1 00:00:05,138 --> 00:00:06,172 >> Billy: You know that thing in 2 00:00:06,239 --> 00:00:12,612 your life that you want to hold onto so desperately? 3 00:00:12,679 --> 00:00:18,952 You do so so tightly that you end up draining it of its joy. 4 00:00:19,018 --> 00:00:22,856 You end up squeezing the life out of it. 5 00:00:22,922 --> 00:00:27,193 The thing you want the most becomes the most illusive, and 6 00:00:27,260 --> 00:00:30,597 your frustration grows because you're trying to control 7 00:00:30,663 --> 00:00:35,068 something that is out of your control. 8 00:00:35,135 --> 00:00:41,107 You end up closing off or hitting a wall. 9 00:00:41,174 --> 00:00:46,546 I can't be the only one. But I think I might have just 10 00:00:46,613 --> 00:00:50,550 landed on something that helps me. 11 00:00:50,617 --> 00:00:55,355 By closing my eyes, by quieting my system, by calming my mind 12 00:00:55,422 --> 00:01:02,362 and simply breathing. I sit here open to the 13 00:01:02,429 --> 00:01:09,302 possibilities, the opportunity to allow the thing that I want 14 00:01:09,369 --> 00:01:19,112 most in my life...to arrive. 15 00:01:19,179 --> 00:01:20,713 >> Phyllis: Thank you for bringing in my luggage. 16 00:01:20,780 --> 00:01:22,849 You're such a gentleman. >> Jack: It is the least I can 17 00:01:22,916 --> 00:01:26,820 do after all you did for me in LA. 18 00:01:26,886 --> 00:01:29,289 >> Phyllis: I'd like to do a little more for you. 19 00:01:29,355 --> 00:01:32,725 >> Jack: Oh? >> Phyllis: Yeah, I'd like to do 20 00:01:32,792 --> 00:01:36,095 a deeper dive into who's sending you those texts. 21 00:01:36,162 --> 00:01:38,231 >> Jack: Thank you. I can't even think about that 22 00:01:38,298 --> 00:01:39,332 right now. >> Phyllis: Okay. 23 00:01:39,399 --> 00:01:43,336 Well, I understand. The whole trip, it was a lot to 24 00:01:43,403 --> 00:01:46,206 process, that you have a new granddaughter. 25 00:01:46,272 --> 00:01:48,308 >> Jack: Yeah, I wouldn't have gotten through any of this 26 00:01:48,374 --> 00:01:49,809 without your companionship and support. 27 00:01:49,876 --> 00:01:51,911 You know that. >> Phyllis: I was happy to be 28 00:01:51,978 --> 00:01:54,747 there. You can count on me. 29 00:01:54,814 --> 00:01:58,351 >> Jack: Thank you. >> Phyllis: Honestly, I wish I 30 00:01:58,418 --> 00:02:02,021 would've gotten a chance to get to know Allie a little better. 31 00:02:02,088 --> 00:02:06,025 >> Jack: Yeah, same here, but I haven't given up. 32 00:02:06,092 --> 00:02:20,974 It may still happen. 33 00:02:21,040 --> 00:02:36,022 It may still happen. 34 00:02:36,089 --> 00:02:44,163 >> Allie: Hey, Dad. I still can't believe that 35 00:02:44,230 --> 00:02:52,605 you're really gone, Dad. 36 00:02:52,672 --> 00:03:00,213 I miss you so much. Why did this happen? 37 00:03:00,280 --> 00:03:06,619 What am I gonna do without you? 38 00:03:06,686 --> 00:03:13,493 [ Door closes ] 39 00:03:13,560 --> 00:03:28,441 >> Jack: [ Sighs ] 40 00:03:28,508 --> 00:03:43,356 >> Jack: [ Sighs ] 41 00:03:43,423 --> 00:03:57,003 [ Cellphone chimes ] 42 00:03:57,070 --> 00:04:11,951 ♪♪ 43 00:04:12,018 --> 00:04:16,623 ♪♪ 44 00:04:16,689 --> 00:04:31,571 ♪♪ ♪♪ 45 00:04:31,638 --> 00:04:31,871 ♪♪ ♪♪ 46 00:04:31,938 --> 00:04:41,748 ♪♪ 47 00:04:41,814 --> 00:04:43,883 >> Billy: What I'm talking about is meditation. 48 00:04:43,950 --> 00:04:47,020 Now, let me be very clear. I am early in on this journey, 49 00:04:47,086 --> 00:04:50,456 and from what I understand, it's not a cure-all but more a tool 50 00:04:50,523 --> 00:04:54,494 to help you calm your mind. And as I sit here with my small 51 00:04:54,560 --> 00:04:58,364 sample size, it has helped me get into a mind-set to talk to 52 00:04:58,431 --> 00:05:02,568 you all freely, with no barriers, with no hang-ups, 53 00:05:02,635 --> 00:05:06,406 without over-thinking it. Because the truth is I'm not 54 00:05:06,472 --> 00:05:09,175 sure where this adventure's going to take me emotionally or 55 00:05:09,242 --> 00:05:12,679 otherwise, but I'm not gonna think about that. 56 00:05:12,745 --> 00:05:17,183 I'm gonna take a leap of faith and I'm gonna put it all out 57 00:05:17,250 --> 00:05:21,587 there. And I'm gonna enjoy the ride. 58 00:05:25,558 --> 00:05:26,826 >> Devon: Jill! 59 00:05:26,893 --> 00:05:28,327 How you doing? It's great to see you. 60 00:05:28,394 --> 00:05:30,897 You look amazing. >> Jill: Well, you look healthy 61 00:05:30,963 --> 00:05:33,866 and happy yourself. Thank you for chatting with me. 62 00:05:33,933 --> 00:05:35,435 >> Devon: Oh, absolutely. You know I'll chat with you 63 00:05:35,501 --> 00:05:37,303 anytime. It's actually funny that you 64 00:05:37,370 --> 00:05:39,806 wanted to do this because I was planning to reach out to you to 65 00:05:39,872 --> 00:05:43,676 discuss something. >> Jill: Really. 66 00:05:43,743 --> 00:05:47,447 Maybe we want to talk about the same thing. 67 00:05:47,513 --> 00:05:51,417 Why don't I go first? >> Devon: Be my guest. 68 00:05:51,484 --> 00:05:55,488 >> Jill: Why the hell are you throwing away the chance of a 69 00:05:55,555 --> 00:05:56,556 lifetime? 70 00:06:05,231 --> 00:06:06,365 >> Billy: Now, I can't take 71 00:06:06,432 --> 00:06:09,402 credit for this new approach. The suggestion came from my 72 00:06:09,469 --> 00:06:12,538 amazing sister, and of course, I gave her a hard time about it in 73 00:06:12,605 --> 00:06:16,509 the beginning, 'cause that's what I do, but once I got over 74 00:06:16,576 --> 00:06:20,980 myself and I actually tried it, she was right. 