1 00:00:09,837 --> 00:00:11,218 [dog barks] 2 00:00:20,468 --> 00:00:24,058 -Hoffs' got half the department standing by. 3 00:00:24,093 --> 00:00:27,061 -What do we need so much backup for anyhow? 4 00:00:27,096 --> 00:00:28,959 -Because the last time they almost had him, 5 00:00:28,994 --> 00:00:31,410 they chased him through six blocks of backyards. 6 00:00:31,445 --> 00:00:33,792 He knows the neighborhood. 7 00:00:33,826 --> 00:00:36,933 -I'm a little tired standing in these bushes. 8 00:00:36,967 --> 00:00:38,141 -We know the house is empty. 9 00:00:38,176 --> 00:00:40,626 The whole school knows the house is empty. 10 00:00:40,661 --> 00:00:42,007 Empty houses are being robbed. 11 00:00:42,042 --> 00:00:45,321 We're staying in the bushes. 12 00:00:45,355 --> 00:00:47,357 -Wouldn't you rather be working on a real case? 13 00:00:47,392 --> 00:00:48,738 -This is a real case. 14 00:00:48,772 --> 00:00:52,259 20 houses, three weeks, $14,000. 15 00:00:52,293 --> 00:00:53,329 [tires screech] 16 00:00:53,363 --> 00:00:54,123 This kid's amazing. 17 00:01:02,717 --> 00:01:04,650 [clatter] 18 00:01:08,654 --> 00:01:11,105 -I'm amazed. 19 00:01:11,140 --> 00:01:12,555 [dog barks] 20 00:01:19,527 --> 00:01:22,047 Who is it? 21 00:01:22,082 --> 00:01:23,359 HANSON: It's Walker Stevenson. 22 00:01:23,393 --> 00:01:24,463 PENHALL: Walker? 23 00:01:24,498 --> 00:01:25,706 I like Walker. 24 00:01:25,740 --> 00:01:27,017 He's in my Bio class. 25 00:01:29,744 --> 00:01:31,643 [glass shatters] 26 00:01:31,677 --> 00:01:34,094 -Uh, I don't remember this being part of the MO, isn't it? 27 00:01:34,128 --> 00:01:36,268 He's supposed to be wearing some sort of black outfit 28 00:01:36,303 --> 00:01:38,167 and slithering under the window? 29 00:01:38,201 --> 00:01:39,582 [clatters] 30 00:01:43,310 --> 00:01:46,554 This guy's the worst burglar I've ever seen. 31 00:01:46,589 --> 00:01:48,556 He's drunk-- 32 00:01:48,591 --> 00:01:49,385 HANSON: --hammered-- 33 00:01:49,419 --> 00:01:50,144 PENHALL: --pickled-- 34 00:01:50,179 --> 00:01:51,145 HANSON: --to the gills. 35 00:01:55,839 --> 00:01:57,255 [rock music blares] 36 00:01:57,289 --> 00:01:58,739 I think this is our man. 37 00:01:58,773 --> 00:01:59,222 -No. 38 00:02:02,225 --> 00:02:06,056 I don't think this man is a cat burglar. 39 00:02:06,091 --> 00:02:07,679 And somehow, I don't think the man 40 00:02:07,713 --> 00:02:10,268 that we're waiting for is going to come by now. 41 00:02:10,302 --> 00:02:10,820 HANSON: Yeah. 42 00:02:13,823 --> 00:02:15,238 -Are we blowing? 43 00:02:15,273 --> 00:02:18,207 -We're blowing. 44 00:02:18,241 --> 00:02:20,209 Iok, we got an unexpected guest. 45 00:02:20,243 --> 00:02:21,244 He's yours. 46 00:02:21,279 --> 00:02:23,108 It's too bad, I kind of liked Walker. 47 00:02:23,143 --> 00:02:24,005 -Yeah, me too. 48 00:02:24,040 --> 00:02:26,629 He's in my Bio class. 49 00:02:26,663 --> 00:02:27,630 -Let's go. 50 00:02:35,500 --> 00:02:36,363 IOKI: Take him in. 51 00:02:36,397 --> 00:02:36,984 -Let go off me! 52 00:02:37,018 --> 00:02:37,605 Let me go! 53 00:02:37,640 --> 00:02:38,434 Let me go! 54 00:02:38,468 --> 00:02:39,020 You're going to ruin everything! 55 00:02:39,055 --> 00:02:39,849 -Settle down. 56 00:02:39,883 --> 00:02:40,401 -Let me go! 57 00:02:40,436 --> 00:02:41,816 Let, ugh, ugh. 58 00:02:41,851 --> 00:02:42,817 -You're under arrest! 59 00:02:42,852 --> 00:02:44,267 -[grunts] 60 00:02:44,302 --> 00:02:44,785 Ugh! 61 00:02:44,819 --> 00:02:47,201 Ugh. 62 00:02:47,236 --> 00:02:48,720 -Hey, enough out of you! 63 00:03:05,115 --> 00:03:06,772 -All right, you have a party. 64 00:03:06,807 --> 00:03:08,602 From what I heard, you're not a great party. 65 00:03:08,636 --> 00:03:09,568 A party of one. 66 00:03:09,603 --> 00:03:12,053 But he doesn't invite his buddies? 67 00:03:12,088 --> 00:03:14,228 This hurts. 68 00:03:14,263 --> 00:03:17,266 -Flake off, Isley. 69 00:03:17,300 --> 00:03:19,095 -Diana, your brother's being mean to me. 70 00:03:19,129 --> 00:03:20,165 -Will you leave him alone? 71 00:03:20,200 --> 00:03:21,718 He spent the night in jail. 72 00:03:21,753 --> 00:03:24,238 -That is what prison can do to a man. 73 00:03:24,273 --> 00:03:28,104 Just uses up all the good inside him. 74 00:03:28,138 --> 00:03:31,832 -You can all drop dead. 75 00:03:31,866 --> 00:03:33,178 -I don't know. 76 00:03:33,213 --> 00:03:35,284 I don't think anybody here strikes me as the cat burglar 77 00:03:35,318 --> 00:03:37,320 type, you know? 78 00:03:37,355 --> 00:03:39,184 -I still think we've been set up. 79 00:03:39,219 --> 00:03:40,703 -Are you kidding? 80 00:03:40,737 --> 00:03:44,776 Been at this school for three weeks, staking out houses. 81 00:03:44,810 --> 00:03:48,711 This kid, he just stumbles in and messes up the whole thing. 82 00:03:48,745 --> 00:03:49,712 Walker is whack. 83 00:03:49,746 --> 00:03:50,713 He ain't no cat burglar. 84 00:03:54,855 --> 00:03:55,683 -Yo, Higgins. 85 00:03:55,718 --> 00:03:56,201 -Hey, guys. 86 00:03:56,236 --> 00:03:56,684 -Hey. 87 00:03:56,719 --> 00:03:57,513 -Hey, man. 88 00:03:57,547 --> 00:03:58,617 -Walker, how are you doing? 89 00:04:01,724 --> 00:04:03,208 Look, I've been to jail three times. 90 00:04:03,243 --> 00:04:03,898 It's no big deal. 91 00:04:06,936 --> 00:04:09,421 -Who the hell told you anyhow? 92 00:04:09,456 --> 00:04:11,941 -It's common knowledge. 93 00:04:11,975 --> 00:04:14,426 Look, the worst you're going to get is six months probation, 94 00:04:14,461 --> 00:04:15,772 maybe some family counseling. 95 00:04:15,807 --> 00:04:18,637 It's nothing. 96 00:04:18,672 --> 00:04:22,123 What the hell were you doing there? 97 00:04:22,158 --> 00:04:23,711 -It's nothing. 98 00:04:23,746 --> 00:04:26,542 Nothing! 99 00:04:26,576 --> 00:04:28,026 You don't get it. 100 00:04:28,060 --> 00:04:30,373 I'm totally screwed, no matter what I do. 101 00:04:33,652 --> 00:04:35,654 -I didn't mean to ruin his lunch. 102 00:04:35,689 --> 00:04:37,553 -Oh, you can't ruin his lunch. 103 00:04:37,587 --> 00:04:39,002 -[chuckles] 104 00:04:39,037 --> 00:04:40,521 -He won't even talk to me. 105 00:04:40,556 --> 00:04:43,524 He's-- well, things are really bad for him right now. 106 00:04:43,559 --> 00:04:44,939 -Yeah, no kidding. 107 00:04:44,974 --> 00:04:47,252 -Yeah, no kidding. 108 00:04:47,287 --> 00:04:49,323 -You really been to jail? 109 00:04:49,358 --> 00:04:50,359 -Yeah. 110 00:04:50,393 --> 00:04:51,808 -You didn't bring us anything? 111 00:04:51,843 --> 00:04:53,707 An ashtray, a T-shirt, or license plate? 112 00:04:53,741 --> 00:04:56,606 Just what kind are you? 113 00:04:56,641 --> 00:04:58,332 -Well, maybe the next time I go to jail, 114 00:04:58,367 --> 00:04:59,333 you guys can go with me. 115 00:05:02,025 --> 00:05:03,993 -We're going about this all wrong. 