>> Lucy: Thanks for coming.
I really didn't think
you would.
>> Faith: What are you doing
out? Aren't you supposed
to be grounded?
>> Lucy: Yeah, I just, um,
I was going really crazy
being on lockdown.
So, I, uh, I snuck out.
My parents weren't home.
>> Faith: Not a good idea.
If your parents find out,
you'll be in even worse
trouble.
You need to go home right now.
>> Lucy: I know, I will.
I swear.
I was just feeling really bad
about putting you in such
a messed up situation.
And I felt like I really needed
to apologize.
I didn't mean to get you
into trouble.
I just wanted to make sure
that you don't hate me.
>> Faith: I'm not mad.
I'm just disappointed.
>> Lucy: Yeah, I'm, uh,
disappointed in myself too.
What I did really wasn't
fair to you.
It was stupid.
I wasn't thinking.
But I promise you that
I haven't had a drop
to drink since.
>> Faith: I'm glad to hear that,
at least.
>> Lucy: I just wanted you
to know that I'm really,
really sorry, Faith.
I really like you.
I think you're really cool
and smart.
I was really hoping that
we could be friends.
>> Cameron: Let me guess.
Having trouble sleeping?
I know the feeling.
Been there plenty.
Well, how about that?
For once, you don't look like
you've seen a ghost.
Nice. Calm.
Not shocked.
Not even a little surprised
to see me.
I'm impressed.
Maybe cleaning off some of
the blood made me look a little
less repulsive to you.
>> Sharon: Nothing could do
that.
>> Cameron: You did make a hell
of a mess when you stabbed me
to death.
God knows how many arteries
you tore through, huh.
Out damned spot.
Out, I say.
But, like in Macbeth,
"The bloodstains of guilt
never wash away."
You know, that quote becomes
more meaningful every day that
we're together, doesn't it?
>> Sharon: Only because you're
the damned spot I want out.
I could sleep a lot better
if I could wash you away.
>> Cameron: Oh, come on.
You don't mean that.
You're finally getting used
to me.
>> Sharon: I could never
get used to you.
See?
This calm?
>> Cameron: Mm-hmm.
>> Sharon: This is me
ignoring you,
waiting for you to get the hint
and go away.
And until then, I'm not going
to let you get to me.
[ Cameron laughing ]
Easier said than done, babe.
♪♪
>> Sally: Answer me, Adam.
Did you?
>> Adam: Sally, I don't know--
>> Sally: No, just tell me
the truth. Did you sleep
with Chelsea?
>> Adam: Why would you ask me
something like that?
I mean-- I mean, you don't
really believe that, do you?
>> Sally: That's why I'm asking.
Yes, Adam.
>> Adam: Have-- have you been
talking to Billy again?
Is that where this sick idea
is coming from?
>> Billy: You don't have to feel
ashamed for anything, okay?
Whatever it is,
you can tell me.
[ Chelsea sighing ]
>> Chelsea: Not this.
I-- I am ashamed.
I did something horrible
and I can't stop hating myself
for it.
>> Billy: You can tell me.
Whatever this
horrible thing is.
>> Chelsea: I don't know
how to say it.
I'm scared.
If I do, you'll hate me.
And then this and us
and everything will be over.
>> Billy: Okay, listen to me.
I care about you.
So much that I couldn't
hate you for anything.
Just tell me and then you don't
have to carry
the burden around anymore.
>> Chelsea: You already know.
You-- you figured it out.
It's everything you suspected,
but didn't want to believe.
Please don't make me say it.
>> Billy: I need to know
what happened, Chelsea.
I need to hear you say it.
>> Cameron: I think, I know
the reason that you can't sleep.
It's because your mind is going
a mile a minute.
And you can't make it stop,
can you?
>> Sharon: Stay out of my head.
>> Cameron: Yeah, how am I
supposed to do that?
It's where I live.
>> Sharon: You don't know
the first thing that
I'm thinking about.
>> Cameron: Mm.
I bet I can guess.
It's not a what.
It's a who.
Who you're thinking about?
It's Cassie, isn't it?
