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Yes, thank you.
Uh, charge it to the room?
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Stephanie Simmons.
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-Dr. Stephanie Simmons?
-Yes.
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As in dear friends with
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Dr. Olivia Winters?
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How do you know Olivia?
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She would be my mother.
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Nate?
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Nate Hastings!
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-[laughing]
-Oh, my goodness!
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Olivia's son? Lily's cousin?
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Yeah.
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Come here! Oh, wow!
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[both laughing]
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Oh, my goodness!
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Holden. Hi.
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Lily, hey.
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Are you meeting someone?
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Um...no.
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I'm on my own.
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If you'd like to sit...
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Um...
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yeah, yeah.
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Awesome. Thanks.
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So, uh...
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Have you...have you heard from
Malcolm or your kids?
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Um, no. Malcolm's in LA
with them,
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but the test results
aren't in yet.
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Which means, at this moment,
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Malcolm does not have a match.
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No. But, I mean, there
could still be good news.
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Yeah.
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He really got hit with it,
didn't he?
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New son and life-threatening
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disease all at once.
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Yeah. Well, if anyone
can handle it, he can.
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It's weird.
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What?
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How well you know him.
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Of course, you do.
He's your biological father.
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You know, it just takes...
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it takes me a second
to remember
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that he is mine too.
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Even if I don't know him at all.
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♪♪
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What time is it?
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PB and J time.
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With the distance, you got
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two different jelly options
there.
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-You cut off the crusts.
-Yeah.
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Figured I'd use my time wisely
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while we waited for the second
pregnancy test.
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Yeah.
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And?
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It's positive too.
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Okay.
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So that's for sure.
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Yeah.
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Now the question is...
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What do we do next?
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How you feeling?
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My...stomach has settled.
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I'm actually hungry.
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[both chuckle]
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That's cute, but I was...
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I was talking about here
and here.
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Oh. That's what you meant.
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All feelings matter right now.
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So, there's that.
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What about you?
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I could eat.
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Look...
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Billy, you have been
so sweet and attentive.
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Thank you so much
for fluffing my pillows
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and tucking me in my blanket.
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But you are a part
of this equation too.
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I know. It just feels weird
to talk about myself right now,
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-that's all.
-But I'm asking you.
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Kay.
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Well, not what I expected
when I woke up this morning.
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No. I mean, considering
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we're supposed to be
in London right now.
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Timing was probably
the night that you came back
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after you moved out.
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Yeah. Yeah.
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That would make sense.
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You didn't think that...
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maybe before today?
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I'm...mm. Not really.
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I mean, m-maybe.
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And what made you think maybe?
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I've just been feeling
so different.
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Mm-hmm.
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I mean, the exhaustion
is like I ran a marathon and...
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my stomach.
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And you've been here before.
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I have, yeah.
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So what's going through
your head now?
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I don't know. The thoughts
don't really slow down...
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enough for me to process them.
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They're just kind of
whizzing by.
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And you don't have to answer
anything right now.
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Okay? You have--you have time.
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Yeah, the brain is one thing,
but...
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when it comes to a kid it's...
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Straight to the heart.
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I'm glad you came over.
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I would have
never recognized you.
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What, you think I've changed?
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What, since you was yay high?
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Absolutely.
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Olivia bragged about you,
but she never told me
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that you grew up to be
such a fine-looking young man.
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[chuckles] I heard your name,
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but I'm pretty sure I would have
recognized your face anyway.
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Some of your lectures
are online.
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Don't tell me you've seen 'em.
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And read your papers
on blood diseases.
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Oh! Was that before or after
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you stepped away from medicine?
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Before, but I'm still a fan.
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My heart ached for you
when I heard about your injury.
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Having to give up surgery
must have been agony.
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But leaving medicine altogether?
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That was a choice.
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A hard one, at that.
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Wow. My mother really
told you all that?
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Mm-hmm. Medicine
is what brought us together.
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It's part of our bond.
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You do know how proud of you
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your mother is, don't you?
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She adores you.
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Do you two talk often?
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Mm, not as much as I'd like.
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But when we do,
it's partly about work.
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We mostly spend time chatting
about our remarkable sons.
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-Ah.
-Cheers.
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Cheers. [chuckles]
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It sounds strange to...
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to talk about our father.
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I know it's a lot to process,
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so we can go at whatever
speed you want.
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Well, we, uh,
might as well dive in.
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You're the expert here.
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Meaning you wanna know
more about Malcolm?
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Uh, yeah.
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Okay. Um...
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well, he is
my biological father,
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but my dad will always be
Neil Winters.
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The, uh, portrait
in the jazz lounge.
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Yes. And Malcolm was at
the dedication because
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he is my dad's brother.
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Sounds like
there's a story there.
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Yeah. There always is.
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We could--we could circle back,
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-or...or not.
-No, I mean,
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I think the important thing
for you to know
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is that Malcolm...
he's a really good man.
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My mother said the same.
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It's pretty much all she said.
That...
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that, and they lost touch.
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Well, I mean, that can happen
with Malcolm.
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Not because he doesn't care.
It's just...
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you know,
he's drawn to adventure.
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Which I think is why
he chose photography,
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so he could travel the world.
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Well, how is he gonna handle
not being able to travel?
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I mean, with all the treatment
that he'll need,
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if he gets a match...
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when he gets a match,
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he won't be able to jet off.
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I mean, honestly,
I think he sees
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this treatment
as its own kind of adventure.
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I mean, that's just the kind of
optimist he is.
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Which I think
you kinda have to be
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to face the unknown
the way that he does.
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I mean, look how he handled you
and I not being a match, right?
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I mean, he just...
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keeps the faith and just...
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believes that things
are meant to work out
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the way they're supposed to.
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Yeah, but, you know...
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some things don't work out.
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Yeah, but Malcolm
doesn't see the world that way.
