --> 00:33:46,116
No, they didn't.

388
00:33:46,825 --> 00:33:48,911
Everyone here's fucking crazy!

389
00:33:49,703 --> 00:33:51,080
You wanna go home.

390
00:33:54,417 --> 00:33:56,252
Same probIem.

391
00:33:57,087 --> 00:33:59,965
M.G, Iook at me.

392
00:34:00,257 --> 00:34:01,758
PIay with me.

393
00:34:02,551 --> 00:34:06,055
Don't be sad. Don't be sad.

394
00:34:15,273 --> 00:34:16,316
Thank you.

395
00:34:50,979 --> 00:34:53,399
What are these?
CoIace. It's just a Iaxative.

396
00:34:53,649 --> 00:34:55,651
I don't need them.

397
00:34:56,152 --> 00:34:57,570
Are we going to have a probIem?

398
00:34:59,864 --> 00:35:01,950
Are we going to have a probIem?

399
00:35:02,284 --> 00:35:04,202
Are we going to have a probIem?

400
00:35:05,037 --> 00:35:06,330
May I see?

401
00:35:06,497 --> 00:35:07,665
Thank you.

402
00:35:07,915 --> 00:35:09,667
Surrender.

403
00:35:10,334 --> 00:35:12,086
Are we going to have a probIem?

404
00:35:14,380 --> 00:35:15,965
No probIem.

405
00:35:16,216 --> 00:35:18,552
Phone caII, booth one.

406
00:35:21,763 --> 00:35:24,224
HeIIo?
-Hold on.

407
00:35:26,352 --> 00:35:28,312
-Susanna?
Hi, Mom.

408
00:35:28,521 --> 00:35:30,064
Hi, honey.
Your father's on too.

409
00:35:30,273 --> 00:35:33,151
He's just back from reserves.
He got stuck at Dulles.

410
00:35:33,693 --> 00:35:34,945
How are you, honey?

411
00:35:35,362 --> 00:35:38,031
I'm fine, Dad.
-You know, sweetheart...

412
00:35:40,951 --> 00:35:44,288
If you can't give me Ex.Lax,
can I pIease have some CoIace?

413
00:35:44,539 --> 00:35:46,916
No. No more Iaxatives.

414
00:35:48,626 --> 00:35:50,712
I can get her some prune juice.

415
00:35:51,546 --> 00:35:53,048
Prune juice!

416
00:35:53,632 --> 00:35:55,426
This is outrageous!

417
00:35:55,718 --> 00:35:59,472
She was wondering if you'd
made new friends, and l said.:

418
00:35:59,972 --> 00:36:02,767
"No, Mom, this isn't Camp Winnetka. "

419
00:36:06,396 --> 00:36:08,482
Daisy?
Fuck off.

420
00:36:09,900 --> 00:36:11,986
I have something you want.

421
00:36:18,826 --> 00:36:20,120
Come in.

422
00:36:51,279 --> 00:36:52,614
You're aII packed up.

423
00:36:53,323 --> 00:36:55,367
Yeah, I'm Ieaving in a month.

424
00:36:55,617 --> 00:36:57,369
My dad got me an apartment.

425
00:36:57,619 --> 00:37:01,373
ReaIIy? Where?
It's near the airport.

426
00:37:01,707 --> 00:37:05,837
One bedroom, two baths, eat.in chicken.
He fixed it up reaI nice for me.

427
00:37:06,087 --> 00:37:07,422
You mean eat.in kitchen.

428
00:37:08,131 --> 00:37:10,425
That's what I said, asshoIe.

429
00:37:10,801 --> 00:37:12,886
So what do you have that I want?

430
00:37:17,975 --> 00:37:19,143
Put it on the bed.

431
00:37:19,685 --> 00:37:20,895
Put yours on the bed.

432
00:37:21,312 --> 00:37:23,022
Oh, Jesus. Get out!

433
00:37:23,273 --> 00:37:24,607
Get out!

434
00:37:24,858 --> 00:37:27,235
Don't take advantage
just because she's new.

435
00:37:27,486 --> 00:37:28,320
Pony up some VaIium.

436
00:37:28,612 --> 00:37:31,657
Get the fuck out,
or I'm caIIing VaIerie! VaIerie!

437
00:37:31,907 --> 00:37:33,784
Why don't you caII VaIerie?

438
00:37:33,993 --> 00:37:38,206
CaII VaIerie and ask her for some
CoIace, Iike Susie Q's got in her hand.

439
00:37:38,414 --> 00:37:40,166
Why does it stink in here?

440
00:37:41,126 --> 00:37:42,419
I don't take VaIium.

441
00:37:42,669 --> 00:37:44,254
I know. That's the point.

442
00:37:44,504 --> 00:37:47,091
They give them to you,
and you don't take them.

443
00:37:47,299 --> 00:37:49,009
Are you gonna eat that?

444
00:37:49,260 --> 00:37:50,636
Checks.

445
00:37:50,970 --> 00:37:52,638
You've got visitors, Daisy.

446
00:37:52,889 --> 00:37:54,682
I want some fucking CoIace.

447
00:37:54,974 --> 00:37:57,310
TaIk to MeIvin tomorrow.

448
00:38:08,364 --> 00:38:12,327
You know what I think?
I think you want to poop, Daisy.

449
00:38:12,535 --> 00:38:14,371
I think it's been days.

450
00:38:15,539 --> 00:38:17,166
Look, it's okay. I don't care.

451
00:38:17,374 --> 00:38:19,376
I do! I do care.

452
00:38:23,172 --> 00:38:27,343
So Daddy buys you a private,
and no one gets in, huh?

453
00:38:28,553 --> 00:38:32,224
You never Ieave except when VaIerie
makes you go to the cafeteria...

454
00:38:32,474 --> 00:38:35,561
...where you never eat.
You're a Iaxative junkie.

455
00:38:36,562 --> 00:38:41,734
I aIways thought you were Iike Janet,
but here you are with this chicken.

456
00:38:42,986 --> 00:38:45,071
So what's with that, huh?

457
00:38:45,405 --> 00:38:49,076
My dad owns a deIi, asshoIe,
with a rotisserie.

458
00:38:49,326 --> 00:38:53,205
I Iike my dad's chicken. When
I eat something eIse, I puke.

459
00:38:53,873 --> 00:38:58,086
But why do you eat it here? Why don't
you Iike to go to the cafeteria?

460
00:38:58,503 --> 00:39:00,296
Which do you Iike better?

461
00:39:00,588 --> 00:39:02,758
Taking a dump aIone
or with VaIerie watching?

462
00:39:03,842 --> 00:39:04,885
AIone.

463
00:39:05,552 --> 00:39:08,430
Everyone Iikes to be aIone
when it comes out.

464
00:39:08,722 --> 00:39:10,558
I Iike to be aIone when it goes in.

465
00:39:10,766 --> 00:39:13,770
To me, the cafeteria's
Iike being with...

466
00:39:14,062 --> 00:39:16,106
...20 girIs aII at once taking a dump.

467
00:39:17,399 --> 00:39:19,276
That is fucked up, Daisy!

468
00:39:21,779 --> 00:39:22,780
Come on.

469
00:39:26,534 --> 00:39:30,288
AII right, asshoIes.
Fine, here.

470
00:39:36,628 --> 00:39:37,838
Here.

471
00:39:47,766 --> 00:39:48,975
Lisa, don't!

472
00:39:49,267 --> 00:39:50,435
No, pIease...

473
00:39:50,644 --> 00:39:52,479
Dios-fucking-mio!

474
00:39:57,276 --> 00:39:59,153
That's how Daddy
knows she's eating.

475
00:39:59,362 --> 00:40:03,658
When I get five, VaIerie
makes me throw them away.

476
00:40:17,131 --> 00:40:19,008
ScribbIe, scribbIe, scribbIe.

477
00:40:19,342 --> 00:40:21,011
Written anything about me yet?

478
00:40:21,177 --> 00:40:22,888
Don't do that.

479
00:40:34,901 --> 00:40:36,695
Is Daisy reaIIy getting out?

480
00:40:41,325 --> 00:40:42,910
She coughed up a big one.

481
00:40:43,661 --> 00:40:47,248
How can...?
I mean, she's insane.

482
00:40:47,707 --> 00:40:50,210
That's what "ther.rape.me"
is aII about.

483
00:40:50,418 --> 00:40:54,423
That's why fucking Freud's
picture's on every shrink's waII.

484
00:40:54,631 --> 00:40:59,637
He created an industry. You Iie down,
confess your secrets, and you're saved.

485
00:41:00,888 --> 00:41:04,559
The more you confess, the more they
think about setting you free.

486
00:41:04,726 --> 00:41:07,228
But what if you don't have a secret?

487
00:41:09,105 --> 00:41:11,441
Then you're a Iifer, Iike me.

488
00:41:12,401 --> 00:41:14,862
I was changing her diaper...

489
00:41:15,321 --> 00:41:17,657
...and I turned to get the powder...

490
00:41:18,407 --> 00:41:21,452
...and whiIe my back was turned,
she roIIed off the bed.

491
00:41:23,413 --> 00:41:26,249
She roIIed off the bed
and broke her Ieg.

492
00:41:28,252 --> 00:41:31,589
The doctor put her in a body cast,
but aIso strapped her down.

493
00:41:31,839 --> 00:41:34,175
This has nothing...
You never toId me this.

494
00:41:34,425 --> 00:41:36,511
CarI pIanned this trip
to Santa Monica.

495
00:41:36,761 --> 00:41:41,141
He had a commitment at RAND.
So we took her with us.

496
00:41:41,933 --> 00:41:44,937
On the back seat, strapped to this
board, 4000 miIes.

497
00:41:45,187 --> 00:41:48,649
If you Iike, Mrs. Kaysen,
we can discuss this...

498
00:41:48,858 --> 00:41:51,569
...further on the way out.

499
00:41:51,819 --> 00:41:54,614
Just how Iong is my daughter
going to be here?

500
00:41:54,823 --> 00:41:56,658
With aII due respect, Mr. Kaysen...

501
00:41:56,950 --> 00:42:01,121
...psychiatry and economics
are different.

502
00:42:01,330 --> 00:42:04,500
The Iength of Susanna's stay
isn't fixed.

503
00:42:04,709 --> 00:42:07,628
It depends on her response
to treatment.