116 00:05:04,027 --> 00:05:05,926 Maybe we should check class schedules. 117 00:05:05,960 --> 00:05:06,996 -Huh? 118 00:05:07,030 --> 00:05:08,238 -Well, maybe while we're in, uh, English, 119 00:05:08,273 --> 00:05:10,862 and while he's in Cat Burglary 101. 120 00:05:10,896 --> 00:05:11,483 -Maybe. 121 00:05:11,518 --> 00:05:13,313 -Fuller on line 3. 122 00:05:13,347 --> 00:05:14,900 You, uh, better talk to him. 123 00:05:18,801 --> 00:05:19,526 -Hanson. 124 00:05:19,560 --> 00:05:21,597 -Hey, Captain, what's up? 125 00:05:21,631 --> 00:05:25,186 -Walker Stevenson, the kid who stumbled into your stakeout? 126 00:05:25,221 --> 00:05:26,464 -Yeah? 127 00:05:26,498 --> 00:05:28,258 -They just found him in his living room. 128 00:05:28,293 --> 00:05:30,053 There was a hunting rifle between his knees 129 00:05:30,088 --> 00:05:33,712 and a note on the table. 130 00:05:33,747 --> 00:05:34,782 He killed himself. 131 00:05:58,427 --> 00:06:00,394 THEME SONG: We never thought of finding 132 00:06:00,429 --> 00:06:03,466 a place where we belong. 133 00:06:03,501 --> 00:06:08,920 Don't have to stand alone, we'll never let you fall. 134 00:06:08,954 --> 00:06:15,409 Don't need permission to decide what you believe. 135 00:06:15,444 --> 00:06:15,892 Ooh! 136 00:06:15,927 --> 00:06:17,860 Say, jump! 137 00:06:17,894 --> 00:06:20,828 Down on Jump Street. 138 00:06:20,863 --> 00:06:23,348 Say, jump! 139 00:06:23,383 --> 00:06:26,800 Down on Jump Street. 140 00:06:26,834 --> 00:06:31,736 Your friends will be there when your back is to the wall. 141 00:06:31,770 --> 00:06:35,222 You'll find you'll need us 'cause there's no one else 142 00:06:35,256 --> 00:06:37,224 to call. 143 00:06:37,258 --> 00:06:41,677 When it is hopeless, a decision is what you'll need. 144 00:06:41,711 --> 00:06:45,612 You better get ready to-- be ready to jump! 145 00:06:45,646 --> 00:06:48,131 "21 Jump Street"! 146 00:06:54,172 --> 00:06:55,794 -It's not the way it works, Peter. 147 00:06:55,829 --> 00:06:56,726 -What do you mean? 148 00:06:56,761 --> 00:06:57,796 Why not? 149 00:06:57,831 --> 00:07:00,489 The flag should be lowered to half-mast. 150 00:07:00,523 --> 00:07:01,904 -I'm sorry, Peter. 151 00:07:01,938 --> 00:07:03,215 -[sighs] 152 00:07:03,250 --> 00:07:03,975 I don't get it. 153 00:07:04,009 --> 00:07:04,769 -That's for heroes. 154 00:07:07,910 --> 00:07:11,534 COUNSELOR: What do you do about death? 155 00:07:11,569 --> 00:07:14,606 What do you do when a friend takes his own life. 156 00:07:14,641 --> 00:07:15,952 -Start by leaving the flag up. 157 00:07:15,987 --> 00:07:18,921 That's the first part. 158 00:07:18,955 --> 00:07:22,511 -No matter what you may have known about Walker Stevenson, 159 00:07:22,545 --> 00:07:25,514 you cannot hold yourself responsible for what happened. 160 00:07:25,548 --> 00:07:26,860 -You see? 161 00:07:26,894 --> 00:07:31,623 Walker is responsible for making me sit through this crap. 162 00:07:31,658 --> 00:07:37,698 -5,000 young people will commit suicide this year. 163 00:07:37,733 --> 00:07:39,493 Half a million will try. 164 00:07:39,528 --> 00:07:43,083 Half a million. 165 00:07:43,117 --> 00:07:45,361 Some of you in this room have tried, will try again. 166 00:07:45,395 --> 00:07:46,776 I hope to God you fail. 167 00:07:49,607 --> 00:07:52,437 Very few people really want to die. 168 00:07:52,472 --> 00:07:55,095 They're the exceptions. 169 00:07:55,129 --> 00:07:56,476 Most want help. 170 00:07:56,510 --> 00:08:00,169 They're faced with problems they don't know how to solve. 171 00:08:00,203 --> 00:08:02,965 It's not like your friend was hit by a car. 172 00:08:02,999 --> 00:08:05,208 I mean, he made this decision. 173 00:08:08,384 --> 00:08:10,973 Now, maybe you feel like, uh, like he told you 174 00:08:11,007 --> 00:08:13,147 all you weren't good enough, and left. 175 00:08:13,182 --> 00:08:15,529 Maybe you're pissed off. 176 00:08:15,564 --> 00:08:17,117 You know, the English, 100 years ago, 177 00:08:17,151 --> 00:08:20,396 had laws dealing with suicides. 178 00:08:20,430 --> 00:08:22,916 The body was dragged through the street, 179 00:08:22,950 --> 00:08:26,954 naked, and buried at a crossroads with a stake 180 00:08:26,989 --> 00:08:28,715 through its heart. 181 00:08:28,749 --> 00:08:30,889 How dare someone reject life. 182 00:08:30,924 --> 00:08:31,407 -Yeah. 183 00:08:31,441 --> 00:08:32,615 -Yeah. 184 00:08:32,650 --> 00:08:37,758 -It's OK to talk about it. 185 00:08:37,793 --> 00:08:40,450 It's OK to be pissed off. 186 00:08:40,485 --> 00:08:42,556 It's OK to be mad! 187 00:08:45,973 --> 00:08:46,905 And you know what? 188 00:08:50,806 --> 00:08:55,120 It's OK to mourn for your friend. 189 00:08:58,848 --> 00:09:01,920 Look, I'm going to be around for the next couple of days 190 00:09:01,955 --> 00:09:05,545 to talk to anyone who wants to talk to me. 191 00:09:05,579 --> 00:09:07,719 -Why does a 16-year-old kid kill himself? 192 00:09:07,754 --> 00:09:09,652 What could be so wrong at 16? 193 00:09:15,244 --> 00:09:18,178 -There's not some easy answer I can give you. 194 00:09:18,212 --> 00:09:19,662 -I'm not looking for an easy answer. 195 00:09:23,632 --> 00:09:25,806 I keep thinking that I'm the one who pushed him over. 196 00:09:30,777 --> 00:09:31,916 -Do you really believe that? 197 00:09:37,059 --> 00:09:37,991 -[sighs] 198 00:09:41,822 --> 00:09:43,513 -What is it you want me to say, Tom? 199 00:09:43,548 --> 00:09:45,585 -How am I was supposed to do my job? 200 00:09:45,619 --> 00:09:47,207 We bust kids all the time. 201 00:09:47,241 --> 00:09:49,002 They don't go around killing themselves. 202 00:09:49,036 --> 00:09:51,452 And I can't go around worrying about the next kid I bust 203 00:09:51,487 --> 00:09:53,316 is going to put a hunting rifle into his mouth-- 204 00:09:53,351 --> 00:09:54,455 -Look, Hanson-- 205 00:09:54,490 --> 00:09:56,147 ---or hang himself in his parents' backyard. 206 00:09:56,181 --> 00:09:57,735 ---I'm not fighting you. 207 00:09:57,769 --> 00:10:00,945 -I know you're not! 208 00:10:00,979 --> 00:10:03,672 I'm sorry. 209 00:10:03,706 --> 00:10:07,020 But until I get why this kid died-- [sighs] 210 00:10:10,851 --> 00:10:12,922 I kind of feel like I helped kill him. 211 00:10:25,141 --> 00:10:28,248 I don't understand this thing. 212 00:10:28,282 --> 00:10:29,801 These are decent kids at this school. 213 00:10:29,836 --> 00:10:31,389 You know, they're not too rich. 214 00:10:31,423 --> 00:10:32,286 They're not too poor. 215 00:10:32,321 --> 00:10:33,322 They're not too anything. 