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You know? He just believes that
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things can be better,
people can do better.
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And, I don't know, I think
he thinks that because...
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of his own life.
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He's had a lot of rough spots
that he's not proud of.
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That's something else
that we can circle back to.
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Well, you know, you two will
have your own conversation,
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I'm sure, where you can both
talk about who you both are.
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If that's...what you want.
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Yeah, well, he's got a lot
going on right now,
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and I assume that his...
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his treatment
will be in, uh, New York?
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Yeah. I mean, I wish he would
get his treatment here.
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-I told him that.
-But is there any way
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that you could talk him into it?
Or maybe once he's well,
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he could move back
to Genoa City.
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Isn't this a treat?
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Dinner with Olivia's son.
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So, what brings you to town,
Dr. Simmons?
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Oh, no, you didn't!
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Now, you don't have to call me
Aunty Stephanie,
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but you're definitely
not calling me Doctor.
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Understood. [chuckles]
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What, uh, brings you back
to Genoa City, Stephanie?
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Thank you.
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It was time.
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So you haven't been back
since you moved away?
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Feels like forever.
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After all, I mean,
this is where my life started.
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My career took off.
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Lifelong connections.
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Then memories
are what brought you back.
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Uh, only partly.
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I'm actually here
to see my son.
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You might know him.
Holden Novak.
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-Holden is your son?
-Yes.
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-Have you two met?
-Uh, a few times.
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Oh. That's wonderful.
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I don't know him well, though.
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Well, maybe that can change
down the road.
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All right, so, uh,
what should we have?
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Look, Malcolm is...
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a free spirit.
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He has always been that way.
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But he doesn't have to be in
physical proximity with someone
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to feel close to them.
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You know, his love and affection
can be there even if he isn't.
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But you do still wish that
he got his medical care here.
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Yeah, but, I mean,
doesn't matter what I think.
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You know, at the end of the day,
he has to feel comfortable.
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I've dealt with my own
medical issues,
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and I understand
how important it is
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to be comfortable in your
surroundings for your recovery.
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So, you know,
if that's New York for him,
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then so be it.
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But at the end of the day,
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we still have to find him
a match.
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That's what it all goes back to.
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Yep.
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Makes sense, though, that...
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you want him to be close to you.
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I was just...I was just asking
since you mentioned it.
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Okay, well, then,
I'll just ask you directly.
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Are you hoping to have
a relationship with him?
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Mint tea. Easy on the stomach.
No caffeine.
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Thank you.
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It's a far cry from sipping
champagne on the jet, isn't it?
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And I promise you, I will not
have sushi until you're able to.
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You're avoiding me.
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I'm right here.
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But you're not telling me
how you really feel.
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Look, I get I can't make you
open up,
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and I know it's a lot
to process, but...
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I'm just feeling really alone
right now,
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and that is not a judgment
or a criticism on you at all.
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I just...
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maybe it's a request.
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Can you please be here...
263
00:12:19,505 --> 00:12:22,242
in this...with me?
264
00:12:24,911 --> 00:12:28,214
So Audra didn't come over
for work today, did she?
265
00:12:28,314 --> 00:12:31,718
She brought you a test?
Is that what happened?
266
00:12:31,818 --> 00:12:35,922
I just needed an answer
before I said anything.
267
00:12:36,022 --> 00:12:39,292
And then you kicked me out
because you needed a friend.
268
00:12:40,727 --> 00:12:42,395
Yeah.
269
00:12:42,495 --> 00:12:44,631
I get it.
270
00:12:44,731 --> 00:12:47,934
You wanted that friend
to be you.
271
00:12:48,034 --> 00:12:49,669
It's a thought.
272
00:12:52,272 --> 00:12:53,806
Billy...
273
00:12:53,906 --> 00:12:55,575
I...
274
00:12:55,675 --> 00:12:57,810
I don't know, okay? I-I-I...
275
00:12:57,910 --> 00:12:59,879
I thought I was protecting you.
276
00:12:59,979 --> 00:13:02,515
I just didn't want you to go
on this roller coaster with me
277
00:13:02,615 --> 00:13:03,950
until I knew for sure.
278
00:13:04,050 --> 00:13:07,153
-We don't have to talk about it.
-No, we--we...
279
00:13:07,253 --> 00:13:11,190
we do, okay, because
we're both in this together.
280
00:13:12,525 --> 00:13:14,360
You woke up this morning,
281
00:13:14,460 --> 00:13:17,397
and you had your suspicions,
and you called Audra.
282
00:13:17,497 --> 00:13:21,634
And I get that.
I understand why you would...
283
00:13:21,734 --> 00:13:24,671
wanna wait to tell me
that you were pregnant.
284
00:13:24,771 --> 00:13:26,539
It was all out of love.
285
00:13:26,639 --> 00:13:30,376
I'm not being defensive, okay?
I'm really not.
286
00:13:33,212 --> 00:13:37,350
But you were afraid to tell me
that you were pregnant.
287
00:13:39,319 --> 00:13:41,254
And if that's the case,
288
00:13:41,354 --> 00:13:45,692
then what does that say
about us going forward?
289
00:13:51,297 --> 00:13:53,166
I wanna be someone
you can count on.
290
00:13:53,266 --> 00:13:55,601
You are, Billy.
291
00:13:55,702 --> 00:13:57,103
And I do, okay?
292
00:13:57,203 --> 00:14:00,506
I-I absolutely know what
a wonderful father you are.
293
00:14:00,606 --> 00:14:02,041
You don't have to bolster
my ego.
294
00:14:02,141 --> 00:14:05,144
-It must be coming out wrong.
-Hey, I'm not doing that, okay?
295
00:14:06,412 --> 00:14:08,781
I'm not. I'm just telling you
what I see.