Or maybe it's Nick.
No, no, wait.
Ah, it's both.
>> Sharon: Shut up!
Just stop talking, okay?
>> Cameron: Hey, I do know
what you're going through.
Back when I was alive, I spent
many a sleepless night
thinking about you.
Oh, come on, Sharon.
I'm never gonna shut up
and I'm never gonna go away
until you face the fact that
I'm only here because you
keep calling me back.
We're on a mission together.
You and me.
>> Sharon: What are you talking
about? What mission?
>> Cameron: Mm-hmm. That's
a million-dollar question,
isn't it?
And the one that only you can
answer.
But I'll tell you a secret.
You're very close
to figuring it out.
You know what it is.
Oh, it's on the tip
of your tongue.
Just think, Sharon.
What is driving all of this
frustration and this confusion?
Why are you suddenly being
haunted by Cassie's ghost?
And Nick, what's going on
with that? I mean, clearly
you're feeling a romantic
pull back to him.
Maybe it's because when Cassie
died, you lost Nick, too,
when he turned to Phyllis.
Cassie's death changed
everything for you.
>> Sharon: Stop it.
You don't know anything
about me.
>> Cameron: Oh, but I do.
I know the last time you were
truly happy was before
Cassie died.
And that was a long,
long time ago.
>> Sally: Adam, this has nothing
to do with Billy.
This is between you and me.
I told you that I thought you
were keeping something from me
because the way that you've
been behaving has been erratic
and distant.
>> Adam: And I've apologized
for that.
I just-- I've been just
distracted with so much
going on, Sally.
>> Sally: Yes, Adam, I know,
but it's more than that, okay?
You know it.
Even Chelsea said so,
that she's been struggling with
keeping some secret that has
been eating away at her.
Is it eating away at you, too?
>> Adam: I-- I'll say it again.
I am sorry.
I know. I have been preoccupied,
and I have been closed off
lately.
I certainly did not mean
to make you feel that way, okay?
Please just let me fix this,
okay? Please.
I'll make it up to you.
>> Sally: If you really want
to fix it, Adam,
there's one way to do it.
>> Adam: All right.
Name it.
>> Sally: Look me in the eye
and tell me the truth.
Right here, right now.
Just straight up tell me if you
slept with Chelsea.
>> Chelsea: Billy you are
the kindest,
most patient man
I have ever known.
You have been my rock.
Stronger and more wonderful
than I ever deserved.
I mean, you saved my life.
But you've also done so much
more than that.
At a time where I had nowhere
to turn, you supported me.
You helped me get my feet back
on the ground.
But...
you're right.
You're right.
I have to get this out.
I can't live with this secret
inside any longer, and you
deserve to know the truth.
Just...
Just promise me that you'll
listen before you judge me
too harshly.
>> Billy: Just say it, Chelsea.
Please, just say it.
>> Chelsea: That night,
Adam and I, we were so raw
and-- and scared and angry,
you know, that our son had
to suffer through this...
This terrible disorder.
And we were just so upset.
We were just thinking,
"Why-- why him? Why Connor?"
It just didn't seem fair.
We had all gone out as a family,
and it was a great day.
And then-- And you know--
you know the story. You know,
Connor regressed, and he tried
to cut himself.
It was all just too much.
Too many emotions and so much
guilt, so much guilt.
You know, Adam and I just
thinking, "God, did we do this
to our son? Is he...
Is our son suffering
because of us?"
It was so overwhelming
and it was...
utterly devastating.
There was...
There was a bottle of booze
and a terrible sense of
desperation.
We just wanted to block
everything out.
Wish it all away.
Stop the...
The pain and the heartache
somehow.
The alcohol.
The helplessness.
It's really all just
such a blur.
Things got out of control,
and before we knew
what was happening...
we slept together.
>> Adam: Look, just admit it.
This-- this is all
coming from Billy.
This is not coming from you.
>> Sally: Adam, seriously,
leave Billy out of this.
Why do you keep bringing him up
instead of answering
the question?