75 00:06:21,047 --> 00:06:25,351 Because she's always right. And like I said, I am just 76 00:06:25,418 --> 00:06:30,022 beginning to dabble in it, but so far, so good. 77 00:06:30,089 --> 00:06:33,192 And I am fully aware by even talking about it, it might 78 00:06:33,259 --> 00:06:36,562 defeat the purpose and maybe this is gonna come across very 79 00:06:36,629 --> 00:06:40,433 annoying, like I am describing my dreams, and if that's -- if 80 00:06:40,500 --> 00:06:43,369 that's the way it comes across, I apologize. 81 00:06:43,436 --> 00:06:45,538 And who knows? Maybe nobody's gonna even listen 82 00:06:45,605 --> 00:06:49,642 to this in the first place. But I have to say that I have 83 00:06:49,709 --> 00:06:56,349 had a blessed life. But I've also had my struggles. 84 00:06:56,415 --> 00:07:02,054 I've had a fair share of pain and I have made mistakes. 85 00:07:02,121 --> 00:07:07,660 So if this offering can help one person or, better yet, 86 00:07:07,727 --> 00:07:10,429 collectively, we can help each other get past the things that 87 00:07:10,496 --> 00:07:18,371 hold us back, then, without question, all of it...is 88 00:07:18,437 --> 00:07:30,550 absolutely worth it. 89 00:07:30,616 --> 00:07:33,286 >> Traci: Oh, I thought I heard somebody down here. 90 00:07:33,352 --> 00:07:35,888 When did you get home? >> Jack: Just got in. 91 00:07:35,955 --> 00:07:39,192 >> Traci: Well, I am dying to hear every detail about your 92 00:07:39,258 --> 00:07:41,627 trip, but if you're tired, I understand. 93 00:07:41,694 --> 00:07:43,930 >> Jack: Oh, no, I'm so wound up, I can't even think about 94 00:07:43,996 --> 00:07:45,932 sleeping. >> Traci: Mwah. 95 00:07:45,998 --> 00:07:47,533 Well, how about I make us some tea? 96 00:07:47,600 --> 00:07:50,002 >> Jack: You know what? That sounds great. 97 00:07:50,069 --> 00:07:54,574 Oh, and about the talk, fair warning, I got a lot to tell. 98 00:07:54,640 --> 00:07:57,243 >> Traci: I assumed as much. >> Jack: It's stuff I want to 99 00:07:57,310 --> 00:08:00,012 tell the whole family, but I'd love to run it by you first, if 100 00:08:00,079 --> 00:08:04,817 you're okay with that. 101 00:08:04,884 --> 00:08:07,353 >> Devon: I imagine that the chance of a lifetime I'm 102 00:08:07,420 --> 00:08:10,056 throwing away is merging Chancellor and Hamilton-Winters, 103 00:08:10,122 --> 00:08:12,525 right? >> Jill: Good guess. 104 00:08:12,592 --> 00:08:16,562 Must be why you have the CEO title and the big office. 105 00:08:16,629 --> 00:08:19,031 >> Devon: Well, you know, those are two things that I really do 106 00:08:19,098 --> 00:08:22,134 love, Jill. >> Jill: Oh, I'm sure you do. 107 00:08:22,201 --> 00:08:24,737 But before you say anything else, let me just tell you that 108 00:08:24,804 --> 00:08:29,275 when Lily first pitched the idea to me, I was floored. 109 00:08:29,342 --> 00:08:35,848 But I quickly came to realize, Devon, it is inspired. 110 00:08:35,915 --> 00:08:41,354 Together, our two companies would be unstoppable. 111 00:08:41,420 --> 00:08:44,090 Look what the Newman/Locke merger has done for those 112 00:08:44,156 --> 00:08:46,325 entities. >> Devon: Yeah, I can definitely 113 00:08:46,392 --> 00:08:49,328 see the possibilities, but you and I both know that there are 114 00:08:49,395 --> 00:08:52,298 complications that come with making a power play like that. 115 00:08:52,365 --> 00:08:55,601 >> Jill: With a company as big as ours would be, we could 116 00:08:55,668 --> 00:08:59,839 handle any difficulties. >> Devon: No, I know that, Jill, 117 00:08:59,906 --> 00:09:03,609 and, believe me, I haven't stopped considering it at all. 118 00:09:03,676 --> 00:09:06,245 I just feel like we need to focus on this first joint 119 00:09:06,312 --> 00:09:09,181 venture that we have going and see how that goes first before 120 00:09:09,248 --> 00:09:11,584 we take the next step. >> Jill: Oh, I already know how 121 00:09:11,651 --> 00:09:16,455 it's gonna go -- fabulously. It's you and Lily. 122 00:09:16,522 --> 00:09:19,892 I see nothing but success for any co-production between the 123 00:09:19,959 --> 00:09:23,162 two of you. But let me say that I think 124 00:09:23,229 --> 00:09:28,167 delaying the bigger move would be a huge mistake. 125 00:09:28,234 --> 00:09:33,673 Think about what Katherine or Neil would do in this situation. 126 00:09:33,739 --> 00:09:36,509 >> Devon: Yeah, I'm pretty sure that Neil and Katherine would 127 00:09:36,575 --> 00:09:39,245 both take their time before making such a big decision like 128 00:09:39,312 --> 00:09:42,281 this, and they would weigh everything very carefully. 129 00:09:42,348 --> 00:09:44,550 >> Jill: And then they would both agree this is the right 130 00:09:44,617 --> 00:09:48,554 move. I have looked at this from every 131 00:09:48,621 --> 00:09:53,392 single angle, and I have to tell, it almost seems like it 132 00:09:53,459 --> 00:09:58,631 was written in the stars. Katherine would love that you 133 00:09:58,698 --> 00:10:01,734 were involved in running Chancellor. 134 00:10:01,801 --> 00:10:04,437 >> Devon: I know that what you're saying is true and I also 135 00:10:04,503 --> 00:10:07,173 know that Neil would love to know that his kids are working 136 00:10:07,239 --> 00:10:09,909 together, because we created Hamilton-Winters to be a family 137 00:10:09,976 --> 00:10:12,912 company. >> Jill: And on top of all that, 138 00:10:12,979 --> 00:10:17,817 you are now a third parent to my great-grandson. 