296
00:14:08,881 --> 00:14:11,684
And I see a very loving
and sweet and protective man
297
00:14:11,784 --> 00:14:14,587
who looks after the children
in his life--
298
00:14:14,687 --> 00:14:16,656
Johnny and Katie.
299
00:14:16,756 --> 00:14:18,925
And Connor--even after
everything that happened
300
00:14:19,025 --> 00:14:21,327
with Chelsea and Adam.
301
00:14:21,427 --> 00:14:23,229
Well, I love them.
302
00:14:23,329 --> 00:14:25,732
And when you love something,
you take care of it.
303
00:14:27,567 --> 00:14:31,471
I love you.
And I wanna do that for you.
304
00:14:31,571 --> 00:14:36,175
You have been such a gift to me,
one that I did not expect.
305
00:14:36,275 --> 00:14:38,678
And of course you're brave
and you're strong,
306
00:14:38,778 --> 00:14:41,047
but it's your heart,
it's massive...
307
00:14:41,147 --> 00:14:44,317
and it's open even though
it's been knocked around
308
00:14:44,417 --> 00:14:46,819
more than once.
309
00:14:46,919 --> 00:14:49,922
But you need to know that
you're never gonna be alone...
310
00:14:50,022 --> 00:14:52,225
again, okay?
311
00:14:52,325 --> 00:14:55,194
Unless you want to,
unless you need to.
312
00:14:55,294 --> 00:14:58,631
Then I'll be right there,
supporting you and watching you
313
00:14:58,731 --> 00:15:00,800
do your thing.
314
00:15:01,801 --> 00:15:04,203
But if you need someone...
315
00:15:04,303 --> 00:15:07,039
I'm not going anywhere.
316
00:15:08,241 --> 00:15:09,876
Come here.
317
00:15:14,647 --> 00:15:16,249
One...
318
00:15:20,920 --> 00:15:22,755
One of the things
319
00:15:22,855 --> 00:15:26,092
that I talked to Audra about,
320
00:15:26,192 --> 00:15:28,694
one of the reasons why
I didn't tell you
321
00:15:28,795 --> 00:15:32,331
when I woke up this morning...
322
00:15:32,432 --> 00:15:34,967
[whispers] Ava.
323
00:15:37,837 --> 00:15:40,506
I'm sorry, Sally.
324
00:15:40,606 --> 00:15:43,242
You've al--[exhales]
you've already been through
325
00:15:43,342 --> 00:15:46,312
so much with Delia.
326
00:15:46,412 --> 00:15:48,214
And we...
327
00:15:48,314 --> 00:15:52,418
lost the two most
precious little people.
328
00:15:54,587 --> 00:15:57,723
I mean, how can we face
that chance again?
329
00:16:02,395 --> 00:16:04,363
A relationship with Malcolm.
330
00:16:04,464 --> 00:16:05,665
[chuckles]
331
00:16:05,765 --> 00:16:08,334
I-I don't even know
what that looks like.
332
00:16:08,434 --> 00:16:11,537
Well, makes sense
that you would want one.
333
00:16:11,637 --> 00:16:13,072
Does it?
334
00:16:14,740 --> 00:16:16,909
I guess it's a little late.
I mean, the...
335
00:16:17,009 --> 00:16:19,912
the man is sick, and he has
other things on his mind, so...
336
00:16:20,012 --> 00:16:21,647
Yeah. That doesn't mean
that you're not too.
337
00:16:21,747 --> 00:16:23,149
He wouldn't want you
to think that way.
338
00:16:23,249 --> 00:16:26,452
I-I don't resent him,
and I don't blame him.
339
00:16:26,552 --> 00:16:29,489
It's nothing like that.
But my mother...
340
00:16:29,589 --> 00:16:31,090
my mother holding this back
341
00:16:31,190 --> 00:16:33,192
and not telling me until
Malcolm needed something--
342
00:16:33,292 --> 00:16:35,495
I don't know how to feel
about that part.
343
00:16:37,530 --> 00:16:38,931
Look...
344
00:16:39,031 --> 00:16:41,133
I know that Stephanie
345
00:16:41,234 --> 00:16:43,836
feels like a weight
has been lifted,
346
00:16:43,936 --> 00:16:46,606
but she also feels
a lot of remorse too.
347
00:16:46,706 --> 00:16:48,808
And I hate to be mad at her,
but...
348
00:16:48,908 --> 00:16:51,277
and I know, I know how heavy
that secret is to carry.
349
00:16:51,377 --> 00:16:52,778
It's okay. It's your life.
350
00:16:52,879 --> 00:16:54,647
You can feel
however you wanna feel.
351
00:16:54,747 --> 00:16:57,149
Except I'm not sure
what that is.
352
00:16:57,250 --> 00:16:59,051
I get it, okay?
353
00:16:59,151 --> 00:17:01,754
You're feeling a lot of
emotions, and it's scary.
354
00:17:01,854 --> 00:17:04,223
Because when you've spent
your life trying to
355
00:17:04,323 --> 00:17:06,259
keep things drama-free,
356
00:17:06,359 --> 00:17:09,529
feeling all this anger,
it's uncomfortable.
357
00:17:09,629 --> 00:17:11,697
Well, if you're trying to
tell me that it's okay for me
358
00:17:11,797 --> 00:17:14,333
to be angry at my mother...
359
00:17:14,433 --> 00:17:17,003
I'm not sure I could
fight it if I tried.
360
00:17:18,070 --> 00:17:20,907
Tell me about your new career.
361
00:17:21,007 --> 00:17:25,111
You look like a man who's
pretty happy with his life.
362
00:17:25,211 --> 00:17:27,813
Uh, business is great.
363
00:17:27,914 --> 00:17:31,150
Working at Winters with
my family--that's going well.
364
00:17:31,250 --> 00:17:34,720
But, uh, growing up, seeing
what people like my mom and you
365
00:17:34,820 --> 00:17:38,124
brought to this world--
I couldn't wait to do the same.