>> Adam: Because this is
the kind of confrontation that
he's been gunning for, Sally.
And he's been all in your ear
with all kinds of crazy
suspicions and insinuations.
>> Sally: Yes.
>> Adam: And he's been
hammering Chelsea, too.
>> Sally: Okay.
>> Adam: Looking for an answer
that does not exist.
>> Sally: Yes, Adam, all right?
Billy mentioned that Chelsea
was upset and something was
eating away at her.
Uh, some secret that she's been
keeping about that one night.
>> Adam: Yes, and that is
a night that I already
told you about.
>> Sally: Everything?
Did you tell me everything,
Adam? I mean, come on, Adam.
After everything that we've
been through, in love and
apart, even after losing Ava,
we somehow found our way back
to each other.
>> Adam: Well, that's because
our love was too strong
to ignore.
And it is strong.
>> Sally: It's strong
when we're honest.
We did not get through that
by avoiding the truth.
We got through it by facing it
and having faith in each other.
Okay, so please, Adam,
I am begging you,
please be honest with me,
right here, right now.
For the last time,
did you sleep with Chelsea?
>> Adam: I'm sorry, Sally.
I just, I never expected it
to come to this.
>> Chelsea: I know
you must hate me.
>> Billy: I told you I couldn't
hate you, for anything.
And I meant that.
You mean too much to me.
>> Chelsea: And you mean
everything to me.
I am so sorry.
Can you ever forgive me?
>> Billy: I'm glad that
you told me the truth.
I mean, I thought...
I started to put it together
and I thought this is what
happened, but I just didn't...
I didn't want to believe it.
>> Chelsea: How are you being
so calm?
How are you not yelling at me
or storming out?
>> Billy: I don't know.
>> Chelsea: I know you must be
so hurt and angry and furious.
I deserve it.
I deserve all of that.
I-- I feel that way
about myself.
So, come on, give it to me.
I can take it.
I want to take it.
Whatever it takes to help
get you through this terrible
betrayal. I'm so sorry--
>> Billy: Chelsea, there's
nothing for you to take.
I don't know what I feel
right now.
I don't really feel anything
but numbness.
And I'm not sure what I'm going
to feel when this goes away.
>> Faith: I'm honored that
you want us to be friends,
but I've got to be straight
with you.
>> Lucy: Okay.
>> Faith: I just don't see us
being friends right now.
We're completely different ages
and at very different stages
in our lives.
>> Lucy: I see.
That's, um, honest.
>> Faith: I figured it was
better than pretending.
I'll be going back to college
and you'll be here
finishing high school.
You need friends
who live here,
who you can have fun with.
I hope that you can understand.
I don't want to hurt
your feelings.
>> Lucy: No, no, I...
I totally get it.
And I'm really sorry if I put
you in an awkward situation
or made you feel uncomfortable.
>> Faith: It's not that.
Well, except
for the drinking part.
That was very uncomfortable
for me.
>> Lucy: Do you think that maybe
you feel that way because of
what happened to your sister,
Cassie?
>> Sharon: You know what?
You were a liar when you were
alive, and you are even a bigger
liar now that you're dead.
You haven't the first idea of
how I feel.
In fact, I have been happy,
very happy since my divorce
from Nick.
>> Cameron: Really?
Do you really believe that?
>> Sharon: Yes, I do.
My children are happy
and healthy and flourishing.
I have a wonderful support
network of friends and family,
and I have a wonderful new
career that inspires me
every day, and it helps
so many other people.
>> Cameron: Yeah, yeah, you do,
thanks to me.
I will take the credit
for that.
>> Sharon: For what?
Handing me a broken, rudderless,
empty shell of a company?
>> Cameron: Hey, hey, hey, hey,
hey, take it easy there, sis.
That company was doing fine and
still had plenty of value.
Come on.
Aren't you at least a little
bit flattered that I left it
to you?
>> Sharon: I was repulsed
and sickened.
But then I realized, I could
turn it into something
for good.
I could turn it into a company
that actually helps people.
Once I wiped off the stench
that you left on it.