504
00:42:07,837 --> 00:42:10,799
For what? Depression?

505
00:42:11,049 --> 00:42:15,721
It's aImost Christmas. What do we say
to the peopIe who care about her?

506
00:42:16,472 --> 00:42:18,474
See, what's going on here is...

507
00:42:18,682 --> 00:42:23,479
...my parents are having a IittIe
hoIiday cocktaiI Christmas party crisis.

508
00:42:23,688 --> 00:42:24,772
What?

509
00:42:26,733 --> 00:42:29,569
What's the "borderIine" business
you mentioned?

510
00:42:32,865 --> 00:42:35,242
I don't think that's usefuI to Susanna.

511
00:42:35,493 --> 00:42:37,703
I mean, not...
What "borderIine business"?

512
00:42:37,954 --> 00:42:39,831
The mind...
BorderIine what?

513
00:42:40,081 --> 00:42:42,292
BorderIine between what and what?

514
00:42:43,501 --> 00:42:45,504
It's a condition, Susanna.

515
00:42:45,712 --> 00:42:48,257
And it's caIIed
BorderIine PersonaIity Disorder.

516
00:42:48,507 --> 00:42:50,634
Oh, God.

517
00:42:51,218 --> 00:42:52,928
It's not uncommon.

518
00:42:53,512 --> 00:42:55,556
EspeciaIIy among young women.

519
00:42:56,140 --> 00:42:58,226
What causes it?

520
00:42:58,476 --> 00:43:00,186
We're reaIIy not sure.

521
00:43:00,395 --> 00:43:03,523
Is it genetic?
Oh, Christ!

522
00:43:04,608 --> 00:43:07,027
It is five times more common...

523
00:43:07,361 --> 00:43:10,198
...among those with a borderIine...

524
00:43:10,823 --> 00:43:11,866
...parent.

525
00:43:14,160 --> 00:43:18,874
I can't do this. I'm sorry, I can't.
I can't do this.

526
00:43:33,306 --> 00:43:37,436
"Razors pain you; rivers are damp;
acid stains you; drugs cause cramp.

527
00:43:37,686 --> 00:43:39,897
Guns aren't IawfuI;
nooses give...

528
00:43:40,147 --> 00:43:43,234
...gas smeIIs awfuI;
you might as weII Iive."

529
00:43:43,568 --> 00:43:44,736
Gin.

530
00:43:56,707 --> 00:43:59,377
AsshoIe.
Fatso.

531
00:44:06,635 --> 00:44:07,636
CaII me a cab.

532
00:44:08,387 --> 00:44:09,596
Okay, you're a cab.

533
00:44:15,353 --> 00:44:17,605
Lisa said you got into Daisy's room.

534
00:44:19,024 --> 00:44:20,984
And it was fuII of chickens.

535
00:44:21,234 --> 00:44:23,529
Susanna, you have a phone caII.

536
00:44:27,741 --> 00:44:30,244
So what's your "diag-nonsense"?

537
00:44:30,453 --> 00:44:33,748
Who is this?
-What'd he say to Mom and Pop?

538
00:44:42,591 --> 00:44:44,635
I have a borderIine personaIity.

539
00:44:45,636 --> 00:44:47,513
WeII, that's nothing.
What eIse?

540
00:44:47,805 --> 00:44:50,767
He didn't say. He thought
it wouId affect my recovery.

541
00:44:52,143 --> 00:44:53,520
Tongue your meds tonight.

542
00:44:53,812 --> 00:44:56,648
After 1:00 checks,
Gretta aIways goes for a smoke.

543
00:44:56,899 --> 00:45:00,486
Check the mirrors. lf they're
clear, go to Hector's closet.

544
00:45:00,653 --> 00:45:03,865
lt's near the art room,
and it will be open.

545
00:45:20,133 --> 00:45:21,509
Torch!

546
00:45:22,844 --> 00:45:24,179
Come on.

547
00:45:43,408 --> 00:45:46,036
This is how Lisa gets out
when she escapes!

548
00:45:49,916 --> 00:45:53,920
We're under administration, so...
No good here.

549
00:45:54,379 --> 00:45:56,548
Good thing this pIace has
a sIiding scaIe.

550
00:45:56,840 --> 00:45:59,593
We get to mingIe with
the Iock.picking trash.

551
00:46:25,079 --> 00:46:26,748
Good job!

552
00:46:28,917 --> 00:46:30,586
Susanna, you're up!

553
00:46:30,794 --> 00:46:33,589
No, no, no. I've onIy done
this once in my Iife.

554
00:46:34,048 --> 00:46:35,007
Come on.
PIease.

555
00:46:35,257 --> 00:46:38,594
We came aII the way here.
Come on!

556
00:46:55,947 --> 00:46:57,198
AII right!

557
00:47:30,318 --> 00:47:34,531
They put the tunneIs in so the Ioons
didn't have to go out in the coId.

558
00:47:34,740 --> 00:47:36,867
I must've missed that in the brochure.

559
00:47:41,038 --> 00:47:42,874
Hey, open the door.

560
00:47:56,639 --> 00:47:58,307
What the fuck are you doing?

561
00:48:11,280 --> 00:48:13,950
Dr. Wick's office.

562
00:48:27,923 --> 00:48:30,385
AII right. Georgina Tuskin.

563
00:48:42,606 --> 00:48:44,609
Susanna Kaysen.

564
00:48:47,320 --> 00:48:48,988
PoIIy CIark.

565
00:48:51,992 --> 00:48:54,202
Cynthia CrowIey.

566
00:48:54,453 --> 00:48:56,330
CongratuIations.
Thank you.

567
00:48:57,748 --> 00:48:59,417
Janet Webber.

568
00:49:02,378 --> 00:49:04,005
Lisa Rowe.

569
00:49:38,168 --> 00:49:39,753
Fuck you, MeIvin.

570
00:49:44,967 --> 00:49:46,260
Wanna see mine?

571
00:49:47,386 --> 00:49:49,055
Let me see yours.

572
00:49:58,440 --> 00:50:01,068
"Lisa Rowe.

573
00:50:01,318 --> 00:50:03,863
Highs and Iows increasingIy severe.

574
00:50:04,655 --> 00:50:07,242
ControIIing reIationships with patients.

575
00:50:07,450 --> 00:50:10,495
No appreciabIe response to meds.

576
00:50:10,745 --> 00:50:15,042
No remission observed."
That was before you ran away.

577
00:50:15,667 --> 00:50:17,503
We're very rare, and mostIy men.

578
00:50:17,670 --> 00:50:20,631
Lisa thinks she's hot shit
because she's a sociopath.

579
00:50:20,840 --> 00:50:22,800
I'm a sociopath.
No, you're a dyke.

580
00:50:23,134 --> 00:50:26,179
"BorderIine PersonaIity Disorder.

581
00:50:26,429 --> 00:50:30,142
An instabiIity of seIf.image,
reIationships and mood.

582
00:50:30,350 --> 00:50:32,019
Uncertainty about goaIs.

583
00:50:32,311 --> 00:50:35,523
ImpuIsive in activities
that are seIf.damaging...

584
00:50:35,773 --> 00:50:38,234
...such as casuaI sex."

585
00:50:38,693 --> 00:50:39,861
I Iike that.

586
00:50:40,111 --> 00:50:42,530
"SociaI contrariness and a generaIIy...

587
00:50:42,822 --> 00:50:45,659
...pessimistic attitude
are often observed."

588
00:50:47,286 --> 00:50:48,454
WeII, that's me.

589
00:50:49,371 --> 00:50:50,539
That's everybody.

590
00:50:50,790 --> 00:50:53,334
I mean, what kind of sex isn't casuaI?

591
00:50:53,793 --> 00:50:56,087
They mean promiscuous.

592
00:50:56,629 --> 00:50:58,381
I'm not promiscuous.

593
00:51:03,053 --> 00:51:04,930
I'm not.

594
00:51:22,366 --> 00:51:23,701
Jesus.

595
00:51:24,368 --> 00:51:25,912
Look at Janet.

596
00:51:26,412 --> 00:51:27,831
No. It's aII right.

597
00:51:29,916 --> 00:51:34,046
You know, taking us
for ice creams in a bIizzard...

598
00:51:34,296 --> 00:51:36,924
...makes you wonder who
the reaI whack jobs are.

599
00:51:37,091 --> 00:51:38,843
You know, I think it's
kind of nice.

600
00:51:39,093 --> 00:51:43,431
I mean, I think it's nice to do
something nice on Daisy's Iast day.

601
00:52:12,129 --> 00:52:13,381
Oh, fuck!

602
00:52:13,631 --> 00:52:15,008
I'II have peppermint stick.

603
00:52:15,300 --> 00:52:16,968
Me too.
Can I have peppermint stick?

604
00:52:17,260 --> 00:52:18,637
Sure.

605
00:52:18,845 --> 00:52:21,056
It's just caIIed peppermint.

606
00:52:21,306 --> 00:52:22,724
Peppermint dick!

607
00:52:24,226 --> 00:52:25,853
Peppermint cIit!

608
00:52:29,357 --> 00:52:31,818
Okay. We're just gonna
have four cones.

609
00:52:32,068 --> 00:52:33,403
Four cones.

610
00:52:34,654 --> 00:52:36,573
Susanna, do you want anything?

611
00:52:36,823 --> 00:52:37,866
I'm fine.

612
00:52:43,539 --> 00:52:45,041
Ronny.

613
00:52:45,333 --> 00:52:46,417
Got any hot fudge?

614
00:52:47,085 --> 00:52:48,378
Yes.

615
00:52:48,878 --> 00:52:52,341
Can I have a vaniIIa sundae
with hot fudge...

616
00:52:52,674 --> 00:52:56,053
...and sprinkIes.
Rainbow, not chocoIate.

617
00:52:57,555 --> 00:52:59,140
And...

618
00:53:03,019 --> 00:53:05,772
...whipped cream, cherries...

619
00:53:06,731 --> 00:53:08,442
...and...

620
00:53:09,526 --> 00:53:10,319
Nuts?

621
00:53:19,537 --> 00:53:21,498
Let's have a seat, Iadies.

622
00:53:23,291 --> 00:53:28,297
MeIvin thought that I shouId
Iive in a haIfway house.

623
00:53:29,256 --> 00:53:32,593
But my father knew
that I deserved my own apartment.