366
00:17:38,224 --> 00:17:43,262
And I loved being a doctor
for a long time, but...
367
00:17:43,362 --> 00:17:46,132
I'm not sure I ever developed
the layer that...
368
00:17:46,232 --> 00:17:48,234
gets you through the loss
of a patient.
369
00:17:48,334 --> 00:17:52,104
Yeah. A painful fact
for all of us.
370
00:17:52,204 --> 00:17:55,308
Maybe that's why when surgery
was no longer an option,
371
00:17:55,408 --> 00:17:57,443
I was able to move on.
372
00:17:57,543 --> 00:17:59,712
People get saved through
medicine without surgery
373
00:17:59,812 --> 00:18:01,581
every day.
374
00:18:01,681 --> 00:18:03,649
-But I love what I do now too.
-Good.
375
00:18:03,749 --> 00:18:07,286
Get to work with my family,
you know, building a legacy.
376
00:18:07,386 --> 00:18:11,057
Creating jobs where people
can pay the mortgage,
377
00:18:11,157 --> 00:18:14,226
go to a doctor, buy groceries.
378
00:18:14,327 --> 00:18:16,262
I found satisfaction
and purpose,
379
00:18:16,362 --> 00:18:18,230
and like you said, I'm happy.
380
00:18:18,331 --> 00:18:20,700
And I have great appreciation
381
00:18:20,800 --> 00:18:22,602
for medical professionals
still in it,
382
00:18:22,702 --> 00:18:25,037
-fighting the good fight.
-Against...
383
00:18:25,137 --> 00:18:27,840
disease, fear, injury.
384
00:18:27,940 --> 00:18:31,444
Neglect. Also time.
385
00:18:31,544 --> 00:18:33,379
But when it works...
386
00:18:33,479 --> 00:18:37,283
when you get to keep
another soul in this world
387
00:18:37,383 --> 00:18:39,719
to watch another sunset...
388
00:18:39,819 --> 00:18:43,823
to have one more day with
the people in their hearts...
389
00:18:43,923 --> 00:18:45,524
it's science, yes,
390
00:18:45,625 --> 00:18:48,427
but it's also magic.
391
00:18:48,527 --> 00:18:50,930
But you're right.
When it doesn't work,
392
00:18:51,030 --> 00:18:53,566
when you can't pull it off,
393
00:18:53,666 --> 00:18:58,504
when the universe doesn't
respond to our efforts...
394
00:18:58,604 --> 00:19:01,140
there's nothing worse.
395
00:19:01,240 --> 00:19:03,943
How am I supposed to feel when
I look back at my childhood?
396
00:19:04,043 --> 00:19:06,846
I hated being the kid
whose dad was dead,
397
00:19:06,946 --> 00:19:09,582
and that is exactly what I was.
398
00:19:09,682 --> 00:19:11,717
My teachers knew it.
Students knew it.
399
00:19:11,817 --> 00:19:13,586
Their parents knew it.
400
00:19:13,686 --> 00:19:16,222
And, sure, there were a bunch
of parents who were divorced
401
00:19:16,322 --> 00:19:18,691
and maybe some kid's parent
traveled for work,
402
00:19:18,791 --> 00:19:21,427
but there was no one else
like me--
403
00:19:21,527 --> 00:19:23,829
the kid with the dead dad.
404
00:19:25,164 --> 00:19:27,733
And, sure, you know,
I heard all of the stories
405
00:19:27,833 --> 00:19:30,569
about the great
Dr. Jerry Novak
406
00:19:30,670 --> 00:19:32,772
and I saw the photos.
407
00:19:33,739 --> 00:19:38,177
But when I heard other kids
talking about their fathers...
408
00:19:38,277 --> 00:19:39,812
when I saw how their dads
409
00:19:39,912 --> 00:19:42,581
would show up to
their school performances
410
00:19:42,682 --> 00:19:46,152
or their games...
411
00:19:46,252 --> 00:19:47,853
My mother doesn't know this.
412
00:19:47,953 --> 00:19:50,923
I used to lie about my father,
413
00:19:51,023 --> 00:19:52,892
pretending that he was alive...
414
00:19:52,992 --> 00:19:55,628
that he was this amazing guy.
415
00:19:55,728 --> 00:19:58,431
I'm making up all these
stories about the...
416
00:19:58,531 --> 00:20:01,567
the things we would do together.
417
00:20:01,667 --> 00:20:04,804
Fishing. Playing catch.
418
00:20:04,904 --> 00:20:07,173
It must have been really lonely
419
00:20:07,273 --> 00:20:10,409
feeling like you had to hide
the truth about your life.
420
00:20:10,509 --> 00:20:13,746
It was easier than being pitied.
421
00:20:13,846 --> 00:20:15,181
Having a dead parent--
422
00:20:15,281 --> 00:20:18,451
it's the kind of thing that kids
worry is contagious,
423
00:20:18,551 --> 00:20:20,886
as if it's something
that they could catch
424
00:20:20,986 --> 00:20:23,889
and that could happen to them.
425
00:20:23,989 --> 00:20:26,158
Look, you can't...
426
00:20:26,258 --> 00:20:29,995
undo those moments of
loneliness.
427
00:20:30,096 --> 00:20:32,331
But Malcolm is a good person.
428
00:20:32,431 --> 00:20:34,700
He's someone you can talk to,
you know,
429
00:20:34,800 --> 00:20:36,702
and he'll want
what's best for you,
430
00:20:36,802 --> 00:20:38,437
whatever that will look like.
431
00:20:38,537 --> 00:20:40,806
But we won't get those years
back, will we?
432
00:20:41,941 --> 00:20:45,211
And we don't know how many more
we have left, do we?
433
00:20:45,311 --> 00:20:48,347
I mean, that is the reality
we're talking about here, right?