139 00:10:17,883 --> 00:10:23,823 How much more family can we get? 140 00:10:23,889 --> 00:10:25,658 >> Billy: The good, the bad, the ugly, and everything in 141 00:10:25,725 --> 00:10:30,062 between -- that's what you're gonna get from me. 142 00:10:30,129 --> 00:10:35,001 And I thought that I would start with a story about a sweet 143 00:10:35,067 --> 00:10:41,007 little girl whose death changed my life forever. 144 00:10:41,073 --> 00:10:43,476 Now, I should probably warn you, there are parts of this story 145 00:10:43,542 --> 00:10:48,914 that are a little bit rough. But it's the defining moment in 146 00:10:48,981 --> 00:10:55,688 my adult life and, for me, the only place to begin. 147 00:10:55,755 --> 00:11:01,961 A shocking loss that led me down a path into darkness. 148 00:11:02,028 --> 00:11:09,902 A cautionary tale that gets worse before it gets better. 149 00:11:09,969 --> 00:11:15,474 Now, I don't think that I will ever entirely heal, but the 150 00:11:15,541 --> 00:11:21,781 truth is I'm not sure if I want to, and the fear is that I would 151 00:11:21,847 --> 00:11:28,387 somehow lose the memories. Somehow my sweet daughter would 152 00:11:28,454 --> 00:11:34,193 disappear in some sort of way, and...I like having her there 153 00:11:34,260 --> 00:11:42,068 in whatever capacity I can get. But her memory has not been 154 00:11:42,134 --> 00:11:45,604 serving me in the way that it could. 155 00:11:45,671 --> 00:11:50,676 And I'm hoping that I finally figured out that the key to it 156 00:11:50,743 --> 00:12:00,853 is to love her, honor her, and celebrate her without 157 00:12:00,920 --> 00:12:08,327 letting the pain and grief and anger drive me. 158 00:12:08,394 --> 00:12:13,766 Now, the ending of this story 159 00:12:13,833 --> 00:12:17,369 isn't exactly happy because happy would mean that she is 160 00:12:17,436 --> 00:12:21,540 still here. But it's filled with beautiful 161 00:12:21,607 --> 00:12:25,377 memories. And the fact that I was able to 162 00:12:25,444 --> 00:12:29,815 love her, and that gives me strength, and I'm hoping that 163 00:12:29,882 --> 00:12:35,855 this can be an uplifting, empowering story. 164 00:12:35,921 --> 00:12:43,262 Because with all the pain, I am still forever grateful and 165 00:12:43,329 --> 00:12:50,769 consider myself incredibly lucky that I was able to know her in 166 00:12:50,836 --> 00:12:56,442 the way that I did. Even if it was for way too short 167 00:12:56,509 --> 00:12:57,209 of a time. 168 00:13:04,650 --> 00:13:07,286 >> Jack: "I found a way to let go of my anger. 169 00:13:07,353 --> 00:13:11,690 I've forgiven you. But I can't see you or be part 170 00:13:11,757 --> 00:13:14,326 of your life. I'm sorry for that. 171 00:13:14,393 --> 00:13:18,531 I wish I was stronger or better somehow, but this is the way it 172 00:13:18,597 --> 00:13:24,203 has to be, at least for now. You should know, even though I 173 00:13:24,270 --> 00:13:30,809 still can't bring myself to bridge that gap, that de-- 174 00:13:30,876 --> 00:13:41,387 that deep down...a son will always love his father." 175 00:13:41,453 --> 00:13:46,125 >> Traci: Oh, Jack. [ Sighs ] 176 00:13:46,192 --> 00:13:48,894 I'm so glad that you weren't alone when you found these, and 177 00:13:48,961 --> 00:13:51,597 I wish I had been there for you. >> Jack: You know what? 178 00:13:51,664 --> 00:13:54,466 Phyllis was really there. She was as strong and as good a 179 00:13:54,533 --> 00:13:58,003 friend as I could've asked for during this emotional roller 180 00:13:58,070 --> 00:14:00,472 coaster. >> Traci: Yes. 181 00:14:00,539 --> 00:14:03,876 >> Jack: I just wish I'd reached out to Keemo one last time. 182 00:14:03,943 --> 00:14:06,445 >> Traci: Oh, no, no, you cannot blame yourself for that. 183 00:14:06,512 --> 00:14:08,414 A relationship is a two-way street. 184 00:14:08,480 --> 00:14:11,884 >> Jack: Yeah, my brain knows that, my heart still just hurts. 185 00:14:11,951 --> 00:14:15,354 >> Traci: Jack, it's gonna take time. 186 00:14:15,421 --> 00:14:19,992 >> Jack: Yeah. Yeah, it's gonna take time, and 187 00:14:20,059 --> 00:14:22,995 my emotions have been all over the place. 188 00:14:23,062 --> 00:14:25,531 >> Traci: Of course they have, because they're trying to make 189 00:14:25,598 --> 00:14:32,271 sense of something that doesn't. >> Jack: How is it you always 190 00:14:32,338 --> 00:14:34,206 know the right thing to say? >> Traci: [ Chuckles ] 191 00:14:34,273 --> 00:14:36,475 I don't know about that, but I'm just doing the best I can, same 192 00:14:36,542 --> 00:14:39,511 as you. And this situation is so 193 00:14:39,578 --> 00:14:42,948 overwhelming. >> Jack: You don't know the half 194 00:14:43,015 --> 00:14:45,684 of it. >> Traci: [ Sighs ] I'm afraid 195 00:14:45,751 --> 00:14:47,319 to ask. What -- What? 196 00:14:47,386 --> 00:14:50,723 There's something more? >> Jack: Well, when Luan died, 197 00:14:50,789 --> 00:14:56,028 Keemo left Genoa City and he got on with his life. 198 00:14:56,095 --> 00:14:58,430 He found some happiness. He met someone. 199 00:14:58,497 --> 00:15:02,801 He fell in love. He got married. 200 00:15:02,868 --> 00:15:08,741 He had a child. >> Traci: I'm sorry, what? 201 00:15:08,807 --> 00:15:14,380 >> Jack: You have a great-niece. I have a granddaughter. 