>> Cameron: Well, I'm glad
that money didn't stink too much
for you to spend it.
You know, it's crazy.
I always thought that you would
just sell the company,
live off the windfall.
You know, stop slinging coffee
and dispensing free advice.
>> Sharon: That goes to show
how much you know about me,
doesn't it?
I turned Kirsten Incorporated
into a company that puts people
above profits.
Cassidy First donates
to fabulous charities that
actually help people in need,
including victims of sick,
twisted abusers like you.
>> Cameron: Oh, you are
so altruistic.
I'm going to call the church
and have you canonized.
Oh, my God.
You know what?
I-- I can't help but think
that maybe, maybe you're using
it to help yourself too.
>> Sharon: What do you mean
by that?
>> Cameron: I mean
that Cassidy First is
your way of easing the guilt
that you feel for brutally
ending my life.
>> Sharon: Okay, that's it.
I am not going to have
a psychotic criminal
analyzing me.
>> Cameron: I'm not analyzing
anything, Sharon.
This is all you.
>> Lucy: I know about what
happened to Cassie.
>> Faith: You do?
>> Lucy: My dad told me
the whole story,
including his role
in the accident.
It's really sad.
>> Faith: It was awful.
>> Lucy: You know, he still
feels really guilty about it.
And I don't know, I just wonder
if maybe you still
resent him for it.
And maybe some of that got
put on me, and I totally
wouldn't blame you if you did.
Especially seeing me drinking
the other night.
I totally get that
it would bring up some of those
bad feelings again.
>> Faith: I would never
blame you for something
that your father did.
Don't get me wrong, I was
pissed about the drinking.
But I don't hold it against you,
what happened to Cassie.
That's not what this is about.
[ phone ringing ]
>> Lucy: Let me guess,
your friend group?
>> Faith: I was supposed
to meet them.
>> Lucy: Go.
>> Faith: You sure you're okay?
>> Lucy: I'm fine.
I totally and completely
understand.
>> Sharon: You're just some
figment of my imagination
brought on by stress
and the wrong combination
of meds.
>> Cameron: Come on, Sharon.
That's BS and we both know it.
You haven't made any effort
to get your meds sorted.
You want me here.
So, let's stop wasting time.
You know, the sooner you get
this figured out, the sooner
you get rid of me.
I'm not
one of your textbook cases.
I never have been,
I never will be.
So, why are you dragging me
into this?
>> Sharon: It's certainly not
because we have some mission
together.
>> Cameron: And yet, here I am.
Tell you what, why don't we
play a little game together?
>> Sharon: No thanks, I'll pass.
I don't want to get sucked in.
>> Cameron: Come on,
come on. Just humor me.
Let's spitball a little bit
about where you think
this is all going.
Who knows?
Maybe you'll stumble on
something life-changing.
Juicy.
>> Chelsea: I can't sit here
wallowing in guilt and shame
while you're being so nice.
If you would just let me try
to explain a couple--
>> Billy: No, let's not go there
for both of us, okay?
I'd rather not.
>> Chelsea: But Billy please,
you have to believe me.
You have to believe me.
What happened with Adam,
it truly meant nothing.
I know we were so wrong,
and that does not absolve us
of any blame, but we were
so desperate, and broken,
and drunk.
We were drunk.
It was just a moment of
weakness, and it came out
of fear.
>> Billy: Chelsea, I know
what it's like to feel lost.
I get that.
You just want the pain
to go away.
You know, you want relief
for a moment.
I understand.
>> Chelsea: Right, that's it.
That's it. That's exactly
what it was.
All that matters in that moment
is trying to make
the pain go away.
>> Billy: Then, it's over.
And then, the regret sets in.
>> Chelsea: Billy, that's
exactly how it happened.
I'm so sorry.
And it's been tearing me apart
inside ever since.
[ Adam sighing ]
>> Adam: This whole thing
with Connor,
it's just, it's had me
torn up inside.
I've been a complete mess.
But I've had to rein
in my feelings
for Connor's sake,
and for Chelsea's.
You know, I couldn't let them
know how upset I was.
It just would have made
everything worse.