434
00:20:48,447 --> 00:20:52,384
That Malcolm and I
were both robbed.
435
00:20:52,485 --> 00:20:55,254
And that won't ever change.
436
00:21:00,459 --> 00:21:01,961
Remember when we were
just two people that didn't
437
00:21:02,061 --> 00:21:03,629
know each other very well
438
00:21:03,729 --> 00:21:05,865
but we had too much in common?
439
00:21:05,965 --> 00:21:08,033
Yeah. We had a lot of talks
440
00:21:08,134 --> 00:21:10,202
when Adam and Chelsea
were in Baltimore.
441
00:21:10,302 --> 00:21:12,438
Telling ourselves and each other
442
00:21:12,538 --> 00:21:14,740
that everything
was gonna be okay.
443
00:21:16,008 --> 00:21:17,476
And stories.
444
00:21:17,576 --> 00:21:20,179
And Ava.
445
00:21:20,279 --> 00:21:22,615
And you understood.
446
00:21:22,715 --> 00:21:24,416
'Cause of Delia.
447
00:21:26,352 --> 00:21:28,554
I still dream about her.
448
00:21:28,654 --> 00:21:31,524
The age that she was,
the age that she would be now.
449
00:21:32,758 --> 00:21:34,460
Do you ever?
450
00:21:36,128 --> 00:21:38,063
Yeah.
451
00:21:38,164 --> 00:21:41,767
Ava would be turning three.
452
00:21:43,402 --> 00:21:47,106
Sometimes I swear I...
453
00:21:47,206 --> 00:21:49,575
I can hear her in my dreams.
454
00:21:50,709 --> 00:21:54,313
Her laugh. Her...talking.
455
00:21:54,413 --> 00:21:56,949
And my whole body
just knows it's her.
456
00:21:59,418 --> 00:22:02,087
I like to think that
D's with Katherine.
457
00:22:02,955 --> 00:22:05,558
I hope she's proud of me.
458
00:22:05,658 --> 00:22:07,860
How could she not be?
459
00:22:08,994 --> 00:22:11,597
Well, because I failed her
siblings.
460
00:22:11,697 --> 00:22:13,365
I don't need you to defend me.
461
00:22:13,465 --> 00:22:15,734
I'm just saying it's true,
you know?
462
00:22:16,735 --> 00:22:18,804
I mean, I've made mistakes.
463
00:22:19,972 --> 00:22:23,342
I've said things,
I've done things. I've...
464
00:22:23,442 --> 00:22:26,545
reacted in ways...
465
00:22:26,645 --> 00:22:29,415
and I cared more about myself
than I did them.
466
00:22:30,749 --> 00:22:32,718
And I'm not beating myself up,
467
00:22:32,818 --> 00:22:35,287
but I'm also not letting myself
off the hook.
468
00:22:35,387 --> 00:22:38,991
I mean, I'm human, you know.
I'm gonna make mistakes, but...
469
00:22:40,893 --> 00:22:44,663
I'm a father,
so I need to try harder.
470
00:22:47,867 --> 00:22:50,636
I'm so afraid of failure
sometimes, but...
471
00:22:51,570 --> 00:22:55,608
You know, when you're a father,
you--when you're a parent--
472
00:22:55,708 --> 00:22:58,077
you quickly realize
that it's not about you
473
00:22:58,177 --> 00:23:00,779
and you gotta get
the hell out of the way
474
00:23:00,880 --> 00:23:03,449
for their sake.
475
00:23:03,549 --> 00:23:06,585
So that's me.
476
00:23:06,685 --> 00:23:08,988
That's where I'm at.
477
00:23:09,088 --> 00:23:11,056
But you gotta trust me
when I tell you
478
00:23:11,156 --> 00:23:14,126
it's your feelings
that matter the most.
479
00:23:14,226 --> 00:23:16,128
-It's not just me.
-No, listen.
480
00:23:16,228 --> 00:23:18,330
Your heart takes priority, okay?
481
00:23:18,430 --> 00:23:21,500
'Cause you carried Ava
and you didn't get to raise her.
482
00:23:24,470 --> 00:23:26,405
So you gotta be
thinking about that again.
483
00:23:28,841 --> 00:23:32,411
I'm telling you that
we can do everything right,
484
00:23:32,511 --> 00:23:35,214
and still...
485
00:23:37,716 --> 00:23:39,852
Are you willing
to risk that again?
486
00:23:42,354 --> 00:23:45,424
So I really think
that Devon and Nate
487
00:23:45,524 --> 00:23:46,959
need to know.
488
00:23:47,059 --> 00:23:50,930
-About me?
-Yeah. I mean, they're family.
489
00:23:51,030 --> 00:23:53,098
Nate and I have
a biological connection
490
00:23:53,198 --> 00:23:55,935
because his mom and my mom
were sisters.
491
00:23:56,035 --> 00:23:59,838
And then my family adopted Devon
when he was a teenager.
492
00:23:59,939 --> 00:24:02,908
So I'm not blood-related then.
493
00:24:03,008 --> 00:24:05,711
Blood, no, but...
494
00:24:05,811 --> 00:24:08,480
Malcolm was married to Nate's
mom, Olivia.
495
00:24:08,580 --> 00:24:12,151
So they're gonna see you
as extended family.
496
00:24:12,251 --> 00:24:14,720
You don't--you don't know that.
497
00:24:14,820 --> 00:24:16,855
Yeah. That's just the way it is
with our family.
498
00:24:16,956 --> 00:24:19,858
But there's no guarantees that
that'll be the case this time.
499
00:24:19,959 --> 00:24:22,328
Well, I do think
that they need to know.
500
00:24:22,428 --> 00:24:25,764
And I would love to tell them
as soon as possible.
501
00:24:25,864 --> 00:24:27,733
Like now, if that's okay.