202 00:15:14,446 --> 00:15:20,786 >> Traci: Oh. [ Chuckles ] Oh, Jack! 203 00:15:20,853 --> 00:15:22,488 >> Amanda: Thank you for calling me. 204 00:15:22,554 --> 00:15:26,258 We are so overdue for some girl time. 205 00:15:26,325 --> 00:15:29,962 So tell me about all of your adventures with Jack. 206 00:15:30,029 --> 00:15:33,499 >> Phyllis: Adventures? >> Amanda: Okay, I didn't mean 207 00:15:33,565 --> 00:15:37,369 that the way that it sounded. >> Phyllis: Uh, definitely 208 00:15:37,436 --> 00:15:39,972 adventure -- I don't know if it's the right word. 209 00:15:40,039 --> 00:15:43,275 I mean, it just felt really great giving emotional support 210 00:15:43,342 --> 00:15:47,046 to Jack when he's usually extending that to me. 211 00:15:47,112 --> 00:15:50,049 >> Amanda: Well, I'm really glad that you were there for Jack 212 00:15:50,115 --> 00:15:53,552 when he needed you. And I don't know what happened, 213 00:15:53,619 --> 00:15:58,190 but is there any way that these supportive feelings turned 214 00:15:58,257 --> 00:16:00,392 romantic? >> Phyllis: It wasn't like that 215 00:16:00,459 --> 00:16:05,998 at all. 216 00:16:06,065 --> 00:16:08,734 >> Traci: Okay, you're gonna have to go back and take me 217 00:16:08,801 --> 00:16:11,804 through this one step at a time, 'cause I -- I mean, how old is 218 00:16:11,870 --> 00:16:12,905 she? What's her name? 219 00:16:12,971 --> 00:16:15,607 Did you get to meet her? >> Jack: Her name is Allie. 220 00:16:15,674 --> 00:16:19,712 I met her today, and she is a bright, beautiful young graduate 221 00:16:19,778 --> 00:16:21,680 student. >> Traci: Okay, so we're not 222 00:16:21,747 --> 00:16:23,782 talking about a little girl. >> Jack: Oh, no, no, she's an 223 00:16:23,849 --> 00:16:26,151 adult. Here. 224 00:16:26,218 --> 00:16:28,687 Yeah, I missed out on her childhood the same way I missed 225 00:16:28,754 --> 00:16:31,156 out on Keemo's. >> Traci: Oh, Jack, she's just 226 00:16:31,223 --> 00:16:33,459 beautiful. >> Jack: Yeah. 227 00:16:33,525 --> 00:16:36,195 >> Traci: Is she the one that's been sending you these cryptic 228 00:16:36,261 --> 00:16:37,863 texts? >> Jack: No. 229 00:16:37,930 --> 00:16:43,268 She had no idea who I was. Now, who-- whoever sent those 230 00:16:43,335 --> 00:16:47,673 texts, if the purpose was to get me closer to my granddaughter, 231 00:16:47,740 --> 00:16:51,877 the texter succeeded. >> Traci: How is it possible she 232 00:16:51,944 --> 00:16:56,248 didn't know anything about you? >> Jack: Because Keemo insisted 233 00:16:56,315 --> 00:17:00,419 she not know I even existed. >> Traci: Oh, Jack, I'm sorry. 234 00:17:00,486 --> 00:17:03,455 >> Jack: Yeah, it's a lot to take in, but I'll work my way 235 00:17:03,522 --> 00:17:06,191 through that. >> Traci: Yes, yes, you will, 236 00:17:06,258 --> 00:17:08,660 and I still have a whole bunch of questions. 237 00:17:08,727 --> 00:17:11,063 Starting with, when do I get to meet this new member of our 238 00:17:11,130 --> 00:17:13,932 family? >> Jack: Well, I'd love for that 239 00:17:13,999 --> 00:17:17,269 to happen soon, but...not right away. 240 00:17:17,336 --> 00:17:20,739 No, I -- if it's going to happen -- and believe me, I want 241 00:17:20,806 --> 00:17:24,710 it to happen -- it's gonna take some time. 242 00:17:33,919 --> 00:17:35,087 >> Billy: After I lost my 243 00:17:35,154 --> 00:17:39,958 daughter, I felt myself building these walls around my heart, 244 00:17:40,025 --> 00:17:43,929 around everything good in my life, and maybe that was 245 00:17:43,996 --> 00:17:46,231 self-preservation. Clearly I was trying to protect 246 00:17:46,298 --> 00:17:51,136 myself, but the problem was these walls were built with 247 00:17:51,203 --> 00:17:57,576 hatred. And they were aimed directly 248 00:17:57,643 --> 00:18:03,515 at the person responsible for her death. 249 00:18:03,582 --> 00:18:09,021 [ Sighs ] I realized that really it was me 250 00:18:09,087 --> 00:18:15,127 avoiding dealing directly with my sense of loss...and with my 251 00:18:15,194 --> 00:18:19,364 own guilt. All of it festering under the 252 00:18:19,431 --> 00:18:24,603 surface. At times, lying dormant, but at 253 00:18:24,670 --> 00:18:32,945 other times erupting, and when it did, it wasn't good. 254 00:18:33,011 --> 00:18:36,582 I acted out in a way that was scary and sometimes very 255 00:18:36,648 --> 00:18:41,720 troubling. At one point, pushing my mind to 256 00:18:41,787 --> 00:18:47,192 actually splinter. [ Sighs ] 257 00:18:47,259 --> 00:18:54,166 But I'm lucky. I had the love of a good friend 258 00:18:54,233 --> 00:18:59,004 and I had therapy to put myself back together. 259 00:18:59,071 --> 00:19:06,411 And after backsliding more times than I care to mention... 260 00:19:06,478 --> 00:19:09,848 something amazing happened to me. 261 00:19:09,915 --> 00:19:17,723 Something very surprising. Something that saved me. 262 00:19:17,789 --> 00:19:24,463 Pure and simple...love. 263 00:19:24,530 --> 00:19:25,764 >> Devon: Well, thank you for coming by. 264 00:19:25,831 --> 00:19:28,066 Hope I didn't call you too late. >> Lily: No, no, I was up. 265 00:19:28,133 --> 00:19:29,868 Is everything okay? Dom's good? 266 00:19:29,935 --> 00:19:32,437 >> Devon: Yeah, yeah, Dom is getting better every day. 267 00:19:32,504 --> 00:19:34,072 >> Lily: Good. >> Devon: Yeah. 268 00:19:34,139 --> 00:19:36,975 >> Lily: But I'm guessing you called me over here for more 269 00:19:37,042 --> 00:19:40,178 than just a catch-up? >> Devon: Yeah, yeah, I did. 270 00:19:40,245 --> 00:19:43,482 Jill called me tonight. >> Lily: Oh. 271 00:19:43,549 --> 00:19:45,551 >> Devon: Mm-hmm. >> Lily: To talk about the 272 00:19:45,617 --> 00:19:46,919 merger? >> Devon: Mm-hmm, yes. 273 00:19:46,985 --> 00:19:49,454 >> Lily: Okay, I did not put her up to that, I promise you. 274 00:19:49,521 --> 00:19:51,723 >> Devon: I know you didn't. Nobody puts Jill up to anything. 275 00:19:51,790 --> 00:19:56,061 >> Lily: That's very true. So...what happened? 