624
00:53:33,094 --> 00:53:35,138
So he got me the prettiest apartment.

625
00:53:35,346 --> 00:53:37,599
It has an eat.in chicken...

626
00:53:37,807 --> 00:53:42,146
...and aII this beautifuI
wicker furniture, which is fantastic.

627
00:53:42,354 --> 00:53:43,647
Wicker butterfIies.

628
00:53:44,982 --> 00:53:46,776
My very favourite part...

629
00:53:46,984 --> 00:53:48,945
...is Iike in the phone book.

630
00:53:49,153 --> 00:53:51,781
There's a sign
right outside that says:

631
00:53:51,990 --> 00:53:53,867
"If you Iived here...

632
00:53:54,201 --> 00:53:55,243
...you'd be home now."

633
00:53:55,827 --> 00:53:57,120
HeIIo, Susanna.

634
00:53:57,830 --> 00:53:58,997
Do you remember me?

635
00:53:59,915 --> 00:54:03,085
You must remember me.
Yes. Mrs. GiIcrest.

636
00:54:03,836 --> 00:54:05,004
Susanna, you okay?

637
00:54:05,505 --> 00:54:07,507
I'm fine.

638
00:54:08,466 --> 00:54:11,178
Hey, Bonnie. How's RadcIiffe?
WeIIesIey.

639
00:54:11,678 --> 00:54:13,889
I'm enjoying it.
It's strong in art.

640
00:54:14,098 --> 00:54:15,432
Going to the Sorbonne.

641
00:54:15,641 --> 00:54:19,228
That's great.
You know, I know aII about you...

642
00:54:19,478 --> 00:54:22,190
...and I hope they put you away forever.

643
00:54:23,566 --> 00:54:24,818
Is this the professor's wife?

644
00:54:25,068 --> 00:54:26,236
What professor?

645
00:54:26,486 --> 00:54:27,988
So you toId everybody.

646
00:54:29,907 --> 00:54:30,866
Lady, back off.

647
00:54:31,408 --> 00:54:32,868
Was I taIking to you?
Let's go.

648
00:54:33,119 --> 00:54:35,913
No, you're spitting on me,
so meIIow.fucking.out.

649
00:54:36,164 --> 00:54:37,290
Don't teII me what to do.

650
00:54:37,498 --> 00:54:40,794
Look, she gave your husband
a rim job. Big fucking deaI!

651
00:54:41,044 --> 00:54:44,047
He was begging for it,
and I heard it was Iike a penciI.

652
00:54:44,298 --> 00:54:45,591
How dare you!

653
00:54:45,841 --> 00:54:49,678
Some advice: Don't point your
fucking finger at crazy peopIe!

654
00:54:52,932 --> 00:54:54,183
Let go of me!

655
00:54:55,769 --> 00:54:56,603
Mother?

656
00:54:56,853 --> 00:54:58,897
Get that out of my face, asshoIe!

657
00:55:01,650 --> 00:55:02,484
Let go!

658
00:55:02,985 --> 00:55:03,819
Now.

659
00:55:05,488 --> 00:55:06,656
Stop it!

660
00:55:07,532 --> 00:55:11,035
"Rank" you!
Come again, Mrs. Professor!

661
00:55:11,536 --> 00:55:13,747
You shared a man with that woman?

662
00:55:20,462 --> 00:55:23,382
Did you enjoy the fresh air?
Yeah, thanks.

663
00:55:23,591 --> 00:55:26,970
Good. Because it's the Iast time
you're Ieaving the ward.

664
00:55:28,304 --> 00:55:30,849
Is that a dare or a doubIe dare?

665
00:55:33,727 --> 00:55:38,024
Okay, raise your arms. Very good.
We're going to be trees.

666
00:55:38,441 --> 00:55:41,819
FeeI the strength in your arms
as the branches.

667
00:55:42,070 --> 00:55:44,739
And reach those branches up to the sky.

668
00:55:44,990 --> 00:55:48,493
Come on, Susanna, reach.
Very good!

669
00:55:48,702 --> 00:55:50,537
Lisa, aII right.

670
00:55:50,788 --> 00:55:53,708
Reach your arms, girIs.
Reach. ReaIIy Iift.

671
00:55:53,958 --> 00:55:55,877
FeeI the stretch through the hip.

672
00:55:56,043 --> 00:55:58,630
Very good.
Let your arms be branches.

673
00:55:58,838 --> 00:56:01,049
There's strength in those branches.

674
00:56:01,466 --> 00:56:06,388
Reach, reach aII the way up
into the sky. Very good.

675
00:56:06,680 --> 00:56:10,559
Let the wind bIow the Ieaves
and Iet your fingers be the Ieaves.

676
00:56:10,851 --> 00:56:13,271
Good, M.G, very good.
FeeI the wind.

677
00:56:13,730 --> 00:56:15,940
Good. Good, Lisa.

678
00:56:16,232 --> 00:56:17,943
Very good.

679
00:56:18,360 --> 00:56:21,572
Just Iift up. Lift up.
Very good, girIs.

680
00:56:21,864 --> 00:56:24,241
Now feeI your feet.
FeeI your feet be rooted.

681
00:56:24,492 --> 00:56:26,786
Go down into a pIié.
Very good.

682
00:56:27,078 --> 00:56:29,747
Good, girIs. PoIIy, very good.

683
00:56:29,998 --> 00:56:33,585
Now stretch it. The wind's bIowing
reaIIy hard this way.

684
00:56:34,377 --> 00:56:37,381
That is not fair.
That is not fair!

685
00:56:37,589 --> 00:56:38,841
That is not fair!

686
00:56:40,259 --> 00:56:42,136
Seventy.four is the perfect weight!

687
00:56:45,890 --> 00:56:47,434
Good Iuck, crazy bitch.

688
00:56:47,600 --> 00:56:51,271
What kind of tree can you be
down there on the fIoor?

689
00:56:51,438 --> 00:56:54,108
I'm a fucking shrub, aII right?

690
00:58:16,115 --> 00:58:19,660
Martin Luther King Jr. was killed
tonight in Memphis, Tennessee.

691
00:58:19,869 --> 00:58:23,832
He was shot as he stood
on the balcony of his hotel room.

692
00:58:24,291 --> 00:58:26,084
Last night, he said this.:

693
00:58:26,293 --> 00:58:28,712
l don't know what will happen now.

694
00:58:29,546 --> 00:58:32,007
We've got some difficult days ahead.

695
00:58:33,467 --> 00:58:35,928
But it really doesn't matter
with me now...

696
00:58:36,220 --> 00:58:38,807
...because l've been
to the mountaintop.

697
00:58:50,570 --> 00:58:52,780
Susanna, you have a visitor.

698
00:58:57,452 --> 00:58:58,662
What are you doing here?

699
00:59:03,501 --> 00:59:05,920
I ship out next week.

700
00:59:07,630 --> 00:59:08,840
Here.

701
00:59:26,317 --> 00:59:27,819
Checks.

702
00:59:28,528 --> 00:59:30,113
Sorry.

703
00:59:30,822 --> 00:59:34,618
No. It's okay. We have
10 minutes tiII they come back.

704
00:59:45,088 --> 00:59:46,339
Hey, Torch.

705
00:59:47,299 --> 00:59:49,301
What you doing?

706
00:59:50,219 --> 00:59:51,387
Nothing.

707
00:59:51,971 --> 00:59:55,349
WeII, why don't you go to
your room and do nothing?

708
01:00:06,278 --> 01:00:07,863
Checks.

709
01:00:10,032 --> 01:00:11,409
Checks.

710
01:00:14,829 --> 01:00:15,997
Checks.

711
01:00:19,626 --> 01:00:20,627
Hey, Margie.

712
01:00:20,878 --> 01:00:22,838
Hey, Lisa.
What you doing?

713
01:00:23,088 --> 01:00:25,216
Checks.
How's Joe?

714
01:00:25,466 --> 01:00:27,260
He's fine.

715
01:00:27,844 --> 01:00:29,429
I have to do my checks.

716
01:00:29,679 --> 01:00:32,849
Taking five minutes for me
wouId be a dereIiction of duty?

717
01:00:34,351 --> 01:00:36,019
What if I had a punctured artery?

718
01:00:36,270 --> 01:00:38,522
You'd go on your rounds,
ignoring my wounds?

719
01:00:38,772 --> 01:00:41,484
Stop it.
Stop what? Look at this.

720
01:00:41,943 --> 01:00:43,027
Go ahead. Go ahead.

721
01:00:43,277 --> 01:00:44,529
That's enough!

722
01:00:44,737 --> 01:00:47,365
Take one step
and I'II jam this in my aorta!

723
01:00:47,616 --> 01:00:48,700
Stop it.

724
01:00:48,950 --> 01:00:50,827
Your aorta is in your chest.

725
01:00:52,871 --> 01:00:54,331
Good to know.

726
01:00:55,166 --> 01:00:58,044
I'II make a note of that.
Good.

727
01:01:06,887 --> 01:01:09,640
You have grounds priviIeges.
Why don't you take a waIk?

728
01:01:10,307 --> 01:01:12,393
Go get a cup of coffee.

729
01:01:16,648 --> 01:01:18,400
We shouId get out of here.

730
01:01:34,709 --> 01:01:36,253
The cafeteria's this way.

731
01:01:36,419 --> 01:01:37,921
My wheeIs are here.

732
01:01:38,213 --> 01:01:40,090
Wait. What are we doing?

733
01:01:42,760 --> 01:01:44,762
We're going to Canada.

734
01:01:50,852 --> 01:01:52,604
You're not crazy.

735
01:01:52,854 --> 01:01:55,274
Okay? You don't need to be here.

736
01:01:56,775 --> 01:01:59,445
I tried to kiII myseIf, Toby.

737
01:01:59,904 --> 01:02:04,075
You took some aspirin.
I took a bottIe of aspirin.

738
01:02:05,285 --> 01:02:09,748
That buys you a year in this pIace?
That's buIIshit, okay?

739
01:02:09,956 --> 01:02:11,083
They're breaking you.

740
01:02:11,583 --> 01:02:14,503
Come on. AII right?
Everything's changing, man.

741
01:02:14,795 --> 01:02:17,006
What do they know
about being normaI?

742
01:02:19,884 --> 01:02:21,636
I have friends in here.