502
00:24:27,833 --> 00:24:30,269
And you want me to be there
when you tell them?
503
00:24:30,369 --> 00:24:33,072
I mean, I think that's best,
don't you?
504
00:24:33,172 --> 00:24:37,076
I mean, best is beyond me
right now,
505
00:24:37,176 --> 00:24:39,111
and so is the worst,
for that matter.
506
00:24:39,211 --> 00:24:40,679
I just know that I, uh...
507
00:24:42,281 --> 00:24:44,650
I wanna be in the loop
from now on.
508
00:24:45,751 --> 00:24:47,786
Okay. So...
509
00:24:47,886 --> 00:24:49,888
can I call them right now?
510
00:24:51,824 --> 00:24:54,360
There's, uh, no time
like the present.
511
00:24:55,694 --> 00:24:57,730
So I heard the movie theater's
now a café?
512
00:24:57,830 --> 00:25:00,099
[phone rings]
513
00:25:01,567 --> 00:25:03,502
I'm sorry. Do you mind?
This might be work.
514
00:25:03,602 --> 00:25:05,537
Oh, sure, go ahead.
515
00:25:07,072 --> 00:25:08,474
Hey, Lily. What's going on?
516
00:25:08,574 --> 00:25:11,377
Hey, I need to see you
and Devon, if you have time.
517
00:25:11,477 --> 00:25:13,112
Everything okay?
518
00:25:13,212 --> 00:25:15,247
Um, a family meeting.
Not business.
519
00:25:15,347 --> 00:25:18,484
But sooner is better, so, uh,
can you come to Society?
520
00:25:18,584 --> 00:25:20,886
Uh, yeah. Gimme a few.
521
00:25:20,986 --> 00:25:22,654
I'll see you soon.
522
00:25:24,323 --> 00:25:26,158
-Everything okay?
-Yeah.
523
00:25:26,258 --> 00:25:29,128
Sorry about that, Stephanie.
Uh, that was my cousin Lily.
524
00:25:29,228 --> 00:25:31,497
I need to head out
to meet with her.
525
00:25:31,597 --> 00:25:33,198
You've been wonderful, Nate.
526
00:25:33,298 --> 00:25:36,135
Look, I hope I run into you
before you leave.
527
00:25:36,235 --> 00:25:37,236
That would be lovely.
528
00:25:37,336 --> 00:25:39,171
Well, don't you be late
on account of me.
529
00:25:39,271 --> 00:25:40,472
I'll take care of the check.
530
00:25:40,572 --> 00:25:42,574
It's already taken care of.
531
00:25:42,674 --> 00:25:44,109
You shouldn't have.
532
00:25:44,209 --> 00:25:45,978
You're my mother's dear friend.
533
00:25:46,078 --> 00:25:47,846
We're practically family.
Come on.
534
00:25:47,946 --> 00:25:50,149
-Thank you.
-Any time.
535
00:25:50,249 --> 00:25:52,684
-See you soon?
-Yes.
536
00:26:01,427 --> 00:26:02,928
-NATE: Hey.
-LILY: Hey.
537
00:26:03,028 --> 00:26:04,963
I, uh, thought this was
a family thing.
538
00:26:05,064 --> 00:26:07,066
Yeah, uh, I'll explain.
539
00:26:07,166 --> 00:26:10,903
Okay, so, what?
It's the four of us?
540
00:26:11,003 --> 00:26:13,238
What's up, Holden?
541
00:26:13,338 --> 00:26:15,007
Um, can we sit down?
542
00:26:15,107 --> 00:26:17,743
Just 'cause this is
an important conversation,
543
00:26:17,843 --> 00:26:20,279
-so sit, sit.
-DEVON: Sure. All right.
544
00:26:20,379 --> 00:26:22,748
I won't drag it out. I promise.
545
00:26:26,952 --> 00:26:29,721
Um, so Holden and I found out
546
00:26:29,822 --> 00:26:33,725
some...news recently.
547
00:26:33,826 --> 00:26:37,196
Um, it turns out that
548
00:26:37,296 --> 00:26:41,834
Malcolm is his biological
father.
549
00:26:41,934 --> 00:26:45,737
So we are half-siblings.
550
00:26:45,838 --> 00:26:47,539
Malcolm?
551
00:26:47,639 --> 00:26:50,275
-Malcolm is your father?
-According to who?
552
00:26:50,375 --> 00:26:53,078
That would be my mother,
Stephanie Simmons.
553
00:26:53,178 --> 00:26:56,415
She used to live here,
and she--she knew Malcolm.
554
00:26:56,515 --> 00:26:58,750
And your parents and Nate's mom.
555
00:26:58,851 --> 00:27:00,986
So you're saying this happened
while Malcolm
556
00:27:01,086 --> 00:27:02,754
was still married to Olivia?
557
00:27:02,855 --> 00:27:04,423
-He wouldn't.
-He didn't.
558
00:27:04,523 --> 00:27:06,658
My mother was, uh,
she'd left town
559
00:27:06,758 --> 00:27:08,594
by the time Olivia
and Malcolm got together.
560
00:27:08,694 --> 00:27:10,662
That's why she was in town.
561
00:27:10,762 --> 00:27:12,364
Your mother.
562
00:27:12,464 --> 00:27:14,733
I was just with Stephanie.
563
00:27:14,833 --> 00:27:16,935
Sorry. Dr. Simmons.
564
00:27:17,035 --> 00:27:19,471
Because of her connection
to my mom.
565
00:27:19,571 --> 00:27:22,407
She mentioned Holden
but she never mentioned Malcolm.
566
00:27:22,508 --> 00:27:25,010
So hang on.
You just found this out?
567
00:27:25,110 --> 00:27:27,346
Yeah. My mother came to tell me.
568
00:27:27,446 --> 00:27:29,081
Malcolm just found out as well.