276 00:19:56,128 --> 00:19:59,798 >> Devon: She wouldn't take no for an answer is what happened. 277 00:19:59,865 --> 00:20:01,934 >> Lily: Does that mean that she convinced you? 278 00:20:02,000 --> 00:20:04,369 >> Devon: [ Chuckles ] >> Lily: [ Chuckles ] 279 00:20:04,436 --> 00:20:06,872 >> Traci: How is it that Allie doesn't want to see you again 280 00:20:06,939 --> 00:20:09,541 after just having met you? >> Jack: Actually, Allie 281 00:20:09,608 --> 00:20:13,111 proposed that we get together sometime in the future, you 282 00:20:13,178 --> 00:20:16,181 know, for coffee next time I'm in LA. 283 00:20:16,248 --> 00:20:18,917 It's cute. I made the same offer. 284 00:20:18,984 --> 00:20:21,219 I don't expect much to come of it. 285 00:20:21,286 --> 00:20:24,756 >> Traci: Why not? >> Jack: Well, I think her first 286 00:20:24,823 --> 00:20:28,927 instinct is to run for the hills and forget we ever met. 287 00:20:28,994 --> 00:20:32,598 Now, I don't blame her. I really don't, on some level. 288 00:20:32,664 --> 00:20:36,368 She has her own life. She's mourning her father's 289 00:20:36,435 --> 00:20:38,837 death. And I show up in the middle of 290 00:20:38,904 --> 00:20:40,772 her grieving and it's like a bomb. 291 00:20:40,839 --> 00:20:44,042 She was as shocked by my existence as I was by hers. 292 00:20:44,109 --> 00:20:49,247 I don't blame her if she decides she wants to back up and walk 293 00:20:49,314 --> 00:20:52,384 away. >> Traci: Well, I take all of 294 00:20:52,451 --> 00:20:55,153 your points. It's just I find the whole 295 00:20:55,220 --> 00:20:59,658 situation so heartbreaking. >> Jack: Yeah, it didn't exactly 296 00:20:59,725 --> 00:21:04,062 go like I planned. But I'm not giving up. 297 00:21:04,129 --> 00:21:08,000 I am convinced I can forge some kind of relationship with my 298 00:21:08,066 --> 00:21:11,236 granddaughter, some kind of bond. 299 00:21:11,303 --> 00:21:14,840 She just needs time to get used to the idea -- it's more than 300 00:21:14,906 --> 00:21:18,944 time. I -- I have to find some way to 301 00:21:19,011 --> 00:21:23,382 let her know artfully, carefully, subtly, that the 302 00:21:23,448 --> 00:21:28,020 Abbotts' door is always open to her. 303 00:21:28,086 --> 00:21:32,591 >> Allie: I wish you could give 304 00:21:32,658 --> 00:21:42,167 me a sign or something, Dad. God, I am just...so confused. 305 00:21:42,234 --> 00:21:49,341 In the past, when I needed to 306 00:21:49,408 --> 00:21:55,247 talk to someone, you were the one who I turned to. 307 00:21:55,313 --> 00:22:02,454 When things got rough, I leaned on you. 308 00:22:02,521 --> 00:22:07,526 And now... 309 00:22:07,592 --> 00:22:13,632 I have no one. 310 00:22:13,699 --> 00:22:19,638 [ Sighs ] Or at least nobody like you. 311 00:22:19,705 --> 00:22:25,243 Mom is a million miles away, busy with her own life. 312 00:22:25,310 --> 00:22:30,582 And we both know that's never gonna change. 313 00:22:30,649 --> 00:22:38,523 You're gone and, uh...you're 314 00:22:38,590 --> 00:22:41,760 never really coming back, are you? 315 00:22:41,827 --> 00:22:50,202 And now...Jack Abbott shows up. 316 00:22:50,268 --> 00:22:56,308 How do I know if I can trust 317 00:22:56,374 --> 00:23:00,712 him? I mean, the last thing I would 318 00:23:00,779 --> 00:23:03,181 want to do is disgrace your memory by doing something that 319 00:23:03,248 --> 00:23:10,122 you wouldn't approve of. 320 00:23:10,188 --> 00:23:16,194 If you cut him out of your life, then shouldn't I do the same? 321 00:23:25,871 --> 00:23:27,539 >> "The Young and the Restless" will continue. 322 00:23:46,892 --> 00:23:48,093 >> Phyllis: What happened with 323 00:23:48,160 --> 00:23:56,268 Jack in California was so heavy. I mean, all the emotions that he 324 00:23:56,334 --> 00:24:00,438 dealt with, the loss of his son, then all the other stuff that 325 00:24:00,505 --> 00:24:04,676 came up, it just... >> Amanda: I'm sorry. 326 00:24:04,743 --> 00:24:08,013 I am -- I'm so sorry that I tried to make light of the 327 00:24:08,079 --> 00:24:11,583 situation by, you know, asking if it went romantic. 328 00:24:11,650 --> 00:24:14,486 >> Phyllis: No, you're okay. I mean, it just wasn't that kind 329 00:24:14,553 --> 00:24:15,954 of trip. >> Amanda: Okay, I got it. 330 00:24:16,021 --> 00:24:18,990 >> Phyllis: Yeah, and, you know, Jack and I are not in the 331 00:24:19,057 --> 00:24:21,159 romantic mind-set. >> Amanda: Mm. 332 00:24:21,226 --> 00:24:24,129 Great. >> Phyllis: I thought we made 333 00:24:24,196 --> 00:24:25,931 that clear. I mean, I thought we were okay 334 00:24:25,997 --> 00:24:27,666 on that. >> Amanda: Yeah, I put that 335 00:24:27,732 --> 00:24:29,501 topic to bed. >> Phyllis: Oh, good, good, 336 00:24:29,568 --> 00:24:31,736 because it's a non-starter. >> Amanda: Okay, well, you're 337 00:24:31,803 --> 00:24:33,705 the one that still keeps talking about it. 338 00:24:33,772 --> 00:24:36,842 >> Phyllis: I'm not talking about it, just... 339 00:24:36,908 --> 00:24:39,744 >> Amanda: I just want to say that I know that Jack 340 00:24:39,811 --> 00:24:41,947 appreciated you being there for him. 341 00:24:42,013 --> 00:24:44,983 You are that rare person that would drop everything and fly 342 00:24:45,050 --> 00:24:48,019 across the country when somebody needs you. 343 00:24:48,086 --> 00:24:51,056 >> Phyllis: That's sweet. I am. 344 00:24:51,122 --> 00:24:54,059 [ Chuckles ] And it wasn't a sacrifice, by 345 00:24:54,125 --> 00:24:55,894 the way. I was happy to be there for 346 00:24:55,961 --> 00:24:59,731 Jack. >> Amanda: See, I think that you 347 00:24:59,798 --> 00:25:02,500 and Jack, your relationship has just -- it's reached a new 348 00:25:02,567 --> 00:25:04,236 level, even if it's not romantic. 