216 00:10:33,356 --> 00:10:35,048 It's like-- it's like All-American high. 217 00:10:39,880 --> 00:10:42,193 You know, some of them do drugs, some of them 218 00:10:42,227 --> 00:10:44,816 drink, some of them break into each other's homes. 219 00:10:48,337 --> 00:10:49,545 Most of them just grow up. 220 00:10:53,722 --> 00:10:56,172 What place did this kid get himself 221 00:10:56,207 --> 00:11:00,176 into when he thought that suicide made sense? 222 00:11:03,801 --> 00:11:05,216 [bangs on door] 223 00:11:05,250 --> 00:11:06,666 PENHALL: OK, OK, I'm coming! 224 00:11:06,700 --> 00:11:07,597 -I got it. 225 00:11:10,324 --> 00:11:11,118 Hi, Tom. 226 00:11:11,153 --> 00:11:12,395 Oh, wow, you look nice. 227 00:11:12,430 --> 00:11:12,948 -Thank you. 228 00:11:12,982 --> 00:11:13,742 -He's all yours. 229 00:11:13,776 --> 00:11:14,639 -Is he OK? 230 00:11:14,674 --> 00:11:15,778 Not lately. 231 00:11:15,813 --> 00:11:17,297 PENHALL: What's that mean? 232 00:11:29,550 --> 00:11:30,310 -Hey! 233 00:11:30,344 --> 00:11:31,691 -What? 234 00:11:31,725 --> 00:11:33,106 -You're not dressed. 235 00:11:33,140 --> 00:11:33,796 -What am I? 236 00:11:33,831 --> 00:11:36,868 Boxing in the nude? 237 00:11:36,903 --> 00:11:39,733 What are you dressed like that for? 238 00:11:39,768 --> 00:11:42,011 -I'm going to a funeral, so are you. 239 00:11:42,046 --> 00:11:43,875 -Yeah, who died? 240 00:11:43,910 --> 00:11:45,497 -Walker Stevenson. 241 00:11:45,532 --> 00:11:47,051 -Uh, come on. 242 00:11:47,085 --> 00:11:48,397 Give me a break. 243 00:11:48,431 --> 00:11:51,918 -Uh, I think these are people we know. 244 00:11:51,952 --> 00:11:54,023 --[sighs] School's out for the day. 245 00:11:54,058 --> 00:11:54,679 I'm off. 246 00:11:57,647 --> 00:11:58,683 -What's your problem? 247 00:11:58,718 --> 00:11:59,788 -I ain't got no problem. 248 00:11:59,822 --> 00:12:01,168 I like the kid. 249 00:12:01,203 --> 00:12:04,068 Here, toss this on the grave for me. 250 00:12:08,486 --> 00:12:08,935 -Wow. 251 00:12:14,457 --> 00:12:15,424 [door closes] 252 00:12:22,914 --> 00:12:26,746 MAN [VOICEOVER]: "On April 22, 1988 at approximately 13:23, 253 00:12:26,780 --> 00:12:28,437 Officer Scott Gilmore was dispatched 254 00:12:28,471 --> 00:12:33,235 to 1592 Geffen Lane, in reference to a dead body. 255 00:12:33,269 --> 00:12:35,099 Upon arrival at the residence, I was 256 00:12:35,133 --> 00:12:38,102 advised by Mrs. Carlota Gutierrez, a domestic employed 257 00:12:38,136 --> 00:12:41,277 by the residents of the house, Mr. And Mrs. Tony Stevenson, 258 00:12:41,312 --> 00:12:44,246 that the victim had shot himself in the head. 259 00:12:44,280 --> 00:12:45,937 Upon entering the residence, the subject 260 00:12:45,972 --> 00:12:47,870 was found in the right-hand side of the living 261 00:12:47,905 --> 00:12:49,561 room, seated in an armchair. 262 00:12:49,596 --> 00:12:53,151 He had a .30-06 bolt-action hunting rifle propped between 263 00:12:53,186 --> 00:12:54,497 his legs. 264 00:12:54,532 --> 00:12:57,328 The boy was wearing blue jeans and dark-colored T-shirt. 265 00:12:57,362 --> 00:12:58,674 There was a great deal of blood. 266 00:12:58,708 --> 00:13:00,193 And apparently, the bullet had exited 267 00:13:00,227 --> 00:13:01,608 through the back of the head. 268 00:13:01,642 --> 00:13:03,610 Bits of brain tissue were on a panel of the wall 269 00:13:03,644 --> 00:13:06,544 directly behind the deceased. 270 00:13:06,578 --> 00:13:08,615 Although he was, to the best of my expertise, 271 00:13:08,649 --> 00:13:11,169 dead at this time, paramedics were called in. 272 00:13:11,204 --> 00:13:13,344 They arrived at approximately 13:41 273 00:13:13,378 --> 00:13:16,450 and declared the subject dead as well. 274 00:13:16,485 --> 00:13:19,246 A perimeter was set up and the crime scene isolated." 275 00:13:19,281 --> 00:13:22,802 -"The detectives of the 34th then took the command 276 00:13:22,836 --> 00:13:24,320 of the investigation. 277 00:13:24,355 --> 00:13:27,392 Submitted April 23, 1988. 278 00:13:27,427 --> 00:13:38,887 Badge number 12237." 279 00:13:38,921 --> 00:13:40,371 [sighs] 280 00:13:43,823 --> 00:13:46,066 COUNSELOR: This note's pretty standard. 281 00:13:46,101 --> 00:13:47,619 "I hate all this. 282 00:13:47,654 --> 00:13:48,931 All my love." 283 00:13:48,966 --> 00:13:49,863 Yeah. 284 00:13:49,898 --> 00:13:51,865 OK, I'm late. 285 00:13:51,900 --> 00:13:53,004 What's this? 286 00:13:53,039 --> 00:13:54,488 I thought we were supposed to be undercover. 287 00:13:54,523 --> 00:13:55,144 -He's a doctor. 288 00:13:55,179 --> 00:13:56,490 I asked him here. 289 00:13:56,525 --> 00:13:58,630 COUNSELOR: "Problems beyond" and "tried everything. 290 00:13:58,665 --> 00:14:00,563 Seems like the only way." 291 00:14:00,598 --> 00:14:01,875 A lot of them read like this. 292 00:14:01,910 --> 00:14:03,187 See? 293 00:14:03,221 --> 00:14:06,224 Part of them wants to die, part of them wants to live. 294 00:14:06,259 --> 00:14:08,261 -Yeah, except the part of them that wanted to die 295 00:14:08,295 --> 00:14:09,676 used the hunting rifle. 296 00:14:09,710 --> 00:14:13,956 -Yeah, well, some people don't want to screw up one more time. 297 00:14:13,991 --> 00:14:16,372 And some people set themselves up to be found in time. 298 00:14:16,407 --> 00:14:18,788 And it's just the more obvious cry out for help. 299 00:14:18,823 --> 00:14:20,549 -Yeah, but he wasn't crying out for help. 300 00:14:20,583 --> 00:14:22,240 He killed himself. 301 00:14:22,275 --> 00:14:23,034 Why? 302 00:14:23,069 --> 00:14:25,312 -He was a loser, that's why. 303 00:14:25,347 --> 00:14:28,005 COUNSELOR: Look, we're talking about the second leading 304 00:14:28,039 --> 00:14:29,627 cause of death among adolescents. 305 00:14:29,661 --> 00:14:33,010 More kids kill themselves than die of cancer. 306 00:14:33,044 --> 00:14:35,633 Trouble at home, relationships, school problems, drugs 307 00:14:35,667 --> 00:14:38,187 and alcohol, getting in trouble with the law. 308 00:14:38,222 --> 00:14:39,809 They end up alienating themselves. 309 00:14:42,674 --> 00:14:45,194 [sighs] A sudden impulsive act, something 310 00:14:45,229 --> 00:14:48,370 as permanent as a gun that's lying around the house. 311 00:14:48,404 --> 00:14:50,027 He had a problem. 312 00:14:50,061 --> 00:14:53,375 And he felt that that was the only way to solve it. 313 00:14:53,409 --> 00:14:54,445 -Then he was wrong. 314 00:14:54,479 --> 00:14:55,964 -Yeah, well, we know that. 315 00:14:55,998 --> 00:14:59,657 But look, when kids start to develop identities, 316 00:14:59,691 --> 00:15:03,592 sometimes they get real confused along the way. 317 00:15:03,626 --> 00:15:04,938 [sighs] 318 00:15:04,973 --> 00:15:07,561 I just lost a 15-year-old girl who 319 00:15:07,596 --> 00:15:10,461 overdosed on a whole bottle of antidepressants. 