569
00:27:29,181 --> 00:27:31,250
And he just happened to be
in town too?
570
00:27:31,350 --> 00:27:32,885
That's a lot of coincidences.
571
00:27:32,985 --> 00:27:35,587
Well, Stephanie has her reasons
for sharing it.
572
00:27:35,687 --> 00:27:37,890
But the point is is that
573
00:27:37,990 --> 00:27:42,995
Holden is family to me now,
so he's family to all of us.
574
00:27:44,129 --> 00:27:45,797
Look, I'm sure you have
a lot of questions,
575
00:27:45,898 --> 00:27:48,233
but you know almost everything
that we do, so...
576
00:27:48,333 --> 00:27:50,602
Oh, we know almost everything?
577
00:27:50,702 --> 00:27:53,605
That'll have to be enough
for now.
578
00:27:53,705 --> 00:27:56,842
Now that you all
have the headlines, I will...
579
00:27:56,942 --> 00:27:58,277
I'll give you some privacy.
580
00:27:58,377 --> 00:28:00,579
-No, you don't have to leave.
-No, it's fine.
581
00:28:00,679 --> 00:28:03,582
My mother would like an update.
And I'm sure...
582
00:28:03,682 --> 00:28:05,651
I'm sure you would
all like to talk.
583
00:28:11,623 --> 00:28:14,059
So tell me how you really feel.
584
00:28:17,629 --> 00:28:19,531
You've always known
585
00:28:19,631 --> 00:28:22,568
what losing Ava did to me.
586
00:28:22,668 --> 00:28:25,504
Feeling like I was never
gonna be whole again.
587
00:28:26,438 --> 00:28:29,975
Feeling like I was marked.
588
00:28:30,075 --> 00:28:32,711
Like people would just look
at me and they would just know
589
00:28:32,811 --> 00:28:34,846
that I was...broken.
590
00:28:39,084 --> 00:28:41,453
[whispering]
When I lost Ava...
591
00:28:41,553 --> 00:28:43,388
I lost myself.
592
00:28:45,157 --> 00:28:46,692
And a million little moments
593
00:28:46,792 --> 00:28:48,894
that we were never gonna
get to have together.
594
00:28:50,395 --> 00:28:52,464
And I know
595
00:28:52,564 --> 00:28:54,733
that I would have messed up
as her mom.
596
00:28:56,201 --> 00:28:59,371
I know it, and I would have
tried to do better.
597
00:29:02,274 --> 00:29:05,978
But either way, I would have
loved her with all of my heart.
598
00:29:09,314 --> 00:29:11,717
But I never got that chance.
599
00:29:14,886 --> 00:29:16,755
I survived.
600
00:29:18,357 --> 00:29:23,328
And I felt so guilty
and ashamed for surviving.
601
00:29:32,571 --> 00:29:34,339
I'm grateful you're here.
602
00:29:36,375 --> 00:29:38,710
How do I do it again?
603
00:29:41,013 --> 00:29:44,983
I mean, what if
all I feel is fear?
604
00:29:45,951 --> 00:29:48,420
I mean, what does that do
to the baby?
605
00:29:48,520 --> 00:29:50,956
You know, what if I can't dream
or what if I can't hope
606
00:29:51,056 --> 00:29:53,625
or what if I can't...
get excited?
607
00:29:53,725 --> 00:29:58,964
And if I do get excited
and I do dream and I do...
608
00:30:00,632 --> 00:30:05,570
...fall in love before she or...
609
00:30:05,671 --> 00:30:08,006
[laughs] he...
610
00:30:08,106 --> 00:30:11,276
even has a name, I mean, what--
611
00:30:12,944 --> 00:30:15,213
What if it happens again?
612
00:30:18,417 --> 00:30:20,152
But I...
613
00:30:21,920 --> 00:30:25,590
I do know that you're gonna...
614
00:30:25,691 --> 00:30:27,726
you're gonna be there.
615
00:30:27,826 --> 00:30:30,662
Being with you, Sally...
616
00:30:30,762 --> 00:30:32,964
is all I can ask for.
617
00:30:41,273 --> 00:30:44,443
You didn't tell me
that you were seeing Nate.
618
00:30:44,543 --> 00:30:45,644
I didn't know it myself.
619
00:30:45,744 --> 00:30:49,081
I was at the bar having a drink.
He heard my name.
620
00:30:49,181 --> 00:30:52,451
-We just started talking.
-And he didn't say anything
621
00:30:52,551 --> 00:30:55,587
about how I rubbed him and Devon
the wrong way, huh?
622
00:30:55,687 --> 00:30:58,156
When. [laughs] How?
623
00:30:58,256 --> 00:31:00,625
Son, are you just making
assumptions?
624
00:31:00,726 --> 00:31:02,828
Because he didn't say
anything like that.
625
00:31:02,928 --> 00:31:05,230
That's fair.
It's just that I have a history
626
00:31:05,330 --> 00:31:07,666
with some people here,
which means I might not be
627
00:31:07,766 --> 00:31:12,137
on the invite list for
the family dinner anytime soon.
628
00:31:12,237 --> 00:31:14,573
If ever.
629
00:31:14,673 --> 00:31:16,675
So you're calling Holden family,
630
00:31:16,775 --> 00:31:19,244
but, like, Tucker's technically
our family.
631
00:31:19,344 --> 00:31:21,313
So you hear where I'm going
with this, right?
632
00:31:21,413 --> 00:31:22,981
-Yes.
-Okay.
633
00:31:23,081 --> 00:31:25,617
What are you thinking
where Holden's concerned?
634
00:31:25,717 --> 00:31:29,187
I don't know. I mean,
there's time to figure that out.
635
00:31:29,287 --> 00:31:31,089
I say this with love
and respect,
636
00:31:31,189 --> 00:31:33,792
but Damian is proof
that time isn't infinite.