349 00:25:04,302 --> 00:25:05,503 >> Phyllis: You know what? It has. 350 00:25:05,570 --> 00:25:09,341 You're right, it has reached a new level. 351 00:25:09,407 --> 00:25:11,776 >> Jack: Well, I have been going on and on. 352 00:25:11,843 --> 00:25:13,712 What do you think? >> Traci: [ Sighs ] 353 00:25:13,778 --> 00:25:18,550 Well, I don't want to dampen your hopes. 354 00:25:18,617 --> 00:25:22,354 >> Jack: But? >> Traci: I also don't want to 355 00:25:22,420 --> 00:25:24,990 see you set yourself up to be disappointed. 356 00:25:25,056 --> 00:25:27,125 >> Jack: I'm calling it guarded optimism. 357 00:25:27,192 --> 00:25:30,495 >> Traci: [ Chuckles ] I consider myself an optimist, 358 00:25:30,562 --> 00:25:31,997 too. >> Jack: I know. 359 00:25:32,063 --> 00:25:35,567 I know where you're going next. I'm telling you, you don't have 360 00:25:35,634 --> 00:25:38,637 to worry about me. I am moving forward with my eyes 361 00:25:38,703 --> 00:25:42,374 wide open, well aware this may not work out. 362 00:25:42,440 --> 00:25:45,810 But I'm thinking maybe the door won't always be closed. 363 00:25:45,877 --> 00:25:49,781 I see in Allie this bright, resourceful young woman, but I 364 00:25:49,848 --> 00:25:57,689 also am aware she needs family. She's lost family. 365 00:25:57,756 --> 00:26:01,159 Her whole family's been upended. >> Traci: What about her other 366 00:26:01,226 --> 00:26:02,961 relatives? I mean, where's her mother? 367 00:26:03,028 --> 00:26:06,798 >> Jack: Well, she said that Keemo and her mother divorced 368 00:26:06,865 --> 00:26:10,835 some time ago and that she and her mother have kind of a rocky 369 00:26:10,902 --> 00:26:15,573 relationship. When I look in her eyes, I just 370 00:26:15,640 --> 00:26:22,614 see someone who's alone, afraid, and sad. 371 00:26:22,681 --> 00:26:26,985 >> Traci: She's not the only one who's sad, Jack. 372 00:26:27,052 --> 00:26:30,622 >> Jack: Yeah, it's been a rough time all around. 373 00:26:30,689 --> 00:26:35,560 >> Traci: But you have handled this with generosity and grace, 374 00:26:35,627 --> 00:26:40,465 and I admire your determination. I know I had reservations, but I 375 00:26:40,532 --> 00:26:43,868 am so grateful that you went all the way to Los Angeles looking 376 00:26:43,935 --> 00:26:49,708 for answers. And you found Allie. 377 00:26:49,774 --> 00:26:53,144 And I'm equally glad that you're home, where your family can take 378 00:26:53,211 --> 00:27:00,018 care of you. >> Jack: Thanks. Needed this. 379 00:27:00,085 --> 00:27:03,722 >> Traci: [ Laughs ] And speaking of family, everyone 380 00:27:03,788 --> 00:27:05,323 else is gonna want to know every detail. 381 00:27:05,390 --> 00:27:08,860 >> Jack: You know what, you know what, I do want to tell 382 00:27:08,927 --> 00:27:12,297 everyone, but look at the hour. Not everyone's on LA time. 383 00:27:12,364 --> 00:27:14,666 You know what? I'm gonna go for a drive and try 384 00:27:14,733 --> 00:27:18,269 to wind down. >> Traci: [ Chuckles ] 385 00:27:18,336 --> 00:27:23,308 Jack, you are going to work your way through this, and you're not 386 00:27:23,375 --> 00:27:26,745 gonna have to do it alone. I love you so much. 387 00:27:26,811 --> 00:27:33,985 [ Chuckles ] >> Jack: I love you. 388 00:27:34,052 --> 00:27:39,457 I cannot believe my son is gone. >> Traci: I know. 389 00:27:39,524 --> 00:27:42,394 >> Jack: But I am determined not to let that happen to my 390 00:27:42,460 --> 00:27:48,900 granddaughter. 391 00:27:48,967 --> 00:27:51,102 >> Devon: Yeah, no, Jill just made about as good of an 392 00:27:51,169 --> 00:27:55,473 argument as you did about why we should merge the companies. 393 00:27:55,540 --> 00:27:59,544 >> Lily: Okay, but are you buying it? 394 00:27:59,611 --> 00:28:04,182 >> Devon: Um...the more I think about it, the more I love the 395 00:28:04,249 --> 00:28:07,852 idea of paying homage to family. I will say that. 396 00:28:07,919 --> 00:28:10,755 >> Lily: So does that mean you're closer to a yes than 397 00:28:10,822 --> 00:28:13,291 before? >> Devon: I would have to see a 398 00:28:13,358 --> 00:28:16,661 very detailed proposal on how it would all work out. 399 00:28:16,728 --> 00:28:18,930 >> Lily: Well, funny enough, I actually already have one made, 400 00:28:18,997 --> 00:28:20,532 ready for you to view. >> Devon: Really? 401 00:28:20,598 --> 00:28:22,033 >> Lily: I do. >> Devon: I bet you do. 402 00:28:22,100 --> 00:28:23,601 >> Lily: [ Laughs ] >> Devon: I bet you do. 403 00:28:23,668 --> 00:28:26,838 [ Chuckles ] You never doubted yourself on 404 00:28:26,905 --> 00:28:28,973 pulling this off, have you? >> Lily: No, that's not true. 405 00:28:29,040 --> 00:28:32,977 I just... I was really hoping that the 406 00:28:33,044 --> 00:28:36,848 idea of bringing family together would eventually sway you. 407 00:28:36,915 --> 00:28:39,517 >> Devon: [ Chuckles ] That's another thing, too, 408 00:28:39,584 --> 00:28:43,054 'cause, like, the benefits of a merger are obvious to me, of 409 00:28:43,121 --> 00:28:45,757 course. But I would want to make sure 410 00:28:45,824 --> 00:28:48,693 that that never caused any trouble between you and me. 411 00:28:48,760 --> 00:28:51,463 Just 'cause I know, we've seen family, you know, turn on each 412 00:28:51,529 --> 00:28:54,599 other because of business, and I don't want that to ever happen. 