320 00:15:10,495 --> 00:15:12,566 -She killed herself on antidepressants? 321 00:15:12,601 --> 00:15:13,360 What we did she do? 322 00:15:13,395 --> 00:15:14,534 Chuckle herself to death? 323 00:15:19,608 --> 00:15:21,127 OK, that wasn't funny. 324 00:15:21,161 --> 00:15:22,473 -I never thought of it that way. 325 00:15:22,507 --> 00:15:23,439 -Oh, yeah. 326 00:15:23,474 --> 00:15:24,406 And she's so happy, she exploded. 327 00:15:24,440 --> 00:15:25,131 -Are you done? 328 00:15:25,165 --> 00:15:26,580 -Ah, ha-ha-ha, boom! 329 00:15:26,615 --> 00:15:27,167 -Shut up! 330 00:15:33,725 --> 00:15:36,970 -Sorry, he's got kind of strange sense of humor. 331 00:15:39,524 --> 00:15:40,422 -Yeah, it's not funny. 332 00:15:40,456 --> 00:15:41,906 That's what's strange about it. 333 00:15:51,674 --> 00:15:55,023 -[sighs] 334 00:15:55,057 --> 00:15:56,265 -Hi, Doug. 335 00:15:56,300 --> 00:16:01,098 -Hey, have you ever thought about killing yourself? 336 00:16:01,132 --> 00:16:01,995 -Seriously? 337 00:16:02,030 --> 00:16:03,065 -No, no, no. 338 00:16:03,100 --> 00:16:06,655 Not, not, uh, think about it seriously. 339 00:16:06,689 --> 00:16:11,694 But seriously, have you ever thought about it? 340 00:16:11,729 --> 00:16:13,627 -Well, of course. 341 00:16:13,662 --> 00:16:17,010 I mean, everybody thinks about it. 342 00:16:17,045 --> 00:16:18,011 -Not me. 343 00:16:34,372 --> 00:16:35,856 Are you home, Dorothy? 344 00:16:35,891 --> 00:16:36,823 -I'm in here! 345 00:16:39,377 --> 00:16:40,551 -Hey, I got this joke. 346 00:16:40,585 --> 00:16:42,242 It's a great joke. 347 00:16:42,277 --> 00:16:43,140 -Doug, I'm busy. 348 00:16:43,174 --> 00:16:43,692 -Oh, come on. 349 00:16:43,726 --> 00:16:44,244 Come on. 350 00:16:44,279 --> 00:16:45,073 Come on, man. 351 00:16:45,107 --> 00:16:46,074 Just sit down and listen, OK? 352 00:16:46,108 --> 00:16:49,456 -OK, fine. 353 00:16:49,491 --> 00:16:54,185 -Um, OK, uh, this guy, he's been going 354 00:16:54,220 --> 00:16:56,256 to a psychiatrist for years, right? 355 00:16:56,291 --> 00:16:58,051 And, uh, one day, he walks in and he says, 356 00:16:58,086 --> 00:17:01,261 Doc, I've given it a lot of thought. 357 00:17:01,296 --> 00:17:04,747 And it's not your fault, but I'm going to myself. 358 00:17:04,782 --> 00:17:06,991 I don't want you try to stop me. 359 00:17:07,026 --> 00:17:09,200 I just want you to know, OK. 360 00:17:09,235 --> 00:17:13,066 So the doc says, all right, all right, I can respect that. 361 00:17:13,101 --> 00:17:15,965 But there's just one thing I want you to do for me. 362 00:17:16,000 --> 00:17:19,969 The circus is in town, and the world's greatest clown, 363 00:17:20,004 --> 00:17:23,421 Grimaldi, is going to be there. 364 00:17:23,456 --> 00:17:24,802 He's funny. 365 00:17:24,836 --> 00:17:27,736 He's-- well, he's amazing. 366 00:17:27,770 --> 00:17:29,703 All I want you to do is go to the circus. 367 00:17:29,738 --> 00:17:32,258 And if you still want to kill yourself 368 00:17:32,292 --> 00:17:38,988 even after seeing Grimaldi, then OK, I won't try to stop you. 369 00:17:39,023 --> 00:17:42,647 So then, the guy says, but Doc, I'm Grimaldi. 370 00:17:50,138 --> 00:17:51,898 -That's it? 371 00:17:51,932 --> 00:17:54,245 -Yeah. 372 00:17:54,280 --> 00:17:56,213 -Doug, that wasn't funny. 373 00:17:56,247 --> 00:17:59,457 -Don't you get it? 374 00:17:59,492 --> 00:18:01,494 -I thought it was going to be a joke. 375 00:18:01,528 --> 00:18:02,874 -You don't get it? 376 00:18:02,909 --> 00:18:04,221 I can't believe you don't get it. 377 00:18:04,255 --> 00:18:05,498 -Of course, I get it, Doug. 378 00:18:05,532 --> 00:18:06,947 But you said it was going to be a joke. 379 00:18:06,982 --> 00:18:07,879 And that wasn't funny. 380 00:18:07,914 --> 00:18:09,985 -You never get any of my jokes. 381 00:18:10,019 --> 00:18:10,848 -That's not true. 382 00:18:10,882 --> 00:18:11,676 I get lots of your jokes. 383 00:18:11,711 --> 00:18:12,919 -But you don't think I'm funny. 384 00:18:12,953 --> 00:18:13,851 -Doug. 385 00:18:13,885 --> 00:18:16,198 -No, no, you got no sense of humor. 386 00:18:16,233 --> 00:18:17,268 -Doug! 387 00:18:17,303 --> 00:18:18,338 -You know why you got no sense of humor? 388 00:18:18,373 --> 00:18:20,029 Because you need a little intelligence 389 00:18:20,064 --> 00:18:21,065 to understand humor. 390 00:18:21,100 --> 00:18:21,548 -Doug! 391 00:18:21,583 --> 00:18:22,825 -What? 392 00:18:22,860 --> 00:18:24,068 -Take that back. 393 00:18:24,103 --> 00:18:24,862 -Take what back? 394 00:18:24,896 --> 00:18:25,828 -You said I was stupid. 395 00:18:25,863 --> 00:18:26,726 Take it back. 396 00:18:26,760 --> 00:18:27,658 -I won't. 397 00:18:27,692 --> 00:18:28,762 It's true. 398 00:18:28,797 --> 00:18:30,730 -You know, you've been a real pain 399 00:18:30,764 --> 00:18:32,318 in the ass these last couple of days! 400 00:18:40,326 --> 00:18:42,293 -[sighs] It was just a joke! 401 00:18:47,816 --> 00:18:49,266 [doorbell rings] 402 00:18:49,300 --> 00:18:51,785 [dance music] 403 00:18:56,273 --> 00:19:00,415 -Did Walker say anything to you beforehand? 404 00:19:00,449 --> 00:19:01,519 -Like what? 405 00:19:01,554 --> 00:19:03,728 -You were always talking to him, like trying 406 00:19:03,763 --> 00:19:04,867 to be his new friend. 407 00:19:04,902 --> 00:19:05,937 Did he say anything? 408 00:19:09,148 --> 00:19:10,079 -No. 409 00:19:10,114 --> 00:19:12,461 -Damn it. 410 00:19:12,496 --> 00:19:14,360 He didn't even talk to me. 411 00:19:14,394 --> 00:19:16,224 -What do you want, after Dittmar and Beckman? 412 00:19:16,258 --> 00:19:17,949 I mean, it's not that surprising. 413 00:19:17,984 --> 00:19:19,606 -Who's Dittmar and Beckman? 414 00:19:19,641 --> 00:19:21,021 -Johnny Dittmar and Roger Beckman. 415 00:19:21,056 --> 00:19:23,196 They were before you came to town. 416 00:19:23,231 --> 00:19:24,646 They died, too. 417 00:19:24,680 --> 00:19:26,061 -They? 418 00:19:26,095 --> 00:19:29,202 -Yeah, committed suicide, went sideways, depends who you ask. 419 00:19:29,237 --> 00:19:32,999 But they're dead. 420 00:19:33,033 --> 00:19:34,311 -Beckman didn't kill himself. 421 00:19:34,345 --> 00:19:35,691 He went to reform school. 422 00:19:35,726 --> 00:19:36,623 -[snickers] 423 00:19:41,732 --> 00:19:43,596 -Was Dittmar a friend of Walker's? 424 00:19:43,630 --> 00:19:46,115 -He was lots of people's friends. 425 00:19:46,150 --> 00:19:48,635 Dittmar was incredibly cool. 426 00:19:48,670 --> 00:19:50,361 -How did he die? 427 00:19:50,396 --> 00:19:51,707 -Got hit by a train. 428 00:19:51,742 --> 00:19:53,916 They said it was an accident. 