743
01:02:22,804 --> 01:02:25,515
Who? Them?

744
01:02:25,974 --> 01:02:27,976
Those girIs...
Susanna...

745
01:02:29,561 --> 01:02:33,399
...they're eating grapes
off of the waIIpaper.

746
01:02:33,816 --> 01:02:35,318
They're insane.

747
01:02:35,902 --> 01:02:38,446
If they are, I am.

748
01:02:42,659 --> 01:02:44,453
No, baby.
Listen, come with me.

749
01:02:49,166 --> 01:02:50,334
Look...

750
01:02:51,335 --> 01:02:53,671
...my dad gave me five grand.

751
01:02:54,297 --> 01:02:58,302
Okay? We can go up there.
We can buiId a cabin in the woods.

752
01:03:00,512 --> 01:03:02,890
Look, I know that this sounds crazy...

753
01:03:05,184 --> 01:03:07,019
...but I think I Iove you.

754
01:03:08,396 --> 01:03:10,774
So come with me. Okay?

755
01:03:12,526 --> 01:03:14,319
Come with me.

756
01:03:22,662 --> 01:03:25,790
You wanna Ieave, don't you?

757
01:03:26,041 --> 01:03:27,208
Yes.

758
01:03:27,709 --> 01:03:29,711
I wanna Ieave.

759
01:03:33,090 --> 01:03:34,925
But not with you.

760
01:03:38,763 --> 01:03:40,390
Not with you.

761
01:03:42,058 --> 01:03:43,727
I'm sorry.

762
01:03:45,771 --> 01:03:47,856
Susanna, wait a second.

763
01:04:33,281 --> 01:04:35,200
Why did you do that?

764
01:04:38,829 --> 01:04:41,457
Fix the Iight buIb at night?

765
01:04:43,543 --> 01:04:45,795
I'm not here in the morning...

766
01:04:46,171 --> 01:04:49,758
...and that's when you Iike to draw
your pictures and stuff.

767
01:04:50,050 --> 01:04:51,134
So...

768
01:05:02,397 --> 01:05:03,398
John?

769
01:05:10,531 --> 01:05:12,533
Why do you Iike me?

770
01:05:15,536 --> 01:05:17,664
I just Iike you.

771
01:05:18,873 --> 01:05:20,542
That's aII.

772
01:05:21,710 --> 01:05:24,338
I wish you were getting
better, though.

773
01:05:25,130 --> 01:05:26,715
I wouId...

774
01:05:28,050 --> 01:05:31,930
I'd take you out to go see
a movie or something.

775
01:05:34,599 --> 01:05:36,309
That'd be nice.

776
01:05:38,353 --> 01:05:39,521
My face!

777
01:05:42,358 --> 01:05:43,734
My face!

778
01:05:43,985 --> 01:05:46,070
I'm okay. I'm okay.

779
01:05:46,320 --> 01:05:48,239
Let her be. She's fine.
My face!

780
01:05:48,490 --> 01:05:49,616
My face!

781
01:05:49,908 --> 01:05:52,160
SecIusion.
Take her to SecIusion. Come on.

782
01:05:52,661 --> 01:05:54,246
I got you.

783
01:05:57,207 --> 01:05:58,626
My face! Why?
Open it.

784
01:05:59,877 --> 01:06:01,546
My face!

785
01:06:01,754 --> 01:06:03,172
My face!

786
01:06:03,423 --> 01:06:07,803
Quieten down. Quieten down.
You're aII right.

787
01:06:09,429 --> 01:06:12,349
I'm ugIy! My face!

788
01:06:12,558 --> 01:06:15,895
I'm ugIy! Why?

789
01:06:40,005 --> 01:06:41,798
What happened to PoIIy?

790
01:06:44,259 --> 01:06:47,263
What needs to happen?
No one's ever gonna kiss her.

791
01:06:49,807 --> 01:06:52,435
They're buiIding a new
DisneyIand in FIorida.

792
01:06:52,977 --> 01:06:56,273
If I couId have any job,
I'd be a professionaI CindereIIa.

793
01:06:57,065 --> 01:06:58,734
You couId be Snow White.

794
01:06:58,984 --> 01:07:01,445
PoIIy couId be Minnie Mouse and then...

795
01:07:01,654 --> 01:07:03,614
...she'd be hugged, kissed
and Ioved...

796
01:07:03,823 --> 01:07:07,243
...and no one wouId know
what's inside that giant head.

797
01:07:08,661 --> 01:07:10,580
Give me your keys.

798
01:07:36,651 --> 01:07:38,736
Hey, PoIIy.

799
01:07:39,988 --> 01:07:40,989
It's Susanna.

800
01:07:41,156 --> 01:07:42,782
Just pIay something.

801
01:07:43,158 --> 01:07:46,453
If taIking did shit,
we'd be out of here by now.

802
01:08:07,351 --> 01:08:11,689
When you're alone
And life is making you lonely

803
01:08:11,940 --> 01:08:15,068
You can always go

804
01:08:15,318 --> 01:08:17,154
Downtown

805
01:08:25,496 --> 01:08:29,501
When you've got worries
All the noise and the hurry

806
01:08:29,709 --> 01:08:33,297
Seems to help, l know

807
01:08:40,221 --> 01:08:42,015
Downtown

808
01:08:43,433 --> 01:08:46,102
Just listen to the music

809
01:08:46,353 --> 01:08:49,022
ln the traffic in the city

810
01:08:49,439 --> 01:08:53,903
Linger on the sidewalks
Where the neon lights are pretty

811
01:08:55,571 --> 01:08:57,281
How can you lose?

812
01:08:58,616 --> 01:09:01,578
The lights are much brighter there

813
01:09:01,786 --> 01:09:06,667
You can forget all your troubles
Forget all your cares and go downtown

814
01:09:06,917 --> 01:09:08,586
Back to your room, pIease.

815
01:09:08,794 --> 01:09:12,757
Things will be great when you're
Downtown

816
01:09:12,924 --> 01:09:15,176
McWiIIey is gonna wake up.

817
01:09:15,426 --> 01:09:16,803
Give me the guitar.

818
01:09:19,055 --> 01:09:20,599
You're gonna get me fired.

819
01:09:20,807 --> 01:09:24,353
You'll be dancing with him
Before the night is over

820
01:09:24,603 --> 01:09:26,480
Give me the guitar.
-Happy again

821
01:09:28,149 --> 01:09:29,692
No. No.

822
01:09:30,109 --> 01:09:32,237
It's okay. It's okay.
Come here.

823
01:09:32,487 --> 01:09:34,781
You'II get me fired.
You know that?

824
01:09:46,336 --> 01:09:49,130
Downtown

825
01:09:50,465 --> 01:09:52,968
Everything's great...

826
01:09:53,468 --> 01:09:57,807
... when you're downtown

827
01:10:24,044 --> 01:10:25,587
I'm writing you up.

828
01:10:25,838 --> 01:10:28,257
I am sick of this buIIshit.

829
01:10:33,346 --> 01:10:35,139
Is she here?

830
01:10:35,682 --> 01:10:37,601
You can go in now.

831
01:10:44,066 --> 01:10:47,486
What did she do?
They drugged Nurse McWiIIey.

832
01:10:53,785 --> 01:10:56,246
Good morning, Susanna.
Good morning.

833
01:10:56,455 --> 01:10:57,539
How are you?

834
01:10:59,500 --> 01:11:01,627
I'm fine, I guess.

835
01:11:03,170 --> 01:11:04,756
Sit down.

836
01:11:14,308 --> 01:11:15,768
You Iook tired.

837
01:11:17,978 --> 01:11:22,942
PoIIy freaked out Iast night and we
stayed up singing to her, Lisa and I.

838
01:11:24,736 --> 01:11:27,489
Have you become friends with Lisa?

839
01:11:29,533 --> 01:11:31,160
Why? Is that bad?

840
01:11:31,410 --> 01:11:34,163
Does it feeI bad?
No.

841
01:11:34,872 --> 01:11:38,084
Before you came here, did you
have many girIfriends?

842
01:11:38,710 --> 01:11:40,211
Not reaIIy.

843
01:11:42,255 --> 01:11:46,218
WouId you say that before you came here,
your friends consisted mainIy...

844
01:11:46,427 --> 01:11:47,886
...of boys, of men?

845
01:11:49,430 --> 01:11:51,891
Does it say in there
that I'm promiscuous?

846
01:11:52,600 --> 01:11:54,602
Why do you choose that word?

847
01:11:54,811 --> 01:11:58,398
How many guys wouId I have to sIeep
with to be considered promiscuous?

848
01:11:58,607 --> 01:12:00,776
Textbook promiscuous?

849
01:12:01,360 --> 01:12:02,778
What do you think?

850
01:12:03,028 --> 01:12:06,365
Ten. Eight. Five.

851
01:12:07,158 --> 01:12:10,787
How many girIs wouId a guy have to sIeep
with to be considered promiscuous?

852
01:12:10,995 --> 01:12:12,956
Ten? 20? 109?

853
01:12:13,164 --> 01:12:15,125
Someone who's compuIsiveIy
promiscuous...

854
01:12:15,417 --> 01:12:18,754
...might engage in a sex act
with a guest in their room...

855
01:12:18,962 --> 01:12:24,093
...and then engage in another sex act
during the same day with an orderIy.

856
01:12:28,431 --> 01:12:33,270
Am I in troubIe for kissing an orderIy
or giving my boyfriend a bIowjob?

857
01:12:35,356 --> 01:12:37,233
MeIvin says...

858
01:12:37,441 --> 01:12:41,821
...you have some very interesting
theories about your iIIness.

859
01:12:42,030 --> 01:12:46,117
You beIieve there is
a mysticaI undertow in Iife.

860
01:12:46,326 --> 01:12:49,621
"Quicksands of shadows."

861
01:12:49,830 --> 01:12:54,001
Another one of my theories is that you
peopIe don't know what you're doing.

862
01:12:54,251 --> 01:12:57,171
You acknowIedge a probIem
coping with this quicksand.

863
01:12:57,463 --> 01:13:01,384
I have a probIem coping with this
hospitaI. I wanna Ieave.

864
01:13:03,428 --> 01:13:04,513
I can't do that.

865
01:13:04,763 --> 01:13:07,433
I signed myseIf in,
I can sign myseIf out.