413 00:28:54,666 --> 00:28:58,536 >> Lily: I understand that. But I really don't think that's 414 00:28:58,603 --> 00:29:01,506 gonna happen to us. I mean, first of all, I trust 415 00:29:01,573 --> 00:29:04,109 you more than anyone else in the world. 416 00:29:04,175 --> 00:29:07,846 And secondly, like, we've been through so much together, right? 417 00:29:07,912 --> 00:29:11,649 Like, teenage years, everything. I mean, in my mind, there's no 418 00:29:11,716 --> 00:29:15,286 amount of corporate friction that could ever sever our bond. 419 00:29:15,353 --> 00:29:17,388 >> Devon: No. Are you sure about that? 420 00:29:17,455 --> 00:29:21,092 >> Lily: Yes, I am. And honestly, I would step away 421 00:29:21,159 --> 00:29:23,962 from all of it if our relationship were ever put on 422 00:29:24,028 --> 00:29:26,431 the line. >> Devon: You'd step down as 423 00:29:26,498 --> 00:29:28,700 CEO? >> Lily: Absolutely, yes. 424 00:29:28,766 --> 00:29:33,738 >> Devon: Well, I mean, I guess 425 00:29:33,805 --> 00:29:36,875 then I would have to make that same promise to you. 426 00:29:36,941 --> 00:29:42,180 And if anything ever goes bad, I'll step down, too. 427 00:29:42,247 --> 00:29:43,815 >> Lily: So are we on the same page? 428 00:29:43,882 --> 00:29:47,051 >> Devon: I think we are. >> Lily: Okay, I want to hear 429 00:29:47,118 --> 00:29:48,319 you say it. >> Devon: Okay. 430 00:29:48,386 --> 00:29:49,854 >> Lily: Say the words. >> Devon: I'm ready. 431 00:29:49,921 --> 00:29:52,223 I'm ready to take this shot. Let's do it. 432 00:29:52,290 --> 00:29:55,293 Let's make Dad and Katherine proud. 433 00:29:55,360 --> 00:29:58,363 >> Lily: Oh! I'm so happy. 434 00:29:58,429 --> 00:29:59,797 [ Both laugh ] >> Devon: Me too. 435 00:30:07,972 --> 00:30:08,873 >> Billy: Hey. 436 00:30:08,940 --> 00:30:11,109 >> Lily: Hi. >> Billy: How was your evening? 437 00:30:11,176 --> 00:30:13,845 >> Lily: Well, I'm very glad you asked. 438 00:30:13,912 --> 00:30:17,182 It was amazing. How was yours? 439 00:30:17,248 --> 00:30:20,752 >> Billy: It was good, but I want to hear about yours first. 440 00:30:20,818 --> 00:30:24,355 >> Lily: Well, I had a breakthrough with Devon and the 441 00:30:24,422 --> 00:30:26,257 merger. So a lot of work and 442 00:30:26,324 --> 00:30:29,561 negotiations have to be done, but I think it might actually 443 00:30:29,627 --> 00:30:31,362 happen. >> Billy: Oh, my gosh, that's 444 00:30:31,429 --> 00:30:32,630 amazing. Congratulations. 445 00:30:32,697 --> 00:30:35,633 How did you convince him? >> Lily: Well, I mean, your 446 00:30:35,700 --> 00:30:38,570 mother, of course, helped, but I think the clincher was that I 447 00:30:38,636 --> 00:30:41,339 told him no business would ever come between us. 448 00:30:41,406 --> 00:30:43,975 And I meant it, you know? We've been through so much 449 00:30:44,042 --> 00:30:46,344 together. I really do believe that our 450 00:30:46,411 --> 00:30:49,881 relationship is unbreakable. >> Billy: I don't doubt it. 451 00:30:49,948 --> 00:30:52,016 >> Lily: So what's your news? Tell me. 452 00:30:52,083 --> 00:30:55,053 >> Billy: Well, I had a bit of a breakthrough myself. 453 00:30:55,119 --> 00:30:58,923 You know that Traci suggested I try meditation, so I have for 454 00:30:58,990 --> 00:31:02,927 the last few days, and I have to say, it has really helped calm 455 00:31:02,994 --> 00:31:06,297 my mind and helped me feel open emotionally. 456 00:31:06,364 --> 00:31:09,634 I just finished my first podcast, and I have to say, it 457 00:31:09,701 --> 00:31:12,070 felt good. I put it out there for the world 458 00:31:12,136 --> 00:31:13,638 to hear. >> Lily: That's amazing. 459 00:31:13,705 --> 00:31:15,373 >> Billy: Yeah. >> Lily: Are you happy with it? 460 00:31:15,440 --> 00:31:17,175 >> Billy: I am. Yeah, I mean, I don't know if 461 00:31:17,242 --> 00:31:19,978 anyone's gonna listen to it, but that's not up to me. 462 00:31:20,044 --> 00:31:22,380 But it felt cathartic. >> Lily: Wow. 463 00:31:22,447 --> 00:31:24,949 See? I knew you could do it. I knew you'd find a way to get 464 00:31:25,016 --> 00:31:27,919 your inspiration out. I can't wait to hear it. 465 00:31:27,986 --> 00:31:31,122 >> Billy: Well, I should warn you, little bit of a spoiler 466 00:31:31,189 --> 00:31:34,359 alert, you do factor into it, kind of a reoccurring theme. 467 00:31:34,425 --> 00:31:36,427 >> Lily: Oh, God. >> Billy: No, it's not bad. 468 00:31:36,494 --> 00:31:39,831 It's -- It's all good because the truth is, I'll never get 469 00:31:39,897 --> 00:31:42,734 tired of telling you that you saved my life. 470 00:31:46,704 --> 00:31:48,206 >> Amanda: Hey. 471 00:31:48,273 --> 00:31:49,741 >> Devon: Hey. >> Amanda: I'm home. 472 00:31:49,807 --> 00:31:51,676 >> Devon: Hi. [ Chuckles ] 473 00:31:51,743 --> 00:31:57,949 How you doing? >> Amanda: I'm good. 474 00:31:58,016 --> 00:32:01,452 Mm. [ Chuckles ] Well, that is a really nice 475 00:32:01,519 --> 00:32:02,687 welcome home. [ Both laugh ] 476 00:32:02,754 --> 00:32:04,222 >> Devon: There's more where that came from. 477 00:32:04,289 --> 00:32:05,990 >> Amanda: Yeah? >> Devon: Mm-hmm. 478 00:32:06,057 --> 00:32:08,459 >> Amanda: Whoa, okay, okay. Okay, Romeo. 479 00:32:08,526 --> 00:32:10,161 >> Devon: [ Chuckles ] >> Amanda: Am I just that 480 00:32:10,228 --> 00:32:13,097 irresistible today or is something else going on? 481 00:32:13,164 --> 00:32:15,933 >> Devon: Well, you're irresistible every day, but, 482 00:32:16,000 --> 00:32:19,871 yeah, I do have some big news. Uh, Lily and I have decided to 483 00:32:19,937 --> 00:32:23,574 move forward with merging our companies. 