429 00:19:53,951 --> 00:19:55,435 Nah, I think he was "accidentally" 430 00:19:55,470 --> 00:19:57,092 lying on the railroad tracks. 431 00:19:57,126 --> 00:19:57,886 Great. 432 00:19:57,920 --> 00:19:59,508 -I thought his car got hit. 433 00:19:59,543 --> 00:20:01,441 -[scoffs] I love these rumors. 434 00:20:01,476 --> 00:20:03,995 Uh, I heard he was carried away by a giant vulture. 435 00:20:04,030 --> 00:20:05,411 -Give me a break. 436 00:20:13,557 --> 00:20:16,387 -Like the tattoo? 437 00:20:16,422 --> 00:20:18,355 -Yes, yes, it's good. 438 00:20:21,841 --> 00:20:24,257 -Oh, I had this day when nothing was working. 439 00:20:24,292 --> 00:20:26,673 You know, it just completely sucked. 440 00:20:26,708 --> 00:20:31,575 I was so numb, I cut myself to see if I would bleed. 441 00:20:31,609 --> 00:20:32,886 It wasn't real when I did it. 442 00:20:32,921 --> 00:20:34,474 It was like watching myself on TV. 443 00:20:37,339 --> 00:20:38,547 -Hey, remember Beckman? 444 00:20:38,582 --> 00:20:39,652 -Yeah. 445 00:20:39,686 --> 00:20:41,170 Hey, did you know he went to reform school? 446 00:20:41,205 --> 00:20:42,241 -Yeah, of course. 447 00:20:42,275 --> 00:20:43,276 -Huh? 448 00:20:43,311 --> 00:20:46,175 Yeah, well, now I find out he got out. 449 00:20:46,210 --> 00:20:47,004 Joined the Navy. 450 00:20:47,038 --> 00:20:48,385 He's living in Norfolk, man. 451 00:20:48,419 --> 00:20:49,282 He runs a crane. 452 00:20:49,317 --> 00:20:50,421 He's got a house. 453 00:20:50,456 --> 00:20:50,973 He's married. 454 00:20:51,008 --> 00:20:51,733 He's married! 455 00:20:51,767 --> 00:20:53,148 Can you believe that? 456 00:20:53,182 --> 00:20:54,701 He's having a great time. 457 00:20:54,736 --> 00:20:56,393 -A lot of people I know have tried it 458 00:20:56,427 --> 00:20:58,705 or contemplated it one time. 459 00:20:58,740 --> 00:20:59,982 -Diana has. 460 00:21:00,017 --> 00:21:02,226 Keith has. 461 00:21:02,261 --> 00:21:05,091 -I don't get it. 462 00:21:05,125 --> 00:21:10,234 -It's like giving your folks notice. 463 00:21:10,269 --> 00:21:11,166 I'm not kidding. 464 00:21:11,200 --> 00:21:13,651 I'm not taking any more this crap. 465 00:21:13,686 --> 00:21:16,136 It's not about killing yourself. 466 00:21:16,171 --> 00:21:18,173 It's about knowing what it would be like. 467 00:21:18,207 --> 00:21:20,002 -People tell you you're a loser long enough, 468 00:21:20,037 --> 00:21:21,487 you begin to believe it. 469 00:21:21,521 --> 00:21:24,386 -I could never kill myself. 470 00:21:24,421 --> 00:21:29,253 But sometimes, I just get really drunk and drive crazy. 471 00:21:29,288 --> 00:21:32,636 I figure I'll let fate decide. 472 00:21:32,670 --> 00:21:35,294 -Well, maybe he was a guy who couldn't face it. 473 00:21:35,328 --> 00:21:38,055 He was a guy who just wimped out. 474 00:21:41,852 --> 00:21:42,818 -Come on. 475 00:21:42,853 --> 00:21:44,268 -What? 476 00:21:44,303 --> 00:21:45,234 Huh! 477 00:21:45,269 --> 00:21:47,616 -Come on! 478 00:21:47,651 --> 00:21:48,859 -Hey! 479 00:21:48,893 --> 00:21:50,343 -If you don't have anything decent to say, then shut 480 00:21:50,378 --> 00:21:53,691 your mouth, you drink your beer, or you leave. 481 00:21:53,726 --> 00:21:55,693 OK? 482 00:21:55,728 --> 00:21:57,212 -Yeah? 483 00:21:57,246 --> 00:21:57,695 -Yeah. 484 00:22:08,188 --> 00:22:09,638 -I don't want to be here anyway. 485 00:22:29,106 --> 00:22:30,556 [sighs] 486 00:22:41,049 --> 00:22:44,017 [rock music] 487 00:23:41,558 --> 00:23:43,076 -There's something really wrong here. 488 00:23:43,111 --> 00:23:45,285 Or somebody is lying to us. 489 00:23:45,320 --> 00:23:48,047 There was another kid who killed himself at Taft six weeks ago-- 490 00:23:48,081 --> 00:23:48,910 Johnny Dittmar. 491 00:23:53,811 --> 00:23:56,607 -Kid walked in front of a train? 492 00:23:56,642 --> 00:23:57,712 -Yeah. 493 00:23:57,746 --> 00:23:58,989 And it wasn't reported as a suicide either. 494 00:23:59,023 --> 00:24:00,473 Why not? 495 00:24:00,508 --> 00:24:03,925 -Because no one wants to admit that suicide exists. 496 00:24:03,959 --> 00:24:06,341 The parents lie, the medical examiner, even the cops. 497 00:24:06,375 --> 00:24:10,345 They want to spare themselves the pain, the humiliation. 498 00:24:10,379 --> 00:24:13,762 You know, they say suicide is the second leading 499 00:24:13,797 --> 00:24:15,833 cause of death among adolescents. 500 00:24:15,868 --> 00:24:18,802 The first is accidents, like being 501 00:24:18,836 --> 00:24:21,252 hit by a train or single-passenger auto 502 00:24:21,287 --> 00:24:22,495 fatalities. 503 00:24:22,530 --> 00:24:25,118 All the drug and alcohol-related cases, suicide 504 00:24:25,153 --> 00:24:27,224 might very well be number 1. 505 00:24:27,258 --> 00:24:28,915 -Yeah. 506 00:24:28,950 --> 00:24:31,400 I can remember a time when we would have written Walker off 507 00:24:31,435 --> 00:24:34,749 as a hunting accident. 508 00:24:34,783 --> 00:24:37,752 Never mind the fact he was in the living room. 509 00:24:37,786 --> 00:24:39,236 -You know, we may be looking at kids 510 00:24:39,270 --> 00:24:42,757 who've been influenced by more than one death. 511 00:24:42,791 --> 00:24:45,898 -You're saying this is contagious? 512 00:24:45,932 --> 00:24:46,899 -Sometimes. 513 00:24:46,933 --> 00:24:47,555 -Wait a minute. 514 00:24:47,589 --> 00:24:49,349 I-- I don't get it. 515 00:24:49,384 --> 00:24:52,767 -Among young people, a suicide can open the door for others 516 00:24:52,801 --> 00:24:53,561 to follow. 517 00:24:53,595 --> 00:24:55,632 A kind of horrible example. 518 00:24:55,666 --> 00:24:57,116 See, there's a spread of depression 519 00:24:57,150 --> 00:24:58,876 following the first death. 520 00:24:58,911 --> 00:25:01,465 Then if you're already unhappy, when someone you know 521 00:25:01,500 --> 00:25:04,088 can't hack it, it doesn't seem so bad to you. 522 00:25:04,123 --> 00:25:09,784 So yes, in a way, if ignored, repressed, it is contagious. 523 00:25:09,818 --> 00:25:12,407 -I was at this party last night. 524 00:25:12,441 --> 00:25:13,857 Bizarre death tattoos. 525 00:25:13,891 --> 00:25:15,997 Even a couple of kids with superficial wrist scars, 526 00:25:16,031 --> 00:25:17,170 like some kind of badge. 527 00:25:17,205 --> 00:25:17,999 -Right. 528 00:25:18,033 --> 00:25:19,414 The scars, the tattoos. 529 00:25:19,448 --> 00:25:20,795 You see, you mark yourself up. 530 00:25:20,829 --> 00:25:22,417 You make yourself an object. 531 00:25:22,451 --> 00:25:23,867 You're less than a person. 532 00:25:23,901 --> 00:25:25,247 But it's also a way for the group 533 00:25:25,282 --> 00:25:27,560 to draw together, a way to belong to each other. 534 00:25:27,595 --> 00:25:30,943 And in the end, it's-- it's our relationships that keeps us all 535 00:25:30,977 --> 00:25:32,600 alive. 