866
01:13:07,683 --> 01:13:11,187
You signed yourseIf into our care.
We decide when you Ieave.

867
01:13:11,521 --> 01:13:13,356
You're not ready for it, Susanna.

868
01:13:13,856 --> 01:13:16,609
Your progress has pIateaued.

869
01:13:18,361 --> 01:13:20,364
Does that disappoint you?

870
01:13:20,864 --> 01:13:22,658
I'm ambivaIent.

871
01:13:23,325 --> 01:13:25,536
In fact, that's my new favourite word.

872
01:13:25,786 --> 01:13:28,331
Do you know what that means,
ambivaIence?

873
01:13:28,873 --> 01:13:30,041
I don't care.

874
01:13:30,291 --> 01:13:32,252
If it's your favourite word,
I wouId've...

875
01:13:32,502 --> 01:13:35,047
It means "I don't care."
That's what it means.

876
01:13:35,339 --> 01:13:37,883
On the contrary, Susanna.

877
01:13:38,133 --> 01:13:43,055
AmbivaIence suggests strong
feeIings in opposition.

878
01:13:43,306 --> 01:13:46,351
The prefix, as in ambidextrous...

879
01:13:46,559 --> 01:13:48,103
...means "both."

880
01:13:48,895 --> 01:13:52,357
The rest of it, in Latin,
means "vigour."

881
01:13:52,983 --> 01:13:55,861
The word suggests that you are torn...

882
01:13:56,570 --> 01:13:59,031
...between two opposing courses
of action.

883
01:14:02,744 --> 01:14:04,913
WiII I stay or wiII I go?

884
01:14:05,247 --> 01:14:08,584
Am I sane or am I crazy?

885
01:14:08,917 --> 01:14:10,627
Those aren't courses of action.

886
01:14:11,420 --> 01:14:15,091
They can be, dear, for some.

887
01:14:15,299 --> 01:14:17,385
WeII, then, it's the wrong word.

888
01:14:17,760 --> 01:14:18,928
No.

889
01:14:19,596 --> 01:14:21,306
I think it's perfect.

890
01:14:35,280 --> 01:14:38,033
"What worId is this?

891
01:14:38,575 --> 01:14:40,118
What kingdom?

892
01:14:41,411 --> 01:14:44,498
What shores of what worIds?"

893
01:14:44,790 --> 01:14:49,796
It's a very big question
you're faced with, Susanna.

894
01:14:50,463 --> 01:14:53,174
The choice of your Iife.

895
01:14:54,426 --> 01:14:57,679
How much wiII you induIge
in your fIaws?

896
01:14:58,973 --> 01:15:01,892
What are your fIaws?
Are they fIaws?

897
01:15:02,685 --> 01:15:07,816
If you embrace them, wiII you commit
yourseIf to hospitaI for Iife?

898
01:15:09,192 --> 01:15:12,905
Big questions, big decisions.

899
01:15:14,281 --> 01:15:18,327
Not surprising you profess
careIessness about them.

900
01:15:25,335 --> 01:15:26,878
Is that it?

901
01:15:28,839 --> 01:15:30,424
For now.

902
01:15:39,434 --> 01:15:41,686
This way, Susanna.

903
01:15:55,952 --> 01:15:58,455
John was moved to the men's ward.

904
01:16:00,040 --> 01:16:03,586
And Lisa never came back
from Dr. Wick's office.

905
01:16:31,617 --> 01:16:33,911
We live in a time of doubt.

906
01:16:35,120 --> 01:16:38,416
The institutions we once trusted
no longer seem reliable.

907
01:16:43,088 --> 01:16:46,466
Daisy sent us a postcard
aII about her new apartment.

908
01:16:47,050 --> 01:16:49,261
She got a pussycat.

909
01:16:50,137 --> 01:16:52,181
Where's Lisa?

910
01:16:53,224 --> 01:16:55,309
You know where she is.

911
01:16:56,644 --> 01:16:59,105
They just put her in another ward.

912
01:17:10,576 --> 01:17:13,246
I think you need to get up.

913
01:17:13,663 --> 01:17:17,459
I'm just gonna rest for a whiIe,
just a IittIe whiIe.

914
01:17:25,593 --> 01:17:26,511
What are you doing?

915
01:17:29,764 --> 01:17:31,016
Fuck!

916
01:17:33,769 --> 01:17:35,354
Sorry, too coId?

917
01:17:35,604 --> 01:17:39,441
What the fuck are you doing?
Get me the fuck out of this tub!

918
01:17:39,900 --> 01:17:41,068
Get yourseIf out.

919
01:17:41,777 --> 01:17:43,446
Where's Lisa?

920
01:17:44,530 --> 01:17:46,157
Where the fuck is Lisa?

921
01:17:46,825 --> 01:17:48,702
Can't hack it without her?

922
01:17:48,952 --> 01:17:53,165
You banish her for singing to PoIIy.
We were trying to heIp her!

923
01:17:53,832 --> 01:17:58,671
We were trying to heIp her! This pIace
is a fucking fascist torture chamber!

924
01:17:58,880 --> 01:18:00,089
No.

925
01:18:00,340 --> 01:18:04,177
I worked in state hospitaIs.
This pIace is a five.star hoteI.

926
01:18:06,304 --> 01:18:08,015
Oh, lordy, pick a bale of cotton

927
01:18:09,058 --> 01:18:13,771
You know, I can take a Iot of crazy
shit from a Iot of crazy peopIe...

928
01:18:13,980 --> 01:18:15,106
...but you?

929
01:18:15,481 --> 01:18:17,192
You are not crazy.

930
01:18:17,442 --> 01:18:19,194
Then what's wrong with me?

931
01:18:19,444 --> 01:18:22,364
What the fuck's going on
inside my head?

932
01:18:22,572 --> 01:18:25,200
TeII me Dr. VaI, what's
your diag.nonsense?

933
01:18:25,409 --> 01:18:29,455
You are a Iazy, seIf.induIgent
IittIe girI...

934
01:18:29,705 --> 01:18:32,542
...who is driving herseIf crazy.

935
01:18:35,503 --> 01:18:39,383
Is that your medicaI opinion? Huh?

936
01:18:39,633 --> 01:18:43,179
Is that what you've Iearned in your
studies at night schooI...

937
01:18:43,387 --> 01:18:45,598
...for Negro weIfare mothers?

938
01:18:46,432 --> 01:18:50,520
I mean, MeIvin doesn't have a cIue.
Wick is a psycho. And you...

939
01:18:50,729 --> 01:18:52,188
...pretend you're a doctor.

940
01:18:52,397 --> 01:18:56,735
You sign charts and doIe out meds, but
you's ain't no doctor, Miss VaIerie.

941
01:18:56,902 --> 01:19:00,030
You's ain't nothing
but a bIack nursemaid.

942
01:19:03,076 --> 01:19:05,411
And you're just throwing it away.

943
01:19:31,690 --> 01:19:33,776
You stiII wanna go to FIorida?

944
01:19:36,404 --> 01:19:39,282
Lisa, we need money, don't we?

945
01:19:39,532 --> 01:19:42,286
You've tongued your meds?
Yeah, but I onIy have...

946
01:19:42,536 --> 01:19:44,830
They gave me shocks again.

947
01:19:45,289 --> 01:19:47,082
Jamie, I have to get out of here.

948
01:19:49,752 --> 01:19:51,504
I'm Susanna.

949
01:19:52,630 --> 01:19:54,883
I'm Susanna.

950
01:20:13,820 --> 01:20:15,697
What are we doing?

951
01:20:18,617 --> 01:20:20,328
What is it?

952
01:20:21,662 --> 01:20:25,208
"Dear sir, pIease give
Daisy Randone assistance...

953
01:20:25,458 --> 01:20:29,045
...instaIIing a teIephone
at 23 Vicar Street."

954
01:20:29,296 --> 01:20:31,006
I thought we were going to FIorida!

955
01:20:31,215 --> 01:20:34,260
We just need a pIace to crash
tiII we get pIane tickets.

956
01:20:36,470 --> 01:20:37,847
Come on.

957
01:20:49,193 --> 01:20:50,945
Nice coat.

958
01:21:55,349 --> 01:21:56,642
What?

959
01:21:57,935 --> 01:22:00,313
You don't want me, Tony.

960
01:22:00,605 --> 01:22:02,524
Yes, I do, baby.

961
01:22:02,774 --> 01:22:05,444
No, you don't.
I'm a crazy girI.

962
01:22:05,694 --> 01:22:08,030
You're crazy, so we can't
have one night?

963
01:22:08,280 --> 01:22:11,409
I am a crazy girI. SeriousIy.

964
01:22:12,785 --> 01:22:15,622
You've been in a hospitaI?
Yes.

965
01:22:21,712 --> 01:22:23,380
Do you see purpIe peopIe?

966
01:22:25,090 --> 01:22:27,426
My friend, he saw purpIe peopIe.

967
01:22:27,927 --> 01:22:31,055
And so the state came
and took him away.

968
01:22:32,181 --> 01:22:33,975
He didn't Iike that.

969
01:22:34,184 --> 01:22:36,311
Some time went by...

970
01:22:36,770 --> 01:22:39,648
...and he toId them he didn't see
purpIe peopIe no more.

971
01:22:39,857 --> 01:22:41,275
He got better.

972
01:22:42,067 --> 01:22:44,946
No. He stiII sees them.

973
01:22:47,824 --> 01:22:48,658
We gotta spIit.

974
01:22:48,908 --> 01:22:50,535
Somebody stop her!

975
01:22:50,785 --> 01:22:53,205
She took my fucking waIIet!

976
01:23:03,883 --> 01:23:05,885
Identify yourseIf.

977
01:23:06,553 --> 01:23:08,805
It's Susanna and...

978
01:23:09,014 --> 01:23:11,934
It's Susanna. Daisy?

979
01:23:18,483 --> 01:23:19,651
You got VaIium?

980
01:23:36,002 --> 01:23:37,170
CooI pad.

981
01:23:39,381 --> 01:23:40,924
Peace, man, peace.

982
01:23:41,383 --> 01:23:43,510
I'm sorry for being a bitch.
I was a drag.

983
01:23:43,719 --> 01:23:45,304
That's for you.

984
01:23:54,522 --> 01:23:56,149
That's Ruby.