484 00:32:23,641 --> 00:32:25,343 >> Amanda: Are you kidding? >> Devon: No. 485 00:32:25,410 --> 00:32:28,246 >> Amanda: Wow, that's -- that's fantastic. 486 00:32:28,313 --> 00:32:31,215 >> Devon: Yeah, I thought so. >> Amanda: Yeah. 487 00:32:31,282 --> 00:32:34,619 I'm happy for you, really. >> Devon: Is that your happy 488 00:32:34,686 --> 00:32:35,887 face? [ Chuckles ] 489 00:32:35,953 --> 00:32:39,090 >> Amanda: I'm just -- I'm hoping that Lily didn't push you 490 00:32:39,157 --> 00:32:41,526 into this. >> Devon: No, I promise you she 491 00:32:41,592 --> 00:32:43,761 didn't at all. I considered her options and I 492 00:32:43,828 --> 00:32:46,464 got input from other people, but, no, the decision was mine. 493 00:32:46,531 --> 00:32:47,899 >> Amanda: And you thought this through? 494 00:32:47,965 --> 00:32:51,269 >> Devon: Yes, I did. >> Amanda: Okay, well, then I'm 495 00:32:51,336 --> 00:32:52,603 ecstatic. >> Devon: Yeah? 496 00:32:52,670 --> 00:32:54,806 >> Amanda: I'm so excited. [ Both laugh ] 497 00:32:54,872 --> 00:32:57,075 >> Devon: Well, thank you. There's still a lot of -- a 498 00:32:57,141 --> 00:32:58,609 lot of stuff to nail down, but... 499 00:32:58,676 --> 00:33:01,446 >> Amanda: Yes, and as the head of Chancellor's legal 500 00:33:01,512 --> 00:33:04,716 department, I am well aware this deal is gonna be complicated, 501 00:33:04,782 --> 00:33:08,953 but potentially groundbreaking. And there's the added bonus of 502 00:33:09,020 --> 00:33:11,656 the two of us working together. >> Devon: Oh, that's right. 503 00:33:11,723 --> 00:33:14,892 That is right. >> Amanda: Oh, I will be tough 504 00:33:14,959 --> 00:33:17,295 but fair. >> Devon: You're always fair. 505 00:33:17,362 --> 00:33:20,465 >> Amanda: [ Laughs ] >> Devon: Mm. 506 00:33:20,531 --> 00:33:23,201 I haven't been this happy in a very, very long time, you know 507 00:33:23,267 --> 00:33:24,569 that? >> Amanda: Yeah? 508 00:33:24,635 --> 00:33:27,004 >> Devon: Yeah. Between you and Dominic getting 509 00:33:27,071 --> 00:33:30,308 healthy and this merger and everything, just feels like life 510 00:33:30,375 --> 00:33:33,177 is coming together really, really well. 511 00:33:33,244 --> 00:33:37,148 And you know, when we pull this off, it's not just gonna change 512 00:33:37,215 --> 00:33:40,818 our lives and Lily's life, our two families' legacies will 513 00:33:40,885 --> 00:33:45,690 never be the same again. [ Both chuckle ] 514 00:33:45,757 --> 00:33:51,496 >> Phyllis: Hey. 515 00:33:51,562 --> 00:33:53,164 Oh, what are you doing here? Is something wrong? 516 00:33:53,231 --> 00:33:55,767 >> Jack: No, no, no, I just couldn't sleep. 517 00:33:55,833 --> 00:33:59,003 >> Phyllis: Neither can I. >> Jack: I also wanted to take 518 00:33:59,070 --> 00:34:02,740 one more chance to say thank you for being there for me the last 519 00:34:02,807 --> 00:34:05,009 couple of days. >> Phyllis: I was happy to do 520 00:34:05,076 --> 00:34:06,377 it. You don't need to keep on 521 00:34:06,444 --> 00:34:08,379 thanking me. >> Jack: I am not gonna let you 522 00:34:08,446 --> 00:34:10,848 be dismissive of the kindness and friendship and loyalty 523 00:34:10,915 --> 00:34:14,085 you've shown. It means the world to me. 524 00:34:14,152 --> 00:34:20,291 [ Cellphone chimes ] >> Phyllis: Is that the texter? 525 00:34:20,358 --> 00:34:23,861 Hey, what does it say? 526 00:34:23,928 --> 00:34:25,363 Don't keep me in suspense. 527 00:34:45,783 --> 00:34:49,687 >> Billy: I'm not sure I'm in a position to be giving advice to 528 00:34:49,754 --> 00:34:51,989 anyone. I've gone about a lot of things 529 00:34:52,056 --> 00:34:56,327 in my life the wrong way. But I'm hoping maybe my mistakes 530 00:34:56,394 --> 00:35:00,031 can serve as a warning to people who are at risk of falling down 531 00:35:00,097 --> 00:35:05,336 the rabbit hole like I did. Everyone's experience is 532 00:35:05,403 --> 00:35:11,442 different, and what may help one person may not work for another. 533 00:35:11,509 --> 00:35:17,815 But, like I said, my saving grace was -- as the old cliché 534 00:35:17,882 --> 00:35:25,723 goes -- pure and simple...love. 535 00:35:25,790 --> 00:35:29,093 Love can often come as a surprise. 536 00:35:29,160 --> 00:35:33,297 It can also make you look at the future with fresh eyes. 537 00:35:33,364 --> 00:35:38,202 I'm a big believer in second 538 00:35:38,269 --> 00:35:41,205 chances. And third and fourth and fifth 539 00:35:41,272 --> 00:35:46,878 chances -- coming to you when you least expect it. 540 00:35:46,944 --> 00:35:55,353 >> Allie: Mm. 541 00:35:55,419 --> 00:35:59,524 [ Gasps ] 542 00:35:59,590 --> 00:36:06,898 Is someone there? 543 00:36:06,964 --> 00:36:10,067 >> Next week on >> Devon: I thought I heard 544 00:36:10,134 --> 00:36:11,402 Nate's voice in here. What are you doing? 545 00:36:11,469 --> 00:36:13,404 >> Nate: How would you like to be neighbors again? 546 00:36:13,471 --> 00:36:16,073 >> Jack: It's from our friendly anonymous texter. 547 00:36:16,140 --> 00:36:20,044 "Doing what I can to help. I think Allie might be more 548 00:36:20,111 --> 00:36:23,214 receptive soon." >> Ashland: I get the sense that 549 00:36:23,281 --> 00:36:26,617 you think that I'm about to break down and make some kind of 550 00:36:26,684 --> 00:36:29,287 confession here. >> Victoria: If there is a 551 00:36:29,353 --> 00:36:32,723 confession that needs to be made, then now would be the time 552 00:36:32,790 --> 00:36:33,491 to make it. 553 00:36:40,998 --> 00:36:55,746 ♪♪ 554 00:36:55,813 --> 00:36:57,148 >> Join us again for