536 00:25:32,634 --> 00:25:34,636 -Half of them sound like they could really do it. 537 00:25:38,226 --> 00:25:39,607 What the hell am I supposed to do? 538 00:25:39,641 --> 00:25:40,746 -Don't avoid the subject. 539 00:25:40,780 --> 00:25:42,644 Don't be afraid to talk about suicide directly. 540 00:25:42,679 --> 00:25:44,922 You're not going to put ideas in anyone's head. 541 00:25:44,957 --> 00:25:46,199 Listen in. 542 00:25:46,234 --> 00:25:49,996 And if they need it, get them to someone who can help. 543 00:25:50,031 --> 00:25:51,480 -Isn't there something I'm supposed 544 00:25:51,515 --> 00:25:52,585 to be able to look for? 545 00:25:52,620 --> 00:25:54,829 You know, like warning signs and all that? 546 00:25:54,863 --> 00:25:58,142 -Hostile behavior, mood swings, promiscuity, drug and alcohol 547 00:25:58,177 --> 00:26:01,111 abuse, alienation among their friends. 548 00:26:01,145 --> 00:26:02,181 -Great. 549 00:26:02,215 --> 00:26:03,458 That sounds like just being a teenager. 550 00:26:03,492 --> 00:26:06,047 -Huh, not everyone. 551 00:26:06,081 --> 00:26:10,189 But it does kind of tell you something, doesn't it? 552 00:26:10,223 --> 00:26:11,639 Just listen. 553 00:26:11,673 --> 00:26:14,538 Most of the time, just having a friend who can listen 554 00:26:14,573 --> 00:26:15,021 is enough. 555 00:26:21,718 --> 00:26:23,167 -Nice of you to come to work, Doug. 556 00:26:23,202 --> 00:26:25,100 -Oh, were we discussing the case, 557 00:26:25,135 --> 00:26:27,344 talking about the student cat burglar? 558 00:26:31,693 --> 00:26:33,039 Suicide High ain't no case. 559 00:26:33,074 --> 00:26:35,076 And I ain't working on it no more. 560 00:26:35,110 --> 00:26:37,388 -You're on it until I say you're not on it. 561 00:26:37,423 --> 00:26:39,218 -Yeah, well, uh, last night I caught the kid 562 00:26:39,252 --> 00:26:40,875 who's been breaking into all those house 563 00:26:40,909 --> 00:26:43,636 in a stolen goods sting operation. 564 00:26:43,671 --> 00:26:45,155 He just transferred out of Taft. 565 00:26:45,189 --> 00:26:46,397 That's how come we missed him. 566 00:26:50,229 --> 00:26:51,437 He confessed. 567 00:26:51,471 --> 00:26:52,231 There is no case. 568 00:26:57,961 --> 00:26:59,997 I am caught up with all my paperwork. 569 00:27:00,032 --> 00:27:02,137 I'd like a personal day, unless of course, I 570 00:27:02,172 --> 00:27:06,176 have any official police business I have to attend to. 571 00:27:18,809 --> 00:27:20,086 -I hate him. 572 00:27:20,121 --> 00:27:23,711 I hate him for leaving us. 573 00:27:23,745 --> 00:27:26,921 I hate him for going away. 574 00:27:26,955 --> 00:27:28,060 Don't you hate him? 575 00:27:28,094 --> 00:27:29,751 -No, I just miss him. 576 00:27:29,786 --> 00:27:31,926 -I don't miss him at all. 577 00:27:31,960 --> 00:27:33,168 He did it because he hated us. 578 00:27:33,203 --> 00:27:34,066 He did, you know. 579 00:27:34,100 --> 00:27:35,239 He hated us. 580 00:27:35,274 --> 00:27:35,723 -Mitchell! 581 00:27:38,346 --> 00:27:42,281 -If he were here right now, I'd kick his ass for what he did. 582 00:27:42,315 --> 00:27:42,764 I would. 583 00:27:51,704 --> 00:27:52,222 -Guys. 584 00:27:52,256 --> 00:27:54,155 -Hey, what's up? 585 00:27:54,189 --> 00:27:55,259 -Hey, Tom, you missed it. 586 00:27:55,294 --> 00:27:57,296 Instead of math class, we had another morning 587 00:27:57,330 --> 00:27:58,918 on why we shouldn't kill ourselves. 588 00:27:58,953 --> 00:28:00,437 PETER: Yeah, and there was homework. 589 00:28:00,471 --> 00:28:02,681 We have to stay alive until tomorrow. 590 00:28:02,715 --> 00:28:05,269 Sort of a pass/fail assignment. [chuckles] 591 00:28:05,304 --> 00:28:07,616 -You know, I can never kill myself. 592 00:28:07,651 --> 00:28:09,480 I mean, who would look after my dog? 593 00:28:09,515 --> 00:28:12,000 -There's nothing worth looking forward to. 594 00:28:12,035 --> 00:28:13,519 I mean, I've already done every drug 595 00:28:13,553 --> 00:28:15,555 there is, except for heroin. 596 00:28:15,590 --> 00:28:17,730 That's about it. 597 00:28:17,765 --> 00:28:19,111 I've been drunk so many times. 598 00:28:19,145 --> 00:28:21,769 -And you've done every guy I know. 599 00:28:21,803 --> 00:28:23,046 -I haven't done you. 600 00:28:23,080 --> 00:28:24,219 And I never will. 601 00:28:24,254 --> 00:28:25,980 So eat your heart out, Keith. 602 00:28:26,014 --> 00:28:28,361 -[chuckles] 603 00:28:28,396 --> 00:28:31,364 -Anyway, I have done most of the ones I wanted to. 604 00:28:31,399 --> 00:28:33,746 And that wasn't even that great. 605 00:28:33,781 --> 00:28:35,783 So what's there to look forward to? 606 00:28:35,817 --> 00:28:37,957 -I'm going to pass science. 607 00:28:37,992 --> 00:28:39,994 I could end up passing all my classes. 608 00:28:40,028 --> 00:28:43,376 And then my parents promised to loan me money for a car. 609 00:28:43,411 --> 00:28:45,171 It could be a great summer. 610 00:28:45,206 --> 00:28:48,278 VICKIE: We came here from Norwood. 611 00:28:48,312 --> 00:28:51,488 Um, that was before my father was promoted. 612 00:28:51,522 --> 00:28:54,871 You know it was better when we were poor? 613 00:28:54,905 --> 00:28:57,045 I mean, when we weren't poor "poor." 614 00:28:57,080 --> 00:28:59,668 But it was better. 615 00:28:59,703 --> 00:29:01,567 I hate this school. 616 00:29:01,601 --> 00:29:03,396 I hate this place. 617 00:29:03,431 --> 00:29:06,399 -Those other kids who died, why didn't the school cop to it? 618 00:29:06,434 --> 00:29:07,676 -They've been expelled already. 619 00:29:07,711 --> 00:29:08,781 They didn't count. 620 00:29:08,816 --> 00:29:10,541 PETER: That's the attitude around here, man. 621 00:29:10,576 --> 00:29:12,889 If you're not up to par, they just expel you. 622 00:29:12,923 --> 00:29:15,305 There is no room for slackers. 623 00:29:15,339 --> 00:29:17,410 DIANA: My dad put in for a transfer. 624 00:29:17,445 --> 00:29:19,654 He really wants to move away from here. 625 00:29:19,688 --> 00:29:21,587 KEITH: Yeah, my parents are going out of town. 626 00:29:21,621 --> 00:29:23,278 I'm going to have a massive party. 627 00:29:23,313 --> 00:29:27,627 So it would be a waste to kill yourself before that. 628 00:29:27,662 --> 00:29:30,941 -I don't know, it's like I fall in love with guys 629 00:29:30,976 --> 00:29:32,805 over and over. 630 00:29:32,840 --> 00:29:34,911 And they leave me over and over. 631 00:29:38,293 --> 00:29:39,191 [chuckles ] 632 00:29:39,225 --> 00:29:40,537 I'm not even going to get anywhere. 633 00:29:40,571 --> 00:29:43,678 I mean, everybody else has plans. 634 00:29:43,712 --> 00:29:45,680 It's just really been pointless lately. 