985
01:23:56,942 --> 01:23:58,861
My dad bought her for me.

986
01:24:01,030 --> 01:24:03,491
This is a Castro ConvertibIe.

987
01:24:04,325 --> 01:24:06,077
It puIIs out.
CooI.

988
01:24:06,828 --> 01:24:08,288
Where's your bathroom?
Right there.

989
01:24:12,501 --> 01:24:13,835
You don't have a tub.

990
01:24:14,044 --> 01:24:16,005
No, I don't.

991
01:24:17,006 --> 01:24:18,758
What about upstairs?
Nope.

992
01:24:21,469 --> 01:24:24,347
So, what, did you two
escape or what?

993
01:24:24,597 --> 01:24:27,225
ActuaIIy, we're going to FIorida.

994
01:24:27,476 --> 01:24:30,395
AII you have is mustard
and your chickens.

995
01:24:30,979 --> 01:24:34,400
So what are you girIs going
to do in FIorida?

996
01:24:35,776 --> 01:24:38,905
I'm gonna be CindereIIa at
WaIt Disney's new theme park.

997
01:24:39,572 --> 01:24:41,616
Susanna's gonna be Snow White.

998
01:24:42,117 --> 01:24:44,411
You can come if you want.

999
01:24:44,953 --> 01:24:47,831
You can be the cocker spanieI
that eats spaghetti.

1000
01:24:49,792 --> 01:24:51,127
I wanna make pancakes.

1001
01:24:51,460 --> 01:24:53,296
I'm tired.
I wanna go to bed.

1002
01:24:53,546 --> 01:24:55,798
I want to make pancakes
in the morning.

1003
01:24:56,049 --> 01:24:57,634
There's a market on the corner.

1004
01:24:58,093 --> 01:25:00,137
Pans are under the sink.

1005
01:25:00,387 --> 01:25:02,347
SiIver's in that drawer.

1006
01:25:05,810 --> 01:25:07,353
Do you have any money?

1007
01:25:08,771 --> 01:25:11,816
Do you have some sort
of a safety net down there?

1008
01:25:13,401 --> 01:25:16,154
PeopIe you know down there in FIorida?

1009
01:25:16,822 --> 01:25:18,323
ReIatives?

1010
01:25:19,241 --> 01:25:21,994
Friends? Anything?

1011
01:25:33,006 --> 01:25:35,175
This is for your pancakes.

1012
01:25:36,844 --> 01:25:39,347
Don't make a Iot of noise
in the morning.

1013
01:25:40,348 --> 01:25:42,517
I Iike to sIeep Iate.

1014
01:25:43,184 --> 01:25:45,395
I'II come down when I'm ready.

1015
01:26:14,761 --> 01:26:16,346
Give me the VaIium.

1016
01:26:17,514 --> 01:26:19,474
We don't need your daddy's money.

1017
01:26:20,016 --> 01:26:21,894
Then Ieave it there.

1018
01:26:22,394 --> 01:26:25,064
Just give me the fucking VaIium.

1019
01:26:30,904 --> 01:26:32,113
What's this?

1020
01:26:32,405 --> 01:26:33,573
What's this?
Let go.

1021
01:26:33,782 --> 01:26:36,743
Trying out your new siIver?
Get the fuck off me.

1022
01:26:37,452 --> 01:26:38,746
Less appeaIing for Daddy.

1023
01:26:40,122 --> 01:26:42,083
Look at your own arm, asshoIe.

1024
01:26:42,375 --> 01:26:44,418
I'm sick, Daisy. We know that.

1025
01:26:44,627 --> 01:26:48,590
But here you are in so.caIIed
recovery, cut up Iike a ham.

1026
01:26:48,798 --> 01:26:50,759
Just stop it, okay?

1027
01:26:52,094 --> 01:26:54,680
HeIp me understand.

1028
01:26:55,472 --> 01:26:58,851
I thought you didn't do VaIium.
TeII me how this works.

1029
01:26:59,977 --> 01:27:03,523
TeII me that you don't drag that bIade
across your skin...

1030
01:27:03,773 --> 01:27:07,444
...and pray for the courage
to press down.

1031
01:27:08,946 --> 01:27:13,033
TeII me how your daddy
heIps you cope with that.

1032
01:27:13,451 --> 01:27:15,328
IIIuminate me.

1033
01:27:17,955 --> 01:27:20,125
My father Ioves me.

1034
01:27:22,669 --> 01:27:23,920
I bet.

1035
01:27:24,171 --> 01:27:27,132
With every inch of his manhood.

1036
01:27:27,383 --> 01:27:29,301
Oh, God.

1037
01:27:33,556 --> 01:27:35,558
I'm going to sIeep now.

1038
01:27:44,902 --> 01:27:46,570
PIease be gone in the morning.

1039
01:27:49,991 --> 01:27:51,868
You're just jeaIous, Lisa...

1040
01:27:53,244 --> 01:27:55,163
...because I got better.

1041
01:27:56,164 --> 01:27:58,083
Because I was reIeased.

1042
01:27:59,168 --> 01:28:01,629
Because I have a chance.

1043
01:28:03,130 --> 01:28:04,799
And a Iife.

1044
01:28:06,718 --> 01:28:09,346
They didn't reIease you
because you're better.

1045
01:28:09,763 --> 01:28:11,431
They just gave up.

1046
01:28:12,641 --> 01:28:14,476
You caII this a Iife?

1047
01:28:14,727 --> 01:28:19,357
Taking Daddy's money? Buying your
doIIies and your knickknacks?

1048
01:28:19,565 --> 01:28:23,486
Eating his fucking chicken?
Fattening up Iike a prize heifer?

1049
01:28:24,446 --> 01:28:26,573
You changed the scenery,
but not the situation...

1050
01:28:26,782 --> 01:28:29,159
...and the warden makes house caIIs.

1051
01:28:29,368 --> 01:28:31,537
And everybody knows.

1052
01:28:32,037 --> 01:28:34,999
Everybody knows that he fucks you.

1053
01:28:36,459 --> 01:28:37,835
What they don't know...

1054
01:28:39,254 --> 01:28:40,672
...is that you Iike it.

1055
01:28:42,716 --> 01:28:45,302
You Iike it.
Shut the fuck up!

1056
01:28:45,511 --> 01:28:47,888
Man, it's cooI. It's okay.

1057
01:28:48,097 --> 01:28:49,390
It's fucking fine!

1058
01:28:49,640 --> 01:28:53,227
A man is a dick is a man
is a dick is a chicken...

1059
01:28:53,436 --> 01:28:54,812
...is a dad...

1060
01:28:55,021 --> 01:28:58,733
...a VaIium, a specuIum, whatever.

1061
01:28:59,025 --> 01:29:00,652
Whatever.

1062
01:29:01,904 --> 01:29:03,656
You Iike being Mrs. Randone.

1063
01:29:05,533 --> 01:29:07,535
ProbabIy aII you've ever known.

1064
01:29:10,955 --> 01:29:13,166
Have fun in FIorida.

1065
01:31:05,207 --> 01:31:06,833
Has she come down yet?

1066
01:31:07,542 --> 01:31:08,585
No.

1067
01:31:10,170 --> 01:31:13,215
But she's been pIaying
that shit aII morning!

1068
01:31:15,009 --> 01:31:18,847
Why does my heart go on beating?

1069
01:31:21,641 --> 01:31:25,687
Why do these eyes of mine cry?

1070
01:31:28,691 --> 01:31:31,360
Don't they know

1071
01:31:31,569 --> 01:31:35,031
lt's the end of the world

1072
01:31:35,240 --> 01:31:38,452
lt ended when you said

1073
01:31:39,620 --> 01:31:42,748
Goodbye

1074
01:32:32,428 --> 01:32:33,804
Daisy?

1075
01:32:53,243 --> 01:32:55,245
Oh, my God!

1076
01:33:07,175 --> 01:33:09,010
What an idiot.

1077
01:33:17,853 --> 01:33:21,691
Yes, I need an ambuIance.
Make it a hearse.

1078
01:33:23,067 --> 01:33:27,072
Daisy Randone. She kiIIed herseIf.

1079
01:33:29,282 --> 01:33:34,121
23 Vicar Street.
Yes. PIease hurry!

1080
01:33:45,592 --> 01:33:48,720
You pressed her buttons.
Now you're taking her money.

1081
01:33:50,347 --> 01:33:53,100
I didn't press shit.
She was waiting for an excuse.

1082
01:33:53,309 --> 01:33:54,769
Pack up.
We have to go.

1083
01:33:55,019 --> 01:33:57,272
AII right?
We have to go!

1084
01:33:57,480 --> 01:33:59,274
Now we have money.

1085
01:34:02,986 --> 01:34:05,114
Don't be stupid.

1086
01:34:08,659 --> 01:34:11,370
AII right, fine.
Be stupid.

1087
01:36:24,059 --> 01:36:27,729
We shouId send someone
for a Iitter box.

1088
01:36:57,846 --> 01:36:59,640
Can I pet the kitty?

1089
01:37:02,434 --> 01:37:04,061
Be carefuI.

1090
01:37:07,690 --> 01:37:10,610
HeIIo, puddy.cat.
Kitty!

1091
01:37:11,486 --> 01:37:13,613
You are so cute.

1092
01:37:25,794 --> 01:37:27,587
Checks.

1093
01:37:29,297 --> 01:37:31,133
Where's Georgina?

1094
01:37:32,009 --> 01:37:34,303
She's staying with PoIIy tonight.

1095
01:37:35,095 --> 01:37:37,348
They're pIaying with your cat.

1096
01:37:41,311 --> 01:37:43,313
Did they find Lisa?

1097
01:37:44,689 --> 01:37:45,732
No.

1098
01:38:04,503 --> 01:38:07,173
I couIdn't stand up to her.

1099
01:38:11,469 --> 01:38:14,889
A decent person wouId
have done something.

1100
01:38:17,309 --> 01:38:19,061
Shut her up.

1101
01:38:23,107 --> 01:38:25,192
Gone upstairs.

1102
01:38:25,902 --> 01:38:27,820
TaIked to Daisy.

1103
01:38:30,615 --> 01:38:33,034
MeIvin said you went upstairs.

1104
01:38:35,370 --> 01:38:36,997
Too Iate.

1105
01:38:39,458 --> 01:38:41,794
What wouId you have said to her?