637
00:31:33,892 --> 00:31:35,293
And I'm not trying to push you
638
00:31:35,394 --> 00:31:37,996
one way or the other,
Lily, but...
639
00:31:38,096 --> 00:31:40,165
You know what?
Forget I said anything.
640
00:31:40,265 --> 00:31:42,467
This is your decision.
641
00:31:42,567 --> 00:31:46,071
No, I agree about
the time thing, but I just...
642
00:31:46,171 --> 00:31:48,673
I have a lot that I'm thinking
about right now,
643
00:31:48,774 --> 00:31:50,475
so everything else
will have to wait.
644
00:31:50,575 --> 00:31:53,845
-Is this about Cane again?
-What's he done now?
645
00:31:53,945 --> 00:31:55,514
No, it's not Cane.
646
00:31:55,614 --> 00:31:57,048
Well, then,
it's gotta be about Malcolm.
647
00:31:57,149 --> 00:31:59,651
The guy shows up to town
and then leaves right away
648
00:31:59,751 --> 00:32:01,453
even though he has a son he
didn't know about that's here?
649
00:32:01,553 --> 00:32:03,922
Is Devon right?
650
00:32:04,022 --> 00:32:06,224
We can't help
unless you tell us.
651
00:32:06,324 --> 00:32:08,393
[phone rings]
652
00:32:11,263 --> 00:32:13,765
Oh, it's Malcolm.
I have to take this.
653
00:32:15,967 --> 00:32:20,505
Malcolm, hi. Um, did you
get the information?
654
00:32:22,774 --> 00:32:25,143
What were the results?
655
00:32:33,485 --> 00:32:36,621
You know, people don't mean
any harm...
656
00:32:36,721 --> 00:32:40,926
But when you lose a child and
someone says, "I can't imagine,"
657
00:32:41,026 --> 00:32:42,928
they're right, they can't.
658
00:32:43,028 --> 00:32:48,333
There might be a fear
in the back of your head, but...
659
00:32:48,433 --> 00:32:51,470
it's a million times worse
than that fear.
660
00:32:54,039 --> 00:32:55,540
Yeah, that's true.
661
00:32:57,142 --> 00:32:59,978
But if the best happens
instead of the worst...
662
00:33:00,078 --> 00:33:03,181
and you get to carry that
little life in your hands...
663
00:33:04,816 --> 00:33:07,319
You get a chance
to do everything right...
664
00:33:08,820 --> 00:33:11,323
But you're still gonna fumble
every now and again.
665
00:33:13,291 --> 00:33:16,127
Well, "being human
means making mistakes."
666
00:33:17,529 --> 00:33:20,065
"Being a parent
means trying to do better."
667
00:33:21,500 --> 00:33:23,502
No, that's good.
I mean, that's profound.
668
00:33:23,602 --> 00:33:26,705
Who said that?
I'm gonna steal that one.
669
00:33:26,805 --> 00:33:29,274
I will write it down
for you later.
670
00:33:32,644 --> 00:33:34,279
Appreciate you.
671
00:33:37,015 --> 00:33:39,618
Can we do the rest of this
later too?
672
00:33:41,052 --> 00:33:43,088
Talking, thinking,
figuring out what comes next?
673
00:33:43,188 --> 00:33:45,156
Heck, yeah.
674
00:33:45,257 --> 00:33:48,560
We'll go side by side as a team?
675
00:33:48,660 --> 00:33:51,196
You make that sound like
a question.
676
00:33:51,296 --> 00:33:53,098
That's a certainty.
677
00:33:54,399 --> 00:33:57,969
We will go side by side.
678
00:33:58,069 --> 00:34:00,071
As a team.
679
00:34:00,171 --> 00:34:02,240
Always.
680
00:34:06,311 --> 00:34:09,047
This is none of your doing
or choice--it was all mine.
681
00:34:09,147 --> 00:34:11,416
So if you need me to help you
to smooth things out--
682
00:34:11,516 --> 00:34:13,418
What does that say
if I need my mother
683
00:34:13,518 --> 00:34:15,053
to handle this for me?
684
00:34:15,153 --> 00:34:18,356
And whatever happens...
it'll be okay.
685
00:34:19,958 --> 00:34:21,860
Now you sound like Malcolm.
686
00:34:21,960 --> 00:34:23,828
I sound like a man
I don't really know.
687
00:34:23,929 --> 00:34:26,231
But you will.
688
00:34:26,331 --> 00:34:28,099
And this family of his, they--
689
00:34:28,199 --> 00:34:29,968
Your family.
690
00:34:30,068 --> 00:34:32,037
They have a lot to deal with.
691
00:34:32,137 --> 00:34:33,939
-So do you.
-Mom.
692
00:34:34,039 --> 00:34:35,707
I am not one of them.
693
00:34:35,807 --> 00:34:38,476
And...and maybe it's better
that way.
694
00:34:41,780 --> 00:34:44,716
Give yourself time
to work through this.
695
00:34:44,816 --> 00:34:48,420
As I imagine
they will do the same.
696
00:34:51,923 --> 00:34:54,459
Neither of the kids?
697
00:34:56,428 --> 00:34:58,697
No, I mean, that--yeah.
It's okay. We'll just--
698
00:34:58,797 --> 00:35:01,166
We'll move on
to the next option.
699
00:35:01,266 --> 00:35:05,370
Yeah. I'm actually--
I'm here with Devon and Nate,
700
00:35:05,470 --> 00:35:07,472
and it would be a lot easier...
701
00:35:09,441 --> 00:35:11,042
Yeah.
702
00:35:11,142 --> 00:35:13,311
I love you.
703
00:35:20,485 --> 00:35:22,253
You okay?
704
00:35:25,790 --> 00:35:27,492
Hey.
705
00:35:28,593 --> 00:35:31,396
It's okay.
706
00:35:50,015 --> 00:35:52,617
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