And I guess that's why I've
been distant and distracted.
The stress was just,
it was killing me.
>> Sally: Yeah, Adam, I get
all that, but still.
>> Adam: It feels like
I can't do anything right.
I mean, if I didn't have Nick
to back me up at work,
I probably would have messed
that up.
I've just, I've been feeling
like a failure, Sally.
I just feel like everyone
I care about that I've let down.
>> Sally: What do you mean
by that?
>> Adam: I failed
as Connor's father.
I failed as an ex.
And worst of all,
I failed you as a partner.
>> Sally: What are you trying
to say, Adam?
Failed me how?
>> Adam: Do you know how much
I love and adore you?
I hate to think that you think
I would betray you.
I need you, Sally.
I need you more than you know.
And I promise I will never do
anything to risk
losing you again.
>> Sally: Yes or no, Adam?
>> Adam: No.
Chelsea and I didn't
sleep together.
>> Adam: Nothing happened,
I swear.
Nothing like that.
My relationship with Chelsea is
only about Connor.
Okay?
I'm not an idiot, Sally.
I mean, after everything that
we have been through,
and everything it took for us
finally to get back together
again, I don't want
to lose you.
Not now, not ever.
I love you too much.
Can't you see that?
Do you believe me?
[ Sally exhaling ]
>> Sally: I do.
>> Billy: I mean,
maybe it was inevitable.
You know, I mean, I should have
seen it coming.
>> Chelsea: No. How could you?
This all happened so fast.
Adam and I never thought
in a million years--
>> Billy: Come on, Chelsea.
You were together. You know,
you're traveling.
Day in, day out.
You're-- you're there...
fighting to save your son.
>> Chelsea: That's true,
but it wasn't--
>> Billy: And then
the memories kick in. You start
reminiscing about when
you were together.
>> Chelsea: It wasn't like that.
There was no connection.
There was no reminiscing.
It was one time and it was
an alcohol-induced
vulnerable moment.
It was a huge mistake, Billy.
One that I've regretted since,
and I wish I could undo.
>> Billy: But you can't.
>> Chelsea: I wish we could take
back what we did.
I know we can't, but please,
I will do anything to regain
your trust.
I just want us to be able to...
To get past this.
I want it more than you know.
>> Billy: So do I.
>> Faith: I'm actually gonna
check on my mom before I go
meet up with my friends.
And you should go home, too,
and beg your parents
to forgive you for sneaking out.
>> Lucy: They're pretty mad
at me right now.
Hopefully, they're still out
when I get home.
Will I at least get to see you
before you go back to college?
>> Faith: I'm sure
we'll run into each other.
Look, you're a pretty cool kid.
If we'd been in high school
together, I bet
we would've hung out.
>> Lucy: You really think so?
>> Faith: For sure.
>> Sharon: I'm not playing
your games. I am going
to figure out a way to purge you
from my mind forever,
so that I can focus on
fixing myself without
your constant interference.
>> Cameron: You know what?
That's impossible.
You can't fix yourself without
first facing whatever it was
that put you in this state
to begin with.
>> Sharon: Well, I don't need
you to help me with that.
>> Cameron: Okay, how about
I just point out two
of the most obvious things
you're dealing with? A.
You're seeing Cassie's ghost.
B. You're fantasizing about
getting back together
with Nick.
Now, I think that's a pretty
good roadmap.
>> Sharon: What are you saying?
That getting back together with
Nick will help me find
the closure with Cassie
that I need?
>> Cameron: Actually, I think
it's the other way around.
Finding closure with Cassie,
by any means necessary,
will open the door
to a future with Nick.
>> Sharon: You are way off base,
you know that?
I am not fixated on getting
back together with Nick.
>> Cameron: Hey, don't tell me.
Tell your overactive
fantasy life.
I mean, come on, that hot
steamy kiss you dreamed up?
It's hard to forget, Sharon.
I mean, it almost seemed real.
>> Sharon: Well, it was
a dream, okay? I had no control
over it.
>> Cameron: Oh, come on,
admit it.