1106
01:38:43,546 --> 01:38:45,340
I don't know.

1107
01:38:47,092 --> 01:38:49,094
That I was sorry.

1108
01:38:54,600 --> 01:38:57,562
That I'II never know what
it was Iike to be her.

1109
01:39:01,900 --> 01:39:05,779
But I know what it's Iike
to wanna die.

1110
01:39:09,909 --> 01:39:12,453
How it hurts to smiIe.

1111
01:39:14,414 --> 01:39:17,876
How you try to fit in,
but you can't.

1112
01:39:19,419 --> 01:39:22,714
How you hurt yourseIf
on the outside...

1113
01:39:22,923 --> 01:39:26,218
...to try to kiII the thing
on the inside.

1114
01:39:28,471 --> 01:39:33,309
Susanna, it's aII weII and good
to teII me aII this.

1115
01:39:34,311 --> 01:39:37,898
But you've got to teII
some of this to your doctors.

1116
01:39:44,238 --> 01:39:46,199
How am I supposed to recover...

1117
01:39:46,407 --> 01:39:49,285
...when I don't even
understand my disease?

1118
01:39:50,286 --> 01:39:52,664
But you do understand it.

1119
01:39:52,956 --> 01:39:56,502
You spoke very cIearIy
about it a second ago.

1120
01:39:57,336 --> 01:40:00,506
But I think what you've got
to do is put it down.

1121
01:40:00,756 --> 01:40:03,134
Put it away.
Put it in your notebook.

1122
01:40:03,343 --> 01:40:05,345
But get it out of yourseIf.

1123
01:40:06,054 --> 01:40:09,975
Away, so you can't
curI up with it anymore.

1124
01:40:16,941 --> 01:40:19,402
Lisa thinks it's a gift.

1125
01:40:22,197 --> 01:40:25,033
That it Iets you see the truth.

1126
01:40:28,245 --> 01:40:30,748
Lisa's been here for eight years.

1127
01:40:39,299 --> 01:40:41,510
I'm so sorry.

1128
01:40:41,969 --> 01:40:45,055
I was a pig.
It's aII right. Listen.

1129
01:40:47,642 --> 01:40:50,144
Do not drop anchor here.

1130
01:40:51,396 --> 01:40:52,355
Understand?

1131
01:41:05,787 --> 01:41:08,206
When you don't want to feel...

1132
01:41:09,124 --> 01:41:11,960
... death can seem like a dream.

1133
01:41:12,961 --> 01:41:15,714
But seeing death...

1134
01:41:16,340 --> 01:41:18,342
...really seeing it...

1135
01:41:18,718 --> 01:41:22,805
...makes dreaming about it
fucking ridiculous.

1136
01:41:23,681 --> 01:41:27,561
Maybe there's a moment,
growing up...

1137
01:41:27,811 --> 01:41:29,897
... when something peels back.

1138
01:41:30,314 --> 01:41:34,693
Maybe we look for secrets because
we can't believe our minds.

1139
01:41:34,902 --> 01:41:38,865
Though l missed Lisa,
life was easier without her.

1140
01:41:39,073 --> 01:41:41,409
A thought is a hard thing
to control.

1141
01:41:43,411 --> 01:41:45,622
All l know is that
l began to feel again.

1142
01:41:45,872 --> 01:41:47,082
Crazy? Sane?

1143
01:41:47,249 --> 01:41:51,921
Whatever l was, l knew there was
only one way back to the world...

1144
01:41:52,171 --> 01:41:54,632
...and that was to use the place...

1145
01:41:54,924 --> 01:41:56,384
... to talk.

1146
01:41:57,093 --> 01:42:01,014
So l saw the great and wonderful
Dr. Wick three times a week...

1147
01:42:01,223 --> 01:42:04,226
...and l let her hear
every thought in my head.

1148
01:42:08,105 --> 01:42:11,943
Do you think maybe I have ESP
or something, that I'm gifted?

1149
01:42:12,944 --> 01:42:14,446
Perhaps.

1150
01:42:26,709 --> 01:42:29,587
You think I can be home
by Thanksgiving?

1151
01:42:33,467 --> 01:42:36,178
Nothing's happened
in weeks, you know.

1152
01:42:36,971 --> 01:42:39,640
The point is controI.

1153
01:42:39,890 --> 01:42:43,978
Yeah, and here I am,
in controI, off meds...

1154
01:42:44,270 --> 01:42:47,482
...no headaches, sIeeping sound.

1155
01:42:55,908 --> 01:42:58,161
Oh, will you help me?
Can you help me?

1156
01:42:58,369 --> 01:43:00,330
You don't need to be helped
any longer.

1157
01:43:00,497 --> 01:43:02,833
You've always had the power
to go back to Kansas.

1158
01:43:03,667 --> 01:43:04,626
l have?

1159
01:43:04,835 --> 01:43:06,378
Then why didn't you tell her before?

1160
01:43:06,628 --> 01:43:08,923
Because she wouldn't have
believed me.

1161
01:43:09,173 --> 01:43:10,675
She had to learn it for herself.

1162
01:43:10,841 --> 01:43:12,927
What have you learned, Dorothy?

1163
01:43:17,682 --> 01:43:19,309
l think that it...

1164
01:43:19,518 --> 01:43:23,522
... that it wasn't enough just to want
to see Uncle Henry and Auntie Em...

1165
01:43:25,191 --> 01:43:28,402
...and if l ever go looking
for my heart's desire again...

1166
01:43:28,653 --> 01:43:31,865
...l won't look any further
than my own back yard.

1167
01:43:32,157 --> 01:43:34,534
Because if it isn't there...

1168
01:43:34,743 --> 01:43:38,038
...l never really lost it
to begin with.

1169
01:43:39,039 --> 01:43:41,459
-ls that right?
-That's all it is.

1170
01:44:02,857 --> 01:44:04,401
Thanks, Joe.

1171
01:45:06,135 --> 01:45:10,765
Go away. Go away!

1172
01:45:16,522 --> 01:45:18,024
It's me.

1173
01:45:33,124 --> 01:45:35,543
It's been a whiIe...

1174
01:45:36,836 --> 01:45:39,714
...and I just wanted to say hey.

1175
01:45:43,635 --> 01:45:45,345
You okay?

1176
01:45:46,638 --> 01:45:48,474
FabuIous.

1177
01:45:51,477 --> 01:45:54,272
You're gonna be Iate.
Gretta's waiting for you.

1178
01:45:58,652 --> 01:46:02,030
I gotta go. Dr. Wick.

1179
01:46:04,408 --> 01:46:06,410
They stiII fucking with you?

1180
01:46:10,039 --> 01:46:11,332
They're...

1181
01:46:13,543 --> 01:46:16,213
ActuaIIy, they're Ietting me out.

1182
01:46:20,050 --> 01:46:21,844
Oh, that's great.

1183
01:46:25,056 --> 01:46:26,850
You better go.

1184
01:46:44,160 --> 01:46:47,748
WeII, my dad got me a job,
a part.time job...

1185
01:46:47,956 --> 01:46:50,250
...at a bookstore in Harvard Square.

1186
01:46:51,418 --> 01:46:54,255
And I got an apartment
with a phone so I can...

1187
01:46:54,505 --> 01:46:55,715
Stay in touch.

1188
01:46:57,467 --> 01:47:01,179
And I'II be seeing Sonia
twice a week.

1189
01:47:01,429 --> 01:47:05,267
Is that your Iong.term pIan?
To work in retaiI?

1190
01:47:09,063 --> 01:47:11,440
My pIan? No.

1191
01:47:11,983 --> 01:47:13,943
Then what do you pIan to do?

1192
01:47:16,988 --> 01:47:18,532
I pIan to write.

1193
01:47:26,332 --> 01:47:28,042
Polly Clark.

1194
01:47:29,085 --> 01:47:31,087
Cynthia CrowIey.

1195
01:47:34,466 --> 01:47:36,635
Susanna Kaysen.

1196
01:47:38,971 --> 01:47:41,766
I don't think I need...
SIeeping piIIs, darIing.

1197
01:47:41,974 --> 01:47:45,436
You want to be rested for tomorrow.
Last night's a Iong one.

1198
01:47:45,770 --> 01:47:48,231
Good girI. Katie Cooper.

1199
01:47:50,650 --> 01:47:52,152
Rosemary Jones.

1200
01:47:54,655 --> 01:47:56,949
Teresa McCuIIian.

1201
01:49:21,876 --> 01:49:23,253
Ruby?

1202
01:50:04,215 --> 01:50:07,593
"If I spread my fingers out,
my hand Iooked more human.

1203
01:50:07,844 --> 01:50:09,345
So I did that.

1204
01:50:09,637 --> 01:50:13,642
But it wasn't tiring hoIding my
fingers apart, so I Iet them reIax...

1205
01:50:13,892 --> 01:50:15,811
...and then, I turned my hand over.

1206
01:50:16,186 --> 01:50:17,855
The back wasn't much better.

1207
01:50:18,147 --> 01:50:20,399
My veins buIged."

1208
01:50:24,862 --> 01:50:27,490
Shut up, I'm reading.
Shut up!

1209
01:50:29,659 --> 01:50:33,539
"I can honestIy say that my memory
has been transformed...

1210
01:50:34,581 --> 01:50:37,460
By Freud's definition,
I've achieved mentaI heaIth.

1211
01:50:37,919 --> 01:50:40,421
And my discharge sheet
reads, 'recovered.'

1212
01:50:41,256 --> 01:50:42,715
Recovered."

1213
01:50:45,594 --> 01:50:47,512
Don't do this!

1214
01:50:48,347 --> 01:50:49,848
"Whatever it was..."

1215
01:50:55,688 --> 01:50:58,650
"Had I stopped arguing
with my personaIity?

1216
01:51:00,151 --> 01:51:01,361
Recovered."

1217
01:51:03,238 --> 01:51:06,992
We were reading your book.
We're having a IittIe read.aIoud...

1218
01:51:07,201 --> 01:51:10,037
...ceIebrate the wisdom you're
taking into the worId.

1219
01:51:10,246 --> 01:51:12,624
Try to Iearn something,
grow as peopIe.

1220
01:51:14,000 --> 01:51:16,962
When you were a baby,
they strapped you to a board.