635 00:29:48,407 --> 00:29:49,373 I feel like I'm a loser. 636 00:29:52,376 --> 00:29:54,068 -Yeah, well, I've been there, too, Vickie. 637 00:29:57,899 --> 00:30:03,008 Look, I don't know what to tell you except it doesn't last. 638 00:30:03,042 --> 00:30:05,873 -I have OD'd on stuff before. 639 00:30:05,907 --> 00:30:09,877 Um, tranqs, Valium, aspirin. 640 00:30:09,911 --> 00:30:11,568 -Don't you have anything you want to do? 641 00:30:11,602 --> 00:30:15,192 Something to look forward to? 642 00:30:15,227 --> 00:30:18,057 That's what I think about. 643 00:30:18,092 --> 00:30:23,097 -Getting out of here, one way or another. 644 00:30:23,131 --> 00:30:23,891 -Really, that's it? 645 00:30:23,925 --> 00:30:26,894 Just nothing at all? 646 00:30:26,928 --> 00:30:27,411 -Nope. 647 00:30:31,243 --> 00:30:35,454 Um, you know, I-- I thought I wanted to talk to you. 648 00:30:35,488 --> 00:30:37,939 But I don't think so anymore. 649 00:30:37,974 --> 00:30:40,839 I don't even know you, Tom. 650 00:30:40,873 --> 00:30:42,081 -Could you talk to Rachel? 651 00:30:42,116 --> 00:30:44,843 -Huh, she won't even get it. 652 00:30:44,877 --> 00:30:46,430 -What about a counselor or a nurse? 653 00:30:46,465 --> 00:30:48,605 -They all hate me! 654 00:30:48,639 --> 00:30:52,091 They think I'm a loser, too! 655 00:30:52,126 --> 00:30:53,541 -Well, I don't hate you, Vickie. 656 00:30:53,575 --> 00:30:55,060 And I don't think you're a loser. 657 00:30:55,094 --> 00:30:57,579 Listen, all I've been able to think about lately is suicide. 658 00:31:00,134 --> 00:31:01,652 I mean, maybe not mine. 659 00:31:05,622 --> 00:31:06,899 I didn't want anybody to know. 660 00:31:06,934 --> 00:31:12,836 But, uh, I've been talking with that doctor guy a lot. 661 00:31:12,871 --> 00:31:14,355 And I'm feeling much better. 662 00:31:17,220 --> 00:31:18,877 He's explained a bunch of stuff to me. 663 00:31:18,911 --> 00:31:20,326 He made a lot of sense. 664 00:31:20,361 --> 00:31:21,500 -How could he know anything? 665 00:31:35,514 --> 00:31:35,997 -Yo, Doc. 666 00:31:36,032 --> 00:31:37,688 -Hey, Tommy. 667 00:31:37,723 --> 00:31:39,828 -Do you, uh, got a minute for a friend? 668 00:31:39,863 --> 00:31:40,933 -Absolutely. 669 00:31:40,968 --> 00:31:41,934 -Hi. 670 00:31:41,969 --> 00:31:42,417 -Hey. 671 00:31:45,420 --> 00:31:48,872 [rock music] 672 00:31:57,777 --> 00:32:03,162 [opera music] 673 00:32:03,197 --> 00:32:05,130 [bangs on door] 674 00:32:12,585 --> 00:32:13,552 -[sighs] 675 00:32:18,005 --> 00:32:18,488 -Hey. 676 00:32:22,492 --> 00:32:23,942 What's this? 677 00:32:23,976 --> 00:32:24,804 -It's opera. 678 00:32:24,839 --> 00:32:26,323 What's it sound like? 679 00:32:26,358 --> 00:32:26,841 -Opera? 680 00:32:30,845 --> 00:32:34,400 I was in the neighborhood, you know. 681 00:32:34,435 --> 00:32:34,918 -Yeah? 682 00:32:38,025 --> 00:32:40,268 -All right, I came over to tell you that you were wrong 683 00:32:40,303 --> 00:32:42,339 and that you're being a jerk. 684 00:32:42,374 --> 00:32:43,030 -Wow! 685 00:32:43,064 --> 00:32:44,031 You should have phoned. 686 00:32:44,065 --> 00:32:44,997 I could have hung up on you instead 687 00:32:45,032 --> 00:32:46,136 of having to throw you out. 688 00:32:46,171 --> 00:32:47,862 -You know, you got a problem. 689 00:32:47,896 --> 00:32:48,932 You've got a big problem! 690 00:32:48,967 --> 00:32:50,071 You're self-centered. 691 00:32:50,106 --> 00:32:53,143 You don't care about anybody but Doug Penhall. 692 00:32:53,178 --> 00:32:55,249 I had a chance to help somebody who was hurting. 693 00:32:55,283 --> 00:32:56,353 And I did. 694 00:32:56,388 --> 00:32:57,630 -Whoop-dee-doo. 695 00:32:57,665 --> 00:32:59,080 -You sat around listening to tapes. 696 00:32:59,115 --> 00:33:00,702 You don't even know what's going on! 697 00:33:00,737 --> 00:33:03,878 -Hey, I know more about suicide than you ever will. 698 00:33:03,912 --> 00:33:05,673 -You know more about making stupid jokes. 699 00:33:05,707 --> 00:33:07,606 That's about it. 700 00:33:07,640 --> 00:33:10,471 -[scoffs] 701 00:33:10,505 --> 00:33:11,851 -[SHOUTS] What is wrong with you? 702 00:33:11,886 --> 00:33:14,544 -Hey, my mother killed herself when I was six! 703 00:33:18,375 --> 00:33:21,482 I thought about suicide every moment of every day since then. 704 00:33:29,835 --> 00:33:32,596 All I knew was that something really horrible 705 00:33:32,631 --> 00:33:33,908 had happened to my mother. 706 00:33:36,980 --> 00:33:39,948 Police were there. 707 00:33:39,983 --> 00:33:41,674 I was six. 708 00:33:41,709 --> 00:33:43,297 I thought they were taking her to jail. 709 00:33:46,334 --> 00:33:48,129 I kept walking around the day of the funeral 710 00:33:48,164 --> 00:33:51,029 with my shoes untied. 711 00:33:51,063 --> 00:33:55,723 And I won't let nobody tie them. 712 00:33:55,757 --> 00:33:57,138 My mom used to tie them. 713 00:34:03,558 --> 00:34:06,872 And, uh, even as I was growing up, 714 00:34:06,906 --> 00:34:10,082 I used to not want to come home. 715 00:34:10,117 --> 00:34:12,015 I used to-- I used to stay in the playground 716 00:34:12,050 --> 00:34:19,712 till it got dark because didn't want to come home and see 717 00:34:19,747 --> 00:34:21,059 that she wasn't there. 718 00:34:29,550 --> 00:34:30,965 [sighs] 719 00:34:30,999 --> 00:34:35,763 And, um, my father, he used to have to come and get me. 720 00:34:42,563 --> 00:34:48,120 My father, he had been a priest. 721 00:34:48,155 --> 00:34:51,261 So he couldn't kill himself. 722 00:34:51,296 --> 00:34:53,608 Instead, he just drank himself to death. 723 00:34:57,336 --> 00:34:59,959 -I'm really sorry, Doug. 724 00:34:59,994 --> 00:35:01,133 -No. 725 00:35:01,168 --> 00:35:05,103 Hey, anyhow, I tie my own shoes now every morning. 726 00:35:05,137 --> 00:35:07,208 Sometimes in the day, too. 727 00:35:07,243 --> 00:35:08,209 -[chuckles] 728 00:35:17,080 --> 00:35:18,668 -I never really brought this up before. 729 00:35:25,502 --> 00:35:26,952 I wanted to tell you. 730 00:35:38,446 --> 00:35:38,998 I'm sorry. 731 00:35:45,764 --> 00:35:48,767 It's just been real hard. 732 00:36:17,036 --> 00:36:18,003 -Uh. 733 00:36:18,037 --> 00:36:18,969 [sighs] 734 00:36:58,802 --> 00:37:00,252 FULLER: Hanson. 735 00:37:00,287 --> 00:37:03,704 -Hey, coach. 736 00:37:03,738 --> 00:37:04,256 -Things OK? 737 00:37:07,294 --> 00:37:10,504 -This Walker thing. 738 00:37:10,538 --> 00:37:14,887 It's like one of those slot machines in Las Vegas. 739 00:37:14,922 --> 00:37:18,132 It's a one in a million chance that all the wrong things 740 00:37:18,166 --> 00:37:19,823 are going to line up for you. 741 00:37:19,858 --> 00:37:22,619 You know, like seven emotions. 