You prefer to live in your
fantasy world, making out
with you-- with your hunky ex.
Next time, why don't you take
that kiss a little further?
>> Sharon: You are perverse,
you know that?
You are a pervert.
Why don't you just
stop talking?
Yeah, the time for Nick and me
passed a long time ago.
We have tried more than once
to reconnect, and one time
we got pretty close,
but it just never works.
>> Cameron: Exactly, and why
do you think that is?
Could it be
because a fundamental reason
for your split was because of
what happened to Cassie?
>> Sharon: Our split was not
Cassie's fault.
Don't you dare blame her!
>> Cameron: Oh, I'm not.
We both know exactly
who's to blame for that.
>> Sharon: Shut up, okay?
You shut it.
I am ending this discussion
with you!
>> Cameron: Don't you mean
with yourself?
You see what I mean?
You are struggling with this
issue, so just admit it.
Admit it, and then you can move
on and deal with what you know,
deep down, needs to be done.
>> Sharon: Would you please
just go away?
>> Chelsea: As horrible as it is
to admit what we did,
keeping this secret has been
tearing me up inside.
If you hadn't forced the issue,
I don't know what
I would have done.
>> Billy: Continued avoiding me.
>> Chelsea: You deserved
so much better. I'm so sorry.
I should have come to you
immediately with the truth.
I am so grateful, though,
that you know me well enough
to see when I'm in turmoil.
>> Billy: I've kept you
here long enough.
You should go check on Connor.
>> Chelsea: When will
I see you again?
>> Billy: I'll call you.
>> Chelsea: Wait, wait.
Billy.
I do love you.
You know that, don't you?
>> Adam: I can't tell you
how much it means to me
to have you by my side again.
And I hate that you felt, even
for a second, that I was
distant and defensive
and preoccupied.
I'm sorry about that.
You deserve so much more from
me, and I promise
that I will do better.
You're everything to me.
You know, when I thought that
I lost you, my whole world
collapsed.
But then you asked me to share
a home and your life with me.
I mean, how did I get so lucky?
Hey, babe, I want you to know,
really know, deep in your heart,
how much I love you,
and that I would never purposely
do anything to hurt you.
Tell me that you believe that.
>> Sally: I look in your eyes,
I do.
And I really, really hope
that we can all move past this.
I want the four of us to be
free of questions
and suspicions so that we can
just focus on Connor
and his well-being.
>> Adam: And yet that is another
reason why I love you.
But I want to focus
on you, too,
because you mean everything
to me.
I just, I can't even imagine
a world without us together.
>> Sharon: Um, Faith,
you're home.
I didn't expect you
to be back this soon.
I thought you'd be out late
with your friends.
>> Faith: I'm still going.
I just thought I would come by
and make sure you were okay.
>> Sharon: I'm fine.
>> Faith: When I was outside,
I thought I heard you talking
to someone.
>> Sharon: Well, I don't know
what you thought you heard.
>> Faith: I swore I heard you
say, "Will you please
just go away."
What did you mean by that?
Who were you talking to?
[ Chelsea sighing ]
[ Billy screaming ]
>> Sally: I'm so glad we talked.
What a relief.
I don't think I realized
how much worrying about secrets
and fearing the worst was
actually weighing me down.
I feel like a huge weight
has been lifted.
Don't you?
>> Adam: Yeah.
[ phone ringing ]
>> Sally: Adam?
Something wrong?
>> Adam: Uh, it's just work.
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The Young and the Restless.
>> Victor: I think it may be
time for Claire to,
you know, make a change.
So, why don't you start looking
for a replacement?
>> Kyle: Are you asking me
to fire her?
>> Nick: Lucy was
in an accident?
>> Daniel: Yeah.
Why are you here?
>> Sharon: Faith.
>> Daniel: Faith was in the car,
too?
>> Billy: Chelsea told me
the truth. She has the courage
to be honest with me, and you
didn't have any courage,
did you?
>> Adam: Get out of my place
right now. You are drunk,
and you need to go home
and sleep it off.
>> Sally: No! Let him stay.
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