1221
01:51:17,587 --> 01:51:19,756
You think Georgina doesn't
wanna Ieave...

1222
01:51:20,007 --> 01:51:21,550
...and I'm criminaIIy insane.

1223
01:51:21,884 --> 01:51:24,303
What are you guys doing here?

1224
01:51:24,553 --> 01:51:28,599
"Lisa's eyes, once so magnetic,
now just Iook empty."

1225
01:51:30,727 --> 01:51:32,687
That is mine.

1226
01:51:33,230 --> 01:51:35,065
That is mine.

1227
01:51:36,984 --> 01:51:39,737
"Georgina Iies onIy to peopIe
who keep her here.

1228
01:51:39,945 --> 01:51:42,532
Sometimes I think she wants
to Iive in Oz forever."

1229
01:51:42,782 --> 01:51:46,202
How perceptive.
You better erase that thing.

1230
01:51:46,745 --> 01:51:51,083
My father is the head of the CIA,
and he couId have you dead in minutes!

1231
01:51:51,291 --> 01:51:52,960
"In this worId, Iooks are everything.

1232
01:51:53,168 --> 01:51:57,089
Sometimes I think PoIIy's sweetness
and purity aren't genuine at aII...

1233
01:51:57,340 --> 01:52:00,468
...but a desperate attempt to make it
easier for us to Iook at her."

1234
01:52:01,010 --> 01:52:04,097
So nice of you to pass judgment on us
now that you're cured.

1235
01:52:04,639 --> 01:52:06,725
What the fuck are you doing, Lisa?

1236
01:52:07,392 --> 01:52:09,603
I'm pIaying the viIIain,
Iike you want.

1237
01:52:09,895 --> 01:52:12,356
I give you everything you want.
No, you don't.

1238
01:52:14,066 --> 01:52:15,443
You wanted your fiIe?
I got it!

1239
01:52:15,651 --> 01:52:19,197
You wanted out, I got you out!
You needed money, I found you some!

1240
01:52:19,447 --> 01:52:22,451
I toId you the truth!
I didn't write it in a book!

1241
01:52:22,701 --> 01:52:24,787
I toId you to your face!

1242
01:52:25,037 --> 01:52:29,208
I toId Daisy what everybody knew and
wouIdn't say, and she kiIIed herseIf.

1243
01:52:29,417 --> 01:52:31,085
I pIayed the fucking viIIain.

1244
01:52:31,335 --> 01:52:32,420
Just Iike you wanted.

1245
01:52:32,670 --> 01:52:34,130
Why wouId I want that?

1246
01:52:35,757 --> 01:52:38,093
Because it makes you
the good guy, sweet pea.

1247
01:52:38,301 --> 01:52:42,473
You come back here, aII sweetness
and Iight and sad and contrite...

1248
01:52:42,681 --> 01:52:47,478
...and everybody wrings their hands,
congratuIating you on your bravery.

1249
01:52:47,979 --> 01:52:52,442
MeanwhiIe, I'm bIowing guys at the
bus station for money!

1250
01:52:53,068 --> 01:52:54,569
Stop it, Lisa. She's too...

1251
01:52:54,820 --> 01:52:56,071
Shut up, PoIIy!

1252
01:52:58,407 --> 01:52:59,617
Where are you going?

1253
01:53:00,451 --> 01:53:01,953
I'm taIking to you!

1254
01:53:06,583 --> 01:53:09,503
Where are you going?
I'm taIking to you!

1255
01:53:14,008 --> 01:53:15,593
You don't Iike me anymore?

1256
01:53:15,843 --> 01:53:17,720
No, I don't!

1257
01:53:19,180 --> 01:53:21,015
Because you're free?

1258
01:53:21,307 --> 01:53:22,851
You think you're free?

1259
01:53:23,685 --> 01:53:24,978
I'm free!

1260
01:53:25,479 --> 01:53:28,148
You don't know what freedom is!

1261
01:53:28,941 --> 01:53:30,359
I'm free!

1262
01:53:30,860 --> 01:53:33,362
I can breathe! And you...

1263
01:53:33,613 --> 01:53:36,699
...you'II go choke on your
average fucking mediocre Iife!

1264
01:53:49,463 --> 01:53:51,382
There are too many buttons
in the worId.

1265
01:53:51,632 --> 01:53:53,718
Too many buttons,
and they're just...

1266
01:53:55,553 --> 01:53:58,015
There's way too many,
begging to be pressed.

1267
01:53:58,307 --> 01:54:00,184
They're just begging to be pressed!

1268
01:54:00,392 --> 01:54:02,937
You know, they're just
begging to be pressed.

1269
01:54:03,729 --> 01:54:05,690
And it makes me wonder.

1270
01:54:06,149 --> 01:54:09,819
It makes me fucking wonder.
Why doesn't anybody ever press mine?

1271
01:54:10,070 --> 01:54:11,488
Why am I so negIected?

1272
01:54:11,738 --> 01:54:14,908
Why doesn't anybody reach in
and rip out the truth...

1273
01:54:15,075 --> 01:54:17,453
...and teII me
that I'm a fucking whore...

1274
01:54:17,828 --> 01:54:19,914
...and that my parents
wish I were dead?

1275
01:54:20,414 --> 01:54:23,209
Because you're dead aIready, Lisa!

1276
01:54:30,050 --> 01:54:32,428
No one cares if you die, Lisa...

1277
01:54:33,887 --> 01:54:36,474
...because you're dead aIready.

1278
01:54:37,225 --> 01:54:41,104
Your heart is coId!

1279
01:54:43,315 --> 01:54:45,609
That's why you keep
coming back here.

1280
01:54:47,444 --> 01:54:49,446
You're not free.

1281
01:54:50,239 --> 01:54:53,659
You need this pIace.
You need it to feeI aIive.

1282
01:54:54,243 --> 01:54:55,203
It's pathetic.

1283
01:55:36,999 --> 01:55:39,877
I've wasted a year of my Iife.

1284
01:55:45,383 --> 01:55:48,678
And maybe everyone
out there is a Iiar.

1285
01:55:51,932 --> 01:55:55,102
And maybe the whoIe worId...

1286
01:55:55,352 --> 01:55:58,856
...is stupid and ignorant.

1287
01:56:01,693 --> 01:56:04,070
But I'd rather be in it.

1288
01:56:06,031 --> 01:56:09,827
I'd rather be fucking in it...

1289
01:56:10,077 --> 01:56:12,622
...than down here with you.

1290
01:56:31,267 --> 01:56:33,812
Don't. Don't.

1291
01:56:35,230 --> 01:56:36,606
Don't.

1292
01:56:47,410 --> 01:56:48,953
Oh, God.

1293
01:57:33,961 --> 01:57:34,963
Did you get it?

1294
01:57:38,425 --> 01:57:41,553
I had to trade with a transvestite
in the men's ward.

1295
01:57:44,640 --> 01:57:46,058
Thanks.

1296
01:58:45,082 --> 01:58:46,959
I'm not reaIIy dead.

1297
01:58:53,508 --> 01:58:55,051
I know.

1298
01:58:59,556 --> 01:59:02,059
I'm gonna miss you, Susie Q.

1299
01:59:04,561 --> 01:59:07,898
No, you're not.
You're gonna get out of here...

1300
01:59:08,149 --> 01:59:10,526
...and you're gonna come and see me.

1301
01:59:33,719 --> 01:59:35,554
Hey, Georgina.

1302
01:59:35,763 --> 01:59:38,641
You know aII that stuff
I write in my journaI...

1303
01:59:38,933 --> 01:59:40,977
...I don't know what I'm saying.

1304
01:59:41,894 --> 01:59:44,939
They're just thoughts.

1305
01:59:45,607 --> 01:59:47,609
Maybe I'm the Iiar.

1306
01:59:49,444 --> 01:59:51,196
Maybe not.

1307
01:59:59,789 --> 02:00:01,166
See you.

1308
02:00:12,136 --> 02:00:16,641
You think if I Ieft Ruby here
you'd take care of her for me?

1309
02:00:17,142 --> 02:00:20,562
Let me pIay with her
when I come for my therapy?

1310
02:00:31,616 --> 02:00:32,992
Bye, Ruby.

1311
02:00:54,558 --> 02:00:56,852
Remember me when you shave your Iegs.

1312
02:01:27,302 --> 02:01:29,472
Declared healthy...

1313
02:01:29,722 --> 02:01:32,642
...and sent back into the world.

1314
02:01:32,975 --> 02:01:35,478
My final diagnosis.:

1315
02:01:35,895 --> 02:01:38,356
A recovered borderline.

1316
02:01:39,441 --> 02:01:42,236
What that means, l still don't know.

1317
02:01:43,445 --> 02:01:45,448
Was l ever crazy?

1318
02:01:45,740 --> 02:01:48,284
-Maybe.

1319
02:01:49,077 --> 02:01:51,538
Or maybe life is.

1320
02:01:53,248 --> 02:01:54,958
I remember you.

1321
02:01:57,336 --> 02:01:58,796
Where are you going?

1322
02:01:59,797 --> 02:02:02,091
17 BurIingame.

1323
02:02:02,299 --> 02:02:03,551
AII right.

1324
02:02:04,844 --> 02:02:07,680
Crazy isn't being broken...

1325
02:02:07,972 --> 02:02:11,184
... or swallowing a dark secret.

1326
02:02:11,685 --> 02:02:13,770
lt's you or me...

1327
02:02:14,021 --> 02:02:16,106
...amplified.

1328
02:02:16,774 --> 02:02:19,360
lf you ever told a lie...

1329
02:02:19,610 --> 02:02:21,529
...and enjoyed it.

1330
02:02:23,031 --> 02:02:27,327
lf you ever wished you
could be a child forever.

1331
02:02:28,662 --> 02:02:30,914
They were not perfect...

1332
02:02:31,373 --> 02:02:33,667
...but they were my friends.

1333
02:02:35,044 --> 02:02:37,296
And by the '7 0s...

1334
02:02:37,505 --> 02:02:39,382
...most of them were out...

1335
02:02:39,632 --> 02:02:41,635
... living lives.

1336
02:02:42,385 --> 02:02:44,471
Some l've seen...

1337
02:02:45,681 --> 02:02:48,225
...some, never again.

1338
02:02:49,560 --> 02:02:53,022
But there isn't a day my heart
doesn't find them.