742 00:37:22,654 --> 00:37:24,966 Seven things in your life that seemed like more than you 743 00:37:25,001 --> 00:37:25,933 can handle. 744 00:37:29,419 --> 00:37:32,871 I guess if you can take one sad thing away from someone, 745 00:37:32,905 --> 00:37:34,976 they're safe. 746 00:37:35,011 --> 00:37:36,254 So it ain't so bad. 747 00:37:39,878 --> 00:37:42,432 -Been doing some thinking, huh? 748 00:37:42,467 --> 00:37:42,950 -Yeah. 749 00:37:46,298 --> 00:37:48,507 The funny thing is I thought it was so important that I 750 00:37:48,542 --> 00:37:50,026 had to know why Walker died. 751 00:37:52,891 --> 00:37:54,617 But I'm never going to know. 752 00:37:54,651 --> 00:37:56,653 Never. 753 00:37:56,688 --> 00:37:58,586 -Are you going to be able to live with it? 754 00:37:58,621 --> 00:38:01,520 -Yeah. 755 00:38:01,555 --> 00:38:04,937 The best I'm going to know is that I'm never going to know. 756 00:38:04,972 --> 00:38:06,180 That's going to have to be OK. 757 00:38:13,187 --> 00:38:14,637 -Tom. 758 00:38:14,671 --> 00:38:15,638 Captain. 759 00:38:15,672 --> 00:38:17,156 -Hey, Dorothy. 760 00:38:17,191 --> 00:38:17,812 -Yeah. 761 00:38:17,847 --> 00:38:18,537 Have you seen Doug? 762 00:38:21,264 --> 00:38:22,541 -Uh, no. 763 00:38:22,576 --> 00:38:24,647 -Well, it's just that he and I kind of got in this fight, 764 00:38:24,681 --> 00:38:26,752 and then I went away. 765 00:38:26,787 --> 00:38:28,202 And then he didn't call. 766 00:38:28,236 --> 00:38:29,859 Then I called and no one answered. 767 00:38:29,893 --> 00:38:31,447 Then I went home, and he wasn't there. 768 00:38:31,481 --> 00:38:33,138 I don't know where he is. 769 00:38:33,172 --> 00:38:34,208 Then I called here. 770 00:38:34,242 --> 00:38:36,348 And they said he was around or on a case. 771 00:38:36,383 --> 00:38:39,524 He didn't say anything to me. 772 00:38:39,558 --> 00:38:41,457 It's not like him. 773 00:38:41,491 --> 00:38:45,909 [sighs] God, he'd kill me if he found that I came here. 774 00:38:45,944 --> 00:38:48,774 But, uh, I know everywhere else he goes, but I 775 00:38:48,809 --> 00:38:50,017 went to those places already. 776 00:39:12,246 --> 00:39:16,181 -You're a hard man to find, Doug. 777 00:39:16,215 --> 00:39:19,218 Some people are looking for you. 778 00:39:19,253 --> 00:39:20,565 -Yeah? 779 00:39:20,599 --> 00:39:23,637 -People like Dorothy. 780 00:39:23,671 --> 00:39:24,534 You ought to call her. 781 00:39:24,569 --> 00:39:26,018 She's worried about you. 782 00:39:31,196 --> 00:39:32,749 -There's something I want to tell you. 783 00:39:39,549 --> 00:39:42,000 I tried to kill myself when I was eight years old. 784 00:39:45,244 --> 00:39:47,108 I drank a bottle of vanilla extract. 785 00:39:50,146 --> 00:39:51,423 -That's kind of cute. 786 00:39:54,357 --> 00:39:58,361 -Well, I didn't mean for it to be cute. 787 00:39:58,396 --> 00:39:59,742 I meant to kill myself. 788 00:40:06,196 --> 00:40:08,233 My mother was an alcoholic. 789 00:40:08,267 --> 00:40:11,857 And she was really hard to have around, you know, even when 790 00:40:11,892 --> 00:40:13,134 I was six. 791 00:40:16,862 --> 00:40:21,280 It was easier when she was gone. 792 00:40:21,315 --> 00:40:27,079 I felt so incredibly guilty after I realized that. 793 00:40:27,114 --> 00:40:31,946 I was-- it was-- it was like I killed her, like I sent her 794 00:40:31,981 --> 00:40:37,538 away, like she left because I hadn't loved her enough. 795 00:40:37,573 --> 00:40:41,369 Uh, she thought I didn't love her. 796 00:40:41,404 --> 00:40:44,027 -Doug, you were six years old. 797 00:40:44,062 --> 00:40:48,756 -You do a lot of funny stuff when people leave you. 798 00:40:48,791 --> 00:40:50,137 You make a lot of deals with God. 799 00:40:53,416 --> 00:40:55,936 I used to eat all my vegetables because I 800 00:40:55,970 --> 00:40:57,662 knew that's what my mother wanted 801 00:40:57,696 --> 00:41:00,941 and that that will make her happy up in heaven. 802 00:41:05,911 --> 00:41:08,638 And I didn't talk to my father for months 803 00:41:08,673 --> 00:41:11,641 because I thought that will bring her back. 804 00:41:17,889 --> 00:41:23,550 I had this other deal with God that, uh, 805 00:41:23,584 --> 00:41:28,071 if I was a real good boy, then she'd come back. 806 00:41:31,558 --> 00:41:32,973 She didn't come back. 807 00:41:38,426 --> 00:41:45,226 I was kind of difficult for a while-- for about, 808 00:41:45,261 --> 00:41:50,266 uh, some 20-odd years. [chuckles] 809 00:41:53,269 --> 00:41:55,064 [sighs] I don't know. 810 00:41:55,098 --> 00:41:57,584 Maybe that's my excuse for acting like I'm six sometimes, 811 00:41:57,618 --> 00:42:00,448 you know. 812 00:42:00,483 --> 00:42:02,520 -I'm sorry. 813 00:42:02,554 --> 00:42:05,212 -Uh, what are you sorry for? 814 00:42:05,246 --> 00:42:06,040 -I'm your friend. 815 00:42:06,075 --> 00:42:08,871 I should have seen your pain. 816 00:42:08,905 --> 00:42:10,355 -Oh, OK. 817 00:42:10,389 --> 00:42:15,360 So maybe it's all right if I act obnoxious sometimes, right? 818 00:42:15,394 --> 00:42:16,326 -No. 819 00:42:16,361 --> 00:42:17,707 [both chuckle] 820 00:42:21,987 --> 00:42:24,058 You seen anybody about this? 821 00:42:24,093 --> 00:42:26,716 -Sh-- I don't need to see nobody about this. 822 00:42:26,751 --> 00:42:28,994 -Are you sure? 823 00:42:29,029 --> 00:42:31,238 -I dealt with this a long time ago. 824 00:42:31,272 --> 00:42:32,688 I just thought this might help you. 825 00:42:37,382 --> 00:42:39,729 Jeez, I don't know. 826 00:42:39,764 --> 00:42:41,559 You don't like my stories. 827 00:42:41,593 --> 00:42:46,253 You don't like the music I listen to. 828 00:42:46,287 --> 00:42:48,669 Whew. 829 00:42:48,704 --> 00:42:52,604 Hey, you got the weebles to ride with me in this stuff? 830 00:42:52,639 --> 00:42:53,847 Come on. 831 00:42:53,881 --> 00:42:55,365 You got to help eat Dorothy's terrible meatballs. 832 00:43:22,565 --> 00:43:23,704 -Hey. 833 00:43:23,739 --> 00:43:24,256 -Hey, Tom. 834 00:43:29,676 --> 00:43:31,056 -I'm sorry about your brother. 835 00:43:37,476 --> 00:43:40,652 -I still live with it day to day, 836 00:43:40,687 --> 00:43:45,312 but it's-- it's going all right. 837 00:43:45,346 --> 00:43:46,727 [sighs] 838 00:43:46,762 --> 00:43:50,662 I guess that's all I have to say. 839 00:43:50,697 --> 00:43:53,838 Does anyone else have anything tonight? 840 00:43:53,872 --> 00:43:58,981 MAN: Oh, yeah, I want to talk. 841 00:43:59,015 --> 00:43:59,740 -What's your name? 842 00:44:02,570 --> 00:44:03,019 -Doug. 843 00:44:06,816 --> 00:44:08,715 My mother killed herself when I was six. 844 00:44:47,236 --> 00:44:47,926 THEME SONG: Jump! 845 00:44:52,448 --> 00:44:52,897 Jump! 846 00:45:15,402 --> 00:45:15,851 Jump! 847 00:45:21,408 --> 00:45:25,408 [typing]